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#ok so this might just be me#but like everytime I see lfc or any fb team were wearing the black armbands atleast recently#and it's like oh shit whose died now#a lot of people are dying basically#and it's giving me strange feelings because last year a lot of my family members died#(not comparing family death to the mass death in syria and turkiye)#idk what the point of this was#It's just sad ig
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hi (makes starlo a red giant star early)
hey lol (steals all of his hydrogen EARLY so he’s FUCKED UP and RED instead of a MAIN SEQUENCE STAR and he can’t NUCLEAR FISSION!!!!)
here’s an extra doodle
he can talk in full sentences but a lot of the time it’s just too taxing along with everything else he has to worry about
#undertale yellow#uty#starlo uty#uty starlo#uty north star#north star uty#astronomy#red giant#red giant star#uty au#red giant starlo au#idk i may give it a better name later#but basically erm starlo had a near death experience and he went a stage early in the star life cycle cuz of it#and now he’s all messed up because yea#he’s not actively dying but like. he could. he certainly isn’t going to live as long as he would’ve#he’ll be a very pretty planetary nebula. (i’ll figure out a design for that one day)#art#my art#artwork#digital art#artists on tumblr#undertale#uty mooch#kinda#doodle#i know people make starlo forms a lot but like#cmon man!!!! i’m taking astronomy rn give me a pass
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sorry if idk this but what do you think about Wordgirl now in 2024 do you still like it do you still want to make art or talk about it or are you just done with all of it forever and plus i seen that you haven't made art of it since 2022 so you just done with all of it oh yeah and what about The Magnus Archives + Wordgirl ao3 fic too like is that just going to be and i know that your working on 2 au's now just wanting to know that's all
My interests tend to come in intense bursts and then fade. Unless something like, big happens like it gets a reboot its unlikely I'll be coming back to it anytime soon. As for the fic I don't have any current plans to finish it unfortunately.
#Its so shocking whenever anybody mentions that fic to me#like its just such a specific combo of interests how are there this many people interested in it...#I have some fragments of unfinished chapters for it laying around but I was struggling to get them to work#and I definitely dont have the motivation to finish them now#If youre curious the chapters were going to be Slaughter avatar miss Power and Web avatar Mr Big#and possibly Flesh avatar Butcher but I never got around to starting that one#The Miss Power chapter was basically going to be about her having kind of lost her thread#I wanted to leave a lot of ambiguity as to what happened with her home planet#but she hadnt been in contact with them for agessssss and her radio is damaged and her ship is in bad shape#the chapter was just going to be her being like 'pfff I dont interpersonal connection Im doing great out here. Murdering. All on my own'#Well she has her little squirl thing but she treats him like an animal#mr giggle cheeks or whatever#anyway I wanted it to imply that whatever happened her bloodthirst was destroying her#The Mr Big chapter was from Lesley's perspective#She would have been one in a long long line of assistants that Mr Big went through like candy#Lesley is his favorite though because. while she is terrified of him. shes still willing to push him. to be honest with him#but she also knows exactly when to step off. when to lie to appease him#( its always a tossup as to whether he wants a sweet lie or the harsh truth that day. He can always tell either way#its a gamble he does to be cruel. She always picks right though. or maybe he's more lenient with her than he should be)#He likes that she knows exactly how to push him without ever stepping over the line#He likes that her guilt and revulsion are slowly eating her up inside but shes too selfish to leave#She likes being special. She likes the idea of ruling the world alongside him#She'll always be second in command but shell be so much higher than everyone else#and shes willing to do anything to get that#Mr big doesnt think shell ever make it that far#but he likes her anyway#shes the one assistant he'll be sad about dying#OK damn apparently I did still have things to say about this old fic DAMN#still not gonna finish it tho. they call me the struggler becaus.e writing is a struggle...
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Mori dying would be the worst thing for the Port Mafia. He's the only reason why most of the members CHOOSE to stay.
#mori dying would be the bad ending for a lot of people#chuuya? kouyou? akutagawa?#forget it#chuuya nor kouyou WANT to be boss#theres at least two timelines where its proven that its a horrible job to have#the port mafia is basically sunshine and rainbows compared to the previously boss' reign#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo sd#my archive
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The king and queen are visiting Paiporta and they receive them with mud xd two men have spoken to the king and told him to do something, but we all know that he is going to go to his palace and cross his arms because It's literally the only thing he can do. Is this what had to happen for people to realize that asking the king for help is nonsense? He has no power, he is only there to parade around. They have kicked out volunteers from the site to let the king and his escorts (police and military) pass, which is the first time they have touched that ground and they are going to do NOTHING. The president is doing the same. The president of Valencia is doing the same.
#this is never before seen stuff by the way. the monarchy was restituted in 1975 after the dictatorship and celebrated for it#and the president of valencia is basically the higher power here as the state of alarm he declared makes it so the national government#cant help. he has all the jurisdiction and all the responsibility. and yes he is from a right wing party. a lot of people are blaming the#president of the country (left wing) but legally he can't do anything bc of what i said before. its so frustrating just one man being#stubborn (and cruel) has cost so many lives and inflict so much suffering. not only after and during the incident but BEFORE as he didnt#raise the alarm so people thought they were safe and went outside to get move their cars or similar.#there have been so many people found on cars inside parkings.... and they are not done yet.#they havent updated the dead or missing numbers but the last number of missing people was 2000. all these people could be dead#they could be currently dying as the king and queen parade around the streets blocking people wanting to actually help. shameful#translated the main post on google bc i just could write it in english#i feel like a medieval peasant talking about th king and queen like this. what are we doing. year 2024.#talking tag#valencia
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ID LOVE TO SEE YOUR HUMAN RED GUY BTW
well gosh if you're gonna be so enthusiastic about it sure. here's a drawing i did of him a while back. if you really want i'll show you the others but ah, im shy.
#I KNOW HE'S BASIC I KNOW HE'S REAL BOILERPLATE OK. YOU DONT GOTTA TELL ME#my dhmis postings#dhmis red guy#me art#he can see just fine btw#he's like a cartoon emo kid alright#he can see fine#ALSO HE'S A NATURAL REDHEAD. HE HAS TO BE OKAY.#IT MAKES WAY MORE FUCKIN SENSE TO ME THAT HE WOULD BE A NATURAL REDHEAD THAN THAT HE WOULD DYE IT#like. bc naturally being a redhead is both something that would draw attention to him and something out of his control and you could tie a#really cool parallel between that and in-universe RGs height and stature bringing attention to him against his will bc he contrasts so hard#against the puppety nature of their world ykwim?#anyways. i know a lot of people make his hair dyed bc they read him as black and thats FAIR however there are. black redheads in the world.#like that exists!!! its REAL on this beautiful bitch of an earth!!! SO WHY NOT UTILIZE#its fine. i don't have strong feelings about this ok#<- (definitely has super strong feelings about RG humanizations)
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I unfortunately find myself unable to work on my current Soriku fic today due to my mental state, but I was able to make a bit of a teaser for the next big Soriku fanfiction that will be coming sometime after JTSYS is finished.
You can read it under the cut, but TW for blood, death, and uh, general misery. This has been cathartic for me to write but the whole idea of this fic is that things are impossibly doomed, so be warned - this is not the happy fun zone.
Blood. There was so much blood.
He had smelled it before even seeing it, the metallic scent thick in his nose before he had even rounded the corner. He had tried to convince himself that it was his own bleeding wound that he smelled, or maybe the blood of something else, someone else, but in his heart, he knew the truth. He picked up his pace, sprinting at top speed now, his sneakers splashing through shallow puddles on the wet pavement.
When his eyes finally came to rest on the crumpled form at the end of the alley, the breath was knocked out of his chest as though someone had taken a baseball bat to his sternum. He knew, of course he knew, but he had hoped-
No. It didn’t matter what he hoped for. Hopes and wishes weren’t for people that walked his path. He had been denied the right to hope for anything ages ago. When he had signed that contract, signed away his soul, he forfeited all the cushy pleasures of a normal life. He had given up his chance of knowing peace.
But it had been worth it. If it was for Sora, anything was worth it.
Standing over Sora’s blood-soaked body, Riku tried to remind himself of that truth, the one thing that he had tethered his heart to all this time. It was worth it. Even if the chance of Sora making it out alive were next to none, there was still a chance. He could still fight.
One of these loops, Riku would get it right. He would figure out how to keep Sora safe, how to protect him from this accursed dimension where everything was designed to end his life. They would break out and live a normal life together, just the way they had always planned.
There was a happy future waiting somewhere for the two of them. There had to be. Riku had gambled everything on it.
He crouched down, his shaking fingers gently brushing Sora’s tear-stained cheek. He could hardly stand to look at his face, but the sight of his broken, bleeding body was no better. The wounds were precise and lethal, and Riku was far too late.
No matter how many dozens of times he had watched Sora die, it never got easier. It never stopped feeling like his chest was a black hole caving in on itself, his heart squeezed until it was nothing more than dust.
He couldn’t look. He couldn't look away.
Riku kneeled and placed both of Sora’s hands over his heart. He was about to speak and begin the incantation that would throw them both back to the starting point again, but Sora suddenly stirred, weakly reaching one hand up towards Riku’s face.
“Riku…” his voice was barely more than a whisper.
“I’m here,” Riku said, the words catching in his throat. “Don’t speak. You can rest now. It’s okay.”
He hated to say it. He wanted to plead with Sora, wanted to beg him to stay. But if Riku had learned anything throughout the loops, it was that nothing came of begging. There was no one to answer his prayers; benevolent forces did not dwell here. At best, all it would accomplish would be making Sora sad in his final moments. At worst, future loops would be impacted by Riku’s words to Sora, twisting the knife further. He had seen it enough to know what to avoid now.
“I don’t want…” There was a weighted pause. “...Don’t want to leave you.” The pool of blood continued to grow. Riku knew - though he wished that he didn’t - that Sora wouldn’t be able to maintain consciousness for much longer at this rate. He could hardly believe Sora was awake even now.
“We’ll meet again.” he assured Sora softly, trying to keep his voice steady. “Don’t worry. It'll be okay.”
“You…” This pause was longer, much longer, and Riku was all but sure that Sora would not speak again. Finally, with a wet cough, Sora continued. “You promise?”
“I promise.” Riku lied. He leaned forward and kissed Sora’s forehead, his lips lingering there for several long moments as he took steadying breaths.
“Mm… ‘kay.” Sora managed. “Love you… so much.”
“I love you too.” Riku said, clenching his teeth so hard his jaw popped. He wanted to scream. After taking a moment to compose himself, he sat up and offered his best imitation of a smile to Sora. Better for him to see that than to see how broken Riku really was.
The all-too-familiar faraway look settled on Sora’s face as the last of his breath left his body. Riku collapsed over him, the tears finally coming, the weight hitting him all at once with the force of a tidal wave. Even knowing that he would see Sora alive and well again in mere moments did nothing to comfort him.
It didn't matter how many times Riku had seen it. It never got any easier to watch Sora die.
#here's some doomed soriku angst :)#when I do finally post this on ao3 i will very likely post it under a pseud so that people that want happy can very easily avoid it#i've just been in a bad place because I can't write and I feel bad that I can't write but feeling bad makes it impossible to write. so#I was like “lets just write that depressing stuff since my head is already there” and it actually kind of worked out which was nice.#this came from me workshopping my guardian angel au but i now think that's an entirely separate fic at this point. not sure yet.#anyways this is not like the 1st chapter or anything and idk if the final version will be anything like this or have a lot of changes but#this is like a sneak peek into what I'm working on lol. here is what it's gonna be like. i hope someone vibes with angsty soriku and dying.#soriku#soriku fic#blood#tw blood#tw death#honestly though. can i ramble for a sec. i've been wracking my brain trying to make my guardian angel au work for MONTHS#and now that i finally have working ideas for a plot/conflict/story beats it's moved so far away from that original concept that its like#basically an entirely different fic now. a guardian angel doesnt even make sense for this story now.#so if i ever do write a guardian angel au fic it will be separate from this and different lol. i really want to make it work though!!#I might end up going with the whole mcr lyric theme for this fic even though that was specifically for the au. bc it fits here#anyways biblically accurate Riku will exist at some point. I promise i will write it. it just might not be in this. (unless?)#pwft
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Every time Mario is visibly concerned/worried about Luigi in the trailers/TV spots/sneak peeks/etc shown so far.
#mario movie#mario movie spoilers#super mario bros movie#super mario bros#super mario bros movie spoilers#cherrysip edits#LOOK...this is not a very good gifset#i am working with tiktok videos and recordings of television screens here haha#BUT!!! i couldn't get the idea out of my head of compiling all of this and i spent so much time on these gifs that now i HAVE to post them#also i know the text could look better but i am not very good at that yet please be gentle with me!!!#a couple more caveats: i may have forgotten something and also the context of these clips could very well be misleading#these are basically scenes where the trailers/tv spots make it APPEAR as though mario is reacting about luigi but i could be wrong#with all of that out of the way: LOOK AT THIS MAN. THIS SAD WORRIED VERY SMALL MAN. GIVE HIM HIS BROTHER BACK#like many people i was also worried when it became clear that mario and luigi were going to spend a lot of this movie apart#and i'm sure there will be stretches of time where mario is caught up in the adventure#but just the fact that luigi seems VERY front of mind for mario throughout hurts my feeble little heart#he isn't going to stop he's going to do whatever it takes until his little brother is safe and back beside him#(also: i hadn't seen that 'this guy's brother is going to DIE' clip in a long time and the FACE JOURNEY that mario goes on there continues#to be SO incredible and funny. he genuinely looks very pissed off at toad after the initial shock wears off. AND I WONDER WHY)#(especially now that we know this is the second time toad makes a comment about his brother dying and/or being lost forever!!!)#(MARIO WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF YOU DIDN'T!!!!!)
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personally, i think if some sort of apocalypse happened, we wouldn't immediately collapse and get set back hundreds of years wrt technology, infrastructure, etc. it's not like every engineer, doctor, construction workers, etc. are going to also be wiped out. and even under the constant pressure and threat of capitalism, people go into these careers wanting to do good. (depending on how the apocalypse is started/how it happens) there would probably be a few rough years at first but people are really good at getting their shit together
#also idk. this might be putting too much faith in people. maybe we'll just create fallout irl#if this all sounds like nonsense i got 3 hours of sleep and im running solely on adderall and coffee (:#new argument for keeping physical media: knowledge being preserved if the internet and most computers get destroyed#and yeah there would be several attempts to rebuild capitalism but look at how at the beginning of the pandemic people got a slight taste o#freedom and realized what they were being deprived of. like i watched a lot of people i know get 'radicalized' in real time#unfortunately only one i know took an interest in communism while the others are just radlibs :/#and also knowing physical skills like sewing. gardening. basic chemistry. food preservation. and hunting would help#ive thought a lot about this because the adults in my family constantly talk about what theyd do in the apocalypse#the real answer is dying of cholera or dysentery if they insist on the individualistic isolationist route#also this is not me thinking that once the weight of capitalism lifts everyone will automatically be cool with each other and build a utopi#my main point is that i dont think we'll lose Everything#these tags are so long im so sorry
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i caught up on jjk. favorite panels in the last few chapters, plus:
thematic catharsis coming around
#jjk manga#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#i really think fushiguro is more of a parallel to geto than he is to gojo#geto saved gojo first but gojo failed to save geto#fushiguro saved itadori first and itadori's going to save fushiguro#it's also propping up my theory that gojo is an unreliable narrator#and most important things he's said in the series are going to be proven wrong#1. love it the most twisted curse of all#it's actually the key#2. you can't save someone who isn't prepared to be saved#you can and he will#those are my thoughts#i don't think the manga has gotten as bad as people are saying it has#but it does have issues#and the style change and quality dip in the illustration is bugging me#and don't think characters being introduced and dying quickly is that bad either#the ones that matter are written well and their deaths are significant and well integrated#the main issues cropping up now are also the issues that have existed for much much longer than post-shibuya#villains motivations make no sense#random battles that don't have thematic significance abrupt the pacing in an annoying way#the magic system isn't always well integrated narratively and thematically#gege has too many ideas and not all of them needed to make it past editing#but a lot of problems are just typical shonen problems that jjk seemed above when the story was a little tighter#also i don't think the magic system is as smart and complicated as people are pretending it is#i don't think it will be hard to adapt in the anime#i think the weaknesses in pacing and the increase in exposition are going to be more exposed in the anime though#and more people will catch on to the basic rules of the magic system being inconsistent or underdeveloped
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To mitigate the impact of climate change is to help improve our future. Now read that again. 🌱🌎
#mine#avatar edits#avatar explore page#avatar for you#new avatar blog#avatar the way of water#new avatar writer#new writer#obviously this would be much easier if we had funding to go into the climate crisis and not isnotreal#but I digress#we have a lot of people out there working so hard for us#and we have so many resources#we basically have to diy climate change babes#utilize your own resources and start locally#I refuse to fear monger#and I do believe that the avatar fandom is very passionate about environmental advocacy because of James#so I hope it inspires you like me#we can all inspire each other#earth isn’t dying#it’s evolving#and it will do so with or without us#earth will be just fine#it’s humans who should worry#earth will be here after us#this is a cyclical change that’s happened since the beginning of time it’s like an extreme cleanse#with this being said our ecosystems are suffering at the hands of the fossil fuel industry and extreme deforestation and pollution#so we need to put our money where are mouths are and stop funding them and boycott and find ways for regenerative change#take sustainability out of the equation and start using the term regenerative
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I can't believe I still have to see posts about how much better ROP would be if Celebrían was the lead vs. Galadriel. As someone who has Tolkien Brainrot, I understand the appeal, I really, really do. As someone who has had to interact with so many people who either do not care about Tolkien Lore but are interested in fantasy television shows or are Jackson film fans first/foremost/only, y'all. Galadriel is a known character and a decent intro to lesser known characters.
Hate to break it to y'all but Celebrían is OBSCURE. I'm pretty confident in saying that if you get outside of Tolkien Fandom online circles, you could tell people that Elrond was married to Galadriel's daughter and the response you would get would be, "oh, I didn't realize that" because it's touched so lightly in the films. Celebrían isn't even MENTIONED by name. Now that I think about it, I'm not even sure if anyone mentions that Galadriel and Arwen are related at all!
My point is the show is meant to appeal to more people than us over here with Tolkien Brainrot!!!!!! I love Celebrían, but Galadriel was an easier sell to the potential of a wider audience as a lead. For a show that needs to go through so much lore very quickly, having Galadriel as the lead because she's 1) female [the overwhelming amount of male characters vs. female characters in the Legendarium is another post], 2) relatively familiar, and 3) has a set characterization to lead toward for an arc vs. her barely-even-mentioned-in-LotR daughter is a no-brainer.
#rings of power discourse for ts#i don't actually want to get into a fight about any of this. i just feel like i've been having this same conversation with people offline#for a year. like.#i don't want to make this all about running games but as someone who does run tolkien ttrpgs i have to explain A LOT of lore! regularly!#people can be fans of the films and simply not know information that could be called basic in fandom circles#do i agree with everything ROP did? no#but hot take: most of the changes they made were understandable to me if i thought through them for five minutes#point is: galadriel (known) celebrian (unknown). who the fuck were the writers going to pick as a lead? KNOWN. feels obvious to me!#tl;dr ROP is meant for a wider audience than Tolkien Brainrot Fandom sorry to say#and that goes for everyone who is saying the show should have kept the original timeline too#i saw one take early on that was like 'we should have had the focus be on the elves with a (basically disposable) cast of mortals#quickly dying off to show how much time is passing#sorry that is an unrealistic take! i can't imagine that any show is going to want to pay that many actors#i was surprised by the time jumps in HOTD!!!!#these tags could be their own post. this is out of hand.#to be deleted
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My ass was trying so hard not to jump up and down with glee playing yttd with my sister and getting to the shin reveal I was like MY GUY MY FUNNY LAD MY SILLY RABBIT
#the klock keeps ticking#yttd#its like i cant get ahead of myself when talking about him cuz theres still a lot not revealed by the end of ch2 but STILLLL#i was keeping my opinions on characters pretty neutral this whole playthrough though my bias towards gin and kai was very apparent lol#and i did start screaming in agony reliving my worst nightmare joe dying#i dont think my sister was nearly as torn up about it as i was though like god ill still never get over it#the first time i played i actually gross sobbed like maybe i was just sleep deprived but i was inconsolable literally never cried that hard#but yeah we did the second main game today and i was like#‘not trying to persuade your vote but heres one million reasons why we should let shin live ahaha’#i dont think she was very happy with her vote aldnks#but yeah i really am gonna be sooo annoying next time we play im literally gonna bring pages of shin analysis with me that i can gush about#it is an interesting thing this character cuz to me like everything about him is so clear like even from the beginning i just didnt buy#the idea that he was genuinely an asshole i knew there had to have been something more going on#and idk if ive made it clear guys…but hes exactly like me guys hes just like me fr#his story hits so hard it feels like my own self insert which is weird cuz obviously thats not true#but like i feel like its either you get it or you dont and if you dont understand exactly what this character feels cuz you feel it yourself#i feel like so much of him just wont make any sense to you#maybe im just being pretentious idk but like if you cant relate to his abuse and just#very blatant bpd then I feel like youll just judge him on how good or badof a person he is#like it just doesnt feel like itd hit in the same way like when i see this character talking about being hopeless and the way his trauma#makes him act irrationally like god it just clicks so hard it makes so much sense and i can physically feel it through the screen#I MAY BE FERAL ABOUT THIS CHARACTER TO AN ABSURD DEGREE SHHH#basically what im getting at is i feel if i dont over explain everything about this character to other people i fear they just Wont Get It#and that they will be judgmental which idk i guess makes me defensive#anyway yeah i just enjoy getting to re experience the spiral this guy has given me and i will be thinking about it a lot tonight
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#saw some posts about how basically this website is dying for one reason or another#and like usually I’m like hell yeah stick it to the corporations!!!#but one thing a lot of people don’t realize is that the amount of measures it takes to run a business in tech#is really…a lot#and to have 0 marketing involved to generate revenue is even worse#social media is a free service for the sole reason that users are technically a ploy to advertise to#what users here basically did was demand that tumblr provide to us while also remain minimal in their advertising#which basically means they aren’t generating revenue conventionally#blazing posts and purchasing check marks were a temporary problem to a long term solution#if this website requested to be ran the same way AO3 and wiki does users would immediately attack staff#it’s a really shit situation but also tumblr shouldn’t have listened so much to their users#the net worth of tumblr isn’t worth much to investors given all this unless#i should also add that gated communities (like discord) has negatively impacted the amount of users on this site#less users means less interaction with content creators (dominantly artists)#less content creators means less content#u guys get the gist#I’d like to add to question every business related explanation on this website#y’all can complain to hell and back about tumblr but it was one of the lesser evils as far as ads went
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i gotta power through my book tonight, it’s only 200 pages, so i can start my fma reread but on god my brain has lost any ability to focus and i just keep zoning out and thinking of random stories of mine
#like WHY TF ARE WE THINKONG ANOUT THAT ONE SUPERHERO COLLEGE DREAM I HAD#WE HAVENT TOUCJED IT IN MONTHS#i also keep thinking about my faerie story and i’m now reaching the point where i start to realize things about my characters on accident#giving the faerie queen a crippling sense of guilt over her people getting hurt#also definitely stems from her sister dying and her being unable to revive her despite having the ability to do so#that also has gotta tie into her being so overtly protective of her husband cause he fucking died and she revived him#there’s a lot more but i’m just thinking to much and it’s just word vomit basically#kelly babels
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I think this is a pretty reasonable situation to cry in, right?
#ughhhhh#you know what becausd i hate myself (not really dw) this isnt gonna be a vaguepost#if youre reading the tags buckle the fuck up#so last week and the week before were spring break for me#and the week before was jjst full of studying and exam stress to the point where i couldnt attend my archery lessons#cause all i was doing at that time was either studying or feeling like shit for not studying#but when spring break hit actually THE VERY SECOND it arrived I had to go to another city about two hours away to visjt family#and guess what? I STAYED THERE FOR ALMOST THE WHOLE ENTIRE SPRING FUCKING BREAK#so i couldnt even do most of the shit i wanted to#and even there i couldnt enjoy my time#why? because ALL I DID was study. my cousin tutors me and I was failing these 3 specific subjects#so she was helping me withtgem and she wouldnt leave me be#and when my (undiagnosed) adhd made me shit at focusing and my mind keot wantering and i kept looking away because i was understimulated#i got shouted at which was not very fun#whats worse is she did it in front of people. literally in public.#then we come back home THANKFULLY and she comes with us. because of course.#and now all my time all of it except for one or two hours of the day is just studying#the only free time i have is when she sleeps#and school. literally never in my life have i been happy to go to school and yet id rather be there than here.#but what choice do i really have#its either this or fail the exams#it gets worse. on thursday i was really tired from school. i came back and PASSED OUT#and by passed out I mean PASSED OUT#idk if it was cause it was hot outside or school just drained my energy but i could barely exist at that point#then my cousin finds me on the couch sweaty and basically dying#what does she do? she wakes me up like “alright time to study”#so yesterday i did charity work and it involved carrying a lot of heavy boxes and stuff so i naturally came back drained and tired and she#STILL WANTED ME TO STUDY so the second we got back I just slept and i was practically comatose so she coukdnt even wake me up#i slept for 11 hours and woke up to MORE STUDYING HURRAY and then at 5 i went to archery class and we got back at 8 and she WONT STOP#i just want to go home. im so tired. physically and mentally and emotionally. i just wanna go fucking home.
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