#You're a freaking saint omg

[oceanwrath]

OH! i was peeking back since i'd been away from tumblr for a hot second and i saw that ask from march.

i am intrigued by the change for corosa, and i'm very curious what else has changed among the cycle of shades cast in the last few years 👀 (if you're up to sharing)

OMG hi..... thanks for opening the gates on oceanwrath oc hours :3 I've probably changed pretty much everything from how the story was back then bc I'm eternally indecisive on what to do with this story but I am feeling good about the current iteration!

IT'S A MURDER MYSTERY NOW (?)

Corosa's a woman now but otherwise the same stonefaced bastard she's always been. A few years back a massive civilization-ending grade flood destroyed the northern coast and swept her home city away, leaving no known survivors until Corosa and her crew suddenly appear in farway inland Kharta  

Corosa herself is a widowed ex-mariner turned mercenary fisherman leading a band of insane freaks fishermen. Her party consists of Satero (last of Ankhar's berserkers, also an artist which is what he prefers leading with. and a fisherman), Retha (ex-priestess of an apocalyptic cult proven right. also a fisherman), Catsovi (Retha's extremely off-putting bodyguard, also ex-cult, also fisherman), and a Khartan guy I haven't named yet LOL but he was driven out of Kharta years back for his violent unpleasant manner (and for being too good at. fishing). They are all Fucked Up in some ominous manner that none of them will speak of really good at fishing.

They're looking for a contact of theirs named Khista, a contentiously beloved saint of a contentiously revered sect. He's particularly contentious right now because he's been calling for a full break from / challenging the legitimacy of the major city temples. He is also mega dead. He has recently suffered a terminal case of murder. He suffers it the morning of Corosa arriving in town

Khista's teenage son Komini arrives shortly afterwards to head up the investigation of his father's murder. Komini is a just and fair-minded young man who is going to carry out a full proper investigation and gather the facts, but even he is pretty certain that Suspect Number One is Bariyan, Komini's estranged uncle and Khista's extra-estranged younger brother. This is on account of two things:

A decade back Bariyan attempted a ritual of ascension, which was both very ambitious and 100% forbidden. The rite failed, ended in grievous bodily harm to Bariyan and the disappearance/presumed death of his accomplice Masarak. As soon as Bariyan woke up and had his injuries stabilized, Khista viciously disowned and excommunicated him from their family + faith in one fell swoop

Also ever since then Kharta has been increasingly haunted by horrible eldritch creepy-crawlies. Everyone blames Bariyan for that too. Including himself lol

Bariyan remains a free man for now but is effectively in hiding while he figures out how to unfuck his life and atone for his mistakes. He's shacked up with a bunch of priests who have been voted Kharta's Number One Shadiest Temple 30 Years Running and are totally not a front for a criminal syndicate

This includes Mukhari (shadyass doctor whose older brother was part of Corosa's crew before he up and vanished the same way he also up and vanished from Mukhari's childhood. hi ghost. bye ghost), Mukhari's cousin Samin (even more shadyass doctor), Soothe (the evilest little street urchin they could find), and their leader, Sahikar (another guy with major beef against Khista. He was also once part of Khista/Bariyan/Komini's sect but voluntarily left. I don't know what he looks like yet)

Finally the last guy who shows up is Our Boy Masarak, Bariyan's best friend and accomplice in his failed ascension who has been presumed dead this whole time. Sike he's alive and apparently just didn't bother to come home or like, tell anyone until now. When asked where he's been he's just like "[vague handwave] around"

But now that Bariyan's the center of increasingly hostile sentiment he's returned home to kick the shit out of anyone who gets too close to his boyfriend bff. Also Bariyan is going to kick the shit out of him for just letting everyone think he's been dead for ten years

So the question now is who among all these guys killed Khista and why was it 100% definitely totally Bariyan he did it he totally did it bye

[amoreeny]

Oh Mr.Evans

pairings : Chris Evans & Fem!Reader

synopsis : you get the role to work in a Marvel movie and Chris may or may not have put a good word for you to get the role.

warnings : none i think

*also, english is not my first language so sorry if theyre any grammar or spelling mistakes!*

*not my GIF*

I have been waiting weeks for this phone call I were anxious because they told me they would call and its been over a month now,  I were sure that I hadn't got the part so you just gave up. Then the phone started to ring. I look at Chris whose seated next to me on my couch.

-ON THE PHONE-

"Hello" I say answering the phone

"Yes hello is this (Y/N) (Y/L/N)?" The random person asks

"Yes this is she. Who am I speaking to?" I ask with visible confusion on my face.

" Hi,(Y/N) This is Joss Whedon and I would love to congratulate you on getting the role of the new love interest for Captain America, Loellie Saint in the new Marvel Cinematic Universe 'The Avengers'.I believe you already know what the backstory of your character is right?" Joss asks.

"Yes I do" I say while freaking out silently while looking at Chris who is more confused from before.

"Great, we'll love to have you come in a couple of days for your screen testing. We'll text you the information" Joss says.

"Alright thank you so much" I have a huge smile plastered on your face while having your back towards Chris.

"No worries, Take care we'll see you soon" He says.

"Bye" I say.

I hang up and start jumping up and down in excitement. Chris is sitting on the couch smiling at me because he knows the news I just received because he's the one who put in the good word about me after my audition

"OMG OMG OMG" I jump around while Chris is laughing in confusion.

"I got the part!" I push back and look at him.

"I know" He smiles while looking at me.

"What do you mean 'I know' Christopher?" I look at him.

"Well, I may or may not have put in a good word for you because I know you've been dying to start acting. That's why I told you about the audition" He looks at me while trying to keep a straight face.

Me and Chris have been friends since high school and he knew how much I wanted to get into acting and get into the Marvel. I've acted in big movies and I'm well known. Well at least in my eyes.

Me and Chris have risen to fame together but Chris is mainly is the famous one out of the both of us. I really didn't mind, but what was mostly annoying was the paparazzi and the media. They would spread false information about me and Chris' relationship. Even though me and him are just best friends. I would join him at his interviews because of his anxiety and mostly for moral support and people kept reading it wrong and thinking we were together because of how much time we would spend time together.

"Chris.. You know you didn't have too right" I kinda feel bad because he had to go through all that pain just to get me this role.

"I know, but I just wanted to give you an opportunity. And you can spend more time with me" He says as he wiggles his eyebrows while getting closer to me and pushing me softly with his shoulder

"Like I don't spend enough time with you already Chris" I laugh at his actions.

"Wow i'm deeply hurt Y/N" He puts his hand on his heart and pretends to be hurt by my 'hurtful words'

I laugh and slap his arm softly

"You're such a dork" A bit of your accent had come out and you rolled you eyes

"Steve Rogers and Loelle Saint, super solider fight crime fighting couple" He moves his hands over his face like he's presenting the newest iPhone or something.

"You're honestly so weird Christopher" I laugh while rolling your eyes

"Yeah yeah" He smiles

I shake my head while crossing my arms again keeping a straight face.

"These few months will be the best" He looks at me with his mischievous smile telling me to buckle up for the pranks he has up his sleeve.

"Oh god" I groan and put you face in your hands

Chris laughs and stands up

"Come on, Me You and Sebastian are going out to celebrate you" He says as he gets up and walks to the door.

"Okay... what time should I be ready" I stand up and look at him. I honestly didn't want to go out. I just wanted to sleep.

"Around 8pm, Ill let Seb know" He says as he walks out the door

"Alright see you soon" I say as I walk to my room having my dog follow me.

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Hey Guys!

This is my first post so i hope you like it! This is my story on Wattpad with the same title! That story is currently in editing so im not posting there, so there maybe some different things from here and the book. So i hoped you enjoyed it!

[jazzythursday]

For the SOC asks... any four questions you haven't answered yet that you wanna talk about! Have a good flight 💕

Aw ty friend! 🥹💖💕

5. Any character you didn't expect to like as much as you did? Similarly, is there any character that didn't end up liking as much as you thought you would?

I didn’t expect to like Matthias nearly as much. I think because I didn’t expect him to be as funny or thoughtful as he is. He’s not the type of character I would usually get attached to at all but after reading the books I got it. His death especially hit me so much harder than I expected. His character arc is so interesting it’s handled so well. And I never expected to get so invested in Helnik either but I was so wrong. Just—boy loves Nina so much. So in love. Soulmates. Doomed star crossed lovers. Gah 🥺🤧

31. What moments made you freak out (in a happy or sad way) the most?

-I still get chills just thinking about “let me tell you about my son” and Van Eck’s whole speech at the end of soc about Wylan.

-literally everything with the Khergud. The sheer terror I felt reading those scenes is unparalleled. Especially when Jesper gets attacked during the auction.

-Inej getting caught by Van Eck coming out of the vents 😬🫣

-actually experiencing Wylan’s backstory for the first time. Omg. I was so spoiled on it but I genuinely don’t think anything could have prepared me. Also everything at Saint Hilde’s with his mother and Jesper.

-“He was Wylan Van Eck. He told them everything” —self explanatory. Crying screaming throwing up as I turned the pages.

-And for a happy one—the Wesper kiss!!!! I waited almost the whole duology to finally get to it and it did not disappoint! Pure actual poetry. 1000/10 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

39. What are a few of your favorite Wylan moments?

Oh gosh, all Wylan moments are my favorite Wylan moments! My annotated copies are basically tabbed every time he’s even mentioned. That said, here are the first ones that come to mind:

-the very first time we see him and he’s just doodling and chewing on his nails. Immediately I’m so charmed by it.

-when he has to pretend to be a waiter and can’t figure out what to do with his hands or how to speak (relatable content lol). His “don’t!” when Jesper bets his guns, how uncomfortable and worried he is for Nina having to flirt with Cornelius Smeet. I just love the entire chapter so much.

-“you can’t afford to buy her breakfast” and “Then you're going to be a lot harder to surprise” when they’re running through the library. All the sass. Sassy boy. We love to see it.

-after Jesper and Kuwei kiss and he’s upset and says something along the lines of “he’s not even good at science!!! Half of his note books are filled with doodles—most of which are of you—and those aren’t very good either!!!” Absolutely the funniest thing I’ve ever read. Peak jealous/sassy/petty Wylan. No notes.

-when he’s the first one to pick a tulip and lay it on Matthias as they’re all saying goodbye.

63. Link your favorite fic(s)!

Of Bronze and Blaze

The meaning of good

Round and Round

always an angel, never a god

somewhere full of bright colours and beautiful sounds

Flint and Flute Notes (series)

Between Hope and Desperation

Thanks for the questions! 💖

[feuqueerfire]

Only Friends Live Blogging

I usually just binge one show at a time but I currently have 23.5 ongoing (while it's on-air) and am on episode 4 of I Will Knock You. So I'm not quite sure why I'm starting Only Friends right now but I guess I wanted something messier than those 2, since they're pretty lighthearted shows.

I'm... somewhat nervous to get into this because there seem to be so many different opinions on the show. I wasn't really in the BL sphere while the show was airing since I took a bit of a break from watching shows in the second half of last year but I did get the general vibe that there was discourse and disagreements.

Hopefully, I'll enjoy it. I'll also try to watch just 1 ep a day while also watching 1-2 eps of I Will Knock You a day so that I don't just neglect that show but maybe I'll become hooked and binge this one, who knows.

Ep 1 (May 7)

1-1

omg 1-1 has 5.9m views another part in a diff ep has 8 million, that's wild, feels like it's been a while since a GMMTV show had that many views on Youtube, think Bad Buddy had higher views than this (though it's had 2 years to accumulate). also this has made me realize that 2gether isn't available for me on youtube anymore lol

is that First's voice singing...?

Sand-Ray argument at first meeting

Book looks so cute with the glasses, just like gives :) vibes

chaotic intro but intriguing

August

hostel business plan in Ray's father's house

lol laughed at Nick and Boston just eyeing each other up the whole time

Lookjun is so pretty

pls Top sick of the "fierces ones who already know it all" experienced sexual partners and wants to try it with virgin Mew

Does Boston have a weird reaction to Mew saying he always gets what he wants?

Drake, hii

one of these days somebody's gonna call Ray burden again and he's gonna combust fr

heh Sand driving Ray's drunk ass home

1-2

Top gulping down the water, mans was Thirsty

having ice cream instead of sex, sounds good

lol Sand's gotta take Ray to his own dorm

the vomiting sounds terrible

damn, Nick gonna get off to Boston's vid?

I'm skipping through the nsfw scenes tbh

I get Top, Mew's quite cute

1-3

the fucking Poor Boy shirt on Ray lol

"I can tell who is being honest with me. My sense is always right." well, I sure hope that's true, Mew

So freaking bold, Nick leaving his own shirtless pics in Boston's phone and getting him to check it right in front of him

1-4

damn, both Sand and Boston just constantly side-eyeing Top and Mew as they're being cute

I've remembered that there's some storyline about Boston liking Top despite hooking him and Mew up? I wonder if Ray likes Mew since he's also iffy about this relationship?

hm so Top has intentions to actually date Mew

the handwashing icked me out lol

ah, indeed even Top knows that Boston likes him

trying to watch the show and not be sucked into embarrassment at public gestures like this + my aversion to these public questions anyway because of the pressure to accept

Started 1.25x already tbh but not to the fault of the show, it's just what I like. Actually, pretty good first ep, it set up the characters and relationships well and gave us a taste of what's to come. Also, I've been seeing people mention that maybe Mew has a more sinister/manipulative underbelly and I'd be into that, some people brought up "you're the company you keep" and if he's in the company of Boston and Ray and such, then he's probably not a saint.

I know there's some cheating involved (Top cheats on Mew?), and Ray has an addiction problem I think?, and also from the talks, it seems like the expected pairs neatly end up together rather than any curveballs being thrown at us.

Also, Nick is gonna be pitiful later on when he falls for Boston but like he's also wild in this ep, not only jerking off to Boston's pics but leaving some of his own, that's sexual harassment but works out in this case.

I ended up skipping through all the nsfw scenes this ep cuz idk I feel awkward watching it right now but that's a shame tbh cuz that aspect is also supposed to be a draw for the show

Ep 2: M.F.M. - My Favourite Man (May 7)

Whelp, screw watching just 1 ep a day haha, I'm gonna be out for several hours tomorrow, so I'm gonna watch ep 2 now as well and listen to the podcast recaps while I'm out so that I have something to do while waiting (it's not like I can watch the next ep of Only Friends in public with my mom beside me...)

2-1

wonder what Sand's got against Top, mans has been sighing and rolling his eyes and giving him stick eye through this whole asking-Mew-to-be-his-bf ordeal

wonder what these cut scenes are about? like Cheum referred to the camera/whoever's asking the questions as Phi. reality show-esque

I hope Yo plays a bigger role as the story goes on and she's got a faen too

I don't know what Lookjun did (other than her lips) but she looks kinda like Wonyoung. pretty hehe

neither Boston nor Ray are into Mew's relationship but obviously they each other one half of the Top/Mew pair lol but Mew's strong-willed enough to not get swayed by their dislike while he's also not fully committed and in love with Top or anything

Ah, Nick and Sand are already phi-nong friends. I think I've seen an edit where everything and everybody is chaotic af but Nick and Sand are just buddies (each heartbroken over red flags Ray and Boston ig)

Nick and Sand are so fun what the hell

interesting that Mew brought up being embarrassed by the public asking the other night. feels like a rare thing in these BLs where public gestures are common but seen as a special, romantic thing only

Top just gives me the ick like every few minutes

lol Mew idk how many of your apparently simply standards Top actually meets

Sand selling drugs?

Ray following Sand to Roxie club

Is Ray into women as well?

Sand's selling plum wine. I thought a post also said sex worker Sand after seeing the trailer (which I haven't seen) but Idk if that's true still or if they misinterpreted (similar to Ray lol)

aghhh the drinking buddy for pay thing is getting to me, KhaoFirst my beloveds but I mustn't fall for them so easily, since it'll be episodes of pain and misery from what I can tell

also 10k baht is like almost 400CAD, that's insane

2-2

oh man, Nick looking at Boston afterwards so cutely and prettily rom the bed. save yourself my guy

[Linguistics] Boston has started using gu/mueng with Nick (and Nick follows suit)

rich, rich boy Ray

his mom passed away

have to keep reminding myself to not freaking fall for SandRay

Cheum's gf April makes an appearance

ah, Top helping Cheum

not Boston just taking everything off in the locker room before approaching Top lol, reminds me of the Army and Joe endless locker room scenes in Warp Effect. Jojo lol

girl already?! I... knew that there's a scene with Top cheating on Mew with Boston (and thus the Mew kicking Boston into the water scene) but it's not happening already, right? It's too early, they haven't even started dating the second time, Mew's still a virgin, it's only ep 2. they'll somehow wiggle out of it lol

2-3

okay, Boston managed to sneak out into the next stall thing

pls this cookie feeding/eating. stupid and silly lol

mutual masturbation my beloved

ah, Nick's already so into that he's gotta lie saying he's not that into it to keep Boston around

not Ray ruining Sand's hookup plans. let him take the girl home before he becomes inescapably into you and can't leave !!

pls Sand being like bruh no threesomes, leave me out

"Instead of going home with a girl, I'm driving a drunk man home" whelp I was hoping you'd get one last night with somebody else before you're way too into Ray to do anything else but ig it's already too late

girl he's Driving !!

why are Sand and Ray so cuteee

2-4

insomniac Top

who's that in Boston's photo? Mew and Ray?

Sand offering to be Ray's friend for free. they're so cute for now

Sand who's open to all genders

hilarious that Sand's the one who's like yeah you're gonna want more of me but we're strictly friends like girl... ok

well, I didn't skip this makeout session. i'm biased about KhaoFirst, what can I say? also, it doesn't matter that smoking in real life is gross, it looks hot when they do that

Ep 3: What Am I to You? (May 8)

3-1

nick asking the internet if fwb can turn into lovers lol

lol jojo twitter cameo

damn nick-boston sex montage

not Nick being hopeful when Boston says "who knows, we might promote our status again in the near future" like girl...

oof, Nick finds Boston's photo from the photobooth with Top

Ray's huge ass comfy looking bed

Sand and Ray can't be cute nowwww, y'all have 10 more episodes of shit to go through ahhhh

hmm CCTV and blind spots. will this come into play?

why are you singing out loud laksdfjalk;sdf it's silent disco, dkm

3-2

lol interaction with somebody who Top clearly used to sleep with and idk if it's weird to just move past it easily but ig there's nothing to talk about since the guy clearly said Top's not replying to him

Boston-Sand-Nick meeting

hehe Yo

I actually hate how into SandRay I am like they're sooo cute to me

3-3

Boston knowing Nick wants their relationship to be more but he just always placates him without giving in

feels like I've def seen gifs or clips of these characters from this party, esp like Sand's outfit here

Sand and Top fr have beef, like at the end of ep 1 when Sand was over Top's public gesture, it was like well does he dislike Top or does he just dislike some dude making a scene? but now Sand's flipping Top off

First is such a good actor but he's truly not a singer

Boston couldn't easily get to Mew to break off with Top but now he's using Ray's crush on Mew to try to see if he can do something

and now sowing the idea of Mew and Ray in Top's mind, oh Boston you're so into this, it's fun

where and when tf is that Ray/Mew kiss photo from? Is it the angle? Edited? It's real photo from before and that's why Boston asked Ray whether he STILL likes Mew because they'd kissed and Mew was like lol that was nothing, let's be friends while Ray was into it? messy

Only Friends Stay - the hostel name lol

oof, before Ray had a problem with Top but now, Top also has a problem with Ray lol

3-4

girl how am I supposed to be impartial about Ray and Sand like fr? Ray saying 'you saved me, so it's now my turn to save you' about giving Sand a ride lol

I'm fucking screaming, no way Ray poked and prodded Sand until he finally gave in but then immediately pulled back and stopped their hookup the second Mew called...

...and we have arrived at the Top-Boston car

2 year old video, long enough time man

bruh Boston getting to Top's head lol

if Mew can do something 2 years ago, doesn't mean y'all should mess around Now bruh lmfao

oh crazy

okay, Boston and Top hook-up in the car: Cheating or not? It seems like a violation of trust and indeed seems like cheating to me that even though technically Mew and Top are not "boyfriends" they sort of still are because they were already boyfriends for a day before restarting with the plans of again becoming boyfriends. They weren't boyfriends but they seemed exclusive nonetheless.

Damn, Nick wire-tapped Boston's car? It's probably from the preview right? Cuz I didn't see if but people in the reddit comments are mentioning it. I kind of expected him to go through the CCTV (esp since he was mentioning all the stuff about cameras with mics and seeing it through your phone and stuff) and catching Boston and Top in the car through one of the videos but this is much more intentional

oh wait! it's after the credits but not Next Week's Preview?

ah, so he put a mic thing under the seat earlier and he's also physically seeing them have sex in the war, whelp

lol nine pinta (the screenwriter whose college friend group this show is based on) also tweeting to nick

Ep 4: Emergency Contact (May 8)

4-1

2 Years Ago oh flashback

oh dang, Ray called Mew as sort of a cry of help before trying to commit suicide

the burden thing really gets to Ray

no wonder why Ray's so hung up on him, not only did Mew show up, but he hugged him in a way even his mother never did and also told him he loved him when he needed to hear it most

lol Boston really took that video of Mew and Ray kissing for fun lol

watched the opening credits for the first time

don't kiss him !!

agh Ray actually kissed Mew while he had his eyes closed trying to sleep

Mew is shown to be pretty strong-willed, whether it be to Top or his friends

Nick and Sand are cute friends

is this is the photobooth where Top and Boston hooked up? Top's dad's hotel photobooth would be crazy tho

Top's rich guy attitude icks me out so bad like he and Mew are just talking at the room, why is Top sitting like he's giving an interview T.T

airplane model with the letter B... Boston? Top seemed to not be truthful about it

4-2

Sand being mad at Ray and Ray trying to make it up to him

I actually hate Sand and Ray, head in hands

Top's disgust at seeing Boston

Mew at every turn talking about how he's not like Boston and Boston feeling like he's superior to Mew, what great friends they are

well at least this time Top pushed off Boston but making Boston angry doesn't bode well

omg ?! Top inviting this over guy over... for a good time? mans didn't have sex for 3 months, had sex with Boston and now is like fuckkkk I can't not have sex

did Nick get Top's number from Boston's phone?

Boston's father is planning on running for House Representative and so he can't risk a photo getting out...

Nick likes to just listen to the sex audio and torture himself fr

ah, Nick's texting Top?

4-3

Nick talking to Top about staying about from Boston like girl... Top's not the one hunting Boston down. you gotta get over Boston frrrrr

Nick saying that he knows Top's a dick and he is too... I mean, you did bug his car and now have their sex audio so you're not incorrect but well

bruh Top literally back onto Sand in his motorcycle?!

Top and Sand animosity once again, let me know where it stems from !!

"It's clear you just can't take care of what you have" did someone Sand was dating or something cheat on him with Top?

fake ass punches

did Nick tell Sand that Boston hooked up with Top?

oh he did. and is telling him about the bugging too, that's wild lol lots of trust

Top stole Sand's ex indeed

Ray apologizing to Mew, tbh idek how I'd show my face to Mew if I did what Ray did

and Top arrives to the scene, along with the stuff Boston'd told him about Mew and Ray. meanwhile Mew-Ray don't know anything about this Boston whispering in Top's ear stuff

lol Ray unknowingly admiring Sand for punching Top

ah, Mew actually telling Top about Ray liking him + the kiss from 2 years ago (not about Ray coming onto him yesterday though, which honestly I wouldn't either lol gonna make Top even more mad and he's already mad about it)

Why does Top think Ray and Mew did more? What was the video Boston showed him?

ah, Mew also picked up on the fact that Top was hiding something about the model airplane. wrong B name though

okayyy I've seen people mentioning Top doing drugs but I hadn't seen anything about it so far, so I kept forgetting but now we know he's done coke and stuff

Top's soooo sleazy while he's insinuating that Mew should sleep with him if he quits drugs ew ick ick ick

how is this a deal between two people who want to be boyfriends and have a long-term relationship lmfao

4-4

bruh, Top straight up brought drugs to Mew's place in a little teeny ziploc baggie? or like what is that? he just poured it into water? to show that it's unusable now?

oh... Boeing???? that's Mond's character right? He's Top's ex? also watching this amidst all this Boeing controversy

skipped the sex scene like I tend to but the lead up to it was so uncomfortable for me lol

Top only caring about whether he came or not and not whether his partner enjoyed the sex, who would've thought

so Ray's taking Sand seriously as a romantic interest now?

The Mew Top scene made me so uncomfortable and I don't think I can articulate why. "I'll sleep with you if you give up drugs" is just so ?? Like I thought you needed to be boyfriends or love Top or something and that's why you weren't having sex? So what's up with this, i don't get it. and what kinda exchange is this, virginity in exchange of quitting??

Also, Top could get more of that or have more at home lol, he's into it enough that he literally just carries some around with him, I don't think destroying a teeny bag is gonna do much

Ep 5: (May 9)

5-1

Sand's life of sleep, working out, and work

this is all recent right?

why are Sand and Ray so cute, I'm gonna lose my shit when problems occur in their relationship tbh

my toes curl up and I can't control my smile when watching them fr

Sand's sausage eating tease

Nick trying to become a "new" him and also somewhat trying to emulate Top at the same time i guess?

why do Mew and Top never feel... genuine

the stall is just a curtain not even doors omg

ewwww Sand jerked Ray's dick a few times and with the same hand, grabbed one of the shirts (from the store!! not theirs!!) with the same hand i'm dead, they better buy it

5-2

weird interaction with the server

bruh someone took a sexual video of Boston to make money off of it? scary af

5-3

I would not be able to do the Blind Dining thing where you don't know what you're eating

What's up with all these people noticing Top? Is it that Top has slept with the entire gay population in Thailand? Is Top's dad keeping an eye on him or something dramatic like that?

oh, Top shivering/shaking from withdrawals or what?

bruh not Sand's mother being the manager of Roxie and tricking him to get here by using the ruse of debt collectors

oh it's Sand's birthday

ah, Ray singing such a romantic song for Sand

“I just feel like If he doesn’t sleep with me he is going to get bored of me” whelp

I wonder if Boston's gonna become insane now that he knows Mew's gonna sleep with Top

5-4

The Top/Mew scene is supposed to be romantic. It does not feel that way and I wonder if that's intentional

Is Sand's mysterious father ever gonna come back to the story?

ah, good scene with "She drank herself to death" and Sand's hand pouring the liquor faltering

Ray sharing some of his story and past with Sand

oh, I'm kinda into the way Nick grabbed Boston's wrist and lead him home

Sand is so into Ray man

Boston needs to shut his fucking mouth, why is he talking about Sand liking Ray

and now talking about how Ray's been in love with Mew for years oh Bostonnnnn you instigator. but it's good that Sand also knows now ig

so does a video of Mew and Ray actually exist? like Mew pushed Ray away that night... and I've been wondering wtf video Boston showed Top

I wonder why Nick even likes Boston fr

Sand T.T

Do I not feel Top-Mew's scenes because I'm not meant to and they're being artificial on purpose or is it because ForceBook can't pull it off? I also wonder how TopMew's gonna go now that Mew's slept with Top?

Interesting to get Sand's perspective this ep.

I didn't comment on it but there are lots of moments where we can see the wealth disparity between Sand and Ray (the second-hand shop stood out to me first but also the debt collectors moment where Sand was so worried but it just seemed like a bit of fun to Ray).

Ep 6: Happy (F*cking) Birthday (May 9)

ep 6... feels like things are gonna go down this ep, esp after the debacle that was 5-4.

I'm quite enjoying this show and the characters so far but I know people have problems with the character writing, I guess that's maybe toward the latter half of the show?

6-1

The way Ray and Sand sharing the cigarette smoke in ep 1 (? or 2?) and the cookie in ep 5 mouth-to-mouth drove me insane yet I feel nothing toward TopMew sharing their cookie or this apple slice mouth-to-mouth, man I hope the artificialness of their relationship is on purpose and not just bad writing/acting/directing. I mean tbh they're cuter/more normal in this ep so far, so idek

omg Mew has two moms

Ray and Boston tension while they have to be around each other in the friend group, esp Ray sending glares toward Boston who's playing at nonchalance

omg is Drake's character (Gap) the one who fucking recorded Boston?

Boston's cold reception and rejection of Drake's character right in front of Nick who... also recorded (the audio of) Boston having sex. also not to mention Boston having recorded Mew and Ray's kiss lol

Gap's video of Boston is def gonna come into play again but I wonder... if it'll be Gap's doing or maybe Nick will acquire it from Gap?

damn, Sand and Top once again and Top always seems to know where to hurt Sand while Sand's quips roll off of Top

6-2

omg???? is Sand destroying his fucking phone so that he can use Nick's phone to send Mew the recording of Top and Boston?! my god let's go vengeful Sand blowing things up and being the instigator

what did Nick notice about his phone? did he know Sand sent himself the audio or did he notice Sand didn't actually call his mother

okay Top's hanging out with Mew and getting him Lasik and taking care of him even after they've had sex, so I guess they really do like each other

how can you know that it's Top and Ton from just their moans lmfao ?? anyway seems like Sand's passing it around to Ray instead of sending the audio to Mew himself, which is smart since Ray's closer to him

I wish Sand didn't tell Ray that he got it from Nick tho??

girl something or other is def gonna fuck up Boston's dad's campaign rip

Boston possibly going to New York

Nick once again mad/sad at Boston but still gives in

6-3

and Boston knowing how to get under Ray's skin even while Ray sought him out first to give him a piece of his mind (kinda like how Top gets to Sand)

Mew's reaction to Top's gift... I thought it'd be a little more happy since it's a pretty good gift for a rich guy? Wtf is this fake ass barely-there reaction that even Top has to ask if he likes it

Does Mew know something already and is uncomfortable?

damn, Ray went to the stall to get high?

nah, Mew definitely looks significantly better with glasses, I must say

omg Ray getting cross-faded and just airing out everybody's dirty laundry? yikes. even sowing discord among the lesbians pls I wonder if April and Cheum are gonna have drama now

he's an asshole to Sand too

damn, even Mew getting violent, alright

6-4

holy shit he keeps calling Sand a whore and insinuating he'd take money for sex or whatever?? and even pushed him down, Ray you fucking jackass but I'm kinda glad that there's now some sort of rawer, more terrible conflict in their relationship beyond just Ray liking Mew

"While we are together, can you not lie." yes plsss I think if Cheum and April can get that together, they'd be so far ahead of the other 3 pairs

Is Top not at all concerned that Ray at the end seemed to target Boston about Top, meaning he maybe knew about them? Because at first, I get him being like wtf what does ray even mean when he doesn't know shit but shouldn't he now wonder whether Ray does indeed know some shit

Mew being unconcerned about hitting Ray and what happened to him afterwards is kinda interesting. I'd at least expect some more anger like wtf why did he do that fuck him but now he's so... nonchalant about it all, doesn't care at all, so strange

skipping through the sex scene less bc I'm not in the mood to watch a se scene and more bc I lowkey hate TopMew but hoping I catch the dialogue

Mew likes Top's sounds during sex... which he will recognize when the audio is found?

ohhhh okay good hah he has it

okay, so Mew knew about it since he and Ray met in the bathroom, right? still don't know why he seemed guarded/uncomfortable at the beginning of the party though

I think the way Mew revealed the audio and everything was so fun + the rant at the end showing he's had so many thoughts about it and wondered why Top had done it etc. It's a good scene I think but still felt... somewhat lacking? I think I'm just being too hard on ForceBook because in a different show, this would've been Great but this show just has too many good scenes and conflict scenes and dramatic fights and this one doesn't quite deliver as well as it should.

It’s still a really good scene in general though and I’m gladI hadn’t been spoiled for it

Ep 7: After Effect (May 10)

Okay, let's see how the Aftermath is dealt with

7-1

god drunk driving is truly just so.

random ass car crash lol, would've been better if Ray'd fallen into a ditch or crashed into a tree off the road lol

will Sand have to save Ray's life in the future again too cuz this is the 2nd time Ray's explicitly thanked him for it already

random emergency reference since it's not like Sand knows Ray's emergency contact thing

I want Sand to be more mad bruh like Ray was quite harsh to him earlier and I want him to be like yeah I saved you but doesn't mean we're now made up

oh, Ray's got a dad who sometimes shows up lol

put Mew into this damn glasses again, it actually irritates me that they took them off when he looks significantly better with them on

Mew deciding to be terrible to deal with terrible people

The way the last person among the 6 guys to know about the audio is Boston himself and second-last was Top. meanwhile Nick knew for longest, then Sand for quite a long while too, and Ray and Mew became aware recently

damn, Nick didn't remove the bug?

Nick looks so pathetic

what fucking video clip man like did Boston engineer some sort of fake (deepfake?) sextape for Mew and Ray??

Mew's burning just one page, I was hoping he'd burn the whole sketchbook but ig it's fine. love the drama of it anyway

Glad BostonNick and TopMew had actual breakdowns in their relationship, kinda disappointed that SandRay are just fine and dandy. I get that they give sort of a balance and they didn't do as much shit to each other the way Nick and Top did to the other person but still... some sort of apology or conflict due to Ray calling Sand a golddigger or a whore or something, c'mon

7-2

I wonder what the father asked Sand to do. I hope it wasn't "I'll pay you to take care of Ray" or something lol

I want to enjoy the SandRay moment and bath and shaving and whatever but it feels unearned. maybe I'll try real hard to just watch the scene and enjoy it outside of the narrative

Ray is such a spoiled brat man "you wouldn't get me" girl, why would Sand who is working day and night to support himself and paid off his mother's debt and who doesn't have a father not understand? He might not explicitly understand having a dead mother who hated you but it's not like his life is roses without a reason to be stressed. annoying ass

I mean, none of y'all cared that he was driving drunk and high lol

If Ray doesn't get over Mew soon, I'm pushing him into the water as well

interesting to see Boston being iced out by all 3 of them + he doesn't have Nick anymore either, so he's gonna be alone for a bit?

the kick into the pool

7-3

okay at least Nick yells at Sand about the clip stealing

Nick is so pathetic I actually cannot. okay you love him, so what? literally so what? get over him, distance yourself, and just because you love him doesn't mean you have to be with him

aw fuck, Sand relating to Nick in terms of loving someone and not needing to be loved back

was he about to love you? Was he, Nick? but I do like the contrast of crying and being hugged by Sand while still being mad at him

Curious to see Mew being evil

Why is Nick giving intel on Boston to Mew bruh?

get in a stall

okay, so Mew now possesses Boston's secretly recorded sex tape...

7-4

my skin crawls at Mew threatening to show Boston's dad the sex tape... he's just bluffing and wouldn't actually do it, right? He even threatened Gap about the cops, so I think Mew's just bluffing

okay good he wouldn't actually post it

He still has the clip on his phone right?

Top coming in to give Mew books in public in front of the rest of the group is so gross, mans will never stop giving me major ick. kinda reminds me of the first ep ending or whatever when he put Mew on the spot by asking him to be his bf in the club

bruh, Top still calls himself Mew's bf?

how did Top even punch Mew, obviously he was right in front of him, how did he think he'd get anybody else. the fight choreo in Only Friends is a rip fr

Mew Ray is so silly to me lol idk cuz I guess I know nothing's gonna come out of it but I guess we'll see how they navigate it

Sand also needs to grow a backbone and some self-respect lol

Each person in this show is doing bad things and having bad things happen to them and I think Boston's the one who's having the worst happen to him. Wiretaped by Nick, who he trusted, and he was secretly recorded having sex by Gap, thought he got him to delete but was doubtful it's all gone, then finds out now his ex-friend Mew is in possession of it too, and threatening to show his father. To Mew, Boston's just a shitty fucker friend who slept with Top while they were dating and so it makes sense that he'd hate Boston and beat him up like the pool but doing stuff with the video is too far. Some people are shitty, doesn't mean I want their rights to be violated.

And Ray being a drunk driver... fucking hell. It kinda feels like the writing is not treating Ray's actions as bad enough. like we're supposed to feel bad that his father yelled at him and he hurt himself but he's the one who drove drunk! Sand also doesn't require an apology from him for treating him terribly that previous night, like huh??

Ep 8: Save Me (May 10)

8-1

We're starting off with Mew and Ray at the club from last time

Ah, self-destructive Mew has started drinking every day and skipping classes

a non-breakup breakup for SandRay. "Let me go already."

omg not Yo's relationship also in the trenches

age diff relationships hit in this specific way sometimes where Yo's older and has had past relationships that have all ended and is scared to repeat it again with Plug while Plug's young and eager

TopMew antagonisms are good.

8-2

Ray trying to coax Sand into doing his community service with him, shut upppp. Sand, stand up and say no!

they probably meant kiss ass but wrote licking ass plss

Nick and Papang's character are cute

Not Boston looking at his and Nick's photo damn

Mew inviting legit everybody, friends and enemies alike, to this Halloween party lol

Mew and Ray dressing up as Joker and Harley Quinn lol suits their parasitic dynamic I suppose?

damn Mew also doing coke now

"You're someone I should love" well if only love worked that way

oh Cheum invited Top

Mew looks pathetic despite trying to seem cool

Cheum looks so pretty, is she Wednesday?

whelp, avoid the kiss Ray leans in for in private but kiss him in public in front of Top to throw it in his face (just like that drink)

8-3

Papang's character is Dan

Detective Conan Nick and Freddie Mercury Sand

Glad Boston brought up Nick telling Mew about Gap's sex tape because that was actually still so wild like why the hell did he do that? It turned out well in that hopefully Mew took Gap's copy so that he doesn't have it anymore (+ threatened him with cops) and won't actually release it to the public but Mew had told Nick that he literally wants revenge so like ?? Why tell him about that omg

lol Sand about to kiss another dude in a Freedie Mercury costume before getting interrupted by Sand

Ray keeps angling at threesomes with people Sand's trying to hook up with

hello??? Why is Ray kissing Sand, isn't he with Mew now

Ray is so gross though at least Sand stood up to him this time

ohh Boston/Atom hookup is exciting somehow? similar to Dan and Nick

aw, Cheum put an end to that

I guess I like Top following Mew and giving him a shoulder? surprisingly, I think I can come around to them despite not liking their dating arc the first time

8-4

bruh, Sand gotta let Ray take the L and get caught using drugs or smth fr tbh

If Sand gets caught with the drugs instead, I'll start destroying things tbh

ACAB tho

bruh why is that cop's knee on Ray's neck

bribery too? girl... but rich people get away with anything so i'm glad that at least sand isn't gonna get caught in this mess

damn, Cheum blowing up too, makes sense although it's not like she's very kind to Ray or Boston in general either lol

bruh, Top bringing Mew to bed is Enough, why is he taking off his outerwear and giving him a sponge bath or whatever like don't overstep and be a creep... and cuddling him in bed... be serious wtf

idk why I'm into Boston and Atom lol like okay what's another bad decision? let's do it

Ep 9: The Return (May 10)

9-1

damn, we don't even get a scene of Mew waking up and being mad at seeing Top cuddling him but now have to witness Top jumping in after him into the pool

glad Sand's mad that he almost got put in jail and doesn't just easily give in to Ray but Ray's nothing if not somebody who wants everything

loll Top talking in on them while recording. Mew isn't gonna give a fuck about Ray wanting Sand but probably thinks Ray should've broken up with him first

Atom and Boston hooking up

Team Second Option talking about being masochists lol

Top has devolved from an intentionally irritating, low morals type of guy to typical BL love interest who is possessive and controlling as they act as if the main character is a child whose decisions they should oversee, agh

9-2

"Why did you do it with Top but not with me?" Ray, girl... I thought he was gonna be like when in private, you keep pushing me away but no. what even

Atom, wtf lol this isn't a freaking relationship. also, you just found out you like men... if anything, you should be finding other guys to fuck now that it's a whole new world wtf maybe ask Boston if he knows safe/good men for ONSs

SandNick kiss hehe but apparently it's nothing for either of them loll

Ray showing up at 2am

THIS IS THE THIRD COUNT OF RAY WANTING A 3SOME, they've gotta give this man one omg. but in all of them, Sand is present and idk if my man can do threesomes all casually with Ray like this...

Gorgeous, gorgeous boys First, Khao, and Mark

Nick having to be the third wheel at his own Second Option hangout T.T

agh, i got spoiled that Sand and Top kiss in a comment and that's my own fault T.T I wish I hadn't clicked Read More but I thought it was just gonna have Boeing mention

9-3

Top showing up to be all gentlemanly and helpful to Mew's mothers like man... why is their story now so typical random BL LI-tries-to-win-over-MC arc

Ray wanting Sand to be his secret lover, I gotta kill this man

"I'm not just stuff you have in your possession" okay exactly because Ray really treats Sand like an object

not the Daddy and Nick having to EXPLAIN it to him?!

oof, Nick giving his goodbyes to Boston who was also touched by it (idk about the 'you don't have to change' part though lmfao)

9-4

"Compared to Boston, you're a saint" Is he? Is Ray at all better than Boston? In which way?

cheating sex but I still like to watch KhaoFirst getting it on, what can be done? the thrusting caught me really off guard tho lmfao

crazy to see SandRay having sex in a camp at night 2 hours away then cut straight to Ray with Mew during the day in broad daylight in public

That's it? No explosion? Where are Mew's feelings about being cheated on by the first guy he seriously dates and now his rebound friend-turned-date? like what about his self-worth and such because when he found out Top was with Boston, he had the "did you guys laugh at me?" moment and now shouldn't he be having a "oh does everybody I'm with want to cheat?" moment. at least he mentioned that Ray's doing the same thing as Top and ig he's saying he can't be mad since he's also using Ray to get back at Top

"Is being a lesbian easier?" "Life is tough whatever the hell you are"

Boeing has arrived heh

oh crazy ass scene tbh, if I was watching this while it was airing with no spoilers, I would've lost my shit fr

So when Mew called somebody to come spend the night because he can't fall asleep, was that Boeing?

a very... mellow episode with typical BL-progression for each couple somehow hmm but maybe the drama will pick up again for the next episode since Boeing is introduced.

I... wonder if this episode is when this show started kinda going down for people? like the characters have become more tame and palatable? but idk if it's just a pause or if they'll end like this as well

Ep 10: Redemption (May 11)

10-1

oof, Boeing coming over and sleeping over

ahh, I'm pretty sure Boeing's gonna be trouble because it seems like that from how people have spoken about him, even though I don't actually know what he does or in what ways, so it just makes me nervous

Ray's still convinced he's not addicted and can stop whenever...girl

"You're totally his type. Like an upgraded version of me" crazy

Nick saying they can kiss or have sex, it doesn't matter because it'll always end

Boss and intern hook-up but it feels less disgusting than usual, maybe because they're similar in age and have known each other a while and also nobody's uptight and in a suit

there'd no doing rehab "for you" man you gotta do it for yourself

Also, I've realized that Atom calls Cheum Jie

omgggg Atom why are you lyinggggggg. Boston tricked you into his house and took your nudes?!?!?! I'm gonna kill you. Enough! Especially bad because Boston's somebody who has actually had sex tapes recorded of him without his consent

bruh at the very least, the texts should show that Atom's the one who's been texting Boston and Boston's been leaving him on read?

10-2

They really do get off on just... being better than Boston despite Mew and Ray having done terrible shit as well, sometimes worse than Boston

like I get that they believe he raped and took nonconsensual photos of Cheum's brother and is blackmailing him but the 2 guys are just acting superior and condescending towards him while Cheum's the only one seeming distraught

I hated Cheum suggesting that Boston preyed on some young guy though like okay he dated girls... he can also be curious about guys... that's not a crazy insinuation

Mew's smirk as they leave gives me the creeps, disgusts me a bit

I cannot believe I hate Mew and Ray while I feel for Boston

I might've been more into this Top/Mew scene if I wasn't just previously disgusted by Mew

oh, I think I'm just losing it. 10 episodes is too much. the next time Ray says he's going to rehab for Sand, I'll punch him

at least Sand says "Not for me. for yourself"

The Top-Boeing parallels of coming in to answer the trivia question

and would this other ex possibly be Sand?

Top has become so meek

not Mew accidentally liking Boeing's pic on IG, god so embarrassing

Boeing talking about whether he can check out the plants in Mew's room someday plsss

This Boston and Nick scene, fucking hell T.T talking about taking care of things because some things are irreplaceable

what do I even want from them like fr?

10-3

rest of your life? girl...

Boeing's so... girl pls this innocent act

Boeing coming onto Mew, it was in the thumbnail

I'm expecting they'll show Ray doing alright the first few days and then falling off the wagon hard

ah yikes, indeed Ray's dad wanted to pay Sand for whatever it was he asked... why have this interaction at the fucking house where Ray also is though lmfao stupidddd

whelp

10-4

once again, we're at the point in Top/Mew relationship where it... doesn't quite feel real, doesn't feel genuine

and Boeing is here too

hm, so Boeing wants Mew for real or what? And he's had a secret hatred for Top this whole time despite being his little sleeping pill?

hm, Boeing said he and Mew kissed. all this is like a cycle, reminds me of the Mew/Ray kiss thing

ah, Nick and Boston again

crying kissing

romantic sex

oof, Ray's dad telling Ray about Sand

interesting scene but Ray hasn't actually apologized to Sand for real about anything so hm idk

Ep 11: Move On Move In (May 11)

Only 2 episodes left, how will we wrap everything up man?

11-1

why am I not getting subs on my laptop?? My phone has subs on youtube agh

bruh, I restarted my browser and still nothing?

okay it suddenly works again after trying a few diff vids

Aw, P'yo :(

Yo and Plug T.T cute

what is the point of Mew doing all this song and dance with Boeing, I doubt he actually likes him but just... wants to make Top jealous or what?

"Mew, seriously. What are you doing?" Hate to agree with Top bc he's so boring to me now but so true

no why is Top saying what I'm thinking. If Mew's gonna give Top a chance, that doesn't mean he gets to now just push Top around and treat him badly and hang the cheating over his head forever. "If you think you can't forgive me, we should just separate" indeed

Nick being unable to make himself break if off with Dan yikes. surely doesn't help that he gave Nick the job, this is why the boss/employee thing is frowned upon

oof, what was that look, is Dan gonna turn out to be shitty too?

Ray's yelling and pushing resulting in bruises on Sand's back/shoulders, that's quite fucked up

Okay, Mew stops the thing with Boeing

11-2

okay Nick and Boston teaming up to take down Atom. maybe Nick's penchant for illegally bugging people to find out secrets/truths will come in handy lol

Are Atom's pants down in those photos or what? damn he lowkey stooping to the level Atom painted him as

Boston being like "How can you love me after sleeping with me once? Is it because I'm the first man you slept with?" meanwhile Nick being like whelp (is Boston the first guy he slept with?)

remembering all the stupid only-gay-for-you trope BLs while watching Boston talk about how he didn't "turn" Atom gay because nobody can do that (No Touching At All gets a pass lmfao)

not Sand helping with Ray's social work lol

never-ending cycle of back and forth with Top and Mew frr

Boeing having had enough fun with Mew and Top, how to haunt Sand and incite more Mess

11-3

oh, Top's crying

I would never show my face at the store again if I was Ray and accidentally sang aloud at the store

good thing that Atom's telling Cheum the truth but she should be more mad that he lied about somebody being a rapist + taking noncon photos + blackmailing to leak the photos

Boston's promiscuity continues to not be one of his despicable aspects

Boston/Nick are cute... though idk what I want to happen with the New York thing. I hope they date happily for a few months and then Boston goes to NYC and they break up and it's sad

11-4

TopMew moving in together?!

oh, the Boeing dumping Sand for Top thing happened just a year ago?

bruh, Sand's gotta say "no, no chance, sorry" like c'mon

Ray coming in and inviting Boeing to his house hah 3some plssss

omg pool... I've been spoiled from a Reddit post that Sand has a 3way kiss in a pool... omg. also I've been spoiled that Sand kisses Top? whennn

Ray keeps suggesting 3somes this whole show and I don't think he Actually wants them but rather just wants to throw the other person off of Sand but I just want him to offer it here again and for Boeing to say yep why not

why is there so much tensionnn if they don't have a 3some i'm gonna lose my shit and if they do have a 3some i'm also gonna lose my shit

I was expecting more of a Ray falls off the wagon and accidentally binge drinks and gets drunk af sort of conflict, not necessarily this craziness but sure.

I also think it'd be the funniest thing ever if Boeing's just making his way through every pair and we think it's because he's a menace and causing chaos everywhere but he's just being the villain on purpose to get all the pairs to end up together lmfaooo

Ep 12: Begin Again (May 12)

The final episode but... idk if it really feels like that. Doesn't feel like we should have only 1 ep left to wrap up the rest of the story, idk. Maybe I'll do a little thoughts section of what my reaction is so far to each character and the ships.

Top: Who is this guy? Very different from the beginning of the series and that's fine, people grow and change but I don't know who this man is now. Was glad he was checking Mew last episode though like either move forward or don't but enough of the revenge bs

Mew: Annoying, idk. Either move forward or don't. idc.

TopMew: Why are they trying to move in together already omg let it be a few months and also I'm so over them. I occasionally think I could be into them but nothing about it feels real to me unfortunately, doesn't feel like something lasting.

Sand: 0 boundaries, 0 self-respect. Takes Ray back with open arms every time and now Boeing comes in and we see he can't stand up to him either.

Ray: I don't quite trust him to not be a jerk and asshole and needlessly hurtful at the drop of a hat. He's going to rehab but the journey is too easy so far, it's not supposed to be easy.

SandRay: sure, idk. Their scenes have chemistry and are cute because KhaoFirst play them that way but in the narrative, I don't think they're like a cutesy, beautiful, grand romance. Which is fine to me btw but sometimes it feels like people interpret it that way and it probably has to do with KhaoFirst lol

Nick: Interesting that he's not super receptive to Boston wanting to be boyfriends, that's fun actually. Also fun that he teamed up with Boston to ambush Atom.

Boston: I just don't think his promiscuity itself is a flaw and so I don't think he needs to be monogamous to show Growth and Improvement or whatever. however, he has been talking about how he doesn't find sleeping around as fulfilling anymore and stuff, so I don't think him wanting to be boyfriends with Nick is out of the blue or anything. Also, it sucks that he's cast out of the friend group is just a cruel way over lies and nobody apologizes to him this episode either. I kinda... don't want him to make up with them, like these people have their own problems but act as if Boston is beneath them all, so I hope Boston hangs out with Nick and maybe a few new casual friends before going to NY and finding new people.

BostonNick: I want them to be dating or boyfriends but I want Boston to go away to New York and for them to have the good memories and leave their own lives because you don't need to be Big Commitment for Life with your first boyfriend at 21/22.

Cheum: She's so flawed but she's also treated like a minor/side character, so it's never like seen as that? Or idk. but the way she was fine and dandy with Atom admitting to the horrible lies is just... no.

Also, very long episode comparatively, it's like 70 minutes instead of the usual 45-55, which is par for the course of finales

12-1

so when is Ray allowed to drink vs not vs how much

Sand avoiding Ray's question of whether he still loves Boeing

SandBoeing and SandRay kiss and then BoeingRay omg

Ray and Boeing are both insane while Sand has no backbone, so he's just being puppeteered in the middle lol

I fully get Ray in this situation but I also can't help thinking about how Ray was chasing around Sand while actively being in a relationship with Mew and making Sand his sidepiece

Ray once again has valid points about Mew having to depend on Top too much if he moves in like this

man, I just... don't ask to be their friend again, Boston :( Mew is even still like "hey did you ask us?" about putting Boston's name on the project like okay kys you're giving a second chance to Top but still acting all high and mighty above Boston, dpmo

I feel like we're gearing for a happy ending for the couples and friendship group and that is so not what I care for, like one of my stand-outs so far this year is DFF Dead Friend Forever where I thought the lack of happy ending was a great choice and on the other hand, I watched Good Bad Mother, and thought the happy ending was too much and it should've had a more conflicting relationship at the end still

stupid, what is Top talking about not inheriting from his father, shut uppppp at least Mew said to be serious lol. idk why they annoy me so much but omgggg

the Boston/Nick date is cute hehe, i wonder why their date feels genuine while the Top/Mew ones... didn't and felt more calculated

they really do keep talking about "time left together" so I hope at least Boston/Nick don't end up together forever, just a sweet few months

no! stop moving to New York idea! although find at least Nick works in animation and says he'd move there for himself with Boston as a bonus

and Boston's at least like short term plans only!

girl, idc that Sand's here, why the hell is he helping so much with Ray's community service pls

Ah, Sand learning from Ray that Boeing went to Top first

12-2

"Booze?" "No. I quit" Ray's rehab is going so easily, I'm startled fr

the dog comparison well at least put Sand in a collar pls

well, seems like the 2nd couple has now defeated Boeing

discussing each other's strict habits after having already moved in together lmfao okay

Boston and Nick slow dancing and kissing in public my goddd they're so cute

pls dying laughing at Nick: I want you to introduce me as your boyfriend to your friends. Boston: Now that's a problem, I'm friendless.

pls now the 3rd couple must defeat Boston too?

Boston and Nick aren't in an open relationship where Boston can fuck other people, right?! Are they?!

broooo Boston straight up left Nick on the dance floor to go makeout with Boeing?!?!!? girl. be so serious.

okay even if you talked about it, you should've let him know before just leaving him alone and disappearing... girl

he's lying to Nick?! So they hadn't discussed it?! Boston I'm gonna knock your skull open, be sooooo serious

ahhhhh so we're back to Nick and Boston just have fundamentally different things they want from a relationship. Boston saying being boyfriends is a mental, not physical thing for him and he wants to do sweet, fun things with Nick but be able to make out or whatever with somebody else, I think that's such an interesting thing to explore, including how it can strain relationships as that's not necessarily how most people see being in a relationship. it's like obviously he's wrong in this instance because he was not being truthful towards Nick but I like seeing it.

12-3

December 31

party with everybody including Boston

Boston making up with Ray and trying with Mew and half-succeeding ig

truth or dare spin the bottle, who's surprised?

Mew only knows the skills of one person bruh

omg as soon as Mew's dare started, I paused and slapped my hand down on the table because I have remembered... apparently a Sand/Top kiss exists.

as'dlflkasjfk;ladsj hehehehehhhehe why was that so fun, mostly Sand's playful doing

Boston and Nick man, i don't even know

In The Bedroom by Boston is crazy lmfao

Nick avoiding Boston's kiss at midnight despite saying he wants that when they were still playing at being boyfriends owwwww

I'm at least happy that Mew and Boston aren't gonna be friends even though we're apparently getting happy ass endings for everybody except Boston for some reason

SandRay are cute

12-4

The thing isssss I do want this, I want Nick and Boston to pursue what they each want instead of being tangled with each other because they're not getting what they want out of the other and the compromises just hurt them but it just sucks that like... they're the only ones not getting the happy ending and I wanna know how this show might've been different if SandRay and TopMew weren't established couples

seeing Boston sitting here all alone while there are 3 other pairs + Nick who chose to walk away is like... did Boston deserve this? or at least did Boston alone deserve this? idek

unfortunately I don't have the strength to not lowkey skip through TopMew's scene

Top's fire scenario coming back but ig he has Mew this time

oh interesting, feels like there's some actual conversation about Ray's rehab since he started and him having to overcome it himself and that Sand can't just quite all his sources of income (plum wine, bar singer) just so Ray's never around alcohol

Feb 2024 oh that's like 3 months ago

P'Yo you are sooo cute

I hate seeing the 6 of them happy and together in couples and in the friend group while there's some random photo from Boston (and that would've been fine!!! if the ending wasn't this lol) and Nick is nowhere (this does make more sense bc he wasn't in the group)

oh lol Mix here and certain ominous ending but not enough For Me

Conflicted because messy people, those who make mistakes, those who haven't figured everything out still deserve to be happy but... everybody other than Boston deserves to be happy?

Overall

I'm just glad that I binged this by watching 2-3 eps a day for a week instead of watching for 3 months to arrive to that ending. Great first half of the show IMO (~6 eps), then there's a weird narrative shift there somewhere, then the last 1/4 of the show was dragging and then the last episode was boring and upsetting. SandRay and TopMew feel weirdly happy, artificially happy while Boston is the only character who is left to rot by his friends and Nick. I didn't need a happy ending for Boston/Nick but Boston's storyline felt... cruel and since the only character who wasn't monogamous got a bad ending and had all his faults amplified (while the others just had their faults or mistakes forgiven or never even apologized for them), it felt pointed at Boston's promiscuity.

Rating: 6/10

[banamine-bananime]

Hi! I hope you're having a wonderful day! Any plans for this week that have you excited??

I wanted to ask you because I'm not entirely familiar with the hyperpop/glitch genre, but are there any specific songs that you like or want to see in a video?

- your red vs blue secret santa ⭐

aaa hi! I hope you have a wonderful day too, thank you, you're very sweet ;_;

Semester's winding down so I had the chance to sneak off to the dairy to preg check and dehorn and get to again next week. Getting to touch cows is always exciting so I'm very happy

Oh no i didn't consider the consequence of a video request being publicly sharing my questionable music taste . here we go. i'm not partial to any one genre but suggested hyperpop/glitch since i like it consistently and the fun&dumb vibes fit the BGC (which to me includes tex), and i figured "no one wants to read all y song suggestions, just pick a genre". but omg!! hi!! here's a list of songs i think would be very fun with the BGC. do not feel obligated to listen to anywhere near all of these omg, just wanted to give a variety organized by vibes so you can hopefully find something you like too:

Obnoxious and Aggressive: realitie bites by tillie. greed by sophie powers. fight! by sophie hunter. be afraid of who you are by euringer. boogie by brockhampton. break shit by jasiah.

less aggressive but still confident and goes hard: you're not welcome by naethan apollo. hot mess by girli. freak mode by dorian electra. pink by girli. zipper by brockhampton. bang by cobrah.

glitchy hyperpop: bop it by creepP. hello kitty by jazmin bean. stupid horse by 100 gecs.

not sure what to call this but they have a similar dreamy weirdness: basically anything by junie & thehutfriends aaaa i'm kinda fixated rn (like songbird, off the wall! magical!, i wanna tell you a secret). worms by ashnikko. labyrinth by miracle musical. choice by jack stauber's micropop. cracker island by gorillaz.

also not sure what to call this but some sort of angsty indie pop thing: movement by oliver tree. a good song never dies by saint motel. destruction by joywave. vulture culture by fangclub. martyr by king mala.

[solartranslations]

Omg you are a saint! I only recently discovered this blog and I’m so freaking delighted!!! Thank you so much.

You're welcome!

[deceptive-daydreams]

Holy s**t... a bet? to ask her out? by who?! Jason maybe. but then she was nice to Jason when he came in as a customer. maybe just a random teammate. this was such a cliffhanger and I love it 😍 one of those 'yea I'll agree to it because I actually do really like her and it'll all end just peachy' type deals, except he's ratted out? Wait... did Steve know about the bet? Is that why he was discouraging her so much?! Or because of his own crush on Eddie?! I like Steve less and less in this as the chapters go on. Obviously all of these questions are super rhetorical, there'd be so many spoilers.

I love love the detail that went into their conversation at work, there was hardly any dialogue it seemed, but there was just so much going on. His internal battle to not be that guy anymore, her kinda desperate for him to be that guy because it's all she's known for years, him being so unpredictable and throwing her for a loop. The crying. She didn't want it but it was so important because this was what he wasn't seeing before, how it really affected her. Plus she's exhausted. My heart's just aching for her. But then she's clinging to the sweetness from years ago. Getting giddy again. Urgh, stop it, I can't.

Wayne! Absolute salt of the earth, 'I've come for (probably overpriced) coffee solely to check you're behaving with the girl you're in knots over' Wayne. What a guy. 10/10 for him not saying 'I've heard so much about you' or similar. Because he actually has heard a fair bit by the sound of it. She likes him already and I bet Eddie secretly loves this.

The previous night flashback was so interesting because not only do we see how solid Eddie and Wayne are still, but also that Steve is the one who's initiating the hookups it seems. When he says 'think that's something you need to take up with Steve' it seems like Eddie's genuinely just as flabbergasted as she is. He's like 'why me, Steve?' I'm more sure of Eddie and Steve not having big feelings towards eachother now though. Not once in Eddie's pov in this does he worry about Steve, or their arrangement. Seems like he kinda hates it actually. Eddie's whole focus is her and it's giving me such butterflies 🦋 🦋 Steve just needs to get in the bin at this point, he's been a complete snake. Robin as well for good measure.

I'm gonna stop now but just know I could have whittered on about so much more, loved this chapter as always. Can't wait to see what's next 🖤🖤

Omg omg omg I’m so giddy at your responses

I’m gonna be so fr Steve was not originally intended to be such a villain it just kinda happened?? We’ll see if he has any redemption 👀

I’m so glad their conversation came across that way cause I was really struggling to write it like typing and deleting thinking no that’s not right like this fic is so important to me and I become such a perfectionist LIKE GIRL ITS FOR FUN JUST WRITE

Wayne is such a saint and if he knew what Eddie did he’d rip him a new one (verbally) I love him 🥹

haha omg not be being like oof I really dug Steve into a hole didn’t I woops 🤷‍♀️ but again, this fic is really set on showcasing that humans are incredibly flawed and they fuck up. You could even say I dug Eddie into a hole from the very beginning as well

UGH OMG if you have anymore thoughts I’m all ears I FREAKING LOVE talking about this little world I created and all of their dynamics so feel free to dm me anytime 💜💜💜💜💜🥹

[lowkey-loki245]

Same Spoiler Warning as original post.

Update: People in the reblogs gave me the cool idea of making Loop a saint. It makes sense since Loop did help Sif get this far.

I think no one would realize that Sif is a god at first mainly because how do you notices that kind of stuff? I'm trying to figure out how people would even find out there's a Time God to begin with. Probably by people trying to pray to something, anything, when the sky turned the weird shade.

When the people's "prayer" came true (aka, the party calmed Sif down), they first referred to him as the Shade God. But Loop didn't like that name for Sif. They felt like it didn't fit what he was actually a god of (btw, Loop still has that deep connection to Sif where they can tell what's going on with him, even after the loops end, so Loop can feel that Sif is the God of Time). So Loop did some shenanigans that led to people properly referring to Sif as the Time God.

So now Sif can hear people praying to him for time, prosperity, and patience. And Sif thinks the loops made him lose his mind, and now he's hearing voices. And since Sif is trying to get better at talking about his problems, he tells his party about this. And Odile decides to have a little fun to help calm Sif down about the "voices" by doing a short prayer to the Time God. She thought nothing would happen, and it would be a funny joke... but then Sif freezes and stares at her.

Sif heard double of her voice when she did that little meaningless prayer. So now everyone is freaking out cause, omg, is Sif a god now? And Sif doesn't even know how to answer prayers. He has no clue how to be a god.

I feel like the Change God would try to help in this situation. Cause Sif did meet the Change God that one time. Sure, the interaction was... not the best, but the Change God still somewhat cares about Sif. The Change God would probably reach out through Mira (what if I made Mira a herald for the Change God? Wouldn't that be cool?) and try to give Sif advice. Though I feel like the advice wouldn't be the best considering the Change God is a little lazy.

Do you guys think there would be shrines dedicated to Sif? I mean, no one would really know what the Time God looks like, so would the shrines just be hourglasses and clocks? Or would people simply just pray in front of any hourglass instead of having dedicated shrines.

Also, when Loop finally meets Sif again, Sif is probably gonna try to tell them about the whole god thing, and Loop is gonna be like "Oh stardust, I already know. Who do you think corrected the people when they were referring to you as the Shade God? I still have that little connection of ours, I can feel that you're a god."

On the inside, though, Loop is freaking out about how they technically could have become a god since they're an alternate version of Sif.

If you guys have any more ideas, please share them. The Saint!Loop one was super cool.

Spolier Warning for In Stars and Time Act 5

Hey, so you know how Siffrin became super big and stuff in act 5? And how he was straight up able to bring back the color red momentarily?

Does that count as him reaching the status of a god? Because the Change God obviously can remember the loops, meaning that gods can go against wishes, and Siffrin went against whatever wish got rid of colors.

What if, post-loops, Siffrin is now officially recognized as the Time God? So, like, people pray to him and stuff, and he's here like, "Why can I hear people praying to a Time God?" not knowing that he's the Time God.

I think that would be a fun and cool AU idea.

[justaluttleguy]

LONG ASS POST WITH LOTS OF MUSIC I LIKE NUMBER 1 (sad mood, not on purpose)

LIST IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER

turned out a bit biased towards the sad stuff cus of current mood, i'll make other lists with the other moods

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

• haunt me (x 3) (song by Teen Suicide) This song is literally me. I have no idea how to explain it but this song is the only thing i know that gets me and the way i feel. Also listen to "all the lonely nights in your life" while you're at it, it's great too.

• I Want to Feel Chaotic; Every Moonbeam Every Feverdream (both EPs by Bears In Trees) Favorite song Ramblings of a Lunatic omg the absolute ammount of heart poured into this song. It singlehandedly defined a phase of my life.

• the first glass beach album (album by glass beach) One of the most inspired and creative things i've ever listened to, these guys are just insane. Favorite song is "orchids" but don't listen to it if you haven't gone through the full album at least once.

• The Normal Album (album by Will Wood) What can i say? I'm one of them "queers". This album is a masterpiece, go listen to it right now. It deals with the experience of grappling with normalcy and social expectations, mainly with the pathologization of queerness and the maintnance of norms. "Well, better than the alternative" is my favorite of the album, followed closely by "Marsha, Thankk You for the Dialectics, but I Need You to Leave"

• Garden Song (song by Phoebe Bridgers) Love Phoebe Bridgers in general but this one and Kyoto are the ones I always come back to. The absolute vibe of Garden Song, the bittersweetness of looking up to the future and seeing a complicated mess... feels just like growing up.

• Dear. (EP by Cavetown) Cavetown almost never misses, but I think this was his apex. "Banana Bread" is probably my favorite song of his ever, and it has some crazy competition asdgsuahd... While you're at it go listen to everything he ever made exclusively for like 2 months. He really is the best at what he does. Remember to Hug All Ur Friends ;)

• April to Death (song by Flower Face) This is the most gut wrenching song i just can't stop listening to. Make sure you have a plushie or friend to hug if you want to look it up. TW for... like... loving intensely in a very self-destructive way and wasting your life miserably trying to get that high again i guess.

• Presumably Dead Arm (song by Sidney Gish) AAAAAAA I had to listen to it like 4 or 5 times to figure out what it's about and when i realized it's about that i freaked out and cried listening to it on loop for some amount of minutes, so you're welcome: If you're the type of person who's slow to love and even slower to notice you are loving and then even slower to admit to yourself that yeah those feelings are true, this song is for you. And it goes real hard.

• A Constant State of Ohio (EP by Lincoln) I'm not a sadboi emo bitch i swear... "Saint Bernard" is really unique and hits like a truck, i suggest going along with it slamming your foot on the ground and fist on a table. "Downhill" is my favorite tho, and it's kind of a "closing number" too so first time listening is better after the whole thing.

Dang It's too long already I have to make other ones later

[zashamalkin]

Translation of Anna Kasterova’s live interview on 5/29/20.

Thanks to my amazing Gino Anon, the entire interview is translated below the cut. Final word count, btw, is 2405 so like, send big thanks their way. Holy shit! 

Anna got sick few days before the interview. Not covid, just a cold, that later turned into otitis. It was very painful, but now she’s feeling way better, though she still has some trouble hearing with her left ear. They talk a bit about the weather in Miami (it’s been raining there for a few days, but it’s still pretty hot). Igor asks if they’re allowed to swim during the quarantine. Anna says that the 1/ 

beaches were recently open, but there are obviously rules about keeping the safe distance. “Is Zhenya a good swimmer?” “Yeah, he’s great. He’s spending a lot of time with Nikita, teaching him how to swim. More in the pool though, than in the ocean.” “How do you and Zhenya feel about the latest news in NHL?” “I think, the idea is pretty good. Everyone has been waiting on some news about this season. I asked Zhenya if he preferred for the season to be cancelled. He said, he wanted to finish it 2/ 

properly. This season has been great for him, he’s in a great shape. And even though he hasn’t been skating for 2 months, he’s still been training pretty hard, running, roller skating and he didn’t lose his shape.” She thinks everything is turning pretty good so far and it’s great that the teams will have a time for training camps and a chance to go to playoffs.“In your opinion, were the players mentally prepared to continue the season?” “I think, those, who genuinely want to go to playoffs, 3/ 

have been working very hard to be ready, when the time comes. But, for sure, there are some players, who spent more time relaxing, rather than training. A lot of teams are asking their players to come back and start training on the ice and not all of the players follow their instructions.” “What are the rules about practice right now? Are they allowed to train in groups or…?” “There are no details about it yet. It haven’t even been decided yet, what cities will be chosen as Hub cities. So far 4/ 

the coaches are asking players to stay in shape. They have video calls together, where they go through different footage every time. But, as far as I understand, the organization and the coaching staff are ready for the players to come back.” “How do the players feel about the new rules for playoffs this season?” “No negative feelings. They’ve been under a lot of mental pressure, not knowing anything about the season and the playoffs. Everything seems pretty logical and they’re very happy to 5/ 

get back on ice and to have a chance to fight for SC.” “Is there any inside information about what cities will be chosen as Hubs?” “No one knows anything for sure. But I know that they’re very carefully considering epidemiological situation in the cities and will choose the safest options. ” *I SUCK at translating hockey terminology from Russian to English, so I’m sorry if anything is incorrect.* “Do you think it would’ve been fairer to include the numbers of “play-in” (I have no idea what he 6/ 

means by “play-in”) as well as the Robin Rounds into the statistics of regular season? Because it would give the players, like Ovechkin and Panarin, and Malkin to gain more points.” “It’s a very difficult question. But I’m sure NHL and NHLPA have gone over all the possible scenarios and have chosen the best one.” “How has Geno been handling the quarantine?” “He’s been very calm and collected. He’s been doing great mentally, smiling and cracking jokes, and keeping us safe and happy.” “Why did 7/

your family (meaning Geno, Anna and Nikita) decide to do a covid testing in early April?” “I had a pneumonia in November and wanted to find out for myself, if it was covid-induced, if I had any antibodies for the virus. But all the testing came back negative. None of us had it.” “What books did you and Zhenya read during the quarantine?” “Zhenya likes to read fantasy books. He’s been reading “Quantum Warrior: The Future of the Mind” by John Kehoe.” “Does he read in English?” “No, in English 8/

he’s mostly watching TV shows.” “I was very impressed by the story, that after his 1st season in NHL, Zhenya hired Russian language and literature teacher.” “He’s had a lot of free time these past 2 months and he’s hired 2 tutors: English language tutor to work on his grammar and Russian language tutor. (*Sorry, I don’t know if I need to explain this, but Geno obviously knows how to speak Russian. What I think Anna means here, is that the pronunciation of the words in Russian changes depending9/

on where the person is from. Every region has its own accent. I think, what Geno is trying to do, is lose his Magnitogorsk accent and start to speak clearer Russian, like ppl in Moscow of St. Petersburg do.*) He has classes with his tutors Monday to Friday. I’m very happy for him.” One of Geno’s friends in Russia has been robbed recently. Igor is asking Anna, if they ever considered buying a gun, since it’s allowed in US. Anna says no, they feel safe and they live a good neighborhood. She 10/

doesn’t think it necessary or appropriate. They talk a bit about Ovi’s second child being born recently and if Geno and Anna are planning on having a second child any time soon. “Of course, we wouldn’t mind having another child. If it happens, we’ll be very happy. I would like to have a girl, though.” “What’s the best way to describe Zhenya’s and Ovechkin’s relationships today? Are they friends or rivals” “Both. And healthy rivalry is very important in order to reach their personal goals.” 11/

“When Caps and Pens play each other, is it possible for them to go have dinner after.” “No.” “What can you say about the relationships between Zhenya and Sidney Crosby? When we talked with Zhenya last year, he said very nice and kind things about him. Even though Zhenya is in Sid’s shadow a lot of the time.” “I can talk about it for hours. They push each other and make each other stronger. But they also can step in and do more than anyone, when the other is hurt and not playing. Off the ice, 12/

they are very good friends and they support each other. Have I ever thought about what his life would be like, if he was the only star player in a team? I think, he’d be the best player in the whole NHL. He’s very intelligent in terms of building a game, always plans 2-3 steps ahead. He’s very fearless in his game, very talented and vey multilateral player. He’s very unique. They won together THREE STANLEY CUPS! No one's saying Crosby is less talented. He’s an incredible player, he works very13/

hard every day. They are 2 number 1 players in this team. If Zhenya ever asked me if I’d like him to play in New York, f/e, I’d say, no. Pittsburgh is his city, his home. And management and coaching staff are also a very important part of team success. The relationship inside the team is very important. And Pens are the best in that, imo.” “You two watched Super Bowl at Sid’s place. What’s it like there?” “It’s a tradition. Every year Sid invites the team with their wifes/gfs/kids to watch 14/

Super Bowl. His gf Kathy does all the cooking. She’s a very geart person, very hospitable. *omg, this is the first time I hear any1 talking about Sid’s gf 😀, aww* Everyone on the team is very open, very kind, they are great guys. It’s the best thing about Pens. So we’re always happy to accept Sid’s invitation and we always have a great time.” “Do you want Nikita to become a hockey player?” “We’re not gonna push him to it. If it’s something he wants, sure. But I have big plans for his 15/

education. I’d like him to know 2 languages, (English) and Russian, especially grammar, not just being able to speak it freely. I’m studying with him and for an almost 4 yo he already knows quite a lot. And it’s always very hard for a child of a parent, who has achieved so much, to surpass that kind of success. And I don’t want my son to have this kind of pressure on him. I don’t want him to be known solely as “Malkin’s son”. For me it’s very important for him to get a good education and to 16/

choose his path in life.” “Talking about the tv series about Michael Jordan, would you like a bio series to be shot about Zhenya?” “I know he wants to act, in a tv series or in a movie. He talked about it many times. As for a biopic, of course I would like that. He has a huge success story. A man from a simple, working class family. It’s very expensive to play hockey. And he was so talented even in a young age, that his coaches would sometimes bring him a puck, or a stick, or a uniform, for 17/

free. Add to that a story about him finally getting to NHL.” “Zhenya said once in an interview, that you fight sometimes about him not being open enough w/ you, not sharing his problems etc. Has it changed during the quarantine?” “Everything’s been great during quarantine. During the season, he’s under a lot of pressure and always takes it hard if the team loses or if he doesn’t score. Right now he’s very calm and happy, and everything is great.” A question about a conflict around Geno having18/

a USA passport (a lot of people in Russia, his celebrity friends especially, weren’t happy with that, and judged him for that). What does Anna think about it? “He’s a patriot. He loves his country and his city. We were in a hopeless situation, when I needed to get all the documents ready ASAP, and we needed to get married, and him having a US passport would speed that up. You could say, he did it for me. On the other hand, America is his 2nd home. He spends here more time than in Russia. He’s19/

been working here for years. Why is that such a big problem? It’s not like he turned his back on Russia or anything.” Then she talked about Geno’s donation to families in Magnitogorsk, who suffered bc of explosion that happened there in December 2018, and how much he gives to his community in Russia, that ppl don’t know about, bc he prefers not to advertise it. Then Igor keeps asking political questions and Anna is getting more and more irritated by them. Geno publicly supported Putin’s 20/

reelection whenever that was, and interviewer is asking whether him having an American passport is appropriate, considering that he’s a part of Putin team? “Why is it inappropriate? America and Russia are not enemies. Yes, there are some unresolved political issues. They are 2 huge countries, of course they will always feel threatened by each other. But I don’t see any serious political confrontation. Maybe bc we’re in US right now. But Zhenya has a great respect for his president. *bleh, I 21/

don’t like Putin. I know, she has to say nice things about him, bc as long as Geno is a part of Team Russia and wants to have a life in Russia, they can’t be openly against him. But both Geno and Anna don’t strike me as ppl, who will support Putin’s ideals. Sorry for me butting in w/ my opinion*” Question about Geno’s new diet after 18-19 season. “He never drinks alcohol during season. He doesn’t eat potatoes anymore. It’s very hard to cook him a soup w/o any potatoes in it. No sweet things,22/

no gluten. Now before games, he eats gluten-free pasta.” “Is he very superstitious? Do you try to wean him off some of them?” “No, if it makes him feel comfortable, why would I do that?” She declined to name any of them, bc it’s a personal thing for Geno. “Do you put in any work in Zhenya’s image and style?” “I think so, a bit. His sense of style has become better, his taste in literature.” “Zhenya’s favorite music?” “Russian pop-music mostly.” Question about Geno’s gaming habits. Anna 23/

doesn’t try to control him or tell him not to play, bc for him these computer games are a way to relax. She doesn’t mind. It’s his personal time. He doesn’t have his computer in Miami, so he found another way to spend time – studying with his tutors. Question about Olympics. “Yes, he’d like to win a gold medal with Team Russia, when the time comes.” He doesn’t feel jealous about Datsyuk or Kovalchuk, who have an Olympic gold. “Do you think, Zhenya’s last hockey season before retirement will 24/

be in Magnitogorsk?” “Sure, I don’t see why not. He’s very grateful for everything Metallurg gave him and it would seem logical for him to come back there before retiring.” “What is Zhenya’s biggest motivation right now?” “He’s very self-critical (she means Geno’s words about his skills in 18-19 season). He always has a high bar for himself and je always tries to reach it.” Question about Geno reaching 1000 pts. “It was a very big moment for us and a big win for him. He was very inspired 25/

by it and it gave him a lot of self-confidence.” ‘Was Zhenya mad about not making NHL’s 100 players list?” “I was. I was very angry. But he knows his value and what he’s achieved as a player. But it was very strange for me.” “Who do you think Zhenya wil be after his career ends? And how will your life together change? Will you spend more time in Russia or in US?” “It’s a tough question. I imagine a house by the lake, in Russia, with kids and, later, grandkids. With a big fireplace. I think, 26/

after finishing his career, we’d like to travel a bit. But I don’t know. It’s something you should ask him.”

[letsgivethisonemoreshot]

Salvation

Summary: You end up at the House of Black. Not exactly sure what you're searching for. But Reverend Malakai is more than willing to help you find it.

Word Count: 2,127

Warnings: Implied sexual content (sort of), some language

Inspired by @omg-im-such-a-masochist Her Malakai series helped me bring Reverend Malakai to life.

I looked at the flyer that I held in my hand, and back to the building in front of me. This was the right address. And to my surprise it actually looked like a small church. Being handed a flyer while walking on the Vegas strip, I wasn’t sure what to expect. Only select people were given them, so my first thought was this is really some kind of strip club. But the guy who handed it to me was kind of rough looking and creepy, so the thought crossed my mind maybe it’s some kind of weirdo freak attraction. That would make total sense. However, I was far from the strip now. On the edge of Las Vegas entirely. And this little building looked just as advertised, a place of worship. Though not really what I expected, it might be just what I needed at the moment honestly. I folded up the paper and shoved it back into my pocket before walking towards the white weathered building. I took a deep breath before opening the door still not fully sure of what to expect when I went inside.

I was more surprised than I thought I’d be when I opened the door and light shown into a large room with pews on either side. Not many, only six per side separated by an aisle with a worn red rug. This legitimately was a place of worship. I’ll be damned. Or maybe not and that’s why I’m here. I don’t know. It looked just like any place I had seen in my childhood at first, but the longer I looked, I noticed some things that were out of place. At the end of the aisle there was an altar. But instead of a crucifix or a statue of a saint like I had usually seen, there was something else mounted on the wall. An animal skull with big horns. Maybe the pastor was a hunter? Or they did some weird animal sacrifices? I walked along the building and noticed a plaque posted along the walls. At first glance I thought it’s probably the ten commandments or something. Because most churches have something like that. But as I started reading, they were very different than anything I’d seen in any bible.

I accept that human nature is violent, and therefore I accept violence as a part of who I am and I will not fight that.

My past has shaped and guided me; it is not a crutch. But an arrow.

I will nurture the teaching that I obtain through the house and even when they result in in suffering, I will be grateful. As the biggest teacher is agony.

I place nothing and no one before the house.

The house always wins.

Okay, so now I’m more confused. Was this some kind of underground casino or fight club? Do I even want to find out or should I just get out of here before I’m pulled into something else that I can’t get myself out of?

“Welcome my child,” I voice behind me spoke.

I turned around to see a man standing behind me. He was in all black clothing with a jacket like robe. He was dressed as what you’d expect a pastor to be in for the most part, but the rest of his look didn’t match what I was used to. This wasn’t the nice clean cut looking guy you see on TV shows. He had a beard which not only obliterated the clean-cut aspect, but there was a piercing in his lip which I had never seen any other pastor or father had before. His hair was long, but shaved on the sides. It was slicked back so it was nicely placed, but still off-putting. I could see the tattoos on his hands and neck. However nothing stuck out quite as much as his eyes. One was a greenish blue, rather nice actually. But the other was stark white. The smile he was giving me appeared to be kind, but it sent a chill down my spine.

“Reverend Malakai at your service. Welcome to the house of Black.”

“House of…what is this place?”

“It is a place or worship my dear. A place of to absolve yourself of your sins. To better yourself. To better the world.”

“So, this really is a church?” I asked arching an eyebrow.

He chuckled. “Of course, my dear. Isn’t that why you’re here?”

“Honestly, I didn’t know what to think/”

“Then why are you here?”

“Someone handed me a flyer the other day. And I was just curious I guess.” I shrugged.

“Then you were meant to be here.”

“I don’t know. I haven’t been inside a church in ten years. And I don’t even know what religion this is. I don’t know if I belong here.”

“All are welcome into the House of Black my dear.” I cocked my head slightly as he spoke. “I am more about helping people fix themselves from the inside out. Make them feel better as people, and help make the world out there a better place.”

The words should have been calming, and in some way they were, but they were also equally as chilling. “I’m still not sure I belong here,” I stammered.

“If you found your way here, you’re meant to be here. But if you like, you could always come back when the rest of the congregation is here and feel it out for yourself,” He offered.

“When, when is that?” I asked still unsure.

“Black Mass is every Friday night at nine pm. Followed by confessional and fellowship in the basement.”

“What is that? Some kind of thing you do with coffee and cookies?”

He chuckled again. “Not exactly. I can show you if you want.”

I shrugged. “Sure.”

Reverend Malakai turned his back to me and walked passed the altar towards the back of the church. Should I have been following him? I don’t know. But I had nothing better to do with my time. And maybe he was right. Maybe I did belong here. Maybe this is what I needed. He opened a door at the back of the church which led to a staircase. He began walking down allowing me to follow him. So, this could be the real thing. He wasn’t some creep shoving me into a basement. He was going first allowing me to turn and leave at any time if I wished. I should probably stop watching so many Netflix shows and being suspicious of everything around me. Not everything in the world is bad, no matter how it seemed. Today could be proof of that.

Reverend Malakai reached the end of the steps and I saw him walk off to the side allowing me room for when I got there. I expected to see some shitty fluorescent lighting in a room with a few tables covered by cheap plastic tablecloths. A small coffee/tea station set up in a corner. Maybe some religious relics hung around the walls. When I reached the end of the stairs, my mouth hung open slightly as this was not at all what I expected to see.

The lighting was dim and red. But was quickly switched off and the lighting in the ceiling took over showing off the whole room. This was not the pleasant little church gathering I had seen before. No plastic folding tables. Instead, a large Saint Andrews cross was on display. The only type of bench I saw was something I could only describe as a spanking bench. Along the walls there were various irons clasps at different heights. The other side of the room looked like it had a few stockades, but my eyes stopped at the closet that was open. Moreso at the man that was standing at it cleaning and sanitizing all the various instruments inside. He was taller than Reverend Malakai with a longer darker beard. Also covered in tattoos. He was the same man that handed me the flyer a few days before.

“This is Deacon Brody. He is a tremendous help in the House of Black along with being a faithful friend.” Malakai introduced.

Brody smiled and nodded his head as he continued his cleaning. The cabinet was full of various paddles, whips, chains, what appeared to be dildos. But that couldn’t be right. In a church.

“What the hell is going on here?”

Malakai looked at me as if he was genuinely confused.

“You send this creep around to recruit people to your fake church sex club?” I asked as I pointed at Brody.

“Dear, I think you’ve gotten confused. Brody goes out and finds people he thinks need help. He has an insight on people. If he thinks they could benefit from us, he gives them the information. They, like you, make the decision to seek us out on their own. As for sex club,” He chuckled, “I could see how it looks that way. But I assure you that’s not what this is.”

“Then how else do you explain it?” I exclaimed.

“Simple. These instruments are to help with the redemption and salvation of the greater good.” I looked at him skeptically. “You see my dear, sometimes people have a hard time letting their sins out. They’re shamed. Worried of being judged. But they can not achieve true peace and salvation unless they confess and atone. So here, we help them. Take this beautifully constructed cross here. We tie you to here, physically exposed. It should be easier at that point to expose the thoughts inside your head, no? And if it’s still night, we take one of the beauties Brody is working with over there, and turn it on. Low. Enough that it’ll start to feel good and make you comfortable, but it’s not going to get you to that release you crave. With each admission of sin, we turn it up. The more you get off your chest the closer you get to your own salvation.”

“But, what if they haven’t confessed everything?” I asked, completely glancing over the fact that this is probably morally wrong and almost sure illegal.

“It doesn’t stop once you’ve reached your release. You can keep confessing at your pleasure. Eventually, it could become too much. And if you want it to stop, you just need to absolve yourself of all your sins. Once you’ve told us all of them, it’ll stop.”

“What if they say they’ve confessed it all?”

Malakai smirked. “I told you dear, Brody is able to tell when people need the help. He’ll be able to tell if you’ve really confessed everything there is. And so can I.”

“Does, does this happen right after the mass? Like with other people here?”

“Usually yes.”

“Isn’t that, weird?”

“It’s what is needed. If we have someone strapped to the bench over there, and they’re getting whatever punishment is necessary, having it done in front of others can be humbling. Bring one back to who they really are.”

“And if they actually like being watched?” I questioned.

“Then it’ll bring them closer to their salvation. It’s a win win really.” He answered. “But there are times when a private session happens. I’m not going to turn someone away just because there’s no audience. If someone needs my help, I’ll be here to help them. Take right now for example, you and I are here without anyone else. Other than the Deacon.”

A spine-chilling realization. I’m not sure what would be more unsettling. Being here and watched by others or being here alone with him.

“And everyone is welcome? What if they confess they’re a fucked up rapist or something?”

“My dear, everyone is welcome inside the House of Black. But they may not be welcome out there anymore. If someone like that comes in here, we take care of them. I told you, we try to make the world better for the greater good. So when people leave, they bring what they learn here to others. And spread the word of atonement.”

I knew exactly what Malakai was saying, without him actually saying it. It should have worried me. Scared me. But it actually gave me a sense of comfort. Deep down, the reverend really was trying to rid the world of the bad people. And make others accountable for their actions. No matter what he said, he said it with such conviction I felt like it made sense. It was right. This is what I needed now to recover from my past and start new. Also, part of me was curious to see what other people he helped out.

I turned to look at the Reverend. His multicolored eyes staring into my soul. His Cheshire cat smile. The way he held his hands so only his fingertips were touching. And I felt ever wall I build up inside of me crumble.

“What do you say my dear. Are you ready to tell Reverend Malakai why you’re here?”

[saintobio]

Chapter 11 blew my mind, and now I get the "wtf" plot twist you're talking about lol! This is the first time I'm asking you hehe. I can't believe Eula and Naoya hooked up and they have their own personal hidden agendas that would affect the future of the Gojos akskakwjoahwja OMG. Naoya really stayed in his own dirty habits. I wonder what he's plotting again? I'm sorry if I forgot but can I ask why Eula's been plotting Satoru's downfall and she was really REALLY looking forward for Yuuta's inheritance for the title of the company? Is Naoya plotting something for the mc as well? Implying to what Toji said to him, I still don't know what he's plotting in his mind after Toji said that.

I also love how Toji's been concerned for the mc and he's been aware of what's happening to her life.

Also SERA, my god she's so fucking desperate and delusional what happened to her HAHAHAHAHA she needs a freaking therapist. She really went down bad to the point where she wanna babytrap Gojo and how she's saying she'll kill herself because she can't do it alone. However props to you Gojo for having the balls for trying to break up but at what cost? She's so manipulative and desperate people are disturbing asf. Also why did she panick like, whats wrong? She's so goddamns suspicious.

I wonder what she's plotting for the mc lol she said she's gonna pay for everything and for destroying her supposedly "happily-ever-after".

Nevertheless, thank you for the meal Ai! As always! You can now finally sleep i guess jajskaah have sum good schlep gurl..!

Anonymous said

lmaooo naoya, i dont know what you're planning but it better not hurt mc💀

yn, i hope she's okay, maam's having a heart attack on god then we all just suddenly get a scene change ejndnsnsns, it would be real interesting if she gets hospitalized right then and there while gojo's at the hospital, not only could he find out but he'll be in crossroads. if sera's actually pregnant (not to say if the kid would be gojo's) and if he finds out yn has a fatal heart problem, i wonder what he'll do. one thing is for sure. he would HAVE to choose (well ig he already kinda did, seeing he's already breaking up with sera, FINALLY)

now, sera. fckin SIGH. everything is falling out of her grasp (unsurprisingly) and OF COURSE she blames yn, it's getting boring but nonetheless frustrating with how she refuses to see her faults and chooses to blame everything else. (her sheer audacity my god)

and i don't think she's pregnant (like with her cycle and how she's quick to refuse a pregnancy test) and even if she is, she'll find it hard to fake it. gojo is many things, but he isn't dumb and he isn't gullible (he could run a business empire by himself ffs), plus if he has shoko as the one testing sera, i doubt that shoko would lie and deceive him abt sera being pregnant (plus i don't see her getting cahoots with sera), and would sera even have the money to bribe anyone??? i doubt it, with how many times she complained abt being poor. 🙄

can't wait for sera's downfall uwu

and as much as gojo is an asshole here, im worried abt him. feelings aside, he worked hard for that business and seeing it fail and seeing his step-mom plot against him gets me worried....

@mephiis said

oh shit its getting fucked up 👁👁 like eula and naoya and sera is going to team up to bring downfall of gojo. Now yn saw gojo and sera for pregnancy test 😭😭

Gojo i love u stay strong HAHAAHGHAGAYAV I CAN'T-- I CAN'T BE MAD AT HIM ANYMORE AFTER ALL HE WANTS TO END HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH SERA

For naoya : tf you dick down a 43 years old woman? *wheeze* your taste legit worst.

@atsunflower said

Bruh why do I feel like Naoya is plotting something for the 50 anniversary? And I actually like him???? What did u do to me, miss Saint??

Sera keeps shoing her true colors and ugh, I relate a lot to Y/N, Gojo trying to redeem himself is getting on my nerves. Alsoooo, why do I feel like he is gonna find out about Y/N's condition next chapter??? So so so many questions

Anyways, it was another amazing chapter and I already look forward to the next one. Have an amazing week, Saint <3

Anonymous said

THAT TWIST OMG. I never expected Naoya to be the character who took the limelight. This particular part had me curious

“But this, he decided to turn a blind eye on it for personal reasons. Eula was different—that was all that mattered.”

What were his personal reasons and how is she different? She should drop a master class on how to bag rich men. But fr though, isn’t she mad old 💀 like his moms age. Is she actually that attractive?

Also, why did Naoya ask Toji what he would do if Y/N was his wife and why was he pleased by Tojis answer?

Ik Toji also said that if Y/N had waited a little longer she would have had a bunch of men asking for her hand in marriage, would Toji have been one of them if he wanted to remarry?

Anonymous said

NAOYA WITH GOJO’S STEPMOM I GASPED SO HARD I HAD TO PUT MY PHONE DOWN HELP. everything revealed in that part was so crazy, i seriously wonder who will actually expose gojo for all the shit he’s done 👩🏽‍💻 i think naoya is fully capable of doing it, imagine him exposing gojo at that business anniversary 💀

also y/n buying the shoes for toji IN FRONT OF GOJO LMAO. gojo seemed so childish this chapter it’s so funny to me. anyway gojo is actually trying for y/n…the flashback scene was so shocking, i hate sera for trying to keep him by saying she’d k1ll herself 😐 I KNEW SHE WAS PREGNANT TOO i mean it hasn’t been confirmed but the fact that gojo seriously doesn’t believe her and is taking her w ieri…idk 🏃🏽‍♀️ she might be lying considering that her attitude changed when gojo started questioning her but if she actually is pregnant it’s either gojo’s child or maybe someone else’s. HE TRIED BREAKING UP WITH HER TOO OMG IM NOT READY FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER YOURE SO GOOD AT WRITING ty so much for feeding us <3

Anonymous said

Naoya— I had some suspiscions when I looked at the theories about the plot twist. I knew the Naoya X Stepmom idea would really make me say "Wtf!?". Hah I must admit I forgot about Mei's love for money for a bit there hahah

Welp now I can tell why you couldn't express your agreement on my previous ask about Gojo's dad 😅 He does give off that selfish vibe that even if he adores his side pieces he'll only favor those of his own blood, although discreetly/twisted.

I'm honestly nervous that the two (Toji x Y/N) are starting to think about each other, although their thoughts are still on the platonic side, I can't help but feel that Gojo's chances of getting Y/N back is already at the critical level of 10%.

I know he's sincere with everything now but I can't blame Y/N for not believing his actions at all. Heck I would've started not believing every affection he's shown the moment he declared that I will never be in his heart 🤷🏻‍♀️ Hopefully he'll get through the "veil" she has started to build around her to keep him away 👀

Ohohoh it's evident that she isn't pregnant ( I eat lies for breakfast JK 🤣) but in case she is when Ieiri checked it's probably someone else's, maybe Naoya has something to do with it. He did say he wanted to meet her and to leave the dirty work to him. He seems like he's gonna help Toji get Y/N 🤔 Like she's gon be beneficial for their group, too, yk. But oh well, too late, Y/N saw the scenes at the hospital already and has assumed the worst, oh man, and to think he's been annoyingly sweet throughout this chapter 😅

Also, I wanna trust Ieiri honestly but if she ever reveals that misstres is indeed preggo I have a feeling she's threatened by the fact that mistress might potentially harm Y/N knowing her heart condition but again I hope she's a wise and strong as I see her.

I'm honestly glad like 🥲🤧 that he said those things to Sera, that's a HUGE step hun. But now I feel bad because there's a lot of misunderstandings in their relationship then add to the mix that the mistress lied to baby trap Gojo and Y/N seeing all that and running away without confirming anything 😢

unfortunately i cannot answer all of ur asks abt naoya’s intentions. wouldn’t it be better to let the story unfold itself? :) everything will make sense soon. i do agree with the reactions abt naoya x eula tho sjndjs remember when i told u guys i have a plot twist 😭 only one person managed to guess but it was a great guess!!

[tired-biscuit]

okay put dilf!Kiba????? having a??? corruption kink?????????

i think you've unlocked something in me and idk how to feel about it 😭😭

first off, you writing 10k+ words in a few days is literally so impressive, like i don't know if you know how much of a feat that really is. ig it especially seems that way to me cuz i just wrote a abt 2.5k madara thing and it took me like, a month.

but seriously tho. and to have it turn out as immaculate and heavenly as it did?? the writing gods have truly blessed thee. ur literally like the chosen one.

i like all the y/n characters u've created but i especially loved this one. i could literally envision her soooo well. pouty, cute, mischievous, innocent-like-but-not-actually-innocent? wait a minute miss biscuit this is starting to sound a little bit like you 🤨🤔

also Jun seems so precious i literally love her

also when kiba was like "Thirsty huh?" Like YES SIR HOW DID U KNOW 🥵🥵

omggg also also when he was like "Did you swallow it?" I literally had to shut my laptop for a good five minutes and do breathing exercises before opening it again and continuing bc i didn't expect that but also??? THE TENSION HELLO??

i think it's better i don't comment on the actual smut part, for fear that we'll be here all day but i just want to comment on the difference between a man and a boy knowing that too tight wasn't a good sign. like omg only u can get me all soft in the middle of a fuckin' sex scene 🥹🥹

and the freaking aftercare, kiba tryna clean the dress and stuff like a clumsy cutie and also being kinda insecure because he's divorced and his wife left him for another man and just ughh u scored again with kiba's personality. i stand by what i said when i said that u are the official kiba writer and not Kishimoto.

i feel so goddamned happy that i got to know u and ur writings cuz ur one of the few super talented authors that i know of and like,,, out of all the millions of profiles out there i happened to stumble on urs and just seriously

its a gift

ps. pls excuse my use of many question marks i have lost my ability to function and it's entirely ur fault 😤

help, i'm crying 😭 miyu, you're too sweet, my heart is melting into a tiny puddle inside my chest!!

i wrote like 6k words today cos i FINALLY got my day off work and i'm actually really pleased with how this specific one-shot turned out. it might be one of my faves, dilf!kiba is just really sweet and mature, despite that you can't really tell that by the end of the story. idk why i made him soft. it just seemed fitting. :')

i'm sad that he doesn't have a daughter in canon. i tried to give jun a bit of 'persona' to not make her seem so bland, but you might be looking at my first OC, perhaps? 👀 i'd definitely need to work on her characterization more, but so far i actually like how quirky and bold she is. just like her daddy.

as for kiba and me writing for him, thank youuuu. i'm trying to turn this blog into a mostly kiba-oriented one, 'cause i feel he doesn't get enough love out there. not that i won't post about other characters, it's just that i wanna make this a safe space for kiba girlies who usually get hate for liking a character with one jutsu, lmfao :')

and who told you i wasn't innocent? 🤨 i'm literally a saint? have you seen me? hello?

ALSO NOT YOU COMPARING ME TO Y/N, LIKE OKIEEEE, i'd like that. dilf!kiba can throw me around the room all he wants, hehe. 🥰

i really enjoyed writing the tension between them. how he's hesitant and awkward after it's done. how they both know it's complex. it was my first 'controversial' piece and i thoroughly enjoyed making it.

thank you for such a nice message!! sending hugs your way, and can't wait to read your madara story 💛

[1111jenx]

Before i start, im just letting you know this is gonna be a long one SO IM SORRY ABOUT THAT but i just NEED to tell you how talented you are!!! You dont need to post this since its long. Your recent Devon Aoki pac resonated so much!! I picked pile 3 and 4 but the 4th pile resonated so muchhhhh. As soon as i saw "mecurians" i was like oop thats me with my gemini stellium + 10th house stellium it was like a bell was ringing above my head like "ding ding ding you picked the right pile!!" Everything you said really resonated. "Hopeless romantic" thats me...every since i was little i've always wanted that dream man whom i can grow a family with, but yeah my past relationship really taught me a lot and made me wary of men, but i know the love i want and need will come at the right time, for now my 10th house stellium really be begging me to build my bank and success first LMAO. + "overthinker" my brain does not shut off. I have gemini and virgo in my big 3, my brain never shuts off, my friends have stated how i can talk about 3 different topics in a span of 10 seconds. I really am that friend where something serious can happen and i crack a joke, suddenly everyones laughing. Or i can just say something completely random which doesn't even seem funny to me and people start laughing out of no where?? Definitelyyy i am super laidback, but i also know when to put in the work. You're right tho i do enjoy being with people who have some sort of naivety in them, it makes me feel like i need to protect them because they're so pure 🥺. When you said to stop being hard on myself, i teared up. I have really high expectations of myself which makes it hard for me to even start any project because im scared of failure. But hearing you say at the end of the road theres success, joy and love??? SNKSNDKSJD OKAY I CANT WAIT!!!??? "You're on the right path" i always come across this message when i need it :) SO THANK YOU!!! plus the message "a choice must be made" resonated too.

Overall, you're just amazing and talented!!! I had a bad night yesterday, so seeing your message made me feel really happy. Thank you. 🧸💕

Oh my god this is so wholesome I'm so freaking grateful I woke up to this OMG🥺🥺🥺

If you have both Gemini and Virgo in your big 3 I think you can surely feel like a bad b baby thats some serious mental restlessness there you guys are always onto something deadass🥰

When I was pulling the card for pile 4 at the end I heard "victory" and I think they pretty much sums it up?;) I'm so glad that this PAC made so many people feel understood and loved and appreciated even just a little

Thank you for writing all this skskwkwo I'm so shock and lowk emotional rn you're so precious baby🥲

love,

saint jenx🪐

[awed-frog]

I'm curious about Cicero now, if you're not busy :)

Hey there! Oh, I’m never busy if it’s about bad-mouthing Cicero - it’s just one of my many qualities. 

So, just for context - the Romans are the worst civilization ever. Complete scumbags. They span about, I don’t know, a thousand years of history and it’s hard to find anything nice in that entire time. Or decent, even. Like, they went to Greece, right, and saw plays and thought, OMG dafuq so cool! *grabby hands* - so they started performing plays as well, only they’d switch actors at the last moment so that when someone had to die, they’d actually kill slaves on stage. Or, they also took boxe from the Greeks, but they added hidden blades in the gloves. They killed people by nailing them inside an empty barrel with a cat and a dog and then throwing the whole thing in the Tiber. Hell - we know of cases where restaurants served human meat and the patrons sued them - not because of the what the fuck is wrong with you aspect of deliberately killing a human being and make stew out of them, but because they’d paid for pork and not gotten the goddamn pork. That’s the kind of people they were - rotten inside and out, and good riddance. On most days I just wish Hannibal had finished the job instead of lolloping around Southern Italy for ten years and lazing about drinking wine and betting in underground dice tournaments or whatever the hell he was doing.

And anyway, my beef with Cicero is that we are always taught that he wasn’t that. That he was this honest, level-headed saviour of the bloody Republic and thanks to his courage and determination and Jedi wisdom we’re all better men today, or whatever the fuck, and instead - instead he was - well, not the worst of them all, but that’s my point - when you’re in school, you learn awful stuff about everyone freaking else - and especially Caesar, there’s always this awkward moment when you have to read the De Bello Gallico because you mostly start with that since it’s an easy-ish text and there’s entire paragraphs on how moose don’t have knees and sleep standing up, right, but then every teacher on the planet has to take a step back and say, Also, Caesar was a brutal dictator and slaughtered about one million Celts, kids, so there’s that - and that’s why Caesar, like the rest of the lot, can be, at the very most, a Problematic Fave, okay - the adorkable idiot who writes about himself in third person and also the guy everybody knew liked to bottom way more than he liked women but, well, also someone who’d wipe out an entire village and watch it burn with his transparent eyes (okay, probably clear blue, but Latin’s a bit fuzzy on which colours are which).

So, yeah.

But Cicero - Cicero never gets that. Maybe he’s not a fave Fave, because his prose’s a bit too flowery and he looked like a pudgy-cheeked and judgemental Robert Duvall -

- but he’s not a Problematic anything. He’s not even your Problematic Lawyer Friend, or your Problematic Not Crush. He’s just - Good™. And that is so not true I want to yell into the void, because Cicero - Cicero didn’t give a fuck about the Republic. His problem was, he was in the middle - he came from a good family, but not one of the most prestigious, and he was rich, but not, like, filthy rich (certainly not I have different ceilings I roll out for each course of the meal so it’ll be a nice blue sea for fish but a glittering emerald forest for the wild boar rich) - so of course he had no interest in shaking things up - for upper middle class leeches like him, the appallingly unfair ‘democracy’ that was the Roman Republic was the most profitable form of government, hence old Chickpea’s interest in politics, and let’s talk about that - how his ‘illustrious career’ in the Senate mostly consisted in accusing his enemies of raping virgins and drinking human blood - how those charges generally stuck, which lead to countless murders. Like, he was directly responsible for the killing of Clodius Pulcher, and okay, so that guy was the definition of a Problematic Fave, but also one of the most interesting people history’s ever coughed up and someone who could have changed everything (and of course I don’t think about that very often - I’d say - just the right and appropriate amount), and obviously we all remember the Catilinariae, those speeches against Catilina and there again - Cicero told everyone Catilina was sleeping with his own sister or some shit, and literally what the fuck - plus the whole thing with Caesar, which of course meant we ended up with Mark Antony because Cicero was an idiot and did not see that coming but, boy, I did - and that’s just the politics side of it. ‘Cause he was actually a lawyer, right? And he normally defended rich people who’d done corrupted and fucked up things, and he normally got them off scot-free by insinuating - guess what - that the people his clients had wronged and destroyed were raping virgins, defiling their own sisters and drinking human blood. 

(Like - someone should look into that, because being that fixated with having sex with relatives and what people taste like is not healthy.)

So, there you go - he wasn’t a monster monster, you know? On the whole, he was pretty average for a Roman and he did say some interesting things, it’s just - I’m so sick of him being considered this incorruptible saint, and I’m also generally fed up of the fact Roman history is still taught the way it was in the 1890s - bad, brutal motherfuckers who assaulted Vestal virgins on one side and good, bearded philosopher-kings on the other - because everyone was so messy and freakish and plain different, you know (except possibly for Seneca) and seriously, enough.

[mysmeshcs]

Hello~ I've got an idea ! How about the react of Saeran after joining Rfa ? for example , the relationship with the others and mc,how he act,etc. Thank Xx you're the best!

that’s so cute omg~ also I’m sick af I’m really sorry for the lack of writing here (Ｔ▽Ｔ)

he feels really comfortable around Jaehee and Zen

yet he did not signed up for Saeyoung and MC shit™

he won’t admit it but he love to tease Yoosung with them

when he’s overwhelmed he goes to get a hug from MC

or Jaehee

pretty much hacks with Yoosung to Saeyoung’s LOLOL account to mess with him 

Jumin lets him babysit Elly since he notices it calms him down

he will get him a cat if he wants one

also Elly really likes Saeran

Saeyoung feel betrayed by her

also he won’t admit it too but he thinks that Zen is a good company to be around

some times he helps around at the coffee shop and he’s really good with it that Jaehee and MC offers him a part time job 

they have hacking contests whenever they’re bored af

will fight Jumin for Jaehee if he need to

sarcastic insultes contest with him too

will pull pranks on Saeyoung with MC

but when the Choi twins decides to be little shits together o h b o y

he’s trying his best not to snapped out at them

at first it freaked out Yoosung a lot but he got used to it at some point

Saeyoung have a patient of a saint when it comes to Saeran

They’re trying to help him to find different hobbies for coping mechanism