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lovemooreandco · 5 years

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World Breastfeeding Week

For world breastfeeding week we wanted to ask a few moms a handful of questions to share with you, a spectrum of experiences with breast-feeding. Every experience can be unique, but we can all find some common ground and learn from one another. It really can vary not only from mother to mother, but also from baby to baby. I hope our responses can help someone feel confident in whatever choice they make, that best works for their family, when it comes to breastfeeding.

Are you currently nursing/pumping? (If yes, explain how long. If no, how long did you and share your story on stopping if you’d like to)

Michelle “I am currently both nursing and pumping. She only eats from a bottle when she is with her grandma a few days a week while I’m at work. Otherwise it’s straight from the booby :) I plan to breastfeed Hazel until Phil and I start trying for our second kid, that’s when I’ll start to wean her off of it (so in about 2 years)”

Anna “I am currently still nursing 6-month-old Copeland. It has been one of the hardest and most rewarding experiences of my life. I have definitely wanted to give up several times and haven’t, but I completely understand why women get to a point where keeping their sanity takes precedence over breastfeeding. I wish moms had more grace for themselves when it comes to feeding their babies.”

Cortney “I am not currently breastfeeding or pumping. I pumped for six months, but with three kiddos, it became exhausting. I loved producing milk for my youngest, but it took so much time away from the other two. It was an endless cycle of pump, feed, change, wash the pumping supplies & bottle, then repeat.”

Taylor “I am currently nursing, and I pump when I need to be away from the baby. I’m a SAHM, so I just nurse on demand. I have been nursing since May 2017 when I had my first son, and have nursed through having my now 8 month old.”

Katie “I am Breastfeeding my baby. In the beginning, I was pumping a lot to try to up my supply but, it really is true that the more you latch the baby the more you will produce because the baby nursing regulates milk than a pump ever will”

Jourdan “I am currently nursing my 6 month old Daughter. I pumped for 2-3 months with my Son, and then switched to formula.”

Did your baby latch right away?

Michelle “My entire pregnancy I had heard a lot of stories about how challenging breastfeeding can be so this was always my biggest fear. But about 10-15 minutes after Hazel was born my midwife asked me if I was ready to try to nurse her. I can’t tell you how ecstatic I was when she latched right away!”

Anna “Oh yeah. But he was tongue tied and had a shallow latch for the first 4 months, so it hurt like hell for the first 30 seconds of each feeding.”

Cortney “He latched right away, but he had a hard time staying latched, which led me to pumping.”

Taylor “I wouldn’t say they latched immediately like ‘people’ say they will. They both did, however, nurse within a few hours of birth.”

Katie “My baby did, thank god!”

Jourdan “My daughter latched pretty well from the get go. My son had more trouble from the start, which made me give up quickly. They both have significant lip ties.”

If you saw a lactation consultant, did you find them helpful?

Michelle “I’ve only visited a lactation consultant once and it was just to get a few questions answered about pumping. I personally didn’t find her that helpful, but I think it was my own fault. I knew absolutely nothing about pumping so going in I didn’t even know what questions I should have been asking. I felt very much in the dark about all of this so my advice to anyone who might find themselves in a similar situation is to do a quick google search on the topic to at least learn the basics, and then from there you can develop your own questions to ask the professional.”

Anna “Absolutely. When you’re a first time mom, learning to breastfeed forces you to be physically and emotionally vulnerable. I never imagined I’d have another woman literally holding my breast and feeding my baby with it. Good consultants understand that breastfeeding doesn’t “come naturally” like everyone says it does, and they can give you practical ways to be successful. I have called my consultant bawling, and she doesn’t bat an eye.”

Cortney “I tried & tried with a lactation consultant, but I never could get him to latch properly.”

Taylor “I did, and I did find it helpful. I had questions they were able to answer.”

Katie “Although it did come into my head a lot to hire a lactation consultant, in the beginning, since my supply was low and not enough to fill my babies appetite, which is why I had to supplement with formula, I did not hire a lactation consultant”

Jourdan “I did not see a lactation consultant outside of the hospital, but took advantage of the ones provided during my stay. I was really frustrated with the consultants during my first postpartum experience. They rubbed me the wrong way, and I think that may have contributed some to my decision to pump vs. continuing to try and get him to latch. The consultants in my second experience were very lovely and I felt more comfortable asking questions and being vulnerable in front of them.”

One struggle with breastfeeding would be:

Michelle “My biggest struggle with breastfeeding so far would be when Hazel is going through a leap. During her leaps she has a hard time focusing on just one thing which then frustrates her. So she will nurse for a few seconds and then she comes off and screams for a few seconds, then latches again... the. entire. time 😭”

Anna “It can be mentally exhausting. You want to be capable of nourishing your baby with your body, like it was designed to do. If you fail, it’s easy to jump to dramatic conclusions and feel like a failure. Not to mention keeping it together when a hungry baby is screaming in your face.”

Cortney “Getting a strong latch. I have larger nipples, which made it very difficult. Once he was big enough to actually latch, he was used to the bottle nipples & preferred them.”

Taylor “I think the first two weeks are the biggest struggle. You’re both learning something new, it’s unbelievable painful, and it’s just A LOT. Also, having so many questions you may not know the answer to. We all know google can only go so far. (And probably in the wrong direction)”

Katie “One struggle with breast-feeding is definitely always having to be there for your baby. Obviously I definitely enjoy every moment with him but sometimes I feel like I do need a break. Fortunately, I always have in the back of my head that if I’m not there with him and he gets hungry (since my supply is “just enough “ now) he could get formula if I am not with him but since, I would prefer him to get breastmilk, so me and him are always together 🤷🏽‍♀️”

Jourdan “Freedom! Nursing babies are glued to you unless they can also take a bottle. We are working on getting my daughter to take breastmilk from a bottle or a sippy cup, so I can have more of a life outside being a stay at home mom.”

Two positives about breastfeeding would be:

Michelle “Two positives about breastfeeding... I think the biggest one for me would be not having to wake up in the middle of the night to make bottles. We co sleep with her in the bed, so when she’s hungry in the middle of the night we do the side-laying position and both of us usually just fall back asleep like this. I’ve never lost sleep because of it, it’s a total game changer!! Also, of course, there’s the bond you get with your baby when you breastfeed vs bottle feed. Nothing melts my heart more than when I look down at her while she nurses and she’s looking back up at me. It’s so special.”

Anna “It didn’t happen immediately for me, but I have found it to be true what they say about a beautiful bonding experience.I hate hate hate hate hate pumping. So avoiding that as much as possible is always preferable. “

Cortney “Since I didn't actually get to breast feed & pumped instead, I would have to say one, it saves A LOT of money. Formula is expensive. Two, it burns a lot of calories. Lol!”

Taylor “One positive is that it’s free. I’ve never purchased formula, and honestly can’t imagine. Props to all of those mamas, for real. Another positive is that baby relies on you. That can be a negative some days, but ultimately so nice knowing you are baby’s safe place.”

Katie “One positive thing about breast-feeding is of course the health benefits and the fact that my body can produce whatever my baby needs through the saliva Communication. It is insane I didn’t realize how smart and powerful a woman’s body really is. Another positive factor about breast-feeding is of course the bonding time and the fact that your baby enjoys you so much not only for your milk but for your company and for your comfort and for your touch and your smell. It truly is priceless.”

Jourdan “I would definitely have to say, the saving money aspect and easy travel aspect have been the biggest positives for us. We spent an insane amount of money on formula & when you travel with formula it’s like a whole other level of anxiety, of having to keep bottles clean, cold, etc. just a whole lot of extra work compared to just whipping out a boob!”

Any advice you’d like to offer?

Michelle “ I don’t know if I have any advice. I guess it would be to try not to be so concerned with what every other mom is doing, how they are doing it and when. Of course it helps to learn these things. You can try it out for yourself and maybe it will also work for you too. But, I found the most comfort when I finally realized that every momma is different and we all just kind of figure out on our own what works best for us and our little. Also, close your eyes and take a few deep breaths. Maybe walk away and cry for a few minutes so you can come back with a clear head. This 👏🏼 is 👏🏼 hard! But you’re doing great ❤️”

Anna “Find another mom to talk to. Preferably one who didn’t blissfully nurse all 6 of her babies with no issue. Seriously though, WE NEED EACH OTHER, and we need to end the comparison/competitive mom culture. Everyone’s doing their best with what they’ve got and there’s no one-size-fits-all approach to this thing.”

Cortney “If you want to breastfeed or pump, just don't give up. Even if you end up exclusively pumping, it feels so rewarding. Also, don't feel ashamed if you do do it then decide "this isn't for me" or, like me, you have other kiddos who need your attention.”

Taylor “My advice would be to find a support system. Moms that have nursed because they GET IT and just other moms because they will be there for you, it’s essential because you go through a lot with the entire journey, and I know I needed that in the beginning and during tough times.”

Katie “The advise that I would like to offer to moms is - do you the most you can do And know that that is your best and that is enough! And don’t be so hard on yourself -oh and never compare yourself to other moms and their production level - worst thing ever to do.”

Jourdan “ if you want to nurse, get through the first two weeks first and then decide if you want to continue or not. The first two weeks are the hardest like crying pain, cracked & bleeding nipples, baby screaming hard. But then after your breasts get adjusted, aren’t as engorged and your flow is more regulated it gets a lot easier. It’s still hard all around so my advice would be not to push yourself into a point of where you are not mentally in a good place. Breastmilk is amazing, but happy moms are more important than breastmilk. You will feed your baby regardless.”

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holidaywishes · 6 years

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It Had To Be You VI

Chapter Six: New Day

Summary: You and Tyler spend the rest of the week at his cottage

Warnings: angst, much angst, and a brief mention of anorexia/bulimia

Author’s Note: this one is not my best, I’ll admit. It’s going to have a lot of jumps, so I wanted to walk you through it. So, the beginning finishes off the trip at the cottage and the rest of 2015 (back to texts and phone calls) and then at the end, it will start as 2016, which is kind of why this one took a little longer to write and why it’s so long. The next chapter will be shorter but may take a little longer to post as well because this one is so incredibly long.

I’ll check back in about all the dates at the beginning of those chapters. Bear with me, I promise the next chapter will be better, but I hope you enjoy this one nonetheless.

Song credit: Uptown Funk -- Mark Ronson & Bruno Mars, Black Magic -- Little Mix, Heartbeat Song -- Kelly Clarkson, Centuries -- Fallout Boy, Lips are Movin’ -- Meghan Trainor, New Day -- Tom Speight

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You woke up the next morning to a kink in your neck thanks to sleeping with your head on Tyler’s shoulder. He was still sleeping soundly with Cash sprawled on his lap and his head almost trapping yours on his shoulder; you tried not to wake him as you pulled away with no luck.

“Morning..” he said groggily

“I didn’t mean to wake you,” you rubbed your eyes, “go back to sleep”

“Mmm, nope I’m awake now,” he said with a big yawn and a stretch that almost knocked Cash off of him, “once I’m up, I’m up.” You laughed, let out a quick yawn and stood up heading to the kitchen for a glass of water. You listened to Marshall’s paws click on the hardwood floor as he paced around you, waiting for food.

“How early do you usually feed them?” you asked as you sipped on your water.

“Not this early,” he answered, “I usually wait until lunch time and then we eat at the same time…” he said, drifting as he noticed the look you were giving him.

“That’s adorable! so what’s the pla--” you began, just as Jamie and Katie walked in, giving out good mornings like we hadn’t seen each other in years.

“Well aren’t you two just the most chipper you’ve ever been!” you joked, sticking your tongue out at Katie when she turned to face you.

“We had a good sleep,” she quipped and you could see a smile spread across Jamie’s face as he nodded to Tyler. You shook your head and went back to your glass of water, petting the dogs quickly before walking over to give Katie a hug.

“So, what’s the plan for today?” you breathed, finishing your thought from earlier.

“Let’s head out on the lake! Chubbs you up for some fish?” Tyler exclaimed

“Someone’s gotta catch ‘em” Jamie mocked and the two of them ran out to the boat like children vying for the passenger seat on a road trip, leaving you and Katie to saunter out with the pups.

“So…” Katie pried, “what happened last night? We heard the T.V. going pretty late. How I Met Your Mother right?”

“Oh yeah, we started it. But I kind of passed out early and I guess Tyler didn’t want to wake me up. So we slept out here” you blushed, trying not to look directly at Katie, opting instead to stare at the lake. You heard her aww and you had to stop her.

“No, no it’s not like. You know I’m in a relationship right? Like I have a boyfriend. We live together. His name is James” you asked sarcastically.

“I know that, do you?” she stated bluntly and when she saw your mouth dropped she continued, “I’m sorry, (Y/N) but the two of you are like high school sweethearts. Fawning over each other every chance you get. I know you have a boyfriend but it seems like there’s something between you and Segs. I care about the two of you too much not to say anything.”

“I know you care about us. Honestly, I think he might just be a bit lonely; his relationship with Ali is in a weird place and seeing the two of you together,” you gestured to Jamie, “I think it just gets to him.”

“And you?” she asked

“Me?” you answered confused, “I mean I think my relationship gets to him to, for the same reasons that yours does. He wants a relationship. He just… doesn’t like to admit he does.”

“You’re not answering my question” she persisted but before she could continue, you interrupted

“You mean you’re incredibly vague questions that imply something is going on but you just won’t come out and ask?” she nodded as her only response, “no, Katie, there’s nothing going on with me and Tyler. Not like that. He’s with Ali, I’m with James. Tyler and I are friends. That’s it.”

“Maybe. But answer me this:” she stopped, turning to you before either of you stepped on the dock, “if he’s with Ali, where is she? Why haven’t we heard anything about her? Why hasn’t she shown up or called? And don’t say because their relationship is in a weird place right now” you were speechless. You didn’t know why Ali hadn’t come out to the cottage, if she was even invited, you didn’t really trust her and you knew she didn’t really like you to begin with -- she claimed you were fake because of how little time she’d spent with you. They’d been together practically since you met Tyler but you heard more about her than anything else. Katie told you things about her, mostly negative, but you didn’t want to pass judgement without meeting her, so, you waited.

The first time you met her was last year, shortly after you met Cassidy and Candace, and it was a rare occasion where James wasn’t with you, so she thought you were trying to make a move on Tyler. Needless to say, she was very… affectionate to him that day. It made you weirdly uncomfortable just thinking about it. After that meeting, and after she found you were in a relationship, she would rarely come out with you guys and the last thing she’d ever do is contact you without Tyler around, so she kind of became a passing thought. Only coming up when the situation called for it.

Which, apparently, this one did.

“I don’t know, Katie,” you finally said, “I don’t think it has anything to do with me. Honestly. Or maybe it does. But not in that way,” she looked at you quizzically, “he knew I was going to be alone this summer, for most of it anyway. So he was probably just being nice and he knows there’s tension with Ali and I” you explained and she sighed, temporarily agreeing as the two of you walked out to the boat to meet the boys.

“Jeez, took you long enough,” Tyler proclaimed dramatically, “you ready?”

“Let’s do this!” you said, squinting in the sun, tripping over a raised slat of wood, “I meant to do that. Tyler you gotta keep this place safe. You have dogs” you tried to play it off but your cheeks were fiery with embarrassment and you knew they weren’t buying it anyway.

“Yeah, I’ll fix that later, just get in the boat already” he laughed and you stepped in, Katie following close behind in case you fell again. You watched as Marshall and Cash tried to jump in as well, feeling bad that they couldn’t come, but Jamie just told them that we’d be back soon and to wait there on the dock. They laid down and the four of you set off. Before too long, Katie brought out her phone and started playing some music.

“This here, that ice cold, Michelle Pfeiffer, that white gold…” the music played and everyone was bopping along until Tyler stopped the boat

“Saturday night and we in the spot, don’t believe me, j--” Jamie grabbed Katie’s phone to turn off the music and she almost growled.

“Sorry babe, we need quiet. For the fish” he said quietly and she sat back. You laughed and did the same. You knew the boys were going to fish so there needed to be quiet, but you didn’t think it would be this quiet. You were almost too scared to think, fearing even that would be too loud, when Tyler finally spoke up.

“We don’t need complete silence, we can talk to each other. This is just awkward.”

“Oh good, I thought I was going to have to hold my breath this whole trip,” Katie teased, “you would’ve had to fish me out of the water.”

Jamie rolled his eyes then turned to you, “so (Y/N), how are you liking the cottage?”

“Oh, it’s great. Beautiful..” you didn’t really know what to say but you could tell that everyone wanted you to add more, so you just kept talking, “seriously, it’s beautiful. The high ceilings, the colour of the wood. The marble counter in the kitchen. I’ve never been anywhere quite like it. Kudos, Ty!” he nodded a quick thank you and went back to looking at the water.

“Honestly, I kind of feel out of place there” you continued and could almost feel Tyler’s whiplash

“What does that mean?!” he said, offense clearly taken

“I don’t mean you’ve made me feel out of place. I just… I don’t know. I grew up in a one story, like, bungalow. All of the people I grew up with lived in places similar to mine. The grandest place I’d ever been was my friend’s house in McKenzie Lake. So, in the least offensive way possible, I’m just not used to it and I feel out of place…” you finished, waiting for them to either laugh or attack you like animals. Thankfully, it was the former and not the latter.

“Well, as long as it’s not my fault,” Tyler added amongst the laughter, “but I think you should know, I grew up in a one story house too. Well I guess like maybe two story, but it was by no means anything like this. This was something I did once I started making a little bit of money. It’s not just for me, it’s for my whole family. And these guys too” he finished and all you could say was a small I know before he went back to stare at the water.

You watched him watch the water and you kept thinking about what Katie said. It seems like there’s something between you and Segs. She wasn’t wrong, there was something there that not even you could put your finger on. You two were friends and over the last year, your friendship had gotten stronger and more natural. It would make sense that the people around you would notice the two of you becoming friendlier. But that’s all it was, just friends being friends. Nothing more than that. You saw how he talked about Ali, he really was smitten with her, no matter how rocky the relationship was at times. You loved James -- he was by far the kindest person you’d ever dated. You didn’t want to lose Tyler out of your life by addressing something that wasn’t there. You’d had this conversation with yourself before and you hated that you were having it again.

But maybe this is what Katie’s talking about?! Your head was spinning with questions and you were starting to get that anxious feeling again. Suddenly, you were grabbing blankets and jackets that were around you, causing Katie to watch as you collected articles like a squirrel. You didn’t have any explanation for it, other than you needed to be covered up. It was the Fur Ball all over again. You felt overexposed and there was nowhere to go. Literally this time. You didn’t know what to do; you couldn’t sing because there needed to be quiet for the fish but you felt like you might explode. You turned your body so your back was facing everyone and you were staring at the water. You made sure Katie wasn’t looking at you, you couldn’t believe what you were about to do but you couldn’t think of another option -- you needed off that boat.

You leaned over the side and stuck your fingers down your throat. Faking seasickness. Good one, (Y/N). Chris will be so proud to hear about this, Lucy was going to lose her mind, you thought to yourself. It’s not anorexia but it’s definitely a step backward.

“Oh my god (Y/N)!” Katie shouted, “(Y/N) are you okay?!” The boys lept over to you to make sure you were alright and you just apologized.

“We should head back, Ty. Get her some water, maybe you just need to lay down (Y/N),” Jamie suggested and you nodded

“I’m so sorry, guys. I don’t usually get seasick, I don’t know what happened” you lied and slowly turned around, wiping your mouth. Tyler backed away toward the steering wheel, staring at you as he turned the engine on. What? Stop staring at me! You wanted to shout at him. He couldn’t possibly know… could he?

When you got back to the dock, Jamie offered to walk you back inside, confusing everyone, and leaving Katie and Tyler to tie the boat up. Marshall and Cash followed behind you and Jamie, trying to get either of you to play to no avail.

“Let’s get you cozied up, I’ll grab some water. Some gravol?” you shook your head

“Just water is good. Thank you Jamie” you said sincerely

“What are friends for?” he winked as he got you settled on the couch under the blankets, propping pillows behind your head and making sure you were comfortable enough. You were expecting some questions from him when he brought you your water, but nothing. Just quiet. He sat on the chair next to you and put on Family Guy, laughing up a storm until Katie and Tyler came in.

“Glad you could make yourselves comfortable while we did all the work,” Tyler complained, Katie following behind him.

“She was sick, I needed to make her feel better” Jamie answered with a smile

“You’re not dating her…” Katie scolded and everyone laughed. Tyler lifted your feet onto his lap so he could sit on the couch while Katie snuggled close to Jamie on the chair. Everyone sat there watching T.V. and it was a nice moment. Naturally, you decided it needed to end.

“I’m going to go to bed. To my room, to sleep,” you felt weird calling it your room but no one seemed to notice, “thank you for cutting the trip short and for taking care of me Jamie. I’ll see you all in the morning.” You walked towards the guest room you were staying in, almost getting lost along the way, feeling stupid for doing what you did. As soon as you got to your room you closed the door behind you, desperately wanting the night to end. Just as you got under the covers, Tyler opened the door.

“Can we talk?”

“What’s up, Ty?” you asked concerned. He sounded so upset and you were worried about what he wanted to talk about.

“Are you okay?” he started, “I know you made yourself throw up out there” you felt your eyes grow wide, he did know!

“What do you mean?” you asked, trying to convince yourself that you were a good liar, “I was seasick or lakesick I guess…”

“(Y/N), I know you. You told me about your eating disorder, remember. I know this isn’t exactly the same thing… but I think I should know if you’re feeling like that” he confessed

“Ty, I’m fine. Really. Yes, okay, I admit, I made myself throw up on the lake, but I promise you, it’s not like that. I hated doing that, trust me, but I just needed…” you weren’t sure if you should be honest here mostly because you didn’t know what you’d say but he just waited for you to continue, no words escaping his lips, “I needed to get off the boat.”

“What? Why? What happened?” there it was, the concern that was laced in his voice earlier, the one that was on his face on the boat, the one that you couldn’t lie to.

“I’m messed up, Ty, there’s really no better way to describe it,” you practically yelled, “I get uncomfortable, anxious, so easily and it makes me do stupid things to try to control the feeling. Things like grabbing everything in sight to make myself invisible or shoving my fingers down my throat to get people to turn a boat around. It’s messed up and I know that, but I can’t change it. But please, Ty, please don’t ask me what made me so anxious because I couldn’t tell you even if I tried”

“Shh, shh,” he put his arm around your shoulders and kissed your head, “it’s okay, I didn’t mean to upset you. I just needed to make sure you were okay. And that you knew I’m here, if you ever need me, okay?” You nodded and told him you really were tired but you wanted to get back on the lake sometime during this trip because it was kind of the point. He laughed and let you get to sleep, saying he’d see you in the morning as he closed the door behind him.

Jamie and Katie went home the next day and the rest of the week went by quite quickly. You finally got out on the water, Tyler even caught a fish and that was your supper in the middle of the week -- even though you weren’t a huge fan of fish to begin with, he was just so proud of himself that you didn’t know how to tell him.

James called a few times to check in, even skyping with the two of you when the wifi connection was strong enough. Near the end of the week, Ali even called -- what a disaster that was. You could swear she yelled at Tyler the entire phone conversation; you heard some of it.

“So you were just never going to call me?”

“Ali, calm down. Babe, stop for a second and listen to me”

“What the fuck are you doing there with her Tyler?! Without her boyfriend there? Without me there?”

“If you’re so worried, which you don’t have to be at all, then come hang out with us. You’re in Toronto anyway…”

“I can’t, I’ve got things going on. You know that! Whatever…”

That was pretty much all you got from it but it was enough. He ended the conversation and threw his phone on the couch, rubbing his face.

“Sorry about that. Ali’s just a little stressed…” he explained

“Should I call? Tell her there’s nothing to worry about?” he looked at you, dumbfounded, and you knew that it was a stupid idea. She’d never take your call much less hear what you had to say.

“Don’t worry about it. She’ll get over herself, this happens sometimes” he said, looking at his hands. That made you feel bad, that’s not how a relationship should be -- fighting, arguing all the time. Way too much drama. There should be nothing but love there but instead their relationship was coloured with shades of jealousy and distrust. You kept wanting to ask him why he was with her if she was so cruel to him, if the two of them couldn’t go one day -- one full day -- without fighting. You understood that love was a strange thing and it didn’t always make sense, but this didn’t seem like love.

It felt like an arrangement that neither of them could get out of.

But you didn’t say anything. You believed that the relationship would either get better or they’d both realize they needed to end things, either way it wasn’t for you to decide. So you finished off the last few days at the cottage. Relaxing, playing with the pups and getting to know Tyler’s deepest secrets through a game of Never Have I Ever. James called you at the end of the week to tell you he was still going to be in Montreal and that you should come see him because he missed you. You wanted to be back in your own bed for a bit but you missed James too so you told Tyler that you had to exchange your ticket so you should get to the airport a little earlier than planned.

“Why don’t I just drive you to Montreal and then you guys can take the plane from there?” He proposed

“Yeah, we could do that. But I still have to change the ticket here don’t I?” you asked, packing your bags and saying goodbye to Marshall and Cash.

“We’ll do it on the way…” Tyler said, “it’s a little bit out of the way but not a big deal”

“Okay, if you say so” you smiled and dragged your bags off the bed, throwing them over your shoulder to bring them out to the car. The dogs jumped in the backseat of the Jeep and got settled, waiting for the two of you to jump in the front seats.

“Want to plug your phone in and play some music?” Tyler asked, raising his eyebrows, “we don’t want what happened last time…”

You rolled your eyes and plugged in your phone, “already on it! You ready for some English girl groups?”

“Full of honey, just to make him sweet, crystal ballin’ just to help him see what he’s been missing, so come and get while you still got time..” you and Tyler bopped along to the music, singing along, getting the words wrong here and there because neither of you really knew it but it was catchy.

“Get your boys and it… heeeyyy ooh,” you stumbled and the two of you just fell into a fit of laughs.

“Hey! You’re not doing any better, Mr. He’s still ballin’ just to help him see..” you mocked, “the words were Crystal Ballin’”

“We don’t know this guy, he could’ve been ballin’ and that’s what could make him see” he argued, laughing as the song finished and Kelly Clarkson’s Heartbeat Song played next.

“Like a finger on a loaded gun. I, can, feel it, rising. Temp-er-ture inside me. Hav-en’t felt it, for a life, time”

“What? Not gonna sing along to this one?” Tyler asked, stunned.

“Nah, I definitely don’t know the words well enough,” you admitted, “plus, I like Kelly Clarkson too much to ruin her song like that”

“Pffft..” he huffed, “let me then..”

“Up Up all night looonnngg…” He belted and you let out a howl of a laugh.

“Okay, okay stop. You’re so off key!” you switched the song with only 10 seconds left and put on Centuries and the two of you sang along with what you knew, otherwise just enjoying the ride. When you finally got to the airport, you hopped out of the Jeep and told Tyler you would be back as soon as you could. Not expecting it to take long.

“I’ll be here” was all he said and you walked into the airport. You walked over to the Air Canada desk to the first person who was available and explained your situation. They too a little longer than you thought they would and the attendant kept glaring at you like you had asked her to change the sky for you.

“I’ve never had to do this before,” you explained, hoping she’d lighten up, “it’s just.. My boyfriend is still in Montreal and he’s got a super busy schedule so, we want to spend as much time together as possible,” still, she glared.

“It’s fine, Miss. Everything has been settled. But since you didn’t have an exact return date, I could only give you an exchange for one week from now,” she handed you the new ticket and waited for you to walk away, which you almost did, but you had some questions.

“I mean, thank you it should be fine, but couldn’t you have given me credit or a voucher in case the trip goes longer than a week?” you asked and she shook her head, claiming she didn’t have “authorization” to offer anything and her boss was not to be disturbed.

“I guess you can try it again at the Montreal Airport if the trip.. persists…” she said, as if it were an illness, “but otherwise, you’ll just have to catch the designated flight. Thank you for choosing Air Canada. Next, please.”

“Hold on, wait” you stopped the person behind you, “you’re not going to try to help me? This seems kind of arbitrary… If I had changed my flight online this wouldn’t have been such an issue. I don’t understand.”

“Miss, please. We’re very busy as you can see,” she gestured behind you, “and I did help you, to the best of my ability. I exchanged your ticket. Had you changed the flight online, you still would’ve been asked what the exact return date was; meaning you would be having the same issue as you’re having now.” She was probably right but there was something about her that made you want to argue with her, instead you took a deep breath and apologized for your reaction.

When you got back to the Jeep, you heard music blaring and as you got closer you heard Tyler singing along.

“I know you lie, ‘cause your lips are moving. Tell me do you think I’m dumb. I might be young, but I ain’t stupid. Talking ‘round in circles with your t--” he stopped suddenly when you opened the door.

“No, keep going. It was really great,” you motioned to him and the radio, “really, best performance I’ve seen, or heard, in a long time.”

“Shut up,” he blushed, “you ready to go?” You nodded and hopped back in the passenger seat. The drive went pretty quickly, you were surprised, but you were pretty sure it was because you barely stopped unless the dogs needed to go out and the music kept you both incredibly entertained.

By the time you got to Montreal, it was only 8 pm, which was actually perfect because you knew James would’ve worked right through supper and he had to be off work by now, so you gave him a quick call and he told you where to meet him for some food.

“Tell Ty, he can come if he wants”

“He says you can come if you want,” you said to Tyler as you pulled up at the restaurant where James said to meet, seeing James standing outside the door, “It’s a long drive back, you could just stay in the room with us…”

“Nah, I’ll leave you guys to your romantic night,” he said as you jumped out of the Jeep into James’ arms, “I need to see Ali anyway, make sure I didn’t royally screw things up.” You gave him a pathetic smile and told him not to worry. You almost forgot your bag in the trunk when you heard Marshall bark.

“I didn’t say goodbye to the boys!” you shrieked, “how could I forget that?!”

“And I think you need your bag as well,” James added with a laugh, “Unless you’re donating those clothes.”

“Shoot! Right!” you exclaimed as the pups took turns licking you goodbye. When you finally had everything, you said your final goodbyes to Marshall, Cash and Tyler, wishing them a safe trip. You and James watched them drive away, waving goodbye as they drove down the street and then went inside the restaurant to your table.

“I’m so happy to see you babe! How was the week?” James asked, kissing your cheek

“So good!” you said excitedly, “the cottage is beautiful, you’ll love it. If he invites us back, we should definitely go.”

“What’s wrong with him and Ali?” he questioned as the two of you sat down and ordered a drink

“Oh you know, their relationship is just… complicated. Like all the time,” you explained, “I find it best not to get involved.” He just nodded and continued looking through the menu.

The trip with James really was just a week, lucky for the Air Canada lady and you, you supposed. And it was great. You had never been to Montreal before, but it was beautiful and you were so happy you got a chance to see some of it with James. Once you got back home, things went back to exactly what you thought they would. James was working non-stop and there was still almost three full months left of the summer, which meant a lot of your friends were still out of town.

You met up with your sister a few times over the next few weeks but she was in a new relationship, so she was really busy being in the honeymoon phase. Chris, much to your surprise, had gotten into a new relationship, gotten engaged and his wedding was set for August 1st. Just a month away. When the two of you went out for lunch and he explained it all to you, you were in utter shock.

“That’s awfully fast, Chris,” you finally said, “are you sure that you want to get married so soon? I mean it sounds like you’ve only known…” you said trying to remember her name.

“Karen” he jogged your memory for you

“Karen, for a few weeks. How do you know she’s not crazy? Like certifiable?” you only half joked. You were concerned, this wasn’t like Chris. The last relationship he had was when both you and Lucy were in high school and they had known each other for years before he agreed to go on a date with her.

“She’s not. I promise,” he tried to calm your nerves, “look, I know it seems strange and rushed and crazy, but I love her. I’ve never felt like this before. Like I don’t want to lose her. Like I can’t imagine my life without her. And she feels the same. We trust each other with our whole beings.” He looked so happy and he truly sounded like he loved her. So, you couldn’t fight him on it.

“I guess, I’ll have to meet her then” you saw Chris’ eyes glisten and a smile spread across his face.

“Of course you will!” he yelled in excitement, “maybe you’ll even have to be my best man..”

“Woah, I’d be happy just to take in the wedding from the pews. Less responsibility” you confessed. You texted Tyler to let him know the crazy news.

“NO WAY!”

“Yes way, he says they love each other and they wanted to get married as soon as possible. So, I guess that means a month…”

“Well, if they’re happy that’s all that matters right?”

“I guess…”

“Whoa. Hold back your excitement 😜”

“Ha ha, very funny. I don’t know Ty. I mean, yeah, I’m happy if he’s happy, and yes, he seems incredibly happy. But people are crazy! You know that, I’ve never met this woman and he’s only known her for a few weeks. Less than a month. That could lead to serious problems, you know.”

“Calm down. Chris is a good guy and he wouldn’t do anything stupid. I mean he raised you…”

“I don’t know if that really makes him smart hahaha”

“Maybe you’re right 😉”

“What nice friends I have, hmm”

“You know it!”

The month flew by. What with all the wedding planning, you barely had time to think about anything else. Tyler checked in with you every once in a while to see if you were still unsure about the whole thing and James made sure he was in town for the wedding so you wouldn’t have to go alone. When the day finally came, you were actually surprised how elegant it looked for something so short notice. The ceremony was beautiful and filled with just as much love as you hoped it would be; James showing up last minute kept you a little on edge but that feeling passed when you saw how handsome he looked.

“I’m so sorry babe. My luggage was lost and I couldn’t find a cab and --” he started to explain but stopped when he saw you look down at your feet, “I’m not going to make excuses. I’m here and I’m sorry for being so late. Let’s do this! You look beautiful by the way.” The charm on this guy was almost unbeatable that every time he talked you couldn’t help but swoon, it was a slippery slope and one that you hoped wouldn’t hurt you in the end.

August turned to September and September turned to Hockey Season and before you knew it, you were right back to being busier than you ever thought possible.

“Come to Dallas!”

“Because I totally have the ability to drop everything for a hockey game…”

“I knew it! So I’ll see you next week?”

“Very funny… I wish, but I’m swamped with meetings and assignments and group projects. Plus I don’t want to cause any problems with Ali…”

“We… Broke up. I didn’t tell you?”

You stopped for a second. No he didn’t tell you. Was he okay? Was he sad? Happy? Burying himself in practices to forget the relationship? Did you dare ask? It’s not like they hadn’t broken up before, ran into each other somewhere and realized they were better together than broken up. So, maybe this was just one of those times

“Are you okay?”

“Of course! She was toxic, you said so yourself”

“Well I… Wait, Ty, I hope you didn’t say that to her?!”

“... It’s not like I would be lying if I did”

“TYLER! You were dating for what like three years? Off and on, but still. You can’t tell a girl she was toxic. Are you insane?!”

“Relax, I’m kidding. No, I didn’t say she was toxic. I just told her that it was probably best if we took a break from dating for a bit.”

“That sounds really non-committal”

“What does that mean?”

“It means it sounds like your still dating her, just… openly…”

“I don’t have a problem with it. Do you think she does? Do you?”

“No, I think she’s probably fine with it, because she feels like you’ll go back to her eventually. Which you probably will.”

“Maybe, but for now, we’re done.

You were at a loss of what to say. It wasn’t any of your business and honestly if this is what he wanted, then you weren’t going to argue with him. It seemed sticky, and you really hated sticky, so you said the only thing you could think of that wouldn’t ruin anything.

“I’ll see you on New Year’s right?” I know we’ll both be busy until then, but my last exam is like two weeks before. So James and I can fly to Dallas if you’re there or New York? I’ve always wanted to spend New Year’s Eve in New York City so I think James might be planning something.”

“We’re playing Nashville on New Year’s Eve this year and then Jersey after, but I might be able to get there for a few hours…”

“Hmmm…. Sounds like a stressful night and way too tight for time. Text us at midnight 😉”

“Planning my life so far in advance. Jeez, mom, lighten up.”

“Ha ha. I gotta go, my prof is looking at me like I’ve just committed the worst crime imaginable. Talk to you later. Good luck this season!”

“Bye!”

You weren’t surprised when you heard that, two weeks later, Tyler and Ali were back together. Apparently, he was celebrating a big win at Maya Nightclub with the team when Ali showed up and they just started making out. Typical, not surprising and, again, none of your business. You never brought it up to Tyler in all of the texts the two of you sent each other between October and December -- if he wanted to tell you, he would.

He did eventually. Tell you. Right after Remembrance Day. But it was quickly followed by I’m not so sure it’s gonna last. You were starting to get frustrated. Why did he do this to himself? What was it about this girl that made him lose all common sense? It never lasted but he couldn’t stop going back to her and he always told you about it. Well, almost always.

“You know it’s his decision right?” James said, “the two of them may be completely wrong for each other but you’ve told him that before and he’s still gone back to her”

“I know. I just wish he could see that they’re not good for each other” you replied.

“Eventually, he will. But for now you just have to let him… figure it out,” he said, walking toward you from the kitchen, “I know you care about him and you don’t really like her, but it’s not something you can control.” You nodded and gave him a quick peck on the lips before he began telling you what he had planned for New Year’s Eve.

“It’s going to be big, just not New York City big…” he sounded almost scared as he told you the plan, “I have to be in Seattle the next day, so we’ll be spending New Year’s Eve in Seattle!”

“That sounds awesome babe! I love Seattle, I haven’t been as an adult yet so it should be fun,” you giggled, “New York will still be there next year or the year after that.”

Christmas went by way too quickly for your liking. It was so busy with Chris’ family as well as Karen’s family, James’ cousins and his mom and dad, of course your sister and a few friends who couldn’t make it to see their families. Both the day and night were filled with long and short conversations with people you knew and people you barely knew, texts coming in with holiday wishes and happy thoughts, unwrapping gifts and cooking turkey; trying not to make a mess but giving up when you realized it wasn’t possible.

When everyone finally went home, you were so tired you could barely stand, so James carried you to your bedroom -- Chris right behind him as James laid you down.

“The spare room is just in the basement, hope that’s okay…” Chris’ implication being ever so evident

“Totally understand, I’m just gonna tuck her and grab my bag” James answered and Chris insisted he take James’ bag downstairs, so he didn’t have to worry about it. Which was really just so James could get out of the bedroom as fast as possible. The next morning, you and James tried to decide what to do for your trip. Do we spend a few days in Seattle and see the sights before it gets ridiculously busy or do we just go for New Year’s Eve and James’ work?

It was never a decision you’d ever thought you had to make and, yet, here you were. Telling your boyfriend of almost three years that you’d like to spend a few extra days in Seattle before he had to go do his boring work. He agreed, fighting you only on the idea that his work was boring, and the two of you bought a ticket to leave December 28th -- open ended so you wouldn’t run into any problems with the airlines.

When you got to Seattle, you were surprised by how little snow there was being that it was December but didn’t pay much more attention to it than that. You settled into your hotel room and immediately forced James out to Capitol Hill and Downtown Seattle. You visited Pike Market but couldn’t stand the strong smell of fish, so you walked past it, rather than through it, to get to the Gum Wall -- taking your obligatory tourist pictures. You got some drinks at Shorty’s, played some pinball while you were there and then headed over to the Space Needle.

“Shouldn’t we save this for New Year’s Eve?” James asked, “there’s gonna be fireworks all over this area. It’ll be really cool.”

“We’ll come back for that! Or we’ll be in the area anyway,” you said with a wink, “but I want to actually get up there while we still can and get a view of the city from up there.”

“I promise we’ll come back, let’s just go back to the hotel. We’ve got to pick up some drinks for the next few days and I’m starving -- that bar had no food,” James said checking his phone, “plus I’m expecting a call.”

“You’re not supposed to be working until after New Year’s Eve. I was supposed to have you to myself this week?” You questioned, a little whine in your voice.

“I’m always working babe, but I promise, it’s just a call today, an hour long meeting tomorrow and then I’m all yours.” He confessed, noticing the anger in your face. “(Y/N)...”

“What was the point of coming here early then James?” you spat, “I could’ve spent more time with my family, with my friends, instead of having to sit back and watch you work. Or exploring a city in the freezing cold.”

“We still get time together, that’s good isn’t it?” He chided

“Yeah, sure. I guess,” you said sarcastically, “I mean, what girl doesn’t want to watch her boyfriend take calls and arrange meetings on their vacation? Delightful -- you really know how to woo a girl, James. Congrats.” You walked away from him, trying to find your way to the tram to get back to your hotel. You didn’t know why you were so upset, this was his job and you knew it kept him busy, you just weren’t prepared for it keep him busy when he was with you. When he finally made time to be with you.

“(Y/N)! Stop! (Y/N)!!” James yelled after you. When he finally caught up to you, he grabbed your arm and you ripped it away.

“Let go of me!” you hissed, “I don’t want to talk to you right now.”

“Fine, don’t talk to me. But I’m not letting you walk around a strange city alone,” he said. You were still angry with him, but you were happy that he wasn’t going to let you get hurt or be alone like this; it was things like that that made you fall for him over and over again. He was right, he only had one call that night, a few texts and his meeting the next day was only an hour, so you went back to do some touristy things -- first, stopping off at the Space Needle. The two of you rarely fought and when you did, the issues were almost immediately sorted because the two of you didn’t like the uncomfortable silences or negative atmospheres.

The day of New Year’s Eve, you and James went out for a nice lunch in Capitol Hill and tried to make a plan but didn’t want to commit to anything so you agreed that you’d just go from bar to bar and make your way down to the Needle for the fireworks. You hadn’t realized that your phone battery was at 50% by the fourth bar you were at, so you quickly sent a text to Tyler but in your beginning drunk stages it came out as eight messages one right after the other.

“Tyler! My phone will die.”

“Battery dying”

“I don’t know if I’m going to wish you a Happy New Year at Midnight”

“Be able to&**”

“So Happy New Yeaaarrrr! Happy 2016!!!”

“You’re not answering me? Why?”

“Mean”

“Oh wait, you have a gmae tonight don’t you?”

“Sorry”

“Good luck!”

“Go, Fight, Win! IRISH!

“Miss you!”

Your phone died before you got to the Needle which meant no drunken pictures of you and Chris ringing in the New Year and no embarrassing moments cemented in the cloud; at least not from your phone. You woke up to about a million and one texts the next morning. Most of them similar to ones you get at Christmas; a lot of Happy New Year’s and ‘got any resolutions this year?’

But with your head still pounding from the thousand tequila shots you took and the New Year’s Specials that were different at every bar, you just scrolled through your messages without responding. You’d do that later.

There was only two messages that you couldn’t stop looking at.

“Miss you”

And the response that followed

“Me and Ali are done. For good this time.”

#Tyler Seguin #Tyler Seguin Imagine #NHL Imagine #NHL #It Had To be You #Series #Imagine #Long Imagine #lots of songs in this one #Ali Nugent is mentioned #Ali Nugent #drunk texting for the win #what will happen next?

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What a Feeling // Freddie Mercury

Chapter One Chapter Two Chapter Three Chapter Five

Pairing: Freddie Mercury and Katy Newton (OC)

Summary: Before she moved from London to New York at the age of thirteen, Katy Newton had always been friends with Brian May. He was the only one she knew who encouraged her creative side, especially her designs for fashion and makeup. So much so, that Katy is hired as Queen’s newest stylist. But what she doesn’t expect is her knew found friend, Freddie Mercury. Will their casual flirts lead to anything of substance? Or will their relationship just become another lost love as they both make their journey towards self acceptance.

Warnings: there will be smut eventually but not in this chapter, bisexuality (?), feels, mentions of alcohol and drugs

CHAPTER FOUR

“Okay so make her wearing something super cute and she’s looking at the book infront of her but make sure she’s glowing too and that you get her hair right and-”

“You’re gonna have to be a little more descriptive, I’m not exactly sure what to draw”

“Katy. I don’t know how much more descriptive I can be. She is an angelic princess and basically floats instead of walks”

“Joey”

When Jo had asked Katy if she could come over the next day, she thought it would be the perfect time to announce her new job, and soon departure. But instead, Jo needed her help with drawing the storyboard for a new film she was making, with Michelle as the lead. “Michelle is SO perfect I need a true artist to draw her, Katy she can’t be a stick figure this is why I need YOUR help” Katy had appreciated the sentiment, and would miss the times like this when she goes away.

“Mich is just so pretty, usually I have to tell the actors to wear makeup but she doesn’t need to, she’s a bartender too you know. The fact that I get to watch her make drinks?” Jo put her thumbs up and clicked her tongue, Katy rolled her eyes but smiled. “Last night she made one called a pink lady and hold shit Kate I was swept away at first we were just drinking and sitting on her couch and then oh my god is she so good with-”

“Okay, okay enough Jo I get it you’re in love we’re not all as lucky as you are” Katy laughed, but looked down.

“Oh come on Katy don’t worry about that, you have your future in front of you who knows who you’ll meet!” Jo said, putting a hand on her shoulder, she didn’t mean to make her feel bad.

The last person Katy had dated was Harry, they loved each other, she thought they did; he was a philosophy professor at a private school and she actually that thought they had something, but then he was offered a teaching job in California. They had been dating for two years but split because the distance was too much. That was months ago though, she needed to stop thinking about him.

The future. Katy was hopeful, her mother had said yes, and it was time to relay the news to her best friend, who was still feeling bad for her.

“Jo, you know how the band came over for dinner last night?” Katy asked, playing with the hem of her shirt and now trying not to smile. “Yeah, you told me, how were Roger and Freddie?” she smirked, knowing that they must have caused some trouble.

“They were fine actually, Jo something a lot bigger happened than that”

As Katy recounted the events of last night, Jo’s eyes grew wider and wider. When Katy finished with her mother’s approval, Jo literally screamed - something Mrs. Newton was definitely not happy about downstairs. She ran towards her friend to hug her, picking Katy up and swinging her around.

“I am SO proud of you! Katy we are celebrating. Tonight. I’m gonna call Michelle right now we can visit the bar she works at! We’ll get free drinks and holy shit I could not be happier for you, you deserve this” she hugged her again and smiled. The two of them couldn’t stop laughing, both just ecstatic about the events unfolding in front of them.

Katy walked over to her record player and put on some music the two of them started dancing before Jo asked for Katy’s consent to raid her closet, looking for something to wear tonight. Of course Jo was upset that Katy would be leaving New York the next day, but she knew how unhappy she had been here and that she had to for her own sanity.

“Can I borrow this one?” Jo pulled out a low cut navy blue long sleeved shirt, the ends of the sleeves poofing out dramatically. Katy nodded enthusiastically, half of the items in her closest she never had the confidence to wear herself so they remained untouched.

Katy put on a white crocheted cropped tank top and high waisted bell bottom jeans. Even though she was short, she still somehow enjoyed her appearance in the mirror. Jo helped by hyping her up like the amazing friend she is. Halfway through finishing their hair to go and visit Michelle at the bar she worked at to celebrate, they heard a knock on the door. It was James, Jo squealed and ran over. “It’s going to make me so sad not being able to come over and see you anymore” she laughed, pinching his cheeks. His face turned bright red, he secretly had had the biggest crush on Jo since he met her. If only he knew.

“Katy” he managed to make out, ignoring Jo’s comment although touched by it “Brian is on the phone, he wants to talk to you. It’s off the line down stairs so all you have to do is pick it up up here, don’t worry, I’ll make sure Mum isn’t listening”

“Ooooooh” Jo bounced her eyebrows, Katy rolled her eyes but happily picked up the phone and mouthed a “thank you” to James.

“Mayday!” Katy smiled into the phone, looking at herself in the mirror, and pressing the phone between her ear and her shoulder.

“Kayday” his familiar voice laughed back.

“I know we’ve been together a lot lately, but what are you doing tonight?” he asked a little awkwardly, hoping he isn’t a bother.

Being the crappy phone it was, Jo was able to hear everything the two of them were talking about. She took the phone from Katy, much like Freddie had taken Brian’s phone to accept her Mum’s dinner proposal.

“Katy is hanging out with Michelle and me since you’re stealing her away, sorry dude” Jo said nonchalantly, looking at her cuticles.

“Well” Brian coughed awkwardly on the other end of the line “there’s a party tonight in the city, we wanted to celebrate the new job, you guys are more than welcome to come with us it’s at the-” “What time” Jo was still nonchalant. Katy was annoyed that Jo was probably scaring Brian into thinking she doesn’t like him right now.

“What? I think around eightish but we aren’t really sure we were thinking of-” “Eight sounds great to me, we will see you at this party!!” Jo wooed, smiling and snapping her fingers. Brian laughed, he appreciated her abruptness and wished her and Katy a goodbye and that he’d talk to them later to tell them the party info.

Jo hung up the phone and turned her attention to Katy.

“GUESS WHO’S PARTYING WITH HER FAVORITE BAND AND FAVORITE FRIEND TONIGHT” she put up her arms, their giant poofy sleeves falling down to her elbows.

“Wow, favorite band first and friend second?” Katy scoffed, realizing now that she might need a little more makeup than she had on.

“Whatever you know I love you” Jo smiled, “but I’ve gotta call Michelle and tell her to try to get someone to cover her shift, her bartending skills are needed elsewhere, among other things” she winked.

“Just call her please”

Moments later, the plan was set for the three of them to meet the band at a high rise apartment in Chelsea, and they were listening to music while Katy applied makeup to Jo’s face and Michelle made her way over.

“Fat bottomed girls make this rockin world go ro-”

“Joey, I swear if you keep singing I’m gonna stop” Katy had not even gotten halfway through applying the silver to Jo’s eyes when she started moving her entire body to the beat of the song she had forced Katy to put on.

“But Katy this song”

She huffed and shot Jo a glare. The glare was enough to get Jo to stop and close her eyes again, Katy sighed in relief and continued to apply the glittery shadow.

Katy always noticed that Jo didn’t change the songs she was singing when she was. That might not even make any sense, but she was used to her friends replacing the pronoun in love songs to keep it in line with their sexuality. Jo was staying true to hers which Katy thought was really cool, but she didn’t know what pronouns she liked the best, they all sounded pretty nice to her.

If it wasn't for that calming train of thought, she would have stopped doing Jo’s makeup all together, and she did yell at her for moving but Jo claimed that she had no idea that dancing counted.

Freddie was rather rudely awoken by the feeling of someone taking a seat on his hip as he slept sideways on the band’s New York suite couch. The boys shared their rooms in pairs, and Freddie had hesitantly agreed to sleep on the couch while Roger had a girl come spend the night. Also why he had been paired with Roger in the first place he wasn’t quite sure of. Nonetheless, his face was pressed into the cushions, his back facing the television as he had fallen asleep with it on in an attempt to hear nothing, it didn’t really work.

Roger began eating his cereal loudly, was he just trying to piss Freddie off? If he was, it was working. Freddie, knowing what he was doing, jolted, the little movement sending Roger off of the couch and spilling the cereal onto his shirt.

“Are you kidding me, Fred?” “Are you kidding me, Rog?” he mumbled into his pillow, not wanting to face the day. The shirtless singer eventually sat up and rubbed his eyes, Roger took a seat next to him this time after cleaning up the mess he had made. It was already one pm and Freddie had still not gotten the most refreshing sleep to say the least. The thought of going out and actually having to talk to people was not at the top of his priority list at the moment. As if he could read his mind, Roger started “there’s a party tonight Freddie, at a fancy hotel in Chelsea, lots of people are gonna be there” Roger winked and nudged his arm.

“Well then I think tonight you’ll find me in the opposite direction” he mumbled, holding his head, he didn’t always get like this but when he did, he’d rather be at home with a quiet conversation and a person he loved than a rager. He wasn’t really going to get that in the middle of New York City with his three drunk friends.

“Katy’s going, Bri already asked her,” Roger chewed loudly and started flipping through the channels. Freddie had changed his mind, he was going to go. “but do you think Jo’ll be there? She was something else too I mean I know you’ve got your sights set on Katy but-”

“Will you PLEASE stop saying that? I never said that to you Rog, and it’s really fucking annoying especially when she’s going to be working with us” Freddie said angrily, turning off the tv to get Roger’s attention.

“Fred, come on, we both know you. She’s kinda spunky and she’s your type, if you don’t like her now, you’re going to. Plus, if you didn’t like her, you would always be making jokes about liking her. Just think about it” Roger said prophetically, he hadn’t even been phased by the anger Freddie had previously shown, and honestly Freddie appreciated that. He didn’t want to admit it, but Roger did know him well.

Freddie also rationalized that of course John would need backup in taking care of Roger, and he did love a good party after all.

He walked over to his suitcase and sighed. He needed a look, his current joggers and tank top would simply not do for tonight. The worst part about touring was how all of his best shirts and pants became wrinkled so easily. This was going to be difficult, maybe even too difficult to do on his own. He needed the help of a stylist. Good thing he had one.

“So you just need help for this party tonight? This is my first official gig?” Katy was smiling way too wide. After Katy had finally finished both Jo’s and her own makeup, Freddie called asking if she’d come to his hotel room to help him choose an outfit. An eruption of “oos” of course followed from Jo and Michelle but she ignored it and blushed.

Now, they were the only two in the fancy room (Freddie had to pay Roger to leave, the situation going something along the lines of “so you don’t fancy her, but you need help with an outfit? I need help with my outfit for tonight too Freddie can I stay here?” “Rog, please”), and Freddie had laid out about half of his wardrobe on his bed. Patiently watching as Katy carefully sifted through the large pile.

“It’s not going to be as easy as it looks darling, I’m indecisive” he laughed, shaking his head “no” as she held up a bright green shirt. She shrugged and put it back.

“We all are, I mean this” she gestured to her outfit, which she had changed since coming over, it was a yellow sundress instead “is like my third outfit today, and I will probably change again before the party.”

Freddie furrowed his eyebrows “you would look absolutely stunning in anything you wear, and in nothing I’m sure too” he winked, not sure where his sudden confidence was coming from, maybe because everything he was saying was true. Katy playfully hit his arm and turned bright red before turning to look back at the clothes.

That’s how Freddie was going to manage, he decided, making her smile and soaking it in, but she wasn’t to know how serious he was really being. He had doubts that she would be interested at all in anything remotely different from co workers and friends. Time continued to float by, Freddie rejecting every one of Katy’s suggestions (she now realized this was why she was getting paid, and maybe by Debbie had disliked her job so much).

She held up another shirt, this one yellow and extremely low cut, the collars meant to be flared.

“Oh come on love, you must be able to imagine what my arms look like in that thing” he scoffed and shooed it away. It was Katy who was upset now, although when he called her “love” it made her heart beat faster.

“What about your arms love?” she asked in the same way, she couldn’t let him know she had appreciated it, Freddie shrugged and looked away. He didn’t really want to talk about his insecurities right now. “You. Always. Look. Like. A. God.” Katy grabbed the yellow shirt and basically pushed it into his chest, causing him to retreat for a second.

“Go try this on, actually what am I saying I’ll be in the bathroom, let me know when I can come out” Katy didn’t even give Freddie a chance to respond to her calling him a god. He didn’t know what he would say anyways, it wasn’t often that a girl had him so tongue tied, she was different. He begrudgingly took the shirt, and she walked away. He stared at her blue hair as she did, it swayed and complimented the pale yellow of her dress. They’d be matching.

After five minutes of posing and different smiles in the mirror, Freddie knocked on the bathroom door. He looked fit. Katy didn’t know how else to describe it, or exactly what to say. The silver chain that hung loosely around his neck was the perfect accessory, the shirt accentuated his muscles and brightened his face, he was practically glowing in Katy’s eyes, and in Freddie’s, he saw himself as okay.

“Oh Freddie, I love it”

He blushed and looked away, fixing and tucking in the end. The two of them were just bad at taking compliments, especially from each other.

“Could you do my makeup, too?” he asked shyly, he smiled with his mouth open, but quickly moved his lips to cover his teeth again. Katy frowned, but decided not to mention it, she was sure she had made him uncomfortable today and didn’t want to again.

“Absolutely, come sit” she patted the bathroom counter. He raised an eyebrow, but took a seat next to the sink. “Damn, you’re still much taller than me” and he was,

“It’s not too hard to be when you’re a pixie” he may not have been as tall as Brian, but Freddie was still a good nine inches taller than her, and sitting on the counter didn’t change that.

“Okay, hm” she ran her fingers through her blue hair thinking. Freddie wished he could reach out and do the same.

“We could sit on the floor, and I could put a record on too if you’d like” Freddie clapped his hands. Katy laughed as he got up suddenly from his idea and ran out of the room. A couple moments later, she could hear the sound of Elton John making its way into the bathroom and Freddie was back. He looked down to see Katy already on the floor, going through her makeup bag and looking for the best eyeliner. He took a seat across from her, sitting cross legged and admiring her dress, she felt his eyes on her.

“It’s going to be so refreshing doing makeup for someone who isn’t constantly singing, whenever I do Jo’s she just won’t stop moving.” Katy laughed as she finally found out the right one and Freddie gently closed his eyes, she began to apply it.

He smirked, and she noticed it, as much as she loved that smirk she didn’t want to see it right now. Freddie started singing along to Rocket Man, he looked adorable and Katy couldn’t stay as irritated at him as she could Jo. “I’d be mad if you weren’t so friggin cute” she mumbled to herself when her back was turned to Freddie, looking for another color shadow from her bag.

“What was that, darling?” he smiled, his eyes still closed. As she did his makeup, his confidence began to return.

“Nothing, what?” Katy had truly not wanted Freddie to hear that. But he did, and decided not to make her repeat herself although he mumbled a “not a cute as you love” back as he started to fix his hair.

He finished and stood up, taking a look at himself in the mirror, Katy stood and joined him, he liked how the two of them looked together, now both in different shades of yellow.

Three hours later, and the music was louder than ever. What from the outside looked like any New York City building, turned into something of a glamorous penthouse with high ceilings and high occupants on the inside. Covered in modern art and leather furniture, no one was quite sure who the house had belonged to, Roger was just known for his connections and this time it really worked out. Everywhere you looked, there was some type of action going on.

Katy had left Freddie to change her outfit again and arrive with Jo and Michelle, volunteering herself as third wheel pretty much. When Katy, Jo, and Michelle had arrived, they saw no one they recognized in sight but absolutely everyone and thing looked fascinating. Jo and Michelle discreetly found each other’s hands and held on tight, here was a place they felt comfortable at least doing that. Jo at the same time was looking for the bar, she wanted Michelle to show off the tricks she had learned.

In the midst of the chaos, they first found John, who was pressed up against one of the walls, unsure of what to do. John tagged along and joined Katy at the front of the pack, he too was extremely happy to see a familiar face.

A blonde woman in tight leather approached them with drinks in her hand, she kissed Deacy on the cheek and handed Katy a drink, she couldn’t stop staring at her. Katy took the drink from her ringed fingers, it was only a little larger than a shot glass and bright pink. She looked over to see Deacy downing it, so she decided to join him. The liquid burned the back of her throat but at the same time reminded her of pink lemonade. Jo always made fun of her for being a lightweight, but she didn’t mind that, and maybe things would change by the time she returns from the tour.

Somewhere on the other side of the room, Freddie was also getting drunk, with Brian, as they watched Roger chat up some girl on the couch. Freddie had really enjoyed the moments he shared with Katy earlier, and decided to keep on the yellow shirt. Brian had asked him more than once if his plan for the night was following in a similar pursuit as Roger was doing, but Freddie wasn’t. Sure there were many beautiful people here, he already was approached by a few fans who whispered things in his ears, but it didn’t felt right tonight for some reason. And of course he couldn’t tell Brian any of this, he’d hit him. So he decided to do something else that he did best, get plastered.

The music was extremely loud, and the low lighting gave everyone a little run for their senses. The large amount of people in the small space coupled with the cigarette and marijuana smoke was a lot for everyone to take in, but for right now Freddie loved it. He felt invisible, he and Brian decided to continue to move through the crowd rather than wait for Roger to stop, they both knew he wasn’t going to. Brian was pretty drunk too, the two of them stumbled through the crowd.

Eventually, the crowd moved them to the bar, fate working out nicely as it united the seven of them. Michelle was making drinks and people were cheering around her, Jo was sitting at the bar, sipping on her straw and never stopped watching Michelle move. Katy was taking shots with some girls she had just met who were all beautiful. John was trying to get the attention of said girls, but the red head he was talking to couldn’t stop staring at Katy, who was staring back.

Brian was happy to see his friend having so much fun “Katy ladyy!” he partially slurred, walking over to her and hugging her.

“I am just SO happy that you’re touring with us! Maybe you can weigh in on the vote I’ve been trying to have, I propose that the the band needs a pet” Brian was clearly drunk, his arm was around Katy’s shoulder now and he held his hand out trying to paint the picture for her.

“Freddie wants a cat but I’m not really sure-” he continued but was interrupted by Freddie walking over. He wasn’t sure where Brian had gone to but when he saw it was Katy he was with, drunk Freddie just needed to say hello.

“Hellllooooo, darlings” he screamed, put a hand on both of their shoulders. Katy was really happy to see him, she had been looking for him all night.

“Fred! Tell Katy about my pet idea!” Brian said enthusiastically, shifting his eyes between the two of them.

“Sorry Bri, I’d rather tell Katy that she looks absolutely radiant right now. I mean stunning, Bri have you seen her?” Freddie said, taking Katy’s hand and kissing it, she giggled. Brian rolled his eyes and walked in between them dramatically, breaking their hands apart.

“She looks” he looked her up and down “fine. I’m going to go ask Deacy what he thinks. I’m thinking a turtle” he stated very nonchalantly, causing Freddie and Katy to look at each other awkwardly for a second, and then break into laughter.

“I” Freddie started, now he and Katy now sitting on a loveseat and talking to each other as people surrounded them “am VERY interested in the art in this house” he stated, he was pretty drunk, and when she got like this, everything fascinated her. Katy smoothed out her black skirt and turning to Freddie, she fixed her hair, she was very jittery right now.

“I am” Katy paused in the same fashion he had “am VERY interested in the art right in front of me” she flirted. His eyes widened and eyebrows changed, he broke into a smile until he shut his mouth quickly.

“You must be hammered to think that this banana colored chap looks like art right now” he referred to his shirt that he was still a little unsure of.

“Oh I am, Michelle kept making me these little clear drinks and they were so good so me and Deacy decided to have a drinking contest and he won but I really gave it my all he was still proud of me, Deacy’s a team player” her emotions continuously changed throughout her ramble. “But that doesn’t mean you can’t be art! And I love the shirt!” she started to play with his collar, brushing her skin against his, Freddie wasn’t expecting that kind of intimacy.

The two of them continued to talk, and they talked about everything. They started to talk about the name Mercury and it digressed into her love for astrology and contemplations of time and the future.

Just then, Roger came to join them, he took a seat in between them, and accidentally spilled Katy’s drink all over her white shirt, she stood up and kinda yelped but quickly contained it.

“Rog! What the fuck?” Freddie asked angrily at Roger, he shrugged his shoulders, not exactly sure what he did. Freddie looked around for any napkins in sight, he found some tissues and awkwardly started to pat her chest before she took the napkin from him gratefully and continued to dry herself more feverishly.

She couldn’t help before a yellow stain formed right in the center of her stomach though, unavoidable to sight. She sighed, Roger had really completely ruined that moment, and her shirt.

“Rogerrrrrrrrr” Katy dragged out his name, turning the last part of it into a grr aggressively and throwing her head back to look at the ceiling. He put his hands up defensively, he had been having a great time talking to Jo and Michelle since the other girl rejected him and had been thoroughly enjoying himself up until that moment, now he was a little scared. Freddie also wanted to kill him.

“Kate” Freddie handed her another tissue, he thought that name was pretty on her “I can call you a cab home if you’d like, I kinda would like to head back to the hotel soon, I have to be up early anyway like the rest of these fellows, but unlike them I’d rather get some rest” Freddie said softly to her. She sighed, she probably should be going home anyway. She had no idea where Jo and Michelle had snuck off to and wasn’t exactly in the mood to find out.

She nodded her head “I think that’d be best”

“I know” Freddie said, out of the blue. They now were sitting next to each other in the small yellow cab he had ordered to take her home, he insisted on making sure she got inside safely and she had no problem with that. The beginning of the car ride was a peaceful silence, not awkward at all, Katy staring out the window and Freddie closing his eyes, or opening them to take a peak at what Katy was doing. His sudden voice got Katy’s attention instantly, and she turned to him.

“Katy Kat” he stated, opening his eyes to face Katy who broke out into laughter at the cuteness of the name.

“And you said you weren’t drunk” she booped his nose and laughed loudly.

“I never said I wasn’t drunk” he held up a finger, Katy smiled at the polish “I just said I was sober enough to help you get home. And Katy Kat, that’s your nickname from me. I have decided. I really like cats, and I really like you, and your name sounds like cat, and, oh shit” Freddie’s eyes widened and he stopped smiling, he had been ranting, he clearly was still drunk too, but that didn’t mean he didn’t want to ensure Katy was okay “what if I like you so much because your name sounds like a cat, but WAIT, what if I like cats so much because it sounds like Katy, wait no that can’t be right I knew a cat before I knew you” he was just talking to himself now. How desperately did drunk Katy want to just shut him up with a kiss; and maybe she could, he did JUST say he liked her a lot, but no. He was drunk, she was drunk, and it was in the context of cats, she didn’t want to ruin anything and also did not want her first kiss with him to be drunk in the back of a taxi to get him to stop talking about cats. She giggled “I love it Freddie that is a marvelous nickname” she spoke her faint British accent making a slight comeback. He was excited by that “Your accent is so weird” he said teasingly. “Oh shut up” she said, now in a complete British tone to make him smile. Eventually the cab slowed to a stop in front of her apartment, Freddie still rambling on about the various cats he had had throughout his life.

It didn’t matter what it was, Katy could listen to him talk all day and in fact that’s all she wanted to do, ever. The taxi driver turned around in his seat and faced them

“Ma’am? That’s gonna be-”

“Oh please sir, I’m the gentleman, just keep the change” Freddie took a fifty dollar bill out of his pocket and handed it to the taxi driver, whose eyes widened.

“Thank you so much sir, you two make a lovely couple”

“Thank you for saying that, so much truly, love did you hear that? He said we were a lovely couple” Katy said laughing putting her hand on Freddie’s. He blushed and just nodded to the driver, taking her hand and thanking the driver, he guided her out of the car.

“I did hear that love”

“You should sleep over sometime so I can show you MY wardrobe!” she said excitedly, she almost sounded like a little kid when she was drunk, a little kid with a sailor’s mouth.

“That would be an absolute pleasure, darling” he laughed, walking her up her stairs and making sure that neither of them stumbled or tripped. They finally made it to the top of them successfully.

“Thank you for leaving the party to help me, this was super embarrassing to be honest. I can usually hold my liquor a little better, literally and figuratively, ha” Katy smiled softly. That last part might have been a lie but that’s okay. She was caught staring in Freddie’s glazed chocolate eyes, and he was staring at her mouth as she spoke, watching her smile play on every word.

They stayed staring for a moment, then Freddie remembered he should probably respond to what she had said.

“No worries, I’d much rather be right here with you” that was the complete truth “well um” he coughed “I’ll be seeing you bright and early tomorrow, yeah?” he asked, rubbing his neck, suddenly nervous.

“Okay Freddie, I’ll see you then” Katy said happily, not picking up on his nervousness, she kissed him on the cheek. She really was confident when she was drunk. He laughed, a little annoyed at himself that he wasn’t the one to think of that.

“Okay, goodnight Katy Kat” he smiled again, and finally let her go inside.

As he walked back down the steps alone, he started to quietly hum a song he hadn’t written yet. This was going to be a great tour.

CHAPTER FIVE

AN: hey guys! I know this was a long one but thank you so much for all the positivity I have received so far! If you like this fic, please let me know! I also do Queen ships if you’d like one just send me an ask :) -June

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Katie Thurston's Ex Blake Moynes Reacts Moving on, John Hersey discusses "Emotional

Katie Thurston's Ex Blake Moynes Reacts Moving on, John Hersey discusses "Emotional Cheating."

Katie Thurston's Ex Blake Moynes Reacts Moving on, John Hersey discusses Emotional On her "12 Days of Messy" Instagram series, Moynes stated he discovered out Thurston was dating John Hersey with the rest of Bachelor Nation. Katie Thurston's new romance caught Blake Moynes off guard. The Bachelorette winner, who separated with Thurston a month ago, has broken his silence on her "12 Days of Messy" Instagram series, in which she announced on Tuesday that she'd been seeing John Hersey, another candidate from her season. "You begin to consider timetables. I know they spent a lot of time together and everything that, but there's no way, I had no idea "On Wednesday's edition of the Talking It Out with Bachelor Nation podcast, Moynes, 30, stated. "I'm a really comfortable, confident man, and I offer 100 percent of my trust to the people I should be trusting the most." "I don't believe there was any physical cheating there," he said, "but there was certainly emotional for it to change as rapidly as it did." "To some extent, I feel dumb and foolish for allowing that to happen," Moynes said. "And I'm not sure whether it was partly me, like, was she emotionally cheating because I couldn't supply anything with words of encouragement, which I know I struggle with at times?" View this post on Instagram A post shared by Katie Thurston (@thekatiethurston) about Katie Thurston: Meet Michelle Young, Michelle bachelorette in Minnesota’s Thurston, 30, revealed her relationship with Hersey, 27, on the last day of her "12 Days of Messy" Instagram series. She picked a song from Taylor Swift's Red (Taylor's Version) album each day that reminded her of a guy she met over the season. "We Are Never Getting Back Together" by Moynes was Day 1, while "Begin Again" by Hersey was Day 12. more about After Thurston's tweet on Tuesday, her agent told PEOPLE, "It's known Katie and John became good friends post-season." "John has been there for her through all of her significant life upheavals, and they are both thrilled to explore their newly discovered love relationship." On Tuesday, Hersey shared a TikTok video showing the pair kissing and hugging each other. After giving insights into their connection after the programme, particularly when Thurston was engaged to Moynes, the revelation came as a shock. On Talking It Out, Moynes said that he's having trouble figuring out the timeframe of Thurston's relationship with Hersey. "I guess that's what I'm having trouble digesting because this 12 Days of Messy — which I didn't sign up for but was hooked to like the other men — began 12 days ago." He said, "I'm sure she knew who day 12 was - who it was going to be and why." "So, when I think of the split occurring a month ago, she definitely had an idea two weeks later who was going to be day 12 and how she was going to announce it."

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What a Feeling // Freddie Mercury

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Pairing: Freddie Mercury and Katy Newton (OC)

Warnings: there will be smut eventually but not in this chapter, bisexuality (?), feels, mentions of alcohol and drugs

CHAPTER FIVE

Katy woke up the next morning with a horrible headache and one of the worst hangovers she had ever had to endure. She was lying face down into her pillow, drool slowly dripping onto her pink sheets and her dark blue hair was sticking out in all different directions. Her makeup was obviously ruined and she had passed out in the shirt that Roger had ruined the night before. She was lucky she even made it to bed, her drunken stupor had been something of a sight to see, she must have tried to make herself some food when she had first returned because there was a bowl of uncooked pasta on her nightstand with what looked like was cheese on top, the explanation for this escaped her. Today was going to be a hard day, and this was not the cutest start to it. She was going to have to say goodbye to her family and one of her best friends, but she knew she had to. The prospect of leaving one family to find her own was scary but exciting, bitter sweet.

Just then, there was a gentle knock on her door. Before she could respond, and the chances of her doing so were slim, the door peaked open a little bit and then fully when her dog came trotting in and started to lick her hand, which was hanging off the right side of her bed. James came in slowly after, he didn’t want to bother her, but at the same time he wanted to see his older sister as much as he could before her departure.

He was carrying a tray and set it down on her nightstand, moving the weird attempt at mac and cheese farther away. He had tried to make Katy a “hangover cure” breakfast, one with eggs and orange juice and everything the tv used to tell him was important. He didn’t know what she had been up to last night, but he wasn’t too naive either.

Katy got up slowly, stretching and yawning loudly before finally turning to James, when she did, her eyes widened and she smiled. She couldn’t ask for a better little brother. Her older brother, Daniel, still wasn’t aware of Katy’s sudden change in plans, but she knew that the tour stopped Chicago where he and his fiancé lived she could stop by.

“Thank you, J! And thank you too, Rocky!” She patted her dogs head, she would really miss him, and of course hugged her brother. After eating her breakfast and catching up about everything with James, (how he should talk to a girl he fancied, how his classes were going, the typical problems of a thirteen year old boy), she shooed him away and got up to get dressed. She put on a dark green flowing dress that had small white flowers on it and braided her hair.

Walking down the stairs felt different this time, better than ever before. Guessing that her mother would be reading the newspaper at the kitchen table and knowing that she wasn’t looking for job for Katy anymore. As she made her way down, her bare feet sinking into the fuzz dark purple carpet, she heard some familiar voices chatting with her mother. She smiled, Jo was talking to Mrs. Newton about how amazing an opportunity this was for Katy and that she deserved to go, Katy felt her face flushing, could not have a better friend. Downstairs, Mrs. Newton was nodding her head, but in her heart she was unsure about letting her daughter go, worried for her safety and financial security. But no matter where, when, or why, Jo was always the voice of reason and Katy was unbelievably thankful for that. She was going to miss Jo more than anything and promised her that she would call every day, even if it started to annoy Jo.

“Don’t worry, Mrs. Newton. You know me, I’ll be doing Dan’s job for him, Katy can be and already is the annoying little sister I never realized I needed” there was a second voice talking now other from Jo’s, Brian must have also decided to come see Katy say goodbye. In reality, the two of them had arrived at the Newton’s apartment fairly early, forty five minutes before Katy had even started to stirr. They both wanted to be the one to drive her to the tour site and when they saw each other’s cars driving towards her building in the opposite directions of each other, it was a site to see but they both in the end still wanted to be the one to drive Katy.

They decided to talk for the first half hour, sitting on the hood of Brian’s car about how annoying Roger could be when he’s drunk. Brian eventually gave in to Jo’s stories about her friendship with Katy and agreed to let Katy ride with Jo and trail behind him as he lead them in his car to the studio. But that was forty five minutes ago, they had been taking turns trying to calm down Clara for the last fifteen.

When Katy peaked her head from around the banister, Brian smiled, extremely happy to see her, and Jo sighed, extremely happy to not have to make small talk with Mrs. Newton anymore, she had asked Jo a few times about any boys she was interested in. Jo had said “Never, well maybe Rog but” and Mrs. Newton just laughed, thinking Jo was shy.

“Morning Mum” Katy smiled and walked over, kissing her mother on the cheek and taking a seat next to her on the couch. She poured herself a cup of tea from the teapot on the coffee table and sipped slowly, noticing Brian had taken one as well.

“Morning Kathryn, or should I say afternoon” Mrs. Newton smiled softly, she fixed her graying brown hair and chuckled in an attempt to distract herself from her real emotions.

“When are you leaving?” her smile began to fade, as she took a look at the clock.

“Well, actually” Brian coughed a little awkwardly, not liking to be the bearer of bad news. “We’ve got to be leaving quite soon, we head out for Detroit tonight and we still have to get Katy’s paperwork sorted out.”

“How soon is soon?” Jo asked, turning her head to face Brian, she was sitting next to him. “We should head over to the studio, like” Brian checked his watch “five minutes ago, shit” he said. When he realized he had cursed, his hand flew to his mouth, remembering when he was little how Clara would yell at him for swearing. She just laughed and shook her head “you’re an adult now, Brian, it’s okay, and a rock star at that. And Kathryn, I don’t want to make you any more late than you already are on your first day. If you are going to do this job, you are going to do it well” her mother tried to hold it together, but by the end of her speech there were tears forming in her eyes. Katy gave her mother the biggest hug she had in awhile, and then headed upstairs to collect her things.

“Brian, I hope you know I’m staying with you guys until the second you leave for the airport” Jo whispered while the two of them waited for Katy to return with her luggage.

“Oh, I figured” he shrugged “Rog will be happy to see you”

“I’m sure he will”

Katy returned, struggling to carry her bright red square suitcase; Brian got up quickly to help her before she stumbled, and Mrs. Newton put her hands over her heart and looked at Jo, who just rolled her eyes.

“Thanks, Bri. I’d say I could handle it, but there are a LOT of heels in there” Katy laughed, shaking her hands that were now free of the heavy weight.

“Yeah, I got that” Brian grunted, struggling a little bit himself as he headed out the front door that Jo held open for him, following behind him as he walked downstairs to go wait in the car.

Katy said her goodbyes to her mother, and James. They were sad of course, but also full of a new hope for the future, one different from any she had felt before. Her father had passed a few years back from cancer, he was a strong lawyer like her mother but he had a softer more artistic side that her mother lacked. He would have been proud of her, Katy and her mother knew that, they cried in the doorway, arms holding each other tightly, not wanting to let go.

Finally, she did, she ruffled James’ hair and then hugged him too.

“Promise to call me if Suzie says something to you, okay?” she whispered in his ear, causing his face to turn red.

“James? Who is Suzie?” their mother asked, putting her hands on her hips. James shot her a look but at the end of the day, it had been the conversation point that ended her mother’s tears. She gave both of them one final hug goodbye and headed out the door, to see both Brian and Jo waiting in their cars but trying to talk to each other about directions by yelling from out their open windows. Katy just shook her head and laughed, running down her steps. She turned around and took one final look before hopping into Jo’s car, she could hear Rocky barking in the distance, and the sound of the tv turning on. She would miss them, she would miss New York, but she was beyond excited for her future.

During the car ride, Katy and Jo could not stop talking about everything.

“Who knows, you might even meet someone” Jo raised her eyebrows, she had just finished ranting about how beautiful Michelle had looked last night and realized it was making Katy quiet and look out the window.

“What about John, eh? You guys were talking a lot last night, or you know I’m sure you might run into the right type of girl more than once, who knows. Right?” Jo said haphazardly, her car following Brian’s slow one, he was unsure about driving in America and right now was really regretting it. He had hoped Katy would drive back. Katy’s face was red, she played with her hands. “I don’t know, I think John and I have a lot in common and I’d rather be his friend” Katy said, she chose to ignore the second part. For some reason she was unable to come to terms with her feelings and sexuality, it was confusing and she’d rather not think about it.

“You know,” Katy started, turning to Jo. “we’re doing a show in Milwaukee, maybe if you’re up for it” Jo started to grip the steering wheel a little. It was her turn to be uncomfortable. Jo had grown up in Milwaukee, where her family still was. Katy had first met her when she was kicked out of her house, she had a black eye and was trying to give herself stitches in the woman’s bathroom. The injuries were from her father, after during their family trip to New York City Jo had come out as lesbian. Her family left the city the next morning, but Jo had stayed there ever since.

“I don’t know, Katy. Maybe I’ll visit to see you but anything other than that is a different story. The flights there are always cheap” Jo sighed, and it had been years since she had seen anyone in her family.

“You don’t have to promise me anything, really I was just throwing it out there”

Jo just nodded.

They finally arrived at the tour site, it had all of the band’s trailers parked and because of the warm weather Katy was happy to be outside. She quickly spotted Freddie and Roger who were taking a smoke break, and John who was loading his luggage into the van. Freddie shot Katy a quick smile and wave, and Roger shot her a weaker one, still feeling bad about having ruined her shirt.

Jo parked and got out, running towards Roger to scare him from behind, it worked and he yelped before turning around to see her and slapping her on the shoulder. Katy headed over to Brian to help him move her stuff, although where she wanted to be was greeting Freddie.

“Newt, I just have to say it again, I couldn’t be happier that you’re coming with us” Brian smiled after they had successful packed the tour bus and were now standing inside of it feeling accomplished. The two of them hugged and let go just as the door swung open to reveal Freddie, John, their producer, and Roger and Jo trailing and bickering about something behind them. Freddie raised an eyebrow and looked at Brian, but Brian just scoffed “ew” he laughed, nudging Katy, who nudged him back harder, causing him to stumble and Freddie to burst into laughter.

“Katy Kat, I was disappointed I didn’t get a nicer greeting than just a wave” Freddie said, coming up and kissing her on the cheek. She turned red but quickly away, hoping Brian didn’t see (he did) and that he wasn’t annoyed (he stomped on Freddie’s foot when Katy wasn’t looking).

“Hi Fred” she smiled, turning back when her face had returned to its normal color. Jo shot her a confused look that quickly put two and two together, she kept her mouth quiet though.

“So your first name is Kathryn, but you go by Katy?” their manager finally spoke up, he had a contract out and was looking for a pen. “Yes, that’s Katy with a y” Katy said, she walked over to him and peaked over his shoulder, making sure it was spelt correctly.

“Why did you choose a y?” he asked out of curiosity more than anything else, handing her the pen, she took it and read the contract over.

“Y? Because she’s cute, that’s y” Freddie laughed, Jo did too but more out of amusement than anything else. Brian did not think that it was as funny as they did.

“Actually,” he said in a matter of fact tone “it’s because Kathryn is spelt with a y, but good try I guess” Roger dropped at Brian’s nonchalant manner, he just wanted to shut Freddie down, and Freddie didn’t know her at all.

“Okay Brian we get it” Jo said, she was also Katy’s best friend and not acting like this. But Brian knew the relationships that Freddie would have, and he knew how sensitive Katy was, he just was trying to look out for his best friend and prevent her heart from being broken, again. He had made the mistake of asking Katy about Harry, and after he found out the truth about him he had felt sorry for ever liking the prick. Katy hadn’t told many people, but when he left he confessed to having seen other girls before they broke up. She didn’t like the loneliness that distance made her feel and never wanted to endure it again, seldom speak about it.

After Katy signed the final papers, everyone cheered. She was officially a part of the team, and, it was time for them to start heading for JFK airport. Jo wanted to cry, but she held her tears back for the sake of her friend and her makeup. They hugged for a good five minutes before Roger finally and sadly had to pry Jo off of Katy, but they wouldn’t be able to handle it on their own.

“Promise me you’ll call?” Jo asked, her hands gripping Katy’s.

“Of course” Katy smiled and nodded her head aggressively, trying to convince Jo she would.

She sighed, as she watched from inside the van window as Jo finally got in her car sticking her hand out and waving it like a princess as she drove by.

Katy turned back to face everyone who were just chatting to each other again, this was the beginning of something new.

AN: Hi guys! I’m sorry if this chapter wasn’t the best, but now that we’ve established this story it can really get going! I am so excited to continue writing and honestly get more done during the week than I do the weekend so I hope to see chapter 6 soon! Have a lovely day :) - June

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Relax... 2020 is almost over.

Despite all its doom and gloom, the year of the pandemic was not so bad for myself. The entire year was pretty endurable because I have a steady job that allows me to work from home, and i’m comfortable enough not needing constant social gatherings (thank goodness for my introversion).

It’s a year I burnt through a lot more books and podcasts. My favourites this year are mostly biographies, surprisingly. I loved Michelle Obama’s Becoming, and then Barack Obama’s A Promised Land. I also just finished a biography on Jacinda Arden - A New Kind of Leader. I noticed a pattern in my choice of biographies to read, and even the type of people I look up to this year. I love watching videos of Alexandra Ocasio Cortez, Elizabeth Warren, and Katie Porter, who happens to be members of the US Congress.

I wonder why I’m so enthralled by these politicians. The way their minds work is fascinating. And the way they displayed leadership and compassion in times of insurmountable challenges, and the way they faced fierce opposition and critics with unwavering confidence and strength – those are such inspiring qualities that I hope to cultivate in myself one day.

One impactful event I had the opportunity to attend this year was a workshop conducted by The Thought Collective, called Facilitating Powerful Conversations I. Through this 4 days of intensive training of self-awareness and reflection on my communication/behavioural habits, i had a different perspective of what kind of potential for impact I have in the people around me and the world. Although it will still take a lot of skill and practice to successfully manoeuvre around certain high stakes conversations to get to a good outcome, I now have better clarity on how it can happen.

At the beginning of the lockdown I was doing a lot of youtube exercise videos. They were quick and fun. My favourite was PE with Joe, this workout coach that teaches HIIT moves while in halloween costumes. That was fun for the period of CB where we were all cooped up at home. But as restrictions started lifting, I found myself getting out more frequently to jog and have long solo morning walks while listening to my auditory entertainment (sometimes I even take long detours if I found a particularly interesting book or podcast). I also enjoyed weekend runs with ahmeow, who had recently moved to a swanky condo with her bf near Clarke Quay. So we would frequently run by the river to random destinations for breakfast. So in fact I think that made me a bit fitter despite snacking a lot while WFH.

I also learnt a bit of solo dancing to Charleston jazz music. This year I tried to learn the basic moves in my room, and that was very fun and such a joyful act that just lifts one’s mood! I’m still too cheapo to pay for online classes though. Maybe it’s enough to stick with my crappy anyhow dance moves, the point is just to dance and have fun, yes? :P

This year I also started guiding people under my wings at work. It’s a new kind of responsibility, to have juniors to coach and to care about their growth. Boss taught us (Bonelli jiejies) that to start with, we need to care not only of our reports career, but also their personal well being. Have 1-1s with them and be generous with sharing.

Initially I thought that’s simple enough. Just hang out with them, chit chat about work, about life. What they want to achieve, set some goals and plan to get there etc. But at times I doubted what I was doing is effective or the best way to move them forward. Was I being too “nice” and not giving enough constructive honest critique, or too coddling toward their personal issues and complaints?

In FPC, I learnt that sometimes being nice is the unkind thing to do. To be truly kind, you have to be honest and clear. I guess it’s the same idea Kim Scott touted in her book, Radical Candor. Maybe I need to reread that book again. I want to be more intentional about my 1-1s, and make sure every session is well spent for them. This new responsibility is challenging but I do find that it can be quite fulfilling to watch people grow into where they want to be.

This year was also the first time I faced serious workplace conflict, and that was a little bit traumatic. When your team members are fighting, and feelings are hurt, what is the right way to manage the situation? I’ve learnt that the stakes can be quite different when you’re fighting as an individual team member versus if you’re fighting for your team member as a lead. Somehow things will get political and messy when everyone are behaving as though it’s ‘us’ against ‘them’. I don’t have the right answer to this yet, but I hope I will one day.

Having spent much more time at home this year, I think that helped me get a lot closer to my mum. Turns out all we need is more time for interaction. My father is still a tough nut to crack. He’s supposed to be retired this year, but he still wants to continue working. I guess having something to do is good for older people, keeps them occupied and feeling purposeful. But also as a result we hardly get time to chat. And when we do, it’s always nagging as usual. I continue to look forward to the day that will change.

But I also realised that my parents are getting older and their health is starting to deteriorate. Recently my father was hospitalised for an operation on his bleeding gut. And also my mom got a diabetes scare after a doctor checkup. They are worried about their health and that is worrisome for me. Such is the natural course of life but it seems to be moving a bit too fast for my liking.

Of all the goals I set for myself last year, I somehow managed to fulfil this one - to write more. Surprisingly I did a lot more writing, of various kinds. At first, my intention was to develop my voice by writing about design or self-helpy stuff, so I started a series of essays (which went unpublished). I soon got bored of that without an audience. The funnest piece of writing exercise came instead from the 30-day writing challenges that the 3-Headed Oracles (with Ling San and Kat) did. We found writing for each other to read so enjoyable that we did 3 seasons of it so far. The last one we even did an exquisite corpse-inspired fiction writing exercise where we took turns to continue a story where the previous person left off. We ended up with a fairly entertaining 30-chapter children’s novella.

What i’m looking forward to next year is to be a bit more intentional in everything I do, be it at work and in my relationships. I also want to be more generous with my parents in terms of my attention and time.

And I just hope 2021 will be a bit better for the world. May everyone find their own ways to be happy and healthy and safe.

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33 Fun Facts About Buffy the Vampire Slayer

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33 Fun Facts About Buffy the Vampire Slayer

On the genre-busting television show Buffy the Vampire Slayer, the heroine saved the world—a lot—over the course of seven seasons. Buffy premiered on the WB 21 years ago today; here are a few things you should know about the show. (And this is just the tip of the stake.)

1. THE SHOW IS A SEQUEL OF SORTS TO A MOVIE.

In the late ‘80s, writer Joss Whedon had an idea for a movie that would subvert the horror genre. “I had seen a lot of horror movies, which I love very much, with blond girls getting killed in dark alleys, and I just germinated this idea about how much I would like to see a blond girl go into a dark alley, get attacked by a monster and then kill it,” he said. “And that was sorta the genesis for the movie, Buffy the Vampire Slayer.” The movie, penned by Whedon and directed by Fran Rubel Kuzui, hit theaters in 1992. It starred Kristy Swanson as Buffy, Donald Sutherland as her watcher Merrick, and Luke Perry as her love interest, Pike (David Arquette also starred as Pike’s best friend-turned-vampire Benny). But the film was different from what Whedon had originally intended. “My original script for the movie was kind of dark and scary and it was comedic, but the final product was much more a broad comedy,” he said.

A few years later, the rights holders approached Whedon about making a TV show out of his creation. He wasn’t sure it would work, but “I started to think about it and I came up with the notion of playing all sorts of horror movies in high school and making them metaphors for how frightening and horrible high school is,” he said. “With the show, I kinda wanted to get back to the roots of genuine horror, but with a lot of comedy and a lot of edge and a lot of self reflective sort of examination of horror. But at the same time, get genuinely creepy and hopefully genuinely moving.” And the TV version of Buffy was born.

2. KATIE HOLMES AND RYAN REYNOLDS COULD HAVE STARRED ON THE SHOW.

Could you imagine Katie Holmes as Buffy and Ryan Reynolds as Xander? According to a 2000 biography, before she was Dawson’s Creek’s Joey Potter, Holmes was offered the role of the slayer, but turned it down to go to high school. Reynolds refused the role of Buffy’s wisecracking sidekick. “I love that show and I loved Joss Whedon, the creator of the show, but my biggest concern was that I didn’t want to play a guy in high school,” Reynolds told The Star in 2008. “I had just come out of high school and it was f***ing awful.”

3. GILES WAS THE FIRST ROLE CAST.

According to casting director Marsha Shulman, “Anthony Stewart [Head] was the first person that got cast on the first day we started casting. He was just it.”

Many other actors who read for the part, Whedon said, made Giles too stuffy, but Head’s take was a little sexier. “Tony Head was one of the few people that we saw and instantly knew right away that nobody else was going to play that part,” Whedon said. “He embodied it perfectly.”

4. SARAH MICHELLE GELLAR AND CHARISMA CARPENTER SWAPPED ROLES.

Gellar auditioned for the role of Sunnydale High queen bee Cordelia Chase before eventually being cast as Buffy. “At the time, we were all trying to find our way to make the show something, its own thing apart from the film,” Schulman said in The Watchers Guide. “We didn’t think of Sarah as Buffy because we thought she was too smart and too grounded and not enough of a misfit in a sense, because Buffy was this outsider. How could Sarah be an outsider? She’s so lovely. So we brought her in as Cordelia, and she was fantastic as Cordelia. Then we went to the network, they knew that Sarah was a star from her previous work, and that she could be Buffy, and that we could do that Buffy.”

Carpenter, meanwhile, auditioned for Buffy before being cast as Cordelia. “I think that the way it turned out is the way it was meant to have turned out,” Carpenter told the BBC. “I’m extremely pleased that I wound up with the character that I have for a myriad of reasons. … I don’t know that I would have been ready for that kind of fame if I’d gotten Buffy. So, I think [Buffy] went to the right person.”

5. WILLOW WAS RECAST AFTER THE PILOT WAS SHOT.

Willow, science geek and Buffy’s best friend, was an exceptionally tough part to cast. “We had actually cast someone else in the pilot. It just didn’t work,” Shulman said. “When we got picked up, we always felt that we were going to start again and look for another Willow.”

“I was determined that we wouldn’t have the supermodel in horn rims that you usually see on a TV show,” Whedon said. “I wanted somebody who really had their own shy quirkiness. While the network and I were looking for people, Alyson Hannigan slipped under our radar. She came in and we didn’t really know that she was going to be the guy, and then when she read for the network we were just blown away. She brings so much light and so much tenderness to the role, it’s kind of extraordinary.”

6. DAVID BOREANAZ WAS DISCOVERED BY THE CASTING DIRECTOR’S FRIEND.

Whedon, the network, and the casting director saw a number of guys read for Buffy’s eventual boyfriend (and vampire!) Angel before David Boreanaz auditioned. “The breakdown said the most gorgeous, mysterious, fantastic, the most incredible man on the face of the earth,” Shulman said. “I think I saw every guy in town. It was the day before shooting, and a friend of mine and called me and said to me ‘You know, there’s this guy that lives on my street who walks his dog every day and I don’t know what he does but he has all the things you’re describing.’ And the minute he walked in the room, I wrote down on my notes: This is the guy.”

Still, despite the fact that Boreanaz gave “very good read,” Whedon wasn’t sold on him. “He wasn’t exactly my type,” he said. “I wasn’t sure we necessarily had the guy here until I asked the women in the room, who had turned into puddles the moment he walked in. I had to defer to them—they seemed to know better than me, and thank god I did, because David turned into a great star and a very solid actor.”

7. THE FIRST VERSION OF THE THEME SONG WAS A DUD.

Whedon wanted the credits sequence—which begins with “this scary organ and then devolves instantly into rock ‘n roll”—to spell out for viewers exactly what the show was about: “Here’s a girl who has no patience for a horror movie, who is not going to be the victim, is not going to be in the scary organ horror movie,” he said. “She’s going to bring her own youth and rocking attitude to it.”

Dissatisfied with an early version of the theme, Whedon opened it up in a contest of sorts to local indie bands. It was Hannigan who suggested Nerf Herder; the band ultimately wrote and recorded the show’s theme. “They created the show and were filming the first season and the people there … hired some fancy pants Hollywood guy to write the theme song and they didn’t like it; they wanted something more rocking, I guess,” Nerf Herder’s lead singer, Parry Gripp, said. “So they asked a bunch of local, small time bands who they could pay very little money to come up with some ideas and they liked our idea and they used it. And the rest is history!”

The band rerecorded the theme in the second or third season because the first recording was a hasty affair, and the song went off-tempo in the middle, Whedon said.

8. THE SHOW SHOT IN A WAREHOUSE—AND AT ACTUAL SCHOOLS.

In the beginning, Buffy didn’t have much of a budget, so instead of shooting on a soundstage, the crew used a huge warehouse in Santa Monica, California. “We were very much on a tight budget,” Whedon said. “This hall you’ll see a lot of in the first 12 episodes. It is the entire school. We only had the one hall, so we use it over and over again. It’s really kind of sad, actually.” The outside of the warehouse also doubled as the entrance to Sunnydale’s only club, The Bronze. “When we designed the club, we put the door to the club on the outside of the actual warehouse so that we could go in from the outside because that would give it real life and make it very realistic,” Whedon said. “And of course we did it just once, and then once more in the third season, because you have to wait until night to shoot, go in and out and light it, and it’s just enormously complicated.”

Torrance High School in Los Angeles subbed in for the exterior of fictional Sunnydale High. It’s a popular spot for film and TV; you might also recognize it from Beverly Hills, 90210, The Secret Life of the American Teenager, 90210, She’s All That, Not Another Teen Movie, and more. And when Buffy went to college, most of Sunnydale University was shot in the warehouse, but some parts of the first episode of the fourth season were shot at UCLA.

9. THERE WAS A REASON FOR THE VAMPIRES’ CREEPY FACES—AND THE “DUSTING.”

In the Buffy movie, the vampires looked like regular people with sharper teeth and paler skin. But for the show, Whedon wanted to increase the sense of paranoia by making the vampires resemble normal people until it’s time to feed—at which point, they transform into monsters. But there was another reason, too. “I didn’t think I really wanted to put a show on the air about a high school girl who was stabbing normal-looking people in the heart,” Whedon said. “I thought somehow that might send the wrong message, but when they are clearly monsters, it takes it to a level of fantasy that is safer.”

Getting into vamp mode—which required a prosthetic that fit from the forehead down to the bottom of the nose—took about an hour and 20 minutes. “It can be tedious,” David Boreanaz said in 1998, “and taking it off is the worst part, because you have to sit there and you just want to rip the damn thing off—but you can’t, because you’ll take a piece of your skin with you. It has to be removed very delicately. But the end result is definitely worth it.”

The film also had vampire bodies lay where they fell after they were staked. But Whedon had different ideas for the show. “It was a very conscious decision to have [the vampires] turn to dust, clothes and all, because I didn’t think it would be fun to have 15 minutes of let’s clean up the bodies after every episode,” he said. The show’s visual effects artists worked on and refined the technique over the seasons.

10. THE CREATORS DREW ON EXISTING VAMPIRE LORE FOR THE SHOW.

But they didn’t use everything. Vampires don’t fly on Buffy or turn into bats because the show didn’t have the money and Whedon thought it looked silly. Other elements of vampire lore, however, were used: Vampires don’t have reflections; they can’t enter a house unless they’re invited; they’re vulnerable to garlic, crosses, sunlight, fire, and holy water; and they can be killed by beheading or via a stake through the heart.

11. GELLAR HAD SOME PROBLEMS WITH THE DIALOGUE.

The show was famous for its “Buffyspeak,” which was partially inspired by California Valleygirl-isms and how Whedon and the other writers spoke. For Gellar, though, that dialogue sometimes was an issue. “Joss has his own sort of language that’s difficult for us mere mortals to understand,” she said in 1998. “I grew up in New York. We didn’t have Valley girls, and constantly, I’m asking him ‘What does this mean? I’m not quite sure.’ There’s a very funny story about [my audition] where the first line is ‘What’s the sitch?’ And there I go walking in, and my first ‘What does this mean?’ No idea it meant situation. Talk about blowing a job instantly.”

12. HERE’S WHERE YOU’VE SEEN SEASON ONE’S BIG VILLAIN BEFORE.

Underneath all of the Master’s vampy makeup is actor Mark Metcalf, who has appeared in Animal House (he played Doug Neidermeyer) and Seinfeld (he played The Maestro), among many other films and television shows. “Most of the guys we read came in and gave us villain villain villain in a very unimaginative way,” Whedon said. “Mark’s not that character, he’s just sly. He undercut all of the villainousness with real charm.”

13. THE CAST AND CREW HATED THE LIBRARY SCENES.

Head delivered much of the show’s expository dialogue in the library—and cast and crew alike came to dread those scenes. “He’s brought so much to all these really tough speeches, giving them life where they had very little because they’re full of so much information,” Whedon said. “When we finally blew up the school at the end of season three and were in the library for the last time, everybody breathed a great sigh of relief because these became the bane for us when we were filming, to go back into this space and talk yet again about what the peril was going to be.”

14. DARLA WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE IN THE SECOND EPISODE.

The vampire (played by Julie Benz) was supposed to expire at the end of “The Harvest” after Willow doused her with holy water, but Whedon kept her alive because he thought Buffy and Angel’s romance would be more interesting if it was a triangle; Darla, of course, was Angel’s sire. She was eventually killed in episode seven, but would continue to pop up in other episodes—and in the spin-off show, Angel—from time to time.

15. GELLAR AND BOREANAZ WOULD EAT GROSS STUFF BEFORE KISSING SCENES.

In a 2002 interview with The Independent, Gellar called love scenes “the unsexiest thing in the world.” What she and Boreanaz did beforehand couldn’t have made it any sexier. “[We] were the worst,” she said. “We would do horrible things to each other. Like eat tuna fish and pickle before we kissed. If he had to unbutton my shirt or trousers I would pin them or sew them together to make it as hard as I could. Once I even dropped ice cream on him.”

16. THE SHOW BUILT ITS OWN GRAVEYARD.

In the first season, Buffy shot in a graveyard in Hollywood. “It meant going out all night, until sunrise, a lot of times,” Whedon said. “That was back when we had the energy for that kind of thing.” Starting in the second season, they created their own graveyard in the warehouse’s parking lot. “It made our lives a whole lot easier, but it doesn’t give you the scope that you get from [the Hollywood graveyard],” Whedon said. “It’s a really beautiful place. Looks great.”

“We poured in kerb, back-filled it with dirt and planted grass and lots of trees and stuff and that’s our graveyard set,” production designer Carey Meyer told the BBC. “The majority of our cemetery stuff actually takes place in that little tiny parking lot. At night, with a couple of headstones in the background with all the trees and such, you can really cheat to make it look quite large.”

17. WHEDON HAD AN INTERESTING NICKNAME FOR GELLAR.

At a cast reunion in 2008, Whedon revealed—to Gellar’s surprise—an odd nickname for her, borne from the fact that she dealt with so much pain on screen. “David [Greenwalt] and I used to crow, when we realized what Sarah could do,” he said. “We used to call her Jimmy Stewart, because he was the greatest American in pain in the history of film.” Gellar laughed and said “I never knew that!”

18. AT LEAST TWO ACTORS PLAYED MORE THAN ONE VILLAIN.

Brian Thompson, who played vampire Luke in the first two episodes, returned in the second season to play The Judge. “Quite frankly, we were in a hurry,” Whedon said. “We already had his face cast and we knew he could put makeup on and give us a good performance.” Camden Toy, meanwhile, played a number of villains, including one of the Gentlemen in “Hush” (season four), a skin-eating demon called Gnarl in “Same Time, Same Place” (season seven), and Ubervamp Turok-Han (throughout season seven).

19. THE WRITERS HAD THEIR OWN TERM FOR PLOT-MOVING DEVICES.

It was coined by writer David Greenwalt. “A lot of this stuff is based on myth and horror movies, and a lot of it made up for our convenience,” Whedon says. “At one point, when we were trying to figure out exactly what Buffy would be trying to do [in the first episode], Greenwalt just shouted out ‘For God’s sake, don’t touch the phlebotnum in Jar C!’ We have no idea to this day what it was supposed to mean, but it became our word for the vague mystical thing—such as the master’s cork in the bottle theory—so phlebotnum is our constant on the show.”

20. WHEDON WROTE THE LARGELY DIALOGUE-FREE EPISODE “HUSH” TO CHALLENGE HIMSELF.

Season four’s tenth episode, “Hush,” features creepy villains called The Gentlemen, who come to Sunnydale and steal the residents’ voices … so that no one can scream when the monsters cut out their hearts. There are only 17 minutes of spoken dialogue in the 44 minute episode. Whedon wanted to do a largely silent episode because he felt like he was phoning it in. “I had fallen into the ‘people a-yakkin, I can sort of do this without really thinking about it’ style of directing, and I wanted to curtail that in myself,” he said. “On a practical level, the idea of doing an episode where everybody loses their voice presented itself as a great big challenge because I knew that I would literally have to tell the story only visually, and that would mean that I couldn’t fall back on tricks. I wanted to do something harder.” Though Whedon was terrified that he wouldn’t be able to pull off the episode, it was well received by critics, and is a favorite of fans and the series’ stars alike.

21. THE GENTLEMEN WERE INSPIRED BY A DREAM.

A version of Buffy’s creepiest villains first appeared in a dream of Whedon’s; they floated toward him while he was in bed. “What I was going for was very specifically a very Victorian kind of feel, because that to me is very creepy and fairytale-like,” Whedon said. He created a drawing, which he delivered to makeup supervisor Todd McIntosh and John Vulich at Optic Nerve, the special effects house that created the prosthetics for the show. “I was drawing on everything that had ever frightened me, including the fellow from my dream, Nosferatu, pinhead, Mr. Burns—anything that gave that creepy feel,” Whedon said. “We get into a lot of reptilian monsters and things that look kind of like aliens, and what I wanted from these guys was, very specifically, fairy tales. I wanted guys who would remind people of what would they were scared of when they were children.”

Whedon’s ultimate hope was that kids of a certain generation would be as traumatized by the Gentlemen as he was by the Zuni Doll from Trilogy of Terror. The team cast mimes and actors who had done creature work—like Doug Jones—to play the Gentlemen.

22. THE HARDEST CHARACTER FOR WHEDON TO KILL OFF WAS BUFFY’S MOM.

One of Buffy‘s most critically acclaimed episodes is season five’s “The Body,” in which the slayer’s mom, played by Kristine Sutherland, dies of natural causes. Whedon said in a 2012 Reddit AMA that Joyce was the toughest character for him to kill. He did the episode, he said in DVD commentary, because “I wanted to show not the meaning or catharsis or the beauty of life or any of the things that are often associated with loss, or even extreme grief, which we do get in the episode. But what I did want to capture was the extreme physicality, the almost boredom of the very first few hours. I wanted to be very specific about what it felt like the moment you discover you’ve lost someone. And so what appears to many people as a formal exercise—no music, scenes that take up almost the entire act, if not the entire act, without end—is all done for a very specific purpose, which is to put you in that moment of dumbfounded shock, that airlessness of losing somebody.”

The moments after Buffy discovers her mother dead on the couch were done in a single take, which Whedon had Gellar perform seven times (the actress has called the episode one of her favorites). “The cameraman had the camera on his shoulder the whole time and was running around,” Whedon said. “It wasn’t a steadicam—he had no harness because I wanted that urgency of handheld, that you’re in the moment of it. It’s an extraordinary piece of acting from Sarah … to go from the extremity of first finding her, the helplessness of not knowing what to do. All the things that Sarah had to go through in this, she had to go through many, many times. And every take was extraordinary.”

23. ONE SHOT IN “THE BODY” WAS INSPIRED BY DIRECTOR PAUL THOMAS ANDERSON.

One shot in “The Body” follows the coroner after he examines Joyce’s body out to where Buffy waits with her friends in another single take. “I am a huge Paul Thomas Anderson fan,” Whedon said, “and I had been watching Magnolia excessively before I shot this. So these endless tracking shots probably owe something to that. What can I say, I’m a hack. But what I was really trying to get at here was, again, the reality of the space. I wanted to see Joyce very clearly, and then I wanted to walk all the way over to where Buffy was, where her loved ones were, so that you understood she was down the hall, she was really there. We weren’t on a different set.” Whedon gave kudos to production designer Carey Meyer for building sets that would let him get those long takes.

24. GELLAR KNEW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IN SEASON FIVE WELL IN ADVANCE.

Several moments in the final episode of season three foreshadowed two major events in season five: Namely, that Buffy would get a sister (Dawn, played by Michelle Trachtenberg) and that the slayer would die at the end of season five. “I’ve actually known the [plot of the] entire last season for about three years,” she told the BBC. “There was a dream sequence that Buffy had with Faith. Faith had a riddle, and it was something like ‘Little Miss Muffet, sitting on her tuffet,’ counting down from whatever the numbers were, and I went to Joss to ask what it meant. That’s when he explained to me that I was going to have a sister, that Dawn, the character of Dawn, would be coming on the show. I think that’s exactly when I became aware also of what the future plans were.”

Why manufacture a sister out of thin air? “Part of the mission statement was, let’s have a really important, intense emotional relationship for Buffy that is not a boyfriend,” he told Salon. “Because let’s not have her be defined by her boyfriend every time out of the bat. So, Season 5, she’s as intense as she was in Season 2 with Angelus, but it’s about her sister. To me that was really beautiful.”

25. SEASON SIX WAS THE TOUGHEST FOR GELLAR.

After the fifth season, Buffy moved from the WB to UPN and resurrected its heroine for the sixth season—which was darker in tone (and more controversial) than any season before it. “It was definitely tough for me,” Gellar said at a Paley Center event in 2008. “It’s so hard to separate myself from her, so it was tough for me to see these situations and say ‘But Buffy wouldn’t do this.’ … I know Joss and Marti both had to talk me off a ledge a couple of times because it just felt so far removed from me at the time, and maybe that was the point. Maybe I was struggling the same way she was struggling to find out who she was. It just felt so foreign to me. … We love her, and I think it was hard for all of us to watch her suffer. … It was a tough time. And I think that’s what came through in the end, and that was great. When Buffy herself resurfaced, we sort of found our voice again.”

26. WRITER/PRODUCER MARTI NOXON HAS A CAMEO.

She’s the lady with the parking ticket in “Once More, With Feeling.”

27. GELLAR CALLED THE MUSICAL EPISODE “DAUNTING.”

“I’m a perfectionist, I come from a long line of lots of preparation, and certainly that was not the case with this,” she said. “If I had my druthers, we would have gotten it about two years ago and been in classes for a year and a half, maybe six weeks of rehearsals? Instead of four days.” At a Paley Center event in 2008, Gellar admitted to “begging” to be let out of it. “I begged for Buffy the rat,” she said. “I kept thinking, ‘Bring the rat back.’”

28. STONE TEMPLE PILOTS’ LEAD SINGER WAS A FAN.

Scott Weiland reportedly became a fan while watching the show in prison. Gellar, who later appeared in the band’s music video for “Sour Girl,” had a theory about why the show was so popular among prison inmates: “Hot chicks doing battle. It’s like acceptable porn.”

29. GELLAR KNEW THE SHOW WAS OVER BEFORE THE REST OF THE CAST.

In the March 7, 2003 Entertainment Weekly cover story, Gellar announced that Buffy was coming to an end after seven seasons. “I love this job, I love the fans,” she said. “I love telling the stories we tell. This isn’t about leaving for a career in movies, or in theater—it’s more of a personal decision. I need a rest. Teachers get sabbaticals. Actors don’t.” The rest of the cast found out the day the story hit stands. “I was devastated,” Hannigan said in 2013. “I was just very shocked.”

30. BUFFY’S ADVENTURES CONTINUE IN COMIC BOOKS.

A number of writers who worked on the TV show have also worked on the comics. Even James Marsters, who played vampire Spike on the show, wrote a comic about his character. “I was at the San Diego Comic Con and I was describing an idea that had been kicking around my head for a long time to [artist] George Jeanty, who draws a lot of the Buffy comic books,” Marsters told io9. “And he thought that it was a fabulous idea and that I should definitely get in touch with [Dark Horse editor] Scott Allie. He made the phone call and then I pitched it to Scott over the phone and Scott liked it a lot. It’s a story that was going to try to be made into a Spike movie years and years ago.”

31. THERE WAS TALK OF AN ANIMATED SERIES.

Whedon and the show’s other writers produced seven scripts for an animated Buffy series, which would have taken place during the show’s first three seasons and been voiced by the cast. Sadly, no one wanted the show. “They were really fun to write,” Whedon said. “We could not sell the show. We could not sell an animated Buffy, which I still find incomprehensible.”

32. THE SHOW SPAWNED ACADEMIC COURSES…

A number of colleges and universities offer courses on the show; they’re called “Buffy Studies.” People have written books and held conferences dedicated to discussing the themes of the show and presenting papers on it. According to the Los Angeles Times, attendees at a 2004 Buffy conference “were presenting 190 papers on topics ranging from ‘slayer slang’ to ‘postmodern reflections on the culture of consumption’ to ‘Buffy and the new American Buddhism.’ There was even a self-conscious talk by David Lavery, an English professor at Middle Tennessee State University, on Buffy studies ‘as an academic cult.'”

An informal study conducted by Slate in 2012 showed that, when it comes to pop culture in academia, Buffy is number one: “More than twice as many papers, essays, and books have been devoted to the vampire drama than any of our other choices—so many that we stopped counting when we hit 200.”

33. … AND A BOOK OF SLANG.

Publisher’s Weekly called Slayer Slang: A Buffy the Vampire Slayer Lexicon “a strange marriage of a fan guide and a linguistics textbook.” Said The Kansas City Star: “If you’re curious about the word ‘ubersuck,’ or just want to remember which episode you first heard it in, this is the place to look. As Buffy would say, it is not uncool.”

BONUS: RARE BEHIND-THE-SCENES FOOTAGE

During the second season, Pruitt filmed behind-the-scenes footage of the cast goofing off and getting into makeup, the stunt crew at work, and some of the show’s most iconic sequences. You can watch it above.

Additional sources: DVD commentary; The Watcher’s Guide.

All images courtesy of Getty Images unless otherwise noted.

This piece originally ran in 2014.

#33 #Buffy #facts #Fun #Slayer #Vampire #Facts

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Aye y’all

thanks so much for tagging me @carryonmywaywardlester and I’m so sorry for getting to this so late :( but anyway

Rules: Answer thirty questions and tag twenty blogs you are obligated to know

Nicknames: Kat/Katie, emma the dilemma, bisexual whale

gender: female

Star sign/zodiac sign: geminiiiiii

Height: 5′6 or so

Time: 4:54

B-day: June 3rd, I know I have the same birth month as mark and dan, be jealous lol

Favorite bands: sleeping at last, my chemical romance, acdc, little mix, coldplay

Fav solo artist: um I guess christina grimmie, kesha, sia, and lea michele. sorry, couldn’t narrow it down

Song stuck in my head: phineas and ferb theme tune always

Last movie: It or Moana, i forgot

Last tv show: teen wolf, just started! thanks @not-reddie lmao

REason i started my blog: Well I guess it’s a mix of wanting to find other people with my interests and become more part of the community, and also memes.

WHat do i post: well mostly shitposts about my fandoms(see description) and I’m hoping to get my first fic up soon!

last thing i googled: that one comedian who died a couple years ago , lmao why was i searching that

other blogs: i don’t have any, might make a separate one for fics tho

why url: accurately describes me as a human that’s why

I follow: 65 blogs

Followers: 18

average hours of sleep: um two

lucky number: gotta be 67, 27, or 3

Instrument: voice, guitar, and trumpet

what am i wearing: light gray/purple jumper, ripped jeans, fuzzy socks and a flower crown

dream job: psychologist, youtuber, or actress/singer

dream trip: ireland, london and france, greece, or canada.

favorite food: mac n cheese, jelly babies

favorite songs right now: good old days by macklemore and kesha, sorry not sorry by demi lovato, and the entire moana soundtrack

last book i read: wild embers by nikita gill, and the cabinet of curiosities

top three universes: doctor who, it, stranger things, and supernatural. i picked four, fight me.

my favorite blogs/ people:

@botanistlester @its-reddie-bitch @richietoaster @not-reddie @no-strings-puppet @jim-protection-squad @philsdrill @jim-news @elliesfics @gaybev

@sherlock5countdown @petchricor @mishapocalypse @queenofadventures32 alrighty didn’t really have enough blogs but whatevs, love all of you so much and you make me feel so welcome!

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percywinchester27 · 7 years

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Before I post the next chapter, I have to thank all of you who’ve left such incredible feedback! I’m honestly humbled! I can never find to make posts like these, but I am gonna sit down and do this today cause I can’t not tell you how amazing you guys are! That was one hell of a chapter to write, and THANK YOU for your kind words!

Stroke of luck

@heavymetalhauswife said: Oh man I finally got to dot down and read this! SO GOOD. Can’t wait for more!

Thank you so much, Jess! You are so kind! <3

@ryantherandomhero reblogged this from you and added:

Amazing series so far! I can’t wait for Dean to find out Vi’s his kid.

I can’t wait to read your reaction to it!! Hopefully the next chapter will be out by tomorrow :) Thank you so much!

@i-is-for-inspiring said: THIISS!! OH MY DEAR GOD THIS IS PERFECT!!!! I’ve been reading this all day and I CANNOT get enough of it!!! I’m so freaking in love with this fic!!! It’s seriously so perfect and so uggghh that it makes my heart ache but I don’t care!!! I’m a helpless romantic and I WANT MORE OF THIS!!! Thank you for writing something so amazing, even when it’s finally over (and I hope it’s not soon) I won’t get over it! It has a special place in my heart! Now, I CAN’T WAIT FOR MORE!!!!!

I cried when I read this. Legit teared up! I kept seeing you going through the series, liking all the chapters, and crossing my fingers that you like it, and then you gave me this beautiful compliment, so of course I cried! Thank you so much. Really. This mean a lot, and you are a cinnamon roll for all this love. I will be sad to see this series too. I hope you liek the next part too, Darling <3. All the love- Ana <3

@notesfromalabprincess said: Omg it was perfect! It was a twist on it I didn’t even think of and I can’t believe I didn’t think of it like the reader at first and it was such an amazing part! You did an incredible job with it and I can’t wait to see where you take it all next!

THANK YOU!! I really hoped no one would guess it was heading this way. I mean the reader had to have had a solid reason, but this is why I picked the pastor over Bobby. You are lovely, and so very kind, Hon! <3

@its-not-a-tulpa reblogged this from you and added:

Thank Chuck she’s okay and that you Sammy for being there.

Sammy saves the day!! Thank you for reading it <3

@thing-you-do-with-that-thing reblogged your post and added:

I forgive Y/N and Dean will not see it as there being anything to forgive. He loves them both. Only thing I am worried about is the damn case!

*Smiles evilly* You can keep worrying, Kari! It’s what you get for waking me up and making me beta for you :P

@yoursmilemakesmeloveyou reblogged this from you and added:

I cried dammit, like q freaking child

Me too!! Trust me! Remember that I love you ;)

@gabavaldman reblogged this from you and added:

Damn it!! It was soooooooooo good!!!! I loved it!

You did? Whoa! Thank you so much!

@caratala reblogged this from you and added:

This is such an amazing story! I love it! I cannot wait for more. So well written and thought out.

Thank you so much!! This really means a lot! <3

@meeshw777 reblogged this from you and added:

Stroke of Luck Part 11 - has so much going on, you will need Kleenex! I love the Father Jim part - it tidied up so much of what our heroine was thinking and why she did things the way she did. I love the interactions between our girl and Sam, sweet and angsty.

I really didn’t want Sam to only be the boyfriend’s brother you know? He had to be close enough to her to consider naming her daughter after him! I am SO HAPPY that you love that part! Because I love her relation with Sam too! I don’t tell you often, but thank you for being so exceptionally kind towards me! I appreciate it a lot. Love <3

@electricroserosie said: Wow! This was truly amazing! I believe you worked out the timeline perfectly and it does make sense! I love the mother-daughter interactions and I cannot wait for Dean and Violet to properly meet each other! Gahh!! I love your work! ❤❤

Yes!! We need more Dean and Violet don’t we? I am going to do what you’re saying! ;) Myabe next chapter <3 You are awesome <3

@mrswhozeewhatsis reblogged this from you and added:

Writing a fic into canon is HARD. Good job!!!

Thank you so much Michelle! This means a hell lot coming from someone as talented as you <3

@spnfanficfavorites reblogged this from you and added:

Loved it!

Thank you! <3

@alliekay727 said: I am absolutely in love with this entire story!! I just binge read all of the parts and OMG I gotta know what happenes next! You are am amazing writer please give us more!!! ❤❤❤❤

Thank you so much!! You are so very sweet! How about tomorrow?

@jayankles reblogged this from you and added:

Oh my good god. I almost died thinking that something happened to Violet but she’s getting one step closer to being introduced to her father and uncle, right? Until then…

Bailey, I LOVE YOU! That’s all! I’m teasing tonight, posting tomorrow ;)

@kathaswings reblogged this from you and added:

I was so worried about Vi running off like that, I’m glad she’s okay. I’m glad that Sam is Sam, kind and understanding, and it gives me immense pleasure to know that he knows the truth and Dean doesn’t. I can’t wait for the scene where he finds out - that’s gonna be epic… And when Vi finds out! Oh, there’s so much to look forward to. :-)

I love this series. It’s unlike anything else I’ve come across. It’s wonderfully twisted and complex, the relationships between characters seem real and relatable. It’s simply wonderful! I nearly skipped this whole thing when it started, because that was before I fell to the daddy!Dean pit, but I’m so happy I didn’t! This is definitely among my favorite series at the moment! ♡

*Opens and closes mouth like a fish, opens it again and closes it again* That is me EVERYTIME I read your reblogs! Trust me Lina, you are like a gift from the gods or something. I can never find words to thank you enough. All I can say is that I am extremely lucky that you choose to read my stuff, and for that I am so very thankful! Keep being the joy that you are. Much love, Ana <3

@mery-magizoologist reblogged this from you and added:

I’m so happy Violet is alright! I was scared for a moment, thank Chuck Sam for her first. And I’m also happy the reader had the chance to talk to Sam ❤️ hope she gets the same chance to talk to Dean about everything. Can’t wait for the moment she tell Violet everything!

Thank you for those kind words! They are what keep me going and encouraged really. You are awesome <3 And I think it’s all gonna wrap up soon :)

@hillywooddestiel said: OMFG!!!! First I was like omg it’s here! Then I was like oh shit run! Then it was cute. Then it was super sad. And then it got cute again. What a roller coaster of a chapter 😍😍😍

I laughed so hard at your comment! Like that is the most accurate summary of a 7k word long chapter! You are amazing! THANK YOU!!

@shotgunintheimpala reblogged your post and added:

this is getting veeerrrryyyyy interesting. not that it wasn’t before!

Thanks Darling! I DO NOT deserve you!

@docharleythegeekqueen reblogged your post and added:

Oh my gosh this was so good. You wrapped it up with canon perfectly. Im so happy Sam found Vi. I cant wait for the reunion but this was nice. Im glad Sam has the whole story and that had his own reunion with the reader.

Youre so talented. Great work on this chapter. 💗

You are so nice and pure! Like really! Everytime I see your reblogs, I do this mini dance! Thank you so much Darling! You deserve all the love <3

@sandlee44 reblogged your post and added:

This was a great part and you are doing a great job with this series can’t wait for everyone to know the truth

Thank you so much! You are so very nice <3

@melonshino reblogged your this post and added:

Listennnnn. I have not had the greatest day today, between prepping for this stupid hurricane and a lot of other stupid junk I haven’t gotten done, like… this is the friggin highlight of my day, okay!!

I feel like my skin is clear and my back doesn’t hurt as much and I feel a little bit more hope for my otherwise shitty day!!! So thank you~ I don’t have the energy for proper gushing over this chapter but please know that I love this and you and you’re perfect!! okay byeeee~ 💖🌸💖🌸💖🌸✨

You don’t need to gush over! The simple fact that you even want to read my stuff is the best compliment ever. You know I love you, Tierra! I hope you’re doing well! <3

@mrspadalackles reblogged this post and added:

Oh my god so many feels!!!! I loved how Sam heavy it was, and I can’t wait to see how everything plays out.

I love Sam heavy stuff! Like he is important to Dean, so he damn well be important in any series about Dean. Thank you for your lovely words! You are too kind!

@dustycelt reblogged this post and added:

All the hair pulling was worth it, you did a great job!

Thank you so much, Darling! I am glad you think so <3

@captainradicalpassion reblogged this post and added:

😭😭😭😭😭 this part was so beautifully written Ana!! Oh my lanta. You were right when you said it had all the feels in it. Man. Can’t wait for part twelve!!

Thank you so much, babe! You know your words mean a lot! Love <3

@rhapsody-in-flannel reblogged this post and added:

The attention to detail in this chapter was insanely good. Not gonna lie, the reunion between Sam and the reader made me squeal and to a little happy dance. The only thing as good as daddy!Dean is uncle!Sammy.

Isn’t it? I love uncle!Sammy too! Not gonna lie, reading your comment make me squeal and do a little happy dance too, Katie! Love, Ana <3

@shutupiminlooove said: I was gonna go to bed. And then this popped up…. It was the perfect way to continue an amazing story!! She still doesn’t know… He still doesn’t know… And I continue to be addicted…

You gave a little sleeping time for the series?? Oh my gosh, that is like the best compliment! Thank you so much for the awesome feedback! You are so nice <3

@earthtokace said: Oh my god yes. This was amazing and so beautifully written. I can’t wait for the next part!

Thank you so much, love <3 Maybe tomorrow ;)

@ilsawasanacrobat reblogged this post and added:

*HUGE SIGH OF RELIEF* {also the following is full of spoilers}

Oh, Ana, I knew you would fix things with Vi!! And bless you for having Sammy find her safely, you had me holding my breath there for a minute. O'course he’s gonna understand, and forgive, and tease, ‘cause he’s our Sammy. 😍

How you’re going to wind things up with Dean, though - another anxious, patient wait. I haz all the faith in you!

This update is beautiful and twisty-turny and goddamn John for not sharing what he ought and I am so in love with this story.

Okay, you are just too much of a cinnamon roll to be true. Do people tell you that? I think they should, three times, everyday! Thank you for being so kind to me. I’ve at least read you’re reblog 20 times when I was struggling with the last chapter. You kept me going! So thank you for that! <3 You are a lovely bean. Much love, Ana <3

@feelmyroarrrr reblogged this post and added:

Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh back <3 ;) Love you Roarrry <3

#Ana feels the love #Ana replies #sol 11 replies #feeling the love #q

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xturnonthelight · 7 years

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Thank you so much @bellsblake for tagging me!! As always I’m a little late with this but that shouldn’t be a surprise lol

rules: you must answer these 83 statements and tag 20 people

THE LAST 1. drink: water 2. phone call: so long ago it was before I got my new phone a month ago lmao...unless work phone calls count? or spam calls, I’ve got plenty of those 3. text message: someone that I’m cat-sitting for 4. song you listened to: Farewell Life by Arn Andersson & Nights Amore (as I was driving home and imagining how I’ll vid Bellarke to it and making myself emotional lol) 5. time you cried: during an episode of Battlestar Galactica on my recent rewatch

HAVE YOU EVER… 6. dated someone twice: literally have gone on one date in my life 7. kissed someone and regretted it: was kissed at the end of said date and regretted not having better dodging reflexes like my friends do 8. been cheated on: N/A, haven’t been in a relationship 9. lost someone special: not anyone that I’m very very close to fortunately 10. been depressed: not clinically 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope, have only ever gotten a bit tipsy

FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. aqua 13. purple 14. blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: yes (close acquaintances at least) 16. fallen out of love: N/A, never been in love 17. laughed until you cried: yep (and until my cheeks hurt) 18. found out someone was talking about you: I don’t think so? 19. met someone who changed you: not in any significant way 20. found out who your friends are: I already knew! 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: see #7

GENERAL 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them 23. do you have any pets: no but I’d like to get a kitten soon! 24. do you want to change your name: no 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I can’t remember lol 26. what time did you wake up: 6:30 am...although by the time I dragged myself out of bed it was almost 7 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: working on a Westallen vid and then realizing I needed to get my ass to sleep 28. name something you can’t wait for: The 100 to return and Bellarke to become canon shortly thereafter ;) 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: ~2 hours ago 30. what are you listening to right now: lol I just realized I have my earphones in but nothing’s playing...so just the sound of my laptop fan 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 32. something that is getting on your nerves: being asked if I’m going to (or want to) get married... It’s like the 24-year-old version of the infamous ‘what are you doing after high school/majoring in’ that 18-year-olds get harassed with 33. most visited website: youtube and tumblr 34. hair colour: brown 35. long or short hair: medium to long 36. do you have a crush on someone: not currently 37. what do you like about yourself: my imagination maybe?

38. piercings: none 39. blood type: B+ 40. nickname: I have a nickname that my family still calls me sometimes...but I’m not gonna say it lol 41. relationship status: single 42. zodiac: pisces 43. pronouns: she/her 44. favourite tv show: at the moment, definitely The 100 45. tattoos: none 46. right or left handed: right 47. surgery: had my wisdom teeth removed, that’s about it 48. sport: skiing is the closest thing to a sport that I do. In high school I probably would have said does marching band count lol... I sometimes like watching hockey 49. vacation: one of my favorites was when I went to Las Vegas with my friends toward the end of college - not so much because I loved Las Vegas, just being with my friends was what made it so great...as is the case with most things in life, I think - it’s the people who end up mattering 50. pair of trainers: my first thought was ‘...those are sneakers, right?’ lol... I mostly wear flats or sandals or boots. Sneakers I only use for exercising.

51. eating: nothing 52. drinking: nothing 53. i’m about to: go to sleep 54. waiting for: grad school classes to start!!! my schedule is A++ and I get a much needed break from work until I return in January 55. want: to move out soon and get a kitten 56. get married: how ironic lol (see #32) 57. career: I’m a mechanical engineer, but someday I’d like to be a writer...most realistically in retirement I guess

WHICH IS BETTER 58. hugs or kisses: hugs 59. lips or eyes: eyes 60. shorter or taller: taller 61. older or younger: older 62. nice arms or nice stomach: Bellamy Blake ;) 63. hook up or relationship: relationship 64. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER… 65. kissed a stranger: no 66. drank hard liquor: yes, it’s disgusting 67. lost glasses/contact lenses: no 68. turned someone down: yes 69. sex on the first date: no and don’t have any desire to 70. broken someone’s heart: I hope I didn’t but I probably did :( 71. had your heart broken: no 72. been arrested: no 73. cried when someone died: yes 74. fallen for a friend: I’ve never had any close guy friends (and pretty sure I’m not lesbian or bi), so there was never a chance for that to happen

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 75. yourself: less often than I should 76. miracles: sometimes I like to, but mostly no 77. love at first sight: no. love at first conversation/interaction? maybe. It depends on how you want to define love here. 78. santa claus: no 79. kiss on the first date: generally no 80. angels: no

OTHER 81. current best friend’s name? don’t make me choose!! my 4 best friends from college are Catherine, Katie, Michelle, and Wenli 82. eye colour: mostly dark green with some brown/gold 83. favourite movie: don’t really have a favorite movie, I love tv shows way more than movies

Okay I suck at tagging and this isn’t quite 20 but oh well: @gwenny39vd @abbysparks10 @sayaxsama @pirateprincessemmaswan @legendarydreamer4ever @dealingdreams @sunshinesunsethappiness @bellammys @clarkegryphus @bellarkeforever @greenfrogjump @angelwings4barryallen @colinschest @iseeyoou @athenasnina @bellamyblake-kru - but feel free to ignore if you don’t want to do it!

#tag games

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hurghhhh · 7 years

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Stardom and Romance

A/N: After hours of browsing the works of others, I’ve decided to try my own at writing a quackson imagine. No summary. because my aim is to see if I can create a story instead of directly telling it. Tom x f!reader, but it’ll take a while for it to actually become obvious. Please give it a chance and send me feedback! Thanks!

“Look man, it’s a school night, and I’d prefer to get back home earlier today. Can’t we just have a little verbal spat and be on our ways?”

Your mask covered your face, so the man in front of you couldn’t see your scowl. “I’ve spent almost two years looking for you, so I really don’t give a damn if it’s a school night, Spider-man.”

The red and blue masked man let out a sigh. “Well, we better figure out some way to make this quick.”

With a snarl, you leapt forward, “Trust me, I don’t plan on making your death quick.”

“Cut!”

You stumbled to a halt, blinking as the microphone near your face was whisked away and the street suddenly erupted in a flurry of voices. Jon sat in his director's chair a few feet to your right, his face arranged in a thoughtful scowl as he watched the playback from one of the cameras.

“Think this might be the perfect shot. Good job, guys!” he yelled while flashing you a thumbs up.

A chuckle erupted next to you, followed by a “Cool! Nice work, (Y/N)!”

With a rueful grin you raised your hand to recuperate the high-five. “Same to you, Tom.”

Tom Holland’s face was covered by his Spider-man mask, but you knew he was also wearing a grin. You both took off your masks, and chuckled at the sight. His hair was a tousled mess, and you were pretty sure you looked the same.

“Alright, I believe that’s a wrap for today! Let’s start cleaning up, and we can call it a day!” Jon yelled. With a nod of acknowledgement, you shuffled into a trailer to change.

Fifteen minutes later, your suit now hung neatly along your other costumes, you jogged over to where Tom and Zendaya was waiting. You were now wearing a pair of athletic shorts with a hoodie, while they sported t-shirts and sweats. Zendaya pulled you into a side hug which you gladly recuperated, giggling into her shirt.

“Gotta’ say, (Y/N), you looked pretty hot on camera,” the actress remarked.

You jammed your hands into the hoodie pockets. “I needa’ look my best if I want to be your competing love interest, Z. Shame my efforts have to be wasted on lil’ Peter Parker, though.”

“Excuse me!” Tom complained, “I think most girls would love to be in a relationship with Spiderman!”

With a chuckle, you moved to tackle the guy in a hug. “To be honest though, I feel a lot hotter when I’m in villain mode instead of lovesick high schooler mode.”

Tom recuperated the hug with a ruffling of your hair. “Make sure you don’t let the reporters hear that. Gotta’ keep the secret of the movie, huh?”

“Dude, if anybody’s gonna’ spill my secret, it would be you, bigmouth,” you teased.

“Speaking of reporters….” Zendaya pointed to the right, where your manager was quickly hustling over, “Something tells me she’s gonna’ ask if you could do a last minute interview.”

“It’s almost midnight, man! Can’t I get a break?” You complained. Your limbs were already heavy with exhaustion and you wanted nothing more than to crawl into your hotel room to sleep.

“Hey, guys,” your manager approached you, an apologetic look on her face, “(Y/N), Tom, Hollywood TV want an interview with you both. I told them yes, but only if you two are feeling up for it. Tom, your manager said the same thing, too.”

You exchanged looks with your costar and achieved a mutual decision. “We’ll do it, Jane. Just give us a few minutes.”

“They’re at the East Gate whenever you’re ready. I’ll be there, too.” Jane offered another sympathetic smile before hurrying away to her next task.

“Jane’s a good manager,” Zendaya noted while you disentangled yourself from Tom’s arms to stretch.

“She looks out for me,” you agreed, “What else would you expect from a family friend?”

“We better get going. Don’t want to keep them waiting too long,” Tom murmured while gazing around the set

Zendaya let out a yawn. “Have fun, you two. I’m gonna’ see if there’s anything to help with and then head back with Haz and the others. Meet you guys at the hotel.”

As the actress walked away, you couldn’t help but slump with exhaustion. Tom slung an arm around your shoulders and you gladly leaned towards him for support.

“Let’s get this over with, and we can celebrate back at the hotel with some tea,” he said lightly.

You couldn’t help but chuckle. “Only if it comes with sugar.”

“Now of course everybody’s familiar with the friendly neighborhood Spider-man Peter Parker, AKA Tom Holland, but (Y/N), your character is certainly new. Care to give a little insight?

You smiled. “Of course! So my character, Katie, is this new girl that transfers to Midtown during senior year, which is already just a bit sketchy. She’s more of the quiet, shy type and it’s obvious that she doesn’t really want to talk to anybody, but she ends up partnering Peter in chemistry class and develops a huge crush on him. Safe to say that she’s not exactly fond of MJ.”

“I would think not,” the interviewer, a petite young woman, agreed with a chuckle, “Any word on how big of a role she plays in the plot?”

You inwardly smiled at the warning look Jane was giving you from behind the camera. “Guess you’ll just have to watch the movie to find out!”

“Of course, of course,” the interviewer laughed, though you noticed just the smallest trace of frustration on her face, “And to Tom now. What’s it like to be playing this guy who’s caught in a sort of love triangle?”

“To be honest, I’m a little jealous of all the attention Peter’s getting!” Tom joked, and you playfully swatted his shoulder, “But this is definitely something new for Peter, since he’s always seen himself as kind of the loser at high school. It already took him more than a year to figure out his relationship with Michelle, and now he has his new girl to deal with, and pretty honestly, with his whole Spider-man gig and his lack of actual experience, he’s just really oblivious to the tension in the situation.”

“Last question,” the interviewer announced, “Even if Tom and Zendaya are the leading couple of the movie, the few set pics we’ve seen show that in particular, you two have an awfully close relationship. Anything to confirm or deny?”

Tom chuckled, though your experience as his close friend detected the annoyance under his smile. “She’s the sister I never had.”

“And the brother I never asked for,” you finished, “But appreciate all the same. Seriously though, just really good friends. Nothing more, nothing less.”

The interviewer nodded, obviously unconvinced, and turned back to the camera. “So there you have it guys! Spiderman: Graduation coming to theaters near you on August 17th! Make sure to check it out!”

You flashed another cheeky smile at the camera, while at your side, Tom did a classic Spider-man pose. After holding the position for a few seconds, the cameraman gave a small thumbs up, and you both immediately relaxed. The interviewer hurried forward to shake your hand.

“Thank you again for agreeing to this interview, especially when you’re still in the middle of filming!” she gushed, before moving to grab Tom’s hand and enthusiastically shake it as well.

Tom laughed. “No problem! Anything’s cool as long as (Y/N)’s here to make sure I behave.”

“More like make sure you don’t spoil anything or let out a few curse words,” you teased. Tom rubbed the back of his head, a sheepish grin on his face, while the interview giggled. “I should let you guys get some rest,” she said, “Thanks again!”

Fifteen minutes later, you and Tom finally walked away, free from the lapel mics and cameras and managers. “So...ten bucks the interviewer has a crush on you?” you asked, your eyebrows raised.

“Ehh...Doubt it,” Tom replied, his eyebrows scrunched in thought, “She’s too busy being obsessed with what our ‘relationship status’ is.”

“That’s like the hundredth time somebody’s asked us that.”

“And it gets more and more annoying every time.”

You gave him a sympathetic smile. “You’re an A-list movie star. Girls all over the world are dying to know if you’re single or not.”

Tom made a face. “It’s sweet that people care and all, but it’s my business if I want to date somebody, isn’t it?”

“You’ve been in this business way longer than I have and you’re still clueless?” You nudged his side. “We’re actors. Our lives are out for the world to see.”

With a sigh, Tom slung an arm over your shoulder. “At least I have good company through it all.”

You grinned ruefully. So much had changed in the past five years, and you couldn’t have been more grateful for the friends you had at your side. “Ditto.”

A/N: Please say that you were able to discern some plot points from the vagueness of this. Thx for making it here!

#tom holland #tom holland imagine #tom holland x reader #tom holland x you #spiderman: homecoming #tom holland fic

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hi this is me sending u every single emoji from the ask meme bc im too lazy to type out just the ones i want to ask

dammit jo why u gotta do this to me (jk I’m excited) (also I deleted some questions bc I’m stupid and idk what half of them mean or how to answer them COOL)

Send me emojis!

(hella long post sorry in advance)

☝ - How tall are you?

5′6″ I’m pretty sure

✔ - Sexual Orientation

Lmao good question

🚬 - Do you Smoke?

I mean ??? No but I’ve tried it does that count

🍷 - Do you Drink?

On occasion yes

♒ - Do you Take Drugs?

Negative

😳 - Age you get mistaken for?

TBH either 15 or 25 there is no in between

💉 - Have Tattoos?

Nope

✏️ - Want any tattoos?

Maybe?? Most likely a Florence lyric (”I’m gonna be free and I’m gonna be fine”) but I have no idea where I would get it

✂️ - Got any Piercings?

I have three piercings in each earlobe

✌ - Want any piercings?

Maybe a cartilage piercing or something idk

👌 - Best friend?

I have several and their names are Sandra, Temiqua, Macy, Layne, Megan, and there’s more ok I’m stressed I can’t list them all I’ll be here all day

♥ - Do you like anyone?

Unfortunately yes I think so but I’m pretty sure I’m getting over it

🎤 - Top 5 favorite bands?

Florence + The Machine, The Fray, Daughter, Prince (and the Revolution/and the N.P.G), The Cranberries

Special mention to: Marina & The Diamonds, Lana Del Rey (I know she’s a singer not a band but I love her don’t @ me)

🎶 - Top 5 favorite songs?

Sucker - Peaches

Salvation - The Cranberries

Lying - Amy Meredith

Caught - Florence + The Machine

America - XYLØ

Special mention to:

Raspberry Beret - Prince (for sentimental reasons)

Shut Up and Dance - Walk The Moon (also sentimental reasons)

Wake Me Up - Avicii (you guessed it)

Regular Touch - Vera Blue

Little Numbers - BOY

😒 - Biggest pet peeve?

People who take advantage of the fact that you love them

📝 - Story from your childhood.

I don’t really have any interesting stories from my childhood but I have one super embarrassing one… when I was little I used to get really really bad migraines pretty often and one time when I was in 1st grade I got super sick super fast and I went outside to get a drink of water and I ended up throwing up on (in? idk) somebody’s backpack and wow it was horrible and I don’t know why I’m sharing this

💬 - I wish…

I wish I didn’t get distracted/frustrated so easily bc I have so many ideas and I don’t have the focus or patience to follow through with a lot of them

‼️ - Something you’ll change?

I mean hopefully I’ll stop procrastinating at some point but that’s unlikely

💦 - What makes you horny?

JFC going to church and hearing the word of the Lord!!!!! anyway this is an inaPPROPRIATE QUESTION (I’m kidding there’s a similar question further down I might be more serious there)

🌟 - A wish you’ll wish for?

Well if I put it here it won’t come true now will it

🔥 - Something spicy you like?

I like green curry from the Chinese restaurant my family always orders from

👃 You hate the smell of ….

Fish ugh

👊 - Something you hate?

Discrimination in any way shape or form ugh

🚶 - Are you single?

Yes

💭 - Favorite foods?

I really love Nutella and burritos (not together)

☀ - Story about your day.

I had an 8:30am lecture so that was fun (sarcasm, people) and then a seminar right afterwards, then grabbed lunch with some pals from uni then came home and read fan fiction tbh my life is wild

💘 - Top 5 celebrity crushes?

Melissa Fumero, Stephanie Beatriz, Andy Samberg, Robert Downey Jr, James Marsters circa 1999-2000

Special mention to: Ian Harding, Jude Law, Camilla Belle, Eliza Dushku, Keira Knightley, Karla Souza, Katie McGrath, Sarah Michelle Gellar circa 2001 jfc I love a lot of people

🎥 - Top 5 favorite movies?

Celeste & Jesse Forever: this movie ruined my life but I love it so much and also refuse to watch it ever again

Last Night: I was so angry at the end of this movie my best friend had to stop me from throwing her computer across the room but GOD it’s so so good

Cruel Intentions: look I was like 15 when I first watched this movie and I was in no way prepared and tbh I am still #shook by how much people got away with in the 90s (and also… SMG with dark hair amirite)

Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows: idk I like mystery movies and Robert Downey Jr and this is such a guilty pleasure movie I watch it all the time

The Emperor’s New Groove: I will fight anyone who thinks this is not the greatest cinematic masterpiece ever created okay I’ve loved it since I first watched it when I was like 2 years old and I still love it just as much now

Special mentions:

Stoker: I studied this movie in school and good GOD I will never understand why the Board of Studies thought it was appropriate to show Year 11 students but it’s so beautifully shot and it’s so weird and bizarre and unsettling and I love it

The Road to El Dorado: a childhood favourite and a comedic masterpiece and I literally forced all my friends to watch it with me on my 18th birthday it was wonderful

Bridesmaids: just bloody hilarious and I remember the first time my mum and I watched it together we were literally in tears by the end of it bc we were laughing so hard

📺 - Top 5 favorite TV shows?

Brooklyn 99: (duh) I don’t even need to explain this one

Utopia: I always describe this show as “the Australian version of The Office” even though I’ve never actually watched The Office but it’s just such wonderful Australian humour and I love it

Summer Heights High: another Aussie classic and good lord it’s so politically incorrect and full of horrible jokes but it’s basically an Australian rite of passage and as such I love it

How to Get Away With Murder: I love trying to solve everything and it’s funny and thrilling and also the cast is so beautiful

Thank God You’re Here: this show isn’t on anymore but I love improv so much and I love all the people who starred on it and god it was hilarious

Special mentions:

Have You Been Paying Attention?, Jane the Virgin, Gilmore Girls

✏ - Random fact about yourself.

I skipped Kindergarten??

✈️ - Where are you from?

Sydney, Australia

🚀 - Where do you wanna visit?

Europe. Just,,, everywhere

😍 - Do you have a crush?

I think so ??? I know I used to but idk if I’m over it yet

😷 - Something you hate eating?

Tomato

🙈 - What makes you shy?

MAKING PHONE CALLS

💃 - Can you dance?

I’m a dancer so I certainly hope so

💏 - Do you love anyone?

I love a lot of people but not romantically if that’s what this question means

👟 - Favorite shoe(s) to wear?

Idk I have this one pair of boots I wear pretty much every day

🌴 - A island you would visit?

I really want to go to Cuba

🌎 - A country you would visit?

Spain

🌀 - Favorite type of weather?

Thunderstorms, if I’m inside

🔮 - Do you believe in luck?

Yes

📱 - What kinda phone do you have?

iPhone SE

📅 - Favorite time of the year?

Christmas

📚 - Career goal you want?

Anything in the arts - acting, taking photos, writing, cinematography, dancing, producing, directing, stage handing, screenwriting, literally anything I’ll take it

🍭 - Favorite Candy?

TBH I love lollipops, specifically Chupa Chups

(story time: one of my Year 12 teachers made a habit of bringing a whole packet of Chupa Chups to class every lesson because our class just would not shut up otherwise)

🍇 - Favorite fruits?

Strawberries, peaches, blackberries

🚘 - Dream car(s)?

I don’t really have one but I used to really want a Mercedes

🚔 - Have you ever been arrested?

Negative

🚑 - Have you ever driven in an ambulance before?

No but I’ve had to call one

🎫 - Do you have a license?

I have my learner’s but can’t drive by myself yet lol I’m working on it

🚼 - Do you have or want kids?

I don’t have any and I don’t know if I want any

🔞 - Are you under 18?

Negative I’m 19

🐶 - Do you own a pet?

No :(

😔 - Something that makes you sad?

The fact that there are so many people struggling (particularly with mental illness) and feeling hopeless/like they don’t have a support system

😡 - What pisses you off?

Literally just discrimination of any kind but also people who are arrogant and condescending and passive aggressive

😏 - What turns you on?

I mean idk I don’t really have a whole lot of anecdotal evidence ya know but generally I’m a pretty tactile person so physical contact is usually a good time I guess

😈 - Are you a freak?

Idk probably

💪 - Do you work out?

I dance and do yoga every week, does that count?

#GOD THIS IS SO LONG I'M SORRY #also nobody is going to read this why did I spend an hour answering it kms #self #not b99 #about me

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