#Tourettic ocd

[growntourettesmemes]

[king-o-vermin]

of course the day i see my psychiatrist and im like “oh im doing great! my tics fluctuate ofc but theyre fine mostly” i get to school and Immediately start ticcing to death

[susiron]

Honestly tho, finding the phrase "Tourettic OCD" feels so vindicating. Because while there are a lot of things I experience that feel much more distinctly like they fit into the categories of OCD or Tourettes, a lot of what I do feels like a giant fucking gray area between the two.

Where I feel I have more control to suppress some of my tics than a lot of people with Tourettes seem to experience, but I have a lot of things I need to do not because they're related in any way to anxiety, but because I just have this building urge in me to do them and it makes me uncomfortable not to.

It's like a sliding scale between the two, where I feel like I can distinctly organize some things I do as OCD (because anxiety is definitely attached), or as Tourettes (because there's this giant premonitory urge that is making my skin crawl and I feel like my bones are fucking itching)-- and then there's the wild area in between where I have more control to suppress some things, and some things feel like they lean more on obsessive but they're also done for a SENSATION more than anything

And idk if I'm making sense. I haven't slept yet, and I have a headache but ahhh-- mental health stuff is whack.

[assbazooka]

well, today it finally happened

my tics made me say “i have a bomb” at school

[themonalysss]

idk here are screenshots of a Snapchat video I took and saved of myself last night when I was high as fuck off a Xanax (o_O)

before anyone comes at me, yes I am prescribed this drug, I bought it from the Pharmacy not from the streets

Anywhosies, I may or may not post the snap video in question so ya’ll let me know if anyone cares to see it wanna see me talk nonsense something like a dumbass😂

[lvcifvr]

i'm so tired of people telling me that they 'understand'.

i'm so tired of people telling me that i'll 'get used to it'.

i'm so tired of people telling me that i just need to 'try harder'.

i'm so tired of people telling me to try this or that, as though i haven't heard any and all and every suggestion before.

i'm so tired of feeling like there's no point in talking about how and why my disabilities affect me and how i live my life.

i'm so tired of feeling left behind, of not being good enough, of being a burden when it comes to family, friends, partners.

i am so tired. All the time. Of everything.

STOP SAYING THAT YOU GET IT.

STOP SAYING THAT I SHOULD KEEP GOING.

STOP SAYING THAT YOU CARE ABOUT ME.

Because when someone says they care about me and then they have to 'deal' with me when i'm going through a rough patch - which have been growing more and more frequent - and then i am too much to care about anymore, to keep around anymore.

Partner after partner ending things with excuses.

One often being,

'i can't give you what you need'.

i know you mean that i require too much of you.

i know.

Just stop saying you care when you and everyone else eventually gives up on me and leaves me behind again and again and again.

i'm so fucking tired.

[midnight-soulless-system]

To my fellow OCDers of Tumblr who like reading (or have read the book I will mention), how do we feel about the book "Turtles All the Way Down" because I just started it and it feels really.. bad? I don't know if it's the writing style or the way that the main character's OCD is portrayed, but it just feels like it plays into a fuck ton of stereotypes and it seems really sanitized (haha play on words there). Does the book get better? Am I just being upset about a book for no reason?

[pinnakoladda]

god had plans for me.

plans:

throw food

scream

hit yourself

curse in three different languages

hit boyfriend

blink. a lot.

make weird faces.

kick

and much more! to be continued...

[ticcytea]

tag yourself

[aaaaaaaaraaaaaraaa]

Just found out about tourettic ocd as a proposal and that would explain so many years of my life and therapeutic route i feel exhausted at this discovery and please dsm don't disappoint me like you do for cptsd

[hamiliver]

(kisses) people think i´m trying to get their attention and i just having the worst tic in the worst moment JAAAA

[king-o-vermin]

tics are like cats at night

running rampant and disturbing the quiet when you most want it to be quiet

[susiron]

God my face muscles are SO FUCKING SORE

My eye tic has been Persistent for days now, and I just can't stop doing it. And the more I do it, the more it strains my muscles, and the harder it gets to actually do the tic. So I wind up straining the muscles even more trying to do it

Just ugh. I fucking hate tourettes/tourettic OCD. Having an insatiable urge to scrunch up my eyes in a Specific Way™️, ignoring aches and pains, makes me want to SCREAM

[assbazooka]

tics made me say to my (afab) friend “shrimp! you have a small penis!🤏”

[transgender-png]

fuck it. shout out to "high functioning" neurodivergents

the ones who can mask easily, the ones who can get social cues, the ones who have managed to go most of their life not even knowing they were ND because they didn't present as the stereotypical ND person.

the ones who can pay attention in class, understand social etiquette, who understand societial expectations

the ones who don't feel neurodivergent enough bc they don't struggle in the same ways/areas a lot of NDs do, or they can't relate to other NDs' experiences because they always understood these things easily

the ones with high empathy, the ones who DO get the joke, the ones who are constantly told that they can't possibly be neurodivergent because they don't act like what you'd expect a neurodivergent person to act like.

you are neurodivergent enough. you are valid, and so are your experiences. not struggling as much as others do in some places doesn't mean you dont struggle at all. your condition and diagnosis is valid. your symptoms are valid. YOU ARE VALID. not checking all the supposed boxes doesn't mean you aren't neurodivergent. you are enough. you are valid. you are loved. you are valued. you matter. you belong in neurodivergent spaces, you deserve to use whatever resources are available to you, you are allowed to take up space in these communities. and i am so, so proud of you.

feel free to, and actually, i encourage you to reblog this with your experiences. we belong in this community as much as anyone else. please also tag this w/ any neurodivergent conditions i may have forgotten 💙

since this is getting lots of notes I'd like to add, even if you're undiagnosed or maybe self diagnosed, for whatever reason, (i.e. can't get access to a diagnosis, not being taken seriously, or just not wanting an official diagnosis, etc.) this still applies to you. actually especially to you folks. don't think for a second you're not valid just bc you don't have the paperwork or whatever to say it

[that-1-url]

so something I've noticed within a lot of fandoms is that people will post their "neurodivergent" headcanons. which is fine ofc, however when they say "neurodivergent" they are typically only referring to autism or ADHD. maaaayybbee ptsd if the character(s) are "traumatized enough" (by that I mean, there's typically one who everyone uwuifies and infantilizes because their trauma is most prominently on display within the media). a common headcanon that often fails to address the trauma of other characters, or that trauma doesn't always manifest itself as PTSD/C-PTSD.

point being, while there's nothing wrong with headcanoning characters with these (autism, adhd, ptsd), maybe...do research? branch out more? imagine how nice it would be if suddenly large amounts of people were not only educated about other lesser-known forms of neurodivergence (ocd, did, npd, bpd, aspd, schizotypal disorders, etc.) but destigmatized them by giving these headcanons to well-loved, popular characters (rather than the villains or antagonists, or even just less popular or even hated characters). (and hey, if you didn't know, schizophrenia and autism can present similarly)

(that being said please do research before you head canon something stigmatizing or ableist.)

it could pave the way for real, genuine, non-stigmatizing or demonizing representation.

and this could probably be a separate post but I wanted to include it here as well:

POC CHARACTERS CAN BE NEURODIVERGENT. POC CHARACTERS ARE ALSO AUTISTIC, ALSO HAVE ADHD, OCD, AND MORE!! STOP LEAVING THEM OUT, STOP ONLY HEADCANONING THE WHITE PROTAGONISTS AS AUTISTIC.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk, please feel free to add on