#WHERE DO I START WITH THIE

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[azrielslightintheshadows]

Heyoo! Can i request az x reader where they're mates and vowed to each other that till death do them apart. But az started questioning if he would die for his mate ever since elain came into picture, bcos of the 3 brothers for 3 sisters thing. And reader sort of found out about az's feelings and wanted time off from each other. Then all of a sudden war broke out in the court and everything was crazy. Reader went out to look for az making sure he is safe when she saw an arrow shot towards him and reader took the hit for az. And az started to regret his doubt in thie relationship and begging for his mate's forgiveness. Major angst pls and the ending is up to you! Thank you and have a great day 💖

Scattered Vows.

Azriel x f!Reader

Warnings; way too much angst, mentions of death and battle. Mental illness.

Masterlist.

Part 2

Uhm my heart broke. I think you will need a tissue box.

You watched the door of your bedroom for what felt like hours. A sigh escaped your lips, and you pressed your head on your mate’s pillow, his scent so faint like he hadn’t slept in your bed for weeks. And he probably hadn’t, you couldn’t remember the last time he stayed in bed for more than three hours.

The city was bright and warm offering a perfect view from the hill you were currently standing on. Your friends’ eyes were filled with tears as they watched you and your mate standing in front of the priestess.

“What do you vow to each other?” She asked.

“I vow to be by your side, protecting you and loving you until my last breath.” Azriel’s eyes watered as he spoke, his scarred hands grabbed your own and he pressed a soft kiss on your skin.

“I vow to always support you and love you. To always shield you from any harm, heck I would even take an arrow for you.” You chuckled and Azriel smiled.

“May the Mother bless this union and let it bloom like the most precious flowers” the priestess shouted and started murmuring a prayer.

“I love you my angel” Azriel whispered.

“I love you” you whispered back as the tears streamed down your face.

You teared up at the memory. Those vows meant something right? Even though he reeked of jasmine when he came back, he loved you right?

You heard the door open, and your mate’s footsteps filled the silence, making you wipe your tears and sit up. He removed his boots to not wake you and you suppressed the urge to scoff, you slowly slipped out of bed and walked down the hall to find him.

He was standing at the middle of the kitchen watching the two cold plates on the table with a frown.

“You’re here” you noted, and he glanced at you.

“Please don’t start I’m not in the mood.” He huffed.

“Don’t start what Azriel? You stood me up AGAIN” you threw your hands in the air.

“Fine you want to do this now? Okay” he yelled, and you flinched.

Azriel had never raised his voice at you, it was one of the things you loved about him, how you could always talk things out without wrecking your vocal cords.

“Where were you?” You asked and stepped closer.

“I had to finish some reports” he replied and you stepped even closer making him back off, you quirked a brow knowing exactly why he did it and marched to him sniffing. Jasmine.

Your hands clenched into fists, and you growled “you were finishing off reports or Elain’s cunt?”

His eyes widened and he bared his teeth “don’t speak for her like that”.

Your heart broke into million pieces, every fear suddenly felt real and deep down you realized that the union bloomed like a beautiful flower, but in Elain’s garden.

“You’re defending her?” You gaped at him, your face pale.

“I can’t do this anymore y/n. Lately I’ve been thinking about everything and especially our vows…” he trailed off and you felt like his feet were stepping over the pieces of your heart, crushing them into even smaller fragments.

“Go on” you whispered and let the tears escape.

“I’ve been thinking about Cassian and Rhys…they are mated with two of the sisters and I wonder if I should be mated to the third one. Three brothers and three sisters.” He explained and his eyes watered.

“What?” You asked him.

“I just don’t feel like I want to protect you until my last breath…. Because I can’t protect both of you at the same time…” he avoided your eyes

“You want to protect her until your last breath” you whispered and he nodded.

“Okay, please pack your things and leave.” You continued.

“Don’t do this” he breathed “I’m so confused, I’m not even sure if this is what I want. I just spend time with her to see if I’m really interested or if it’s just a sick thought”

“You want me to stay with you until you decide which one you want?” You gasped at his nerve.

“I-i don’t know. Can we just take a break? I won’t touch her I promise I just need some time to think.” He pleaded.

You felt numb, and an adamant wall fell on your side of the bond, blocking him entirely.

You just wanted to be alone, you didn’t have any more power to argue. “Okay. Pack your things and leave and we will speak again when you make your decision.” You lied hoping it will get him out of the house as soon as possible.

“Thank you” he gave you a sad smile and walked into your bedroom. The small cottage you two had built a few months before the ceremony felt empty and dull now as every promise of love died slowly.

You covered your mouth with your palm to keep the sobs in as you clenched your eyes shut and let the tears flow. Azriel reached the door with a small bag thrown over his shoulder and glanced back at you. You turned your back on him and waited to hear the door shutting.

“I’ll be back” he promised and left.

When you couldn’t hear the beating sound of his wings anymore you let it all out, a heartbreaking scream wrecked your throat and you dropped on your knees. Every kiss, every touch, every promise pierced your skin and escaped to the darkness of the sky.

You remained on the kitchen floor for two days, letting every feeling out hoping that it would stop hurting so bad. You reached a point of numbness, where even your love for him was dull now, cursing at yourself for trusting him. He had your fragile heart in his hands, and he crushed it into mist, without a care, without a hint of regret. You pictured him in her arms and rage made your body tremble, you despised her even though it wasn’t her fault. She sure was a wicked female for leading on a mated male but then again why should she care? He was the one who should have said no.

A booming sound pulled you out of your thoughts and you felt the ground shaking making you furrow your eyebrows and peek out the window. Velaris' shield was gone, you couldn’t feel the magic anymore and winged creatures descended from the sky, slaughtering everyone in their path. The autumn court’s banners emerged from the mountains, with an army behind them. You gasped and quickly grabbed a dagger, running out of the cottage and winnowing to the main square, Feyre and Mor were there holding swords and shouting at people to hide.

“Where’s Azriel?” you shouted at Feyre.

“He….” She paused “He took Elain out of the city, he’ll be back in a few minutes.”

You shook your head, not letting your family’s betrayal cloud your senses. They knew and they supported them, like you never existed.

You ran towards the creatures letting all your feelings out as you sliced their necks, your vision clouding and the image of Azriel flying Elain to safety was the only thing you could see. You crouched and placed your hand on the ground screaming, your eyes became white, and your power flowed out of you, destroying creatures and buildings on its way. You gasped for air and glanced around you, Azriel had landed a few steps behind you, his eyes wide as he stared at you and what you did. You noticed a creature lurking in the corner with a bow in its hands, it grabbed an arrow and pointed it to your mate making your face pale.

“Az” you screamed and ran… ran like your life depended on it, the arrow was shot, Azriel whipped his head to the direction, and you jumped, using the remaining power to lunge yourself in front of him. Silence, deafening silence, a cry, pain, fear and darkness.

Azriel watched the arrow piercing your skin and the tip emerging from your back.

“I vow to always support you and love you. To always shield you from any harm, heck I would even take an arrow for you.” It rang in his mind.

“I would even take an arrow for you.” He cried out your name.

"I would even take an arrow for you.” “Stop” he ordered himself.

“I would even take an arrow for you.” He grabbed his head, his hands covering his ears.

“I would even take an arrow for you.” “No” he screamed and started hitting his head.

“I vow to be by your side, protecting you and loving you until my last breath.” He fell on his knees.

“Lately I’ve been thinking about everything and especially our vows… I just don’t feel like I want to protect you until my last breath…. Because I can’t protect both of you at the same time…”  Darkness.

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Azriel woke up with a groan, he was in his room in the house of wind. He glanced around and noticed Elain sitting on a chair by his bed, her hand holding his own.

He stirred a bit and pulled his hand back making her flinch and open her eyes.

“Az” she whispered and tried to pull him in her arms.

“No! Where is she?” he shouted.

Rhysand entered his room and nodded at Elain to get out.

“Rhys where is she?” Azriel raised his voice again.

“Calm down, you need to rest, your shadows almost strangled you to death” his brother spoke.

“What? Why?” he gaped.

Rhys sighed “I went into your mind while you were asleep, you ordered them to strangle you because you wanted the thoughts to go away”.

Azriel’s eyes watered “Where is she? I have to go to her, I have to apologize. I need to beg her not to leave me”.

“I’m sorry brother, you’ve been out for five days. We couldn’t wait any longer so we buried her at the garden of your cottage”

“No!” Azriel screamed “No no no”

“I vow to always support you and love you. To always shield you from any harm, heck I would even take an arrow for you.”  “NO” he screamed again as his body started seizing.

“Lately I’ve been thinking about everything and especially our vows… I just don’t feel like I want to protect you until my last breath…. Because I can’t protect both of you at the same time…”  “Make it stop, please make it stop” he cried out.

Rhysand quickly moved to his side and grabbed his head making him go to sleep again.

“I’m sorry brother” he whispered and glanced at Feyre who was standing at the door, tears were streaming down her face.

“It’s done” she informed him and let him in her mind.

“Are you sure you want to do this y/n?” She asked you.

“Yes, this is for the best. Just tell him I’m dead.” You replied.

“Okay, please take care of her.” She spoke.

“I will, I promise to give her a place in my court” Eris nodded.

“Thank you” Feyre replied, “for everything, we wouldn’t defeat Beron without you”.

“It was my pleasure” Eris smirked and grabbed your hand.

Feyre let a tear slip as she watched you disappearing with Eris.

“Do you think he will survive this?” She asked Rhysand.

“I doubt it.” He sighed and they walked out, closing the door and locking it.

Sorry <3

[deadpool15]

My girl

Watching her sit there and dance now, that was amazing. I mean, I love to see my girl dance, especially since I know it took her a lot of courage to battle someone like Kristen. She was known in the dance world, and when she went up their you could see it in everyone's eyes. Curiosity yet excitement, though no one wished to take one that level themselves, so when she stood up and looked at us, I knew at that moment I would be happy no matter what. Bada was always cheering us on throughout the entire competition she was on our side. Even when I told her I had a thing for her little sister Yaya. She was our youngest member on the BEBE crew, and now everyone saw the skill and wanted her to join, but she didn't. "You're an amazing dancer, Yaya, and you would be a great addition to the crew. When have I ever been wrong about something like this," we watched Bada sit there trying to compromise with her younger sister, who before today we had no idea she had. "You're my big sister. You're supposed to say that. Can you imagine what it will be like. At times like this, I'm grateful we don't look alike, I'll be known as the downgrade Lee sister."

After some time, we managed to get her on the crew, even getting her to become my girlfriend with the help of her older sister, of course. Getting her listening to the comments of our crew was tough, like we knew that everyone was gonna put on a facade for the show but like wow they were either very good at it or just shit talking for fun. Then, when we heard the comments about Yaya, all hell broke loose.

Biggy- So it seems we have more then a two international teams?

Nob- But she is on team BEBE, so probably just another one of Bada's lost cause of a student.

Redlic- Yes, I remember her she took one of my classes before she isn't the best. It was actually sad to watch.

Redy- She is Bada's younger sister, I remember seeing her when she was a lot younger during our Cupcakes era.

Halo- I would hate to be her. Imagine living in someone's shadow your entire life.

I looked over and was pissed how dare they say that about my fucking girl. She is more talented than any of these wannabes. "That's bullshit and they know it," we were all shocked by Badas' words. Never had she been so ill tempted to swear on camera. We sat down comforting Yaya. She has always been the sensitive type. "Hey, bubbs, don't listen to even of them, ok? You have more talent in your left thumb than they have in their entire bodies." I tell her, smiling while grabbing her body to bring her closer to me. The rest of the team starts nodding their heads, agreeing with me. Everyone else comes down with LADYBOUNCE glaring at us like we were supposed to be scared or gi e a shit.

Back to where we were, the dance battle with Kristen was normal, giving us your average thrill and suspense until it started getting sexual. Now I know how people think when they see Yaya, shit I think like that when I see her. Kristen was giving her the bedroom eyes, my fucking girl. Everyone was sealed once Yaya gained a burst of confidence and decided to throw her ass back against Kristen. Now, any other time one would say a great battler plays along with thie opponents, dancing with them to throw them off their game, it's something I've learned in freestyle. Now, when I see people do it, I praise them for having good battle techniques, but as soon as Kristen started angling her hips to catch some ass I was done. The battle was over. Well, there was, and it seemed like my mine had just begun.

Before I knew it Kristen started becoming closer, I mean Jam Republic as a whole was cool and buddies with us but none of them shared such a distinct interest in a short, ebony beautiful young lady that happened to me my fucking girl. Getting her number to hand out was cool, I'm not overly possessive, so I was fine with that. Going shopping and eating together was ok, but clubbing was just a fucking no no. This leads us to this moment. "Baby, I love you so much, ok. And I trust you wholeheartedly. But you're not going to club with Kristen." I say while holding her waist, causing her smile to drop and back up from me. "Why, not?" I truly do love my baby, but she was so oblivious that sometimes anyone could see that girl wanted her except of course herself. "Baby, she has been trying to get with you for months, and I know she is your friend, and you see her as one, but she definitely wants fuck you ok. Anyone can see it. Especially in that dress I mean I would wanna fuck you too." She smiled for a moment before remembering the situation and there it goes the argument had begin.

"You have always had some time against her from day one when she is just trying to be nice. She is my friend, and I don't say shit about any of your friends that you have out with when you wanna go dance and drink." I was sitting on the bed staring at her. She looked so beautiful in that dress, but it left nothing to the imagination. Her ass was literally hanging out, and it was hard to focus on the right things. "First of all, watch your mouth. You know I don't like the swearing, and second I don't exactly have anything against Kristen, I'm pretty sure she is a nice person when she isn't trying to get into other people's girlfriends pants baby," she rolls her eyes at me before sucking her teeth and then going to the bathroom. "OK, I'm being patient with your baby, and I completely understand you're upset. You got all pretty, and you can't go out, so how about we go do something, huh? Go on a date." I tell her to try to ease the attitude she is having now before I blow up on her. "First of all, fuck you. I'm not going anywhere with you, and second, I'm a grown ass woman. I can swear when I want to, especially when my girlfriend feels like being annoying, ok?" I clenched my jaw before yanking her towards me and shoving her on the bed. "Can't be fucking nice to you can I? You wanna go out and be pretty for your little friend ok. Let's make you look all pretty for her."

And that's how we ended up in this position, with her face down ass up as I shoved my strap into her back to back. I had pressed the record button on my phone a while ago, getting the idea of sending Kristen a little message to make shit clear. "Aww, come on, baby, your camera shy now. You usually love the camera. Love sha-aking your ass on people and all that stuff, don't you. Look at the fucking camera little girl." She glazes up through her lashes, looking so fucking ruined. Just how I like her. Eyes rolling to the back of her head after coming for the fourth time tonight. "Tired baby?" She moans out voice only able to produce moans at this point, she was all fucked out. But I had a point to prove. "How about you tell our little friend here who you belong to, baby?" I smirk, watching her start to scratch the pillows up again, gasping for her. Pushing into her slowly now while rubbing clit. Pussy all swollen, and dripping from the previous times she came. "Can you do it, baby, since you are so grown. Remember that?"

She started whining for me to go faster until I looked to up and seeing Kristen texted her. "Would you look at that baby, your little admirer misses you. I wonder where you are and why you're so busy." I make sure to thrust faster after each word. Her cries can be heard all the way outside the room. "S-soo.... s-sorry....pls." I smile at that, "Are you baby. Ready to be my little obedient girl again, aren't you. Just tell me who you belong to." She tries to hide in my neck away from the camera before yelling out. "M-Minah... Belong to Minah. All yours." I push myself up while grabbing her hips to thrust faster and play with her beautiful tits. I lean over, kissing her cheek before shoving my tongue in her mouth. "That's right, baby, my girl." By the time I was done with her, she forgot all about her plans with Kristen, we lay in bed cuddling while watching a movie, then I looked at the phone and sent the video to her, gotta make sure she understands. "All mine."

(Request by @itstherenaissance)

[nagirambles]

Rambling about Fairies - Manga Chapter 202

The two ship-based pairs in thie arc are actually... quite similar? The set up the upcoming couples, but other than that.

They both started off as enemies. Specifically, the S-class candidate in these teamups lost against their partners. Definitely people focus more on Gajevy and its problematic parts, but I feel it's not as emphasized how Evergreen turned Elfman into stone after curbstomping him in Fantasia. It's the same 'one sided defeat followed by being put on display/humiliated' situation.

I guess, sure, it was only a short fight and not nearly as bad as crucifying someone after marking her belly with the enemy's insignia, but like. I feel Elfgreen could have had an interestingly shaky development similar to Gajevy's powerful strides, if they didn't immediately focus on Tsundere and ganguro tropes. Not to say Gajevy was perfect or anything, they had their tremors, but like, Mashima knew where he was going with it.

Pointedly, Evergreen and Gajeel are both pushy and dominant, and Elfman and Levy are often just strung along their pace. (Especially in the case Evergreen fakes being engaged to Elfman to get past Mirajane.) Both of these pairs needed the help of their partners to get as far as they did on Tenrou. (Elfman definitely wouldn't have gotten past Mira if it wasn't for Evergreen being the crafty person she is, and well, Gajeel does literally save Levy.)

Elfman and Levy do pull their weight at times, but in the middle of the arc, they both break down crying because their partners are unconscious and they're mourning the fact they couldn't protect them better.

It's... a big thorough parallel, actually, I'm quite fascinated how far it goes. Maybe I'll follow them both along as we go through the arc's battles later on.

[iknewyouweretroubletv]

track 8) florida!!!

I LOVE THIE SONG! it discusses disappearing from your hometown and going somewhere where nobody will know who you are, what wrongful things you did and forget any mistakes you made. it is about having a fresh start during a time where everything feels like shit. the song compares ‘florida’ to a drug that makes you forget and not exist for a while (“florida!!! Is one hell of a drug / can I use you up? / fuck me up florida”) which is what the narrator wants to do at this point of the story. I love the harsh drum beats every time taylor and florence sing the word florida, they also sound sooo good together

[haveyouseenthisskeleton]

Thie child he had with his human mate comes running up to him. "Daddy/Poppa/etc, I can do the same magic you can do now. Watch this!" The child summons a small bone attack for the first time. How does each skeleton react?

Undertale Sans - Uh. He didn't know that could happen. He has a dumb little smile on the face looking at these very small baby bones. That feels like forever since he trained Papyrus for the first time. Damn, are you that old already? His soul weirdly aches. He tells you he's proud of you but to maybe not show off this to their school friends before he can talk to your teacher. Also, he will start training you a little as his and Papyrus magic was absolutely wide and maybe your teacher would not appreciate you throwing a storm of bones around if you get angry.

Undertale Papyrus - He loses his jaw, then screams excitidly and makes you fly in his arms. Your head is spinning but you can't stop giggling. Papyrus is so proud he takes a photo of your bone and sends it to all his friends and his brother. Sans will have a talk in the evening to remind him how strong was his magic and to teach the kid to maybe canalise it as fast as they can.

Underswap Sans - Oh shit you can make magic. That was not supposed to happen. Blue is both impressed and terrified. What are you supposed to do when it's start happening? Baby humans manuals don't talk about this??? He might be freaking out now. He shakily tells his kid it's great while panic-texting his brother to ask what the hell he is supposed to do now.

Underswap Papyrus - He snatches his kid from the ground and chokes them in a tight hug. The kid is growling and struggling, but Honey doesn't let go, on the verge of crying. He needs comfort right now and you're the only one available for a hug. He's so proud of his kid but also a bit sad because it means you're growing up and that you're becoming more independent. He didn't even think about the fact humans are not supposed to do magic.

Underfell Sans - He crashes your bones with one of his. "no." You look at him, confused and a bit hurt, before becoming even more confused when it's very clear Red is holding himself from crying. He's not ready for you having magic yet. Stay baby. You are forbidden to grow up yet, he's not ready. Stop growing now.

Underfell Papyrus - About time! He wondered where the hell you were going to do your first attack, even if S/O said it's not possible since you're half human. As usual, he was right, because the terrible Papyrus is always right. He can finally start the training program he planned the day after your birth! He can't wait to show you how to kick Uncle Red ass. He's so proud.

Horrortale Sans - Tiny baby bones. They're so small. He forgot bones used to be this small in the beginning. He looks haunted, a bit nostalgic, but he's smiling. For once it's a good memory from the past. He brushes your hair and pats your head affectuously. Keep going like this and he's sure one of these days you're going to beat his bones. Not that it's really hard in the first place, but still.

Horrortale Papyrus - The plate of pastas he's holding flies on the ceiling and stays stuck there. Willow lets go the biggest swear he has ever said before putting his two hands in front of his mouth when he realises the kid is still here. Oops. The plate of pastas chooses this moment to fall back, right on his head, knocking him out. That was some intense moment for Willow. He's going to need a few minutes to think about that. He's definitely excited though. And he has a headache.

Swapfell Sans - He raises an eyebrow. You call that a bone? It can barely be called that. He sighs. He guesses he has to do everything in this house and teach you how to do it properly. What would the world do without him. He wants to show off so bad he fails his attack and blasts his own face. The kid can't stop laughing, and then says that maybe they should show him how it's done. Nox gasps, offended.

Swapfell Papyrus - He has flashbacks of Nox's training where he couldn't use his magic right and almost impaled him a dozen of times. Great. He can't wait to be almost impale again. He gives you a thumb up, but he's sweating so hard right now. Please don't be like his brother, he's begging you.

Fellswap Gold Sans - Is the kid challenging him? He can do that too. He creates a bone and throws it on the kid, knocking them out. ... Shit. He discretly goes back home and acts like nothing happened, just saying to his S/O the kid is napping in the sun. Worst dad of the century.

Fellswap Gold Papyrus - The kid attacks him. Coffee was not ready and got knocked out in one hit. The kid is panicking, screaming his name. When Coffee wakes up and the kid asks what he thinks of his attack, he faints. Maybe... Maybe let's talk about this later. Coffee needs a moment to proceed the information.

[jungkoode]

Kiki, the only thing that beata your art of building and describing sexual tension is oyur art of building actual tension at all. This is my favorite kkangpae chapter thus far.

1/HOBI MY MAAAAAN,MY DARLING MAN i just love him

2/ CHAEWON MY GIRL ???MY SWEET PROTECTIVE TIGER MAMA BLAKC WIDOW BABY GIRL ??WHICH MAN DO I HAVE TO KILL ???POINT AT HIM

Ngl, i think being in the Seduction division and friend with Jhope is probably the single best way to not get your heart utterly shattered and or get killed for breaking the rules on the way lmao, theyre both too caring and responsible to risk it the way V, JK or JM would, while not being as aloof or distant as Moon RM orAD are or pretend to be.

3/YUNJIN OH MY GOD. First of all yunjin and reader is totally my type of friendship. Not even bestfriendship, im like this with casual close friends too lmao makes the immersion all the better

4/ you freakin did so well the change in moods. I swear it felt like that song in Mulan where the soldiers are all singing then walk upon that burnt village , insane emotional whiplash. Might i say your best yet, i think it was even stronger than THAT chapter in OL .

5/ Kiki im scared. Why you might ask ? Because despite my infinite trust in your art, i can see foor a fact you planned a lot more than i expected, and NONE YOUR CHARACTERS SEEM TO HAVE PLOT ARMOR. That random ensign that Flower handed the hotel card to now has to be on a duo mission with the guy she pissed off during that mission and fucked during that trip. One might wonder, if Kkangpae is so large its a small city, there should be no reason why Y/N spends so much time with the Council. Well, it seems you are starting to answer that question while making absolutely sure we know why its happening that way next and how thie is for actual practical reasons and not just plot magic.

It was an absolute pleasure to read and if i get birthday money from family im spending it on commissioning you again for my own parallel story. Save me a spot for late April-May.

First of all, ROO?? HELLO??? I literally just woke up to this comment and almost choked on my coffee. UGHHH I love you.

The tension building is honestly my favorite part about writing. Sexual tension is fun and all (and lord knows I love making everyone suffer with it), but the PLOT tension? That's where I thrive. It's like feeding my evil writer soul.

1) HOBI IS LITERALLY MY EVERYTHING. The cranky doctor with a heart of gold but also a mouth that could eviscerate you? Sign me up. I'm genuinely having way too much fun with him. The way he interacts with AD especially makes me cackle every time I write them.

2) CHAEWON SUPREMACY. I will die on this hill. Her black widow aura just makes my entire day. I love how you described her as the protective tiger mama because YES that's exactly what she is. And your point about the Seduction division being somewhat safer is so spot on—they're protective without being fully enmeshed in all the batshit chaos.

3) The Y/N and Yunjin friendship is entirely based on my IRL friendships and I'm so glad it shows! That casual closeness where you can just be ridiculous together while also having each other's backs? Peak friendship goals. I'm thrilled you enjoy them together.

4) THE MULAN REFERENCE HAS ME WHEEZING. That's EXACTLY what I was going for! I wanted that emotional whiplash of "haha we're all having fun camping" to "oh shit we're still criminals and there's danger everywhere." I'm cackling that you compared it to OL because I think I traumatized half my readers with that one.

5) You should absolutely be scared. I'm not even sorry. The plot planning for this fic would make people concerned for my mental wellbeing if they saw my notes. And you're right—nobody has plot armor. I wanted to create a world where there are actual STAKES, you know?

And IKR?? Obviously YN interacts with the Council plenty because they're our main characters! But I absolutely HAD to build something believable around it. I couldn't just have her randomly hanging with the bosses all the time for no reason.

See, most writers would just handwave it, but I'm obsessed with making things make SENSE. That's why she got called to that meeting! Chaewon would've been the logical choice since she's a Chief, but Hanjun already knows what she looks like—she was the one who manipulated him! So MDF probably has her description. But YN and the other Seduction girls? They were never photographed or directly interacted with him or his men outside the mission. And among all the Seduction members, YN is the only one who saw all the girls, so she's their only source for identification.

AND Council meetings are super private—only Chiefs and maybe seconds in command can know what's discussed. So with Chaewon out of the question... YN becomes the only available choice because they can't go spreading Council info to other members. I loved weaving all that in!

AND OMG I'm absolutely HONORED you'd want to commission me again! Late April-May works perfectly—just hit me up whenever you're ready and we can chat details!

[ceilingfan5]

4, 7, 37, 56, and 73!

4. Where do you find inspiration for new ideas? to be too honest with you it is often a matter more of curating what inspires me, because it is in fact too easy to get a larger than life idea and wanna run with it before realizing it would take fucking 80 thousand words to come to life. sometimes you simply must chatter about it w/ your beloved(s) and then. this is the hard part. release it to the wind.

but! i love truly Too Real scenarios and ridiculous but not fully unbelievable bullshit and i especially love makin' an au out of absolutely a piece of gum and two rubber bands (or a radioactive ingot, fantasy in the complete other direction, a juicy setting, and a button)

like, that's my favorite. aus esp. i have to keep a fucking leash on my what-if-inator because the second i let it start running i will be whisked off my feet and i simply have only so many hours in the day. and they must be shared between hobbies and things like taking vitamins and building shelves and doing laundry and crafting beasties and changing the world and keeping it good and remembering to take my meds

7. How do you choose which POV to write from? almost entirely on vibes. in some fics i've done back and forth equally, or, more likely, from the pov of the one im chewing at the moment, defaulting to krav, but with my taste for dialogue and especially like, mental processing self-dialogue? ykwim? it's all about the vibe that started it all, or like, what serves the beast at the moment. this super au, i've really let the characters drive, and i actually charted it out, mostly from curiosity, i've been letting it roll as it needed, where it felt good

37. How do you choose where to end a chapter? it's kind of on comic rules? it has to be punchy, if not a punchline. it has to Feel Right and conclude the scene, enough of a button to satisfy without going over? practice mostly? it's nice though when it gives a bit of a vector for the next one to shoot off from. rubber band to launch us over the time hump 56. What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on? i usually say dialogue and characterization so hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm (not outlining) but. hm. having fun with it? or like, thie and i have been discussing again lately, like, balance? the ability to pair the goof shit and the gut-hurtin' feelings without seeming incongruous? you need both, is the secret, and both can do both, and even more complex, something you thought was one can become the other when you read further/reread. and that rules, and is SOOOO consistent with TAZ (esp but not limited to of course, balance) and i love it. oh and granular details that make things feel real and alive and connected. love that shit. there's layers don't you want to hear about the layers i thought about it at length and- 73. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

namely the above but if i had to say it in one, Voice? like. you could probably pick my shit out of a lineup, lbr. it's alive, it's juicy, it's sort of weird, the phrasing is both comedic and bonkers as well as emotionally present, it's alive, they feel like people, maybe even you, and love is real even besides the romantic, like. they're going to be friends. not just make out. both matter. it adds up. it feels lived in and floating but tethered. and alive. maybe you left it out too long, themes crawled up in there and now it's teeming and the letters and punctuation have a stoplight and a mayor, and you really ought to wash your water bottle, bbut heck it's so familiar-

i've been doing this for a while now, and i do it for fun. i believe in fun, i swear by it, and i make time for it, and i share it. Not only does it matter, it makes the meaning and the growing stick. i think you can feel it.

anyway, i sure hope so!

[highwaytothedangerzone502]

Foxtrot Alpha Alpha - Chapter 1

Pairing: Hangman x Female OC

Word Count: 1868

Warnings: Bad home life

Summary: Hangman learned his lesson a long time ago to never show his true feelings when someone's words or actions hurt him. To do so showed weakness that could be exploited, and Seresin men couldn't show weakness. Of course, there was an exception to every rule, and Jake's always came in the form of women, three in particular: his mom, Juliette Kazansky, and the girl whose name he could no longer bring himself to speak. She was the girl that got away; she was his biggest 'what if' and his biggest regret; she would forever be the ghost that haunted his dreams. Jake believed that's where she'd stay, for he would surely never see her again after what he did.

Or so he thought.

Notes: Thie is the sequel to India Lima Yankee; I'm using the same callsign for the Female OC as in Ghost Story because I just really like it, but they are different characters; chapters in italics are flashbacks.

Chapter Songs: Run Here

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Hangman

From the outside looking in, the Seresin family had it all: a big house, a successful business that continued to grow, and the perfect family. Jake wished people saw the truth- the screaming matches behind closed doors, the tears that rolled down his mom's face afterward, the coldness of his dad, the impossible standards of perfection the Seresin patriarch expected of his kids.

No.

That he expected of Jake.

For some reason, one Jake had never been able to figure out, Michael Seresin always held his youngest son to the highest of standards, which Jake could never meet no matter how hard he tried. Getting an 'A' on a test wasn't enough. He needed that 'A-plus.' He didn't make varsity football his freshman year, which he had tried to explain that no freshman ever made varsity because of specific rules at the high school, but Michael Seresin wouldn't hear of it. Even when Jake became the first sophomore in his high school's history to join the varsity football team with a starting position as quarterback, it failed to satisfy his father. Natalie Seresin tried to atone for her husband's mistreatment, and Jake loved her for it, but he found himself avoiding his house as much as possible and hiding in his room whenever he did finally return, only coming down for meals.

His two older brothers- Nick and Matt- couldn't understand, nor did they try. They knew their father favored them and lorded it over Jake, rubbing it in viciously. They certainly took after their father. Jake ignored them, learning early on that if they failed to get a reaction out of him, they'd give up sooner on their taunting. It got better when they went off to college, but they always tried to start it up again when they returned home.

They were home now for the summer, working internships at the family business they would one day inherit. Michael Seresin expected Jake to follow in his footsteps as well, but Jake wanted nothing to do with it. He wanted out of that house, out of that town, and as much as he loved Texas, out of the state. Jake wanted to be as far away from his father as possible. He told his father he had no interest in joining the family business, which created a heated, nasty argument, ending with Michael calling Jake, and not for the first time, the greatest disappointment to ever pollute the Seresin family tree.

Jake left after that, going for a walk to clear his head and hide the tears that threatened to break free. Crying was a weakness, and 'true' Seresin men never showed weakness. He hated his life, and the second he could leave, he would. Where he'd go, he had no idea, but he'd figure it out.

As he walked through the woods, the shade of the trees providing some relief from the unrelenting heat and sun, the sound of a guitar caught Jake's attention. A melodic voice soon accompanied it, and unable to resist his rising curiosity, he followed the music. Carefully and silently approaching the location where it emanated from, Jake saw a familiar girl sitting on a blanket next to a small pond. She strummed on the guitar with skilled precision and sang the lyrics to what Jake now recognized as 'Run' by George Strait. He leaned against a tree, watching and listening, enjoying the show and impressed by her talent. The girl, wholly unaware of his presence, continued playing until the song ended. Then, deciding to announce himself rather than continue to stand there like a creep, Jake pushed himself off the tree and walked up to her, saying, "That was really good."

In the blink of an eye, she jumped up and swung her guitar at his head. Had Jake's reflexes kicked in a second later, he undoubtedly would be unconscious on the hard ground. He scrambled backward and out of strike range while she demanded, "What the hell?"

"Sorry! Sorry! I didn't mean to scare you!" Jake apologized, holding up his hands placatingly. "I heard you playing and came to check it out. You're the new girl at school. Annalise Blackwood, right?"

Recognition flickered in her eyes, and while she lowered her guitar, he still kept his distance. "Yeah. You're Jake Seresin."

"So you know me and still tried to knock me on my ass with a guitar?"

"The sun is directly behind you, so all I saw was a strange man approaching me," Annalise said indignantly. "What were you doing in the woods?"

"Wanted to go for a walk," Jake replied, twisting the truth. While he knew of Annalise, he didn't know her. He had no reason to trust her with the knowledge of his situation. "Why are you out here?"

"My sister has her new boyfriend over, I hate him, and I don't exactly have any friends here, so I came out here to practice my guitar."

"George Strait, right? 'Run'?"

"Yeah, it's my favorite song of his."

"You're really good," he praised sincerely. "How long have you known how to play guitar?"

Annalise sat on the blanket, gently resting the guitar next to her. "Since I was eight. My dad taught me, and I started teaching myself songs by ear."

"That's cool. I always wanted to learn how to play but never had the opportunity."

"How come?"

Jake shrugged, feigning nonchalance as he lied, "Sports and homework got in the way."

The truth was his dad wouldn't let him. Michael Seresin failed to see the value that learning a musical instrument provided. Jake couldn't come up with a plausible answer outside of the fact that he simply really wanted to learn, so his dad forbade him from learning.

"If you want to learn-" Annalise nodded at the guitar- "I can teach you."

"Seriously?"

"Yeah, but you'd have to come sit down with me."

Jake raised an eyebrow at her. "Are you going to try and whack me again?"

"No plans at the moment."

Biting back a smile, he strolled over and sat next to her. Annalise placed the guitar in his lap. For the next couple of hours, she taught him the basics of how to play. Being the perfectionist he was, it frustrated Jake that he didn't pick it up immediately, but Annalise assured him he was picking it up quickly. Her calmness managed to lower his frustration, and Jake forced himself to focus on everything she said rather than on his failings.

When the four-hour mark hit, Annalise said, "I think that's enough for today."

Although he wanted to continue, Jake agreed, realizing she probably wanted to get home. "Thanks for teaching me today."

"You're welcome. If you want to learn more, just let me know. It's fun to teach someone how to play."

"Would you like me to walk you home?"

His question appeared to take Annalise aback, judging by the surprised eyebrow raise. "Only if you want to. It's not far. Just like five minutes."

"That's fine. I don't mind." Jake had been taught by his mother that a gentleman always made sure that a girl got back to her place safely. He might've only met Annalise a few hours ago, but she would be no exception. Plus, it extended his time away from his own home, an extra bonus. He waited for her to pack her things and picked up the guitar to carry home for her. When she told him he didn't need to, Jake insisted he help. "It's the least I can do."

"Well, thank you," Annalise replied, smiling gratefully at him. The pair began strolling through the woods back to her house. "May I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"What were you really doing in the woods? No offense-" Annalise hesitated slightly before deciding to continue- "but I have a hard time believing someone like you simply wanted to go for a walk."

Jake bristled. "Why's that?"

"I don't know. It's just… you're the varsity quarterback. You're Mr. Popular. Surely you had friends to hang out with or football to practice?"

"I didn't. My friends are either out of town or working, and football practice doesn't start for a couple of weeks, so I have time to kill."

"I see. Sorry, you just didn't strike me as the time to take a nature walk in his spare time. That's all."

"I don't like being cooped up in the house. I like to be outside." What went unsaid was the fact he didn't want to be around his family. Desperate to move away from the subject, he asked, "I saw you had a book with you. What were you reading?"

"Oh, that. It's-" Annalise pulled out the massive book from her bag and handed it to him- "'The Complete Book of Fighters: An Illustrated Encyclopedia of Every Fighter Aircraft Built and Flown.' I want to become a naval aviator, so I'm learning everything I can about all things jets. Of course, some in here weren't used by the US or the Navy, but it's still so interesting! I've read it a couple of times already."

"Damn, you could get some reps with this thing!" Jake joked, reveling at the weight of the book. "Why the Navy? Why not the Air Force?"

"My mom works with the Navy a lot, and I always felt a calling toward it. The idea of being up in a fighter jet in the open sky is my dream."

Jake flipped through the book, fascinated by the drawings and pictures. "I'll have to check this out one day."

"You interested in jets?"

"I am now," he admitted, handing it back to her. They stopped at the gate to her backyard. "Well, thanks for the lesson today."

"Any time. If you want more, just let me know."

"I'd need your number for that." Jake pulled out his phone. A smile tugged on Annalise's lips as she rattled it off for him to enter. 

"Nice meeting you, Jake," she said, taking her guitar from him. "I'll see you around."

"Yeah, see you around."

Jake waited to ensure the gate shut securely behind Annalise before turning around and heading to his own home. He smiled to himself, happy to have had a bright spot on the day that had started so miserably. Annalise probably expected him to forget her because she saw him as 'Mr. Popular,' and they ran in very different social circles, but Jake had no intentions of today's meeting being a one-off. Annalise may have only taught him how to play guitar, but he'd felt a connection with her, one he couldn't place. Jake would wait until at least tomorrow to text her. He had to keep appearances up by not acting too desperate to see her again. At least, that's what Jake told himself. Ultimately, he texted her that night, asking to meet soon.

To his surprise, Annalise responded almost immediately, saying: Same spot tomorrow? 10 am?

Jake grinned and shot off an answer: See you then.

He turned on his alarm and set his phone down on the nightstand, and, for the first time in years, he fell asleep with a smile on his face.

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[felixcloud6288]

Higurashi: Festival Accompanying Chapter 32

The kids are playing tag while the adults are reenacting Mad Max.

Takano is beginning to scratch at herself.

The club members aren't even using their traps anymore.They've so thoroughly demoralized and scattered the Wild Dogs that they can take them out by popping out from behind the trees to scare them.

Okonogi, your bias is showing.

I'd love to see the conversation leading up to the club letting Hanyu engage in fear-tactics. Just a moment ago, she scared a guy by popping out from behind a tree and making barking noises, but now she's going full Oyashiro on these guys.

Like, when the club got their hands on some of the walkie-talkies, I imagine that Mion was trying to come up with a good scare and then Hanyu proposed the mountain god script with a full enactment.

I'd love to see the club members' faces watching this adorable little girl pull off a complete personality shift to play a murderous spirit.

And nobody comments when Rika casually says Hanyu is a deity.

Rika brought up the Gundam franchise. The original anime aired from 1979 to 1980 with a trio of compilation movies coming out in 1981 and 1982. I don't think we could call it a franchise at this point since the next Gundam series (Mobile Suit Zeta Gundam) came out in 1985.

By the way, Keiichi's voice actor in the visual novels and anime, Sōichirō Hoshi, also voices Kira Yamato, the protagonist of Gundam SEED. Depending on how things worked out, Rika's line about Keiichi playing a hero in Gundam might be either a coincidence or a shout-out.

Hoshi started voicing Keiichi in 2006 while Festival Accompanying's sound novel came out December 30, 2005. The anime began airing just over 3 months later. So it's quite possible that Ryukishi07 already knew Hoshi would voice Keiichi at that time and slipped the reference in.

Correction: Festival Accompanying came out in August 2006 while the anime started in April 2006. So that line is likely a very deliberate reference to the anime.

And if dealing with all these casualties and Takano's disregard for their well-being weren't bad enough, Okonogi now gets word that Tomitake has been freed.

He decides to contact "Cuckoo" in Tokyo. A cuckoo is a bird known for engaging in nest parasitism. It will lay its eggs in another bird's nest and then the newborn will push its other nestmates out of the nest and force the parents to take care of it.

The entire scene of Akasaka and Tomitake breaking through the blockade is such a b-movie action scene and I love it. They're shouting as they drive straight toward a rocket launcher, Kasai is providing sniper support, and then it ends with a car chase where Tomitake pulls out a rifle and starts shooting at the pursuing van.

It worth noting that Shion and Kasai are at the trash site.

I generally opt to ignore when someone says something in response to someone else when it's possible they're too far away to hear each other, but I just can't ignore this instance.

When the Wild Dogs start shooting at the car and are shocked their bullets bounce off, we cut to Shion responding to their words. But she's so far away from them that Kasai's shots hit thie rtargets before the sound of his shots do. There's no way she heard anything they're saying.

Okonogi ordered his men to give up their pursuit when Akasaka broke through the barricade and Tomitake nearly shot the pursuing driver. Unlike Takano, he knows when to give up and not risk lives for a lost cause.

I've made fun of the Wild Dogs general incompetence on several occasions and Tomitake brings it up this chapter.

I don't really have to beat you over the head repeatedly about how the Wild Dogs have lost multiple encounters against unarmed children and are horribly outpaced by professionals. Instead, I'll throw out a few final remarks about why the Wild Dogs are likely so incompetent when they enter any combat situation.

They are a security group for the Irie Institute. They are not expected to engage in any situations like what they've been doing for Operation Apocalypse. They are trained for espionage and detainment. They aren't meant to track people in a mountain range or get into gun fights or engage in high-speed chases. So of course they struggle against people who know how to do that.

And also, Tokyo has a protocol to take over the Irie Institute if Inspector Tomitake deems it necessary. One aspect of that takeover protocol is to send a different military group called the Watchdogs to subdue the Wild Dogs. If Tokyo was afraid of the possibility of someone from the Irie Institute going rogue, why would they provide a competent military team to the institute in the first place? Tokyo likely filled the Wild Dogs with greenhorns so it could be easily defeated if necessary.

After so many action-packed chapters, Tomitake manages to call for the Watchdogs to come in and take down the Wild Dogs. We get a moment to breathe, calm down, and soak in that it is almost over.

But now they and the story turn back to Hinamizawa where the final confrontation is about to happen.

NIPA BEAM!!

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[haikyuu-moments]

If you don't mind, can I ask something from Haikyuu? What do you think are Hinata and Kageyama’s greatest personality strengths and weaknesses? Why? What do you love about their dynamic? Sorry if you've answered these questions before.....

Also, If you don't mind me asking (again), can I also ask your top fav characters and fav moments from the series (Haikyuu)...? Thanks if you want to answer....

hello. thank you for the ask, and sorry if it was delayed. i saw it a few minutes ago.

so let me start with hinata's personality strengths. as we all know, hinata's love for volleyball is immense. but the major strength of his personality is that he is constantly striving to improve, pushing himself to the limit, and never giving up. even being shorter than the average player for his position, he can move quickly across the court and can be a defence nightmare for opponents. he does not shy away from accepting his limitations. like in that one game where he said to ennoshita, "i suck. i know." that takes a great amount of willpower. his personality weakness can be that he is impatient and can get frustrated easily, especially when things don't go his way or when progress feels slow. but he got exceptionally better as time passed.

now onto kageyama personality strengths. he possesses a mind for the game that surpasses most players. he has a clear vision for how the team should play and uses his strong voice to communicate his strategies and expectations. he shows an exceptional adaptability to situations and adjusts his strategies based on the flow of the game and his teammates' strengths. while his weakness lies in the blunt remarks that often borderline as rude. the lack of empathy can lead to resentment and hinder teamwork. but he overcame that all.

about kagehina dynamic, the thing i love the most about thie dynamic is their constant bickering and competition to push each other and improve at an incredible rate. they challenge each other's weaknesses and force them to adapt and evolve as players. kageyama respects hinata's determination and spirit, while hinata acknowledges kageyama's setting prowess. basically, their relationship is a rollercoaster of hilarious arguments, intense competition, and begrudging respect.

my fav characters. now, this is a very, very hard question. i love all of the haikyuu characters (apart from nohebi. idk, but i don't like their vibe). but let me put down the characters that are not main (talking about the whole karasuno, oikawa, kuroo, kenma, bokuto, miya atsumu) but they are my favourites

iwaizumi

akaashi

sakusa

kita-san

yaku

tendou

fav moments of haikyuu. can i list the whole series? haha. kidding. most memorable haikyuu moments for me were,

when karasuno team ate together crying after losing the game

yachi's confrontation with her mother

whole training camp arc

hinata's first successful recieve

karasuno vs. nekoma match

the whole timeskip, especially oikawa and hinata reunion (spoiler alert)

well, it seems like i have made this quite long 😅 nonetheless i appreciate it. hope you got the answers you were looking for.

[kse22chili]

We were all in trouble.

Suddenly, there was chaos everywhere. I could hear students screaming and yelling continuously, uselessly creating commotion. And he was at the center of the front area of the boarding school I attended at that time. He tilted his head up to the last floor, where my class was. And he knew that I was going to catch him staring at me because I was staring at him too.

That’s where I officially first met him.

Friday is a free day for my class, so like always I brought my tarots.

While reading Rhys’ cards for his week, we hear commotion from outside. We all stand up and everyone goes to check out of the window. I gather all my cards and try to tidy up the class. Me and Ophelia remove every single type of thing that would reveal the actions we were doing.

Rhys calls out at us and hisses “Guys! This is horrible. He has gotten here too. We need to find a way out. Now.”

Ophelia got pale in the face, and nervously started biting her nails. I look at them confused and say “What? Who are you talking about Rhys?”

“Leonidas, Leonidas Constantine. And his men. The Anileis Men.”

The Anileis Men. The Greek mysterious men that are considered the most ruthless men in Monaco, in fact they are serial killers that never reveal themselves to the world. Nobody knows who they are, physically. Just a few know. The dark sides of this world. Such as, mafia families, royal families and politicians. And you might be thinking, how did Rhys recognize them? First thing is that they all wear a ghost-like mask, and second clue is their way of making a scene in their own habitat, where you can clearly notice that they have come for the next victims or thie new mission. They appear out of nowhere, in a sunny day and trap you with your own feet. How's that possible? Beats me.

Now, the third thing is that Rhys personally knows him; he is my best friend, classmate and only son of the Irish mafia's king. So, that makes him a prince. He has told me that he first met Leonidas Constantine when he was five years old, at an important meeting that his father had to go to. Apparently, Ceallach (KEHL-akh, "war"), the king, had no choice but to bring his son with him because there was a war going back at home.

Actually, there's where I met Rhys too, now that I think of it. And yes. I saw Leonidas' real face there for the first time. He truly was ruthless; he had large scars on the sides of his mouth that could terrify a little girl like me that was hiding behind her dad's legs. He was so tall that everybody else looked short as hell in front of him, he could be like 1,98m (6.5ft). He was large and big like a God, the aura that surrounded him proved that that man was a fucking monster. While he was talking to my father, he averted his eyes at me. He stared at me like I was an angel that shouldn't belong in their world. And than he looked back at my father. Never met him again after that.

One thing you surely don't know is that my class and I belong to that dark side of the world. We are all children of dangerous and merciless men. Our parents, all friends and obviously in good terms, enrolled us all to this weird ass boarding school in the place where every single powerful men lives and where we were raised in, Monaco. I'm unfortunately not Monegasque. But I would have loved to. I was born in Dallas, TX. The only daughter and the only sister out of four brothers in the family of the American-Spanish mafia.

Turning back to the present time, I surprisingly look at Rhys' eyes, repeating those words in my head. Why has he come here?

I go to the window and look down at the area where the commotion is having action. There he is. He is at the center of the area, admiring the scene with his four most trusted men: Elias, Orion, Lysander and Zeno. They are all standing proudly, listenting to the screaming students all around them. They don't care about them. They have come here for someone. This is another mission to them.

All of a sudden, the tallest of them all raises his head and stares directly at me. I look at him and notice that those eyes are the same eyes that studied me when I first met him. He tilts his head at the side and nods at me. I furrow my eyebrows and he just shrugs his shoulder and raises a finger at me. For what? I'm not certain. But then, I get it. He has come here for me.

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[novaverse-head]

I think I’m gonna start using tumbler to share my thoughts and progress as an artist so this will be the start of that. I’ve finally decided how to format my favorite story. I’ve been devoloping that story with my friends for two year now. And we settled on a comic format where its kinda like “everything is not as it seems” where it kinda starts off as sorta normal but i lowkey cant fully do that ofc because our story involves being in a purgatory. So I Geuss its more just like? I don’t really reveal everything at first but just set the tone that this place is kinda important? I started writing the script for the first page and surprisingly its like doing a very detailed roleplay. Honestly? Im more scared of drawing backgrounds then anything lol I’ve been tooo hyper focused on my human skill that I’ve neglected literally everything else lol.

I also am just very scared to be a content creator in general I’ve been putting it off for a very long time I wanted to start a lot younger but I wasn’t confident in my skills but now im confident in my skills im just not sure WHT to do im even confident i can still do something good with the eras where my skills are underdeveloped. I Geuss I’ve just put so much weight on trying to wait for the “right time” to do things and waiting until i get this or that or wait until thie happens. I’ve lowkey been stalling for like two years. I struggle with even taking care of myself on a daily basis so doing art on a daily basis is kinda like hard? I used to go through sketchbooks in like a month lols. But i just have less motivation i have more ideas then ever i just am tired and scared? I just Geus a part of me just deep down feels like.. what if i put myself out there and no one wants to read my story? And love my ocs? I’ve been working so hard on these things for years so what if i show it to the world and no one even cares? I would have wasted my time and just like..i wanna be an artist and i wanna be a creator that people can love i wanna be known for it and do big things because of it and i just deep down feel like its not gonna happen for me. Im not gonna get lucky. And my efforts are for nothing..

I’ve been SO inspired by things like Undertale black butler and just artist creators. I also feel like my efforts arent enough i hear stories of others posting when they are young and slowly getting recognition or just lucking out with connections and i feel like that kind of things wont happen to me. Im black and trans and I was severely neglected as a child. No one really encourged me. No one ever really believed in me. So I barely believed in myself. It took be until my mid teens to learn basic ass things. Because I was academically smart and could speak very intelligently no one believed i needed help. No one helped me. They told me that i was smart and can figure it out myself. That’s devasting to hear. When youre drowning and know that anyone else can do this. Everyone else is better than me. I may like doing art and am passionate about it but i know everyone else is better. They arent as scared. They were encourged. It sucks. Because this has been my life story and i can’t even be good at the one thing im passionate about doing. And I’ve put all my cards into art. I’ve sacrificed a lot. I’ve worked SO hard. But i feel like it’s not enough. I feel like it’s never gonna be enough. Im gonna end up one of those sad lonely people who were so passionate when they were young but gave it up cause it never worked out. And im scared of that. I WANT art to be my thing i want content creation to be my thing i really do but as the days pass it feels like im wasting my time. No ones ever gonna like my stuff. No ones ever gonna see me. No one cares. It feel so suffocating. Doing art has become a very heavy burden on my shoulders. Something that used to save me is now weighing me down. Im not good at anything else. I ahve no other choice. And im very afraid. I dont wanna will this into existence but there’s no denying my fears. They scream at me everyday. I cant help but listen? It try I’ve tried so hard to be positive to keep pushing but i jsut need to get all this off my chest. It’s hard. Im sorry this turned into something this wasn’t supposed to be but i suppose it’s good for me to let it out. No ones really listening anyways.

[namimikan]

i loooove how much from loguetown up to marineford the shadow of gol d roger casts itself on luffy, not that he's even trying to be roger, he just wants to meet the next pirate king!

i mean, i guess you can say before that, with shanks and buggy being pirate youths on roger's crew, and shanks bequeathing luffy the hat which once belonged to to roger, who gave it to shanks. but i'm not sure that luffy necessarily knows that, but that being said, luffy said shit about ace being gol d roger's son up until marineford, and was surprised that people thought that ace was dragon's son instead. he kept that secret!

but it's just. the way luffy meets people along the way who knew roger, starting from loguetown, where luffy was seconds from being beheaded, and he was going to die with a grin on his face, just like how roger did.

meeting crocus, a member of roger's crew, at twin cape lighthouse at reverse mountain

meeting kureha, who knew gold roger when he was known as gol d roger, on drum island

the poneglyphs, at alabasta, at skypeia, which roger uncovered the truth somehow, by being able to 'hear' them (thereby knowing the truth of the world and the weapons??? maybe???? that robin seeks to find)

ganfor knowing and befriending gol d roger from long ago, in skypeia

water 7, finding out about tom, shipmaker who built the oro jackson, and franky is his apprentice, the blueprints.

sabaody archipellago, meeting dark king silvers rayleigh, first mate of gol d roger

how everything culminates at marineford, in some respects, with ace, son of gol d roger, dying with a smile on face, like his father. he dies saving luffy, he dies deciding that he's happy to be born, and to be loved by so many. ace, who never wanted to be seen as roger's son, who didn't want to be pirate king once he met whitebeard. roger, who never wanted ace to be killed just because he was his son. how thie impacts garp, who takes ace in as his grandson.

whitebeard, ofc, somewhat tenuous friend of gol d roger, how he compares luffy and blackbeard and the 'will of d', and decides that blackbeard can't and isn't roger's successor, but he looks at luffy and thinks perhaps.

ofc silvers rayleigh recognizes that hat, but i like how he only says that luffy is worthy after the timeskip. he may have helped luffy train for a year and a half, but did he think he was worthy as roger's successor during that time?

like i don't think luffy is intentionally mirroring gol d roger's path, it's accidental, he follows the logpose which nami interprets, he goes offcourse bc other things get interesting, but i just love how things do line up. not every arc, not every island, is there proof of gol d roger's mark, bc luffy seeks his own adventure rather than retracing those footsteps, but it's neat how other paths align with gol d roger all the same. but it's been 20 years-ish since gol d roger died, and of course, people can't help but notice and compare luffy from now to roger from then.

anyway, i just like how the journey has been crafted, and i'm curious how that follows in the post-time skip arcs, bc i guess that i missed that shadow of gol d roger in fishman island/vegapunk/dressrosas/vinsmoke, bc there are other mysteries that have been yet to be answered. and this is the new world! what happens next is anyone's guess! (and those who read on past that point.)

anyway, something something, i just really love the first half of one piece and how it's constructed!

[ceilingfan5]

2 3 18 29!!! :0

2. Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

OKAY so like. with chapter fics i usually start out with a garbage outline and then upgrade to a numbered outline, usually when it gets out of hand? the garbage outline is the like, general life and main beats of the fic, and then the numbered outline just sort of puts events and like, bits, or even some important dialogue vibes, in a way i can reference, but i cannot stress enough how like. dog shit rube goldberg my writing process is, i thought the cruise fic was going to be like 20 k. im serious. the marbles are traveling and where are they going on their little journeys? who knows but there sure are bells and whistles and funny little trick jokes

which is to say: yes. there is a "plan" and also the fic truly does just happen to me. i am less of a farmer and more of a truffle piggie. im gonna go find the stupidest possible thing for taako to say brb

3. Describe the creative process of writing a chapter/fic

i feel like the above says a lot already but legitimately like. if im vibing with an idea, i go off my few little bullet points and let the spirit take me? i write in order, i have a hard time doing things out of order, and it really does just happen as if you turn a page in a book and now instead of blank there is story there. or like. i imagine the story and then i make it happen, and usually especially let the dialogue take it where it wants to go! plinko baby

for a whole fic, i start with the spaghetti process, usually a prompt or au or setting, and then go "you know what would be so fucking funny" and escalate from there, usually with a friend i can bounce off of like thie or noodyl. and i make the garbage outline with a shitload of bullet points in a document with a stupid title. and then i just fling myself into the abyss and hope the words will catch me! trust fall <3 and when it gets too big to wrap around the initial outline, i make a Slightly more detailed one, and bounce some more ideas with friends. it helps to have someone who is as insane about your writing as you are <3 <3 <3 <3

18. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process? How do you come up with titles?

truly last fucking minute usually, altho like, revenge plus one was the working title i defaulted to after absolutely the most painful titling process ive ever been a part of. i've just been calling it cruise fic so long, it's kind of like the goose game in my head. Untitled Cruise Fic. i thought that would be confusing tho. maybe i should have had more guts. i love a good reference or a pun or even like, part of a line from the best bit, like sticker stars

29. What’s your revision or editing process like?

ailem is right, that's between me n god

[kfan04]

Heeeey thank you so much for such a detailed response! I saw you are also the person who posted all of the Romeo's voicelines — my huge respect, I was so happy to find that post when I was first scrolling tumblr for any pieces of the information!

You've raised so many interesting points!

- part of why Romeo is acting like that with Kaito could be because Kaito is a Frostheimer

I'm super curious about how Romeo talks to Jin and Tohma! He called Tohma a "leech" and spoke quite negatively of him when Kaito mentioned Tohma and Romeo have a similar wat of talking. But, like you mentioned, both Romeo and Kaito are rejected by Frostheim (though Kaito's position starts to change) — Romeo's not really revenging Frostheim with thie one, does he?

I think Romeo's only on his way to get to the Frostheim, though it could be that he uses Kaito with some goal regarding Frostheim in mind.

- Romeo might see Kaito as an investment if Kaito becomes the next Frostheim Captain

With Luca in the picture, probably not anymore, hmm? Kaito doesn't really seem like the type to want power, and he mentions he just wants to live in piece. Between Kaito and Luca, I think, Kaito too would want for Luca to take the position. But it's Darkwick who decides in the end, if I'm not mistaken.

I was also thinking about what connections do those in 4th year have to the 3rd years and others. If Kaito becomes the next Frostheim Captain in his 3rd year, how would it benefit Romeo who would be then in the 4th year?

What happens after the graduation is another big question, but how is Kaito's and Romeo's relationship gonna last after? Kaito is probably expecting for their connection to only last up until then, but with Romeo's investment in this, it could be that he expects to be involved with Kaito even further.

- pendant and bracelet could be artifacts that make their holders to be fiercely protective of them

I also think it could be something else behind the symbols of wealth and prestige in the pendant and bracelet! But about protectiveness, I'm not sure? Kaito doesn't have any problem with showing Prince his pendant and doesn't show any reaction when the Prince mentioned he thought of buying it from him. I think Kaito is only holding into the pendant because if its sentimental value — something his deceased grandma he was close with gave to him. While Romeo is very overall — in chapter 8, he also had a very hard time letting go of the expensive stuff he just got.

- Kaito might be taking loans from Romeo as he doesn't seem to have income

The income is an overall great mystery! Kaito is not from the wealthy background, but where do others take money from, too? There are people who are actively doing business, like Romeo and Sho, kinda Leo. There are rich guys in Frostheim. What about everyone else? Do their families send them money? Are they in contact with their families?

Ghouls overall don't share much about their families, so Kaito only mentioning his grandma is not that weird. But if we assume he really didn't have anyone except grandma, how does he pay for food, for example? Kaito's shown to buy groceries and cook... Does Darkwick pay for him?

I doubt Kaito's taking loans from Romeo on his own though. I chapter 4, when Romeo asks him how he's going to tell Luca about now owing twice as much, Kaito replies "Shut up, you are the one who was all like 'The jackpots ripe, this could be your chance'. And you know what, you guys are dicks for spamming me so much on Wickchat." He also says he wants to quit gambling. All of it makes me thinks that Romeo somehow encourages Kaito to play? If Luca has only paid for Kaito, why would Romeo continue to message him?

- talking affectionately and sweetly might be the way Romeo's used to handle things

It makes so much sense! Romeo has this business side to him, which he sometimes lectures MC about. This guy's such a mess of rational and crazy. Although when he wrapped his arm around MC's waist it was probably just to engage Kaito — there were 3 choices, and if the player chooses to try to escape his grip and says "Kaito might misunderstand", Romeo quietly says to shut. He was additionally trying to motivate Kaito by reminding him of MC's curse and that piece of paper.

- Romeo might use the cage on more or less regular basis to punish those special to him

This is wild in whatever way we look at it, honestly. I mean, if Romeo's values allow him to do this, what kind of family does he come from?

Romeo probably isn't using the cage too much, given that it's in his private office only few people know about. But from his perspective, definitely, the cage is no big deal.

He hasn't thrown the MC in the cage yet, but with Kaito, I wonder what was his exact plan. Lock him up for a few days? Without Ritsu, no one would probably sign that non-disclosure agreement. If Kaito told the professors or chancellor about the cage, was Romeo hoping no one would care about him? Or that Hyde would cover for him? I mean it's Darkwick anyway...

- Kaito's and Romeo's relationship before the Clash

This part is also mysterious, but I think you got it right. They were somehow missing out on each other, which makes the Clash and the turning point for Romeo more intriguing. It has most probably to do with the pendant, but given Romeo's special relation to Frostheim, there could be more to it. Whatever happened, it must have clicked hard for Romeo.

- Romeo acts like this because he actually wants Kaito to improve

I could see it that way! It's a little bit hard to process, because of Romeo's attitude it is challenging to distinguish when he's trying to help, and when... not. But he is not particularly hostile to Kaito, I think. He's aggressive, but he's aggressive with everyone, or most people. Plus Kaito feels free to argue with him.

Romeo's definitely thinking of himself as more mature, and has this kinda... "I know better than you" attitude. He also expects Kaito to be obedient. During chapter 9, he multiple times tries to manipulate Kaito to take part in the mission not only by force, but by pressing on Kaito's specific buttons as well. He knows Kaito's curious about dating spots, he knows Kaito cares about MC's curse, he knows Kaito will be jealous at him being alone with MC. Romeo also explains to Kaito a lot of things. Hear me out, his attitude, doesn’t it remind you a liiittle bit of annoyed older brother? It could be just me though...

- pendant and house Aldici

Yes!!! I didn't mention it on Reddit cause it would be spoilers for the chapter 13, but I also noticed Aldici sounds Italian! Plus, the bracelet with the same insignia was found in the International funeral. This raises so many questions — is it a coincidence that the pendant belongs to the likely Italian family and Romeo is Italian? Does Kaito have Italian relatives? His name is very Japanese, is he distantly related or was his surname changed by grandma for some purpose?

Too many pieces are missing x) What I'm almost sure about, Kaito doesn't know about his origins. He is also not interested in discovering it, for now. I honestly wonder why he's in the Frostheim. He clearly wasn't raised in the same prestige as everyone else in Frostheim, and does not share the same mindset. If it's about values and/or personality, why aren't there more poor or middle-class people in Frostheim?

It's probably few month until we get new information about it, but the good thing is, we will get it for sure! The pendant storyline and whatever it is between Romeo and Kaito is first mentioned in the very beginning of the story, and we are consistently getting new hints almost in every chapter one of them is. It's just that, even at this stage, it's all really tangled, and even though it's fun to explain all the complicated relationships in the game with ships, I want to try and make sense of it somehow.

Thank you so much for replying!!!

What do you think is going on with Kaito and Romeo?

I've posted this on Reddit and now I'm posting it here so I more people see it and talk to me!

Particularly I'm interested in why Romeo seems to be so clingy with Kaito. I know that there are already some explanations — Kaito's debt and Kaito's pendant — but don't you think Romeo is putting too much effort into this?

Regarding **debt**: does Romeo chase around everyone with debt on the regular basis? Also, the academy is clearly full on well-off students, it would make much more sense to concentrate on them. Kaito doesn't have money and he won't somehow get them out of nowhere (Luca is another discussion).

Regarding **pendant**: have you noticed that Romeo is trying to convince Kaito to give him the pendant, instead of taking it away by force? Throughout the chapters he hasn't really tried to take the pendant away, although I think Romeo's more than capable of it. He is stronger than Kaito and the latter didn't have any protectors before Luca (Tohma and Jin are also not shown to be close enough to Kaito to defend him in the past). Otherwise, there must have been tons of opportunities for Romeo to hurt or kill Kaito and take away the pendant, everyone dies left and right, even when they were on the mission — little accident, minus one ghoul, nobody would've probably suspected anything. Why hasn't Romeo taken the pendant away already?

Regarding **Romeo's time and effort**: despite being the busy man Romeo claims he is, he still finds time to regularly look around for Kaito, calling his name, and with a gun. He asks MC for Kaito's schedule — twice. He spams Kaito with messages. He locks Kaito in the cage in his private office very few people know about — this is just another level, because why. He also takes Kaito on a mission with him, when being told that was his chance to assemble the best possible team — notably, he goes for Kaito before contacting his actual friends, and also has to threaten Kaito to go with him in first place. On the mission, it's Romeo's decision to split, and both times he takes Kaito with him, also physically dragging him and just casually intimidating him along the way.

Who would go that far for the indebted guy? Or even for a pendant? It's more like Romeo's interested in Kaito being constantly around, but also, why?

Regarding **Romeo's attitude**: he's the mix of tenderness and frustration when it comes to Kaito. The phrase he use to call him is *Doko itta no, dete oide?* which translates kinda like *Where have you gone? Come on, come out!* and is often used to talk to animals and kids. He also uses *Fuji-kun*, emphasising on either Kaito being his kouhai, or being on friendly terms with him. He's very touchy when it comes to Kaito — grabbing his hand, his collar, his ear, shaking his shoulders, clamping a hand over his mouth. It's not necessarily tender, but it seems that Romeo finds it absolutely natural to act towards Kaito in such way. Romeo's also often implying Kaito acts unreasonable towards him when not willing to comply, like when Kaito is hiding or running away from him, or when he doesn't want to go on the mission. One time he says something along the lines "there's more on the map than that, so just shut up and do as I say", implying it's in Kaito's interest to listen to him.

**Why does Romeo seem to be convinced that Kaito should be doing as he says without asking questions?**

Regarding **Kaito's attitude**: Kaito isn't shown to be super intimidated by Romeo. Yes, he runs away away from him, and in one voiceline he mentions he started getting chills when someone calls his name because of Romeo — so it's not like Kaito doesn't recognise Romeo as a threat. However, Kaito is constantly talking back and resisting. When talking to Romeo, Kaito openly questions his decisions, mocks him, swears at him, uses *omae*, simply disagrees and Romeo has to put *a lot of* effort to actually get Kaito to do something — and half of the time, Kaito doesn't do what is expected of him anyway. He talks to Romeo almost freely, definitely less scared than with Jin or with Tohma, or even with Ren or Jiro. Interestingly, Kaito uses *Romeo-san*, instead of *-senpai*, like with Tohma and Jin. Kaito also doesn't seem to have a clue about why Romeo is following him, but he's not interesting in figuring it out either, just "weird guy, ugh how annoying, does he ever stop".

Unlike Romeo who perceives his own actions as natural, justified as "Well I'm just collecting debt", Kaito openly talks about how strange Romeo acts towards him. Locked in the cage, he says "shut up, kidnapping creep" and "do you even realise how unhinged you sound" when Romeo says no one would save him from there... When MC says "he has certainly taken a liking to you", Kaito corrects "liking, more like stalking".

For now, no one except Luca and to some degree MC hasn't commented on Romeo's and Kaito's connection — do they know? Or do they don't care? Or both.

Regarding **timeline**: Kaito mentions Romeo has been on his tail for half of the year. Before that, he wasn't even in the gambling den. This lines up with the estimated time of the Clash. Does Romeo's interested in Kaito has something to do with the Clash? Did it just happen in the same time? Kaito says he has somehow avoided the Clash — he himself doesn't connect the Clash with Romeo's interest in him. Kaito doesn't seem to connect Romeo's interest with anything, implying it was sudden. It could be that the determining point of the Romeo's interest was the moment Romeo was looking at Kaito from a distance, if Kaito cannot remember any special confrontation. What doesn't line up is the warding card of Romeo standing above Kaito and looking at his pendant — judging by his expression, for the first time. Who wouldn't have remembered this situation? Another thing, Kaito mentions that he hasn't seen Romeo much before, and he wasn't even in the gambling den. So although Romeo justifies his hobby by collecting debt, he possibly wasn't that interested in collecting this debt initially, before that special point six month ago.

Regarding **paperwork**: Luca repays Kaito's debt in the prologue, another simple solution to Kaito repaying his debt and Romeo not having to go after him ever again. Yet Romeo claims "he still owes rate of interest, so it's not enough to buy his freedom". To which Luca replies "I'd like to see the paperwork then", and Romeo's muttering he "hates men with brain". Other than Kaito commenting on how he didn't know about the rate of interest (which could be written off as ignorance, and not necessarily as Romeo deceiving him), Romeo's comment suggests there might be something unclear with the documentation. Another important paper is the one Romeo threatens to show the MC when telling Kaito to join him on the mission. It is not the debt-related issue — MC already knows about it. It is something that Kaito feels to be embarrassed about, and something that allows Romeo to say "you really think you can say no?". In the prologue, when Romeo demands pendant, Kaito also replies with "this is one thing you will never get from me" — one thing? Does that mean Kaito agrees in some way Romeo can demand anything else? The paper which Romeo threatens to show the MC — which conditions are written there?

Let's assume that Kaito does owe Romeo more than money. What exactly is Romeo gaining in this situation? Why would he need specifically Kaito's compliance in the first place? Why Kaito of all people, of all ghouls. Okay, maybe Romeo thinks it's handy to get a guy who he can threaten to do anything. Why would he put so much energy into keeping Kaito close to him — especially on the occasions that could've used more catered to the situations ghouls, like the mission. Judging by how he addresses Kaito as "plebeian", he doesn't think Kaito's pendant connects him with the powerful family, plus he comments how Kaito doesn't know its true value. So Romeo is not after Kaito's potential prestige.

Romeo's behaviour doesn't make sense. It especially doesn't make sense considering he *is acting rationally* when it comes to missions, or his income, or dealing with others, which means there *is* an explanation for how he acts with Kaito — my guess, it directly or indirectly includes money, or another physical value.

What is notable, is that *Romeo is deliberately keeping Kaito close* and *monitors his actions*.

What are your thoughts? Have I missed something? I'd die to discuss, really. I see all these signs, but I can't really understand what it means. I know we are quite early in the story, but for the 13 chapters the story has been very consistent with the relationship between Romeo and Kaito, and Kaito's pendant. I'm super interested to know what others think!