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With the end of season two comes a second redraw!
[Nov 2022] [June 2023] [June 2024]
#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#I was really looking forwards to this redraw - though the jump in skill isn't as dramatic as the last one I still am proud of my progress!#It's really incredible to look back on this last year and how much has happened since then.#Both in my personal life and this blog.#I started the second season while I was going through some pretty rough times and it truly kept my sanity afloat.#I challenged myself a lot more this year! And while it didn't always turn out the way I hoped-#-being messy and earnestly trying to do something different has been my favourite part of art.#There will always be a lot of room to grow - I don't think art and creativity has a ceiling.#I went from doubting that I was even an artist to joining a gamedev team as the lead artist! That's character growth!#Thank you all once again for joining me on this journey B*)#Thank you for all the messages and support you have sent my way these last 18 months.#I'm so happy to have been given the chance to create something for this community. You've given me so much and I am so grateful.#I'll take a little break to post some personal project stuff this week and resume season three after that!#Onwards to another season of silly (and sometimes serious) comics!
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Just read Mikey’s mating season, would write one for Raphael?
of course i will, anything for our boy in red! i will say that bay raph in particular is hard for me to write, so i hope this is decent
again, it's a lil spicyyy 🌶️ reader beware!
The first time it's brought up, Raph absolutely refuses to allow you to spend his season with him. Won't even have the conversation. Not even Mikey can convince him to just talk to you. It takes a literal act of God to force him into it- stranded in your apartment together while a late snowstorm rages, just as his season is starting.
Raph is naturally afraid that he will hurt you. But what he doesn't tell you is that he is afraid of the vulnerability. Raph's season is a highly emotional time for this passionate guy. He knows that he'll be more open- generally the first sign that his season is starting is when he admits something to one of his brothers that he doesn't actually want them to know. So forced into close quarters with you, alone- he's afraid of what he'll say, afraid that the depths of his feelings will drive you off.
He is shocked that when the time comes, his anger doesn't overwhelm him the way it normally does. Instead, it is his love for you that takes over. He finds himself feeling incredibly affectionate. He even chirps for you. (Once it's over he's mortified and you have to swear that you'll never tell anyone ever). The sadness he associates with this time? Again, all gone, because you're here.
The cuddling is real and it is. Frequent. Raph doesn't like to let you go and will often carry you around if you need to move from the bed. But good luck getting him to agree to let you leave the bed. He likes you there and he does not want you to leave. Surely he can go get whatever you need? You belong in his arms, as far as he is concerned.
So, Raph. Once you get him on board, he has rules. These are non-negotiable, because not following them could possibly result in him hurting you and that Will Not Happen. The biggest rule is that you cannot tease him. Teasing riles him up like nothing else and if he loses control and hurts you... no. It Won't Happen. He'll lock himself in a different room and take care of himself before he'll let you break one of his rules.
However, that doesn't mean that it's not a good time for both of you. It's hard at first, because Raph is so afraid to let go, but once he does? Once all that passion is set free and focused on you? It is absolutely some of the most intense lovemaking you've ever experienced in your life. And that's what it is- lovemaking.
All of Raph's affection and tender feelings take over, and he is intense but so gentle at the same time. When it's not mating season, he can be rough sometimes, although never more than you can handle. Not so during mating season. Even when he's pounding into you, driving you wild as you writhe under him, he doesn't hurt you. The only bruises you come out with are in the shape of his hands on your hips.
He is surprisingly quiet when he fucks you. Everything in him is so focused on you that he barely notices his own pleasure. He does chirp a lot, and when it happens the churring practically vibrates the whole bed. He prefers to draw sounds out of you instead. There is a certain dark chuckle he gives that warns you that you are about to get loud. He loves to quiet down so he can catch the nearly silent gasp that comes out of you when his fingers hit that spot deep in you.
He becomes an anxious mother hen when it's over. He hovers. It's a little maddening but he needs you to indulge. He needs to be able to make sure that you're okay, that he didn't hurt you. He is of course worried for no reason, you're fine. But he's still a little cuddly, so you enjoy indulging him.
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head bonks: @yorshie @avery73 @justalotoffanfiction @thejudiciousneurotic
#bayverse raph#bayverse raph x reader#tmnt#talking tag#theory tag#mating season#say it together now: SOFT RAPH SOFT RAPH SOFT RAPH#sorry if you were expecting something a little spicier. that'll come don't you worry#i just can't see raph allowing himself to be rough when he's not in complete control#i'm not 100% happy with this but i never feel completely happy when i write raph#so i hope it's okay
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Kingdom Hearts Dream Drop Distance Link Attack - Paw Groove
#kingdom hearts dream drop distance#khddd#sora#necho cat#dream eaters#link system#my gif#you can hear a disembodied crowd cheering for you while performing this link#big fan of the one handed hand stand it's actually really impressive lol#and his little... chicken dance idk what to call that but i'm happy that he's having fun#c'mon everybody let's get up and do the sora#some of these came out kind of rough. the program i use hates constant moving backgrounds but what can ya do#was it the character files that sora thought singing and dancing in kh2 atlantica was the best feeling ever?#because that's adorable i'm glad he can have silly moments like this and have fun
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it's quicker & easier to eat your young
#the hunger games#thg#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#finnick odair#annie cresta#johanna mason#gale hawthorne#FINALLY got a grip on drawing katniss. girl you would not believe the amount of failed sketches that went into this#but i'm happy with them now. peeta & gale r looking a little rough because they're the last ones i drew#and i got tired of cleaning up the lines by the end#wherefore art thou#thg reread#i wish i could go back in time and show these to my 12 year old self i bet little kid me would go crazy#like dude. i drew that. and they all look EXACTLY how i picture them i love drawing portraits i am so good at it
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"Alphabet mafia" was funny (courtesy of @birthclod) so here are my alphabet mafia + nationality headcanons for Town of Salem's best faction (sorry to the roles without skins </3)
#some elaboration in the tags if you care to read#town of salem#i'm lactose intolerant#my art#tos#assume they live in italy unless otherwise stated#consig being canonically trans by accident is insane to me. she's so fucking funny. also yes she is german-irish because of tom hagen <3#i hc the itor surname as a shortening of heitor. and that it's the forger's (her last name is NOT direction) and yuan is her bio child#this is weirdly elaborate. he's her bio kid and she raised him but also he was a test tube baby and was born via surrogacy#mafio + consig are very close friends and treat each other like siblings#they met as little kids while gf was in her city on business and mafio was a quiet kid so gf was happy that mafio had made a friend#flash forward to gf regularly going out of his way to fly a 7-year-old + family across international borders for playdates with his kid#forger & consort are like 20 years apart in age but consort looks younger than she is and forger looks older than she is#consort is ~35 and looks ~25 and forger is ~55 and looks ~70. it's rough out there for an early retinol user and a stress ager.#gf and hypno are oldest at late 60s-early 70s and jani is youngest at around 22-25#also very important that all of them have little roses somewhere. consig's is on her belt + jani's is on a little bracelet#forger's is hard to see bc very small (it's her necklace). hypno with a little rose badge holder clip was my best idea ngl#and fine. i will address the elephant in the room. disguiser. there we go i mentioned them.#'why do they have a single parent. who is it.' i swear if you can put 2 and 2 together it's really funny...
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Since it's been recieved I can now share the suncatcher I made for @raptorjules for christmas! <3
The body is brass and the stars are made from nickel silver ✨️
#metalwork#metalworking#art#special gift for a special friend <3#such a fun project and i'm happy with the result#even if it's a little rough around the edges
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sleepy cozy Aryaille now in HD
#I'm not 100% happy with the graphics update...However#JUST LOOK AT HER AAAAAAAAAAAAAA <3<3<3<3<3<3<3#I hope they update this nightgown too at some point because its. a little rough by comparison.#ffxiv gpose#elezen wol#aryaille nox: images#aryaille nox
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hi! birthday. which means it's finally time t
yo what the itch store is fixed up now
damn what? I don't know where this came from. look all the comics I put on g*mr**d a year ago are back here again with all the formatting and typesetting by @fireflysummers as well as the exclusive bonus art wtf who did this. my werewolf comic on here too what the hells!! that one also got re-toned for printing if u want to AND an exclusive cover spread !!! what the fuck!!!!! come see for urself I can't make this shit up
#bakuspecial#comic#itch.io#bakugoods#<- made up a tag for when I sell things that aren't commissions just now#for folks who still remember me talking abt a physical run of these comics: I'm so sorry this year and the last have been brutal#and I live in a well and suffer a curse of international mails never going well. so the logistics became Very complicated#I still think abt it tho! I've prepped up all the assets just bc I thought abt it so much... we picked out a gift print for the orders#And a bonus print for the pack#but I couldn't gather my brain enough to make it happen. yet#it takes a bit of overhead so I gotta build that up. which is. right now talk for after the shit that just happened to me got smoothed out#but I do want it to happen. I've been sitting on this exclusive custom print for like two years now#I really love that drawing its so cute. I still hold that project close to my heart#anyways uhh itch store! happy birthday to me!#last year this time was so rough I didn't even Want to think about my birthday lol#strangely enough with this small little fragmentation grenade we just got I became more motivated to fuck around on my bday lmao#probably out of spite. hammer philosophy#my parents love making a whole thing out of me and the brother's bdays lol so dinner's gonna be something#but for now I can still chill. and prep up stuff. and do my thang#if u look thru the itch store and get something from there thank u so much! I hope the comics treat u well#and now. I make hot drink. have a good day lads! do a little jig for us let's go
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Whumptober 23 - Forced Choice
title: what started the whole mess
fandom: hermitcraft smp
cw: referenced torture
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Doc was in charge. Doc was there to make sure nobody got lost. He was supposed to keep them safe.
He failed.
It was Ren who ran off from the group—though Doc would never blame him for looking for a public restroom. Then Tango and Impulse went after him when he didn’t come back, then Doc when none of them returned—
It’s day three in captivity, and Doc isn’t doing well.
They sawed off his arm—and it may be electronic, but Doc had still programmed nerves into it. It hurt like the devil. He’s fairly certain that he cracked a molar trying to not to scream, and even now, with the exposed wires sparking and the leftover chunk of metal overheating, Doc’s struck by such terrible phantom pains that he spends most of his time staring at the floor with his one eye, keeping his mind so laser-focused on it that he doesn’t have space to think about his arm.
There’s a screwdriver driven into his mechanical eye. They sometimes push it in deeper, twisting it around, scraping against his eye socket and restricting his ability to blink. That one, thankfully, doesn’t hurt as much as his arm. The head of the screwdriver had pierced the nerve sensors before it could get too bad, he thinks, so most of the pain came from the weight of the tool and its press against his organic socket.
They want him to work for them. They want him to build a murder machine, something like what he used to create the Perimeter but for people, and Doc won’t do it. He simply cannot allow it—on Hermitcraft, where they have respawns, sure. Here, on a cityworld with millions of civilians that don’t have free or easy access to respawning? He would never.
His first denial is what took his eye.
The next day was his arm, torn apart bit by bit—just a finger at first, then two, then three, then his whole hand, each time pausing to give him the opportunity to submit.
That had almost broken him. He’d barely managed to hold out.
It’s the third day, and Doc doesn’t know what’s coming next, but he isn’t looking forward to it.
The answer?
A surveillance screen.
There’s two feeds from surveillance cameras being projected before him—two grainy, blueish videos of nondescript rooms, one person standing on the left screen, a curled up figure on the right.
The left screen shows Ren. Doc recognizes his long hair, his strong build. He’s standing still, hands in front of his face.
He can’t tell who the person on the right is. He’d have to assume Tango, but their face is buried in their arms and their back is toward the camera.
“These are two of your fellow . . . residents,” his captor says, taking a step away and sweeping back his blond hair. “You know them, don’t you?”
Doc turns his head to look closer at the right (he’s taken to doing as such, choosing to move his eyes as little as possible). Is it Tango? Tango was wearing short sleeves, wasn’t he? This person isn’t.
His captor chuckles. “Hard to see him, isn’t it? The basement is so dark.” He pulls out a communicator, his long fingernails tapping on the screen.
After a couple of minutes, two new people enter the room on the right. They grab the slumped body by the arms, lift the person up to the camera.
It takes a moment for Doc to register what he’s looking at—a person wearing something over their face—but who—?
It’s Mumbo.
Doc’s stomach drops out of his body.
Mumbo’s here, too?
That means that the Hermits have been deliberately targeted. He’d assumed until now that his arm and eye had made him appear an obvious redstoner, but if they have Mumbo—
How long has Mumbo been here?
His face is—there’s some contraption belted around his jaw—
It’s a muzzle.
Mumbo’s eyes are barely open, his hair longer than it was when Doc last saw him, long enough to hang limply over his forehead. His mouth is covered by a steel trap almost identical to a dog’s muzzle, attached to a leather strap affixed under his chin and belted on the top of his head.
He doesn’t look good. He droops in the mens’ hold, unable to keep himself up. He doesn’t appear to be bound in any other way—as if they don’t expect him to try to escape.
Doc swallows, turns his head toward Ren. Ren has moved, starting to pace around the room—and—and he’s wearing a muzzle as well, if he’s seeing this correctly. Identical to Mumbo’s, belted over his head, clenching his jaw shut.
Unlike Mumbo, Ren has mittens handcuffed on—and Doc can imagine why. Ren cannot stand the feeling of being restrained, particularly around his head and neck. Getting stuck in a t-shirt is enough to send him into a panic. Wearing a muzzle would be like hell.
“Your friend on the left has been muzzled for about three hours,” the blond man says, and Doc’s heart pangs for poor Ren. “He doesn’t seem to be enjoying himself much, does he?”
Doc doesn’t respond.
When he breaks free of the netherite bands holding him to this chair, he’ll tear the blond man’s head off.
“Your friend on the right. . . .” the man trails off, frowning. “Well, I’m not quite sure how long he’s been muzzled. Four . . . four weeks? Five?”
Doc’s breath catches in his throat.
A month?
Mumbo’s been here for more than a month, and none of them realized?
They should have been there for him. Doc should have reached out, should have messaged him more frequently—he was going on a long trip, he’d warned them that he’d be out of contact for weeks at a time, none of them had thought to check if he was all right—
The blond man claps his hands together, frown switching to a smile. “So! We have a choice for you, today.”
Oh, no.
“Option A: agree to the terms we’ve already laid out. You build our machine, and we’ll free them both of their restraints.”
Doc can’t. He can’t agree to that.
“Option B: don’t pull any extra tricks to annoy me today—like choking one of my employees—and we’ll take the muzzle off one of them.”
Before they removed his arm, he’d almost escaped. He’d choked a tormentor nearly to unconsciousness. Such a shame that more entered right before the woman passed out.
“Option C: ignore both of those, and they both get tied up from head to toe. Your choice.”
Oh dear.
Well, he absolutely could not tolerate the first. It was unacceptable; he would not allow his own machine to end this world.
If he goes with the second, he will have to resist any of his normal behaviors. Silence when commanded to respond, snarky backtalk when commanded to stay silent, any sort of struggling—all will have to be suppressed. He will have to humble himself considerably.
But the third. . . .
“So, Doctor? Which will it be?”
Doc swallows. “B,” he growls.
They just have to survive this long enough to be found. Doc had yanked out a tuft of his own fur and dropped it where they’d been kidnapped. If Xisuma knew what he was doing. . . .
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“Your choice, Doctor.”
Doc’s eyes dart between Ren and Mumbo. Ren, visibly shaking on the floor. Mumbo, motionless, slumped against the wall.
It isn’t a choice he thought he would be forced to make. He had complied with the promise that one of them would be de-muzzled, he had let them shave down his horns, he had politely responded to any and all questions (biting his tongue at every moment to not cuss them out), and now he has to pick?
He has to choose which one loses the muzzle?
This isn’t fair.
Mumbo’s been wearing it for at least a month. He probably has been underfed because of it—the feeds have been running all day, and someone entered only once to feed a straw through Mumbo’s muzzle to give him something to drink. His jaw is likely weakened from disuse and has possibly locked from the position it was forced into. He’s suffering intensely, that is undeniable.
Ren has only had one on for a day, and he’s had no less than five panic attacks. He likely would have already torn his hair out if his hands were free. He hasn’t stopped panicking and he isn’t going to stop anytime soon.
Doc already knows his choice.
He despises himself, but he already knows.
It was always going to be this way. He had made the choice as soon as he was told to—no matter what he told himself, his brain had already made his priorities clear.
He nods toward the left screen. The blond man raises an eyebrow, then pulls out his communicator, sending another message to the men down there.
I’m sorry, Mumbo, Doc thinks to himself, staring at the crumpled figure on the right side. I’m so sorry.
The screens blink black as soon as Ren’s muzzle is released.
Doc’s eye remains fixed on the spot where Mumbo was, and he vows to punish himself when this all ends.
#whumptober2024#no.23#forced choice#hermitcraft smp#fic#implied/referenced torture#hermitcraft#hermitblr#docm77#mas writes#hermitcraft fanfic#sleep cycle au#the next prompt fill for this storyline will be day 26#:))#i'm getting really attached to some of the little aus i make#oki. i am having a rough time of it today so i'm happy i pre-wrote this forever ago#lmk what you think!#love you guys
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the majority voted for me to not photoshop and just work on the valentines day art to be posted later in the month. and yea I will do that. but I already started photoshoping regardless. so happy belated birthday Grelle!!
I was originally making William into Sebster, plus Nardo's face shape worked a lot more for William than it did for Sebs, and could I have just imported a whole new face in there? yea, but it would have taken longer, may not have looked great... plus I accepted that in the end, I do afterall headcanon Bassy to be Grelle's side toy while Will is her main. so she would want this.
#fine#but you know what Grelle looks happy and so does Will I can feel it so I'm accepting it#we're all happy? good#happy belated birthday girlie!! my photoshop's still a little rough but I hope I got to capture some of your beauty ;D#in the end it's impossible for this not to look atleast a little weird but try to just enjoy the moment. and don't zoom into the details#pretty pretty please#kuroshitsuji#black butler#kuroshitsuji fanart#fanart#photoshop#digital art#grelle sutcliff#grell sutcliff#william t spears#Im sureee I would have finished this on time but oh nooo minor illness got me😔 this world really do hate my girl. but we're good now#whether we like it or not#oh yea and don't zoom into the manga panel either. not my best reconstruction really but I didn't think it needed too much#hopefully it doesn't distract from the main attraction
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#still probably not going to be on here much#but I think I'm finally starting to feel decent enough#to be active-ish#been feeling much better lately#I still miss him like crazy and always will#still have some bad times where I feel kinda rough#but there's also some good moments#where I can see pictures and videos of him and feel happy#I'll be here occasionally to answer any asks I might get#or reblog some things#but I'm probably going to be mostly offline for a little while#love you all <33#and thank you so much to everyone checking in 🩵#sending everybody loads of hugs right now
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Max r u okay😰
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everything just sucks rn
my sister is gone (at college she's not dead) so i'm dealing with that and the house feeling empty, and school is starting soon, and my mom is at a new job, and there's gonna be a ton of new students at school who i don't know, and idk my brain isn't built for this
i got overwhelmed tn but luckily i ended up being okay with minimal crying 🥇🥇
and i called my sister so i got to talk to her!!
#not cm#cumulus rambles !!#ya everything sucks rn#but i've accepted it's gonna be like this for a little while#and then im gonna settle into school and sports and my sister being gone#again she's at college she's not dead#and then it will be okay#but yk it's rough rn#i like to say that i'm not good#my old english teacher used to say that#it's like#i'm definitely not happy or at my best- but im gonna be okay#ik that's basic#but it helps me#YK WGAR ALSO HELPS#lists#fycking lists dude#i make tons of em#that's literally all the notes app in my phone is#just lists from when i'm feeling overwhelmed#or i'm going shopping#but mostly overwhelmed#i make a list of all the things/problems i'm over whelmed with#and i check them off when i've figured out a solution#anyways jesus this is a lot of tags#i feel like rome#god speed if you've read this far#hi rome if your reading all of these tags#anyways i'm done
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nimona thoughts! still my top movie of the year so far!!
been thinking about how to frame my thoughts on this gem, and I ultimately arrived at a bit of a pretentious jumping-off point. but honestly, my favorite stories are always the ones that end up demoting the whats, the hows, and sometimes even the whos in service of the whys. it's the hardest question and context to tackle in any story, and it's worth interrogating the most in order to find any true meaning, any connection at all to what's told.
nimona shows exactly why walling yourself away from the "others" isn't good enough. it shows why you have to do the work and see them.
not just that it is dogmatically "the right thing to do". not just depicting what certain systemic injustices are, how they are deployed, and who they are targeted at. but the why. that simplest, purest shape of questioning an injustice dating back to your gentlest time as a child, when you were vulnerable, naive, and truly curious in the best possible faith. the question you would always ask was why.
you are picking up a sword to threaten the unknown. you've been told the whos and whats. you parse it thus. but you don't know the why. you are watching this happen on TV, contextualized, simplified, dramatized. you are connecting the dots. understanding the why.
nimona painstakingly drills down on that why. arduously, achingly digging past the institutions of fear fed by cycles of indoctrination and right down to the core of it. packaged in a simple-to-parse fantasy world built with deft, elegant metaphors and archetypes that immediately fall into place and make sense to a person of any age.
it is animation as a medium and fantasy as a genre both working in concert. a fun and colorful romp that ends on a gentle embrace of reassurance that tells children - both literal and the ones buried deep inside adults - that their first question to the world was always the correct one. because it was the kindest.
#nimona#text#I had such a rough time with the ending and how much it affected me. I knew what her goal would be the moment she headed for the town squar#even before the obvious visual connections. the film carries you alongside her internal state so well that it's almost a magic trick#but really it's just good a-b-c-s of dramatization. not a second is wasted on tertiary noise that's not serving the central metaphor#and you know kids are hyper-attuned to that. they lack the language to conceptualize effective storytelling#but storytelling isn't about peering behind the curtain. it's about receiving whatever is the result of it#and I know deep in my bones that this movie was a warm balm on the hearts of many little ones and that makes me so happy#I'm a 30 year-old adult and it damn near made me weep. anyway! not to promote netflix NOW of all times#but man what a good ass story. you can keep your barbied heimers
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#chan#bang chan#skz#stray kids#these tags are unrelated to this post i guess#kinda having a really rough time irl... and i'm struggling to find any happiness#i thought it would be ok but it's not... so idk#smtimes i come on here and scroll through this blog and it makes me feel a little bit warmer because of him...#and i miss him... so much every day... why does my heart feel like it's just empty without seeing him i don't know#in any case.. i love him so much#my only reason to really hang on anymore lol as stupid and corny as it sounds#my safe place forever.. i love him...#and he's also insanely gorgeous . i felt like i broke when i saw this
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Okay Dean “You know I am not much for prayin’ ‘cause in my book it’s the same as beggin’” and “I prayed to you, Cas, every night” Winchester, I see you.
#destiel#deancas#dean winchester#supernatural#just thinking my little thoughts#don’t look at me I’m having a moment#something something no greater devotion than that to his brother who he’s praying for in the former yet this implies#the same love and desperation fueling that must apply to Cas too#do y'all see what I'm saying? does the connection make sense?#especially s8 going forward Dean often takes the cake for toxicity I’m sorry it’s just true. HOWEVER. we need to talk about the softness#that man shows to Cas in this season specifically.#for ex: after Cas sternly shuts him down in 8x08 he doesn't get defensive and snap back like Dean often does#he goes over and sits on the bed across from cas and softly says 'talk to me.' like i'm sorry? has dean ever said that??#not that i recall. usually it's smthg like 'are you ok? no? that's rough buddy. shove it down.' bc that's what he was taught#and mid-end of the prior season though his ‘don’t tell Cas the truth’ plan was not great it was pretty clear imo how deeply happy he was#just to have cas back. broken or not he’d rather have him. .#I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say that's why we're in the tags but it's just something about how Cas deeply betrayed them and we#know how intensely Dean can hold a grudge yet when they get Cas back Dean's softer with him than he ever was before.#and then searches monster land high and low for him even after Cas abandons him#and connecting the former and latter quotes up there it's pretty clear how deep that devotion runs#(platonically or romantically. to each their own reading. and not always healthily.)#because he's as well as admitted he begged for Cas in purgatory. every. night.#Dean 'I don't pray bc i don't beg and I'm not weak'#Dean 'I would do anything for sam so i'll beg for help'#Dean 'I prayed to you. I killed my way to you. did you hear my prayers?'#it's just really somethin'.#I have to wonder if Cas knows how big that is. He must right?#(for my own tags)#dean#spn s8
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Being away from home since August has been rough. Being a caretaker is rough. Watching my mom suffer is the absolute worst. I hate being too depressed to write. It's my biggest escape right now and I feel like it's being taken away from me. But I'm gonna give it a try anyway. I don't like being this person that's always sad, which is funny because I've had a lifelong battle with depression. But I never wanted it to win; I've always been a glass half full type, I always try to find the little bits of happiness and hope. I'm trying to get there again. I don't know. It's rough. But I promise I'm trying.
#kat rambles#i promise i'm usually more positive than this#it's just rough out here right now for a lot of us#good vibes for everyone#hope we get a break soon#in the meantime don't take any little bit of happiness you have for granted#depression tw
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