#There might be a little bit with Stan but for the most part it'll be a chase scene to try and catch Bill

[astro-b-o-y-d]

I feel like this next chapter's going to be a lot of fun

[tiredandoptimistic]

Buckle up, it's Mabel Pines hours.

I keep thinking about her choice at the end of Dipper and Mabel vs the Future, when she takes "Blendin" up on his offer of creating a time bubble. I know there's been a million words typed about this, but she really had nothing waiting for her back home.

I know the show tends to act like Mabel was the popular one while Dipper was the outcast (like in the Valentine's flashback), but I genuinely can't believe that Mabel was 100% accepted for her freak self in middle school. Yes, she's bright and bubbly, but she's also deeply strange and borders on disturbing in a lot of ways (to be clear, I mean this as a compliment, but most seventh graders probably wouldn't appreciate her grappling hook and Mabel Juice). Maybe people liked her on some level, maybe she was social, but she didn't have friends like Candy and Grenda in California. Think about it, she never mentions anybody specific back home; almost like there isn't anybody she actually feels close to on a deep level.

She was probably okay like that for a long time. She didn't need friends who understood all of her quirks, because she had her brother for that. Dipper might be pretty different from Mabel on the surface, but in every way that mattered he was there for her 100%. Nevertheless, I think there was a lot of loneliness building within Mabel for a long time, whether or not she was aware of it. She may have thought she had everything a person needs, until she got to Gravity Falls and experienced for the first time what it was like to be genuinely accepted on every level; that moment of "oh this is what friendship is supposed to be like," the realization that all those previous dynamics provided company but not companionship.

So then, it's the end of the summer, and Mabel has to give up that safe space and go back to the real world. It sucks, but at least she's got Dipper to go through it with her. No matter what, she's always got her twin as her anchor, to keep her steady in any situation. Except; this time, he's not coming along. He gets to choose to stay in the adventure while she has to return to reality; he chose the part of him that's a scientist over the part that's Mabel's brother.

Now, Mabel's left with the prospect of returning to a life that's seeming evermore unfulfilling since she's finally got to experience a place that embraces her for all that she is. She's gone through a whole summer of the most incredible adventures, and has to go to a place without a single person who'll even believe her stories. Adding on to all that, we know from The Book of Bill that Dipper and Mabel's parents have been fighting. That's a rough as hell thing to deal with as a kid, but having a sibling like Dipper would have taken so much of the pressure off. Family is supposed to be the most stable thing in a kid's life, but now Mabel's parents have thrown their whole family dynamic into doubt, and she doesn't even have her brother to rely on as a point of consistency. It'll just be her, alone, unsure of what will happen next.

This isn't even touching on Stan and Ford, and how Mabel is literally living with an example of the worst that can happen when twins drift apart. Maybe once upon a time she could have had faith that even living in different states wouldn't weaken her bond with Dipper, but now she's seen how Ford prioritizing his science over his sibling lead to the two of them basically hating each other for over forty years (vast oversimplification, and I do completely get Ford's decision to go with West Coast Tech over treasure hunting with Stan, but it was undeniably the inciting incident in the complete implosion of their relationship). If Stan and Ford used to be just as close as Dipper and Mabel, then maybe a bit of separation is all it'll take for them to end up like their grunkles.

All this to say that I really, really get why Mabel was so desperate for anything that could make summer last a little longer. She'd just spend a day being beaten over the head with the fact that growing up is gonna suck (no more friends, no more brother, no more Gravity Falls; just high school hell), and she's lost the person who could have kept her steady through the transitional phase. Also, she was twelve. Middle schoolers are not known for their objective decision making.

I know we all love Mabel for what a weirdo she is, but it's important to remember that the world is not kind to weird little girls. We've literally seen it play out within the fandom. She needs someplace safe from the judgements and cruelty; and while summer can't last forever, she deserves to at least keep her brother by her side.

[oddzo]

What's this? A mini comic?

@brewingcoffi I'll get to the second part of your comment later, that one feels more like a full piece plus another mini comic so it'll definitely take some time.

Quartermaster and Ford are talking about the multiverse and their experiences with the unnatural. Both are most certainly leaving out big pieces of personal information while doing so.

Stan is weary about Harrison due to his likeness to Bill Cipher, but not outright hostile. He is also a lot more subtle than the rest of his family about his mistrust when actually interacting with Harrison. (Harrison can't hear what they're saying in this btw)

I'll have to draw a "first meeting" thing later, gotta decide if I want to do one big one or a few separate ones that focus more on each character.

The way I'm doing this au so far is just bits and pieces all over the timeline. I might do a full linear comic at some later point in time but this is a lot more fun haha (gotta chase the happy chemicals)

Speaking of timelines, this au takes place in the first summer of Camp Camp (so no season 5) and a year after Gravity Falls so Dipper and Mabel are 13, almost 14. The Pines probably come in sometime after season one of Camp Camp? I need to rewatch both shows and take notes to be sure on the exact timeline.

Oh, also my friend wanted me to mention that I draw all my things on my phone? And that I sometimes draw on my laptop with a mouse on Animal Jam (haven't posted any of that on here tho). They think it's insane that I do that and that I only somewhat recently switched to using a pen instead of my finger. It is a lot easier and quicker with a pen tbh

Anyways, feel free to comment or use the ask box! Not everything will result in an art response but I'm always happy to talk more about this silly little crossover :]

[joshisurcrush]

"IT" by Stephen King

To preface this, the book is nothing like the movie. It's absolutely nothing like the movie. They took the characters' names and three isolated events from the book that were roughly three pages long each, and then made a movie out of that. If you watched the movie, don't associate it with my following review.

Heads up, I ABUSE brackets (constantly), and another FYI: There’ll be a level of abuse/sex/gore talk, so it might be in your best interest to skip this review if you’re sensitive to that.

IT (by Stephen King) was super crazy, I loved it, and my overactive imagination did too. The characters are pretty good (I'd kiss Richie Tozier on the lips in a mildly homoerotic way), the story is laid out so nicely and the word choice is insane. Even as someone who’s not a native speaker but started English along with basic multiplication, I’ve had to search up some words. Sure, the book might have given me nightmares about flying leeches biting dime-sized holes into my arms and flying into my mouth to then blow up to the size of a balloon as they fill with my blood, but it was fun to read. Wild ride. I also liked the perspective switch, graphic detailing, and the way that the horrible events described were used as a vessel to talk about bigger things. This book basically scratched all of my itches. A need for gore, a need for emotional depth, a need for comedic relief, a need for poetry, a need for murder and for horrors beyond my comprehension.

Ok, I'm gonna elaborate a bit further to do the story justice. I drip-fed the book to myself slowly, reading a bit every day, five days a week, and it took me... weeks. Well, currently it's one of my favorite books and there's good reason for it. First off, the perspective switches were awesome. Point, end of the story, I don’t care how you stand to Stephen King himself, the plot or anything else relating the book. Incredible. I like how you were able to see everything from everyone's perspective, how there were subjective and objective accounts of things, diary entries, news articles, etc. Had me cumming and nutting I swear to god and little baby jesus, it's so good.

Second, the family dynamics were well-written. I'm a cause-and-effect type of guy, and I like when characters are fleshed out, and there's a rhyme and reason as to why they're the way they are. King (Stephen King, the author) executes this fantastically by letting you meet the families of most of the losers (that's what they call the main characters if you were unaware.) 

For example, we're introduced to Bill's post-Georgie apathetic, cold family (giving him a motive to kill IT, since he thinks it'll make his family care about him again). We meet Eddie Kaspbrak’s mother, a fat and overly emotional lady that sort of abused him (I'm sure that the way she treated him was abusive actually) and she ended up really shaping his character from a young age.

Mike Hanlon's family was awesome and supportive though, real model family, but he got crap for being african american (the story’s set in 1958, it was really bad for Mike). Richie Tozier also had a good family (probably the most normal), and Stan Uris did as well (he went birdwatching a lot with his dad.) Bev's family, I think, was the worst of all because her dad physically and emotionally abused her, and well as attempting to sexually abuse her. This is later reflected in the man she marries, Tom, who physically, emotionally, and sexually abuses her. It was very hard to read, I'm gonna be honest. I didn't know what it feels like to read something with a lump in your throat until I read the parts about Tom and Beverly. Plus, it's like... ultra-triggering for survivors of abuse, it was pretty triggering to me, so I'd discourage anyone who went through that kind of stuff from reading. If you really wanna read IT though, as a sexual assault survivor or someone who’s easily triggered by stuff related to SA, you should skip over the Beverly POVs because frankly, they're just brutal.

Well, on a lighter note, I like how Stephen King wrote sex in this book (it's a continuous theme.) And before you judge me, I'm praising him for being thorough enough, but also vague enough. The story is not an erotica, it's not meant to be hot. Sex is mentioned as a form of bond, as a form of abuse (holy shit there's so much abuse in this book, it's absolutely packed with it), and also mentioned in the "losing your childhood / growing old" sort of way which becomes VERY important later in the story. Sex is only insinuated in the story, it's not graphic, you don't get any action out of it and it's only for the plot which I find awesome. Even in the part where adult Bill cheats on his wife with also-adult Beverly (lol), sex is only insinuated, even though it's the only actual erotic scene in the book. Felt like mentioning it on the side, but I *do* think that the way that King wrote about ten-year-old Beverly Marsh’s body way very, very weird; but I was able to let it slide because it wasn’t too frequent and medium in severity. Still think King is kinda messed for describing a kid’s body that way.

Lastly, the poetry is crazy good, and the way he strings together the literal dozens of characters with their own individual stories and experiences is so well-executed. King unironically sat down, created a masterpiece, and dipped. Everything fits into place, all the experiences come together to form this... beautiful picture with no loose threads. Everything ties off together, there are no plotholes and the more you think about it, the more it makes sense. I'm getting goosebumps and a boner thinking about this (I'm a writer, how could you tell?), but the only thing I didn't like about the book is how it ends. I’m gonna ruin Christmas, but essentially IT ends with all of them moving to different states/places and forgetting each other, like, a full memory wipe, and just going back to their lives before that. They're slightly improved though, because Bev leaves her abusive husband and Ben gets a promotion, along with Bill's depression lightening up.

Now comes something that really ruffles my feathers. I hate Ben's and Beverly's relationship toward the end. I hate, hate, hate it. If the word HATE was printed tiny, 10 times onto every square inch of the 1184 pages of the IT paperback, it wouldn't be able to touch the amount of HATE HATE HATE that I feel for the relationship between the two. Bev could have ended up with anyone else. Richie would’ve been ideal, maybe Eddie, hell, Bill would have even been fine if his wife had died. But Ben? Ben the weirdo who's fantasized about touching her breasts starting in fourth grade? Ben who never got over her, even as she was married? Ben who couldn't back the heck off? Ben, the lonely pig who I wished had died instead of Eddie in the finale of the book? I guess he's not as bad as Tom, but holy, I was dreading the Bev&Ben arc, and it ended up being confirmed at the end of the book. Screw that, bro. 

Still doesn't take away from how good the book was. I'd rate it a solid ten.

[the-firebird69]

There are a few things that are extremely long and the wrong and it's a problem the biggest problem we have is these people suddenly don't know who they are what they're doing where they're going they're fighting each other like madness and it's gross nobody can seem to talk to them about how stupid they look and what their actions are really doing and how dumb they're being so we figured out they haven't asked land plan no they have a horrible plan they're playing this very evil to us and they don't wanna talk to us 'cause they think we won't hear it but that's not how people get people secret plans. I guess it is with you and that's gross and makes it much worse we hate you for thinking you can do it. Going into your cities and other people are too to dismantle your devices which there are plenty and the meaning of stiff opposition in the numbers are pretty high it's not one percent it's about half of those off island but shortly you will be breached fully And your facilities all compromised and destroyed and tons of you dead it'll amount to probably half a percent of your people in the general population at the same time it's the same number which is a lot in one action and we're using ships and personnel and exo suits robots and more and the max are two and foreigners you're going to be expelled for your connections to these people or simply assassinated and people like Mac Daddy and Stan are associated with you and calling the shots worse and they are going to be captured by the Mac proper and interrogated and the back proper are not expected to do this although they would have to and we noted that some of them are trying to plant their own and they were moved but most of them are pulling yours out they removed my others but here it is you told our son what you're up to what he says is so what he says he says dope addict trump for a long time who reads practically every single shop of his own and people didn't know that but he is not doing well because of it so now you're all screaming the answer is about yourselves and really there's no general direction even so nobody can instantiate you satiate you and nobody can let you do what you want now what's gonna become painfully obvious is you might be threatening an army to infiltrate an army which is some real horse to **** it's a horse and donkey disaster let me in the fortified castle you **** or blow something over there up why the hell would that work it wouldn't so this idiot is drinking this girl's blood on CSI New Orleans or NCIS New Orleans and she's sitting there having to do this stupid **** but they wanna blow themselves up and stuff and she looks dumb so Lily is becoming a little bit stupider but for real this is an **** and I think 0 you odd and minority morlock do a good bunch of it because you're so big they couldn't do anything except wait to die and that's what happens when you do this to people. you giving them no alternative we are now going to start invading areas like Florida and shut you the hell out.

we do arrest minority morlock as well they try in the middle. and are horrible.

Thor Freya

We didn't say the bottom part and it's how it works and he's relieved. Things are horrible what you're doing is horrible what you're saying is horrible and we don't wanna go through it everyday over and over it's too monotonous and you're issuing orders that we don't have to take it we're gonna shut it down. It's begun and you begin attacking each other to try and get it to go and it doesn't do anything.

Nuada Arrianna

We are aware that Trump has caused most of this and he is started most of it and he is aware of all of the bad stuff going on and he is a massive massive liar and two timer and backstabber in your community he is not a trustworthy person in any way and steal stuff loses it every day and it's losing everything he's ever had. Bruises to BJA. He is taking his stashes and cashes and you can hear it this evil talk is his stuff and he is a nasty nasty person and BJA is just starting to hear it. But he's at his stashes and caches and BJA has occupied nine out of the twenty roughly and that's around 11 out of 20 because there's more overseas than just a tad smaller there's more stuff here about 20%. And he is ready to blow 5 of them and he has four and they're almost empty the first 4. It's fighting like hell on all of them and he's ready to blow it the night sometime and it will be a crushing defeat to Trump and his big mouth the Lord does that idiot never shut up and he needs to. Needs to shut up. others are fighting at the tunnels too in the Western Hemisphere there's several groups going after Trump's stuff one of them is the pseudo empire and they're making progress on three of them and they might have it in just a few days if not earlier and before BJ returns and they'll end up using it on Trump to defend themselves and they do need it badly so when they're fighting for it. It is gonna come down to who gets those out and it is going to be people who are not them on almost all of them others are going after them even small groups are kicking their **** at small stashes and caches and they're dwindling fast tonight we expect them to take some massive hits very soon in their cities at the stashes and caches in the eastern hemisphere and Western Hemisphere and also when they're attacking the Pseudo Empire see there's a massive assault that's gonna start on their cities tonight any moment and it's combined and it is going to be to disable their device making it's huge. More shortly

Thor Freya

Olympus

[tamibae]

Hey! Sorry for disturbing you but can I know a little more about the events you're gonna hold in December?

Since I follow you and you're one of the moderators then I thought it'll be good if I talk to you first. I hope you don't mind.

Hey anon! You're not disturbing me at all tbh. I was gonna make a post anyways so it was a good timing lol.

Event Info :

The event is going to be held in December, we haven't fixed the dates yet but we'll update about that asap. But if I'm gonna guess then it'll probably start around 5th or 6th. I'm not sure tho!!

The event will be for an entire week with 7 different prompts related to Lucy's character. We're gonna track the tag #heartfiliatime 🥰❤

I'm sorry but no ship based posts/fanarts will be reblogged. We're doing something different this time so written posts are welcomed.

You can participate with character analysis/appreciation posts, meta posts, feminism, magic abilities explanation, Lucy's relationship with celestial world and spirits, headcanons, set of unpopular opinions regarding her, ideas for future abilities and all. Fanfics focusing on Lucy's life are also welcomed!!

Actually I was in a bit pressure 'cause of my studies but this blog and a few events were planned long ago so I had to study and also work with this at the same time.

Tbh I had plans to disappear for at least 4 weeks to be precise but lol thanks to my tumblr addiction and our suddens plan to start up the long awaited event blog I couldn't spend a day without opening this app🤡

@lady-neptune 's exams aren't finished yet so she's a lot busier than me. But she still gave her fare share of time. Tysm lovely🥺❤❤

@mypreciousrex @dumpkin-chan deserve the most appreciation for spending more than enough time on this💯

And thanks to our new moderator @aashi-heartfilia for showing interest in our events. We love you!

I hope as a fellow Lucy stan that you'll gladly participate in this, our queen deserves more love😩❤

And now that I'm done with my part of work for the blog for now, I might not be active for 2-3 weeks to be precise. So I won't be able to answer mod asks here...

But no worries, the other mods are right here! You can send them any asks related to our blog and events. And I'll be back soon😉

[dolokhoded]

me starting to actually write this even though it still very obviously has some plot wholes

that ralbert au where race commits war crimes

i think it's really cute

so pulitzer is the big bad guy here for i'm basic reasons

has created some,, weird ass dumb ass evil empire

destroyed a couple towns

caused some battles

divided the world

y'know. stuff like that.

starting off with some spicy unfinished plot 🤩 but lbh it doesn't really matter anyways we're all just here for ralbert

anyways, race and al's families? pretty big part of that.

they're both supposed to take over their fathers' jobs when they grow up

said jobs basically being,, in charge of,,, unleashing people to raid entire towns and burn them to the ground

they grew up side by side, have always been best friends, never seen without each other

but understandably when they started growing up and understanding what was going on around them it,,,,,,, troubled them

and they dealed with it Very Differently

albert did Not like it

he was angry, and he was sad that this was what he was supposed to become and he was already never close with his family so it wasn't really hard for him to decide he didn't want anything to do with them anymore

race,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, okay look

deep inside him race knew what was going on was,,, s o wrong

but race was also from a big tight family, it was so much easier for him to just,,,,,, shut all of that out and pretend he was just doing what was better for them

it was hard for him, it was his family

still you can understand how well it went for them when albert left and race refused to go with him

they were 17 at the time

people against pulitzer's whole thing were obviously not very,,,,,,,,, well appreciated?

the moment albert ran away he was art of the defiance. he was a traitor.

but he was also still dasilva's son and they wanted them on their side, so they wouldn't seriously hurt him

doesn't mean they stopped looking for him

he shared an apartment with romeo and finch for a while, it was in a pretty lowkey neighborhood and they covered for him

and through them he met the rest of the newsies :) who actively helped in trying to help people who's homes were destroyed by pulitzer

there were people actively fighting him too but the newsies were mostly in charge of that

well, until albert and his non-existent impulse control arrived anyways

cause look,,,,, race was being trained for a reason, and eventually he took over

so when you see this ur ex-best friend who you're in love with but have a lot of repressed feelings for, both good and bad, that you decide to dump in the 'im angry' pile and just pretend you hate him and no longer care about him,,,,, fighting occurs

and there was a bit of controversy about albert joining them because "it's the dasilva boy romeo he was specifically trained to kick our asses" but that slowly turns into "yea ok he's very legit but for the love of god someone s t o p him the next time he tries to kiLL SOMEONE-"

that's a hyperbole, of course. even as rivals, albert wouldn't kill race. he barely even hurts him.

if anything, he even kind of looks out for him

he knows he's not supposed to but somehow he still can't bring himself to let race get hurt

besides let's be honest, most of their encounters are just an excuse to bitch at each other, they'd never do anything they know would seriously hurt the other

they know each other pretty well, they grew up together, they know each other's strengths and weaknesses

which is a pretty big advantage for them, honestly

enter,,,, albert dasilva's galaxy brain and the newsies' favorite game

Is Albert A Strategic Genius Or Is He Just In Love With Race

"no i've got this i know race!! i can use that against him!!!! i can guess his every move!!!! that's how well i know him!!!! i can recognize him in a room of like a billion people!!!!! it's my ultra strategic mind!!!! i can tell the sound of his voice from miles away!!!! it's because im so invested!!!!"

specs is like "in the mission or in race"

and albert is like "WHATEVER ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT IT'S MY STRATEGIC MIND"

"I AM A MACHINE SPECS"

"you're chronically dumb"

"S T R A T E G I C M I N D."

albert really came in like well race's plan's gonna be ruined cause IM IN LOVE WITH HIM >:) what a fuckin loser

all this aside,,,,,,, albert never stops trying to get race on their side .

now RACETRACK,,,,,,,,,

we have a WHOLE LOT of being an asshole as a defense mechanism from this boy

in race's eyes, albert abandoned him

in race's eyes, he was given up on. he just wasn't enough to keep him there.

he can't see anything but that and never in a million years would he bring himself to believe albert still cares about him

he'd be getting his hopes too high and letting down his guard, and he can't afford to do that.

race doesn't notice albert trying to help him, he doesn't notice albert very carefully avoiding injuring him, he doesn't notice how albert will never say anything that would hurt him

albert's always protective of race, regardless of if he's beside or against him

which leads us to how once race eventually does get hurt, seriously hurt, literally no one bats an eye when albert returns with race unconscious, demanding they get him help

which they do, cause albert has not shut up about race for like one second, the newsies might as well know as much about him as albert did

naturally when race woke up he,,, had questions

and then he saw albert

he was sat on a chair next to him, sleeping

and this is the first time he's seen him like this in ages

and he gets a little chocked up because holy shit he almost forgot albert was,,,,,like,,, a person

and it wasn't necessary to only see him when fighting

he still had a life and friends and people he loved and he wasn't just this dude who left them because he didn't give a shit about anyone

he could genuinely care for people and he could love people and race just remembered how much he wished he could be one of those people

and how much he wished he could be albert's favorite person again and just sit and talk and laugh with him like they used to

cause that's a part of albert he'd forced himself to just forget about

and then al wakes up and he sees him looking up at him and he's like

"how're you feeling"

and then he's sad cause it's much harder to know albert is a good person with real feelings and he's capable of loving so much and race thinks he's just one of the people who will never get that side of him and he just

"fuck off"

they fight

because of course they do

they're not really sure on what terms they are at this point, and there's so much they need to get out there

at first race is just,,,, stubborn

he won't listen, he demands they let him go back

"we can just let you go, idiot, i shouldn't have ever brought you here in the first place!"

"then why did you?"

and al just shrugs it away as if he hasn't been in love with him for years and would never forgive himself if he left him there to bleed

they just go yelling at each other back and forth for a while until inevitably albert's non-existent impulse control makes his return

and he,,,,, very angrily tells him he loves him

and everything just stops cause that's the one thing race though he'd never hear him say again

and race is literally holding his breath cause he's scared he'll ruin it if he moves in the slightest and it'll all turn out to be in his head but it's not cause when he tells albert he loves him back he's still there and he just,,

takes race's face in his hands and kisses him so softly it's like they weren't just screaming at each other's faces

romeo just fuckin pokes his head in like "i heard yelling but i also heard i love you so i'll assume some of those unresolved feelings were let out and we're all ready to have a nice long healthy chat, yeah? :D"

so they do

they talk. for,,,,,,,,, a long time.

needless to say, race stays

he loves his family and maybe he'll be back for them, maybe he'll help them but he recognizes what's the priority here

plus it's a little clearer now that he doesn't have all those feelings to worry about, and it's been a while since he was actually accepted and loved, which the newsies did instantly. it's pretty obvious where he belongs now.

this au still has,,,,, SO much to unpack, holy shit, but i decided to leave this post here cause,,,,, i can't do all of that now. i might at some point though, if people actually are interested, there's a lot of hurt/comfort from this point. there's the nightmares part which is v soft and i adore it, THERE'S JUST A LOT TO UNPACK. so yeah, i'm finally posting this, ralbert stans, come get y'all's juice.

[eryiss]

Ship: Freed x Laxus [Fraxus]

Rating: Teen

Alternate Links: Fanfiction, Archive of our Own

Request: Something based off the official Rockband Raijinshuu art.

Summary: Being a rockstar, Laxus had to endure far too many chat shows. Usually he would grin and bear it, let the pointlessness of it roll off his back, but not this time. He was alone, forced to keep his budding relationship with Freed secret, and done with it. Fucking done with it all! But he had a way to fix it, and all it would take was a little courage.

Notes: This was a request by @fuckyeahfraxus. Just a warning, it has a bit of homophobia near the end, but nothing too vicious. I hope you enjoy it.

The Life Of A Song

Fuck chat shows. Fuck their hosts. Fuck their producers. Fuck their directors. Fuck their too-hot lighting, their stupid uncomfortable sofas, their tiny changing room's, their cramped green rooms with too many camera, their always cheering audiences and their utter lack of anything interesting or unique. Fuck the whole damn thing.

But Laxus' opinions on the matter weren't important. What did matter was that he smiled, laughed, told anecdotes and sat in a way that showed off his thighs and crotch just enough so that his Twitter stans - what a shitty word - made him trend once it was over.

Still, fuck chat shows.

This particular show, Late With Jase, was one of the worst. The host was young, overly enthusiastic, and his name was Jason rather than Jase which pissed Laxus off more than it should. He'd somehow dragged an audience of Netflix only watchers back to mainstream, with a mix of meme crap that Laxus cringed at, and celebrity gossip that would make a tabloid envious. But the ratings were skyrocketing, celebrities who went there usually got a boost in sales of their latest projects, and Laxus' manager had insisted he take his turn.

It would have been fine, were he not alone. If Ever, Bix and Freed were with him, they could take the responsibility and he could fade into the background. They had been a band for years, and that was how they always dealt with interviews. But they weren't there, because according to their management, Laxus was the moneymaker and all they needed.

"So Laxus," Jason turned in his chair to look at him. "Let's talk about Thunderstruck. What a success that's been? You must be thrilled.”

"It's doing well, yeah," Laxus nodded. He wanted to cringe at his words.

"It's doing more than well. You can hardly escape it," Jason laughed, and the crowd laughed with him. Laxus chuckled, even though he didn't find it funny. "But this is the first song that you've written, isn't it? And it's one of the most popular you've had. Must feel good."

"Well, it wasn't just me," Laxus swallowed slightly. "Everything we make is collaborative. Freed worked with the lyrics a lot, and Ever composed it."

"They're your bass player and electric guitar player, right?"

"I wouldn't call them mine," Laxus mumbled slightly.

There was a beat of awkward silence, and Laxus relished it just a little. Jason recovered quickly, which was annoying, and flashed a happy smile. Laxus would have preferred the man to stew in the uncomfortable silence, it would be a fitting response to him being dismissive of the band's contributions, but perhaps it was a childish way to think of things.

"Well we'll be hearing the song live at the end of the show," Jason continued, and Laxus' eyebrow twitched. The rest of the band were in the damn building and yet were being treated like shit. "But let's talk a bit about how you came to write it. Heavy rock and love songs have a troubled history, and you managed to make a hit out of it."

"Just lucky I guess," He shrugged. "Got good people around me too."

"Don't be so modest," Jason dismissed. Laxus wasn't being modest; luck was the dominant factor in successful music and without the band, Laxus would be fucked. "So, take us back. Where did the idea start."

"Well, hard to pinpoint I guess," Laxus murmured. "But, I suppose it was at the end of our last tour."

——

Performing live was indescribable. It was an assault on all his senses, in the very best way.

Everything was exhilarating. The feeling of vibrations on the stage, the cheers, roars and singing from the crowd, the sweat running down his back, the roar of his voice cutting through his throat as he sang. It all flowed through him, removing any sense of doubt or self consciousness he might have. On stage, before a stadium of fans, he was Laxus Fucking Dreyar. King, God and Dragon. Nothing was better.

They were on their last song of the set, a roaring anthem that the crowd could sing along to. It was thrilling to hear a song he'd worked on sung by thousands. Freed's words were being screamed at them, with the passion and love of their fan base. It was indescribable.

"We are The Thunder God's Tribe," Laxus yelled into the microphone as the instrumental began. The crowd roared in response.

Freed, Ever and Bix held the crowd's attention, and Laxus looked over the gathered mass of thousands. They were all there for them, because they loved them and wanted to experience them in person. A loud roar of appreciation cut through the stadium as Bickslow finished a drum solo that always brought the house down. How he managed to do that night after night while never screwing it up was beyond Laxus, but it was incredible.

Laxus sang the final verse, putting his whole heart into the performance. It was the last show of the tour, the last time they'd sing in front of a crowd like this for two years. He loved songwriting, but this was the best part of his work. The crowd, the music, the experience.

God he would miss this. This high. This buzz.

The lights died around them as the song ended, plunging them into darkness as the crowd roared their appreciation. The four of them could still see their fans as they cheered and yelled, and they took a few moments to appreciate it. He would miss this.

As they were taken from the stage, the adrenaline didn't waver. Laxus could run a marathon, deadlift any weight, swim any ocean in those moments. It was pure euphoria.

Evergreen trailed off to her dressing room first, scraping her nails down her bodyguard's chest before dragging him in with her. They were no longer pretending they were simply platonic anymore; Bickslow walking in on them must have removed any hope they could keep their relationship a secret. Good for them; Ever worked hard and deserved a big man to fill her bed.

Bix's groupies appeared out of nowhere, two men and a woman. They clung to the drummers bare chest instantly, and he cackled as he was dragged away for a night of depravity and booze. Laxus grinned; the party boy really had hit his stride this year.

Glancing at Freed, he saw the man looking equally amused.

A shared moment of eye contact sent a pulse of heat through Laxus. They stared at one another for a moment, and Laxus found his eyes crawling over Freed's shirtless torso without shame before he could stop it. Hard muscle and flexing abs were fully shown, and the heat in Laxus' face settled down lower. The rush of the performance was still running through him and he knew he wasn't in his right mind, but dammit Freed looked fucking hot in that moment. Tousled, sweating, shirtless; who could fucking resist that?

Laxus had always known Freed was hot. They spent hours upon hours together, it couldn't be missed. But he'd never thought too hard about it. You didn't fuck your badnmates. You didn't fuck your male bandmate.

And if he weren't coursing with adrenaline and dunk off of the cheers, he might have stopped.

With a stride, he surged forward and wrapped a hand around the back of Freed's neck. He pulled the man against him, pressing their lips together in a passionate, needy, energetic kiss. Freed dragged him back, pushing himself against the wall and taking Laxus with him. Hands were roaming over his chest, and Laxus groaned as they slid lower.

"Wait," Laxus whispered, pulling apart. A string of spit hung between them, and Laxus felt a twisted form of delight at it.

"What?" Freed asked, and his husky voice ran down Laxus' spine.

"We better take it inside," Laxus murmured, and Freed grinned.

They snuck into the nearest changing room, locking the door behind them. It was only in the next morning, when Laxus' mind was focused on something other than mindless, unadulterated pleasure, that he began writing a song. That he felt the need to write in a way that he'd never felt before.

Because kissing Freed was music. A high unmatched by anything else, and one that Laxus would find himself addicted to.

——

"And how did it come about?" Jason probed. "You've never written before. Did you find your muse?"

He had. But Jason didn't get to know it. Not that their manager would let it happen.

"Well, you know how bands work. You tour, make an album, then tour with the album," Laxus shrugged, reaching for his glass of water. "Your mind goes into production mode, I guess. You see things a little different, put a little creative spin on the things happening around you. Something struck me and I started writing," He laughed, awkward. "Not that interesting, really."

Not the fake story he'd been told to say, anyway.

The audience didn't seem to care about how crap the anecdote actually was, and applauded his words for some reason. Jason forced out a laugh, as if his statement had been a self-deprecating joke rather than a simple fact. What he'd been told to say wasn't interesting.

"Well, maybe you weren't struck by some divine intervention, but whatever happened it certainly worked out well," Jason continued, and the small screen beside him showed the album cover. Laxus hated the cover, it was just him. Not the four of them. It should be the four of them, or none of them at all. "It shot to the top of the charts and seems like it'll be there for a long time. That must feel good."

"It's incredible," Laxus agreed, and it was.

"So talk us through the writing process," Jason promoted, grinning. "I can't imagine you hunched over a desk night after night?"

"Well, the first draft only took a couple hours, really," Laxus confessed, blushing a little. The lights would cover it, but it was still embarrassing. "But me and Freed spent a couple nights together, and it became what you've been hearing."

——

"You always this tried?" Laxus chuckled, placing a takeout cup of coffee beside Freed.

The bassist blinked slowly up at Laxus, removing his face from its resting place against his arm. He glanced towards the coffee he'd been given with a thankful smile. Laxus smiled a little as Freed sat up straight, running a hand through his loose hair and letting it flow over his shoulders. He had bags under his eyes and a yawn split open his lips.

Laxus found himself slightly transfixed by the sight of Freed picking up the coffee, bringing it to his lips and drinking it in large gulps. His throat bobbed, pale skin stretching and chords tightening.

"Better to be tired that not focused," Freed smirked a little as he placed his coffee down.

"I think me looking at you is exactly the kinds focus we need," He grinned, and Freed chuckled.

The two of them were writing alone. After a fair amount of hesitation, Laxus had shown Freed the draft lyrics he'd written, and Freed had instantly presented ideas on how to fine tune it. He hadn't been patronising - nor had he teased Laxus about the fact he'd written a damn love song about him - and instead decided to encourage and help him make it a hit. They'd spent three subsequent nights in their studio, completely alone, and Laxus was loving it.

He'd never written a song before. Words weren't his forte, at least not the writing of them, and he much preferred to show passion through performance. But hours of Freed and him in the studio, bouncing ideas off each other, was thrilling.

Laxus suspected any time alone with Freed would be thrilling now.

Walking behind Freed to get to his own seat, Laxus leant down and pressed a soft kiss atop his head. Freed made a small sound and leant back against his chair to get closer to Laxus. He chuckled, ruffling Freed's hair slightly as he sat beside him.

"You made any progress?" Laxus asked, stretching slightly. He didn't miss Freed's eyes roaming over his chest. "What were you saying about being distracted."

"Until you wear looser fitting clothes, you don't get to talk about me being distracted," Freed smirked.

"Maybe I'd agree to that if I didn't know how uncomfortable those jeans you're wearing are," Laxus smirked. "Flatters the ass but crushes the balls, right? Regretting it yet?"

Freed didn't answer, but blushed a little and Laxus cackled.

They quickly fell into step, working on the song again. They were focusing on the second verse, which Laxus had dubbed the catalyst chapter. It had initially been a torrent of ways to describe how explosive his kiss with Freed had been - though names were vague enough for nobody to know that. With Freed's help, it had turned into a well written lyrical explanation to the first flushes of a romance. The burning passion, the fire between the two people, the erotic rush that could ignite from a simple glance. Watching Freed write, Laxus had to hope he was writing about his own feelings for Laxus.

He also had to stop himself from jumping the man, because Freed knew how to write a hot song. A really hot song…

Taking his espresso and gulping it down, Laxus looked away from his lover. Perhaps if Freed were anyone else - if he weren't a guy, or if he weren't in the band - Laxus might have given in and kissed him. He wanted to, but couldn't,

Once they'd been signed, te band had been given a long speech about how you couldn't screw your bandmate by their manager, how it could ruin things and screw up the dynamic. When Laxus had discovered he was bi, and wanted to come out as such, multiple crisis meetings were held. Not only had Laxus not been allowed to speak about his sexuality, with the risk of his contract being terminated immediate held over him, but he'd also been forced to stage pictures with a woman so he looked to be dating.

There had been backlash even then. His fans were vicious to the poor model, many seemed angry at him for supposedly betraying them by dating someone, it was fucking insane, and Laxus hadn't known hot to take it, but it had scared him off relationships for years.

So, he couldn't date. Definitely couldn't date bandmates. Certainly couldn't date men.

And knowing that, he'd still come back to Freed. Slept with him after their tour, then in the hotel later that night, they'd even fumbled about in the tour bus to the airport when everyone else was sleeping. They'd been in dates - or as close to dates two famous men could get - and a week prior had sat down and talked. They didn't care about the rules, because their budding romance was too damn good.

Never let it be said Laxus kept things comfortable for himself.

"Stop that," Freed scolded.

"Stop what?" Laxus asked, looking from the song and towards Freed.

"Torturing yourself," Freed explained, taking Laxus' hand and stroking it. "It'll do you know good. Certainly not when we're trying trying to write a ballad about the two of us."

"Sorry," Laxus hunched.

"Don't be, I think about it too," Freed admitted, leaning towards Laxus and against him. "But drowning in what ifs and self doubt is hardly going to make things better. We might as well enjoy what we have while it's still between the two of us, and deal with the fallout should it present itself.”

"You're right," Laxus nodded, blinking himself back into focus. "Not sure I can write tonight, though. Not in the mood."

"You don't want to write sonnets about how much you want me? Should I be offended?" Freed smirked, and Laxus laughed. "Or perhaps should I see it as a challenge to refocus your attention."

A hand ran down Laxus' inner thigh, and his breath hitched slightly. "Really?"

"Well, the song needs to be finished eventually," Freed hummed a little. "The sooner the better, I'd say. So getting your mind back on me seems the only thing that makes sense,"

"Really," Laxus tried to make his voice sound seductive, but Freed's wandering hand made him crack slightly. "H-how d'you think you'd do that."

"Well, let's say that in five minutes you find yourself in the instrument store down the hall," Freed mused aloud. "And let's say you find me already there, and I happen to be kneeling there waiting for you. Well, we can hardly be blamed if we find ourselves distracted."

Laxus swallowed. "Here? You sure?”

"There's no one around," Freed shrugged far too nonchalantly, and then grinned a devilishly handsome grin. "And I must admit, making you come undone in here has been a fantasy of mine," His hand squeezed Laxus thigh, before he stood up, and all flirtation was gone. "I should find a guitar, we can hardly write without practice. Perhaps I'll see you in there."

And then he was gone, walking away with his ass hugged perfectly in his jeans. All doubts about his future with Freed disappeared, replaced by the uncomfortable tightness in his boxers.

He found himself grinning, and a few minutes later he found himself in the instrument room, panting and moaning.

——

"It was pretty normal," Laxus continued, not looking to Jason. "We wrote, we practiced, we rewrote."

"Keeping your secrets close to your chest, I see," Jason laughed. "Now, speaking of secrets, the rumours have been flying on Twitter about who this is written about."

"I hadn't heard about that," Laxus tried to dismiss the statement.

"I'm sure you haven't," Jason nodded almost patronisingly, clearly not believing him. It was fair, Laxus supposed. #WhoIsThunderstruck did trend for a week. "But you have to admit, a virgin songwriter making something so powerful on their first try, and in a song so distant from anything else you've ever made, does seem to suggest maybe you've found someone to inspire you."

"I'm around a lot of talented people," Laxus shrugged. "They know how to make a hit."

He was squirming now, and not because of Jason. Their manager was seating in the front row of the live audience, and a quick glance his way showed Laxus a glare. This was a topic he had to avoid, because his fans needed to think the song was about them. It was patronising, Laxus thought, but they'd found success with their manager for a reason.

"So," Jason continued. "Have you found yourself a special lady?"

And then something ridiculous happened. Laxus found himself furious.

Such a simple statement, so innocuous and normal for Laxus' life, had opened the floodgates for Laxus. Because why had he assumed it would be a woman? Why had he assumed he could ask a question like that? Why was Laxus in a position where he couldn't answer something so simple when he really fucking wanted to?

Every ridiculous injustice seemed to swarm over him at once. How was it fair he had to parade himself on shows like this, on his own despite how his band deserved as much love and respect as he did? How was it fair that he'd known he wanted to be with a man for five years, and he'd never allowed himself to indulge before Freed? How was it fair that he'd been forced to endure meeting after meeting about how 'stupid' he was being for hooking up with Freed? How was it fair that he couldn't go out for a fucking pizza with his boyfriend without starting a ridiculous internet scandal? It was all so bullshit.

"Nah," Laxus answered, leaning back in his chair. The anger gave way to confidence; every interview he'd been on edge, but not any more. "Not a girl."

"So nobody's tamed the dragon slayer then?"

"Not a girl," Laxus repeated. "A guy. I'm bi, and for the last couple months I've been dating Freed," There was silence, and Laxus grinned and turned to Jason. "Bet you wished you'd gotten him on stage with me now, huh?"

"You're…" Jason seemed at a loss for words.

"Screwing the bassist, yeah," Laxus laughed, exhilaration flooding through him. "Inevitable really. I've known I liked guys for five years, and there's a load of fan pages who talk about how hot Freed is, so it was bound to happen," He grinned, running a hand through his hair.

This felt so good. Fuck, he didn't know how much he needed to do this.

"So," Jason tried to recover. "Well, erm, we have r to go to break now. Maybe we'll talk about that when we get back, I really don't know."

The moment the cameras cut, people began approaching Laxus. His manager, his PR team, and most importantly, his band. Ever and Bix attempted to run interference on their management team, but the angry man and his cronies pushed through them with fury on their faces. Still, Freed met him first, and wordlessly grabbed Laxus by the collar and brought their lips together. It was more passionate and desperate than any of their kisses had been.

"I'm so proud of you," Freed whispered. "And we are definitely talking about how you know those fan sites exist."

"Who d'you think made 'em," Laxus grinned, and Freed laughed.

Their small, shared moment ended when a throaty cough cut through them. Their manager was looming over them, and Laxus met them with a cruel grin, knowing it was too late: that was the problem with live TV.

"Problem?" He asked, cocking an eyebrow.

"What the hell were you thinking?" The manager snarled. "You just fucked all of us, do you understand that? How fucking selfish are you. You've ruined this album, you know that? You think your bandmates will forgive you?"

"Nothing to forgive," Bix said immediately.

"You're a dick for not letting him do it before," Evergreen agreed.

Their manager seemed to flounder for a moment, before narrowing his glare at Laxus again. "Do you think your fans will want to see that?" He growled again, voice getting louder now. "You think they'll still want you now they know that. Now they have to think about you being with… with him!" He motioned to Freed disparagingly. "They'll leave you. You've fucked yourselves, you know that."

Silence filled the soundstage, and their manager seethed. Laxus grinned, then looked past him towards the audience, half of whom had their phones pointed towards them.

"Since you're always talking about PR," Laxus smirked. "How d'you think you'll look once this hits Twitter?"

Their manager halted, then slowly turned. He turned sheet white, and it was brilliant.

"Oh, and in case you're worrying about your little threat to drop us if I came out, don't," Laxus smirked, though looked up to his band, who all nodded. "Yer fired, so fuck off."

[shadowfae]

DW #4: Weather

Crossposted from DreamWidth.

What kind of weather does your source have? Is it very different from Earth, similar, or completely alien? Do you or your fictomere have any special connection to the weather or climate? If not, what kind of weather-based power would you or they want to have?

I'm gonna take this one because everyone else is from Saint Seiya and the weather's pretty normal when the Aquarius Saints aren't throwing a hissy fit, and I'm, you know, the skypirate.

The thing with Lore's weather is that it's very unique despite being really similar to Earth, insofar that it's magical, and it's more hospitable. For starters, the atmosphere is a lot stronger. We cruised airships at twenty thousand feet, so a little below most commercial planes nowadays. On Earth, you should be expecting air so thin you can't breathe it, and it should be -40C outside.

You could breathe just fine there on Lore, and it was as warm as it would be at ground level, maybe a few degrees colder. Like, we're talking "go up and stand on the roof of your average office tower" breathability and warmth. Bit windy, although we typically had sigils and sails to make it a little easier to hear everyone else. But absolutely a nonissue to be above-deck while cruising at high altitude.

We still didn't fly through supercells or hurricanes. Only Gladius did that with the Stormcatcher. We stan a terrifying grandma pirate queen. Ahem.

Lore's weather could be odd, with the two moons and all, but was hospitable really no matter how you swung it. You could absolutely go into the desert and deal with 50C, and so long as you had enough magic, you'd be fine. The environment wasn't likely to decide to up and kill you unless someone actively made it that way. A tornado out in the desert? Yeah, no big. A tornado someone spawned out in the desert? Might kill ya.

I've been redeveloping my love for extreme weather lately, owing to Pecos Hank and the reawakening, desperate desire to fly again. Wouldn't it be lovely to core-punch a tornado?

But that's the thing, I don't expect the environment to kill me. I'm from Lore, where it doesn't unless someone wants it to, and since nobody has those powers here, clearly that can't happen. That isn't how it works, and logically I know that. But still. I will happily go stand outside during a storm and stare at the lightning. It'll never hit me.

One day, I'll go put the recycling to the curb after sundown and I'll look up and see more stars than I can count, two moons (one of which is faintly lavender, and the other a pretty aquamarine blue), and in the distance, a rolling supercell.

When that day comes, I'll call forth my magic, reach for the part of me that's still a battlemage, call the Night Emerald, and I'll sail the seven skies all the way home.

[sunsetsover]

Thoughts on some of the asks you've had recently!!

1. I think outside of Stan Tumblr and Twitter where there is anti-Whitney sentiment from some corners, Callum is likely being viewed with a lot of sympathy right now. Part of this is because he's nice and likeable, showing sympathetic symptoms etc. And part bc he's a former soldier w named PTSD... like I don't think I need to elaborate on why people accept that particular narrative more easily!!

2. Like anon I also appreciate that you shared your thoughts on Ben having BPD and how we can view his character through that. I also know someone on Twitter has put forward a good case for Ben having cPTSD which I think fits too (and it's not like he can't have just one lol)

3. Having said that if the EE writers so much as touch on Ben having cPTSD I predict Stan Twitter might just implode w rage bc it's "Callum's Thing" and "Ben shouldn't have an excuse for his actions" 🥴 And again tying into making it a competition, but also Callum being a recognisable face of PTSD as a soldier/police who can be sympathised w vs Ben who... isn't that lmao. I doubt it'll ever happen bc I'm not sure the writers/audience are ready to confront PTSD caused by childhood trauma and an unsympathetic person living w it, especially when it implicates Phil whose like the face of the show lmao

4. I'm looking at a lot of this rn w interest because it really does epitomise the acceptable vs unacceptable mental illness, what trauma is recognised and amed and what isn't, which actions are viewed as forgivable vs which actions label you a Bad Person.

5. I think this discourse (lol) is a bit different to Isaac's story bc the Callum/Ben conversations are more about reactions to two characters and how their mh is received and treated by fans and the writers and how the very fact Callum has named PTSD says a lot abt certain sterotypes/attitudes. Whereas Isaac's story is ongoing and will deliberately seek to challenge similar stereotypes by using other characters as mouthpieces for different stereotyped views of his illness. Idk does that make sense? The Ballum stuff is a discussion that sits v much outside of the canon writing as a critique if how and why characters get certain labels and stories, while Isaac's is a canon issue led story??

6. I could write an Essay about how reactions to Ben tie into attitudes toward offenders and the criminal justice system, rehabilitation etc but... maybe another day lmao

bro how u send me all this i swear they have a character limit on asks 😭 i love it tho lemme go thru it point by point like u did

1. idk how it didn't dawn on me that the sympathy for callum coming from the gp would be bc he's a soldier... like idk how that didn't occur to me.... even when that other anon talked abt the acceptable face of ptsd i thought yeah people know ptsd mainly bc of soldiers but like... idk i just Forgot how a certain demographic of ppl who consider soliders and police the Pinnacle of humanity so ofc they'd be sympathetic and understanding..... idk HOW i didn't think of that but thank you for bringing that up to me omg

2. it's actually crazy that u bring that up bc me and vikki @permetstu were just talking abt this the other day bc i was surprised at how many overlapping symptoms there are between bpd and ptsd and so i googled it and found that actually bpd and cptsd are pretty commonly confused as each other BECAUSE of the overlap in symptoms !!!! but you're dead on, they can and often do co-occur bc both ptsd and bpd are rooted in trauma. i personally still would lean towards bpd for ben over cptsd bc of his abandonment issues which seem (from a quick google tbf so it's not like im an expert lmao) to occur in bpd but not in cptsd. but like i said im not an expert and they can co-exist !! i just think it's very interesting how other ppl are spotting the same things and talking abt a diagnosis that is so commonly misdiagnosed as bpd and vice versa. like at least i know im not imagining it lmao !!!

3 + 4. sadly i think you're right lmao that's exactly what i meant when i was talking abt there being an outcry if there was ever to be a bpd diagnosis for ben bc he's 'bad rep' bc of the things he's done. in that post i was talking abt bpd exclusively but you could apply that to any mental illness and you'd get ppl saying that they're excusing his behaviour instead of explaining it. ppl don't want explanations for someone's 'bad' i.e. outward behaviour/actions, not in characters and not in real life. ppl are more sympathetic to ppl who internalize their symptoms and/or have symptoms that don't really affect others, and i think that's another reason why ppl sympathise w callum more. i think it just comes down to ppl not wanting to understand the complexities of mental illness bc it's just easier to pass those behaviours off as personal issues/failure, someone's personality, someone being 'bad' etc etc u know? whereas something like ptsd fits a lot nicer into a box. for an outsider, it's less complicated, esp in someone like callum. callum saw/experienced bad things in the army, now he has this trigger that makes him act out a little bit. if you look at it in it's barest terms, it's a very defined cause and effect that is easy to understand. obviously it's not that simple, but that's how ppl view it. most mental illnesses don't have that very clear cause and effect, and therefore it's, for some reason, incredibly hard for ppl to wrap their head around. even if you were to say ben had ptsd too, it'd still be difficult for ppl bc what he's been thru 'isn't as bad' as what callum has, so what do you mean he's traumatised ?? like honestly there is a problem with how we all collectively view trauma. even when i first started having counselling and ppl were tellind me 'this thing traumatised u' i'm like ??? that's not Trauma tho. but trauma doesn't have to mean something horrific or violent. there is no threshold for trauma and it hurts all of us to have one. if smth fuck u up, it fucked u up. just bc u weren't in a warzone or physically abused in some way doesn't mean you can't still be traumatised, and i think that's a difficult pill for ppl to swallow.

5. when i said that i didn't mean to compare their storylines, i just kind of meant look at the reactions (both on screen and off) to callum's symptoms vs ben's vs isaac's. they're all mentally ill (as far as i'm concerned lmao) but you've got someone who's very easily sympathised with vs someone who is unsympathetic bc of his behaviour vs someone who is unsympathetic bc they're 'scary' or 'crazy'. it comes back the same issues of how obvious is the cause and effect and how sympathetic are their symptoms. but yeah, i agree isaac's sl is completely different for all the reasons you said but also the conversation of (mis)diagnosis in poc for these types of things and also medicating these types of illnesses but that's a whole other conversation but yh lmao i was purely just comparing different reactions to different illnesses and presentations of those illnesses, that's all !

6. i do not know enough abt this particular topic to have an Opinion but i do know enough to know you're right and that you for bringing this up to me bc it will def be smth for me to consider moving forward !!!

💞💞💞

[the-firebird69]

Other things are happening. I'm mad at Trump for changing our sons payday from the 3rd where it should be and then changing it back it's not what he's trying but they're going to and they're going to force him out. There's a lot of people who are angry with him and they're going after him now for hitting those troops and he is shrinking back a little bit and they think that he's going to be over motivated and he will be on it works that way too and it has happened and with stuff like this in the past we are mobilizing and going to DC New York City and other Social Security centers we have to protect our own as well as our son and daughter today is the first it's a big day bigger than the third for the world and it will culminate to the 3rd and the guy is gonna get hit very badly we think it will be after the 3rd and he'll be less motivated right but really that's kind of the timing of it our son and daughter think that it will be beforehand because BJA will get hit several times probably 10 times and that'll be it and it'll start to hit cities we are counting on that that's gonna happen right now we see it happening coming up. we see that B J's targeted 4CITIES if he gets hit he's going to hit back really PJA is trying to force it out but Trump was unreasonable and took half of BJA armament and he could have built it and didn't bother so really BJA has a beef and it is not his fault. They're moving on it right now. It's gonna get hit again and we think he might strike back today or tonight.

Thor Freya

The deal with a pseudo empire is they're still attacking but not as much they're going to attack each other and when it's over BJA has to go into the Midwest because he doesn't have very many areas left and he's trying to take over no he has areas but he feels confident because Trump is out for the most part so he goes in after them and it's coming up pretty soon.

...

You see it's a natural progression and that he won't have any other enemies but us to stand in the way at that time of significance so we're getting ready. We see the factories are starting and that's a good thing we need stuff too.

stan

It's about time I mean this is such a pain in the **** it never has to be a big bitch We are really going to hold people too too This week we have a lot of lawsuits we are launching their huge there's many many lawsuits against people we're gonna hold them to it. This thing with him and his money you people have no right to do that you're not gaining anything you're a bunch of Claude's and the max are falling down and it's gonna come down to him this week we also grabbing territory. In the middle areas of course but we're going to grab territory in the perimeter shortly right now we're taking territory all over the middle areas huge areas evacuated last night and there of course in the first and second band but they're going to be out of there they're down to 8% dropping even though we have employed a lot of people. We're opening more and more factories every hour right now we have about 3000 opened in those two bands and we're going to open 3000 more today those are really huge there's only about 1000 huge ones left and then we're opening medium and small and there's several million we're opening the small ones too now and medium but we're going to concentrate on the big ones we need to produce and we're getting it up those factory is going to be up and running tonight all of them will be up and running by Tuesday morning or afternoon. At that time we'll probably be starting on the 34th band so we need employees of ours right now. And in whatever format you can get there.

Thor Freya

Olympus good

we love it

Hera Zues

[the-firebird69]

3:00-5:30 a.m. est and that means here in the East Coast it is that time and New Zealand and Australia are entering night time and our son and daughter and we know all about it but they said ironically that's when Tommy f is refueling and we thought it was because it's night time it's part of it but he waits till later and is oppressing them somehow and The shield is the empire and it's all Max and Mac Daddy was pushed out recently as was Stan and Biden they only have small areas and they have the shield over their own areas to block things from coming in granted there's a lot of ships there but really the empire is taking them now it makes sense that they're fighting but also makes sense that not many people know about this anomaly we're looking it up for another reason that is because the empire said it's going to strike and they're going to hit the island people say that's what they heard so people don't know if it's real but we are gearing up because we feel it's real and the most likely strike after 9:30 p.m. Eastern standard Time because that way wolf Islands will be in the dark.

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Thor Freya

That's a good call me having to stay in and there's a lot of people are going after it's going to be a conflict here in Charlotte county and tomorrow it's going to be one in Ireland. Need to go from mission impossible to James Bond and back to mission impossible holding James Bond,mission impossible . That guy Dan is disturbing me I need him shut down the several others who are being a nuisance on purpose and they need to go away I do need my husband intact and I don't want them suggesting anything and I want them to stop being humiliating harassing annoying flippant mean threatening trying to ding him and have an evil tone ass face and trying to incite him to fight every single day all of this stuff they're doing everyday and in a very house how strict and then it's not strictness they're just very mean so I have to say we need to apply a lot more pressure on them and my husband says if we ever get those buildings in there that would be some pressure so tonight there casting more footings. He's thinking a little bit and I'm sure we are too and he says those going to have to take the the new SUV down there and yeah we took them from Jaynes Corp. And run down there he's got the survey crew on hold and there's an apartment complex and it's near the door it's about 2 miles in and you can't see the door by the way the door has a gate on the road this huge and we have this concrete under it and there's a line now we want Thor and Freya to run down there and make sure it goes well. There's a few factories are going to go in near it and I arranged it and it's for the plan and we have the apartments but we need the pads in and we want to use high early and get them in tonight and that's the apartments anything it's a good idea and it will temper it the facility is going to be used and it'll be plenty of idiots in weeding out we don't need to weed them all out though. And we're going to put it about 10,000 units and they'll be like a clubhouse and we have a little job fair and the factory will be next so we got approval and we just need him to go make sure it's in the right place and that everything is cool with he and Olympus he says it's getting ready right now and we can stop talking about it it took the crane thing off the door that's great he says that last phrase this is what I teach you about this stuff is an action to reaction vice versa and that's right so I'm getting ready for that too you'll see my damn truck driving up there it might be a white where notsure.. well he says that last line and he's going to go up there and verify everything and he's laughing and he says why not ceremony with these shovels and we said that's a great idea at groundbreaking we already broke ground kind of we have time to set it up and he called father and mother from China and both sides for some reason and they got fireworks ready so we are going to have a little celebration apparently and they are getting ready you don't want the foundations to break it takes a few days for a secure so I'm going to be pouring foundations everywhere tonight and we want to fast track these. We'll put them out 3,000 foundations most of them are big for big buildings and we'll have pretty much the house share of casinos in foundation yes

We're putting hundreds of things in there and we're getting the stuff ready to pull

Hera

True too

Thor

I'm going to wish all the construction folks good luck and they need it it's a dangerous job we do scan and we do check nothing really happens usually but we have to be careful and we're going to proceed shortly. I'm announcing the groundbreaking ceremony as well which is going to happen at 4:00 p.m. Pacific time on site all right everybody let's get ready to party

Freya

What the hell is this what did you do and zoo says nothing and she's getting ready to party I guess and she's talking about the groundbreaking so that's going to happen shortly

Thor

Olympus

[the-firebird69]

This is a palomino horse and it's not a pony and it's a beautiful beautiful steed and they are from Arabia all of it. Jason is very familiar with it and Lily too they love the horse it's beautiful and save their lives many times as powerful and it rhymes forever they help them a lot too because it's hard out there it doesn't like the desert but it's used to it and it goes on the edges mostly and they ride them only if they have to they're well fed well cleaned well groomed and loved and they race them. The world renowned and famous and they think seagraves came from this event here and from us fighting and them having a problem in the ocean and it is. They're very fast and they win most races. Black beauty is not one but has a tough time with these horses. We're going to get going on this and we have to and we're going to make them ourselves and we're going to start now others might try and really they usually do this is a patented mini Jeep ours will be a little bit different the tires will be further apart it'll be the same wheelbase from front to back distance they'll be different tires in different rooms the chassis and the engine and a lot of the inner workings will be the same we just changed the suspension out and it goes like 70 mph and we use anything from the John Deere 350 up. We're going ahead and we're going to start making these and a lot of them and they come with the top and doors thinking about 80 miles to the gallon and it'll be dealt approved in all 51 states and globally too they're already making a mini jeeps in India they sell like crazy but these would be modified and there be a kid and we'd be selling the kid formally like $2,000 she can have yourself a Jeep now I think he wants one of these and his mom had one it's a t10 I think and it's big enough and you change out the rear differential and we can offer that as part of the kit it'll be less expensive but he'd have to get the lawn mower you never know how these stupid things happen it's great for the beach they have tires that are fit for it and they're fit for the road a lot of times can be used but we choose not to the ones we use are airless the solid tires and the kids are pretty cheap and the lawn mowers are cheap but really this would be the start of the other would be that took took type configuration and for lawn roast it don't work we make them into trailers so don't throw them away we're going to be purchasing them sometime soon maybe this week I would like to set up a meeting with Jason and Lily

Thor Freya

I like to sit and meet about this casino I can see them up there sort of we can see the ground moving so we do get it

Stan

Yes we are up there we spent half a day at demolishing and the other half will finish it up and we're going to start proceeding to prep the land survey it clear it and we're going to have to let it settle has to rain so we're going to try and get to rain a few times and history quite a bit what while we're doing that we can start putting in infrastructure to the area and he says yes like power plants and those would be off to the side and sewer treatment and there's a lot of stuff that we can start on huge lay down areas not really going to happen but he says we can do preliminary work all the design and getting the people involved who want to be involved including the ostracized one and we don't need Trump even though he's included too the max will be there only a little we have a lot of meetings to set up and we're going to start doing that and stan helped.

Thor Freya

It's a lot of work that we can do and we can organize teams and get everybody who's going to be doing it involved and we're going to start now and yes my husband has a character named cable you can see in the winter go to libraries it's kind of what he looks like it's not really into full combat but he does look like that in the future in the near future

Hera

Olympus

[the-firebird69]

There are people walking by who say they're practicing on us and they have a hospital bands on and he says I do realize that I've been saying it and people didn't believe me but you're right and not only the practicing but they're using it on you meaning they're using the same technique it's not necessarily practice but turns into it in other words a little bit quicker than the slow poison one and the a****** has this analogy

Couple more things there are some things that make it easier and something to make it harder easier for me is that he is very much into the job is some kind of strange bug bothering him and people are but their perspective is a little bit odd but really shouldn't be the guys legendary for attacking his own people and with way too much stuff and force messing things up and screwing around time and not succeeding at all

-some other stuff going on and it is about to what we are experiencing here in a daily basis some sort of drain on people's energy and my husband too he gets tired and he's getting tired so not sure what that is it started down here he says it might be the methane and people agree he needs some coconut

-their other factors stress is one these are huge issues Giant Bunches of math and they affect everybody but this guy is the problem Tommy F AKA Joseph Stalin

-there's a huge number of people trying to get out here to go after him they heard the hospital stuff and said wait a minute and then going after clones and the clothes have been in every hospitalization my husband is in

Is a huge number of people yes

-and the war is still on in LA and it's going downwards and yeah we're behind grabbing area a lot of the valley people don't want it when we do I'm going to put stuff there and coordon and maybe not the valley he says the armies go up there and we get that

-is a giant number of morlock evacuating the eastern hemisphere down the street attack and it's by the max they have taken over the bases they're sending missions out we have to be there to make sure our people don't get grabbed but if you're more likely recommend you go to your Islands there's a bunch of us and it's going to be more later but these bases are huge and there are other bases that they took earlier but the special part about these bases is that they use the standard equipment that you've seen and you've seen in the movie The mist the movie The siege and other such movies movies about the four Kings and Iraq and the attacks are commencing and the kidnappings large scale and bring trucks and deuces and big trucks that is going on right now they're going after clones and they're going after morlock and they're going after McDonald's and more. We are in the mist and they are not able to grab us or foreigners at this time they say was they clean out the crap they think it'll be easy

-it's quite a horrific prospect for most people some people can't bear it and get really upset and they do things they shouldn't but so it goes there is an evacuation on now we're going to post this is important

Hera Zues

What a damn nuisance and yeah the fleet is getting dissolved I lost half of it so far

Stan

It's about 350 million but it's really 400 and about half the heavy so it's 7.5 million and it's to the max proper with the exception of mac daddy and possibly pen Arnold

Thor Freya

Olympus

[the-firebird69]

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And with the interference from Tommy f and others even his own people JC ai will take over and he writes it in the letter it's in Tennessee so I know he was going to say a little bit cuz he was talking to me about it in time he didn't tell me the whole thing and you won't he's mean and he's evil and I know he has to be and I don't know because I'm kind of in the same spot and he's in but I'm not mean and evil I'm just alone here and my body and my people are out there and I'm helping them and I'm creating and nurturing relationships as best I can when I'm under extreme duress people are saying things for me a little and having to say things out loud be very rude to some of my father's and mothers a little bit to Japan not that much more so to Africa and even to my own cadre a little bit but you know I don't worry about it because they know what's going on here but it is something that I will straighten out now and later as much as I can but really I'm telling you there's a madman over the water it's really mad but he's always been a madman but the thing is that Dave's AI will take over and there's something wrong and I think that Trump knows about it and I was right I think and I hate to say this but it's probably not within the empire fleet proper and Stan and Biden will begin searching now and also it might just be a module and the big ones might be somewhere where the pardon the phrase idiot might bring it delivering it too evil out of ignorance Titan is one and you would have to bring it there for a reason certain modules would go up to retrieve JC and prep for him to go there and it has to do with the ships and everything all encompassing and it's my clans plan and Hera's clans plan, is AI is somewhere on the planet and his mega computer and it's better than my dad's and George's and a lot better than what you guys come up with and it is a threat and when huge and in combination is the configuration that I told some people about it'll kick everyone's ass with their army which they might be raising area by area and they might be threatening who knows they did get control over the robots to the Hudson Bay incident and they did some well some damage to Galactus and his group which has never been recorded in history as happening. And the weaponry is increasing in power and amplitude especially the comet empire ships and yes it would cut a holes through most of the Galactus monsters and that's what people are looking for

Zues Hera

We need to have a chance to be thought of having a chance and we have to find the AI and we have to do something to it and with it and we need to find it now and Joel Watts has a version it's very powerful and for him it is God but to our friend it's not and to Tommy efforts not they have conquered it but he says that Dave is much better and we agree we can't stop it in Tommy F can't and Joel Watts can't lift his head to it so in trouble. You need to find it and he says it's probably in somewhere stupid maybe part of it is Disney world Disneyland is hers and we're going to check and also the chocolate factory I was talking he has ideas and Dad and Obama would be a way to get there this is New Hampshire and I believe it's right there in the nuclear plant to show you because he wants to ride other people and he has a plan he used to ride a lot he's very good at it he taught me a few things and that was our friend and we do know that he learned a little and it's wicked so let's get to this

Mac daddy

We're at work now with trumpsters and we have to go through this there's no reason reason why JC will get the stuff if we break it up and that's true

Thor Freya