#This is one of my special interests (not autistic)

[gean-grey-blog]

When I was taking Anthropology 101 in blended high school/community college, we had to pick a species of primates and go observe them at the National Zoo. I picked gorillas bc Kibibi had just been born.

Autism diagnosis T-minus 11 years, I didn't know it was a special interest. But I definitely developed one. I was answering a little kid's questions and an older guy zoo volunteer thanked me for coming in after all since they had said there might only be one volunteer and it was very busy.

I was like "I'm actually just here for homework but I'm obsessed so I knew the answers" and he was like "ah" and then we infodumped to each other and the public about gorillas for an hour to the fascination of many small children. It was like crack to me. That fall I entered my 4 year school and immediately declared a museum studies minor.

I kind of wonder how many people in the museum field are autistic. "Spend all day surrounded by your interest, talking about it and sharing info about it to people" seems like an autistic marketing ad.

[ultrakill-confessions]

I kinda wonder what it is about ultrakill that uh (how do I say this without being an asshole) that attracts so many systems (?)

I like statistics so I wanna like, study what it is about certain games or series that seems to collect folks like that. Is it how the fandom treats a piece of media? Is it the demographic? I donno!

Like if we all just decided to treat doom 2016 the same way we treat ultrakill would introjects n stuff start popping up over there too? (I picked doom cause it's a bloody shoot em up with religious undertones and insano angst potential, but feel free to insert any other game here too) I'm just genuinely curious about it all

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[opalwatch]

posting just some of my feitan headcanons to put off my anxiety about an impending zoom meeting

-he's autistic and has sensory issues. i fear this is common sense

-he can't stand loud noises. that's why he talks so quietly. the mask he wears helps to muffle loud noises, but if it's not enough, he has noise canceling headphones

-the only loud noises he can stand are the screams of people he tortures (fbi look away)

-he has two safe foods. the first is monster energy. he prefers the original flavor but any other flavor will do (except zero sugar). it's too bubbly for him (sensory issue) so he stirs out some of the bubbles but not all of them

-his other safe food is french fries, but from mcdonalds. he wont give that company money tho so he steals them

-when he's anxious/overstimulated, he'll knead biscuits into his thighs with his retractable claws (he has them because he's a zoldyck). if he's around other people, he'll try to hide it.

-said this in my pt music post but he listens to vocaloid and heavy metal. he likes poppy's latest albums. he likes maretu.

-he only listens to the same music over and over. he doesn't like discovering new music.

-he drinks extra monster when he's out on missions with the troupe because he has trouble sleeping in new places. change is hard for him.

-at his home, his bed is just a giant mound of pillows and blankets and soft things. he has to sleep curled up into a ball.

-when he's extremely anxious, he crochets. he either crochets matching sweaters for all the troupe members or voodoo dolls for torture. there is no in-between

-his english(? or whatever language is common in hxh) skills aren't too great because when he was growing up (critical period for language acquisition AAAAA I love being a psych major i love developmental psychology), his social anxiety was so bad that he didn't get to practice conversationally with others.

-machi saw him being a bundle of anxiety and didn't want him to be alone, but she saw that talking to him made him anxious. so instead of trying to play with him, she would just play on her own next to him. (sorry i didnt mean to make this about machi)

-again his special interest is monster energy. he collects every can he drinks and makes them into intricate towers. the other troupe members know not to make the tower fall because it'll cause him to lose it. that's how phinks found out what rising sun was

-last one for now i have to join my zoom meeting. the other troupe members sometimes help him build the monster can towers and shit. feitan doesn't really like it all too much because he likes to think it's his own special thing, but he doesn't say anything because he doesn't want to hurt anyone's feelings

-when hisoka was in the troupe, though, he offered to use bungee gum to secure more cans together. feitan did NOT allow this.

[wanderingcritter]

god gives his most niche fandoms to his most autistic warriors

[3liza]

im loving every poll i see where the OP is innocently about to get their lived experience violently deuniversalized

[bottlecap-joe-spooky]

Fellas is it gay to play chess (with a chess peice based after your "rival")?

[catmask]

it is insane how normal i am medicated like. you mean this was an option the whole time. what

[horsemeatluvr23]

hermitcraft s10 is just a documentation of the hermits descent into madness. wdym xisuma spent an hour on his hands and knees recording himself howling like a wolf ??

[biceratops7]

Gotta love how Aziraphale and Crowley represent both sides of the autistic room spectrum.

From “I gotta have everything I love in one single space at once” to “if more than two things cross my line of sight at a time I am going to fucking kill someone”

[etherealspacejelly]

Special interest ask game!

What first got you into your special interest?

What is your favourite part about your special interest?

Does it make you happy or sad when other people have the same special interest as you?

If someone wanted to get into your special interest for the first time, where would you recommend they start?

Share something cool about your special interest with us?

How long have you had this special interest?

Have you had any other special interests before? What were they?

Do other people usually find your special interest cool, or do they think its cringey/offputting?

Are there any parts of your special interest that you dont like?

Who is your favourite person to talk about your special interest with? (If they're on tumblr, tag them!)

[gorkaya-trava]

the excruciating pain of nobody caring about your special interest

[breawycker]

Enid sniffing Wednesday repeatedly before proclaiming “you’re about to have a vision” then catching her before she hits the ground

Oooh I love this and her like growling at anyone who gets close to Wednesday when she's out. I've seen some angst-y art of Enid laying next to Wednesday worrying while Wednesday is in a vision and I just want to write something where Enid is just ready for her to wake up with some water because she knows that Wednesday's visions are often intense and having water and seeing Enid's face helps ground her. I like the idea of Enid's like inner wolf falling for Wednesday before her human self even realizes and then it hits her and she's like "oh wow 😳"

[larkmousedesigns]

Moonpaw

[inamindfarfaraway]

The Exorcists’ Masks of Virtue

The vast majority of Exorcists in Hazbin Hotel have a notable design element that other angels don’t: their masks are missing an eye. Specifically, the right eye.

I believe this is a reference to the Bible, Matthew 5:29. Jesus says, “If your right eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell.”

He’s being hyperbolic. Mr Free Healthcare was not pro-mutilation. What he means is that you have to be willing to make sacrifices to prevent sin. The context of the eye metaphor is him condemning adultery and warning that even something as easy, casual and small as a look full of lustful intent can lead to further, worse sin if you don’t notice your sin, hold yourself accountable for it and do the work to not let it influence your decisions. This will probably be hard. It could be very, very painful. Changing your perspective can feel as horrible as plucking out your eye, so many people can’t bring themselves to do it. But although it won’t feel that way in the moment, it’s healthier for our general wellbeing in the long run to abandon traits and behaviours that damage ourselves and/or others.

(You may notice that Jesus’s teaching that you can have sinned, redeem yourself by giving up sin and thus escape damnation is the founding principle of the Hazbin Hotel. You may also notice that it contradicts everything the Exorcists believe.)

The Exorcists seem to follow this idea of painfully excising badness for the sake of the greater good devoutly to the point of placing it above teachings like ‘Thou shalt not kill’, with their job being to remove sin, in the form of sinners, to protect Heaven. Hence the missing right eyes. They’re a declaration of moral righteousness and inability to stumble.

But the truth is that the Exorcists all have their right eyes. Their flawlessness is a facade. Underneath, they are untouched, think themselves morally untouchable and, as shown by their horror and outrage when even one of them is killed, would much rather be physically untouchable too. This perfectly represents their complete unwillingness to acknowledge their own faults, let alone improve. They are never the ones who sacrifice. They force the sinners to sacrifice and don’t compensate it with any salvation. They metaphorically rip out the sinners’ eyes, but still condemn their entire bodies as inherently, permanently sinful. So they’ll just have to do another Extermination to get the other eyes! And another one to cut off their right hands! And so on until there’s nothing left.

The only exception to the rule is Vaggie, both in appearance and character. Her mask has the left eye crossed out instead. Even before her expulsion, she’s set apart to the audience as an Exorcist who has the capacity to, shall we say, see a different side of things. Her mask having its ‘sinful’ right eye reflects her understanding that the Exorcist worldview is wrong.

When she almost kills a demon child, her hateful vision clears. She discards the part of herself that’s an unquestioning, merciless agent of death, terror and grief… and as punishment for what Lute perceives as treacherous weakness, gets her eye plucked out.

Of course Lute leaves her with only the ‘sinful’ eye. It brands Vaggie forever as the inversion, a perversion, of what the Exorcists are meant to be.

You know, all this talk of eye removal in the Bible reminds me of another line - ‘an eye for an eye’. Adam directly quotes it in “Hell is Forever”. He uses it to frame the Exterminations as Old Testament-style punitive justice; the sinners did harm and so they receive it. But putting aside the debate about how ethical the concept of revenge is, the entire point of taking an eye for an eye is that it’s proportional. The punishment fits the crime. If someone cuts your eye out, you shouldn’t murder their whole family in front of them and then slowly disembowel them to death. That would be the sin of wrath. You should just make them pay without excessive pain or collateral damage. This is the fairest form of revenge.

The Exorcists don’t do that! The Exterminations aren’t proportional to the wrongs of all they hurt, nor was Vaggie’s brutal punishment equivalent to her extremely mild insubordination. Lute literally takes Vaggie’s eye, and more, after Vaggie does nothing to her! That’s the opposite of the phrase! Adam and his soldiers are wrathful and cruel, deriving satisfaction from others’ suffering. But they just can’t stop going on and on about how disgustingly evil the sinners are, in total hypocrisy… despite some of the sinners being far better people than the genocidal Exorcists are… it’s like they’re obsessed with specks of dust in the sinners’ eyes when they have massive logs stuck in their own. Oh hey, that’s in the Bible too!

[falindankovsky]

Can you tell this game has taken over all my thoughts?

[cupiidzbow]

we’re autism4autism have i ever mentioned that