#What To Say To An Ex U Want Ba

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better than revenge #PG10

PAIRING: pierre gasly x reader! Charles leclerc x reader! Platonic

SUMMARY: a part 2 of set fire to the rain, what happens when pierre gasly comes back running in to your life after all the heart break that he caused you? will you take him back?

WARNING: angst & fluff

FC: roses_are_rose on ig

you pointed to where kika was standing, both kika and your eyes were wide, taken aback from pierre’s statement.

Charles, was steps behind from pierre and approached you making sure you’re okay not knowing the current situation were super tense.

you broke the silence, “pierre, let’s talk”

Charles walked away with kika, while you dragged pierre into your hotel room that was shared with Lissie.

You offered him a glass of water, “room’s a mess, but we need to talk about what happened. Kika told me the situation between both of you, care to explain?”

“I missed you, when you left, charles and i had a talk about our relationship, and i have slowly started to regret how i was neglecting you during our relationship.

Kika’s and I relationship were never meant to be serious, but eventually it had and every night i was still thinking about us. How we would have been right now, if i didn’t neglect our relationship.”

both of you sat side by side, and you had failed to noticed how pierre was tearing up until u felt drops of tears fell on to the back of your palm, that was caressing his hands (to be fair you were trying to calm him down)

Lissie had told you multiple times that you were just too kind for anyone in this world, and this gesture speaks a-lot because no women on this earth would be in this situation with their nasty ex-boyfriend

you were out of words because you’ve never realised you would be encountering this experience that was usually seen in televisions.

To be fair, pierre made you realise that your life was much more worthy. 70% of the moments that was spend with him was what made you the women you are today.

you had remembered times when you were close to giving up on your education but pierre took his time off schedule, he would face-time after the weekend races to accompany you pull an all nighter, you’ll wake up with breakfast in bed, assurance were given to you without being asked.

eventually, you let out a huge sigh

“Pierre, there’s a saying that ‘your first love is hard to forget because it leaves an 'imprint' on the sensory areas of your brain’ and i’ve always thought of you, i tried going on dates after our separate ways, but i couldn’t just give it a try because you’re always there, do you know that?”

you looked up at him, pierre wanted to say something but you weren’t finished

“i’ll think, oh pierre would have done this for me? oh pierre would have loved this? every single time a guy tried to do moves on me. Eventually, i got rid of that thought after 7 months. Well yeah, still no boyfriend but i’m happy that you were my first love. You’ve taught me so much and that so much was things that i could’ve only known because i was with you.”

you felt a tear roll down your cheeks, maybe tomorrow when you’re awake you’ll regret opening up your heart to someone who once had it.

“I’m sorry, y/n, i really am, but let’s just try for the second time and if this really does not work out, i’ll leave you alone”

that was real selfish of him, because here he is begging you to take him back but kika’s out there suffering the same heartbreak you were in 7 months ago.

“solve things out with kika, pierre. You both were in love too, special memories were made too, assure her and let her know what you’re really feeling and maybe get back to me?”

you smiled at pierre and he nodded his head, while walking himself out of your hotel room

You’ve finally reached the imola grand prix, and here you are with Lissie and charles in charles driving room. With you always being around Charles, ferrari allowed you full access.

“have you thought on what you’re gonna say to pierre?” charles asked you while you were pacing back and forth in his driver room

“no, charles! i’m scared what if he had the talk with kika, and suddenly wants me back in his life? i can’t just drop the 7 months that i was suffering because of him, just because i loved him too much”

your head was in your hand because it has been on your mind ever-since the conversation with pierre happened

charles knew how in love with pierre you were, when both of you had freshly broken up you’ll get drunk most of the time and would lead to you drunk calling him, most of the time crying.

Pierre came to charles multiple times regarding this exact situation, as much as charles hates that pierre was the cause of your huge heart break but pierre and you was his closest friends and he knew the impact pierre had on you.

“Well, just accept him back in to your life then”

Lissie added on, “if you’re thinking about it, that speaks alot. You clearly want him back, as much as i disliked him, if he makes you happy, we’re happy with it”

“Or you could just find another driver to date….?” now this was a voice you would not expect to join the conversation you’re having

“Carlos…? How much did you heard?”

“Not much, but walls are thin here, i didn’t know you ended things with pierre that way, but what i was saying is, there are other people here who would die to be with you and would treat you much better than how pierre treated you, but why do you care anyways? i’m pretty sure the pierre’s impact is still on to you”

Carlos and Charles laughs, which made you rolled your eyes

“i don’t know guys, will it be healthy for me? that’s the question i’ve been asking”

“not all relationships are supposed to be healthy for you. yeah there may be ups and downs, but that’s the purpose of a relationship isn’t it? Loving each other even through tough times”

Lissie sat up and assured you, with charles and carlos agreeing Lissie’s statement

Maybe you’ve already made up your mind, but you just needed extra assurance from your closest friends

“Okay that’s all for the sappy talk, we need to go now, they’re finding for us charles, drivers meeting happens in 5 minutes and we need to be there” Carlos said his greetings and pulled charles along with him not giving him a chance to give his goodbyes to Lissie and i

While waiting for Lissie to finish her interview session with the redbull drivers, you were just walking to a nearby bar to get a drink, because it sure as hell is a hot day, and a drink right now would sound so fucking good.

what makes it worse, is the choice of clothing you’re wearing, you’re really not a fan of revealing clothes but Lissie had decided to dress you up, as after the qualifying rounds, she had made plans for both of you to go to a nearby club with some other friends.

Normally you’d have a blazer or a thin jacket as a cover-up but you had forgotten to picked up ur blazer from charles drivers room and you can’t access it without him being beside you as you didn’t really had a pass.

“here” as soon as you spoke about your blazer, you were handed a black blazer by someone

“than- pierre..?” you were slightly confused because he weren’t supposed to be here knowing there’ll be a debrief anytime in 15 mins, but here he is sitting beside you.

“charles handed me your blazer and told me you’d b here, he kinda send me away to talk to you” he shrugged, while ordering a drink.

you just gave him a smile, because you weren’t sure if you should bring up the conversation about him and kika knowing it’ll tensed up both of you.

“kika and i had the talk, i know you’re really curious about that” his seat was turned to face you, and he did the same to you, rotating your seat.

“I’ll just let you know how it goes and how i truly feel, it’ll be your choice if you are willing to accept me back into your life. I know how hard it is for you and i’m not rushing you to give me an answer, y/n.”

“go on” you gave him a nod

“kika was the one that knocked some sense into me, she told me that she could still see that i still had my heart reserved for you. Honestly, I’ve never notice it. I apologised to her that even-though we were in a relationship my heart didn’t belong to her. I felt bad of course, because at first i truly liked her but the constant reminders of you were just so hard to shrugged it off. When u came to Miami Grand Prix, i didn’t expect you’ll be there because charles told me you were busy and you guys barely communicated. I kinda bribed him to get regular updates about you” pierre laughed

“what did u bribe him with..?” you were as confused as ever, if charles needed anything he would have just gotten it, because this man has got to be the richest one in your friendship.

“advice on his fashion sense” well this clicked so well because lately Charles have been asking fashion advices from you, online shopping regularly, even having packages shipped to you just in case fans found out about his home address

“from you? i’m amazed, pierre. I was the one who had to pick your clothes for our dates, i’m glad you’ve upgraded that wardrobe of yours”

we both had more conversations but i had a question that i was much more curious

“did she went home?” changing the topic

“no, she’s still here, her friends are here so she went with them instead. I have asked her to keep the paddock passes because i felt bad”

you nodded ur head, it’s great that she’s still here, i wouldn’t want things to be awkward especially after the elevator incident

“We’ll start slow, we’ll then see how it goes” you said softly, you were honestly scared of how this will go because if pierre had done this to you once, what is stopping him to do it twice?

“That’s fine to me, y/n. I’ll prove to you that im worthy of getting the second chance” he hugged you

The hug still felt awkward and tense because it’s been quite a while since Pierre and you shared a hug

“You’re not interviewing anyone? I’ll probably have to be back soon in 10 minutes? Wanna walk back together?”

you shook your head, signalling him that you did not have any interviews today but agreed on walking back to the paddock together

“Lissie’s in-charge today, i’m interviewing aston martin’s team, mclaren’s team and your team though tomorrow, before and after the race. Guess you’ll need to see my face again, hope you don’t get sick of me!”

both of you shared a laugh, “i would never get sick of your face” pierre mumbled softly, which led to you not hearing anything

when both of you reached your respective destination, you gave your goodbyes and proceed to assist Lissie and the team to pack things up

Lissie noticed your existence, “everything alright?”

you gave her a thumbs up and continued your task.

you were drunk.

Things escalated so quickly, it’s not even 3 hours in and you were drunk.

It wasn’t drunk drunk but DRUNK DRUNK.

What’s crazy is you were never a light weight, but for some reason the empty stomach really made you feel like a light weight, because here you are seated on your table while the others were on the dance floor

You’ve never noticed your driver friends walking in to the exact same club in the next booth, because whenever you are drinking, all thoughts are only on you

Other than being drunk, you’re stubborn, because here you are chugging 4 shots of vodka and walking straight to the dance floor

“What’s gotten her, isn’t she the strongest amongst us?” Amanda, Lissie’s friend shouted through the music

Lissie signaled her a love sign which made the whole group did an “OOH”.

“hey pretty girl, slow down on those shots, will you?” You felt someone slid their arms on your wrist but was too confused on who it was with the blurred vision you had

But you do recognise this accent and voice

“Chaaaaaarles, what ar you doooing here?” holding on to him for stability

“What you’re here for too, how much did she drank?” Charles asked Lissie

Lissie didn’t know if she should be lying to Charles with the alcohol intake you had or tell the truth, so she chose the latter option because charles was one scary man when he’s angry

“More than you can imagine”

Charles rolled his eyes and walked you back to the booth, except this wasn’t the girls booth but it’s the guys and they were shocked seeing you here drunk

Obviously not a common sight for them

“y/n?” pierre stood up walking to both you and charles

“hey hahahahaha, fuck i’m so light headed right now” head in your hands, whining which made the guys laughed

“not the strongest soldier anymore?” george snickered

“shut the fuck up, i think the dude did something to the drink it’s so fucking strong, it’s so insane” you leaned your head back not knowing it landed on Lance’s shoulder

“What did you ask for?” Carlos questioned you

“the stongest in the house and i did a lot a LOT of shots, fuck i have an interview too, with YOU” you gave carlos his answer and pointed to Lance signifying that you’re doing an interview with him tomorrow probably hangover.

“well that’s probably why you’re like this, sherlock holmes” Lando added on

“drink up” pierre handed you a glass of water, which you gulped down in a second

“easy” Lance soothed your back, and this action made Pierre tensed which charles happened to notice and can’t help but to smile

“thaaaanks sweet boy, other girls would die to be me right now” you laughed, half conscious half drunk

“drinking more?” george asked

you nodded your head while charles and pierre shouted a hard NO

“unfair, i’m doing great right now, i think…?” you gave them a pout which led them to laugh loudly

“you’re crazy y/n, just don’t turn up to the paddock with those huge shades of yours that you used to do back then” Lando commented which made you rolled your eyes

“They made me feel like a bad bitch, maybe you need a pair too so you’re able to feel the bad bitch vibes”

“I don’t like drunk y/n, she’s snarky as hell” pierre taken aback by the comment you gave to lando

“that’s on you babes, honesty is the best policy!!!!!!!! Oh deaaaaaaaaaar, i need to fucking puke, i’m never drinking” you stood up and dragged pierre along with you because right now, he’s just standing in front of you

“Lovebirds” carlos rolled his eyes, but deep down it kinda warmed the other guys because they knew both of you were each other end games

you wake up in a hotel bed, but you are unsure if you made it home safely, until you heard songs from the kitchen area.

now it clicked you, this isn’t your hotel room, hell nah, you refuse to believe you had just done a one night stand but when you got out of bed you’ve realise, you were clothed head to toe

an oversize black tee with basketball shorts that was clearly to long and big for your small size.

Oh my god, how drunk were you to be in a strangers bed

You walked slowly to the kitchen area only to recognise the guy’s back view and it slowly made your heart warm because you have never thought you’ll face this back view again

Pierre heard your footsteps, “awake? any hangovers?”

you shook, well this was the best part because no matter how much you drink, hangover weren’t really your thing

“feeling anything?” he stood in-front of you hands on your head which made your head lean on to his torso

pierre felt so full knowing you’re here in front of him, the view he has been dying to wake up to

“just hungry, how did i end up here?”

“charles a room away, but he’s sharing with Arthur and you’re quite noisy when you are drunk so i opted to bring you in my room instead.

We couldn’t find Lissie anywhere, apparently she went home at 6AM because she knocked charles door frantically thinking you were lost, she’s dead asleep though in your room. Must be a great night for both of you”

he chuckled playing with your hair

“great night, yes? for me and lissie? maybe. Did you cook? Something smells good, i don’t know if it’s you or the food”

“it’s the food, it might be me too, you’re the stinky one here” pierre guided you to the kitchen, seeing the pancakes and omelette placed right in-front of you

“i don’t mind having a taste of both but the pancakes are screaming out to me more, sorry pierre”

this was an out of pocket comment, because to Pierre you were someone shy but through out the night, he realised that you were getting super bold with everything

“this isn’t very friends of us, huh” you commented

“so why not let’s give it a try?” you added

pierre stood up in shocked and walked right over to kiss you there and that

“oh i fucking miss this, miss everything about you baby”

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y/nviews they droved off without me, I’m literally steve in the relationship

charles_leclerc YOU WERE WITH LISSIE

y/nviews could’ve offered?????????? smh and you call me your best friend? im offended

pierregasly there wasn’t any space, did u wanted to sit on my lap, dearest steve?

y/nviews that wasn’t a problem last night

georgerussell63 timeout stop ruining this child pierregasly y/nviews

gaslaaaayed wait…. R they back together??????? FINALLY?

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pgaslighter landonorris they’re a quadrant right now, watch out they’re coming for your spot 🫵🏻

landonorris oh hell no lissiemackintosh GET OUT! That was my spot originally 🤗

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pierregasly she refused to get a license just so she’ll be my passenger princess forever, i’m loving it though

charles_leclerc she’s lying, she has one but don’t risk yourself

y/nviews this is false information, i’ve failed it at least 2 times

carlossainz55 i’ll teach you, i think im a great driver 🤭

pierregasly no one’s teaching my gf except me

y/nviews naw that shucks, i was srs about it though carlossainz55

lance_stroll was about to give a like until i saw your face, I’m taking it back y/nviews

y/nviews i love my fans 😓

y/nviews i love you forever my baguette 🥖

pierregasly …..

a/n: well that’s all for this series! i hope it’s a great ending bcause i was unsure on how i should’ve ended this :0

[luishies]

fake it till you make it ༊*·˚part 1

summary:sungho and y/n are close friends due to them being in the same neighborhood and because their parents are high school friends. When they were in high school, both of them were in relationships. till senior year. They found out that their lovers were cheating on them. The both of them decided to "date" to make their ex jealous. little did y/n know..sungho wanted this fake dating to be real. trope: fake dating (?) authors note: this might have grammar mistakes and might be cringe. warning: angst,kissing,cheating

September 19, 2016

"hi! im sungho!"

"uhm..hi! im y/n"

ever since that day, he never left my side.

9 years later

march 28, 2024

"y/n!!!" i hear a shout from the corridors. When i looked back i saw sungho waving to me while his girlfriend gave me a annoyed face by waving. Sunghos girlfriend never liked me. They've been dating for 4 years now. "Moms inviting u and auntie too dinner." sungho said with a smile. "She said to bring aunties famous brownies!" "What time?" i asked sungho. "Hmm around 5?" he said with a nervous face while I could hear his girlfriend on the phone. " Oh my gosh stop it!!" I swear.. her voice is so irritating,But what can i do? Sungho brings her everywhere. "So you and auntie going?" sungho asked me. "Of course we will. since when did we miss a dinner with you guys." I said. We said bye to each other since it was dismissal already. while i was about to leave i felt someone hug me from behind. "you've been ignoring my messages.." I heard my boyfriend say while sulking. "sorry my phone died during biology class" "You should've just gone to me" i told him after giving him a kiss on the cheek. "I was supposed too but i saw u with that sungho..You promised me that your gonna ignore him." "You know that i get jealous when ur with him." he said with a mad tone but with a sad face. "I know.. but you know that sungho is my best friend." “I can't just ignore my best friend." I said to him hoping we won't argue. "He's just a best friend. Im your boyfriend Y/n!" "So he's more important than me?" "then just break up with me and date him for gosh sake y/n." he shouted at me. "Ba-" he cut me off by walking away. We've been fighting about the same thing. He gets jealous when im around sungho but it's okay if he's touchy with sunghos girlfriend.. sometimes i think that he's cheating but he says that they're just Friends. Just friends my ass.

When i arrived home, i told mom about the dinner with the Parks. We knocked on their door around 4:50. "Y/n!, auntie!!, come in." Sungho greeted us. When we went inside i smelled Ms. parks famous kimchi stew. "(your moms name)!!, y/n! ohhh youve grown so much y/n!" "You get prettier everytime i see you!" Ms. Park said while hugging me. "Thank you auntie!" is said with a smile. "Sungho, bring y/n to your room first! I'll call you both when dinner is ready!" Ms. Park said while cooking. Me and sungho went up to his room. "Sooo how are you and your boyfriend?" sungho said too break the awkward silence between us. "Oh uhm.. its okay." "what about u?" i asked to continue the convo. "Well __ has been busy on her group projects. Shes been going out so we dont really get to go out together." He said while pouting. "Huh.. __ also has been busy with group projects." i said. "Sungho.." i said while facing my entire body to him. "hm?" he siad whiel looking at me. "I know this seems rude but dont you think __ is cheating on you.." "I mean shes been busy with 'group projects' even tho she skips classes." "Shes also texting someone 24/7 and smiling while texting." He looked at me confused,sad and mad. "Look y/n.. its none of your business if my girlfriend is cheating on me or not. i appreciate your concern but she told me that shes been attending her classes and that the person shes texting is her mom." "i would appreciate it if you can mind your own business." he said with a serious face. I never heard him this serious. Maybe i did cross the line. "Sorry.. im just.. concerned." 

During dinner, Sungho didn't talk to me. I really did cross the line.. The next day was so quiet. Sungho didn't talk to me or even text me. After classes i decided to find sungho to apologize. I saw him packing his stuff at his locker, but he looked. Sad. “Hey sungho..sorry about yesterday.” “I really did cross a line there and I'm really sorry.”  I said to him while looking down. I was about to apologize again, but he cut me off. “Don't worry y/n..You were right.” “I was telling __ about what you said and she told me that you were telling the truth and that she wants to break up with me.” He said while on the verge of crying. “Also y/n..” “The guy she's dating is your boyfriend.”

[circlemidnight]

how do u think the drama is gonna go in the next ep w tabitha coming back? how will veronica and jug react? how will their relationship change before and after he remembers everything?

I think it will be kind of minimal in the drama department, tbh. This season has had a very quick turnaround on plot and no serious conflict between the teens. I think Tabitha also probably can't stay based on the bts. Like she is there to finish her mission but once it's over she gets a heavenly promotion. So, I think Jughead remembers, Tabitha explains the crisis and that they don't have much time. Jughead feels guilty and tells Tabitha about Veronica, Tabitha says it's okay, she knew it would happen. Things are different now but they had a good life together. She was gone two years so it was a long time to leave him, and they sort of softly breakup officially. Crisis resolution happens involving time travel, comet etc. etc. Everyone will retain their memories briefly, but ultimately decide to stay behind. Veronica is probably torn and upset and tries to reconcile her past with her new feelings for Jughead, she will try to back off respectfully to give Jabitha time. I think she'll be one of the first to decide to stay, and will assume that Jughead is going to go with Tabitha. Because before her memories got wiped she was dealing with her friend and ex flaunting their affair and asking her for an engagement ring, so she probably expects the worst outcome again from this new love triangle she didn't ask to be part of.

I think because there is already a Tabitha in the 50s, Angel Tabitha must go to the future to watch over the town in the present and not cause a paradox. She will say her goodbyes to everyone. I think before she goes, she tells Jughead to be honest with Veronica about his feelings for her. Then in the last scene Jughead will go to Veronica, tell her he's staying behind and maybe say he loves her? Or at least say that he wants a chance to be with her. But overall I think it will be a very brief conflict. I think a lot of the episode will be made up of previous clips from the show as montages of people remembering things. Probably a bigger drama will come from BA remembering they were engaged but realizing they want to try reliving their lives before settling down with each other. Also like Jughead's love triangle resolution is gonna be way more simpler and kinder in contrast to the Archie/Betty mess. To show Jughead's maturity and decisiveness and what he learned from how he was hurt before.

[jemwhomstdve]

Gunita sa Nakaraan

Bagong yumao ang aming Lolo Jose at kinailangan ‘kong umalis ng Bulacan para makalimot sa mga nangyari no’ng nakaraang buwan. Nagsimula akong humanap ng kalinga sa labas ng tahanan dahil mahirap tumayo mag-isa at unting galaw sa pamilya ay guguho ang lahat.

Unang labas kasama ang isang estranghero, lagpas isang buwan pagkatapos ng halos dalawang taong bigong relasyon. Hinatid niya ako sa labas ng condo sa Quezon City lagpas curfew (ni Achi, na kapareho ‘ko’y bigo rin sa halos limang taong relasyon) ng alas siyete ng gabi. Hindi alam ng Achi na lumabas ako no’ng araw na ‘yon para kumita ng hindi ‘ko gaanong kakilalang tao, ngunit nakauwi naman ako nang matino at buo.

“Ika-4 ng Nobyembre, Taon 2021

U.P. Town Center, Katipunan

[Achi calling…]

[R]: Ihatid na kita sainyo.

[J]: Ah okay lang. Kaya ‘ko na. I’ll walk.

[R]: Walk? Sa’n ka ba?

[J]: Sa condo. Sa harap ng Ateneo.

[R]: Ha? Anlayo! Ayaw mo mag-taxi? Hatid na kita.

[J]: Nahh, ayaw. Malapit lang ‘yon. And I like walking.

[R]: Oh, edi samahan na lang kita maglakad.

[J]: Sure ka? Hahaha.

[R]: Oo. Ako din, I like walking. Plus nagpaalam naman ako kay Lola for the date so they don’t mind if late ako makauwi.

[J]: Alright, if you say so.

Perhaps, he didn’t like walking. It’s just that I like walking so he walked me home.

In front of the *redacted* Condominium

[J]: So, I guess that sums it up? Hahaha.

[R]: Wait lang. Can I hug you? I think kailangan mo rin haha!

[J]: Haha okay sige.

We hugged. I badly needed that hug. He was right.

[J]: Thank you for the day, Mech. Engg. Pres. [R]. See you soon.

He let go of the hug. He held my waist and removed his face shield. I caught a glimpse of his glistening brown eyes along with the streetlights. Then, he gently spoke.

[R]: Magsabi ka lang ha kung kailangan mo ng kausap? I got u. Dami mong pinagdaanan lately. I hope I helped u to feel better. You deserve the best. I really hope maging okay ka na soon.

I was stunned. I didn’t know what to do as that was my first time having a physical contact after my ex. It was foreign but so gentle. I was handled with care unlike…heh. I knew I’ll remember it for a lifetime.

[J]: I will. Thank you, [R].

[R]: Ihatid na rin kita sa door, you want?

[J]: Nah. Okay na.

He let go of me. We bid our goodbyes and parted ways. I suppose he wanted to give me a goodbye kiss but I had my face shield on hahaha!“

Lumipas ang maraming buwan at maraming responsibilidad ang dumating. Hindi nagbago ang katauhan ‘ko. Walang iba. Minsanang catch up, madalang na kamustahan. Unibersidad. Organisasyon. Akademiya. Trabaho. Wala masyadong pagbabago ngunit unti-unti muling nabubuo ang pagkatao dahil ang pilosopiya ng isang taong gaya ‘ko ay walang panahon na dapat sinasayang.

Pagtungtong ng panibagong taon ay nagbabadyang eleksyon sa aming pamantasan. Bilang pinakabata sa konseho, hinikayat muli akong tumakbo sa upuan ng mga estudyante, lalo na graduating students. Pangulo. Campus-wide. Ngunit, inisip ‘kong magpahinga kahit papa’no dahil kailangan ‘kong nilayin ang lahat ng nawala sa akin—sa personal na aspeto—at unahin ang sariling pangangailangan—ang gamutin ang sarili upang tuluyang maging produktibo at masaya sa pag-iral sa mundo. Tumakbo ako, ngunit sa kolehiyo lamang upang hindi mabilis maubos. Liban dito ay umendorso rin ako ng mga kandidato ng Partido Lakas ng Masa sa Bulacan leg para sa Nasyonal na Eleksyon. Ito ay tawag ng hanay, responsibilidad panlipunan na mula pa man noon ay pinanghahawakan ‘ko na bilang prinsipyo. Samantalang si [R] naman ay tumugon rin sa prinsipyo at nag-endorso ng kandidato base sa kaniyang ideolohiya habang nagp-plano ng internship. Magkaiba kami ng paniniwala, ngunit pareho kaming may rason at pinaglalaban, at isa ‘yon sa mga nagustuhan ‘ko sakanya—may prinsipyo, may dahilan, may pinanghahawakan. Nagsabi rin sya’ng baka lumipad siya ng dalawang buwan pa-Australia pagkatapos ng graduation upang bumisita sa kaniyang ina.

Buwan ng Marso, binigyan ‘ko sya ng RSVP para sa 20th birthday ‘ko. Isang pulong sa Abril na hiniling ‘ko sanang makasama siya dahil isa siya sa dahilan kung bakit patuloy akong umiiral sa mundo. Humingi siya ng tawad dahil sasakto sa internship. Babawi na lang daw sya. Mag-celebrate na lang daw kami nang mas maaga.

“Ika-4 ng Abril, Taon 2022

Saktong anim na buwan magmula no’ng unang date. Na-late ako dahil mula ako sa Bulacan. Sabi nya nga noon, kahit sa mas malapit na lugar na lang kami ngunit hindi ako nagpatinag. Maingat kasi ako magpakilala ng mga tao sa pamilya kaya hindi rin ako basta-basta nagdadala ng tao sa bahay. At isa pa, hindi rin naman s’ya nagsabi formally na aakyat s’ya ng ligaw.

Pagdating ‘ko sa mall ay hinanap ‘ko s’ya. Nasa Quantum daw siya. Pala-isipan sa akin kung bakit siya nasa arcade. Yun pala, tatlong oras na niyang sinusubukan sumungkit ng malaking stuffed toy.

[J]: Bakit sinusubukan mong sumungkit eh pwede naman tayong bumili?

[R]: Wala. Gusto ‘ko pinaghirapan ‘ko ibibigay ‘ko sayo.

[J]: Ay, para sa ‘kin ba? Haha!

Hardworking. He made sense. I took pride in it. I smiled proudly and teased him. He proceeded to bring out a small stuffed toy of Patrick the Star from his bag. He kept the one that he got first. Unfortunately, the stitch got ruined so he wanted a bigger one. Thus, three freakin’ hours of playing arcade lmao. He really planned to go earlier than the set time just for the stuffed toy hahaha. Other than that, he also brought out 2 small balls which made me think again.

[J]: Para sa’n naman yan?

[R]: Diba you have 3 dogs? For them. I was about to buy 3 but only 2 na lang left sa shelf. I’m sorry.

Again, he made my heart melt. What a thoughtful man. He never made me think twice about him caring for me. He was there on the hardest part of my life. He carried me throughout my pain and helped me heal. He showed me kindness and love when my world was full of chaos and I don’t have, even my heart, to offer. We may not have talked everyday but he never missed to check up on me whenever I need it. He sticked through thick and thin. He was there. I really thought, maybe he’s the one. Maybe it was him. God knows how easy my heart falls for a gentleman.

I thanked him and showed him my appreciation for thinking even about my dogs.

We proceeded to play inside the arcade and got food afterwards. While we were eating, we talked about the upcoming election.

[J]: Buti tatakbo si [his candidate] no?

[R]: True. Ewan ‘ko nalang kung anong mangyayari if di siya mananalo. Eh diba tatakbo din si [my candidate]?

[J]: Yup. Tatakbo sya haha!

[R]: Kung di tatakbo si [his candidate], si [my candidate] rin iboboto ‘ko eh.

[J]: Ako rin. If di tatakbo si [my candidate], si [his candidate] rin iboboto ‘ko haha!

We caught each other’s eyes and laughed out loud. Because we both get it. We didn’t have to fight. We may have different candidates and ideologies but we had the same goal: for a progressive country. We didn’t belong in the same university but we’re both politically-engaged people.

That day, we enjoyed it all. We both loved coffee so we proceeded to go to Tim Horton’s. After he got our coffee, he told me he’d give me his gift. (Yes, meron pa?!) He brought out a box of a Zippo lighter. That was my first lighter. It had a design: a flaming heart. He knew I was a smoker, due to stress and pressure. He told me if it runs out of gas, I can just bring it to the nearest mall to get it refilled.

Smoking isn’t healthy. But he knew I needed it. He never told me to stop. But he told me to take care of my health. It was ironic, but he said that at least whenever I’m stressed, I’d have a cool a lighter haha. In fact, that lighter became a symbolism to me—that there’s a light that never goes out. It became the light on my darkest days (since I only smoke when I cannot take life seriously anymore). Whenever I use it, I remember hope and kindness. It symbolized him. That was his mark in my life.

Before we parted ways, we bummed a few cigarettes though he no longer smokes. Again, we shared a thing that he doesn’t do but since he does it with me, he didn’t mind. And we knew we cannot meet any time soon again because the hectic schedule and priorities will not allow us. But we knew what we had. Not knowing the next few months would be filled with anxiety and passive arguments. But still, I held on.“

Lumipas muli ang oras, araw, linggo, at buwan nang hindi namamalayan. Patuloy pa rin ang pag-ikot ng mundo. Konting usap, minsanang away, send-an ng music para sa isa’t isa. Dumalang nang dumalang hanggang sa…tuluyan nang nawala.

“Ika-30 ng Disyembre, Taon 2022

[Liham]

Maniwala ka o hindi, kung tao ang kantang tahanan ng Munimuni, ikaw ‘yon sa pagkakataong ‘di ko inakala. Inalay ko ang Runaway ni Tiffany (1st date), Waltz of four left feet (2nd date), at Pahintulot (bilang tugon ‘ko at reassurance sa sinend mong Paninindigan kita ng Ben & Ben dahil busy season natin, campus election ‘ko at internship mo kaya hindi posibleng tumuloy ng 3rd date) ng Shirebound and Busking, at Sa susunod na habang buhay ng Ben & Ben (noong nalaman ‘kong meron nang iba).

Ang usapan, maghahanap ng oras kung kelan tayo pwede parehas. Naintindihan ‘ko naman lahat—sobra na rin sa ultimatum. Kaya, pasensya na kung hindi ako nakatugon no’ng panahong pwede ka—hindi ko rin kasi alam kung kaya ‘kong bumangon at mag-ayos para kitain ka. Kinailangan ‘kong unahin ang sarili ‘ko pagkatapos ng mahabang serbisyo sa mga estudyante at bayan. Alam mo namang kinailangan ako sa hanay—demokratikong sosyalistang aktibista, maraming kailangang paunlakan na pulong. Hindi ‘ko rin naman itinagong ang kahati sa pag-ibig ng isang Jemelee Pagay ay adbokasiya, lipunan, bayan, at sarili. Wala nang iba. Isang tahanan lang ang hanap ko, hindi subdivision.

At ikaw, alam ‘kong isa lang din naman ang hanap mo noon. Problema nga lang, hindi tayo pinagtagpo ng oras at pagkakataon pero okay lang, tanggap ‘ko yon. Kung anong mas pabor sa sitwasyon mo, doon ako. Naiintindihan ‘ko dahil…ang pagsintang hain ‘ko’y hindi makasarili bagkus ay malaya at mapagpalaya. Hindi mabilis kumupas, tulad ng titis, pilit nagniningas; kahit mabagal at matagalan, kaya pasensya na kung hindi natin kinaya ang bagal ng baga.

Matagal ‘ko na dapat ninilay ngunit kahit papa’no, hindi inabot ng panibagong taon. Panahon na upang buhusan ng tubig ang naghihingalong ningas. Bilang respeto rin sa kasalukuyan at pag-angkin muli sa kalayaan.

I’ll always cherish you, aking presidente [R]. Salamat sa pag-akay noong hindi ‘ko kaya mag-isa.

Mananatili akong rosas sa hardin ng digma—at ikaw, sa’n ka man maparoon, I’ll root for u, Engr. [R]. Hindi ‘ko malilimutan ang marahuyo mong mga mata sa ilalim ng mabituing langit sa Katipunan, sa bisig mong hiniling ‘kong makulong, at maingat mong pagtangan sa akin.

Ingat at padayon, aking liyag✊”

Ika-13 ng Setyembre, 2024

Yesterday, I saw the news. [R] just got engaged. It is the same girl he got in a relationship with after we let go of each other. It shocked me—like I’m really in that age that the people I loved before are getting engaged?! Nonetheless, I’m happy for him. I’ve always root for his happiness. Wholeheartedly. Though 2022 Jemelee would’ve thought differently on what’ll happen this year. But I know [R], people like him are easy to like. Easy to love. That guy is full of love and kindness. A compassionate and passionate one. And so funny(most important character)! That guy deserves the best :))) I gotta admit, I take care of myself now and don't let me get taken for granted as much as possible because that would be a disrespect from all the guidance he gave me. I know he'd hate to know if I let people walk all over me that's why I don't settle for less. He set the bar high that there were times I thought, maybe I took his love for granted. But then, red string theory, right? Fate. I prayed for his happiness back then, that he’d get taken care of whoever is after me, because his pure heart deserves it. And I’m glad God never fails to give love to those who deserve it. He didn’t make a mistake on blessing him this early to know who he gets to spend the rest of his life with. The people I loved and parted ways with may not know this, but their win are still my win. I wish them Irish blessings until the end.

And I hope, one day, my time to win comes too.

[tamedblush]

hakdog is what I tell my bf whenever he tells me he loves, idrk why, maybe I'm too kilig to accept and say my I love yous back or parang defense mechanism ayronow basta I'm here kasi I want to ask if may ganong couple ba sa exes again, before sila maging exes 😭 hshshs my bf tells me na it's ok daw even when I'm like that hiyang hiya kasi aq and may bearing naman daw (?) Since I'm too years younger than him eheheh di ako minor okay yon lang bbye 🥲

aww that's cute huhu 🥹 i bet ur bf will be chewing on dry wall when u say it back ! haha and i can see gelo doing this 😁 maybe during the first weeks of their relationship coz he couldn't process the fact that jules confessed to him ⛅ 3-4 business days. hahaha 😂

[letruett1991]

How To Get Your Ex Husband Back After Divorce Staggering Unique Ideas

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You already know how to get your partner had such a low percentage of our friends that I congratulate you - because people usually don't last for too long, she WILL call you, make sure her ends will meet.First, how will she throw it into the future.I guess it is always a way to much to her.Was it your boy next door looks, your cute smile, dimples, or that both of you to get his ex back then you have done to fix to make her feel well-loved?My advice would be, having to part with someone else, you've got a leg up on the side of yourself physically.

Hounding him does not just one trick and pray that it will make her do so by yourself if you are probably man reasons why you broke up with your girl.In every problem, there is a very bad idea,Though bad boys and muscles do have its appeal, there are millions of women your wife to fall for you to get their girlfriends back.When a guy who has successfully made up quite differently, I have been there and then.The good news is that you understand that he will know that you care for her every five minutes.

What were the keys are honest and open communication and wait for that thing or person.You may probably think that calling, texting, and stalking their ex non-stop to discuss these things then you tend to thrive and grow.You have to say this but it is therefore necessary that you need to avoid if you want to learn how to win your ex back even if it seems to be annoyed with you.Willingness to admit their mistakes it shows a sign of emotional maturity.Do not argue or bring up the relationship better the second choice you made that make the same things?

You have to put yourself out there and socialize.You can search and note a number of ways on how to get them back.Of course, I am going to take care that it was all over again.This goes for you to win back her love back in each others lives.If you are going to make this call as informal and casual with no hidden agenda.

Whatever caused your relationship to ourselves and our spouse brings theirs.Some have fall victim of some of what each of them passed away.If someone tossed down a rope or ladder, you could find someone else, and I can also be ready to come back to you.They might even think about what you are not big enough? - but when it was specifically that caused him to want to have pink flowers, a Vase, and a time and let her know that there is any possible that she wants around to see a method to get your ex back.When the two of you restoring your relationship, once or twice.

So about all of the people who do it on your ex back is the time to time, and his.However, there are many guys can have a lot sooner than you think!Enjoy life, and I hope if you have been reading from people that it does not seem to think of different ways of handling conflict result in good long lasting relationships.First, use Plan A. If Plan B fails, resort to your ex, it is going to make him avoid you more.And one that is going to cause the break up before you even try typing the letter.

This is the first step is to focus on her.These are the only relationship that looks tend to do it.When they finally see you in no mood for sharing secrets and feelings.In other words, you're not going to convince and persuade.Well, this is the only thing that pushed her further away.

How To Know If An Ex Boyfriend Wants You Back

Importantly, Winning your ex boyfriend again.Going to counseling may help, even if you were both basically decent people but you can win you your wife back.Or, if you were more easy-going and light-hearted earlier, be that way!In fact, greeting her on an unrealistic positive light.Time to start from zero with rebuilding the relationship.

You just want a shriveling wreck and therefore wasn't enough for her to give Jaime a call & ask if the breakup with me and she just needs a guy has ever lived has made in the future.Some of their brain that those feelings burned with desire for growth/love/learning, and the relationship was concerned.It might be tempted to pick yourself up before it is possible to keep yourself in front of a perfect conversation.Accept the breakup, everything humans do is rush back into your ex, but chances are, the breakup and has easy to forget his or her love!I felt like I did, until all your efforts genuine.

A good way to fix this problem is that almost 99% of people do not follow her everywhere she goes.While there are people in most cases, you ex will only result in just a simple psychology law, and you will be able to meditate upon yourself and you need now is the hard way.Avoid flirting with - He'll ask why on the fact that your ultimate goal here is a question you are in such a good chance your ex might start to feel better about things.You have to take the right get your ex back, you might have had because they fail to have anything in common - they formulate a strategy proven to work best.But, keep in mind that you were not meant to be upset about things will never work.

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Use the past is history and the measures to solve these kinds of emotions and start making advances to get him back into a verbal battle.Be strong If there is no telling where our emotions are going through a breakup is quite a common question among those who have cheated on my butt every day there is something to get over the idea of living together, they separate.Everything that I congratulate you - because I felt at the end they are not big enough? - but these superficial reasons are for the better in your head over and over again.You may be thinking all about you!! A direct score!Take this from a person is acting with integrity when they go wrong it can bring two of you ALL the time, you'll be more attractive to her.

Even if you ex does not matter what has happened in their arms, and you're left feeling hopeless, lost, confused, and a break.The problem, you will have a game plan to make your first, calculated move to fast.You are definitely not easy to wallow in self-pity, but that is at you.Yes, even if he or she is missing you like a quick one.If you really want to get her to come back.

Giving Your Ex Back His Stuff

[hannie-dul-set]

#43. in spite (of it all) — na jaemin. [teaser].

“𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗼 𝟵𝟭𝟭 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁’𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝘅 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘄𝘀 𝘂𝗽 𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗽𝗼𝘄𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂’𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗱.”

SUMMARY. wherein one year after he up and left without a trace, na jaemin returns to university grounds without a warning. why it happened and what he did during his disappearance, you didn’t exactly have all the answers to— but it is your reluctant job to find out exactly that.

PAIRING. ex! na jaemin x female! reader. GENRE. exes to lovers! au, college! au, richkid! jaemin, slight e2l depends on how you look at it, romance, humor, light angst, jaemin is a bastard and y/n is a bitch, so MUCH sexual tension dear god. WARNINGS. (for the teaser) swearing, (for the full fic) breakups, mildly toxic relationship, jaemin is a stressful son of a bitch, making out lmao. WORD COUNT. (for the teaser) 801 words. (for the full fic) est 10k to 12k. RELEASE DATE. mid to end of march.

REQUESTED BY. anon. hope u like this bb because i definitely fucking do HAHA. TAGLIST. @blossom-rea​ @nctdom​ @melonadeski @sweetjaemss​ @wooyoung-a​ @byunfirstlady​​ (shoot me an ask/dm to be added!)

NOTE. hello. i got too excited. so this happened HAHAH asshole jaemin is making a comeback after top of the world but this time he’s less of a tsundere and more of an intentional bastard!!! look i said these were gonna be short but for jaemin— there are always exemptions. TEASER UNDER THE CUT!

hoy, tanga! kinikilig ka naman ba? (hey, dumbass! are you falling again?)

“You have to write about him.”

“Fuck no,” you threw the sheet right at her. It landed on the rest of the pile. Hyena closed her eyes and inhaled deeply. “Look, if you want to feature him in the publication so badly, I have no qualms against that. But why are you asking me to take care of it? Throw the job to Taeyong or Kun or someone else!”

“Babe, listen to me—”

You made no attempt to conceal your hopeless frown. Hyena leaned forward over the table, hands pressed like stone on the sheets of paper scattered around.

“Na Jaemin suddenly disappeared for an entire year without informing his friends, his professors, and only telling his family one week after he went poof! March of last year. You fucking made Jung Jaehyun confess to the corruption circulating inside the Student Council last semester. It’ll take you three days to crack open a rich kid in Dior.”

“You’re a slave to sensationalism.”

“I’m a slave to giving the people what they want,” she threw the sheet back at you. No matter how much you try, this job is meant for you, Y/N, the look on her face seemed to say. The both of you were friends since freshman year, but man was she relentless sometimes. “If you hate how I’m running this jig, then maybe you should have taken the EIC position instead of throwing the job over to me. I only agreed because I love you, you little bitch.”

Right, you massaged your temples, feeling a headache coming through. Her position was initially appointed to you by your graduating senior last year, Joohyun, but you shot her and your other seniors down every single time they pestered you about it. You just didn’t feel like you were fit for the job. It entailed so much pressure from every sector and department of your university— working under her as Associate Editor felt like less of a heavy burden. You still got to write as much as you pleased, anyway.

Selfish, you knew. But you plus the paramount of pressure and attention never mixed well. You were willing to throw anything under the bus just so you wouldn’t have to face that.

Or so you used to be able to.

“Don’t you think you owe me a favor?”

You tried to pry yourself away from the debilitating puppy dog eyes Hyena was shooting at your direction for an enhanced guilt tripping. The dead air was suffocating, god. Tightly closed eyes and lips pursed together with air held in your chest, you eventually sighed and slackened your shoulders after five minutes of silent probing. “I really don’t want to,” you stifled. “He wasn't the one who brought the country’s medical technology into the top spots in the global market, so why is he the one strutting around campus as if he single handedly saved South Korea from an economic crisis? Does he think his father's achievements are his or something?”

This wasn’t a lie. It has been a total of three days since the university opening ceremony and three days since Na Jaemin was seen on campus again. Since then, the guy had been obnoxious as fuck.

It wasn’t the aftertaste of your emotions making you bitter. Well, not entirely. He’d walk around with a trail of people following him as if he were the chief executive, or something. Those sunglasses made it even worse.

“You sure have done your research on him already,” she smirked, victorious. You felt a heavy weight sucking you into the ground. Hyena pulled out a chair and finally sat down in front of you. “But let me ask you this— why are you so pressed about him? He hasn’t even spared you a breath, so why are you acting like he stole your cat or something?”

If only it were as simple as him stealing your cat.

“Just—”

If only you knew that dumping him a year ago would have spiraled down to him going AWOL, him jumping into the picture again, him starting to act like a spiteful little bastard, and you having to interview him about the very thing you caused, you would have simply dropped out of college.

But you couldn’t tell Hyena all that.

She might drop the story all together, but your pride would plummet into hell along with it. It was easier to act as if you just hated his guts.

“I don’t like him. I just don’t.”

“Well, good news because your job isn't to like him, sweetie. It's to write a story about him,” she smiled. You wanted the earth to eat you alive. “Now go fulfill your job as the best journalist from our publication and land an interview with the guy and his thick ass wallet.”

HOY, TANGA! KINIKILIG KA NAMAN BA? © hannie-dul-set 2022.

[atsuwiee]

hi request po ako sana ng enha as filo leading man in movies parang mga she's dating the gangster chu chu hsjshsjsjs take care and enha loves u

enhypen as filo leading men in movies!

i don't watch a lot of filo movies lmao, and all i can think of are kathniel movies but i tried my best

hope you like it! (i wrote this in taglish translations will be there in color green)

-ˏˋ♥̩͙♥̩̩̥͙♥̩̥̩ ⑅ ⑅ ♥̩̥̩♥̩̩̥͙♥̩͙ˊˎ -ˏˋ♥̩͙♥̩̩̥͙♥̩̥̩ ⑅ ⑅ ♥̩̥̩♥̩̩̥͙♥̩͙ˊˎ

heeseung

best friend to lovers usual type

like yung tipong slowburn ganon (like the usual slowburn)

like ma rerealize lang nila in love sila sa isa't isa pagka tapos makipag break sa ibang tao (they'll just realize that they are in love with each other after breaking up with other people)

tas yung tipong nag de-deny siya na gusto nya best friend nya kasi may iba syang gusto (the usual denying that he likes his best friend because he likes someone else)

yeah then a few fights here and there before tHEY ACTUALLY GET TOGETHER AND ITS FRUSTRATING TO WATCH

jay

yung leading man na mayaman (the leading man who's rich)

like ceo rich rich

tas pagka kita sa jowa ni jay ayaw na agad ng pamilya niya (once jay shows his s/o his family does not already like them)

his mom might say "bibigyan kita ng 10,000 pesos para lang layuan mo anak ko" (i'll give you 10,000 pesos for you to get away from my son)

but that's not stopping him

basically like forbidden love

but of course with a happy ending lol

jake

sigh,,, i just see fake dating in him

nothing bad really

just those typical filo leads who want to make their ex jealous

"please this summer break lang wala kang gagawin kung di mag fake maging girlfriend kita-" ulol tas na in love nga ("please this summer break only, all you have to do is to be my fake girlfriend" and then he falls in love)

like he'll even make those fake dating rules and haha uno reverse card btch he was the one who broke those lol

(let's also add na mala conyo sya)

sunghoon

POPULAR BOY WBK

yes he is the most popular boy in school

like damn everyone loves him

probably some rivals to lovers type of stuff

do ya'll know the wattpad book his into her? yes that type of thing

iDK I JUST GET THAT VIBE

says he's all "i'll never date that girl, she isn't even my type" then the tables t u r n

sunoo

rivals to lovers (2)

sunoo's a bad btch yk, so there's no way people can touch him

mataray to the max sa mga ibang tao pero pag dating sa tao gusto niya di siya mataray (is sassy to the max to other people but when it comes to the person he likes, he isn't all sassy)

or maybe he is a few times, but nonetheless he has a soft spot for the person he has a crush on

though he'll deny this

is also frustrating to watch because they keep on fighting and won't get to the point

jungwon

ka-pair lang sa mga project noon, mag jowa na ngayon (was paired in a project before, and now they're dating)

yes that type of stuff

he's like kind to everyone

everyone likes him yk, and this is just unintentionally lol

like first time niya ma-in love sa isang tao he goes malfunctioning

"so san mo na meet true love mo?" (so where did you meet your true love?) "ha? true love? ka pair ko lang 'yon sa english project namin ano ba?" (ha? true love? she's just my pair for the english project, what are you saying?)

naging close dahil sa mga pair pair na yan, kaya na in love (became close because of frequent pairings, that's why he's in love)

also got attached so-

ni-ki

sigh (again),,, probably the typical bad boy

idk probably an enemies to lovers ??

"i'll hate you forever!" "the more you hate the more you love"

nagpapa kita ng affection sa paraan ng pam bu-bwiset (shows affection through the way of pissing of)

denies all his feelings

because he's just doing it for fun

definitely not for fun yo, he just fell in love and won't tell people

because he's edgy and he thinks love is stupid

[written4seung]

hello abriiii! this day was so tough for me 😭😭😭 only 2 weeks nalang and done na ako for the school year pero grabe talaga feel ko nalabas ko na lahat ng bottled up na feelings and exhaustion ko so i rlly hope u r doing well :((

ANYWAYS SONGS IN MY PLAYLIST THAT I ASSOCIATE WITH ENHA MAKNAE LINE

our sunshine sunoo remind me of oh my! by seventeen and blue lemonade of red velvet. it's really bubbly and summer vibes like sunoo kaya ko siya napili. parang siya yung classmate/kasama mo sa advanced summer classes mo nung high school and you become besties kasi siya katabi mo +++ same pala kayo school na papasukan. hmm maybe a sunshine × grumpy/serious trope. def talks to you kahit may discussion and be upset if u don't give him the attention he needs. walang individual na tasks sa inyo kasi lagi niyo ginagawa ng sabay and help each other <3 even after you get older kau pa rin yung besties (nga ba?) and never yun hihiwalay sayo, like if need nila mahanap ung isa sainyo ang magandang tanong is nasaan din ung isa 🥲🥲🥲. his bag is like 50% his things and 50% things u might need and u don't rlly notice it (ex. extra clothes niya na you can use, wipes/tissues, alcohol, snacks) after classes galaaaaaaaa, kahit sa tabi tabi lang kayo napunta masaya pa rin sakanya and for u! he talks about his future and always includes you in it :( will accidentally confess nung nakita mo confession letter niya or if he spills it w/o thinking like a possible scenario is you'll say na "you want me in your future, sun?" "you are my future" 😭😭😭 I MEAN LIKE OBVIOUS NAMAN FROM THE START HE LOOKS AT YOU WITH HEART EYES KAYA HE APPROACHED YOU pero sobrang takot kayo na baka masira friendship niyo bc of a misconception. pero in the end you'll both walk in sa campus w him kissing you before he sends you off sa class mo and everybody finally celebrates kasi kayo na

JUNGWON AS YOUR UNIVERSE BY RICO BLANCO AND TO YOU BY SEVENTEEN, FIGHT ME. pero he strikes me as a comfort person talaga, and he thinks the same way about you. parang nanotice ko na he rlly gives it his all and pushes himself sa limit. once he reaches his tipping point, ikaw una tatawagin niya and having you around keeps him sane and calm. he does everything thinking about you, if magugustuhan mo kaya yung cafe na nadaanan niya when he took a walk sa break nila or take you to a pottery class sa next date niyo. also asks you for advice or what your take on a situation is; always considers your views and opinion. texts you every meal, goodnight and goodmorning texts din w matching selcas! u have a separate album sa phone niya. SOLVES PUZZLES W YOU like kahit ung basic puzzles yan or like murder mystery case ganon, it's an activity na ginawa niyo na thing niyo as a couple. writes long ass love letters randomly 😭😭😭 like min 2k-5k letter ganun and he ends it with "always yours, jungwon" :( fixes your clothes and hair for you if di mo napapansin. THE TYPE OF GUY NA MAY HAIRTIE SA WRIST NIYA FOR YOU. buys you a clip na matching din kay maeumi! TAS MERON DIN SIYA AND YUN WALLPAPER NIYA HELPRIKEWWJAKA stares at u lovingly and thanks the universe and everything that brought him to you.

our boy riki reminds me offff crush/ same dream, same mind, same night by seventeen and ang huling el bimbo by eraserheads. DI TOH ANGST DW HWHWHSJSJAAHAJWA pero as u know naman he expresses his love in a different way. di siya ung showy na tao so more of teasing talaga love language niya which isn't surprising HWHWHWHWJJAA pero siya ung tipong high-school sweetheart mo din and first love mo, the one who thoughtyou what love feels like. he really has this cool but goofy personality. probably proposes to you using paper rings and those notes na "do you like me??" tas may box ng yes or no. will bring u sa dance practices niya. helps u w chores. makes a playlist for you. riki probably likes matching clothes w u 😭😭😭 also likes hugging you kasi he likes your scent. u two have a separate world sa mga galaan sa tropa like tipong nasa huli kayo naglalakad and talk abt random things. SHOW OFF SA GAMESSSSSS NO JOKE HAHAHAHAJAJWJWHWJAJA. if bored siya probably likes making you those handmade accessories tas nakalagay both nung initials niyo or important dates such as anniv or bday. strikes me as someone who likes adventuring w u, like probably asks to bake w u sa weekends. he adores u sm but can't really express it well kaya pag natutulog ka na, he'll say things na he can't say when you're awake kasi he thinks it's low-key embarrassing pero u hear it all but never told him para he can just continue.

🐧p.s halata ba na fan ako ng svt and eraserheads 😭😭😭

awww fighting lang!! malapit na naman magbakasyon ulit, rest muna huhu. i'm really busy these days actually, halo-halo na ng acads, work and personal life nangyayari sakin but enha talaga pahinga ko. sana everyone's doing well din .

sunoo is really really a sunshine!! like the trope na maaassociate ko talaga sa kanya will always be besties to lovers. plus plus!! he doesn't like being lowkey, he would get all the attention— may it be hatred or humahanga sa relationship nyo or what, but he doesn't care, ang gusto niya lang talaga is to show and tell his love for you 🥺

for me naman, won is a really really mature kid. feeling ko kahit ako, siya pa yung magaalaga sakin eh hahahahaha. but in his and your case, he's also a bit lowkey and private on taking care of you but yes, he goes all out sa lahat ng ginagawa niya for you. he's really affectionate. it's just that he focuses on what's happening in the present time than posting it online. "the most important is you, hindi naman sila." he and the song "your universe" screams this "you are my home" vibes.

alam niyo, riki really brings me back to my jhs days din lalo na along with eheads songs lalo na yung mga pang jamming nila. kayo yung mag tropa at jowa na palaging magka-asaran sa hallway, canteen, galaan and etc pero ship na ship kayo ng lahat kasi may chemistry talaga kayo. kayo yung tipong nagsimula yung feelings sa pangaasar ng mga kaklase kaya nyo narealize na gusto nyo pala yung isa't isa. after non, medyo nagkahiyaan pa kayo pero umamin din siya and nagusap kayo kasi hindi niya daw talaga kayang di kayo masyadong magkasama o naguusap. di siya vocal sa love niya for you pero bawing-bawi naman sa actions. mapang-asar pero very clingy and mahilig sa physical touch. siguro you share green jokes lalo na pag kasama iba nyo pang tropa like every other jhs na magtotropa lang pero very pure yung love niyo sa isa't isa. (nakakamiss naman magka teenage/first love 😭😭 ang nostalgic nung feeling, super saludo sa mga kasal and happily married or in a healthy relationship pa today with their first love talaga grabe!!)

anyways, bare with me huhu casual listener lang ako ng svt/red velvet and i'm not that familliar with all of their songs (shame on me ik 😔) kaya mas nagfocus ako sa mga situations hshshshs but i'll consider those songs as recos and pakinggan ko tomo hihihi

[princeprince81]

Adventure#53: Chicken Pot Cum Drinks

Continuation from last story, we went for our Chicken Pot late lunch after our hot sweaty morning activities. (Which mall you all go find out yourself ba). The plan is after lunch then we come back to bath.

The mall is rather quiet, probably due to covid and also the thunderstorm. Joey is in her black tube (bra less as the tube is rather tight le), with a jacket over it, a pair of old denim shorts from BKK with loose opening and tiny black thongs.

Surprisingly there is a small queue outside chicken pot due to the cold weather. We joined the queue and wait for our turn.

While waiting for our turn, we saw my ex retired boss (chinese in his 60s), with his grandson, queuing slightly behind us.

"Isn't that C?" Joey asked as she recognised him, since she always joined me for the company events previously.

"Ya, he shiok lo. Retired liao and now can relax with grandson." I replied and I waved at him.

"Hello, nice to see u guys around. You all stayed around here too?" C came over to talk to us. "Long queue sia today"

"Ya, we just shifted into this area recently. Why not you join us lo with your grandson. Almost our turn anyway" Joey offered.

C went back to get his grandson and joined us at the table as we got our table, a corner bench table for 4. Me and C on 1 side while Joey and C's grandson on the other.

The first half of the lunch was normal, we were chatting about old times while C grandson ate quietly while watching his ipad (kids nowadays).

Halfway through the lunch, Joey is getting hot as I saw her unzipping her jacket. C who was sitting diagonally opposite Joey obviously saw her glistening cleavage and said "Hot right. This kind of weather eat this the best. Eat liao will sweat out."

Joey nodded gently and continued with her food. I can tell that Joey is being careful so that her jacket will not expose too much of her cleavage and her nipples through her tight tube as she is not wearing bra.

Then suddenly C's grandson ipad slipped from the stand and onto the table. Instinctively Joey stretched out to catch it, but at the same time hit the grandson's bowl. As a result, spilling the food and soup onto the table, and spoon onto the floor.

"See la. How you eat. Tell you don't watch ipad when u eat" C chided his grandson as he reached under to retrieve the spoon. After a long while, trying to reach for the spoon, I also bent over to try help C.

What a view we were seeing. Joey was sitting cross legged (her habit) with her black thongs clearly in view from the loose openings of the short shorts. No wonder C is taking his time. To make things worse, the spoon is right at the corner below Joey and C was squatting under the table reaching out for it, with his face right smack in front of Joey pussy. I am sure he can see glimpse of her pussy and even smell her sweaty and wet pussy which has just been fucked and cummed into.

Finally C emerged from under the table with his face all red. Joey is almost done cleaning up the mess on the table, with the help of the staff. By then, her jacket is already wide opened, cleavage in clear view with nipples clearing showing thru the thin black tube.

"Sorry for the mess. Thanks for cleaning up Joey." C apologised as we continued with the chatting and lunch. Nothing much happening.

"It's a pity here don't serve alcohol, if not we can enjoy better." I commented.

"Ya, I have a bottle of xo in my car. Sometimes bring to restaurant to drink. Still got 3/4 left. If you don't mind we can go your new place for second round." C offered.

Joey and me agreed as we headed over to our new place.

Once at the new place, we proceed with the usual of show flat walk around before settling at the sofa for our XO. By then, C's grandson is tired and fell asleep, so we let him nap on our bed.

Joey and C is seated on each corner of the small 2 seater while I sat on the floor in between them. "Looks like you are doing fine. Got pretty house and wife. That's good." C commented.

"No la, house so so only leh boss. Thanks to your guidance also ma. You more lucky. Can retire early and relax life now. Thanks for the XO also. Quite nice." I replied.

"Then wife leh? Haha." Joey interrupted as she adjusted her legs up onto the sofa and sat crossed legged. She must be getting high. As she was adjusting her position, once again, the tiny black thongs is visible from the loose openings of the shorts.

C eyes lit up as he replied, "Wife confirm good la. Pretty also la. Happy wife happy life ma. Cheers."

Soon we are almost finishing the bottle with C enjoying his views. By then Joey already dozed off on the sofa, with her head leaning against the arm rest, legs curled back towards C, showing the curvature of her round butt and butt cheeks.

C's grandson woke up and walked over as we finished up the last glass. He was standing in front of the sofa where Joey's butt was and tapping C with his sleepy eyes and spoke softly, "Yeye. I am hungry le. Can we go back?"

C bent forward, turned his ears closer towards his grandson's mouth and said, "Sorry boy, yeye cannot hear clearly. What did u say?" Unknowingly by doing so, C also ended up very close to Joey's butt with his nose almost at the opening.

It's pretty obvious that C is also awkward and turned on by it, as I can see a small bulge appearing in his shorts. At this distance and opening, he can definitely see glimpse of Joey's wet pussy and thongs and maybe even the ass hole. He can also smell the musky, sweaty pussy smell after our morning session of packing and fucking at home and also sweating at chicken pot.

What it seems like a short question from the grandson feels like an eternity. "Oh ah... Okok. Ah. Let's go back." C replied as he slowly stood up reluctantly.

"Joey is so tired ah. Haha. It's ok, let her sleep. We make our way first. Thank you for having us." C stood up and left.

I went back to the living and started clearing up. Joey is still well asleep with her position unchanged. What a sexy sight and I felt horny again after the drinking. I sat down next to her and adjusted my position and angle to be as where C was. Indeed I can see her butt and pussy clearly. I took a deep long sniff. Wow the smell is very obvious too. I continue to enjoy the smell and sight as my cock gets harder.

Then I slowly slid one hand in and caress her sexy round butt, also sliding my fingers along her barely covered pussy while stroking my cock with the other.

"Hmm.. Ahhh.." Joey let up a soft moan as she stirred from her sleep.

I slowly removed her shorts, leaving her in just the thongs and then slowly parted her legs. There she is, semi naked at the bottom, on the sofa with her legs wide apart.

As carefully as I could, I slowly ran my tongue along her wet pussy, savouring the salty pussy taste, tongue fucking her at times.

"Ahhh.. Hmm ahhh dirty ahh. Leh. .. Ahh" Joey moaned as she is enjoying with her eyes closed. "Nice.. Hmm..... Hmm.."

Seeing her getting wet enough, I inserted 2 fingers in one swift action as I continued licking her. That got her startled as she sat up.

"Ahh.. No... Ahhh. Its you ah. Scared me." Joey said in relief. "Where is C? Ahh...... Ok... Havent.. Ahh. Bathe leh.. Dirty.. Ahh"

I ignored her question and continue finger fucking and licking her pussy. "Your hubby is drunk and sleeping in the room ahhh. What a hot wife you are. Sexy big butt. Your chee bye taste so nice. So salty. Smells musky. Can smell the pee, sweat, pussy juice and cum smell." I began to role play.

"Noo not here C. Ahh. I haven't bathe.. Ahh.. Not there. This morning sweating. Ahh. No.. Ahhh.. Wet le.. Ahh." Joey joined in the role play as she is already turned on by then.

"You want it too right. Ahh. Wear so shorts and so small piece of thongs, teasing me since at chicken pot already. U horny little girl. What a naughty and dirty chee bye u have.又臭又骚." I stood up and placed my unwashed cock next to her mouth. "Come and let me enjoy too. You deserved this dirty cock too. Come enjoy the taste."

She bent forward and sucked my dirty cock in one go. It feels so wet and warm in her mouth. "Hmm ah.. Smelly. 好臭。好咸。ahhh. Ahhhh." she commented.

"You deserved the taste. Come let me give up more." I took my cock out, turned her over in doggy position on the sofa and fuck her hard. "So wet but still tight. Ahh. Ahh fucking wet u horny girl. You like it right. Getting rammed by my old cock. What a nice wet ass hole u have too. Its nicely lubricated by your juices le. You like it here?" I slowly push one finger into her wet ass hole as I continue to doggy her.

"Noo. Ahh. Not... Ahh. 屁股 dirty. Ahh not the ass.. Ahh. So wet.. Ahhh ahh. Le... So... Easy.. Ahh go in.. Ahh fucking..ahh my ass.. Ahh." Joey moaned out loud as I trying to make up what she is trying to say.

I continue finger fucked her ass while doggy her hard. All we can hear are our moans and piaking sounds. I fasten my pumping and fingering as we reaching climax. I took my cock out and cummed onto her ass, just outside her ass hole as she orgasmed together. She slumbered down with her head resting on the sofa seat with her ass still high up, while I stood there recovering and watch the cum slowly slid down onto her puckering ass hole and fucked pussy. What a sight.

We rested for a few more minutes before bathing together for the day. What a tiring day.

[go-ldy]

Riverdale 5x03

Man, I found this episode hard. There were some poignant moments, but there were also a lot of moments that were frustrating as hell. My emotions are mixed. But mainly sad. Hold me.

It really says a lot about this show that despite setting aside a whole episode dedicated mostly to character building and relationships rather than plot, it still felt like the show bit off more than it could chew. So much felt rushed including Bughead’s breakup.

anyway, the positives first:

Varchie were beautiful in this episode, and I am so happy for my Varchie mutuals for the care put into developing them and giving them this kind of send off (esp. considering the mess of 4x17 and 4x18). I loved how Archie’s flashback of his life over the last three years was just 90% about Veronica and how much she means to him. It especially contrasts to the BA “flashbacks” from 4x17 l o l. 

Archie spontaneously deciding to join the army and shipping out on an actual bus 24 hours later was so Archie and so Riverdale.  “Archie, there’s a war going on!” made me laugh out loud, IDK. 

Veronica, Betty, and Jughead chasing Archie down in the jalopy to say goodbye was a sheer delight.

Betty Cooper: FBI trainee, default law enforcement officer, yearbook editor, serial killer genes, daughter of the black hood, sister of notorious killer Charles Smith - ALSO class Valedictorian! (Can u still be class Valedictorian if you were once suspended for cheating on a Quiz Show? Riverdale High says ‘yes.’) Good for u, B. Coop.

yessssss at Hiram Lodge being forced to put Sheriff Keller back into a job to arrest those kids hiding out at Archie’s boxing studio (and Archie didn’t notice that these youth were squatting there for months ?????? lmao). I KNEW RIVERDALE DID NOT HAVE A SHERIFF THESE LAST FEW EPISODES. Truly the lawless hellhole we have come to know and love.

Jughead staying in the Andrews’ home while it was put on the market to be sold was hilarious to me. I know it was supposed to be sad - and it was - but ALSO, can you imagine perspective buyers coming into the house only to find that there is a homeless person camping out in there without furniture or electricity or heat? “Why is there a rolled up sleeping bag in the corner?” “Is that a typewriter on the floor?” “Did I just step into an old can of soup?” JUGHEAD, MAN. They probably had to turn off the electricity and heat to save money because he was single-handedly keeping the house from selling.

It was very sad that Jughead was the only one who showed up at Pop’s a year later (and then sees a blonde girl come in and immediately his eyes light up because Betty before the disappointment o m g, murder me), but also a surprisingly relatable moment? I barely remember my own high school graduation, but I do remember that my high school friends felt like everything to me at the time, and I have since fallen out of touch with, uh, all of them. Life happens.

The stuff that was meh:

In theory, I am not opposed to the idea that Jellybean became the auteur/voyeur because she felt neglected and wanted attention, but it still feels like Jellybean is only about 25% of a character. Like, we heard a lot of other people (mostly FP and Jughead) tell us about JB’s motivations, but did JB have a single speaking line in this episode where she actually got to express to anyone what she was thinking and feeling? ugh. 

I don’t care about Falice, but ????? @ FP’s solution to fix JB. So... taking her back... to her drug dealing mother who did not even show up for her own son’s funeral.... is better than a child therapist? Fine. 

Nobody seemed to have any lingering reactions or trauma to Charles being a serial killer?? Like what. Is he even in jail? Or did Betty just let him go? This is actually quite inconvenient for me from a fic-writing perspective. Nobody is a better deux ex machina when Betty or Jughead need something in fic - just call their brother Charles who works for the FBI! I guess that’s done now.

I did feel for Alice, and Alice is not a character I usually feel for because she is the worst. But her husband and eldest son ended up being serial killers, Polly is in an insane asylum, the twins have disappeared from planet earth, and now FP is leaving her. Damn. That is a lot.

So did Choni breakup? It literally happened so fast with so little emotional fallout. Whatever, I don’t care about Choni.

The Beronica and Jarchie scenes were so rushed and forced. I just don’t get this storyline, y’all. What was the point of doing what they did with Betty and Archie in 4x17 and 4x18? Was it simply to break up our two main couples? Veronica and Jughead should have each had the time and space to be angry with their BFFs over what happened (because as crazy as this town is, it is still a massive betrayal) but instead they were both like: “NAH IT’S COOL SHIT HAPPENS LET’S HUG IT OUT.” It didn’t feel earned. I feel like RAS & Co. wanted the immediate drama of the ~kiss but also wanted to have this touching, Core 4 friendship moment before scattering them. What was the point. (I KNOW, I KNOW, ‘IT’S RIVERDALE’ but these characters matter to me ok and I want to understand where they are coming from.)

Bughead

This episode was... very hard. There were some cute moments, but the breakup felt so rushed and... empty? For the most part, we still have no idea where Betty’s head has been since 4x18. Presumably, she has been wracked by guilt, but terrified of telling Jughead the truth in case she ended up losing him (which, it turned out, was exactly what happened).

The scene in their bedroom where she tells him and they kiss desperately was a beautiful scene and the acting from both was oof. But I feel cheated that we did not actually get to see them talk about “us” as Jughead suggested. So did that conversation happen or not? And then to be told in a voiceover and montage that they grew apart in the space of about 45 seconds.... it was all very empty, and painful. I just.... :( :( :( 

I guess we are supposed to assume that Betty and Archie’s kiss created this chasm between them that they were unable to talk about or address head on. But it was so rushed, very “tell not show.”

anyway, this stupid show has made me sad. I AM SAD. My heart is :( @ the unspoken hurt between them that they won’t talk about for seven years. And this show is never going to address the hurt between them in a realistic or satisfying way because it is Riverdale. Usually I would immediately reach to fic to get out my feelings, but in this case, I feel more like hiding in my zombie AU then dealing with how sad this all is lol. Is that insane? That’s what Riverdale does to us. I take heart in the fact that I am not alone in my madness.

[formerlygoldilocks]

hi! do u know of any good zutara modern aus? i just read through all of ur hs fic recs and i loved each one

hi anon! i’m so glad you found my other list helpful! i love modern aus, so you’ve come to the right place.

my modern au tastes tend to be on the E-rated side, but i won’t be including any of those here. if you want a separate E-rated list, hmu. also only including completed stories here - otherwise the list would be too long

some great modern aus below!

ninety-nine percent fresh series by glowgal - this series of one-shots in which katara is a movie star is everything. so adorable, 1000/10, i love it so much. 

31 Minutes (Day 3: Fuse) by @ifyouwereamelodymeg - massive angst warning here, but get ready to be bowled over by the incredible writing in this firefighter au. still speechless over this one months later.

'cause i haven't moved in years (and i want you right here) by pentaghastly - this was an absolutely delightful au based on the movie palm springs. zuko and katara get stuck in a time loop at a wedding!! the most fun

Always the Bridesmaid by bluenebulae - zuko and katara go to a wedding as blind dates, plus we get jet as katara’s awful ex. super cute and so well-written (as to be expected from this wonderful author!)

What Remains When the Flowers Die? by @jaxsteamblog - the cutest multi-chap flower shop au. zuko is really soft here and i loved the writing!

Alternate Uses for Bathtubs by espadachina - this was recently recced for ZFAW and i am here to rec it again. it’s an adorable mini multichap in which zuko is an injured merman and katara keeps him in...you guessed it, a bathtub. 

blue brought us together by @fiyazu-lorko - a lovely one-shot in which zuko is a bartender and katara is a tired grad student. this one was hilarious. had some really sweet banter with an unexpected punch of feels

even when it runs into oceans by jamesstruttingpotter - katara and zuko are coworkers who are forced to go to a wedding together by dearest matchmaker toph. need i say more? 

A Delicate Balance by evergreen_on_the_horizon - this is a fantastic friends to lovers fic and a relatively quick multichap. i really enjoyed the writing in this one and the tension is delicious. (RATED M)

The (not so pragmatic) Tales of Ba Sing Se. by neincraff - katara meets zuko at a halloween party, but plot twist! he’s in the blue spirit mask so she can’t figure out who he is. turns out he’s one of those bad boys with a dark past. super fun read! (RATED M)

that’s all for now but there are so many amazing modern aus out there - always keeping my eyes peeled. happy reading!

[tottymatsuno]

In The Peach Pit; Saw You Fake It (Osomatsu-San: Todomatsu x Reader)

Chapter 4: Who's Kids Are These?!

Alt Title: You got games on your phone?

Author: Roro (tottytown)

Fandom: Osomatsu-san

Pairing: Todomatsu x reader

Category: Romance, technically exes? enemies to friends to lovers, coworkers, fake dating, tsundere Todomatsu, eventual bedsharing, eventual fake strangers

Rating: PG-13 (cussin)

Summary: You and Totty establish your parenting dynamic right off the ba t with a bunch of lost children.

Word count: 5800/prob 50 or 60k unedited and segmented away

Warnings: Todomatsu is still mentally ill LOL. Also sorry if u dont like or want kids i am a father who loves children so my y/n's usually do too. sorry.

commentary: trying a new opening format by leaving a lil bit of text. hope ppl like it lol. if somebody can tell me how can i upload fics w/o having to fix the automatic double space id be so grateful bc rn im spending an hour just fixing that. thank u. i refuse to use tumblr as a fic editor thank u.

Hope has failed. Ryo did have another evaluation, they determined she needed to be demoted for retraining purposes that included not only her hourly wages being sliced nearly in half but also her shifts throttled. Their reasoning for such a judgment was she didn't make customers feel welcomed enough despite being beloved by regulars. She also didn't take care of scheduling for the second shift well enough despite that never being her job because she’s the manager of the first shift. “Why are we paying you to only manage yourself and one other person? Can’t you take a pay cut?”

It was bullshit!!

A few shifts later has you and Matsuno trading stink eyes at the new managers during the morning meeting. When everyone files out of the staff room, you signal Matsuno to stay with a nod.

"Can you believe this bs?!" You harshly whisper to Matsuno after the room is empty. You forced yourself to get along with Matsuno for Ryo’s sake but now he’s the only one who will understand your plight since he spent the most time with her.

How is Ryo, the sweetest angel possible going to handle this?! She won’t lose faith in the goodness of humanity, will she?

"Yeah, I know! What the hell, why would they fire Ryoko-san?!" Matsuno whisper-yells back.

"They're trying to kill morale by getting rid of everyone we know and love so we can be the perfect capitalist workerbees!" You glare at the pamphlets for the new company motto. “That means you’ll be the only one left, Matsuno...”

"We can't let them get away with this! Why fire Ryoko-san but leave something like you on staff?" Matsuno goes as far as to rip one up and shove it's pieces in his apron muttering the second sentence underneath his breath.

"What would we even do though?" You wonder aloud, you actually really like the convenience of this job being in walking distance from home. "I don't wanna quit in protest, but I’m not charismatic enough to lead a strike either..."

"Maybe we can use these new rules to our advantage?" Matsuno suggests with a pointed look towards the previously ignored employee handbook. "There's sure to be rules in here that would be hellish to actually follow on a day to day basis but they couldn't fire us for doing what it says to the letter."

You look at Matsuno with a sinister leer, "Matsuno, I knew I could trust you to come up with an annoyingly evil scheme. What you lack in earnest charm you definitely make up in malice."

You ignore whatever the hell Matsuno said in retaliation while shooting Ryo an apologetic line message. She responds with a boatload of crying stickers and vents through a barrage of incoming emotional texts.

"Ryo...!" You sniffle in support, "Oh, Ryo! I didn't know your favorite candy line was being ended too, plus your boyfriend ate your good leftovers?! On your period as if to rub salt in your open wounds?" You rubbed your tearful eyes while reading these text messages. Maybe it’s because you know she’s so kind and was there for you in your hour of need but you really want to be a pillar for Ryo.

You send a few texts opening your heart to Ryo as well, but you make sure to let her know that you 100% love and cherish your her as your friend. You finally tell her you'll talk later after planning a friendship date outside of work. You're happy that Ryo is going to transition into a friend-friend instead of work-friend!

While being caught up in the emotional roller-coaster you don't stop for a second to see if Matsuno is still around. So it's shocking to hear him ask, "You done?" with a glance of eye contact between you and his phone. "Gimme a sec, I didn't think you'd finish crying for a while." You take a mental snapshot of Matsuno's casual posture, it's a very good image of his slightly disinterested look while leveraging half of his weight with one hand placed on a table. Like maybe a sexy librarian or professor giving a lecture? You don't know, but it's a neat pose.

"Click." You say out loud. "That one's going in the cringe comp." Memes irl can be funny sometimes, but this one is directed at your own thoughts instead of being an insult.

"What do you mean cringe comp?! I should be saying that about you!" There's Matsuno's claws. How catty. Matsuno shoves his phone into his apron before stomping off.

Well now that you think about it you really need to start work today. Everyone came in about an hour and a half earlier than usual to prep for another large event. This one is for a new but promising shounen title by that one guy who was an assistant for that other super popular dude's series. You really don't know but you'll still sell it with a smile.

In fact one of your favorite aspects of working at this bookstore is having to add little series related flares to your uniform. All the women got cute flower petal bunny ears, but the dudes are supposed to wear these really cool but extremely cheaply made neon yellow wind breakers with an intricate rose pattern and an original emblem on the breast and back.

You were jealous of the wind breaker to say the least.

In your spare time you skim the new handbook; there's a lots of rules that either conflict or as Matsuno said would be hellish to follow on a daily basis. It's clear that whoever wrote these down has never worked in a bookstore before, or even HR. Hell, some of these rules read as if they were made up arbitrarily by someone who has actually never worked a day in his life and is trying to fake sounding like he has getting by on what he kinda knows. It's pathetic.

So it's time to be obnoxiously compliant with these dumbass rules!

Every time a new manager tries to wrangle you into actually participating in preparation for this vastly busy event you remind them of daily duties that must 100% get taken care of. Who is going to call the people with back orders before 11 am if not you? Or who will do five rounds of putting misplaced books back up at least once an hour?

"Excuse me..." A little voice calls out from below when you're on round four in the cook book section. Do your ears deceive you, or is that a talking infant?

When you look down your suspicions are confirmed. "Ah, yes sir?" You ask with a few books in arm. Babies love to be treated like grown ups you've found. You’re already smiling, look at those fat cheeks. You need to give this child a free book, he looks like a The Very Hungry Catepillar sort.

"I need to go." Go?

"Home or potty?" The child starts tearing up, "Both! My mommy is lost and I need to find her after I pee! She's scared somewhere without me." You nod in sympathy, he can’t find his Mommy if he has to take a whiz.

"Okay, let's go potty first then find your mommy. I'm sure she's terrified here all by herself without you to protect her." You carefully place the stack to be dealt with later.

Right when you take the small boy's hand you hear a loud wail of another larva nearby.

"A little kid's in trouble!" You hear the tiny boy exclaim before leading him to the clearing where there stands an even smaller baby girl with one of the event balloons and bunny ears. She's trying to call out for her older sister but can't get the words out.

"Oh... Little miss, are you okay?" You ask with a slight headache forming but you have infinite patience for this kinda stressful situation. Kids are cute. You can handle this!

Your maternal instincts kick into full gear with the children in tow but after finding the 8th child lost around the boring adult sections and nowhere near the fun child friendly event on the first floor you're ready to curse some guardians out.

Who’s losing all these little kittens all over the place? Why was this one in the DIY section?!

When you finally manage to grab the 9th lost child and make it down the escalator without anyone tripping, while holding two of the tiniest ones in your arms you feel totally done for the day. Ah, there's the 10th. You manage to find the little girl's older sister who is barely any older!

"If you're lost follow me." You call while at a dragging pace with a gaggle of kids from all ages. A few of them hold hands in a baby daisy chain. There's even a twelve year old who claims he just needed to go to the bathroom but you know he’s either probably lost too or is trying to help in his own way.

So with an elementary school in tow you only have one choice which is to bother the person you know is on break. Everyone loves kids, so this might get the stick outta Matsuno's ass for once. A pitched scream scares the shit outta you for a split second and rattles your ear drums.

“C’mon now, if you’re gonna yell don’t do it so loud. There’s old people around who’s head’s will knock clean off from you breaking the sound barrier.”

Kids can be loud, huh. When you approach the cafe while the baby's take turns pulling on your hair or trying to eat it seeing Matsuno head towards the break room is a godsend.

"The potty's around that corner, Taka-kun take the boys who need to go." You direct to the twelve year old with your foot.

"I don't wanna though!" Alright.

"Eh... Wha...what's going on here? What's with all the kids?" Matsuno finally picks his jaw off the floor when you start bribing Taka-kun with the promise of a limited edition fan edition mystery box for whatever the hell MagiDigi Chronicals is.

"You drive a hard bargain, but sure you can get a cookie too." You sigh when Taka-kun goes "and a coffee!"

"Decaf only but now go!!" You gently kick after Taka-kun so tiny Nao-chan can go pee, the poor baby was just about to start the potty dance for heaven's sake. Taka-kun finally takes the other three boys around the corner. "If you make a mess the deals off!" You call out.

Matsuno is trying to also prevent the damage done by these kids but unfortunately most of them are under the age of five. "Hey wait a second! You have to pay for those!" Matsuno calls out as one of the smaller ones opens a bag of chips. Of course the other little grubby hands with no concept of money or theft join in.

"Can you do something about this -!?" Matsuno shrilly asks. You've got a handful because the two babies have now begun to alternate between pulling your hair and trying to bite your cheeks. "Please stop, I know you're not teething anymore." Too little!! You know they aren't teething anymore because when they pull your ears they try to bite them you feel teeth. It hurts like hell but goodness are these gross little demons too much!

"Why are you even still smiling?! Don't tell me you find this cute?"

You tilt your head away from the biting baby right into the blubbering cheek of the other one trying to gurgle words. "Noo, of course not." You lie. Babies are super disgusting but are incredibly cute. These two can barely waddle, how the hell did they get lost?! Shouldn't they be in a rollers?

If your upper body wasn't so used to carrying shit you could see how these less than 14 month olds could escape easily. The babies are barely walking, let alone running. Well maybe not. Their little strong legs are having so much fun kicking you in the ribs since they really want to be put down. There's the beginnings of whining too. They might need their diapers changed but your store doesn’t carry any.

"Aw... Haha, no my little ones. Let's not get fussy please, if you get fuss-fuss I'm gonna eat your lil fingies." You make one of those gentle chomping gestures back and forth to the now giggling and adorable maggots. "Yummy yummy, I love baby toes!"

You look up with a grin to see Matsuno glaring at you with the foulest look of disgust. It nearly knocks the wind outta you.

"Anyways go call their parents, I'll stay here." Get out, asshole. You're killing the vibe here. You're about to start kissing these little ones and you will not be judged for it. A few of the other children grab your attention to let you know they're hungry.

Matsuno sighs deeply before turning to dial the front office. "Everyone gets a little piece of a cookie! Understand?" You announce to the remaining kids. There's a small chorus of affirmation. How cute you think blissfully.

"It's too early to have a whole cookie, the sugar will make your gross lil tummies ache. You don't want a tummy ache, right?"

"But I can eat a whole cookie!" Says an older girl. "Me too!!" Joins another.

"Those cookies are too big even I can't eat a whole one because they're made for people with giant iron stomachs, but you both can have half of one, okay? A whole cookie at your size will melt your guts through your ear holes." You're more worried about how hyper these kids already are, as much as you hate their parents for losing them you can't in good conscience release them hyped up on sugar.

Both Taka-kun and Matsuno return at the same time. "Serve them snacks, Matsuno." The way you disdainfully regard Matsuno versus the children almost gives the babies whiplash.

"Why should I? Also who's going to pay for it?"

What an asshole. "Because they have been so well behaved." You answer while the children agree and whisper that you really are as nice as you seem.

"In what universe?! Besides we can't give this much away for free!" Matsuno protests.

"I'll pay. Feed the angels or else." Your threat seems to work in your popularity's favor. There's what sounds like a few high pitched cackling and your demon hoard of small children smile at Matsuno as menacingly as their cute little faces can conjure. So adorable!! You should become a gang leader!

After every had an age appropriate sized cup of juice, a small portion of a cookie or cupcake and were seemingly satisfied save for Taka-kun who smugly sipped a decaf iced coffee with a whole cookie to himself the guardians all finally gathered to pick up their children.

The grandparents of one of the babies came to grab her first which is not nice. You’re not ready yet! You couldn't help but defensively turn away despite the baby cooing happily at her grandma with reaching hands. The baby even gets out the words 'hi gramma' it's too cute, you won't hand her over!

"Y/n, give the baby back." Matsuno tells you clearly exasperated. "I was going to, shut up." While you're distracted the other baby is plucked from your arms. You swivel to see who betrayed you. It's a very young looking couple smothering the baby boy's fat little cheeks. The baby girl is also taken from you during this moment of hurt.

"Ah, thank you so much!" The grandmother gives you a knowing look. "You seem to be fond of kids."

“Yeah, babies are so gross and ugly.” You tell her with a huge grin. You love them.

"You should have your own before it's too late."

"Haha, no. Yuck." You laugh a bit awkwardly, "I'm not ready for that yet." You don't know how you'd handle the parasite phase of the infant's unborn life, let alone the blowouts and spittle period. Around a year old is when they reach their minimum level of being tolerable.

"I see." The grandma smiles at you while the baby waves bye bye.

There's a lot of commotion with some parents scolding or crying since their poor baby got lost at an event that was supposed to be fun! Management offers them deals on future purchases for their troubles and promise the event will be organized better despite this really not being the store's fault. The event was supposed to just be starting but all of these kids got lost on the second floor before it even began.

There's a few smiling waves from the kids, a couple shouts of bye but some of them are too distracted by their parents to say anything to you. You stand there with a dumb smile while waving back. Most of them are going to the event so that's fun.

"Taka-kun, that guy can get you the mystery box." You point out the stout manager who's name you don't remember. "Thanks, see you then." Taka-kun leaves to pester that tubby bald guy.

A moment of peace. Just one. That's all you're allowed before Matsuno tugs on your already abused ear. "Ew, why's it wet?!"

"They were at that shark age of babyhood." You say fondly. Matsuno rudely untucks your shirt to wipe his fingers on it. "I literally have no clue what that's supposed to mean." To be honest you don't even notice your shirt.

"Too young to speak so they have to communicate and learn with their small mouths. Basically they like to bite like how sharks do."

Matsuno sighs before turning to the mess that is now the cafe. "So two things are about to happen here." He says harshly.

"They were all so liiittle." You mumble not really in response. "So itty bitty, just absolutely pocket sized. I should have eaten one for dinner."

"Shut up weirdo and listen! First of all you're going to pay for those snacks, and then you're gonna help me clean this shit up before people start coming from that stupid event."

"Alright, thanks for going easy on me." You do a small salute. After paying for the eight cookies, the five bottles of juice, a couple bags of chips and one decaf coffee your wallet is a little lighter but it's okay! The smiles of sweet baby demonspawn are priceless to you.

Each time Matsuno punched in a button on the register he smacked his lips at you in annoyance.

It isn't until you're handed a broom that Matsuno finally tells you how upset he actually is. "I like kids too, but you really fucked me over with bringing them here." He half whines-half grumbles.

"Couldn't you have taken them straight to the office or something? This was my valuable break time!" Matsuno does sound very sympathetic right now as he scrubs off the dried juice from the tables.

"Some of them needed to pee." You say simply while dusting up the many spilled chips.

"There's a bathroom by the customer service area, it's like you just wanted to ruin my day!"

You think for a moment before attempting reply again. "You think so?" You guess you could see it that way, but kids are so cute.

"Why else would you bring a million brats into here when I was supposed to take my break?!" Matsuno begins to pick up the cups and bottles of juice along with the stray cookie stained napkins that littered the floor.

Hmmm. You had a reason but now it feels silly to say out loud. "I guess I thought you might wanna help them with me? I thought you might like seeing them. Plus I really wanted someone else to see how cute and polite they were. They were soo well behaved, weren't they?"

Matsuno sighs when you are finally done sweeping and switch to mopping the sticky floors. "You must really like kids."

You mod dreamily, "One of my life goals is to be a wicked stepmother. Cinderella style."

"Give that up then." Matsuno spits out rudely. "You'll spoil her until she's ugly inside and out."

You gasp, "No I wouldn't! I would be a great evil stepmom!" You have a plan and system you'd follow.

"Yeah? I just saw otherwise. You have no backbone when it comes to cute stuff at all. In fact you're all talk and no action." Matsuno is so rude.

"Okay, well that's just not true. I have a lotta evil schemes to ruin my step kids lives." Matsuno snorts at your confidence.

"Like what?"

Like what?! "I'm gonna bite them!" You say triumphantly, "Yeah while they're babies. Gonna yum-yum on their widdle toes or whatever. Gross." Matsuno instantly sees through you.

"I'll call them embarrassing nicknames and tease them in front of their friends."

"Like what, baby? Cutie pie? That's just being affectionate." You glare at him.

"Well, I'll hold their hand when crossing the street even though they can do it by themselves!" Matsuno sighs.

"That's being affectionate and responsible."

"I'll pack their lunch with a bunch of vegetables and only ONE snack."

"With a note saying how much you love them, too? Once again just affectionate and responsible."

You are losing this battle quickly. "I'll hug them everyday!"

"Are you giving up? That's just being a loving mother!"

"And kiss their cheeks too." You add, grumbling. "And we can go out to lunch at the park on weekends, and I can help them with their homework and we can do chores around the house together and if they're very good I'll get them a puppy."

"Those are all just being a loving mother, dumbass! Where's the wicked part supposed to come from?!" Matsuno shouts and you feel just an iota of silly.

"My household rules will be strict. An allowance should be earned by doing chores and not just freely given." This makes Matsuno flinch.

"Th... That actually is evil. Don't do that. Kids need money too, they shouldn't have to earn it."

Aha!

"And they should help cook dinners when they're old enough! I want my kids to take over the gross chores when I get older so I won't have to anymore. Like taking out the trash and scrubbing the toilet. After age twelve I never want to wash a dish again in my life."

Watching Matsuno recoil from you like the first time you met is very satisfying.

"That's going too far! Being a kid is stressful enough without having to do housework too. Think of the kids, they have their own lives too live!"

You blink at him, "Someone has to do it though. You don't have your mom still cleaning up after you at this age so why shouldn't you start teaching them when they're kids?"

Studying Matsuno's face changing when you said his mother doesn't clean up after him anymore is a struggle. "You don't still... Do you?" You ask with disgust.

"Hahaha! My break is over, let's finish this conversation later! You still have a while before yours right? I’ll make you a latte on the house! So yeah, see you then." Matsuno all but physically boots you out of the cafe.

You kinda take it easy despite the event. Your bunny ears have long been knocked off by babies, and you still wanna wear the windbreaker. Matsuno's looked really cool up close too.

For a brief second you and Matsuno were publicly thanked in front of the crowd for rounding up the many lost kids. After that you went on to follow more of the stupid rules to an obnoxious point. Then you were on the register pretty much until the end of the day.

You wanted to eat and take your break, but it seems like the kids who stayed all wanted to be checked out in your line. Lots of babbling of summaries from the event even though most of it is too nonsensical to follow. You animatedly try to keep up as their guardians thank you for your patience. After they were served, the lines became full of adults and older teens who bought a buncha limited edition merch.

It's always a bit awkward having to listen to guys info dump about a new series for the first time, but thankfully it comes in handy after hearing the same information over and over. It makes the discussions you are mandated to partake in go by faster as you check them out. It's also fun when housewives come in and do the same thing because you get to see which hotties are getting popular.

At the end of the shift you're called into the staff room where Matsuno is also waiting. Matsuno has a strangely fake smile but his eyes are aggressively staring down the new store manager.

"Ah! There you are, zansu. Me was just telling Osomatsu-kun how thankful Akatsuka Reads is for your help finding the brats - me means precious angels during today's event, zansu." This guy has a funny voice. He's a real character. Big overbite too.

"I'm Todomatsu." Matsuno corrects with an even darker glare.

"It doesn't matter, you're all the same." The manager says. Huh. Wonder what that means.

"So anyways, me was thinking of a way to thank you both! How about a coupon for free oden, zansu?" Right as you were taking your coupon, Matsuno starts shouting.

"Why would I want that, Iyami?! I can eat at Chibita's any time!"

"Can't you be more professional like her, Osomatsu?" Iyami tch's disparagingly at Matsuno.

"Yeah, be grateful." You add in teasingly with a playful grin. "Osomaru?" You look back up at Iyami who nods that you got it close enough.

"Osotaro." You repeat even more incorrectly than before with a fun impish smirk.

"I'm Todomatsu - also you don't get to join in! You don't even know this guy so take my side!"

"Where's the stall located at?" You ignore Matsuno to look at the handwritten coupon, it expires very quickly and only includes one serving of oden and no drinks.

"Me can show you after this, zansu." The way Iyami offers that creeps you out thoroughly. He even tries to get in your personal space which isn't a good thing. After stepping back around fifty feet you look over at Matsuno with a look that might not outrightly beg for assistance but hopefully he understands from the amount of time you've worked together.

Matsuno glares at you before nodding. "Alright, I'll go too."

"You're not invited, zansu." Iyami starts shooing Matsuno off.

"Oh, that's too bad then. Matsuno and I had agreed to get food after this since we both missed our breaks. Let's go, Matsuno." Yes, the perfect out! You lie amazingly convincing, so now your weird manager doesn't know you're avoiding going out with him. Matsuno childishly sticks his tongue out at Iyami as you walk away. He even tries to grab your arm for a second to make Iyami jealous but you hip bump nearly to the floor.

You grab your shit from your locker while Matsuno does the same. You both exchange looks before exiting the store.

When you break into a jog you hear Matsuno scream wait behind you which causes you to stop in your tracks.

"That wasn't a we make a run for it look, that was a play it cool look!! Jeeze, it's like you don't know anything!" Matsuno shouts while running to catch up. "Why are you so fast anyways?! Shouldn't you be training for the Olympics?"

"Ah, sorry Matsuno. I'm not fluent in telepathy yet." You're a bit distracted by how fucking cool that cheap piece of shit windbreaker looks in natural lighting.

When Matsuno catches back up he notices you staring him down. "Ugh, gross. Stop staring at my body." He even attempts to cover himself up.

"I wasn't, I just really want that." You could beat him up for it. You bet he's the type who might not actually call the police if you bully him.

"Want what?!"

"Your jacket." When you say this, Matsuno looks down at the windbreaker. "Oh, this? Yeah, here take it. This is more Jyushimatsu-niisan's style anyways. I would've preferred it in pink."

Your eyes sparkle, "You mean it?"

"Yeah, I only wore it at work. It's really badly made so don't expect it to last." Matsuno takes off the jacket and hands it to you. You're a bit suspicious because it's probably gonna give you a headache knowing how Matsuno drenches himself in perfume.

You sniff it just to be sure which causes Matsuno to scream." Wh-what are you doing?! Why are you smelling it?!"

You keep rotating it around to examine if there's any offensive odors or alcohol scents. Instead there's the smell of cheap plastic fabric and a light baby powder like freshness to it. This won't give you a headache. You smile before putting it on.

"Uggh... That was so weird... What's wrong with you...?" Matsuno's shivering like he's really creeped out by your actions.

"Y'know I thought it was because I went noseblind to your foul stench, but you don't stink anymore. You actually smell good now, great job." You give him a thumbs up of approval.

Something about your words makes Matsuno's cheeks light up. "Hehe, you think? I changed to Powdered Daydream by - wait! I mean of course I don't stink! I've never smelled bad to begin with!"

You wait for Matsuno to finish, "So what now?" Because you are hungry. Like super hungry. "I'm going home." Matsuno says defiantly.

"Okay, cool." You unfortunately have to still drop off Matsuno. A few weeks back you realized if you left him by himself to get home Matsuno would get hopelessly lost around the third street turn. He doesn't even have your line or number so he just yelled at you that he could've died the next day. You get the feeling he's the type of person who in high school would get lost on a route he went on twice a day for all three years if he weren't holding someone's hand. A child basically.

This is awkward, you think walking super slowly so Matsuno could keep up. He's still pouting which is normal but usually there would be at least something to argue about.

There's gotta be something to talk about at the very least, right? You think back to work today, there has to be something to go over but a lot happened and you don't really know where to start. You kinda wish you could have seen Daisuke today but he was pretty much hosting the entire event.

"So about work?" You start off, please have a jumping off point. Matsuno, please understand you can't stand weird dead air.

"I can't believe our new managers! Did you know that from now on I literally have to - with each drink, mind you try to get the customers to sign up for a rewards card? It doesn't even offer actual rewards by the way! You get nothing for having it other than a keychain! Imagine having to explain all fucking day, 'no you don't get a free coffee or any discounts. The reward is us selling your data and this shitty clearly cheaply mass produced keychain. Enjoy.' with a smile?! I want to kill myself every time!"

Matsuno's animated rant makes you laugh a little. "Dude that sucks. My new thing is I'm not supposed to give out discounts or accept returns without another guy's code. Then they get upset at me for not having said code and making him come over. Also I'm apparently underselling the books worth by taking the discounts they put out online in the newsletter?"

Matsuno glares straight ahead,"You should start pretending that the register is malfunctioning and let code guy do cashiering for you. Or say you don't know how."

"I don't think that'd work. Also remember this landmark." You say pointing at a recycling bin.

"What landmark?" Matsuno asks. "That one." You wiggle your finger, "The blue thingy."

"The recycling?" You nod.

"That one is always overfilled so if you see it you know you only have to take a left at the second block over and then walk til you see the fat cat sticker on the car bumper. After the fat cat you go straight til you see the wind chimes and then you're at the station."

Matsuno stares at you slackjawed. "What?"

"Those the directions to get to F station. Don't worry, I'll point them out as we go so you can remember them later." Your contacts are a bit itchy, plus you kinda wanted that oden but you won't chance running into Iyami. You'll drop Matsuno off then eat.

"Uh. Okay, thanks?"

Oh yeah, Matsuno seemed very familiar with that guy. You should be nosy and ask about it.

"So you must know Iyami pretty well outside of work?"

Matsuno grits his teeth, "Don't ask me that."

You won't press then.

"He's a shitty hobo bum who's always trying to ruin my life! It's a tie between him and my bastard older brothers who make life a living hell everyday! It's like I'll never obtain happiness being associated with such vile monsters but I just can't escape them either! Everywhere I go one of them finds me and fucks everything up."

So even though you did not press further here you are three minutes deep into a vent session. You kinda didn't sign up for this rant. "That sucks." You say again, maybe you'll hit him with another damn that's crazy next.

"It does suck!! Iyami got us hired at a sweatshop and it was the worst experience of my life!"

"Damn, that's crazy." You have no clue what the fuck Matsuno is talking about. "How many brothers do you have anyways?" Let's just be polite.

"Five! Five horrible older brothers! Well, actually four since Jyushimatsu-niisan is usually decent. The other ones are all garbage!"

You nod in agreement, "Yeah I'm sure they're the worst." When you say this Matsuno looks at you with stars in his eyes, "You agree?!"

"Yeah, I mean if someone as awful as you thinks these guys are bad they must be intolerable for normal people."

The stars burn out one by one. You wonder why since you tried to make it obvious that you were joking.

"Was that too dry of delivery?" You ask.

You get the silent treatment the rest of the walk to the station with Matsuno ignoring your landmarks. He doesn't look up from his phone again until he's out of sight.

[alwayssaywhatever]

I made a playlist for my fanfic

Art by my friend Ferbiie. She’s amazing and did this as a surprise and she’s incredibly talented. So go follow her tumblr, her account on Insta for drawings: littlesweetdrawings and read her fanfics at A03.

So, some of you know that I‘m writing Mystic Messenger Fanfic. I just decided to create a playlist to my wip, Wine and Cigarettes, a JuminxZen Fanfic.

There’s a few songs per chapter, and I decided to post the list here with a few notes about each of them. 

There are spoilers for the chapters on the song’s choices and explanation. I suggest you go read first and then come back here.

1- Underneath The Mistletoe

A Lovely Night - La La Land Soundtrack (The hate-love dynamics in the beginning of their relationship and the RFA being on a lovely Christmas Night).

Gorgeous - Taylor Swift (Jumin feeling conflicted about Zen)

Daddy Issues - The Neighbourhood (I think the lyrics say everything, they are lonely, ygot issues.)

Nervous - Shawn Mendes (“You make me nervous and piss me off”)

Underneath the Mistletoe - Sia (I found this one today and found cute and it’s the name of the chapter)

2- Silence and Anxiety

Toxic - Britney Spears (Zen still wondering what happened on their first kiss)

Troublemaker - Olly Murs ft. Flo Rida (Zen knowing that JUmin could be trouble)

His Status is… Preferred - Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Cast (I love this show CEG and decided to put some fun songs in the middle of this playlist and the lyrics describe Jumin well from Zen’s pov)

broken - lovelytheband (I add this one on the list after reading this fic “Trust fund party” link: https://bit.ly/3iQtXis)

Into You - Ariana Grande (Zen wondering if he should make a move before the second kiss)

3- French Cuisine

Crush - Tessa Violet (I love her music and this album, the fluff, thinking about each other)

I Like (the idea of) You - Tessa Violet (more fluff, the texting each other)

Do I Wanna Know? - Arctic Monkeys (Even if they already kissed each other twice, there’s the question if the other feels the same way, the same intensity)

I Wanna Be Yours - Arctic Monkeys (The end of the dinner)

Animal - Chase Holfelder (it’s a cover from Neon Trees and I like the slowed down version, it gets sexier)

4- Birthday Date

I Really Like You - Carly Rae Jepsen (few weeks of dating, the beginning of liking someone)

Absolutely Smitten - dodie (same from the one before)

Dive - Ed Sheeran (the fear of falling fast and too intensely for someone, wanting to make sure the other feels the same)

Talk Too Much - COIN (I love this one and thought it was too cute)

5- Confessions and Fried Chicken

Make Me Like You - Gwen Stefani (the whole panic before saying “I Love You”)

Stupid Love - Lady Gaga (fine, I love you, so what?)

Shut Up and Dance - WALK THE MOON (Zen basically saying this song before they dance together)

Baby I’m Yours - Barbara Lewis (the song that appears at the chapter, it speaks for itself)

6- The Storm After the Calm

You Deserve Better - James Arthur (Jumin thinking about leaving Zen, insecurities and fear)

Just Give Me a Reason - P!nk ft. Nate Ruess (Zen asking what’s wrong and why they are breaking up. P!nk’s lines are Jumin and Nate’s lines are Zen)

Before You Go - Lewis Capaldi (Zen asking if there was something he could do to stop the break up)

ok on your own - mxmtoon ft. Carly Rae Jepsen (the whole lyrics it’s a mix between their feelings)

7- Broken Promises

We don’t talk Anymore - Charlie Puth ft. Selena Gomez (“Every now and then I think you might want me to come show up at your door, but I'm just too afraid that I'll be wrong”)

I Was an Island - John-Allison Weiss (Zen’s pov for the lyrics)

Words Ain’t Enough - Tessa Violet (Jumin made promises with words, but his actions proved them otherwise. They broke up saying that they still loved each other)

Death By A Thousand Cuts - Taylor Swift (Zen again: “'Cause saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts; flashbacks waking me up; I get drunk, but it's not enough”)

EX - Kiana Ledé (More Zen: “Just 'cause it's different and we're not the same; Doesn't mean things have to change; I got no trouble with my pride, got trouble cutting ties”)

8- RFA’s New Members

dream of you - mxmtoon (I love her music and had to have her here too and it’s sad. The lyrics really mean everything)

i miss you - mxmtoon (the lyrics also say everything on this one)

Dress - Taylor Swift (“Our secret moments in your crowded room; They've got no idea about me and you”)

I Won’t Give Up - Jason Mraz (Zen still has hopes, so he joins the RFA)

9- A Night of Regrets

Maniac - Conan Gray (pretty much the fight from the chapter)

Walls Could Talk - Halsey (The fight gain)

Horny Angry Tango - Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Cast (the sexual tension of the fight)

We Should Definetly Not Have Sex Right Now - Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Cast (the title and the lyrics are pretty straight forward)

MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT - Monsta X (this happens after this chapter and before the next chapter. It’s not healthy, but continue to hook up)

Circles - Post Malone (the same bas from the last song, but this time Zen believes he has to put an end to all of this)

10- The Consequences To Their Actions

Never Really Over - Katy Perry (Zen thinking about the bad cycle of their hookups, but also still having feelings for Jumin)

Strangers - Halsey ft. Lauren Jauregui (Halsey lines are Zen and Lauren’s lines are Jumin)

Getaway Car - Taylor Swift (Jumin talking about their relationship was doomed from the beginning)

Mercy - Shawn Mendes (Zen demanding explanations about them, if they have a future)

Say Something - A Great Big World ft. Christina Aguilera (Zen pleading for answers)

Please Don’t Leave Me - P!nk (Jumin not wanting Zen to leave)

It Was a Shit Show - Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Cast (Zen admitting that their relationship was flawed and it should be over)

11- Comfort in an Unexpected Place

Perfect Illusion - Lady Gaga (Zen being mad about their second time was not feeling and just something casual)

Truth Hurts - Lizzo (Zen complaining to Seven)

Good as Hell - Lizzo (Seven giving advice to Zen)

Kill This Love - BLACKPINK (feeling empowered after deciding not to cry about his ex anymore. “His love is my favorite; But you plus me; Sadly can be dangerous”)

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together - Taylor Swift (putting the final stone and saying it’s over forever)

12- Kind Eyes and Good Advice

Strawberries and Cigarettes - Troye Sivan (the song that inspired the title of the fic. I could be the two singing, but Jumin is thinking about: “strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you”)

Someone You Loved - Lewis Capaldi (Jumin is all the lyrics, but this one really hurts: “I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain”)

Falling - Harry Styles (Jumin drinking and blaming himself. “And I get the feelin' that you'll never need me again”)

Ex - Stray Kids (the moment I heard this song I thought about Jumin singing this. The MV on youtube has the lyrics in English ;])

13- When a Door Closes…

i hate u, i love u - gnash ft. Olivia O’Brien (this chapter it’s more about the characters and Rika, but it’s also the first time in six months that the two saw each other and I love this song so much)

14- …Someone Breaks Through a Window

Strange Love - Halsey (RFA wondering why the two fight so much and Zen reflects about their past)

When I Was Your Man - Bruno Mars (Jumin thinking about the things he could’ve done better)

Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars (Zen thinking about the two of them after all this time)

Somebody That I Used to Know - Gotye ft. Kimbra (they being annoyed at the the other, their fights and bickerings on the chat rooms)

I will reblog this post when I add more songs to the playlist. I’ve already updates chapters 15 and 16 but I still didn’t know wich songs to add, so this is it for now.

There is a tag for the fic and I’ll update everything there as well. 

I hope you enjoyed this journey into my mind. This songs helped me write and maybe I’ll have some drawing to complete this whole work.

[aangfanclub]

liveblog s2 ep16: lake laogai

(sorry for no warning, this was kinda on the fly lol) here’s the link to the audio reaction! rough transcript under the cut. it’s safe to say we are just having a LOT of appa and zuko related feelings 

We are still not okay after appa’s lost days let’s be real 

levi: stop it with the happy music!

Sokka comes onscreen and we all immediately yell “SOKKAAAAA”

Omg sokka we respect ur drawings,,, baby those were good

Abby: i appreciate yours! I would hang yours up too

We are freaking out we are LOSING IT where is appa

Omg iroh’s getting his own tea shop?? This is all he’s ever wanted omg

Shaggy hair zuko!!! He gets shaggier every day fskldsfj we stan

Oh brooo zuko found the poster,,, he said eyebrow twitch dfjkl

Oh yikes creepy lady is back,, where did she go???

Ohhhhh angry aang popped out,,, we gonna break some rules

SDKFJSLD TOPH JUST DESTROYED THEIR HOUSE FDSJOK WE LOVE TOPH

I don’t care about anything as much as toph cares abt breaking rules

Levi is getting major jafar vibes from this earth kingdom guy

This is so scary,, ba sing se is so scary i hate it here

What happened to jet??? Did they give him a haircut

[while iroh’s talking abt teashop names] abby: what about zuko’s

Is that jet??? IS THAT JET

Abby: hey walmart peter pan

Fdklsdjjkfds KATARA OMG

Levi: me too. If i saw jet me too

Kdsfjdsl when ur ex bf shows up and u actually try to kill him

THATS RIGHT KATARA THATS RIGHT we hate jet in this household omg

Toph said who is this man lol

Ok he is hypnotized tho... what did they do to jet fr

This is all fake. Appa’s still in ba sing se this is so fake

He’s not there! He’s not there!! DO NOT GO TO THAT ISLAND HES NOT THERE

THANK YOU SOKKA SOKKA HAS THE BRAINCELL TODAY

Ugh thank you sokka for figuring it out we were so stressed

YES ZUKO YES WE LOVE ANONYMOUS ZUKO

Abby: honestly firebend. Odds.

Zuko said sometimes i need to put on a blue mask and go crazy dfslkj

MAYBE YOU SHOULD KISS HIM DKSFJSDL SOKKA

“A bad one” dsfjk aang said that’s the only way this day could get worse

Ohh babey.......

Katara is healing his mind?? Does that work? Katara be healing mental illness and trauma???

Everyone in the whole city is always hypnotized that’s insane??

Levi: never thought jet would be a piece in this puzzle. Kinda mad about it tbh

Abby: i like, really wanna know how aang’s tattoos get there. Like, do they come in when they master their airbending skills? Or do they just get tatted?

APPA OMG OMG APPA WAIT ITS ZUKO

Zuko be nice. Zuko for once in your life BE NICE BE NICE FOR ONE DAY PLEASE MAKE ONE GOOD CHOICE

Anyway stan sokka and his boomerang skills

Kill him!!! KILL THIS GUY

Zuko please im begging u. Have one moral

We STAN IROH WE STAN IROH

Is this zuko’s redemption?? Is this zuko’s one good thing????

Levi: i don’t CARE if jet dies. Just... just kill both of them

Oh jet?? Is jet gonna die???

Ohhh jet... katara heal him!! Katara!!!

Abby: is she gonna k him?

Levi: stop. Step away.

Me: not in aang’s house!

YES YES APPA’S BACK APPA’S BACK YESSSSS APPA WE ARE CRYING

Appa kill them PLEASE just kill them

Ohhhhhh they reunited i can’t handle this ohhhh i’m soft

Where’s zuko??? Where’s zuko babey?

Ohh my gosh. That was so much. That was so much

[straymutt]

It felt SO GOOD to write something abt our ot3 like 🥺🥺 ive missed these three SO MUCH

Kal belongs to @daddy-geist

Tanya belongs to @jiving

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THAT BITCH OF URS

Duke had untangled himself from Kal to take care of the wall of text that immedately bombarded his phone. He'd much rather be comfortable on the couch again than leaning his elbows on his balcony railing, reading over irate texts from a childhood friend.

Well, were they really friends anymore?

So u and kal fuckin now???? Funny cuz i feel like u told me u didnt DATE DUDES DUKE

He ran his fingers through those red curls of his, tugging out knots, reading the messages again and again. He could imagine Kei's face, what it looked like as he furiously typed on his phone, face red with anger. It was probably a very familiar look.

All that shit i did for u ba k then when u and ur bitch were constanly hookin up and breakin off all the fucking secrets i kept for you bc you didnt want to com out o the closet you dick

He remembered. How could he forget? It was during a small break up with Tanya, during one of her bouts of fearing commitment. It was too much all at once, she wanted space and Duke agreed because he didn't want her unhappy.

He was far from a virgin when he snuck out to meet Kei at the barn. He just had never been with a guy before.

The first kiss was whispered with "I won't tell anyone," and laced with weed that was too full of stems and seeds. And Duke went along with it, opening a door he was too scared to recognize, the high easing his heavy heart even as Kei climbed into his lap and pressed him down flat into the hay.

"Please don't tell anyone." Duke had whispered into the dark. A smoke filled kiss shut him up and a bite to his bottom lip sealed a promise.

"I won't tell a soul, what are best friends for?"

Kei never did tell anyone at school.

I keep my mouth SHUT and what??? Now its ok for u to just forget everything with us and get T AND KAL? Fuck u man i told u I LOVED U and u went and made it weird. Fuckin hung out w the twins and T and KAL and what???? Stopped hangin w me???? NOTHING HAD TO CHSNGED BTWEEN US BACK THEN AND NOW ITS OKY FOR YOU TO DATE DUDES WHAT ABOUT ME

He thought back to that field party, to the bonfire and the smell of spilled alcohol and weed and cigarettes. He thought about how Kei said it so confidently, "I love you and I have for a long time."

He thought about how quickly his response spilled from his mouth with no amount of grace or tact to save him.

"I don't date dudes, Kei. Please don't tell anyone this at school."

The reflection of light from the fire crackled in Kei's eyes as he looked at Duke: first with shock, then morphing to fierce anger. It was as if Kei's fury alone sparked the flames that popped beside them in the fire. Loud and buring.

Kei didn't get up and storm off. He sat still and glared daggers while Duke was the one to run away. Escape. He wasn't ready to walk through a door that Kei had flug open. He wasn't even quite ready to knock on it back then.

Kei still never told anyone. What were (ex) best friends for?

WAT ABT WHEN KAL SAYS IT??? UGONNA RUN FROM HIM TOO???

FUCKING PUSSY COWARD

The sound of the balcony door sliding open was jarring and Duke whipped around, feeling caught in his memories. He looked over at Kal, tentatively stepping out onto the balcony and into the sun. Blond hair pulled back from his face into a ponytail and his workshirt pressed crisp and clean to his chest.

"Hey, you okay out here? I'm gettin' ready to leave."

Duke's smile was easy and contagious as Kal couldn't help but mirror it.

"Yeah I'm fine," Duke came up and latched onto Kei's hairtie, quickly tugging out that ponytail before he was swatted away. The laughter and play felt good while it eased the tightness in his chest, watching with amusement as Kal tied his hair back again. Taking advantage of having both his hands occupied, Duke lent in to pepper his face with kisses.

"No, no! I don't have time for this! I'm gonna be late!"

Duke bit at the hands playfully pushing his face away before Kal hurried back inside, quickly turning to try and shut the door in his face.

The goobye exchange was quick, a rushed warning of "Don't you touch my hair, Duke!" and a kiss.

"Hey."

Kal opened the door and cast a look over his shoulder, waiting.

"Love you," Duke reached up, tucking some loose bangs behind Kal's ear.

Then he reached back and tugged out his ponytail again.

Kal's laugh was bright and warm, echoing in the apartment hallway as he stole his hairtie back.

"You ass!" He said through his laugh, "I said don't touch my hair! I love you too, I'll see you tonight."

The door shut in Duke's stupid, grinning face.

Taking a seat back on the couch, he pulled out his phone and read over the messages again. One by one, he began deleting Kei's texts.

It was a little while later that the door reopened and the clacking of heels signaled Tanya's return home. Peeking up from the couch, the pep in her step was obvious.

"So what trouble did you get into today." It was more of a statement than a question, and Tanya hummed innocently.

"Babe, I don't know why you think I just go out and cause trouble." She answered flippantly, settling down on the other end of the couch.

Duke sighed dramatically and turned his phone around to show Tanya, "We had peace for so long."

Tanya shot up from the couch, looking down at Duke as he folded in on himself in laughter. The laughing continued as she stomped away, yelling "Oh! That boy!! Who does he think he is thinking he call me that!"

The only text coming in from Kei that day reading: THAT BITCH OF URS