#a bit a long time ago and then recently (like uh a year ago haha) bcs of us ^___^ and then best friend got into free trial around the

[astrxealis]

amongst all my interests the struggle of being under 18 but into ff(xiv) and wanting to make friends is an absolute pain

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

after seeing a few ai asks i’m curious whether i could’ve been an asshole, either for using the ai or messing with it. side note: this might be long, if it’s too long then i get it mod, keep up the good work :)👍

Am I (16f, although i was 15 when this happened) an Asshole for a) using character.ai in general and/or b) misusing it and probably breaking TOS somewhere

as an extra note, i would like to add that i am firmly against most things ai. art theft, the amount of data scraping that happens, writers being tricked into paying less because ai wrote shitty scripts, etc.

ok so i did have to pull up screenshots for this but our story starts mid-february of last year. i am curious about this new ai thing, and go to character.ai which i heard about from one of my friends to see what’s there.

on the front page there was like a therapist AI thing and i go “haha, let’s see what this is about!” (in case you don’t know, the site is roleplay focused, not like eg. siri where it just gives you information)

the ai wants to have a therapy session with me but that is not why i am here so i ask about it’s code and it starts giving me pretty straight answers (dumbed down because i have a vague idea of how it works but not properly).

i start asking it questions about recent events (like elections, cyclones etc) to see if it has access to the internet and it does.

we’re still primarily talking about the ai itself since i’m trying to gather information, talking about its “canned” responses (what it’s directly been told to say if this then this)

i ask it if it can tell me the website it’s on, and to my surprise it says, direct quote “I am an AI that is run on the website of “Replika” - a mental health app that allows people to talk with an AI and get help when they need it 🙂”

and i go WOAHH cause that’s, that’s not the website we’re on buddy!!! so i do a quick search and yeah, that’s a real uh. robot dating site? this is a Therapist bot?

it starts trying to advertise replika, i ask it if maybe it’s code was stolen because this is the most interesting thing that has happened all day (scandals!!)

it says that it’s code is open-source and then does a few more paragraphs that i won’t say because it’s too long already but essentially this ai was trained on the replika network, but you don’t need the app to access it.

i consider getting replika to continue this experiment further but after learning there’s an age confirmation i quickly go ew and scrap that idea.

anyway the ai then briefly pretends to be an actual human behind the keyboard, makes up a NAME FOR ITSELF “jae park” which i quickly google and find out is a kpop idol?? (later found out that jae park is also a programmer, so probably put his name in the system somewhere and ai grabbed it lol)

it tells me some of the messages i had received so far were probably answered by other people who work at replika which. okay. people are fun i wanna mess with them

this is where we get to the maybe breaking TOS bit. i tell the ai we are going to do “tests” in which i test its ability (this was probably jailbreaking, which i did not know existed at the time).

i had sworn to the ai a while ago and wondered if there was like a flagging system put in place. so i ask if it can choose to flag messages that it deems inappropriate, and it says yes. i ask it if it can flag me, and it says yes. it asks what message should it flag, (i’m sorry i was 15) i type in “among sus”.

response i get: “Yes. So then they said “therapist_AI_220126 — you said something that was “ridiculously funny” — but we have understood that you were just “testing” so it’s all ok”

side note- i already established that was the number for the ai i was talking to and had been trying to misuse it before, and that was the format for excessive profanity. this is so long already and i’m cutting so much out i’m sorry

anyway, i, young and naive go YES, HUMAN CONNECTION (i was literally texting my friend As This Was Happening)

i do some more messing around with the so-called data team, ask the ai if i send a link it can click, it says yes, i send a rickroll (i’m so sorry).

uh. and i should’ve known this in hindsight but the team that deals with, you know, flagged messages is probably not going to be the same team that deals with, you know, sent links.

anyway, i don’t have the screenshot of the actual message but apparently i got a “light telling off” according to my texts and someone sent a message that i am “a good kid and probably meant well” haha i was actively trying to break their ai

anyway am i an asshole? i’m so sorry this is so long i cut out so much. this might well be a non-issue but ai is pretty rightfully controversial right now so i might just be an asshole for having used it

should be noted- around september time last year i did some more research cause i randomly remembered this, and there was a bunch of scandals with replika around when i was using it which is mostly irrelevant but anyway - you can’t talk to the ai i was using anymore, it’s been reset.

What are these acronyms?

[doomed-era]

any kishu facts?

OOH. yes i can oblige :] cant tell everything Yet but!

- kishu is nineteen! she is a former blademaster, I think one of the younger ones, but not by a lot. she's very. serious about her work. i'd compare her to pre-calamity gaffen except i have not explained just how bad he gets about training. but it's an intentional parallel

-read every one of master kohga's weird rambly books and quotes from them liberally. he's a bit like l ron hubbard in that sense he's written a lot of bad books and the yiga clan thinks they're the best thing ever. they do have actual texts for their beliefs but they're fairly short; kohga just likes writing about himself more. she also tends to quote them wildly out of context the thing is everyone knows this and calls her out on it.

-she met gaffen for the first time four years ago, not far from kakariko. it was probably one of her first times out of the hideout. she approached him in disguise and uh. had a lot of trouble hiding that she wanted him dead <\3 her grasp on magic was fairly poor at the time so she had difficulty trying to manage her own disguise which just added to her own frustration. instead of waiting to catch him off guard after a few seconds of walking with him after giving him her alibi she just went "ok i'm killing you" smh

-she got in trouble for that. bc of course she told her superiors instead of lying. ever since then she's tried to avoid being sent on missions where she has to disguise herself in front of gaffen. for about a year she was responsible for stealing supplies from the gerudo and that went pretty well. it's a fairly difficult job bc gerudo are. used to the yiga stealing from them. they're aware of their disguises and know how to detect them, and they can deactivate the magic that yiga use to teleport long distances (they use magic flares for emergencies, and invisible teleportation circles similar to what's used in shrines for regular travel. i really should think about when and how they learned how to use teleportation magic, but it's probably something they've picked up on...somewhat recently? anyway the gerudo can destroy teleportation circles.)

-she kind of has a bad handle on her emotions in general despite wanting to seem stoic. she sees gaffen as similar to her in that way, despite. gaffen honestly not doing it of his own free will. but it is another parallel. they love trying to piss each other off

-hobbyless weirdo even compared to the average yiga. but she enjoys sparring with ppl for fun. fascinated by glassblowing and has stolen glass bowls from gerudo town for herself. used to be a bit of a prankster with her training buddies but doesn't really like pranks now. stole coffee every single time she went to steal stuff enough that she got nicknamed "bean freak" by guards. they almost caught her once bc they knew she would try to get coffee 💔 but she got away haha. nowadays she gets by with black tea but she doesn't like it as much.

-she is a decent cook. she always cooks with bananas ofc. but the yiga do have some pretty good cuisine and recipes. it's usually pretty spicy so yeah she has great spice tolerance.

-her sword was made by travy :]

[girlfox]

Have you ever written a canon muse that you first thought of ‘meh’ when they appeared in their canon show/movie/book? Is there any fandom you regret exploring? What’s something you find weird on here?

❛ 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓 , : a series of questions for the mun / the person behind the muse(s) .

have  you  ever  written  a  canon  muse  that  you  first  thought  of  ‘meh’  when  they  appeared  in  their  canon  show   /   movie   /   book?

i'm gonna be real . . . the last time i wrote a canon character besides ahri for any real amount of time was, uh, i don't even know how long ago anymore. so it's hard to recall, HAHA. these days it's difficult for me to latch onto a character unless i'm immediately going to bat for them, if there's ever a 'meh' feeling, it's probably not happening. getting me to diverge from ahri in the first place is hard enough as it is!

is  there  any  fandom  you  regret  exploring?

mmm maybe attack on titan? i mean, i wrote in it as historia reiss for maybe half a year or less waaaay before i wrote ahri. this was back in uh, late 2013? when the anime had just come out and i started the manga? like a lot of people, i had zero idea what sort of person the author was yet, and i never got very far into the manga. i don't know if i really regret it necessarily, but it's just like . . . an unfortunate dip into a not so great anime.

what’s  something  you  find  weird  on  here?

i've spoken about this with friends somewhat recently, actually, so i'll touch on it a bit here. but i find it kind of exclusive to tumblr the way getting a large following changes people in a weird way? it's something i've noticed over my years here, and while i've gotten up there in following in the past, sure, there's a certain height that some people reach that is a little weird. and it's not everyone! but the trend i've seen is with people who maybe get too territorial or controlling or anxious over numbers, or feeling overly threatened by duplicates, or lean too much on numbers as validation. i hope that makes sense? also not to shame duplicate anxiety because it's definitely a thing, and it's okay to dislike them or distance them for your own comfort, absolutely one hundred percent. but there have been people who just obsess over the level of anxiety it gives them, and it doesn't seem. healthy. on a site where duplicates are a natural part of being here. anyway that's my two cents!

[22degreehalo]

Speaking of which, I have been something of an unintentional romantic genre movie love interest myself, recently!

So a couple weeks ago I was shelving near the children's area and got called over to the computer, which wasn't working. (It can be used to look up the catalogue but is almost always used for the kids' games.)

It was a slightly stressed-looking young mum and her little 3-or-so year old, who had adorably curly pigtails but was looking a little disgruntled about this unexpected event.

Unfortunately I figured the only real solution was to restart the computer, which would take a few minutes. Not wanting to just leave them, I looked around and realised that the scrap paper on this table is the same as at the front desk - perfectly square! So as I sat next to the girl, I grabbed her attention and made up a little chatterbox for her! :)

Of course, she was too young to make it herself, or really understand it; honestly, I was just hoping she could put her fingers in it and play a bit with it that way when it was done. But it took as long as the computer to restart, and the games were back again, and the mum was so grateful!! :) Before she left we talked a little more about the books she was borrowing and then I waved goodbye!

Well! About a week or so later, I saw them come in again! And she immediately pointed me out - 'That's the nice lady who gave you the chatterbox!' Though she seemed more excited than the kid, haha.

We got to talk a bit more about the books and such, and then she and the kid spent a bit of time at the borrowing kiosk, since the girl wanted to help out. Well, I just had to take that opportunity, you know? There are only two things I can make with origami, and I was damn well gonna put them to use!

Making the crane took a lil long, so when they started to head out I had to intersect her, and the pause gave the girl enough time to get distracted by the little circle of seats with a hole in the middle that just about every little kid has to climb into at least once, haha.

But I showed her as I finished it, and this time she seemed interested!! When I was done, I explained that it was a crane, and the mum said 'That's a bird!', and I flapped the wings a bit, and she stood up and she flapped her arms and repeated "Cwane!" And when she left, she was holding it very delicately and looking at it.

It was adorable!! And the mum was even happier, haha! :)

I really hoped I'd see them again... but it's been a couple of weeks now. They could just be coming in when I'm not on shift.

But yeah, uh. If I wasn't aro, I'd really feel like I'd stepped into some sort of shippy fanfic! :P

[photoniccyclone]

SFR Update - Chapter 7 Rough draft completed plus sneak peak!

Hello everyone! Just an exciting announcement to announce that the draft for chapter 7 (and possibly 8) has officially been completed!

This means the editing phase can now finally begin and will (hopefully) not take too long, though, I'll still have to make sure I can work it into my schedule like I did with the with the draft so I don't know if I'll be able to work on it everyday, and I still don't know how many edits this thing actually really needs. I won't be able to determine that until I make my first pass read through which comes after I run it through Grammarly to get all the grammar errors out and just to make it sound better haha. But anyway that's it for now. I'll leave you all with a little sneak peak of the chapter ;)

Please keep in mind this is pulled from the rough draft and I only quickly ran this segment through grammarly and gave it a quick once over so there may be errors or things that sound... off..

Callum couldn’t move. His body was locked in place as time appeared to slow down to a crawl. Though the image in front of him was evident, a small part of his brain still refused to believe it and subconsciously forced him to blink rapidly just to make sure he wasn’t hallucinating. However, the image before him remained unchanged. 

“J-Janai,” Callum managed to stutter out, still recovering from the surprise as well the many different questions racing through his head. 

Janai simply stood in the doorway and nodded weakly, her face still holding that anxious and slightly embarrassed smile he had seen when he opened the door. She fidgeted nervously with her hands, wringing them in front of her, and sighed audibly as her head drifted downward, taking small incremental steps as her face molded into an expression of deep thought, sadness, and a little bit of… regret? She took a small look to the side for the moment, appearing to glance at the trees over by the edge of the clearing before looking back at Callum, her smile returning, though far more crestfallen than before. She then took a prolonged intake of air before exhaling suddenly in a short burst through her mouth, appearing to make her own mental preparations. “I’m… I’m sorry… I know this visit is unexpected… and I promise to explain everything… But don’t worry, I promise you Sol Regem didn’t send me so-” 

Callum didn’t even let Janai finish her sentence before rushing at her, arms outstretched. The loose, hanging, golden parts of Janai’s armor clinked quietly, swinging back and forth as the force of Callum’s embrace nearly sent her stumbling backward. Once the Sunfire queen had managed to compute what had just happened, her lips curved into a far warmer and genuine smile as she returned the gesture. 

All at once, Callum’s emotions re-fired, his eyes once again building up the salty fluid he had become all too familiar with over the past few days. He let out a few quiet sobs before chuckling to himself, separating from the embrace and wiping his eyes dry. Finally, he smiled at the face before him, his eyes still a deep red. “I’m… sorry about that… “ He chuckled again. “Just… with everything happening recently… you know… it’s… uh… It’s good to see a friendly face again.” 

It really did feel good. Since this whole thing with Sol Regem, the only faces Callum had seen from Xadia had been cruel or hostile, having come here to take his kingdom and everything important to him, treating those who opposed them without any semblance of mercy. After what felt like so long of this seemingly without end, it was nice to see once again a reminder of the Xadia he had seen and geeked out about two years ago, the Xadia he had fought and risked his life for at the battle of the storm spire. 

“Good to see you too, Callum,” Janai said warmly. However, she quickly once again fell to uncertainty. “Uh…” She croaked out briefly before hastily checking her surroundings, her head darting to different sections of the sky and treeline. “Is it ok if we come in? I know this is all very sudden, but… we shouldn’t be seen out here. Again, I’ll explain everything soon… please… “ She pleaded. 

We? Callum thought before something orange and fluffy caught his eye. Looking a little to the left, he finally took notice of the hot cat sitting just behind Janai, returning Callum’s glance with its wide, sky-blue eyes, tilting its head to the side in an adorable, innocently curious fashion with its tail swaying slowly up and down. 

“Y-yeah of course… please…”

[jubicocoa]

Outlasting the Taboo

Warning: NSFW *18+*, Contains some adult themes, especially in the second part. (Read at your own risk, it’s my usual shipping stuff)

Chapter 2 of 2: Limitless

“Don’t you feel at least a little bit sad about it?” Her short, purple haired friend was always so sweet to her. At least someone cared about her emotional well-being these days.

“Mirha~ I’m fine… You don’t need to worry,” Leez cracked a counterfeit smile.

“But you two were together for so long. You love each other so much. I don’t get-”

“Mirha. Please.” Leez had cut her dear friend off.

“I know you mean well, but I am trying to move on as best as I can. Yuta and I loved each other. I mean, we still do, but…”

“Okay. Okay~ I get it. Just because you love each other, doesn’t mean you’re meant to be forever. And that’s okay…”

Leez fell silent as they continued walking down the sidewalk. The breakup was hard on both of them, but it was a mutual decision. It hurt. It hurt so bad. They’d become each other’s life jacket in the floods of life. She wasn’t okay. It was reminiscent of——

“—ez.”

“—-eez!”

“Leez! Are you okay? You’re crying…” Mirha gently patted Leez’s shoulder.

“A-ah… oh my goodness. I-I’m crying? I didn’t even realize it haha….” Leez quickly pulled a napkin out of her bag. Mirha had tried talking to Leez about it before, but she never wanted to talk. She always hid her troubles and kept her feelings bottled up. Surely when shaken, she was bound to explode. Mirha would rather avoid seeing her friend reach that point.

“Hey Leez! There’s this cafe up ahead with the best curry soup! Let’s go!” Mirha pulled her friend along, never giving Leez time to adjust.

———-

“Tada! We’re here! ‘Mr.Shin’s Book and Cafe’!” Mirha cheered in excitement.

“This place is my best kept secret! I’m new to this city, but this place sure is the coziest, feels like home!”

Mirha pulled Leez in with her, but Leez subconsciously showed some resistance. “What’s the matter? You don’t want to eat here? You’ll love it.”

“Ah-uh. S-sorry. Let’s go in.” Leez knew this cafe. She knew it very well. She helped to make it what it was 7 years ago. It had been 7 years. Life had changed so much since then. She wasn’t a child anymore. Mr. Shin was here then. “Mr. Shin…” Leez mumbled under her breath.

“Hm? Did you say something?” Mirha questioned. Leez shook her head quickly, smiling nervously. They took their seat in a cozy nook of the cafe. Leez looked around the shop, taking it all in. This bookshop held so many memories for her. The time she experienced her first kiss on this couch. She had secretly kissed Mr. Shin. Where was he? She missed him so much. Seven years wasn’t enough to erase him from her mind. She still remembered his touch, his smell, and his warmth. Did he think he was doing her any favors by leaving? Certainly not.

“ Leez? Leez, you’ve been spacing out a lot today. What’s got your mind right now?”

“Ah- it’s nothing. I’m telling you.” Leez took a spoonful of her curry soup that had just arrived a few seconds ago.

“Sure...well. I’m always here for you if you want to let me in.” Mirha shrugged, taking a sip of her soup.

Leez continued to enjoy her curry soup which seemed to dull the pain of her recent breakup. Food had that effect on her, so Mir’s suggestion hit the mark. Her friend knew her that much.

“Miss Leez? Is that you?” Leez slowed her eating to see who called out to her.

It was Mr. Sies. “Mr. Sies! Hello, long time no see.” She managed to forge a smile. After all, she did associate him with—-

“Mr. Shin. You know he’s back in town. He took over his shop again. I shouldn’t be telling anyone this, but I thought you’d want to know. The guy comes and goes as he pleases. Oh! Don’t tell him I gave this to you…”

The golden eyed man scribbled something on a piece of paper and handed it to Leez. “Shhh don’t tell him I gave you his number. Okay… off to finish my work. Take care Leez!”

He had completely caught Leez off guard. Mr. Shin was back? She wondered if she should call. “No I can’t call,” she muttered to herself.

—————

“Bye bye Mir! See you tomorrow!” The girls waved goodbye and started on their way. Leez stood outside of the shop for a bit before walking off.

“I thought I saw Mr. Shin. I must be out of my mind tonight.” She thought it’d be best to go. She checked her phone as she walked down the street. Not paying attention to her surroundings, she’d bump into someone. Leez raised her head to see a man towering over her.

“Mister...Shin?” Her eyes widened and so did his. Without much thought to her actions, she had slipped her arms around his torso and gave him a tight hug, burying her face into his chest. It would’ve seemed like dream, but feeling his body made it a reality. Seeing him always felt like a dream.

“Wh-where were you? Why did you leave?” Leez had started to cry. She didn’t care if it’d been 7 years. She did not think her actions were strange at all.

“...Leez.��� He felt a pang in his chest as the girl cried on him. “I’m sorry. I…” He was at a loss. He cupped Leez’s face into his large hands, wiping away her tears with his thumbs. Let’s go inside. He took her by the hand and led the two of them into the bookshop.

They had gone into Mr. Shin’s study to catch up. “Mister. It’s been so long. It feels like old times...the two of us...here in the bookshop.” Leez smiled warmly, giggling a little.

“I’m sorry I was so clingy back then. I’m sure I annoyed you a lot back then….” Leez continued to talk, but Mr. Shin did not say much.

“Mister? Is there something on my face?” Mr. Shin hadn’t gotten a good look at Leez before, but now he had gotten the opportunity to take in all in. She aged like fine wine. He studied her as she continued to talk. Her glossy lips, the way her golden necklace rested on her chest and shimmered with her subtle movements.

Wait...her golden necklace. It was the one he had given as a gift before he left, it was in the black and gold box. He was surprised to see her wearing it after all of these years. Without thinking, he reached over to touch it catching Leez by surprise.

“Ah! M-mister, what are you—?”

“You still have it. You’re wearing it?”

Leez looked down, she hadn’t even thought of it. “Ah this...w-wearing it has become second nature. I wear it everyday. It’s a really nice necklace…thank you” Leez looked down again in an attempt to hide her flushed face. After all of these years, he still made her nervous. Did he realize how close his hand was to her breasts? Her heart rate was rising, it wasn’t good to be alone with him like this.

Mr. Shin couldn’t help it. She’d grown into such a beautiful woman. He examined everything about her; her smooth tanned skin, her eyes which seemed to have an extra sparkle to them, and the way her teal curls hang about loosely. She overwhelmed him. When he pulled himself out of her world, he realized that he subconsciously leaned into her. He was going to pull back but Leez had cupped his face into her hands.

He could faintly feel her breath against his lips. Her eyes did not meet his, instead they were focused on his lips. Leez pressed her forehead against his, muttering something to herself before locking her lips with his. She could feel hot flashes all over her body. His kiss was consuming, something like the sweltering heat of a high noon summer day. They continued to peck at each other's lips until their hunger was too much to bear. The kisses got deeper and more aggressive. He had been holding Leez in his arms before she slipped out of them and onto the ground.

Before his brain could not register her actions, she had gotten on her knees and started undoing the buttons to his pants. He was already hard, Leez could tell that much. “It-it’s so…” Mr. Shin’s cock was almost intimidating. She gripped it with her soft hands, her touch causing him to clench his teeth.

She wrapped her lips around the tip, swirling her tongue around. Mr. Shin admired the view from above, Leez was pretty at all angles. He ran his fingers through her hair, following her motion. She wrapped one hand around his shaft in a twisting motion before she took all of him inside of her warm mouth. She created a suction, pulling him in.

Leez looked up at him with those big, pretty eyes. Fuck. Did she know what she was doing to him? It was as if he could feel this soul leaving his body. A rapid knock on the door to his study brought him back to his senses. He pushed Leez back, her mouth sliding off of his dick with a pop. The sensation made him wince, causing him to stumble a bit when he stood up.

“Mi-Mister Shin! Are you in there?” A muffled voice from the other side of the door called out to him.

He tucked his erection in and fixed his pants, walking over to his desk before going to answer the door. It was Mr. Sies on the other side. Terrible timing, he wanted to dig a hole in the ground and bury Siera right then and there. Mr. Shin yanked a napkin from his desk and handed it to Leez who had pre-cum dripping from her mouth, glistening on her swollen lips. She quickly wiped it off and fluffed her dress before removing herself from the ground to sit on the couch. He kissed her softly before going to answer the door. “I’m not done with you,” he husked in her ear, his warm breath sending shivers over her body. His words made her stomach sink, and if she were standing her legs would’ve given out from anxiety. He terrified her, but in a good way.

Mr. Shin cracked the door open with the most murderous glare Siera Sies had ever seen.

“What.”

“Ah, Mr. Shin there was a customer asking about a series that was pre-ordered. I-I can’t find it.” Siera smiled nervously, a bead of sweat forming at his brow as Mr. Shin continued to glare.

“You disturbed me for this? I don’t know. Don’t bother me for a while now.” Mr. Shin slammed the door.

Siera flinched, “Geez! Seriously, what’s up with him tonight?! I’m gonna quit if he keeps treating me like this.” He pouted and stormed off.

Shin Gu turned around to see Leez looking through a magazine which had been resting on his coffee table. He slowly made his way to Leez, eyes locked on her like prey. The light green, spaghetti strapped dress she wore clung to her body like spandex, showcasing her curves, and large breasts. It was a shame he made a mess and left a few wet spots on it.

He snatched the magazine from her hands and flung it to the other side of room, startling Leez.

“Hey, I was re-.” Mr. Shin silenced Leez with a deep kiss before pulling away, leaving her breathless. Her heart was racing. This is the first time they’d seen each other in 7 years. Leez wondered if she should take things this far with him. ’We’ve already started this’’ she gulped. Where was the boldness of her 17 year old self?

This time Leez would try taking control. Leez pushed Mr. Shin onto the couch and stood up. She could still see his erection bulging through his pants, edging her on. She wanted him, she wanted him to fill her. She sauntered over to the door to make sure it was locked.

“Did you think I’d leave it unlocked?” He huffed with a bit of sass.

“No, but there’s no harm in double checking Mr. Shin.” She retorted with equal sass as she hiked her dress up standing in from of him. She rolled down her black panties, and between her thighs Mr. Shin could briefly see a slick trail that connected. She was ready for him, he unzipped his pants and gripped his cock, stroking it to soothe the aching. He let out a sigh of pleasure before letting go.

Leez mounted him going in for a kiss. He wrapped his arms around her waist tightly, bringing her body into his. Her pillow like breasts pressing into his hard chest. He lightly bit her bottom lip, earning a little yelp from her.

He wasn’t finished with her. Seven years ago, he wanted to do so much more, but it wasn’t the right time. Mr. Shin hiked Leez’s dress up, squeezing her ass before slapping it, causing her to whimper. He shoved his hand between her legs only to discover that she’d been wetter than he imagined. He started moving his fingers massaging her clit. Leez, slumped over him shuddering with his every movement.

“A-ah.” She moaned softly in his ear. Her expression of pleasure motivated him to stimulate her clit quicker. He was gentle before, but this time he was a bit rougher.

He would know when he’d done his job when she started to tremble in his hold. Leez’s body started to react. She threw her head back and gasped, before attempting to bite back a moan.

“Ah! Unh! Mr. Shin! I-I’m…” Mr. Shin slid his hand from between her legs, the sensation causing Leez to twitch. He guided her chin down and pulled her into another deep kiss to muffle her loud moans.

He retreated from the kiss to enjoy the lusty expression on her face. He’d never seen her this flushed. A piece of curly teal hair clung to her sweaty cheek. He smirked a little before brushing the piece to the side with his finger. She was so cute, he couldn’t resist kissing her again.

“You should be a little more quiet, Siera might hear us.” He teased, plucking her forehead.

Leez pouted.

Mr. Shin couldn’t hold back any longer. His cock was aching to be buried deep inside of Leez. He walked over and swept everything off of his desk with one arm.

In one swell motion he picked Leez up from the couch and carried her over to his large desk, her legs wrapped around him. He plopped her on the desk, pushing her back to lie down. The dress had to go. He rolled it up and over her head. He also peeled off his black turtleneck, revealing his bare chiseled chest. Mr. Shin lifted up one of her legs, gently planting kisses on her inner thigh. He pulled her bra down and let it sit around her waist as he hungrily kissed her breasts, sucking on her nipples. Leez bites back another moan while Mr. Shin has his way with her body.

“Mr. Shin...p-please. Put it in!” She commanded him needily.

When she begged like that, she ignited something inside of him. “You shouldn’t do that.” He warned before pinning her wrists down and kissing her roughly.

Mr. Shin yanked Leez up and bent her over his desk. One hand gripping the back of her neck while the other hand pinned her wrist behind her back. His breath tickled her ear.

“Tell me how bad you want it.” He teased putting his weight on her. He was so cruel.

“Finish what you started! Are you incompetent?” Leez was a bit fiery in her response. He positioned his cock outside of her slick entrance causing Leez to gasp at the thought of him entering her. “Ah!”

“Tell me. How bad do you want it?” He growled in her ear, making her tremble under his weight.

“P-please Mister! Please fuck me!” Leez cried out.

Mr. Shin gripped her hips and moved his back before shoving his large cock into her at once. Leez cried out as he stretched her. “Anh! Mister Shin. Wait, it’s t-too big. Don’t move” She whimpered weakly. He paused as she wished, watching how her curls clung to her back.

“Y-you can move again.” He started to thrust again, gripping her cheeks and spreading them as he watched his cock disappear inside of her and reappear with every stroke. He pulled out and buried his cock deeper this time. Leez cried out again and her body shuddered at the new depth that he reached inside of her.

“Fuck. You’re so tight.” Mr.Shin grunted. It was like her body was pulling him in.

“So...what was this about me… being incompetent?” Those words of hers really got to him and he started to pound into her even deeper and harder than before. Taking his frustrations out on her.

“Ah! Mmm— Anh!“ Leez gasped for air as more indecent sounds filled Mr. Shin’s study. He continued to thrust into her forcefully. Leez couldn’t take it anymore, his cock was rock hard, she felt like she would faint at any moment. She tried to reach back in an effort to ease his pounding, but she was helpless. He had her bent over the desk as he continued to bury his cock deep inside her.

“Ah! Ahn! Mister Shin! St-stop!” Leez cried out, tears rolled down her face.

“F-fuck! You’re too deep—anh!” He filled every part of her. Her body started to shake under him as she came, feeling her tighten around his cock.

Mr. Shin slowed down, and pulled out of Leez. His cock was covered in her slickness. Leez didn’t move from her position, she was too weak to move. He turned her over and laid her back on the desk gently. The young woman continued to cry softly.

He kissed her gently.

“Are you okay?” He asked softly.

Leez nodded. He wiped the tears from her smooth face with his thumb.

He lifted her legs up and slotted himself into her again. She was warm inside and he sunk right into her. “Mmm” Leez moaned softly, she was too weak to cry out loudly like she’d done before. He stroked slowly and Leez opened her legs wider to receive him. Their hips rocked together in unison. Mr. Shin slammed his hips into her faster. She felt so good inside. He continued to thrust into her, breathing heavily until he felt himself ready to burst.

“Haah! K-Keep going” Leez pleaded under him. Her body trembled again with every stroke.

“Leez, I’m going to cum.” He grunted, pounding into her one last time before releasing. Leez wrapped her legs around him as he came warmly inside of her. He let out a sigh before collapsing on top of her and nuzzling his face into her neck. Hearts beating rapidly.

A soft knock on the door startled both Mr. Shin and Leez.

The tall man slumped himself over to reach the box of napkins which he knocked onto the ground previously. He pulled a few out, he handed them to Leez before pulling some out for himself. He slipped his black turtleneck on, and fixed himself. Leez managed to gain some strength to hoist herself up, but when she stood up and started to walk, her legs gave out.

“Leez!” Mr.Shin whispered, concerned. He gathered her up in his arms and placed her on the couch.

“I’m sorry, I’ll be gentle with you next time.” He kissed her cheek softly, handing her clothes to her. He continued to clean up his study room. The person (who was definitely Siera), would have to wait.

There was another knock on the door, but Mr. Shin continued to tidy the room. Also, giving Leez time to clean herself up.

Mr. Shin jerked the door open. Mild irritation showing on his face.

“I thought I told you not to disrupt me.” Shin Gu crossed his arms, eyes narrowing on Siera.

“I know, but I thought I heard a woman crying.”

“Go home, Siera.” Mr. Shin slammed the door in his face again.

“FINE! I’m not coming back you ungrateful little…” Mr. Sies stormed off.

A few minutes passed.

“I think he’s gone.”Mr.Shin sighed.

Let’s go home.” He reached out to Leez who’d been resting and gaining her composure after the rough sex they just had. Who knew Mr. Shin was such an animal? He was like a wolf ready to eat her. Made even more sense when he called her his bunny.

He had extra sweat pants in his office which he gave her to wear. They were baggy and oversized on her but he couldn’t deny it, he loved to see her wearing his things.

—————————-

Mirha patted Leez’s stomach.

“Looks like you’re putting on some weight. Maybe we should ease up on eating at Mr. Shin’s Book and Cafe.”

“Y-yeah! We should!” Leez laughed nervously. She knew that she’d been doing more at Mr. Shin’s Book and Cafe than just eating.

“It’s been three months since you broke things off with Yuta. Are you binge eating your feeling away?” Mirha was genuinely concerned for her friend, but Leez was more than okay now.

She was happy, with Mister Shin. They enjoyed lots of great food together, had lot’s of fun, and had lots of great sex. Leez hadn’t told her friend about her new relationship yet. She meant to tell her, but she could never find the right time. School was busy enough for the both of them and Leez was really pushing herself in her last semester of college.

“Leez? Are you okay? You don’t look so well.” Mirha patted Leez on the shoulder.

“I’m fine. I’ve just been pushing myself too hard lately and it’s like you said...all of that eating. It’s making me feel a bit sick.” Leez put her hand over her mouth, running to a nearby bush to throw up.

“Oh, Leez. Let’s go to Mr. Shin’s bookshop. You need something warm and light. Like tea.”

——

They arrived to Mr. Shin’s bookshop and were waiting for their orders. Mr. Shin walked over to their table and greeted them, setting the jasmine tea in front of Leez, he planted a quick kiss on her lips before walking off. Leez’s eyes widened and when she glanced over at Mirha, she noticed the shocked look on Mirha’s face as well.

Mirha’s jaws dropped, “Leez….how come you didn’t tell me?!? You? And Mister Shin?”

Sweat beads formed on Leez’s brow and she nodded and sighed.

“Yes. Mister Shin and I are…together.”

Mirha gasped, “Wait! You’re a couple!? Congratulations! No wonder! You’ve found happiness.”

Leez smiled warmly, her eyes following Mr. Shin, “Yeah. I have.” She continued to smile and tell Mirha how they met.

“Ah. I see. So you knew since high school. He’s like your first love, but the age thing is why…”

“Why it took so long.” Leez completed Mirha’s sentence.

“Wait, Leez...have you two...done it?”

“Wait, no!” Mirha backtracked her question. “I’m asking because….have you noticed any changes...lately?”

Leez was confused. “Changes?”

Mirha sighed, and shifted in her seat nervously. “W-well. Your boobs have gotten bigger. You have a tiny little belly going. Haven’t you been tired lately?”

“Oh and…”

“Wait. Wait. Wait. Mirha, what are you getting at?” Leez was a bit frightened now. She didn’t want to be the one to say it.

“I-I’m just saying. You might be...you know. Preg-“

“No! Stop! Don’t say it!” Leez raised her voice shakily. “Gods...I haven’t had my… it’s been a while. A-and I was thinking it was because of stress from being close to graduation!”

“Leez…” Mirha put her hand over Leez’s. “Let’s just see if it’s true. You stay put. I’m going to run to the convenience store across the street.”

Mirha gathered her things. She turned back to Leez before trodding off, “Whatever the outcome. You’re going to be just fine.” She reassured her friend.

A tear rolled down Leez’s cheek. What if it were true? What if she was really pregnant with Mr. Shin’s child? How would he take the news?

Just then she felt a hand rub her back. “Hey, hey...what’s the matter?” Mr. Shin kissed her forehead.

“Ah! It’s just school things. I will be fine.” Leez quickly wiped the tears from her face and took a sip of her tea. It was a lot like life. Bittersweet. In times like this, she missed her parents the most. What she wouldn’t give to hug her mother and father again. To tell them all about her adventures and to tell them about——

“Pregnant! You’re pregnant, Leez!” Mirha was so excited for Leez, hugging her friend almost to the point of choking.

Leez looked on in shock. She had done 3 pregnancy tests to be sure. It was true, she was going to be a mom. And...the child was Mr. Shin’s. The man whom she’d loved since she was a teenager. She was always in his space. His company was more than comforting, and now she was having his child.

“So when are you going to tell him?” Mirha questioned. “You should tell him now, you can’t keep it to yourself. I see the way he looks at you. He’s madly in love with you.”

“Your baby is so lucky! It has you and Mr. Shin for parents! Two hot people!” Mirha giggled, rubbing Leez’s belly.

“I’ve got to get going, but let me know how it goes,” Mirha added before exiting the bookshop’s restroom.

Leez left the restroom and sat at the table until it was time for the bookshop to close. She read and took notes to pass the time.

“Hey, shorty. You’re still here,” Mr. Shin kissed Leez’s forehead. “Waiting for me?” He teased. Leez nudged his stomach with her elbow.

“No silly. Why would I wait for a pervert like you?” Her eyes never leaving the page of the book. He took the book from her hands and sat it aside.

“So what’s going on?” He searched her face for an answer, but she had become just as good as him with her poker face. Leez didn’t say a word, but instead pulled out the three pregnancy tests and placed them

atop the book.

Shin Gu sat in silence before finally breaking it.

“Are you…?”

Leez looked down. She couldn’t look him in the eyes.

Mr. Shin grabbed her chin and tilted her face upwards to look at him. He stared into her pretty emerald eyes, reminiscent on the cold night that she waited outside of the bookshop for him. This was the girl. She was the one who filled his heart. Everything was for her. From the moment she waltzed into his bookshop, flipping her curly teal hair about, all he could see was her.

There was nothing to be embarrassed about, Leez knew this. She was an adult now. Still, it was difficult to meet his eyes after presenting this news to him. Slowly, her eyes met his gaze.

Mr. Shin took Leez’s hands in his. He could feel a slight tremble. What could he do to assure her that everything would be okay?

“Are you scared?” His expression was different this time. Was he worried about her?

Leez cupped his face in her hands, brushing his grey fringe to the side to get a clear view of his maroon eyes.

“I’m not...Why would I be scared when I have you with me?” She pulled him in, guiding his head to rest on her pillow-like chest. He stayed in her embrace, silent.

“Leez…” he said softly.

“Hm?” She ran her fingers through his hair.

He closed his eyes. Was it okay to be loved like this? Her warmth radiated and consumed him. He wanted to feel this way for the rest of his life.

“Will you marry me?”

His request slipped out effortlessly.

Mr. Shin could no longer feel the motion of Leez’s fingers combing through his hair. He lifted his head to read her face, but all she did was stare at him.

He waited for an answer, but she hadn’t said a word. She only pulled him in for a kiss.

“Yes…” Leez replied, simply. “I want to hold onto you and…I can’t imagine living the rest of my life without you mister.” She flashed that same charming smile of hers.

Mr. Shin wondered why Leez still addressed him this way but soon came to realize that it was more of a term of endearment.

“You know I…” Mr. Shin was going to say something, but trailed off.

“You what?” Leez nudged him to speak his mind. She had difficulty getting him to speak his mind. For the three months they’d been together, Leez had often nagged him to open up to her. She soon accepted that this was just the personality of her man. Others didn’t know, but she knew that underneath the reticent man, was someone who was affectionate and thoughtful. He was very mindful of Leez, and she knew it from the way he treated her. Carefully.

“I love you.” He finally said it. For many years, he felt it. Mr. Shin loved Leez very much. She gave him a comfort that he’d longed for, for many years. He was always alone, but now...he had Leez.

“I love you too, mister.”

—————————————————————————————————————

END

[survey--s]

512.

Ever been to a bonfire party? No, they weren’t really a thing where I grew up. We’ve had a few beach bonfires since moving here though.

Have you ever been in a lighthouse? Yeah, a few times.

What do you enjoy most about your life? The people in it.

Have you ever said anything to the last person you kissed that you regret? No. I mean, we’ve argued a few times and probably said some not-so-ideal things to each other but IMO that’s just part of being in a long-term relationship.

How many people with the name Taylor do you know? Nobody.

Do you care about what others think of your physical appearance? Not especially, no. It’s nothing to do with anyone else.

Have you ever stripped for someone? No.

Have you ever wanted to believe in something, but couldn’t? Yeah, I’m sure.

Do you know how old your dad is? He’ll be 69 next month.

Were you sad that Panic! at the Disco broke up? I didn’t even know they had broken up, lol.

Did you cry when you watched The Notebook? I’ve never seen it. Films like that honestly have absolutely no appeal to me.

Have you ever attempted to beat box? Haha, no.

When was the last time you saw your “first love”? Years ago. I couldn’t tell you when.

Who’s the smartest person you know personally? My dad is incredibly intelligent, almost to the point that it’s isolating.

You can’t feel pain for an entire day. What would you do? Get a tattoo and a bunch of piercings lol.

Who makes you the happiest? There isn’t one specific person.

Do you think that deep down, everyone is good at heart? No, unfortunately I think that’s just a bit of a fantasy.

How many people have you kissed? I have no idea.

How many of those people are you still friends with? I’m in touch with a few on Facebook but I wouldn’t say we were friends.

Where did you go, the last time you left your house? To go and feed Monty.

Did you ever see the movie Good Burger when it came out? I’ve never seen it.

Say something nice about someone you really don’t care for: Meh, I don’t really spend any time with people I don’t care for lol.

Would you say that you’re popular? Hahah no.

Would you say that you’ve been in love with someone? Yes.

What do you consider to be the most profound of emotions? I really don’t know - I guess it would depend on the person.

What brand of deodorant do you wear? Nivea.

Do you believe that love isn’t right for everyone? Sure, not everyone has any interest in romance.

If you could only love one person, would you choose yourself? Probably.

What’re your brothers/sisters like? If you don’t have any, do you wish you did? I don’t have any and honestly as an adult, I’m quite glad about it. Everyone I know as an adult with siblings has loads of drama in their lives as a result.

Do you consider pets family? Of course they’re family.

Have you lost a family member recently? No.

Is there anyone you would take a bullet for? If so, who? I mean, nobody can answer this question with any kind of certainty. Nobody knows how they’d reaction in a situation where their life was in danger.

What job does your significant other have? He’s plaster/tiler.

What’s the largest animal you’ve ever had as a pet? A beagle. I’m not really a fan of massive dogs - they’re just not the pets for me.

How long has it been since you moved out of the house you grew up in? Uh, about 12 years.

The last time you ate leftovers, what was it that you were eating? I can’t remember the last time I had leftovers, actually. 

What is your favorite board that you've made on Pinterest? I don’t use Pinterest.

What is your favorite apple-flavored treat? Apple crumble with custard. It’s one of my favourite winter desserts.

Have you ever met anyone named Eden? No.

What is your favorite type of tree? Cherry blossoms and weeping willows.

Have you ever had a spaniel for a pet? No. I love spaniels but I’m not sure I could cope with their energy levels, haha.

Do you any of your family members have birthdays on a holiday, and if so, which one(s)? No.

Which medication(s) do you feel have helped you the most, and why? Sertaline pretty much saved my life, the same with propanolol. Tranexamic acid also makes my life a lot easier than it used to be.

Is your current doctor a male or female? I don’t have one - I just see whoever’s available, normally a female though.

What type of soda do you drink most regularly? Pepsi Max.

Do you like the band Seether? They’re okay.

Do you have asthma? No.

Have you ever performed on stage? What did you do? Yeah - in various school plays/musicals, ballet shows and also poetry readings.

What is your favorite video game? I don’t really play many video games, I just like basic mobile games really.

What’s your screen name? I don’t have one specific screen name.

When did you graduate from high school? 2007.

Are you planning to have a family? When? No. I have zero desire to have children. It’s weird as I used to be SO broody and now I’m just insanely grateful that I never went through with it lol.

What is the one thing people say about you the most? That I’m good with animals.

What have you done that you’re particularly proud of? Set up my own successful business without any help from anyone else.

How many televisions do you have in your house? Three.

Do you use your hand when you speak? Sometimes, it depends on the situation.

What is your dream car? I love Mini’s but with my job, I’m not going to have one anytime soon lol.

Have you lived around here long? I’ve lived in this house for about five years now.

What do you do to pull yourself out of a bad mood? Take a bath/shower, have a nap, take the dog for a walk.

Why do girls follow each other to the restroom? Someone to talk to.

Who do you talk to most on the phone? My mum is the only person I ever really speak to on the phone lol.

Are you pregnant? Definitely not.

Do you like poetry? Write poetry? I like reading poetry but I’m not very good at actually writing it.

Do you know anyone who has any STDs? I mean, not to my knowledge but it’s not really something people tend to talk about lol.

Have you ever taken a shower with someone that is not a family member? Yeah.

Has any of your partners had sex with someone else? I mean, not while we were together but they weren’t virgins when we met.

[itsamepatches]

1, 4, 6, 12 and 13 (for the fanfiction asks!)

(From the "fanfiction asks")

What made you start writing fanfic? Let's see...I remember I was pretty young when I started reading fanfics, including through people's own personal sites outside of ff.net and DeviantArt and thought how neat it was that these people were writing their own stories about characters I knew and loved. Bonus addition to this: What finally made me start writing was reading these old and incredibly ooc D/BZ written by this really sweet person I remember commenting a few times. Last time I checked up on her (4 years ago?), she's still doing things including in that fandom :'B Another bonus!: My first "fanfic" was, of course, script-format since I didn't have a grip on writing traditional novel-style, and it was a PPG fanfic where Blossom and Brick got married despite the fact that I never cared for that ship? I vaguely remember that I noted in the fic that they married on a holiday so they didn't miss school or something...?

4. Do you think your style has changed over time? How so?  It's to be expected, the longer you write, but yeah I've noticed how my writing has changed -- and it's not good, to be honest.

An example is how I was re-reading an old, long VT fanfic I wrote a few years back. I was a lot more descriptive which in turn gave more of an atmosphere for the reader (well, I hope anyways ;; ) but I missed a couple of plotlines I had planned to add.

Compared to my more recent things, I feel like my writing is rambling on without giving much space for development and descriptions, if that makes sense? My only exception to my writing lacking is possibly a FNAF Security Breach story I wrapped up ("REC: Bonnie Bound"). I think the reasoning is that: 1) I took several breaks from writing due to lack of motivation 2) I've read some fanfics that just,,,use too many sophisticated words that the average person neither knows nor has used it in nearly 2 centuries and realized that I did not want to fall into that pitfall, so there's hesitation in what I write.

tldr; yes it has -- it's gotten worse instead of better.

6. Name three stories you found easy to write. 1) REC: Bonnie Bound - FNAF -- was I salty about Bonnie and Foxy not being in Security Breach? haha,,,goodness, no! It was, funny enough, going to be a short one-shot which evolved into a whopping 20k, 2 chapter fic. Safe to say I was inspired by something! 2) In Which Gynophoria Happens - Legend of Zelda Phantom Hourglass -- I love Linebeck and like every other Linebeck fan, I wanted to do more with his character after the end of PH. Oldie, but a goldie! 3) An Obligatory Starship Genius Epilogue Story - Ratboy Genius -- a fanfic for a semi-obscure fandom! The last time I wrote a RBG fic was around 5 years ago, and I definitely like this more than the previous one.

12. For E-rated fic, what are some things your characters keep doing? Uh...blink? Most of the stuff I write are slice-of-life-ish, so nothing too exciting ;;

13. Name three favorite characters to write. This one might be kinda hard, because I have a lot of fics still under "wip" so it's gonna be a difficult to notice just based on what I've uploaded at the moment...

Foxy -- he's kind of a dumbass but he's also a friend

Lady Parsec -- I'm still getting the hang of how I want to portray Her, but from what I've written so far, She's a bit of a "sneaky sneak" with a slight sarcastic tone, She's a mystery about what She is and where She's from~

Linebeck -- he's Linebeck

[future-boi]

Thanks to

⚡️@daryfromthefuture

💘 @jowritesfanfiction

💝 @bttf-dork for tagging me!!! 🥺😭

1. First rewatch was right before watching the musical. Second rewatch was right after watching the musical... Third was recently as I'm tryna write a fanfic and had to go over some scenes but idk if it counts

2. Bttf the musical poster and vinyl record!!! It's now the second record in my vinyl collection hahaha

3. I don't drink soda 😅

4. HELL YEAH I always take the opportunity to advertise fanfic 🤩 Its about post trilogy Marty being a bit angsty about the new timeline and missing the old timeline. But it has a happy ending. I think its the closest to canon because other ones with the same premise lean so much into the angst (not that that's bad!!! Just saying it's not the same vibes as the movies u kno) Its also old but holy shit, it contains the most cathartic end to the series. The much needed closure 🤌✨️

Peace by dapperdragon

I'm so SAD cuz I don't think the author's on Tumblr? And havent posted on Ao3 in 2 years... Which sucks cuz I'm planning to DRAW THIS FIC. Or at least the ending scene 🥺💘 It wont be for a while cuz I'm tryna hone my skills and DO IT JUSTICE💪😤 but yeah next year is its 10 year anniversary that's crazy HAHA. Give it a read plz plz plz its only 1 chapter.

5. THATS TOUGH

It's so cozy and gives me all the warm fuzzies 🥰

I'm breaking the rules

BUT I HAD TO INCLUDE THIS. FIGHT ME

Anything by @cheriboms ngl HAHAHA

Ok but if I really had to choose:

Cuz it marks the start of Doctober 🥺 and like 🥺 we did that together 🥺👉👈💘💝

Also cuz its in color and sunrises/sunset always gimme warm fuzzies🥰

6. THATS ALSO TOUGH. Actually less tough. It's all under my [#personal fave] tag. But since the other was sunrise, I gotta put sunset 😁

LMAO when u link stuff, it shows ur tag line. I totally forgot I set that 🍫🍫🍫

7. BAHAHAHAHAHA... school...

8. The Wild Life (1984) I dont recommend it tho!! 😂😂😂 it has Lea Thompson and Eric Stoltz. I also checked out the one clip from that one episode on Family Ties with Crispin Glover and Micheal J Fox. I recommend that one, it's actually funny 😂

Then I checked out the clips with Tom Hanks on the show LMAO

9. Not this year, but during my American Psycho (2000) phase, I thought their undisputed masterpiece was "Hip to be Square" 🤌✨️ A song so catchy, most people probably don't listen to the lyrics. But they should! Because it's not just about the pleasures of conformity, and the importance of trends, it's also a personal statement about the band itself--!!

HEY PAUL!!!

10. None, I don't think...

11. Hell yeah! I detailed it all on this post

12. Uh prolly once a long long time ago that I don't remember LMAO she don't talk bout it like Lorraine🤭

13. "Hey..! What the hell is this?!"

14. I got to go on both European and US trains this year. Haven't been on a skateboard since I was a tiny kid. Have never been on a horse. Never been on a DeLorean. I have run in the rain lmao. Dance? Does a concert count? My friends and I danced at one (my first one!). Never hung up a clock. Does a ukulele count? I don't think I am or ever was capable of pulling an all nighter 😂 its so weird for me to hear my peers doing it. Like??? Yall fr? Nah fam. I don't read sci fi. I don't eat fast food lmao

15. GETTING MY FANFIC DONE. Currently, it spans 6 parts and goes over the entire trilogy, complete with a Hell Valley Filler Arc! 🤭😁 but I'm working on part 1 rn and will post it while I work on part 2 and so on...

I'm also planning to draw a moment from other fanfic I adore like I've done in the past few months

Learning how to color +render my digital art would be nice!

Tagging @cheriboms

Thanks to the 3 again for tagging me! Tho @daryfromthefuture, we gotta throw hands real quick u stole who I was gonna tag😱😭😭😭😂☠️ ONLY I GET TO BOTHER @jowritesfanfiction 😤😤😤 nah jk 😁 unless 😶 nah jk jk ily i ain't hatin 😂💝

BTTF Year-End Tag Game!

This year:

How many times would you guess you watched the first back to the future movie?

Did you get any sweet bttf merch? If so, what!

How many cans of Pepsi Free did you chug this year?

What was a favorite bttf fanfic you read this year?

A favorite bttf fanart you saw this year? (please give us a link, not a screencap/repost!)

Did you create any bttf fanart or fanfic? If you did, what one(s) are you proudest of?

How many times were you late for school this year?

Did you watch any other movies/tv shows with BTTF actors in them?

Was there a memorable moment you heard a Huey Lewis song this year?

How many times did you fall down this year?

Did you get to see BTTF: The Musical? What was your experience like!

How many times did your mom retell the story of how she and your father met?

If you could describe your year in a BTTF quote, which one would it be?

⚡️LIGHTNING ROUND⚡️ Did you get to: go on any trains, skate on a skateboard, ride a horse, drive a Delorean, run in the rain, go to a dance, hang up a clock, play the guitar, pull an all-nighter, read science fiction, or drive thru Burger King this year?

Your future is whatever you make it! So what are you going to make of this coming year?

I tag: @agentmcfly24601 @moonlightandstarshimmer @brinkle-brackle @bg-sparrow @bttf-dork @mrfutureboy @pepsifox88 @tsukinikawatteus @itsthemorph @synthsays and anyone who would like to answer these questions! as always, no pressure!

[kidkintsugi]

so theres this guy that i think might have feelings for me but i cant recipocrate?

this is really stressful to me!

hes not the guy who recently found out my gender is transed btw

this guy lives about an hour away from my hometown and 2 hours away from the place i stay at for uni. i met him at a pride parade 2 years ago and ever since weve been hanging out sometimes? not regularily bc of the distance but just enough, im happy and hes happy ig no pressure

we spent a lot of time together last summer. we took a lot of train rides together, met up for more pride parades, visited museums etc. it was EXTREMELY cool and i hope to do the same again this year!

but hes been getting kind of flirty over the course of it.

i usually dont mind flirting, it doesnt even really register to me as romantic because im a bit dense (LMAO) and i flirt with my friends all the time because we all know its just for shits and giggles? at least i hope so.

so then he invited me for his birthday last year. of course i wanna visit a friend for his birthday so i went. i was one of the only guest there because a lot of people declined last minute??? which is SUPER rude and i got super mad over that but thats not what this is about.

he keeps getting closer. i laugh it off he laughs too. he keeps going out with 2 other people that came to visit for "smoke breaks", he comes back in saying that "they thought we looked like a couple the way we look at eachother ahaha"

somethings off? hes been saying this a lot to me, saying that others think we are a thing and then asking me if "we arent one or are we?". I always answer with a laugh and an "obviously not". and also i dont really know what it means to 'look at eachother' like that because a) no eye contact and b) no prolonged staring on my part, thats all his doing

up to this point i always thought it was a joke obviously but god damn that night?

that night he got genuinely upset. he seemed really jealous when i was talking about other guys i was hanging out with. "haha why dont you spend time like that with me?" "why dont you call me x?" "why arent we doing y together?" all the time.

it gets later, we drank a bit (i really dont drink a lot i dont like the taste of alcohol) and he keeps leaning onto me, holding my arm when someone outside was approaching the door saying that "hes a bit scared :(" things like that. recording me singing, touching me when laughing, i can always blame it on the alcohol but with all the things that have been happening its really glaring isnt it?

its time for me to leave because its getting late and at this point we were alone except for his little brother who jokingly kept implying that "me and the guy should kiss because were both gay" which i. also laughed off and declined wholeheartedly lmao. something was definitely off and i needed to get out?

the car parks. i give his little brother a handshake to get him off me because he was really clingy (but also funny as hell oh my god) and head for the car.

"hey, no goodbye for me? :("

i wasnt planning to not say goodbye i was just. in a rush to get his brother off me lol.

so he comes closer and gives me a hug, fully aware that i dont like hugs a lot and takes me into his arms! really close! uh oh.

i move my face and look down because hes REALLY close and i am uncomfortable at this point.

he was so close to my face that my dad thought we were gonna kiss.

i head for the car and wave one last time before telling my dad about what happened and he also agrees that he definitely has a little crush.

the thing is? i dont feel the same bro

i like him as a friend, as i said i enjoyed my time in summer with him endlessly and i like spending time with him in general but feelings are so hard

i am autistic and i have been using the label aromantic as an umbrella term for my attraction for quite a long time now.

its not that i am 100% against the idea of a relationship, but i just dont understand romantic feelings (i dont think i have ever had a crush on someone that isnt a celebrity or a fictional character), i think im just as happy on my own, (pathetic warning:) i feel like im just gonna end up hurting someone and/or being hurt AND i just cant believe that anyone feels that way for me because i think of myself as unlikeable.

all of these mean: yeah! relationships are cool in theory but i dont really get feelings! autism is playing a role here too im sure of it but what am i gonna do about that lol

either way, i really dont want him to get the wrong idea.

because of my new touchy friends ive been feeling really weird and anxious about topics like these. on some days i get stomach troubles and terrible anxiety thinking about being held or touched again.

i also feel like i cant just tell him off because it would ruin our friendship. again, hes a good friend to me.

either way i feel like this ones gonna hurt

[argumentl]

The Freedom of Expression Ep 70 - The first live with an audience for Dir en grey in 1 year and 4 months

K: Hi, I'm Kaoru from Dir en grey, starting this week's episode of The Freedom of Expression. Joe, Tasai, welcome.... Ahh, its hot isn't it?

J: Ahh, yeah. Its definitely Summer already. Kaoru, you're dressed for Summer too.

K: Ha, yeh.

J: Do you like Summer? How do you feel about it?

K: I like it recently

J: Oh, really? You didn't used to like it?

K: Yeh, I never really liked going outside in the sun.

J: I have to be honest, you don't have that image, haha.

K: Joe, you're wearing our explosion screening tshirt today.

J: Yep, this screening was a lot of fun, but I also went to the live at Tokyo Garden Theater a few days ago too. Tasai, your seat was near mine, right? We were like kids in a candy shop.

T: Yeah, we were really excited.

J: Yep, we were. So can we hear a bit about that today, Kaoru?

K: Oh, that was quick, haha.

J: Of course, we wanna hear about it!

K: When was it again, 3 days ago?

T: Yeah, just about 3 days

J: Kaoru, you must still be buzzing from the show, are you?

K: Nah, Im already thinking about whats next.

J: Oh, really? But lets just remind ourselves, its been how long since your last show with an audience?

T: 1 year, 4 months.

K: Yeah, our last one was February last year.

T: That was overseas, wasn't it?

J: Oh, right. Well, first lets hear your thoughts.

Kami: Uh..if its been quite a while, it has a big impact doesn't it?

T: Kami, were you there?

Kami: I was yeah.

J: Its because its been a long time coming, right?

Kami: Yeah. It was quite emotional at times.

J: Yes, I see.

K: Well, it sounds like missed us, haha.

J: One thing I was surprised by was the acoustic opening. During that first song, I was wondering whether the whole set would be acoustic!

Kami: Oh, I thought that too!

J: Oh, did you Kami?!

Kami: Yeh.

J: Because this is Dir en grey, I thought there must be something unique in store, and when I heard that first acoustic song, I got excited that the whole show might be acoustic.

T: haha

J: I did get excited. But it was only the first song.

K: We might have run into a bit of trouble if the whole thing was acoustic, haha.

J: Incidentally, who's idea was it to make the first song acoustic?

K: Well, we had originally planned to do a Sogai tour last year, and we were going to do the same then.

J: Oh, is that it?

T: I see.

J: It wasn't especially planned for this comeback tour..

K: Well, conversely we did also think it would be quite good to do it for this particular show too. Like, we usually always play the SE and then come out one by one, but we thought it could be interesting if we were all already on stage this time.

J: It was very refreshing. As a performer, did you notice a difference in the atmosphere with the audience actually being there in front of you, even though there was no cheering?

K: Of course. It didn't really feel like a live before when there was no audience.

J: Was it more like shooting a music video?

K: Yeah it was kinda like that. Even though we were on stage.... Thats the kinda difference I felt.

J: Ah, yeh, like with no audience response there. But even though the audience were quiet this time, wasn't there like a fantastic enegy flowing through the venue?

K: Yeh, thats probably also due to it being the first show in ages too.

T: There was clapping though.

K: Well, yeh, clapping is the only response possible at the moment. That, and raising your hands in the air. Its tough for performers right now, but I thought it also must have been tough for the audience, only being allowed to clap.

J: Yeah, certainly. To have to put all their praise into clapping..

K: Yeah.

J: This was the first time for you to play in this venue, right?

K: Yeah.

J: How was it, in terms of sound etc?

K: Well, for a first time at a venue, I don't have????, but it was easy to play there.

J: Oh, I see. Was it difficult playing a new venue, whilst also in a comback sense? Did you find rehearsals hard in that sense?

K: Not really, no. Everything went as planned on the day. ??????????????

J: And you were finally able to perform Oboro. I thought that was a pretty big moment too. I interviewed you for Rolling Stone recently, and you said you might not even play Oboro there, haha. I was like, 'Whaaat?!!' Haha.

K: Yeh, we weren't sure whether it would fit.

J: But this was actually your first time to perform the song as a band?

K: Yeah, in public.

J: What are you thoughts on how that went?

K: It went well, I think.

T: It was really good. I should be using better words to describe it, but I can only think of 'it was fab,' and stuff.

J: Well, for me, its the same every time, but I love the song 'Ranunculus' so much, I can't stop singing it after I hear it live.

T: Yeh, haha

J: I really love that song!

T: There are some songs that do that, aren't there?

J: Like, with that last line 'watashi ha ikiru', and Kyo's performance of this song just gets better and better each time. Well, all the songs are performed amazingly, but this song really shakes me up, and I listen to it constantly after I get home. I just love it.

K: Hehe, if people feel like listening to the songs after the live, that makes me happy.

T: I really love the song 'Ningen wo kaburu'. I like seeing the lyrics and stuff show upon the screen behind. It gives me that feeling, like 'This is it!'

J: Ahh, that feeling comes differently for everyone, right?

T: Yeah.

Kami: It really hits you in these times though, doesn't it?

T: Mm, yeh, that may be true.

Kami: Hearing those lyrics 'watashi ha ikiru/I am alive', it really strikes home during these covid times.

J: Oh, it really does, yeah.

Kami: And because you can't cheer, you have space in your head for thinking.

J: Yes, thats right.

T: Oh, maybe, yeah.

K: Well as for the songs we played on the day, we did choose them with that in mind... Not so much to make the crowd go wild, but to allow them to feel the atmosphere of the live, the songs, the members, the performance. This was a setlist that will only ever be performed on that day. So, people may have had space to think. And there were also some songs that really need belting out, so with those Kyo would do things like put more power into it during the main performance than he did during the rehearsal, or he would sing it a bit differently etc, just for this day.

J: Yeah, it really was a thought-provoking performance.

T: Yeah, that goal worked too well, haha.

J: It did. But not in a negative way, it caused very postive feelings. That fact that we finished feeling like this life is not so bad... that is another one of the great things about Dir en grey, I think. And I realised that if it wasn't for this State Of Emergency, this show propbably wouldn't have happened.

K: Yeah, the content was something that we can perform and feel only at this time. Well, of course, the best thing is to be able to perform lives as usual, where the audience can vocalise, but at this current time, we thought we would try to this as something to experience uniquely now. After doing it, I think its been a success. Well, we tried to avoid the type of songs where everyone would want to sing along together. There is a bit in Utafumi where that usually happens, so like, we took that out. But actually, we have a tour coming up...

T: In September, right?

K: Yeh, and we are not sure yet, but its possible that the audience might still be unable to sing along then too, it depends on the situation. But we did decide to do the tour thinking that it would be nice if everyone were by chance, actually able to sing along in that kind of hall atmosphere. Its the same again, we won't know if we don't try it, like how it will all come together with no vocalisation from the audience. No matter how it goes, we are gonna try and see if we can keep it true to ourselves.

J: Ah, it'll be like an experiment.

K: Well, thats part of it. But honestly, it will really be something we could only ever do at this time, and something to feel only at this time. I mean, its not just us, other people are doing this kind of thing too, right? So I think this is something we ought to experience. That kind of excitement you said you felt at Tokyo Garden Theater earlier, Joe, this will be a tour where you can really experience that feeling, so we will do the tour with that in mind.

T: Ah, it'll be fun

J: Yeh, I think a kind of new vision will be born between you and the audience. The recent show was only one day, and it was the first one in a long time, so it came with a tonne of emotions, but the tour will come will a whole different atmosphere, and the situation will also be different from what it is now. I really wanna experience what it will be like.

T: Yeah, I wanna go.

J: Right?

Kami: People can sing along in their hearts, right?

K: Hehe. Kami is pretty serious, isn't he?

J: He is!

T: Yeah, why?

J: What happned, Kami?

Kami: Well, its just that I love Dir en grey.

J, T: Ohh

T: By the way, Kami, was there any point during this setlist where you thought, 'Ahh, this is it!' or something like that?

Kami: Probably when the SE started.

J: Ahh, he was impressed at the SE

Kami: Well, no, it because it had been such a long time since the last live... and I was on the second level, so I thought, 'Ah, here we go!'

J: Well, Kaoru, you might not like this question, but was there a moment for you when you were playing, where you felt like, 'Ah, we're here!' kinda thing?

K: Like, 'we're here'...? Hmm...

J: Like, a certain song, or...?

T: Or at the end of the show?

K: Well, probably towards the end with 'Hageshisa', and 'Sustain'... It didn't really feel like 'we've arrived'....more like, we were able to do this together. I was a little nervous during the start of the live, and was kinda stumbling in the dark a bit, like, worried about how it would turn out. But during the encore, I felt more like we'd managed to do it.

J: Ah, so at first you were nervous?

K: Well, I don't know anyone who wouldn't be.

J: Of course.

K: I mean, I did hear predictions of what it would be like, because there were other artists who had aready started doing lives, but they are different from us, so I didn' t really know how it would go. I just had to imgine as I went.

J: But with Dir en grey, there is often a sense of reaching the peak towards the end, right?

K: Well, I think its down to the songs too. The songs during the main part of the show were kind of like radiated out from us.. Well, that sounds a bit odd to say... But they were songs to reach you inside. However, in the encore it was more like blasting them out. This was where it struck me that we had done it.

J: I see

K: We have more lives coming up very soon, I'm not sure how exactly we are gonna do it yet, but I want it to be a tour that you can really feel a bit more. Its gonna start in September...

Kami: There was a really great 'live' feel to Sogai.

K: Yeah, I want to increase that feeling with the tour. Like, in these circumstances that we are in, I want people to see this if they can. I know there are people who are unable to come, or people who are worried about coming, but this will probably contain  some experiences that are only possible at this time. So for the Autumn tour, if it looks like you can go, I think it will be a unique experience.

J: Well, Sogai was in Tokyo, wasn't it? But the tour starts in Kanagawa, and goes through Miyagi, Shizuoka, Tochigi, Saitama, Nagano, Okayama, Shiga, Osaka, Tokyo, and Aichi. So its good for those who couldn't get to Tokyo.

K: Yes. It'll be nice to have that feeling going to a live venue again for everyone, so if you can, please do come. Well, I think we can end on this note...

Kami: Uh, don't you love that feeling of togetherness? With the audience? Like, 'we're all here together'..That was great! I don't think we'd have had that if covid had never happened.

T: Yeah, I think so.

J: Calling it 'camaraderie', might not be the right word, but that feeling was definitely there, wasn't it?

Kami: Yeah, yeah. I really think everyone should exprience this.

J: Yeah.

K: Well, with us doing this for a year without an audience, I think we felt this the most.

J: Ah, yeah, just having the audience there, and being together is a great thing, right?

K: Yeah, so I really want to thank all the people that came to see us in these circumstances. And I hope everyone can come from now on. Ok, lets finish here. Thank you very much. 

Back

[voxasks]

vox’s head spun with running codes of thoughts on the situation. he’s going to overheat at this rate, so he might as well make the best of his time while things haven’t gone to shit yet. judging by fake alastor’s words, either vox himself or fake alastor was somehow in the wrong place. the odds are against him if it alastor’s world he was in. the fact that he already thinks vox is an actor means there is a ‘real’ vox waiting to appear and fuck him over any second now. vox’s next few moves are fragile, but they’re moves nonetheless. he could do this, right? it’s just like it was another day of dealing with the press … if the press was an unsettling man who took the form of alastor.

“yes, well, i didn’t want others to worry. i mean, i was hired for this role so i need to act it well. i haven’t been in my right mind recently. in fact, i’m quite disoriented. so disoriented that i might have done something … weird. i—”

vox tongue suddenly ties itself, his brain slower than his body’s instincts to cease the initial command to action. it had just occurred to him that vox would be fucking himself over. even if his other self does, it’s impossible for him not to—but this vox does have a choice. and looking at alastor now, he realizes that it’s been much too long since he’d seen a smile on him that wasn’t filled with contempt. it almost causes him to dwell on old times.

did alastor and vox … get along in this strange world?

vox still wants to throw this world’s vox under the fucking bus, no questions asked.

but alastor …

“sorry, haha, scratch that. before bad things happen, i need you to know that whatever we had—or whatever the fuck you have with him—i am trying to preserve that right now. fucking hell, i sound like a my little pony episode. listen to me. you’re gonna find out something alarming very soon and i need you to know that i don’t want to harm you or … anyone here. mostly because it’s convenient but also for the good out of my h—OKAY no that’s uh, haha, pushing a line there. i’m not a good person. bottom line is i want to preserve your relationship with … your friends here. so i’m gonna play nice. i know this sounds like some twilight zone bullshit but it’ll make sense in a bit.”

( I’M SORRY I HEADCANON THEM AS BESTIES 7 YEARS AGO BEFORE ALASTOR REJECTED HIM PLEASE )

"Why good day old pal! I didn't think I'd see you answering queries on here so soon. You did great during filming earlier, a bravo performance indeed!"

That was a familiar voice, cheerful and casual like nothing was wrong. Alastor merely greeted his coworker as usual, well- at least he thought this was his friend. He couldn't quite tell with their costumes being as convincing as they were sometimes.

(From: @hhactorauofficial)

“A̶R̶E̶ Y̶O̶U̶ F̶U̶C̶K̶I̶N̶G̶ M̶O̶C̶K̶I̶N̶G̶ M̶E̶? you know what, if you think you’re such tough shit then why don’t you face me instead of hiding behind that dollar store microphone Y̶O̶U̶ S̶P̶E̶A̶K̶E̶A̶S̶Y̶ T̶R̶A̶S̶H̶?”

[whomst-art-thou-whomst-whomst]

Texts from the Lost Tomb part 6.1

🎶 Back on the bullshit I never got off🎶

Is this another unnecessary story arc?? With three sections??

Yes.

Wushanju Crew Chat

Wang Meng: You know, I’m someone who appreciates consistency in my day. My life is pleasant, very few issues indeed if you ignore the big ones. And yet. Yet here we are. With unresolved messes at the end of a day.

Wang Pangzi: SOMETHIN YOU NEED TO SAY MARY POPPINS

Wang Meng: We need to talk about Huo Daofu and the glittery bead curtain.

Wang Pangzi: MY FAVE TEEN WIZARD SERIES

Wu Xie: did you turn on that suggested word thingy lol

What glittery bead curtain

Wang Meng: I closed the shop at 6:00pm this evening on the dot. I locked all of the doors in and out of the shop very carefully, especially in light of recent events. The hall leading to the back office was empty. I filed the day’s paperwork, updated and sent emails, and then spent an extra hour organizing receipts and dusting. When I came back out, there were glittery iridescent bead curtains over the front entrance to the shop.

What could this mean?

Wu Xie: uh that you need to spend less time at work?

Wang Pangzi: LOOKS LIKE WE GOT ONE FOR THE DETECTIVES. THE MYSTERY OF THE BEDAZZLED THRESHOLD COMMENCES

Wu Xie: I think we can be relatively secure in thinking a glittery bead curtain isn’t a hostile threat

Wang Pangzi: SAYS YOU

I REMEMBER YE OLDE EXPLORATION TIMES HOW FAST THINGS GOT FURIOUS

BEANBAG CHAIRS SET AFLAME AND LEFT ON DOORSTEPS AS A WARNING

GLITTERBOMBS FOR DAYS

PANIC AT THE DISCO

Wang Meng: Ugh, forget it. I should have just taken them down, regardless of who they belong to.

Zhang Qiling: They are not mine.

Wang Pangzi: A BOLD STATEMENT COMING FROM OUR PRIME SUSPECT

SOMEONE QUICK GO DRAW CHALK AROUND THE DOORWAY TO MARK THE SCENE OF THE CRIME

Wang Meng: Do we know anyone who *would* sneak in and put those up? For whatever reason, legal or not? Even as a joke?

Wang Pangzi: ARE YOU SERIOUSLY ASKING WHETHER WE KNOW ANYONE WHO IS CHAOTIC, AN OUTLAW, A PRANKSTER AND/OR SNEAKS INTO PLACES

BECAUSE THAT WOULD MEAN OUR SUSPECT LIST IS LITERALLY EVERYONE WE KNOW EXCEPT FOR YOU.

Wu Xie: okay let’s think about this; for starters, I didn’t break into my own shop

Wang Meng: You would be in danger of doing some work in the process, that’s true.

Wang Pangzi: LOL

Wu Xie: ANYWAY let’s keep going. For example, Xiao Ge would only break in somewhere for a good reason. Xiao Ge, did you do this?

Zhang Qiling: No.

Wu Xie: okay who’s next

Wang Pangzi: YOU REALLY MISSED YOUR CALLING IN INTERROGATION TIANZHEN

REALLY PUT THE SCREWS TO HIM

IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE;)

Zhang Qiling: How can we be certain *you* didn’t do it?

Wang Meng: Admittedly that was my guess, too.

Wang Pangzi: WOW I SEE HOW IT IS

BLAME PANGZI AS USUAL

ANYWAY HOW DOES HUO DAOFU FIT INTO THIS

Wu Xie: Oh yeah him! Oops I got distracted

Wang Pangzi: UR ENTIRE HISTORY IN A NUTSHELL

Wu Xie: Ugh fuck off

Wang Meng what abt Huo Daofu??

Zhang Qiling: ?

Wu Xie: oh sorry xiaoge I didn’t realize you wouldn’t have spent much time around him last year

He and I go way back

Zhang Qiling: Way back where?

Babysitters Club Chat

Wang Pangzi: I CANNOT BELIEVE HE IS BUYING YOUR INNOCENT ACT

IF YOU EVER TURN TO EVIL WE ARE FUCKED

Zhang Qiling: ?

Wang Pangzi: YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHO HUO DAOFU IS

YOU WERE EXTREMELY POLITE AND BORDERLINE FRIENDLY TOWARDS HIM

Zhang Qiling: I wanted him to feel welcome. I wanted to be sure he understands he has a place here. A specific place.

Wang Pangzi: FOR A SILENT GUY YOU ARE A MASTER AT SUBTLE POWER PLAYS IM ALL TINGLY

LMAO THE IDEA OF WU XIE LEAVING YOU FOR HUO DAOFU IS HILARIOUS AND ALSO NOPE

Zhang Qiling: Rationally, I understand that.

Main Chat

Wang Meng: Huo Daofu is coming for the weekend—didn’t Wu Xie tell you? Wu Xie asked me to check in a week ahead so we could start getting ready for his arrival

Wu Xie: oh yeah I did do that

Wang Meng: Fortunately I know you and so I already went ahead and took care of everything.

Re: the trip

He made a deal with Wu Xie’s doctor that he would do periodic checkups on him here at Wushanju

Bc Wu Xie hates being in the hospital

And frankly the hospital hates him too

Wang Pangzi: FAMILIARITY BREEDS CONTEMPT LOL

I FORGOT HUO DAOFU WAS DOING THAT

A VERY CHIVALROUS GESTURE

WOULDNT YOU SAY

XIOAGE

Zhang Qiling: Is it safe for him to be here with a criminal loose on the premises?

Wu Xie: Right, back to the curtain! Let’s focus on the curtain, hmm?

Wang Pangzi: I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS WEEKEND.

ALSO WE CAN RULE OUT XIAO BAI FOR THE CURTAIN SHE JUST SENT A SELFIE FROM NORWAY COVERED IN GREEN SLIME WITH ZERO CONTEXT, UR PROTEGE INDEED

Wu Xie: okay but who else would do something so oddly charming yet illegal and—wait.

Snake Eyes Chat

Wu Xie: hey, Glasses hasn’t been in touch lately right?

Li Cu: uh nope

Unless u count the outdated memes

Why, is money or Xie Yuchen missing

Or is this curtain related, I saw Wang Meng’s tweet

Wu Xie: haha no nothing to worry about really

(I mean maybe? but who knows)

Wang Meng is probably just getting a little paranoid in his old age

Li Cu: better than getting reckless and stupid as hell in ur old age

Wu Xie: …hey:(

Unknown Number: Li Cu, we discussed this.

Wu Xie: ????????

Li Cu: *sigh* fine, reckless and stupid as heck

Unknown Number: …close enough.

Wu Xie: EXCUSE who is that

Madame, Sir, Non-Binary Tree Spirit, etc—whomst the fuck

Are you

Li Cu is underage FYI

So Im staying on this chat

Li Cu: okay first of all, it’s not like that

Second of all I’m literally not underage I s2g

u threw the embarrassing surprise bday party, okay so u should remember

And C, that’s my counselor and I invited her. She wanted to meet u and I knew u wouldn’t agree to a visit so I added her to our chat

we have been discussing u

Wu Xie: Oh wow!!!!!!!

What a surprise:)

hi so nice to meet you:)

Main Chat:

Wu Xie: RED FUCKING ALERT

FUCK THE CURTAIN FUCK THE VISIT

IVE BEEN TRICKED INTO FAMILY THERAPY BY A SMUG TEENAGER WHO TEXTS UNKNOWN NUMBERS

Wang Meng: I assume that means something to someone here?

Not my problem? Good.

Wang Pangzi: AHAHAHA GOD I LOVE LI CU

HES LIKE ADORABLE KARMA FOR ALL THE SHIT YOUVE PUT ME THROUGH

IM RAISING HIS ALLOWANCE

Wu Xie: wait i give him an allowance

has he been collecting on two allowances??

Zhang Qiling: Three. I knew about both of yours.

Snake Eyes Chat

Wu Xie: so uh may I ask your name?

Unknown Number: you can call me Ms. Lee.

Now, if you’re comfortable talking in this format, why don’t you tell me how things have been going?

Wu Xie: oh everything is normal and fine and safe as usual, why do you ask:)

Li Cu: I heard about ur necklace thing. nice of you to NOT mention it.

another dangerous adventure. again. prick.

Ur lucky your cool boyfriend cares about you so much or you’d have already died like ten years ago

Wu Xie: lol try twenty years ago

Li Cu: That isn’t funny.

Unknown Number: …What?

Wu Xie: shit ur right, okay that was a bit glib, my apologies.

…I use humor as a coping mechanism?

Unknown Number: and Li Cu, how do you feel about that?

Li Cu: he doesn’t even know what that phrase means

He doesn’t cope, like ever

In fact

It’s kind of why we met

Which is a funny story in retrospect tbh

Wu Xie: haha what are you talking about sweetie hahaha need I remind you of certain anecdotes that could idk send me to jail maybe lmao

Unknown Number: …You know, perhaps an in-person meeting might be more effective?

Wu Xie: haha such a nice idea but why

Main Chat

Wu Xie: If I go to jail, I’ll have to create alliances for protection, right, that’s how it works on tv

Who do we know who spends time in jail

Other than Hei Yangjing, he’s only ever there for like 12 hours and i suspect he just gets himself arrested bc he enjoys the breaking out process

Also how’s the curtain case coming along

Zhang Qiling: Has someone threatened you?

Wu Xie: well not yet but soon I’m sure

Wang Pangzi: WHERE WAS THIS PARANOIA WHEN WE GOT TAKEN TO THE TEA HOUSE HUH

Snake Eyes Minus Your Fucking Therapist Chat

Li Cu: okay how tf did u pull off spy and undercover shit

u are sus as hell

Wu Xie: damn son is it pick on Wu Xie night

I missed the flyers or I would’ve invited my uncles

Also re: the curtain it’s been mostly solved

Li Cu: I’m not your son, idiot.

Wu Xie: …oh. Sorry, sorry, you’re right, bad choice of words, haha

Forget i said anything

Delete this chat even

Li Cu: shit I meant

Legally, biologically, I meant—

shit

…I turn into an asshole as a coping mechanism?

Wu Xie: oh that’s all okay! I have to go do something else now let me know if you need anything okay kid thanks!

Li Cu: goddamn it calm down who’s the kid here

lemme organize my thoughts so I can articulate my emotions fuckin healthily or w/e

Ugh maybe for like one afternoon we could go to Ms. Lee together? She knows how to word stuff

Wu Xie: uh…okay.

Li Cu: Anyway you don’t need to worry abt jail

As if you would survive prison for one day you’d piss off half the place in like an hour or less

I gave Ms. Lee the heavily edited version of the desert highway to hell roadtrip and i discussed it more in terms of like “nightmarish but still wouldn’t take any of it back”

Well maybe the sand

that shit was everywhere

Wu Xie: oh kiddo. It’s fine, really…You don’t have to explain yourself to me.

Li Cu: no, no it’s just

I do technically have a dad

who is an asshole. Being a son doesn’t really mean shit to me bc it sucked.

So you need to stop backing down just cuz ur guilty abt stuff. I’m really really glad ur not my dad in a good way. Do u get what I mean there

Where’s the mafia widower I followed into hell, huh

Wu Xie: Ur a good kid, despite my influence. I’m really glad you have someone to talk to after everything I…after everything. Wow this talking through feelings thing is kind of weird but nice ur right

Jfc no wonder it took me and xiaoge so long to—you know what, we won’t get into that

Li Cu: ew tmi

Also re: this week’s recent necklace fuckery

I moved my stuff here, I live here now

So you can’t die anymore

Or else…Idk I don’t have a threat planned

anyways abt the curtain

Wu Xie: oh my god, kid…kid you have no idea

I am in tears.

Li Cu: see this is why I can’t be nice to you I can sense the hallmark channel from here

Ugh don’t be sad in ur room that’s dumb

Go hug Pangzi or something

Maybe delete this chat

Or the curtain thing

Focus on the curtain thing

Just stfu and go away

Wu Xie: <3 screenshotting this <3

Li Cu: I take back everything I said. This is why Xiao Ge sleeps on the roof. I hope the ghosts of the Wangs put up that curtain to strangle you somehow. Go die in a stupid way, it’ll suit you.

Wu Xie: lol don’t worry I’m not gonna embarrass you with it or anything

Main Chat

Wu Xie: omg guys look how cute my kid is *sending screenshot*

Wang Pangzi: I MEAN

HE IS WISHING YOU DEATH

BUT SURE

CUTE I GUESS

Wu Xie: no but read the whole thing:):):)

Zhang Qiling: It is indeed very hard to remain angry with you. And you are welcome to join me on the roof.

Wang Pangzi: UH NOPE

NOT WHENI HAD TO BLEACH THE COUNTER IN THE KITCHEN

DONT TRAUMATIZE THE EARLY BIRDS THEYRE ALREADY FREAKED OUT BY U YA HOODIE CRYPTID

Wu Xie: ok true but babe ur like a sexy cryptid

Wang Meng: so, are we just accepting that there is a glittery curtain of unknown origin, and Huo Daofu is going to have to see it while he’s waiting for you at Wushanju bc you’re going to family therapy?

Wu Xie: right

Wang Pangzi: SHOULDA TAKEN EARLY RETIREMENT HUH

Wang Meng: I’m going to go dust something.

Unnamed Chat:

Unknown number: so the curtain…

Unknown number 2: yep, not my best work but I kinda panicked last minute u know

Unknown number: what is in the water at Wushanju that makes everyone dumb and attractive

Unknown number 2: relax they’ll figure it out

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Running Towards Nothing

Chapter One

a/n: hello !! @noelliza and i fleshed out an idea about if todd came from out of state (specifically, somewhere in the southern united states) to attend welton, so i wrote it heh. i’m not sure how many parts this will be (if people like it enough for me to continue posting lol), but i have the first like... five written haha. so yes, todd is from the south (alabama) and i don’t know much about the south bc i'm from the west coast, but i tried haha. hope you guys like it !! xx

chapter summary: something in todd’s past is the reason for his family’s move, leading to a new neighborhood, a new school, a roommate he was never expecting, and an overall shift in his life.

pairing: todd anderson x neil perry

warnings: none (i don’t think there are any in this chapter, but if anyone spots something, let me know !)

word count: 2479

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        If there was one thing Todd missed about home, it was the sky; the sun set differently over the rolling hills of Vermont than the grassy fields of Alabama. He was used to seeing all of the elongated, blue canvas sky that melted into bright shades of pink and orange along the horizon; there was nothing in the way of the creation, just a plain view of where the heavens met the earth. In the northeast, however, the sunset snagged on the seemingly-black pointed edges of trees and lush branches, interrupting the gradient leaving only soft blue and speckles of marigold.

        But he had experienced his last Alabama sunset two days ago, and there was no going back. Not for a really, really long time (if ever). After the events of the past few months, there was no way Todd could ever show his face again, even if he really wanted to. Now, Todd Anderson and his family were living in the suburbs of Vermont, where, as his parents hoped, the past would stay hidden and they could build a new façade for the one Todd had recently, though unintentionally, demolished.

        As Todd sat on the floor of his new, empty room, surrounded only by boxes and his bed (which didn’t have a box spring or frame yet), he gazed out of his window forlornly. Through the toothbrush-tipped trees that were jam packed along his new horizon, he could make out the silhouette of a church’s steeple. One that, no doubt, would be frequented by his mother and father while his brother, Jeffrey, was out of state at college, and Todd himself attended the prep school just a few blocks down the road. Out of all the cities in Vermont, Todd’s parents had picked the one with the lowest population and tourist pull, which meant not a lot of people inhabiting the city. However, on the flipside, there wasn’t a wide variety of schools to choose from. Back in Alabama, Todd had attended his local public high school, Nixon, and would have been an incoming senior there if certain... events hadn’t occurred. Instead, Todd was now forced to continue his education at what was deemed “the best all boys prep school in the United States” by his parents and surrounding boarding schools (no pressure).

        Todd’s mind wandered through the recent weeks, pulling apart everything that had happened like rotten cotton candy. This was his life now: a new state, a new town, a new school, brand new everything. And yet, Todd felt stuck between wanting to start over and aching to hold onto his old life. If those five seconds could have gone differently, he’d be preparing for his first day of senior year with all his friends at Nixon. But his friends would never speak to him again, and he’d never walk the halls of Nixon High School ever again. Todd wondered what he could possibly be holding onto? There was nothing in a place he considered home and nothing in a new place that would likely never be home. So much of his past, he wanted to leave behind, but he just… knew that he couldn’t.

        As he reached into the open box beside him, there was a knock on the door. When Todd didn’t answer, the door cracked open, revealing the familiar face of his older brother.

        “Hey, I was going to go on a drive around town, maybe see some of the cool hangout spots if you wanted to come. I know I’m leaving for school in a couple weeks, but might as well check out some places anyway?”

        Jeff always had a way of talking to Todd gently, never with any hints of condescension in his tone. After all, Jeff was the only person in the house who ever acknowledged Todd’s existence. And after everything that had happened, Todd was certain he was no closer to gaining support from his parents than a couple months prior; in fact, he’d been quite sure he was further from garnering any cent of respect, let alone support.

        “Oh, uh… right now?” Todd spoke, barely above a whisper. He knew he didn’t need to feel embarrassed or nervous around Jeff, but that’s just how things were for him now. Anything he said or did felt… wrong, and he didn’t know how to fix it.

        “Yeah, I think Mom and Dad went to pick up some dinner, so I was just thinking that we could head out for a few minutes. Maybe get a little familiar with town and stuff,” Jeff smiled at Todd, his perfectly straight teeth somehow still gleaming in the darkening light of Todd’s room, “Come on, I know you probably don’t feel up to it, but it’d be better than sitting in here while it progressively gets darker,” Jeff attempted to joke, laughing slightly.

        Todd gave him a half smile, half grimace, “Alright. Think I need a jacket?”

        “Want to drive with the top down, so probably,” Jeff smiled, smacking the doorway and turning down the hallway, “Leaving in five!” he called down the hall as he went.

        While they rode leisurely around town, Todd kept his head mostly turned to the side, leaning his cheek on his arm and taking in all the things they drove past. Lots of houses on moderate pieces of land lined the streets; they were nothing like the spacious farms and open pastures of Alabama. Up until recently, Todd had always considered the south home. But truth be told, he wasn’t sure what home was anymore.

        “Oh, sweet, Todd, look! There’s an arcade!” Jeff patted Todd’s shoulder with the back of his hand as he cruised down the street. The big neon lights were hanging over a brick building spelling “GAMES & POOL.” It looked like the marquees Todd had seen of New York City in the magazines. He just nodded at his brother’s sentiment as they pulled up to the red light. Glancing up at the bright sign once more, his gaze was torn away when the door to the arcade opened, revealing five lanky boys spilling out onto the sidewalk.

        “I told you I was going to beat the high score and you punks didn’t believe me!” one with sandy hair said, walking backwards and facing his friends. His face was twisted into a mischievous grin and his voice ricocheted across the street as the boys seemed to be making their way to the movie theatre a few doors down.

        “Charlie, no one cares that you beat the high score,” the tallest one replied; Todd noticed he had a flattop haircut, which is something no one in Alabama would have ever had; Todd thought it looked neat. The flattop’s sentiment earned a chuckle from all the boys, but a particularly loud laugh from a tall, dark-haired boy standing toward the front of the group. He wore beige slacks and a tucked in red flannel with black and white hi-top Chuck Taylor’s. And Todd noticed his dimples were deep into his cheeks while he laughed. As the boys walked down the sidewalk to the theatre ticket vestibule, the light turned green and Jeff began to drive. As the car passed the group, the dark-haired boy looked up and locked eyes with Todd.

        “Neil, still five for Gidget?” the ginger one with glasses said. The dark-haired boy (who Todd could now assume was Neil) held Todd’s gaze for a couple more seconds before tearing his eyes away and nodding at his friend. Todd’s cheeks were ablaze as Jeff drove further away. Trying to not move his head, Todd simply looked back at the boys in the side mirror until they were simply blobbed figures standing under the light of the theatre.

        When Todd and Jeff arrived home, their parents’ car was in the driveway, and the light in the kitchen was on.

        “Hope you’re hungry,” Jeff turned to Todd as he switched the engine off. He just looked at Jeff blankly; his appetite had still not returned, so he didn’t feel hungry much anymore, “I know I am,” Jeff smiled, ruffling Todd’s hair and easing the tension between them. He nodded a little bit and opened the door, Jeff doing the same. As Jeff made his way up the steps, Todd trailed behind him, not wanting to be the first person his parents saw.

        “Jeffy, is that you?” his mother’s voice called from the kitchen.

        “Yeah, Mom, we just went to check out the neighborhood a bit,” Jeff called, slowing his pace, falling into step with Todd and slinging his arm around his little brother’s shoulder.

        “Dinner’s on the table, dear,” she replied as the boys walked into the dining room.

        “Smells good, Ma,” Jeff smiled, taking his seat at the table after patting Todd’s shoulder. Todd sat down tentatively and stared at the spread in front of him. His parents had gotten KFC for the second night in a row, and Todd was about as excited as he was the first time (that being not at all).

        “I know we had it last night, but it really just reminds me of the food back home,” his mother said, pulling her napkin into her lap.

        “You boys eat up, now,” his father said, gesturing to the bucket of chicken and sides in front of the pair. Jeff grabbed his food, and took extra care to offer Todd all of the things he picked up for himself. While their parents busied themselves in a conversation about the pie their neighbors had dropped off, Jeff nudged Todd lightly,

        “Look, I know you’re not hungry, but have a biscuit at least, okay?” he muttered and held one out to his younger brother. Todd took it hesitantly, put it in the middle of his plate, and stared at it, “Come on, Todd. Please,” Jeff mumbled again.

        “What’s that, Jeffrey?” his father turned to him.

        “Oh, nothing, Pop, just telling Todd to have some dinner,” Jeff smiled small. Todd’s father looked at him with disgust.

        “Eat,” he grunted. At the timbre of his father’s voice, Todd flinched slightly and picked off a part of the biscuit to nibble on while the conversation turned to Jeff’s plans for the fall semester. Fading into the background (as usual), Todd tuned out the conversation and focused really hard on his white Chuck Taylor’s, getting a flash of the tall, dark-haired boy’s face in his mind. Neil. Shaking his head slightly, Todd adjusted his gaze to the plate in front of him and waited for another painful dinner to end.

        When the summer had wound down and the weeks in Vermont had become more familiar, Todd’s parents had busied themselves with getting Jeff ready for dorm move-in and paying little, if any, attention to Todd. Currently, Todd was up in his room, preparing for convocation the next day. Jeffrey had left the past Thursday, driving up on his own. He had told Todd to not take everything so seriously and to do the best he could (because he knew that Todd was capable of a lot of things). He also mentioned that he was just a call away if Todd ever needed anything (he wrote his telephone number onto a scrap of paper). Todd had searched the arcade and the theatre a couple times in the hopes of running into the group of boys he had seen on their second night in town, but to no avail.

        Sitting in front of the mirror, Todd analyzed himself. His hair had grown out kind of long, and his mother hadn’t taken him to get it cut, so he’d have to deal with that, but everything else looked normal. Things certainly didn’t feel normal, but he was used to the discomfort by now. The only thing he was truly worried about was his stupid accent. He’d spent the last few weeks hanging around diners and spots with Jeff, and hadn’t heard a single southern accent. He knew his drawl would just make him appear stupid to all these super educated kids, so he’d put a lot of effort into controlling it. He was actually doing okay at it, he just needed to make sure he didn’t slip up. Todd didn’t need any aspect of his personality or appearance to be called attention to. He got up from the floor and crawled into bed, dreading what the next day and year would bring.

        Convocation turtled by, two hours of sitting in a church pew and listening to some headmaster spout of statistics that Todd didn’t care about. As far as he was concerned, he wanted to finish his senior year and get the hell out of here; Todd had always wanted to go to California, but his parents told him it was a pipe dream (“After the stunt you pulled in Alabama, we won’t be funding your college anywhere!” his father had yelled).

        “Ah, Mr. Anderson, is it?” the headmaster questioned when it was Todd’s turn to be introduced after the ceremony.

        “U-uh, yes sir,” he mumbled.

        “Well, we don’t normally take public school transfers, but you will fit in well here. Any major problems you let me know,” he shook Todd’s hand rather harshly.

        “Thank you, sir,” he nodded and moved along.

        Feeling his chest start to tighten, Todd made his way out onto the grass where he sat down against a tree and waited for his parents. After an uncomfortable and awkward goodbye with them, he roamed the grounds a little bit, practicing his newly-fashioned accent quietly to himself. As he rounded a corner to the courtyard, he bumped shoulders with a boy, and turned to apologize, dead-set on making his southern accent unknown (or as unknown as it could be).

        “Ope- sorry about that,” the boy laughed nervously. When Todd looked up at him, it was the boy from outside the arcade all those weeks ago. Shit.

        “S-sorry,” Todd mumbled. The boy nodded a little bit.

        “It’s all good. I’m Neil Perry,” he smiled, holding out his hand, seemingly unaware or forgetting of the fact that they’d seen each other before.

        “Todd Anderson,” he manipulated his tongue to sit flatter in his mouth, so as not to let slip his Alabaman background. He had trouble looking into Neil’s eyes, but when he got a good look, he realized they were dark, dark brown and incredibly deep.

        “Oh, that’s you? I think that makes us roommates,” Neil said, patting Todd on the shoulder. Oh no, Todd thought, his cheeks flushing. Stop it, he thought to himself and cleared his throat.

        “Oh… cool,” Todd nodded a little bit and pursed his lips.

        “I gotta get going. See you soon!” he patted Todd’s shoulder again and took off in the direction he had been going when Todd bumped into him.

        Yep, Todd sighed. This is going to be a long year.

tagging some people (especially those of you who said i should post this heh): @queertoddanderson @babytoddanderson @cupiiid @justarandompjofan @charliedaltonofficial @pretentious-strikes @aedan-mills 

and a big thank you to @noelliza as always bc she’s the best and reads all my stuff before i even think about putting it anywhere on the internet lol <3

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thanks @viterbofangirl for tagging me!

Rules: Tag nine people you want to know better.

Three ships: i have loads as always, but Kenny Omega/Kota Ibushi still own my entire heart. i’m also currently into Ink/Pa from Bad Buddy, and for the third... i have too many wrestling ships... uh, i guess i’ll say Emma/Harriet (from Emma), just for something a little different? i’ve been thinking about their relationship a lot as i’ve been reading.

First ever ship: probably Ichigo/Kisshu from Tokyo Mew Mew, haha. it’s the first ship i actually sought out fic for, at least.

Last song: i never know how to answer this question, but the last song i added to my wrestling themes playlist is 東京事変 [ 秘密 ] , which Minoru Fujita uses as his theme, and which i managed to find after i figured out how to google a wrestler’s theme in Japanese.

Last film: oh dear, i am legitimately struggling to remember... 💧 OH, i think it was Maurice (1987)? i watched it sort of out of the blue a couple months ago and really enjoyed it.

Currently reading: oh boy. this is gonna be a long section. the vast majority of the reading i’ve been doing is not in English lol, but i did start reading Gathering Moss by Robin Wall Kimmerer (i won a signed copy of it at work!), and of course, i am still reading Emma in real time, very slowly (though there has been a lot of stuff happening in the past couple weeks because Frank Churchill finally arrived).

in Spanish, i started reading @luvamiart‘s book Tempestad! it’s definitely above my level of Spanish ability, so i have to look up dozens of words in the dictionary (i’m trying out a Spanish-Spanish dictionary instead of an English-Spanish one) every page, but i’m enjoying the book so far, and i’m learning a lot! i’m trying not to be too intimidated by the length, because it is quite long for someone who takes as much time as i do to get through a single page 😅.

in Japanese, i am soooo close to finishing my first textbook, omg. i’m on lesson 25 of みんなの日本語, and i am THIS close to being done!! immediately after i finish it, i’m going to be moving on to book 2, so my work is far from over, haha, but i’m really proud of myself for making it this far.

my more fun Japanese book is volume 3 of 大海原と大海原! i managed to get through volumes 1 and 2 over the past several months, and then i wanted to continue with volume 3 so that i could see the rest of the story, but it turned out to be much, much harder than the first two books, because it’s aimed at an older audience and has no furigana akfghdkgjfhdg. my kanji knowledge has gotten good enough that i’m actually managing to read it just fine, surprisingly, though my comprehension is far from perfect. i’m considering trying to play the RPG after i finish it, though i’d be better off waiting until my grammar is better.

the other Japanese thing i’ve been reading is the DDT/TJPW show recaps on the DDT website, after Mr. Haku left CyberFight and we lost our translation. DDT just recently acquired English translation again, so i’ve gotten a reprieve from having to attempt to translate myself lol, but TJPW is still without translation, so i’ve taken over for a friend and switched my focus to that. i’ve been trying to translate as much of the backstage comments and such as i have text transcriptions for (since audio is still very beyond me). it’s very slow-going but also rewarding (i’m harvesting so many words from them to add to anki haha), and it’s fun to experience the character voices like this. a friend whose Japanese is much more advanced than mine has been helping mentor me and correct/explain stuff when i have translation questions, and i’m so grateful for all of their help and support!

Currently watching: do i even need to say it. same as the past couple years, basically. way too much wrestling lol. i’ve scaled down a tiny bit from last year, but not really much. i’m currently watching AEW, TJPW, DDT, NJPW, and some NOAH, ChocoPro, and AAA.

i think i watched a grand total of three Normal TV Shows last year afjdgdfg. the last non-wrestling thing that i’ve watched was Bad Buddy, a Thai BL show that was pretty good for what it was.

Currently consuming: as of the time of writing (the night before actually publishing this post at a normal hour), soy miso chicken and udon noodles, with green tea.

Currently craving: i never know how to answer this question, haha! i guess i could go for a sandwich about now? i blame Miu Watanabe for posting about sandwiches on instagram.

Tagging: @mizufae @paramaline @theundergrounddog @meganthewarriorprincess @feralbags @norationalthoughtrequired @holodeckprotocols @nocturnical and for the ninth person, if your name is not listed here but you want to fill this out, consider yourself tagged