#That is 100% a problem and i still wish that they had done better with the representation of each culture

[nabi-unveiled]

I'm struggling a wee bit with Tan's speech in this episode. It's definitely a me problem. Like Shane, I tend to overthink everything. Although I've gotten a lot better over the years, wording can very quickly trip me up as my brain latches on to things in odd ways.

But here's how this speech goes for me...

Great. I'm with you. 100% true. Let's make a poster of that pronto.

Amazing. I wish more teachers and society in general recognized that. Perfectionism is a STRUGGLE. Even worse is the feeling when you know you aren't measuring up. My brother has went through Kim's struggle. He's the funny one. I've went through Shane's.

And this is where my brain came to a screeching halt. It works for now. "Being a model student just means you're good enough".

But does that mean that if I don't get the title next time, that I wasn't "good enough"? That I'm only good enough if I get the title?

To be clear, I know that's not what Tan means. We already see Kim going through a similar dilemma.

We know that's not the underlying message. I do appreciate the parallels of Kim not feeling good enough when he didn't get the title and Shane not feeling good enough even though he did.

I value the underlying point the show is making a lot. I've chosen the word "Enough" as my planner word of the year for multiple years running.

What ever I get done is enough. It's okay to stop work and go to sleep.

What ever I am able to accomplish is enough. It is okay to ask someone else for help.

What I am able to offer others is enough. It is okay if I don't know the right words to say or what I am supposed to do.

I am enough.

I've said that as a mantra over the years to try to drill it into my brain. It's still a struggle.

So yes...I very much get Tan's point. I just wish it was worded a teeny-tiny bit differently. I know it's a subtle difference, but I wish he had just said "You're good enough."

Because for a kid like Shane? He'll hear this speech in his head a lot in the years to come. Pretty much every time he feels like he's not measuring up. With that in mind, I'm going to tell myself that he takes it as intended rather than overthinking the wording. Perfection is not required nor expected. Let's leave it at that.

That said, this line by Tan....

I also need that line on a poster.

[talkorsomething]

Trying to do better in Everything but also hardly practiced 2day & have been trapped on the couch by my darling baby kitty who i love so much for over 2 hours. Definitely need to be in bed by now, DEFINITELY needed to have done other things.

But ... hard to exist with someone else in the house.

[deadassluv]

JWCT SPOILERS

People who say Sammy or Yaz are wrong are the ones who are WRONG!

Now let me explain.

I’ve watched season 3 like three times by now (yeah ik I’m obsessed) and I’ve pay a lot of attention to details, expressions, actions, words, and let me tell ya, everything is amazingly well done, season three is the best one so far, even better than season 3 of cc. Overall I give it a 9.8/10, can’t give it the full ten because of the handlers death and the Yasammy break up, but everyone has their opinions. But that’s not the reason why I’m writing this.

Before I start, this is MY opinion I’m not saying this is a fact or whatever, so don’t attack me.

Both of Sammy’s and Yaz’s opinions are valid, like super valid, I completely understand both sides. But Sammy’s side is more understandable than Yaz’s, and just because it is it doesn’t mean that Yaz is wrong, she is a 100% NOT wrong for wanting to help her friend, her sister, Brooklynn is someone Yaz considers as FAMILY, and she is just worried, and in case nobody “noticed” she misses Brooklynn, she just wants to see her, make sure she’s okay, she wants to hug her, talk to her again. And all of this wishes make Yaz think that Sammy’s argument is not …right in a way. Also, I think all this time away from her girl has made her read Sammy less, if that makes sense.

Yaz has grown so much as a character, you can see that her ptsd has gotten better, way better, to the point where she’s willing to yell at one to save her girl, or be brave enough to find a way to escape when being chased by one. She has become better at listening to her friend’s problems and talking them through it. Now here’s the thing that I’ve noticed, Yaz seems to be helping everyone but one person, and that is Sammy, her own girl. Why? The reason why I think that Yaz might think that Sammy does not need the help she’s giving everyone else is because she is just afraid. She is probably afraid that while trying to help Sammy she will do or say something that’s gonna make Sammy think that Yaz has done no progress. Or maybe she thinks that if Sammy had some kind of problem she will immediately go to her and talk to her about it. But that’s what Yaz doesn’t know, she doesn’t know that Sammy is not communicating, not the way she should.

Communication is key, we all know that we all have heard that before. But there’s no communication in this relationship or ex relationship (I really don’t want to call it that) Yaz is listening to Sammy but at the same time she’s not. Yaz doesn’t seem to take Sammy’s argument serious, she calls Sammy ridiculous and then she calls her a coward (which is not entirely a lie) not only that, Yaz thinks that Sammy is not only being affected by Brooklynn but also her family. Yaz is not wrong by thinking that but the fact that she didn’t even thought about her leaving Sammy and going miles away from her didn’t affect Sammy is what escalates the issue.

Sammy also made a bunch of mistakes, she has been avoiding COMMUNICATION with her girlfriend, she’s been having this kind of passive aggressive behavior towards Yaz, and that just made things more complicated. Every time her and Yaz tried to have a not so argumentative conversation it always ended up becoming an argument, because neither one of them don’t want to listen to each other. Sammy is so blinded by grief, betrayal, abandonment, anger, and sadness that she just can’t seem to find herself anymore. The whole thing of her family not talking to her seemed to make her believe that Brooklynn is doing the same thing to them. She feels like Brooklynn just doesn’t care about them, about her. As we know Sammy and Brooklynn were inseparable, they were like sisters, and the whole Brooklynn prefers to go with the woman that tried to killed her and them, is the final straw for Sammy. That’s what makes her snap and not care about what anyone else says other than herself.

The thing that hurts the most about this break up is that they both still love each other so much, but they are too afraid that if they stick together they’re going to end up hurting one another. They both thought that the best way of not hurting each other was just end things, maybe go back to what they use to be, just friends. But they are both wrong, the break up only made things worse between them, to the point where Sammy can’t even look at Yaz or talk to her because it hurts her so much. And Yaz, you can see that it hurts her that Sammy doesn’t want to even look her way, the way she stared at the table seen that she has actually lost her girl. Sammy preferred to go back home than to be with her, and that broke her heart even more.

I still believe that they’re going to find a way of getting back together. Like come on, that’s the crew’s favorite couple, they won an award thanks to them. There’s no way Sammy and Yaz are not end game.

And if they are going to fix things I just hope there more than just one season left, so things don’t feel rushed. They deserve their time to talk about everything and be comfortable with each other again. And also Brooklynn needs to help with the whole getting Sammy and Yaz together situation, because Brooklynn played a big part on destroying those two girls.

Sorry ik is a lot, but I really needed to share this opinion to see if anyone agrees with me or if I’m just crazy and completely obsessed with them. (They’re my emotional support)

I hope everyone feels okay after that heart breaking season :)

[oneemasan]

"I... don't need a wish today - Being with everyone is enough."

Fairytale soiree event by @angelwishess - congatulations on 100+ followers and thank you for hosting the event, i had a lot of fun!!

this is my first time joining a fan event (and drawing an actual card for erice), design notes & clear file under the cut!

jfdghsfgjjksghfdj i didn't think i would have time to draw erice for the event any time soon, but for some reason i didn't feel like working on any of my wips today so i painted the background to relax a bit (and warm up) aaaand ended up with the card done 4 hours later - well, why not!

at the very beginning i wasn't even planning an actual background, but hey whatever happened happened alright (besides, i planned it as a r/sr, and then realized i was having a lot of fun rendering - but not enough motivation for a dynamic pose... we got an in between, i guess?)

at some point, i added firefly everywhere, and the piece ended up looking SO cluttered..... so i erased all of them except the one she's holding - and i feel like i lost a bit of what i wanted to convey, but it looks better than it did before, so it's fine!

on one side, i wish i spent more time polishing the pose, etc, on the other, damn i wanted this done today

actual design notes fr fr this time

my first thought was the yellow dress, and i was almost sure i'd go with it but still decided to do some other sketches for fun - and in case another idea popped up i don't usually ramble too much about her lore outside of dms, but the thing with erice is that she very likely doesn't believe this kind of outfit/event would suit her - since she's a bit more... brash than she'd like, among other things (read : as much as she wishes she could wear fancy dresses, she definitely doesn't feel comfortable doing so because of her usual temperament/sweet self esteem issues, kind of), so upon wearing such a dress she would probably go "wait, this is wayyyy too delicate for me, i need to change back into my usual clothes NOW"

so, i ended up going for the simple white, knee-length dress thinking it was what suited her the best - and here came another problem : it does look the right mix of formal and simple for her, but it very definitely doesn't look fairy-like, at all... at the same time, i wanted to keep the shape, to keep it simple - to have something she would enjoy wearing that would still fit the theme, so i added a butterfly pattern and transparent fabric over the dress - cute and simple enough that she can enjoy herself without worrying too much about how mismatched she thinks her looks and personality are... my daughter she's so precious to me

while i was drawing the actual piece, i ended up adding a bonus layer to her skirt because it looked a bit empty without it - it also helps making the dress shape look more.... logical lol

[koiiiji]

Could you do some windbreaker characters with a fem gyaru s/o? I would specifically like Vinny you can chose any other character if you want :)

author note : OMG!! I searched some photos in pinterest, like inspiration for gyaru, and wooow!! i will definitely take some details into my style bc its sooo beautiful… i genuinely thought (idk why honestly) that gyaru is more like pink barbie in 80-90s style but it looks so cool i can’t!! sorry for such long reply, and we r mutuals so i feel even more ashamed :(( i tried with more characters but give up and done just these two!! hope you will like it💋🎗️

warning : pure fluff, vinny being softie and shelly cutie as always

vinny - he definitely have 0 idea about all fashion trends, styles and different subcultures aside from street racing… so he genuinely don’t give a fuck about your style, he crushing into person, not a pieces of clothes you wear, but once your dialogue went in all different direction, you explain him what your style specifically is and what inspired you to join this subculture, he take note in his head that as soon as he will earn more money he will buy you as many new clothes and other items as you wish.

it was one of your first dates, you were sitting together in some random cafe that you found on the way from the second-hand store to which you dragged Vinny to find new elements for your outfits.

“so… was it really necessary to spend solid 2 hours in that shop to find just few pair of shorts, skirts and belts?…” he began hesitantly, doubting whether it was worth bringing up the subject. do girls get angry if you ask them why spend so much time in the shops? should he change the subject of conversation? or maybe you want to discuss this trip to the store? it seemed that now Vinny’s brains would just explode, before you he had not had to communicate so long and closely with girls. when you looked up at him, it seemed to him that his heart skipped a couple of beats - your eyes literally sparkled with joy and fun.

"of course it was!! if you want to find really unique things, then there is no place better than a second-hand store! of course, you need to try to find something really worthwhile, but when you find that very thing.." you clenched your fists and squeezed your eyes shut, smiling so sweetly and swaying back and forth with impatience

"...oh right, let's go at my place today!!! i'll show you why we spent so much time there, these shorts and skirts will just go perfectly..." Vinny continued to listen as you happily chirped about your ideas of what to wear new things with, and it seems you also mentioned new places where you wanted to take photos together with him, and much more. at that moment, Vinny didn’t cared about anything as much as your smile. you were so sincere with him, you smiled so brightly, just like a little star in his hands, and he suddenly remembered that pleasant, soft and warm sensation in his chest, just like in rare moments from childhood. your touch pulled him out of his own thoughts as you gently shook his hand, looking questioningly into his eyes.

"didn't you listen to what i was saying?" you squinted suspiciously. "wh... what?.. no, i heard everything.."

laughing in response, you pulled him towards the exit of the cafe, in direction to your house. at that moment, it seemed to Vinny that there were no problems around, and he was finally felt like ordinary schoolboy. yes, you were the one who helped him still stay sane. you were his own little star.

shelly - 100% fashion intusiast so she highlighted your style immediately, and liked it!! as i mentioned before, she definitely would post tiktoks/insta stories with you, admiring how cool and beautiful her girlfriend is.

“hey, let’s go shopping together after school? how about finding some new stuff?” shelly said excitedly, coming up from behind and hugging you. it was the last day before weekends starts, so after school you could relax and go shopping in search of new things, maybe you will be lucky enough today and you will find some cool archive things from 2000s.

"oh my god, look at this!!" Shelly squealed in delight as she ran up to you. in her hands was Vivienne Westwood's archive white handbag, with silver chains as handles and with a distinctive badge. it needed a little repair, but for the price that was offered for this handbag, it was worth it!!

"Shelly is so cute, how did you find it?!" you exclaimed joyfully, picking up the bag from her hands and examining it from all sides. today it was a really cool piece, and after picking up a pair of pumpons and key chains for a bag, you headed to Shelly's house, deciding to celebrate this purchase with a sleepover at her house, her grandfather wasn’t at home, and he anyway liked when you two hang out together.

"what do you think about ordering something to eat and putting on makeup together? we can shoot something in tiktok! oh! or let's film unpacking for this baby, what do you say?" you asked her excitedly, as you remembered that Shelly always wanted to try your makeup style and clothes you usually wear. and she was so pleased that you remembered such little things that she mentioned once quite a long time ago, and they were deposited in your head. hugging you tightly around the neck and whispering a quiet thank you, Shelly took you by the arm and headed for her home, excitedly offering you ideas for posing and which sound you should choose for your tiktoks.

[hyperfixatedbastard]

Hi i hope you doing well. I have a resquest... more like a headcanon. What if Adam was a dad ? What his behaviour will be ? Does he be a good or a bad father ?

I understand if you don't do it. I don't want to force you for something you don't want to.

Dadam (Dad!Adam) Headcanons

we bringing out the daddy issues on this one boys

WARNINGS: none

A/N: I haven't done a headcanon type of post yet, but they're easier to write than regular one shots and I'm too tired for that shit. The request didn't specify what kind of Reader (spouse or child), so I just went with general headcanons that don't specify the Reader at all. Insert yourself as you wish!

Also, thank you all for your patience! It's been very busy for me lately and I've been too exhausted to write much, so expect a lot more of these kinds of posts (the formatting is easier and I don't have to write a bunch of dialogue lol).

Dividers

As the father of humanity, Adam had...a lot of kids. The guy lived for 800+ years just populating the earth. That's a LOT of kids. We all know how the first two turned out. That is, not fuckin' well. To be honest, I don't think Adam valued his children. It was just kinda... a thing he had to do. (When Abel died and Cain got exiled, he fr just went and had another kid to replace them.) But I am in deep, deep denial and this is for my enjoyment as someone with severe daddy issues. So fuck all that.

At first, Adam is 100% the guy that freaks the fuck out when he finds out he knocked someone up. That man is SWEATING. He's actually pretty chill if it's someone he's in an established long-term relationship with, though. He still freaks the fuck out, but to a significantly lesser degree and with a much smaller chance of up and leaving. Once he's over the initial shock, he's shocked to find that he's kind of excited. Back when he was alive, having kids was just normal because it was such a common occurrence.

This man knows every little detail about pregnancy and infants. With the amount of kids he's had? He has seen it ALL. Sure, all his information is thousands of years old, but knowledge learned through experience is super valuable when it comes to this shit! He doesn't know what the fuck a uterus is, but he knows exactly how to make his partner the most comfortable, how to deal with cravings, etc. If his partner has a problem, he's got a solution. It might be a fuckin' weird one, but it works! He'll probably grumble and complain, but he doesn't actually mean it. Bitching is just his thing, y'know? But... pregnancy hormones + Adam's douchebag-ness = feelings getting hurt. If his partner starts crying because of some shit joke or complaint he made? He's scrambling so fast. "Shit, babe, fuck, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, fuckfuckfuck, don't cry—"

Once the baby is born, he definitely surprises literally everyone but his partner by actually doing helpful shit. Changing diapers? Easy fuckin' peasy (he does watch a tutorial online because he doesn't know how tf modern diapers work but he's a fast learner) Feeding? No problemo. Getting up in the middle of the night to do both of those things? His sleep schedule's already fucked, this shit ain't new.

When it comes to parenting and raising the kid, though... that's definitely where Adam struggles. He'd struggle with bonding. A lot. Adam mostly talks about things that you really shouldn't say around children, much less bond over. I think he'd be better at just letting the kid ramble while he's just sitting there, fully engrossed in whatever bullshit his child is saying. He's not just passively listening with little 'uh-huh's and nods, this man is active in the discussion. Have you ever heard a small child speak? They say the most random shit ever, and Adam would love it. It's peak entertainment to him. Even if it's just incoherent babbling, he'll have full-on conversations with this baby.

He'd definitely have some shared interests as the kid gets older. I think Adam's favorite shows/movies are a mix of action movies and shit like Power Rangers. He's not ashamed of it either—'fuck you, the Power Rangers are fuckin' cool.' This also goes for video games. I know that man is a toxic COD gamer boy and you can't prove me wrong. Basically, the only thing that keeps him from becoming one of those husbands that locks himself away in a man cave to play video games is the fact that he can game with his kid.

And once they get into school, he just gets really invested in the drama. Elementary school drama is such bullshit, and it'd be the best reality TV he's ever seen. "Oh, don't tell me—it's that bitch Cindy. The fuck did that little shit do this time?" He'd be gasping like it's a damn soap opera. 'Oh no she didn't!' kinda vibe.

He'd talk so much shit around his kid about the parents of their classmates, the teachers, anyone. Then the kid would repeat it and Adam would get sat down in the office with his kid like: "Your child said, and I quote, 'My dad says your mom's a bitch.'" "What? She fuckin' is." And yeah, he's not wrong - some of those parents are fucking nightmares.

If his kid got in trouble for fighting, his reaction would depend on the situation. If it was unprovoked and/or a part of bullying, he'd originally laugh it off but would be freaking the fuck out internally. He's probably a little traumatized by what happened with Cain and Abel. But if the fighting was an act of defense (whether of themselves or someone else) he would be the proudest dad ever. Fist-bumps his kid in the office in full view of the principal.

You cannot trust this man to give his kid the sex talk. It just will not go well. Like, if his kid needs advice when they're older (basically anything beyond 'where do babies come from') then he's your guy, but it's still gonna be awkward and uncomfortable. He'd probably have Lute handle most of those issues just so he doesn't have to know about his kid's sex life but can still trust that they have a responsible(?) adult if they have questions.

In terms of where Adam is lacking as a parent, there's a few areas in particular to focus on.

Emotional availability? Not his strong suit. At all. He can't deal with his own feelings, let alone his kid's. Most of the emotional support will be coming from his partner. That doesn't mean he doesn't try. But he can't show it with words all that well. He'll show emotional support in other ways—quality time, gifts, and acts of service for the most part. Like going out for ice cream, watching a movie, etc.

He's not good with discipline. To him, everything's no big deal. If his kid hasn't killed their sibling, that's good enough for him! Generally, his partner will choose when/how to discipline (with Adam's input ofc), but Adam's job is to just enforce it/not overrule it. He's 100% the type to be sneaky about it tho. If his kid is grounded, he'll go out with them to give them a break from being stuck in the house, y'know, stuff like that. Because of this, his kid forms a closer, different kind of bond than with Adam's partner. It's more friendly, I guess is the word? Like, his kid won't go to him for actual helpful advice, but if they fuck up somehow or are in a bad situation that they kinda got themselves into (drinking, car accident, etc.), then Adam is the parent they call.

I think Adam's peak parenting era would be when his kid is a late teen/young adult. 'Cause then he can actually be himself, for the most part. His personality is not very kid-friendly, so once his kid isn't really much of a kid anymore—he is so fucking excited. His relationship with his kid would be a lot more unconventional as they grow older. Like, he's really close with his kid once they're an adult. (totally not basing this off my relationship with my mom) His advice would be shit, but he'd give it if his kid needed it!

Definitely the type to text his kid more often than most parents. Mostly because he texts more like them and has the same sense of humor. Lots of shitty memes.

Also!! I think Adam would definitely make time for his partner. Date nights are a must. His kid better get comfortable with sleepovers at friends' houses or getting babysat by Emily 'cause he ain't letting parenthood fuck up his sex life.

I think that's all I got. Not sure how to end this so uh... shoutout to all you bitches with daddy issues lmao

Taglist: @little-miss-chaoss @fakeguysarehot @3sire-777

[dramalove247]

Preparing for episode 7 of Top Form 🤢

a Dori 🐠 rambles post

Look, I love me some serious pain and drama in my series. Though I don't mind some fluffy series, most of my favorites hurt me badly. I love to live in my fictional characters' pain and go along for the ride with them. But I was NOT PREPARED for episode 6 of Top Form.

Trigger Warning: SA/rape

I often experience a wide range of intense emotions while watching series, but I am rarely triggered by them, even when they do something I find horrifying. I can obsess and live in the pain of characters, but this effected me on a completely other level and I was completely triggered. There is no other explanation for what I experienced last week. That was BAD. And even when I walked away, gave myself time, and came back, everything that came after the initial assault/rape made it worse.

Let me be clear, objectively, episode 6 was VERY WELL DONE. That was hugely the problem. It was TOO real. Akin's confusion and fear, shame, lies, withdrawal. They all made sense. The way we were along for that ride was the best AND worst at the same time. And Jin's insecurity and fear and pain at feeling betrayed is so understandable. And it was DEVISTATING! I know it would have not been true to the characters and their relationship, still I had desperately needed Jin to just hug Akin and let him cry and feel safe and loved. But instead we got a very real and understandable reaction by both characters caught up in their own pain and emotions, neither able to give the other what they needed in that moment because they were both falling apart. Objectively, it was so well written and acted and treated with the full weight the topic deserves. And I can appreciate that they did it well and "right" instead of giving me the quick fix I wanted/needed... once I was able to step back from the emotions. But in that moment, I didn't care how good or real they made it because I was not okay.

I've mostly emotionally recovered from the gut punch that broke me last week, though I am feeling increasingly anxious as we get closer to the next episode. Originally I was planning to wait to watch episode 7 until someone gave me hope that there would be some sort of emotional safety for Akin. But I think I have decided I want to see where they take it this week, even if it isn't resolved quickly.

I'll be patient, but here's what I NEED from this series:

I don't give a shit if it turns out to be assault or rape, Johnny is a predator for what he did. Period. Do not try to paint him as anything else. I'm going to see RED if everything is considered not a big deal if it turns out Johnny didn't actually fuck Akin. I don't care. There is no gray area here. Johnny is deplorable.

Akin understands that he is a victim and isn't responsible for what happened to him so he can begin to heal. This show needs to be clear that what happened to Akin is 100% wrong.

Jin realizes that Akin is a victim and takes back all accusations of infidelity.

I really don't want to see the toxic forgiveness shit in this series. Please don't let Akin forgive him and please don't try to make us sympathize with Johnny.

Wish list: Please let Akin get angry, specifically at Johnny. I am literally sick that he has to face Johnny at work and is too caught up in his shame and guilt to treat him like the predator he is.

As much as I had wanted them to fix that shit ASAP, they better handle this well or they shouldn't have done it at all. I'm going to cut myself off here before I let myself ramble any more.

A prayer for the BL gods: Please let me respect this show and the story they are telling.

Please take care of yourself and protect your mental and emotional health. Hugs for everyone that needs one.

[dualityvn]

UT! Keith's rival anon back on my bullshit again. This time with a conservation ecologist MC for UT! Tenebris. They're so focused on their research that they're Third Eye Sewn Shut levels of oblivious to the bad vibes Ten's forest gives off. Finally they come face to face, but instead of cowering they just Have Had Enough and have themselves a nice lil rant :D

"Oh no! I am not dying here! I am this close to getting this place declared a wildlife sanctuary. So I'll be damned if I let a giant lizard with an attitude problem stop me. Now either help me prove this species of spider lives here so I can protect it's habitat or shush before you scare them off. Here, have a chocolate bar if you're hungry. I guarantee it tastes better than I do. And hand me the wrapper when you're done. I'm not leaving trash here."

Hopefully they survive long enough so they can bribe Tenebris into helping with their research in exchange for chocolate and eventually affection.

If he's in a good mood that day, he may not kill you, but he will 100% be pissed. He will rant right back at you, baring rows of fangs, about how these species are going extinct because of your kind and how the fae are keeping you out of the forest for that very reason.

"How do I know you have good intentions, human? How do I know your purpose is not to do harm, rather than good? You think it is in your right to walk through our forests, to DEMAND passage after everything? If you had half a brain and you truly wished to do good, you'd be begging at my feet. Arrogant vermin!" - UT!Tenebris

He's still taking the chocolate though.

[novelconcepts]

Honestly…I’m not thrilled with this. Even setting aside that Van was one of my favorite characters, I just don’t think this is a great direction to take the show in? I felt the same about Lottie’s death and she’s not one of the characters I feel super-strongly for.

This show shines when the survivors are together and when it’s exploring the trauma of the wilderness. Killing off characters willy-nilly before they get a chance to settle into the story (IE interact with a wide range of character and actually get some damn character development *cough cough*) feels like the antithesis of that—especially considering the ways by which both characters died. (And the introduction of Melissa felt particularly sloppy, too, which didn’t help.)

I also read an interview with Tawny and Lauren; they made it pretty clear they didn’t feel that Van’s death had been earned, and Lauren in particular expressed confusion about the direction of the show. They 100% have my agreement there—like, what are we doing? From what Lauren said, it also seems as though she was misled a little in terms of the size/time-frame of the role. And if so, that’s…not great. If it’s true, it definitely contextualizes a lot of what Simone Kessell was saying a few weeks back. (Though I acknowledge that, as the audience, we aren’t privy to the full truth and never will be.)

I really wish I had the vocabulary to discuss this more eloquently, because right now it feels like I’m coming off as someone who just doesn’t like the direction the story went and is using that as an excuse to call the show bad. So I’m sorry for that, ha ha. Please believe me when I say that’s not what’s going on here! I genuinely believe that the quality of storytelling on this show has declined in some aspects and this death was the cherry on top of a bummer sundae. Yeah, damn, I really wish I could articulate this better LOL.

It’s a whole mess and it’s really soured me on this show going forward. I’ll still watch because I have a completionism problem LOL but certainly not with the same enthusiasm. I just feel so frustrated on behalf of all these actors, who have done a beautiful job bringing these characters to life and don’t seem thrilled with the direction of the story either.

Anyway, I don’t know anyone else online or IRL that watches this show, so that’s why I’m here. My apologies for dumping this whole essay into your inbox; that being said, I’d love to hear your thoughts on this, as you seem to be pretty chill about Van’s death. (Hella impressive, by the way.) For now I’ll be living in your amazing fluffy fics!

Hey, your feelings are valid. So the way I’m looking at it is this: I wouldn’t have written this season this way. My version would have included a lot more time with the survivors, a lot less murder mystery, not having lost Lottie or Van, and not worrying about Jeff’s whole furniture thing. Like I do want to be clear. My version of this story doesn’t look like this.

The thing is…it isn’t my story. It’s a sandbox I sometimes play in for fun, but otherwise, it’s a roller coaster I’ve agreed to ride. And I’ve always enjoyed the part of the ride in the 90s more than the adult bit, because I love the “how we got here” narrative. So the adult timeline doing things I sometimes blink at doesn’t shock me; it’s always been Iike that for me.

I don’t know that I agree the writing has gone downhill so much as that the kind of story they are telling is shifting season to season. For both good and ill, this show has always played cross-genre sport, and it’s really trying to lean right now into the murder and mystery and paranoia. I don’t think it’s being unsuccessful, exactly, but I do think we are in the dead middle of the arc, and I dunno about you, but I always tend to find the middle unsatisfactory compared to the beginning and end of a story. Because we’re in the middle, we know what the glory of the beginning was, so we’re going to hold everything up to that standard. And this show probably WILL be like Orphan Black, in that the first season will always be its strongest. Which is okay. I still think, even at its weak points, it’s the best thing on TV (I’m not watching the Big Hit Loves, and I won’t be, so this is entirely subjective opinion. But hey, what isn’t?).

I’m not happy about Van’s death. I’m not happy about Lottie’s, either. I think both actors expected to be on the ride longer, and I’d have loved to keep them. But I do believe this is a story about trauma and hauntings and death chasing you down even when you think you’re free. I think death is inherently unfair, and that life is sometimes crueler in comparison. I think those are points it’s making, and making well. That what you survive doesn’t ensure anything, doesn’t shine up your story; it just means you survived that thing. And then you face wherever is next. Do I want to watch Swank instead of Ambrose next season? Not particularly. But will I, because I love this show, because I’m obsessed with the narrative, because I need to know what these cryptic plane death sequences are leading to? Hell yeah, dude. And I’m not gonna spread my disgruntled feelings about specifics too far, because like…in the end, it ain’t my story. And I want to see where it goes.

(Also, we always get to keep Liv and Thatcher and Courtney, and that is immensely important to me. We get to keep the characters we love. We just know they have a tragic ending—like every character who won’t make it out of those woods. I do believe this show will end with most or all of them gone. I think that’s the point.)

[genshingorlsrevengeance]

Lumine, Eula, Noelle (obviously), and anyone else of your choosing with a late night working S/O, how would they go about persuading their S/O that they need to go to bed and sleep?

(Genshin Impact) Jean, Noelle, Shenhe, Dehya, Lisa, Xinyan, and Ei forcing their S/O to sleep

...Maybe I should sleep after writing this considering it's 12:45 AM. Also, Lumine and Eula's parts were done in a prompt very similar to this one!

"My goodness my glass house is sparkling delightfully in the morning sun, what a nice day to indulge in my favorite hobby of projectile mineralogy! - Yahtzee Croshaw

Yeah, Jean has absolutely zero room to criticize her S/O for working late into the night.

She does the exact same thing, usually passing out for doing so.

But ever since S/O had come into her life, she had been working on adjusting her schedule so she can properly rest at the behest of Barbara, for both their sakes.

Not to mention S/O was also concerned for her well being, so a compromise is made between the two.

(Jean) "If you rest S/O, then I will too. Like Lisa says, there's always tomorrow."

The last thing everyone needed in the Knights was two workaholics falling unconscious after all.

Noelle also has no room to criticize S/O for working too hard.

That being said, Noelle usually brings some tea for S/O, gently sitting it next to them.

(Noelle) "S/O, I know that I may not be the right person to say this, but you should get some rest."

Similar to Jean, Noelle also makes sure to take better care of herself so S/O doesn't have to worry, and hopes that they would do the same for her.

She has no problem helping S/O get tucked into bed before quickly settling in next to them.

WIth Noelle, she doesn't take long to convince them at all.

(Shenhe) "You should be resting S/O."

Shenhe is quite confused as to why S/O is up at this hour.

They should be resting, surely the work can wait until tomorrow?

At first she offers to stay up, thinking it was something related to no one keeping watch.

Only for S/O to explain it was just some work they could be finishing tonight instead of the morning.

(Shenhe) "It'd be far more efficient to have a clear mind and work later, would it not?"

Shenhe stares at S/O with an innocent expression, eventually making them break and relent.

It makes her feel more at ease, knowing S/O won't suddenly pass out from exhaustion.

(Dehya) "Jeez, you're still at that? Come on, it can wait till morning!"

Dehya playfully wraps her arms around S/O's upper body.

If they refuse to budge she'll make a loud and obnoxious sigh.

(Dehya) "If you don't put the paper down, I'll pick you up! It's reaaaal easy for me to do that, y'know!"

When they relent, Dehya chuckles and stretches her arms.

(Dehya) "Finally. Some shut eye will make you feel better too. Can't get paid for your work if you're paying for medical bills."

Part of her wishes that they would try to continue working, just for the excuse of getting to pick them up and embarrass them.

But alas, that would have to wait for another day.

Lisa refuses to bring any work home once she's done for the day.

And by all the damned souls in hell, Lisa will enforce that rule upon S/O as well.

(Lisa) "Darling, no bringing work home.~"

Despite her teasing tone, she is 100% serious.

Lisa was a hard worker herself, but that was only when she was supposed to be on the clock.

Their home was a place to relax and not think about work, so she'll first take S/O's hands gently and have them wrap around her hands instead.

Archons forbid S/O tries to continue working, then the tone of her voice becomes more lethal as S/O starts to feel electricity in the air.

(Lisa) "Won't you pay attention to little ol' me instead of some papers, S/O?"

(Xinyan) "S/O, get your tush into this bed! Don't make me sing some crappy ol' love song, I'll do it!"

The tone of Xinyan is half playful and half serious.

She doesn't want to play some cheesy song just to catch S/O's attention (mostly).

Xinyan just doesn't want S/O to overexert themselves when they don't have to.

Even she didn't write songs that late into the night

...Well, mostly, but S/O didn't need to know that little detail.

(Xinyan) "Trust me, your brain will make the work flow waaay better when you sleep, speaking from experience here!"

Ei convinces S/O to rest, though not in the way most would imagine.

Being an Archon, she could simply use her godly authority to force S/O to heel.

Or if it was the Raiden Shogun, then smiting S/O was an option.

Instead, Ei has S/O stop their work simply by being herself.

(Ei) "S/O, if you are going to stay awake during this time, can we eat some dessert?...It's too late at night? If you're working, then we can drink some dango milk!"

Simply put, it was annoying them for sweets if they stayed up for too long.

While it was because she was concerned for their well being, since humans are meant to rest, she was holding out for some hope that she can sneak in extra dessert for the night.

So far, it didn't work, much to her quiet dismay.

[authoratmidnight]

So, now that I've finished watching (rewatching technically) Transformers Animated I wanna babble about it a bit.

My short, spoiler free take is: It's actually really good and I like what they were doing in this universe.

Longer, not spoiler free rambles under the cut-

So like, I did watch this a long time ago, when it first aired. Problem is I really don't/didn't remember like, anything? Or like, major plot things.

A non comprehensive list of things I /did/ remember from Animated:

Prowl was my fav bc b/c a ninja motor bike is cool

I loved this version of Bumblebee. His design looked like a lil kitty cat, a lil tiger, one of my fav Bees. Just a lil guy. Lil baby.

Black Arachnia, her hitting on Optimus and once being Elita One

the Dinobots, Grimlock specifically. love me some dino robots

the 'Sari is the a robot' reveal

their space ship transforms into a massive robot

Blurr gets cubed and everyone debating on if he was alive or not (he is. as pointed out, bots turn grey here when they die and cube!Blurr was NOT grey, so that's some fridge horror for you)

Prowl died and I was VERY sad about this

Weird Al voiced a robot called Wreck Gar and there was a 'dare to be stupid' reference in the episode

So like, while I don't remember-remember it, I remember things from it and I seem to recall I did enjoy it (given I recall Prowl's death I clearly DID watch it to the end so I clearly didn't hate it). And upon rewatching it I can 100% this appealing to younger me (quick math says I would have been, about 16 when it aired. which is older than I thought tbh).

It wasn't my first foray into Transformers either, tho I think the first one I probably really enjoyed and watched all of. I seem to recall watching some of Beast Wars and Armada (legit the ONLY part of Armada I remember was that bit where Optimus died out in space lmao), so I knew OF Transformers to some degree. Plus I think I'd learned surface level information from my dad. But it was the first series I did fully consume and enjoyed. So I could have done worse. But given I don't actually remember my first watch of it too well I can't say if it was better or as good as I remember b/c I don't remember lol. But it is good.

That said, what ARE my thoughts on it?

The Story/Setting:

Knowing what I DO know about Transformers now I can see how different it is from most continuities and how the lore differs (Prime and Magnus just seem to be like, ranks/titles, and Prime doesn't seem to hold nearly the weight as in like every other continuity). But like, I don't hate it. It's actually kind of a fresh change. And it does some unique things, like how characters can just be, taken apart and still live so long as their spark remains undamaged/their body isn't to badly damaged (we literally have heads getting popped off like barbie dolls and everyone is fine lol).

It manages to flop between goofy as fuck and, actually a bit grim at times, and it works (once again, solidifying my belief that Transformers is and always has been, funny as shit and people who poo-poo on the humor are boring edgelords)

I kinda fuck with this universe actually, wish we HAD gotten that s4.

And the changes it makes to the CHARACTERS to fit with the universe is neat too and it, kinda works.

The Characters:

So like, this version of Optimus (and the main core cast of Autobots really) is like, just A Guy. Like, the most Just a Guy that Optimus could possibly be. He's not this war weary, battle hardened warrior and great renowned leader. He is literally just A Guy. The equivalent of a college drop out. And the meeting with Megatron at the start of the series is literally their first meeting. No history here.

And I think that's kind of an interesting take. (Also I found a really funny fic the other day that's basically 'Megatron realizes that the 'elite warriors' they've been fighting are in fact just Some Guys and the revelation is MORTIFYING' i'll link it later).

Prowl. I'm sorry but this my guy. This is my Prowl. I know he is totally different than like every other Prowl in existence but UNFORTUNATELY this was my introduction tot he character and the robo ninja that turns into a bike imprinted on teenage me's psyche b/c honestly that concept fucks. He's my favourite and I was super sad when he died.

Also just 'robot ninja' is fucking cool haha

I loved this Bumblebee's design, it slaps. He's like a lil kitty man. He's so much fun. Yapped so much that when they made the movies they're like 'ok we NEED to shut this guy up' haha.

I think I totally forgot Bulkhead was in Animated but like, I love this dude??? Don't get me wrong I like Prime Bulkhead as well but Animated Bulkhead just, is so fun, and they did MORE with him aside from 'smashes shit real good'. He gets to have a special interest and be good at ONE (1) thing and that's space bridges. And he picks up art as a hobby! He has character and personality, I love it.

Honestly, the Autobots just being a bunch of regular guys (well, 4 regular guys and one war vet who REALLY wishes he'd retired long ago) is such a fun dynamic to have instead. And it works.

The Voices:

So like, I know Peter Cullen is THE voice of Optimus (despite the fact that I think more people that aren't him have voiced the character than he has but I digress) but in this case, NOT casting him actually makes sense. As I said, Optimus here is just A Guy. And a young one as well. Like Orion in Transformers One. So the deep, older sounding voice of OP Optimus wouldn't fit the character. And this voice does.

I DO however find it really funny that the voice actor for Optimus (David Kaye) previously voiced Megatron in other Transformers series. Man could voice a whole Optimus-Megatron fight on his own now.

Honestly, all the voice choices fit the characters as established in this series.

Special mention to Shockwave, who apparently is voiced by his OG VOICE ACTOR. That's kinda dope. And he has a perfectly spooky voice (also I really enjoyed this version of Shockwave. Man is out here being Megatron's specialist little boy and loving it)

Also I love that the opening is just a remix/modernized version of the OP opening that we all know. That's cool and it slaps.

Yeah, TFA does aim a biiiit younger for it's audience than some series but that's not a bad thing and it's still a damn good show. It's not like "kiddy" in that patronizing way. It's good and it holds up well I think.

Also here's that fic I mentioned earlier, go read it it's funny.

Revelations

[lady-of-endless]

Helllloooo if requests are still open could I request reader taking care of RAMATTRA :3? There's alot of reader comfort out there but good gd this dude needs a nap.

Author's Note: Another request, I'm so happy! I agree with you 100%, let him get some rest. Thank you so much for requesting this ❤️ Hope you'll enjoy it

Taking care of Ramattra

Since he left the Shambali Monastery, Ramattra has become more of an overachiever. Humanity's continuous aggression towards omnics forced him to ignore his own needs just to work on plans, strategies, and new machines, all for a better future. He saw no problem with that but, he's not alone anymore, and you're worried for him.

When you propose taking a break for his own good, he simply replies with how he doesn't need it, changing the subject. Of course, he takes note of your worried expression from your face but does not want to bother explaining that you have no reason to be worried for him, at first.

"My system is running in optimal conditions. I do not require rest like humans do." He caved in and explained to you calmly, causing you to sigh in defeat. Even if you knew that it was true, it was his mind that needed rest more than his body. You understand that it will be complicated to get him to relax.

You noticed how he didn't even meditate the way he still used to even after leaving Shambali. It was a part of his routine but not anymore so it seemed. Instead of pointing it out, ask him if he can teach you how to do it. He will look at you over his shoulder in silence, pondering and analyzing your expression. It was his right to be suspicious as you never asked for this before. Right when you think he is going to refuse, the orb from his staff floats toward his right hand. "Follow me, and pay attention." He muttered. Somehow, this one trick to get him to rest went unnoticed.

Maybe you can try a straightforward approach as well. If he is working, walk to him, ask about what he's working on. As he talks, put a hand over his and gently pull him towards you by his hand. "And what is it you think you're doing?" He stops explaining and asks but still lets himself be guided by you. You tell him that you wish to read something to him and he refuses right away. This calls for desperate measures. "Just give it a chance. Like you did with me…" You say with a hopeful look in your eyes when looking at him. With that, consider it done. You knew that you got him with that one. "Fine, but it better not take long." He sighs in frustration as he lays down next to you.

In the first minutes, Ramattra just waits broodingly for this break to end. Gradually, as he listens to your voice and your breathing, he starts to lose track of time and forget about what he had to do later. He finds himself turning his body more towards yours, even maybe placing his head on your chest, hoping that you won't ask why.

That's the time he discovers another way of relaxing. It has even become his favorite. Laying his head on your chest, his sound sensor close to your heart. He is surprised by how pleasant the sound of it is. Listening to the steady beats makes him feel like every circuit from his body slows down and because he's alone with you, he allows it.

He cannot admit that he felt better afterward, but he surely won't let your thoughtful gesture pass without thanking you. "I am grateful for this moment of peace. Perhaps I can…find some time to repeat this in the days to come."

Even so, there's a long way to go if you expect him to take a break freely on his own. You will still have to keep an eye on him.

When he needed to think something over or find a solution to a problem, he usually traveled to Shambali where he watched the monastery alone, from afar. There is something in the scenery that brings him calmness every time. Plan a little trip to Shambali for him. Tell him that you need to go there for something and you need him to guide you. When his steps bring you two to his favorite spot, just stay silent and let him have a moment of peace. Watch how his shoulders drop and how his breathing becomes more deeply. He might remain silent or open up to you. If the latter happens, it usually leads to a deep conversation, and for him, this also counts as a way to relax.

[catiuskaa]

new task: valentine's day |ACTS|

A/N: reposting by acts! [see full version here]. wanted to see if this format works better (and yes i will squeeze everything in this one right here cause its amazing and i 100% worked my ass off on it)

PAIRING! seungmin x reader ; enemies/rivals2lovers!

SUMMARY: boring classes, boring classmates, boring assignments…to seungmin, everyone is boring even if he’s used to pretend otherwise, but you seem to get on his nerves. you, your stupid poem, and his stupid letter.

WC: 2.350k

CW: fluffy comfort, use of spanglish (not relevant to the plot, dw), use of text format, the reader is stupidly short (which i know all about), academic rivals, bad student reader x good student seungmin, mentions of the unability to deal with complicated feelings, mentions of masking feelings, slight hint of bullying, mentions of being followed, (pet)names: little one, shortie, shortcake, smallable, pretty, hyunjin as a walking therapist, and the ending is kind of a reference to a show i'm obsessed with (not gonna say it so i don't spoil it for you guys hehehe)

|PROLOGUE| |ACT 1| |ACT 2| |ACT 3|

[☆★🌷★☆]

{ACT 3: WINDOWS, LETTERS AND POEMS}

Wednesday. 9:56 am. 14th February.

Most of your classmates were still arriving from their next class as you stared at two papers in your hands slightly from afar, pencil in your lips.

You had discarded most of your creations all Monday and Tuesday when you finally ended with a draft you liked for the stupid english homework. It was nothing out of the ordinary.

But the letter in your other hand, however, was something you had never done before.

“What’s that you got there?”

Any kind of bubbly and nervous emption you had vanished at the sound of that low voice.

“Fuck off, Li.” You grunted in a husky tone, frowning at him and grabbing back the letter from his hands.

“Is it a love letter for me?” He chuckled, ignoring your behaviour.

“Why the fuck would I write that, huh?” You laughed, a chuckle full of acid, one that had much more hatred that you had ever said before.

Henry brushed a hand through his hair, and you couldn’t help but think he looked stupid. You had liked this guy? Ugh.

“Because today is valentine’s day, shortcake.”

You squinted and frowned at him.

“Swishing those dyed and damaged locks like a Loreal advert won’t make anyone fall in love with you.” You snorted, and realized the people in the hallway had fallen into silence, listening to your conversation. “Or maybe it worked with that blond girl in the club?” You pretended to ponder out loud, leaning against the locker behind you, facing him with confidence.

“Wait, what?” He mumbled.

You snickered, taking him by surprise. “Oh, silly. I was never going to date you. I kept hearing that you were an ass and figured that was right, because aside from me, little to no people talked to you. I guess I just felt pityful.” You faked a pout.

He clenched his fists, his shoulders tense.

“You’re lying.” He grunted.

You chuckled. “You wish I was. That blond girl didn’t steal my man. She stole my problem.” You heard some gasps from the people in the corridor, as they had formed some kind of circle around you two.

But then, Henry snorted, and cleared his throat, talking with a much louder voice. “So you’re not going to let everyone know about you and Seungmin?” He smirked. “I feel like that’s a bit unfair. Making it seem like I’m the bad guy and all.”

You tried hard to make it seem like that hadn’t surprised you. You were so surprised by it that you didn’t have time to react when he yanked your letter from your hand.

“Such sweet words, all dedicated to him,” he mocked. “I think these people want to know.”

“Give it back!” You clenched your jaw, your eyes dull with embarassment.

Even if he wasn’t as tall as Seungmin, there was still a decent difference between you and him. And with a sly grin, he raised the paper above your head.

You licked your lips, anger filling your body.

“Give. It. Back.”

But then he started reading.

“I looked at him as if he were the Sun, in that I never looked at him except in frustration.” He read out loud, moving the paper from your reach everytime you tried to reach. “I seeked his warmth, I complained when he was gone, but I never looked, not until I noticed he was leaving, and in the beauty of the sunset, I wondered how I had never seen him before.”

You stared at the floor, a blush spreading through your cheeks, coming from your neck.

“And that’s basically what happened.” You mumbled to Abril and Lucas over at a bench in the school grounds, hours after that whole thing had happened.

“What?!” You flinched at Abril’s loud voice. “I’m going to kill him. I am so going to murder that nasty ass bitch.” She threatened to stand up, but Lucas grabbed her forearm.

“And what about Seungmin?” He questioned softly, a lot more gentle that what you usually would expect.

You felt heat rush to your cheeks.

“I haven’t spoken to him since Friday” You stared at him with a weakness you had never felt before. “It’s like he doesn’t want to talk to me, I…” you sighed. “I don’t know what to think anymore.” You sniffed.

You had to stay in the study room for the afternoon, waiting for Atenea to get out of the club she was in so you could head to the library together like you had promised, but as you studied in silence, someone sat in the chair in front of you, frowning at you.

You took your headphones off and scratched your eyes. “Eh… Hyunjin?”

“Abril told Lara and she told me,” he mentioned in a huff. “And I’ve known Seungmin for many years. He’s not an impulsive guy. He hasn’t treated anyone like how he treats you.”

You blinked, puzzled, but frowned at him. “Are you going to scold me?”

“You better believe I am!” He scoffed. “Would you like me to politely tell you that you’ve behaved like a total idiot around him?”

“What are you—?!”

“You simply never bothered to talk to Seungmin about any of what Lara told me!” He stated with force, and you didn’t think to tell him to shut up, considering that the study room was empty that time.

“Do you really expect me to understand whatever was happening and tell him right away?” You blurted out with anger, a bit shocked at his rough approach. “Had I had the opportunity I would have!

He rolled his eyes, passing a hand over his face in a sign of desperation.

“You had every opportunity! For months!” He left his hand on the table, and started tapping at it with force, trying to make a point. “Admit it. Seungmin has been in your head ever since we both changed from the other class and you two started bickering.” Hyunjin’s eyes stared at you with a fierce glare that almost threatened to pierce holes through your skull.

“That’s bullshit!” You spitted out defensively.

“Oh, spare me!” He brushed it off. “There have been countless clues! Your stupid need to make everything a competition when it comes to him is infuriating. He talks to me about these things, you know?” He swallowed, and you leaned back in surprise, but he kept on going. “How you look at him when you’re angry, or how you mock and tease him back. It’s stupid!” He cursed out loud. “And these last two weeks have only made it so much worse.”

“What do you mean, worse?” You pondered softly, slowly taking in Hyunjin’s dramatic act.

“I mean, you were totally smitten by how he ridiculously kissed you at the back of the bus last week, considering that you kissed him back.” He stated clearly. “And he wouldn’t shut up about it and how you were ignoring him after, which, great fucking work, by the way, the dude wouldn’t shut up about you.” Hyunjin blinked slowly, trying to recall and voice what he was thinking. “And then he lends you his jacket when a mystery debutant shows up.”

“A—a what?”

“Motherfucker, eh, that Henry asshole.” Hyunjin rubbed his eyes. “I had to endure him talking shit about him for an hour because he saw him texting you some weird shit with cringe emojis.” The exasperation on his tone rendered you almost speechless. “And even then he struggled to admit how fucking jealous he was about that guy. He had your attention. He had your smile. You looked at Henry, not at Seungmin, and ah, for fuck’s sake.” Hyunjin covered his face with his hands. “He felt so ridiculously powerless that he talked to me about it. He’s never done that before!”

You were only able to blink, struggling to grasp everything he was saying.

“And then, with no word of warning, you called him, at, what, like, one in the morning?” Hyunjin said in a huff, the thought of that bringing back his anger, making him stare at you with a frown again. “He, jesus, he talked for AGES about how you hugged him, and the fact that you were wearing his jacket, like— like you’re doing now, what the fuck.” He stopped mid-scolding, staring at you with confusion.

“It’s… it’s his?”

Hyunjin’s eyes widened slightly as he nodded. “What, you didn’t know? You helped him with tecnical drawing, he gave you his jacket, bla bla bla. That whole thing?”

You blushed, shaking your head sideways. You had done what?

“Nevermind. You can talk to him about that later.”

It was your turn to scoff now. “Judging by the fact that he sent you, I don’t think he would like to see me anytime soon.”

Hyunjin chuckled dryly.

“Don’t you even dare keep ignoring him. This stupid game has lasted for too long. Besides, he doesn’t know I’m here. He thinks I’m in dance practice, but whatever. You needed to know, because he’s a mess.” Hyunjin stated, passing a hand through his hair. “He can’t sleep well, he can’t concentrate, he can’t do anything.”

It looked like the scolding was over, but there was a remaining anger that came back to him as a memory struck.

“And, moreover, you callously ignored the letter Seungmin wrote you, even though he told you he loved you!”

You were looking at your notebook on the table, halfly staring at your nails and fidgeting with them, but your head almost snapped when you stared at him.

“What letter?” You muttered, your eyes locked on his. He frowned, his eyes slightly widening.

Your heart started beating faster, almost so loud you could hear it in your head.

“Hyunjin, what letter?!”

[☆★🌷★☆]

Seungmin felt his lungs on fire.

Run, run, run.

His feet were hurting, because his old ass shoes were busted enough that their insides were almost destroyed from everyday use.

But he needed to find you.

Maybe it was because it was Valentine’s day, despite the obvious influence that a certain friend of yours had done.

“Wait, you— you missed school this morning?” Lucas had muttered with a puzzled look, eyes wide.

“I had to go to the dentist to take my braces off. Yeah.” Seungmin stated again. “So whatever you meant by ‘being an ignoring bitch this morning’, I know nothing about it.”

And then someone next to them had chimed in. “You’re talking about Henry and what happened this morning with—“

“Yeah. Why?” Seungmin had interrupted, frowning slightly.

“There’s a video of it.”

Run, run, run.

The look in your eyes when you spoke with Henry. Your smug smile when you caught him by surprise.

Your poem.

His eyes had widened when Henry started reading it in the video.

Was it…?

Could it…?

Could it really be for him?

He wanted needed to find out.

He needed to find you.

“Watch where you’re going!” A man grunted at him, and Seungmin quickly apologized, running off.

Run, run, run.

He knew where you lived just because of Friday, when you had asked him if he could head towards your house with you, still a bit scared from what had happened. He accepted in a heartbeat, reassuring you that it was fine with a million smiles.

His hand had never left yours. Your touch, colder than his, had something so adicting to it that he didn’t want to let go.

Time seemed to pass slowlier when he recognized your neighbourhood. He was about to ring on your floor, but then, your silhouette got out of the elevators, and you both blinked at each other, staring through the glass door.

You opened it slowly, approaching him.

The look in your eyes was different than what Seungmin was used to.

It wasn’t similar to how you had looked at him ever since the school year started, with a shimmer of anger that turned your cheeks pink. Or how you had looked at him that afternoon in the back of the school bus, pupils dark and lips red and slightly swollen from kissing. Or how your eyes glowed in hope and comfort that Friday night.

It was different. He wanted to savour it. He wanted to see every detail of it.

He walked towards you and cradled your face in his hands.

“Wait.” He muttered in a whisper, taking off his glasses in a movement that to you felt almost enticing.

“What is it?” You whispered back.

He blinked at you as he cleaned his glasses with the hem of his shirt.

“You’re fucking blurry.” He snickered softly, with a sheepish smile that tinted his cheeks pink.

You giggled.

He settled his glasses back in place, and smiled when your image made sense before him.

“Better.” He muttered.

“Seungmin, I—“

But you stopped speaking when his lips crashed against yours.

There it was. He tasted sweet like how hot chocolate tastes in a rainy day. You smiled at your discovery, wanting to taste it for hours.

He wanted to kiss you for days to come, even if there was a million things left for both of you to say.

“I’m sorry.” Kiss. “I wasn’t in school this morning.” Kiss. “But I saw a video of it.” Kiss. “And I needed to—“

You giggled, taking his glasses and settling them on the top of his head.

“We can do the talking later.” You smiled, your cheeks red as your hands grabbed him by the collar of his shirt.

“Are you sure?” He gulped, blushing too as he mumbled.

“Yeah.” You smiled even more. “I’d rather do the kissing now.”

You'd never know what happened with his letter. But considering where that had lead you, maybe it wasn't totally bad that the wind had carried it out the window.

[☆★🌷★☆]

[soratatakano]

Behind the scenes

Wow, the title sounded arrogant.

No, I'm not like that - but I have to vent. It's been on my heart since I started writing seriously and I don't want to bother those close to me so I'm externalizing here.

I’ve always loved writing. My laptop is filled with stories, each living its own life in abandoned folders. But I was always creating something from scratch, something entirely new. Maybe that’s why I could never finish a story? Writing fanfiction, though—that’s something else entirely. At least for me. It’s creating something new, but on someone else’s terms. This is my first fanfiction that I’ve thrown my whole heart and mind into.

I didn’t watch Arcane when it first came out. It wasn’t until last November, when my friend basically threatened to stop replying to my messages if I didn’t watch it, that I finally gave in. Lucky for her, I love her—so I did. And I fell. Completely. Now, not a day goes by without me thinking about it, analyzing, overanalyzing. I consume Arcane content like it’s my last breath. At this point, I don’t know how to exist without it.

And yet, something still felt missing. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. I envied artists who could simply draw whatever they wanted—create the expansion to the story they wished for. Two characters that aren’t canonically together? No problem, grab a pencil. And I envied that so much. Until it hit me. Wait a minute—I can write whatever I want.

That was both the worst and best decision of my life.

Crawlin’ Back to You was born on a day when I ignored my actual responsibilities and listened to music instead. I had nothing in my head except those words. And somehow, everything started shaping itself around them—twisting, shifting, taking form. My plans for the story changed more times than I can count. My characters took on lives of their own. I like to think I just gave them space to tell their own story, and I’m merely stalking them, taking notes, and getting frustrated when they do something stupid.

With each chapter, I dove deeper. Sometimes, even I didn’t know what the next one would bring. Maybe that’s for the best. After all, it’s their story—not mine.

Somewhere along the way, I heard something that stuck with me: my writing has improved. I hadn’t noticed when or how. I tried looking at my story through a reader’s eyes, and maybe I can see the signs—but to keep myself from getting too self-satisfied, I just write the way I feel. My sentences are different now, the narration flows better, and the dialogue feels more alive. I don’t know if I learned this or if I simply started writing with my own rhythm instead of following literary conventions. Maybe it finally hit me that this is fanfiction—I can do whatever I want. Breaking the rules of writing has never been this satisfying. And this is coming from a literature student.

Not every scene makes me proud. Some plotlines felt clumsy, messy, cheap. I twisted and turned everything on its head just to make sense of my own tangled ideas. And yet? I wouldn’t trade it for any ‘perfect’ story.

When I uploaded the first chapter, it was late at night, and I didn’t think much of it. The next morning, I woke up to numbers that shocked me so much I didn’t even need coffee. Over 100 views in just a few hours. Wait… people are actually reading this? And they like it? Oh my god, can I actually write?!

That was it. That was the moment I was done for.

Every comment makes me smile like an idiot because I know this story resonated with someone enough for them to leave a piece of themselves behind. The first time I got a comment saying, “You know what? I don’t like this part. I don’t get it,” I didn’t take it as criticism—I took it as an invitation to a conversation. I don’t just have readers who leave compliments. I have people who want to talk, who want to understand, who share their perspectives with me. I couldn’t have asked for better.

These comments let me see my own story in a different light. They make me notice things I hadn’t before. Over time, more and more of them came in. People started getting impatient for the next chapter. I thought it couldn’t get any better. But it did—because people started reaching out to me personally.

That… that was something I never even dreamed of when I started writing. It’s a completely different feeling when you know who you’re writing for. And yes, I know, “you should write for yourself.” But them… do I have fans?

There’s one part of writing this fanfiction that challenges me the most. I set the bar high for myself, and I don’t want to shy away from anything. The story is rated Explicit for a reason—it deals with violence, brutality, drugs, and politics. And I can write about all of that. But the hardest thing? Depicting the physical side of my characters’ relationship in a way that feels right.

It’s not about excessive poeticism, nor is it about turning it into pure erotica or romance—I wouldn’t even know how to write that. The hardest part is finding the balance: presenting it in a mature, meaningful way while keeping it right for the tone of the story. I don’t shy away from it, but I also don’t force it. I want these moments to feel natural, raw yet tasteful, and above all, integral to the characters and their dynamic.

What I write leans into tension, subtext, and the weight of unspoken things rather than explicit detail. And maybe that’s why it’s so difficult—I want these moments to carry impact beyond just physicality. The further into the story, the more advanced the relationship becomes, I know that I won't avoid - I don't want to avoid - scenes of closeness between them. Sometimes it takes me days to write one fragment because nothing sounds like it should.

This fanfiction has rewired something in my brain. Actually, it’s still doing it. Silco, as a character, follows me every single day. He’s the only character I can feel. The way he speaks, the way he moves—I hear the footsteps beside me, I can feel the texture of his clothes. Maybe it’s strange, but it helps so much.

Maybe it’s because this is a Silco x Reader story and I want to see myself in it. Who am I kidding—of course I do.

Sometimes, I don’t know whether I found this story or if it found me.

One thing’s for sure—I have no idea what I’ll do when it’s over.

What do you do when something you’ve poured your soul into finally reaches its end?

[atthecenterofeverything]

sorry as this is more of a vent than an ask, but everyday I get more and more depressed at the way our society conceptualizes mental health, a term I've come to hate if I'm being honest. Psychiatry has done an exceptional job in the last century and in the last two decades to position itself as a legitimate medical specialty regardless of the absolute lack of scientific rigour seen in research that's supposed to support diagnosis and approved treatments. And now society at large believes "mental illness" functions about the same as, say, diabetes, and that psychiatrists are competent professionals that can objectively diagnose people and provide effective treatment, and that institutionalization of these patients is a last resort, but a worthy one in the end, a hard path that in severe cases is the RIGHT choice and mental health professionals are generally able to identify when a patient needs that kind of treatment. Most people would be horrified to learn ECT is still a thing though, but the medical establishment will promptly sell you the lie they have enough evidence it works, and that it's not like in the past (it is, they just put you under anesthesia so you don't feel pain) and worse, that it's safe and can only cause mild and temporary memory loss. Now I know that's not true but it's not easy information to find as google will return only positive things said in clinics websites that perform it and shady research. This is extremely scary. Playing with the brain (even minor procedures, such as magnetic stimulation) pretending they know ANYTHING about what they're doing and that they can actually shock you into happiness when they know full well they cannot make a scientifically sound case for it or even present evidence the problem originates in the brain. How is this thing still allowed in most of the world? Why can they get away with it and have society on chokehold what with psychiatric vocabulary and vision circulating everywhere and everyone defining themselves in terms of a completely made up thing they think is 100% objectively true. I'm distraught, why do people react at any criticism of psychiatry as if I'm saying vaccines cause autism or that the earth is flat?

because people have a positivist and progressive view of medicine. and ect is useful method of coercion. this is not an issue singular to psychiatry though this applies to all branches of medicine (this post goes into a bit more detail). I understand your frustration but you need to accept interacting with people who disagree with you on this topic because the amount of people who agree is like insignificantly small. it also drives me insane so I wish I had better advice :(

[puhpandas]

I don’t think I’ll ever know peace until we get an official sb remaster. I need to play the intended game SO badly it’s unreal.

Most people want a remaster already, and I think they should seriously consider it. I want to see a glow up so bad. I don’t want Vanny Vanessa to return in a new game, I think that would undo what little of an arc she has, but I just really want her done well in sb. I want the other characters to be given better treatment too, as tired as people are with the setting and characters, they don’t feel finished and I don’t feel satisfied. Besides, a very strong criticism I have with sb is that it lacks outside characters and world-building, so to go back and give mentions to book characters/events would completely revitalize the game and keep Tales relevant. I get they’re working on other projects atm and don’t even want to look in sb’s direction but man, they’re gonna have to address the game’s issues eventually

man I wish it was possible for them to remaster SB but it just isnt. scott calls the shots at the end of the day, and because SB wasnt how he envisioned it (because he didnt tell them any fucking thing) is why it ended up like this. the version of SB we saw in trailers and promotional material was STEEL WOOLS version, their ideas and campaign. and because they thought afton was the villain, they designed the story around afton. lines from trailers like "you will do as I say, both of you will burn" were 100% him, and would have been majorly story relevant. the whole reason SB got canned was because they had to course correct to mimic, and they can salvage nothing but they couldnt salvage the completely wrong villain

and weve been in this 'mimic course correction and history lesson' era for soo long. I'm just as ready as you to finally get justice for the SB plots and characters, but I dont think it'll be in the form of a remaster. a remaster would mean remaking the game either with mimic as a villain, greatly changing it, or restoring SWs afton plot, and I just can't see it happening

but the good news is that theres no way in hell they arent building up vanny to be important again, with the entire nature of Vannys face being spread around for employees to use and her tagging still existing and cassie in ruin wearing her face. especially with lines like "that mask suits you" I cant see a world where she doesnt make a comeback inside cassie and has another chance to shine

also with ggy hints and just. the end of the mimics reign of terror being marked with sotm, theres gonna finally be room after the mimic shit for steel wool to actually cook with writing again, and theyll be collabing with Scott so theyll hopefully have the same level of great writing as ruin did, and also the tapes in SB

it sucks that it ended up this way but were on track to at least seeing their potential realized in a different kind of campaign, which is all I've wanted for 3 years lmaoo. steel wool just truly has not had room to talk about them with all this focus on mimic and prequels and the past and shit, where they wouldnt be relevant. after the mimic is finally just. IN the stupid story already, theyll be progressing it finally and ggy vanny vanny!cassie vanessa Gregory freddy etc will all finally at least be on track to appearing again. I'll take any Ws I can get. SW is genuinely good at writing the human characters if how they wrote cassie is any indication, so once they actually SHOW UP again, which has been the problem this whole time, then we'll be talking