#TW: meantion of abuse

[marimboy404]

Hi there, trust you are having great Saturday Morning, and here is wishing a happy weekend. I'm a victim of abuse from my grandmother and dad, I don't want to go too much into detail, as it's highly triggering, i worked on getting some evidence to press charge against them(going well so far) but i need to move out of the house of my abusers as soon as possible and seek justice. I need all the help i can get (please see my pinned post for my frequently updated "beg-post"). I beseech(beg of) you to donate towards my moving/getting justice if you can. Also, if you can, please consider boosting my pinned post (a detailed beg-post)(if you have already seen my post somehow before now, there's been a recent development/progress)- that will help reach more potential helpers. please don't ignore me, please!. I'm open to suggestions/corrections, you can send an inbox/ direct message if you have concerns/questions, and i will answer in no time. Thank you for hearing me out.

im so sorry thats awful i get it i am also in a really bad household but i dont have any money i keep getting asks from people telling me to help them and i feel so horrible bc i cant help anyone im really truly sorry but i cant help you i have no money no credit or debit cards i have nothing no job either so im really sorry but i cant help you i really hope you can get out of that godawful household stay safe <3333

[chocolatetheoristcloud]

Madara please 😩😩😩😩😩😩

Your wish is mine 🤪

HEART BREAKER FIRST REQUEST: Love is pain.

Tw: abusive partner, oral sex, cursing, smut,agnst, NO HAPPY ENDINGS!

Paring: Madara x fem! reader

You didnt really tell me want you wanted other the Madara do I came up with this also thanks for particpating!💗

Madara was a mean person.

That is a fact. But doesnt mean he's mean to his wife...

Right?

Well to answer that question the answer would simply be..

No.

Madara was a mean person and na even mean-er peron to his poor house wife who's only trying to please her mean husband.

But you think he cares..

No.

I mean your his wife it's expected of you. Not to meantion It wasnt just you being his wife but the mother to his children and setting an example for the future wives of the Uchiha clan as well.

Not only that but your also represting HIM and the Uchiha clan as it's leader's wife.

So to put it simply Madara was a very very mean husband.

If he found you over cooked his food a little bit he would break the damn plate on ground and make you clean It up and have him prepare It over again for him. And that's him being nice.

If he found the food to be too much over cooked he'd not only break the damn plate he'd curse at you and call you all types of things.

"You stupid pathic useless space of a wife!,all I wanted was a nice dinner after coming from a hard day's work and you couldnt even do FUCKING THAT!"

Madara would then slap you so hard to the point that you would fall onto the cold fucking floor where you would try not to cry.

If you think he'd stop there, no he would make you then give him a blow job by grabbing your hair and slapping you with his cock then putting It down your poor mouth to the point tears would be in your eyes but that didnt stop him.

If Anything he liked the tears and would only fuck you harder. Then after he cummed he would tell you to clean up yourself and the mess and make you make dinner for him.

[nervouspsychologynerd]

hey, this a wild card and nobody will actually care about this, but would anybody like a song fic abusive Anxceit fic?? anybody??

[itmightbeneb]

"the ccs aren't taking exile as seriously as they should/they don't know what they're dealing with ESPECIALLY if they make c! dream complex" is suck a weird take tbh.

First off exile is one of the fandoms favourite topics, there's no way they haven't seen all the tweets anytime anyone even mentions c!dream being less than completely evil

Secondly, we know as a fact that cc!dream is an abuse survivor, and we don't know if other ccs are and we are not entitled to that information. If cc!dream wants to make his character not pure evil I'm going to trust that he's going to do it in a way that isn't harmful, AND I'm going to trust the people who were close to him during that time to also be respectful of the topic at hand while still playing their characters true to themselves. (such as Bad, Sapnap, George, etc)

Thirdly, portraying abusers as pure evil is bad, actually. Abuse is something people who aren't pure evil do, as nobody is pure evil except in children's cartoons. If you only show abusers as pure evil that is dehumanising them, and if we get into our heads that abusers are monsters we can't see the abuse from ourselves/people we care about. Abusers are human, and can do good things as well, can be abused themselves as well, they have complexity and morals of their own because they're people. By completely dehumanising abusers, we're actually doing abuse victims a DISservice as it makes it harder for us to spot the abusers in our lives.

Finally, also partly mentioned in the last point but I really want to hammer this one down. Abusers can be abuser themselves, and the fact that they're abusers doesn't make it right. C!Dream didwas horrible to c!tommy in exile is a fact, c!dream got abused in prison is also a fact. One does not negate the other, and both are horrible things to do to a person (so luckily here we're talking about fictional characters). The fact that c!Badboyhalo feels bad for c!dream doesn't diminish what he did to c!Tommy. When c!bad helped dream get out (and away from prison), he was helping a victim of abuse get away from his abusers, he was doing a good thing.

[paninimaker]

HHHHH ABUSE MENTION TW BUT UHHHH ever think about how karkat ab*sed gamzee and was the worst moirail ever, and how karkat in general is just ableist and rude but fandom dulls him down to davekat gay alien crabbyboy? because i do.

i never saw that behavior in the comic, so maybe i forgot or blocked it out? I'll have to re-read it, i always thought caliborn was mega abusive to Gamzee though

And i always thought Kankri and Vriska were the ableist ones (because have you seen them) but idk, I'll have to re-read

[brushes-of-sage]

Director’s commentary on The Family AU?

Oh. Ooh.

So I never meant for it to have gotten so dark (she says so half heartedly) - but I will say that while both of these boys have issues, Hugo’s sole motivation had become to save Varian, who cares what happened to him. Salvation seems so far out of reach for him ‘cause, as implied, I’d accidentally had him kill someone and that scars anyone regardless.

So hello angst - that’s all I can offer 😅

[fameboundedx]

⭐️-|| Scott + Pirate Verse : His Sword

Once upon a time, Scott was a defenseless cabin boy who was beaten around by the very captain crew that abducted him from his home. That is, until his best friend, a young sea witch named Laila, gifted him an enchanted sword at the age of 18. She saw his determination to break himself free from the hell he lived in and wanted to help him escape. She was no fighter by any stretch, but she had her magic. Was able to enchant a crafted sword her mother had on hand. 

After its enchantment, the sword was very special as it connected to Scott and allowed him to summon electricity from the blade at will. With it, his anger towards the years of abuse fueled its power, and he was able to slay every single person who did him wrong. There was a certain excitement to watch the captain die by his blade. All those years, and he got his revenge. Though, he spared those who were good to him. 

Scott, now a captain, stole the ship and took it as his own. He made quite the name for himself once he was able to find a foothold in this life and get a crew of his own.

However, the sword is only as strong as its enchanter, and it had a limit. It had to recharge after each use, and depending on how strong the blast was, it could recharge in an instant, or it could take a few minutes. So Scott had to strategize his fighting style in order to deal with this. 

The Captain routinely goes to visit Laila to ‘update’ his weapon, but he never minded this fact. He enjoys being around his best friend after all. 

[jagerstian]

So I’ve been reading the Animaniacs fic ‘Family’ right? And first off it’s so awful. How DARE anyone make them go through this shit. Un- fucking- acceptable. I have literally cried actual tears (when I say I’m gonna cry it’s not literal but this time it is) it’s so ugh. Second of all, even though their living situation rigt now is completely awful and not ok, there was always something about it that attracted me. Now I wouldn’t want to become a parent of 2 at 8 years old or have to get a job or have piles of horse shit for parents but there is something there that I want, something I’ve never had before. It took me a while to place it but I think I know what it’s Ian now. Freedom. Which probably sounds silly if you’ve read it. How can having the responsibility of two younger children allow for any freedom? Or having a job? Thats a fair point, but I wouldn’t be allowed to do those things. Heck, I’m barely allowed to babysit my siblings for a few hours let alone be home alone for days at a time. And they can just, walk around town? Whenever they feel like? We have to ask permission to play in our own yard. Do you see what I’m getting at? But then I realized, they also dont have school. Their parents are never home and wouldn’t teach them anyway, which is not in anyway ok, but they don’t have that bearing down on them. Yakko is incredibly smart, not just for his age either, and he makes good decisions. He could quit possibly teach himself so he could also teach his siblings, but they don’t have that stress of assignments being late or not understanding a lesson. Which doesn’t compare to their situation ofc, but still. Honestly, I feel like I’d be better suited to work hard and have freedom rather than hardly having to do anything but being locked away like nice china. And I’m probably being dumb but I just. I’m living through Yakko in this story. All I’ve ever wanted was the kind of freedom he has. To ask for a library card and receive smiles instead of frowns and empty promises. To be able to get a job without them tying to talk me out of it (and succeeding) . Robe able to just go outside without having a damn permission slip signed. I’m always asked ‘why do you stay in you’re room all day?’ Bc at least here I have privacy. At least here I don’t have to ask permission to do anything. At least here I can stew in my anger in peace. At least here I don’t need have eyes constantly watching me and tearing into my soul (not literally but that’s what it’s feels like) . I know I’m lucky to have parents who do so much for us and who are doing their best to keep us safe but its so hard to be content when you’ve been kept in a cage your whole life. And obviously whining isn’t going to change anything but I figured out why I’m so invested in this fic and I wanted to talk about it. I’ll just keep living through Yakko and I’ll be cheering them on.

Yakko is literally such a good brother though??? If y’all haven’t read this fic yet then you should, it’s *chef’s kiss* it’s super long but totally worth it. Let me see if I can link it

https://m.fanfiction.net/s/3703685/6/

Close enough. Go read it, there is drug abuse, alcohol abuse, swearing, and physical abuse so if those bother you then probably don’t read but otherwise give it a go, I like it

anyway, thanks for letting me rant

[ofallthingsnasty]

which characters do you think would force you to be dependent on them the most? slowly corrupting you, taking away your adult privileges- someone who demands to dress you, feed you, force you to wet yourself and just treats you like you know no better than a child. whose the most likely to force you to regress? who keeps you clumsy and crying and makes jokes about you throwing tantrums? hehe.

hehe back at you 💕🤭 thanks for feeding my brain aha, this is kind of a list, kind of my thoughts? feel free to ask for more characters/in-depth explanations or even add your own!! 🤗 This is kind of a mixed bag - some would like to make you genuinely regress, some are more in it for the dynamic. You’ll see what I mean haha tw. forced agr3, yandere, physical abuse (heavy meantion), diapers, wetting mention

Makes you regress because they like the dynamic and how submissive it makes you: Enji, Aizawa Aizawa isn’t cruel per se. He likes the dynamic because it gives him the ability to give you everything. To truly care for you in every way possible. And he's a good cg but unrelenting - his rules and routines are set and he won't budge on them, ever. He cares very little for your protests, he simply pretends not to hear them. He's too tired from work, be it school or hero work, and when he's home he wants to spend his evenings and days off in peace, with you. He can be reasonable when he wants to be and when you've been good, allowing you small freedoms and choices here and there, but nothing major - he's still in charge and always will be. Wouldn't force himself on you, either. He can wait, there really is no need to rush things when he knows he has you for the rest of his life. (Yes, he's that confident in you never escaping - but how can you when you're getting strapped down after he leaves for work, when he puts your little hands in mitts and gags you?) All in all it's a pretty bleak future for you but he rarely hits you and doesn't play cruel mind games, he's just a tad delusional when it comes to you. I’ve mentioned this in another post, but I can see Enji in two ways - either as someone who genuinely wants to be your cg because he views you as something precious and vulnerable or out of the desire to make you fully submit to him. If he makes you regress because he wants to dominate you, you're in for a bad time. He accepts nothing less than the perfect little play-pretend darling - always demure, willing and soft. If you can't manage to live up to your expectations, you'll be severly punished - both physically and mentally. He doesn't play around and won't start now. Not above beating you to a pulp to break you. He doesn't care one bit if a broken finger doesn't quite heal right or if your nose doesn't look like it used to - you should have listened to him better, simple as. Your fault, really. If he wants to be your cg because of some twisted sense of love for you then you're a little better off. He wants to do right by you and genuinely tries to be a little more patient. And he loves you, at least that's what he always tells you. You're still forced into this, forced into restraints and bath time and diapers and frills... He's more patient with you but punishments are still given when you misbehave and they aren't light. But he would never ridicule you. If you accept your fate and let yourself fall it's probably not too bad compared to some others. But he can't keep his fingers off you - he knows he's a little too big for you, but he loves to make you cum on his fingers and thighs and you better play along or else...

Who'd like it because it's degrading for you and they'd belittle you for it: Rumi, Hawks

Hawks - he’s probably not the first one who comes to mind when you think about cgs, right? But like some others on here, he has a cruel streak and revels in you slowly losing control. It's addicting to see a grown adult regress into complete dependence little by little and even better to be a proper hero for the public while he can be a monster behind closed doors. Does he like diaper changes? No, not really. Does he think it's cute when he forces you to piss yourself, when he feeds you by hand, when he makes you baby-talk to him? No, no, no - it's not that he thinks it's simply adorable when you wet yourself or when you cry out of frustration because you can't use your hands anymore. It's all about control. It's about forcing you to do despicable things, something forbidden, something just between the two of you. It's about completely breaking you down and re-building you from scratch - and he's incredibly cruel about it. He lets you know just how disgusting that full diaper is, how pathetic you look, you act. It's all about shame for him. Rumi would do it because she can. Just because she is able to, nothing less. She's definitely not disgusted by you pissing yourself and the likes but that honey-sweet voice can turn into sharp anger and ridicule at any given moment. You can try to be good for her all you want, she's volatile and always chasing a new thrill - one day puppy eyes and a heartfelt sorry get you out of punishment the next she holds your head into the toilet bowl for it. Always condescending, always pitying you with a mean grin even though she was the one to force you to wet yourself. Always taunting you that even if you made it out one day nobody would ever believe you. She's probably the one to hold off mindbreak the longest, just because she likes the struggle and sheer dehumanization - the shame you feel, the way you're glaring back at her behind that pacifier gag. You better hope she never grows tired of you because she has no qualms disposing of you... Not killing you, but giving you into the 'loving care' of any willing prospect who can be paid hush money. And as a funky little addition: The absolute worst cgs - because they wouldn’t do an ounce of caretaking and either make you regress because of mindbreak or would force you to ag3 play for the sheer humiliation alone. You think Hawks and Rumi are cruel? Well, at least they do a minimal amount of care and see themselves as a twisted version of a cg. Shigaraki and Overhaul however, are just terrible. Especially with early Shigaraki - he’d crack you like an egg with the way he treats, no, abuses you. If you regress because of the intense strain on your body and mind, he’d do fuck-all to treat you accordingly/better. He wants someone he can fuck and not... whatever this is. Not above threatening you. Doesn't care if you wet yourself because of trauma - no, he lets you sit in your misery until you reek and cry. Mocks you for regressing as well and noncons you while doing it. A pretty grisly situation. Kai has no patience whatsoever for this. Not above overhauling you to pull you out of an episode - or locking you into your room until you're scratching at the door to be let out. He finds it absolutely repulsive and doesn't understand regressing at all. And if you continue he might just mess with your brain a little...

[whumpkinz]

School institutionalized whumping. Idk what this is but take it. I lost a little steam towards the end.

TW: corporal punishment, I accidentally went off on Monster Whumpees, conditioned whumpees, living weapon whumpees, creepy/intimate whumper meantioned, non-descriptive examples of of non-con possibilities, meantions of electric fences, meantions of tracking devices, meantions of shock collar, meantions of paddles.

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Uniforms or appearance standards that are enforced at all times. Forcibly cutting or shaving a students head if their hair is too long. All students being forced to wear long skirts regardless of gender for humiliation purposes, acess to legs, conformity, hiding cane marks/another way to enforce the dress code.

Whumpees who have perhaps grown up in a whumping institution that looks and is structured like a academic school. Whumpees never leaving the grounds being conditioned that the outside world doesn't want them, doesn't exists, fear gaslight them and shows them horrifying videos and using it for propaganda. Whumpees not allowed to leave by force or conditioning or a combination of both. Whumpees having tracking devices installed on them but they're all in different places on each person so they can't rely on the same spot in case they ever figure it out. A invisible electric perimeter fence that could pair with the tracking device, a shock collar or both.

If it's a Living Weapon/Training institution they could be conditioned to belive they are too dangerous for the public, they've been rejected, they will be killed if they leave. Whumpees who have razor sharp reflexes that end up hurting their team mates/other Whumpees/caretaker/Whumpers/random stranger in public, you name it. Whumpees who have a trigger word/switch that when it goes off one moment they're perfectly fine and the next they're just lost in the sauce either sleeper agent style or just literally killer instinct and doesn't realize it until after. Cue quilty conscious, self blame, possibly survivors guilt, isolation, the anxiety eating them alive, perhaps they're so worried about hurting someone else it becomes a self fulfilling proficy. Whumpee's deep in thought about themself while doing a daily task when Caretaker/Whumper passes them/brushes against them/touches them and Whumpee responds violently. Whumpees who belive they are a monster.

Or are actually being turned into a monster. Feral monster Whumpees have my entire heart, so maybe a Whumpe that is injected with a serium that makes them go feral. Other Whumpees have to try and reverse it, Whumpee struggles to fight it and wins, whumpee struggles to fight it and fails furthering the feralization if you will. Bonus points if it was by accident and the person who did it, either another student or professor/teacher/headmaster whatever does it. Perhaps the perpetrator blames someone they have power over? I love someone abusing power over others.

Ok I got a little lost in the sauce there BUT back to the school specific stuff. Punishments being canes, public humiliation, hair cutting/shaving, forcibly stripped to undergarments or naked in front of the entire class. If they're wearing skirts I saw a picture of a bunch of girl students being forced to have their panties down to their ankles and in a mixed/neutral gendered setting it could be humiliating for everyone to drop their underwear to their ankles. Skirts are like the best accessible whump clothing next to dresses and robes.

Detention but it's just a formality before being taken to the "punishment room" where there is a dungeon. There's a Saint Andrew's cross, a table with straps on it, a stool, a bunch of canes, gags, wooden stocks and more.

Whumpee is bent over the table with their skirt hiked up. Non-con possibility with creepy/intimate Whumper commenting on their underwear, their legs, touching their legs, running the cane up and down their legs and smacking their butt/sex. Whumper commenting on how many cane marks Whumpee has, trying to burn their cane marks over other Whumpers in a possessive or sadistic manner. Whumper hitting whumpee in the same spot, perhaps even disguised as a merciful gesture to avoid bruising and marking more skin, Whumpee not realizing it hurts more when they do, or if/when they do begging to be hit somewhere else but Whumper enjoys their tears and shreiks so much they refuse. Whumper doing the same but with paddles. Paddles can hurt man, in good ways and in bad ways. They have firehouse rubber paddles and I could never imagine getting hit with one of those. My worst nightmare. So stingy!

[junjungsunwoo]

Don’t Breathe | Collab Masterlist

In the town of Gongpo, there has been a series of deaths every last day of the month for the past 100 years. Every time the body was examined, the cause of death was always different. From stab wounds, to ripped limbs, to blood drained, what could have happened in the town?

On the 31st of October 2021, horror stiked. The beautiful forest was on fire, buildings were being bombed and destroyed, and children were crying for their parents. People were killed left and right, by murderers, serial killers, and monsters. There were monsters roaming here in this town now, from zombies to banshees to even sirens, they were everywhere.

There was no safe place here anymore.

“Don’t talk, don’t look, don’t move, don’t breathe- unless you want them to find you.

Collab Masterlist:

“Death of An Angel” 

@junjungsunwoo​

Summary: Jacob never knew what he would love more then being an angel. That is…untill he saw you. And the moment he saw you? He already knew he was damned.

Genre: Angst

TW: Blood, gore, mass murder, suicide, graphic descriptions, lots of swearing, meantions of hell

Pairings: Fallen Angel! Jacob

“The Secrets We Share”

@stealerz​

Summary: A serial killer is on the loose and as the officer in charge, you will stop at nothing to find him. Yet, things get a bit more complicated when your past threatens to catch up with you.

Genre(s):

TW: blood, gore, violence involving guns and knives, abuse (physical and verbal), toxic relationships, obsessive behaviour, graphic descriptions of death, character death, swearing (lots of it) 

Pairings: serial killer! younghoon

“We're fools, loving each other so much.”

@127-mile​

Summary: It is now forbidden to be alone in the street after dark, because of the gruesome murders that have taken place in the recent weeks. No one knows who is behind this bloodbath. No one knows your girlfriend is partly to blame.

 Genre(s): Tokyo ghoul inspired.

 TW: Blood, gore, strong language, explicit death, + more to come...

Pairings: Ghoul!Seulgi

“Kneel At My Goddess”

@dundun-baby​

Summary: There's no mercy at people who don't recognize a divinity. Her word is law and law is meant to be followed by everyone. Taeyong is going to make sure everyone kneels at her feet. 

Genre: Twisted love, psychological thriller.

TW: blood, psycho! Taeyong, horror, torture, paranoia.  

Pairing: serial killer! Taeyong x Reader 

"Mortala”

@yuta-senpai​ 

Summary: A demon should never fall for an angel, because their love is forbidden.... Unless that angel falls.  She will do anything to make him hers.

Genre(s): Horror, (Will be smut posted separate. )

TW: Murder, torture, death, & kidnapping

Pairings: Angel Chan x Demon Reader

“Game Of Death”

@kookaine​ 

Summary: frat parties tended to get too wild for your liking, but that's not why you were so eager to leave this one. between a killer on the loose, a campus you've never visited before, and a sea of intoxicated students partying away on halloween night, the only thing you crave for is the safety of your home. unfortunately, things always tend to go haywire when parties are concerned, and this one is no exception. stuck in an isolated room with twelve people you have never met before, you're forced to play a game of truth or dare. the twist? failure in reciting the truth or completing the dare will result to you becoming a victim of a round of russian roulette. the only question: who will survive?

Genre(s): angst, suggestive, psychological thriller, suspense 

 TW: mentions of murder, graphic descriptions of death, profanity and alcohol/drug consumption. 

 Pairings: mass murderer!member (murderer is going to be revealed at the end which is why fic is ot7) x reader. there will ocs as side characters.(edited)

[traumaw]

its kinda funny. if anyone else was in my situation id tell them to get the hell out and cut contact, but its... not like that. plus, shes my friend and im not leaving her, even if i genuinely wanted to. which i dont. even if there are more bruises everytime we meet. thats okay. theyll heal. it is a bit worrying though, since the aggression seems to be increasing? she wouldnt stop hitting me the last time but shes been having a rough few days and i can understand her reasons. m is just possessive and likes to leave. marks. to make sure "everyone knows im hers". which is kinda creepy? in the context where the person actually hurts you. but shes literally like a cat tzrned human so.. not that suprising. im suprised she didnt pee on me. and yea i was afraid shed kill me for a while there but she didnt, and probably wouldnt. not sure i'd mind, either way.

[itmightbeneb]

you know what? it makes sense that techno would still view Tommy in a negative light, and while in denial about his death make light hearted jokes about it being pog. from technos perspective Tommy betrayed him. now we can argue about who betrayed who all day long but that doesn't change that fact that techno feels betrayed by Tommy, feels that Tommy used him as a weapon and nothing more. whether that is true or not doesn't matter, we have the benefit of seeing all sides and can tell people's motives a lot easier than a neuroodivergant person who misunderstood tommys intentions and doesn't canonically have access to his point of view. to techno, Tommy is the person who betrayed him, used him as a weapon, turned back to the people who exiled him (and also tried to execute techno) and stole his stuff. I completely understand why techno doesn't feel much sympathy or sorrow over his death, especially as he doesnt know that dream was abusing him.

I understand that you're all upset and want them to be friends/brothers/whatever but that's metagaming, that's using our knowledge of their actual friendship and the sbi dynamic in a situation where that isn't the case. this is 100% in line with technos character, he makes light of dark situations and doesn't particularly like Tommy anymore

[paninimaker]

Imagine Dave seeing the face of his abuser again but the face of the avuser dosnt realise how fucked up Dave is because of that abuse

Anyway, i don't like Dirk all that much bc i love Dave with all my heart, hes my child

[sorrowgazed]

✕ — isn’t that ruth aldine wandering the streets of new york? civilians know them as blindfold and see them as a hero. as far as i know, the 22 years old stands with the x-men and are rumoured to be pretty reserved & distressed. ( lee jieun / female / she/her )

tw: abuse , death meantion, drug abuse

ruth aldine was born a mutant with no eyes or open eye sockets, but in exchange, she is psionic, though the full extent of her abilities is unknown.

her mother was forced to work long hours to support her family, and ruth was left with her brother who hated her for being a mutant and causing all his problems. luca both physically and emotionally abused her, before falling into theft and drug abuse.

luca's abuse of ruth and her mother escalated until one day he came to kill ruth with a chainsaw. ruth's mother died protecting her from luca.

luca was quickly apprehended and sentenced to death. after this tragedy, ruth was raised by her aunt 

the time with her aunt was the happiest six years in her life, and she learned to control and master her power. due to some sense of family solidarity, ruth attended the execution of her brother, where he manifested astral projection and stole half of ruth power leaving her mind incomplete and broken. shortly after incident, ruth's aunt was contacted by the xavier institute and enrolled ruth.

[melomanic-logophile]

Recalling a horrible night.

[TW: child verbal assault, child abuse of sorts, parental mental abuse, verbal abuse. multiple meantions of v*mit/p*ke.]

I was sobbing, loudly, into my pillow. We had just come back from a weekend vacation in San Francisco, which should have been fun and happy. I should have felt lucky, but how could I when she made me sit in my puke almost the whole ride there... two hour drive made longer by the horrible traffic. I had told her to pull over but she refused, only after I puked did she pull into a gas station, where she yelled at me for throwing up and refused to help me clean it... and I didn’t leave the car because I thought she would get napkins or anything to help. When we finally got to SF, I was relieved that finally she could just leave me at the hotel and leave me alone, but she didn’t. She told me I couldn’t stay alone in the hotel room and made me go with them to a pier, I at least changed beforehand. She took pictures, telling me to smile because she was posting them. I felt like I was going to puke again the whole time, but didn’t until we got back to the parking garage, where I ran to a trash can. I hadn’t even eaten yet, we got back to the hotel room and I was finally able to throw up in a clean and solitary environment at least. After, I went to sleep. I woke up, still dizzy and sick, and realized I didn’t have a clean bra, I puked on it, so I asked my mom- Who of course refused to let me borrow one. I’m trans and didn’t have a binder at this time so I was made to walk around SF with no bra. I was extremely uncomfortable and crossed my arms the whole time, but she didn’t care. I ate but threw it all up, and when we stopped to eat on the way back home I got a moment alone with her. I tried to tell her that I didn’t like that she was yelling at me so much on the trip, which she did a lot of for no good reason... and she yelled at me again. So I didn’t speak to her for the rest of the day- until night that is. I was sobbing, albeit loudly, into my pillow... which was keeping my little sibling in the top bunk awake. He didn’t know any better, but when I wasn’t responding to his questions (I was crying too hard to speak), he climbed out of bed and went into our mothers room to tell her. He was just concerned, but mom doesn’t like to be woken up. She immediately came into the room and started yelling that I needed to stop crying or go in another room, so I tried to go in the bathroom but I was still too loud. She continued to yell at me to be quiet, telling me I need to stop crying. I couldn’t stop, and her yelling was making it worse, so I figured I’d get some fresh air (and maybe alert the neighbors). As I reached to unlock the sliding glass door, she came out of her room again, this is when she started screaming at me that I couldn’t go outside because I’d wake the neighbors and that she wasn’t going to deal with that. I fell to the ground sobbing because I felt so helpless, and since my older brother was sleeping on the futon right next to the glass door, she yelled to get up because I’d wake him up. I got up and stumbled into the darkest corner of the kitchen, where I sat and sobbed before going back into the bathroom to cry. When I calmed down a bit, I quietly went back into the bedroom and lied down. My little brother spoke from the top bunk and I realized that he had been crying, he said “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to.” And that right there broke my heart. He thought it was his fault that our mother screamed at me and made me sob, and I assured him that it wasn’t his fault though. That was a horrible night.