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realvicoba · 22 days ago
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I have some pieces of writing that can't really be posted— they're not fanfiction, or even much fiction to begin with. Just little things written here and there over the course of the year, and you know what? I'll post them here! They read nicely. Some are personal, some are about ocs, you can make it a guessing game! (all are lesbian yearning though, I fear)
It's beneath the read more 👇
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It must've been the beginning of summer. 
A break from the world, a break from constant escape. You felt like home where everyone else felt like pins stuck up from crooked woodboards. 
I must've been dreaming, I'm sure. Working to become someone different, finding who I am in what you saw of me when I have always only been an amalgamation of teary-eyed daydreams and a spiderweb in an abandoned corner. I am the toothbrush that's been left to dry after overuse, toothpaste stuck to the bottom of its bristles. I am mirrors bent to reflect you in different universes, what could've been. I am a comb with hair tangled between each blade. I am rusted metal pipes and a muddy faucet. I am, I am, I am, I am everything that is nostalgic and nothing that is human. A reflection, a daydream. 
You are a fading memory. I think of your lips, still. I think of our late night talks, of our promises of a marriage in candlelight. I think of when I felt alive, worthy of my human skin, when I felt loved for what I couldn't control. 
I think of what I see in myself after you. 
I see something, but not someone. 
You had everyone I could've been. 
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Alstroemeria
I love her.
I could pull apart every inch of skin, every cartilage in my bones, lay a corpse torn by crows and my bare soul would still yearn for her. She is to me as air for earth, as the sun, the moon and the stars and she is that which ushers blood through my veins and what my gaze searches for every dawn; my love, my love and my love. She is my love. My body is hers just as my soul and heart is.
And yet all I could utter was her name. Weakly, desperate, as I held her hand in mine and a ring in the other, my eyes flooded like a dam broken by years of quakes. Her hair, oh her hair, held half up in a braid while the rest fell over her back and shoulders and I swore she did not need a veil for she already looked enough of a bride. She watched my tears fall upon her bouquet of tulips and roses, and she held my face with her thumb brushing my cheek.
I was born for this.
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Holy shit this is so gay
She can tell.
Hushed words that hang from those pink, chapped lips. A lull that'd do anything but send her heart to sleep; she'd grow restless, if anything. They held love songs, the tips of her fingers held love letters. She'd trace them over her hand, over her arm, trace the shadows on her skin as dust from long unused instruments trickled over goosebumps.
"You're always so bright." she began, golden hair shining so bright under cracks of sunlight. Julia watched the sunset in those eyes of hers.
"Em..." Jul's hand was numb. Perhaps it was the strings of her guitar that she had strung for hours before; ridding herself of sinful lust. Perhaps it was her punishment for seeking the touch of the blonde angel with the divine voice. Or perhaps it was that very angel's touch, too pure for her tainted skin. Perhaps it was the love letters she'd write on her body.
So bright.
No.
You are the light you believe you're reaching.
Julia thought. She was but a reflection, only a jewel lit in her angel's grace.
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To venus, I sing
"You were blessed with blind eyes."
"Mm, how so?"
She rubbed her thumb against her cane, across the protruding gold of its intricate design. Her slender fingers, gentle, and they wrapped around my neck and had me on my knees before her. A python, from her palm alone, and the curvature of her waist was the poison.
"If your eyes ever caught mine I would've been entranced, choked into a slave."
She giggled. A soft, quiet one, slipped from the back of her throat and I noticed the subtle joy in her curls as they twirled and pulled me into a slow dance, all beneath the sun's last breaths in dusk.
Her hand had left the cane. She reached towards me, and I gladly held onto a dream. She brought my hand to her lips, and I could hold her face and slip to her neck with my claws digging into her tender skin—— she kissed my knuckles, her thumb rubbed against the lines on my palm like she was reading my fate, rewriting it, and she brought my fingers to her cheek.
"And how should I take that, Sholpan? A compliment?" she questioned, aimless gaze resting somewhere deep in a dreamscape. "... But I am blessed, in a way."
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sciderman · 1 month ago
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well - webtoons is over, gang
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puppppppppy · 6 months ago
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horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago
#I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOWWWWW#when i say damn thats crazy its bc i DO think its crazy i think a lot of things are crazy. like how birds have cloacas#or the way ppl draw a five pointed star in different ways and everyone assumes their way of doing it is how everyone does it#my brother is not letting me live this down btw he literally shouted at me like HOW DID YOU LIVE THIS LONG AND NOT PICK UP ON THAT#IDK!!! IDK I THOUGHT SOMETIMES IT COULD BE USED TO EXPRESS GENUINE SHOCK??????#he says its my delivery that makes it sound insincere bc i say it in a monotonous voice which when i think abt it YEAH....#THAT DOES MAKE IT LOOK KINDA BAD IN HINDSIGHT.....#and then i told him i keep a list of phrases that tickle my brain so i can remember to use them in conversation and apparently#most ppl dont do that bc he was like ???? stop doing that??? just let the conversation flow naturally it sounds fake>????#idk man i feel like if i did that and blurted out 'i forgot people find stuff like underwear arousing for some reason' instead of#smth like 'i wonder what kind of ppl find this kind of stuff the bees knees' like i normally do. it would. not go so well.#ALSO THE FLOW CHARTS ARENT NORMAL? i make flow charts before i call the bank or smth so i know what to say#its not just to blend in its also so i dont waste ppls time going uhhhhh as i think of how i put smth into words#its called stalling for time and i dont care if i have to say smth like thats just how the cookie crumbles if it gives me#5 more seconds to process whatever the fuck someone said without letting them think im not paying attention#doodles#diary#sona#puppysona#comics
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doverstar · 2 months ago
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can't express accurately how happy it makes me that c.s. lewis did not leave room for many interpretations in narnia. it's christian and you can't get around it. susan chose to care more about worldly things than what matters and he said what he said. the lion is Jesus. evil is evil and good is good and people have to choose. and that makes some readers angry because it's nearly impossible to ignore and they want to ignore it. they want it to be something else and they can't make it something else without making it not narnia. love that. that is doing it right
#that's. how. it. should. be#if there's room for interpretation in your writing as a christian you are doing it wrong#if people read your work and get to pick and choose what it means and you left it OPEN to interpretation-#-and they can divorce your fantasy world from the truth? you are doing it wrong#looking at you john ronald reuel#readers you're upset because susan cares more about “nylons and lipstick” than Aslan? 1. that's not really what lewis said#2. you should be upset because she made the wrong decision#and if you're upset because you can't get around the christianity in narnia let me share something with you - that's the point#it's a christian series#it's telling you christian things. this is not lord of the rings. this is not Cool Fantasy World open to interpretation#you can't worship the fantasy world and ignore the christian truths#you can't separate the two. that's what it should be#that's what all christian writing should be#if you write something amazing and centuries later people host parades for your fictional world and there's no God in it? no truth?#wrong. you did it wrong. they should not be able to separate the two - unless the point of your writing was to write a cool story#congratulations you wrote a cool story. but did it point people to the truth? unavoidably? no? then what a waste of freaking time#what a waste of a beautiful God-given talent#okay I got off on a tangent#my point is: be upset because Narnia is Christian and you can't get around that with ease#I am so. glad. you can't get around that with ease#this is why Lewis is my favorite author in the root of me#he did it right. this is what we as christian authors should aspire to#not LOTR. Narnia. NARNIA.#christianity#narnia#the chronicles of narnia#thoughts in the tags#doverstar's thoughts#writing#authors
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flesh-and-fangs · 1 month ago
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Y'all, I hate to say it, but no, Nandermo did not "go canon", in an "alternate universe" or through "implications" or otherwise. They were making fun of us. That was the point of all the little nudges and open questions that were quickly squashed. That was the point of the hypnosis ending. The point of that hypnosis was quite literally "Here, let's give the perfect fake wish-fulfillment ending to parts of our fanbase" (which is why there were three. They're fake. That's the point. The point is that they are supposed to be fantasies to appeal to people's hopes for the show).
Having Nandor and Guillermo as a classic sitcom couple set to a laugh track in a universe where none of the other characters exist was a jab at shippers who wanted Nandermo to be canon and cared more about that than the other characters or the premise of the show. They were making fun of "and they lived happily ever after" type fanwork. They were making fun of people who, in their eyes, ignored the irreverence and violence and black comedy of the show in order to make fluffy slash content. They were explicitly saying: "This is how we see you, and this is how we see what you want from this show, and we are telling you that it won't happen and we in fact have contempt for the very concept."
Why do you think they kept baiting the ship until the literal last lines of the show? They were making fun of us. They were saying "Ha! You still thought this would happen? After years of us saying it won't, to your face? Idiots." It's a comedy show, and they were making shippers the butt of the joke. They've been doing it for seasons now.
This is literally what Supernatural did back in the day. And nobody said that they made Destiel canon when they had an in-universe/alternate-universe stage play where the actors "explore Destiel". Fans back then recognized that it was a joke at their expense. That's what this is. Same as what happened in BBC Sherlock that one time, where in-universe conspiracy theorists said that Sherlock was in love with Moriarty (a ship the creators deliberately baited, mind you, same as they have here), specifically for the purpose of laughing at and making fun of that theory.
I'm so sorry, guys. I know you wanted to hope. I know you wanted to believe that the things the writers said at that con weren't true, but they were. I know because I wanted to hope too, even when I knew full well it wouldn't happen. They've been plain about how they feel about the ship for years. They saw it as a joke, one that drew in viewers, but was objectionable at its core. And they've followed through on that by baiting and jabbing up until the very end.
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chodzacaparodia · 1 year ago
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it's hard to be a shipper
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what ship is on your mind right now?
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inkskinned · 2 years ago
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one of the things about being an educator is that you hear what parents want their kids to be able to do a lot. they want their kid to be an astronaut or a ballerina or a politician. they want them to get off that damn phone. be better about socializing. stop spending so much time indoors. learn to control their own temper. to just "fucking listen", which means to be obedient.
one of the things i learned in my pedagogy classes is that it's almost always easier to roleplay how you want someone to act. it's almost always easier to explain why a rule exists, rather than simply setting the rule and demanding adherence.
i want my kids to be kind. i want them to ask me what book they should read next, and i want to read that book with them so we can discuss it. i want my kid to be able to tell me hey that hurt my feelings without worrying i'll punish them. i want my kid to be proud of small things and come running up to me to tell me about them. i want them to say "nah, i get why this rule exists, but i get to hate it" and know that i don't need them to be grateful-for-the-roof-overhead while washing the dishes. i want them to teach me things. i want them to say - this isn't safe. i'm calling my mom and getting out of this. i want them to hear me apologize when i do fuck up; and i want them to want to come home.
the other day a parent was telling me she didn't understand why her kid "just got so angry." this woman had flown off the handle at me.
my dad - traditional catholic that he is - resents my sentiment of "gentle parenting". he says they'll grow up spoiled, horrible, pretentious. granola, he spits.
i am going to be kind to them. i am going to set the example, i think. and whatever they choose become in the meantime - i'm going to love them for it.
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marypsue · 1 month ago
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Man, it's cool and all if you see a metaphor for marginalisation in the monstrous, and if you want the power fantasy of 'what if you could just eat anybody who threatened you/pissed you off'. Me too.
However, as soon as you start saying 'no, these monsters are a 1:1 on Specific Marginalised Group, and you have to treat them in the fiction like they are directly representative of real human members of the marginalised group', BUT you also, in the fiction, make them hurt/kill/eat humans? And then try to shame me, your audience, for noticing or engaging with the bit where they kill people, because you made them directly representative of a real-world marginalised group? You have lost me, and also, I think, the plot.
#hear yourself. for the love of whatever you cherish.#'but they only kill bigots so ACTUALLY they're the GOOD GUYS -' your metaphor of monstrosity is entirely premised on the question of#'what if what you went around righteously killing; believing your actions to be justified;#were actually people and it was not in fact righteous or justified to just kill them'#'what if the world isn't neatly split into 'good guys' and 'bad guys'#who gets to decide who or what is 'bad'? because that's the original problem of monstrosity-as-metaphor-for-marginalisation#(if as a creator you say 'oh my intention with this was X' cool!#if instead you go with something like. well.#'well in this setting monsters are so rare it doesn't matter that they kill people and you'd have to be a homicidal sadistic psychopath >#< to hunt them; but sure I guess if you want to play a Bad Person' well I might have#but if you're going to explicitly judge me for wanting to engage with the moral question of 'how justified is this and who would do it#versus how justified are these monsters if they do have to harm or kill people to continue to exist'#then maybe I just don't want to play your game at all)#anyway I'm sick to death of poor uwu cozy vampires who are SO marginalised so I'm not Allowed to care about all the people they murder#it being fucked up is what's fun about it! do all the other shit but let me take the murders seriously!#and inb4 someone accuses me of being a bigot for saying 'actually I don't think you get a free pass to kill and eat people if you're gay'#remember when the CW's famously reactionary and conservative Supernatural tried to just gloss over the part where every time its heroes >#< killed a demon with a magic knife it also killed the person the demon was possessing#and say 'oh no it's fine we don't care about those killings; they don't matter; don't bother caring about them either'#but they were doing it to glorify exactly the kind of people that these 'monster as metaphor' stories are trying to cast as expendable?#I have other examples that are like. real dramas. but That Paranormal Show is the one that's in the same niche that I'm talking about here#it feels more insidious when it comes through a fantasy show where there are monsters involved#so you can say 'no it's not real so it doesn't matter'#but then ALL of it is equally not real. and vampires are not actually an oppressed group. because they don't exist.#you can say 'these vampires are a metaphor for an oppressed group so this fiction matters in real life'#or you can say 'don't care about the murders because they weren't actually real'#but you can't say both and then get mad at ME for treating the murders as seriously as the vampires#let me engage with your premise and don't waste my fucking time#or just set your fluff in the Sesame Street universe where vampires drink cherry Kool-Aid and help kids learn to count
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blueskittlesart · 8 months ago
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in the nicest and most non-confrontational way possible. i feel like some of you think that anything that isn't directly openly spelled out for you within a story is "missed potential" or "unexplored." like. sometimes there are implied narratives. sometimes the point is that you as the reader are supposed to think and draw your own conclusions and participate in the story. the writers not directly spelling every little detail out for you doesn't mean that the story is poorly written or missed its own plot details somehow. PLEASE.
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daily-odile · 7 months ago
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AUGH I’d love to see more time looping odile if possible,,,,, how do you think she’d like; “devolve” over each of the acts as compared to Siffrin over time :O
ok im gonna be honest i did like portrait edits months ago and just never finished them. so here you go
act 3:
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nyxofdemons · 1 year ago
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THE WAY THAT THEY INVENTED ROMANCE WITH THIS SONG???? HELLO?????
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raycatzdraws · 1 year ago
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ribbonwood
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katabay · 11 months ago
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desmond & friends modern day assassin sequences…..I miss you……..
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idontmindifuforgetme · 1 year ago
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Kind of ridiculous that it’s a ubiquitously held notion that if you don’t start a hobby while you’re literally a developing embryo then you can never go pro at it. I have all this TIME to live am I supposed to just lie down and die
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aliciavance4228 · 5 months ago
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Apparently Zeus Isn't the Biggest Whore...
I made a Top 3 Malewhores from Greek Mythology out of curiosity, and apparently Zeus isn't the first one.
3rd Place: Apollo! 🥉
Bodycount: 52
Goddesses (4)
Hecate
Calliope
Urania
Thalia
Nymphs (15)
Aethusa
Acacallis
Chrysothemis
Corycia
Cyrene
Leuconoe
Melaena
Melia
Ocyrrhoe
Othreis
Urea
Rhetia
Sinope (depending on the myth version)
Stilbe
Syllis
Mortal Women (24)
Acalle or Acacallis
Amphissa
Euboia
Aria
Deione
Arsinoe
Dryope
Evadne
Erginos
Hecuba
Hyria
Celaeno
Chione
Coronis
Creusa
Cyrene
Leucippus' wife
Manto
Parthenope
Phthia
Procleia
Psamathe
Thero
Thyia
Male Lovers (9)
Hyacinthus
Hymenaeus
Cyparissus
Adonis
Admetus
Branchus
Helenus
Hyppolytus
Phorbas
2nd Place: Zeus! 🥈
Bodycount: 56
Goddesses (16)
Aphrodite
Demeter
Dione (unless Aphrodite is motherless)
Eurynome
Gaia
Hera
Hybris (depending on the myth versions)
Calliope
Leto
Metis
Mnemosyne
Nemesis
Persephone (again, depending on the myth versions)
Selene
Styx (when she's the mother of Persephone)
Themis
Nymphs (18)
Aegina
Aix
Borysthenes' daughter
Deino
Electra
Himalia
Hora
Io
Callirhoe
Carme
Maia
Nymphe African
Nymphe Sithnis
Nymphe Samothrakian
Othreis
Plouto
Taygete
Thalia
Mortal Women (21)
Alcmene
Antiope
Danae
Dia
Elara
Europa
Eurymedusa
Callisto
Calyce
Cassiopea
Lamia
Laodameia
Leda
Lysithoe
Niobe
Olympias (Yes, mother of Alexander of Great!)
Pandora
Pyrrha
Phthia
Semele
Thyia
Male Lovers (1)
Ganymede
1st Place: Poseidon! 🥇
Bodycount: 73
Goddesses (5)
Amphitrite
Aphrodite
Demeter
Gaia
Circe
Nymphs (26)
Alcyone
Anippe
Arethusa
Ascra
Beroe
Eidothea
Euryte
Celaeno
Celusa
Chione 1
Chione 2
Cleodora
Corcyra
Diopatra
Medusa (I know she's a gorgon but this is the closest category she could've been included in)
Melantheia
Melia
Mideia
Nymphe Khias
Nymphe Tarentine
Peirene
Pero
Pitane
Salamis
Thoosa
Tritonis
Mortal Women (40)
Agamede
Aethra
Alope
Althaea
Amphikriton's daughter
Amymone
Anippe
Arene
Arne or Antiope
Astydameia
Astypalaea
Europa (not that Europa, another one; now I'm starting to believe that Poseidon tries to copy Zeus...)
Euryale
Eurycyda
Eurynome
Helle
Hyppothoe
Iphimedeia
Caenis
Calyce
Canace
Celaeno
Chalcinia
Chrysogeneia
Cleito
Larissa
Leis
Lena
Libya
Lysianassa
Mecionice
Melantho
Mestra
Molione
Oenope
The wife of Prince Ornytion
Periboea
Themisto
Theophane
Tyro
Male Lovers (2)
Nerites
Pelops
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soullessseraphim · 6 months ago
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They're playing The Mortuary Assistant
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inspired by + outfit/headset design : this
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