#The final post after all the other drama was just going to be an untagged post that said “I think I'm a guy” and then I'd log out

[calisthenicsdanceaustralia]

Coming clean

Okay first things first, all of the mods were completely made-up people. I was originally intending to do one of those multi-character stories surrounding a multi-person tumblr blog, a la that one sonic fan blog. I had a few vague ideas planned, but nothing concrete.

I was going to continue this, but I've realised a few things:

1. Calisthenics Dance is FAR too niche an interest to really work for this sort of thing. It is kinda popular in Australia, and seemingly doesn't exist elsewhere (at least that I can find). Plus, in my experience, most people post about it on like, Instagram or Closed Facebook Groups. The last posts about calisthenics dance here on Tumblr was like, 2016, and there was like 2 of them.

2. I'm just not built for this sorta thing. The characters I made weren't exaggerated enough to build interest, the vague storylines I had ideas for were like, barely above your usual Tumblr drama (anon hate from a brother, infighting, etc), and also

3. I just seemingly am a social media void. I lack the ability to have people see my posts - not that that's the point of me generally having social media stuff, but in this specific case? Yeah, not gonna happen.

4. The risk of people around me figuring out this project was mine was FAR too likely for me to really feel comfy continuing. Again, see "Extremely niche." There's a small amount of competitions a year, and I'm 100% sure that if I ever *did* manage to get any sort of traction with this, I would almost narrow down the exact club I'm a part of via the competitions I would, probably eventually, vaguely allude to. Or I'd have to completely make shit up, which sounds a lot harder.

And as a side note, I don't think I can really effectively write like your more-average young adult, despite literally being one myself. I just like using too many fancy big words, methinks.

So, what will I do with this account?

I dunno. I'm definitely going to leave the posts up - the information in them was all correct, except the information on the mods, who were made up, and I can't be fucked to rewrite all of that. It took me forever the first time, and even with copy-pasting most of the info it'll take far too long to be worth it for me.

*Maybe* I'll post a thing or two every-so-often about the sport, because it genuinely is a passion of mine. Definitely no actual videos of me doing it though - I'm far too paranoid a person, and if it were a group video I'd have to ask permission to post it from my teammates. Which is like being hit with an Infinite Embarrassment Ray.

But all the music opinions in that one post (if it ever actually posted) were my true opinions, so maybe more of that? More just... general opinions? Never post here again? Who knows.

[spirk-trek]

Hey so, it's me. The debbie-downer vaguing you in the spirk tag. I didn't mention you directly because my post wasn't directed at you, although it was made in response to checking some of your posts because I do have Unification in my filtered list (content and tag), so those fanworks? Behind a button, so my choice to look is all my own. (I didn't send the anon, though. That was someone else, sorry to say.) It sucks that that's how tumblr's system works but yay content filtering! Tumblr didn't always have that.

I didn't make that post to start drama, and I'm not the sort to get my kicks by being a contrarian for opposition's sake (like. I'm a Shatner fan. In a lot of online Star Trek spaces, I might as well say I hate K/S or Leonard Nimoy or kick puppies in my spare time, you know?), but I did make it in anger and for that I apologize. I should have waited longer on it to phrase things better or simply have deleted it from my drafts after typing it out. (But it's out there now and I'll live with it.)

I do understand where the joy of connecting the past to the present comes from (as a lot of your posts do with connecting old and new fanworks together), and that a lot of people are celebrating the Unification short as a culmination of 50+ years of K/S despite their initial separation according to the initial story, but for me (personally! I want to stress that. It's just me and my own opinion here), I keep seeing it as a valuing of what a company is finally offering fans rather than the celebration of fans who saw where K/S's story ended at the time, rejected that ending that was offered by the corporation, and made their own ending for K/S, without looking towards any official channels as a guide for their visions. That's what my post was about, where my anger was from, those questions--what becomes lost in fandom if we accept canon from the corporation that holds the copyright? What does it say if we look towards that same canon as being above what fandom has already envisioned? In a fandom as old as Star Trek's, one that laid so much groundwork that we take for granted, to overlook that worries me.

I suppose the biggest issue here is it's too similar, like a reflection in a mirror: on one side, Unification stands as the canonization of what the fandom has envisioned all along. It culminates. On the other, Unification appears as a bone tossed to finally appease fans who have seen K/S from the start and it feels too little, too late. Ironically enough, the short has seemingly managed to divide people, but it's too early to tell how lasting such a division could be.

Hopefully I've cleared the air by this. Unification clearly is not my cup of tea and I'm honestly not trying to ruin anyone's fun (most of my posts have gone untagged for a reason but I forget tumblr still parses for post content to index. Yikes. That post was tagged, though, because it was a snap decision made in anger and I wanted my thoughts to be seen). One could argue the short wasn't even made for me as I've long wondered if I will watch Generations because I've read the summary and didn't like it. But that's the joy of fandom and transformative works. We can look at the story and pick our favorite parts and rewrite the ones we don't like. If we didn't do that, fandom wouldn't exist, or it would but it wouldn't be as much fun.

Sorry for the essay in your inbox and for causing any confusion and hurt. I hope you've had a great day 💛

i'm not going to lie, it does hurt a little. i wasn't going to answer this publicly but i don't have the time today to have a private convo and i don't want you to think i deleted it or ignored it, so here we are.

i don't think unification made spirk any more canon than tmp did. i don't think the short was made with k/s in mind at all, even as a bone to toss starving shippers. star trek at large was never intended as a love story between them, but people have always seen it anyway. 

i'm conflicted about the use of nimoy's likeness too. despite that, i think that they did it as respectfully as they could have and involved the right people. it was a goodbye, not using him for a cheap cameo or advertising purposes (yes i know it was an "ad" like everything is, but it's not like spock holds up a coke at the end). you can disagree with me, and i understand your point of view. that's why i said i understood where that anon was coming from. 

what i see is william shatner and others taking a story that ended in a way that was disrespectful to both characters, one of which he himself has been playing for the majority of his life, and trying to fix that. it doesn't mean there's no corporate greed involved. both can be true. at least they posted it on youtube, they didn't premiere it or put it behind a paywall. it was just eight minutes, and less than a quarter of that had nimoy's face in it. my favorite part of the whole thing was seeing tos kirk meet his future selves. i love that even though they both die out of their times, they find each other in the end. 

i don't want to be an activist or defend or endorse anything, i just... 

those zines i tagged were 1) a poem by della van hise that was so accurate to the short that others were already reblogging it (i posted it weeks ago). i found it super interesting that she wrote a poem about them meeting again in death before tmp/wok even came out, let alone this short. 2) i was gushing about unification in the tags. 3) another poem about being side by side, which again, i found incredibly relevant. the other one i posted was because it went well with the others visually. it has nothing to do with unification other than the fact that spock is laying down. 

this has just made me sad tbh. i'm not angry and i love your analysis/fan work so much, so :( idk, i don't want anything i post to be divisive or disrespectful. i wasn't even worried about that before. i just really needed a win and maybe i clung to that a little too hard :/

[charlotte-liddel]

𝘒𝘕𝘖𝘞𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘠𝘖𝘜𝘙  𝘗𝘈𝘙𝘛𝘕𝘌𝘙  𝘞𝘌𝘓𝘓  𝘊𝘈𝘕  𝘗𝘖𝘛𝘌𝘕𝘛𝘐𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠  𝘔𝘈𝘒𝘌  𝘞𝘙𝘐𝘛𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘛𝘖𝘎𝘌𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙  𝘈  𝘓𝘖𝘛  𝘌𝘈𝘚𝘐𝘌𝘙.

NAME :  Elipseon

PRONOUNS :  She/Her

PREFERENCE  OF  COMMUNICATION :  If we're mutuals then generally tumblr IM system is fine. Sometimes I'll add some mutuals onto discord after a while too since I don't always haunt the dash. I also speak through tags on threads.

NAME  OF  MUSE(S) : Charlotte (For this main blog, all others are side blogs), @lockhart-investigations for Meia and Enzo, @inky-anemone for Anemone, @grounded-sparrow for Suzume, @lyanna-of-aryllia for Lyanna and @tempestuous-melody for Muirín. (For the side blogs, I will do threads on them usually by request since I don't promote them too much)

EXPERIENCE  /  HOW  LONG  (  MONTHS  /  YEARS? ) :  Casually for about nearly 20 years at this point.

BEST  EXPERIENCE : I'd have to say that Kinkoz so far has been one of my best experiences in just both RP and OOC chatting. I'm a fairly guarded individual with most, and I don't trust easy. There are others too certainly that I enjoy writing with and do my best to keep up letting people know I am aware and care best I can.

RP  PET  PEEVES  /  DEALBREAKERS : There are a few things that become deal breakers for me, and some are rather common. To keep it simple I'll quick fire them: Not tagging posts properly (especially leaving meme prompts untagged), Live-blogging mun actions/game playing constantly on an RP blog (This includes trying to hide the live blogging as character actions, and to do so for consecutive hours each day), Any participation in witch hunts/callout culture, Any sort of specified name dropping/airing of a private issue or falling out with another mun on their RP blogs (Just don't do that, it's self destructive), Lying about age to get into NSFW interactions with an older mun (Anyone claiming to be 18-20 I am wary of for the risks they might be 15-17 due to past experiences), and finally Clout/Popularity chasing within the RPC/Giving outwardly Popular blogs reply priority over longer time close mutuals/friends. That last one I see too often, and I will generally quietly remove myself from people who try to play that Popularity chasing game by dropping friends and mutuals the popular people don't like. This is a hobby, not a re-enactment of high school interpersonal drama.

MUSE  PREFERENCES  FLUFF,   ANGST  OR  SMUT : I enjoy fluff and angst like any other. Smut is reserved for mutuals I trust and discord only, since I will rarely write it and only do so with proper chemistry.

PLOTS  OR  MEMES : I don't really run memes all that often, if it isn't obvious, and I prefer plots. Nothing ever too overly thought out so the interaction can be fun, but just enough so we have an idea of where we're going.

LONG  OR  SHORT  REPLIES :  I'll do either really, but I prefer mid to long over short where I can help it.

BEST TIME TO WRITE : It can vary day to day sometimes, but usually in the evening for me.

ARE  YOU  LIKE  YOUR  MUSE(S) :  There's a bit of my values set in each of my muses, obviously. The blunt honestly and slightly erratic natures are the obvious, alongside the love of music. Beyond that though, each of my muses has personalities that vary well beyond myself and I enjoy writing them for those differences.

tagged by: @wayward-sword (How dare you tag me Kinkoz XD)

tagging: @baymaxmuses , @strawberry-barista , @hellahell , @hellcab and honestly whoever else of my mutuals who would like to steal this off me!

[orionsangel86]

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You know when I first joined Twitter I had many reservations. I had always heard that Twitter fandom was pretty toxic and for that reason I tried to avoid it as long as possible. Eventually with Tumblr slowly dying I just went for it. I was... pretty damn naive when I joined up.

I have always said, over and over again, that my main reason for even being in fandom was to meet new people and make new friendships that would outlast Supernatural. At this point in time I feel I have accomplished this, though I am always open to making new friends. I like to think, that this being my primary reason for being here, it makes me a genuine person. I am not altogether that interested in popularity, getting the most followers, making my opinion the one everyone MUST believe in, and I never had much interest in “fighting” antis first hand. Sure I liked writing meta and would defend myself if I was attacked, but seeking out drama and forcing my opinion on others were never things that I cared about.

Twitter changed me. I said I was naive, and I was particularly naive to people seeking me out, being super nice to me, inviting me into lots of various fandom GCs and welcoming me with open arms. When people do that, you feel loved, you feel like you are a part of something, and very quickly it can become addictive. You very easily start feeling like those people are your friends, and you get protective of them. You support them, stand up for them, and turn a blind eye when their behaviour gives you pause.

The other thing you should know about me is that I am an empath. Sometimes this is a strength, and sometimes it is a weakness. I hate the idea of upsetting people, and I feel strongly towards those who are upset. I always try to see different points of view in a situation, and I am very consciencous of offending people - When I have offended others, I tend to dwell on it for a long time afterwards, wanting to make things right. But I also think that being empathic can make me prone to manipulation. Especially of the emotional kind. When that happens I can get defensive myself, when I suspect emotional manipulation I shut down very quickly, and I can get spiteful towards it. It’s a defense mechanism. I often regret my actions later. I feel like Twitter fandom has brought out some of my nastier qualities, but I feel that I need to explain where I think this has come from.

I was invited into a GC that in hindsight, was a bad place. It was supposedly a place created to vent about things that upset us, and to keep an eye on that “other” side of fandom - the bronlys. It was a secret place, you must never talk about this GC, I was told. This GC didn’t exist. I’m going to talk about this GC, and in doing so will probably get attacked, subtweeted, called out directly, called a liar, exposed for being this that and whatever, probably have my private DMs shared, and yeah... a whole bunch of shit probably. I’m altogether not prepared for any of that, but since I have that whole bunch blocked now, I’m hoping any shit they say about me will blow over. Anyone who truly knows me, knows I am not the person they make me out to be anyway.

When I first joined that GC the point was to call out hate towards the cast and the writers. To find tagged tweets and bullying and harassment and make sure that the wider fandom knew exactly who the problem people were. I believed in that process. I believed that we were doing good for the fandom in making newer fans aware of who needed to be avoided, as I had heard stories first hand of people who had come into fandom reached out to bigger fandom accounts and immediately been shut down and bullied just for saying they liked Castiel or shipped Dean and Cas. I was angry at those hateful people and wanted some kind of justice for them, so yeah, I joined in happily with the call outs.

But over the past year, things have changed. First, it was not just calling out bronlies, it was calling out extreme stans, who also tagged the writers in their hate. Sure, I wasn’t happy that anyone was tagging the writers in hate, so fuck those people. They can go to hell. I’ll support the calling out of those names too. Then, when people started turning on meta writers like me and taking the piss out of our meta, calling it bullshit and mocking us, it was hurtful, so when that GC rallied together to support me and my fellow meta writers and call out those assholes I was all for it. They were screencapping my meta and calling me deluded after all, why shouldn’t I defend myself and get my friends to help? People in fandom can be dicks when they want to be. But then again, so can we all.

Then it got weird. I think people in fandom started getting nervous about the final season announcement and how the show would end. Cas stans started getting extremely negative about his chances for survival. Destiel shippers started complaining about Destiel being queerbaiting and planning on going after the writers if it didn’t go canon. These were people who I was mutuals with, whose accounts I followed, and whose opinions, whilst they were kind of upsetting for me as a positive fan, were untagged personal opinions and not hate. Those people weren’t attacking positive fans, though sometimes discussions got heated, arguably it got heated on both sides. When the GC started going after those people I started feeling uncomfortable. But I kept quiet. This, I have come to realise, was a huge mistake.

Suddenly other fans were fighting against the GC people. They (we) were called “the fandom police” and “the bully squad” by so many others. I started noticing how other fans, fellow Destiel shippers, were blocking me and avoiding me for my associations with this group. I watched as the GC people started slagging off accounts that were my long time mutuals, my close friends, people I had met in real life and knew to be good people all because they had voiced a slightly negative opinion about the show. If you are relatively well known in Supernatural fandom, chances are this GC has slagged you off.

At the same time, I had watched how some of my friends within the GC “clique” had started changing, how their behaviour online was becoming aggressive and mean. How they were antagonistic and bullyish. My friends. People who I knew were good people before. The dog piling, the condescending tones, the entitled sense of righteousness, it all added up. I started trying to voice my concerns, both to people I was close to within the GC privately, and timidly within the GC itself - for which I was shut down. I started reconsidering my own behaviour online. Had I too acted like this? Had I also aggressively gone after people for simply voicing a negative opinion? Had I also shown myself to be exactly what this GC was supposed to be fighting against?

Some of the others privately admitted to feeling the same way. Some of us backed off and stopped associating with the main GC accounts. We kept our distance from them, some I know muted them. But none of us left the GC. I wish I had back then rather than letting it escalate further.

It had once again got worse from just going after people with negative opinions, now they were going after anyone who disagreed with their specific opinions. Either you agree with us, or you are an idiot. I couldn’t stomach it anymore. My friend, who was also in the GC, decided to query this new line of thinking because she disagreed with the “big opinion”. This is what kicked off all the drama. I’m not going to go into detail about it because otherwise it’ll get too obvious and personal and I want to keep this vague because whilst these people have hurt me and spread lies about me I actually don’t intend to call them out personally or reveal whose who in the group.

Just know this. By the time I eventually spoke up it was apparantly too late. My admittence of my discomfort was seen as a betrayal. There were private DMs in which I got defensive and snapped back whilst emotional about basically losing all my closest Twitter friends, and some messages I sent which I am not proud of. If they get out, fair enough. Judge me all you like. Just understand that I was extremely upset and confused how no one else apparantly saw the issues I was seeing; that this GC was indeed bullying and policing fandom, and that these people were intimidating, threatening, and manipulating everyone into believing they were victims.

I tried to let it drop, I tried to ignore it. I wanted to keep quiet. But my quitting the GC, my request to those who were calmer and less inclined towards bad behaviour to at least keep the ones who were bullying fandom in line, didn’t stop them. Their behaviour has only escalated further and Twitter fandom right now is an awful place because of it. The bronlys must be laughing at us, because Destiel fandom has turned cannabalistic.

I spoke out recently. I tried to keep it vague in a tweet about the recent drama in general. But one thing I said gets pulled out separately and suddenly I’m the big bad wolf invalidating people and I’m a horrible person who is clearly fetishising destiel as I want them to fuck on the map table apparantly?!?! I mean, this is what these people do. They take something and blow it up. They twist your words, they basically throw a dictionary of large complex words at you claiming you are x,y,and z. they use terms like gaslighting and strawmanning aimed at you and in the confusion it takes you forever to actually realise that they are doing those things themselves. Constantly. To everyone.

Look I took it too far. I subtweeted too. I exhibited those bad behaviours as well. Hell, I learned from the best after all. I was in that GC for a year. Of course I am still trying to unlearn those behaviours. I am not proud of my behaviour on Twitter. After this post, I will try to do be better. Everyday. I will be better. I apologise to anyone I may have hurt by supporting and encouraging that behaviour.

I have had mutual friends tell me privately that I need to stop. What upsets me, is that those mutuals aren’t exactly telling the others to stop too. No. Those were the mutuals who stayed quiet whilst those particular people just constantly attacked and bullied everyone. So I’m sorry, but this is me not stopping, this is me making one last post on the topic. This is me telling my story as I see it. This is me pouring my heart out and getting it off my chest. This is my truth. I’m not spinning lies here, I’m not trying to twist anything, because I think I also come across quite badly. But the recent accusations against me, claiming I don’t care for anyone else in fandom, that my calling out “so called bullying” is just my personal vendetta against people who used to be my friends. Well, yes. Technically you’d be right there, they did used to be my friends, but no. Where you are wrong, is saying I don’t care. Because if I didn’t care about the bullying that I am STILL seeing on my timeline via upset mutuals reacting to the hurtful tweets of those I have blocked, I would just ignore it and not cause myself further drama. If I didn’t 100% believe those people were bullies, they’d still be my friends. I wouldn’t have called them out. Why would I put myself through all this if I didn’t 100% believe what I’ve been saying? That’s just madness.

Because here’s the thing, I HATE bullies. I have been bullied my whole fucking life, and what I hate MORE than that, was that through that GC I also became something that I hated. Because by associating with them for that year, I might as well have called myself a bully too. And that I just can’t forgive.

So my reason for writing this post is twofold.

1. Yes, it’s to defend the lies spread against me. So that those wondering if I am actually a fake bitch with a vendetta against certain people can make up their own minds. Perhaps this post exasperates that, or in your minds confirms their accusations about me. Maybe it does. I would argue that I am not fake. This isn’t fake. This is my personal truth and a very personal account of things that have greatly hurt me and caused me much internal conflict over the past few months. Those people who I am accusing (whose names I have left out to stupidly protect their privacy because believe it or not I’m not a bitch who encourages harassment against anyone even people I consider bullies) will never admit that their behaviour is wrong. They will continue to attempt to convince anyone who asks that I turned on them for no reason, or because I blindly follow my friend who they are also attacking and exposing right now for getting emotional and taking a DM convo too far. If you choose to believe them that is your right, clearly you and I were never close enough for you to trust my word over the words of people whose behaviour is clearly and proudly splashed all over their own social media accounts. Frankly, if you see all that, and still believe that behaviour is okay, you are no friend of mine.

2. It’s because I want people to know that actually, through all the pain and drama and emotion and loss of friendship, and conflict and struggle with my mental health, I do care. I care too damn much. If I didn’t I wouldn’t have spent an hour of my Sunday writing this out. Because this has been toiling and whirling inside me painfully for months and I am fed up of it. I had to write it down. I had to get it out of me. I want these people out of my life for good, but I can’t sit by and let bullies continue to manipulate my fandom, my mutuals, my friends who I see encouraged by their behaviour to imitate it. They are unfortunately very good at encouraging others to also partake in their behaviour. Please do not fall for it. Please consider your tone when tweeting or replying to someone with an opposing opinion. Please don’t feed bad behaviour by liking it and tweeting it just because you agree with the specific opinion buried within the condescension. Please don’t throw around strong accusations like homophobia against your fellow queer fans just because they have different desires from this dumb show that we all love.

If you can all do that for me, then I will promise to do it for you too.

I am terrified to post this post. I know that in doing so I am burning quite a few bridges. I know that those I accuse will do everything in their power to make out that I am insane, that I am a psycho. I know that I am exposing myself to more attacks, more harassment. I am sure there will be plenty of twitter threads dragging my name through the mud. They’ll dismiss all of this, call it bullshit, once again claim its just my personal vendetta against certain people. I guess I’m hoping that by anticipating all this and writing it down, it might give those people pause to just stop and leave me be. Stop the cycle of bad behaviour that has caused all this escalation and go back to enjoying the show without policing everyone else.

At this point I just want everyone to know the truth. Whether you believe it or not is your prerogative. This show ends in a few months time and I just want to enjoy it without seeing bullying in my timeline. That’s what this has always been about.

We must stand up to bullying. We must not let it ruin the final few months of this show. This post is my final word on the topic. I won’t respond to anything else. I won’t respond to any threats, any subtweets against me going forward. Hateful anons will be blocked. I won’t respond to anyone asking me for more info and I have no intention of naming people personally or giving more clues as to the GC or the people who were in it. So please don’t ask. Just keep an eye out for bad behaviour in fandom and if you see it, block or mute the source, only call it out if you know you have the mental capabilities to tackle the gaslighting. But absolutely do not support it. Do not feed the bullies as attention is what they want most of all, that and making their words the only words fandom follows.

I am done with this now. I won’t discuss this more.

[mydamnrules]

RULES AND STUFF

   i will try and keep these nice and short.  

 I am a slow writer & i write in prose.   If that isn’t your cup of tea, i would suggest not following, cause i cba to deal with someone whining about prose.   **i do take a while with ims / discord messages, i'm a full time student and i get busy, i have other hobbies too, be patience with me. i get overwhelmed fast and i feel drained. .. 

I MIGHT NOT BE ON VERY MUCH DURING LATE AUG TILL DEC (this post will basically say why u_u ). spoiler, it is college.

  tag your NSFW AND POLITICS. If you don’t tag these, I will unfollow / not follow you. if you post a lot of character hate (mainly untagged) i also won’t follow: keep your drama to yourself, don’t drag me into it, i just want to have fun here. finally. DON’T TRY AND TREAT ME LIKE PROPERTY OR ACT LIKE I OWE YOU A SHIP OR ANY SHIT LIKE THAT. I WILL BLOCK YOU SO FAST.. i don't interact with yoi, my little pony or rp blogs based on rl, or killing stalking blogs 

I don't send passwords in.  i will always read your rules upon following, but passwords just add stress on me.

BLOG IS NOT SPOILER FREE.  i will be tagging manga spoilers up to a week after they are out / same with anime. 

 reblog krama is bs, like if you want to reblog the meme, go ahead, but please keep in mind i am not a meme source.

 Don’t take anything from this blog.  icons, promos, writing, headcanons --- nothing.  to many times someone have ripped off something i made, or chopped up pieces of my metas / headcanons and claimed them as their own. So fair warning,  if you do steal from me, i will find out  :  i am not nice to those that steal. if you want / like something that i have made, nine of of ten times, if you ask me nicely, i will be more than happy to help / make you something,  i enjoy making stuff for people over having people take from me  :)

i am MUTUAL EXCLUSIVE.   i will only write with people i follow. Memes, starter calls and plot calls are mutuals only as well,  I am open to ooc interactions with non-mutuals.  

 Blog is MULTISHIP, MULTIVERSE, CROSSOVER, OC FRIENDLY.

i might be ship / verse  exclusive later but ---i would leisurely be accepting.  i would rather i am comfortable with my partner / talked to them ooc and both partners are in agreeance before taking on any form of exclusively  ----  i will have MAINS (one or more of the same muse??? so aye ).

Feel free to turn memes into threads, but move it to a new post and @ me. I don’t do ask threads, and if you reply on the ask, I will ignore it.

 a given, but DON’T GODMOD.

I am pretty chill with OCs.  Have a RULE AND ABOUT PAGE.

THERE WILL BE MATURE CONTENT ON THIS BLOG.   triggering content such as nsfw to gore, and such will be tagged. Triggers will be tagged as TRIGGER NAME // 

Guns, knives, and low appearances of blood ( a little nose bleed or a small cut) will not be automatically tagged.   if you need anything specific tagged, let me know, anon or not.      NO TRIGGERS myself. 

I enjoy shipping and i am pretty chill with it.  i am always open to discuss ships, or just let them develop with chemistry.  whatever.  

FEEL FREE to send shippy memes if you want : i love them okay. 

 Don’t force ship me, blab blab blab,  there is a difference between wanting to explore a ship and straight out focusing such and so on, blab blab blab   :   I am down for all type of relationships and friendships.   ok 

boring shit over, have fun, and i look forward to interacting. 

[avidbeader]

OH MY GOD FINALLY!

Husband had to work. I had to wait for husband to get home. I can’t remember the last time I used so much willpower to stay off Twitter and Tumblr to avoid untagged spoilers...

Some initial, chaotic impressions under the cut:

(1) I love what the writing staff has done with Lotor and I hate it because I don’t want my babies having to fight competent and smart villains. Love A.J. Locascio’s work as the voice actor.

(2) On the plus side, more actual infighting within the Galra Empire is a good thing.

(3) I don’t like how the Blade of Marmora faded into mentions after the first episode, but keep reminding myself that this was originally the first half of a longer series. Similarly, we didn’t see Keith’s Marmora blade *once* that I recall in my flying first watch.

(4) And at first I thought it was cool to have shorter episodes more often, but having been through it, now I think I’d rather have the full 13 episodes even if it does mean a longer wait.

(5) The callbacks both amused and slightly annoyed me. Some were very subtle unless you are familiar with GoLion, such as the original names for Haggar and the Galra homeworld. I think I could have done without Sven, but if they had to do it, it was amusing and did not drag on for too long. (Tangent question: that WAS poor Josh Keaton trying to do a Norwegian accent, wasn’t it?)

(6) While I’m still not thrilled with musical lions--it really does feel like following the old show too much to me--at least they tried to justify why and how the changes could happen given stated canon and made a lot of drama about it. (Keith’s “Please, no.” is never not going to hurt.) I also like the confirmation that Alfor piloted the Red Lion, for the selfish reason that I guessed right in one of my fanfics.

(7) On the other hand, sorting out the team dynamic, and then resorting it was good drama with some emotional and some funny moments. I am both pleased with Allura’s development into a strong team member, even as I’m stamping my feet that she didn’t need a freaking lion to be important to the story and what about her pink sparkly magic?

(8) I have a nasty, suspicious mind. I am really, really not certain about this Shiro being our Shiro, despite the moments shared with the others, especially Keith. There’s this “Operation Kuron” thing. The fact that they did a subtle redesign of the character post-haircut just makes me think that original-design Shiro is still out there somewhere and this one is Not The One. The fact that Black wouldn’t fly for him might support that idea. I also genuinely wasn’t expecting Shiro’s absence to be resolved until close to the end of the season

(9) I like that the writers are showing Keith’s growth as a leader as a process, not a guaranteed result. I’m generally pleased with his interactions with Lance evolving, I guess (still don’t ship them, never will). I’m less pleased with the emphasis on Pidge demanding “plans with specifics now please”. Yes, its in her nature but I feel like the writers put too much emphasis on it.

(10) The idea of the Galra Girl Generals squad is excellent. Lotor’s embrace of hybrids (assuming that the impression is correct and he is Zarkon and Haggar’s son and therefore a hybrid himself) is a good thing and sets up Interesting Possibilities down the road when he and Keith come face to face. However, the characters themselves feel awfully one-note so far: the one that shoots first without asking questions, the chirpy one, the mysterious one (although the fact that she’s blind is a cool representational thing), and the competent/loyal one.

(11) I’m all for the throw-it-all-against-the-wall method for finales, like “Best Laid Plans/Blackout”. I’m not quite so sure about mid-arc. Lotor seems to have so many things going (propaganda war, solidifying his position, teladuv piece, comet...) that I feel like I’m losing track even with only 7 episodes.

(12) I don’t know if it’s an effect of the split season or what, but there were points where I felt the story genuinely dragged. I never felt that in Seasons 1-2; even if there were plot points that interested me less, I never felt that the story was dragging before.

(13) Case in point - I’m not sure we needed nearly a full episode to delve into Zarkon and Alfor’s background. I feel like a lot of that story could have been tightened up in favor of moving the general arc along a little more or giving fans some of the stuff we hope to see like flashbacks to the Garrison/more about Matt. If we had the full 13 episodes at once, it might not have stuck out so much.

I have a bit of shippy stuff to say, but I’ll save it for another post, possibly after a rewatch. Short version would be I am generally pleased except for the lurking suspicion of #7 above.

And NOW I get to wade through an entire day’s stuff on Tumblr...see you on the other side.

[riddle-factory]

Just in case anyone was wondering where I’m at in the whole fowllplay vs mushu&dee debacle, my ten cents are under the cut. Posted here without tags or @s because im honestly just trying to communicate my own opinions on the matter, however i still recognize that im in no way actually involved with the situation.

After reading fowllplays entire post and reviewing all of their receipts for the drama, and after hearing about the other side of the matter from one of the parties involved, I’ve come to this conclusion.

Fowllplay has been constantly attacked by the fandom for hcing oswald as ace/gay. Notice, however, that nobody seems to actually be bothered by the gay part. Thru all the receipts, not once is anyone ruffled by his gayness. People are taking issue with him being ace and fowl basically raging in private any time anyone hcs him as anything else. To be fair, it is their private blog and these posts are not tagged, but, still, it’s hurtful to post mean shit about ppl you know will see it one way or another (which, despite all the blocks, you guys still roll in the same fandom and in the same circles of writers, it’s bound to happen). What I don’t understand is why people need to be so vocal about their disagreements. Who cares if some blog hcs Oswald as ace? Why pick that bone when you could be pissed off about the fact that fowl seems to think their oswald is the purest most canon and most bestest 100% a+ penguin out there (note the sarcasm).

The fact is that being aggressive over oswald being ace is acephobic and therefore shitty. BUT being shitty about oswald being bisexual or pansexual is????? ALSO BIGOTRY! whoaaaaa!!!! imagine that       

bi and pan folks struggle to get their identities recognized as real. and you’ll notice that the prosecution actually doesnt have any receipts to show of dee and mushu saying anything besides untagged, private posts expressing their mild-mannered disagreements.

what strikes me as the most likely scenario is that, yeah, fowl sent jude some shitty anons recently because they seem to equate hcing oswald as anything but ace/gay as homophobia (?????????? how tho???????????). and now they’re throwing a tantrum bc the shit has finally hit the fan. either way, im no forensic computer scientist so i couldnt give the 100% about anything.

but it does seem shifty that right before/after these toxic anons are sent, fowl is making posts that express the exact same sentiments as the toxic anons. Occam's razor; it’s the most likely explanation.

that being said, i do think its shitty that they’ve been pushed to this point by other people in the fandom who can’t seem to live and let live when it comes to ace muses. i do happen to know, though, that jude and dee and i only ever discuss fowl when they go and send toxic anons to people we’re friends with. so whatever idea they seem to have about them “stalking their blogs” is pretty much paranoia garnished with a light layer of narcissism.

basically?

everyone sit the fuck down, stop talking to each other, stop talking about each other, and write ur dumb roleplays with ur dumb internet friends like the adults you are christ it’s not hard to just LIVE AND LET LIVE

[alanna-the-lionheart]

“I Wrote Your Name in My Heart” (7/?), olicity s5 AU fic

Rating: M

Warnings: graphic descriptions (violence & physical/psychological torture), discussions of rape but no actual rape)

Summary: One cold night in December, a group of men kidnap Oliver right in front of Felicity. They leave behind no ransom or demands, no hints to his fate, and no clues to follow. As the new year starts, the team begins to lose hope that they will ever be able to save the Green Arrow; all except Felicity, because Felicity just got Oliver back, and she’ll be damned if she’s going to lose him again. Her hope pays off in the end…but when they finally find Oliver, they find a broken man they barely recognize. Felicity vows to do whatever it takes to make the man she loves whole again. Started off as a future fic but is now technically alternate canon/AU (takes places starting in early December 2016).

AN: My first long multi-chapter story in the Arrow-verse. Not sure how many chapters it’ll be. Expect a ton of angst, supportive Olicity, some flashbacks, and a bit of hope.

(Previous Chapters:  Prologue, Chapter1, Chapter2, Chapter3, Chapter4, Chapter5)

Tagging: @hope-for-olicity @memcjo @miriam1779@pleasantfanandstudent @laksagirl

I hope I caught everyone who’d wanted to be tagged. I made a list a few weeks back but my computer ate it at some point. :( If anyone wants to be tagged/untagged please let me know. :)

I Wrote Your Name in My Heart <–Chapter Six: You’re Stronger Than You Know–>

The day after she buys Oliver his new art supplies, Donna returns to keep them both company. Oliver’s already started on his second drawing (someone’s using a blowtorch to burn his lower back) and she watches him for a time while Felicity gets some work done at the dining room table. When Oliver opens up some of the paints to start on a new drawing, Donna asks Oliver if there’s anything he wants to talk about.

Felicity knows what the answer will be, of course - and she suspects her mother does as well - but then Oliver puts the paints down to look at Donna. He stares at her long and hard, his brow furrowing, and Felicity puts her tablet down, because for a brief second she thinks that maybe Oliver will decide to talk to her. But in the end Oliver shakes his head. Donna smiles at him, reaching over the coffee table to squeeze his hand. Oliver looks down at her hand on his, and he doesn’t pull away.

“It’s all right, hon. If you ever do feel like talking, or maybe you just want to show me one of your drawings, just know that I’ll be here, okay?”

Oliver gazes at her quietly for a moment...and eventually, he nods. Donna smiles, then sits back in her chair and turns on the TV to watch her soaps. Oliver looks at her thoughtfully for a few more minutes before picking up his paints and starting on a new drawing.

From her spot at the kitchen table, Felicity smiles. Then she grabs her journal from where it’s sitting next to her pile of work papers and starts writing furiously.

On the second day, Felicity asks Oliver if she can draw something, too.

“Felicity,” Oliver agrees.

He gives her her own pad of paper, and he moves his carefully organized supplies over so she can have some space at the table. He readjusts the pillows behind his back and under his right leg. He prefers sitting on the floor in front of the couch, as it gives him better access to the coffee table he’s taken over as his art space. Felicity has done everything she can to make sure he stays as comfortable as possible, which includes plenty of pillows, a helping hand when he needs to get up, and routine walks around the loft for exercise.

Felicity draws a few pictures of how they spent their summer away together. She’s a terrible artist (“you always have been,” Donna will tell her later. “You were always much better with computers and numbers”) and she gets Oliver to smile when she shows him her weird stick figure drawings.

“We’re on the beach, Oliver. See? That’s you on a blanket.”

Oliver stares at it, tilting his head to the side and making the most adorable confused face she’s ever seen.

“Drama queen,” she teases him, and she rips the page out of her pad. She’s just started to crumple it up when Oliver reaches over and grabs her hands.

“FELICITY!” he admonishes, and she stops. She lays it out on the table and smoothes it out as best she can. She hands it out to him and Oliver takes it, smoothing it out a bit more. When he’s done she helps him to his feet, and he takes it over to the wall where she’s hung his drawing of her rescuing him.

“Felicity,” he says, holding her terrible drawing up against the wall next to his work of art.

Felicity smiles. “Okay, honey. Let me get the tape.”

And she tapes her drawing up next to Oliver’s and gets started on another one.

When Donna comes over an hour later, she gets her own pad, too, and her drawings turn out to be pretty good; not Oliver quality, but certainly better than her daughter’s.

Donna draws a few simple pictures to start with: a desert landscape in Vegas, a forest scene in Washington where she grew up, and a particularly beautiful image of the night sky (Felicity’s love of star-gazing and space came from her mother). Oliver smiles when she shows him the space drawing, and he holds out his hand.

“Felicity?” he asks her.

“What is it, Oliver?” Donna asks in confusion.

“Felicity!” Oliver says again, and he points to the wall where his and Felicity’s drawings are posted.

“He wants to hang it up, Mom,” Felicity tells her, and she bites her lower lip, overcome with sudden emotion.

“Oh! Oh of course, sweetie, I’d love for you to hang it up,” Donna responds with a smile, and she holds out the drawing.

Oliver practically beams, and he takes the picture from her and uses the tape to put it up on the other side of Felicity’s. When Oliver sits back down with them, Felicity looks at her miserable drawing sitting between the two of theirs.

“I need to step up my game, huh?” she asks Oliver playfully, and Oliver just smiles and shakes his head.

“You like my terrible drawing?” she asks him, and Oliver nods enthusiastically.

“Felicity ,” he says, and it’s a promise.

She can’t help it; she leans over and kisses him on the cheek.

“Thank you,” she says warmly, and Oliver blushes as he picks up a pencil to keep working on his drawing: a picture of a man cutting on him, using a scalpel to carefully and precisely reopen his scars. As Felicity and Donna start working on new drawings, Felicity thinks she might ask Oliver to draw her something happy tonight.

(read the rest on AO3)