#THEE hannibal episode

[eyestrain-addict]

[horrorlesbians]

mizumono best episode of all time i love it when it hurts

[walkyjake]

thank you thank you @flashlightfish : } for the tag. here are someMore Questions.

last song: C by Thee Oh Sees ohhh supremely catchy.

last show: oh i’ve been watching movies lately. umm. couple weeks ago i watched good omens and hannibal with friends? the last show i Completed was i think the good place last month? oh wait there’s the always sunny episodes every week. oh there’s one today.

last movie: help i watched uncut gems itwas wild.

currently watching: 38 hour youtube letsplay of rain code honestly.

obsession: Okay Well. KingGizzard. Sure. actually i feel as if i am in a lull right now. i am kind of drifting. mostly bc of busyness. like i’m not even listening to kglw it’s always like i’m saving images or talking about the music but not listening. this happens a lot. but i’m listening to a lot of thee oh sees still because i hope i can see them in a month fuck wow. ok.

tagging: @intrasport Hi leo. ok bye good morning.

[kakushigo]

Writing patterns

Rules: List the first line of your last 10 (posted) fics and see if there's a pattern! (Tagged by @merinnan)

Technically, Zhao Yunlan hadn't intended to steal Shen Wei's sleeve garters and become a thief. (Stolen Moments of a Life, part of the Thief!Shen Wei series. Zhao Yunlan/Shen Wei from Guardian. Usually written for Syn, since she's like 50-75% to blame for the plot bunny)

It wasn't unusual that Lee Dongsik brought meat for Joowon to cook for their meals - he was close friends with Jaeyi, who owned a butcher shop and always saved the best cuts of meat for her friends. (Cooked with Love, a Han Joowon/Lee Dongsik from Beyond Evil fic with Hannibal vibes featuring kitchen blowjobs for 31 days of smut)

Han Joowon had always known that the only reason his father had him was so that he could carry on the family's name in some fashion. (with this ring, I wed thee a Han Joowon/Lee Dongsik Alpha/Beta/Omega AU for 31 days of smut.)

 Yunlan wasn't entirely sure how he got here - naked, legs up, with not!Shen Wei's tongue lapping at his asshole like it was an Olympic sport. (Eat You Out & Eat You Up a fic in which Zhao Yunlan & Ye Zun have sex, while Zhao Yunlan pines for Shen Wei. Takes place during that episode where Ye Zun pretends to be Shen Wei. Also part of the 31 days of smut)

Waking comes slowly to Yunlan - he feels like he just finished a really good sleep and lethargy still grips him as his eyes slowly open. (Naked & Not So Afraid - A Weilanzun tentacle fic, because there needs to be more of them. Zhao Yunlan gets kidnapped & egged up & he wants seconds. Part of 31 days of smut)

Joowon had spent nearly two hours in this bar since Kwon Hyeok left. (With a Gun Against My Head (feels like home) - a Han Joowon/Lee Dongsik fic featuring criminal Dongsik, a gun, and sex. Also part of the 31 days of smut)

There are official avenues for Dongsik to visit the King's chamber. (In the Silence of my Heart another Han Joowon/Lee Dongsik AU. This time featuring King!Joowon & General!Lee Dongsik in which Dongsik sneaks into the king's room to fuck Joowon. Also part of the 31 days of smut)

Ye Zun watches hungrily as Da Qing stretches in their shared bedroom. (Softly, Gently, and With Feeling - Lazy morning Da Qing/Ye Zun sex for 31 Days of Smut)

Zhao Yunlan did not forget that Shen Wei lived across the hall from him - he couldn't, even if he wanted to. (Forget Me Not, a prequel to the first one on this list. More Zhao Yunlan/Shen Wei featuring thief!Shen Wei.)

"What's my pretty wife cooking for me?" Dongsik asked, arms looping around Joowon's back while he peered over Joowon's shoulder in an attempt to see what Joowon was doing. (Bun in the Oven, the sort-of sequel to #3 on this list. Omegaverse fic in which Han Joowon is pregnant and gets fucked over a kitchen counter)

What this shows me is that I have some favorite punctuation and I introduce my characters as quickly as possible. Number ten is an outlier - I rarely start with dialogue. I rarely use dialogue, though I'm trying to get better at that.

It's also possible that this isn't indicative of my writing style at all, as most of these were part of 31 days of smut, which was just me trying to write as much smut as I could.

tagging @synonemous even though she's already been tagged b/c I'm a menace

[scoups4lyfe]

Journal Entries. (2)

These are all mood journal entries (so super short / concise) of mine; where I chart my daily moods over a period of time.

These chronicle the time right before I scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist (March) and when I started medication (antidepressants) for my depression / fatigue.

NOTE: These don't contain any long thoughts, literally just mood observations. But I think it does a pretty good job at showing just how inconsistent and sudden mood episodes / switching can be, and why they're so debilitating for trying to live a normal everyday life. I added some gifs / pictures for rando visuals LOL. Truly complete the reading experience 🤪.

Part: [1], [2], [3], [4] Bipolar PPT Essay: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6]

...

March 27th, 2021

Slept: 4am. Woke: 4pm

Mood: 2/10 Energy: Neutral (Maybe a 2/10)

I just feel empty. Like I need to go hibernate/go back to sleep. I’m not hungry. I’m not particularly motivated, and I kind of wish my sister would sit down and watch Hannibal with me and my mom, so it bums me out that she continues to put that off/ignore it.

I’m tired, man. It’s 8:21 pm, and I’m already thinking about going back to bed. When my family hangs out, I can be mindless and just let their good mood and entertainment take over. Other than that, I don’t feel particularly interested in doing anything, though I know I should. I have things to do. I don’t even feel bad about not doing anything. Just empty. Just ready to sleep.

March 28/29th, 2021:

:(

NOTE: Visual reference of what I looked like during this time

March 30th, 2021:

Bed: 6:30 pm. Woke: 4:30 am

Mood: -1/10

My mood can be directly related to how many gluten free brownies I’ve eaten today. (Thee ONLY thing I’ve eaten too might I add.) (it’s 5pm)

…

[Started taking meds]

Tuesday July 6th 2021 (6:03 pm) (12th)

NOTE: The number next to the date is the number of days since I started taking medication

took meds (YES)

I was kinda so depressed from the doctor’s visit and loss of money that even with the meds, it couldn’t stop me from sleeping. LOL.

Thursday July 8th 2021 (12:10 pm) (14th)

took meds: yes

I had enough energy to watch [my niece]

I had enough energy to have a mental breakdown.

Tuesday July 13th 2021 (19th)

took meds: yes (4:44 pm)

I feel so tired…fatigued….

Thursday, July 15th 2021 (21st)

took meds: yes (2:47)

Slept four hours

Overall energy: 3/10

Mood:4.5:10

Napped for three hours, had dinner + caffeinated tea and I feel shaky-awake.

Bruh I did not sleep (for the 16th) at all 💀💀💀.

Friday, July 16th, 2021 (22nd)

took meds: yes (12:06pm)

Haha going to bed right after I took my meds 😛🤷

Friday July 23rd, 2021 (31st)

took meds: yes (11:12 am)

This week idk. It’s been weird? Like tired and then also hyper fixated on nonsense =DD.

Why (2:40 pm) am I so tired? Don’t want to do anything.

(Currently Saturday morning, 6;22 am and I can’t sleep. I’m NOT tired. But I want to sleep.)

This is the WORST.

Saturday July 24th, 2021 (32nd)

took meds: 7:21 pm

I feel wired and tired and just like I can’t do anything even tho I have the energy to

Sunday July 25th, 2021 (33rd)

took meds: yes (11:26 am)

I know I woke up at 8pm today, but man I really don’t want to do SHIT. (And after drinking that nasty ass fiber supplement, I’m feeling tired =o. When will this insanity end?)

Tuesday July 27th 2021 (35th)

took meds: yes (10:04 am)

Mood (10:07 am): 7/10

Energy (10:07 am): 6.7/10

Wednesday July 28th 2021 (36th)

took meds: yes (4:23pm)

Literally went to sleep at 1am and woke up at 4:15 pm. Wtf? (I slept 16hrs LOL)

Mood (6:03 pm): 6.5/10

Energy (6:03 pm): 7.2/10

Today was a good day, I got more work done than yesterday :)).

(3:19, Thursday am): laid down and tried to sleep but now I feel more awake than ever.

Thursday July 29th 2021 (37th)

took meds: yes (4:29 pm)

Went to bed last night at 8am, woke up at 4:33 pm. (I hate not being able to fall asleep. Is it because I slept for 16 hrs the previous night? #sucks.)

Mood (7:44 pm): 7.5/10

Energy: (7:44 pm): 6.4/10

Friday July 30th 2021 (38th)

took meds: yes (8:15 pm)

I almost forgot to take them today ahhhhhh

Mood: 6/10

Energy: 6.7/10

Saturday July 31st 2021 (39th)

I have plenty of energy (I haven’t taken my meds yet) and yet I feel like I’m going insane. I. Can’t do anything right. Why why why why why must I continue to be a failure? I had something good going for me wtf is wrong with me? I don’t want to wake up anymore

Took meds: yes (11:44 am)

(Slept till 9pm, it’s 8:22 am Sunday and I’m still awake. But on the plus side I’m not careening dangerously into another mental breakdown.,,yet)

Sunday August 1st 2021 (40th)

took meds: yes (12:17 pm)

I haven’t slept yet today

General mood: hmmm 5/10 (12:18pm)

I do feel a little tired but that’s probably because I’ve been up since 9pm.

Generally tho I’m feeling pretty okay. (Guess we’ll see how the rest of today goes lol.)

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[cozycreaturescorner]

POV: i broke into your kitchen and just found the FUNNIEST piece of cutlery to kill you with

[darling-i-read-it]

Roti

1x11

Hannibal Lecter x reader x Will Graham 

Hannibal Re-Write Series Masterlist

Word Count: 2k

Warnings: spoilers for hannibal, murder, mental health problems 

Author’s Note: Will graham I will die for you any day of the week just text me 

I took lines directly from the script so some may seem familiar. Those sentences are not mine. 

Official Episode Summary : The BAU team searches for Dr. Gideon, who has escaped custody and intends to kill psychiatrists who have profiled him; Hannibal misleads the team in order to get Will and Gideon in the same room; Jack questions Dr. Chilton about Gideon's escape.

I don’t own these characters. They belong to author/director 

Tag List: @llperfectsymmetryll​

(not my gif)

It was snowing steadily outside when you went to sleep that night. There were a few inches above the ground by the time your consciousness slipped into no man's land. You woke up slowly, looking at the other side of the bed where Will had fallen asleep. The blankets had been kicked off of both of you and you were freezing the second you awoke. 

Will laid on his back, body tense but still asleep. Sweat clung to his gray shirt. He was hot when you grabbed his arm and he instantly woke up, staring at you with scared beady eyes.

“It’s okay, it’s okay,” you whispered and he shook his head looking around to get his bearings. 

“Is this real?” he asked, voice wispy. You nodded quickly and scooted closer to him.

“Real,” you told him. When he looked at you his eyes pleaded and you sat all the way up, looking down at him. “Let’s go outside.” He nodded and clung to your arm as you got out of bed, wiping the sleep from your eyes. You led him outside and you stood on the porch, the dogs running past you into the yard. It had stopped snowing.

He shook beside you but it was colder outside. You didn’t touch him in fear of making him even hotter.

“Take the day off,” you whispered. 

“I can’t.” 

The alarm went off inside.

-

“You dodged a bullet Chilton. Gideon’s escape foregoes a trial and a very public humiliation for you,” Wil said as you walked together into the office of Frederick Chilton.  You looked around curiously. Will had asked you to come, having serious concerns that this time around they might not let him out. You were to be a trainee, if anyone asked.

Chilton sat behind his desk and raised an eyebrow at the sight of you. 

“Who’s this? I don’t think we’ve had the pleasure.” 

“Y/N Y/L/N. Trainee,” you said, shaking his hand. Will grabbed your arm and pulled it back quickly. He didn’t want any part of Chilton touching you beyond that handshake.

“They’re letting trainees come on such high profile cases now?” Chilton paused, looking between the two of you. “Ah no, you’re thee Y/N. I wasn’t aware I was in the presence of such a high profile couple.” Will let out an annoyed sigh. 

“We’re here to talk about Gideon,” Will said simply.

“How do you do it? Is there a part of you that hates your boyfriend's mind?” Chilton asked. 

“You sound like Freddie Lounds,” you said and he feigned hurt

“I can see where you like each other.”

-

Work that day was hard. 

Hannibal noticed.

He gestured for you to come into the office just before Will’s appointment. You stepped inside. You had never been in here alone with Hannibal you were pretty sure. With Will, heck with Tobias or Jack but never just with Hannibal. It made you feel like a patient. 

“How is Will?”

“Will is terrible but you know that already,” you whispered. You trailed your finger along his desk and turned around.

“Why don’t you have a seat in the chair?” he asked as you hoisted yourself up onto the desk.

“It makes me feel to much like a patient. When I’m on the desk I’m an observer. I don't’ have to have any input on what you and Will discuss,” you told him. Hannibal walked over to you and leaned against the desk beside you. “He wakes up at night sweating through the sheets, almost crying,” you whispered. “He doesn’t know if I’m real when I comfort him.” You stared straight ahead at the art on the walls. You took a deep breath in.

“How does that make you feel?” Hannibal asked.

“Broken hearted,” you breathed. “LIke I can’t help my best friend. Because I can’t.” You finally looked over at Hannibal. 

“You’re doing the best you can,” Hannibal said. “That is occasionally all we can do.” You shook your head and while  you stared into Hannibal’s eyes you felt a pull. An emotional pull you hadn’t felt beside him anymore. You pushed it away quickly, looking back at the wall.

You felt an angry lone tear go down your cheek.

“It isn’t enough.”

“Do you consider yourself in any of this? Perhaps that by attempting to take on WIll’s problems you are making more problems for yourself,” Hannibal suggested.

“I don’t care about me or my social life right now. I care about Will.”

The door, which was open, was knocked on as Will walked inside. You wiped your eyes and pushed yourself off the table.

“Am I interrupting?” Will asked. You shook your head and walked over to the door quickly, eager to leave Hannibal to it. Will grabbed your arm before you could leave. You quickly stopped. 

“Yeah?” 

“I-” he started. “I’m sorry about this morning.” You shook your head and put your hand to his cheek lovingly.

“Don’t worry about it. Have a good session thing,” you said quietly and he let you go. He thought about asking you to stay but thought better of it. He knew that he was hurting you daily by being like this and he hated seeing you hurt almost as much as you hated seeing him hurt. 

You shut the door behind you and Will’s eyes welled with tears.

“She loves you,” Hannibal said. “Very much.”

“Glad to know someone will always be in my corner,” he muttered. “Even when I’m not.”

-

With Gideons escape you were worried about pretty much everything. You sat on your own desk outside the office as Will and Hannibal talked. To get your mind off things you called Alana. 

“Hello?” 

“You alive? Is this the Chesapeake Ripper?” you asked. Alana laughed mockingly.

“Gideon isn’t the Ripper,” she told you.

“Still.” You paused. “Are you okay?” 

“I’m better than your boyfriend. Speaking of, you need a vacation when Will regains his stability for putting up with him. I can’t imagine living with him.” You sighed.

“He cuddles well. Good kisser. You get any hot protective detail?” She hummed a no.

“Thinking about giving into Hannibal's flirting,” she muttered.

“Hannibal's been flirting?” you asked. You kicked your feet around. This was what you needed. A girl talk.

“Sort of. I can’t tell.”

“You're a psychiatrist Alana, how can’t you tell?”

“Because I can’t be my own psychiatrist.” The door to the office opened. Will’s eyes were filled with water.

“I gotta go. Be safe.” You hung up the phone and stood you, bringing your hand to Will’s face. You wiped the tears and noticed very quickly how hot he was. “Wil you’re burning,” you whispered.

“I’m naturally hot,” he joked dryly.

“Shut up. What is your temperature? Take some aspirin.” 

“We can check later and I just took some. I just wanna go home.” YOu nodded stiffly and glanced at Hannibal behind him. He gave you a solemn look of pity. You wrapped your fingers around the side of Will’s neck and it ached with the heat. 

-

Alana handed you a bowl of ice cream and you took it, sitting on the chair in her office. She sat on her desk facing  you and the window.

“If you get killed hanging out with me Will is never going to forgive you,” she said, pointing her spoon at you. You took a bite of your ice cream and then pointed  your spoon at the men around the room, watching.

“If he gets through them perhaps it was fate,” you suggested. “Plus Will told me to come.” It was true. When Alana invited you for dinner Will practically shoved  you through the door. The hunt for Gideon was on and he figured it would be safer with a detail than with him at work. 

He almost dropped you off at Hannibal’s but decided against it when he thought about it. 

“I hope he’s okay,” you whispered offhandedly.

“You don’t need to worry about him,” Alana said.

“It’s literally my job as his girlfriend to worry about him.” Your foot bounced nervously.

“It’s why I didn’t date him when I had the chance,” she said.

“Because he’s to much work?”

“I didn’t know if he was stable or not.” You nodded slowly.

“But you like Hannibal whom is likely hiding his instability,” you said. She laughed and shook her head.

“I never said I liked him. I just said he might be flirting.” 

There was a shot outside the window. You stood up quickly and looked outside to see Gideon on the ground and Will, kneeling beside him.  You dropped your bowl. It broke.  You ran out the front door and quickly skidded to the ground beside Will, grabbing his arm. He looked at you and for a moment you weren’t sure if he recognized you.

“Real or-”

“Real. Real.” You put your hands on his cheeks and he was still burning. He put his head on your lap and you looked at Alana who had just come outside. “Call Jack. And Hannibal.” She nodded and ran back inside to get the phone.

You held Will on your lap, somehow calm, running your hands through his hair wildly to get  him to stop shaking.

-

Hannibal met  you at the hospital after talking to Jack. You sat beside Will’s bed, his hand in yours as you looked at his unconscious body. You were still crying, so scared for him.

“His temperature was 105, degrees and I didn’t make him go to the doctor,” you whispered. Hannibal shook his head, walking toward you. He pulled up a chair and sat beside you.

“You can’t blame yourself for this,” he whispered.

“What did Jack say?”

“Nothing you want to hear right now,” he told you. “I swear I will rip that man's head right off hi-”

“It’s okay. It’ll all be okay.” 

Hannibal took your other hand and you let him hold it as you stared at Will, your face tear stained and puffy.

“Will he be okay?” you whispered.

“Will’s going to be alright,” Hannibal whispered but he honestly wasn’t sure anymore.

1x12

[pendraegon]

idk if you ever said, and i just never saw a post, but what are your favorite moments or scenes from hannibal?

ohhhhh okay. well my favorite episode is savoureux (1x13) and THEE best scene to me ever is that scene back in the hobbs house where will turns around and finally sees hannibal. it's accompanied by my favorite line in the series "i stared at hobbs and the space opposite me assumed the shape of a man filled with dark and swaming flies. and then i scattered them." i think i could write an entire post on that line alone it drives me INSANE.

similarly i really love s2a leading up to yakimono (2x07) especially with it cresting in will and hannibal's first confrontation where will puts a gun back to hannibal's head and hannibal turns the other way. ive written meta on it before but hannibal's submissiveness when we know the threat he posed to beverly who only had her gun alone and then contrasting that to how he plays into it? and then will's look of disgust at the theatrics? god. love that.

OH i forgot but it's later in s2b where they talk about children and both hannibal and will are teary eyed as they discuss abigail and hannibal says he wishes he could give her back to him? that. but also that part in s3b where hannibal tells will he gave him a child and then will gives him the bitchiest death glare ever? asldkjlasfas

i especially love that moment between abigail and will in the end of s1 where will admits to her that he liked killing her dad and abigail says that it feels good and will responds he felt powerful — it's arguably the one moment of truth we see between them that's not fabricated nor is it due to the fact that hannibal is pulling the strings between them and i...oh god...........them clasping each other's hands......

the entire church sequence in the last bit of s3. delicious. but i really love fromage both because of the orchestra but the fact that we get to see hannibal with the shutters come down and even though he's not killing as the chesapeake ripper, it's still so so so so elegant and controlled and so very different from him killing dolarhyde with will at the end where it's just. messy and brute force. in terms of hannibal and will, the entirety of the beginning of mizumono where they're in front of the fireplace and talking and hannibal genuinely looks so warm and human and fragile.........it's. well. it hurts me to look at it for too long.

um. all of rôti and relevés. hugh dancy should have gotten an award for that alone.

but also. you know what's actually my favorite scene? that scene in savoureux where hannibal is driving and it's raining and will graham is sleeping beside him — will who can't sleep and keeps himself from sleeping because he's scared and also his mind is genuinely slipping from him, trusts hannibal to awake him come any terror like a gallant knight. it destroys me. the trust. the intimacy. and hannibal, gazing back at him, like he can't help himself.

[scullysflannel]

hi :-) i saw you reblogged one set of the new show clarice (maybe there's been more but that's all i saw), and i was wondering if you watched it so far and what your thoughts are? i've been seeing bad reviews for it since before it premiered so that kinda put me off. i think a lot of them were comparing it to nbc hannibal and saying it doesn't stand up. i love hannibal, and the idea of this show intrigues me, too, but i haven't had a chance to try it out yet. but maybe it's not worth my time? i always like to hear your thoughts! thanks! <3

hey! I am bravely going on record and saying I Like Clarice, The Show Most Critics Hate. and I get it. I get that it’s a letdown for people who’ve spent 30 years loving silence of the lambs, a film I just watched (and also loved) for the first time last month, to see clarice starling at the center of what is basically a basic procedural. it’s definitely nothing like hannibal, which was also nominally a procedural; clarice (the series) isn't particularly inventive or transgressive. plus I was really hoping for an x-files season 1 aesthetic (it’s set in 1993) and it doesn’t get there.

and yet I already really like it, in a way that you can only like things when you’re being irrational. clarice activates the procedural comfort center of my brain. it’s better to approach it as a procedural that happens to already have a good main character; if you get bogged down thinking of all the ways they could have brought back clarice starling obviously you'll be disappointed. but as someone who liked hannibal but ran out of patience for the way it disposed of its female characters, liking clarice (the character) is enough for me to like clarice (the show) so far. I like that it’s got a smart, tiny, empathetic woman at its center. I love that she’s got that west virginia accent. (my grandparents are from west virginia. I really am not ruling out that the thrill of seeing a west virginia-ish accent on a cool character is responsible for at least half of my goodwill for this show.) and I like that the show has the confidence not to overplay what makes her cool; it’s just showing us what kind of person she is and assuming we already get it, as opposed to hitting us over the head like “she’s NICE!!!” it’s also refreshing to watch a show set in 1993 because people aren’t in front of 10 different screens all the time.

obviously there's a lot to keep an eye on. the first few episodes don’t do much with clarice’s friend ardelia, even though the producers have said doing the “’black best friend’ thing” would be “intolerable” to them. and I feel like so far the show is saying it’s not ignoring sexism but then kind of ignoring sexism, in the sense that clarice is always taken seriously in the end. that’s not true to the movie. I want to know the show’s worldview. you know right away in the x-files pilot that the government is shady and mulder and scully are not their friends. clarice thee series is pretty cynical about the government already (promising), but it’s not as clear about pitting the characters against it. which is fine; it’s only been a few episodes. shows have arcs. it’s just that right now some of what I like about it is really its potential more than what we’ve actually seen. but until it disappoints me I’m gonna keep liking it.

[creepweirdo]

omg thank you for the tag @hautdrpepper !! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

tag game okay this is awesome AHHHH post your 2 favourite episodes of 3 of your favourite shows and tag 6 people!!

this got me so excited !!! it was soooo hard to pick my top three 😭 (spoilers for the shows i guess 🧍🏼‍♀️🧍🏼‍♀️)

breaking bad omg this is my favourite show of all time!! i’m still not emotionally ready to rewatch it all yet! my favourite episodes are S1EP2 “cat’s in the bag...” (you know, the bathtub dissolving body and jesse/skyler confrontation 💀 it’s so funny) and S5EP6 “buyout” (the awkward dinner where walt, skyler, and jesse all have dinner together ❤️

the untamed lol i had to 🙈 the first episode is still so hilarious to me bc i had no idea what was going on BUT my favourite episodes are episode 2 (i think its episode 2 ahahah the lan wangji jiang cheng bitch off passive aggressive sitting at the restaurant) and episode 46 (THEE reveal 😳) !!! 

hannibal season two is so sexy but my favourite episodes are both from season three!!! they are S3EP6 “dolce” and S3EP7 “digestivo” - you know, sexy florence vibes... cutting wills head open... location jump to the usa... will biting that dudes face off... wills face nearly being cut off... mason dying... hannibal carrying will home... the break up... hannibal turning himself in LMAO it’s got EVERYTHING

tagging @highwarlockkareena @beefleef @thisisagaysonlyevent @sharkentine @roombagreyjoy @doctorfeathers @fruityumbrella @butchedyke @aloyssobek @lunarfuneral @goaltender @kevinhday

[ozymandiasdirge]

do you actually like any characters that aren't cas or is that just a bit you do for clout

yall send me the funniest shit i SWEAR to god. i am an adult with a job and you think i clout chase on tumblr. but i do deserve to clout chase because cas stans are objectively correct 🥰

comprehensive list of characters i who’s scenes i dont automatically skip through on netflix. this is definitve. if they aren’t here assume indifference.

jack!!! he is three and he in the wise words of tumblr user thatisahotsoup would in fact make pokemon real. son boy allowed. one day i will make andrew dabb and the entire cast answer for their crimes against him.

cas’s cats that he gets as compensation for 12 years of being undervalued by everyone on the show

misha collins as he exists in the french mistake universe

claire, kaia, alex, patience, jody, and donna deserved their own show and supernatural should have been cancelled to provide funding for it

dean when he isnt fucking around and finding out and testing my patience. we can have a discussion of the finer points of vonnegut after he atones for racist porn and the end of season 6 crimes.

any angel any time an angel is onscreen i cheer. i dont care how inane their storyline is it is automatically the most interesting. except lucifer. lucifer is only good when he’s played by misha and setting gay rights back by 50 years

anna is genuinely such a good character if she’d been allowed to be fleshed out.

gabriel is fun! him and cas’s relationship is fun! people arent freaks about it! i will never forgive you sabriels for what y’all did

charlie. she is a dudebro lesbian who unironically likes game of thrones and i do vibe with her and her terrible taste

benny’s hot greek girlfriend andrea

the version of jessica moore in my head who gets to be a real character with thought and care put into her

the chuck from season 5 and 11 who’s basically a rip off of kilgore trout 

belphegor fun

bobby!!!!!! rufus!!!!!! queer elders!!!!!!!!

missouri mosely 

cassie should have been dean’s love interest because they actually had chemistry unlike the absolute travesty of bad writing with ben and lisa

jo

ruby 2: electric boogaloo

dagon hot

garth

victor henriksen. rip king.

kali was genuinely fun and cool and of course they did her dirty.

billie

eileen!!!!!! absolute queen of hot girl shit

bela was fun

young mary with the other actress from 4x03 and 5x13′s end scene was so good in those two episodes.

that one cute psychic girl from season 2 who was a lesbian on hannibal

rowena, the only person who won season 15. is somehow the show’s second best mother behind jody. wild.

amara, once she stopped all that nasty shit and decided to just get massages and watch sex and the city re runs

kevin

crowley but only in the scenes where he’s the losing side of a love triangle

absolute chad thee biblical cain and colette

jimmy novak but only the version in my head who’s a closet case and marries a tax accountant in heaven after coming to terms with himself

literal hot girl cas and lily sunder

that one vampire in purgatory who called cas “your angel” while dean was singe handedly murdering his way through the place.

edit: i’m a dumbass i forgot adam. love that guy

[jakeabel]

i wanted to draw tonight but then i had thee worst cramps so instead i just watched like 3 episodes of hannibal back to back

[mifunebooty]

** 30 questions tag game**

Tagged by: @johnnysilverhand (hey, king)

Tagging: @queensboro @spencershawns @peehat @theocseason4 @whistlenotes @enceladanoceans @fuckindiva @jrpg

Rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you're contractually obligated to know better (i can't count to 20)

1. Name/Nickname: I go only by Cherry here

2. Gender: she/they

3. Star sign: libra sun gemini rising virgo moon scorpio mercury and libra venus

4. Height: 5'6

5. Time: 7:16 pm

6. Birthday: octubre 15th

7. Favorite bands: destiny's child, the beach boys, selena y los dinos, los bukis and rolling stones

8. Favorite solo artists: josé josé, fka twigs, megan thee stallion, renni rucci, rina sawayama, kate bush, shakira etc.

9. Song stuck in your head: sad day by fka twigs

10. Last movie: just sobbed to umbrellas de cherbourg 1964 :))))

11. Last show: just watched an episode of Lazos de Amor and i was too numb to rewatch Hannibal season 2 so. Im about to watch Frasier.

12. When i did create this blog: ironically April Fool's Day, 2015

13. What i post: my vibes! My opinions! Just movies, tv and some memes and actual serious posts, it's quite gemini over here

14. Last thing i googled: when was heart of glass released?

15. Other blogs: no

16. Do i get asks: yes but sometimes not enough!!!

17. Why i chose my url: this goes to my twitter url too..... I just love ass and tits xohmxoshsmzoshdkxodbdk i also love my mifune and his ass and tits too ✨✨✨

18. Following: uhhhh 553

19. Followers: 1,680

20. Average hours of sleep: 6-7 usually

21. Lucky number: 3!

22. Instruments: my heart

23. What im wearing: faded blue Texas shirt and red cardinal warmups

24. Dream job: writer so everybody can be subjected to my will over them. I want power

25. Dream trip: tbh i wanna see the rest of Latino America, i think Brazil looks so fun but i hope when i become fully a Mexican citizen, i can go to Cuba :)

26. Favorite food: salsa verde pollo enchiladas y arroz

27. Nationality: i dont identify as my nationality since i find Texas still Mexico but yes. I guess im American.

28. Favorite song: running up that hill by kate bush and uptown girl by billy joel!

29. Last book: open veins of latin america! Currently reading red dragon and 😔🔫

30. Top 3 fictional universes i wanna live in: i wanna live on the edge where Hannibal Lecter is on the loose with his bloody and beautiful Will Graham in the same timeline that Austin Powers is still a cult comedy classic as i study for class, i wanna live in the incredibles universe and twin peaks

[trans-snart]

❤ James' Top 15 of 2020 ❤

I feel like I only focused on two different things this year so I'm just lumping music/tv/movies together for this list in no real order:

Kylie Minogue's Disco: ahhHHH, she really pulled out all the stops for this one. The ABBA and Donna Summer samples... *chef's kiss*

The Chicks' Gaslighter: they're BAAAACK 🤠

Niall Horan's Heartbreak Weather: the titular song ended up being my #1 song of the year, so of course it deserves a mention

Megan Thee Stallion's Good News: BODY-ODY-ODY-ODY-ODY 🕺🕺🕺 I just love her so much.

Troye Sivan's In a Dream EP: I cannot resist gay angst I can dance to.

Carly Rae Jepsen's Dedicated Side B: SHE JUST KEEPS DELIVERIIING 🤯

Keiynan Lonsdale's Rainbow Boy: 🗣🎶AND THEY BE BITCHIN' 'BOUT THE HOMOS, 'CAUSE THEY GOT THE FOMO, BET THEY WANNA TASTE THE BUSSY SO GOOD🎶 BEST ALBUM OF THE YEAR, HANDS DOWN. Love of my LIFE with his debut album, PLEASE go listen.

Birds of Prey: the last movie I saw in theaters before quarantine 😔, had a blast and it made me gayer.

Doctor Who: I really enjoyed series 12! I adore the companions and Sacha Dhawan as The Master was a real treat.

The Baby-Sitters Club: a masterful modern update that perfectly maintained the nostalgia factor imho, and I cried during every episode.

CW DC shows (LoT/Black Lightning/The Flash): the crossover was a mess, but I overall really enjoyed the seasons for the individual shows, we had some sad goodbyes but also met a lot of new great characters so I'm calling it a win.

The Haunting of Bly Manor: the world finally got with the picture in regards to Rahul Kohli. also Owen and Hannah broke me 😭💔

Star Trek: Picard: I had a ton of fun with this season, we got six different Santiago Cabreras, Elnor, a satisfying end to Data's character, and canon gay Seven?! Very little complaints from me.

What We Do In The Shadows: this show just keeps killing it, I can't wait for what comes next for my main man, Guillermo.

The Old Guard: DUH, this movie took over my goddamn life and broke me out of a decade-long depression writing rut. I love this movie a normal amount, obviously.

Best Social Distance Events: Hannibal on Netflix, Spotify Wrapped & Subsequent 48-Hour Playlist with my wives, Supernatural Season 16 Chaos

❤🧡💛💚💙💜

[kiss-my-freckle]

3x10 Rewatch: ...And the Woman Clothed in Sun

Francis has me cracking up at the open, trying to deepen his voice to impress Hannibal when he calls him. Fixing the phone lines at the old office. He has no idea what happened there at 7:30 on many a night, and he has no idea what he's about to step between. Hannibal quotes The Tyger. "Did he who made the Lamb make thee?" Multiple conversations about acts of God and creations of. Bedelia and the lie she created to wiggle her way out of the situation she put herself in is paying off. "My journey to damnation began when I was swallowed by the beast." lmfao!! This entire conversation foreshadowing her finale scene. Another ugly face in the crowd. Jack, Alana, Chilton, Bedelia... all of them lying. "Will has not had his breakthrough yet." Breakthrough for Will, coming right up. Like Alana, she's doing what she must to keep herself alive. Will is hilarious too because he knows better than to buy it. "Suffering inside Hannibal Lecter's bowels for what must have felt like an eternity." He's there because he knows he's not strong enough to deny Hannibal. "I've seen enough of him." This ties in what Hannibal said to her earlier in the season. "I've taken off my person suit. I let them see enough." Ties in what Will said of his wife. "She's aware enough." And ties in what Francis said of Reba. "I shared with Reba a little, in a way that she could survive." Will's need to talk to her about Hannibal speaks to his weakness. He's getting personal with him through her. Francis takes Reba to see the tiger at the zoo. Quite sensual. Her fingers in the bottle as she pours their drinks... a close-up view of her wet fingers putting olives on a toothpick. Yeah... that's hot. The best way to play with your food. Someone should've taught Mason. Their sex scene is delicious. Like Will, he has a nightmare. Pearls becoming teeth, probably related to his grandmother. The Dragon with a gun in his hand, standing under the moon. He wakes alone, rushes out of bed and runs upstairs to stand before his Dragon god on display. He hears it growling, fights like hell to push him out of his head. Reba is ready to leave, and Francis certainly wants her to. He's afraid The Dragon will demand he hand her over.

Hannibal triggers the phone to make a call they wouldn't allow him to make otherwise. Speaking as an employee working at the office of Chilton's publisher, he orders a copy of Hannibal the Cannibal for Will. He wants him to read it. A close-up of his tongue licking the envelope for a card he sends to Bedelia. "He always includes a recipe." Will continues to foreshadow her finale scene. "If he does end up eating you, Bedelia, you'd have it coming." He's not kidding. As I said in a previous post, I do believe Hannibal refused to cross those boundaries with Will, having already told him he doesn't want to think about him anymore. "They are acceptable... to murderers and cannibals." The best of understanding. I love the double "And you" response. "You lied, Bedelia. You do that a lot. Why do you do that a lot?" She says she obfuscates to protect Hannibal as a patient, but it's not just about Hannibal, she has to keep herself off his dinner table. She had no problem informing them when she was granted immunity. Once claiming Hannibal was her psychiatrist, now claiming she was his. Everything to protect herself, like blaming Hannibal for the death of her patient. "Not the first time I've lost professional objectivity in a matter where Hannibal is concerned." His death was on her. She tells Will he's there visiting an old flame. I love how he's fooling himself, getting personal with Hannibal through her. Especially when she makes comments like that. "You couldn't save Hannibal. Do you think you can save this new one?" I don't know what makes her think Hannibal needed to be saved. And this is coming from the mouth that said, "Almost anything can be trained to resist its instinct." Almost anything. Harder to train what's been playing out in the wild for as long as he has. Able to influence? Sure, but it's not exact. Bedelia telling Will she wants to crush the vulnerable bird. She wouldn't crush it, but that would be her first thought. Same concept with the shepherd's dog. Doesn't savage the sheep even though it wants to. She thinks Hannibal led Will to believe he’s a killer. "You're capable of righteous violence because you are compassionate." Will asks how she's capable. "Extreme acts of cruelty require a high level of empathy. The next time you have an instinct to help someone, you might consider crushing them instead." No different than telling Will to savage the sheep even though he's trained to resist his instinct. It's whatever suits her, however she can save herself the trouble... wiggle out of situations she gets herself into. That's why it pisses her off when she becomes the vulnerable bird, her meat back on the menu. Compassion gives Will the desire to help. He'd kill Hobbs to protect Abigail. His empathy allows him the ability to understand and relate to anyone, including Hannibal. He admitted this in the pilot episode. Cut to another flashback as Bedelia crushes her vulnerable bird while he's choking on his own tongue. Deep-fisted his throat, then passed out. It looked... sexual.

A lucky sign screen-spin like the one they do with Francis and the moon. Will shows the tree marking to Hannibal. It acts as a double for The Great Red Dragon and the Chinese character. Back to that theme of luck. Will setting aside what Hannibal said, puts his focus on The Great Red Dragon, then searches his face for a response. Hannibal basically tells him to look for those few pieces of art, that's how he catches up with Francis for their first confrontation. Demonic sexuality. Will is fighting to figure out how he chooses his families, still doesn’t want to bother looking at the way he chooses his own. "I like this Dragon, Will. I don't think he's crazy at all. I think he may be quite sane." I love how this hits against Will, the look in his eyes. "Can't pass on those terrible traits you fear the most." Will walks into the museum as Francis is chowing down on the Blake Watercolor. His escort informs him he's the second person wanting to view it, so Will knows he’s there. Not sure why he stares at Francis as he does, perhaps looking for the reason he smashes mirrors - his disfigurement. Francis knows that he knows, so he throws him like a rag doll and takes off. I'm like damn... after three years out, this is the man you throw him up against? Will isn't built like Hannibal or trained like Jack. Still fun to watch.  

[judas-had-a-crown]

writer tag thingy

I’ve been miracously tagged by @wearemykingdom like eons ago, so let’s do this :P 1) is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?

Yes. More than one actually, but at the moment it’s my. Fucking. Goddamn. HUGE-ASS. Mount Olympus / Roman Empire Batman / Crossover Gotham x Arkham Games AU.

It has become so complex lately that I just can’t find the will to continue structuring the plot at the moment.

2) what work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing?

You really think I’d give you the means to search for it eh. But well, when we’re talking about English works (I have written more stories in my first language of course, so the ones in English are rather limited) it’s probably one of my earliest Hannigram fics. The theme is horrid because ao3 was so new to me back then including all the porn there and I was like “Hey, I can do this too! I want so many views as well!”

So I wrote a smut OS. And I despise it to this very day.

I’m not averse to smut in the least, but I didn’t like it mostly because it lacked a good plot, it lacked any kind of finesse, and, frankly, it also lacked dignity for both the characters. I also hate this OS in particular since I wrote it merely for the sake of gaining attention, I guess. I was a tag-along. You see, I don’t write smut too often, but when I do, I can’t help but try putting in a story which at least compliments the kinks.

Which reminds me, I should probably delete said shameful OS… but it is on my old account. Shit, need to search for the password.

3) what order do you write in? front of 📓 to back? chronological? favorite scenes first? something else?

Fucking mess. Usually, my ideas start with that one goddamn scene in my head and I scribble it down in mere desperation whereever I can. Then I search for a good song accompanying the general mood of the story and somehow work up to this very scene if I can get my ass in gear. So, I usually start at the beginning.

4) favorite character you’ve written

Hannibal Lecter and Will Graham. They have wonderfully complex psyches to play with.

5) character you were most surprised to end up writing to write?

Daryl Dixon and Rick Grimes - I don’t know anything about The Walking Dead, never watched one darn episode. It was a gift for a friend back then.

6) something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late/complicated to change now

I was much on the sappy and dramatic / sentimental side of prose for what seems like ages. I would stretch dialogue and thus doom it to become artificial in the long run. Purple prose is no bad thing, but I certainly overdid it more than once. Which is why I’m currently trying to keep my writing as true as possible.

I still love fancy words, but I need to find my own voice between the lines. And I need to finally figure out for whom I write in particular aka who I believe worth of being called ’my muse’… I already know the name of said creature, but I simply can’t decide about their appearance. Suprisingly, Persona 5 has given me great concepts to work with concerning this. I hope I’ll figure it out in time.

7) when asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

I do not like to tell people I write if they don’t write themselves. I’ve been having bad experiences otherwise, including family members as well as friends and strangers. Mostly, I have been ridiculed, laughed at or looked over with a furrowed brow.

The only time my writing was kind of acknowledged back in my youth when I would read essays and short stories we would sometimes be tasked with in school. My classmates were glad when I read my stuff, but let me just say… they were happier they didn’t have to read their stuff instead than anything else. 

8) favorite genre to write

Is “Give me thee pure and I’ll make thee cry and die” a genre ?

To be honest, I’m not sure which genre I usually write in. I think it’s tragedy / drama.

9) what, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

Listening to music is one go, watching amvs, Let’s Plays of Horror Games and movies plus reading books are the others. I also cry.

10) write in silence or with background noise? with people or alone?

@wearemykingdom I’m mostly with you on this one holy shit.

to quote her wise words : SILENCE. FUCKING SILENCE. I LOVE SILENCE. AND ALONE.

Alone indeed, I’m a sucker for solitude -> Solitaire - Marina & The Diamonds

The problem is, I have a problem concerning silence - it’s never enough silence. I have grown used to write on my laptop with in-ear headphones on the ready, but even the sound of the keys or my own breathing would disturb me. Since then I have tried to find in-ear headphones (I can’t wear on-ear headphones due to reasons I won’t explain further) which isolate me from literally anything but fuck, it’s hard to find them, not to mention how much some of them cost. I’m also no friend of bluetooth which makes it all the more difficult to find anything usable. *sigh* Currently - to drown out all the noise of the outside world - I try listening to classical music. Especially violines are soothing for me.

11) what aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

I have literally no ass clue.

12) your weaknesses as an author

I’m always busy with plotting things out, imagining scenes and stuff, but I’m often strangely scared of really WRITING IT DOWN. Also I often get bored in the middle of a story and tend to discard it. Also I have been doubting myself quite much lately which is annoying.

13) your strengths as an author

I have literally no ass clue. My writing style has changed dramatically since last year - it will take a while till it gains some consistency again.

14) do you make playlists for your current wips?

“I spend more time on making playlists than writing on my current wips these days” I declare in shame, with four youtube tabs open.

15) why did you start writing?

To find my voice. Also to finally shut down the other voices and people occupying my head.

16) are there any characters who haunt you?

My OCs who want to kick my ass for me outlining their stories - but little old me is still too afraid to write them down.

Oh, also Joker and Batman aka Batjokes. I run into so many new kinds of story takes on their relationship these days and each has its special charm, this isn’t funny anymore.

17) if you could give your fledgling author self any advice, what would it be?

Me: OH MY GOD STOP MAKING THEM TALK SO MUCH ADD SOME DESCRIPTION INSTEAD YOU DUMB POPTART

fledgling author self : *opens up another conversation about death and undying love with a crazed glint in her eyes*

Me:

18) were there any works you read that affected you so much that it influenced your writing style? what were they?

Perfume - The Story of a Murderer by Patrick Süskind. The descriptions are various and exquisite.

Duma Key, Lisey’s Story and many other novels of Stephen King. You, good Sir, ruined me and my standards concerning horror fiction.

The Book Thief by Markus Zusak. A special book with Death lending his perspective and word.

The Bartimaeus Sequence by Jonathan Stroud - So funny it made me laugh out more than once. Close to my heart.

19) when it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, ect.?

Miley: outlines, characters, development, timeline, ect.

John Travolta: Me

20) do you write in long sit-down sessions or in little spurts?

I used to write in long sit-down sessions but currently I’m having a hard with them. I’m happy with little spurts.

21) what do you think when you read over your older work?

22) are there any subjects that make you uncomfortable to write?

Not yet. Which reminds me, I should probably expand my field of writing themes.

23) any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

Besides always feeling like I don’t belong to anything or anybody like some weird E.T. shtick? Dunno.

24) have you ever become an expert on something you previously knew nothing about, in order to better a scene or a story?

I have never known so much about homosexuality and ransoming people sold into slavery in the times of the Roman empire than I do now. So yes, more than once. I want every detail as accurate as possible.

25) copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of

This isn’t short, because I am proud of this whole scene. Enjoy. ->

The fire is bright and hot and all-consuming as it licks across the doorframe and drags itself into the room with sharpened, yellow claws.

He might be blind, but the cackle of burning wood crawling closer to his position is a guess as sure as a man can get. He leans against the wall, fists numb, mind dazed by pain, flickers challenging the red-rimmed shadows behind his eyelids to join the dance. Why is he in pain again? He doesn’t know. The muscles in his legs are jelly, the flesh of his arms clad in stone. It feels more like his natural state to dwell in than anything else he has come in contact with in STEM yet which is impressive to realize if you think about it. But this isn’t STEM, is it? No. The fire came before they plugged him into this machine manufactured in hell. He tries to breathe in but can’t, not really, no matter how hard he tries; someone must have poured ice into his lungs. And why doesn’t this surprise him either? Everything seems to go the way it’s supposed to be.

He looks ahead and sees nothing but wary shapes taking form.

There stands Lily. And Lily screams, tears streaming down her cheeks like liquid glass. The fire catches her from behind and presses its lambent teeth into her hair, immediately going up in flames. Her skin bursts open und reveals tender muscle cords and bones which will never have the chance of growing out. They turn from white to pale yellow, from yellow to ocher, from ocher to a shade close to carbon black. He watches teary-eyed till her screams ring in his ears to the rhythm of his blaring heartbeat. What he called his daughter turns into a pile of ash and he could never put in words how much he despises himself for feeling relieved - if only for a moment, lost and uncared for - when the screaming dies down with her and fades into whimpers that are easily drowned out by the fire’s roar of triumph following behind.

When it turns its ugly orange head at him, jaw-grinding and repellently jubilant, he is as ready as one can be while they catch a beast’s eye. It teeters into his direction like a drunk whore that had their fill but are too far gone to realize it’s already over. He neither welcomes the plague nor shoos it away. And when it’s so close that its claws reach out to scratch the stubble on his chin, he couldn’t care less.

Being bathed in flames hurts less than he expected and more than his nightmares have ever dared to introduce him to. Heat engulfes him, the pain of thousand ant bites impaling his skin and rip through muscles and sinews. Thank fuck Lily had suffocated before she could feel this way… but no, she hadn’t, had she? Mobius took her. The charred corpse they found, the size of a child; four tiny fingers barely intact, the others scrunched to nothing. Myra and he had buried a forgery. Then she left and had made him live a forgery himself.

He only recognizes in passing that the ash started crawling up the floor and drapes over his sizzling bones. One could have called it a last act of consolation. A mercy he doesn’t deserve. The moulding ember is balm to his raw-burnt limbs, hovering over him, weaving a blanket of dead life upon his shoulders and his heaving back. He doesn’t struggle, nor does he think about getting up. He sits and pants and allows the dark remains of wood and flesh and cotton candy to encloak his body like a banshee offering her grave-cold kiss. The room has turned into furnace by now, the smell of his cooking flesh stuck in his nostrils. There is no end, no beginning, no remorse to deal with; only a hunger he is meant to satisfy but can’t. He just can’t do anything right, can he? The fire does not mind his inability. The fire is hungry, and Sebastian is easy prey.

Darkness, sweet as nectar, drinks him in. He lets it. Yet again I will torture tag @universallylightcherryblossom - (I’m sorry honey, but I don’t know too many writers here). Whoever reads this and wants to do it is more than welcome to feel tagged.