#There is nothing that gets me more than exploring the positives of negative emotions

[sammy8d257]

You know the idea where a closed off mean character becomes more open and nicer when they become close to someone?

That's King with Purple

But for Purple, its the opposite

Like here me out,

Purple is closed off but they're nice, (or at least highly respectful of King)

But they're only like that with King at the beginning because Purple doesn't know him. Purple is nice and caring to King because King is a powerful, older authority figure in their life. In their mind, they are not equals. So Purple is nice to him to a fault.

(contrasted by Purple and the Color Gang, where Purple has no qualms with being a bastard (affectionate AND derogatory) to them because the level of respect shared between them is more equal)

So when Purple and King start bonding and start opening up more. There are moments where Purple gets mean. They get rude and will fight King on stuff.

And that's a good thing

Because it means that Purple trusts King enough to drop the placating, kind, and happy default, and actually show and communicate when they're upset and hurting.

And goddamn have they been hurting for a while

The idea that becoming closer brings both the positives and the negatives,

The idea that you know someone trusts you because they feel comfortable enough to have a breakdown in your presence,

The idea that they believe in your ability to help them when they're at their worst,

is so SO good to me

[fernsnouveau]

I actually disliked the direction where I'd recently seen a bunch of the more reasonable S5-critical ML fandom people going. Those discussions and analyses were spiraling increasingly towards demonising Marinette over time, as we were left hanging with the s5 ending for a long time, and the fandom had nothing new to talk about.

I actually liked her flaws.

But then the canon does... this...

And I do admit, it's an in-character way to push Marinette towards a villain arc. Like, if I had to construct a darkfic scenario where Marinette goes evil and try to keep it as close to her canon personality as possible, it would look something like this. Which, I guess, means that it's theoretically easier for me to accept than, for example, S5's occasional incidents of Edgy Murderboy Chat Noir (how is that the same character who had TWO guilt-based mental breakdowns about accidentally cataclysming someone completely out of his control, including the main villain??!). I'm sure there are in-character ways to turn Adrien (or anyone else) into a villain, but Murder-Noir was Not It.

Of course another reason why the writing of Murder-Noir gives me extra heebie jeebies, was how it felt like an abuse apologia excuse, validating Gabriel's accusations for Adrien to not "deserve" autonomy, nor to experience or express any negative, inconvenient emotions. Murder-Noir feels like it's a writing choice directed at child abuse victims in the audience, who related to Adrien. "See, your abuser was right, you're horrible and overly emotional and out of control, so you NEED to be rigidly controlled for your own and everyone else's good!

Anyway.

While I admit that Marinette taking up Gabriel's mantle this way is technically in character, I cannot claim to enjoy the writing choice at all. I liked Marinette's flaws. I wanted to explore them. I did not want her demonised to this extent. She could have been meaningfully flawed without becoming better at being Gabriel, than Gabriel himself was!

After this, the only justification for the lovesquare to stay together, would be as a wish-fulfillment or "reward" for Marinette, and that's not enough for me. When I think about, if there was a real-life abuse victim in Adrien's position (minus the supernatural elements), and then they were friends with, and/orstarted dating someone who repeatedly treated them the way Maribug has been doing (and "repeatedly" is important here, it demonstrates unwillingness to learn from mistakes and be sincere about apologies – S4 was brushed under a rug as soon as Chat Noir superficially forgave!), ESPECIALLY but not only siding with the abusive parent and lying to the victim that the abuse they experienced was "not really abuse" and For Their Own Good, and demonstrated this complete infantilisation and lack of respect for the abuse victim, wanting to see them only as a palatable, innocent fairytale being who's not allowed to be inconvenient, express negative emotions, make informed choices mor generally be a complete person...

Obviously the right thing to do, for the abuse victim, would be to get the hell away from that person.

It does NOT mean that the person is irredeemable. They're just... not owed the abuse victim's forgiveness and continued presence in their life.

And I can't ignore that anymore.

We failed to get an arc about Adrien surviving and escaping Gabriel and healing. He has now been put into a position where, in order to ever be okay, he would have to survive and escape Marinette in order to heal.

I don't like this. It feels very hopeless and bleak and unenjoyable. I don't even think the story is gonna go there and free/heal Adrien (Astruc made it clear that Adrien isn't supposed to be his own character or have agency, he's supposed to be Marinette's accessory and that's never gonna change).

But as far as I'm concerned, any excuse for the lovesquare relationship to get back together after this, would have the unpalatable aftertaste of propaganda to make victims return to their abusers.

I don't like this trajectory!!!

[satanfemme]

I....I think I might have some of the anger you used to have. How did you grow? How do you become so positive but it doesn't feel fake anymore?

a combination of a shift in perspective + the kind of healing that just takes a lot of time and practice.

on my shift in perspective:

understanding political theory better has helped (communism, anarchism, and transfeminism are the schools of thought I study the most. the abolition of prisons/punitive justice is also especially important to me). it sounds silly, but when you don't understand truthful and reality-based political theory it's very easy to feel like there's fundamentally "good people" and fundamentally "evil people", if not feeling that it's human nature as a whole to be evil, and this worldview can taint every part of your life. studying theory has helped me understand HOW and WHY horrible things happen in the world on both large and small scales, and that it's more complicated (and also more solvable) than just paranoid and misanthropic "people are bad" fears. this has helped me a lot.

on a more personal and esoteric note, I've also come to see people as inherently interconnected. I believe we're all part of the same macroorganism and there's no fundamental differences between us other than circumstances. everyone in the world is traumatized and doing their best to respond to what's happening to them as it's happening, and learning as they go. it's a lot harder to hate someone once you understand whatever they're doing to wrong you is out of fear/trauma. it's also a lot harder to hate someone once you understand that you could've been them if only your life went a different way. (in other words, as I like to point out: everyone is capable of being abusive, and people who are abusive are still people). it also probably helps through all these beliefs that I don't believe in genuine free will, but I understand that thought probably isn't comforting to most people the way it's comforting to me.

on my healing:

living away from my abusive parents for five years and counting helps. trying to find ways to treat my mental disabilities with patience and grace (and with an increasingly anti-psych viewpoint) has helped. getting an emotional support dog has helped.

maybe the BIGGEST help has been meeting and befriending more people in real life, and doing new and novel things all the time. socially speaking I consider myself raised by social media, and although my feelings towards that fact aren't wholly negative, let me tell you that the real adult world is SO much better and healthier than any website. I like meeting people who are different than me, and have different thoughts than me, and I like exploring, and going to shows, and experimenting with things. nothing makes me feel as alive as when I'm out there in the world Doing A Thing, In A Location, Dressed In An Outfit, and With Other People.

I also think age has helped to an extent, but not because of any pseudoscience "your brain matures at X age" stuff. I think I just have a lot more practice at being a person than I did in the past. and I hope to have more practice in the future. this is the first year I've felt like an "adult" and it feels fucking GREAT! I feel emotionally mature, I feel autonomous, I feel really good.

AND ALSO. my last piece of wisdom for you: stop worrying about how other's see you, stop worrying about your interests being cringe, stop worrying about being the most perfect morally pure person in the world. letting go of these fears doesn't happen over night, it takes time. but the more I become openly & proudly freakish and weird, the happier and nicer I become. I love being a cringy furry pervert so much. it's awesome. can't recommend that kind of thing enough.

[mamadarama]

Just curious on your opinion here do you have any thoughts on the way Madara is being written? Recently I came to the realization that enstars writers aren't all that great,, and I notice that Madara at least in my opinion has had very little development and progression as a character but I'm genuinely hoping I'm wrong but I don't see much difference. And I do hope I'm wrong cuz I definitely haven't read every single story ever in Enstars and it could just really be Madara's character but it feels like he hasn't budged an inch and when DF rolled around it seems like he's gonna progress only for the writers to make him wanna split up literal months after (SS) and it was fine the first time since we explored that part of his character but right after that we got the Spring event and he's?? Back on his bullshit as if whatever happened during Secret Service didn't have much impact. And I do understand his character and all but I often wonder how much of that is just his character (immovable mountain with deep roots that will take years of continuous effort to move) or just the writers half assing because they can't think of a more compelling narrative for double face other than Madara wanting a breakup. It's especially sad to me with Last Mission because as much as I can understand DF being temporary and meant to end, it feels like nothing has changed in Madara during !! Era. I'm hoping that new gen Madara can change that since he's already featured in the new shuffle and scout story, and it does look like he's changing the vibes a little. Idk what are your thoughts and genuinely no hate here I love Madara and I'd love to hear your opinion :)

i think the writers do a pretty good job with the story actually !! i ended up spending a few hours writing like 3 pages of stuff so this one gets a readmore ^^;

theres a tldr at the end though if you dont wanna hear me talk in circles like some kind of maniac (understandable i dont either)

at this point madaras story is a tragedy and hes not really supposed to be a satisfying character . youre supposed to be some degree of frustrated with him like all the other characters are. the story isnt over yet though and maybe he will get a satisfying happy ending someday , but this is all buildup. having madara go through negative character development while the rest of the 3rd years have significant positive character development puts emphasis on one of the main points of his character: you cant help someone who doesnt want to be helped . shu wanted to become more empathetic. eichi wanted to unlearn his bitterness. kaoru wanted to leave his playboy reputation behind. izumi wanted to learn to control his emotions . madara has two sides to him that refuse to coexist— anger and misery. the angry side of him has given up on himself and leans into his perceived role as a villain because he believes alienating his friends is the only way to save them and for once be the hero. the miserable side of him is the sad and "selfish" part that keeps him returning to his friends again and again despite believing hes a bad influence on them, because he still seeks acknowledgment and praise from others and doesnt want to believe its too late for him. he bounces between these like a metronome . (maybe thats another layer of reasoning behind double faces name, idk) so, he doesnt know if he wants to be helped. he thinks he doesnt deserve it. pulling someone out of a ditch that deep requires some legwork on their part too, and if they wont put in that legwork, well... then there's nothing you can do. madara isnt quite a rooted mountain that takes a long time to move... hes more like an injured tiger pacing in its pit , so fixated on looking for a way out that it wont look up and see the entire top is open where its keepers are waiting to take it out and treat its wounds . now suppose this tiger is sentient enough to worry it might hurt someone on impulse when the disinfectant stings its wounds. additionally, lets say the tigers wounds came from falling and cutting itself on something in its habitat while making a risky jump , and it believes it deserves to be hurt for such a stupid misjudgment. so even when it notices the top of the pit is open, it will continue pacing pretending like it didnt. thats where madara is at right now .

madara broke up double face partly out of self sabotage, and partly out of a twisted attempt to "save" kohaku from him. kohaku and madara are an interesting contrast because their characters are set up in a very similar way. the difference between them is that kohaku doesnt hate himself even close to as much as madara does, and as a result he IS getting better. kohaku believes hes always going to be part of the underbelly of society doing dirty work and hes resolved to that like madara is, but he doesnt believe that means he has to do it alone . he acknowledges that hes not alone, he has the rest of alkakurei, the sweets club, jun, his sisters and tsukasa.... and madara. the first part of beating loneliness is recognizing youre not alone. madara thinks no one understands him (which in itself is its own kind of loneliness) and that if his friends understood "what he really is", they wouldnt love him. so in a way their presence eases one kind of loneliness and reinforces another. in his mind the only person who understands him is himself and therefore the only one who can save people from himself is also him.

theres a scene in last mission where madara says his reason for disbanding double face is something along the lines of wanting kohaku to live where he can feel the sun on him , and kohaku asks "what about my feelings?" . that pretty much sums up madaras entire thought process and why he isnt making any positive progress .

tldr; madara does have character development between es! and es!! , but its not positive. to have such a stubborn self loathing character make positive progress without a slow burn of warring with themself and dragging their feet would soften those traits. they want him to stand out and make you to go "ohh ok so this guy is MISERABLE miserable" .

so anyways i dont think its lazy writing its just character loyalty. but the fact that you noticed all that means youre reading him the way hes intended to be read. so congratulations!! you now understand what its like to be kohaku oukawa :) if he does get positive character development i hope its really slow though cuz if its too fast it would feel kinda abrupt. it needs to feel like hes fighting the writers for it to truly be madara

[livelaughghoul]

Lewis Hamilton and Nico Rosberg Relationship Tarot Reading

Disclaimer: This is for entertainment purposes only, nothing observed or taken away from this should be considered fact. As a reminder, I know fuck all about Formula 1, I just like fast cars and have a dumb amount of knowledge of astrology and tarot. 

Hey besties. Thank you for being patient with me while dealing with my husband’s medical issues. To be completely upfront and honest, we don’t have any resolution, and there may continue to be some sporadic posting and breaks taken if he has another episode. I was hoping that only one of us in this marriage would have a chronic illness or long-term medical issues, but turns out, that both my husband and I are trying to outdo each other in terms of our medical complications (I’m still winning, because like my neurological issues absolutely body his blood clot, and yes, I am using humor to cope with the anxiety this caused). 

I’ve done some more research and explored the lore, but I am still nowhere near knowledgeable about any of these men. What I will say is that the older ones (Lewis, Jenson, Kimi, and Mark) are the ones that have me the most feral. I won’t lie, I watched like, one video on Lewis and Nico, and guys, I am so emotional over them. I think that there is a lot of history there, and I think that history can be really hard to move on from or heal from. I made wanted to see what the cards had to say about the current and future relationship, so here is the reading for Lewis and Nico! 

Current relationship - Six of Cups 

The Six of Cups is this nostalgic card, it’s remembering what was shared between friends. It’s one of those cards that is really difficult in terms of relationship readings, at least in my opinion. The way that I look at the Six of Cups when thinking about someone's current relationship, especially if that relationship is strained, tells me that someone is still holding onto the past in a way that prevents forward movement. I think that either Lewis or Nico is unable to move on from what happened between them, that pain and hurt run deeper than what is known. They may be able to act somewhat civil when near each other, but I don’t think that there is a way to get back to what the friendship was. 

Future relationship - Strength, reversed 

I think that any friendship between the two of them, beyond the sparse interactions now, is going to be plagued with a lot of negative emotions, insecurities, and general doubts. I imagine that no matter how much healing and work goes into it, there is always going to be that rawness that is there. When I see Strength in the reversal position it’s more internal than anything, so I think that in the future if they were to really rebuild a friendship, it would be plagued with a lot of internal doubts and insecutirties. I don’t see a way that the friendship ever returns to what it was, I think that there is just too much hurt there. It’s possible though that slowly over time an olive branch is extended, but I think that there is always going to be some distance to a degree. 

[skylinesnsunshines]

treasure reading: haruto ideal type + as a boyfriend

hi everyone <3 long time no chat, im actually back and happy new year! :'). i apologise for not being consistent and absent this last year, my life has made a 360 and i had a lot going on which caused me to stop focusing on tarot. however, i've been slowly getting into it and i feel like i now have a better grasp on my life so i am now doing readings again. i'll be pickier on who i do readings for but still feel free to send your requests. hope you enjoy! <3

DISCLAIMER: this is all speculative and for entertainment purposes only, so take it with a grain of salt :)

decks used: ethereal visions tarot, archetype cards by caroline myss, heavenly bodies astrology, the wild unknown animal by kim krans

(italicised is the card on the bottom of the tarot deck which is meant to represent the subconscious/blind spot of the situation + rx means reversed)

IDEAL TYPE

6 of swords, queen of wands, 6 of cups rx, ace of swords rx | phoenix | house nine: spiritual growth | servant

honestly, interpreting these cards made me laugh so hard because I feel like I don't even need to go fully in-depth for you all to know what his ideal type is like. 6 of swords tells me that haruto looks for someone who doesn't necessarily show interest in him initially. as an aries, i can envision him really loving the chase and that even in a relationship, he still feels like he continuously chase his partner. the archetype that i feel he falls for is the attractive, independent, go-getter that doesn't settle for less. queen of wands describes someone who is physically attractive and is fiery, someone who isn't afraid to stand out or express their opinions. i think haruto wants someone who is as if not more outspoken than he is. 6 of cups rx tells me that he wants someone more mature than him, wether that would be in age or in mindset. subconsciously, i feel haruto likes someone a bit random, or scattered mentally. i think he finds it endearing that his person has many ideas and wants to explore it with him.

the phoenix tells me that haruto wants someone who can always reinvent themselves after hardships and can turn the negatives into positives. house nine is known as Sagittarius, a fire sign that trines haruto's Aries sun. haruto could look for someone who he has a spiritual connection with, or someone who is well-travelled and is constantly on the pursuit of knowledge. i think haruto could possibly want someone religious, as the servant details someone who lives to serve others which could also include a higher being. with the Sagittarius + servant card, haruto could want someone who shares the same faith or belief systems as him. i feel like this card also indicates a person who serves others, but is happy with not taking the spotlight as they are doing it out of the goodness of their own heart not for recognition.

AS A BOYFRIEND

king of cups, king of swords, the world, temperance rx | cobra | capricorn: ambition, realism and methodical steps | artist

i can definitely see that haruto will take on the provider role with the two king cards coming out. i feel that haruto is very much into traditional relationship roles. king of cups + swords tells me that haruto acts as an emotional rock and focuses on communication with his s/o. in a relationship, haruto seems to be mature and understands the importance of emotional fulfilment as well as being able to communicate and discuss many different topics. he could also be someone who starts random conversations or debates cause he loves hearing and exchanging ideas with his significant other. the world card is interesting to see, because i feel like this represents haruto as a well-balanced boyfriend, could even indicate some sort of husband material as this card is the end of the major arcana. the temperance card in reverse does tell me that haruto has a tendency to have an all or nothing mindset. so once he loves his person, it's gonna be very hard for him to move on, and that applies for so many other things as well such as jealousy, giving gifts, spending time, etc.

the cobra represents a teacher or a spiritual guardian, so again as i reiterated i feel haruto wants someone who he has a spiritual connection with. haruto could be said as someone who is ever-present and ever-loving, just like the cobra. the Capricorn reminds me again of the traditional gender roles, but it also tells me that haruto values tradition and that when he is with a partner, he loves focusing on building tangible things that helps him and his partner grow in the relationship. haruto could be a grounding figure for his partner, as he also loves to continuously work towards something when in the relationship. the artist tells me that haruto aims to express a dimension of life that is just beyond the five senses, and that he loves to inspire his partner to see life symbolically. haruto could also be the type to use music to express his feelings, so I feel like this boy would use music and lyrics to detail how he really feels towards his person.

[gale-gentlepenguin]

In your opinion, what are the top three peaks of worst narrative choice in Miraculous?

An interesting question, because with Narrative choices, its not so much one episode its the impact it has throughout the series.

But because I dont want to solely be Negative. I will also pick 3 POSITIVE narrative peaks as well. (I am only talking about what has aired so far. there could be choices later on I dont like or enjoy more than before. But we will see)

3rd worst

Su Han and the Order of Guardians

me too luka, me too.

Honestly the whole thing with Feast. which i thought would make this list, but nope. Because of Su han, I think Feast did the world a f***ing favor

Su Han is still my least favorite character. He is a stick in the mud that comes to yell and does nothing. The fact that he shows up in season 4 and doesnt even help Marinette with Guardian stuff is bulls***. He should be helping by teaching Mirakungfu, or anything!

Really, he only exists to show that Fu really made the best out of a s*** situation. When the order was beaten by a 4 FOOT TALL BLUE DOG, Having met Su Han, I understand why now.

3rd Best

Marinette telling Alya she's Ladybug

So this one is something many people are on the fence about. If you like this choice, you like or tolerate Alya. If you dont, you hate alya.

I for one Love Alya and Marinette who was sinking in her new responsibility gains a confidant that wants to help and do whats best for her. (she is like 80/20 on that but still, its the thought that counts)

Alya does help flesh out somethings and helps Marinette grow as a guardian and is probably the reason Chat noir didnt f***ing ditch earlier than kuro neko.

Alya even showed to be a somewhat competent ladybug replacement. But thats out the window with the recent episodes. I still think this is one of the best choices made in season 4

2nd Worst

Sentimonsters are Sentient

The show is weird with Sentimonsters. Now I dont know if Sentiadrien is 100% confirmed. But its gross how some sentimonsters are given more respect than others. It is like "Oh only the Human looking ones are sentient" Sentinino, Sentialec, Sentigabriel, sentibubbler all got controlled like puppets with no agency and no one gave a f***.

They should just be emotion's given form and nothing more. Because basically the peacock miraculous creates slaves. And its kind of f***ed up. Id put this at number one, but its still sort of being explored and if the show finds a way to give the sentimonsters full control or a means of not getting erased on a whim, I can over look it. But yea, its pretty bad.

2nd Best

Gabriel Getting all the other Miraculous

I have wanted this since SEASON 2!

The problem with season 3 and 4 was the fact that Ladybug and Chat noir had access to so many powers, heroes and abilities that basically Hawkmoth/Shadowmoth were not even a threat anymore. That they could have taken him down at anytime if they were more active. Like no cap, why didnt Marinette give herself the snake AND horse when she went for Shadowmoth in Sentibubbler. Or the horse and Bee? Stun his butt and WIN.

With Gabriel having the miraculous, the tables and stakes are now high again. Ladybug and Chat noir are up against the wall. Thats where the tension needs to be if you want things to develop.

The Worst

Miracle Queen (The last 10 minutes)

So this may seem like cheating but this episode really did a LOT and had a massive impact on the show. Lets have a check list.

It had Fu wipe his memories (something that apparently he could do but was never mentioned)

Chloé's growth and development is completely tossed out that she ends up exactly how she was in season 1 (and eventually worse)

The love rivals start dating the heroes because Marinette read Fu's letter which just told her "Life sucks and you gotta settle"

So basically it pulled a Deus ex machina out of its butt, destroyed the potential of a redemption arc and then make no means of seeing a struggle just poof, like it didnt even happen. And then the love rivals that had hardly any screen time (maybe like 2 episodes total with the heroes) are just dating.

The last one may have gotten axed but the first two are ever present and its horse crap.

The Best

Chat Blanc

So this is gonna need some explaining. While I am not crazy about the time travel, and I am not crazy about all the things in the episode, or even how some of the trauma is handled. Chat Blanc is an excellent choice to show the viewer how things can go wrong.

Its not the scenario where Hawkmoth wins, its not the heroes winning. Its EVERYONE LOSES.

This episode took Season 3 to the darkest its been. I would have loved if it was several episodes. I would have loved if this was explored more. But the fact that the group took a concept fans have thought about and brought it to such an NTH degree

I 100% can say with certainty before this episode no one wrote Chat blanc in fanfiction as an end of world threat. Maybe a dangerous beast or feral cat. But NOT A COSMIC LEVEL THREAT.

This episode demonstrated how dangerous the powers of the miraculous are. It gave the viewer a reason on why Marinette and Adrien dont share their identities right away. Its because of the worst case scenario.

(I would have put origins, cause umbrella scene but thats not so much a narrative choice as it is the start of everything, but know its basically pseudo number one)

[emidealia]

pick a number to get a self-development habit for you

pick any number from 1-6, you may even pick more than one.

take this as advice :)

1 2 3 4 5 6

1

start listening to podcasts! they are incredible! they can change your perspectives and you'll learn about anything you wish and also don’t wish for (haha, in a good mind broadening way). I get so much inspiration to be productive, artistic, kind, positive and healthy when hearing about such habits that have worked on real people whom i like. It’s also helpful because my hands get bored and i usually draw, clean, solve puzzles etc. try it out! i enjoy natalie cuomo and emma chamberlain, more on the entertainment side i like morbid! about true crime. but don’t surround yourself with too much crime and depression talk either if it doesn’t teach you survival tips and ways to function with mental illness. be mindful of the media you interact with!

2

start organising your mind and space. no need for a lot of clutter. cleaning your home is self-explanatory. hype yourself with music or podcasts. but to clean your mind start journaling it out, meditating to get to the root of your emotions, planning your day and week. keeping it all inside your head is tiring. remember, motivation comes from action! don’t wait for “the perfect moment” to get it together.

3

pampering day! care for yourself as you’d do for young version of you. warm bath, your favorite bath bomb or that nice perfume, fresh sheets, your favorite movie, maybe talking to a loved one. find out what you inner child is missing? is it care, is it fun, rest, maybe the wrong attitude to yourself? be kind to yourself today! i’m sure you’ll find a way to!

4

explore! a new route in nature, notice the details of your everyday walk to work. refresh your mind with finding a new hobby or watching videos about your sudden interests. what is it you’ve always wanted to do if nothing stopped you?

5

go on a walk right now! your body needs to move. do a small dance. or even bed yoga, yes it’s a thing. i myself have found stiffness to make me uncomfortable, unconfident and even shy. all only negative emotions. i hope i do not need to go in detail about how crucial physical activity is for your mental well-being. exercise quite literally increases serotonin and dopamine levels.

6

oh well you’re perfect already, you don’t need anything else. no, just kidding. be honest to yourself. is there anything that came to mind when reading the first sentence? something could be bugging you that you’re ignoring. you have the solutions to get rid of this thing that’s been bugging you. talk it out: journal, meditate. supressing emotions and thoughts is not the solution :)

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[coffeeandbatboys]

👀👀👀

Ollo, I am scootin' in for the matchmaker!

First of all, to dear Coffee...CONGRATS AGAIN! And second of all, Helena, please help me find the bestest trooper for me 🙇

let's see how short I can make this...

I am an essentric individual! I have a ridiculous number of hobbies and activities that I like to do, ranging from crafts (drawing, painting, knitting, crochet) to studying (Mythology, history, metaphysical topics) to indulging (fandoms, tv/movies, music). I went to school for Early Childhood Education, as I love kids...but my mobility changed and now I can't safely be in that profession. And I have music (or movie noises, or ambiance) on literally 24/7 as I cannot stand silence.

Positive traits: Very good memory (I remember most conversations I am part of), protective of my peoples, empathetic, and smart (analytical brain). I have been told I'm self-sacrificing, kind, quirky, funny and a good listener by loved ones

Negative traits: Forgetful of the strangest things (if I have fed the pets, holidays), protectiveness can be coddling, emotional, and distrustful of others. I am a bit lazy and have been called a defeatist.

I tend to use a wheelchair when I leave the house as a mobilty aid (sometimes in the house too, but i am stubborn and hate it) and tend to have an over-active mind so I rarely get any sleep. I also tend to go through depressive spells sooo... you'll have to warn them about *gestures vaguely to myself* that

If you need more information than that...👀

*slides over a datapad with @moonlightwarriorqueen on it*

You can find me here!

Thank you for reading all this and I wish you the best of luck with your event

😘💜💜💜

AAAAAAAAA MOONIEEEEEEEE TYYYYY oh...ok Helena is grabbing the phone....oh she looks serious...ttyl I guess...

Helena: *slams fist on countertop* Do. I. Have. A. Match. For. You.

I have been eying him in your favor for a while but your application has solidified my choice...

...which is why I have decided to pair you with ARC Trooper Jesse!

Jesse is loyal, caring, and an overall good man. He may not know much about mythology or metaphysical topics (maker, force osik is enough to make his head spin) but he will be willing to listen and learn from you!

He is interested by many different kinds of art, and he'll love to watch watch the way you craft. (Also, expect him to ask sheepishly if you'll make him something; perhaps a small crocheted plush or a drawing that he can tuck in one of his armor's pouches)

And domesticity? Whether it's just the two of you or starting a family, he loves it. The two of you will probably cuddle up and watch movies together when he's on leave, and he loves exploring your playlists and hearing new music! (New to him at least; he's got some catching up to do)

He may have a hard time with being overprotective when it comes to your mobility issues. He knows that you are capable but that doesn't stop him from wanting to help you. He'll most likely go to Kix and ask about ways he can assist you or make you more comfortable. Many cuddles will ensue.

If you're feeling down or out of touch, he'll gauge the situation and adapt to your mood, whether that means cheering you up or making sure you know he loves you.

Here's Jesse's comm code! Thanks for stopping by!

.....Thanks again Moonlight!! I wish you and your new trooper nothing but the best! 🩵🩵🩵

Coffee's 400 follower celebration at Midnight Oil caf house

[beskarandkyber]

I must say that Bo Katan's conversion to Din's "cult" has got to be one of the worst things I've seen in tv recently. For many reasons. It was so terrible in fact that it has well and truly kicked my interest in the show down a terrifying hundred degrees.

I know a lot of people are up in arms about this season. And I'm devastated to be thinking so negatively of a show that has only ever brought me joy. Writing for The Mandalorian has never been amazing, but I was okay with that because I love Din and his weird little attitude and position towards the galaxy. The characters on the show were enough to keep it alive and fun and carry it without relying too heavily on a fantastically written script. And scenes that were meant to make you feel something did. Stakes were good, and the story progressed just fine. It was a fun, heartwarming show with some badassery tossed in. But holy moly and pie.

To start I can only guess at this point what the point behind Din being excommunicated was. He was obviously messed up over the fact that his family and clan let him go so easily but he understood and accepted the creed. I was excited after he had taken off his helmet and broken the Creed because it opened up this new way to explore the clan and the possible problematic aspects of how he was living and how the the clan worked. This in turn exploring Din's identity as a Mandalorian with the knowledge he's gained from Boba and the other Mandos from season 2. Maybe there is more than one way. Tie this to Bo Katan and her vehement dislike for the clan and the fact that they were together when he broke his own Creed we could have had a huge a fun and impactful conversation about mandalorians, his Creed, where Din stands when he's placed in the gray area of the Mandalorian identity. I'm not saying that the clan is inherently problematic or evil, none of that because subjectively, it's not, but there should have been some type of nuanced conversation that affected Din and his place in the galaxy and the fact that he had a foundling. Not only this but the fact that he had recently come into ownership of the dark saber which places him by Mandalorian tradition and culture at the head of Mandalore. Perhaps predictably I thought that season 3 would contain his battle and internal and external struggle as he's fitted into this place that he never thought he would be in. I was excited to see his relationship with his clan completely changed especially as he sees that he has a new place in the galaxy and starts to perhaps grow away from them which could have led to either an antagonist in Bo Katan or a reluctant ally, or both!

Din felt too listless over the entire situation. That was his family the people who raised him, the people he had sworn his allegiance to, were so quick to dismiss him without hearing him out. But nothing really came out of it, no emotion no internal battles, no anything. We were simply told that he needed to go and get baptized to be redeemed.

I struggle also with the concept of bathing in the living Waters and Bo Katan joining the clan. Baptism is just bathing if there is no intent behind the action. Din was baptized because of his intention and he has a little like prayer thing he said. Bo Katan on the other hand went into the waters to save him and nothing more. There was no intent behind her actions, in the ritualistic sense that there was for Din, which means she was not baptized. And technically, at least in my eyes, it should be null and void the fact that she went after him into the water. And if the show simply was implying that the water held special magical properties the whole thing feels cheap and fake and I hate it.

I think perhaps a lot of my discontentment with this season and Bo Katan's sudden acceptance into a clan that she had previously considered a cult, looked upon with disgust and disdain, came from the fact that we did not get to see this change resonate enough within Din, not even in the book of Boba Fett. Her being accepted so readily into the clan cheapened everything that we were supposed to care about when it came to Din and his redemption. It was humorous in the way that it felt like a slap in the face and salt on the wound, I can only imagine how frustrated I would be if I were in Din's position.

It also cheapens Bo Katan's character as well. What was the point in never showing us any kind of character development in her and then suddenly sticking her in this clan and making the audience think that that was natural and fine? If this was where her character was going since we introduced to her in season 2 I never saw it coming and I find it a strange diminishing of her character, when she could have been a wonderful foil to Din, an antagonist a roadblock, but also someone who he would eventually have to confide in in order to properly handle his new position with the dark saber and eventually maybe it would lead to them having a dual where Bo Katan could win back the dark saber and everything before worked up to put her back on the throne and she learned valuable life lessons made her more tolerable of more people in the galaxy.

Or maybe she would see how much of a failed leader she's been and would come to accept that Din is the Mand'alor. I don't know. And I never will get to know.

I would say more but I think I have too much to say truthfully. All I know is for the first time I've felt disappointment and disinterest in a show I absolutely adore and it's heartbreaking. But I'm tired of accepting poorly made choices in writing for shows this big though. I'm sick of being told to sit and enjoy it and stop complaining when it genuinely sucks. No matter how much I love it. I'm not happy with it and as a viewer I deserve more than half baked plot points and non existent character arcs.

[brilokuloj]

I've been trying harder lately to not be paranoid and assume bad faith in others, so I have chosen to believe that people who post "eww, humans" might not consider how their sentiment impacts people who are already hurting. Frequently, I think they are posting it because of their own bad feelings and struggles, and don't think about how that would make their friends and community feel.

In fact, a lot of the "human bodies are bad" sentiment revolves around how human bodies are impractical (disabled bodies are negative), sex is nasty and genitals are weird (transitioned bodies are negative)...

So, if I may, here are things I think we need more of:

Human positivity, or at least tolerance, especially of the gross and yucky and boring parts

Furries/aliens/robots/etc who love their human partners (and the focus is NOT on how cute or sexy the nonhuman is for doing so). Relationships that are mutual and not a Connecticut Clark joke.

Humans from an alien but not negative perspective

Nonhumanity as not a better but simply alternative experience

and I guess probably this far in you're already thinking "most media is human-positive" but MCU dudes and anime boys are like pugs to me, they can't live.

Characters that live without prosthetics, or get feasible or life-impacting ones, rather than Cool Robot Parts; aesthetics (or sex factor.) should not justify or make up for a disability; a character that makes you think "gee, I wish they would cut my arm off!" is not disability representation. I have experienced people listing Junkrat as proof they could be attracted to me as a mobility aid user.

Humans will not destroy machinery, no robot uprising, but rather they maintain the mutual relationship they've always had (and less of using robots as a stand-in for autism representation. My God.)

Many human women were computers before machines were computers. I just think this is cool and not really explored :(

Top surgery scars that are not like cool perfectly-symmetrical explosions or jagged teeth. Get a tattoo if you want, but a lot of the time scars are raised and shiny, which I rarely see either.

I doubt anyone in the world enjoys their period, but they're frequently pointed to as "proof" that humans aren't worth being. If your periods make you lay down on the floor and want to kill yourself for a week, you seriously should see a doctor if you can. I didn't know until it was way too late that I had other options, because periods are too yucky to candidly discuss and no one told me it wasn't normal.

Testosterone gives you acne. Spironolactone makes you need to pee more. There's a lot of unexpected things like that, and they are not objectively gross or sexy; they're just things that happen, that deserve to be discussed.

Fursuit poodling (having uncovered skin in a partial fursuit). It's not gross, it doesn't 'break the magic'. Fursuiting is sweltering exhausting work, and real humans are inside them, and they deserve to be appreciated.

It can be really hurtful to blithely say that human genitals are disgusting, especially in front of people who may want to one day pursue affirmative surgery. If someone personally doesn't like dongs, I wish they would just say that. Jeez.

Nobody is "better" for having an aversion to human bodies for whatever reason. I understand personally that it can be isolating, especially if those reasons are trauma-related. But turning your sexual attractions into a matter of you being "better", or a clubhouse, is not really coping with it. Disgust is not a judgment of morals or quality. It's an emotion, and one that can be very hurtful to people who are already getting hurt.

Because nothing is Good or Bad. It just is what it is. Judging people's right to exist and be depicted, based on sex appeal or morality (or god forbid, purity, which I've seen more of recently, somehow completely ignoring the religious abuse connotations) is... messed up.

And to make this post not just me complaining, you can share your creations or ideas that you feel like apply, if you want :)

[charmedreincarnation]

What was the void like for you, and what was your personal process of getting into it? 😊

The Void State can be a difficult concept for some people to understand, so let me start by saying that experiencing the Void State is unique for everyone. It’s not hard because of the state itself, but due to versatility of its usage and peoples definition, the information you see can get absorbed so fast it becomes more complex than need be. Anyways, For me it was a feeling of total emptiness. It was like my mind was stripped of all thought, and I became aware of the present moment. It was a peaceful, calming sensation that cannot be replicated with words.

The process of getting into the Void State began with meditation. I started by taking a few moments to be still and quiet. I would close my eyes, focus on my breathing, and try to empty my mind of all thought. After a few moments, I would begin to feel an inner peace begin to spread throughout my body.

As I continued my practice, I began to focus on the space between the thoughts in my mind. Rather than thinking about what was going on around me or in the future, I was focused solely on being in the present moment. This allowed me to ignore any and all distractions, allowing myself to become completely aware of the now and nothing else.

The deeper I got into my practice, the easier it became to slip into the Void State. My body became still and relaxed, while my mind started to wander into a place of peace and tranquility. I felt the world around me melt away and I was left with nothing but a deep sensation of inner stillness. Once I reached this point, I simply allowed myself to stay there, feeling the emptiness and peace wash over me. This practice worked wonders for me as it allowed me to become in tune with my inner self more than before. The Void State is something that can be reached through self-awareness and meditation.

I want to clarify I have adhd so while I was doing meditations, it was to help clear my chaotic mind. I eventually got into the void state with intention as I do manifestion and shifting. I do not like methods as I am not a methodical method but I always begin my journey with what’s the most emphasized in my research which in this case I found to be meditation and mental clarity.

I am no means a master of the void state at all, and I am still on my journey to be more consistently aware of it, and become a master of tapping into it. the research and I found while exploring this cool concept had made this journey so enjoyable. I would copy and paste my findings in this reply but it will be too long 💀and I don’t want to deviate from your question!

But I did learn how my name is integrated in many religions and meditation. In Buddhism, this idea is present in many forms of meditation, while in Hinduism it is employed through the concept of Maya. For example, In Buddhist meditation, practitioners focus on letting go of ideas and concepts that are not helping them and replacing them with more positive thoughts and emotions. The idea is to let go of attachments that drive negative behavior, so that the meditator can become closer to enlightenment. Through reality shifting, practitioners free themselves from the limitations of their current experience in order to better understand the subtleties of reality.In Hinduism, reality shifting is present in the concept of Maya, where practitioners strive to gain a better understanding of life through understanding the various facets of Maya ..

anyways you didn’t ask but I really wanted to add that! But the point is make your journey fun and and explore to make it more enriching if you so desire! It can make it less stressful. Finally, I just really want to emphasize all of our journies will look and feel differently for everyone so cater your journey to your mind, desires, and imagination and no one else’s 💓

[hellsdogs]

  headcanon:  sen and various hcs.

COMMON MISCONCEPTIONS. Sen cares. Deeply. If he is silent and often appears uninterested in the situatiosn before his eyes, it is actually quite the opposite. He is a watcher and under that empty facial expression of his, he pays attention. It isn't truly out of mischieviousness that he does nor to collect information but simply how he interacts with the environment that surrounds him, the interactions and actions that takes place within it. He cares about the connections as well, even few, that link him to the rest of the world. Him being secluded, an associal, made him more aware of details, he finds reassurance in them. The places he enjoys the more his solitude at isn't locked in a room alone but are in the middle of a crowd. I'm surrounded yet I feel on my own - isn't a negative statement to him. He finds solace is being allowed to evolve on his own, to watch.

AN IMPORTANT HEADCANON. Anything ugly, damaged, crooked is absolutely beautiful to him. As a photographer, his career started quite normally, however he quickly enough realizes he's bored from pretty models for these fashion magazines calling him. The only life changing event to him was realize how ugly inside most of these models were, often capturing the moments between the shoots, to seize the exact moments where the masks fall : opportunism, narcissim, vanity, consumerism - there was nothing pretty in this industry. This attraction to anything damaged, inside or out, lead him to snap unconventional types of faces, beauties and bodies more, which surprisingly got him attention as an artist on a completely different scene than fashion. The only pictures he doesn't share however is the ones he takes when going a little futhur, taking a night job as a crime scene clearner : in his contemplation of the disfigured, he snaps the macabre and bloody scenes on that one camera he keeps to himself and himself only.

A USELESS HEADCANON. By the end of the night, after a job, his ritual is to sit in a konbini and eat instant ramen from the store. He passes time while reading whatever magazines he gets his hands on and only goes home when the sun finally rises.

POTENTIAL TRIGGERS. Emotional intimacy. If Sen is someone who enjoys having conversations that can go as deep as they can, dig into someone's core through words, face to face or behind his screen, he is not so comfortable anymore if any form of emotional intimacy starts developping between him and someone of interest : feelings. He is aware he finds beauty in the macabre, the dead, the unanimated and thinks to himself : if he finds someone so beautiful inside and out to the point he falls for them, will he start picturing them out of breath in order to immortalize their beauty with his lens? Which is as psychotic as it does scare him, he is aware.

SOMETHING YOU ENJOY ABOUT (WRITING) THEM. Sen is different from all the characters I usually write. Yes there is my usual sociopathic print all over the character however, his personality is new to me : someone who spends more time silent than talking, lack of confidence, not so social, secluded, submissive and almost passive. Instead of being the master of his own pleasure and entertainment and life, he often positions himself as a watcher, a follwer.

SOMETHING YOU WANT OTHERS TO KNOW BEFORE WRITING WITH THEM. I can picture writing this character in many slice of life situations. Sen is someone you can find alone in cafés, bars, at the konbinis, perfect places for every day interactions. Even through his daily job, as a photographer and as an artist. However, the other side of the character is unsettling, a little fucked up and deranged, this side I would love to explore with ones who want to match this darkness.

tagged by : @velvetineblue (Thank youu)

[thefudge]

hi dr. fudge! i hope you're doing well.

firstly, i want to express how much i love your writing. your fics helped me discover, explore, and better understand my appeal for darker fiction. i started reading your work in my teens and having your fic as this counter to the puritan takes on tumblr about "immoral fiction" really helped me avoid experiencing a lot of shame and general misunderstanding about dark fiction that i'm sure would've plagued my younger years otherwise. so thank you immensely for that.

that brings me to my next point and question: how do you just write shamelessly and stop caring whether people "approve" of your ship and taste? i know it is SO silly to care and that you can't appease everyone, but i'm writing my first "dark" ship - which isn't even dark, it's just pretty disliked bc one half of the ship is the show's Asshole Sexist Guy and he's paired with a more lovable female character - but i'm still oddly nervous about it? it's just a different pairing than what i usually write for.

but my needless anticipation about a possibly negative reception bc it's out of my norm and, again, bc it's for a ship where the guy is "problematic" are affecting my ability to write and souring my excitement about this fic. i know there's literally nothing wrong with this, the stakes are so low, and people will likely not care that much but if they do, who cares, yet i can't shake these nagging thoughts! i was wondering if you had any insight you could lend about Letting It Go and just enjoying writing again without these concerns getting in the way.

my apologies for dumping this ridiculously long ask on your doorstep. i always look forward to hearing your thoughts about anything and you're so kind to your anons, which is why i sent this to you. thank you for all that you do! i hope you have a nice day. :-)

omgosh, getting emotional about that first paragraph and you reading my work in your teens! :'''') thank you <3 i'm really glad i could be a good influence.

as for your qualms about writing your own darker ship, i get your anxieties, but the right ppl will find and engage with your story, because there's a hunger for bolder content that tackles darker themes in a genuine fashion. think of it this way, some ppl are just as anxious about asking for this content, as you are about writing it. so you guys will find each other.

the negative comments/reactions usually fall into two categories: 1. Spanish inquisition trolls who did not even read the story but want to berate you for tackling anything they consider improper (and you just ignore/delete/block those), 2. genuine criticism about the way you tackled the ship/themes, which may sometimes come from a good place, but which can still be a dick move if it's too aggressive or not at all constructive. The second kind of criticism may sometimes happen if the author writes dark fic that's very OOC and lacking in substance, where it's impossible to imagine the characters doing the actions in the fic, and the author doesn't even try to make it believable. and for what it's worth, though i understand the criticism in those cases, there should be room for those kinds of fics too, where ppl just wanna have fun and not think too much about it, because the right ppl will find those fics too. from your message, i get the impression that you put a lot of thought into this and you want to write a dark fic where you want the pairing to be believable and make sense, which means you'll be careful about characters and storytelling, and i think that will come through in the writing, which is why i also think you'll get positive reactions. just the fact that you care so much will seep into your writing and make the readers appreciate it.

even if you're anxious about this process, your brain already knows the answer, because you seem like you really want to write this, so let that feeling guide you, let it be bigger than your worries, because it IS bigger than your worries. ultimately, you want to make smth you enjoy, and that feeling is infectious, so your readers will feel the same. and even if they don't, i'll be here, cheering you on! so drop a link when you've posted it!

[kurogane-redfox]

@diablescharmants asked:

He had hoped for his gesture to give relaxation and comfort and it seemed as though his simple attempt had been successful. Good. There really wasn't any necessity for them to get worked up about some strangers in their proximity and if they kept on intruding? Well, they would be taught a lesson they wouldn't forget.

"Changing the location sounds like a good idea." Not only to get away from prying ears, though for the sake of more privacy as well. This was, after all, a very private subject in itself and for their ears only. "And there is no need to apologize." Another reassurance he thought may be helpful for comfort's sake. Freed may be convinced that any purpose or emotion could be expressed without the use of crude words but Gajeel was a grown man and he wasn't going to chide him for his choice of language, especially not because he himself wasn't entirely free of cursing here and there. His own language was largely influenced by his upbringing and the primary magic he mastered though he'd long forgone using expressions that were far too fancy to sound natural, a mere arrogant power play of high society that was as dishonest as it was unnatural. A mere act. Nothing about it was real.

As they started out for Gajeel's apartment, silence embraced them for a majority of the path, though it wasn't unsettling in any way. Despite the revelation of emotions that would doubtlessly go hand in hand with the upcoming conversation, Freed felt rather at ease. Feelings were… a complex matter and at times it was still difficult for him to allow himself to feel them to the fullest. But he had gotten much better at ignoring the fears and doubts roaring in his mind in favor of the lightness and positivity that these feelings could possibly bring about.

"Well, I'm glad that this sentiment seems to be mutual." In an attempt to sound light-hearted, he gave the other man a short glance and a small smile. Their bond was built on a foundation that would be difficult to shatter, the trust between them extended. All of it was shared between them, though lately something else had mingled with this friendship of theirs and it had left Freed questioning and confused and insecure. Could they, could he, really further risk what they already had? Was it the right step to take? And by now, there was much more certainty. Not least because they had dared to explore some intimacy with one another that just felt natural. The answer was right there, bared before their very eyes. Freed was unable to neglect it much longer, and it appeared as though Gajeel felt the same.

"I suppose it would be foolish to dismiss our past interactions as mere curiosity," he began, pausing for a moment fully register the fact what this was going to be. ", because clearly, there is something more than friendship and casual exploration on my mind, and on yours." He dared to make the assessment, judging by reactions and words the other man had offered. His turquoise gaze came to meet his. "There is no denying it any longer - so perhaps we should be taking this risk and continue this exploration in a more official way. My mind and heart are telling me that this is the right path to take, so I'm asking you, Gajeel Redfox, - would you like to have a date with me?"

He hated that the strangers questions could get beneath his skin, truthfully. He sometimes wondered how much Freed heard about. Of the things they said to the Dragon to drag him down and make him feel less. Positive emotions weren't as NEW to him as they'd been in the beginning. While he was still LEARNING he was doing better at expressing himself but there were times, more than he cared to admit, that he found his mind consumed with thoughts of negativity.

"Least my place is private, out of the way, and safe from pryin' eyes and ears,"

He was beginning to realize that he was quite NERVOUS despite knowing he need not be. This was Freed one of his incredibly close friends. So close that the two of them had done more than friends typically would though, nothing too strange had transpired between them. Sure, they'd spent a bit of time kissing and touching, they'd not done anything beyond that. Not yet, at least, truthfully, the Dragon wasn't SURE if things would go beyond the touching and kissing which was honestly fine. After all, who could say they 'made out with their best friend' and things didn't get weird other than the two of them?

"I know I don't gotta apologize, I curse a LOT, and I know that. Not everyone likes it, I try and control it 'round people but when I'm aggravated it's kinda hard to tone it down."

He'd never personally HEARD Freed cursing before but he didn't need to. He knew that with how much he cursed people would know he was an honest person but other than that he just had a foul mouth. He could control himself around children, at least. He knew some dirty language was fine in certain situations but none of the ones that came to mind had happened. He was just ANGRY at the strangers for their prying questions, assumptions, and accusations toward him.

He was growing a bit more nervous as they neared his house, but he was making a point to remain as calm as he could. Once they arrived he'd merely unlock the door and walk inside. He'd toe his boots off before waiting for Freed to enter. The Dragon was an odd one, he preferred removing his shoes at the door, he didn't want his floor damaged or something. His cheeks would flush IMMEDIATELY upon hearing Freed's next comment. He'd reach up and rub the back of his neck before flashing a slight grin at the other.

"Yeah, though truthfully it took me a bit to realize what was goin' on with myself. Least yer understandin' in that regard. Most people probably wouldn't be."

The Dragon had been questioning himself since the night he'd first kissed the other man. He'd found that he'd LIKED it a LOT. A lot more than he thought he would but perhaps it was due to how solidly their bond was. While he wasn't someone who grew romantically attracted to someone without a deep emotional bond with them, he'd not even realized that he'd HAD that sort of thing with Freed at first.

Not to mention, he was awkward as all hell when it came to emotional anything. Which was why he'd said things as he had, though in the same sense, he was certain he'd confused Freed initially. That hadn't stopped the two from kissing a few more times and then the heavy touching happened. He'd not shied away from the touches or the kisses. He'd wanted to LEARN what it was he was feeling. He was still learning and would likely be for some time yet. Luckily, Freed was the sort who understood and didn't try for things he knew made the Dragon uncomfortable.

"I think in the beginnin' for both of us it WAS curiosity but it seems to have spiraled outta control pretty fast. Not in a BAD way but one that confused me."

He'd continue making eye contact with Freed as the other male continued to speak. His ruby eyes would widen as the other just SAID what he did and then asked that question. If his face wasn't already almost the colour of his eyes it most certainly would be NOW. Without a doubt, even.

"A... date? Ya wanna go on a date with ME? I uh-"

Freed knew that he was an intelligent man. He knew a great deal more than most people thought he did so for him to lose the ability to SPEAK coherently he was either caught off-guard or something else was going on there.

"Yeah, yeah I'd LIKE that, Freed. I'd like that a LOT, actually."

[sunsrefuge]

1, 3, 8, and 9 for whoever you think needs the love

okay, i didnt know who to pick so I tried letting Spotify pick for me! So I just put all my liked songs on shuffle and:

(I had TWO of his songs come up in a row, one being an AU song, AND by his voice claim, so I mean-)

1. Your character is now the leader of their species, whatever that looks like for them (Arcane Councilmember, Imperator, Royalty, etc). How do they govern and what sorts of changes would they make if any?

OH BOY... I did not think this through- Well. First of all, this means a literal 250+ year old Lich is on the Arcane Council... hm. His primary concern would be having defenses against Primordus and the Destroyers - his childhood got ruined when Primordus first woke up, so he's quite biased! He wouldn't be as against the Inquest as one might expect: he actually works with them on his own from time to time early in the game's story, although he very much agrees that their less ethical research techniques need to be kept quiet and under wraps. I could see him finding ways to be the frontmost Council member to interact with the Commander, so at least they wouldn't have to deal with Phlunt lmfao. He'd hate Phlunt so so much if he learned how he treats Taimi, Liifa would steal her out from under him SO FAST. his parental instincts would kick in akjshd

3. What person impacted them the most?

In a positive way: Eliana! She's the reason that he lets himself open up again, even if they have a very rocky start working together. She unintentionally teaches him that it's not bad to trust people, and she encourages him to be more in-touch with his emotions and how he actually feels about situations: something that he's been shoving down for countless years at this point!

In a negative way: His dad. :) Have you met Mr. Overseer Praxxis? He's a very charming man. Charming. At the least. ... I'm sure he was very nice to his kids. :) (I'm actually a little undecided on most negatively! It could just as easily be Ipos, Aysen, or Joko, too!)

8. How willing are they to bend/break the rules for their cause (be it selfless or otherwise)?

Very! He would break any rule without a second thought if it would help himself or a friend or organization that he's part of! Liifa would be the motherfucker who looks at a speed limit sign and straight up goes "Aw, that's a cute suggestion." Rules mean nothing to this man. He's already broken the rules of LIFE by becoming a lich and bringing people back from the dead a few times already. He's been involved in so many crimes, you have no idea.

9. What's an au for them you think could be fun to explore?

I have two big ones for him, but one I haven't explored as much is his AU as Endseer! (The other one is his AU as Puppet!)

For this AU, so far, he takes Ipos's initial deal in full instead of backing out of part of it. Endseer is more a combination of Ipos and Liifa rather than just being one or the other. He stays on the Harbinger of Toxin with Captain Bjiattu, and they're basically the biggest terror on the high seas for a really long time. I'm sure though, that eventually Endseer would get bored and decide to seek out something new << He's very fucked up because he's half lich / half demon, so he's uh! interestingly evil !! and very fun to think about animatics with tbqh