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taichoushadow · 7 years ago

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BTS reacts to their s/o being insecure about their relationship

Hello sweety ^^

Sorry for taking so long :( I wanted it to be perfect for you and maybe it isn��t as perfect as I wanted it to be but I didn’t want you to wait any longer. I hope this is something you had in mind. I have to confess myself this was really a challenge for me to write, so thank you haha. Enjoy reading and thank you for loving my blog! I will try to keep my work good okay? ;)

Stay healthy!

Seokjin

You were watching Seokjin on the little screen that hung on the wall in the dressing room. You had joined Seokjin to one of his shows since he asked you to come with him. Most of the times you declined, not wanting to disturb but actually you did not want to see him around all the pretty female idols who seemed so perfect. Yeah yeah you knew they weren’t but hey you can’t deny they were pretty as the freaking sun. You couldn’t help but feel small and less attractive as thoughts began to swirl in your mind. ‘’Why was he with you? What did he see in you? Why would he still be with you if he had so many beautiful women standing in line for him?’’ You just couldn’t understand plus you began to feel selfish by staying with him. So lost in your thoughts, you had not heard the guys coming in.

‘‘y/n.. what’s wrong?’‘ his soft voice lighted up the dark aura you had surrounded yourself with as you looked at him sitting beside you. Showing him a little smile, you gripped onto his arm, slung it over your shoulder and nuzzled closer to his frame. His familiar and calm scent, his warm temperature cradled your mind and scared away the demons. Slinging one arm around his torso, you pulled him closer to you wanting to feel as close to him as you could.

The others just stared at you, confused what was going on. Seokjin just waved them away, leaning his chin on your crown and hugged you tightly already knowing what was going on. He felt stupid, he wanted to punch himself in the face for making you feel like this. ‘’Y/n..” Seokjin whispered, curling your hair with his finger. You just hummed, smiling how his voice sounded so soothing. ‘’I’m sorry. I love you. You’re like that little star in the sky surrounded by all the big ones.’’ You frowned. what was he saying? before you could pull away and ask him why, he continued. ‘’You are hard to find y/n. You are an unique person. Once people lay their eyes on you, they can’t look away. Something just lures them to you, forgetting the rest around them. It isn’t how bright you shine or how big you are. Be yourself and the right people and the ones worth your time will find you and I guess I was the lucky one.’’

Yoongi

Yoongi noticed how you had been distancing yourself. He noticed how your bright smile wasn’t as bright anymore and when he looked into your eyes he didn’t see the sparkle, he did not see the joy and if you asked him what he saw instead? well he couldn’t see anything. It was like you had closed off your emotions, locked in a safe, hidden away in the dark and at the end of the week he snapped, asking you, no demanding you to spit it out.

‘‘I can’t take it anymore! Tell me what’s going on. Please don’t leave me hanging in the dark.’‘ His words burnt your skin as they reached you, causing you to drop the glass in your hands. You knew what he was talking about and you also knew you’ve been in the wrong but you didn’t want to burden him with your stupid insecurities because he had enough on his plate already and adding yours wouldn’t do any good but you had it all wrong. The guilt came crashing down on your heart as you heard his voice. They were pleading for an answer, pleading you to make an end to his aching heart. The doubts and insecurities that have been consuming your heart for the last couple of days slipped past your lips no matter how much you tried to swallow them back. The guilt was so heavy that your other emotions had no other choice but to leave to make room for the other and so you told him everything. You were afraid, so afraid that he one day would be gone. That Yoongi realized you weren’t good enough or that you were a burden to him. Tears rolled their way down over your cheeks, wiping it away harshly because to you it felt like they were burning your skin with your stupid uncertainty.

When you felt his hands around your wrists, you looked up at him and the sight added more guilt on your heart and soul. ‘’Don’t hurt yourself y/n.’’ He whispered, wiping your tears away and rubbing your cheeks in soothing circles. ‘’Shhh it’s okay. I’m still here.’’ he whispered in your hair after he nestled you in his chest, arms tightening his hold on you as if he was afraid you would vanish soon. ‘’I want to say I am sorry but I can’t y/n.. because you know, you’re not a burden to me. You know that I love you so much that it even hurts sometimes. Heck sometimes I even think that YOU are to good for ME. And remember what you have told me about if you love something you should let it go and than called it bullshit because heck no why would you let someone go if you love them? Shouldn’t you cherish that person and shower it with extra love? You said that y/n. I am Min Yoongi. Not Suga, not Bangtan. Min Yoongi and this dumbass is hopelessly in love with you. So please if you ever think you’re not good enough, please talk to me. Don’t leave me in that cold place y/n. ‘’

‘‘I won’t Yoongi, I am so sorry. I didn’t know what came over me. I love you too, so much.’‘ You whispered back.

Hoseok

Feeling ashamed about what you told Hoseok, you hid yourself in the bedroom, locked the door and sat down, your back against it. You could feel his presence and knew he was standing on the other side waiting for you to come out but he could stand there for a long time because you weren’t leaving this room until the embarrasment was gone. The way his eyes flashed when you told him how you felt told you enough and so you flee. Of course it was dumb to feel that way, Hoseok had only shown you love, always made sure you knew he loved you and that you were one of kind and somehow fear showed his side.

‘‘Why are you even hiding?’‘ you heard him ask. ‘‘Just because’‘ you mumbled back. You heard him sigh before he slid down the door aswell. ‘‘I don’t know why you’re feeling this way…’‘ he paused. ‘‘ since you didn’t even explain it to me as you just ran off’‘ he continued but couldn’t help but chuckle at the sight of you sprinting from the couch, nearly tripping on your way to the room. ‘‘but I guess it’s the fact that you feel to lowly for me which I don’t understand. I know you don’t care about status you always have treated people the same and that’s the first thing I liked about you. You’re kind but can discipline people too if they have done wrong even if it’s the president you wouldn’t care. I don’t think I have to say that I love you y/n because you already know I do. I tell you everyday. I tell you that before I leave, I tell you that when I come home and I tell you that before we go to sleep and I think I have shown you enough how much I love you too. I love you y/n. Me, Jung Hoseok loves y/w/n. I love her very very much and I love all of her flaws, all of her insecurities too because that’s what makes you, you. And if you don’t believe me I can show you my phone which is filled with photos and videos of you.’‘ He finished with a loud laugh and it seemed he had thrown his head back when you heard a soft thump.

His words had lighted up the darker side of your heart, his words filled with loved chased away the beasts as it bit their skin. Standing up, you turned unlocked the door and swung it open and true to your thoughts Hoseok had been sitting against the door as he tumbled backwards. Smiling up at you, he crawled his way up and kissed you on the lips. ‘’Now I think it’s time I show you how much I love you.’’

Namjoon

He just stared at you when you had sat him down and voiced how you felt. He was searching for words but he could only hear his thoughts. Where did they come from? Was it his fault? Had he done something to make you feel that way? Were you trying to break up with him? Were you actually telling him that you couldn’t do this anymore? Was it because you both went public and you couldn’t handle it anymore, that you made a mistake? The sound of his name snapped him out of it and focused his gaze once again on you.

You were looking at him, knowing the wheels in his head were working on full force as he zoned out. You did not regret telling him this, you wanted him to know, you needed him to help you get out of this rut. You were always one to think positively however the words you read on social media didn’t really help. Yeah you knew that this was going to happen sooner or later when you started dating Namjoon, he had warned you about it too plus you were always one to brush off opinions of others, not really caring what people thought of you but when you read things as: ‘y/n will damage his image or she is only dating him to become famous too.’ Well it hurt because they were dragging Namjoon in it too, THEY were the ones damaging his image, making up stories just to sell and it was stupid that you thought he was better off without you.

‘‘Y/n that’s not true and you know that. If you believe them and leave me than that will break my heart. I’m not better off without you. I am going to be lost if you do.’‘ Pulling you from the couch he sat you down on his lap, your legs wrapping around his waist as his hands rubbed your arms. ‘‘You know not to believe them, and I know you’re fighting with yourself right now. One voice is telling you not to believe them and just to let their comments slip past you but there is the other one who is telling you that they are right, that you shouldn’t be with me, that you don’t ‘fit’ in but who cares about an image sweetheart? You especially don’t care about that. You just do what you do. If it’s dancing in the rain on the middle of the street or jumping in the cart in the supermarket to zoom past the aisles, you don’t care what people think, you are having fun, you are being yourself no matter what and that’s one reason why I fell for you. Even the boys admire that about you. And also know that I don’t think of you like that. To say it simple. You’re the water and sunlight to my roots. I love you.’‘

Jimin

he couldn’t help but cry when you told him. He had guessed something was wrong with the way you got extra affectionate or asked him where he was going everytime he went out. You weren’t like that, you liked having some freedom in a relationship but the way you behaved this week had got him thinking and after the fight you just had about the issue of you wanting to know where he was every minute you had screamed it out. You told him that he didn’t want to be with you anymore, you told him small you felt beside him figurally and when you told him you were certain, he didn’t love you anymore the way he did at first felt like a stab in his heart. He immediately shut his mouth, the words that formed in his mouth faded away as tears sprung in his eyes. He was in disbelief. Did you really think he didn’t love you anymore?

‘‘y/n… no, no, no, no.’‘ He took quick steps towards you, grabbed you wrist and with a strong tuck he had you wrapped in his arms. He felt you struggling at first, trying to get out of his grip but he held you so strong there was no way you were getting out of his protective arms. He didn’t know why you were saying those things, where you got it from. ‘‘How… How can you say things like that y/n?’‘ he cried, his face buried in your neck. ‘‘You don’t know how much I love you.. I couldn’t even describe how much I love you.’‘ You were crying aswell, dampening his shirt with your tears while your hand were clutching his shirt. You wanted to kick, scratch, punch yourself, you just wanted to hurt yourself for hurting him like this. ‘‘Gosh do you know how painful that is? I love you so much that even when I step out this door just to get some food I will already miss you. I love you so much that even if you break my heart I will still love you. I love you so much because my heart and my soul are intertwined with yours. My heart fell for yours and my soul fell in love with your soul. When I see you or hear you my heart sets itself free from all the worries and pain it felt throughout the day. It yearns for you y/n how desperate it may sound. I never have felt like this before.’‘ Jimin confessed on and on, hoping his words reached your soul. The tears had stopped and he was now giving little butterfly kisses on your skin, still salty from tears. You had also stopped crying, your hands no longer holding onto his shirt as they were now laying flatly on his chest. Feeling his heartbeat on your palm, you were sure your own matched his.

‘‘I did not mean what I said earlier. Kind of. It’s just being away from home and all the sudden attention… I guess im just a bit scared and shocked. I know I am not like that and I want to apologize for all the clinginess. Thank you Jimin, Thank you. I love you too’’

Taehyung

You had walked out on him. He could not believe you just walked out of the door when you confessed your insecurities. He knew you weren’t the type to tell someone your worries, you didn’t like it and just waited until that feeling passes and now when you finally did you walked away after uttering the last word. He saw how your eyes widened and how you bit your lip, instantly regretting what you did and before he could say something you were gone.

Snatching his jacket from the coatrack, he ran after you, putting his coat on while running. You couldn’t be far, it had only been 5 minutes when you slammed the door in his face. After what felt like an hour to him he had found you. You were sitting on the bench infront of the little pond in the park. You always have loved the sound of water.

‘‘Hey’‘ you heard him saying as you felt him sitting down beside you. You greeted him back without looking at him, as you smiled at the ducks who were swimming in circles, clearly enjoying the water. Of course you felt bad for running away because that is what you did. You ran away from your problems instead of facing them head on. You were always good in that. You hated conflict and you always tried to avoid them.

‘‘I just want you to know that you don’t have to deal with your insecurities alone y/n. You’re not alone anymore.’’ Taehyung spoke up softly not wanting to interrupt the peaceful sounds of nature and not wanting to scare the animals away. You snapped your head to him, your mouth open in surprise. It was as if he read your mind. Biting his lips, he turned his body so that he was facing you. ‘’I mean I can kind of understand where you’re coming from. I ’ve been insecure too you know’’ he fumbled with his fingers kind of scared himself too about his doubts in this relationship. “I was trying to figure it out why you wantes to be with me. I wouldn’t be that guy that could cuddle you to sleep every night. I can’t always come when you need me. All I can do is call you or skype you but it isn’t the same as being their in person. You sometimes have to sleep alone for a long period of time. Those were thoughts that haunted through my head. I was thinking you would be better off with someone who could do all those things I can’t. I can’t always take you on a quiet date and most of the times they have to be inside of the house and yeah yeah I know you don’t mind but still… I want the best for you y/n and I can’t always give you that but you told me not to worry about it, that you will love me no matter what. You told me that waiting for me is worth it, that all those things make our relationship to how it is. It’s perfectly unperfect is what you tell me. You don’t want perfect, you want real and raw. And guess what… I want it too. I don’t want to only see the happy, go lucky y/n. I also want to see the frustrated you, the angry you, the sad you. So please don’t hide your feelings. I love the real and raw you.”

Jungkook

He was scared, to him your words sounded like you couldn’t be with him anymore. That you couldn’t handle his lifestyle anymore and so the waterworks came. Tears you saw rarely, fell and could feel the bed lighly shaking as he sobbed. You scooted over to him, pushed him down gently to lay him down on the bed as you did aswell. With one hand on the back of his head you buried his face against your chest and stroked his hair as you shushed him, telling him it was okay and to let it all out.

You were confused. You only told him what troubled you to let him know how you felt and warn him about moodswings. Well you already had those so he was kind of used to it but you felt how they switched much more sooner than normal. When you couldn’t feel his shoulders shaking anymore and heard the peacefulness of the room except from the breathing from you and Jungkook, you knew he stopped crying.

“I got scared I am sorry” he told you after he calmed down. “the first thing that popped into my mind when you told me was that you wanted to break up. ” he chuckled embarrassed. Grabbing your hand which was still stroking his hair, he lifted it up and brought it down between the two of you after he pulled away from your embrace and engulfed it between his hand. “But when you held me like that and comforted me I realized that was not what you meant, you want me to help you to overcome those. We’re still young y/n but sometimes I think that you already lived a lot of lives because you’re so wise and mature. You actually come to me and tell me what’s wrong, to work things out and I.. I could only think of you leaving me and began to cry. I was the one who needed to reassure you. To comfort you. Y/n.. there is one thing I know for sure.. and that is that I love you from the bottom of my heart. I love you with my whole heart and even more. You don’t have to be insecure but you can’t help it sometime, know that you can come to me and tell me whenever you feel like that. Just like you did today. I know I can’t take it away instantly even if I want it so badly. I can show you how much I love you, admire you, look up to you, cherish you. Because everyday my love for you grows. It seems impossible with the immense love I feel for you already but I really do. I love you y/n.”

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indi-flying-with-dragons · 8 years ago

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(Get ready!) 1. Any scars? 4. Kissed anyone? 5. Coke or Pepsi? 6. Someone you hate? 7. Best friends? 8. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? 9. What’s your dream job? 13. Height? 18. Obsession? 19. If you had one wish, what would it be? 21. Kiss or hug? 22. Nicknames people call you? 23. Favorite song? 24. Favorite band? 26. Best thing that has ever happened to you? 27. Something you would change about yourself? 30. Watch the movie or read the book? 32. Favorite show?

[Continued]

(Same anon continued!) 35. Do you wish you could ever start over? 36. Any bad habits? 37. Ever had a near death experience? 38. Someone you can tell anything to? 41. Someone you hate/dislike? 42. Are you okay?

WOW… you’re certainly a…. enthusiastic anon eh? e.o *mind boggled* Let me… let me reply to all these. As brief as possible. E^E….Geesh. 24 different questions. Damn… My apologies to everyone. This is gonna be a LONG POST. e.o

Btw THANKS FOR ASKING :D *GLOMPAGES* X3 *hug-SQUISH*

Long post below! O.e

1. Any scars?

Um, I have two on my head, right behind my ears at different heights from my two different cochlear implant surgeries to install the internal parts into my head so the external processors will work. When my hair is short it looks like someone purposefully buzzed a line through my hair there, lol, but it’s natural from the surgery when I was 7 and 11 years old respectively.

And since I heal very well, my scars are real hard to see. I still have a faint one on my thumb, at the base of the last joint to the front of it, and one along the left side of my middle finger (both fingers on my right hand) that is still rough and keeps peeling a lot even now, years after the event.

Those I got from a random-ass exploding lightbulb that I was screwing in, had MADE SURE the lamp was off both at the wall and at the lamp itself (though I didn’t unplug it because I didn’t think I needed to…), but nope I had screwed it in one too many times, saw a BRIGHT FLASH OF LIGHT, and then it exploded, glass everywhere, and somehow only got hit on my index finger, middle finger, and thumb. ONLY there! Even to this day my engineer mother is completely baffled as to how that happened.

4. Kissed anyone?

Yes. My first ever kiss[es] was with an enthusiastic sloppy and awkward boy during a yearly dance when I was in highschool (I was unschooling and going to the Voyagers Homeschooling Co-op and they hosted yearly dances). Five French kisses are not my idea of a good first kiss ever!

My second ever person to kiss was … well. *blush and funny deadpan with crossed arms* He knows who he is. Since apparently I keep totally forgetting it somehow until he mentions it in a teasing fashion and yes we did date for a short while there before breaking up and remaining friends.

My third and remainder of kisses are thoroughly claimed by my handsome, hot boyfriend. -w-

5. Coke or Pepsi?

Coke. ALL. THE. WAY.

Blame my awesome grandmother (R.I.P.) who had 4 pm be coca cola time every day. :D She got me on coke early. …NOT COCAINE! Yeesh. Dirty minds. She also introduced me to my love of dragons and she was awesomely supportive and adoring of my artwork. :3 Since she was hard of hearing from old age and I was born hard of hearing, we got along well with having the TV on a comfortable loudness (for us). x3

…Damn just thinking about coca cola makes me think of her. :,) I even drank a whole 1 liter glass bottle of coke we got at a Mexican food store nearby for her funeral fiesta since she wanted a party for a funeral, not a sad dirge. :3 https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/ea/51/da/ea51da750fc136a655021c558b7c28c5.jpg Yes this one. XD I drank it all in under an hour in her honor and memory. I was so thirsty and so proud. XD I still have the empty bottle. x3

6. Someone you hate?

IDK… Hmm… I’m not one to really hate people. It’s such a strong emotion… I always thought of it as a “I want you to instantly die, right here and right now!” kind of emotion. So I don’t really hate people.

…I DO know of someone I would… honestly NOT be sad if she died. Considering she caused a hellava LOT of suffering and torment for my friend. I’d be sad because my friend would be sad, BUT I wouldn’t be sad because I actually missed her or regretted her death in any way.

7. Best friends?

Oh gosh. :3 Off the top of my head @destan-of-the-shadows and @faes-hiding-place :D my boyfriend counts too! Two RL friends I can meet with at times are more friends than “best” friends but I still count them as my friends because we’ve been friends since like 5th or 6th Grade in Middle School when we were all like 11 or 12 years old. :D I’m 22 now so see how long we’ve been friends. :D

8. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs?

NO drugs! The only thing that counts as alcohol is that couple sips of champagne at my cousin’s wedding when the servers mistakenly forgot to give us kids sparkling apple cider instead of champagne. Oops. XD We of course took great advantage of sipping as much as we could before they removed it. ;D It tasted HORRIBLE though. X_X What’s the appeal? IDK!

I drank some sips of other people’s drinks when I turned 21 but I absolutely HATE and CANNOT STAND the horribly bitter taste of alcohol (even in the sweetest mixed drinks it is strong and proud there when nobody else can taste it). Even if it’s burned off when used in a cheese fondue, that HORRIBLE bitterness remains. Bitter like the rotting corpse of a dying animal.

No thank you. I don’t ever want to drink again. X_X

9. What’s your dream job?

…. :,,,( I’ve not thought about this in ages… since I had to give up a lot of my “dream jobs” and “dream life” in order to make peace with the chronically ill life I have now. The grieving process was hard.

Goodbye my aspirations of being a geneticist, a psychologist, or even a therapist. Hello my life goals of being a professional artist and published author. :3

13. Height?

5'10". 5 feet, 10 inches. -w- … I really wish I was taller than my dad though. *grumble* He’s 6 feet. At least I’m an inch taller than my MOM. -^-

18. Obsession?

Oh dear. Which one? XD Take your pick. ;D I have: dragons, wings, flight, flying, cats/felines, biology, psychology, discussing the universe, astrology, culture, world-building, magic, art (as in drawing and coloring), writing, daydreaming, reading, listening to music, and cuddling with my boyfriend in a literal Netflix and chill. -w-

19. If you had one wish, what would it be?

…. *blinks and sighs* … It’d either be to be healthy again so I wouldn’t have this chronic illness (but would still keep my being deaf and hard of hearing because I LIKE THAT PART)… or to go back home, to my home world where my soul came from.

Yeah. XP

21. Kiss or hug?

Hug. :3 Preferably cuddle. :D

22. Nicknames people call you?

Indi-bindy-bo (You know who you are

23. Favorite song?

OH GEEZE. Hard to answer! XD … My favorite song of ALL time that I will ALWAYS love, have always loved, and might as well be my theme song for the sake of it? xD “Can’t Take Me (I’m Free!)” by Bryon Adams, from the Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron movie. xD

24. Favorite band?

My favorite singer is Michael Jackson. :3 He’s the only one I really know a lot about. All other bands and singers I just like some of their songs but know nothing about them as people, not even what they LOOK like a lot of times. -////- I prefer to respect their privacy. :)

26. Best thing that has ever happened to you?

Oh… Oh GOSH. IDK… XD … :3 Meeting my boyfriend, @destan-of-the-shadows and @faes-hiding-place :3

27. Something you would change about yourself?

See my wish above. -.- I’d LOVE to change that chronic illness of myself. … If I can’t then my persistent anxiety, or to somehow grow wings (like this third would be more likely than the other two? XD Hell, I can still ask! XD)

30. Watch the movie or read the book?

I’d rather read the book. :3 Unless the book is so horrible, that I wanna see why people think it’s so horrible, then I watch the movie because they usually try to tone things like that down. If the movie is horrible in many of the ways that I’ve heard criticism of the book itself… then I know never to touch that book. E^E

32. Favorite show?

Of all time? Avatar: The Last Airbender, Gargoyles, and Seconds from Disaster. >:D

Right now? XD Air Disasters. -w-

35. Do you wish you could ever start over?

Start what over? This life? Blegh. Don’t make me go through puberty TWICE!

… *looks at the side effects of taking testosterone HRT* Oh wait, I’m already doing that! -p-

… Make that don’t make me go through it a THIRD time. xD Even if that means I’d be able to be in a male body from day one, as opposed to having to be trans. XP

36. Any bad habits?

Which one do you wanna know? -x- Anxiety, hyper-focusing on a thing in my mind and then having the mind get stuck and not concentrate on anything else until I yank it off that… Staying quiet about things that affect me because I don’t want to hurt others or be a burden? Often opting to be quiet instead of confronting things that could make the relationship better in the long run? Being intensely private? Judging the strength of my relationships based on how much of my inner self I truly share? Doing subtle tests as I get to know someone to see which subject is “safe” to talk about and which I should just shut up about without them ever knowing? Over-thinking things a ton? Apparently my not needing to talk to others for a while is a weird-ass thing? … I can go on. -x-

Oh wait, were you asking about like little quirks like twirling hair or picking at the skin kinda bad habits? My apologies. -x-;;

37. Ever had a near death experience?

Yes. Waking up to being strangled by a spirit counts as that.

No, I’ve had an occasion of sleep paralysis before. I know what that feels like. You can’t move anything.

This was where I CAN move. I could move my hands and arms and everything else. It’s just something invisible and mostly intangible was strangling the life out my throat. Not from the inside choking, because I know what that feels like too. (My Life…) but from the outside suffocation and pressure and constriction on the outside of my neck.

Being strangled to near death in my spirit form by another spirit meant my physical body could feel that too, panicked the FUCK OUT at the feel of almost dying, and I literally felt my awareness fading away into a black nothingness with the faint but faltering heartbeats starting to skip and take longer and longer between each beat. Gasping and choking and then going still…

Thankfully helpful spirits got the negative one off and thoroughly destroyed it. They could heal my spirit form and with that healed, my body was able to come back too.

Never want to do that EVER. AGAIN. *shuddering* Those spirit attacks over the course of those three years were HELL on Earth. *holds self tight*

38. Someone you can tell anything to?

My boyfriend. I’m still working on being more honest with my two close friends @destan-of-the-shadows and @faes-hiding-place but I’ve made a lot of progress over the years thankfully. :3

41. Someone you hate/dislike?

Try that woman I mentioned far above that I hate.

As for actively dislike? Trumperdink. Bigoted assholes. TRUSCUM, TERFS, SWERFS, rapists, rape-apologists, racists, ableist assholes, murderers, serial killers, homophobes, aphobes, transphobes, and all the rest of that shit. I really dislike and don’t trust the police force in this country. And the vast majority of politicians too.

My country is a dystopian nightmare the tyrannical capitalist US of A. x.= Save me.

42. Are you okay?

Umm…Today was a bit hellish. I survived though. *grins a bit too widely and eyetwtiches* My life is just…………. very…… VERY………. interesting. *twitch*

… I still stand by my previous opinion of laughing my ass off at the utter ridiculousness of how people try to portray those “superhero teenagers” as somehow balancing a “regular life” with “crime fighting on the side with a secret identity” and somehow NOT having the crime fighting life interfere with their regular life outside of those “special two episodes.”

Yeah the fuck right.

Obviously written by those who have NO idea what balancing two different lives are like. X_X In my case it’s nothing so noble as a superhero identity, but it’s the difference of my spirit life and physical life.

And above, in my near-death-experiences… you saw just ONE of the many manifestations of that clash. -x- …Not. ….Fun.

I high-key DO NOT RECOMMEND. -x-

Most days these days (since the spirit attacks ended WHOOT WHOOT!) I can have a normal calm life. Then SOMETHING comes up and I’m like “what the shit-fuck is my entire existence right now??”

Yeah. -x-

… Can I have a hug? ;;;n;;;

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allbestnet · 8 years ago

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Considerations - By Colin Wright

From Good to Amazing: No Bullshit Tips for The Life You Always Wanted - By Michael Serwa

The Charisma Myth: How Anyone Can Master the Art and Science of Personal Magnetism - By Olivia Fox Cabane

Man's Search for Meaning - By Viktor E. Frankl

I Will Teach You To Be Rich - By Ramit Sethi

The Education of Millionaires: Everything You Won't Learn in College About How to Be Successful - Michael Ellsberg

No More Mr. Nice Guy: A proven plan for getting what you want in love, sex and life - By Robert A Glover

She Comes First: The Thinking Man's Guide to Pleasuring a Woman - By Ian Kerner

Nothing to Lose, Everything to Gain: How I Went from Gang Member to Multimillionaire Entrepreneur - By Ryan Blair

The Sales Acceleration Formula: Using Data, Technology, and Inbound Selling to go from $0 to $100 Million - By Mark Roberge

The Fine Art of Small Talk: How To Start a Conversation, Keep It Going, Build Networking Skills -- and Leave a Positive Impression! - By Debra Fine

Models: Attract Women Through Honesty - By Mark Manson

The Miracle Morning: The Not-So-Obvious Secret Guaranteed to Transform Your Life - Hal Elrod

Personal Development for Smart People: The Conscious Pursuit of Personal Growth - By Steve Pavlina

The ONE Thing: The Surprisingly Simple Truth Behind Extraordinary Results - By Gary Keller

Managing Oneself - By Peter Ferdinand Drucker

The Way of the Superior Man: A Spiritual Guide to Mastering the Challenges of Women, Work, and Sexual Desire - By David Deida

The 48 Laws of Power - Robert Greene

The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment - By Eckhart Tolle

The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom, A Toltec Wisdom Book - By Janet Mills

168 Hours: You Have More Time Than You Think - By Laura Vanderkam

Better Than Before: What I Learned About Making and Breaking Habits - By Gretchen Rubin

The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You're Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are - By Brene Brown

Early Retirement Extreme: A Philosophical and Practical Guide to Financial Independence - Jacob Lund Fisker

The Secrets of Happy Families: Improve Your Mornings, Tell Your Family History, Fight Smarter, Go Out and Play, and Much More - By Bruce Feiler

The Happiness Project: Or, Why I Spent a Year Trying to Sing in the Morning, Clean My Closets, Fight Right, Read Aristotle, and Generally Have More Fun - By Gretchen Rubin

Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent, and Lead - By Brené Brown

Your Brain at Work: Strategies for Overcoming Distraction, Regaining Focus, and Working Smarter All Day Long - By David Rock

The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business - By Charles Duhigg

Switch: How to Change Things When Change Is Hard - By Chip Heath and Dan Heath

Made to Stick: Why Some Ideas Survive and Others Die - By Chip Heath and Dan Heath

Blink: The Power of Thinking Without Thinking - By Malcolm Gladwell

Me, Myself, and Us: The Science of Personality and the Art of Well-Being - By Brian R Little

The Happiness of Pursuit: Finding the Quest That Will Bring Purpose to Your Life - By Chris Guillebeau

Trust Me, I'm Lying: Confessions of a Media Manipulator - By Ryan Holiday

The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Traditional Values and Spiritual Growth - M. Scott Peck

The User Illusion: Cutting Consciousness Down to Size - By Tor Norretranders

The Art of Thinking Clearly - By Rolf Dobelli

The Productive Narcissist: The Promise and Peril of Visionary Leadership - By Michael Maccoby

The Boy in the Striped Pajamas - John Boyne

Lies My Teacher Told Me: Everything Your American History Textbook Got Wrong - By James W. Loewen

The Progress Paradox: How Life Gets Better While People Feel Worse - By Gregg Easterbrook

How Rich People Think - By Steve Siebold

The Go-Giver: A Little Story About a Powerful Business Idea - By Bob Burg and John David Mann

The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari: A Fable About Fulfilling Your Dreams & Reaching Your Destiny - By Robin Sharma

This Is Your Brain on Music: The Science of a Human Obsession - By Daniel J. Levitin

Breakfast of Champions: A Novel - By Kurt Vonnegut

The 10 Secrets of 100% Healthy People - By Patrick Holford

You Must Change Your Life - By Peter Sloterdijk

The Last Lecture - By Randy Pausch

The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I Here For? - By Rick Warren

The Prophet - By Kahlil Gibran

Good to Great: Why Some Companies Make the Leap...And Others Don't - By Jim Collins

The Power of Positive Thinking - By Dr. Norman Vincent Peale

Awaken the Giant Within: How to Take Immediate Control of Your Mental, Emotional, Physical and Financial Destiny! - By Tony Robbins

Fooled by Randomness: The Hidden Role of Chance in Life and in the Markets - Nassim Nicholas Taleb

A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles" - By Marianne Williamson

The Brain That Changes Itself: Stories of Personal Triumph from the Frontiers of Brain Science - By Norman Doidge

The Power of Your Subconscious Mind - By Joseph Murphy

How I Raised Myself from Failure to Success in Selling - By Frank Bettger

How to Have Confidence and Power in Dealing with People - By Leslie T. Giblin

I'm OK--You're OK - By Thomas Harris

Who Moved My Cheese?: An Amazing Way to Deal with Change in Your Work and in Your Life - By Spencer Johnson

Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Love and Life from Dear Sugar - By Cheryl Strayed

I Too Had a Dream - By Verghese Kurien

Great Men of Literature - By Will Durant

The Attention Revolution: Unlocking the Power of the Focused Mind - By B. Alan Wallace

The Paleo Manifesto: Ancient Wisdom for Lifelong Health - By John Durant

Mindsight: The New Science of Personal Transformation - By Daniel J. Siegel

An Astronaut's Guide to Life on Earth: What Going to Space Taught Me About Ingenuity, Determination, and Being Prepared for Anything - By Chris Hadfield

Perfect Health Diet: Regain Health and Lose Weight by Eating the Way You Were Meant to Eat - By Paul Jaminet Ph.D. and Shou-Ching Jaminet Ph.D.

Failing Forward: Turning Mistakes into Stepping Stones for Success - By John C. Maxwell

Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It - By Kamal Ravikant

The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Powerful Lessons in Personal Change - By Stephen R. Covey

Whatcha Gonna Do with That Duck?: And Other Provocations - By Seth Godin

A Brief History of Everything - By Ken Wilber

The War of Art: Break Through the Blocks and Win Your Inner Creative Battles - By Steven Pressfield

The Righteous Mind: Why Good People Are Divided by Politics and Religion - By Jonathan Haidt

Total Recall: My Unbelievably True Life Story - By Arnold Schwarzenegger

The Art of Asking: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Let People Help - By Amanda Palmer

Think Big: Unleashing Your Potential for Excellence - By Ben Carson M.D.

The Psychology of Self-Esteem: A Revolutionary Approach to Self-Understanding that Launched a New Era in Modern Psychology - By Nathaniel Branden

Mastery - By Robert Greene

Your Killer Emotions - By Ken Lindner

Nonviolent Communication: A Language of Life - By Marshall B. Rosenberg

What the Most Successful People Do Before Breakfast: A Short Guide to Making Over Your Mornings-and Life - By Laura Vanderkam

The Game: Penetrating the Secret Society of Pickup Artists - By Neil Strauss

The Truth: An Uncomfortable Book About Relationships - By Neil Strauss

The Strangest Secret - By Earl Nightingale

The Wheel Of Time: The Shamans Of Mexico Their Thoughts About Life Death And The Universe - By Carlos Castaneda

The Art of Dreaming - By Carlos Castaneda

Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy - By David D. Burns

Wishes Fulfilled: Mastering the Art of Manifesting - By Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

I Can See Clearly Now - By Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

Change Your Thoughts - Change Your Life: Living the Wisdom of the Tao - By Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

You Were Born Rich: Now You Can Discover and Develop Those Riches - By Bob Proctor

Chicken Soup for the Soul: Stories to Open the Heart and Rekindle the Spirit - By Jack Canfield and Mark Victor Hansen

How to Stop Worrying and Start Living - By Dale Carnegie

The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success: A Practical Guide to the Fulfillment of Your Dreams - By Deepak Chopra

The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts - By Gary D Chapman

Crucial Conversations: Tools for Talking When Stakes Are High - By Kerry Patterson, Joseph Grenny, Ron McMillan, and Al Switzler

Getting to Yes: Negotiating Agreement Without Giving In - By Roger Fisher, William L. Ury, and Bruce Patton

Zig Ziglar's Secrets of Closing the Sale - By Zig Ziglar

The Power of Awareness: Move from Desire to Wishes Fulfilled - By Neville Goddard

King, Warrior, Magician, Lover: Rediscovering the Archetypes of the Mature Masculine - By Robert Moore and Douglas Gillette

The Art of Seduction - By Robert Greene

The Art of Non-Conformity: Set Your Own Rules, Live the Life You Want, and Change the World - By Chris Guillebeau

Your Erroneous Zones: Step-by-Step Advice for Escaping the Trap of Negative Thinking and Taking Control of Your Life - By Wayne W. Dyer

You Can Heal Your Life - By Louise Hay

The Unauthorized Guide to Doing Business the Richard Branson Way: 10 Secrets of the World's Greatest Brand Builder - By Des Dearlove

Swim with the Sharks Without Being Eaten Alive: Outsell, Outmanage, Outmotivate, and Outnegotiate Your Competition - By Harvey B. Mackay

See You at the Top - By Zig Ziglar

Feel the Fear . . . and Do It Anyway - By Susan Jeffers

The Big Leap: Conquer Your Hidden Fear and Take Life to the Next Level - By PhD Hendricks Gay

The Winner Effect: The Neuroscience of Success and Failure - By Ian H. Robertson

The Time Paradox: The New Psychology of Time That Will Change Your Life - By Philip Zimbardo and John Boyd Ph.D.

The Obstacle Is the Way: The Timeless Art of Turning Trials into Triumph - By Ryan Holiday

The Compound Effect - By Darren Hardy

The Wisdom of No Escape and the Path of Loving-Kindness - By Pema Chodron

The Entrepreneur Roller Coaster: Why Now Is the Time to #JoinTheRide - By Darren Hardy

The Art of Profitability - By Adrian Slywotzky

Small Is the New Big: and 183 Other Riffs, Rants, and Remarkable Business Ideas - By Seth Godin

The Paradox of Choice: Why More Is Less - By Barry Schwartz

Influence: The Psychology of Persuasion - By Robert B. Cialdini

How We Decide - By Jonah Lehrer

The Investor's Manifesto: Preparing for Prosperity, Armageddon, and Everything in Between - By William J. Bernstein

The Geography of Bliss: One Grump's Search for the Happiest Places in the World - By Eric Weiner

What Got You Here Won't Get You There: How Successful People Become Even More Successful - By Marshall Goldsmith and Mark Reiter

The Power of Full Engagement: Managing Energy, Not Time, Is the Key to High Performance and Personal Renewal - By Jim Loehr and Tony Schwartz

The Little Book of Talent: 52 Tips for Improving Your Skills - By Daniel Coyle

The Willpower Instinct: How Self-Control Works, Why It Matters, and What You Can Do To Get More of It - By Kelly McGonigal

The 5 Elements of Effective Thinking - By Edward B. Burger and Michael Starbird

Show Your Work!: 10 Ways to Share Your Creativity and Get Discovered - By Austin Kleon

The Antidote: Happiness for People Who Can't Stand Positive Thinking - By Oliver Burkeman

When Cultures Collide: Leading Across Cultures - By Richard D. Lewis

Fluent Forever: How to Learn Any Language Fast and Never Forget It - By Gabriel Wyner

Mindwise: How We Understand What Others Think, Believe, Feel, and Want - By Nicholas Epley

Smartcuts: How Hackers, Innovators, and Icons Accelerate Success - By Shane Snow

On Writing Well: The Classic Guide to Writing Nonfiction - By William Zinsser

Management of the Absurd - By Richard Farson

Hiring Smart!: How to Predict Winners and Losers in the Incredibly Expensive People-Reading Game By - Pierre Mornell

Drop Dead Healthy: One Man's Humble Quest for Bodily Perfection - By A. J. Jacobs

Cut to the Chase: and 99 Other Rules to Liberate Yourself and Gain Back the Gift of Time - By Stuart R. Levine

How to Talk to Anyone: 92 Little Tricks for Big Success in Relationships - By Leil Lowndes

Brain Rules: 12 Principles for Surviving and Thriving at Work, Home, and School - By John Medina

The China Study: The Most Comprehensive Study of Nutrition Ever Conducted And the Startling Implications for Diet, Weight Loss, And Long-term Health - By Thomas Campbell and T. Colin Campbell

Lucky Or Smart?: Fifty Pages for the First-Time Entrepreneur - By Bo Peabody

Being Logical: A Guide to Good Thinking - By D.Q. McInerny

On Writing - By Stephen King

Ready for Anything: 52 Productivity Principles for Getting Things Done - By David Allen

Island - By Aldous Huxley

You, Inc.: The Art of Selling Yourself - By Harry Beckwith and Christine Clifford

Business Stripped Bare: Adventures of a Global Entrepreneur - By Richard Branson

Making Ideas Happen: Overcoming the Obstacles Between Vision and Reality - By Scott Belsky

The Bed of Procrustes: Philosophical and Practical Aphorisms - By Nassim Nicholas Taleb

Give and Take: Why Helping Others Drives Our Success - By Adam M. Grant

Decisive: How to Make Better Choices in Life and Work - By Chip Heath and Dan Heath

A Mind for Numbers: How to Excel at Math and Science (Even If You Flunked Algebra) - By Barbara Oakley

Ignore Everybody: and 39 Other Keys to Creativity - By Hugh MacLeod

The Talent Code: Greatness Isn't Born. It's Grown. Here's How. - By Daniel Coyle

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