#Want to be numb
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unconditionally
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#megumi#yuuji#im shaky and numb the way this took years off my life#genuinely cannot believe i thought it was smart to make it a comic i could have stuck at a painting and it would have been fine#but nooooooo in my hubris i thought Surely im an expert at this longform stuff now Surely i can do it :)#and then it killed me it killed me dead this is like over twice as long as the train comic and 4 times as detailed#backgrounds . angles. i yearn fr death.#AND I HAD 2 WRITE THEM ACTUALLY TALKING GGSDH i am actually so insecure abt the way the dialogue flows gomen....#i wanted to add more to it to fix how clipped and rushed i think it reads#but that would mean drawing more expressions would mean drawing more panels would mean more gd hyDRANGEAS#so ultimately i decided 2 have the conversation take the hit because let me tell u.#if i have to draw. one more blue petal i will snap i will lose it#i knew tht would happen n wanted to alleviate some of the pain so i found a few brushes that helped speed up the process#but the thing w a lot of premade flower brushes is they also come preshaded n look uniform in a way that stands out badly against my style#so i had 2 render over them anyway........#yuuji's domain rly putting me through the wringer first the train station now death by a bajillion petals smh#all that to say tho . my labour of love . i am going to take a nap#hina.comic
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Too many thoughts rn and it's 1:30 AM and I'm running on caffeine (2 cups of tea)
#cyril.txt#i want to wipe my memory so badly rn#i dont even have a reason for this#i just#too much#want to be numb
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I’m tired
Of
Feeling too much
#my tattered heart#heartbroken#anxiety#cptsd#pain#heartbreak#heartache#where are you#my love#want to be numb
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a quick silly sketch based off my earlier post about the Cat King having a mistaken identity crisis when Edwin and Co. don't recognize him in his new cat form post-esther
#catwin#the cat king#edwin paine#edwin payne#dead boy detectives#dead boy detectives spoilers#my art#if you saw this post earlier no you didnt#stupid sketch just to get it out of my head lol#he's in trouble boys#I haven't decided how i want to draw Edwin yet bear with me#this is like the first time ive touched my tablet since i went numb so its a little shitty but#it feels nice to make even a little bit of art
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I just want to start a flame in your heart~ 🔥🧡🔥
#BEING THE CHANGE I WANNA SEE#AND FOLLOWING THRU FOR ONCE#they were friends!! they clicked instantly!! the first decent person she met and the first not to turn away when he told the truth!#She wanted to take him home and he wanted to go with her!!!!!!!!#no im not over them they're GREAT!!#Vaultknight#maximus fallout#lucy fallout#lucy maclean#lucy x maximus#fallout#fallout tv series#fallout tv show#fallout prime#fallout series#fallout tv spoilers#brotherhood of steel#myart#fanart#artists on tumblr#been wanting to do more lineart stuff so i thought i'd do some quick and dirty black lined stuff#which turned out not to be so quick. or dirty. in fact i refined so much my hand is numb now#worth itttt
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after jasons death bruce "accidentally" slips harvey a crowbar while hes in arkham and kisses his cheek and says, voice soft and colder than ice, "make him hurt for me honey"
it takes 6 guards to sedate and drag two face off the joker the next time two face sees him and for the rest of their lives as soon as harvey sees the joker he goes after him like a rabid dog.
#harvey voice: you know why im not killing you jokes? cause you can only die once and i want to hurt you so much more than i want to kill you#jason was harveys baby too after all#spent my entire boring work meeting thinking about how robin!jason bruharvey would end in the joker dying no matter what bc of two face#this is all bruciemilfs fault btw. theyve been making me insane about bruharvey#bruce wayne#harvey dent#two face#also bruce doesnt tell harvey to kill or not kill the joker bc he cant request someones death#but he also cant make himself ask for his sons murderer to be spared#i dont think any version of bruce would be comfortable with openly planning someones death let alone actually doing it#but after jasons death he gets so cold and numb to everything that he just turns away from it#he knows hes being too violent.knows hes hurting people too much but the only time hes not remembering how small jasons body was in his arms#is when his blood is roaring in his ears during a fight. maybe if he becomes the worst monster in gothams shadows#no more little boys will go cold and silent. no more fathers will stand in the doorway of rooms that will never be full again
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In which; the Bats and Birds are looking into Vlad Masters as he is a very new and suspicious figure in the elites. Bruce Wayne meets someone he didn't account for; Masters' God son, coincidentally the only survivor of an accident that took the lives of his family.
Vlad sells a pity party to 'Brucie' Wayne, and invites him over for dinner with his children, boasting about his godson's cooking skills.
The meal was pleasant.
The meat was unfamiliar.
#Yes this is inspired by Hannibal#No I've never seen the show#I wanted Danny to initially be forced into eating humans but overtime became numb to it#Still sometimes vomit bc of it though#This was an excuse to think about cannibal Vlad I'm ngl#mans got 10x creepier#dp x dc#danny phantom#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#danny fenton#dpxdc#dpxdc prompts#batfam#dc x dp#dc x dp prompt
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a gentle touch
#sukugo#ryomen sukuna#gojo satoru#my art#artists on tumblr#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#my hand is numb LMAO#but yeah idk. wanted to try out something
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I hate myself.
I hate my face.
I hate my eyes.
I hate my ears.
I hate my nose.
I hate my mouth.
I hate my lips.
I hate my hair.
I hate my neck.
I hate my shoulders.
I hate my chest.
I hate my back.
I hate my belly.
I hate my hips.
I hate my arms.
I hate my hands.
I hate my fingers.
I hate my skin.
I hate my crotch.
I hate my thighs.
I hate my knees.
I hate my legs.
I hate my feet.
I hate my ankles.
I hate my toes.
I hate my smile.
I hate my laugh.
I hate my scars.
I hate my stretch marks.
I hate my bones.
I hate my body hair.
I hate my voice.
I hate my mind.
I hate my thoughts.
I hate my dysphoria.
I hate my depression.
I hate my anxiety.
I hate my eating disorders.
I hate my trauma.
I hate my nightmares.
I hate my past.
I hate my memories.
I hate my childhood.
I hate my adolescence.
I hate my adulthood.
I hate my existence.
I hate my life.
I just hate every single thing about myself so fucking much...
#dear diary#worthless#empty#tired#useless#i want to die#i hate myself#i'm sorry#pain#alone#anxiety#self harm#suicidal#sad#depression#heartbreak#hurt#hopeless#kill me#lost#lonely#broken#numb#not good enough#i have no words to express how much disgust i have for myself...#i just hate myself#tw
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Give me the mean brother. He doesn't need no fixing.
#I need him to put me in my place#i need him to fuck me up#I want his frozen Popsicle ❄️#to slap me and wreck me until I'm numb#mk bihan#bi han#bi han sub zero#bi han x reader#mk1#smut art#art doodles
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Can you pls draw Scarian and kid Xelqua sleeping/ cuddling in Grian's nest bed?🥺🙏
ahaha this doesn't rly work too well buuut... doodle...
just. just imagine the nest there. pillows blankets and plushies.
#too much to factor in.... grian's wings.... xelqua only wants to sleep right There#ask#my art#kidxelqua#scarian#the bed might actually be small by scar's size adgjadjg hes gotta bend his knees a little#my dog is sleeping on my lap while drawing this and im bent in the worst position to draw in my legs are NUMB WAHH#this is how grian feels with xelqua
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home 💕
#tdbkdk#izuku midoriya#shoto todoroki#bakugo katuski#pro hero deku#i just want him to come home from his patrol shift to his husbands#please#shoto gets so many kisses#katsuki fell asleep there hours ago and shoto refused to move an inch#save him and his numb ass#deku using float when he isssssss excited i love it give me 10 of them
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rewatched madoka magica again today bc i fucking hate myself and to absolutely no one’s surprise i went through all five stages of grief in a single evening
#let’s talk about sayaka miki for a second#genuinely the fact that her whole character is centered around tragedy almost to a shakespearean extent#she’s selfless and brave and values her justice and righteousness above all. calls herself an ally of justice#in fact i think it’s rather intriguing how her whole character is centered around “justice”#her story being a more twisted retelling of the original little mermaid#how she is initially portrayed as a very heroic and confident character even before becoming a magical girl. always shielding madoka#selling her soul to heal the boy she loved out of a selfless desire to see him well again#her being absolutely distraught abt being robbed of her humanity and betrayed by kyubey#she combats this harrowing realization by immersing herself in her duties not caring that she is slowly deteriorating in the process#becoming numb with pain and fighting recklessly and psychotically trying to drown out the pain#finally coming to the sickening conclusion that humanity doesn’t deserve her saving and she succumbs to a fate of her making#last words being “i was so stupid” which trumps her previous statement of “there’s no way i’d regret this”#ALSO? the fact that her costume and weapon are symbolic of a knight. she rly portrays this hero of justice who will protect and defend ☹️#i think abt the fact that homura said that sayaka’s wish was so selfless it was only a matter of time before she died#sayaka being the example of what happens to magical girls who go through the entire cycle and eventually become witches is so sad to me#genuinely just like. sick and twisted#very very fucked up.#characters who have their own misconstrued interpretation of “justice” or who are centered around justice in general.#you will always be dear to me.#sayaka reminds me a lot of akechi in some ways ngl#harboring an almost idealized vision of justice but it slowly rots and festers and corrupts their hearts the more immersed w it they become#actually losing their sanity when they fight bc of how much pain they’re in but refuse to acknowledge it until they break#refusing any help and wallowing in misery despite having ppl who love them and want to save them#last words are those expressing regret for being such a fool. for being ignoring#being used by yhe main villain as a stepping stone towards their true goal. they were merely a pawn#also doomed in every version of their reality. always doomed by the narrative no matter what choices they make#i have a type i fear#HAHAHAH ALSO the fact that they’re both dressed so regally compared to everyone else in their respective series#meant to portray them in a virtuous and princely light. only made more apparent by the sword being their weapon of choice#i’m gonna shut up now but they’re soo eerily similar its unnerving tbh 💀
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something fun i like thinking about with my wardens is the time they spend in-between the origin story ending and them arriving at ostagar. all of that time alone with duncan, when some are crossing all the way across fereldan to get to ostagar. if travel across lake calenhad is canonically a day's worth of time, then surely it must be a week or two's worth of travel, likely even longer, just for most of the wardens to even get to ostagar after being conscripted. what do they think about during this time? do they try to run? are they numb to it? how do they feel about duncan? much to think about
#dragon age#dao#dragon age origins#duncan#duncan dragon age#hero of ferelden#asharanni tabris#ranni HATES duncan. she blames him for not getting involved when she and the other women were kidnapped by the arl's son#and hates him even more for conscripting her. its a massive struggle for her to feel sympathy for alistair when hes mourning duncan.#and her time with duncan leaving denerim is spent largely in numb silence. she wants to go home but she cant.
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I need to make this abundantly clear.
If you voted red because you're anti-choice or homophobic or racist or transphobic, I do not want to associate with you. If you voted third party under the guise of performative activism, I do not want to associate with you. If you didn't vote at all, I do not want to associate with you.
I am a bisexual, anti-censorship, pro-choice Stage IV Endometriosis survivor that needs contraceptive pills to even function out of bed. There is minimal research out there for me. Now there will be even less because a convicted felon, rapist, fake evangical pedophile has the majority vote.
I just had to send an email to my obgyn stressing about sterilization as soon as possible before contraception and access to reproductive health care slip from my fingers.
I am no longer the tolerant. I don't care if this hurt some of you who follow me. If you are any of the three categories above, you just destroyed my life along with my partner's, and I have nothing to say to you ever again.
#i feel so numb this morning#like popular vote just stated they hate me#they hate my friends my family#my best friends who want babies and now are terrified theyll have zero care from fascist agendas#i am just so very disappointed but not surprised
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Imagine if Eurylochus was the one confronting Poseidon in Six-hundred Strike and, to show that he and Odysseus had opposite character arcs, he chose to spare Poseidon. Instead of stabbing him with his own trident, he gives him one last opportunity to end things somewhat peacefully and just go home. The crew's been avenged already, he doesn't need to go any further. Odysseus chooses Ruthlessness, and Eurylochus chooses mercy.
Cool concept, right?
Now pair that with Polites in the same situation having the worst crash out ever
#Polites' ghost watching Eurylochus extend a hand to Poseidon and trying to solve peacefully: :D#Eurylochus' ghost watching Polites stab Poseidon until his arms go numb: D:#and Odysseus' ghost is watching both wondering how they ended up flipped#adding this to my endless list of things I want to draw#epic the musical#polites#eurylochus#on a scale of 1 to 10 how obvious is it that I need to see Polites having a crisis#* solve things peacefully damnit
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