#Why do the american people what to exterminate me so badly?

[eepy-jazz-musicians]

'A Frenchman sheds tears of patriotic grief as flags of his country's lost regiments are exiled to Africa", according to the caption in the 3 March 1941 issue of Life magazine. Incorrectly captioned by NARA as "A Frenchman weeps as German soldiers march into the French capital, Paris, on June 14, 1940, after the Allied armies had been driven back across France."' - Wikimedia Commons

[stone-man-warrior]

May 14, 2020: 7:25 pm:

May 14, 2020: 6:04 pm:

I just returned from a shopping experience in Dystopia, Grants Pass Oregon, where all of the seventy-five-thousand US Citizens who once lived in Josephine County Oregon, were all killed, and replaced with a terror army of impostor citizens who assumed the names of the murdered US Citizens they killed. The impostor citizen terror army is lead by the Screen Actor Guild, and SAG gets their marching orders from Great Britain, for the purpose of taking over USA by force, with a kill & replace strategy of all of the US Citizens in USA. The impostor Canadian terror army also assumes the VOTING status of the US Citizens that they kill, and the Canadian army VOTES for Screen Actor Guild terror leadership shill candidates that are put on the voting ballot by SAG leadership. Nancy Sinatra is the Screen Actor Guild president, and it is her and her associates that make casting arrangements for the shills on the ballots, the same way movies are cast with characters. The #SAGcoup, as I have come to refer to the take-over began in around nineteen-seventy-one, and was planned long before that. Read this account to learn more, there are more than five years of eye-witness terror reports here, no one has asked me one single question about any of it, despite the fact that I report here regularly that I have killed many terror soldiers in defense of my own life and home. My family has all been killed by the terror army, I was unable to protect them. The terror army supplies impostor actors who call me on the phone from time to time, and pretend to be my family members, and that is a typical tactic used by the Canadian terror army, after they have made surveillance recordings of the marked family being exterminated. The impostors on the phone are able to gain a wide variety of information, and they do a lot of mind games to the victims they call, including calls from a hospital from a family member (impostor) who explained there has been a horrible accident, to get the remaining family members to go to the hospital to see the loved one who called. The fakery results in the murder of entire families at the hospital. All of the hospitals in Oregon have been hijacked and are in control of the Canadian terror army, under leadership of the Screen Actor Guild, and SAG works in league with Great Britain, to eliminate the USA, take over Mexico as well, and replace the region currently occupied by Canada, USA, and Mexico, with a new Communist Kingdom called French North American Republic Territory, where Mitt Romney is scheduled to be the first King of the new nation, and Justin Trudeau is scheduled to become the first Prime Minister. Although Romney is to be King, it's the Prime Minister, Justin Trudeau that will be the leading power, and operate the new nation, FNART, under guidance of the British Throne, and British Parliament, primarily, House of Lords of the United Kingdom is to be the controlling party.

I am the last remaining US Citizen in Josephine County Oregon. I may be the last remaining US Citizen in the entire state of Oregon that has not been killed or captured by the terror army.

No help has come. There are no signs of helpful people anywhere.

I went to:

6th Street Market

Walmart

At 6th Street Market, there were no terror assassins there to greet me, as they usually are. One terror operative, other than the terror soldier clerk, cams into the store as I was paying for my items, a woman about fifty-five years old, she saw me in the store as she entered, and then began to cry our loud. I assume that the woman is a relative of one of the terror soldiers that was killed this past week at my home, saw me, and then realized that if I am alive, and her terror associates did not return after one of the attacks this week, then she knew her terror family must be dead, or injured someplace, unaccounted for. That's the way it appeared to me. The women did make any purchase at the store, she came into the store, saw me, went to the back of the store crying, then left the store just a moment after I left the store.

At Walmart, many people followed me around the store, and in fact, I was followed to the store from the moment I left my driveway by the people that were doing the fake tractor and tree work at the Lorena Chapman terror cell. A dark blue Dodge Dakota Crew Cab truck with “4x4” graphics on the rear sides of the truck bed.

The parking lot at Walmart was no more or less filled with cars than it usually is, however, inside the store, there were about three times the usual amount of people inside the store. Most of the people in the Walmart were wearing some kind of face mask, and many of them went out of their way to make the face masks appear more creepy then they need to be. I refuse to participate in the fake “Corona Virus” bullshit, there is no virus, it's a terror attack on USA, and is being lead by the Screen Actor Guild by Donald Trump from the White House, and also is lead by the SAG shills that already took over all of the fifty state Governors Offices, and others.

In the Walmart, I always walk around explaining what I know about terrorism at the Walmart, as if I am talking to federal agents who might be able to hear the implant that was put into my jaw in 2011. I am optimistic that one day, some US Defense Personnel will one day read what is explained here, and come to see what is going on in Josephine county. If such agents were to trust the people at the Walmart, and try to work with them to stop terror, the people at the Walmart WILL KILL THE AGENTS!

It's imperative that such US Defense, or National Security personnel stay alert, and know that the Walmart and all of the other stores in Josephine County Oregon have been taken over, and are in control of the terror army, and that army is composed of trained actors, who's primary job is to fool public safety personnel. THEY ARE VERY GOOD AT DECEPTION AT THE WALMART.

One of the most important things that happened today, happened at the mailboxes on Jackpine upon my return from the shopping experience today. I encountered what appeared to be Richard Chartrand of 376 Jackpine, who is a Oregon State Police Impostor, and in reality is a Canadian Mounted Police, disguised as a Oregon State Police, and is EXTREMLY DANGEROUS MAN. Richard Chartrand is the single most deceptive human being I have ever encountered.

I saw him, or someone who looks like him, driving a black Honda Accord at the mailboxes as I returned. He was in front of me, I was in my car, it looked like Chartrand opened my mailbox, but it so quickly, and there are so many mailboxes there, I cannot be sure that he did. If I was absolutely certain that I saw anyone open my mailbox, I would kill them on the spot, and without hesitation.

The important part of the mailbox today, is that the US Treasury sent me a notice in the US Postal Mail, it was sent on April 29, 2020, and I just received it today. The notice says that my “Economic Impact Stimulus Payment Has Arrived”. That's an important document, and it took fourteen days to reach my mailbox. I say the Richard Chartrand had the letter, and put it back where it goes, in my mailbox, after stealing it earlier in the week. That would partially explain why one of  the group of  terror intruders that came into my home this past week, were demanding that “Chase Bank is going to need that stimulus payment returned to them (the bank)”. I killed, or badly injured those intruders that day, and was not interested in anything they had to say to me, I was only interested in defending against terror intruders, and that is what I did, but I do recall that statement about stimulus being returned to Chase Bank.

It's also important to consider that I never signed up, or applied to receive any stimulus that I may be entitled to, I felt it was too dangerous for me to apply, or even to use the internet to find out how, or where to apply. I assume that the stimulus was simply sent to certain individuals of a particular US Treasury relationship as I already have, as do many other US Citizens. However, it's also possible that an impostor applied for the stimulus payment using my name and other personal information. I don't know, but I do know that JP Morgan Chase Bank in Josephine County is under control of the terror army that took the bank branches over, and are operating the bank as if no take-over occurred. The use the Chase Bank branches as a killing field, and also to launder the false commerce that feeds, houses, arms, and supplies the Canadian terror army.

Fourteen days to receive US Postage from the US Treasury is excessive amount of time, and is highly suspicious of a terror murder plot detail.

That's all I want to report. Please send help, I have much more to say about the terror take-over.

End terror report: 7:23 pm.

This entry written in external word processing software, to keep Richard Chartrand from stealing it, or manipulating the details within.

[takerfoxx]

So…I recently finished up Shiki. And boy, do I have…opinions!

See, this anime has got me feeling more conflicted than I’ve felt about any show in a long time, and it was honestly kind of hard to watch at times. And I mean that in the best possible way.

See, on the surface, Shiki doesn’t seem to have much special about it. The plot is as follows: in a small, insignificant village in the Japanese mountains sometime in the 1980’s, a mysterious family moves into a grand, western-styled house. At first the locals are curious, but overall unbothered and welcoming. But then people start to die from a mysterious illness, in which the victims become sleepy and lethargic, isolating themselves from everyone before simply dying. What is more, soon there are rumors that those who have died of this illness have been sighted walking around after dark. As the deaths mount up, it is up to our protagonists to…yadda, yadda, yadda.

Look, the new family are vampires. They’re sneaking into people’s homes and turning them into vampires. This isn’t a spoiler, the show doesn’t bother to hide it, it’s made explicit in the freaking opening. It’s pretty much Salem’s Lot set in a Japanese village instead of an American town. Hell, the author has already confirmed that Shiki is meant to be a Salem’s Lot homage…with a few twists.

So yeah, on its surface, there doesn’t seem to be anything special. We’ve seen this kind of story before. Even if Salem’s Lot didn’t exist, it’s not like the whole vampire invasion story hasn’t been done before. In fact, given how slowly paced the first entire third of the show is, I can’t blame anyone who got frustrated and gave up. I mean, it still treats the whole vampire thing like it’s some sinister mystery that the characters have to figure out before it’s too late, despite letting the audience in on the secret pretty much from the get-go. I can really see many people pretty much tearing out their hair and screaming at the characters, “It’s vampires! You’re being attacked by vampires! It’s so obvious!”

But no, the show takes its time, slowly building tension, making us spend time with all the townspeople as they go about their lives while trying to make sense of these strange happenings. Hell, it’s several episodes before we even see any of the vampires. And of course, you have the small band of heroes who figure out that something’s up before anyone else, and they start poking around and try to warn people, only to get laughed at and ignored, and of course the vampires are secretly sabotaging them and destroying their credibility, so blah, blah, blah, we’ve seen this before!

But it is then that the show finally tips its hands, and it does so so subtly and elegantly that you might not even notice that something’s up before it’s too late.

See, we then start to see things from the vampires’ (who refer to themselves as the Shiki) point of view. We get to meet them and come to know them. And we learn what it is that really sets this story apart from Salem’s Lot.

And that is this: becoming a Shiki does not turn you into a demon. Oh, you’re still a vampire. You’re an undead being with the standard collection of advantages (immortality, super-healing, can hypnotize those you feed upon) and weaknesses (sleep during the day, sunlight is deadly, circulatory system is vulnerable, need an invitation, aversion to religious totems), that requires blood to live. But it doesn’t change who you are as a person. You’re still you, but with an unbearable thirst for blood, and it is how you deal with this thirst that can change you. Some are already nasty people who continue to be nasty people, some are otherwise decent but go along with things because what else can they do, some truly hate what they have become but reluctantly go along with it because the thirst is just that bad, and some outright refuse to hurt anyone no matter how badly it hurts. We come to know the Shiki just like we came to know the villagers, with some being pretty evil while others are completely sympathetic and others are sort of a mix of bad and good.

But what makes it kind of brilliant is that it doesn’t somehow change the complexion of the whole vampire invasion thing. It doesn’t make it some kind of misunderstanding and the vampires were the good guys all along. No, they really are invading and killing people to add to their ranks, though their motivations are more about loneliness and desire for some kind of sanctuary than to build an army or anything like that. But it still doesn’t make it right, especially since there is the new wrinkle of whether or not someone who has died rising up again as a Shiki being a chancy thing. Some do, but others simply rot, so some of the people they kill are just dead, which in a way makes things worse. They even start to kidnap people from the city as a food source. What they are doing is still monstrous, and the show makes no pretentions otherwise.

So you start to feel conflicted. It’s not that you start rooting for the Shiki to succeed (or maybe you do, but you’re not supposed to), but you do start to feel for many among their number, and want them to have some kind of happy ending.

But then the show tips its hand again, and all hell breaks loose…but to talk about that we have to go deep into spoiler territory, so if you’ve already seen the show or just don’t care about spoilers, check under the cut for the rest.

In their desperation to survive, the human resistance start to take more and more drastic measures to warn the others, with the one in the lead, the town’s doctor, who had already been outwitted by the Shiki on several occasions and had been personally warned by them, being forced to resort to horrific means in order to gain an advantage.

He uses his authority as doctor to isolate one of the infected and keeps them hidden until they die, deliberately fudging medical records so the Shiki would not be informed of their death. Then he keeps close watch on the corpse, waiting to see if it would be one of the ones to rise up.

It is, and now with one of the Shiki under his power, he closes the clinic and starts to subject his new prisoner to a variety of torturous tests, checking to see if it is indeed harmed by sunlight (she is, and graphically so), repulsed by religious iconography (she is), affected at all by drugs (she isn’t), if it can heal from any injury (she can), and so on, until he has learned all that he needs and kills the Shiki with a stake to the heart. He carefully documents the whole process, cataloguing irrefutable proof that vampires exist and now walk among them. Smart plan, but it should be noted that the Shiki herself has no idea what is going on, and is fully awake through the whole process, bound and gagged and feeling everything that he does to her. She struggles, she cries out, she begs him to stop until he gags her, because as far as she knows, she had gotten sick, passed out, and woken up to find the doctor torturing her for no good reason.

Oh yeah, and did I mention that the Shiki also so happens to be his wife?

It’s a truly horrifying scene, not only because of what he’s doing and who he’s doing it to, but how cold, clinical, and detached he is throughout the whole process. And given my rant from earlier, it should have made me lose all sympathy for him.

…and yet, it didn’t. Because I understood.

Honestly, that’s what makes Shiki work. That’s the whole point. It’s a lot of otherwise decent people who do terrible things that are wrong, that are evil, and yet they don’t lose their sympathetic points, because you kind of get it, because you can’t say that you wouldn’t do the same in their position. After all, considering the situation, what else could they have done? And even if you don’t agree with that, you can at least understand why they made the choices they make, as they always fall in line with understandable human nature.

But of course, that’s just the first two-thirds. You know that sooner or later, the rest of the village is going to wise up to what’s happening. And they do: the Shiki are finally exposed.

And then all hell breaks the fuck loose.

The script is flipped yet again, and the last six episodes or so are the humans fighting back and doing a damned good job of it too. Suddenly, the hunters become the hunted, and the Shiki are dragged out from their hiding places and exterminated. Graphically.

This ought to be gratifying to watch. This ought to exhilarating. Finally, the invading monsters are getting what’s coming to them! They brought it on themselves, after all.

But it’s not. Not at all.

Because we’ve already gotten to know several of the Shiki, some of them even before they were turned. We’ve come to empathize with them and the community they’ve built. And now, seeing them not as monsters fleeing a hunt that has gone all wrong but as victims who are terrified for their lives, who desperately seek any way of escape, who die screaming for mercy, often at the hands of their former friends, is heartbreaking. Even the Shiki leader that masterminded the whole thing breaks down crying, wondering if this is punishment for having killed so many people…but then she says that it can’t be her fault, because she didn’t ask to become a vampire, it was forced on her! So how can she be blamed for just wanting to have others like her around to keep her company? It’s a very poignant breakdown to watch, as this ancient monster grapples with her own guilt and inhumanity and the unfairness of it all.

But it goes beyond that. See, we all have a little bit of a monster inside us, and though they may have begun as innocent victims, it doesn’t take long for many of the villagers to succumb to theirs.

There are many that are just a little too gleeful about bashing the Shiki’s heads in, about dragging them to burn in the sunlight, about stabbing them and beating them with pipes, despite many of them formerly being their neighbors. Some admit to specifically targeting those that they had already disliked, while others are quicks to kill actual humans that they merely suspect of being Shiki collaborators. One innocent family that had nothing to do with anything is massacred just because one of their relatives had Shiki connections.

But even with all that violence and cruelty, it isn’t as if the roles are completely reversed. Many of the villagers outright refuse to have anything to do with the massacre because they can’t stand the thought of killing their loved ones. Others do take part in the killing, but it’s clear that they hate it, and one man, upon seeing how the Shiki are being tortured to death for no reason, proceeds to give each every one of them a merciful quick death to end their suffering before breaking down and crying. And all the while, we continue to see the damage that the Shiki’s wrought, from a meek housewife who has gradually gone insane as her family dies and rots one by one to a poor little girl who has watched her own family disappear and resorts to digging her own grave because she’s convinced that she’s next. Even the worst and most violent of the villagers gets the chance to verbally tear down each and every one of the lead Shiki’s justifications for her actions, brutally smashing all of her defenses. And though he has been portrayed as a pretty terrible person thus far, he’s actually right in everything he says.

I’m not going to give away the whole game, but suffice to say, things end pretty badly for both sides. A lot of people die, and the few survivors end up scattering to the winds to try to move on and rebuild their lives. So basically, neither side really wins. But then, it was never about sides. The plot is propelled by sides, yes, but the focus is always on individuals, about the good and bad in everyone and how extreme situations bring that out.

Of course, the next question would be how it holds up to Flip-Flappers, which I had watched immediately before. And as for that…apples and oranges, man. Flip-Flappers was a very throw everything at the wall and see what sticks kind of show, while Shiki had a concept that it stuck to from beginning to end. But I will say that Flip-Flappers didn’t always stick the landing and Shiki was more consistently good from beginning to end, but Flip-Flappers heights were higher than Shiki’s heights, and leave it at that.

Anyway, I am way behind on the Best of the Super Juniors tournament, so I’ll be taking a break for a bit. After that…I dunno, maybe I’ll put it up to another vote.

[oldmanlillian1989]

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[ravageknight-eternal]

End Of An Era

Making dinosaurs is hard. You know that? Hah. Of course they are, everyone knows that. The first cloned animal was a sheep, you know that one? Dolly? Yeah, yeah. A sheep, a little fury bastard they cooked up in a lab after a billion or so tries. Dolly led right here, a little furry cutesy critter to the resurrection of animals that had been dead for sixty five million years. Extinction is forever, they used to say. Money conquers all, even killer asteroids and the spans between eons. Ha. I can't exactly say how they did it, no one who worked on the process or at the preserve can. Patented the whole thing, the animals genomes. Patented them right down to the molecules. Classified down to the red ink the scientists and engineers used to create their dinosaur formula on the back of napkins. It took a long time, I can tell you that. A long fucking time. But eventually, they did it. They made dinosaurs. Fifteen species, mostly from the Late Cretaceous with some specimens of the very, very Late Jurassic. Dinosaurs! Everyone is so apathetic about it now, barely even care we recreated the basis of every child's greatest dream. Anyway, yeah. We cloned them, manufactured them. Altogether we had about two hundred and twenty, two hundred and thirty specimens by the end of the cloning and maturing process. We looked and looked for a place to put them, a wild zone. We talked to South American tribes and American business tycoons and Chinese land-sellers. We went everywhere and anywhere. Some places were utterly gorgeous but we passed em up. Eventually, we managed to buy an incredibly large tract of land from a dying Canadian-American oil baron up in Alberta. Absolutely pristine place, nestled between cliffs and mountains. Clear rivers, misty forests, two entire lakes. Just absolutely fantastic, you'd think God himself had sent us a piece of the Cretaceous itself. So, we set to work. Building massive, ten foot thick black concrete walls and subtle moat-fencing, security systems, animal feeding schedules and platforms. We hired architects from nearly ten different countries, and Christ they weren't cheap. Elevated luxury cabins, lodges inside and outside the preserve, bar outposts near both lakes. Expensive, but worth it. Utterly worth it. Paleontologists and biologists primarily from Europe, America and China signed on, helping us keep the animals happy and healthy. We surely helped a lot of science papers in the time, didn't we? Hah. Who knew they'd ever actually interact with the real thing? But they did. They informed us the best they could on eating habits, behavior, territory construction. We followed them to the letter. By the end of then, another five years of development, we were finished. The animals were released entirely, the architects and engineers and paleontologists went home, the lights turned on. And Christ, what a dream that was! You have no idea, no goddamn idea how amazing it was. The first night it began, when we really were finished. It was unlike anything anyone has ever experienced. Or will ever experience again. Up in the night sky the auroras unfolded, I remember. All sapphire and gem greens, blues. Rich auburns flailing with the untouchable violets. Out in their habitats the dinosaurs sounded, their ancient voices once again upon the air. They sing, not like their birdlike cousins but like whales. They make noises you can actually feel in your chest, feel in your bones and blood. Alien, unearthly. For five years, it was the best time of my life. The animals lived and bred and died, they moved, they ate, they mated. They where alive. The wealthiest of the wealthy came and paid great sums to look at them, to marvel, to drink right there on the balconies of their elevated lodges and watch living dinosaurs. Real life, living dinosaurs! It was amazing, unbelievable. Almost ridiculously awesome in every sense of the biblical awesome, of the utterly grand and titanic awesome. I knew there were people pocking around. Competitors sneaking and searching at what we were doing, studying. We hid ourselves and our work well, more so than on this project than any other. They wanted to know, badly. And eventually, they did. They found us out, our competitive nemesis. Her and her goddamn orbital satellites, eyes in the sky. I look up now and any stars that don't match I flip the bird, hoping her magnified cyclops acolytes will see me from all the way up there. She found out, probably hitting and scratching some low executive when she did. She always liked hitting and scratching, she liked the fear. Hah. Of course she did! But, anyway, I'm getting of track. The witch found us, found us good. She mines up there, you know. Asteroids, comet cores, space debris collection and dispersion runs. All up there in the blue shadow of the earth. And she knew exactly what she was going to do. It was empty that month. November, chilly and all of the leaves such a rich rusty red, rusty yellow. Gorgeous as always. The animals were doing the usual as twilight rose and the sun bowed, golden streamers in the sky mixing with liquid purplish black above and metallic reddish pink below. Thunder clouds off to the west, mighty thunderheads craggy like mountains and illuminated within by the occasional strike of Olympian lightning. I was there, in my own private lodge on a nearby mountainside. I could see the whole park, from end to end and side to side. Nestled between the mountain cliffs, a slice of prehistory right here in our world. The fireplace crackled and roared, music playing softly. I remember the stupid and ignorant smile on my face, magnifying the interactive systems on my park-facing glass window to see the various dinosaurs moving across the land. I watched, unaware. It came like the thunder out west but so much louder, so much more furious and hateful. A blinding star tearing out and down from above me, down toward the reserve. It seemed so painfully slow when I saw it, so unreal. I looked dumbly, frozen. I knew in the depths of me already, already knew what was happening and why and how. I stood frozen, slamming open the glass door to reach my balcony and look out, terror overcame by defeat within myself. I watched. It was a horrendously pretty sight as the golden-white-blue light of the asteroid came lower and lower. It cast unearthly shadows across the landscape and the dinosaurs upon it, the light of their doom, of their end catching their eyes as it neared its journeys end. It came to rest at the end of the Preserve, the base of a large mountain face many kilometers away. The light was blinding, so painful that it continued to taunt and dance even after I had shut my eyes closed. Dancing in the black ocean of fear and crumpling defeat within me. For moments it was painfully silent as an enormous, nightmarish blossom of reddish black light built and expanded from the vaporizing mountain. Fires many hundreds, thousands, hundreds of thousands of meters in size sprang upward and then were cast forward by the disturbing breath of impact. Vaporized mountain rock, contorted screaming air, fire all mixing and pushing outward at supersonic speed from the epicenter which now glowed a furious, infernal molten red. The shockwave was visible, a shattering presence which bent and broke trees as it passed forward, throwing every single auburn colored leaf into beautiful, terrible storms. Autumn in a single second. The lakes were thrown forward and out of their bases. When it reached me, every pane of glass was shattered and I felt cuts across my body, a horrifically booming sound in my ears not even a fraction of what must have resounded down there in the valley. I crumpled forward, still watching as tears and blood ran down my cheeks, watching that vaporizing cloud gain more and more and more ground. Wildfires danced and grew, lightning strikes emanating from within the cloud. Within moments, less, the entire horrific holocaust was over. The unstoppable cloud of death swept over everything in its path, finally slamming into the base of the mountain below me and redoubling back upon itself. Within I could see dancing fire and molten ground, already rapidly cooling to an ashen and glassy mix. The animals were gone, the Preserve gone. Every last bit of it gone. I was evacuated soon after, rising up above the hellscape and away. It was contained by the mountains and valley crooks surrounding the impact, largely burned out within several weeks. When I returned, I was greeted by a husk. The forests were practically nonexistent, anything still standing barely a charcoal black skeletal sketch rained with ashen obsidian stone. Lodges and cabins had been completely annihilated, buried beneath that oncoming wall of oblivion. No living things remained. The dinosaurs were lost, entombed and exterminated once again. We looked for months, searching every cranny and nook and crag. Nothing. I still return there, sometimes. That hallowed ground. It is silent, not even the wind wishes to speak over this grave. I breath in the air, leaning against a stone. It is silent.

[to-learn-of-living]

SPACE WARS!

Episode XLV -  A New Hope?

A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away...

There are few movie series as iconic as Star Wars. With the original trilogy George Lucus showed the world that science fiction doesn't have to be B grade movies with laughable special 'effects'. He gave us a galaxy full of races, an ancient religion, and well crafted characters to both love and hate.

In the original movie we meet Luke Skywalker, a teenager with a boring life, who joins a group of rebels and goes on adventures after his family are murdered. The movies paint an overly simplistic view of who's good and bad - you’re on the 'light side’ or the ‘dark side'! We know that in A New Hope our rag tag team of rebels are ‘good’ while Darth Vader and his cronies are ‘bad’. It’s that simple.

But real life is never that simple.

When we read up on history, we look through our own lens of understanding. Our literature tells us that the good guy always wins, so we often apply that logic unconsciously onto the past.

Why did the allies win the 2nd world war? Because we had the right ideology and God on our side!

Why did the Europeans defeat the North American natives? Because they had the right ideology and God on their side!

Why is Australia the greatest country on earth? Because our culture is the best, and we were founded on Christian Values.

Now I know not everyone reading this believes in God, and certainly not everyone thinks Australia is the best country on earth (although if you’re honest, I'm willing to bet that in at least some point of your life you truly believed your own country was the greatest). But the same basic idea stands. We are so immersed in our own culture that we assume uncociously that it's the best possible culture. We look at our history and see that we were victorious in our battles, so logically, we are the good guys!

A week ago the majority of my country celebrated Australia day. However, a growing number of people each year refuse to take part, not because they are unpatriotic, but because of the disturbing history behind the day.

26 January marks the arrival of the 'First Fleet' of British settlers to Australian shores. This week I've seen many people posting articles about how Sir Arther Phillip, the first governor of New South Wales, brought Christianity to Australia in the form of Reverend Richard Johnso who ministered to the convicts and settlers. Johnso built the first school only 5 years later! Sir Arther Phillip built infrastructure and started agriculture. It many ways, if it wasn't for Phillip, modern Australia wouldn't exist! Looking at these facts in isolation, it's easy to see why many Australians see the First Fleet as a great moment of our history!

English: The Founding of Australia, 26 January 1788, by Captain Arthur Phillip R.N. Sydney Cove. Original oil sketch [1937] by Algernon Talmage R.A. ML 1222. source: wikimedia

But I’ve also seen many articles on the horrors of the first fleet. Phillip was quite peaceful towards the local Eora Aboriginals, and when he was speared because of a misunderstanding, he ordered his men not to retaliate. However, although not sanctioned by Phillip, many new settlers were outright hostile to the locals from the start. The colonists presence led to the suffering and deaths of many Eora people due to the introduction of smallpox and other diseases that the locals had no immunity to. While this didn't kill everyone, within two generations the Eura people's language, social structure and culture was lost. And that's without going into the brutality of Phillip's successors who orderd full scale irradication of Aboriginal people and/or forcible removal from their tribal land.

We like to paint history with 'heroes' and 'villains', But reality is a lot harder to define than Star Wars. If we look only at the facts, Phillip tried to help people like a Jedi, but his actions caused horrific consequences like a Sith. Don't get me wrong, he probably couldn't comprehend that his actions would lead to the extermination of entire people groups, but that's how history played out. He wasn't a hero or a villain, but exists somewhere in between like all the rest of us regular Joe's.

In Star Wars, like in history, we see a very one sided story. Throughout the series we only see life from the point of view of the republic/rebels/resistance - the 'light side' of the force. It tells a tale of how the galaxy was once a happy place, until an evil Sith manipulates a young Jedi to embrace the dark side and enforce a dictatorship. But let me tell you the story from another point of view.

You live in a galaxy with a so called government, but only one member of each planet can be elected to the senate, and even then only the important planets get any real say in proceedings. The races who own many planets get many seats, while the poor races who share a planet with others may get none.

Crime runs rampant in the outer planets, much like the 'verse of Firefly. Sure there's a galactic police force of amazing space wizards known as Jedi, but there are too few of them to really control the entire galaxy. If you come from an 'unimportant' planet you could wait months for a Jedi to turn up, and even then their roles are so politicised that they may not even be allowed to help you.

Suddenly a member of the senate rises from the ranks. He represents an old marginalised alternate religion. He seizes power and overthrows the old system of government. He implements a proper police force (storm troopers) on every planet. Their methods might be a little harsh, but you can't argue with the results!

Everything’s going well for you for a while, until the terrorists begin their attacks.  No one really takes them seriously, at least not until one cell blows up a space station as big as a moon, containing millions of police, business owners, janitors, cooks, and many others. You had friends murdered in their cowardly attack.

The terrorists get more and more daring until they eventually break into Palpatines’ chamber and murder him in cold blood - at least that's what Jenny heard from her cousins friend... They attempt to start a new government. But successful rebellions usually cause political turmoil. In fact the fall out confirms that you were far better off under the emperor, especially because crime is now running rampant!

Then you hear about a resistance group called ‘The First Order’. They seek to restore the empire like in the good old days. They're even trying to reinstate the police force. Maybe you should encourage your firstborn son Flynn to enlist...

…Ok so it’s a big stretch to forgive all of that murder Darth Vader and Siddious committed, but in a gigantic galaxy there would be very few people who’ve actually met either of them. Their actions would probably turn into urban myths. 'Eat your vegetables dear or Darth Vader will get you'.

source: Google Images

The weird thing about Star Wars, and a lot of stories for that matter, is that we applaud the same behaviour that we despise in real life. We are happy when the Jedi kill people and blow stuff up, because they’re the good guys. But we can’t tolerate that behaviour in the Sith... or any rebellious behaviour from liberals/conservatives/democrats/republicans/Christians/atheists/Muslims/ anyone who is not like us.

‘If I can't see the problem, it doesn't exist. Therefore the other side are just being babies who need to get over themselves!’

For many conservatives, Obama was an evil dictator who created a race problem in America by pandering to each passing fancy of the black community. But to many African-Americans, Obamas presidency was a huge disappointment, and they feel like the systematic racism in America is just as bad now as it was 8 years ago.

To some, Donald Trump a saviour who is restoring goodness and order to America. To others he is akin to hitler, tearing apart the hard won rights of minorities everywhere. Both sides shout at the other ‘you don't understand the facts'.

But just because you can't see a problem, it doesn't mean it’s not real.

I've written before about how our inbuilt biases shape our view of the world, and shared pieces showing reality from both sides. I’ve also written a piece pleading with liberals to not let their fear turn into hate. These are all problems that need to be addressed. But this week I'm far more disappointed in conservative Christians.

Let me be clear, I know the women's march contained fowl language and violence from some members. I know you are scared about the security of your nation. I know you think we should celebrate the arrival of the first fleet. But by complaining about dissenters without trying to understand why they're so upset, you fail to show them the love of Christ.

So what if they're violent/angry/treat you badly. It's Christians who are mandated to live lives of love, not anyone else! Most people only turn to extreme measures when they've given up hope of their problems being resolved any other way.

This week I saw Christians complain that the 'woman's march doesn't represent them’, instead of sitting with hurting women and trying to understand what they're going through. I heard Christians shout at indigenous Australians for being ‘unpatriotic’, instead of validating their hurt and seeking forgiveness for their ansestors atrocities. I saw Christians who have been demanding the government adapt a 'biblical view' on gay marriage and abortion for years, despite there being no direct scripture on those subjects, do a 180 degree turn and say helping refugees is ‘not a biblical issue’. In reality almost every book of the bible talks of taking care of immigrants and/or careing for widows and orphans, and the Holy Family were refugees in Egypt!

Many Christians point to the story of Sodom and Gemorrah as 'proof' that same-sex practices are bad. But read the story again - nowhere in Genesis does God ever say what the sin of those cities was. But God tells us Sodem's sin when he compares Jerusalem to an adulterous spouse in Ezekiel. I'm ashamed to say this could easily have been written to either American or Australian Christians this week.

“Your older sister was Samaria, who lived to the north of you with her daughters; and your younger sister, who lived to the south of you with her daughters, was Sodom. You not only followed their ways and copied their detestable practices, but in all your ways you soon became more depraved than they. As surely as I live, declares the Sovereign Lord, your sister Sodom and her daughters never did what you and your daughters have done.

Now this was the sin of your sister Sodom: She and her daughters were arrogant, overfed and unconcerned; they did not help the poor and needy. They were haughty and did detestable things before me. Therefore I did away with them as you have seen. Samaria did not commit half the sins you did. You have done more detestable things than they, and have made your sisters seem righteous by all these things you have done. Bear your disgrace, for you have furnished some justification for your sisters. Because your sins were more vile than theirs, they appear more righteous than you. So then, be ashamed and bear your disgrace, for you have made your sisters appear righteous.”

Ezekiel 16:46-52 (NIV) - emphases mine

But in the darkness this week, I've seen the love of Christ shine in different ways. Like these lawyers who rushed to airports to provide free legal services to travels detained even though they had legal visas. Like Freemantle in Western Australia, who's council chose to move their Australia Day celebrations in an attempt to include everyone. Like my friends who are pro-life Christians, yet chose to march in solidarity with hurting women, because they wanted to show God's love.

I want to finish by sharing the words of a friend of mine. You can read his whole post here.

"I did not march in protest of anything, I marched to show love, support and compassion with those who feel none. I marched because I wanted my daughter to know that she could participate in a peaceful march like this, without hate or violence, and stand with those who hurt. We don’t have to share peoples convictions, beliefs or lifestyle, but it doesn’t mean that we, the church, shouldn’t be in the same spaces that these people are in, standing side by side with people who don’t look like us, act like us, talk like us or believe like us. In fact, those are the places we need to be.

The event was beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. There were signs of hope, raised beside signs of hatred and anger. There were people cheering and full of joy, standing beside others who were hopeless and tearing others down. There were things that I was proud for my daughter to see, and things that I wish she never had to see, or see again. There were people booing Trump for his policies, asking for a better America, and highlighting their conviction of pro choice over pro life. It was a beautiful mix of love and hate that Jesus was right in the middle of, and that my daughter and I were in the middle of as well."

[keywestlou]

MORNING STEW #21

The blog you never got to read yesterday (because I lost it) has been combined with today’s material. Ergo, instead of Act of War, the title is Morning Stew #21.

The Saudi oil field bombing now pretty much acknowledged to have been perpetrated by Iran. Pompeo was quick to label the attack as an “act of war.” Trump followed up in similar terms. However initially refused to blame Iran. He took a wait and see attitude.

The victim Saudi Arabia blamed no one. Not even to today. The reason being the Saudis do not want a war with Iran. The Saudis believe Iran would be the victor.

Trump and Pompeo have backed off a bit. Now seeking a coalition to punish Iran. Don’t want to go it alone.

Robert Gates said “Saudi Arabia wants to fight to the last American.” New York Times columnist Nicholas Kristof wrote, “We’re not Saudi Arabia’s mercenaries…..This is not our fight. Saudi Arabia has its own fighter aircraft and missiles; no need for it to fight to the last American.”

Hurricanes all over the place! Not sure how many so far this year. Some say 6, others 10. I suspect the difference is the 10 number combines tropical storms with hurricanes.

The 10 number goes back to June.

Not a good year. Hurricane season does not end till November 30.

Humberto still out there. A category 3. Will not affect U.S. Imelda only a tropic disturbance and flooding Texas streets. Waist high water.

Jerry now a category 2. Off the Leeward Islands. After that, will head north and then northeast. Will not affect the U.S.

Syracuse/Western Michigan tomorrow. My team is suffering! Was not supposed to this year after its 10-3 record last year. Already have lost 2 games. Destroyed by #1 ranked Clemson last saturday.

Western Michigan a 6 point favorite.

I have no opinion.

I continue to be pissed with Comcast. The leagues now have their own cable lines. The ACC this year ACCN. ACCN makes a deal with a major company. In this instance, it is Comcast. Don’t ask me why.

Comcast and ACCN are in a war over money. In the meantime, I cannot watch Syracuse play unless I go to a bar. I prefer watching the games from the comfort of my home. Especially since I no longer drink.

Latinos a fast growing population in the U.S. Now 25 percent of the population. Adds up to 58.9 million persons.

Latinos are responsible for half of U.S. immigrants since 2000. They are the second fastest growing racial or ethnic group.

The increase is slowing down. Two reasons. Fewer Latinos entering through Mexico. The other, Latino women are having fewer children.

This Trump thing where he may have said something over the phone to another national leader that was not proper is interesting. A mess to figure out. The best guess at the moment is it involves the Ukraine and Biden’s son. Corruption in a business deal.

Rudy Giuliani involved.

Hopefully, there will be a final determination and sooner rather than later. Though I doubt the time sequence.

I have not addressed robots lately. An interesting development to report.

Basically, robots are taking over human jobs. Humans will have to be retrained to do other work.

The issue at the moment is how robots will treat humans. Badly.

An expert says “like ants.”

Geordie Rose is founder of the Canadian firm D-Wave. His company studies what life will be living with robots. Not a joking matter. Major corporations and the U.S. government among his customers.

Rose says, “Tech developers are summoning entities into existence which will have the same indifference to humans as we have towards ants…..They are not gonna be like us, they’re gonna be aliens…..smarter than every single person in a way that we can’t comprehend…..The word demons doesn’t even capture the true scope of what will happen.”

The transformation in ongoing now. Yet nations and people are basically unaware.  Rose claims people are too distracted bickering about politics and will be left behind as a slave class or, according to some, exterminated completely.”

Sounds extreme.

Whatever, it sets me to thinking about Planet of the Apes movies.

The homeless are having an impact even upon little children. It appears instead of playing cops and robbers or cowboys and Indians, some are now playing homeless.

A woman called into Russ Limbaugh recently. Lives in Los Angeles. Three of her grandchildren playing in the backyard. She heard a ruckus. Went out and asked what was going on. Was told…..playing homeless.

Two boys 4 and 5, a girl 9.

They had a small wheelbarrow toy. Had it filled with clothes. The girl was wearing gloves. Asked why, she said because she had seen homeless persons wearing them.

A singular event or something growing. Though part of life, homelessness not healthy for the children of today to view and copy. Makes it appear homelessness is ok.

Today a world wide event. Global Climate Strike. Everywhere!

In the U.S., Amazon is participating. One thousand five hundred Amazon employees will not show up to work today in protest of climate change. They want Amazon to have zero environmental impact. They want the world’s carbon impact to be zero.

Amazon CEO Jeff Bezos announced yesterday that Amazon will follow the Paris climate agreement. Even more, Amazon will utilize 100,000 electric delivery vans beginning next year. EV startup Rivians.

Amazon employees said not enough. Wow! Don’t know what more could be wanted at this point. Going to be interesting to see how this works out with Amazon and corporations world wide.

I occasionally observe some people walk with God on their side. However, it does not fit the following. Though considerable luck is involved.

Movie star Kevin Spacey has had 2 sexual molestation charges filed against him.

One involves a California civil suit. In the case’s discovery stage. The plaintiff who claimed Spacey molested him died.

End of the lawsuit as a practical matter. The estate could continue it. However, most difficult to win without the wronged party available to testify.

The other case a criminal one in Massachusetts. Nantucket to be precise. The case was withdrawn after the teenage bus boy allegedly molested stopped cooperating with authorities.

Stacy fortunate. Very fortunate. I suggest he cease his philandering. He missed the bullet twice. May not the next.

Mass shootings a definite problem. Must be dealt with! This year perhaps some progress will be made.

Last month alone 53 persons were killed as a result of mass shootings.

There are many things that cause death in significant numbers. We never think about them. Obesity for example. Forty thousand died of obesity last month.

How we deal with the obesity problem, I know not. Be aware the significance of the problem, however.

Oxitec. When is Oxitec going to learn?

Oxitec manufacturers something that when inhaled by certain mosquitoes will prevent their offspring from surviving. The problem is the concept has yet to work.

We fought its use hard 3 years ago when the County wanted to permit Oxitec to experiment in the lower keys. Over my Key Haven home at the time and over Key West.

A public uproar ensued. It took a public vote to kill the test project.

Since that time, Oxitec has further studied an improved product they manufactured. A major test in Brazil. An absolute failure!

Oxitec is back in the keys. Trying to sell our Mosquito Control Board on trying the new product.

Hopefully the Board will have learned and conclude any discussions.

I sometimes wonder to what depth the Mosquito Control Board investigates these situations. All that glitters is not gold!

Enjoy your day!

  MORNING STEW #21 was originally published on Key West Lou

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What time do you wake up most mornings? Honestly, ever since I’ve been out of school I have been sleeping in until like 10:30am and it has been absolutely wonderful. 

Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so? I absolutely love my job. It is by far my favourite job that I’ve ever had and sometimes it doesn’t even feel like work. It just feels like I get to hang out with my friends and get paid for it. 

What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately? My applications. 

Do you have any tattoos? Do you want any/more? I have my one little Death Cab tribute tattoo on my left inside wrist. I can think of some hypothetical tattoos that I like to daydream about but I don’t know if the motivation is strong enough to actually go back and get more. Plus I’m scared of the pain. 

What is your favourite Christmas movie? Chevy Chase Christmas Vacation. Duh. 

What do you get complimented on the most? My eye colour or oddly enough my butt. 

If money was no object, where would you move to? Vancouver or Victoria. 

Do you believe in soul mates? No. The idea is too limiting for me, and that makes it terrifying. What if you let your soul mate go? What if it doesn’t work out?  

If you could wake up tomorrow and be fluent in 3 additional languages, which would you choose? French, Japanese, and OooOoohohoo I don’t even know. Maybe Arabic because I feel like that would allow me to understand a lot of the news better. 

Would you rather go on a relaxing beach type holiday to the Caribbean, a cultural holiday to Japan or an adventure packed holiday to South Africa? Cultural holiday to Japan all. the. WAY. 

Who are the three most important people in your life? Me, myself, and I. (LOOOOL) 

Would you sacrifice everything for love? LOL no

Have you ever been in love? Yes yes. It was wonderful at the time!!! :) 

Where do you see yourself in 10 years? Hopefully not where I am now. 

Are you scared of the future? A little bit right now because things are currently in limbo. But I’m also excited and energized by that fact. 

What’s the last reason you held someone’s hand? I can’t really remember. 

Are you lonely? Be honest. A little bit. I miss having sex lmao and having someone to spend the night always made me sleep better and feel better. But I have my friends :) 

Listening to anything? Nooo. My roommates are sleeping and I don’t want to awaken my precious angel babes.  

Last thing said out loud? "Bye!! I love you all!” 

Last thing bought? My staff meal at work? And before that, a shirt and a sweater from American Eagle. 

Last text received? “Much love to u always xoxoxoxoxoxoxo” from Sydney~ 

What has made you happy today? Ohmygod so much!!!! I got invited to brunch and got to have lols. I ran 5km on the treadmill and even though I HATE treadmills my time wasn’t all that bad, I got a nice new sweater in my favourite colour, I made some decent money at work, I got asked out on a date and a cute guy that I like is going to teach me how to make pasta, we made plans to go to Banff to party... LOTS OF GOOD THINGS. 

What has made you sad today? I had a 1-on-1 session at my gym today that I got for free when I signed up and my form on a lot of exercises that I used to SLAY is sooo bad. 

What room are you in? My room! 

Last thing eaten? Cheetos~~~~*~~*~~ YES

Last thing you drank? Good old fashioned H20. 

Rate your day on a scale of 1-10: Honestly like 8. It was a wonderful day. 

What websites do you have bookmarked? Just a whole lot of recipes. Some interesting reddit threads that I’ve come across. Job postings. And rent postings from back in the summer. 

Last reason you kissed someone? Because I wanted to! :) 

Do you have an iPhone? Yeah. 

Do you bite your nails? If so, do you wish you didn’t? Hahahahahahhah omg yes I do. So badly. I desperately wish I didn’t but I don’t even notice it when it’s happening anymore. 

Last pair of shoes you wore? My salt-stained navy blue H&M booties. Love those things. 

Last movie you watched? Perks of Being a Wallflower with Emma :) 

Name something you’re grateful for. My job! 

Are you wearing anything that’s not yours? Nooope. 

Do you shop at Urban Outfitters? Sometimes if I’m feeling spend-y. 

Have you ever experienced an earthquake? Nope nope. 

Has anyone ever tried stealing your boyfriend/girlfriend away? I don’t really know how to answer this. There were definitely lots of girls that hit on my ex but in retrospect I don’t know if they knew he wasn’t single at the time so were they really trying to STEAL him or just GET him? 

If you were in the hospital, do you think any of your exes would come see you? Maybe if I was like... on my death bed. For any other reason, probably not. Not really necessary. 

Would you rather read an entire encyclopedia or an entire dictionary? Definitely an encyclopedia.

What do you have in common with the last person you kissed? Mmmm lots. We both like music festivals, we both were in the same program at school, we are the same age... idk. Lots. 

Are you doing anything important tomorrow? Hell no. It’s going to be a lovely day of doing nothing. 

Would you move out your house if you could right now? I don’t know how to answer this one. I LOVE WHERE I LIVE so so much and it’s perfect in every single way it’s just too BIG for our current needs and our utility bills are too high. But the hassle of moving for that reason makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry. 

Can you whistle? Oh yeah. 

Do you like being called baby? By certain people. 

Would you rather drink orange juice or milk? Orange juice all the WAY. 

Do you wish you could kiss someone right now? VERY BADLY. 

Do you hate when people interrupt your sleep? Honestly it happens so rarely I don’t even know. 

Do you miss the way things used to be between you and someone else? Yessss. 

What do you think of your best friend’s ex? Quite literally the most manipulative, selfish, idiotic piece of fucking SHIT that has ever walked this earth and he is EXTREMELY damaging to her life and self worth and mental health and if I could personally exterminate one person from this planet it would, no doubt, be him. 

How long would you wait to say “I love you” in a relationship? A long time. I want to make sure it’s not superficial and I want to make sure it’s not going to scare him. I’d probably feel like I was in love a few months before I’d actually tell my partner. It took me about eight months in my last relationship. 

If you had a child at the age you’re at now, do you think you’d be a good parent? I would be an absolutely terrible parent. 

When was the last time you felt tempted to do something you shouldn’t? Did you do it? HAHA. The other night whilst at work. I almost went through with it but chickened out because I was like “Megan you are bein CRAZY girl” 

What year was it five years before you were born? 1989! 

What holiday is closest to your birthday? Easter. 

What is your name if you spell it without the letters “e” “y” and “t”? Mgan Macka.

What year is the oldest car you or your family owns? Mine for sure. It’s a 2004. 

Who is your 9th contact in your phone? Alina! 

Have you had your birthday yet this year? No! It’s coming up!!! I am VERY excited. 

Why did you go to the doctor the last time you went? I wanted to discuss getting some kind of prescription skincare routine going. 

How old will you be in 5 years? 27. 

Where was the last place you went? Sara and Alex’s. 

Is there a mirror in your room? There are many. 

Do you have a twin? No! I have a birthday twin but we’re two years apart. 

Who was the last person that borrowed money from you? I don’t recall. I’m pretty fucking stingy about my money so I’m not usually the one people come to for a loan. 

The last time you went out to eat, what did you order? This morning I went to brunch with my pals and I got an eggs benedict with kale, garlic, and mushrooms. 

The last text message you sent to someone else - what did it say? I said, “Thanks buddy!!! Hope you get some sleep love you lots!” 

Would you be prepared to do a job that you didn’t like, if it paid well? See: my internship this summer.  

If you hair is straight, do you ever wish it was curly? If your hair is curly, do you ever wish it was straight? I wish every single day that my hair was curlier or wavier. 

Is there someone that dislikes you for no reason? There are tons of people who dislike me with pretty good reasons. 

When did you last see an attractive member of your preferred sex? Did you speak to them? Do you think you’ll see them again? A few hours ago. I definitely spoke to him and I will definitely see him again in the very near future. 

Do you tend to have a lot of those moments where you forget something that you wanted to say? Sorta. 

How long have you known the last person you text messaged? Over ten years now! WHAAAAT that’s wild. 

What exactly did you eat for your last meal? Have you any idea what you’ll be eating your next meal? I had a sandwich at work. Next meal is breakfast and I’m kinda LOW in the food department so we’re gonna probably be dining on some OATMEAL tomorrow morning. WONDERFUL. 

When will you next go for a night out? HmmMMm not too sure actually. This weekend and next weekend aren’t really going to be “night out” kind of things. 

Are you still with the person you fell hardest for? If not, do you still care for each other? No, not with him. I care about him in the sense that I hope he is doing well but want absolutely nothing to do with him. 

If you found out that your ex was having a child with someone else, how would you feel about that? It would honestly probably make me feel relieved because that is not something I’d want for myself at ALL so I’d feel more solidified in knowing we don’t belong together at all. 

Is there someone from your past that you think about from time to time, and you wonder what might have happened to them? Why don’t you see/speak to that person anymore? HAHA YES ALL THE TIME. I don’t see or speak to this person because I broke it off with him to get back together with someone else like two years ago and it was super lame of me, and he is now very happy with a new partner and he deserves that happiness and she’s not my biggest fan so I just sort of try to fuck off and silently curse myself for making that mistake. 

On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you with your life? Why? 8. I’m just very grateful for what I have and what is coming up in my life.

What do you remember about your first kiss? I was on cloud NINE after it happened and I couldn’t stop smiling or thinking about him. It was at a skating rink. It was anticipated throughout the whole day and I couldn’t wait. The guy was a cutie pie. 

Have you ever said that you’d never do something, and then done it? Lots. Drugs, get a tattoo, get a piercing. Never hold me to any “I’d never do x” promise. 

Do you have romantic feelings for the last person you texted? I wish I had romantic feelings for Sydney but as she puts it we are tragically heterosexual. 

Have you ever thought about what you might call your children? Or, if you already have children, what are their names? Sometimes, yes. 

When did you last speak to one of your siblings? What did you talk about? I saw Scott last weekend for a bit. We had a drunken confessional conversation at like 3am in our kitchen until my Dad made us go to sleep. And then the next morning we just had lols until he and Rie went out for a hike. 

How many times have you had your heart broken? Just one. 

Where is the person you would most like to see, or most like to be with? At his house, probably sleeping. 

Think of the person you fell hardest for. How many people has he/she been in love with, besides you? I don’t know. I’d like to say nobody else but I don’t know if that’s true. 

Find 5 people on your Facebook friends list, whose name begins with K. Who are these people, and how did you meet them? Kerri M: I work with her at Famoso!  Kelly G: She is a friend of Ali’s who Ali and Geoff met when traveling in Peru. She came to visit Ali this summer for a bit and Ali introduced us because we went to Stampede together to see July Talk. She’s wild.  Khalid A: He is a friend of my ex’s.  Kelsey R: She is a former track teammate of mine from back in the day and also works at the place I now volunteer.  Kennedy R: She is my ex’s younger sister’s friend and used to a date a girl that I work with. 

Who did you last say “I love you” to? Did that person say it back? LOL. Sydney. And yes. She did. 

What do your last 5 Facebook messages say and who are they from? Oh god. My most recent is from Jess (my manager) because I forgot to put my tip outs in the appropriate bags tonight and was just fixing that up, and then it’s...  Girl’s group chat planning our upcoming getaway to Banff.  Work group chat switching shifts.  The friend of the dude I creepily added on Facebook after meeting him on the train trying to get in there and failing.  And Lauren sent me a lovely message on BellLetsTalk day!!!!! <3