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Tolerance Project extra Thank you for the music Part 2 Classic Cowboys to Classical music

Introduction

Hello there Ben Brown here and welcome to the 2nd Chapter of a blog that looks at how we created the soundtrack for the Tolerance film as we join part 2 Robert is trying to get to a Job interview and Julie has an ungrateful boss to deal with

4 minutes 13 seconds Robert has to get to a job interview, but finds it hard work getting there. He misses his taxi, then a bus and he narrowly avoids getting run over. He is saved by a passer-by, played by Dan McTiernan, who was also our first Assistant Director. When Robert is about to be run over you can hear the Jaws theme for the first time. You hear it again when Robert meets the infamous Mr Grosenberg.

Again we went with the John Williams original the famous theme which we all know and love is called main title/first victim.

To learn more about the original Jaws 1975 click here  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V7jjHLJlDZo

I always felt a bit sorry for John Williams his record companies always seemed to a bit slow when releasing single versions of his hit themes. He missed out on a sure hit with his Star Wars theme in 1977, when a disco cover version of the main theme by a band called Meco entered the UK charts at number 7 and a number 1 hit in the US

You can find a video about that version by clicking here https://href.li/?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GAjuvI6sX2U&list=PL17vqAEJv6CV1syq4_fFKgBwSqGdJzH9z&index=264&t=135s

His original version used in the film spent 2 weeks in the US charts reaching the top ten

To learn more about the original Star Wars click here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j8_7IAP-biU

Like wise a cover version of his Jaws theme became a UK top 30 hit in 1975 John wouldn’t have a hit under steam till his Superman theme entered the UK top 40 in 1978

As Robert makes his way to the Bus stop we here People are strange a song by the Doors from their 2nd album Strange days The song peaked at number 12 in the BillBoard hot 100 US charts in 1967.

it later featured in the Horror film the lost boys from 1987.

When it was covered by Echo & The Bunnymen reaching #29 in the UK charts. The song was produced by Ray Manzarek, who as part of the Doors played Keyboards on the original track and on the cover version, its this version from the lost boys that we used in the Tolerance film

To learn about the making of The Lost Boys film click here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i4wGnXH4DOI&t=4s

8 minutes 24 seconds On her way to work Julie is past by a car which parks in a disabled space. Julie is not happy when she realises that the person parked in the space is not disabled, but is in fact her boss, Mrs Jones, played by Kate Faulkner. Julie daydreams about what she would like to do to her boss, leading to a spoof of The Good, The Bad and The Ugly. 

The Version used in the Tolerance film is a cover from an an unknown artist  and was not by Ennio Morricone or Hugo Montenegro.

In 1968 Hugo Montenegro released a cover version of the good the bad and the Ugly recorded on a Moog synthesizer it was big hit on both sides of the Atlantic a number 1 in the UK and a top 10 single in the US hitting number 2 in the US hot 100  It was held off from the top spot by another cinematic song: Simon & Garfunkel's "Mrs. Robinson." from the film The Graduate

The film's soundtrack was also a big hit reaching number 4 in the US album charts 

To learn more about the Good the bad and the ugly click here

11 minutes 19 seconds We cut to Julie, who is unhappy in her work. Mrs Jones tells her that she wants five copies of the work action plan and she needs them now. She later tells Julie that she can have the morning off, but first Julie has to tackle the monster photocopier. We chose the classical music, Car O Fortuna - Carmina Burana, by Carl Orff for the background music to this scene. This track is taken from my mums CD collection thanks mum ! 

 Carmina Burana is a cantata composed in 1935 and 1936 by Carl Orff, based on 24 poems from the medieval collection Carmina Burana. Its full Latin title is Carmina Burana: Cantiones profanae cantoribus et choris cantandae comitantibus instrumentis atque imaginibus magicis ("Songs of Beuern: Secular songs for singers and choruses to be sung together with instruments and magical images"). It was first performed by the Oper Frankfurt on 8 June 1937. It is part of Trionfi, a musical triptych that also includes Catulli Carmina and Trionfo di Afrodite. The first and last sections of the piece are called "Fortuna Imperatrix Mundi" ("Fortune, Empress of the World") and start with "O Fortuna".

14 minutes 29 seconds Robert goes into town to try and get a birthday card for Julie, but finds some of the shops and cash machines inaccessible. Does anybody know what the drum and bass music is here? Please let me know, so I can add it to the soundtrack playlist

17 minutes 29 seconds

Odeon Cinema sequence and the last of our film spoofs - this time to An Officer and a Gentleman. So it was only right when spoofing that film we use Up where we belong from the 1982 film. The song a duet by Joe Cocker and Jennifer Warnes it plays out in all its glory on its original chart release it was a top ten smash in the UK a number one in the US and it also won a Golden Globe A Grammy Award and an Oscar for best song.

19 mins 12 seconds as Julie and Robert make there way into the Odeon Cinema the instrumental track Green Onions can be heard recorded in 1962 by Booker T. & the M.G.'s. Described as "one of the most popular instrumental rock and soul songs ever, its also  one of "the most popular R&B instrumentals of its era", the tune is a twelve-bar blues with a rippling Hammond M3 organ line by Booker T. Jones that he wrote when he was 17.

It started life as a B side the instrumental will become a soul standard when its first released on the US charts on the 11 August 1962 where it reaches no 3  

It first appeared on the UK Singles Chart on December 15, 1979, following its use in the film Quadrophenia; it peaked at No. 7 on January 26, 1980, and stayed on the chart for 12 weeks

So Robert gets the job at the cinema and we see a montage of shots of him enjoying his new role to the music of The Professionals theme by Laurie Johnson The popular TV show ran on the ITV network for six series between 1977-1983 I like the scene but I would have used the classic Pearl and Dean Cinema Music.

Laurie Johnson passed away recently you can read the obituary by clicking here Laurie Johnson: The Avengers theme composer dies - BBC News

 If you have read and liked this blog please consider giving a small donation towards the Tolerance project by clicking on the above link

Notes

This blog has been compiled from various sources including deep breath Ability not Ability a Producers Commentary Part 1 in the Beginning Ability not Ability a Producers Commentary Part 2 Transport Ability not Ability a Producers Commentary Part 3 Employment Ability not Ability a Producers Commentary Part 4 Accessability Tolerance Project goes into Lockdown and Happy Valentines day from the Tolerance project

Thanks to Wikipedia for some of the musical background notes

This new edition also includes new making of documentaries for Star Wars Lost Boys The Good the bad and the ugly thanks to Minty’s comedic arts

Some material has been included from the Justin Lewis book Don’t Stop The Music Thanks to Google images for the pictures and Ian Medley for the Tolerance film screen grabs

Pictures

Jaws poster from 1975

The Meco artwork for the Star Wars theme cover version

Artwork for the Doors album Strange Days

Artwork for People are Strange covered by Echo and the Bunnymen for the lost boys in 1987

Poster for the Good the Bad and the ugly

Artwork for Mrs Robinson by Simon and Garfunkel

Artwork for the Good the Bad and the ugly Soundtrack

Carl Orff

Screengrab Julie (Clare Abbot) about to face the monster photocopier

Artwork for Up where we belong from 1982 from an Officer and a Gentleman

Artwork for the Booker T and the MGs single Green Onions

Quadrophina Poster

Publicity photo for The Professionals  

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wip wednesday on day one nanowrimo sick and twisted world

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actually trying to do nanowrimo for the first time, albeit nontraditionally and jumping between a few projects. (yell at me about which ones if desired.) so here’s an excerpt from a bg3 oneshot on the november agenda: lae’zel and my rogue gnome girlie millie having an emotionally constipated debrief following All Of That at the crèche. no real spoiler warning for this one since they are being vague, but a small warning for idle but insincere suicidal ideation + character cracking joke on said topic 

Millie swung her legs back and forth, dangled off the ledge of the cliff.  She leaned back, palms pressed against rock, looking down at them — at the skin growing more weathered, dry and cracked by the day — rather than down into the chasm. She would wait here stubbornly, she thought, until someone came looking for her. 

If she was lucky, she thought, that would mean she would wait there forever — wait sitting right there for ages there until she grew too weak for her body to hold itself up, and she went limp and plummeted off the cliff in her sleep none the wiser, before she ever had to worry about losing herself to the tadpole.  A soft whisper of wind that never reached to brush her skin told her she was not so lucky.  Attuning her ears to the barely audible rustle of the footsteps told her everything else she needed to know — light, airy and quick, but forceful and sure.  “Lae’zel,” she noted flatly, without lifting her gaze from her own hand pressed against cragged rock. She studied the smattering of sunlight filtering through trees to create blotches of warm bronze against her skin amongst the web of shadows cast by leaves.  She’d spent so long clinging to the shadows — being nothing, nobody, anytime she wanted.  Finding solitude, oblivion in the blink of an eye, as soon the whim to disappear struck her.  Now, here she was — stuck with a camp full of companions her survival necessitated not abandoning, despite her heart crying for space. Including one companion adept enough at tracking her down Millie couldn’t even carve out a five minute illusion of having left them behind.  Hells, she couldn’t have truly held the illusion, anyways. Even with no other soul around, the idle wriggle of the tadpole tickling the depths of her brain would always be there to remind her she wasn’t truly alone.  Millie sighed, the presence of the woman behind her likewise heavily felt despite her lack of audible response.  “If you’re skulking about back there so you can push me off the ledge, make quicker work of it. I’m not that keen on putting up a fight, anyways.”  “Tch,” Lae’zel spat, single syllable stinging with the acidity of disgust. “I would not soil my hands claiming empty victory against an opponent pathetic enough to welcome death,” she replied. “I will turn my sword on you at your surrender should the tadpole overtake you. But only then.” Still not turning around, she droned, “Lae’zel, it’s me — Millie the ghaik.” “Your foolishness is normally tolerable, hardened as it is by your ferocity,” Lae’zel replied, drawn out with a hiss of disdain. “But in the wake of the embarrassment you proved at the Crèche, I find my patience for it thinned.”

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[barzfrommarz]

Hey barz :] It’s late, and instead of working on the Pogtopia TNT duo comic I started tonight (because comics are lowkey so intimidating), I came to your blog to ask you some questions:

How often do you think about the fact that Revivebur has canonical PTSD related to swords? I think about it a normal about and it doesn’t add extra angst to anything I write, especially not a death scene or anything (some of the biggest lies ever told)

Does everyone it this fandom who likes c!Wilbur and was in a toxic relationship at one point also project that onto c!MAD duo, or is that just like a me thing? (This question is more of a joke, but still)

Any c!Wilbur headcanons that you wanna share?

Are you excited to hear about all the c!Wilbur angst in all my DSMP AU’s (it’s a LOT)

Anyways, have a good day/night, bye :D

tysm for the c!wilbur questions!

I think about c!wilburs ptsd a normal amount! I never particularly think about his trauma revolving swords tho. I think back to the moment in the finale stream where I think c!tommy pulls out a sword in anger (excuse me it’s been over a year since I watched the final stream) and I think about how that would’ve affected c!wilbur. I like to think his body tensed up and his eyes widened and he flinched back a little in that moment. Thinking it was happening again.

Maybe. I wouldn’t be suprised but I never rlly think abt c!mad duo a lot. I should more tho their dynamic has so much potential

-I like to think he’s the kinda guy to refuse to admit he’s disabled/Neurodivergent/Mentally ill. Nope i’m fine type beat. Powering thru the chronic pain and the autistic meltdowns and manic episodes like it’s nothing

-Tourette’s syndrome. I’ve never talked abt this headcanon before but I have tics irl and I feel like he would have them.

-He is a big fan of other forms of art. I think he would paint and write novels he will never show to anyone

-He lost all pain tolerance after revival.

-He has a speech impediment. He grew out of it but it never fully went away

-Pathetically anxious. No comment

-Shakes/trembles constantly. He’s just colder now

-He never knows when he is sick. He will often go weeks without realizing it and usually has to have someone tell him he’s sick (if it’s not bad enough)

-I think he would age regress to cope. In secret of course (c!quackity knows)

-speaking of c!quackity, c!wilbur never realized he was secretly crushing on him bc he never picked up on the social cues

YES I AM. I don’t read a lot of fanfiction anymore but I will still read c!wilbur angst any day

You too tysm for asking I love talking abt c!wilbur :)))))))

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[unfinishedbusincss]

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Yeah, you only THOUGHT you wanted this. Buckle up, buttercup!

The process of writing for Anne actually started before last year. I took a course on piracy back in grad school and my final paper was an argument for reading nonheteronormativity into piracy—something you wouldn’t think is so controversial but I guess homophobia’s a stronger drug than I gave it credit for. Anyway! Of the many points that paper made, it also made a real case study out of Anne Bonny and M. Read—themselves and their relationship with one another. My prof thought it had legs and pushed me to consider rewriting and refining it but honestly with the way actual history scholars are, I doubt my gay little voice pointing out all these gay little things that might make historical figures gay little people will have an impact. It’s literally to the point where one of the sources I use all the goddamned time actually has a note on both Bonny’s and Read’s pages refusing to address the possibility of a romantic entanglement between them. (Like you could have just said nothing, but you saying you’re going to say nothing is sus af.)

Anyways.

Last year I put her on a blog and ended up really loving her, but really struggling to find people who wanted to write with her. At the time, most of my followers were interested in muses I wasn’t as comfortable with, and getting them to interact with a woman character was like pulling teeth. I eventually gave up, grew despondent, got busy, and abandoned the blog. I’ve thought about going back to give up the URL, but otherwise I don’t think I’d go back.

Anne turned into this really special muse that I’m actually very protective of. Not, like. In the sense that I don’t want her to get hurt or look stupid—she should do both, regularly, for my own amusement—but in the sense of…being really fucking proud of the way I write her. She isn’t Black Sails’ Anne Bonny, despite her face claim; she isn’t ever going to be Our Flag Means Death’s, despite that being the group I get to write her most with; she’s just Ren’s Anne Bonny. Born from history and headcanon and exploration and projection. I’m probably pretty full of myself for this, but I’ll out myself: I think I’m the best goddamned Anne Bonny writer out there, and no other Anne is half the Anne I am.

And I say this having recently asked a friend of mine who also writes her to let me write with her sometime. Because I also have a big dumb lesbian crush on her.

I’m lucky to have fallen into the D-RPG I did with her; I still feel like no one actually wants to write with her here except to indulge their weird friend Ren, and I don’t love that feeling. (I s2g Orion, Ken, don’t start!) Even there I feel weird asking for people to tolerate her—especially since they recently had a different Anne who was Very Important to them—and yes, Orion, second direct call-out cause I’m not being down on myself when I say “tolerate,” I mean that I know she’s abrasive and doesn’t make good first, second, or third impressions outside of certain psychopaths and so hers is a matter of toleration—but I’m lucky there. People are nice and they agree to tolerate her. They talk to me and I’m really getting to develop who she is under circumstances that have just…ended up more relaxed despite being frought with danger. Maybe because she didn’t join, and so has (almost*) no one there she wants to impress.

*She did recently meet Izzy and he complimented her piracy so yes she is trying extra hard to impress one of her idols.

And that’s all the steam I’ve got for that one, folx!

[bisexual-horror-fan]

Bex's Blossom By Kate Winborne Annotations.

Hello, hello, hello! SO! This has been a project that I have been working on since August of 2022. I have been re-reading and annotating Blossom by Kate Winborne or @xmichaelmyers here on tumblr. I love Blossom, it is a fantastic book and when the hardcover update came out I just had to get it! So I did and when I did I thought why not write my thoughts out as I go? I have never annotated a book before. Kate didn’t ask this of me, I am not being paid, this is purely out of the sheer love I have for Kate, her work and these characters. So! Settle in and watch me scream in a spoiler heavy annotation of Blossom. Seriously I talk about spoilery things, if you haven’t read it and want to than please read the book first. 

I am going to annotate the next book After The Lamb Bites Back in smaller chunks as I go when I start reading it soon and will post them here on my blog so you can experience my going insane as it is happening! I will give notice and give this a tag if you wanna blacklist for spoilers! Now, under the cut, let’s get into it! Warnings for me being horny on main and discussions of heavy topics and violence and gore. (P.S. Food is a big thing in this book so I outline what I ate before and during and after my reading sessions to be extra.)

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Starting at 7:41 PM on August 5th. Blossom Re-read of the hardcover edition. Dinner: Chili lime fish tacos with pickled red onions, salsa and chipotle mayo, drinking whisky and ginger ale over ice, snacking on while reading, salted caramel caramilk bar. 

What Kate wrote inside the cover is still so sweet. As is the foreword, so much love and so much excitement. 

Prolog:

The opening of the women watching their daughters in the park, still hits. That is the first thing from the book I ever read when Kate started posting and it still stands out so well. I want white wine and cheese now. 

It is wild how Kate can drop a fucking line about a throw away character, one we just meet, overdosing three hours later, someone we know nothing of and should not give a fuck about and are made to feel and care. Amazing, haunting, I feel bad for his son. 

THE WHORE IS HERE.

THE TREES KNOW MORE THAN THEY DARE SAY INDEED!

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Chapter One

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I love the description of us truly seeing him, it is so evocative. Also. I am weak. Professor Williamson, has such a good ring to it. 

Henry in the showerrrr. All of that is good but the man just going for it and getting off. Amazing image, ten outta ten. 

The man eating one packet of oatmeal and not even finishing it and whiskey for dinner while watching a nature show. This man. He needs someone to cook for him. I am that someone. 

The first sex scene of the book, Henry taking home a woman from Happy’s is short but vivid. A great insight into him. Henry is not satisfied by this encounter, to me, when reading it, the impression that she is seemingly so into it, so close and intimate, doesn’t make him feel comforted or seen, but rather the opposite. It makes him feel more hollow, more aware of the hunger inside of himself. This is one of the parts I kept thinking about knowing this re-read was coming. Henry is entirely unknowable, this woman and her illusion of closeness only serves to remind him of that. No one can know him, there are things about him that no one could ever understand and so he has to hide them, forget about the fact that he does NOT have the ability to allow someone so close to him or tolerate such vulnerability and honesty and emotional intimacy. What a lonely fucking guy. 

The detail of a single hair left behind that he curls around his finger until it breaks really stands out.

He’s got a new casssse!

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Chapter Two.

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The casual and consistent use and description of colours is one of my longest standing faves in this book. So effective! 

Henry shoving the bible into the nightstand out of sight? Fucking same dude. My guy!

The man packing the alcohol in his bag so fucking neatly to make sure it is safe. To then get drunk and pass the fuck out. He is not okay.

Ahhhhh this discription of The Town is so fucking good!

“-residing alongside the trauma that coated her tongue like honey, sweet as ripe tangerines, but bitter against the back of her throat like coffee grounds.”  I still think of this line often. It will pop into my head unbidden frequently.

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Chapter Three.

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Henry looking down at his medication with disdain before swallowing them down with cold coffee making me like, hey king you need to talk? Need your dick sucked? You know my number get at me.

I would eat at this hotel's breakfast. I really would. 

Blossom is officially here! Vanilla almond milk latte, as someone who has worked in coffee shops since seventeen on and off, reads as a very her drink. 

I have always really loved the description of Bethany. The detail of her avocado socks always stuck out. Considering the use of colour Kate applies throughout the whole book I know I should think of them being just the colour avocado, but part of me likes to think of them as printed with little cartoon avocados and that is cute as fuck and I love it. 

Blossom sees Henry for the very first time! God, the excitement I feel from this is far too much! 

“She wanted to crack him open like an egg, spool through his brains, his guts, burrow herself deep inside his roughness. As if there was a safety to it all. A home in all that damage.” The first line that really hooked me my first read and it still hits. It is a line just so full of, God, promise of so much shit to come.

Henry met Sophie and this time around, I feel differently about it just her saying that nothing bad has ever happened in this town is just, infuriating? On a deep level. Nothing bad has ever happened here? Really Soph? Not even in your own home? You fuck.

I am begging, begging the people in The Town to acknowledge the horrors in front of them as if I am Charlie Day in It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia ranting about Pepe Silvia.  

Sophie seeing Blossom staring and being like “Please, for once, PLEASE-” and Blossom being like “Ahahaha, no! <3.” Adore it.

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Chapter Four.

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Norman has arrived. He wants a steak before seven thirty. This man is an animal and not in the good way. Henry’s reaction is appropriate for once, I too, am disgusted.

Stop judging Sophie! The man BARELY eats, he needs all the nutrition he can get! Let him have his fucking raspberry pie and ice cream!

Discussion of the first two murders. Henry is much too excited by the prospect of a serial killer, which bitch, same?!

Henry going into the detail of the first real gruesome crime scene he was sent to like damn, DAMN! FUCK KATE!

Henry talking shop! About the pattern, how confident, talking about the killer being addicted, the parallels. Mannnn. 

PROLONGED EYE CONTACT!

Finished reading for tonight at 10:11 PM. 60 pages covered this first session. 

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Wednesday August 10th. Second session. Starting at 9:20 Pm. Off tomorrow. Dinner: Peanut and sesame noodles with chilli oil and green onion. More whiskey with ginger ale over ice. Snacking on hot cheetos and a crispy caramel kit-kat while reading. 

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Chapter Five.

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Oh the HOSPITAL! YES!

Tv is on a cooking channel because of course it is. 

Henry just cutting the small talk short asdfghjkajshglakhdg, “Take me to the bodies FRANK-” And Frank being like “If you got the stomach for it.” Like Frank. Honey. You know nothing of this man. 

Henry being totally unfazed by the smell of the dead. This man is not okay. (This will be said many times throughout this.) 

Why, why, why do I love this passage so much? Talking about how Henry looks over the body? The image is so crystal clear. It is almost like I am in the room. Like I can smell the bleach as I look over his shoulder, watching as he inspects the cadaver below him, watching how the bright harsh lighting catches on the cold thick blood clotting between his gloved fingers? I can see Henry at this moment. Like I could just reach out and touch him. How can something like this be written in a way that is so telling, so intimate yet so detached? It is captivating as hell. Just like Henry himself.  This was another moment during my first read though that made me want to know more about him.

“Coffee, yeah. Thanks.” That is such a human moment that just reeks of reality. A phrase I have heard uttered a million times in my line of work and I can hear how it was said perfectly. The little details really make this. 

Shit coffee indeed, let me make this man a good cup of coffee PLEASE-

He needs a fresh body!!!

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Chapter Six.

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Man is so particular about his coffee honestly I love what it adds to his character. It says SO much by saying so little. 

Oh my God and Mr.Clemmington was a cook.

Henry hating small talk makes so much sense. What an asshole. Love him.

Name drop! Blossom James ooooohhh.

“Anyway, I hope no girl in this town is capable of such a thing…” Oh giiiirlll. You don’t know shit about shit. 

Henry taking his pills with leftover coffee with cigarette ash in it like SIR can you PLEASE take care of yourself even just a little?!

Henry, you need more than dry cereal for dinner. 

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Chapter Seven.

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Henry’s breakfast, coffee, cigarettes and fucking twizzlers apparently. 

Watching him at work is captivating. Henry rattling off what should be done and in what order is justttt a sickening delight. What a freak.

Ethan is missing. And Henry is a little too defensive. “I didn’t say anything.” Mmmhmmm. You didn’t have to. 

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Chapter Eight.

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Henry deadass like “We are looking for a body-” and Norman just, “Oh you’d like that sooooo much wouldn’t you?!” Uh. Yeah. Duh dude, he’s the worst. 

Ethan and Blossom went out, eh? Oooh boy. 

This chapter is short but so fucking gooood. I love how they haven’t even formally met and he is getting frustrated by her! The build up and teasing before we really get to know her is just so fucking delicous.

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Chapter Nine.

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The description of the hotel’s restaurant is another stand out. I can imagine myself sitting there, smelling the vanilia of the candles and partaking in the food, almost as if I can taste the vegetable medley myself. 

I love Blossom's dress, periwinkle is an underrated colour and the meaning of her wearing it here, tonight, during their first official meeting is not lost on me and the impact is strong.

They are sitting, they are talkING-

Blossom clearly has thoughts about Ethan. I can hear the bite of the way she says ‘Golden boy’ and it is telling. 

“Henry.” Whore. Him. Not her. He is the whore. Like call me Henry, the fuck IS that?! Asking her to use your first name? Mmm? Already so informal? Like a slut? Have you no shame?

“Picky with your food.” “If you’d call it that.” The TENSION! I’ve already read this before but I am still so like !!!!

“-he just didn’t fuck me anymore.” girl fucking say it. 

“Do you like me Henry?” I mean fuck how could he not?

Oh mannnn another masturbation scene hell yeah baby! Unlike the first one this one lingers for longer and it is good. The idea that he doesn’t even necessarily enjoy the act of this, it is a means to an end, an annoyance, it’s a mix of anger, of disgust, of maintenance, of hatred, it’s this balance that is just so fucking right. The idea of hating the act of this is just, so interesting to me. Not just from a narrative perspective, not just for the way it lets us into Henry’s mind, but because it is so utterly different and conflicting from my own personal feelings about the act. Not even the act as he is doing it but my own relationship with it on a deep and personal level, the differences between he and I, they don’t divide me from his character, if anything, they intrigue me further, beckoning me to know him. 

“The taste of her name as sweet as the frost-glazing of a strawberry filled cake, flowering in his chest until it choked him.” Pure poetry. Gorgeous. Perfect. Another stand out line. Makes me think of so much, the images of digging my fingers into a pretty little decorated cake, of ripping and tearing and splitting it open simply to destroy something beautiful, to mirror what Blossom is already doing to Henry in such a short time, to then just lick the mashed and sugary strawberry mixture of the filling from my fingers, just because, flit through my mind while reading this line. What is this book capable of? The things it can conjure up cannot be understated. 

Hot, hot, hot. Love he was still half dressed and just spills himself onto the sheets. 

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Finished second session at 10:53 PM. 45 pages covered in the second session. Word count over 2K now. 

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Such a large break happened because of me leaving my previous job, moving into a new town and starting a new job, better late than never, I am back on it!

Starting this session at 11:02 AM on January 17th, a Tuesday, I have the day off today. Breakfast was cereal, I am having ice water and no snack because I will break for lunch soon. 

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Chapter Ten.

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 I adore the description of Blossom’s house, it is so clear that just like all things Kate writes, a ton of thought was put into every detail. 

More food, this reminds me I should make meatloaf again soon,

“Seeing the Agent made her hungry.” I fucking LOVE. 

“Breathing out with the softness of a flowering bruise, tender and hesitant.” Kate I simultaneously want to kiss and punch you for always doing this! You throw out just the best fucking lines so damn casually. As if we are roommates, I finished a long day at work, sitting at the kitchen table and you just stride into the room, drop one of the most profound things I have ever heard and then just waltz off back to your own space as if it were nothing and I am not left changed and struggling to contend with what you just forced upon me. That is what lines like this feel like and do to me. Does that make sense?

And here it is, another real heart stopping and revealing moment of what makes Blossom her. You just know from the jump that there is something more to her, and this passage makes it abundantly clear and makes you feel for her. While I personally have experienced my fair share of this sort of thing in my own life it is of course, like a lot of stories, different from what she has but my heart goes out to her. Why can’t Blossom use, abuse, and take from these men as they have taken from her? Why not?

This chapter isn’t long but it doesn’t need to be, it is honestly very necessary and I love the look into Blossom alone and at home. 

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Chapter Eleven.

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Man fell asleep still dressed and cum covered. What a fucking whore, what an inspiration, what a guy. How down bad am I, do you ask? So bad that I read this and my first thought was, “I could fix that. Fuck the shower, I have a mouth-” With all the coffee he drinks, his alcohol problem and the smoking his cum must taste terrible. Still wouldn’t stop me.

I love this so much. Having Blossom showering in the last chapter towards the end and Henry at the next towards the start and difference in how they do even down to the temperature they prefer, amazing. 

Back at the diner, another meeting, more tension and of course, more food. It is impossible to read this and not get hungry and also slightly nauseated at points, it is beautiful. 

“-reached for more, satisfying herself in front of him.” I fucking canNOT. 

I love any scene with them talking back and forth.

This is so fucking good, she is getting to him so easily and just how unapologetically she is eating. Also, “But you’re not sorry. Why would you be?” Might be one of my fave quotes so far, it stuck out my last reading as well. 

Interrupting Henry when he immediately assumes the killer is a man and her fighting him on it. 

“Don’t underestimate the rage of a woman, Special Agent.” YEAH HENRY! And maybe it WAS a threat. What are you gonna do about it? 

Invite Blossom to the search part apparently.

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Chapter Twelve. 

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I feel it is important to mention at this juncture that I cannot read in silence so I have on a thunderstorm in the woods audio going and it feels just totally perfect for reading this

Henry runs through the details of the practised lie of what happened between him and his wife with a shocking amount of detachment, but not that shocking for him.

Mr.Whitmore you should learn to like, I dunno, lie better. 

The cropped tea and pink bell bottoms is unironically one of my favourite Blossom looks described in this book. 

This conversation, the back and forth and talking about favourite colours, their characters really shine here, another stand out moment. After having read this once before Henry saying “Blue” and knowing what will come later, I had to put the book down for a moment, and not just to type up this annotation. 

“How old are you, Blossom?” “Eighteen.” Old enough to legally...Vote. But on the real again the tension in this scene, sharing the cigarette, the closeness, just THIS. 

A body has been discovered! 

Blossom admitting she doesn’t feel anything upon seeing the disgusting corpse is just so fucking good. 

Chapter twelve was fucking great, I forgot how much happened in this one chapter, a total fave. 

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Chapter Thirteen.

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Blossom and Henry are just lying to police now, alright, alright. 

Short but to the point, I enjoy the small details in this one. Describing the grotesque nature of the body especially was very effective. 

Also the forgetting a clipboard and letting Blossom write on his back, cute, realistic, adore it.

Course you can’t pass up a fresh corpse Henry you fucking freak. 

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Chapter Fourteen.

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The entertainment centre! I remember simply adoring this next chapter, I am excited!

Grilling Mr.Whitmore on why he works here occasionally. Henry you are so, so transparent and projecting really hard here. Being so critical with him being so close to the teenagers when what are you doing with Blossom? You woke up splattered in your own cum after passing out post-nut, post-jack sesh thinking about a certain eighteen year old blonde, remember? 

More Henry and Blossom talking <3

“Oh, come on. You can’t deny that…You don’t look at all these…Preppy, skimpy seventeen and eighteen year old girls and don’t think about when you were that age with the impulse control of a twelve year old.” HENRY! 

“No. I don’t. Because I’m not seventeen, or eighteen anymore, Henry. And neither are you.” “Doesn’t mean I still can’t look.” He is so fucking gross. And yet…

I do feel for ol Norm here but at the same time he really does need to let Henry do his damn  job. 

“We’ll see if the Coopers are ready to talk and resume the work on Monday. I’m sure the killer will understand.” What a note to go out on Henry damn.

A knock on the door? This late? Who could it be? I ask having fully read this book before.

I was right by the way, this chapter was so good and so engrossing.

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 Chapter Fifteen. 

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Of course it’s Blossom who is here. Obviously. Who else?

Naturally she comes in. 

Absent mom and a dead mom. Gotta love two people with mommy issues getting together. 

I find myself unable to pull away during their conversations, they are just still so engaging to read. That being said, “Why don’t you like white wine?” “I’ve always preferred something stronger. Something that bites.” Oh I bet you do.

She’s making the move, SHE’S MAKING THE MOVE-

The description of Henry here, hands up, not looking at her, trying very, very hard to maintain his composure and will and not touch her. Oof. 

They are kissing! This is where it all starts to really go tits up and I am so here for it.

“We shouldn’t be doing this-” Oh but you’re gonna Henry, you are, we all know it just do it!

He really is trying here, and he does make a good point, they shouldn’t get involved with each other like this but that is part of what makes it so good!!!

She isn’t wearing any panties. 

Man is done for. 

And he gives in! Get it Henry! I wish that were me. Who in this scenario? Like a true bisexual. Both. 

Just going for it and with no protection! Henry, you animal. 

His garden. This whole section is phenomenal. People could learn a thing or two about writing sex scenes from reading how Kate does it!

Kate’s work is just mind blowing. It is incredible how she writes the differences between Henry and Blossom post their first time together. For him feeling like he can breathe for the first time in years and her imagining becoming one with the forest, consumed with rot and dying like the way they view sex and each other is so intensely fascinating. It just so interesting too because I have felt like Blossom has, chest feeling scooped out and hollow and empty but never relating to sex, reading this book with just how different my perspective on physicality with another human from there's never bores me.

“RISE AND SHINE, ASSHOLE, NEW DAY! AND LOOK AT WHAT YOU’VE DONE NOW!”  That is just this book and Henry’s life all over, huh? A good alternate tagline. 

Ahhhhh a dream sequence and such a fucking good one! The imagery in this is immaculate, the one that stands out to me the most is the mention of Blossom’s hair in a high ponytail tied with a pink ribbon, so fucking good and so clever. Blossom becoming a literal monster and tearing him apart, what do you think it means Henry? C’mon, THINK!

Another fantastic chapter, of course.

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Chapter Sixteen. 

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He is making her breakfast. Also blueberry pancakes are in fact the best, I will not take criticism at this time. 

“Colour me impressed.” My gesturing to a board covered with papers and tacked with pins, red strings connecting seemingly random things and moments, “It all comes back to COLOUR! IT’S ALWAYS ABOUT THE COLOUR! DO YOU SEE-”

“Yet, there was still nothing ever as tooth-rotting as Blossom James.” I am punching the air!

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Chapter Seventeen.

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Her being so excited to see him oh my GOD. “I missed you.” “You always miss me.” Things that happen between me and my husband all the time, no word of a lie.

Planning secret meetings ooooooh.

“I want you to do exactly what you wanted to do the day we found Ethan.” Blossom. Have I told you lately how much I love you?

Also I love the little jump here. The few weeks and the mention of just how many times and places they have fucked thus far, they have clearly been very busy. 

Fucking right next to the scene of the crime, extremely risky but also, extremely hot.

This is all fucking amazing. The depth, the feeling, Blossom’s and Henry’s worry and doubt and hungry fervour for one another being so all consuming constantly. The question of how does this end is a good one to leave the chapter with.

How will it all end?

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Chapter Eighteen.

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Kate describes kisses in a million ways and I am here for all of them. Preppy and sickening or otherwise. 

This man smokes. So fucking much my God. Third read I should do a cigarette counter. 

Henry drinking and getting sloppy and good ol Norm comes to the rescue. 

Bro. Dude. Asking for Blossom in your drunken stupor is not going to help anyone or anything my GOD DUDE!

He is such a fucking messss.

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Chapter Nineteen.

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Yeah you forgot your shit at the bar you fucking walking embarrassment of a man Henry.

I’m part of the Abby fanclub. 

I really like Sophie and Norm interacting. It totally reads that they have known each other a very long time and I love the easy and playful air between them both very much. A joy to read. 

The suspensions are not misplaced Sophie, not at all.

Blossom comes by to bring a lot more than just coffee in this scene that is for damn sure. Norm is really trying to give Henry the benefit of the doubt and struggling. I think he is almost trying too hard to convince himself but as he told Sophie before, what else can he do?

Another great chapter with more tension. I am stopping for now to break for lunch. I am thinking of an egg salad sandwich. It is 1:34 PM. I covered 110 pages this round, over halfway through the book. This has been the longest session so far and the doc is now over 4,000 words. 

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It is January 29th, a Sunday, it is 12:31 PM, I have the day off and the laundry going as I sit down for this session. I had a sleep in and a late breakfast of an open faced sandwich consisting of egg and honey ham with chive cream cheese and hashbrowns. Water and no snack again. 

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Chapter Twenty.

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Blossom is having a party and again, I love the outfit described here, it is one of the first ones I think of, totally iconic and so her. 

Blossom in the bathroom with some fucking guy and this guy, Kyle, God, I hate him. Hated him the first read, hate him this one too, what a complete shit stain. 

I hate and love how real this is. It is just so fucking sickening because it is so common and happens all the damn time and has happened to her how many times? I wish Blossom would, I wish she would rip his teeth out, or scream or something but I know all too well what can happen in these scenarios and why she doesn’t. God, Kate, stop being such a good writer all the time damn it!

This is the kind of part that makes me want to reach in the pages and kill Kyle myself. Reminding myself he is a fictional character means nothing because Henry and Blossom are fictional too, you know? But the feelings they make me feel are real, what I get from reading this book is real and while they aren’t real living breathing people, Kate writes them so well they feel like they are. Even if they are fictional and I am real and I cannot touch them in a tangible way, this asshole, Kyle is fictional just as they are and therefore can and chooses to do harm and the threat of Blossoms hurt by him feels so sharp I could cut myself on it. 

“Did you cum?” Kill yourself Kyle you pathetic rapist fuckwad. 

Mr.Whitmore why are you at a high schooler’s party exactly???

“Rather, there was a tenderness to his bruising touch.” Kate. Girl. I am eating this line. Crushing it up and snorting it, need it in my bloodstream. 

The drama of it all, neither of them can communicate properly at all like just please can you for once be normal. I say as if I don’t love them at their absolute worst. 

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Godddd what a fucking chapter, so good, so much happened but not enough to feel like overwhelmed by it, you know? Stellar as to be expected.

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Before. Technically Chapter Twenty-One.

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The wife is here. Cindy, poor, poor Cindy. Love the pjs tho.

Siiiigh, you too Henry? I say as I read him about to force himself on his wife as if I have not read this before.

This scene is so hard to talk about but I want to talk about it, you know? Like it is very intense how unintentional it seems to be, he didn’t come home planning to kill his wife, it isn’t a big premeditated thing, also I love how real this is. How he is so comfortable, so sure everything will be fine and cares so much about what he wants or feels he needs that he has no regard for her and pays the heaviest fine for it, her death, being the one that killed her. But also, even though we see him leaning on booze and pills and the rest, the man is still alive, he still goes on living, walking free after he did that.

RIP Cindy, we hardly knew you and you definitely deserved better.

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Short chapter but it is deff supposed to be, gets across just what it needs to and it hit hard and is insanely effective.

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Chapter Twenty-Two.

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Blossom got into the car and now after a short but tense drive they are having a conversation and this conversation my Lord! Henry is totally upset that Blossom is right by the way, she knows he likes how she looks next to him and how she makes him feel but he’s all “oh I’m so much older, my job, my station, my morals-” WHAT MORALS HENRY?

Also Henry has a point, Blossom James does have main character syndrome and is just constantly inserting herself into the narrative but she is fucking interesting as hell and I wanna see her all the time so damn Henry let her live!

“You know nothing about me.” Mmmm don’t be so sure Henry.

Blossom is again correct, you wanted to fuck her from the moment you saw her, don’t deny it you mess of a man!

Him hitting her !, her nose bleeding and her smiling up at him with fucking red teeth, !!, the description I never get tired of reading ever of her being a predator of equal conviction !!!!!!!!!

Like I could go on and on about this section just it is so fucking good! Henry’s complex and swirling emotional state consuming him so thoroughly and being unable to control himself around her! The conflicting wants and feelings and him being just thoroughly unequipped to deal with it all! They are a car crash I cannot look away from, nor would I ever want to. I stare and let the images of them tangled up in a gory flaming pile burn into my retinas until the fumes of spilled gasoline make me literally pass the fuck out. 

Me dancing in my chair as I read how Henry wants to kill and main Blossom, just a nice Sunday afternoon.

Henry saying he doesn’t want to fight her. Like I don’t believe you again Henry,

They are fucking in the carrr! Which like yes, hot, get it, but also, Blossom are you good?

Henry chasisting her over smoking, like, dude. For real?

Blossom calling him Daddy, him calling her disgusting and shotgunning smoke into her mouth, her being so fucking coy and pleased with herself, “And you love it.” Like yeah he does and so do I! Do it again!

Blossom asking him to the fucking dance! THE DANCE IS COMING! AH!

Henry of course you can’t go to the dance you old fuck but also her teasing him about going with a boy her own age and him getting so angry over it has me so amped, like the playfulness on display here it is just all a game to her!

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I want to make this chapter breakfast in bed and then smash the coffee mug over its head before giving it a big ol kiss.

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Chapter Twenty-Three.

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Chinese food late at night in a hotel room sounds so fucking good right now it is unreal.

Okay but now I need a disgustingly detailed section of how exactly Henry eats pussy or do I gotta do that myself? I can do it myself! I just need to know, we know I can deliver it too. I just gotta think on it.

Blossom asking to get choked by him like girl you don’t know what you are asking of him! He CAN hurt you! He wants to! You are meddling in forces you do not understand!

Every little piece and look into Blossoms past is so fucking sad. She has been through so much I hate it. 

Must every guy in Blossom’s life suck so fucking hard?

Also the milk and honey thing coming around and around again is so fucking perfect and apt and slots into this story fucking amazingly well.

Blossom making him breakfast! I would eat what she made, it sounds fucking good honestly.

Another amazingly described kiss that is so fucking perfect I ache.

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Another banger of a chapter my God I feel so full and spoiled during this re-read.

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Chapter Twenty Four.

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Why are all the suspects older dudes? Hum. I wonder.

Also Henry dressed like a total slut today, we love to see it!

Someone who hangs around the younger guys and girls. Man, I wonder who he is thinking of!!!

I could listen to Henry go off about this kind of thing forever, Freud or otherwise.

Stacy do be Stacy though that is for damn sure Norman.

Norman inviting Henry for dinner and asking him for a smile that turns out to be so unsettling that he is just straight up like nevermind please don’t ever do that again oh my God. Perfection. Hilarious. Whenever and I do mean WHEN, not IF, the movie or tv series or whatever adapt of this happens, that detail needs to be left in.

Blossom out alone with a bunch of boys in the woods and drinking, a horrible idea really.

I can hear the “I wasn’t gonna let them do anything, I was just playyingg-” in my head and it is great. Also sure, Blossom.

This girl will not stop running her mouth to save her life. You are gonna get you and Henry in so much trouble!

I don’t blame Sopher for hating Henry, man is always acting suspicious.

And so it comes out again! Henry I think you do have it out for Whitmore and I think it is because you see an uncomfortable amount of yourself in him at times and refuse to acknowledge it. But also yeah Whitmore is really weird, keep an eye on that guy.

Ooooof. Norman laying it down, like he knows what is up! He isn’t dumb Henry! “I hope to fuck I don’t.” Hits so fucking hard.

Man I do not like Sophie but that is totally a ME and my issues thing because she is right about a lot of this.

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Another fucking awesome chapter, the scene with her in the woods and Henry coming by is another stand out in my mind I find myself thinking of often. 

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Chapter Twenty-Five.

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Henry finding the old pictures of Blossom on the fridge and wondering what made her so “hard” like man if you only knew.

God, the imagery you describe Kate everytime it gets to me. Reach into her brains and feel around, discover what is really wrong Henry do it!

The girl was just fucking waiting for him! Also the lingerie sounds cute as fuck.

C’mon Henry we both know you are gonna fuck her, just do it my guy. 

The give and take between them both, the constant fight and unease and just inability to just exist without conflict. Man do I love it. 

Blossom calling him daddy has me feeling some kind of way.

The choose to kiss me thing has my in knots just it is fucking fantastic Kate just truly something else.

The softness and the not wanting to be so vulnerable but being unable to help it.

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Finished this session at 2:31 PM. Stopping at page 288. I covered 73 pages this time around. The doc is over 5.5K words. Less than 100 pages left to cover. The next annotation session might be my last. Excited to finish strong!

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It is January 31st, a Tuesday, once again it is my day off. I have less than 100 pages left to cover in Blossom and I am going to attempt to complete the book and the annotations this session. For breakfast I had a fried egg sunny side up on a single slice of buttered toast, topped with green onion and everything bagel seasoning. No snack as I am planning on lunch today, perhaps mac and cheese? I am drinking a country peach herbal tea out of my mug Kate sent, “The Trees Know More Than They Dare Say” stares back at me as I put on more thunderstorms in the forest sounds at 10:56 AM and this new reading session begins.

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Chapter Twenty-Six.

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I don’t think I have mentioned it until now but Henry smoking Marlboro’s just makes like way, way too much sense. I can see him holding the classic iconic white and red and gold pack in his hand very clearly.

Henry staring into the forest and wanting to lie down and rot and let it all overtake him in many a similar way that Blossom has is so interesting. Also it makes me wonder like are they just this similar? Or is something up with this forest in particular? But then I remember all the time I have spent in forests and that they are just Like That.

Henry plays nice at the dinner with Norm’s family and I love the honesty of him telling Norm when asked, that he doesn’t give a shit what he thinks but what Stacy thinks actually matters. Good shit, consistent with his character and just an awesome detail. 

Norm filling in Henry on the ‘rumours’ and him brushing it off as just that. Henry is understandably very upset as am I!

Another shower, him gripping the sink and staring at himself in the mirror, again, reminiscent and similar of Blossom earlier. 

Talking about her perfume being on his coats and his pillows, and then this, “She was everywhere. Infecting him.” She so is! I love how slowly it happens but how clear it is here, how much she is burrowed inside him and has affected him so heavily, she has set up camp inside him and he isn’t even fully aware of how much she has. I am obsessed. 

“He felt as if she was the biggest mystery of all.” Fucking cut, print, beautiful note to finish on. Another moment I can see put to screen.

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A fantastic chapter, seriously so many good smaller details, thoroughly enjoyable yet again,

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Chapter Twenty-Seven.

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This chapter is only about two pages but what a two pages. 

Two pages of Blossom breaking down after expecting Henry to reach out and him not, her sobbing, clawing at herself and drinking. The descriptions here at the end, of so desperate for relief you hurt yourself immensely in the process, willing to tear till you see bone just hoping for a moment’s peace, goregous. 

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Ethan, or, Chapter Twenty-Eight.

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Another very short chapter, describing Blossom in the cemetery and Ethan following her there. The conversation is brief, him saying she shouldn’t be out like this, him affirming that it’s not girls like her that are dying, it’s boys like him and him assuring her that he can “bench 200” so the guy will have his work cut out for him. Okay, nice attempt to flex Ethan /s. But this last line is the stand out to me, “-and Blossom let her head fall back, snaking her arm around his shoulders and closing her eyes, engulfing him.”  Phew. Truly a banger.

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Chapter Twenty-Nine.

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Oh my God this is it, this is the chapter, the long, extended dream sequence. I dunno if I am ready again! This part is so intense but so good. Okay, okay, be cool, here we go.

We kick off with a wonderfully descriptive scene of Henry eating, frantic, hungry, desperately trying to satisfy himself, right? Eating meat, drinking red wine, eating pomegranate, and it’s all fine until we pull away to see that he is actually eating Blossom. And not in the way we have seen before, we are talking full out, full on, raw, animalistic, cannibal style consumption. 

It isn’t enough and it will never be enough as he feeds and eats until there is literally nothing left of her, going so far as to consume bone, marrow and cartilage. 

He reaches back in and instead of finding warmth and hopefully more food instead he finds a nest of baby spiders and I get a chill every time I read this part ugh!

This image is the best. Henry trying to fight to get the spiders off, almost tripping and then Blossom, still dead, reaching out, catching his wrist and holding him there, mouth opening and dark legs of a much larger spider reaching out from the darkness just- my GOD. Horror, pure, horror, goodness.

Tea update, I have gotten so distracted reading and annotating it has now gone cold.

The dream shifts suddenly to Henry being in front of and then going into Blossom’s house in search of her, the hope that he will find her safe is one that I cannot share with him because Henry, awake or asleep she is never safe with you.

The description of the room in total disarray is fantastic and also again something that one can picture so easily. 

Blossom is dead and Henry is holding her and sobbing and I am FEELING!

Him crying and apologising is everything. 

But, it was all a joke because all of this is a big fucking joke to Blossom, even pretending she is dead all for him to discover. 

“Does it make you feel good? Tearing those around you apart? Destroying those that care about you?” Go off Henry. But also yeah Blossom, does it?

“I’m sorry.” “No you’re not.” - “You never are.”  Fucking snaps Kate. 

This moment still fucks me up, Henry realizing that he is dead on the floor, has been watching himself this whole time. 

“Are you going to hurt me like you hurt her?” She asked. “Do you want to hurt me Henry? Do you want to kill me too?”  This whole scene, this whole sequence is indescribably good. I wouldn’t want them to cut a single moment or movement from this pure gold. 

Words are failing me.

He’s awake!

The bitch is back and she is drunk.

I have read a few reviews that claim the work of Kate and this book in particular to be ripping off Gone Girl, calling it plagiarism, especially for this next part. Blossom, drunk and a mess giving a speech, a rant, going the fuck off about the awful treatment of men and expectations thrust upon her and all women and that just pisses me off. The reviews, not her speech, her speech is great. I hate that reviewers see a woman giving a speech about mistreatment, and the entitlement of men and look at Kate and her work and compare her to Gillian Flynn negatively.  Because don’t you know there can be only one book like this? Only one story delving into the rage inherent to the feminine? Only one book can have this kind of character, this kind of story, everything else is clearly a copy, a cheap imitation, instead of insulting and making unfair and frankly incorrect claims, looking at the broader picture. These reviewers look at this and compare instead of seeing that both these stories and many more like them can have their own spot in the conversation, and can co-exist. And the biggest point of all, maybe, just fucking maybe, the reason there is multiple stories, conversations, rants, characters like Amy and like Blossom is because what they are talking about, what they preach has distinct truth and basis in the reality of the experience of tons and tons of women and that is why it hits and resonates. 

Also Henry thank God you stopped yourself from saying that shit because holy fuck no one is ever asking for it ever.

Henry not believing female rage, like alright bud, sit down.

Blossom’s feelings are so valid here. The want for people who have harmed you to see how they have and understand it and share that feeling. It is fucking powerful, this whole section is!

“Would you kill to take back your power?” Henry, you are getting closer to getting it. 

The way I need this whole scene filmed yesterday.

Blossom’s got a fucking gun. The first time I read this my stomach dropped. 

This scene with her holding the gun to him is so tense.

Kate you could write about the issues with women only becoming empowered in media through abuse and hurt from men for hours and hours and I would eat it up. Oh shit, wait, I already have. I’d do it again. 

I like to think for sure a part of Blossom wants to stop this, wants to be ‘normal’ wants to love as Henry describes but again, the constant mistreatment from everyone all her life prevents that. How can she just swallow back all this hate and not let it poison her? How can she just move on from that? It IS like saying that they won, she becomes another person standing idly by, a part of the problem. 

Finally she falls asleep and the chapter ends.

—

This is my favourite chapter in the book by far. I could scream on and on about it more than I already have, the dream sequence I could read it and go line by line diving in deeper I swear to God. I gotta hold myself back in some places though. 

—

Chapter Thirty.

—

A hard and tense conversation is had once Blossom wakes up in the morning.

Henry keeps on choosing her, she didn’t ask for it, true but he isn’t unreasonable in wanting her to choose him back and some proof of this. 

She clearly doesn’t want him to go, but he does. 

She usually has cold showers but takes a hot one in an attempt to understand. I could never take a cold shower so Blossom girl, I do not understand you in that respect. 

—

A shorter but extremely emotionally driven chapter that hits the spot after the last one.

—

Chapter Thirty-One.

—

Blossom asking for some help with her photos.

Oh my God Mr.Whitmore you fucking creep. Yeah I will look over your photos for the end of year project, how about I bring a bottle of wine along?! You sick fuck I hate you.

She is eating once again, drinking once again, watching a nature documentary and wishing she as the wolf and the prey all at once and I am still just so fucking captivated by it.

Yeah those Barbie commercials suck, I’d turn off the TV too.

—

Chapter Thirty-Two.

—

We finally got another body hoooo boy! 

Again tied with a pink ribbon, again many, many stab wounds, throat slashed this time, leaving him to choke on his own blood. 

I afforded myself a ten minute break at this time to grab an ice water and make lunch, I sit back down with my mac and cheese ready to eat and read. 

The killer is being unorganised and cocky, in broad daylight no less?

A school ID at the scene of the crime!

A frantic call from Blossom oh my God!

Mr.Whitmore is with her and when Henry gets there he is dead and she is holding the knife.

Her sobbing about how she lost control is haunting knowing what we know. Knowing how important control is to her and this is why she is doing this, convincing herself whenever she is being hurt or used she is still in control it is like what happened? The tension!

—

My mac and cheese threatens to go cold at this rate because this book, again even on the second readthrough, is so captivating. 

—

Chapter Thirty-Three.

—

Blossom is in the hospital and Henry is there with her.

The girl has been really fucked up my God. 

Norman is totally a bit salty and mad at himself that Henry was right this whole time about it being Mr.Whitmore. 

Love Henry describing the motif of the pink ribbon representing Blossom, just, real good.

I really, really like Norm and Sohpie’s interactions, again the air of how long they have known each other hangs heavy.

Of course it actually happened Norm. Come on. What kid lies about that?

—

Another chapter in the books that I love, a big smooch for this one.

—

Chapter Thirty-Four.

—

We are finally at the dance hooo boy.

The theme of the dance being love, gag me. 

Henry is here like she wanted! 

Be still my heart she is wearing fucking blue. SHE IS WEARING BLUE!

It’s all like a dream, an actually good one for once Henry, a rarity for you I am sure. 

They dance and yeah all the parents watching on like uhhh? Hilarious, like shut up you don’t know them like us the readers do!

And they leave the dance togetherrrr. God I love them way too much for how bad they are for each other.

Back at the hotel, much making out and getting drunk together.

He wants to rip away the blue and bury himself in her pink oh my fucking-KATE! I love you.

Blossom is that girl. Drunk all like, “I wanna go swimming!” And fuck I felt that. 

Kate could write something just listing colours over and over and I would love it. 

Of course he doesn’t want her in the pool. She wants him in the pool with her, so she drags him in, naturally.

The build up of what you think is going to be a steamy sex scene poolside ends up with Blossom breaking down and man my heart hurts. 

—

This chapter is just so well paced AND well placed, you know what I mean, it is just mwah, amazing, very needed, tonally it flows so well.

—

Chapter Thirty-Five.

—

It’s summer, a month after the dance and Henry pays Blossom a visit. 

We get to hear some of her statement and mannn. It is just, fucking pitch perfect, immaculate. 

“I want to love you…So badly…” - “But?” - Blossom didn’t answer.  I am ripping my own hair out oh my God. 

Blossom is so empty inside, nothing there at all and so she instead of dealing with the internal pain, she seeks physical pleasure.

Okay this next sex scene, so fucking good, just I love the juxtaposition of the flowery language with harsher terms thrown in there, it is through the whole book and it feels like it sums up Blossom the character insanely well. 

“In return, Blossom gave him exactly what he needed, at the same time, taking exactly what she wanted. A perfect balance.” Can I get this line tattoo’d on the inside of my eyelids as well as marry it?

—

Chapter Thirty-Six.

—

Post fuck our fave creep Henry Williamson watches Blossom shower and I wish that were me.

Oh he is smoking less look at him!

“He wondered if this could last forever.” Doubtful. A nice thought though. 

You’ve been here how many times and you only look around her room now? Alright. 

Of course you go for her underwear drawer you little freak of a man! 

Henry finds an envelope and in it a series of pictures of the bodies, of the crime scenes but they aren’t copies, oh no they are originals and very different from the ones he has seen previously.

A delectable little cut back showing Adam Hall from the start going to the woods for a run and Blossom following after him oh my God.

—

And just like that the book is over. It is, amazing, truly a gripping read even the second time. I noticed more, picked up on more and really loved it even more. Blossom being the real one behind all this is fantastic, well played and woven without it feeling shoved in your face or obvious and reading it now after the first time knowing she did it was a trip! This book is fantastic, I could read it over and over and I intend to! It plays like a movie, I love the characters and it is just phenomenal. I cannot recommend it enough. Seriously everyone needs to read this and then review it afterwards I am begging! Kate, this book is just, ugh, so special and something so different and I am just totally enamoured with it and you and how you write. In case this 8.6K document didn’t express that already. Thank you again so much for this story and now I can’t wait to read After The Lamb Bites Back!

[forgottenyear]

Following what I wrote in the last post – in which I may have stumbled over the soft-switching that must occur for us to do things that fear stops me from doing – it is possible that some form of shuffling must occur before I can write for this blog.

In my steady state, I feel nothing. With respect to these subjects, at least.

To write for therapy, I need to tap in to emotions that are ordinarily switched off to allow me to function. The emotions are extreme, and it is extraordinary to feel them, and so they can overwhelm my initial purpose for writing. I am also attracted to them, moth to flame style, because they feel like life in the absence of regular feeling. Then we reshuffle and the parts that are usually erased from awareness come to the fore. (I feel like “shuffling” is the best description for the experience, so I may overuse the word for a while. Sorry.)

There is a lot of pain back there. There are emotions I do not understand. The past and the parts are the chaos that I rightly fear, and that I do not ordinarily tolerate. We cannot function in the chaos, and I did function in its relative absence (during the amnesia).

--

The new machine I am wiring uses deadly currents. I decided to work my way backward through the circuits – I have focused exclusively on grounding and will work back to the working circuit last. I am making no assumptions because any false assumption could be my last. (I am saying I in this case because my fear and respect for electricity are overriding my faith in the unfused part’s abilities. I am not sure if the saying, “two heads are better than one,” necessarily applies here, but the point is still valid. I am not obstructing or endangering the project by injecting an extra level of safety.)

I think there is application for this model in my therapy writing. I am a sucker for words like “grounding,” that have actual meaning in both environments.

--

So, somewhere toward the beginning of this post, I was going to write about how the emotional levels of posts to this blog are either 0 or 10, and rarely anything between. The feels need to trip an emotional circuit breaker, to trigger a reshuffle, and then to leave me emotionally hungover; or it is just a dry, academic discussion of no consequence.

What I am describing here is cliché on the page, but no less a reality.

--

I now remember that I have written, maybe a few years ago now, that I do not know how to help Angela. I barely know how to help myself. I do not know what to do with her trauma. It is kind of the thing with DID, that I have no common references with which to understand what she went through.

When it comes to the boy part(s?), I have no awareness of their trauma(s?). I have so little awareness that the boy part is mostly only an undeveloped concept for me. Words on a page, only. Our system’s junk drawer, I suppose.

I still feel like these parts are complete strangers who moved in overnight, when the amnesia broke. I still hope they will move on soon.

I would like to help the parts, but I also need to remain uninvolved for safety.

I am glad I am not them.

[crypto-marketing]

Top Miscalculations to Avoid When Investing in Crypto IDOs

Investing in Initial DEX Offerings (IDOs) can be an exciting yet risky adventure for cryptocurrency enthusiasts. As the market evolves, new opportunities arise, but so do potential risks. Understanding common mistakes investors make when participating in IDOs is crucial for maximizing returns and minimizing losses. This blog explores the top miscalculations to avoid when investing in upcoming crypto IDOs, ensuring you're well-prepared for your next investment.

1. Neglecting Thorough Research

One of the most significant mistakes investors make is failing to conduct thorough research before committing funds to an IDO. Each project has its unique features, goals, and risks, and understanding these elements is essential.

What to Do:

Read the Whitepaper: The whitepaper provides vital information about the project’s vision, technology, and tokenomics. Make sure you understand the project’s purpose and how it plans to achieve its goals.

Analyze the Team: Investigate the backgrounds of the project’s founders and team members. Look for experience in relevant fields and a history of successful projects.

2. Ignoring Tokenomics

Tokenomics refers to the economic model surrounding a cryptocurrency’s token, including supply, distribution, and utility within the ecosystem. Many investors overlook this critical aspect, leading to poor investment decisions.

What to Do:

Evaluate Supply and Demand: Understand the total supply of tokens and how they will be distributed among stakeholders. A well-structured tokenomics model can significantly impact a token’s value.

Assess Utility: Ensure that the token has a clear use case within the project. Tokens with strong utility tend to have better long-term prospects.

3. FOMO Investing

Fear of Missing Out (FOMO) often leads investors to rush into an IDO without proper evaluation. This impulsive behavior frequently results in poor investment choices and financial losses.

What to Do:

Stick to Your Strategy: Develop a clear investment strategy based on your financial goals and risk tolerance. Avoid making impulsive decisions based on hype or social media trends.

Use an Upcoming IDO List: Keep track of upcoming IDOs through reliable sources to plan your investments strategically rather than reacting impulsively.

4. Overlooking Security Measures

Security is paramount in the cryptocurrency space, yet many investors neglect this aspect when participating in IDOs. Failing to take necessary precautions can lead to significant losses.

What to Do:

Use Reputable Platforms: Participate in IDOs on well-known launchpads with a solid reputation for security.

Enable Two-Factor Authentication (2FA): Always enable 2FA on your accounts to add an extra layer of security against unauthorized access.

5. Failing to Diversify Investments

Investing all your funds in a single IDO can be risky, especially if the project fails or underperforms. Many investors make the mistake of putting all their eggs in one basket.

What to Do:

Diversify Your Portfolio: Spread your investments across multiple projects rather than focusing solely on one IDO. This approach can help mitigate risks and improve overall returns.

Consider Upcoming IDOs: Regularly review lists of upcoming IDOs and allocate funds based on thorough research into each project’s potential.

6. Not Setting Realistic Expectations

Many investors enter the crypto space with unrealistic expectations about potential returns. While some projects may yield significant profits, others may not perform as expected.

What to Do:

Set Attainable Goals: Understand that not every investment will be a winner. Set realistic expectations based on market conditions and project fundamentals.

Monitor Market Trends: Stay informed about broader market trends that could impact your investments by following reliable cryptocurrency news sources.

7. Ignoring Community Sentiment

The community surrounding a cryptocurrency project can significantly impact its success or failure. Many investors overlook community sentiment when making investment decisions.

What to Do:

Engage with Communities: Join forums, social media groups, or Discord channels related to the project you’re interested in. Engaging with other investors can provide valuable insights into community sentiment.

Follow Influencers: Keep an eye on industry influencers who provide updates and opinions on trending cryptocurrencies and projects.

8. Not Keeping Track of IDO Launch Schedules

Missing out on important dates related to an IDO can lead to missed investment opportunities or unfavorable entry points.

What to Do:

Use an IDO Launch Schedule: Keep track of important dates related to upcoming IDOs using dedicated calendars or platforms that provide this information.

Set Reminders: Use calendar reminders for key dates such as whitelisting deadlines or token trading launch times.

Conclusion

Investing in crypto IDOs can offer substantial opportunities for growth but comes with its share of risks. By avoiding these common mistakes—such as neglecting research, ignoring tokenomics, succumbing to FOMO, overlooking security measures, failing to diversify investments, setting unrealistic expectations, ignoring community sentiment, and not tracking launch schedules—you can enhance your chances of success in this exciting space.

As you explore new IDO projects in 2024, stay informed by utilizing resources like an IDO crypto list, following the latest crypto news, and regularly reviewing upcoming IDOs. With careful planning and strategic execution, you can navigate the world of Initial DEX Offerings effectively and potentially reap significant rewards from your investments. For more Crypto,  Upcoming IDO,IEO,ICO information visit Cryptolenz.

[arunblog]

Top Miscalculations to Avoid When Investing in Crypto IDOs

Investing in Initial DEX Offerings (IDOs) can be an exciting yet risky adventure for cryptocurrency enthusiasts. As the market evolves, new opportunities arise, but so do potential risks. Understanding common mistakes investors make when participating in IDOs is crucial for maximizing returns and minimizing losses. This blog explores the top miscalculations to avoid when investing in upcoming crypto IDOs, ensuring you're well-prepared for your next investment.

1. Neglecting Thorough Research

One of the most significant mistakes investors make is failing to conduct thorough research before committing funds to an IDO. Each project has its unique features, goals, and risks, and understanding these elements is essential.

What to Do:

Read the Whitepaper: The whitepaper provides vital information about the project’s vision, technology, and tokenomics. Make sure you understand the project’s purpose and how it plans to achieve its goals.

Analyze the Team: Investigate the backgrounds of the project’s founders and team members. Look for experience in relevant fields and a history of successful projects.

2. Ignoring Tokenomics

Tokenomics refers to the economic model surrounding a cryptocurrency’s token, including supply, distribution, and utility within the ecosystem. Many investors overlook this critical aspect, leading to poor investment decisions.

What to Do:

Evaluate Supply and Demand: Understand the total supply of tokens and how they will be distributed among stakeholders. A well-structured tokenomics model can significantly impact a token’s value.

Assess Utility: Ensure that the token has a clear use case within the project. Tokens with strong utility tend to have better long-term prospects.

3. FOMO Investing

Fear of Missing Out (FOMO) often leads investors to rush into an IDO without proper evaluation. This impulsive behavior frequently results in poor investment choices and financial losses.

What to Do:

Stick to Your Strategy: Develop a clear investment strategy based on your financial goals and risk tolerance. Avoid making impulsive decisions based on hype or social media trends.

Use an Upcoming IDO List: Keep track of upcoming IDOs through reliable sources to plan your investments strategically rather than reacting impulsively.

4. Overlooking Security Measures

Security is paramount in the cryptocurrency space, yet many investors neglect this aspect when participating in IDOs. Failing to take necessary precautions can lead to significant losses.

What to Do:

Use Reputable Platforms: Participate in IDOs on well-known launchpads with a solid reputation for security.

Enable Two-Factor Authentication (2FA): Always enable 2FA on your accounts to add an extra layer of security against unauthorized access.

5. Failing to Diversify Investments

Investing all your funds in a single IDO can be risky, especially if the project fails or underperforms. Many investors make the mistake of putting all their eggs in one basket.

What to Do:

Diversify Your Portfolio: Spread your investments across multiple projects rather than focusing solely on one IDO. This approach can help mitigate risks and improve overall returns.

Consider Upcoming IDOs: Regularly review lists of upcoming IDOs and allocate funds based on thorough research into each project’s potential.

6. Not Setting Realistic Expectations

Many investors enter the crypto space with unrealistic expectations about potential returns. While some projects may yield significant profits, others may not perform as expected.

What to Do:

Set Attainable Goals: Understand that not every investment will be a winner. Set realistic expectations based on market conditions and project fundamentals.

Monitor Market Trends: Stay informed about broader market trends that could impact your investments by following reliable cryptocurrency news sources.

7. Ignoring Community Sentiment

The community surrounding a cryptocurrency project can significantly impact its success or failure. Many investors overlook community sentiment when making investment decisions.

What to Do:

Engage with Communities: Join forums, social media groups, or Discord channels related to the project you’re interested in. Engaging with other investors can provide valuable insights into community sentiment.

Follow Influencers: Keep an eye on industry influencers who provide updates and opinions on trending cryptocurrencies and projects.

8. Not Keeping Track of IDO Launch Schedules

Missing out on important dates related to an IDO can lead to missed investment opportunities or unfavorable entry points.

What to Do:

Use an IDO Launch Schedule: Keep track of important dates related to upcoming IDOs using dedicated calendars or platforms that provide this information.

Set Reminders: Use calendar reminders for key dates such as whitelisting deadlines or token trading launch times.

Conclusion

Investing in crypto IDOs can offer substantial opportunities for growth but comes with its share of risks. By avoiding these common mistakes—such as neglecting research, ignoring tokenomics, succumbing to FOMO, overlooking security measures, failing to diversify investments, setting unrealistic expectations, ignoring community sentiment, and not tracking launch schedules—you can enhance your chances of success in this exciting space.

As you explore new IDO projects in 2024, stay informed by utilizing resources like an IDO crypto list, following the latest crypto news, and regularly reviewing upcoming IDOs. With careful planning and strategic execution, you can navigate the world of Initial DEX Offerings effectively and potentially reap significant rewards from your investments. For more Crypto,  Upcoming IDO,IEO,ICO information visit Cryptolenz.

[yestolerancepro]

Tolerance Project extra Thank you for the music Part one From John Williams to John Barry

Introduction

Hello there Ben Brown here welcome to a new version of a blog called Thank you for the music which looks at the soundtrack we created for the Tolerance film 25 years ago.  

45 seconds We begin with our first film spoof, Star Wars, when the film starts with the standard Star Wars opening crawl.

 Instead of the Crawl telling you about the on going battles with the Rebel Alliance and the Evil Empire it tells you about what you can expect to see over the next 25 mins. Tolerance in most cases uses original music from a number of film and TV shows, raided from my music collection.  

You can find a complete playlist of all the music used in Tolerance here The soundtrack totals 32 mins of music. If you don’t like the film soundtrack its all my fault and I am sorry ha ha https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ye8KvYKn9-0&list=PLPMadem14HDA4VfaekTC3gszEtwWfyGLQ

1 minute 22 seconds with the Star Wars music still playing, we get a nice opening shot of our leading man, David Smith,who plays our hero Robert who is fast asleep, clutching a book about the latest Star Wars film, The Phantom Menace (episode I), with his wheelchair close by.

1 minute 47 seconds After the introduction of our leading man, we get the introduction of our leading lady, Claire Abbot, playing Julie. Like David Smith, Claire gives a great performance and I would love to meet her again. If you can help me find Claire, I would be most grateful, as I have not been able to find out any information about what she is doing now. Sadly, this is a recurring theme in Tolerance.

The use of Perfect Day is a romantic theme in the film. I wanted to use the all star Children in Need version, from 1997 but Richard Hellawell went with the original Lou Read version. I have to admit in hindsight that I think this was the better choice. released on the 8 September 1972 as part of his classic second album titled Transformer produced by David Bowie and Mark Ronson.

Although the song was first used as a B side to his single walk on the wildside which charted at number 10 in the UK and Number 16 in the US billboard charts

 Its first heard in the beginning of the film as Claire Abbot is introduced as A DJ on the radio wishes her a happy birthday its heard again in the films closing credits.

Now for some background on the song itself.

Many people in the years since the song's release believe that 'Perfect Day' is not about his partner, but instead about his own love affair with heroin.

Asked by the NME in 1973 about the song's true meaning, Reed replied: "That's a lovely song. A description of a very straightforward affair."

Once the earnest ballad was included on the soundtrack to 1996 film Trainspotting, these questions arose once again as the song's popularity was rejuvenated.

The song's historic misinterpretation meant that Danny Boyle chose 'Perfect Day' to play whilst the film's central character Renton - played by Ewan MacGregor - overdoses on heroin.

In 2000, Reed again suggested that interpretation was "laughable", stating: "No. You're talking to the writer, the person who wrote it. No that's not true. I don't object to that, particularly...whatever you think is perfect."

"But this guy's vision of a perfect day was the girl, sangria in the park, and then you go home; a perfect day, real simple. I meant just what I said."

2mins 25 We hear the strains of the James Bond theme as Robert speeds round the Kitchen to make his breakfast Finishing with a cup of tea to highlight his independence. He Lives in a house by himself where as Claire his girlfriend lives with her family where she feels somewhat over protected and longs to get away.

We went with the original done by Monty Norman for Dr No in 1962.

Monty Norman died on the 11th July 2022 you can read the BBC obituary here https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/entertainment-arts-62122982

Did u you know that John Barry re-recorded the theme for the single release of the same year this re-recorded version is slightly longer the original used in Dr No this version reached the top 20 peaking at number 11 in 1962. It runs close to 2 mins to quote the liner notes on the best of Bond 1992 CD  

Unlike the film version which used the Monty Norman Orchestra this re-recorded version used John Barry’s own Orchestra. Barry’s own version was released in England at a time when Cinema-goers first met James Bond in 1962s Dr No, though lacking the fullness and worldwide familiarity of the Norman Orchestra version Barry’s version holds it own drive and intensity.

  John Barry has also revisited the Bond theme quite a few times over the years.

John Barry re-recorded the James Bond Theme in 1966 for his CBS album The Great Movie Sounds of John Barry, which features driving percussion ostinati (with a prominent role for bongos), as well as a piano and brass improvisation superimposed over the last few bars. For his 1972 Polydor album The Concert John Barry, re-scored the theme again as part of a James Bond suite for full symphony orchestra, in this case the Royal Philharmonic Orchestra. This more lush arrangement was to feature in his later Bond film scores, notably Octopussy

 

To learn more about James Bond Dr No click here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DFws8IdQHKA

 

Remember if you have liked this blog please consider giving a donation by clicking on the link below Thank you

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Pictures

Screengrabs from the Tolerance film with thanks to Ian Medley

The Tolerance / Star Wars Dialogue crawl

Clare Abbot as Julie

The Transformer album cover

Walk on the wildside single artwork which had perfect day as the B side

The first best of Bond album from 1992

The artwork for the 1966 John Barry album the great movie sounds of

The artwork for John Barry the concert

Notes

This blog has been compiled from various sources including deep breath Ability not Ability a Producers Commentary Part 1 in the Beginning Ability not Ability a Producers Commentary Part 2 Transport  Ability not Ability a Producers Commentary Part 3 Employment Ability not Ability a Producers Commentary Part 4 Accessability Tolerance Project goes into Lockdown and Happy Valentines day from the Tolerance project

Thanks to wikipedia for some of the musical background notes thanks to Google images for all of the pictures also to Minty’s Comedic arts for the video documentary on Doctor No There is also new material about Lou Reeds song perfect day taken from the gold music website

Next week Chapter 2 Classic Cowboys to Classical music

[arunkblog]

Top Miscalculations to Avoid When Investing in Crypto IDOs

Investing in Initial DEX Offerings (IDOs) can be an exciting yet risky adventure for cryptocurrency enthusiasts. As the market evolves, new opportunities arise, but so do potential risks. Understanding common mistakes investors make when participating in IDOs is crucial for maximizing returns and minimizing losses. This blog explores the top miscalculations to avoid when investing in upcoming crypto IDOs, ensuring you're well-prepared for your next investment.

1. Neglecting Thorough Research

One of the most significant mistakes investors make is failing to conduct thorough research before committing funds to an IDO. Each project has its unique features, goals, and risks, and understanding these elements is essential.

What to Do:

Read the Whitepaper: The whitepaper provides vital information about the project’s vision, technology, and tokenomics. Make sure you understand the project’s purpose and how it plans to achieve its goals.

Analyze the Team: Investigate the backgrounds of the project’s founders and team members. Look for experience in relevant fields and a history of successful projects.

2. Ignoring Tokenomics

Tokenomics refers to the economic model surrounding a cryptocurrency’s token, including supply, distribution, and utility within the ecosystem. Many investors overlook this critical aspect, leading to poor investment decisions.

What to Do:

Evaluate Supply and Demand: Understand the total supply of tokens and how they will be distributed among stakeholders. A well-structured tokenomics model can significantly impact a token’s value.

Assess Utility: Ensure that the token has a clear use case within the project. Tokens with strong utility tend to have better long-term prospects.

3. FOMO Investing

Fear of Missing Out (FOMO) often leads investors to rush into an IDO without proper evaluation. This impulsive behavior frequently results in poor investment choices and financial losses.

What to Do:

Stick to Your Strategy: Develop a clear investment strategy based on your financial goals and risk tolerance. Avoid making impulsive decisions based on hype or social media trends.

Use an Upcoming IDO List: Keep track of upcoming IDOs through reliable sources to plan your investments strategically rather than reacting impulsively.

4. Overlooking Security Measures

Security is paramount in the cryptocurrency space, yet many investors neglect this aspect when participating in IDOs. Failing to take necessary precautions can lead to significant losses.

What to Do:

Use Reputable Platforms: Participate in IDOs on well-known launchpads with a solid reputation for security.

Enable Two-Factor Authentication (2FA): Always enable 2FA on your accounts to add an extra layer of security against unauthorized access.

5. Failing to Diversify Investments

Investing all your funds in a single IDO can be risky, especially if the project fails or underperforms. Many investors make the mistake of putting all their eggs in one basket.

What to Do:

Diversify Your Portfolio: Spread your investments across multiple projects rather than focusing solely on one IDO. This approach can help mitigate risks and improve overall returns.

Consider Upcoming IDOs: Regularly review lists of upcoming IDOs and allocate funds based on thorough research into each project’s potential.

6. Not Setting Realistic Expectations

Many investors enter the crypto space with unrealistic expectations about potential returns. While some projects may yield significant profits, others may not perform as expected.

What to Do:

Set Attainable Goals: Understand that not every investment will be a winner. Set realistic expectations based on market conditions and project fundamentals.

Monitor Market Trends: Stay informed about broader market trends that could impact your investments by following reliable cryptocurrency news sources.

7. Ignoring Community Sentiment

The community surrounding a cryptocurrency project can significantly impact its success or failure. Many investors overlook community sentiment when making investment decisions.

What to Do:

Engage with Communities: Join forums, social media groups, or Discord channels related to the project you’re interested in. Engaging with other investors can provide valuable insights into community sentiment.

Follow Influencers: Keep an eye on industry influencers who provide updates and opinions on trending cryptocurrencies and projects.

8. Not Keeping Track of IDO Launch Schedules

Missing out on important dates related to an IDO can lead to missed investment opportunities or unfavorable entry points.

What to Do:

Use an IDO Launch Schedule: Keep track of important dates related to upcoming IDOs using dedicated calendars or platforms that provide this information.

Set Reminders: Use calendar reminders for key dates such as whitelisting deadlines or token trading launch times.

Conclusion

Investing in crypto IDOs can offer substantial opportunities for growth but comes with its share of risks. By avoiding these common mistakes—such as neglecting research, ignoring tokenomics, succumbing to FOMO, overlooking security measures, failing to diversify investments, setting unrealistic expectations, ignoring community sentiment, and not tracking launch schedules—you can enhance your chances of success in this exciting space.

As you explore new IDO projects in 2024, stay informed by utilizing resources like an IDO crypto list, following the latest crypto news, and regularly reviewing upcoming IDOs. With careful planning and strategic execution, you can navigate the world of Initial DEX Offerings effectively and potentially reap significant rewards from your investments. For more Crypto,  Upcoming IDO,IEO,ICO information visit Cryptolenz.

[crytolenz]

Top Miscalculations to Avoid When Investing in Crypto IDOs

Investing in Initial DEX Offerings (IDOs) can be an exciting yet risky adventure for cryptocurrency enthusiasts. As the market evolves, new opportunities arise, but so do potential risks. Understanding common mistakes investors make when participating in IDOs is crucial for maximizing returns and minimizing losses. This blog explores the top miscalculations to avoid when investing in upcoming crypto IDOs, ensuring you're well-prepared for your next investment.

1. Neglecting Thorough Research

One of the most significant mistakes investors make is failing to conduct thorough research before committing funds to an IDO. Each project has its unique features, goals, and risks, and understanding these elements is essential.

What to Do:

Read the Whitepaper: The whitepaper provides vital information about the project’s vision, technology, and tokenomics. Make sure you understand the project’s purpose and how it plans to achieve its goals.

Analyze the Team: Investigate the backgrounds of the project’s founders and team members. Look for experience in relevant fields and a history of successful projects.

2. Ignoring Tokenomics

Tokenomics refers to the economic model surrounding a cryptocurrency’s token, including supply, distribution, and utility within the ecosystem. Many investors overlook this critical aspect, leading to poor investment decisions.

What to Do:

Evaluate Supply and Demand: Understand the total supply of tokens and how they will be distributed among stakeholders. A well-structured tokenomics model can significantly impact a token’s value.

Assess Utility: Ensure that the token has a clear use case within the project. Tokens with strong utility tend to have better long-term prospects.

3. FOMO Investing

Fear of Missing Out (FOMO) often leads investors to rush into an IDO without proper evaluation. This impulsive behavior frequently results in poor investment choices and financial losses.

What to Do:

Stick to Your Strategy: Develop a clear investment strategy based on your financial goals and risk tolerance. Avoid making impulsive decisions based on hype or social media trends.

Use an Upcoming IDO List: Keep track of upcoming IDOs through reliable sources to plan your investments strategically rather than reacting impulsively.

4. Overlooking Security Measures

Security is paramount in the cryptocurrency space, yet many investors neglect this aspect when participating in IDOs. Failing to take necessary precautions can lead to significant losses.

What to Do:

Use Reputable Platforms: Participate in IDOs on well-known launchpads with a solid reputation for security.

Enable Two-Factor Authentication (2FA): Always enable 2FA on your accounts to add an extra layer of security against unauthorized access.

5. Failing to Diversify Investments

Investing all your funds in a single IDO can be risky, especially if the project fails or underperforms. Many investors make the mistake of putting all their eggs in one basket.

What to Do:

Diversify Your Portfolio: Spread your investments across multiple projects rather than focusing solely on one IDO. This approach can help mitigate risks and improve overall returns.

Consider Upcoming IDOs: Regularly review lists of upcoming IDOs and allocate funds based on thorough research into each project’s potential.

6. Not Setting Realistic Expectations

Many investors enter the crypto space with unrealistic expectations about potential returns. While some projects may yield significant profits, others may not perform as expected.

What to Do:

Set Attainable Goals: Understand that not every investment will be a winner. Set realistic expectations based on market conditions and project fundamentals.

Monitor Market Trends: Stay informed about broader market trends that could impact your investments by following reliable cryptocurrency news sources.

7. Ignoring Community Sentiment

The community surrounding a cryptocurrency project can significantly impact its success or failure. Many investors overlook community sentiment when making investment decisions.

What to Do:

Engage with Communities: Join forums, social media groups, or Discord channels related to the project you’re interested in. Engaging with other investors can provide valuable insights into community sentiment.

Follow Influencers: Keep an eye on industry influencers who provide updates and opinions on trending cryptocurrencies and projects.

8. Not Keeping Track of IDO Launch Schedules

Missing out on important dates related to an IDO can lead to missed investment opportunities or unfavorable entry points.

What to Do:

Use an IDO Launch Schedule: Keep track of important dates related to upcoming IDOs using dedicated calendars or platforms that provide this information.

Set Reminders: Use calendar reminders for key dates such as whitelisting deadlines or token trading launch times.

Conclusion

Investing in crypto IDOs can offer substantial opportunities for growth but comes with its share of risks. By avoiding these common mistakes—such as neglecting research, ignoring tokenomics, succumbing to FOMO, overlooking security measures, failing to diversify investments, setting unrealistic expectations, ignoring community sentiment, and not tracking launch schedules—you can enhance your chances of success in this exciting space.

As you explore new IDO projects in 2024, stay informed by utilizing resources like an IDO crypto list, following the latest crypto news, and regularly reviewing upcoming IDOs. With careful planning and strategic execution, you can navigate the world of Initial DEX Offerings effectively and potentially reap significant rewards from your investments. For more Crypto,  Upcoming IDO,IEO,ICO information visit Cryptolenz.

[gautam-101]

Astrological Insights: Mercury Retrograde and Its Impact on Our Conversations

Introduction

Astrology enthusiasts often speak in hushed tones about the dreaded Mercury retrograde. This celestial event, occurring several times a year, is famed for its disruptive influence on communication, technology, and travel. But what exactly is Mercury retrograde, and why does it have such a notorious reputation? More importantly, how does it specifically affect our daily communications? In this blog, we'll delve into the intricacies of Mercury retrograde and explore the communication challenges it presents, along with some tips to navigate this tumultuous period.

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Understanding Mercury Retrograde

Mercury retrograde happens when Mercury appears to move backward in the sky from our vantage point on Earth. This optical illusion, caused by the differing orbits of Earth and Mercury, typically lasts for about three weeks. Mercury, named after the Roman messenger god, rules over communication, travel, and technology. When it goes retrograde, these areas are believed to be particularly susceptible to mishaps and misunderstandings.

Communication Challenges During Mercury Retrograde

Misunderstandings and Miscommunications: One of the most common issues during Mercury retrograde is the increased likelihood of misunderstandings. Conversations that would normally flow smoothly can become fraught with confusion. Misinterpretations abound, and it's not unusual to find oneself repeatedly clarifying points that should have been straightforward.

Technological Glitches: Given Mercury's influence over technology, it's no surprise that this period often sees an uptick in tech-related problems. Emails get lost, important files become corrupted, and software updates might not go as planned. These glitches can significantly hamper effective communication, both in personal and professional settings.

Delayed Responses and Lost Messages: During Mercury retrograde, you might notice delays in responses. Messages sent through various channels—email, text, social media—can get delayed or even lost in transit. This can lead to frustration and misalignment, particularly in time-sensitive matters.

Faulty Decision Making: The clarity of thought necessary for making sound decisions can be impaired during Mercury retrograde. This period is notorious for influencing people to rethink and revise their previous decisions. It's advisable to avoid signing contracts or making major commitments until Mercury resumes its direct motion.

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Navigating Mercury Retrograde

While Mercury retrograde can be challenging, it doesn’t have to be disastrous. Here are some strategies to help you cope:

Double-Check Communications: Whether sending an email or a text, take an extra moment to ensure clarity. Reread your messages, and if possible, discuss important matters in person to avoid misinterpretation.

Backup Important Data: To guard against technological issues, make sure to back up important files and documents. This can prevent potential loss and ensure you have access to critical information when needed.

Practice Patience: Delays and misunderstandings can be frustrating, but maintaining patience is key. Recognize that this is a temporary phase, and exercise extra tolerance with yourself and others.

Revisit Old Projects: Use this time to review and reflect on past projects. Mercury retrograde is ideal for revisiting and refining old ideas, allowing for improvements and thoughtful reconsiderations.

Conclusion

Mercury retrograde, with its propensity to disrupt communication, can indeed be a trying time. However, by understanding its influence and implementing thoughtful strategies, we can mitigate its effects. Rather than viewing Mercury retrograde as a purely negative period, we can see it as an opportunity to slow down, reassess, and refine our approach to communication. With patience and preparedness, we can navigate the challenges of Mercury retrograde and emerge with greater clarity and resilience.

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[kaleidoscope-story]

Kaleidoscope Masterpost

Hello, all! Welcome to kaleidoscope, my weird little Taylor Swift fanfiction project. Basically, this is "what if the betty/cardigan/august love triangle was actually the entire folklore and evermore albums?".

Chapters will be released every Tuesday, you can either follow the blog for them, or the "kaleidoscope story" tag, check this post, where I'll update the links every week, or message me if you want to be tagged for every update!

Start reading (track order) Start reading (chronologically)

Under the cut, some business, and then the links to the chapters.

To be honest, I'm not even that huge a swiftie, but this is what happened to my brain when I first heard folklore - it's so rich, from a storytelling perspective, that I couldn't help but want to do something with it.

So here we are! Kaleidoscope - not anything to do with the Netflix miniseries (I actually came up with the title long before I ever knew that was a thing), but a collection of chapters following the lives of Betty, James, and Inez, each one based around a song from either folklore or evermore.

Just to get a few things cleared up:

These won't be full out, regular chapters, but short blurbs, accompanied by a moodboard and the corresponding song, because it's just a snapshot of that point in the character's life, not a full description of everything that's going on - I wanted to try and translate the same vibes of the albums and of listening to the songs that way.

This will be non-linear storytelling - it won't follow the character's lives chronologically, but instead by the track order of the original albums. It's kind of like a puzzle, where each next chapter, each snapshot, reveals more of the full picture. Once it's all posted, though, I'll fill in the links for a chronological viewing of the chapters, if you want an easier understanding of it.

Finally, yes, I know Inez isn't originally the name of the other girl in the love triangle, it's meant to be a whole other character, and I do include that in the story, but the very simple explanation is - I like the name, and I wanted to use it.

Also, while the main story is just these 34 chapters, I might, in the end, write some bonus chapters, just because I really love this story and these characters, so let me know if you'd be interested in reading that.

I hope it's all understandable, but always feel free to ask me about the story if you have any questions!

So, without further ado, feel free to peruse and enjoy:

folklore:

the 1

cardigan

the last great american dynasty

exile

my tears ricochet

mirrorball

seven

august

this is me trying

illicit affairs

invisible string

mad woman

epiphany

betty

peace

hoax

the lakes

evermore:

willow

champagne problems

gold rush

'tis the damn season

tolerate it

no body, no crime

happiness

dorothea

coney island

ivy

cowboy like me

long story short

marjorie

closure

evermore

right where you left me

it's time to go

Extras:

betty

james

inez

[johnpatricia]

Crypto Trends 2024: Unveiling the Latest Developments and Opportunities in the Cryptocurrency Market

In the fast-paced world of cryptocurrencies, staying ahead of the curve is essential for both seasoned investors and newcomers. As we delve into 2024, the cryptocurrency market continues to evolve, bringing forth new trends, developments, and lucrative opportunities. In this blog, we'll explore the latest crypto trends and guide you through the process of How to Buy Crypto and How to Buy Cryptocurrency.

## The Growing Landscape of Cryptocurrencies

### 1. **NFTs: Beyond Digital Art**

   Non-Fungible Tokens (NFTs) have transcended their origins in the art world. While digital art remains a prominent use case, NFTs are expanding into various industries, including music, gaming, and even real estate. The concept of owning a unique, verifiable asset on the blockchain has captivated both creators and collectors alike.

### 2. **DeFi 2.0: Enhanced Decentralized Finance**

   Decentralized Finance (DeFi) has been a driving force in the crypto space. In 2024, we anticipate the evolution of DeFi 2.0, with improved scalability, interoperability, and user experience. Projects aiming to address the current limitations of DeFi will likely gain traction.

### 3. **Metaverse Economy: Virtual Assets and Beyond**

   The Metaverse, a virtual shared space, is gaining momentum. Cryptocurrencies are becoming the primary medium of exchange within these digital realms. Investing in virtual assets and land within the Metaverse is an emerging trend that savvy investors are exploring.

## How to Buy Crypto: A Step-by-Step Guide

### Step 1: **Choose a Reliable Cryptocurrency Exchange**

   Start by selecting a reputable cryptocurrency exchange platform. Ensure that the platform complies with regulatory standards and offers a user-friendly interface. Popular choices include Coinbase, Binance, and Kraken.

### Step 2: **Create an Account**

   Sign up for an account on your chosen exchange. This usually involves providing basic information, verifying your identity, and setting up two-factor authentication for enhanced security.

### Step 3: **Deposit Funds**

   Deposit funds into your account. Most exchanges accept deposits in traditional fiat currencies like USD, EUR, or GBP. Some also allow deposits in cryptocurrencies.

### Step 4: **Select Your Cryptocurrency**

   Browse the list of available cryptocurrencies on the exchange and choose the one you want to buy. Popular options include Bitcoin (BTC), Ethereum (ETH), and other altcoins.

### Step 5: **Place Your Order**

   Decide on the amount of cryptocurrency you want to purchase and place a buy order. You can choose between market orders (instant purchase at the current market price) or limit orders (buying at a specific price).

### Step 6: **Secure Storage**

   After purchasing crypto, consider transferring it to a secure wallet for long-term storage. Hardware wallets like Ledger or Trezor provide an extra layer of security compared to exchange wallets.

## How to Buy Cryptocurrency: Diversifying Your Portfolio

### Step 1: **Research and Choose Cryptocurrencies**

   Before investing, conduct thorough research on various cryptocurrencies. Understand their use cases, development teams, and potential for growth. Diversify your portfolio to mitigate risks.

### Step 2: **Evaluate Market Trends**

   Stay informed about market trends and upcoming developments. Follow reputable crypto news sources and social media channels to gauge market sentiment.

### Step 3: **Timing and Patience**

   Cryptocurrency markets can be highly volatile. Consider the timing of your investments and be patient during market fluctuations. Avoid making impulsive decisions based on short-term price movements.

### Step 4: **Risk Management**

   Assess your risk tolerance and invest accordingly. Only invest what you can afford to lose, and consider using risk management tools offered by some exchanges.

## Conclusion

As we venture into 2024, the cryptocurrency market presents a myriad of opportunities for those willing to explore and invest wisely. From the flourishing NFT space to the evolving landscape of decentralized finance and the emergence of the Metaverse economy, crypto enthusiasts have much to anticipate. By understanding the latest trends and following a systematic approach on How to Buy Crypto and How to Buy Cryptocurrency, investors can navigate this dynamic market with confidence. Remember, the key to success lies in staying informed, diversifying your portfolio, and embracing the ever-evolving nature of the crypto ecosystem.