#Wendy Gifford

[mariocki]

Disraeli: The Great Game (1.3, ATV, 1978)

"Mary Anne, do not distress yourself; you know that whatever happens, you need never worry."

"I am not thinking about myself, don't you understand? I shall not always be here, my money dies with me. What will you do when I'm gone?"

"I cannot imagine such an empty world."

[emptytcwn]

tag dump #9

[silveranimefan]

Today's Manga: "Bungou Stray Dogs" - Story by Kafka Asagiri and Art by Sango Harukawa

-Localization: Yen Press -Translation: Kevin Gifford -Lettering: Bianca Pistillo -Design: Wendy Chan -Editing: Thomas McAlister & Carl Li

[jenneyquinn]

𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐲

in which melody looks for a date to her cousin’s wedding

a/n: happy 10 years to soos and the real girl :’) yes, this is a reverse falls hc! and NO, there is no reverse!dipcifica here

so, for reverse falls, obviously melody would be the mystery shack’s handywoman (for a moment, i considered deuce—gideon’s version of soos, who is canon btw—to work for the mystery shack, but since he only existed for a gag, melody’s stepping in for soos’ role)

some background to reverse!melody: though she works for the mystery shack, she doesn’t have the same loyalty that soos has for the pines family in canon—but she is faithful to gideon (doesn’t like the abusive nature of gideon’s parents)

basically she shares soos’ trait of loyalty to gideon, pacifica, and robbie (who takes wendy’s role)

since melody has been loyal and a dedicated employee to the mystery shack for years, one day, pacifica wonders out loud what melody does in her free time

like canon!soos, she cares for her grandmother at home, leaving only little time for her to play video games due to all the responsibilities of her work and home life

well aware of how quiet melody’s social life is, that night, her grandmother mentions her cousin’s upcoming wedding—asking her granddaughter to find a date to accompany her

unbeknownst to everyone, melody has tried dating before—more than several times (pun not intended) anyways…

and after that magician, she’s pretty much given up—but for her grandmother’s sake, the handywoman could give it another try

the following day at work, due to the lack of spare time she has, melody gets some dating apps on her phone and starts her search

… only to just as quickly feel defeated when she finds out that all the guys that have swiped right on her, not only looked attractive, but had off-putting personalities—who knew that a bio could turn someone off just like *snaps* THAT

gideon is the one who notices that melody’s not as upbeat as she usually is at work, immediately drawing concern from the white-haired boy

melody, you okay?

no… *continues swiping left, the defeated look remains on her face as she gazes down at her phone* how am i supposed to find a dumb match when all these guys are creeps?

did someone say MATCH?

*cues a cutoff from the shack to the mall, where gideon and pacifica take melody to meet people in real life*

though melody actually does a great job at getting male attention, it’s the latter that needs to pick up their slack

but can you blame her though, is there like any guy in town that isn’t totally disgusting??

don’t worry, melody, you’ll find the right guy—you just need to stick *slaps a sticky-hand toy onto her face* with it! haha!

*sighs* could this day get any worse?

right on cue, melody spots her cousin and her fiancé from across the hall—promptly causing the former to panic and take refuge inside a video game store

you know what? maybe she’ll be perfectly fine playing video games for the rest of her life… she’s got a steady job, her work friends and family are enough for her already—she should probably let a good thing be, she thinks

however, not a moment later, gideon brings a video game to melody—romance academy 7

maybe you can take your mind off your cousin’s wedding with this?

who knows, it’ll probably help you get back out there?

i dunno guys… *inspecting the case* there’s a note on it that says “destroy at all costs”

okay… besides, we can probably try to find you a date before the mall closes

just when pacifica makes her suggestion, melody makes eye contact with some jerk that winks at her—yunno, in that cocky way that gives you the ick within seconds

so, the handywoman clutches the disc

actually, i think i’ll take my chances

that night, melody tries the game out, hoping the game doesn’t turn out to be made by similar creeps that try (and fail) to hit on her

hi there! i’m gifford, a student at school university. do you need help carrying your books?

as 3 options pop-up on the computer screen: yes of course!, i can carry my own books weirdo!, oh look a squid!—melody clicks on the second response

though the game buzzes, signaling that she chose the wrong answer, gifford’s demeanor doesn’t change

okay, this game’s dumb

oh don’t be like that, just try again! could i please help you carry your books?

figuring she could at least humour the game for one night, and gifford was at least asking nicely, melody clicks the first option and gets awarded 100 “love points”

what would you like to talk about?

despite the options that show up, melody replies out loud

samurais sound pretty cool…

i think you’re pretty cool, too!

okay, this game is officially weird, she thinks, then shuts off the game and goes to sleep

how can that game hear me?

the morning after, melody hits the mall with the kids again, trying to forget whatever happened the night before

as soon as they get inside, gideon’s already trying to hold his cousin back from running into the men’s room and pushing them outside to meet melody

she’s just about to go after the kids until a familiar aritifcial voice calls out to her

hi, melody!

after spotting gifford at one of the display monitors in the front of a tv store, melody starts to get weirded out again; many questions swarming her mind

then, once gifford explains his story to melody, she’s absolutely disturbed, rushing to get home and pick up the disc to return it…

… that was, until she bumps into a vendor in the middle of the mall floor

ah, gee, i’m so sorry about that

she apologizes with haste, helping the worker pick up some of the fallen product

no worries, dude. you seem a little panicky, though. have you tried the mini trains here? i like riding them on my breaks

she corner of her lip quirks up, laughing a bit at the guy

i haven’t, actually… they sound fun, but i guess, with being an adult and all, i should be going for the massage chairs instead

nah—if it’s fun, why not? i’d say do it

you’re right… for the record, i think it’s awesome how you totally own it! i’d never think anybody working at meat cute, let alone any adult, would be into riding tiny trains!

well, i wouldn’t say work’s a total bummer… extreme lunch meats are the food of the future

she nods, agreeing

i feel the same way. i’m melody, by the way

i’m soos

and that’s how melody ends up getting ready for a date with soos, the meat cute guy

feeling more relaxed, she goes home to pick up the cursed video game, then heads to hoo-ha owl’s pizzamatronic jamboree for her date

then, of course, everything goes well until melody discovers that gifford is stalking her and soos out of enraged jealousy and all hell breaks loose

i never agreed to be your girlfriend!

but think about it: real guys are nothing but self-centred creeps and jerks—do you really think that soos will forgive you after this disaster of a date?

melody does consider the guilt from her date… though gifford is clearly the reason she got herself into this mess, she chose to buy the game and use gifford to make her feel better

but was the guilt really worth installing her brain into the game and being gifford’s prisoner forever?

looking between gifford, the kids, and her date, melody knew she had to act fast: causing her to throw the disc into the fires of the oven—destroying gifford for good

after all the chaos, melody and soos are back sitting in the middle of all the wreckage

soos, i’m sorry for all this… i guess you must be scared of me now, huh?

believe it or not, this is the first date i’ve ever been in

really?

girls don’t seem to like me…

“well, i do…” she admits, staring down and smiling before looking back up at him:

“oh, hey, you wouldn’t maybe be interested in being my plus-one to my cousin’s wedding in a week? i promise there’s like zero homicidal animatronics.”

[lifewithaview]

South Park (1997) Weight Gain 4000

S1E2

Cartman wins an environmentalism essay contest, and the prize is going to be awarded by none other than Kathy Lee Gifford. While most of the town is overjoyed, Mr. Garrison is still haunted by the memory of losing a child talent contest to Kathy, and vows to get revenge. Meanwhile, Wendy, angry over losing the essay contest and suspecting Cartman of cheating, starts doing some plotting of her own.

*First episode to use computer technology to animate the show.

[pendragyn]

Take Out The Trash by Melva L. Gifford

Offloading misspent spells at a school of magic is a dirty and dangerous job. - felt like filler with nothing to do with dragons aside from a casual mention.

Burying Treasure by Alex Shvartsman

An emperor rumored to be a dragon has a plan to draw in tourists and twin sisters find a way to cash in. - not bad but pretty meh

Dragon In Distress by Mercedes Lackey and Elisabeth Waters

An unusual trio of adventurers are summoned from a far off land by dragon magic to rescue a princess from an overly enthusiastic prince. - I've read this one before and still love it.

Over all I'd give the book 5 stars, in spite of the misses, because the hits are that good.

Even the misses aren't particularly bad so much as just not to my taste. Like "Loyalties" which leaned in heavily on the "monster-type humanoids like orcs and goblins are always evil and awful" and "humans who side with monsters have become monsters too" tropes.

There are some scenarios that could be triggering; abduction, physical and emotional child abuse, death (some graphic details), implied torture (not graphic), sexual harassment, betrayal.

A Dragon And Her Girl review

A Game Of Stakes by Max Florshutz

The daughter of a famed mercenary captain hires a dragon "matchmaker" to challenge potential suitors - Loved it

Dragon Soap by M. K. Hutchins

Fantasy swamp bayou family dealing with poverty and an infestation of disease-ridden dragon-blood craving mosquitos - Very good, satisfying ending, love the inclusion of swamp dragons

Li Na and the Dragon by Scott R. Parkin

A mother makes a bargain to keep her daughter safe. - Sad.

High Noon At The Oasis by Jaleta Clegg

An amnesiac unicorn finds a djinn and a scholar in an oasis and discovers trouble is a-hoof. - fast paced and funny

[kwebtv]

Love for Lydia - ITV - September 9, 1977 - December 2, 1977

Drama (13 Episodes)

Running Time: 60 minutes

Stars:

Mel Martin as Lydia Aspen

Christopher Blake as Edward Richardson

Sherrie Hewson as Nancy Holland

Peter Davison as Tom Holland

Jeremy Irons as Alex Sanderson

Beatrix Lehmann as Bertie Aspen

Rachel Kempson as Juliana Aspen

Michael Aldridge as Captain Rollo Aspen

Ralph Arliss as Blackie Johnson

Christopher Hancock as Mr Richardson

Patricia Leach as Mrs. Richardson

David Ryall as Bretherton

Wendy Gifford as Mrs Sanderson

[lisaannemarie]

Check out this listing I just added to my Poshmark closet: Rustic Cuff Black Stingray Beautiful Bracelet.

[cleowho]

“...and turn the climate back to normal?”

The Ice Warriors - season 05 - 1967

[nerds-yearbook]

In 3000 AD, the time traveling alien known as the Doctor (Doctor 2) and his companions arrive on the Earth during the second Ice Age. During his time there, he discovers some Ice Warriors from Mars who had been frozen since the last Ice Age. Problems arise when the warriors are thawed out. ("The Ice Warriors" Doctor Who, TV)

[myfavoritepeterotoole]

The Taming of the Shrew the Shakespeare Memorial Theatre June, 1960 directed by John Barton designed by Alix Stone

Peter O'Toole as Petruchio

Peggy Ashcroft as Katherina (Kate) Minola

Roy Dotrice as Vincentio

Paul Hardwick as Baptista

Patrick Wymark as Grumio

Ian Holm as Gremio

Dinsdale Landen as Biondello

Donald Layne-Smith as Pedant

James Bree as Tramio

Elizabeth Sellars as Bianca

Peter Jeffrey as Lucentio

Wendy Gifford as Widow

Tony Church as Hortensio

- photo by Angus McBean -

*** Act 5 Scene 2 - Katherina preaches wifely devotion - A tamed Katherina preaches wifely devotion. Shown here: Vincentio (Roy Dotrice), Petruchio (Peter O'Toole), Katharine (Peggy Ashcroft), Baptista (Paul Hardwick), Grumio (Patrick Wymark), Gremio (Ian Holm), Biondello (Dinsdale Landen), Pedant (Donald Layne-Smith), Tramio (James Bree), Bianca (Elizabeth Sellars), Lucentio (Peter Jeffrey), Widow (Wendy Gifford) and Hortensio (Tony Church).

[mariocki]

Out of the Unknown: Time in Advance (1.5, BBC, 1965)

"Nicholas Crandall. Otto Henck. Having regard to the work that you have achieved in helping to colonise those places in which you have spent the last seven years, I accordingly grant you your complete discharge, and your legal licences - to go forth from this place, and kill one man, or one woman, of your own choosing."

[mxlti-fand0m-imaginess]

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[heroicadventurists]

Batman to receive star on Hollywood Walk of Fame in 2020

The Walk of Fame Selection Committee recently announced more names that will be added to the Walk, including Julia Roberts, Spike Lee, Chris Hemsworth, Octavia Spencer, Laurence Fishburne, Mahershala Ali, Lina Wertmuller, Ruth E. Carter, Christina Applegate, Andy Cohen, Cindy Crawford, Terry Crews, Kathy Lee Gifford, Nigel Lythgoe, Milo Ventimiglia, Burt Ward, Wendy Williams, Dr. Phil, Harry Friedman, Andy Kaufman, Dave Chappell, Billy Porter, Susan Stamburg, Elvis Costello, 50 Cent, Alicia Keys, Billy Idol, Bobby Rydell, Alejandro Sanz, Tanya Tucker, Andy Madadian, Muddy Waters, Sir Lucian Grainge, Mo Ostin and Batman. These icons were selected from a list of hundreds from all over the industry and their names will sit atop their very own bronze stars in 2020.

Batman joins a short list of 21 fictional characters to get a star on the Walk of Fame. He will join the likes of Mickey Mouse, Minnie Mouse, Alvin and the Chipmunks, Bugs Bunny, Kermit the Frog, Snoopy, Snow White, The Munchkins, The Muppets, The Simpsons, Tinkerbell, Shrek, Big Bird, Rugrats, Winnie The Pooh, Woody Woodpecker, Donald Duck, Strongheart, Lassie, Rin Tin Tin and Godzilla. It's fitting, as this year DC and Batman fans are celebrating the Dark Knight's 80th anniversary. He was created by Bob Kane and Bill Finger and introduced in 1939's Detective Comics #27.

Batman will be the first comic book character to receive a star on the walk.

Congratulations to the Caped Crusader. Here's to another 80. This is a win for the entire Batfamily and his villainous rogue's gallery.

Source: CBR

[emilys-list]

California Assemblywoman Wendy Carrillo won the 2019 Gabrielle Giffords Rising Star Award. Fleeing a civil war in El Salvador, Wendy and her family made the long journey to the Eastside of Los Angeles when she was 5 years old. Wendy received citizenship in her early 20s, was a first-generation college student, and the first in her family who was able to vote. It is courage and resilience that brought her into public service. Her leadership has helped advance policies that create jobs, make higher education more accessible, and protects civil rights for all Californians. Thank you, Wendy!

[hanzi83]

Next Level of Instilling Paranoia

I think the harassment has been taken to a new level with me. First I could just be dismissed as being crazy, which surely I will be labeled again. The cold and callous will post this on a sub reddit dedicated to me to further ensure I will be instilled with more paranoia, and even with something I have seen with my own eyes right now is making it a lot clearer than people in powerful positions are hacking my stuff. Maybe I am not as alarmed because I always have suspected that every tablet, every phone, every computer is tapped and I am always being monitored. Before people accuse me of being this deluded to think I am this important like the usual diatribe I am met with, I know everyone else is also monitored but some people willingly help the system because they are being blackmailed or paid. I was checking my facebook public page where trolls are attacking me, and normally seems these trolls are on meth and that is what is used to bribe them into harassing me because the comments are so random and so non imaginative. If someone is being mean to me and I know these people are paid to do this, I will stoop to their level in name calling because I know this particular people are sent to fuck with my head. I noticed comments left from me, and it was not on my actual public page but rather my personal page sending those messages. I did not post those messages, and even with me changing my password, these people will still have access and they will not stop.

It feels like I did not give in to their plan, that I suspected these soulless assholes to have, of killing myself from the constant reminder they are watching me, and even if that is a lie, it is at most cohesion to make an effort to instill paranoia and payback for even daring to attract some kind of audience, and talking about the people in position of power and since they dismiss me for being a mentally ill momma’s boy in the basement who is spewing conspiracies, but when I use my mental illness, it becomes me using it as a crutch when I am using it to my advantage since it is true. No one in their right mind could fake being this mentally ill, and while I am never proud of going off in a fit of rage and saying whatever is disrespectful because I am longing for the day I never have to be here anymore, but now that I have not killed myself or attempted to, even though there have been days the last few months where I have been going off and been more transparent about not wanting to endure all of this mental torture, that most people will not see from their view, or people who have purposely blocked the view because I am not a priority in this planet, so now they hacked my phone and make it transparent about it because it dawns on me that this is 100 percent and there is nothing I can do to change it.

I could contact facebook but they are probably run by the alt right types and they allow some of the most fucked up people on these platforms. It could be numerous people and I can throw shade at a lot of people in my life who I think would do this because a lot of them have ties to government types, some of them are part of IT and probably get paid to troll me, it could be Stern Show related since I had Wendy the Slow Adult on, and ask her questions about how Howard is not helping her, because it would be insane for someone who just offered help to Kathy Lee Gifford could help someone he exploited for entertainment and replay it nonstop for several years and then when he decides he wants all the money he could give a fuck about them, so when I bring light to that a little more, it could piss off the wrong people.

There are the usual people who have dedicated a sub reddit to me and create rumors about me nonstop, like me transitioning into a woman and wanting to darken my skin, me and some other Stern Show associate are gay together etc  or that I beat up a gay couple or that I have weapons, which I don’t and don’t plan on having access to, and try to make me out to be more extreme than I am, and fail to mention how people are dedicated to watching me and instilling paranoia and fear and if I dare snap back and get mean with them, because these people are designed to be non caring and unsympathetic individuals then they make it out to be like I am the one being an asshole like I am not being provoked. One guy I suspect is that youtuber who did the Stern imitation and since he has lost his crew and got banned as his regular name, then went the basketball route, which failed because he was copying others work without any credit, and now he became a reddit story guy who does youtube videos, and since he has been exposed by that community and doing his usual tricks of doing live streams where he sets up how he is the victim in all of this, even though he is not a victim by any stretch. He always takes from Stern in that, because people who have been the biggest bullies on the planet make it seem like they are the ones being bullied. “Don’t you do that Hanzi?” Yeah and I still think I am a victim, but what does it matter, no one believes me anyways? How many tweets, blogs, videos etc have I done ad nauseam where I say the same shit, and stuttering like a fucking jerk off and nothing has been investigated. This person who I suspect has been behind it has really tried to get me to kill myself and because I did not know who he truly was, which conveniently got put out there after months of me not wanting to be part of his show, and cosigning it, he has had a vendetta and in the process of him getting exposed by his new community and still being able to convince people he is the victim, he and others associated with him are still torturing me.

I have also been vocal about the WWE and their supposed gangster ways which I theorize because I have no facts to back me up on that matter, but it could be their trolls who also have decided to fuck with me and have held a grudge for me calling them out for shilling for the company. I have made a plethora of enemies and every one of them will continue to hate my guts. I bet if I post this on facebook, there is a good chance this might be deleted and maybe by bringing light to it they might back off but why would they back off, if no one is ever going to call out Howard Stern because it is not convenient enough. I sure as hell can’t expect any leftist to have my back, or maybe they do in spirit, but maybe because I think their voice is limited with what can be said even though it is much more than what is being said mainstream, but maybe because I call that out, why would they want to help me or expose this. They might have hints on their podcast about how people can be framed by a crime or made to look like they are crazy but nothing will ever be done.

I frankly don’t like to be here because I really feel like I am living in an episode of twilight zone but it is a never ending story of the main character bitching and no one even caring because he has burned every bridge and the people in charge no letting me die is too easy for me because it is what I want the most, and to never be seen since I am never going to be respected. I have not earned respect and the people in the system, as a collective, even though presented as individual opinion, will carry the narrative of me being entitled and a cry baby for knowing my value, even though the system tries their best to devalue you to everyone else in the world and never fill you in on the hidden rules that people will never know exist and continually have a limited view on what is transpiring. People are going to keep fucking with me. I know people in my life hate my guts and I will never trust a soul on this planet. I am in so much mental pain and I realize bitching about incessantly is not the answer, but it is better than drugging myself and boozing myself like the predecessors in the game who took what their masters served them and then continued an age of ignorance and propaganda and then further continue this propaganda by making it seem any type of leftist mentality is the problem and conflate it with the centrist mentality where systemically they support racism, homophobia and misogyny that they ingrained into most of us by making it seem fighting the system is the right to say those things and carry those attitudes. So if I have to write down my thoughts, and as boring as it gets because it is the same fucking episode over and over, it lacks substance and I have been so bombarded with nonstop thoughts and not being able to retain everything or comprehend everything I have become inept and just am counting down the clock of when I am allowed to just die because I will never belong here.

I have to continue living for some reason but these people are so dangerous and so full of vengeance towards me they will stop at nothing to be the cause of a failed attempt at suicide because they never let me succeed to begin with, and they surely would not let me succeed in suicide, they would make sure to keep me alive but under their custody because they can then abuse me even more and no one will say anything. It will be too late before any independent media outlet will ever call out Stern, barely anyone does and if they do, they do it for old material in his show which does not age well in today’s more politically correct times, but not the actual propaganda he was paid to spread and the evil things he has done to protect his spot, and it hurts so much because even I feel like my friends and loved ones have been recruited and it hurts me every time I wake up to realize people who I thought were strong willed would compromise their soul just to be included with the elite type and get advanced screenings, free tickets, access to industry sold pussy, that we cannot expose because we are creating a fake woman empowerment in the mainstream so implying that the world is run by sex etc, it would be a mansplaining type of moment from an “incel” in his mother’s basement. Even more reason to just be left for dead. I don’t belong here.

I really will never have any help and it is okay. These people will continue to do evil shit over and over and as much as writing the same shit in more mediocre ways for each blog I continue to write, I will choose that instead of doing anything to anyone or myself but please anyone in the system who claims to be good, if you read this don’t pimp out my name for your podcast or website if something happens to me and I know you won’t listen, because you won’t listen now, so when push comes to shove and something does inevitably happens to me, you will have no shame and fucking cover it and pretend to act shocked that this could have happened. These people will eventually have to kill me, they already have me on many government lists so they can justify keeping an eye on me because they can say my conspiracies are a danger to the population and I will end up doing something to someone and the only way that could happen was if they made me MK Ultra and do something. One day Howard Stern will be exposed for the piece of shit he is, and same with Vince McMahon and whoever else they recruited to fuck with other people when they speak out too much. I know people I know personally will be absolved from any wrongdoing because they were probably blackmailed or bribed and then when it becomes convenient they can pretend they were on my side the entire time.

I will never be free mentally and every single day I regret waking up to any of this and I wish I was seriously aborted. I really never did belong on this planet and I will beat that shitty drum forever. You take pleasure in my misery and taking bets in your discord serve about my self destruction and they do this with everyone else they monitor in the system, Again it is all my opinion and my mental illness that you will never take seriously because even some of these supposed independent types have sold out and have become more corporate and are actual Stern fans so they will never expose a Zionist because then you will be labeled an anti Semite. Fuck this planet forever. I will continue to wish my misery will be put to an end, I better stop writing this blog because I am just repeating myself even more than usual, and this is what happens when your head has been consumed with the possibilities of the secrecy and then having to worry about memorizing names, and retaining more valuable information that I have to just analyze this world like it is a wrestling storyline and even that has been taken from me from other people.

I can’t wait until someone in the wrestling world steals more of my thoughts from my blogs but will never have the balls to admit they were in any way influenced by anything I write but the point is I am being hacked and there is nothing I can do to stop it because it could be literally anyone helping them. Is this just a way to get me off of facebook completely since it is turning to shit? I wonder what they will fucking do next but it is going to get worse and it is probably going to really hammer home my mental illness and because I am not forgiving to those who partook in making me feel like shit they will then show how vindictive they are and the best part is they will never have to answer to any of this shit until they see it convenient to make it known but then these same people want to make some kind of peace and since I am holding a grudge against people who I think have made my days worse and really made me regret waking up and just to be hurtful toward me, where I have to be hurtful back, these people will continue to hold a grudge against me and will keep putting their steel boots to my neck until I give in and accept them for doing what they have done because I am sure it is just business but to me when you try to it known that I am being profited off of and being pimped out for others to make money and then instill fear into me about knowing my every move and posting my blogs before I even post them on tumblr. I don’t take kindly to that. I am getting bored with even writing this shitty blog because I have said all of this before and these people know I am limited with my vernacular so there is only so much I can express and nothing happens so then I will have no choice but to attempt suicide.