#Tourettic ocd

[growntourettesmemes]

[king-o-vermin]

of course the day i see my psychiatrist and im like “oh im doing great! my tics fluctuate ofc but theyre fine mostly” i get to school and Immediately start ticcing to death

[susiron]

Honestly tho, finding the phrase "Tourettic OCD" feels so vindicating. Because while there are a lot of things I experience that feel much more distinctly like they fit into the categories of OCD or Tourettes, a lot of what I do feels like a giant fucking gray area between the two.

Where I feel I have more control to suppress some of my tics than a lot of people with Tourettes seem to experience, but I have a lot of things I need to do not because they're related in any way to anxiety, but because I just have this building urge in me to do them and it makes me uncomfortable not to.

It's like a sliding scale between the two, where I feel like I can distinctly organize some things I do as OCD (because anxiety is definitely attached), or as Tourettes (because there's this giant premonitory urge that is making my skin crawl and I feel like my bones are fucking itching)-- and then there's the wild area in between where I have more control to suppress some things, and some things feel like they lean more on obsessive but they're also done for a SENSATION more than anything

And idk if I'm making sense. I haven't slept yet, and I have a headache but ahhh-- mental health stuff is whack.

[assbazooka]

well, today it finally happened

my tics made me say “i have a bomb” at school

[lvcifvr]

i'm so tired of people telling me that they 'understand'.

i'm so tired of people telling me that i'll 'get used to it'.

i'm so tired of people telling me that i just need to 'try harder'.

i'm so tired of people telling me to try this or that, as though i haven't heard any and all and every suggestion before.

i'm so tired of feeling like there's no point in talking about how and why my disabilities affect me and how i live my life.

i'm so tired of feeling left behind, of not being good enough, of being a burden when it comes to family, friends, partners.

i am so tired. All the time. Of everything.

STOP SAYING THAT YOU GET IT.

STOP SAYING THAT I SHOULD KEEP GOING.

STOP SAYING THAT YOU CARE ABOUT ME.

Because when someone says they care about me and then they have to 'deal' with me when i'm going through a rough patch - which have been growing more and more frequent - and then i am too much to care about anymore, to keep around anymore.

Partner after partner ending things with excuses.

One often being,

'i can't give you what you need'.

i know you mean that i require too much of you.

i know.

Just stop saying you care when you and everyone else eventually gives up on me and leaves me behind again and again and again.

i'm so fucking tired.

[midnight-soulless-system]

To my fellow OCDers of Tumblr who like reading (or have read the book I will mention), how do we feel about the book "Turtles All the Way Down" because I just started it and it feels really.. bad? I don't know if it's the writing style or the way that the main character's OCD is portrayed, but it just feels like it plays into a fuck ton of stereotypes and it seems really sanitized (haha play on words there). Does the book get better? Am I just being upset about a book for no reason?

[pinnakoladda]

god had plans for me.

plans:

throw food

scream

hit yourself

curse in three different languages

hit boyfriend

blink. a lot.

make weird faces.

kick

and much more! to be continued...

[ticcytea]

tag yourself

[aaaaaaaaraaaaaraaa]

Just found out about tourettic ocd as a proposal and that would explain so many years of my life and therapeutic route i feel exhausted at this discovery and please dsm don't disappoint me like you do for cptsd

[hamiliver]

(kisses) people think i´m trying to get their attention and i just having the worst tic in the worst moment JAAAA

[king-o-vermin]

tics are like cats at night

running rampant and disturbing the quiet when you most want it to be quiet

[susiron]

Ugh I have two new, very annoying tics. The first involves snapping my first two fingers together on my left hand, in a sideways movement that pops and hurts my joints a little

The second involves swallowing air and then belching (with my mouth closed) and it is irritating my stomach and throat a bit sigh

[assbazooka]

tics made me say to my (afab) friend “shrimp! you have a small penis!🤏”

[transgender-png]

fuck it. shout out to "high functioning" neurodivergents

the ones who can mask easily, the ones who can get social cues, the ones who have managed to go most of their life not even knowing they were ND because they didn't present as the stereotypical ND person.

the ones who can pay attention in class, understand social etiquette, who understand societial expectations

the ones who don't feel neurodivergent enough bc they don't struggle in the same ways/areas a lot of NDs do, or they can't relate to other NDs' experiences because they always understood these things easily

the ones with high empathy, the ones who DO get the joke, the ones who are constantly told that they can't possibly be neurodivergent because they don't act like what you'd expect a neurodivergent person to act like.

you are neurodivergent enough. you are valid, and so are your experiences. not struggling as much as others do in some places doesn't mean you dont struggle at all. your condition and diagnosis is valid. your symptoms are valid. YOU ARE VALID. not checking all the supposed boxes doesn't mean you aren't neurodivergent. you are enough. you are valid. you are loved. you are valued. you matter. you belong in neurodivergent spaces, you deserve to use whatever resources are available to you, you are allowed to take up space in these communities. and i am so, so proud of you.

feel free to, and actually, i encourage you to reblog this with your experiences. we belong in this community as much as anyone else. please also tag this w/ any neurodivergent conditions i may have forgotten 💙

since this is getting lots of notes I'd like to add, even if you're undiagnosed or maybe self diagnosed, for whatever reason, (i.e. can't get access to a diagnosis, not being taken seriously, or just not wanting an official diagnosis, etc.) this still applies to you. actually especially to you folks. don't think for a second you're not valid just bc you don't have the paperwork or whatever to say it

[pinkxcloudz]

"start unmasking your symptoms!" mfers when people with schizospec disorders, personality disorders, paranoia, tics and tourettes, OCD, PANDAS, and dissociative disorders unmask

[awakefor48hours]

Quick, share a neurodivergent headcanon that isn’t ADHD and/or autism