#That anyone suffering from depression

[jay72664]

Just one little walk

TW: Dazai is depressed coded.

“Not doing anything won’t make you feel any better.”

Dazai didn’t reply.

It was easier to lie in bed.

Easier to let the voices win.

Chuuya lets out a sigh, sitting on the edge of the bed.

“Come on, darling, we can go do something. Some fresh air will do you good.”

Chuuya was expecting Dazai to not say anything.

“Go away.”

He was wrong.

“I’m not going to leave you here to wallow in your own self pity. Like it or not I’m worried about you and want to help.” There was desperation in his voice, a desperate need to help the man he loved.

“I don’t need your help.” Dazai snaps, not rolling over to look at him.

“No, you don’t want my help, but you desperately need it.” Chuuya’s tone is sharp, but his fingers moving to thread through Dazai’s hair are gentle.

Dazai finally turns to face him, looking exhausted, his eyes void of any real emotions.

Chuuya’s heart broke.

“What if I just want to stay here?” Dazai asks quietly.

Chuuya let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding in. “It’s not healthy, Osamu, let’s just go on a walk, it doesn’t have to be long.”

Dazai closes his eyes. “And we can come back and cuddle?” He asks quietly.

Chuuya nods. “I promise.”

Dazai sits up. “I guess we can then.”

Chuuya presses a kiss to his forehead. “I love you.” He whispers into the skin there.

Chuuya’s lips press against his forehead.

Dazai finally opens his eyes again when he pulls away.

“I love you too.”

[tea-cat-arts]

Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

[the-genius-az]

Azula can't help but cry in her sleep, and her girlfriends worry, because that means she will cry for a long time and won't wake up no matter how hard they try.

The next morning she didn't know what she was dreaming about, she will only feel great pain running through her body as more tears fall into her eyes as she tried to remember.

[ettadunham]

sometimes i remember the hunger games and how nobody actually paid attention to what was in those books

[hyperkitten224]

drawing Ragatha slightly differently 4 my next art

[queerstudiesnatural]

i'm hungry but my fridge is empty and i can't afford to order in rn :( hey google how long can i survive on coffee and milk

[basofy]

i feel a little bad remembering how in my mother days there was this rly common perception of thinking 'well lucas would be so pessimistic after what happened and he would hate flint cuz he sucks and he would hate everything!!' and i would believe it just cuz i was still relearning a lot of things i didnt know if that was what i was supposed to think but it always felt like people who saw things this way wanted to force others to do too

[ikamigami]

I have such a bad feeling that Sun's going to die on July 16th, it just has that vibe, and/or he learns Dazzle's secret and then dies

Yeah.. I think the same, dear anon..

I have a feeling that Sun will willingly die.. idk what will happen though..

[aceofstars16]

It’s 7:30 in the morning and I’m exhausted but I don’t know if I’ll be able to fall asleep again any time soon….

It’s like I was *just* starting to heal from having my heart and trust shattered 3 years ago, and now it’s happening all again, only this time I don’t have the church to go to for comfort/prayer/encouragement. And instead of a friendship I had for 2-3 years, it’s a church I’ve been going to for TWENTY TWO YEARS

I feel like I’m living in the twilight zone, this can’t actually be happening, right?

(I’m not okay, I keep crying and I just want to wake up from this nightmare)

[total-drama-brainrot]

my total drama oc is a reversal of the show's pre-established "villain" archetype.

right off the bat, they're just the worst person; outright antagonistic towards everyone and constantly causing conflict amidst the cast, openly orchestrating people's eliminations, blatantly cheating but in such a way that technically they're not breaking any rules- without disguising themself behind a mask of geniality (like alejandro, heather and julia did).

and they're kept around well into the competition because their villainy? it's ratings gold. people love a good antagonist, especially one that's so productive. the audience loves to hate them, or hates that they love them, and everyone is gunning for their downfall- which only becomes more and more tempting with every elimination.

plus, chris is more than happy to enable them so long as they keep things interesting.

interestingly enough, they never seem to use the confessional. or at least, none of their confessions are aired. well, that's not exactly true. one confession is aired, and it's them boasting to the audience that they wouldn't understand the inner machinations of their mind, and that they don't deserve to hear their thoughts.

consequently, the audience has no idea what they're thinking at any given time, only seeing glimpses of their schemes throughout the episode until everything comes to fruition- like a puzzle finally being completed. it's a smart move for the network, because it means the audience gets to watch their plans play out in 'real time' without their insight/foreknowledge, making it just as impactful to the viewers as it is to the competitors. it helps with immersion, which is a boon for the ratings!

until their elimination, wherein their confessions are played out on the big screen, and it's heartbreaking.

they explain, in their first confession, that they were accosted by chris at the beginning of the competition to act as the main antagonistic force for the show, and that he's turn a blind eye to their antics so long as they kept the viewers watching, even paying them a decent salary if their act was good enough. because they're smart- smart enough to play the rest of the cast like a fiddle if they wanted to, and chris wants them to.

what a great deal, right? being given blanket permission to be as conniving as possible, and a pay check to boot- who wouldn't take the opportunity?

and they round it out by "getting into character" on camera, sneering haughtily at the lens and- you guessed it- boasting to the audience that they wouldn't understand the inner machinations of their mind, before giggling dorkily at the silliness of their statement, commenting that it'd we way too obvious they were faking if they acted that snooty. they're a theatre kid at heart, so the idea of "playing the villain" is exciting! it's going to be so fun!

but their second confession is sombre. they're visibly tired, wiping away at the concealer under their eyes to reveal some heavy bags, and they're curled up into a pitiful ball in front of the camera. they divulge that the pressure to constantly live up to the shows expectations of antagonism is crushing, and their status as a social pariah is more draining than they'd care to admit, and that- despite the apparent glee they've been committing these acts of villainy with- being so outwardly morally corrupt has left them with a constant churning of guilt in their gut. they only agreed to be the "bad guy" for the money, which would help their family's financial situation tremendously, but they're growing increasingly uncertain if the reward justifies the risks.

by the third confession, they're actively sickened by their actions, eventually devolving from airing their frustrations, lamenting their choice to method act as such an awful person, to throwing up into the confessional's toilet as they hold back guilt-leaden tears and repeat a mantra of "i'm sorry, i'm sorry,". they're drowning in the murky waters of their persona, and backing out now would only lead to more scrutiny and suspicion from the people who were supposed to be their friends, and they know they'd deserve the mistrust. plus, backtracking from their deal with chris would jeopardise everything- from the dirty money they've earned from their antagonism to their place in the competition itself; they'd be voted out in a heartbeat without the network's safety blanket of plot armour!

they don't know what to do. they barely even know who they are anymore.

and then the camera's focus cuts to the real-time them, who's sat ashen-faced and deathly still as their weakest moments are broadcast, not only to the people who rightfully hate them, but to the whole world.

[blueheartedwolf]

I wish I could find a doctor that wants to find out what’s actually wrong with me instead of recommending prescriptions to address the symptoms. I’m so tired of being recommended ibuprofen for debilitating pain. Tired of relaying my medical history to a new doctor and getting the same furrowed brow and shrugging shoulders I get every time. Tired of having so-called medical professionals ask why I need a cane if I’m able to walk down their clinic hallway without it. When will someone fucking help me?

[bokuwadekinaiko]

cw post / tags. sorry

i don't even know if i have the words

to express this

she's gone

and its all my fault

[sideblogformentalhealtshit]

Regaining my will to live was probably the worst thing to ever happen to me

[enrapture]

I want to cryyyyy I wish I were “normal”

[rebellum]

God writing that last post was so, so hard.

Rn I feel the weight of every sadness and every bad thing that's happened to me since I was 9 and had my first important pet death

[cosmichighpriestess]

What happens to those who cross over from Suicide

-There is no judgement of these souls because we are all pure love and light, and we are purely accepted, loved on the other side, absolutely nothing you do on Earth will change the fact that you are loved and accepted as a pure light being.

There's no test or judgment from God about being right or wrong, bad or good, about how you lived on Earth. What happens to those beautiful souls who couldn't suffer any longer on Earth is and take themselves out of this dense, lower vibrational realm, they receive EXTRA rehabilitation, extra healing in the after life.

You will receive extra help, your soul may be shocked at your own choices, extra traumatized from Earth and you will receive extra help in the afterlife before you continue to your next life.

These Divine souls will receive the unconditional love they didn't receive on Earth if they need love. If for example, you had some kind of personality "disorder" or you've been traumatized on Earth, you've gone against yourself, you've gone against who you were meant to be by being authentically yourself- your true soul's essence, like for example "narcissist" people who hurt other's with no awareness, you are going to be offered understanding, compassion, love and healing from the amount of self hatred and damage they have caused themselves on Earth.

Love, and compassion are the only things that truly transmute any negativity into love, healing, and positive change. So it's not a punishment when you get to the afterlife, because it's completely nonsensical to these beings, and God in the higher realms. If you truly understood how unconditionally loved you were and how much compassion for you is there you would never question again that you are loved. You are deeply loved by every atom in the Universe, it sounds unreal but it's absolutely one hundred percent true.

You are so unconditionally loved by the Universe/God/Source/All That Is that you are FREE to feel unloved by the Universe/Source/God, if that is your free will, to not feel connected to the Universe but free will was a gift to us all, and we should not use it to hurt others. Darkness is an illusion, it is not the truth, only love is. Anytime you are not in the state of being of love, you are pretending to be something you are not. Even if you have dark desires it is not representative of who you really are. It's okay to be who you are, It's perfectly normal to have a certain amount of darkness, you had to, in order to be able to incarnate into such a lower density on Earth.

But nonetheless it's completely nonsensical to believe that something bad would happen to you if reach a point in your life where you feel you are desperate, lost, hopeless and feel you have no other options left, from their limited perception of reality, buying into false illusions on Earth. There is no judgement when you cross over, the only one judging is yourself by watching your own choices played out.

Remember, Earth is mostly full of illusions. Physical reality is one giant mirror, what you put out is what you receive back, what you give is what you get. As soon as you cross over to the otherside you gain a larger, more expanded awareness either slowly or right away depending on your awareness already in the physical realm, about the death process. You will receive an infinite amount of opportunities to learn your lessons again in another life, in another way.

Some souls are very confused when they cross over by their limited amount of awareness. But eventually everyone goes to heaven no matter what, what people perceive as hell is being stuck temporarily in the astral realm, it's the least evolved version of you creating it's own hell.

So create your own heaven instead, and choose to evolve and come into these larger states of awareness so that you do not suffer more than you need to. Pray for the Divine souls that have not crossed over easily by their own free will, and help them cross over into the light.