#Well not shameless lol

[herefortheships]

There's something I totally haven't talked about in this blog in a while, and since I have many new people following me recently (which I'm super happy and grateful for 😊✨ Thank you!), I thought I should share!

Ok. I'm just super bad at self-promoting, because I'm an introverted and shy person (and it's also embarrassing for me to self-promote; the least I want is to seem annoying or pretentious or something 🥲🙈).

But yes, here it goes:

I have a new song out since July! My song is called "The Songstress" and it is the first song I ever produce all by myself. You can listen to it on YouTube in this link for free if you like. Or if you want to support me some more you can stream it on Spotify or other streaming platforms (it's on Amazon, iTunes, Apple Music, and many others, since I used DistroKid as a distributor). Or just subscribe to my YouTube channel because it also helps the algorithm with visibility.

I hope you like my song! Next song was going to be out in October. Let's see if I can get it finished by the end of the month. If not, next month. It will be titled "Scarecrow". I just have to get it mixed and mastered, but the song is complete now.

[mickeym4ndy]

I wish the day, it soon would come When he & I could be as one

[sluttygallavich]

Galladrabbles: autumn

Thanks, @millennium-time-machine, for this week's prompt. Great first prompt for @galladrabbles! <3

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His co-worker nudges him sharply, and Ian looks up as his crush approaches the counter.

“Hey, Mickey.” He sounds breathless. “The usual?”

“Hmm, feelin’ bold today. Gimme a venti pumpkin spice latte, eight shots of espresso, five pumps of maple pecan sauce, light foam, extra caramel drizzle, extra autumn sugar topping.”

Ian is stunned stupid. “Are—are you serious?”

Mickey laughs. “Nah, man. Just wanted to see that big orange head of yours explode.” 

“Asshole,” he says, fighting back a smile. “So…tall black?”

“Well…did say I was feelin’ bold. How ’bout your number, too?”

Battle lost, Ian beams.

[deedala]

SHAMELESS CREATORS NETWORK SEPTEMBER THEME: COLORS

[mossy-paws]

Dreamgraft and Jestergraft (PHIGHTING!)

Hi to my tumblr followers sorry for neglecting you all again I SWEAR I JUST KEEP FORGETTING TO POST ALL OF MY ART LMAO THERE WILL BE A LOT MORE FOOD FOR YOU ALL SOON

anyways,,,, my sons,,, my boys,, my la creaturas,, I don’t think jester is a repost but he may be LMAO but!!! Enjoy these two :3!!!! I’m currently trying to speed run all of my overdue artfight refs so art may be a bit slow once I get all of my doodles and TMA au teasers done! Speaking of the TMA designs also- I’m getting close to being done with a really good chunk of them, so I’ll probably be posting more teasers soon, after I do get all of the lineart bits for them done that’s when I’m going to start coloring all of them (most likely after summer/artfight) so be sure to keep an eye out for those!

[killmymind]

SHAMELESS

1.04 — “Casey Casden”

[swiftfootedachilles]

im just gonna be honest gang obviously its gonna be easy for you to say youre in love with a character and theyre an angel when anytime they do something you don't like you brush it off as out of character

[dr-wormman]

Got a little weird with this one since I've had mosaics on the mind

[m0e-ru]

(watched visualive again voice) they should be friends

[marley-manson]

Hawkeye has virtually no shame about public displays of emotional vulnerability and mental instability, imo.

I’ve seen a lot of people who place a lot of importance on Hawkeye’s “If this keeps up, people are gonna realize I'm as crazy as I think I am,” line in Hawk’s Nightmare but honestly I just see it as mainly a wry acknowledgement that he’s acting less than sane in public and weirding out his childhood friends back home by detailing his nightmares to them, with a side of alluding to his actual fear, which is being crazy, as he tells Sidney over and over during that conversation. The key word there is “think” not “realize” imo.

Sidney reassures him by telling him his nightmares mean he’s sane, not by telling him that they’ll go away and he’ll stop publically sleepwalking. In fact he implies it’s something that will continue until the war’s over, and Hawkeye doesn’t seem to have a problem with that as long as it doesn’t mean he’s actually going insane.

And Hawkeye never really demonstrates any concern over people witnessing his breakdowns, and in fact seems to go out of his way to make them public half the time. I mean you got your most blatant example in Bananas Crackers and Nuts where he’s happy to exaggerate his feelings to make people think he’s insane to get a break. But even when it’s genuinely serious (and less cartoony, tonally), he’s also got no issues making public scenes.

He doesn’t quietly seek out Potter or BJ alone when he decides yes he is in fact seriously ill in Bless You Hawkeye, he walks right into everyone having a meeting and announces that he’s gonna die. He’s not only perfectly fine with Sidney visting him for a consultation in Hawk’s Nightmare, he’s the first to acknowledge why he’s there during the poker game while Sidney’s trying to be politely subtle (”Mind if I come along?” “Fine with me Doc, as long as your couch has wheels on it.”) He also ofc calls his childhood friends and tells them he’s having fucked up nightmares about them, tells everyone else about them to ask for their opinions, and tries to have a heart to heart with Frank about being afraid to go to sleep.

He makes a joke about cracking up at the farewell party in GFA, and tells some random patient he just had his “head in a cast,” apropros of nothing. He throws a tantrum in Adam’s Ribs, he publically screams out his feelings at the end of For Want of a Boot, he loudly narrates his impending panic attack in CAVE (and says that the reason he kept quiet about it for a while is specifically because he didn’t want Potter to choose a less safe place to retreat to on his account), he casually describes his emotional state as “mania” to Potter in Depressing News while, yk, building a big tower for 2 days without breaks in the middle of the camp, he breaks down in front of BJ - a guy he’d only recently met - in The Late Captain Pierce, he angrily confronts everyone about feeling betrayed and abandoned by them in the phone scene in GFA. We don’t see what he does after Dr. Pierce and Mr. Hyde but he casually mentions the insomnia to Winchester in Dr. Winchester and Mr. Hyde so he’s fine talking about it. He has two public breakdowns in the O.R. that I can remember off-hand.

And he never demonstrates any shame or regret about the public nature of any of this.

He never tries to hide his feelings - I think the closest he gets is in Sons and Bowlers, and he proceeds to tell Charles how he’s feeling for the entire rest of the night in that one - and while nearly everyone else gets plotlines where something’s troubling them that they don’t want to talk about, Hawkeye never ever does. He’s usually the one prying these feelings out of other characters and chiding them for not talking about them. Even in GFA what’s stopping him from talking about it is the amnesia - he’s reluctant and upset about having the conversations about the bus because he’s subconsciously afraid of remembering, but he still does, and after he has his breakthrough he willingly talks it through with Sidney multiple times afterwards as well, both offscreen in Sidney’s mention of follow-up sessions (including Hawkeye explicitly wanting more of them), and on screen when Sidney visits the 4077.

And in Bless You Hawkeye, the other trauma amnesia episode, he’s perfectly willing to a) accept it could be psychosomatic, b) talk about it with Sidney to find the root cause, and c) joke about it afterwards during a poker game.

And then you got a bunch of moments and jokes where he shamelessly reveals personal information about himself, sometimes likely exaggerations that he’s still fine with people believing, sometimes clearly accurate. I sucked my thumb until my twenties, I can’t get hard, here’s the kind of niche sex I like, I’m a coward and proud, I’m fucking my married ex, I was jealous of my dad’s girlfriend, monologue about how much I miss my dad to a stranger, monologue about how miserable I am to a stranger, monologue about how terrified I am to a stranger, etc etc.

There’s also overt commentary on this - in Check-Up for example, Hawkeye suggests that Trapper got an ulcer because he’s the strong silent type who keeps his feelings in, in contrast to himself. In Bless You Hawkeye Sidney points out that Hawkeye never holds back when it comes to his feelings about the war, which is why he’s assuming the root cause is something Hawkeye isn’t even consciously aware of and goes back to Hawkeye’s childhood.

When it comes to Hawkeye it’s very difficult for me to imagine a scenario where he would try to hide anything about himself, whether that’s his feelings or something about his life, and I have a feeling it was the same for the writers of the show most of the time too lol, hence relying on amnesia twice for the mystery and reveal structure.

[mickeym4ndy]

u ever see a shameless opinion u disagree so hard with but u don’t have the energy for the discourse so u just take a breath scroll past and get on with ur day

[neriyon]

Vanilla Gpose Challage - 2: Landscape/Location

"Wanna come watch fireflies with me?"

This game has so many pretty locations that choosing just one is hard. So! Since I already have a screenshot project focusing on overworld landscapes (link) with IC lore to go with them, I decided to go with a dungeon location for this.

Saint Mocianne's Arboretum is always a beautiful dungeon, but at night the plants around it start to glow~ Starting areas even get cute little fireflies, while later parts have some nice waterfalls.

Bonus pic, with all entities hidden:

[deedala]

Colorwheel Timestamp Roulette ⇆ 07x12: Requiem for a Slut ↳Gold + 12 for @sickness-health-all-that-shit

[widevibratobitch]

actually im kinda happy with it lol probably because ive given up quite some time ago but yknow. its not that serious.

[m4ndysk4nkovich]

somethings that i’ve found a lot of people misinterpret about me/my blog that i just want to clear up:

i love fiona and lip, and i love how complex and interesting their characters are. i call them out when they deserve to be called out, just like i do for every other character, and just like every other fan does to debbie. i honestly don’t like any shameless character 100% because believe it or not, one of the main points of the show is that they come from a shitty background and do really shitty things (hence the title: shameless!).

i don’t defend all of debbie’s actions; there are things that she has done that i despised, but overall, i am a debbie apologist and i understand why she did what she did. i explain my thought process on her actions, but just because i do that doesn’t mean that i condone all of her actions.

this is weird but i don’t delete people’s asks that are anti-debbie??? multiple people have accused me of doing so which is just weird. i wont lie, i’m very bad at responding to asks, and i know that a lot of my followers have sent some amazing asks that i dont know how to respond to (believe me, i’m not ignoring them i just am really bad at responding), but whenever something is anti-debbie i almost always reply pretty quickly. i never delete those asks, and the ones i do i only delete because it’s just literally people trolling.

whatever, i just want to say that everyone interprets media differently and everyone has their own opinions and thoughts. this is my blog so i can post whatever i want, and anyone who’s seeing this can post whatever they want on theirs. i get that i take this entire thing very seriously because i love analyzing media and shit, but overall, it is just a show and people should probably try to calm down a bit.

[merakiui]

Your tags talking about being alone in the woods with jade made me think of this one thought I had bouncing around in my brain for a while. The thought of being alone with jade at night at the campsite you both put together, sitting by the campfire while drinking something he "borrowed" from the lounge stocks and getting buzzed from it. The innocent touches (which were really just him using the opportunity to getting ever so closer to you) slowly turn into him fucking you into the dirt while you're on your hands and knees.

Sorry if my utter depravity for the eel man bothered you. Your tags made me think of it and I had to let it out.

Omg yes... this is the dream. OTL getting drunk in the forest with Jade and then getting railed into the ground. <3

Imagine if the two of you aren't even that close to begin with. You're only staying in the forest to gather materials because you're partners for a project in Professor Crewel's class. But when Jade reveals a bottle of some pretty-looking liquid and tells you it's come right from the lounge's secret stocks, you have trouble denying him. Jade's good at making the worst ideas sound so pleasant, which is exactly how the two of you end up buzzed and whisper-giggling about the silliest of things around a crackling bonfire.

Alcohol always makes strangers seem so much more attractive, and the amber glow from the dancing flames highlights Jade's handsome features so nicely. You realize he's much closer than he was before, his shoulder practically touching yours as he leans in. Under normal circumstances, Jade would never be this intimate with someone he hardly knows, let alone the human Azul's tasked him with gathering information on (it's strictly business, or so he'll lie). But he can blame the alcohol for that come morning when the sun's risen and the fire is but mere ash and still-warm embers.

It's only natural that teasing, experimental touches will snowball into something more deliberate when inebriation guides you closer to lustful attraction. Wandering hands, fleeting smooches, the shedding of pesky clothes... You'll be on your knees before you know it, with your face pressed into your arms to muffle your moans, while Jade's pounding sloppily into you from behind, his hands gripping your hips so roughly his fingertips leave crescent-shaped indents in your skin. You'll spend a good portion of the night fucking in all sorts of positions, and come morning you'll wake in the tent, curled into each other like two perfect puzzle pieces.

There's a heavy silence that thickens in the air when both of you realize your proximity and slowly detach yourselves. You gather your clothes in awkward silence, dressing as quickly as possible alongside Jade. He tells you he's content with never speaking of what occurred if you are, and you agree immediately. What happens in the forest stays in the forest. You make this truce with a mouth full of granola and a mounting sense of embarrassment.

After taking the tent down, packing your supplies, and cleaning your area, you set off for NRC. Jade spies the bruising bite mark on your neck, just slightly higher than the collar of your shirt and completely visible to anyone who might be looking. He can't help the amused smirk that crawls onto his face. That'll be there for the rest of the week.

And so will your image in his mind, apparently.