#a family friend not wanting to return home themselves due to how their families wont let them be together

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Ngl, while I do mock Eastenders at times for how it goes about character exits, Leo Taylor's death hit pretty hard.

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Pain in My Heart // Benedict Bridgerton

Request: Could I please request a Bridgerton imagine where Eloise or Daphne are trying to matchmake Reader with one of their brothers (you can pick which one) but Reader actually hits it off with another brother who's in love at first sight (again, your choice!!). - @libraryoffandomsuniverse

A/N: I am so sorry for how long this has taken!! I hope I have done your request justice. I had a lot of fun writing this, I’m pretty proud of what I’ve come up so I hope you like!! Thank you for requesting! Title: Pain in My Heart - Otis Redding

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Fem!Reader (Platonic), Benedict Bridgerton x Fem!Reader (Romantic)

Warnings: pining, mutual pining, awful flirting (I can't write it for the life in me), unrequited love (?), a pride and prejudice moment, love confessions, fluff, very very light angst.

Word count: 4.7k

There wasn’t a lot that Daphne and Eloise Bridgerton had in common. It was thought by their mother that due to their closeness in age, they would get along swimmingly. However, by the time that Eloise could speak for herself, it became increasingly clear that there were to be no two people different than that of Eloise and Daphne.

However, whilst the two did not share the same tastes in music or literature, they were united in the hope that they would see their elder brothers happily in love.

It is on a Wednesday in the middle of February when Daphne decides that it is time for her eldest brother, Anthony, to find a wife.

Her decision is made when Anthony stalks into the family drawing room. The only sign of his anger being the blazing of his eyes. Dramatically, he throws himself onto the closest couch, his legs stretching across the pale blue fabric as he laments the meddling of mothers.

Daphne barely represses the urge to roll her eyes. She could tell that Eloise was having a hard time not telling her brother how easy he had it in comparison to rights of women and marriage.

Thankfully, however, Anthony is saved from such a lecture by the announcement of a beloved friend. (Y/N) (Y/L/N) had known the Bridgerton family for as long as she had been alive. The same age as Daphne, the two had fallen into an easy friendship that grew more cherished the more time passed.

Upon her announcement, Anthony sits up with keen interest. An action not missed by both Daphne and Eloise – they share a look, one only understood by sisters with masses of brothers.

“Dear (Y/N),” Daphne greets, standing from her chair to greet her lifelong friend, “How have you been?”

“I’ve been very well though it has only been a couple of days since you saw me last.”

Daphne laughs; a light and airy sound. “I can still miss you in that time. Come, sit by me and we can catch up.”

The two women are soon joined by Eloise who places her book down on the table, spine up so she does not lose her page. From where they sit, neither Anthony nor Benedict can hear what the women seem to be whispering about though it seems to be of a serious issue with grave looks on their faces.

Benedict decides that he doesn’t like the look of frustration on her face; the furrow of her brows. If it wouldn’t raise questions of his sanity, he would press his thumb to the furrow, smoothing out her brow so not a trace of the worry remained.

“(Y/N),” Anthony calls, interrupting the conversation currently taking place between the three women, “Would you be attending Lord and Lady Hopton’s ball later on this week? Lord Hopton has done nothing but discuss the expense being put into the event.”

(Y/N) swallows her small sip of tea, placing the cup and saucer down on the table before answering the eldest Bridgerton. “I do plan on attending,” She smiles, fiddling with her gloved fingers.

A pleased smile breaks out across Anthony’s face as he nods. Turning away from her, Anthony walks back to the pale blue couch that only mere moments ago he had thrown himself across in vexation at his dear mother. Now, he sits down gently, making sure every ounce of his nobility is on show.

Benedict cannot help but roll his eyes at the antics of his elder brother. As if on a covert mission for the crown, Benedict’s gaze slides back to her – runs over her figure, taking in the way her dress sits on her form and the way her smile lights up her whole face. He’s a fool in love, he realises, but he would rather be a fool in love with her than a fool in love with anyone else.

It’s as if he finally understands what the poets write about; how the artists never paint more than their muse. As Benedict peers down at the sketchbook in his hands, he comes to realise that he has been drawing her for months. He has found his muse and it’s close to breaking him when he sees the plotting glance shared between Daphne and Eloise.

(Y/N) sits at the table, utterly unaware of the plan being concocted between his sisters. He has the urge to scream, to yell but he keeps quiet. Benedict becomes the very definition of decorum; smiling politely at her when their eyes meet from across the room. The very moment sends his heart skipping a beat before picking up a rhythm he isn’t certain is compatible with life. He has to stop himself from reaching up to grab his chest to ensure his heart doesn’t beat right out of it.

All too soon the moment is over, and she returns to laughing with his younger sisters, but even she knows that something has changed between them. (Y/N) wasn’t one to believe in love at first sight; the very notion belonging only to fairytales, but she, herself, could not deny the thrill that overtook her body when she met the blue eyes of Benedict Bridgerton.

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Lord and Lady Hopton owned one of the last remaining Tudor residences in London. Many had fallen during the reformation, but in some strange stroke of luck, the Hopton’s home had remained largely undamaged. From there, it passed down the male line as all properties and titles were wont to do in such a society.

The current Lord and Lady prided themselves on the tracking of their lineage, dedicating themselves to the conservation of their home. It was rare for them to throw a ball such as this one, but with the favourable weather, Lady Hopton was able to convince her husband it would be well enough for the courtyard to be used to entertain their nearest and dearest.

There was no set theme; an idea many were grateful for. As much as (Y/N) loved the dress up, the competitive nature between eligible ladies wasn’t something she was in the mood for.

The atmosphere is much more relaxed as (Y/N) takes a turn about the room, smiling politely at the women she has grown up with in London society. They would be civil towards each other, but there was no real friendships forged. (Y/N) was quite content with the Bridgerton brood.

Though they had arrived together, (Y/N) found herself wandering from the comforting presence of the family. She could feel Anthony’s eyes on her, and she thinks of Daphne’s suggestion from the other day; the eldest Bridgerton girl had all but suggested that (Y/N) marry Anthony.

Whilst the suggestion was flattering, (Y/N) hadn’t stopped thinking of the moment she shared with Benedict. She thinks of the moment often; remembers the way his stare felt, as if he was staring into her very soul and he liked what he found. She thinks of the way her body responded; the shiver sent through her and how she realised that she liked the way he looked at her. As if she hung the moon and stars in the sky for him, and him alone.

(Y/N) loses herself in the crowd. She wanders and wanders, watching new love form and old love strengthen as she catches sight of couples beginning their night. (Y/N) continues her ruminating until she bumps into something hard. Another body.

(Y/N) cringes when she finds herself face to face with the chest of Benedict Bridgerton. “Benedict!” She gasps, “I’m sorry.”

He steadies her with a gentle hand to her elbow. “You have nothing to apologise for. You looked to be deep in thought, I’m only sorry for interrupting you.”

(Y/N) feels her skin begin to flush. I was thinking of you, she wants to cry at the man, but she only just manages to refrain herself.

Benedict laughs before he can stop himself. “If you’re reacting like that, I have to know what you were thinking of.”

“Nothing for nosies,” She responds, a coy smile crossing her painted lips.

Benedict gasps, pressing a hand to his chest in mock hurt. “You wound me, (Y/N).”

“I’m sure you’ll recover,” (Y/N) laughs, patting Benedict’s arm in mock pity.

“I don’t know,” Benedict expresses, his eyes running over her face and outfit. “I think I’m going to need someone to nurse me back to health.”

(Y/N) feels her skin once again begin to heat at the insinuation in his words. She had encountered banter before with the Bridgerton brothers, but she had never encountered such overt flirting. Benedict’s eyes glittered with mirth; his smile crinkling the corners of his eyes – this was him. This was Benedict in his element; he was an artist, a gentleman, and a man that could render her speechless with a simple line of speech.

She finds it hard to respond for a moment; finds it hard to string two thoughts together in his intoxicating presence. She flounders for a second, watching Benedict continue to smile widely as if he had nothing better to do than waste time with her.

Eventually, she collects herself enough. She peers up at the man from under her lashes, fluttering them to the best of her ability as she whispers, “Such requests may make the recovery period a lot longer and a lot harder.”

Leaving the man speechless, (Y/N) pats his arm once more before taking her leave. Feeling hot and bothered by her encounter with Benedict, (Y/N) ambles over to drinks table. Daphne and Eloise stand there nursing their own drinks; they smile widely at their friend as she approaches the table.

“Have you given thought to what I suggested the other day?” Daphne asks; watching her best friend over the rim of her lemonade glass.

“Courting Anthony?” (Y/N) clarifies, reaching for her glass of the tepid drink. She frowns absentmindedly; it was one of the main issues with balls, they never could keep the drinks cold enough to be refreshing throughout the night. They almost always turned sour.

“The very suggestion,” (Y/N)’s dearest friend states with a smile.

“It wouldn’t work,” (Y/N) protests, urging her friends to see the truth. “We aren’t suited for each other.”

“Anthony disagrees,” Daphne chimes, looking and feeling all to superior in the conversation. “He confided to me only yesterday that he wants to court you.”

The ground is close to swallowing her whole; the walls becoming far too close for her liking. Her mouth is dry when she tries to swallow around the lump in her throat. “That wouldn’t be fair to him,” She croaks, feeling all too close to tears.

“Why not?” Daphne demands, making her vexation known by placing her hands on her hips.

“Daphne,” Eloise interrupts, glancing warily between the two women. “(Y/N) isn’t in love with Anthony. She’s in love with someone else.”

The fight leaves her beloved friend in an instant; she brings a hand to her mouth to cover the shock of Eloise’s words. “I didn’t know,” She whispers, “I wouldn’t have pushed so hard.”

“I know you wouldn’t have,” (Y/N) appeases, “I’m rather new to this.”

“Do we know who it is?” Daphne asks, unable to keep the excitement off her face as she thinks of the handful of men worthy enough to love her dear friend.

(Y/N) sighs, deciding whether to come clean and tell her longest friend that she has found herself hopelessly in love with her brother. She hadn’t even expected it. “It’s Benedict,” She eventually confesses, feeling pressured by the investigative gaze of Daphne Bridgerton.

“Benedict?” Daphne asks, confused, “As in my other brother?”

“The very same,” (Y/N) comments lightly… too lightly as if ready to be on the defence for her feelings for Benedict.

Daphne blinks once, twice before her face breaks with the most beautiful smile. “Oh (Y/N)!” She cries, “This is wonderful!”

“He might not love me back,” (Y/N) whispers, doing her best to keep a light spin on the situation but the idea that Benedict may not return her feelings hurts far more than it should.

“And Anthony still wants to court you,” Eloise reminds her, her voice close to pity.

“Speaking of the devil,” Daphne murmurs with a smile on her face, “Anthony is heading this way.”

“He is?” (Y/N) asks, pivoting on the spot to the find the eldest Bridgerton making his way through the crowd. He smiles at his sisters, briefly checking their glasses to ensure they were sticking strictly to the lemonade offered. When he is suited with what he finds, he turns to (Y/N) and holds out his hand. “Would you care to dance?” He asks her with a confident smile.

She nods her consent, taking his offered hand and allowing herself to be led to the floor. Anthony leads her expertly across the floor; lessons as a child and years in the London society forging him to be an impressive dancer. He makes her laugh as they continue dance, and whilst (Y/N) has a good time with the eldest Bridgerton, she cannot see herself falling for the man like she can see her entire future with Benedict.

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The ball had wound down naturally; families and lovers beginning to make their way home through the early morning London streets. (Y/N) travels with the Bridgertons, having arrived with them in the first place. Daphne focuses on the streets of London, doing her best not to fall asleep before getting home to her bed.

“How are you getting home?” Daphne asks, not removing her gaze from the darkened streets of the capital city.

“I’m not sure, I don’t want to have to wait for another carriage,” (Y/N) complains, holding a hand to her mouth to cover a yawn that had slipped out. The tiredness was clinging to her bones now; she wanted nothing more to crawl into her own bed, sink into the pillows and fall into a dreamworld where Benedict climbs into the other side of the bed.

“Stay with us,” Eloise invites, meeting Anthony’s eyes.

“I wouldn’t be an imposition?” (Y/N) asks smally; the last thing she wanted was to be burden on her friends.

“You never could be,” Anthony smiles, “You’re always welcome to stay the night.”

“Thank you, Anthony,” She whispers, reaching for his hand in the dark and squeezing.

Silence falls for the rest of the ride; the weariness of each of them punctuating the air, creating a warmer atmosphere that leaves (Y/N) blinking away sleep. Eloise does her best to remain awake, but her head soon winds up on Anthony’s shoulder to which the man looks the surprised. He recovers quickly, adjusting his younger sister to make her more comfortable.

The Bridgerton siblings and (Y/N) all sigh in blessed relief when the carriage rolls to a stop outside Bridgerton House. The door opening lets in a cold blast of air, making her shiver as she reaches for the handle to help herself down.

“Here,” Benedict’s voice sounds in the dark light of night, “Let me help you.”

His hand reaches for hers; it clasps hers gently as he helps her down from the carriage. All too soon, his hand falls from hers and (Y/N) is left feeling bereft from the absence of his touch. “Thank you,” She whispers, taking a risk and glancing up at the blue eyes already fixed steadily on her.

“You’re welcome,” He murmurs. Benedict glances back to the carriage to find the rest of his family descending on them. “Goodnight,” He whispers, ducking his head in a bow and leaving her on the steps of Bridgerton House.

(Y/N) watches the man depart in somewhat of a daze. If she focused hard enough, she could still feel his hand in hers. She could feel every fingerprint, every crease, every line in his palm. She could feel it all; she wanted to feel more. She wanted everything with that man; would happily offer up her everything for a single glimpse at what it could be like to wake up in his arms and be happy.

Sighing heavily, she touches a hand to her forehead, pausing in the grand entryway of the Bridgerton family home. She felt so keenly for the man that she knew she would suffer the worst fate to man should he not return her feelings: heartbreak.

“(Y/N)?” Anthony calls from the door, his arm around Eloise’s waist. “Would you meet me in my study? I need to talk to you.”

“Of course,” She allows, smiling at the sight before her. Anthony whispers something to his sister to which Eloise offers her goodnights and begins to climb the stairs to her room, Anthony following behind her with a worried look on his face that only a beloved brother could master.

Anthony’s study smelled of wood polish; the mahogany desk sitting by the windows being the main feature of the room. It’s dark wood providing the much of the fragrance in the room; it’s a comforting scent. (Y/N) smiles when she realises that it’s comforting as it reminds her of the Viscount; the scent of his spicy cologne intermingled with the wood, becoming one and the same.

“Thank you for waiting,” Anthony whispers, closing the door behind him, “I know how tired you are, but I really wanted to speak to you.”

“Whatever’s the matter?”

Suddenly, Anthony no longer holds the prowess of a Viscount but rather, looks like the eighteen year old boy handed a peerage all too soon. He runs a hand through his hair out of nerves, pacing back and forth behind his desk. Eventually, he comes to a slow stop, resting his hands on the back of his father’s ageing chair. “Have you given any thought to your future?”

“It’s been on my mind more and more these days,” She answers honestly. It’s all she has thought of since her eyes met Benedict’s across the room and she got a glimpse into what her mornings, afternoons, evenings with the man could be like.

“I think we could be good together,” Anthony argues, offering up a slice of his heart for the taking, “I think we work well together.”

“Anthony, may I be honest with you for a moment?”

“I’d hope for nothing more.”

She takes a deep breath; steeling her nerves before smiling at the Viscount. “With all due respect, I don’t think you do love me.”

Anthony moves to interrupt her; a flash of anger and upset in his eyes. He quietens when she holds up a single hand; begging him to let her continue. “Anthony, I think you were looking for someone to stop your mother from pestering you about marriage. I just happened to walk into the room at the right moment.”

Anthony frowns; he takes in (Y/N)’s words, letting them roll around his mind as he thinks back to the first day when he realised he could truly love the woman sitting in front of him. Violet Bridgerton had been on him from the moment he walked through the front door; producing yet another list of eligible women in London that he could find a potential match in. He had taken the list from his beloved mother and in the privacy of his study, he had ripped the list to tiny pieces making sure that none of the names were legible.

On some level, he has always loved her. (Y/N) had been in his life from the very day she was born; mother being friends, Violet able to offer (Y/N)’s advice as she was her firstborn. At this point, Violet was a seasoned expert on motherhood. Anthony had always known of the girl that was best friends with Daphne; he had watched her grow up. On some level, he has always had some feeling for her.

He knows know, though, that those feelings could never broach romance. There was too deep an affection between them.

“You’re right,” Anthony states, “It wouldn’t be a love match.”

“It wouldn’t,” She affirms, taking a seat in front of the large, wooden desk. Silhouettes of his parents and siblings decorate the space; it brings a fond smile to her face. Anthony presented a strong front, but in private, he was as much the adoring son and brother.

“But you think you have found your love match,” Anthony declares, wanting to clear the air.

“I’m not sure,” She laughs mirthlessly. “I have no clue as to whether he feels the same.”

“He’d be an idiot, not to,” Anthony compliments, “Do I know the lucky man?”

(Y/N) looks sheepish as she stares at the Viscount. She had already confessed to Daphne and Eloise – what harm could one more person do?

“It’s Benedict.”

“You love him,” Anthony whispers; not an accusation, not an ounce of anger in his voice. A simple fact stated for the room.

(Y/N) nods. “I do. I love him with all that I am and all that I know I could be.”

A sad, bittersweet smile crosses Anthony’s face; he won’t speak of how the words hurt him. He reaches for her hand and clasps it tightly between both of his.

“Go to him,” He whispers, “You have my blessing.”

(Y/N) stands. Her intention is to leave the room and find the Bridgerton who had so readily taken root within her heart, but first she crosses to where Anthony stands behind his desk. He watches her with curious eyes as the silk of her glove brushes his cheek; his eye flutter closed when he feels the featherlight press of her lips and the whisper of her gratitude.

Anthony keeps his eyes closed when she pulls away from him; he keeps them closed until he hears the tell-tale click of the door. It is only then that Anthony allows himself to open his eyes and peer into the heartbreak now cracking open his chest. Not for the love he though he felt, but for the utter want racing through his body. He wants a love like that; he was going to find a love like that.

They would be happy together; he thinks to himself as he breathes in the floral scent of her perfume. They would be happy together, perfectly suited to the point that Anthony craves such intimacy. One day; he promises, one day he would hold such a treasure within his hands.

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Bridgerton House remained warm and inviting even after the family had long retired for bed. The sconces lining the walls still lit; their warm light easy on anyone’s eyes should they need to traverse the hallways for whatever reason.

The path to Benedict’s room isn’t one she has taken often. Thinking on it, (Y/N) realises that save for being shown the door on her first ever visit to the London home, she has not stepped foot close to the room since. Until tonight, that is.

Her skirts swish delicately underfoot as (Y/N) makes her way to his room. She doesn’t dare utter a single breath for the fear of being caught; all around her slumber her closest friends. If she were caught by a member of staff, her reputation balanced on being ruined.

Her hand trembles as she clenches it into a fist, raises it to the plain white door and knocks twice. She waits on the threshold, twisting her fingers into her skirts – a nervous habit she’s had since she was a child. She was thankful that she no longer bit her nails down to the bed.  

“Come in,” calls his quiet voice and her nerves only heighten. Taking a deep breath, she pushes open the door that could reveal her future.

“(Y/N),” Benedict gasps, the deep v of his shirt falling open, revealing far more of his bare chest than (Y/N) had expected to see tonight.

“I wanted to talk to you,” She whispers, hovering between the doorway and his room. She does her best to not stare at the defined muscles on display but loses the battle. Her eyes run over the parts of his muscular torso and the strong forearms shown with the sleeves of white shirt rolled up. She didn’t think it was possible to be attracted to the forearms of a person, but here was Benedict proving her wrong.

“What if you get caught?” He whisper-asks, worry lacing his tone as he glances at something behind her. She turns on instinct only to find an empty hallway and three lit sconces.

“Anthony knows where I am,” She retorts, stepping further into Benedict’s room.

“Anthony?”

“He gave me his blessing.”

“To enter my room… unattended… late at night?”

“Essentially, yes,” She smiles, thinking back to her conversation with the Viscount.

“Why were you talking to Anthony?” Benedict asks before he can stop himself. He doesn’t like the simmering jealousy he feels that the picture of (Y/N) alone with Anthony in his study. He clears his throat to chase away the hollow ache of envy; he doesn’t want to picture the conversation. He doesn’t think he could handle it.

“He asked me to court him.”

“Oh,” Benedict responds, feeling his heart begin to crack in his chest. “What did you say?”

“I told him I couldn’t. We wouldn’t suit each other and one other thing.”

“What other thing?”

“I don’t love him. I love someone else.”

“You do? Do I know them?”

(Y/N) laughs, stretching her arms out as she gestures to Benedict’s bedroom. “I’m stood in your room in the middle of the night, Benedict, with full knowledge that if I were to be caught by any of the staff, I would be ruined. What does that tell you?”

Benedict frowns, refusing to let himself fall into the hope growing in his chest. He feels like Icarus; too close to the sun, too close to thing he wants most in this world.

“Stop this pain in my heart,” She commands weakly. “Stop this pain and tell me if you feel the same. If you don’t, I understand but I’d ask you not to tell anyone of this midnight visit.”

His mouth runs dry, and he finds it hard to answer. He’s falling, falling, falling for the woman stood across from him and he cannot find the words to accurately describe the depth of his feelings for her. That day in the drawing room – he’s known her for years, always been aware of her, but that day, it was as if he was finally seeing her for the pure beauty that she inhabits. She could rival Aphrodite herself.

Upset shutters across (Y/N)’s face as she nods twice, trying her best to keep the burn of tears at bay. “It’s okay, Benedict,” She whispers, turning for the door, “Thank you for listening.”

At the last moment, Benedict reaches out and snatches her wrist. “Don’t go,” He pleads, “Don’t leave me. I don’t think I could live with myself if you left me.”

“I don’t understand,” She whispers; confusion lacing her voice. Her eyebrows furrow as she stares at the man before her, “You didn’t say anything. You stayed silent; I took that as my cue to leave.”

Benedict shakes his head. “Don’t go,” He whispers, bringing a hand up to card through the loose strands of hair framing her face. He almost preens as she leans into his touch. “I feel the same, I love you just the same,” Benedict confesses; feeling the weight leave his chest.

“You do?” She asks; her voice small but hopeful.

“I do,” Benedict smiles, brushing her cheek with his finger, “I think I always have, but I didn’t realise until recently.”

(Y/N) sniffles as tears threaten to make an appearance. She laughs wetly, unable to stop the giggle from leaving her mouth as Benedict wipes away the tears. “I hope those are happy tears,” He murmurs wryly.

“They are,” She answers, throwing her arms around his neck and pulling him down to her level. “They definitely are.”

“Good,” He answers.

Their faces are so close now it would only take a fraction of a movement to press their lips together; to seal the promise of their union. “Kiss me, Benedict,” She whispers; need lacing her voice as she stares into his famously blue eyes.

Benedict doesn’t need to be told twice; it isn’t often he gets to kiss a goddess.

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Im not even gonna go anonymous anymore. Arghh asking for another request makes me feel guilty knowing you have an essay due so i'll just present you a little prompt!

Being immortal and outliving people you love, you know the drill. It must be sad and lonely. But you know what i feel like would be devastating? Just imagine Teyvat in a time loop. Meeting your friends for the first time, getting know them, hearing their plans and ambitions, sticking with them through dark times, falling in love... Reader just happens to be the one to witness all of it over and over and over again.

Don’t worry about it! I’m horrifically avoiding it right now. I’ll probably have some lunch and do some more of it after lunch. I’m talking about things I enjoy so hopefully it wont take up too much of my brain and we’re going to ignore the graphic novel I have to create in 2 weeks too lmao I’m a professional procrastinator

I have a bit of an idea with this so I hope you don’t mind it being platonic and with the Mondstat guys either. I’m going to reference a previous set of headcanons where you’re the leader of the winds. The two writings aren’t related relationship wise though.

Pairings; (Platonic) people of Mondstat x reader

Warning(s); angst

Keep reading under the cut!

You had done this cycle millions of times before. Before you even became the leader of the winds, when you were just a small spirit. Much like your friend Barbatos.

And while the archon of this land could sleep for thousands of years at a time you had elected to protect his people from the dangers that the god of freedom was too asleep to do anything about. And in fairness you can understand why Barbatos has been asleep many a time to avoid his brain contaminating with similar ideals to Decrabain. You can’t blame him really...

But you’re so horrifically lonely. And it’s not like you’re surrounded by an absence of people. In reality you often find yourself over compensating for your loneliness. Nights are often spent in the tavern conversing with mortals that you can’t quite understand.

You half wish you could ascend to Celestia, at least there you can be merry with fellow immortals and not have the constant threat of losing a friend dear.

You have known the Ragnvindr family for many generations. It’s not like they are hard to notice. Bright red hair and, more often than not, a sweet, bubbly personality. Not many of the Ragnvindr’s have been blessed with visions, but they all make their way through life the best way possible. And while they seem to show similar thought processes to the previous anemo archon, especially considering the fact they basically own the alcohol industry in Mondstat, and more recently Teyvat in her entirety. But when you see the family treating their employee’s so well and with a great wage you can’t help but think maybe humanity can move past the age of dictators. Or at least the humans of Mondstat.

The newest Ragnvindr, Diluc had always caught your eye. You had helped babysit both him and his brother while you weren’t busy reminiscing in memories of old mondstat and slaying monsters of your home. The air of change hangs heavy on the air when you’re around them, it seems like the winds you lead are trying to tell you something that you can’t yet decipher.

Until the day comes when you can. Seeing a broken, sobbing Diluc shut you out of his home not only made you sad. But, it infact reminded you that you shouldn’t get too close to mortals. For, like your friend Crepus’, mortal life is fleeting. 

You’ve seen many stories over the years, but there’s only so many times you can hear the same story before they all meld together.

Take Amber for instance, decided to become an Outrider because of her Grandfather. How many times had you heard that story? Someones grandfather joined the knights and inspired them? Too many to count. And as much as you want to remember Ambers story, you already know, like all the others, her memory will meld with the others. 

Kaeya’s story isn’t one you’ll forget quickly, especially when the deeds of  Khaenri'ah weigh heavy on your mind. Though you have seen a small handful of changing of alliance stories in your lifetime his is probably the one that’ll stick the most. Especially when the memory of him crying in your arms after the man he considered a father died. 

There’s this one young girl you remember from centuries ago. She reminds you of Barbara a lot. Carefree, loves the people she works for. Just this girl was born a few millennia too early. She was apart of the Windblume resistance alongside the bard Barbatos fashioned himself after. You had attempted to smuggle the girl out the fortress many a time yet she always wanted to help. 

Sometimes when you watch Barbara sing you can’t help but cry over a girl you considered your first friend after becoming leader of the winds. Barbara is under the impression that you hate her because of how you avoid the girl. But being constantly reminded of someone you couldn’t save in the end makes you so sad. You’re not sure how Barbatos copes with donning the face of a friend when you can barely look at the face of someone who reminds you of a lost friend.

Razor sits fondly on your mind. He reminds you of the people you did actually save in old Mondstat. You remember checking in on a handful of refugees that you had to hide in old caves and how easily they had climatized to foraging for food. Whenever you see Razor you’re reminded of another young boy who went missing millennia ago who was later found to have been raised by bears. 

Through the centuries you’ve become good at pairing up couples. You seem to be able to point out people who will later enter a marriage. You’re not sure if soulmates and reincarnation exists, but that’s your only explanation being able to point to couples so easily.

You wonder for an immortal like yourself would be blessed with a soulmate. Especially considering you weren’t originally in a humanoid form. Maybe there’s some thousand wind out there for you that you’ll never be able to meet and fall for because of this form.

Your mind stretches to Barbatos whenever you think this but you never let yourself linger on it for too long. Lord Barbatos doesn’t like commitment, and you’re very much content with that, yes sir. 

Your eyes often linger on Rosaria as you often ponder if she thinks she’s the only nun to have strayed from typical nun doings. You remember telling a small Rosaria tales of Decrabains nuns and how they helped with the resistance against the tyrant. You wonder if that’s what gave her the idea to stray from typical nunnery. 

You smile upon Lisa fondly, a bright young woman with aspirations as high as the stars. Much like Rosaria you remember telling a young Lisa about alchemy and sorcery. She had such a knack for it, and seeing the woman return after only two years of study was a little disheartening. But you’re sure there will be people after her who will have similar aspirations with better outcomes. It’s not unlike you’ve seen people scurry their lives away in the pursuit of knowledge. You can understand her want for a different life.

As much as it hurts you in the end most, if not all, the people of Mondstat have buried themselves in your heart. And like you have done countless times before you’ll have to move on from them once you’re dead, no matter how much it hurts. Your mind ponders to Adeptus Xiao of Liyue. He’s under a similar curse to you. The curse of being alone while being surrounded by people. You wonder if that’s why Xiao has distanced himself from mortals.

And as much as you feel like you should take a page out of his book, you find yourself falling in love with Mondstat’s citizens over and over again.

[voidsentprinces]

Every bit of Shadowbringers is the Scions it corresponds with.

Amh Araeng Prt 1 is very Alisaie. Mirroring her decision in A Realm Reborn, Alisaie wanders off to the outskirts of civilization. Choosing to observe the powers of the world and figure out a way to stop coming tragedies. We’re introduced to the threat and aggressively fight against it but in mirror the loss of Ga Bu and Louisoix. Alisaie loses someone dear to her by Tempering. Louisoix became a Primal and Ga Bu was tempered by Titan. (Though honestly I wish Alisaie would stop losing people dear to her cause after Requiem for Heroes it feels like the story likes to kick her while she’s down at this point)

Kholusia Prt 1 is very Alphinaud. There is a semblance civilization, a rule of law in the area, there is even a function in which the society works. Mirroring Alphinaud remaining well within spitting distance and very much in the middle of the comings and goings. He uses his diplomatic maturity, which once was made for personal gain with clever wit and scheme. He has learned from the Crystal Brave betrayal, corruption of Ishgards, the result of those who choose might means right and what it results in from his time in Ala Mhigo, Hingashi, and Doma respectively. Applying himself to better comes to grips with the peoples plight. Upon seeing how Eulmore treats those chosen but then thrown away and then coming face to face with Vauthry. Rather than turning a blind eye and just being, “That’s just how it is.” as he was with the Monetarists and Refugees of Ul’dah. He pushes back against the system, damn the consequences, leaving an easily position to effect the politics of Eulmore and even gets a bullseye placed on the back of his head.

Lakeland is very much the Crystal Exarch’s Domain. It is the place of mystery, where life heavily clings on and every time we venture out to it. We come into conflict with either Eulmore or the Sineaters, Vauthry is controlling. It is in Lakeland, we fight through the Holminster Switch. Come face to face with our first Lightwarden and see where there was once furtile farm land, peace, and people. Now chaos reigns and an apocalyptic wave of disaster has struck. Mirror the world, G’raha had woken up to after the Eighth Umbral Calamity. This is where our foot hold is. Where we first bring night back to the First and his plan for saving the Source is put in motion. There is also a sense of myth about the place, Bismarck, a fae being in this shard slumbers in the Lake aptly named the Source. And it is only by bringing together to allies we made that we allowed to travel to the Tempest when he is spirited away. Just as G’raha gathered allies and people to himself to build the Crystarium.

Il Mheg is Urianger’s realm and reflects the game, he has agreed to play with the Warrior of Light at the behest of the Exarch. It is full of beings, who make deals out of innocent furvor at the determent of all who are around them. Pixies trick travels and fellow fae a like. The Nou Mou live to serve mortal kind just as Urianger serves the realm as a whole, no matter what light history might cast him in. And the Amaro dream of comrades lost, wishing to feel the comfort the adventurers and merchants they once wandered with. Grieving in their own way just as Urianger did after Moenbryda’s passing. Il Mheg is the land of faeries, it is steeped in myth and legend just as Urianger always had his nose in a book. Titania lays at the center of the realm. Once the pinnacle of the fae, forever corrupted by the Lightwarden’s energy. A horrific mirror of what should happen is G’raha’s plan should fail and the paragon of heroism, his friend: The Warrior of Light. Could also become a monster wearing the skin of a kingly figure should his mask slip. Yet when we enter his abode in the middle of Il Mheg, the Waking Sands/Rising Stones music plays. Reminding us of home and the Scions, he calls family and he welcomes us as he ever did, cryptically.

“Unto a hero weary of heroes, a heroes wends [their] way...”

Rak’tika is Y’shtola of course. She has turned away from her light magics of conjury to the dark magics of thaumaturge. The great boughs rise up and block out the sun light of the Great Wood. Reflecting the living style of her mentor: Master Matoya. A person who prefers their solitude, away from the dealings of the world, but with great knowledge to progress the plot forward. Thancred and Y’shtola get into an argument on how each other has changed. The two of them stood side by side after the Bloody Banquet and were both flung into Aetherstream by her Flow spell. While Y’shtola adapted to her blindness and halfened life force. Thancred had to push against the constrains of no longer having access to his aether and briefly losing sight in one eye. His last moments were the thought of protecting Minfilia. Only to wake up in Dravania and find out that Minfilia is no more. Y’shtola rejects Master Matoya and Thancred’s choice of solitude. Making friends with the Night’s Blessed. Even though, she knows she might have to leave them behind all too soon. She becomes a pinnacle of the Night’s Blessed community. While Thancred wanders hither and tither unfocused with Ryne at his side. Slipping easily into her role as a Scion, she researches the clues left behind by the Ronka Empire and makes allies with a civilization who has also closed themselves off from the world. Y’shtola is the first one to recognize the faults in G’raha’s plan and is immediately suspicious of the Exarch’s intentions. We see Y’shtola never truly changed however as when it comes time to get the item that will save the world and protect her friends. She readily uses Flow once more. Damn the consequences. Her sacrifice for the greater good is, as always, her charge which she never hesitates to grant. She even bonds with Runar seeing him as a little brother despite his obvious want for something more, just as she has a sister back in Gridania with whom she has a friendly relationship with. Just as Y’shtola’s connection to Matoya opened up the path to Azys Lla. Her run in with Emet-Selch opens up the path to learn of the Ancients and Amaurot and the true nature of Hydaelyn and Zodiark.

Amh Araeng Prt 2 is Thancred. Its tedious, its nearly empty, full of the smallest hopes. Each challenge is made to be tougher than it should be and despite us being able to compliment Thancred when finding a Voebrite coin. He shrugs it off as he is wont to do at this point. We get Ryne’s inner turmoil deepening. Thancred comes face to face with another individual wallowing in their own grief for those he loss and suddenly after coming face-to-face with Ran’jit again. Thancred throws away his misgivings and brings Ryne into the fold as shoe horned and bad written as possible. So lets just skip this area and never talk of it ever again okay? Cause the story never really does save for the Fatebreaker Eden section

Kholusia Prt 2 is Ardbert’s story or what it once was. We gather our group together and besiege Eulmore only for the villain to escape our grasps. But we triumph in liberating Eulmore from Vauthry’s tyranny for a moment. Alphinaud gets his heroic speech, Alisaie gets to combat the threats of the Lightwardens, Y’shtola and Urianger work together to make a massive Talos, Thancred and Ryne keeping tabs on Vauthry and Mt. Gulg. We meet face to face with G’raha. For all intents and purposes our Cylva. A person with a schism coming to a head. We come together as a team for the first time since coming to the First and each shows their worth in their connections to the realm. Mirroring Ardbert’s journey, we are faced with multiple seemingly insurmontible odds and come out on top. Vauthry’s Sineater Guard fall, he himself becomes the last one. The night returns to the First. And. We. Fail. We fail due to the machinations of Ascians just as Ardbert’s group did. The Warrior of Light is brought low by the combined aetheric energies of all Lightwardens. G’raha’s plan fails when Emet-Selch appears and leaves us for dead. Sure the enemy was vanquished, Vauthry and Ran’jit for us, Loghrif and Mitron for Ardbert’s group, but the First still falls to a Flood of Light as the eternal day returns and we are left on the cusp of despair. For all our triumphs. For all the schemes. For all the fighting. We fail. And just as Ardbert learns to protect his world with the aid of the Word of the Mother. The Warrior of Light only survives due to the aid of Ryne. An Oracle of Light who has come into her own and not died on the battlefield. We wander the Crystarium afterwards listening to the tales of the people and what they think of the Exarch. Then immediately find our courage to plunge into the depths. Ardbert giving us the strength to move forward, that he didn’t have when he met Elidibus. No more desperation. Just courage in the face of oblivion.

The Tempest is Emet-Selch. We are bridged there by the mythical Bismarck and find a dwindling but prospering Sahagin alternative. Living and getting by the ruins of those who stood before. The one part of the world far, far, far way from the light of the First. From the people and things, he used to care for. We find he made a city out of nostalgia and even the ghosts become almost too real. He is at the depths of his grief in a world, he cannot forget and will not forsake. It is here, the one clinging to the past the most falls to those who look to the future they yet have. He covets the Exarch’s use of rift travel because he knows if he can harness it, he has a chance to go back and save EVERYONE! But, he can’t and he won’t. He can no longer go home and knowing Elidibus’s memory and personality has been slipping since he left Zodiark’s breast. He asks us:

“Remember us...remember that we once lived.”

The Crystal Tower is Elidibus. It is the shining beacon of hope, he wished to become as Emissary. From the day, he chose to become the heart of Zodiark. To every motion to move for or against his breathren. The Allaghan Empire’s greatest achievement. But ruled by an Emperor whose death dropped him into Nihilism. Conquest was nothing but ashes in the mouth of Xande and he wish to consume the Source in Void. Elidibus wishes the return of Zodiark. For it is his duty, there is no solace in memories he can no longer recall. A being frozen in time just as Amon had the Crystal Tower’s previous inhabitence. Telling us repeatedly that no matter what our Echo shows us of his past. It will not avail us to his present. So he takes on the image of the Warrior of Light, playing pretend at the role of the hero having possessed Ardbert’s body before. He speeds up the Heroes Journey. Has us actively fight against our own memories and in the end, his own brother reappears amidst the clash to grant the last Unsundered Peace in his fall. G’raha sealing away his essence in the Crystal Tower to become part of the beacon of hope and light. Though perhaps in his final moments, his true duty was that he was waiting for someone to return to him. Someone he looked up to in his younger years. A shadow in his memories he has clung to and taken into being the example off in their absence.

“The rains have ceased, and we have been graced with another beautiful day. But you are not here to see it.”

[berfometalpha]

Legacy of Eternity Chapter 5: Unravel the Mystery Part 2 - One step at a time

It was an early day for the young knight like any other but today was different as it was the first day that he a knight would walk the path of a civilian. Though his army had participated in many military operations the knights were eager to go back to the front lines but due to the awakening of one of the legendary angels that guard the dragon-wolf they had been suspended as the angels may have killed the young knight if not careful.

As he got his gear together the young knight made his way down to the living room to see Chimera was finished eating breakfast with Emilia Redridge.

Emilia Redridge or Emilia Swordtaker was a former of the Sword taker clan and had been exiled long before that for saving a baby dragon-kin and a village from the fury of their Father. She had long bright red hair that reached down to her waist, Red eyes, pinkish fair skin, and had a tattoo on her back of a broken blade meaning she was exiled from her clan.

She normally wears a white dress with a black lining and had several blood rose designs on the side of her top. She also wore a red and black belt cape with a pair of brown leather belts, with black and silver lined boots with black stockings.

Emilia is the current wife of Chimera Redridge only by name until further notice during the war for Ren’veil’s freedom she had a major role of providing key information of the defensive lines of the fort Mianola far north of the capital.

She openly helped Chimera and the Crusaegrums in the Northern conflicts and bringing them into the fold of the Free kingdoms. In exchange for her help all she asked was to serve Chimera but instead Chimera offered her to be his wife only by name until certain rights are approved.

“Big Bro, you heading out this early? Wont you have breakfast with us.” Chimera growled.

“Hmm I got time... sure... Miss Emilia good morning to you as well.” Kent bowed.

“Good morning as well mister Anthony... By the way Chimera I am heading to the Bastion Hope base I saw a job posting their for a sword instructor. I’ll be heading their to apply for the position.” Emilia said.

“I will be cheering for you Emi.” Chimera smiled.

“You do realize that I am the general and lord of the Strike Fleet and Bastion Hope is technically my base? So with one snap of my fingers you can get the position right away.” Kent said.

“Thank you for your kindness but Chira has already given me so much and I want to earn the right to stay with him.... If It’s okay Mister Anthony I would like to earn it rather than be given another gift.” Emilia said.

“Okay then... I will honor your request and at least you are a lot better than your former.” Kent added.

“I am no longer a part of that family what happens to them is up to them. I want to live my life as I see fit.” Emilia said with pride.

“I understand Miss Emilia... Still I raise a glass to you miss Emilia for becoming independent..” Kent said as he raised his mug.

“Here here brother here here.”Chimera said as he placed his hand over Emilia’s shoulder with pride.

After eating breakfast Kent left the Manner with Emilia since the young knight had some immediate business at Bastion hope. While Chimera had to settle somethings with the Farmers union in New Hope after that he will meet Emilia again in the base.

They passed through the local market when one of the merchants who first met the young knight in person called his attention and tossed a pair of apples to the two. 

With a smile he thanked the merchant and will return later to his stall as they passed the central district Kent and Emilia parted ways for the mean time. He entered the Ayekawa estate though some of the guards are very suspicious of the young knight since during the battle for Ren’veil Kent was not that recognized by the Vai’len despite his stature as the knight lord of the Strike Fleet.

With a hefty knock on the door he waited patiently for someone to open the door just before he could knock again the door opened.“Hey quit knocking twice... already I heard you...” Aisha shouted with a surprised look on her face.

“I am sorry my Lady I will not knock twice next time.” Kent said with a smile.

Aisha’s face immediately turned red when she saw the young knight right at her door step. To her surprise the young knight was at her door step the young knight could openly see how she spends her early morning with her hair tied to the side and wearing nothing but a very alluring violet dress.

“Wait Kent why are you here?” Aisha asked.

“I Believe I owe you a date my lady... Was i not correct my Lady?” Kent said with curiosity.

Though flustered and a bit astonished thinking that the young knight heard her whisper despite being asleep. Kent was asked to wait at the living room while she got prepared Alisyha prepared tea and toasted bread for their esteemed guest and exchanged stories while they waited.

“Interesting so you and an entire fleet of about 2 million souls say that you only spent a day in this apocalypse? and many say that your fleet had been gone for almost 2 weeks?” Alisyha asked.

“Yes my Lady, Some marines and knights volunteered to stay behind to study the ship and see what we can learn from such a relic.” Kent explained.

“Truly magnificent child and you say that this ship is as big or even bigger than the New Dawn Moon?” Alisyha asked.

“Maybe even bigger we cannot say for certain but we shall leave it for a later time.” Kent replied and took a sip of tea.

“And you’re fleet was given a temporary suspension order to recuperate the fatigue that must have built up during such a journey... I must say that is a very interesting tale... You could become a story writer if you keep this up my dear?” Alisyha said with great joy.

“When my duty ends maybe I shall my Lady thank you for listening to my tale.”Kent bowed.

“It is a great pleasure of mine to hear stories tall or short, be it truth or not... It has always been a great passion of mine to hear the many tales of my people and others with a feathered pen you can wield a very powerful weapon my dear... ” Alisyha asked.

“Indeed I love how you described the Wind Runner who ended a thousand year conflict between two great kingdoms despite having nothing to start his life with...He had no obligation to stop the fight and yet he did the saddest truth about it all he simply sat at the cliffs edge and watched the last part of his life end in the embrace of the setting sun... It is a great inspiration to me and many of my men who had taken a liking to your books my Lady.” Kent replied.

“Thank you my dear...Their is an old saying...  We can have a different start in life sure you can have a silver spoon or nothing at all. I love how people who didn't have anything but strive to get to where they are now...They are the real heroes of tomorrow and I am happy to stand with them now and forevermore.”Aliysha said to the young knight with a smile.

The two talked for a few minutes when Aisha went down the stairwell to greet the young knight formally now that she is dressed. Just before they left Alisyha gave her blessings to the two and with a smile and a kiss on the cheek to her daughter.

“Now go and have fun you two... and Aisha please... Bring me a grand child on your way home.” Aliysha winked as she closed the door.

“MOM!!!!” Aisha shouted in her embarrassment.

“““slight laugh”“ I believe Lady Alisyha only desires for your well being my Lady?’ Kent asked.

“Mom... she is... just...”“Sigh”“ come on Kent lets go...” Aisha said.

Though frustrated with her mother despite her intentions Alisyha is well in good terms with the young knight and simply jokes around every now and again. Kent sighed and gave her an encouraging head pat saying he will treat her to her favorite strawberry desert in town. 

Her mood picked up as they reached the town square many of the Zerrohnian marines who are part of the suspension were out with their family and friends or discovering romance despite being a part of the greatest military in the Frontier space.

They made a quick stop at the local cafe called Due Rigovalto which is famous in the famous as it can make all sorts of sweets and pastries including but not limited to what you can usually find in a regular cafe. The cafe is also well known for its support for the beast folk despite the hate and discrimination before the war for the Free lands ended in the far north of the Core kingdoms. 

They sat down at the table near the open view area of the Flower garden as one of the beast folk waiters who was a close friend of Aisha. 

“Hey, hey Isha good morning to you... I can see you and a special boy-friend here early in the morning...” Kitia said with a smile.

“““blush”“Ugh... Kitia he is Kent Redridge... The Knight hero of two worlds.”Aisha said while flustered. 

“Well look at you... Finally hooking up again after that ass boyfriend of yours cheated on you back in the day... But I am tots happy for you and your seemingly handsome friend here... Though a bit skinny... I think I got the perfect menu for you two.” Kitia happily said to Aisha.

“It would seem your lady friend is very happy for you.” Kent said.

“Yeah Kitia is my good friend back when I was still studying in school and I trust her and all but sometimes she can...” Aisha said when she facepalmed and pointed to the bar.

Kent looked at the bar and saw Aisha’s friend pull in the work of 5 people at once and at the same time talk with no point of stopping.

 “I can see but friends are many but true friends are hard to come by my Lady.” Kent stated.

“Thanks Kent.” Aisha said as they held hands.

Katia brought to their table a strawberry mist sundae dew berries shaped as a heart with a pare of chocolate flavored straws. it was enough for the two of them though a bit early in the morning to have a sweet tooth but well worth it. 

They indulged on a sweet treat meanwhile at the other side of the street a group of escentric people who barely made an effort to disguised themselves.

“And why am I dragged into this again?” Rex asked.

“Boss Cap, this is our one opportunity to confirm if whether Boss Man prefers Mage Lady or Priestess Lady!” Genji said as he hid behind a newspaper article.

“I have to agree with my bro here... The Boss Man has always taken a liking to Mage Lady even though she tries to be tough but she is actually a softy right Marky?” Clayton asked.

“Hey man I am just here for the bet and the tea here... But have you seen the things they call the General here... outrageous!” Marky stated as he put down the newspaper.

They were served coffee and biscuits when Lily and Willow disguised themselves as waitresses at the coffee shop on the other side of the street.

“I want to support Kent here but why did you have to drag me and Willow out here?” Lily asked.

“We need a sexy spy lady to help us not get spotted!” Genji replied as he drank some coffee.

“I have to agree I want to help Kent with his love affair since he saved my life twice now... and I am loving these maid outfits... They are so smooth and easy on the skin I hope I can keep it are they machine washable?” Willow asked.

“I think they are but I don’t think you can wash them in the laundry but more of hand washing it... and don’t use hot water it could ruin it too.” Lily added.

“How am I even dragged into this is beyond me... This is Kent’s private time for crying out loud!” Rex sighed.

“50 credits say that Boss man will get Lady Aisha.” Clayton added.

“Your on!” Rex replied.

Lily shook her head and facepalmed thinking how did they live through so many dangerous and down right suicidal military operation with a group of escentric people. 

“Um guys where’s the boss?” Genji asked.

“Wait Marky I thought you guys were keeping an eye on them?!” Clayton asked.

“Their on the move south they already have a few blocks head start!” Marky replied.

“Which way?” Clayton asked.

“Um... that way... No wait... um damn this tracker... um we go... left!” Marky pointed.

“Okay, drop the mugs, trays and that apron Willow... Wait on second thought you two keep it on! we move now.” Rex ordered.

The team were about to leave when the priestess and a few of her sisters stopped them as she smiled at the captain. 

“Rex, good day to you and where are you all going?” Arra asked.

“Lady Fullvrink... Um good day to you um we were just.” Rex said when Arra stopped him.

“Tisk tisk captain... You lot should be ashamed of yourselves... following Aisha and Kent on their date! Though I want to follow them but I will honor my best friend’s wishes and no one shall interrupt them!” Arra said as she snapped her fingers.

“Everyone book it! I mean scatter!!!”Rex shouted.

The team ran in separate directions Arra was displeased as she asked her sister guards to lead them away from the areas where the two will go on their date. Meanwhile the two exited the village through the northern entrance just as they passed the security check point the two made their way to the northern part of the flower gardens where the wild roses grow. 

Walking through the park Aisha tried holding Kent’s hand despite how he looked his hand was warmer than it seemed.

They passed through several rose archways and made it to the grass fields where the children and their families come out to enjoy the fruits of the land.

Kent took off his jacket and offered it as a cushion for Aisha to sit on and simply relaxed the day away.

“Hey Kent.” Aisha said.

“Yes my Lady?” Kent asked.

“Thank you... I know that I said it before but... It’s for real this time.” Aisha said.

“No thanks is needed my Lady... I owe you and Lady Arra everything for welcoming my people and opening a future for all to bare.” Kent replied.

“Maybe but I can feel that that isn’t the case here is it?” Aisha asked.

“What do you mean my Lady?” Kent asked.

Aisha sighed and seemingly asked about the young knight if he had seen or came to Ren’veil long after the war of the Demon lord. The young knight simply smiled and said In a way my Lady for the past several years before the rebellion I had dreams of a world with two moons much like Ren’veil has two moons. I cannot make the visions clear but I feel like I was being called to this world as if a child crying for help.

“But you came none the less to our aide?” Aisha asked.

“I guess I cannot deny it anymore my lady... But Yes I was the one who came to your world alone so long ago... After I came to your world and aided your party in defeating that lesser demon... I had no recollection of what else had transpired.” Kent explained looking over the distance.

“Whatever the case maybe we all get a chance to see a brighter future... so again thank you.” Aisha sincerely said with a smile.

The young knight smiled as the wind gently blew upon his skin Aisha stood up for the first time in a long time was sincere with the young knight. She stood up and leaned up on the young knight inviting him to a game of tag getting a head start before him.

He laughed and chased after her meanwhile at the top of the northern wall of the village. The team managed to regroup after losing the Priest guard sisters somehow though exhausted they were very persistent.

“So how is it Clay?” Rex asked.

“I can barely see with this binoculars... Who has a better scope?” Clayton asked.

“Here take mine!” Marky said.

“Wait since when did you have the time to get your sniper rifle? and how did you get that from the Night Hawk Armory!” Clayton asked.

“I left it in my room and this is not my sniper rifle... It’s just the scope!” Marky stated.

“Um guys where’s Lily and Willow?” Rex asked.

“I think they said they will distract the sister priestess ladies for us... I think...” Genji said.

“Right... so we are on stakeout duty... Reminds me of my days as a policeman on shard...” Rex said while spying on the two.

“Wait I thought you were a mercenary?” Clayton asked.

“I was a Mercenary long ago then I join the Shard police force in Troah to help support my Family I was a Captain at the time with more record arrest than anyone in the precinct 69... Those were the good old days but its all in the past.” Rex explained.

“Oh wow... Damn if it means anything to you Boss Cap... It really is an honor to work alongside someone who is experienced in the enforcement of law and order.” Genji mentioned while handing him a bottle of water.

“It means a lot coming from a Promethian warrior...It’s all in the past now... So if you guys want to continue snooping I’ll go and keep a look out for the sisters.” Rex replied.

Rex got off the wall when Marky mentioned that their was a hint of sadness in the captain’s voice he and the sergeant realized that their captain hid something from them. 

Some time later the two were spotted heading to sea city’s coast line view since it was recently built not many people have taken the liberty of checking the tourist attraction. 

It has an underwater observation deck and even an enviro-dome observing the underwater life had been a dream for many Zerrohnians after the destruction of Requiem it had left a partial void in the hearts of the new generation.

Slowly but surely the children will learn of how to appreciate where one of the building blocks of life had come to pass.

“Wow this place is pretty!” Aisha said in astonishment. 

“Yes it truly is.” Kent replied looking at Aisha. 

“Kent I never knew that you can make a barrier of glass it truly is an engineering marvel... Eva would be so happy to see this!” Aisha stated as she looked onward the deep sea. 

Their were even sea-folk who come to pass near the observation dome some Knights had fully adapted their bodies to the sea through natural evolution as a hybrid warrior species. The Zerrohnians take great pride in sharing with others their culture and take pride of learning new ones. 

One of the younger sea folk code name mermaid-folk waved at the two the young knight waved back as a sign of respect. After their visit they went to the small house east of Sea city it was the silent shack since the young knight secretly built it during his spare time.

They sat down on the wooden bench and enjoyed the sunset to Aisha’s surprise the bench was well built with some wool cushions nailed in it was not luxurious but it was enough to set the mood. 

“Today was a good day.” Aisha whispered as she rest her head on Kent’s shoulder.

“Indeed my Lady... Indeed...”Kent replied.

“Hey Kent... If this means were dating... Then officially you are ours right?” Aisha asked.

“I believe so... Wait... what do you mean by us?” Kent asked.

“Um You belong to me and my sis.” Aisha said.

She quickly explained the main reason why the priestesses are so few in number and are well protected by the mages of Ren’veil and the citizens of Ren’veil. Aisha also stated why she calls her sister by name since the two grew up together as childhood friends and had a sister like bond to one another.

 She stated the main reason some families have 2 wives as one child represents the goddess Su-tharma the goddess of the Earth and fertility, the other represents the goddess of the Moon and stars Ishtarhka and the Priestesses of the Wolf Father Shadow the aspect of Justice and balance.

Kent was surprised to hear that he not only belongs to Aisha now but to Lady Arra as well. The young knight stood from his seat and knelt down before Aisha and held her hand. He looked deeply into her eyes with a gentle nod the young knight stood firmly and accepted this as a blessing.

“I am a knight of Ren’veil I had taken an oath to protect and honor your world’s rules, customs and traditions...  I would be honored if you two shall have me for I am yours now and forevermore.” Kent asked.

“It’s kind of embarrassing if you put it like that Kent... But Yeah... I am the happiest girl on Lashurta right now.” Aisha said happily.  

“Then so be it... I belong to both of you now and forever more...” Kent bowed.

The young knight as stated by Knight Wolf Champion Umbral Volka, a knight can take many roles in life as he or she serves the Maker and Faith herself. They have honored the bravery and sacrifice of the knights who had fought and bleed beside them during the 1st and 2nd war for creation. 

As part of their great passage a Knight may have the option of falling in love and having a family to establish. But they must make their oath of honor and fidelity to their lover or in this case loved ones. Their oath must be made upon the open sky where the land, sea and stars are in view in honor to their deity Faith the goddess of balance and justice. 

She stood up from her chair and asked the young knight to stand with her as she too made her oath to be true.  The made their oaths that day of September 14, 4118 and sealed it with a kiss. The wind suddenly picked up and surrounded the two they could feel a gentle breeze wrap around their wrist. This was a great sign as Faith and the three gods recognized the oath to be true and gave their blessings upon them.

The Wolf Father recognized the oath of the young knight to the Mage daughter of Su-tharma the mark placed upon his left hand began to shine in recognition to said oath to Aisha.

Meanwhile at the temple of the Wolf Father when she felt a gentle wind caress her cheek and wrapped around her wrist. The oath of the three gods was made that day as her birth mark shined alerting the sisters of the entire temple.

“A suitor for Sister Arriandale had been found... SISTERS A SUITOR HAS BEEN FOUND!” One of the elder priestesses shouted.

“I believe I know who it might be...” Arra thought.

At the same time the Temple Idol of Faith on New Dawn where the knights and citizens come to pray on the last day of each week to give thanks to their deity. As the Knight Father was giving his usual sermon and praise to Faith. It was a rare sight to see the palms of the goddess’s statute to move as the Eternal knight her champion had taken his oath of loyalty to serve and protect the people of creation. 

This caused a massive uproar in New Dawn as the Statue of Faith had began to shine greatly signalling great promise for the people of the Dragon-wolf. Not only in New Dawn was this great event seen each and every ship and household on New Dawn or the fleet that held an idol of Faith had shined meaning the new chapter of their people starts that day.

The two returned to New Hope village with a renewed vigor and a refreshed look on their faces ready to face tomorrow. They returned to the Redridge Manner quite late but it seemed like the Knights and police marines were in an uproar and their moral was at an all time high. 

This was quite a great news when Kent asked Aisha to come in when his Parents and Aisha’s parents even including Arraiandale’s parents were present. Some looked confused others excited and others were simply out of words to say.

After a much needed explanation and several scoldings from Charlotte and praise from Alisyha. 

“So Let me get this straight... What my son did was the oath of loyalty which is basically locks my son’s ability to date others than Miss Ayekawa and Miss Fullvrink correct!” Victor asked.

“Indeed, The oath of the three gods is to be made only when one is absolutely certain of the other party and yes it is basically a great oath to take when one wishes to be with another on Ren’veil.” Alisyha explained.

“I do not permit my Baby girl to be whisked off by another man!” Aliysha’s husband shouted.

Aliysha then pinched her husbands ear and asked themselves to be excused after a minute or two. They returned but her husband had several smack marks on his head.

“Now where were we? ah yes I approve of Kent as our daughter’s protector and lover! right dear?” Alisyha asked with a frightening voice.

“Yes... Dear...” Her husband cried.

“Well I don’t have any complaints... After what had happened to Arra with some hooligans who faked her mark... Regardless Mister Redridge, Miss Ayekawa... I beg for your pardon.” Arra’s Father pleaded.

“Father it’s okay... I am happy that it is Kent that I got paired with.” Arra said as she comforted her father.

“But this humble Farmer is...”“sniff”“ so proud of my humble daughter... Finding love!” Arra’s Father cried heavily.

“Mister Krosta It’s okay...” Alisyha said.

“Kent a word please in private?” Victor asked.

The two moved to the back yard of the manner he handed a drink as they finally had a serious talk.

“My son... Ever since you were born your mother and I had been very worried to all three of you... Ever since you were little you were the youngest to enter the training of the knights at the age of 3 and enact ability to stand up against a fully trained knight at the age of 5... Your brother had an unparalleled knowledge of politics and nature despite his power and being a dragon-human hybrid... While your baby sister is a psycher the strongest one in the history of the Dragon-wolf second only to Tallis... You three are our greatest treasures... Are you sure you are ready to handle such a burden?” Victor asked.

“Father... You told me a long time ago that Faith presents each living being with a mission and a challenge that we must overcome in order to be come stronger both physically and spiritually... I wish to care for them... I believe the emotion is called love... This yearning that my heart beats for battle in every aspect... I will not break this oath even if it kills me!” Kent vowed as he slammed his right hand over his heart.

“I know... Take this time to get to know them better since your fleet is suspended from military activity.” Victor said.

“Thank you Father... I know this isn’t Requiem I wish to see our original home world but I know it is gone now... But Ren’veil is our home now... and I plan to make a better tomorrow for everyone this I swear.” Kent said wit hpride.

“So it is my son... So it is....”Victor happily said.

“father if it is okay... may we go back inside it’s getting a bit cold.” Kent asked.

“Well said my son...” Victor replied.

They went back inside while the others had a chat about what to expect and what is to be expected between the three families.

In order to make the oath complete according to Aisha the young knight must repeat the oath in front of Arra. Kent mustered the courage to repeat the oath in front of the priestess the two were given some privacy as they performed the oath taking in front of the two moons at the second floor balcony. 

“This is a bit embarrassing is it not?” Arra asked.

“I cannot see it my Lady...”Kent said as he held Arra’s hand.

“Kent... If you do this... Balance must be maintained between you... Aisha and myself...It would feel like you are engaged to us... Are you prepared for such a responsibility?” Arra asked.

“I am My Lady no matter the risk... Though I am no Hero.” Kent answered.

“Kent... you risked your life to save us but I am worried that I may not be worthy of such powerful love that you possess... Even if you say that you are not a hero... I can feel it in my heart... that you are one... But are you certain that you are willing to go the distance for us?” Arra asked with a gentle sadness in her voice.

“I am... I made my oath to both of you that day... I will never leave you... I will protect you both... On or off the battlefield.. I make my oath to you as well my Lady...I Kent Redridge present myself to you as your protector and lover... I am prepared to take the risks... i wager my life for you two... No matter the cost so long as I can stand with you two I am happy... Should my words utter a single lie I offer my life as the price for my insolence... I pray to the Wolf Father to bless our oath should I be worthy of you...” Kent said.

“KENT NO!” Arra shouted.

They were immediately taken into the astral realm or the forest of the Wolves the final resting place of the priestesses who fell in battle and awaiting rebirth with no memory of their past life. 

The Sisters stood around them watching as the Wolf Father himself looked at Kent Arra stood in front of her Father to prevent the young knight from facing his fury. With a wave of his claws her astral form was forcefully sent back to the physical world. 

She saw Kent’s body was frozen solid holding her hand Arra tried to go back to the forest of Wolves but she was blocked out. For the first time in her life she was at a loss to save him from the wrath of a god she had to force her way back. 

Arra called out for help watching his body started to show wounds made claw, fang and blade. His veins started to scream out while the young knight battled in the Astral realm realizing that the trials of the Father is suicide she tried to stop the oath taking.

Many minutes later the mark on her body was sealed with a crown of roses she looked at the soul mark left by the blessing on Kent’s left palm as it also showed the same markings the trial was complete. 

The young knight turned pale sweating endlessly as he tried to open his eyes when a scar appeared over his left eye. Though his injuries were severe yet not life threatening he tried to get his feet under him. Arra helped him on his feet as he looked at her the priestess cried knowing that facing the Wolf Father is suicide regardless as he is the aspect of Justice and balance on creation as she mentioned.

“KENT YOU SHOULD NEVER DO THAT AGAIN!” Arra cried while embracing him.

“I did not mean to worry you my Lady...”Kent coughed heavily.

Arra held him tightly as she heard the Wolf Father’s voice in her head He never ceases to amaze me child of mine... The two goddesses had seen his mettle and had chosen him to be a worthy suitor... Let him prove his worth to you... I am sure he will not falter...

Despite nearly killing the young knight the wolf Father despite his intentions to protect his daughters and ensure they end up with someone worthy of them. 

The young knight excuse himself as he was tired and closed his eyes resting upon her shoulders. Though the day may had come to an end their was still much needed to be done. 

The next morning after a long night Kent woke up in his room with little memory of what had transpired last night. He then tried to get off the bed when he felt something very soft he looked to his side to see Aisha was to his left and to his right was Arra sleeping next to him and barely with any clothing.

Instead of panicking he simply smiled and got off the bed silently and covered the two with the comforter since it’s still a bit cold in the morning. He then made his way down where the entire family to his surprise was present even Coralline who was always in her study on New Dawn.

he grabbed some food for the two before he returned to his room Charlotte put her tea cup down and smiled at her son.

Kent grabbed a cup of freshly squeezed juice and a piece of toasted bread he grabbed some food for the two before he returned to his room Charlotte put her tea cup down and smiled at her son.

“So my son... did you have a fun threesome last night?” Charlotte winked.

“““spat out his drink and coughing heavily”“ WHAT?!” Kent shouted.

“Shush child you might wake those two up... But still how did it go?” Charlotte asked.

“Wait big brother what does Mother mean by having fun and a threesome?” Coralline asked.

“It would be best if you don’t know it my sister... and No mother we did not do that I barely have any memories of last night...” Kent stated.

“Well, After your battle with the wolf Father which exhausted you mentally according to Arra she and Aisha needed to perform a ritual to heal the damage to your mind and soul...That is why they are in your room right now.” Charlotte explained.

“Don’t worry brother this will not get out publicly Lily and I are already on the case... Lady Aliysha and Mister Vulcan aka miss Arra’s Father had agreed to let them stay here for a time... So you have two new room mates big brother... Good for you and I am impressed.” Chimera said sarcastically.

“By the way my son Mister Vulcan and Miss Alisyha had agreed to allow them to live under the same roof as you so it will be very easy for you lot ot get to know each other.”Victor said as he drank his coffee.

“Okay then... I am okay with them staying in my room but I will need to order a lot of things if that will be the case. Mom I am going to need your help!” Kent asked.

“Sure my son what do you need?” Charlotte asked.

After a few minutes of explaining and preparing breakfast Kent went back to his room with food for the two. 

When he got back to his room Aisha and Arra were slowly waking up though they had a fairly long day much was still ahead of them.

His left arm split off into two sub arms and prepared a healthy and fulfilling breakfast for the two. 

“My oh my Kent... You should not have prepared such a delightful breakfast?” Arra asked in astonishment.

“This is our first day together my Lady this much is little to what you and Lady Aisha had given me... This is but thanks for accepting me as your protectorate and Lover...” Kent bowed.

“It is a good gesture Kent for you to go through so much effort this day... As you say we three have a long road ahead of us... But what should we do this day since our schedule is practically free for a day or two?” Arra asked.

“Hmm I was going to Bastion hope to see about the trainer selection results and greet them... I believe one of them is your friend Emilia free lander.” Kent explained.

“I am surprised that Emi is here... Let’s go meet her after breakfast...” Arra asked.

“By your will Lady Arra.” Kent bowed.

She drank her morning chamomile tea and to her surprise it was natural blend of herbs that she preferred before and during her time in the Temple of the Wolf Father.

Arra was surprised that Kent learned of her favorite morning tea when he told her that Vulcan told his mother how to prepare it and showed her the way. Kent repeated the process as if the tea was made by her father in the flesh.

Aisha was surprised to hear of their conversation as she took a look in her coffee it was made from the refined cocoa bean found only in the Trigor mountain located at the far north east of the free kingdom and only a few of these beans had ever been exported out of the area.

Along with the refined honey from extracted from the giant honeysuckle bees located at the Forest of Bree where the elfen use it as a natural export product. The cream was mixed into the coffee in the shape of a heart despite how it looks its taste was beyond imagination for the taste buds. 

“Kent how did you?!” AIsha asked.

“Same thing I told Lady Arra my Lady... Lady Alisyha passed a note to mother about what your favorites are and I had to prepare them I hope they are to your liking?” Kent asked.

“Well... “”flustered”“Its okay... I guess...” Aisha muttered.

“At least Sis here likes it very much Kent... I will say thank you on her behalf.” Arra mentioned.

“SIS!!!” AIsha shouted.

Kent snikkered to see the two argue over such a trivial matter but one thing seemed to puzzle him why did Aisha and Arra call each other sisters. Arra giggled at the young knight’s curiosity and explained to him that they are not sisters but they grew up together being friends since they were but babies and up to this day they had stood side by side as sisters. 

Through thick or thin and even any battle they will have each other’s backs even during the battle for the freedom of the people against the demon lord. Arra was the one who took the spear hit for Aisha while Aisha stopped the Thunder judgement spell used by the demon lord against Arra and barely able to protect her friends at the time.

After their talk and a hot shower for the first time since having hot water in homes at the village is considered as a luxury. The two received a fresh pair of clothes left by their respective families before they left Charlotte gave them a very stylish belt filled with an assortment of gadgets like a micro plasma field, grappling hook, an emergency bio-med gel kit, a tachyon beacon and a atmospheric field projector when trapped in deep space.

The gadgets on the belt were built specially by Charlotte basing it off from her own experience during the 2nd Great War.

“Okay you kids be safe now!” Charlotte shouted.

“Thank you for the great gifts miss Charlotte.” Aisha said as she looked at the belt.

“Oh these are nothing at all oh and they can change color and styles when you place your palm over the belt buckle. Now off you go kiddies and have fun now!” Charlotte said as she shooed the three off.

Arra looked at Kent while he looked through his arm pad while they walked to Bastion hope. To his surprise many marines and Knights had been saluting him on first sight.

They entered the base when the knights immediately lined up and offered their praise to them.

“Hail Lord Anthony!” The knights shouted.

“WOW is this a regular thing you do Kent?” Aisha asked.

“Not really only when theirs a special occasion... But the only occasion today is the Trainer welcoming ceremony.” Kent stated as they entered the main hall.

Upon entering they saw over 3 dozen applicants who passed they all stood side by side with their robes as swordsman before entering the fort. Aisha noticed Emilia was part of the successful applicants the two ran towards her and congratulated her success.

Before they could congratulate her Emi asked the two to sit next to her as Chimera was at the stage Kent took to the stage with Rex and Fenris by his side.

Hello Everyone I am Kent Redridge of Strike Fleet New Hope... I congratulate you all for passing the application process for the sword trainers I know it has been a difficult challenge to face off against a Venerate ranked knight but you all had proven your stride and mettle against a knight who had fought a godly class demons of old. 

From this day on wards you 36 swordsman are now ranked trainers and shall be part of molding the hundreds of Zerrohnian Marines and Recruits in sword combat.

I can see much potential in all of your future career as part of the Knight Kingdom I hope that faith and the three gods may shine fortune upon all of you.

Now let us end this welcoming ceremony and enjoy for this day does not belong to you alone for it belongs to the future of our people. 

Kent raised his fist and howled much like a wolf many knights followed their lord as they are a part of the Iron Wolves Legion. With the ceremony at an end the mercenaries now turned trainers united with their families with smiles on their faces as a new chapter will start for many of them.

Chimera and Kent’s team approached the newly recruited trainer to congratulate her on succeeding the trials. 

“Emi congratulations!” Chimera said as he lifted her up.

“““blush”“CHIRA please not in front of my friends.” Emilia said with a flustered face. 

“Sorry but I am very happy for you!” Chimera said as he embraced her instead.

“Regardless of the situation miss Emi I am honored to have a free lander to be in the Base... I look forward to your achievements miss... I mean Sergeant Emilia Freelander.” Kent said proudly.

“Thank you Ken... I mean General Anthony!” Emilia saluted.

“Now then enough of the formalities we have a feast to attend to.. Oh yes I forgot to get something in my office you all go on ahead... I’ll catch up...” Kent told them as he walked away from them.

“Alright Big brother... If their are any hot wings Ill save some for you!” Chimera shouted.

Kent walked away to his office he made sure first that no one was following him as soon as the coast was clear he uttered.

“I got that weird feeling again...” Kent said as he entered his office.

“I am sorry father...” Kyvash said with a serious look in here eyes.

Kyvash turned the chair around but it did not stop spinning her care taker Sword masters stopped the chair for her. Though nauseous from the spinning she instantly recovered the young knight was about to laugh but he held it in surprisingly well. 

“Kyvash what can I do for you and why are you hiding?” Kent asked.

“Yes I am here because Astaroth and Tyrannox managed to follow the trail where Willow’s brother was taken in this flash drive holds the data you will need to mount a rescue mission and also rescue the Vailen...” Kyvash said as she placed the flash drive on the table.

“Thank you yet I feel a but is coming in...” Kent stated.

“Yes their is... I wish to have a brand new Hive built on Ren’veil a royal guard Hive that will serve as additional security for our people... They will follow only your orders of course.” Kyvash stated.

“I might agree to that but I need my Father’s Approval and I am curious how the High Glaives produce such powerful warriors like the Sword God masters that always protect you and the Blade god masters that aided us in our escape on Vega?” Kent asked.

“I will explain in due time but this data drive will hold all the information you need, the number of people being held and the locations of possible planets for resource conversion or colonization... Think of this as my investment to the people’s future...” Kyvash said.

“I will consider this as a gift my lady... And I will talk to father soon about this.” Kent saluted.

“Very well I will talk with Father as soon as I get home... Would you like to join the party?” Kent asked.

“I wish I could but for now I need to settle a few more things with your permission I would like to go to the Redridge manner this evening?” Kyvash asked.

“Then it would be an honor for you to visit our home... But I need to get something from my desk if that is fine?” Kent asked.

Before they went on their seperate ways Kyvash told the young knight of her new Apex Prowl Hunters and gave him over 50 of these monstrous hydras they are independent thinkers but they will listen to orders of the one assigned to them by their queen. 

The young knight was free to use these new Hunters should the need arise all he needed to do was think and they will hear him. 

The young knight thanked the queen for her generous gift he placed his palm over his desk when a massive blade rack appeared out of the wall next to the door. 

He looked at the assortment of blades each one of the weapons emitted a powerful aura that the Sword Masters were being pushed back as if they were facing a world ending typhoon. 

Kyvash quickly snapped her fingers projecting her own aura field to protect her children as the blades domination field was stronger that their protection auras. 

He grabbed the double edge sword measuring 3 meters in length with a eight crowned cross as it’s sword guard with the pommel shaped like budded flower. The young knight excused himself from the room as Kyvash watched her father act the same way she remembers him long ago. 

“My Lady now that Lord Anthony agrees to your request should we not tell him of the Hunter killer’s status.” The Sword Master asked.

“He will not do anything unless he is provoked my child... For now let us head home I am a bit tired today I still need to meet Grand Father and Grand Mother later on.” Kyvash said as she opened a portal to home.

Meanwhile at the party all members of the strike Fleet including the Admiralty, the Iron Wolve’s circle of elders and the Commando teams who participated in the recruitment and selection process. Emilia was somewhat isolated as she did not go through the standard trials instead was recommended by Chimera to be a trainer but she participated in the trials where many Venerates had approved her skill as a trainer.  

Though some of the fellow trainers did not even bother to befriend her as she was a part of the clan that nearly destroyed Ren’veil and wiped out the Priestesses and mages though it was kept secret but those who knew the truth would prefer not to acquaint themselves with Emilia.

Emi looked to her glass of wine it was a solemn reminder that she was not meant to befriend anyone else but Chimera showed her another path. He tapped her shoulder and  tapped her cheek snapping her sadness out of reality.

“Miss Emi don’t look sad it will spoil your appetite... I got you your favorite... Hammer shrimp with sauce butter on the side.” Chimera said with a smile.

“Thanks Chira... You always know how to bring a girl up.” Emilia said as she took the plate.

“Emi don’t worry no one knows who you really are here... You are Emilia Freelander and soon to be Redridge so lighten up this is your day!” Aisha stated.

“I agree Miss Emilia your family’s crime is not yours to bare... It was their choice to set their path to ruin... You only did what is right and no one can hold you accountable for such an atrocity.” Arra added.

“I know Arra but It was my fault why my brother turned out like that... I should have brought him with me when I was exiled maybe things would be different if I did that...” Emilia said as she shook off the memories of her past.

“Emi always know that I am here for you... Through thick or thin I will stand by you as your shield and sword... I am your partner for life...” Chimera said with a proud growl.

“I know Chimera and I would not have it any other way...” Emilia said as she kissed him on the cheek.

With the party well underway the young knight met up with his friends and brother at their table. They were curious as to what was the broad looking sword he was holding the young knight sat down and told them it was his gift to Emilia.

It was one of the first of the 6 blades he forged on New Dawn it was called the Star Strider a blade specially built from purified star Xerromite a sub rare class ore used as a catalyst for making the strongest blade or the toughest armor. 

It can absorb heat and heal the wielder’s injuries simply by absorbing sunlight it can generate heat strong enough to turn a mountain into a lava pit. The young knight was infamous in the Forge works for making blades that are extremely powerful and may not require a weapon heart. Although the weapons he crafts are alive in their own way and will only require a small sacrifice from it’s would be wielder in order to seal the bond.

Emi pulled the blade out of the scabbard and cut herself with the blade as it absorbed her blood the blade glowed a bright warm light and transformed into a claymore blade.

“Congratulations the sun strider is now yours miss Emi... use it well.” Kent congratulated her.

“Thank you... I really appreciate it Kent.” Emilia said as she attached the scabbard on her belt.

“Thank you also big bro for giving her a chance...” Chimera said.

“Hey Faenrir wanted a challenge so he was the one who volunteered to test the trainer’s mettle so its all well and good.” Kent answered as he grabbed a carbonated drink.

“Wait Faenrir as in Primal Knight Elite Captain Faenrir Claw breaker? THAT FENRIS!!!” Chimera shouted.

“Oh no...” Kent said as his brother showed his anger.

“Chira what’s wrong?” Emi asked. 

“I WANTED TO FIGHT HIM!!! AND EMI GOT A CHANCE TO FIGHT HIM I AM JEALOUS!!!”Chimera cried.

Captain Faenrir Clawbreaker is the biological older brother of Fenris Fellfrost Captain Faenrir is one of the few knights who participated in the siege of the World ender citadel at the final battle during the 2nd great war. 

The Primal Captain is one of the rare few to see the Legendary Archon Wodan “Thunderking” Redridge and Keith “Hunter Killer” Aliucard against the demon champion Guision the thousand hands. Faenrir also earned many achievements and an impressive kill count of 5000 mid level demons under his belt.

Many aspirants and Archon candidates like Kent and Chimeara wishes to fight Faenrir it is considered a great honor for one to fight against the few Elites of the 2nd war in a duel of prowess. But Faenrir does not entertain duels unless he specifies it to be so as Elites are always needed in the front lines and have no time for pleasantries.

And when they do they will only use their free time at their own accord not even the great nobles of the Dragon-wolf can request an audience from them.

“It was a sudden request from Faenrir brother I couldn’t do anything... Besides he was only pulled out from the Border patrol because of his fleet needing resupply.” Kent explained.

“Right I wanted to have a duel with him though!” Chimera cried.

“If it means anything Chira... He gave me a tough time when I fought him.” Emi said as she comforted him.

Chimera was saddened as the elites of the 2nd war were so few and are always away from New Dawn it cause him little pain knowing that he could not even fight him. At the same time he was very proud of Emilia for being able to fight a great warrior like him. 

Kent laughed at his little brother when Aisha came up to him with a couple of drinks as well with a plan of her own. 

“Hey Kent here!” Aisha said while handing him over a very cold can of carbonated drink.

“Thank you my lady... I needed one.” Kent replied as he opened the can.

“Big Bro... I am concerned about your obsession with those carbonated drinks dont they have enough sugar to make a small marble?” Chimera asked.

“Yeah the virus inside my body converts the sugar into usable biomatter while the rest of the contents are being converted to water... I only drink it for the taste...” Kent explained.

“I know that brother but you should calm down with those drinks... Its 9:30 in the morning big bro!” Chimera added.

“Sure after this I wont drink for the mean time.” Kent said as he savored his drink.

“SO Kent... After this do you want to go to the mages temple with me?” Aisha asked.

“Very Well my Lady I would love that.” Kent replied.

“After your visit Kent please fetch me from the temple I just remembered that I am needed at the local orphanage.”Arra asked.

The young knight nodded when one of the marines approached him requesting for his assistance. The marine reported about some incidents in the mage temple about humans turning into monsters in broad day light. Many knights and marines had already been injured and the surviving knights are requesting for immediate assistance from any Crusader class or above for assistance.

Kent agreed to go when Aisha over heard the situation at the temple and wanted to go as well.

“Okay, Brother I will leave the management of the party to you... REX Get the team ready!” Kent ordered.

“YES SIR!” Rex saluted.

The team along with some marine and knight venerates boarded their respective gunships and made their way to the Mage temple at shion. 

On their way Kent and the other captains listened on the reports from the on site guards who first saw the incident and from knight aspirants who responded to the alert.

“Okay so something is turning the mages into monsters... But according to the reports the mages still have some shred of their humanity but over time they lose it... Interesting...” Kent said.

“General If I may how many casualties so far?” Captain Yurfa asked.

“So far over 50 wounded 5 critically injured 3 aspirants incapacitated and several civilians wounded from the initial explosive magic used on the aspirant sergeant treko.” Captain Ignus reported.

“Okay... Set up a perimeter 3 miles around the tower have knight elites perform routine patrols around the area make sure no mage escapes using the underground tunnels and sewage system. Have the science and medical teams set up a isolation zone so we can study the thing that caused all this.” Kent ordered.

“Sir if I may how certain are we that this is not caused by a virus or an air born infection of some kind?” Captain Mugen asked.

“If it were the case then a lot of people including the marines turned into monsters already... But have the Templar apocrypha’s check the air for any contagions just to be sure. I almost forgot and have any non knight personnel we have right now wear level 5 bio hazard equipment and bio-masks before we land.” Kent ordered. 

“Lady Aisha please wear my helmet... I will be okay without it.” Kent said as he handed her his pressurized mask.

Aisha nodded while the young knight helped her wear his mask it scanned her retina and changed it’s form based on her specifications. the mask that normal covers most of Kent’s face only leaving the left eye to actually see and several sensors on the forehead, sides and the back of the head helped him have a full 360 view of any battle.

Instead the mask’s initial features of heavy protection was removed and replaced with a full indestructible visor with a bio-air filter and several smaller but efficient sensors that can help her see around her.

“Aisha can you breath easy in the helmet?” Kent asked.

“Yeah but it smells like you in this thing... I will borrow it later...” Aisha stated.

“Note to self must wash the inner part of my helmet after each use...” Kent thought.

“General look it’s getting bad down there its getting bad!” Marky shouted.

“Right No time for flirting... Marky and Rex non-lethal rounds only Clayton, Genji, and Miss Willow With me... Lady Aisha please remain on the gunship while we take care of this.” Kent ordered.

“Um boss... she already jumped out!” Clayton said.

Kent looked out the gunship to see Aisha falling from the sky and somehow landed safely on the ground with her magic. The young knight felt a bit stupid for giving an order to Aisha who is a civilian and was an illogical move on his part.

“So boss um should we?” Genji asked.

“Just jump already... I feel very stupid right now for ordering Aisha...” Kent said outloud.

“At least we know your human boss... “”Jumped out the gunship”“ Big bro you owe me 20 credits!” Genji shouted.

“HEY COME BACK HERE THAT DOESN’T COUNT!” Clayton shouted as he jumped out. 

“General if you shall excuse me I will scold those two when we get back.” Willow said as she waited for the gunship to land.

“Right... But Willow please take it easy since this will be your first time in battle with your New body.” Kent reminded his friend.

Willow nodded she was still getting used to the absurd strength her new body has and the new bow that the Forge masters made for her was heavier than her previous bow and more stronger than the first. The young knight tapped her on the shoulder reminding that she will always have a friend to count on. 

He free felled from the gunship and almost immediately he managed to stomp down one monster that was about to escape containment. Though he made sure that the impact was not lethal it was enough to knock out the mage. Kent turned to check on the other knights Clayton was grabbed by one of the monsters and thrown towards the young knight.

Kent grabbed him by the collar and arm saving him from impacting the wall the promethian sergeant got back up he was very furious.

“Thanks boss man... HEY YOU GET BACK HERE I AIN’T DONE WITH YOU PIECE OF SHIT!” Clayton shouted.

“Captain these mages turned monsters are getting stronger by the second we could use some extra muscle... Dread knight class muscles!” A knight shouted.

“ Understood we have already called a few of them in but they are about 5 minutes out.” Rex shouted.

Aisha used her magic and restrained most of the monsters with Earth claw and ice shackles. With her help the knights and marines were able to place the restriction fields on the magemonsters. One of the monsters was able to break through Aisha’s restraining magic and fully lost their minds to their instinctive nature.

It rushed towards the young mage as several knights tried to stop it they were thrown out of the way instead. She needed time to cast a more powerful restraining magic when it was about to crush her. The young knight pushed her out of the way with a deep breath his hands began to flow as if they hand no bones in them. 

With only seconds before the monster could slam it’s massive fist over the young knight he closed his eyes and uttered. 

“Shadow Fire Art... Claws of the raging wind!” Kent whispered.

The shadow fire art enveloped his arms with a strange black and white aura turning his fingers into miniature spears. With a single thrust his arms became a machine gun and struck the monster in the vital pressure points that controlled movement. With each thrust he was able to toss the monster out of harms way from his men and the civilians trying to get to safety. 

With the monster incapacitated the knights applied medical care to it and added a restriction field to ensure no one else will be harmed.

He ran to Aisha’s side and helped her back up asking if she was unharmed aside from the fall and a scrap on her arm she was safe. 

The knights and marines who learned about their founder Blazer ShadowFire he had many books about teaching knights about the different styles of fighting including ancient martial arts. 

Only a few Champion class knights are able to perform and re-create the techniques in the books but only a direct descendant can unleash their true power. If any Zerrohnian or Xer-razh were to see the technique is a great privilege on its own. 

Later that Day with the Mage tower Hazard Knights were sent into the Tower to search for the source of the monster transformation and Apocrypha’s searched the area high and low for any external threats within a 5 mile radious. 

They deemed the area safe and free from any air born contagions Kent asked Aisha and the surviving mages to check if their was any magic involved in the outbreak.

Aisha told them no summoning or transfiguration circles were found in the area something bothered here when one of the monsters Kent defeated spewed out blood. 

The blood of a Vai’len is a bright red despite any health conditions the blood of a Vai’len will always be bright red but it was darker and the blood almost was similar to acid when came into contact with anything that had life.

“This is not much Kent but it has to be something right?” Aisha asked.

 “It is... Lily... Please extract a blood sample from one of the monsters and see if their are any mysteries inside their blood?” Kent asked.

“Im already done Kent and surprise surprise... Their are a lot of surprises inside their DNA... I am sending you the data I have so far but I’ll get back to you once we have more info.” Lily replied. 

The report from the science and medical team was sent to everyone inside the briefing room and the details were confusing. According to the medical report their blood had nano-machine cells fast replicating and primitive type of machine cells. 

It drew in the energy inside the mage’s body and with the right triggering effect the mage’s body will turn into a beast as a result. No knight hermit or scientist on New Dawn or the Entire legion could do such a monstrous thing to their own kin and brother. It would mean death for them if this was to be true but nothing was said and done until more information was found.

It was an absurd amount of machine cells inside their blood that caused the abnormal change. Kent immediately ordered all the personnel of the mage tower to be detained and questioned by the Crusaegrum mind seekers. 

 Aisha was safe because she was at the trainer’s welcoming party several hours before the incident came to be and she was at the Redrdige manner even before the incident transpired.

“Lady Aisha this might take a while but you may want to get some rest in the secure camp... I’ll be with you in a moment.” Kent requested.

“Okay... Just don’t take too long?” Aisha asked as she was escorted to the camp. 

Once she left Kent and the team including some Elite knights nodded as if they noticed something. 

Kent clenched his fist slowly as he smacked the air behind him when they heard a satisfying bone cracking sound. All of a sudden Rex pulled out his vibration knife and started slashing in front of him and the knight elite near the door grabbed something from this air and slammed his fist into the object as its head exploded in a violent gore of blood show. 

“Alert every knight and marine we have infiltrators in the area... Lock down the air space have every ship we have scan for Electro magnetic signatures for any stealth ships...” Kent ordered.

“Yes sir!” The Elites saluted.

“WE are going to need prowl hunters... wait a minute...” Kent stated.

He remembered the Apex prowl Hunters that Kyvash gave him earlier today and remembered that all he needed to call them was a thought and they will come.

With a single thought the ground began to shake as 3 of the Apex Prowl hunters who were taller and have darker scales than their cousin. Their muscles are stronger and their mantis like arms have twin blades that can vibrate intensely causing matter around them to split apart. 

They also have 4 mandible like arms on their backs that can extend for 5 to 6 meters and can puncture 50 inch adamantine reinforced steel walls. The Apex hunters roared as they busted out of the ground and attacked the cloaked assassins with no mercy. 

One of the hunters fired a volley of razor sharp spines from it’s shoulders melting and shredding the assassin into pieces. Another assassin tried to Kill Willow from behind but was easily dealt with by the Hunter’s 4 mandibles that impaled it on the fore head, neck and heart.

With the room cleared the pact leader of the Apex hunters looked at Kent with it’s blood thirsty eyes bowing before it’s master asking what is their orders.

“Kill all assassins within this area that turned the vai’len mages into monsters Do not let them escape no matter what... Protect the civilians near here... that is my order.” Kent said to the apex Hunter.

“By your will Master...” The hunter said as they burrowed into the ground.

“Sir is it right to trust those things?” Rex asked.

“It’s fine... They were given to me by Kyvash and this would be a perfect for them to prove themselves to the legion kingdom... Its about time we gave our allies some credit.” Kent explained.

“Wait boss if these assassins managed to pass our sensor defense grid then who knows how many are in this camp.” Clayton stated.

“Then that means... Oh no... Aisha!” Kent thought as he busted through the door.

Kent rushed to the secured camp site where Aisha stayed in she settled down she used the built in shower. She got into the shower the falling water made it difficult to hear from the outside the young knight rushed to Aisha’s camp. The assassin pulled out his knife in an attempt to stab the mage when Kent opened the door she was not in her chamber. 

Just before the assassin could deal the final blow a blade pierced the assassins chest. Kyvash appeared from the shadows as she leaned towards the assassins ear and open the assassins helmet she partially changed her face into a monstrous nightmare.

“Let’s talk shall we?” Kyvahs whispered.

With a sadistic smile Kyvash placed her hand over the assassin’s mouth and disappeared into the portal. Kent busted down the door looking for the assassin he heard the shower was on as he opened the door to his surprise Aisha was safe and sound.

“KENT WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!” Aisha shouted covering herself at the same time.

“Aisha I... Um...” Kent mumbled.

He stuttered  for the first time in his life when he saw a naked girl specially if the girl he was looking at is the one he loves. Aisha’s face turned beat red as she screamed to the top of her lungs and followed with a thunderous slap to the face. 

Later that evening the two went back to the manner when Chimera and Coralline noticed the hand mark on his face.

“Brother... I?” Chimera asked.

“DON’T... Ask!” Kent said when the mark hurt. 

“I can picture what happened big brother...” Coralline snickered.

“SO how is everyone doing today?” Charlotte asked.

“I am doing great miss Charlotte I am going to start tomorrow as a n instructor.” Emilia said.

“And I will be their to support her since I am already done with my civil duties today so I’m free for an entire week.” Chimera added. 

“I found out that their is another race trying to get their hands on the Vai’len mages so I guess that’s a bonus...” Kent said.

“Kent family rules no business on the dinner table... But I can feel what happened to you today.” Charlotte winked. 

“”“sigh”“ Mom please...” Kent begged.

“I’m sorry Kent I just got surprised... and...” Aisha said as she covered her face.

“See what I mean...” Charlotte giggled. 

“I can take a guess to what happened to you today sis and it’s okay... This is one way for us all to get our relationship into some progress.” Arra stated.

“I am confused...” Kent said.

“You are telling me Father...” Kyvash said through telepathy.

 “What” Kent asked.

“Father don’t be alarmed I am only communicating with you... I am about a minute’s walk away from the ancestral home please be ready.” Kyvash asked.

“Oh right... Mother, Father... I have an important guest that wishes to meet you for the past several months... She will be here in a moment.” Kent said as they moved to the living room.

Everyone was surprised to whom was this person as they moved to the living room Aisha suspected it might be another girl that he wanted to introduce to the family. Arra believed it might be a beast folk that he wished to take care of though their guesses were wild and amazing. 

Meanwhile at the gate of the Redridge manner Kyvash and an entourage of her most elite amongst the elite escorted her to the ancestral house of her family.

“Mother are your sure you wish to go alone?” The Sword Master Troa asked.

“I will be fine Troa... Thank you for your concern but this is one of the safest place on Ren’veil but the Assassin we captured earlier please get as much information as you can if he does not cooperate... Extract the information as painfully as possible.” Kyvash ordered.

“By your will my queen.” Troa replied.

She took a deep breath and knocked three times on the door after a brief moment the young knight welcomed the Queen into his home.

What awaited them was just another step into a brighter tomorrow. 

[jemej3m]

to the moon and back (p1)

a softer high school au because i love high school aus fuck off i know ive written like ten 

also, boys like you (by Who Is Fancy) is a gay vibe and is absolutely the vibe of this fic

part one | part two | part three

Andrew swung his legs from where he was sitting on the picnic table, glaring at Renee sitting beneath him. She grinned with crossed legs, pushing at his feet so they would swing.

Andrew, spiteful as ever, didn’t move unless he had to. Moving was motion and motion caught people’s attention and if Andrew gave him the chance, Kevin would continue to plead with him on refusing to join the exy team.

His brother was on it. His best friends were on it. They played a tonne of cute guys from other schools. That was Kevin’s pathetic attempt at appealing to Andrew, to which Andrew had taken his shiny, new pocket knife and stabbed it into the school cafeteria’s table by Kevin’s clenched fist.

It was only the four at this table - Renee, Kevin, Aaron and himself - who knew about Andrew being gay, and Betsy -- of course.

He’d backed off after that, but Kevin’s cool-down period for pissing Andrew off was irritatingly short. He sat, barely a metre away, looking on at Andrew and Renee silently. Aaron was texting, probably that simpering junior Katelyn. Andrew didn’t like it, but what was he supposed to do about it?

You’re just jealous you don’t have a girlfriend. Aaron had teased him the other week, when Andrew grumbled about his twin’s obsession with the girl. Andrew then sneered about probably being able to fool Katelyn into thinking he was Aaron, and then Betsy had to quell their little cat fight.

They never fought about anything seriously. They’d been thrown into the foster system together at birth, and adopted by Betsy a week after their 10th birthdays. They had fought to survive together: Logically, Andrew knew Katelyn wouldn’t put a divide between something like that. But Aaron was the logical one, and sometimes Andrew couldn’t help but let his anxiety win.

Renee tugged on his sneakers to catch his attention. “How was tutoring yesterday?”

He rolled his eyes with heightened exaggeration. “I got stuck with some kid who’s absolutely abysmal with Literature and History. He can’t drop them, because he’s at the bare minimum, so he’s practically going to be riding me so he can pass all his exams. Typical jock.”

Andrew didn’t add that Neil Josten was hopelessly attractive.

“Well, who is it?” Kevin demanded, in his usual Kevin fashion. He really had no idea how to do anything lightly.

“Neil Josten. Year below us.”

The green-eyed boy looked relieved. “Oh, thank god. Coach was going to kick him off the team if he didn’t focus more on school.”

Wait. What?

“He’s on the fucking exy team.” Andrew muttered under his breath. He couldn’t believe his luck.

“Since when were you on the fucking exy team?” Andrew dropped his things onto the table, not caring about the glowers that other students of the library sent his way for being obnoxiously disruptive.

Andrew is often obnoxiously disruptive in class, but performs extremely well in examinations. He must do a lot of studying at home to achieve that result: He might find that he would have plenty of leisure time if he just listened in class, rather than talking to other students or sleeping.

His report comments were always interesting, as were Betsy’s reactions.

Neil flinched at the noise, which was new. Then he shrugged, avoiding Andrew’s gaze. “Since I started.”

“Right.” Andrew drawled. “And you didn’t think to mention it to me, considering we’re trying to improve your grades to keep you on said team?”

“Sorry.” Neil muttered.

He paused. The boy was awfully withdrawn for an unknown reason: Neil Josten was all spitfire and burning scorn, with bouncing red curls, ice-like blue eyes and freckled cheeks, marred by horrific scarring. He told people it was surgery and acne. That was bullshit: It had to be. “I didn’t want an apology. I want a reason why.”

He shrugged again. “You hate Kevin Day. I didn’t think it would be a good idea to mention him.”

Andrew snorted. “Kevin’s been one of my closest friends since middle school. But I do hate him. He sucks all the way to the moon and back. He wont shut the fuck up about exy because we used to play together.”

“You did?” Neil shot up, the spark somewhat returning to his eye. “You play exy?”

“No.” Andrew told the one-track minded jock. “Get your work out. I’m giving up my time for a reason.”

Neil rolled his eyes. “You volunteered for it.”

No, he didn’t. He was avoiding detention. He told Neil so, but the boy still smirked.

“You still chose to tutor me that sit in a room on your own, which I thought was more your style.”

“Fuck off.” Andrew said decidedly and poked him in the cheek with a pen. Neil scrubbed it off quickly, looking worriedly at the ink coming off on his fingers. Andrew forced himself not to care.

Neil was truly hopeless with these subjects. He might be fluent in multiple others and a natural with mathematic equations, but trying to wrack his brain for anything he could remember about King Lear or the Treaty of Versailles was like getting a stone to bleed.

By the time the hour was over, Andrew’s head hurt. Despite the obvious aggravation Neil caused, he couldn’t get himself to give it up. Neil was too interesting.

When they left the library it was dark outside and the last stragglers like themselves were being shooed off campus. Andrew marched straight to his car. It was excessively expensive, due to the twins receiving their mother’s life inheritance and an extra tidbit from Betsy. They’d never met her: they just knew she was estranged from her brother and the rest of her family, which was why they’d received the money instead.

When Neil didn’t follow, he paused to call out to him. “Junkie.” He’d been dropping Neil home after every session thus far. Something had changed.

Neil didn’t look at him. “I’ve got a few errands to run.”

Andrew didn’t press it and left Neil standing alone and dejected on the sidewalk.

“Cut the shit. What’s going on?”

Andrew stayed behind the doorway, listening to the conversation. Wymack wasn’t a gentle person, but this was his compassionate side at work: Pulling his athletes aside and getting to the bottom of their problems. He claimed it was to make sure they lived up to his expectations on court, but that was bullshit. Wymack was an absolute grouch of a softy.

“I’m fine, coach.” Neil said. Typical.

“Bullcrap. You could barely keep up with Kevin this morning, and you’re usually running your little heart out, way ahead of him. What’s wrong.”

A moment of pause.

“Nothing, coach. Just a late night.”

Andrew, Wymack and Neil all knew that they could see right through his lies. Well, Wymack and Neil didn’t know he was there. But that was besides the point.

“Scram, Josten.” He said tiredly.

Andrew vanished before Neil had the chance to flee the man’s office. It didn’t need any convincing: Andrew was going to get to the bottom of the stupid, pretty-faced Exy junkie’s strange behaviour.

It was a new, perplexing puzzle to solve. Andrew stopped his jog a distance away from the coach’s office and watched the boy cross the courtyard. Neil glanced at him only once before ducking his head and running off.

Andrew was only doing this because Neil was interesting. Not because he cared. No, not at all.

“Come here.” Andrew snapped.

It was a bad day. He’d woken up in an awful mood, and nothing could improve it. Small, usually insignificant events had turned his mood from sour to volatile and he was itching to get home and into bed, turn off the lights and hide under the covers with Aaron and play on their old Nintendos until Betsy joined them with hot cocoa and marshmallows. Every gaze upon him was sickening, every noise around him making him wince.

Neil, despite his harsh words and reprimands throughout the hour, hadn’t seemed afraid of him. He looked exhausted but not scared as he approached Andrew’s hunched figure on the hood of his car.

Carefully, Neil took the cigarette from between Andrew’s fingers and looked at it, almost melancholic. When it began to wither away, he took a drag and coaxed it slowly back to life. He breathed out slowly, without coughing or choking. Then he slotted the cigarette back between Andrew’s unmoving fingers.

Fuck you. He thought, bitterly. He thought about Drake, his first boyfriend, and how he had ruined everything for Andrew. Maybe he wouldn’t be so scared to kiss Neil, if it weren’t for Drake. Maybe he’d be finally comfortable with his sexuality, if it weren’t for Drake. Maybe he would be able to go through a school day without being terrified for Aaron’s safety if it weren’t for Drake. He would never had needed to lie to Aaron and Betsy, if it weren’t for Drake.

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, his mind continued. Neil was looking at him with a blank stare. “Give me one good reason not to cut your throat.”

“You called me over here.” He reminded Andrew. Andrew wanted to sneer, but he was spread too thin today. “Andrew, I’m not scared of you.”

“You’re so stupid.” He ground out.

“Maybe.” Neil agreed.

“Why haven’t you asked what’s wrong?” He demanded, stubbing out his cigarette. His back was hurting from sitting like this, but being on the car’s hood gave him a height advantage over Neil. Neil had to crane his neck up to see him, but he was still unafraid. “Everyone asks what’s wrong.”

“I already know something’s wrong.” Neil shrugged. “I don’t need to know what, or why.”

They were very different, then. Neil was complacent to exist, to have everything at face-value, to accept what he was given and never take more. Andrew was deprived of so much that he grabbed for what he could. Two different methods of coping. Two different boys.

And yet, the same sense of understanding, shared between them.

“Let me drive you home.” Andrew said.

“I can’t.” Neil replied.

Andrew nodded and dismissed him with a flick of his fingers. He watched Neil walk away and didn’t move until he was well out of his sight. Then he sighed, hopped off the car and spent the drive home thinking of an excuse as to why he was later than usual for his adoptive mother.

It never worked. He almost always told her the truth.

There were three taps on his bedroom door the next morning, a Saturday morning, which wasn’t what woke Andrew: It never was. His meds made him sleep extremely heavily, which would be sickeningly dangerous if he wasn’t living in a house with only his mother and his brother.

What awoke him was the smell of hot chocolate being brought into the room, and the shrill tone of the home phone’s end dial. He hated that fucking thing, but Betsy needed it because she couldn’t use her mobile for work-related emergencies. His eyes flickered open as his mom settled the mug by his bed.

“Thanks.” He mumbled into the pillow.

“Feeling steadier?” Betsy stroked his hair carefully, knowing that was all she was allowed to do.

He nodded. She smiled gently and offered him the phone. “A friend of yours called. He said to call him back.”

Andrew sat up too quickly, considering he’d skipped dinner. His mouth tasted like July roadkill, having not drunk any water since midafternoon yesterday and his head throbbed. It was all familiar. He snatched the phone and pouted underneath Betsy’s shrewd look. She poked his nose and left the bedroom just as quickly as she’d entered.

The only ‘friend’ Andrew had who didn’t have his mobile number was Neil - mostly because Neil didn’t have a phone himself, but also because asking to talk outside of their tutoring sessions would be admitting to his interest in Neil, which was, obviously, completely crap. Andrew couldn’t care less about him.

“Come to my Exy game.” Neil said, before Andrew’d had the chance to ask him what the fuck did he think he was doing, and how the fuck he got this number. “Ple-” He cut himself off.

Andrew almost forgot they’d had that conversation.

“That’s a lot of please’s in one sentence.” Neil remarked, looking at the practise exam questions for his lit. exam. Andrew snatched the paper off him and looked: The excerpt was two sentences from some random book he’d never heard of. He got a pen and scribbled it out with more aggression than intended.

“You don’t have to do that question.” He decided, re-centring himself easily.

“What did ‘Ballad to Impress’ do to you?” Neil snorted.

“I hate that word.” He answered. “Don’t do the question.”

The boy just nodded. “Okay.”

“Why the fuck am I going to come to your Exy game?”

“I’ll tell you anything you want to know. Just come.”

Now that caught Andrew’s attention. “One question and one honest answer.”

“Yes.” He sounded nervous. “It starts in half an hour: It’s a home game. Will you be there?”

Andrew had to admit, Neil was impossible to deny. “Yes, junkie.”

He let out a sigh of relief, as though he’d been holding it in. “Okay. Thank you.”

“Shut up.” Andrew hung up.

He threw the phone off the bed and flopped back, staring at the ceiling, his mind and heart simultaneously racing.

He definitely hated Neil Josten. So much. All the way to the moon and back.  

:)

[prceteritus-a]

@hopegained asked:  ship: THEM bc i am Curious and i wanna bother u

Ship Meme || Not accepting!!

Under read more due to size!

- How do they fall asleep? Wake up? Any daily rituals? Most times they end up falling asleep with each other and waking up with Rayquelle in Eron’s hold due to the nightmares she has she seeks the comfort and warmth! DAILY RITUALS UH YEAH they try to go out at least once a day and have a ‘date’ and stargaze. It’s a way for them to relax, be in each others presence but not have to worry about others.

- How’s their team work? Do they share well? Ray is a very independent woman but since joining the resistance she has had to partake inmore team activities. Eron understands her Hesitance and works with it or around it so they can get their task done without making her uncomfortable. 

- Are they open about their relationship? How do they feel about public displays of affection? Ok so this is a big thing. In the beginning stages of their relationship no one knows hell not even they really do. Eron needs alot of trust because of the walls around him and the second layer around his heart and Ray respects that. He tore hers down before she go into his so thats something she has to accept. They don’t really come out about their relationship I think ever it just kind of becomes natural and people start to see the looks in their eyes when they look at each other. Public display of affection follows the same rules and I actually think Eron is the first to break that (I answered an ask like this) Where he would have to make the conscious decision to partake in PDA.

- First impression of each other? Was it love at first sight? NO IT WAS NOT! So when they first met they payed no mind to each other however, they don’t really count it because it wasn’t anything big it was her introduction to the resistance when she was found. The real start for them was when he found her stargazing in a spot he thought no one knew about. Eron was probably unfazed at her but Ray was curious. He looked scary, not gonna lie maybe mean? But biggest of all. he looked almost... like he’d seen so much and it hurt him and she wanted to alleviate that because she too had that for herself.

- Nicknames? Pet names? Any in-jokes? Ray for Eron: Love,Babe, Baby, Eldin, Honey, Dear, and her favorite My Stars Eron for Ray: Love, Babe, Baby,  (I’m sure more but YOU WONT GIVE ME MORE ALKDJ:LK)

- Any tasks that are always left to one person? Cooking is Ray’s thing she will fight for that!

- What annoys them the most about their partner? Would they change it if they could? N O T H I N G! Both Ray and Eron treasure the other faults and all the only changes they want are to themselves. ( Ray also hates sometimes how he’s so tall she has to ask him to bend down for kisses sometimes)

- What do the like best about their partner? WOW uhm Ray loves everything but his heart is the best. He has been through so much seen so much yet still trusts her like he does and loves her like he does and that warms her to the core of her being. She wouldn’t trade it for the world.Now for Eron I don’t know if it’s what he likes best but i feel like it’s along the lines of a similar thing. She’s been a child of abuse and was flat out kidnapped yet still gives him so much even on her worst days. She always shows him hes loved and cared for and makes it known she treasures him above all else.

- Do they discuss big issues? Religion? Marriage? Children? Death? Yes they do. They’ve discussed marriage and children especially. They both would like them and also don’t want them.

- Who drives? Cooks? Does the handiwork? Cleans? Pays the bills? Handles the public? Drives; either Cooks; Ray Handiwork; either but usually Eron Clean; Both Pays the bills; Both handles the public; either

- Do they celebrate holidays? Anniversaries? RAY IS A FIRM BELIEVER IN HOLIDAYS YOU BET YOUR ASS ERON GETS SPOILED ON BIRTHDAYS WITH BOTH SEX AND FOOD AND PRESENS AND ON THEIR ANNIVERSARY OMG SHE GOES MAD WITH IT. She believes everyday you should celebrate your partner on days like those shes got the right to be everywhere with it

- Is there a wedding? What was the proposal like? Any kind of honeymoon? S o weddings. Ray wants to marry Eron thats a fact. Will the get married? Thats a hard question because i feel like in the canon verse they never feel really a NEED too. They dont need a ring to tell them that they love each other. But in any AU with them as a ship or in a verse where they do get married. They don’’t want anything big only those important to them  their marriage is for them not their friends and family. Its about them giving themselves to each other. The proposal would be cute and heartfelt and could be as simple as Eron kissing her neck and just “I want to marry you...” or her after a night of him grounding her form a nightmare she just “I want you and me forever... let’s get married Eron”  The honeymoon? They dont need fancy yet again just each other. Take it as an excuse to give it all into each other with no interruptions

- What do they do for fun? Do they have a favorite activity or do they like to switch things up? THey both stargaze, Love shooting blaster, she loves just domestic cuddling , and they always when able eat together

- Anything they both dread? Becoming those they hate and losing those they love honestly those are the biggest. Ray’s TRUEST fear is Embrent will return and kill eron and force her back under his thumb

- How adventurous are they? Eron more so than Rayquelle haha I could see him guiding her around her hand in his as they explore things though

- Do they keep secrets? Lie? Cheat? Rayquelles poker face is absolute shit. 

- What would make them break up? Would it be permanent? UHM HONESTLY THE FEARS BECOMING TOO MUCH AND EVEN THEN THEY’RE BOTH LOYAL AF SO IDK IFIT WOULD RESULT IN A BREAK UP

- What are their dates like? How long do/did they date? Do they ever feel the need to take a break from each other? The dates they have are usually very mellow and no stress consisting of mainly stargazing or holovids and cuddling.

- What do they fight about? What are their arguments like? How do they make up? Arguments are almost none existent minor little battles of wit do happen but for the most part full arguments don’t! BUT on the occasion they do they get alittle emotional. Make up consists of lots of just quality time. maybe some sex who knows.

- What does their home look like? Their room? Their home thanks to Ray is clean and tidy with a set spot for everything! The same applies for their room.Their things are in no set sides of room for the most part its where ever it works

- Do they share any interests or hobbies? GUNS, KNIVES, STARGAZING, BEING PARENTS TO JAEDEN AND EVELLYN HAHA

- Does their work ever interfere with the relationship? Not in a serious method. It does spark some fear in both parties and there are nights where they get genuinely upset the other isn't there and have a horrible time sleeping. Unable to get a lick.

- How do they hug? Kiss? Tease? Flirt? Comfort? listen they just soft bbs

- Any doubts about the relationship? Both have doubts because of their history but never about each other. The doubts stem of “They will leave me like everyone else” in Eron’s head and Ray is scared she will lose him like she lost her parents. The minute comfort finds her Embrent returns and kills Eron in front of her. But in Eron himself? She knows he loves her undoubtedly and that he will always. Now she can only hope he knows she feels the same. 

- How much time do they spend together? Do they share their feelings, or hold things in?

- How do their friends feel about their relationship? Their families? Leia and Luke I imagine love that they’re so good for each other. Family on Ray’s front wel uhm.... like i said leia approves haha. Everyone in the base loves it because it softened Eron and brought Ray out more and shes more sociable.

- Do they have kids? Grow old together? Split up? Well N love we both are kill happy for them in TROS SOOOOOO but i do want to write them being parents be it au or whatever UPDATE THEY HAVE A SON AND A DAUGHTER JAEDEN AND EVELLYN

- What are their vacations like? Together literally thats the thing. A vacation for them could be their bedroom. As long as they’re together

- How do the handle disasters or emergencies? Minor injuries? Sickness? RAY INSTANT PANIC ON EMERGENCIES! They are both nurses when the other is sick haha

- Could they manage a long distance relationship? IT WOULD WRECK THEM they probs could but like alot of them is physical interaction and with her nightmares it would wreck eron watching that with nothing he could do to help. Ray loves to hug and cuddle him to tell him she LOVES him and not doing that and watching him have a rough patch? nope wrecked

- Do they finish each other’s sentences? Pick up any phrases or habits from each other? Know when the other is hiding something? They know when the other is hiding something eron especially but ray has gotten good at noticing for him. Another thing is with finishing sentences. Eron could probably but he doesnt engage in it much but shell do it whenever she can!

- Do they ever get into trouble? Is it serious, or are they just mischievous? They dont get into trouble really

- What kind of presents do they get each other? Do they only do it on special occasions? Ray gives presents when she feel like it tbh. They range from hobby based to food and anything in between. If she thinks of eron when she sees it its gift material.

- Do they have any pets? Eron best get his woman her own BB unit

- Do they bring out the best in each other, or the worst? Do they have a fatal flaw? he brings out in ray allowing her to open up and she the best in him because they are actually

- What’s their greatest strength as a couple? Their weakness? The weakness is how much they self doubt themselves. they rely so heavily on each other that it may be SEVERELY detrimental if one dies

- How much would they be willing to sacrifice for the other? Any lines they refuse to cross? they would kill and die for another

- What are they like in the bedroom? Any kinks/fetishes/turn-ons? Anything they won’t do? They both have a think for oral so there’s a fair bit of it haha. Ray has an immense thing for praise in the bedroom so often when they have sex its very personal and intimate full of declarations of love and eron calling her a good girl ;) they can get kinky but like thats a whole other think im sure

- Who initiated the relationship? Who kissed who first?  When did they realize they were in love? Uhm ray accidently confessed so she started it, Eron probably kissed her first one of the they just stared at lips until someone took that plunge

- Any special memories? Do they have a special place they like to go to? Ray wants to take him to what she was told was her home so she can find out more about her childhood. Other than that none that i can think of in terms of places. OH! Their stargazing spot!!! Special memories though their first time kissing, with each other intimately, ALSO A memory eron will never forget is walking in on his lady cooing to their daughter promissing her so much in life.

- Are they party-goers? What are they like when they’re drunk? Does it happen often? They aren’t big party goers but they still enjoy a good drink with friends. Ray is HYPERSEXUAL when drunk and kind of a hyperactive person

- Do they let each other get away with things that would normally bother them? HAHAHAHnope they will not hesitate to call shit out

- Do they talk often? yes!

- Are the comfortable with each other? Anything they have to have their privacy for? They trust each other with their life and most things are open but there may be nights where they need the privacy on emotions and just need to be in their mind for a bit. the other always respects it.

- Any special dreams or goals they have as a couple? Any heartbreaks? Regrets? heartbreaks and regrets are still up in the air with them they still have time to grow but dreams? well ray wants to have a family. which they later get.

[silverwing2522]

The Red Death

When i first met Arkady, i was struck by his tragedy. He was known as a serial killer, but the truth behind it was untold. Due to his mutation, anyone in the vicinity of him would fall sick, weaken and eventually die. First his family, and his childhood friends. Everywhere he went, people died. He didnt know why, but he knew it was his fault. It drove him mad. He gave in and stopped fighting who he thought he was. A killer. He learned to only accept it, but to find power and joy in it.

But that power, that joy is tainted. It's a lie, told to comfort himself. Because the truth was, he could never truly experience true love or happiness.

He thought he could, with me.

My memory of that time is hazy, part of a curse i'm under that took away the memory of my soulmate. The intention being to seperate me from ironfist and weaken our partnership. But he wasnt my soulmate everyone was lead to believe. It was a man nicknamed Sabretooth. And the consequences of wiping my memory of him, spanned wider and further than one couldve imagined.

Now here i am, investigating a series of mysterious deaths of the animals in a reverse.

I pick up his scent, and the stench of death lingers with it. But not of the animals he has killed, but of his own. My beloved Red is dying.

I was immune to his mutation. My counteracted his and we lived in tandem. He fed on the life force of living beings and i fed on their death and decay of their remains. His skin was white and mine was jet black. His eyes were red and mine glowed a bright blue. His hair was blonde and mine a dark red. I was his Tsarina and he was my Red.

I doted on him and every morning i was around him, i would style his hair for the day. It was our routine. And it meant everything to him, that little morning ritual.

As i squatted besides Danny and listened to him examine the animal corpses and bloody trails surrounding them, i knew i had to do something. I needed to protect Red. Just like i always did.

I did everything i could that day to knock them off their track. Danny and the reserve park rangers. I used my empathic powers to make them doubt crucial moves and decisions, so that they would go in completely the wrong direction. I could feel Red, i knew he was somewhere nearby, i kept track of his scent, using it to hone where he was, so i could find him later.

When the sun went down, they gave up the search for the night. I followed them silently back. They didnt talk to me anyway, both focussed on working it out together. That was always Danny's' fallacy, he would always underestimate what i could do. He would take things on to himself more and very rarely reach out for my help. He liked to isolate himself. I didnt mind, because im the same way. I understand.

There were times where i could feel like he wanted to, but he would then retreat back into himself. I had no interest in prodding him about it. My attitude was, if he wanted to talk - he'd talk.

Later when we were in bed and he was sound asleep next to me, i crept outside.

I had very little on. Just my nightgown, snow boots and long hooded brown fur coat. I was built to endure, so the cold and snow bothered me very little. I marched on, into the woods following the sickly scent.

Eventually i found the end. A shack, rotten and falling apart. The door was left ajar, so i opened it carefully and stepped inside.

It was dark, and i could hear coughing and groaning in the back room. My Red!

"Red....?"

The noises stopped and everything went very still and quiet.

"Red...it's me. It's Sessa. I'm coming in."

I gently walked to the back bedroom and i could see through the crack of the door a faint light from a camping lantern. It cast a soft glow across the floor. A couple of bed springs creaked as he moved off the bed.

"Tsarina?! <is it really you?>", his voice strained and he leaned against the door as it opened against his weight. I caught him before he fell.

"Da! <i am here. I am here now. I was nearby earlier when i caught your scent. I was with iron fist at the time so couldnt come sooner>"

"I missed you Tsarina."

His arms circled around my waist as he held onto me. I lowered him to sit back on the bed and he slumped on his side against the mattress and pillows. All the linens were old and well worn, and it was icy cold in the room. Is this where my Red was to die?

Yes.

There was nowhere else he could be. No where else he could go.

And out of everyone who lived on this planet, only i could be the one to be here with him, right now. To comfort him in his last remaining hours. He was so weak and in so much pain.

I looked around his room and saw the remains of animals he had killed. I tucked him into bed and i burnt and consumed the animal remains in the blue fire of my demonic power. When i finished i sat beside him on the bed and took his hands and passed on some of the resurrection power i hold in me. His Carbonadium coils came out of his wrists and wrapped themselves around my arms.

"<what are you doing?>", he enquired.

"<Just a little bit of life. It wont last long, but maybe enough for us to say goodbye.>"

His coils circled around my waist and i could feel his strength returning a little. He brushed his hand down the side of my face, catching my chin in his thumb and forefinger, he brought my face nearer to his.

Our lips met for the second time in the space we had known each other. And i was felt the yielding, wanting tenderness as he kissed me. His fingertips sought through my hair, holding my head close to his. He turned us over to our side on the bed and his legs entwined with mine.

The blood in my veins raced round my body as my heart broke into a millions pieces at his touch. The shape of him felt familar, as did the intense warmth between us. I wanted more, and i could sense he wanted the same.

He pushed the coat to expose my torso, and ran his tongue down the front of my neck, down the valley between my breasts, towards my stomach. I arched my back and shrugged my arms out of my coat. I held tightly onto the back of his head as he moved lower. I ached so much for his touch. It reminded me of something, but i couldnt place what. In the end i let myself go.

Two hours later we laid side by side, panting, intensely staring at each other. I could feel his strength being to wane. It wasnt going to be long now.

"Tsarina, you must do something for me."

"What?"

"<Please bear my child. Let me live on, with you. Please. I dont want my life to be in vain. I want to leave at least one good thing behind. Then i...Then i can rest in peace.>"

I knew already there was a 50/50 chance of that happening anyway, after what we just done.

He pleaded and i saw the look of despair and desperation in his eyes. It wasnt up to me, it either would happen or it would not. Mother nature would make the decision, not me.

But now was not the time for realism.

"<yes my love, i will have your child and i will raise them with the knowledge of how much you wanted and loved them. And i will do my best to honour that.> "

His hand rested on my cheek and he closed his eyes with a sigh.

"I missed you."

"I missed you too."

I had, i had missed him. I remembered feeling something but not being able to develop it. Keeping it at the back of my mind, pushing it away. I loved him, there was no denying it now. It comes in many forms, and my love for Arkady came from a place of compassion and pure empathy.

Both of us has been made to be monsters. Both of us had been denied things we needed to survive. Both of us craved deep down for a better life than the one we had been given.

Maybe now i can give that to him. Maybe.

He shuffled closer and rested his head against the side of my neck and his hand on my chest - over my heart. It beat into his palm, and every time it got softer and softer as i felt his life force ebb away. I felt it coming long before he did. And i was ready. I was making peace with it, as he clung onto me sobbing into my shoulder. I held him close to me and shushed him. He felt like a child, scared of the dark. I dove into his emotions and erased the fear and took the pain away. And i felt him slip away, along with the happiness i instilled within him empathically.

I held his body against mine for a little while longer, before i moved away. Then i put on my coat and took him outside to be buried. I broke off two pieces of wood from the shack and made a cross. I finished the burial by scratching his name into the wood and plunging it into the ground.

May my Red Tsar forever find his peace.

But i felt hollow inside and my head felt full of sorrow. I trudged back down the snowy slope, through the trees i whispered his name.

"Arkady..."

When i got back to the cabin, i went straight to the bedroom. Danny was stirred from his slumber and saw me standing there, with tears overflowing down my cheeks.

He rose and hugged me. He felt so warm, so alive. He felt and smelt of home. And i fell into him and sobbed my heart out. He held onto me tighter. And i whispered that it was Omega Red who had been behind the animal killings. He was dying, and i was protecting him and now...now he's dead.

He didnt say anything. He didnt need to, he just held me and i felt he understood.

I felt cold with death inside me. And it hurt so much. I started to shiver in his arms.

He put me to bed and wrapped me up against his body. He felt so warm, so nice. He felt like home.

I kissed him.

I kissed him again and he kissed me back.

We moved together, and he removed my nightgown. He filled me with warmth and life. He engorged me with light and with the feeling of love.

Neither of us knew where this came from, or even why we wanted this so much. We were friends, nothing more.

Werent we?!

No. We were more. So much more. I needed this. I needed him. And i felt his intense need for me, for this.

We didnt stop, we continued on, touching, kissing, pushing and pulling one another along. His hands trailing across my skin, setting it on fire. My lips trembling against his. Our moans in chorus - a sweet melody we made.

We melded together, and i felt a rising within me. Like an explosion of everything in the universe coming to a climax deep within.

To say we saw stars was an understatement. We came in unison. And everything changed for us after that night.

[xinsonyax]

i’ve actually been debating this for a while, because it is so personal i feel like i shouldn’t even be talking about it without receiving pity, which is not something i want, i feel i just need to rant and tumblr might just be the perfect place to do that. My name is actually not important, nor is my outside looks, that’s what i believe anyway, this story to me is something i never wanted to tell but here i am trying to find some type of relief. In 2016 i found out i have this syndrome called POTS (weird name i know) it is actually something to do with my heart and blood and how they don’t work properly, the syndrome itself is not dangerous (i’m not gonna die or anything) but the symptoms and side affects of it are, for example this syndrome causes me to faint and when i say faint i mean totally black out for a few seconds (a minute tops) and trust me it is the scariest thing, to feel great one second and the next you are waking up on the floor with no idea with what happened.  It actually all connects to the incidents i had when i was younger. It all started when i was 8, i was a very lively kid i lived in a small village and i thought i had the perfect life, at one point that year my knee caps popped out of the sockets and dislocated themselves tearing up all the joints holding the knee in place, from that day forward i had to be careful with how i walk, sit, crouch or move at all basically, i had then visited 5 different doctors who had said 5 different things, one suggested that everything is fine while others had never seen it before, until we found the doctor who seemed to know what was wrong, i have soft knee tissues and really flexible muscles, so since 2009 to 2013 i have been trying to build up those muscles in order to make them bigger and stronger which would then hopefully stop my knee from popping out again, unfortunately that didn’t happen because at the hospital where i was doing my exercises my knee had popped out and stayed out, dislocated. My doctor was an hour and a half away in the other town hospital from where we were now, my mum and my uncle drove me there while i was quite literally balling my eyes out, as we arrived he had to put the knee back himself and i don’t think i’ve ever felt that bad of a pain in my life, he then proceeded to tell me that the monitored exercises are working anymore and i will have to have surgery, which did end up happening on 30th January 2014, i spent a week in the hospital eating horrible food and listening to old people snoring and a little girl screaming due to not wanting to go to sleep. When that was over and i was out of the hospital i spent 2 weeks on crutches, great fun, i had returned to school in hope everything would fix itself later. Things did get better but then april/may time came and my mum had announced that herself and my dad are planning on us moving to another country, i was shocked and angry for a while but i soon realized that perhaps my future would be better somewhere else. My friends from school threw me a going away party and a few days after i boarded a plane with my family and flew to England. Upon arriving i realized i knew no one here and the fear of not fitting in grew larger, January 2015 came and was starting school, luckily i knew the language so i was able to progress quicker than i thought i had made friends but before actually coming to school, exactly a week after i fainted 3 times that week, going to see the doctor they said it might be because i moved from a small village into big town and the change could be too much, we actually left it at that and didn’t even think about it until later. A year went by and things were looking up but February 2016 my left knee cap had popped out and i was scared i was going to be facing the same thing again, surgery.  I spent 4 months in a cast, not moving my leg at all, which was horrible by the way, i couldn’t even go to school, i had teachers coming to my house and after the cast was taken off i felt as if i forgot how to walk so then the doctor recommended i start exercising and building my muscles because he feels like it is possible to still fix things.  It was 2 weeks later i had fainted in school for the first time, in a small class room full of teachers, the ambulance came and ran a few tests, my blood sugar was low and my heart rate high, they didn’t understand so they took me to the hospital to run more tests and everything seemed to be fine, while in reality it really wasn’t i began to faint every single day, sometimes i would faint twice in one day and the chest pains after waking up were horrible, i felt as if i could breathe. Summer was coming closer and my parents promised to take me and my brother back to the village to see everyone, which they did, we spent 11 days there and not once did i faint, it was weird i know... 2 weeks after we came back home i was back to fainting everyday, in September we were finally seeing a real doctor and he could run some other tests to see what is wrong. He ended up doing 3 different tests, 1-he monitored my heart for 24 hours 2-tilt table test 3- i cant remember what it was but something to do with blood i think. When the results came back he then explained that i have syndrome that affect the heart, muscles and blood. My heart beats too fast for my body to comprehend, which means it pumps more blood around which means the muscles need to work properly to send the blood up to my brain, but they don’t because they are weak, if the brain doesn’t have enough blood and oxygen then it shuts the body down and creates like re-start for it. The scary thing is, before i used to have symptoms like sweaty hand and a headache would form just before i faint so i know to quickly sit down so i don’t fall and hurt myself but lately it just happens without any warning. I take 16 pills a day to try and slow the heart down and it is helping, i am now 16 (turning 17 this april 2018) and i’m slowly accepting that maybe i just have to live with this, but apparently there is a small chance of this stopping when i’m 18 but if not then i’m ready. i know that my problem is nothing compared to what others maybe going through but it feels so good to just write it out. i wont even begin to talk about how this affected my social life because it is painful to know i cant do certain things like others can... thank you for reading my story x -   

[eelliescott]

My Direction

I decided to look a little closer to home and take inspiration on what was going on around me in the world. As it currently stands we are in ‘lockdown’, majority of us are isolating due to ‘COVID-19′, only leaving our homes for essential supermarket trips and one form exercise per day. Our freedom to roam freely, visit our friends/family has been snatched away from us. Summer getaways to bask in the sun are cancelled, Gigs/festivals are postponed, we are living in a time of uncertainty with nothing to focus on other than trying to keep our bodies & minds healthy. During this time, where I am restricted, no work or uni, it is easy to fall into a negative mind space, trapped between the same four walls day in day out and I’m sure lots of people worldwide would agree. In the midst of all the negativity that is surrounding us, there has been some positives from this situation. Firstly due to the dramatic decrease in cars on the road, not many factories running, transport restricted, the earths pollution (particularly above china)has slightly improved... 

‘Orbital instruments designed to monitor air quality picked up a substantial drop in concentration of nitrogen dioxide (NO2) pollution since January. NO2 is a harmful substance emitted by gas vehicles, power plants and other machines that burn fossil fuels.  The decline is likely related to an economic slowdown and travel restrictions in China since the virus became widespread, according to a statement from NASA Earth Observatory.’ Rafi Letzter February 2020.

I think that bit of news is somewhat refreshing, yes we are all staying indoors feeling a bit crazy, but Mother Earth is reeping in the rewards. Ultimately I feel as though we will see pollution levels decrease in other areas of the world as well, as after all we are in lockdown and as we are slowly creeping upon the point of no return in regards to climate change, I think this is a small bit of news we can all get on board with. Personally I was surprised by this news, surprised that actually in a matter of weeks we could reduce pollution, just like that. Hopefully this makes the task of looking after our Earth less daunting & people make more of a conscious effort after all this mayhem, to keep trying to reduce pollution, slow down climate change, after all we only get one chance. This leads me on to say that I feel as though sustainability will be at the top of a lot of peoples agendas, creating less waste, travelling less, walking more, as we have had a bit of a rude awakening as to how easily our livelihoods can be snatched away from us, people wont want to risk this again, we will all be taking extra precautions to look after The Earth and ourselves.

In addition to this, people are taking this time to really focus on themselves. At time were we are all under strict limitations from the government, we are being forced to keep ourselves sane using what we have available at home. To help people adjust to this new temporary way of life, self care is definitely on the rise. With the fear of getting ill & the luxuries of life being taking away, people are a-lot more conscious of how they are looking after their mind and bodies. After doing a bit of snooping on the app store, I found that fitness apps, meditation apps (such as headspace),  along with educational apps were all sitting within the Top 50. To me this supports my point of people being more conscious of looking after themselves. Again I think this is a positive outlook, rather than sitting around all day, worrying, people are actively trying to keep their spirits high. 

In regards to my points made, I would like to create some sort of look book/journal for a future trend. I have no doubt that what we are experiencing now will have a knock on effect in the fashion industry, we will all learn from this. We will not take anything for granted, healing our bodies & minds, will be a heavy focus, after having so much time being able to do this during this scary time period, we will want to ensure we are keeping up with looking after ourselves, when our normal lives resume. I have begun researching future trends on LSN & WGSN which support my direction, which I will go into more in depth in the next few posts. In addition to this I am going to research into what I can personally see people are doing at home, by looking at influencers, popular phone Apps which may indicate people looking after themselves a little more.

WHAT STEPS I AM GOING TO TAKE

In order for me to make sure I am covering all the ground needed to create my final outcome, I am going to go through step my step how I am going to get there and WHY I am doing these steps. This post will be useful for you to understand where I am going to end up & useful for me to refer back to should I need to.

1. Research, Research, Research. As I am creating a look book on a future trend, it’s crucial that I do a lot of research to support my direction, I need to ensure that all of my choices that I make in my final outcome are backed up with evidence throughout my blog, my choices also need to match my trend.

I will research into AW 21/22 trends on LSN & WGSN, both of these sources will provide me with in depth information about future trends that I can dissect & apply to my trend. The information I gather from these sites will allow me to back up my direction & show that my narrative has a point to it. I will research into:

Colours

Silhouettes

Prints & Texture

Materials

Influences

These areas will give me the materials to start building up imagery for my look book, they are also the areas which make up a trend, they are all different for every trend we see, so it is crucial I put in the research to understand my direction.

Layout research is an important part to my plan of action. I think it will benefit me to have a look at a mix of different zines & look books, to help me decide how I want mine to look like. It will also be useful for me to select out a few examples, that I could refer back to if I struggle with creating my layout. It will be interesting for me to look at how layouts differ depending on the type of aesthetic you are trying to aim for, again this type of research will allow me to understand what my look book should look like. I am going to look into zine layouts, graphic designers, influencers.

Since I am creating a look book for a future trend influenced from our current situation (UK lockdown, due to COVID-19) I am going to conduct research which supports my point that people are learning how to slow down & really taking time to focus on themselves (mental & physical wellbeing), alongside learning to live with less, as right now we don’t really have a choice- we will see this change of mindset continue into the coming years. To support my statement of what we are going through now will influence our future, I am going to do some research into some influencers that I follow on Instagram, which are documenting how they are coping with this new way of living & how they are taking care of themselves. In addition to this, I would like to create a market survey to see what people think is going to happen after this pandemic is over & how they are adapting to it now.

Finally to bulk out my research, I am going to look back at previous trends and look into what influenced them and why. It will be interesting to see what our trends have been over the years & compare them to where our trends are heading in the next few years. I think we will see a complete contrast, we are about to make a 180 spin away from Fast Fast Fast fashion to a much slower pace & appreciation for longevity.

2. Creating my Look Book. Before I start putting my Look book together, I need to fully understand my trend- hence why the research comes first.

I also need to work out the structure of my look book along with the whole aesthetic/mood. I know I want my look book to feel somewhat like a ‘journal’ with little snippets of diary entries throughout, which are related to being in isolation. I feel this will help set the tone & allow the reader to understand a little further why we are seeing this trend. The layout & mood will also come after I have done further research.

I will gather imagery as I research, so that when it comes to selecting my imagery I have a large selection to choose from. I would like to use a mix between fashion imagery & aesthetic imagery, as I feel like it is more interesting to the reader to see diverse images & allows them to understand what I am trying to communicate to them further.

Natalie introduced me to ‘EPUB’ files which you can create on photoshop, I am going to use this type of file to create GIF’s for my look book. As I have mentioned I really want to push my communication skills in this module, pushing my CAD skills further will assist me in doing this, this being why I am going to use LinkedIn Learning to educate myself on how to create GIF’s. Adding a GIF into my look book will add a further element to the final outcome, as it will be a moving visual which I can hopefully create & mould into my narrative, this will also add further support my communication to the reader.

To conclude this post, those are the 2 most important stages in which will assist me in getting to my final outcome. I am going to create a plan using the project timetable Louise provided us with to plan out my weeks ahead, this will allow me to keep up with everything that needs to be done to produce my final outcome. The project timetable plan will also be useful to me as we are not having any time in university throughout this module, the plan will give me the freedom to structure my days myself & keep on top of my work.

[onisionrants]

Onision Rant: Laineys Gender/BDSM

As mentioned before here is my rant on my views of laineys gender and of course lots of Greg involved. I want to preface this (because I know I will get those messages if I don't) with I'm not transphobic, I am queer, I not only have many different types of lbgtq friends, but I work (entertainment) for shows benefitting various members and groups in the community, raising thousands of dollars each time. I've helped many people become what they want to be not just by being a friend but professionally as well (this goes into my dom stuff, and I will touch on this later). With that out of the way next I'd also like to say until recently I wasn't sure if Lainey was just a transtrender or someone really dealing with stuff ( though I still tried to be respectful), mainly due to them not getting on to greg too much for their pronouns and saying it's ok to use whatever yada yada. Going back to my other post that's no longer true and as I also pointed out Greg is not happy about it. While I'm still not sure they are really what they say I want to explain why I will respect their pronouns (to the bestbof my ability), but also explain how they are going about it is shit too. I sympathize with lainey, and every girl greg get's, because again I see a lot of me in them in many different ways, though we may be very different in other's. With lainey I also sympathize with the gender thing, I too was very confused about not only my sexuality but my body image (gender) too. Though I did girly things (ballet, etc. ) I was more of "one of the guys" then very girly. In my late-ish teen I was more ~ androgynous~ though I'd occasionally dress up. I get the being confused about everything, we are forever growing and we do the most when we first become adult and leave our families homes. Again I understand where lainey comes from as well as being bi wasn't ~allowed~ in her house, my mom,though pro lbgtq rights, didn't want me to be gay, mainly cause I think she's gay/bi and had a rough life herself. That being said Lainey went from not being able to experiment (like you should be doing at 18) to live with a man that already made vids about despising bi girls. A man that they had to lie to themselves and him about their sexuality. I think it was eatting them alive till greg finally allowed it. We also know he has a thing for shaving the hair off his ~loved ones~. I believe if they are married he doesn't go as extreme cause he's already got them on lock (didn't skye have short hair for a while too) but still wanting to take away enough of their femininity that only he finds them attractive (marking his territory and love of control). I don't doubt he has pressured them into short hair because that's what he does, they have said many times they want to grow it out but it get's shorter. I think this makes them feel masculine (something they were worried about prior) and they also saw they got some attention from it ("aww yer a cute boi!!"), making it not just attractive to become more masculine but making it more confusing of what they really are. Again they haven't really been able to experiment with anything really, they did dress more masculine for a bit but that was short lived. I think it's more of grasping at any identity they can right now because they so lost and that attention just sticks to that need to self love and validation. I want to bring up my dom thing for a bit here too, cause again the psychology of it is what originally interested me, and why I like to "out" fake daddy dom types. I get into a few different types of domination play, but a big one was helping guys become the girls they wanted to be. Granted some were only part time girl's but there were one's that fully became women (or are still in the process). Again these are men so a little different then the subs that get mistreated by fake daddy doms (usually physical abuse), fake femdoms generally use money/reputation instead, which greg does as well (manipulation as well). Greg is basically a fake dom of any type. So even though some of these men do like to do sissy things, some of them are not really gay or even really want to be women on the outside; a lot of these men are really confused because they have been forced (in a way) to supress their curiosity with sexuality. It's more socially acceptable for a girl to experiment than a boy in america (and yes I do think this is also Greg projecting, I think he really is at least bi). Just like me (and lainey) they need to figure it out, and maybe some just really like wearing seamed stockings and pegging. Usually fake femdoms just manipulate as much money as they can, but they can also try to destroy you (with out consent) with secrets you have told or things you have done (expecially if you are of a high pay grade). Some will push them to do things they really don't want to do and then use it against them later. While blackmail, forced bisexuality, public humiliation and wallet draining are fetishes in themselves, it's only ok when there it true consent. Instead of really being forcing bisexuality on lainey though he supressed it till it suited him, then he used it to force polyamory. With lainey already feeling defeminized and him now pushing them to ~explore~ I can see where they could really be confused with what they are, expecially at a time when everyone is trying to lable everything they are and not experiment enough to find that maybe they don't fit in that box perfectly either. They have not had much of a life outside of Gregs little made world in the Mcmansion. Though I believe that they will return to she/her, for now as someone that also had and identity crisis at that time in my life I sympathize with them and will respect their wishes....... but with that comes the second part of this rant. You can't use your "confusion" to discredit people that criticizing things you do. Up until recently you have made tweets about not caring which pronouns are used (which I will also give you credit that this was cause greg may have been manipulating you so he could do what he wants), as well as STILL allowing him to use she/her. This makes it confusing for everyone and hypocritical. I can understand your husband/kids using mommy and such in private, but videos that he is putting out to the world should reflect what you want to be. You can't "let him" do that kinda stuff and then get mad when people slip up or don't know. Again I am free to criticize you within my own group as well (lbgtq), cause while I can agree with you that there are assholes that want to discredit you're sexuality (*cough* your husband *cough*), you can't go full psycho when someone innocently messes up. It only makes you look bad as well as the community, that's why I take issue with how you go about it. Next yes I know you don't control what your husband does, but you also don't speak out much when he does things against the community you are supposedly in. And again I know he controls you so in a way I get it, you can't tell him you're feelings and he doesn't care if what he does hurts you, but you can't lash out at other's who are innocent/ less significant in your life, you are no better then him. Expecially when they are part of the community but you call them phobic for criticizing what you do to the community. Greg want's you to also hate the "haters" so you wont have any support when he dumps you. Standing beside him and not publicly speaking out will only get you more criticism and how are we to take you seriously after all if your husband mocks us. I'll probably write more about this later, but this is where I end this rant before it's 25 paragraphs.... heh

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Does Diplomatic Immunity Excuse Murder?

By Abrianna Rhodes, Vanderbilt University Class of 2022

February 2, 2020

On August 19th, 2019, the village of Croughton, England suffered a tragic loss at the hands of an American. Forty-two-year-old, Ann Sacoolas, wife of United States Intelligence Officer Jonathan Sacoolas, was driving on the wrong side of the road when she collided head-on with 19 year-old Harry Dunn’s motorcycle.2 Shortly after the accident, Ann Sacoolas gave her word that she would stay in the UK throughout the investigation for questioning purposes. However, a day after Harry’s funeral, before she could be brought to trial, Sacoolas flew back to the United States, claiming diplomatic immunity and refusing to return to England.3 This left Harry’s family, friends and community in distress. Stepping in on their behalf, Prime Minister Borris Johnson tried to have the United States extradite Sacoolas so that she could be sent back to the UK and undergo proper trial procedures. Nevertheless, the US State Department refused to heed such demands, claiming that allowing Sacoolas to be pressed with criminal charges will set a “scary precedent” for governments to no longer feel the need to respect diplomatic immunity. While President Donald Trump has gotten Sacoolas to agree to certain terms for atonement, none of these terms involve legal justice.4 At the moment, Sacoolas has only offered an apology; an apology that Charlotte Charles, Harry Dunn’s mother, declares not good enough as she continues to press for trial in absentia.5

As the Dunn family presses forward, however, it is unclear whether diplomatic immunity will leave them at a true disadvantage or have no effect at all. Diplomatic immunity, as defined by the United States Department of State, is a "principle of international law by which certain foreign government officials are not subject to the jurisdiction of local courts and other authorities for both their official and, to a large extent, their personal activities."6 In other words, it permits for foreign government officials and their immediate families to not have to go through trial procedures for (small) crimes committed in other countries. This practice has been around since ancient times, but it was not solidified in international law and norm until the Vienna Convention on Diplomatic Relations and the Vienna Convention on Consular Relations in the era following World War Two.6

Nonetheless, by the general public, and even some who work in foreign relations, this is misunderstood to mean “special protections” for all employees of foreign governments.7 However, all employees of foreign governments do not receive the same protection, and, furthermore, this international norm "does not exempt diplomatic officers from the obligation of conforming with national and local laws and regulations." Instead, this law solely serves as a way to help better facilitate a foreign employee’s mission in another country without having to worry about liability for all of their actions. Thus, while local law enforcement must recognize that certain individuals do have diplomatic immunity, they must not allow said individuals to commit heinous acts. Law enforcements main priority is still the safety of their communities, with or without foreign government employees present.6

While diplomatic immunity may be “clear-cut” on paper, as in the case of Ann Sacoolas, this norm is highly controversial in practice. Although serious crime should not be protected under diplomatic immunity, as defined by the international law, foreign government officials can and (in such cases) often do claim diplomatic immunity.7 This allows them to return to their home countries without any penalties and cheat justice. The only way that these officials are forced to return to the country of their crimes is if they are extradited by their home governments, something that can only be waived by their home governments. The individual themselves cannot even offer to do so on their own accord (except in cases of defection).7 But, as expected, many countries are rather hesitant to waive immunity. In fact, each year tens of cases of reported serious crimes result in lack of proper justice due to “diplomatic immunity,” leading many to believe that this is just a license for foreign diplomats to act unlawfully.8

The same is true for those affected by the sudden loss of Harry Dunn. Without any intentions of returning to England, what would have been a five year sentence for Sacoolas turned into a plane ride home and failed attempts at meeting with the family of the victim.2 The lack of justice for Dunn has sparked protest in the small town of Croughton and a rage in his parents that they say will not rest until they have found justice for their son.9 

While the UK’s Foreign and Commonwealth Office has worked alongside the US and even threatened to sue Dunn’s family, Dunn’s family and friends continue to research all of their options for justice. One avenue of hope is the prospect of Sacoolas no longer being protected by diplomatic immunity. As agreed by both the United States and the United Kingdom, because Sacoolas returned to the US, her home country, diplomatic immunity no longer applies.10 This leaves the care in the hands of the Northamptonshire Police and the Crown Prosecution Service. Dunn’s family and lawyers to further look into trial in absentia, even though this is a rare path to pursue, especially with international trials.11

This diplomatic “tug-of-war” is an unusual occurrence, especially between the two countries of such strong relations.10 According to an article published by The Guardian, a conflict such as this has not occurred since 1940, when US diplomat, Tyler Kent, “leaked sensitive diplomatic cables which he believed would reach Hitler’s Berlin.”12 And while this fight between the two countries over this tragedy has led to great disagreements, there is no evidence to say that this has in any way affected the United States’ and the United Kingdom’s relationship overall nor changed how they conduct legal proceedings for diplomatic immunity.

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Abrianna Rhodes is a sophomore studying at Vanderbilt University. She is a major in Political Science, specializing in International Relations, with a double minor in French and Theatre studies.

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1.     Steve Bell, “Sign by crash site where Harry died.” Expresso.co. Oct. 13, 2019,https://www.express.co.uk/news/uk/1190175/harry-dunn-death-latest-us-diplomat-wife-anne-sacoolas-signs

2.     Timm, Jane C. "Trump: We're going to 'see if we can do something' about fatal crash involving diplomat's wife." NBC News. Oct. 9, 2019. https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/donald-trump/trump-we-re-going-see-if-we-can-do-something-n1064411

3.     Berridge, Jeff. "The Sacoolas affair: Diplomatic immunity or special immunity?" Diplo. Oct. 15, 2019, https://www.diplomacy.edu/blog/sacoolas-affair-diplomatic-immunity-or-special-immunity.

4.     Dorman, Sam. "UK prime minister called Trump about securing 'justice' in car crash involving American: report." Fox News. January 25, 2020. https://www.foxnews.com/world/boris-johnson-talks-with-trump-about-securing-justice-in-car-crash-involving-us-suspect

5.     Stelloh, Tim. "U.S. diplomat's wife involved in fatal U.K. crash apologizes to victim's family." NBC News. Oct. 13, 2019. https://www.nbcnews.com/news/world/u-s-diplomat-s-wife-involved-fatal-u-k-crash-n1065616

6.     United States Department of State Office of Foreign Missions. "Introduction." Diplomatic and Consular Immunity: Guidance for Law Enforcement and Judicial Authorities. U.S. Department of State, pp. 2-3.

7.     Longley, Robert. "How Far Does Diplomatic Immunity Go?" ThoughtCo. Sept. 2, 2019. https://www.thoughtco.com/diplomatic-immunity-definition-4153374

8.     Hunt, Jeremy. "Alleged Serious and Significant Offences (Diplomatic Immunity): 2017:Written statement - HCWS1197." Parliament Publications and Records. Secretary of State for Foreign and Commonwealth Affairs, Dec. 18, 2018, https://www.parliament.uk/business/publications/written-questions-answers-statements/written-statement/Commons/2018-12-18/HCWS1197/

9.     Peltier, Elian. "U.S. Refuses Extradition in Fatal Crash, Prompting Anger in U.K." New York Times. Jan. 24, 2020, https://www.nytimes.com/2020/01/24/world/europe/anne-sacoolas-harry-dunn-extradition.html.

10.  Magra, Iliana. "U.K. Says Immunity of U.S. Diplomat’s Wife ‘No Longer Relevant’." New York Times. Oct. 13, 2019, https://www.nytimes.com/2019/10/13/world/europe/harry-dunn-anne-sacoolas-immunity.html.

11.  Koerner, Brendan. "When Can a Defendant Be Tried in Absentia?" Slate. June 19, 2003, https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2003/06/when-can-a-defendant-be-tried-in-absentia.html.

12.  Johnson, Borris. "Anne Sacoolas case tests the special relationship." The Guardian. Oct. 8, 2019, https://www.theguardian.com/politics/2019/oct/08/anne-sacoolas-case-tests-the-special-relationship.

13.  Wintour, Patrick. "Raab condemns US refusal to extradite Anne Sacoolas over Dunn death." The Guardian. Jan. 24, 2020, https://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2020/jan/23/harry-dunn-us-rejects-extradition-request-for-anne-sacoolas.

14.  Neuman, Scott. "U.S. Won't Hand Over American Diplomat's Wife Wanted In Fatal U.K. Car Crash." NPR. Jan. 24, 2020, https://www.npr.org/2020/01/24/799143167/u-s-wont-hand-over-wife-of-american-diplomat-wanted-in-fatal-u-k-car-crash

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Rural and suburban folk in the midwest and everywhere else have the same culture and values as their southern counterparts and are viewed with hatred and contempt by the urbanite hippies. It will be over quickly since you cant get food in the cities without shipping it in. They are also a powerful and vocal but tiny minority. Their pets will tear their progressive urban utopias apart. It won’t be a civil war. The cities will be anarchy, the south will be race war, and everybody in the cities will die. It’ll be over so quick it wouldn’t be fair to call it a war I think California or large parts of the Bay Area on down turn into Latino ethnic states. Depending what happens to the Chinese population in the Bay the Chicoms might actually push in to carve out a sphere of influence in SF. Texas and Florida turn into Hispanic/White semi-ethnostate states with token black populations. They deport all their Nogs to Miss, Lousinana, Alabama. The nogs will likely end with Mississippi as an ethnostate when they get pushed out of those ther states plus Georgia. That place will be where any blacks that don’t play ball under those new regimes will be deported to. The Northeast turns into a bloodbath for years, but the Great Plains and Pacific norwest come out fine. Thoughts?

Unlike the first civil war, the urban areas are now completely dependent upon rural areas to survive. We are also extremely infrastructure dependent. Remember when the first civil war happened before the electrical grid existed. It occurred before the significant supply of urban water came from wastewater plants and reclamation (requiring power and lots of chemical shipments).

The moment the infrastructure like highways and railways to the cities are destroyed or captured is the moment the urban areas begin to starve and riot. The urban areas will literally destroy themselves as the inhabitants panic just trying to survive (food, water, electricity will be gone quickly).

Which is what we want. A good anon should have mapped out key infrastructure near him that supports his area and the next urban area and have a plan of dealing with or securing it in SHTF.

Also know where your Nog areas are and think of natural ways to keep them bottled in.

Critical infrastructure like substations, power plants, aqueducts and pumping plants will be heavily defended as high priority assets. Many cities also have ports and will be able to receive goods and support from allies. They won't be completely isolated. Also a fair amount of inland cities will likely side with rural areas (middle america).

In a real SHTF hot civil war, law enforcement will be low priority. Infested areas will be rampant with gangs going full highwayman, hijacking citizens and raiding homes. It will be fucking ugly. You can't really bottle them in. Nog gangs would essentially be running their own micro insurgencies inside the overall conflict.

Both sides will have insider threats. Civil war is not simple. It's not pretty. It's not thou are on and who wins. And if you don't die, your way of life will be changed, likely for the rest of your life.

Imagine the small minority of sympathizers in your area poisoning your town's water supply. Imagine organized firestarting all around your town burning your house down and killing many of your friends and family. Its not going to be fun and clean. There are no pure divisions. Its not like everyone north of X state is the enemy, its more like X% of your local populace is now going to try to kill you and your family covertly.

Nobody could tell you accurately. It would take a concerted effort to revolt by a lot of people. Civil wars typically start in 2 ways: 

You usually see a shit-ton of the people in the streets protesting the government (which we don't). The whole resist trump marches and shit are not comprised of people who want a civil war, they are mostly comprised of people who just don't like the president and want someone else in office; they are not willing to sacrifice their lives in this effort.

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The country is invaded or some kind of governmental collapse causes a power vacuum.

In otherwords, we are not close to a civil war. We do see an extremely anemic threat of domestic terror from Antifa, but that can be almost instantly quelled. If the federal government designates them a terrorist organization, they will be completely fucked. Their loudest, most influential, and violent will be v& and shipped to Guantanamo so fast their heads will spin.

I’d say 10 years at least but no more than 20.

In the next ten years and after this census we are really going to start feeling some demographics realities. After the census a lot of interior red states are going to lose congressional seats and EC votes (the seats matter more) to Blue states- that’s what this influx has been about from the getgo. Remember the census counts everyone with a pulse for congressional representation NOT legal citizens so the next reapportionment secures a Democratic Congress for perpetuity.

The Republicans will NEVER take back the house. Within 16 years white demographics are not enough to hold an election. That’s when the real fun begins...

I wouldn't bet on it. As we stand now, the democratic party stands to be hoisted by their own petards. The acceptance rate of socialist policies by young americans is dangerously high, and this could stand to make the current cracks in the democrat party now to fracturing fissures in as little as 10 years. If a real fracture occurs and another party forms. the democrats essentially lose a large percent of their young to mid-30s voting base and republicans (if they hold their sails) will dominate them. Right now there is just too much up in the air to make a solid determination either way, just that we aren't close yet.

Except the socialist policies are more accepted by the younger non-white voting base and their numbers are rapidly rising. Furthermore Bernie has successfully managed to create a marriage of that socialism with “racial justice”. Effectively socialism gives the minorities their “equitable” share of American wealth.

The only non-whites that are not hip to this were already elites back home before fleeing socialism to come here. They’re already Republican and there’s simply are just not enough. The issue is the Democrats have tapped into the poorest classes in the hemisphere and have been importing them by the millions over the last decade. I know these people- they will vote to line their pockets. They are two layers deep into the Democratic Party- they get financial justice from socialism AND racial justice from wealth redistribution. 

Don’t discount the fact that the education system isn’t built to handle this influx either. These kids will grow up without skills and without an economy to participate in and they will be angry and they will coming to whites for their due.

I prophecy that a man will appear. A good man who loves his nation. (CIA CLOWN) He will tell us that minorities are to blame for dividing us. He will unite whites. Blacks will be given Florida because of trace sympathy about slavery. A wall will be built just south of Jacksonville, all the way across to the other side. Hispanics will be shipped en masse to their countries of origin. Jewish assets will be seized and they will be sent to Israel. The LGBT community will be identified as a health crisis that endangers everyone else with the threat of STD’s and they will be banned an shunned. Mental hospitals will be restored and they will be put in them where they all belong. Having been sickened with interventionism, the US will return to the old ways of war. Destroying nations that don’t behave and leaving them in ruins without giving aid or helping them rebuild thus reverting countries back to the Stone Age. A moratorium will be put on all immigration except from European countries and Australia. Except for Swedes. Because we don’t accept cucks.

But Blacks? Mestizo and Indian hispanics? The Democratic Party appeals to them at all aspects of their life from young to old. The post Great Society Democratic party is built upon a foundation of pandering to nonwhites and growing their numbers in order to solidify their power. It’s machine politics and they did it before with the Irish except what you have today are minorities that are too far away from being accepted into white society and supporting the current power structure. Castiza hispanics yes but Blacks and the rest- no. The majority of Blacks and low class hispanics will never accept white rule as a basic tenet of this society. 

No matter how hard the Trumpster tries to redefine the national main to include based people of all races it is too late and that line will not hold- the cat is already out of the bag and the non-based Blacks and hispanics want their gibs from Whitey.

Marianne Williamson literally just did some math on the stage “involving 40 acres and a mule” and she actually sounded like she knew what she was talking about lol

Cities now have massive populations of leeches, criminals, and non combatants that would require enormous resources and manpower to keep in line. The major coastal cities could theoretically survive on foreign aid but I don't think they will be able to organize an army that can be used to project power into the rural areas, especially if they have tens of thousands of people tied down maintaining order and guarding infrastructure. The major coastal cities could survive on foreign aid for a long time and would be difficult to assault. Expect foreign combat troops to be deployed as well. Probably hundreds of thousands split between the coastal cities. Most of the liberal sides combat power will likely come from allied military formations.

Interior cities wont survive such a conflict. The interior of the country would be easy to secure but the most realistic chance of ending the war would be to capture the nuclear arsenal and use it to threaten the countries supplying the liberal side. Otherwise I don't see how such a war could be brought to an end.

You didn't realize there was a white pill hidden in #WhiteGenocide did you? Neither did the Jews. They did this to themselves.

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>White genocide white pill

Far right conservative whites exhibit k-selection and therefore are more loyal, protective, and supportive of offspring, family and racial group.

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Western civilization is our birthright. 

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Exhibited by the facts that...

We work much harder

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We make/grow all the food

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And are much smarter and more inventive

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Our women are also THE most racially loyal despite constant Jewish propaganda.

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The extreme far right is the only group with positive population replacement rates. Which means the white world will be ours

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Whites are the fiercest and most capable warriors. Do not fuck with us.

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Nostalgia for our culture and stolen prosperity is what will fuel the revolution. This is why the Jews seek to destroy our history. It is our kryptonite.

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We also own the largest amount of guns for a single homogenous civilian group. 46 million white, right wing adults own 125 million firearms. For context, this is 21 times larger than the world's largest army of 2.1 million soldiers in China and 31 times larger than the U.S. Army, most of whom are on the right. 

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We are objectively the most beautiful and most diverse.

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And despite all the Jewish brainwashing and trickery, we are waking up unlike never before and realizing we are part of a much larger group. IT IS OK TO BE WHITE.

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The Jews hate to see a group superior to theirs create the wonders of the world.

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This is why they throw everything they have at us. Through all their media outlets, they try to convince us being white is a curse and is detrimental to the world. 

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Make no mistake, their media reach is vast and powerful

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They tell the lie that whites don't have any culture when they know our culture is the most desirable. Some say it is even divinely inspired.

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The reality is that there will come a time in the very near future when the white man wakes up and decides he's done taking shit. The world will change forever.

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NO MORE BROTHER WARS

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That depends on how much the rest of the world is willing to ethnically cleanse white americans. All of africa and the middle east would be willing to take down america. China wants a piece of our ass. Latin America is going to zerg rush as many shock troops as possible through the southern border. The only true allies we'll get are europeans in either europe or Australia/New Zealand. Maybe some based asians at best but I doubt the Japs are going to help us after the nukes we dropped on them. If the rest of the world gets told that America is now le ebil fascist nation then it's possible that they'll gang up on us to split up America. That doesn't even include the people already here that are willing to slaughter whites. We have a chance at winning but it's going to be tough. Most of the world is going to turn it's back on us but they're pretty much already doing that

The United States was founded as and always intended to be a European ethnostate. Immigration of anyone non European WAS NOT ALLOWED until the Immigration and Nationality act of 1965. The Jews played an outsized role in getting this legislation passed and ushering in the genocide of whites in America.

Learn your history...

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> Founding Fathers

Alexander Hamilton, Founding Father, on the white ethnostate

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Ben Franklin, Founding Father, on the white ethnostate

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John Dickenson, Founding Father, on the white ethnostate

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Charles Pickney, Founding Father, on the white ethnostate

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James Madison, Founding Father, on the white ethnostate

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Thomas Jefferson, Founding Father, on the white ethnostate

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Thomas Jefferson, Founding Father, on immigration into the white ethnostate

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Founding fathers compilation on the creation and maintenance of a white ethnostate

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Founding fathers ethnostate compilation

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US presidential compilation calling for racial exclusion and homogeneity

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>Westward Expansion

Oregon territory racial exclusion

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The expansionist movement out west didn't want slavery, not because of its moral abhorrence, but because it was and the white homogeneity of the community

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Abraham Lincoln on racial separation

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Abraham Lincoln wasn't anti slavery, he was anti separation.

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>14th Amendment

The intent of the 14th amendment, as told by its author.

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Here you go folks. My first official plan of action. It looks a little crazy, but it's a coalition of three different conversations. I am NOT retyping and I leave it like this for a very good reason. If any journalism STUDENT provides me with an acceptable, AND PROFESSIONALLY, written coalition of this brain fart...good enough to be used in the virgin edition of The Crypto Consortium's new digital magazine...they will win a 25$-50$ Deposit into a trust fund. Use THAT as a home agent or in an open account and see what it is in 6 months, a year....etc.

If anyone shows me the winning entry posted as an ad to any kind of advertising forum (medium, craigslist, reddit, shared here, any social sites...etc) you will get something credited for helping too. Due to limited funding This offer is limited to single mothers, college students, and anyone that can orove theyre going to lose a service this month(tv dont count). Ill figure it out later. Probably around $2-$10 according to friend count and such Wont be much.

()()()()()()

I will be am going homeless in 1or 2 days now, but I am going to use it as a time to do a little crusade of my own. For the next 8 months I am going to travel all through South Texas and down into Mexico on my own little version of a quest.

By the time the applications clear next year I will not only be offering cryptocoin proposals, but I will be adding Auto sales, debt consolidation options, credit repair assistance, credit protection insurance, and anything else that I currently know enough about(but cant remember) or someone volunteers and proves capability.

Anything we can flip a fast profit on or hold for proportionate residual income....and every where I go I will be looking for the homeless wanting a way out...not a hand out...anyone on hard times and needing financial relief....anyone needing year round fundraising...orphanages etc...etc

Pretty much anything that WE can make YOU money with and see if it can be wrapped into TCCs Profit capability so we can push another drain on society up to fruitful and productive.

I went homeless because I gave away too much money to try and help others that turned out to be TOO FUCKING LAZY AND STUPID TO HELP THEMSELVES and the inconsiderate fucking pricks just walk away and leave ANOTHER $7000 of MY money floating around the internet...On top of losing over $15,000 in the crash of 2018, and another $1800 or so since January 30....

NOT ANY MORE...watch what happens first quarter of 2020 when I can pay that attorney to get my international LLC non profit license. ON TOP OF THAT, using TCC to get corporate AND non profit discounts from phone providers....I will be JOHNNY FUCKING CRYPTO SEED planting hope in the homeless and deserted all over the fucking world!!!....😂😂😂

I am doing something new too. What I call blind investments during my little brain diarrhea seasion. My financial source will insure PRINCIPAL(not profit) from $25 to $500. now thats faith😁😁😁

Deposits will be credited at 1% per day and Principal will be locked for 4-6 months, but returns can be withdrawn or reinvested on the first of the month automatically, or anytime by submitting an email request. Ill be living on the street...wifi wont always be available so when I get to a way point I will check my email.

2020 will start my outreach visit in The Phillipines. I may stay there the entire 6-9 month tour, depending on email during the first quarter... if all goes as it is currentlyand tentatively planned.

The goal by 2021 is No less than 25 new outreaches started BY ME AND IN PERSON until my legs finally quit working for good and I am in a wheelchair, or I am dead. Also, hopefully, the ling term goal is 500,000 new families reached every fiscal year by 2025...which can happen through Churches, schools, internet cafes, orphanages etc etc)

I need an expert to build and donate a TCC investment/coin exchange/chat room website to my specs, a crypto exchange/donation TG bot and 2 adjustable Investment TG bots...with TCC admin having complete and total control of the finished product. This will be YOUR investment and I will PERSONALLY guarantee you 1% daily for 365 days from the first day of bot/web activity until Dec 31, 2021....but for trusting TCC(me) I will also add quarterly bonuses if bonuses are available for that quarter. YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING GOOD WITH YOUR LIFE? HERES YOUR CHANCE. GET PAID TO FIGHT POVERTY AND ADD A FEW TREASURES OF YOUR OWN TO HEAVENS CASK!!!

kellywayne404@gmail.to sign up.

Want to donate, offer assistance, or need assistance? I take 1600 different coins now for donations and deposits so thats easy. Just ask me for an address, paypal or go fund me. The rest just shoot me an email with a little info. Ill look into it

Also looking for real estate agents to be on call from anywhere in the world. I might get an offer any time and have aome work for you😁

One thing I need members to start working on when they can in their free time. A list of orphanages, shelters, food banks, anywhere homeless people hang out(especially kids) churches(not Catholic or Lutheran) and anything else you feel may be worth me looking into. My annual trips will be laid out according to the research I do from the information dropped by the public in the 90 day tax break...These are all what I call "source points"...places where a single visit can plant the greatest seed.and do the most good for the underprivileged ...

also do some research to see if there are potential advertising points....or if we would be better off hiring homeless kids or the orphans to pass out flyers.

If I can work this journalist thing out to get people writing and I can release a weekly page like I want, that will give a clearer picture. Right now I am still brain storming so it looks all crazy and stupid...lol

IN EVERYTHING WE DO...always look for where the money will do the most LONG TERM good. Whether I have 2 years or 20...I want to leave something behind that your great great grandkids can COUNT ON!!!!!

along with the homeless I will also offer free start up services to any orphanage, homeless shelter, food bank, womens shelters, and any other type of public improvement facility.

Own a business? I can show you how to increase your profit margin by up to 6000% annually....NO JOKE.

Need a year round 24/7 fundraiser for your organization? Im Accepting all requests and inquiries for anything. It gives me an excuse to take a break and do some surfing. If I cant help you now...Im sure I will find a way soon.

Want to start a self supporting Outreach Program in your neighborhood? No begging for donations or any more bullshit....Let me know.

COMMISSION WORK IS AVAILABLE for ANYONE starting at age 12. No special skills or qualifications necessary. Under the age of 16 please get parental permission before contacting.

Here you go folks. My first official plan of action. It looks a little crazy, but it's a coalition of three different brainstorms. I am NOT retyping and I leave it like this for a very good reason. If any journalism STUDENT provides me with an acceptable, AND PROFESSIONALLY, written coalition of this brain fart...good enough to be used in the virgin edition of The Crypto Consortium's new digital magazine...they will win a 25$-50$ Deposit into a trust fund. Use THAT as a home agent or in an open account and see what it is in 6 months, a year....etc.

()()()()()()

I will be am going homeless in 1or 2 days now, but I am going to use it as a time to do a little crusade of my own. For the next 8 months I am going to travel all through South Texas and down into Mexico on my own little version of a quest.

By the time the applications clear next year I will not only be offering cryptocoin proposals, but I will be adding Auto sales, debt consolidation options, credit repair assistance, credit protection insurance, and anything else that I currently know enough about(but cant remember) or someone volunteers and proves capability.

Anything we can flip a fast profit on or hold for proportionate residual income....and every where I go I will be looking for the homeless wanting a way out...not a hand out...anyone on hard times and needing financial relief....anyone needing year round fundraising...orphanages etc...etc

Pretty much anything that WE can make YOU money with and see if it can be wrapped into TCCs Profit capability so we can push another drain on society up to fruitful and productive.

I went homeless because I gave away too much money to try and help others that turned out to be TOO FUCKING LAZY AND STUPID TO HELP THEMSELVES and the inconsiderate fucking pricks just walk away and leave ANOTHER $7000 of MY money floating around the internet...On top of losing over $15,000 in the crash of 2018, and another $1800 or so since January 30....

NOT ANY MORE...watch what happens first quarter of 2020 when I can pay that attorney to get my international LLC non profit license. ON TOP OF THAT, using TCC to get corporate AND non profit discounts from phone providers....I will be JOHNNY FUCKING CRYPTO SEED planting hope in the homeless and deserted all over the fucking world!!!....😂😂😂

I am doing something new too. What I call blind investments during my little brain diarrhea seasion. My financial source will insure PRINCIPAL(not profit) from $25 to $500. now thats faith😁😁😁

Deposits will be credited at 1% per day and Principal will be locked for 4-6 months, but returns can be withdrawn or reinvested on the first of the month automatically, or anytime by submitting an email request. Ill be living on the street...wifi wont always be available so when I get to a way point I will check my email.

2020 will start my outreach visit in The Phillipines. I may stay there the entire 6-9 month tour, depending on email during the first quarter... if all goes as it is currentlyand tentatively planned.

The goal by 2021 is No less than 25 new outreaches started BY ME AND IN PERSON until my legs finally quit working for good and I am in a wheelchair, or I am dead. Also, hopefully, the ling term goal is 500,000 new families reached every fiscal year by 2025...which can happen through Churches, schools, internet cafes, orphanages etc etc)

I need an expert to build and donate a TCC investment/coin exchange/chat room website to my specs, a crypto exchange/donation TG bot and 2 adjustable Investment TG bots...with TCC admin having complete and total control of the finished product. This will be YOUR investment and I will PERSONALLY guarantee you 1% daily for 365 days from the first day of bot/web activity until Dec 31, 2021....but for trusting TCC(me) I will also add quarterly bonuses if bonuses are available for that quarter. YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING GOOD WITH YOUR LIFE? HERES YOUR CHANCE. GET PAID TO FIGHT POVERTY AND ADD A FEW TREASURES OF YOUR OWN TO HEAVENS CASK!!!

kellywayne404@gmail.to sign up.

Want to donate, offer assistance, or need assistance? I take 1600 different coins now for donations and deposits so thats easy. Just ask me for an address, paypal or go fund me. The rest just shoot me an email with a little info. Ill look into it

Also looking for real estate agents to be on call from anywhere in the world. I might get an offer any time and have aome work for you😁

One thing I need members to start working on when they can in their free time. A list of orphanages, shelters, food banks, anywhere homeless people hang out(especially kids) churches(not Catholic or Lutheran) and anything else you feel may be worth me looking into. My annual trips will be laid out according to the research I do from the information dropped by the public in the 90 day tax break...These are all what I call "source points"...places where a single visit can plant the greatest seed.and do the most good for the underprivileged ...

also do some research to see if there are potential advertising points....or if we would be better off hiring homeless kids or the orphans to pass out flyers.

If I can work this journalist thing out to get people writing and I can release a weekly page like I want, that will give a clearer picture. Right now I am still brain storming so it looks all crazy and stupid...lol

IN EVERYTHING WE DO...always look for where the money will do the most LONG TERM good. Whether I have 2 years or 20...I want to leave something behind that your great great grandkids can COUNT ON!!!!!

along with the homeless I will also offer free start up services to any orphanage, homeless shelter, food bank, womens shelters, and any other type of public improvement facility.

Own a business? I can show you how to increase your profit margin by up to 6000% annually....NO JOKE.

Need a year round 24/7 fundraiser for your organization? Im Accepting all requests and inquiries for anything. It gives me an excuse to take a break and do some surfing. If I cant help you now...Im sure I will find a way soon.

Want to start a self supporting Outreach Program in your neighborhood? No begging for donations or any more bullshit....Let me know.

COMMISSION WORK IS AVAILABLE for ANYONE starting at age 12. No special skills or qualifications necessary. Under the age of 16 please get parental permission before contacting.

[xottzot]

2018--SEPT-19th-2018-Wednesday--later---more stuff Ive had to deal with in relation to this hellhole making my life HELL.

2018--SEPT-19th-2018-Wednesday--later---more stuff Ive had to deal with in relation to this hellhole making my life HELL.

ABSOLUTELY NOBODY...NOBODY...IT DOESN'T MATTER WHO THEY ARE OR WHAT ORGANISATION OR SERVICE OR ANYTHNG...NOBODY BELIEVES ME.

I'm an honest, caring person, a TRUTHFUL person, a person who supprts charities for those less fortunmate in a range of ways but NONE of that counts for ANYTHING IN MY HELL OF A LIFE...MADE WORSE IN THIS HELLHOLE....EVEN RIGHT DOWN TO WHERE I LIVE IN THIS HELL.....

Dear Fliss exprienced some of that herself when she was here with me for a decade or so......

And then SHE had a terrible physical and mental breakdown....part of what she ALREADY had BEFORE I ever met her.....

AND I GOT THE BLAME !?!? - I ALWASY GET THE BLAME FOR EVERYTHING...BLOODY EVERYTHING....EVERY DAMNED THING...EVERYTIME EVEN WHEN I DO NOTHING AT ALL I GET BLAMED FOR NOTHING TO DO WITH ME......

AND EVERYTIME I DARE TRY TO BE ENGAGED IN ANYTHING....I ALWASY END UP SUFFERING AT MY EXPENSE.....

AND...dear Sm and dear Max always end up suffering....

Oh,...but YOU don't want to know abou any of that do you......

And all the criminals and shitheads about this hellhole still keep PROSPERING and GETTING REWARDED....even without trying.......

In my huge blog contents that I myself voluntarily deleted from Tumblr to preserve my safety, dear Fliss's safety, and those of our loved ones...I detailed almost DAILY teh shit that was going on in just a coupel of years or so....but I also details the YEARS of shit (and criminal shit) that assailed poor dear Fliss and myself with us being the victims....and we were NEVER EVER BELIEVED...and I'm STILL not ever believed.....

And dear Fliss's family and friends only ever believes the damaged memories of dear Fliss medically proven damaged brain andd memory and damaged body....all that and the terrible to dear Fliss thyroiditis and all the other things of dear Fliss they keep SECRET from everyone and so use me as a fall-guy for everything that's wrong with her. - And so she she waltzes along blithely unwares in her life and they keep covering up everything to cover her and themselves.

So you can see that I appreciate worthy causes for charity and I have always done so all my life. Dear Fliss I deeply love as a person, not as a bundle of affictions wrapped up in her unfortunate body and mind. That's not who she is.

All of her conditioens wwere kept alwasy secret from everyone else, even from fellow job workers, even from dear Fliss's deepest friend Cath in Queensland. (Cath STILL does not believe me and has broken off all contact with me, depsite seeing for herself dear Fliss's current state of terrible existance...and how much better dear Fliss was with me.

Dear Fliss and I were always struggling financially, which brought a great deal of undeserved stress to us both. She kept blaming herself for any and everything. I kept saying she did NOT have responsibilty for all the terrible things in life asailing us both. - So MANY MANY OTHERS were exploiting us both on so many levels.

And dear Fliss's family and parents just kept blaming me....because it suited the narrative they were forever pushing to any and everyone.

I have never met a family more aligned to misinformation and misdirection and outright lies as they travel in life and bring others into life. Much of it all is for their own reasons and privacy. And I have ALWAYS respected that.

But to anyone else outside....they have NO FUCKING IDEA...NONE AT ALL...and so others just keep falling into the same bullshit lines they have been told to believe from them.

But I still love dear Fliss and want to be with her.

And so I am still suffering.......

So in effect, to all thse reading this except dear Fliss, YOU should NEVER EVER EVER give your trust to others because you will ALWAYS be betrayed and YOU will suffer....but NEVER by me dear Fliss. I've stuck with you through terrible times, when all others abandoned you, even your own family, your friends, your work collegues, your job employers...strangers, officials, demi-god officials....., people in the street, horrendous faceless people on the internet.......the list goes on far more than anyone knows.....

----------------------------------------------------

Sorting out some of this home lottery stuff this morning touched on all of that......but I kept things private as much as I could......

And the person I was talking to was aghast at what I told them, even the smallest amount of it all.....

And I said, "Now you now why I wanted and deserved to win that grand pize of the new house away from here to live......and that (by a cruel and terrible invisible hand of fate) I am never ever allowed to win such a thing no matter how many entries in all sorts of things I have been doing all my life."

The person at first thought I was declining the meagre prizes I'd won in relation to winning that new house and land away from this hellhole, but they soon came to realise (I hope) that exactly what I've been telling people for countless years in my life in that nothing good ever happens to me and I always suffer and nobody believes it because it sounds like I'm cursed or something to them, it's too out of their sphere of understanding to WANT to believe it. And so they also fear it 'catching' to them....

----------------------------------------------------

As I've said countless times, I'd write a book but NOBODY would believe all the shit that's gone on in my shitty life, and so much of it all I had NOTHING TO DO WITH IT AT ALL other than being a victim of so many things.

I love YOU dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

I have been in terrible pain again. So has dear Max. And to a lesser extent but no less terrible has poor Sam been. And your dear chicken here Fliss.

And of course nobody believes me.

And so I'm so contantly saying to the terrible world...fuck you world!

I love YOU dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

Imbecile is due to return with absolute shit and diseases to spread and he will also be wont to cause me and poor Sam and poro Max terrible HELL as well in any way that he can. And he will be ANGRY and violent and do shit.....and NOBODY will believe me......

I love my dear brother and have tried to protect him all my life far more than he knows at all. But he is not very intelligent and he relishes being that way and considers hinmself far beyond me in intelligence but is so utterly wrong....and has been wrong all our lives.

I've cared for him all my life and protected him.....though in his mind he reverses everthing so he can alwasy think in his mind that he is always superior against me, against all others.

Dear Fliss saw all this for herself. SHE KNOWS. - And so he HATED her for KNOWING.

I love YOU dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

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Oh look...Tumblr is fucking me around AGAIN.....and so is the internet....AGAIN......FFS......

Those around in this hellhole are also not so innocent believe me.....

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Well my dad has been a member of AAA for 10 to 17 years now and i wonder how much it would be if he added me on the policy right now since i only have a permit and im going to be 16 in august, and when i get my license, how much would it be to get the coverage for my car?""

Car Insurance Question (regarding insurance)?

Hello, I have an insurance question. Last December, my wife, 2 y/o daughter, & I were involved in a car accident. The other driver was at fault, this was noted on the police report. My wife & daughter both required medical attention. My daughter suffered a broken leg & has since recovered. Unfortunately, my wife's recovery is taking a little longer. She required immediate surgery on her wrist & needs daily physical therapy. Although I have a laywer, car insurance & health insurance, I've had to front enormous amounts of money to cover medical expenses. My health insurance will not reimburse me for expenses. Can I ask my car insurance company to help me out with expenses? They know the other party is at fault (police report says so). I've had to liquidate stocks & savings to make ends meet. I'm now out of money. I was not at fault, yet I'm being punished. Any advice on how to get reimbursed ASAP? My settlement probably will not occur until next July.""

4 years after DUI... insurance?

so when i was 21 i got a dui (it's called an oui here in Maine, but same thing). PLEASE DONT JUDGE ME I KNOW I WAS YOUNG AND STUPID. anyway, i ended up selling my car to pay for the whole mess since my license was getting suspended anyway. since then i have been a happy bicycle commuter! now the time has come for me to become an adult woman again and get my license back because i have enrolled in a college that is not in biking distance. I have signed up, paid for, and in 2 weeks will be taking the DEEP class required by the state of Maine in order to be licensed again. basically i am curious about my insurance premiums. i haven't had my license for almost 4 years, but i have read online that your insurance will have to be sr22 and all expensive and whatnot for THREE years. also, i have since turned 25 and will be 26 soon, so i expect a rate decrease from that. i guess my question is: have i managed to bypass the higher insurance rates because it has been 4 years? if so, it almost seems too good to be true. i am highly suspicious. can anyone give me some insight as to what to expect when purchasing my insurance? thanks chums""

Cost to insure 2000 bmw 318?

Im 18 and currently live in Iowa. Im looking into buying a used BMW but dont want to pay an insane amount for insurance. I was just wondering what I would pay for a 2000 BMW 318. Sedan v6. Estimated price? Compared to my 2001 4cyl Honda accord sedan? Thanks

What does a full coverage car insurance policy cover?

If I have a full coverage insurance policy through Allstate, esurance, statefarm, progressive, or geico. I know that it automatically includes liability as well as comprehensive and collision with a deductible. But does it also cover me if I total my car in an at fault accident, does it cover me when driving a rental vehicle, does it pay for rental cars or offer discounts when my car is down or in the shop?""

Health Insurance - 31 days after Birth?

Here is my question: Me and my wife currently have health insurance (Carrier A). Effective 6/1 I plan to get into different health insurance plan with different insurer (Carrier B). On 5/23 my son was born and as per Carrier A, I have 31 days to enroll him under my current health insurance. Since I am changing eff 6/1, will he still be covered with my current plan (even I don't add him) until I add him to the new plan? So, basically from the time he is born until he gets added to Carrier B, would he have a coverage for these 7-8 days? Thanks""

Has anyone used Young Driver Insurance ? With CO OP?

Im searching for cheap car Insurance, I came across CO OP Young Car Insurance, Been Quote 1700 with my 1 years no claims and been driving for 4 years. Without CO OP insurance confused website I did the same search was quoted 2500. Has anyone had CO OP young Insurance can you tell me the Pros and Cons of this Insurance Company, Also if I was driving at 35MPH in a 30zone would I banned from the Insurance company.""

Free car insurance quotes?

are these qoutes accurate or could the price they give you actually be lower then what the free quote says?

How much would insurance be for me if i have kawasaki zx10r and im a newbie?

How much would insurance be for me if i have kawasaki zx10r and im a newbie?

50cc Scooter Insurance Help?

I'm 16 in 9 days, and I'm going to celebrate with a Peugeot V Clic Silver Sport. However, I'm going to need insurance. I live in a quiet area, and my scooter will be kept in a locked, secure garage with four other scooters. I'm also very responsible and won't be thrashing it and doing wheelies. Does anyone think this will reduce the cost of insurance?""

Cheapest car to insure for 17 year old male in Toronto?

Im looking to buy a car and i live in the toronto area. Insurance is not the cheapest here. I was wondering what my best bet was in terms of insurance. Im looking for cars, not minivans,suvs, trucks...etc""

Blue lake insurance address?

I need the addres to blue lake insurance or at least a direct telephone # to the address. The address used to be: 605 Coolidge Dr. ste 210 Folsom, CA 95630-4211 but they changed address and according to the mail they do not have a forwarding address. Does anyone have this insurance with the correct address and phone number?""

How much would insurance cost for my moped?

So I'm going to be 16 soon and I'm going to get a 50cc moped. Could someone tell me what the average cost of insurance would cost please? Thanks

Failure to provide proof of insurance.?

I got a ticket for failing to provide my insurance card to the officer. I had an insurance card, but it was expired. He told me to fight it in court and it will most likely be dropped. If it gets dropped, does it still appear as a conviction on my driving record. What are the impacts on my insurance rates if it does appear as a conviction?""

Is car insurance in any way fair?

I know there is not much that I can do about it on my own but I am thoroughly annoyed by paying for car insurance. You pay for it in the hopes that you don't get into an accident and it increases. Once you've gotten into an accident, depending on the company, they try to figure out a way not to pay for it. If your car is totally destroyed, you're stuck with the blue book value and the remainder of your car note in some cases (if your insurance is really bad). While all of this is going on, the car is depreciating at an almost exponential rate and the top it all off, it is a requirement by our government to pay for it. Now I do undestand its place but there needs to be some type of adjustment in the way that this system works. I mean, while they're collecting money on your insurance, they are reinvesting it and making money off of your money that you will never get back and ultimately never use....I'm annoyed. I feel like I am just throwing money away. What do you think?""

Advicing on insuring my car?

Well, i passed my driving test yesterday yay! I got a car from a friend but i'm having trouble finding somewhere to insure me without having to pay like tons of money. I'm female and age 20 so i don't really know how much my insurance should be or what's a good deal. Anyone give me any insurance companies i could try as a first time driver? Thank you""

Renting an Apartment: Is this cost per month affordable for my budget?

The apartment's rent is $750 a month...I'm living with 2 other roommates, so we are dividing that cost three ways. We'll each owe $250 a month...plus electric ($35 - $50 a month), plus cable t.v. ($30 - $40 a month), plus WiFi internet ($30 - $40 a month). So all together, each of us will owe around $275 a month, roughly. I make $32,000 a year before taxes and health insurance...I make a $250 car payment per month, and car insurance is $1000 (+ or -) for 6 months. This is my first time renting (I'm 20), so I want to be sure that I can afford this apartment.""

What's a cheap car insurance company for drivers with alot of points.?

What's a cheap car insurance company for drivers with alot of points.?

Car accident and cost $500 to repaint the bumper ?

I crashed a car in a paking lot. It was a dent on a left rear bumper. I didnt want to report to my insurance because i got in an car accident few months ago( i was 17 and juz turned 18). The owner took his car to mechanism and sent me a receive of her car repair. It costed $500 to repaint a left bumper ( Acura 2 doors). My dad told me that $500 can painting the whole car and told me to as the owner if I can pay only $300. I dont want my insurance goes up but also dont want they charge me that much. I wonder if they really cost $500 to repaint the bumper because the owner sent me a payment for her car and anyway that i can ask hhim to lower the cost. I took a picture of the dent after I crash it andn dont know if it can help for anything ??

Do insurance companies rate based on points or violations??

I am 23 and have no points on my licence. I live in maryland and i was pulled over in virginia for speeding and recived a 'failure to obey a highway sign' violation. The officer said he gave me that cause it was a lesser fine, i think it was B.S. cause he didnt have me on radar (i asked to see the radar becase he said i was going 75 in a 65, i felt i was going 70 max.. he said they arent supposed to lock in the speed int he radar but that is a different issue) I contacted a rep from the MVA and he said no points would transfer to my driving record, but the violation would go on my record carrying no points. My question is, do the insurance companies look at just the points on your licence, or do they look at the violation even if there are no points. Also, about 2 years ago I got a ticket for speeding and i went to court and they dropped the points and declinded the fine a little. Im assuming this is on my record as well, but carried no points, would this effect rates as well""

Can a non-car-owner buy auto insurance to drive any car (rental or friend's)? How does one obtain it?

Can a non-car-owner buy auto insurance to drive any car (rental or friend's)? How does one obtain it?

Hammonton New Jersey Cheap car insurance quotes zip 8037

Hammonton New Jersey Cheap car insurance quotes zip 8037

20 years old - Can I get a months Car Insurance?

I am 20 years old and want a months car insurance for the christmas holidays - is there any company that will let me do this? Every one I have looked at appears to have a minimum age requirement of at least 21, does anyone know of any that would allow me to take out a months policy at the age of 20?""

What does hurricane insurance cost?

I'm relocating to the greater houston area and am planning on buying a home in harris or galveston counties. I wanted to get a ballpark idea of what hurricane insurance would run on a 200k home with perhaps 45k of contents.

Lower insurance premium because of replaced roof?

I filed a claim last year for roof damage. After a typical fight with the insurance company, they replaced the my roof. As a result, my rates increased (Same concept as purchasing toilet paper and then getting punished when you use it - same concept!) Anyhow, my question is: Since I have a new roof, could that make me more eligible for a lower annual premium at another ins company even though the new roof was a result of a claim? Thanks for your assistance in advance.""

New driver trying to get insurance... Quote for 1750 in November... Why has it gone up to 4400 now?

Hello all, I'm 17 years old (male) and passed my test earlier this month. In November I just thought I'd get a rough figure for insuring a 1.2L Corsa (2001)... I got a quote from Quinn Direct for 1750 (I put in the details as if I had already passed etc). So yes, more than the car is worth, but my parents and grandparents were willing to help me out with it, and I was pleased. So, Christmas has been and I thought I'd get looking... I went back on to Quinn Direct and now for a 1L Corsa (2001)... The quote is 4450!! That is ridiculous! It's true, I'm a 17 year old male... Bla bla... But 4450 for a 1 Litre car? All my friends are with Quinn Direct, and their 1.3L Fiesta's etc are only 1900 to insure! Gocompare and all those don't give me much better quotes either. I've also done the Pass Plus. Can anyone shed some light on this please? Thanks!""

What are we paying for when we buy car Insurance?

Does any one notice that we shell out thousands of dollars from our income for car insurance, and the insurance company gives us nothing back? Sure, if we get into a car accident, they cover the costs, but then they raise your rate. And you are paying far more than the cost of the accident anyway. And then if you don't get into an accident, what is all that money for? They don't give it back. I just think its odd that we are required by law to pay for nothing, after we already have paid for the car. And then if you don't, you are penalized and punished, so you are given no choice. But really, you're paying all this money and getting nothing back. WTF""

How do insurance companys notify you when your insurance goes up?

i was in fender bender yesterday (not that much damage but basically ran into the back of a lady that stopped immediatley infront of me) but was under my grandmothers insurances at the time and driving her vehicle. people have been telling me that my insurance will go up now though, Im under my parents insurance, so will the insurance company send a letter to my house like tomorrow? or when insurance bill comes the next time to be paid it will be a little higher? Will it state why? Thanks""

How much of a difference will a Mercedes cost to insure and register than a BMW?

I have a 2001 BMMW 330i and I was planning to hand it down to my little sister (who just turned 17 and got her license) Although, she wants a 2000 or 2001 Mercedes C230 or C240. My parents can afford this for her... but I was wondering how much more her parts will cost and how much her insurance and registration will cost her. Please no one who tells us that we should get a cheaper car.. it's not going to happen. Thanks though.""

Health insurance question..?

I have bcbs of tx. My mom got it for me when I was there. I am now living in California but still have the insurance from bcbs tx. So can I still use the insurance that I have right now at the doctors office. Or I cant? If i cant, then what do I have to do in order to use my insurance..? Another thing, I am 17 years old so do I have to be with my mom if I make an appointment, or can I go by myself, Or do I need an adult to go with me. (I'm living with my uncle right now.)""

What is a good health insurance for a college student?

I am a college student looking for good health insurance. I understand insurance is not cheap but i was wondering if someone could help point me in the right direction!

How can my car insurance go up from 128$ to 178$?

My car is all paid off and has been since I bought it. But I don't know why it went up. I looked up other car quotes and there much higheer then what im paying now.

Good health insurance?

I am a 29 year old male, i don't smoke or have any health problems. I am looking for good health insurance that doesn't have a high monthly cost. any recommendations of what to stay away from or some good ones would be much appreciated. Thanks. :)""

Where is good for recovery truck insurance?

hi can anyone help me .been searching for recovery truck insurance .but not having much luck .anyone send me a link or tell me a site that i can try please many thanks

Where can I find cheaper car insurance quotes?

I'm 17 in a few months, have a car, and have been checking insurance quotes. From my previous experience of quotes from Churchill, Quinn-Direct, Directline etc. it doesn't cost much, if at all, to insure on my provisional license with hopes of changing the policy to insure me on a full license in the future. I have got a 1997, 3 door, 5 seater, diesel peugeot 106 with a 1.6 litre engine and the best insurance quote I have recieved so far was from Quinn, but they have recently stopped insuring in the UK so I won't be able to use it when I am 17...They gave me a quote of around 800 whereas everyone else are offering me 1,500. Does anyone know of any other companies who can give me cheaper comprehensive cover? Thanks for any answers""

Car Insurance discrimination?

I was filling out a car insurance quote form online , I put my mother as the main driver and me as additional but accidentally put me as a spouse , the quote came back as 400 pounds. As i reviewed the quote i notice my mistake and changed it to Other ( Spouse , Partner , Other only listed ) and then my quote came back as 2000 pounds. I am 18 years old and getting car insurance is hard but my question is how does being married make me a safer driver and is it possible to take insurance companies to court because of there overlooked age discrimination""

""Where can I find affordable dental insurance, that I can use immediatleywith no waiting period???

Im in the State of VIRGINIA :)

How much is motorcycle insurance on average?

I'm looking at a 2013 Victory Boardwalk. My parents are going to make me pay the insurance for it but I don't know how much it's going to be. It's Progressive Insurance by the way.

I was a passenger in a car accident. The car was not at fault. Will my insurance go up?

Also, just to know, assuming that the car I was in had been at fault, would MY insurance go up?. Again, I was not driving.""

Why AMERICA gifts so much money to the INSURANCES COMPANIES?

And people that want to do everything right let GOVERMENT policies mess up them business with charges that are not affordable? It is frustrating!

How much will my insurance go up?

I backed out of my driveway and hit my grandmas car leaving a basketball-sized dent. my dad says I have a $500 deductible but what exactly does that mean? should I pay without using my insurance, and approximately how much would my insurance go up if I did decided to inform them? The vehicle was parked.""

Shipping insurance? ?

I am selling my ipod on ebay. It will probably sell around $175-$200. I want to offer shipping insurance. How much should I say it is? Is there an actual percent?

I was wondering if Doctors pay for health insurance?

Since they are doctors, do they need insurance?""

How much will car insurance cost a teenager?

I will be getting my license in August and I was wondering how much insurance will cost me. My parents have AAA. I know there are a few factors that change the cost. I have good grades ( i know that is a factor) I will not buy a new car, but rather a safe older car (probably late 90s) How much will car insurance realistically cost me both initially and annually? I live in California and I am 16""

Personal Medical Insurance?

Why is medical insurance is a dream of riches or expensive commodity in U.S.A ? For example, Denmark, Canada, and other countries it is affordable and free to the people who contribute to the development of the country? (In Denmark for example if you can speak Danish, and work, you get free Insurance, like such in another countries). Why can't we make it affordable to everyone? What pro-active thoughts, comments, actions, suggestions you have for in this regard? Thank you.""

Does anyone know the average insurance quotes for 2007 Nissan Altima in North Carolina?

Does anyone know the average insurance quotes for 2007 Nissan Altima in North Carolina?

How much will my insurance premiums go up after an accident when I am deemed at fault?

It was a fender bender. I was deemed at fault (though the other car was going way too fast). No one was hurt. But as an at-fault driver, how much will my insurance premiums go up by? I want a ball park range here, or to know how much yours went up by after a similar experience.... anything. And I want to know if my premiums go up more for worse damage or more expensive repairs. My company will not tell me anything. Note I was covered for collision for with a $500 deductible. I am on a plan with my parents, and I pay them about $71 per month right now.""

Hammonton New Jersey Cheap car insurance quotes zip 8037

Hammonton New Jersey Cheap car insurance quotes zip 8037

125 motorbike insurance 19 year old?

hi, im 19 and have had a car driving licence for 2 years and clean. As my car insurance renewal is ?n a few months and because its a 2.3litre and all that talk of premiums of increasing, its my option to sell my car for a motorbike and a riding experience, so typically how much would insurance be for a 19 year old, With a new bike licence but been driving a car for 2 years (if that matters) 1000 pound 125cc motorbike stored in a garage, immobiliser, not for any sort of business and miles of maximum 2000 a year. im just asking because insurance webpages don't open on my computer today, but i roughly remember whats asked for insurance. thanks in advance""

Where did the myth that the color of your car is an insurance factor come from?

Where did that come from I hear lots of people saying that. That would be a sad day if the inusuance companies had that much say into how my car should look.

Cheapest car insurance?!?

Im getting a car next week and i need some suggestions on the cheapest car insurance with full coverage im looking for around $200 a month or less im a new driver im 19 so i know its gonna be pricy. I live in Pennsylvania

Is it cheaper to add a car to my insurance or get a new incurance for the 2nd car?

I have a 1989 trans-am it is modified and i was wondering if it would be cheaper to add it to my insurance company or get a second insurance company just for that car. Andy help???

Auto insurance for drivers with little/no credit history?

While shopping for car insurance, I usually use a fake name/address with all my real information (DOB, driving record, etc) just so I don't get a bunch of annoying calls/emails from every company I get a quote from. The fake email address I always use got an email the other day, which basically said that when they ran a credit check they consumer reporting agency couldn't provide a full credit history (not surprising seeing as they were checking on a name that doesn't exist). The thing that concerns me is that being only 19, I also don't have much of a credit history (the only credit I do currently have is a card I got a month ago). I couldn't really tell from the email (since I didn't read it too closely, I was really just clearing out the fake inbox) but I'm not sure if they were saying We couldn't get a credit history on you, if we had been able to, the rate you were quoted could have been lower or something more drastic like because we couldn't find a credit history, the quote we gave is no longer valid and either they won't cover me or will charge way more. I'm concerned because the email came several days after I got the quote. When I decide which company to use, and I get a quote with my real name/contact info and buy it right way online, am I going to get an email in a few days saying the because of my lack of credit they either want more money or are cancelling my policy?""

Car insurance in California?

I heard that if you have a car insured in California, each additional car that you acquire that's registered has 30 days before it needs to be insured. Is this correct? If so, where can I find the official documentation?""

""A car hit our car, but doesn't have insurance.?""

I have liability on that specific car, and comprehensive coverage from AAA on another of my cars. Could I use the comprehensive insurance on my other car, instead of the liability? Also, if not is there any program in California to help us with the loss.""

How much will buying a 2005 Mistubishi Lancer Evolution 8 raise my insurance premium?

I'm looking into buying a new car and I'm a bit of a motor head and like to race. The Evo 8 is my next choice, but I can't find out how much it will raise my premium. Anyone know? If it helps, my insurance provider is Allstate.""

Health insurance for individual?

Trying to find the best plan for myself. I am 30 yr old female self employed. I have an ok job right now so a high premium is not going to work. But I am fairly healthy and never really go to the doctor. I guess I need insurance for those what if moments that I hope never happen. Also I live in Pennsylvania. This is what I have found the HMO premiums are just too high but none have deductibles. The PPO plans all have deductibles but the premiums are lower. PPO Deductibles $2500 cost $188 a month,20% coinsurance $5000 cost $164 a month, 20% coinsurance PPO Advantage Deductibles $1500 - $142 a month, 20% coinsurance $2500 - $120 a month, 20 coinsurance Right now I'm leaning towards the lowest deductible advantage plan at 1500 @142 a month and a 3000 out of pocket max. It seems reasonable all the preventative care, primary and specialist are all copays w/out deductibles so say I never go tot he hospital I'm basically just paying a monthly premium and the copay. My issue is I have gone uninsured before and knock on wood nothing happened never even needed to use a cvs minute clinic. But as I approached 30 I realized maybe I should get health care for myself just in case. I do have the !500 set aside in an account that was supposed to be a splurge fund for vacation but now it may also just be a medical fund. Anyways, based on the above all co-pays are $30 and $50 for specialist. Do they sound reasonable?? Insurance is so hard to understand *sigh*""

License in insurance?

What would it be for? How would I go about obtaining one, and is it a solid field to get into? I currently work in member service for health insurance and am looking into getting into a different type, but I see a lot require a license in insurance.""

Should I get the car insurance when i rent a car?

I dont own a car but i'm covered under my dad's car insurance. I'm planning on renting a car in a few days, but i'm wondering if i wil be covered under the car insurance when i get into an accident with a rental car. and in this situation should i get the extra car insurance that rental car companies offer?""

Insurance and Pregnancy?

Looking to start trying to get pregnant in the next few months. Currently I do not have any health insurance. What is the insurance protocol with pregnancy? I know obviously no ins co. will take me once I am pregnant. But how far in advance will I need to have insurance BEFORE getting pregnant? And any specific plan I should mention or ask for that will help pay for child birth & prenatal care? I plan on using a midwife, how will that effect it as well? Thanks in advance!!""

Under parents car insurance in another state?

im going to another state for college, can i stay under my parents car insurance?""

Which is cheaper ? Insurance on a small or mid size truck?

My son will be getting his license in a year and a half. I am thinking of going ahead & buying a used truck for him, and he can practice in it when he gets his learner's permit. He would like a truck. I have been encouraging him to get a smaller one, like a Toyota since it will be cheaper on gas, If I let him get a bigger one, like a mid size Chevy, would the insurance be cheaper. Where would I save more money--on a more fuel-efficient truck or a bigger one with cheaper insurance? I am thinking of 93-96 model years.""

Insurance on this car?

Ok so I was looking on Craigs list, I'm thinking of buying my first car in a few months. I have a lot of money saved up. Theres a 1996 Taurus LX for sale for $1800. It has 119,000 miles on it, and it gets 25mpg. I'll only have this car until I go to college, because I can't take it up to Boulder with me. College is two years away. However, if I do go to Boulder, I'll only be two hours away from home, so when I come home I might want to have the car. What would you say the insurance would be on this car, so basically how much would I have to pay per year for insurance. We are not thinking about repairs or gas here, just insurance.""

Whats the cheapest non-owners...?

Car insurance?

What would happen if you show proof of full coverage to a lender then drop to liability?

Would the lender ever know that you dropped to liability? I am looking to finance a motorcycle and they require proof of insurance (full coverage), but the cost is insane.""

""How to save more money as a teen, for a car and motorcycle?""

I'm about to turn 16, and would like to save up for a reliable, cheap (2k-4.5k), good-looking, car. It has to be American, or anything other than Honda, Subaru, Toyota, Lexus, Hyundai, etc. cause dad works for GM. I am paying for the car on my own, most likely, but maybe I can convince parents to pay 1k or so. Money is tight right now in my family. Dad got demoted last year during GM's bankruptcy, and may get a promotion in spring. My Mom is opening a restaurant this year, which is going to cost a lot. I got a job in November at a brand new Kroger grocery store, where I get minimum wage and cannot work over 16 hours per week because I'm only 15. I have saved a little over 1.2k in the bank. I also have invested $500 of my own money this year into stocks, which are up a little. This might sound dumb to some, but I have dreamed of buying a motorcycle. I want a Kawasaki Ninja 650R. AND YES, I KNOW INSURANCE COSTS MONEY, (FOR CAR AND MOTORCYCLE) I'M NOT AN IDIOT. I also need to plan on how to save for that. Any tips, help, and info would be great! Thanks so much.""

How much do you pay for your car insurance?

I just bought a new car. A Honda fit, and my insurance went up $40 more per month. This is my first brand new car, and I am use to the insurance that comes with a used 7 year old car. I was wondering what others pay for their car insurance, and whether it is new or old. I hope I am not asking anything that people would feel uncomfortable with. I just want to see if I am being charged in the range of what I should.""

Buying a car (scion tc) + insurance= how much expense a month?

Ill be buying a new scion tc no option for Im estimating 18k i got my license almost a half a year now and im 18 i had one speed ticket no credit history, so ill be paying 40% of the 18k and buying the car my moms credit sucks so im better off being indepedent how much is insurance for me these days. combined how much for the payment and the insurance will it be""

Affordable health insurance?

i know this isn't a pregnancy question but i believe moms would know about their health insurance and this is the only category where i get an answers so thanks in advance moms! i dont have hundreds of dollars to pay for insurance. if i did i could go to the doctor without it. i need some health insurance that i can afford. anyoe have any ideas?

Insurance while overseas?

I am wanting to travel overseas to join my wife but wondered if something happened to my family (in the future) and I need money fast to travel back is there some kind of insurance I could take out before I leave?

Can I add my son to my fiances car insurance?

My son just turned 16, and I have been researching insurance cost for him. My fiance drives a company car, and his own personal truck just sits in the driveway. It would be much cheaper adding my son to his truck (84.00) as an occasional driver versus putting him on mine (154.00) as an occasional driver. My car is considered a class C vehicle (Landrover) which is why it would be more expensive. Does anybody know if insurance companies would allow this, being that we are not married yet? Thanks!!""

""I live in California and need a good health insurance, what do you guys recommend?""

The health insurance will only be for me and my husband. Not too expensive, maybe like $250 the most as far as monthly payments. However, although I'm not pregnant, my husband and I do plan to get pregnant by the end of this year, therefore thats another thing I'm looking for that it will cover maternity. What health insurance do you recommend?""

Car insurance cost for expat?

Hi I am a 37y old male married moving to London from india soon. I checked som online quotes and it seems to be very expensive even if I buy a 10 yr old vw golf. I intend to get a uk license when I arrive, but will I be considered a new driver even though I have held a license in the us and India and have driven for close to 15 yrs""

Hammonton New Jersey Cheap car insurance quotes zip 8037

Hammonton New Jersey Cheap car insurance quotes zip 8037

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