your tags abohtt friends falling in love…. yeah i’ve lost a number of male friends because of this and it’s like given me a bit of a complex??? i don’t want my being nice and friendly and excitement to be gaining a new friend be misconstrued as romantic interest? like no i’m genuinely just excited about this topic lol, and the number who have just stopped talking to me once they gain a partner hurts so much because like oh? you only saw my value as that this whole time. i feel like i have a very specific type too (looks not so much but the have to be cocky and cheeky and funny ig help me) and i really don’t feel romantic attraction all that often or at least as often as these fellas do so it’s just like? idk how to say it’s never going to happen lol,,, i also went to a party the other week and because i was the only single girl and was talking to the only other single lad people were going ‘ooooh you seem to be getting on’ and like yeah we are but not like that sorry, and felt uncomfortable the rest of the night, so like great !
sorry about the grammar and punctuation this was rlly stream of consciousness pmsl
I totally get you and have been through all the same things!! sorry that thing at the party happened to you, that is literally the worst!!! I've also been in those situations and it's always deeply uncomfortable, like I'm being a decent human being, not flirting.
on one hand I respect anybody shooting their shot lmao but it is also deepy frustrating when you repeatedly get asked on dates and confessed to because you were "just" being nice and maybe shared an interest with someone.
I also don't feel romantic attraction a lot and I have a specific type (both in personality and looks, my standards are crazy) so it is baffling how easily some guys go for it. when I was in uni I would get messages from guys who I had only briefly talked to. again, respect for asking, but where did you get the idea I would say yes?
for me I always feel like I get asked out by guys who have felt like they have been largely ignored by women in their life, and then when someone is friendly to them and maybe likes something they're into as well (video games, anime, dnd, etc) they get really excited about it, which I can sympathise with, but guy. maybe I just want to talk about video games with you. maybe I just want a friend.
my complex is definitely that I am quite pretty LMAO and sometimes I feel like that is all the guys see. there could be other girls who are also into all that nerdy shit, but I'm the conventionally pretty one. and then when I tell them no or they get a girlfriend, suddenly talking with me is not that interesting anymore. huh, look how that worked out.
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love on me || load era james hetfield, 18+
You're laying in you and your boyfriend's shared bed, watching a random TV show as you wait for him to get back home. You missed him more than anything right now, you haven't seen him in half a year now because of touring.
And it wasn't until 2 long hours later, after 6 whole months of being home alone, that he finally returned. Finally.
You hear his truck pull into the driveway before coming to a stop, the sound of his door slamming shut filling your ears. He opens the front door since you never locked it, and he kicks his boots off, quickly traveling through the house and upstairs to you guys' bedroom at almost the speed of light.
You look over from your spot on the bed, a grin tugging at the corners of James' lips as he sees you on the bed, impatiently waiting. Waiting for him. The grin is definitely cocky, but it's more soft and loving than anything. He missed his sweet, beautiful girl. He needed her too. He needed her badly. He shuffles over to the bed, leaning down to press a soft kiss to your lips.
You instantly sit up as he walks over to you, leaning your head up to eagerly return the kiss. You sigh softly at the familiar feeling of his soft, plump lips against yours for the first time in lord knows how long, and you murmur out between kisses, "Missed you s'much, James.."
"Missed you too, baby. God, I've missed you so much," He murmurs in response, gently pushing you back so you're laying down again, careful not to hurt you. You feel James climb on top of you, his elbows resting on either side of your head to hold himself up so he doesn't crush you. His hands cup your jaw gently, his lips still meeting yours in a series of soft, passionate, yet needy kisses.
You moan quietly against his lips, the sound ringing in his ears and making his cock grow hard and stiff in his jeans. His hands move down to find purchase on your hips, his knees the only thing keeping himself propped up.
His right hand dips down between your thighs, teasingly close to where you need it, but never even brushing your aching core. A shiver runs straight down your spine as James trails his lips down your neck after parting from the kiss, sucking and licking on the sensitive spot just beneath your ear. Your eyes flutter closed, your hand moving to grip his soft, short hair as his beard grazes the sensitive skin of your neck.
His hands slide under the waistband of your pajama pants, tugging them down to your knees. You push your pajama pants further down your legs, kicking them off your feet and watching as James pulls your soaked panties down as well, his eyes locking your wet pussy. He groans lightly at the sight, his eyes darkening with raw desire and love. His hands move to your knees to spread your legs wider before undoing his belt, making quick work to undo his uncomfortably tight jeans.
He shoves his jeans and boxers down in one swift motion, his rock hard cock springing free from its confines. A bead of precum leaks down his shaft, his hand reaching up to stroke himself a few times as he positions himself between your legs.
After a few teasing seconds of prodding your entrance with the head of his cock, he sinks himself into your tight heat, groaning softly as your walls stretch around him. Your hands move up to grip onto his, interlocking your fingers with his as your hands rest on either side of your head, your pussy stretching out around his thick cock and hugging it like a glove.
He holds your hands a little tighter, his breathing growing ragged as his eyes gaze over your face, searching for any signs of pain or discomfort
"Fuck, you feel so good, sweetheart.. missed this so bad.." He rambles on, leaning over your body and pressing his lips against your neck as he bottoms out inside of you, desperately fighting off the urge to pound you into the mattress at any given moment.
He wants to take his time with you, to have you all to himself after all these months without seeing you. Yeah, phone calls are a thing, but they weren't enough. He missed you more than anything, and he certainly missed being inside of you like this. He leans up and looks down into your eyes with his half-lidded one, his lips parted as he whispers softly, "Tell me when I can move, okay?"
You give him a small nod, and with that, he slowly starts moving his hips, thrusting in and out of you at a gentle pace. His thumbs brush over your knuckles soothingly as you whimper softly, the pain almost overpowering the pleasure.
"Easy, baby, I've got you. Takin' me so well," He praises softly, the words starting to put you at ease. The pain slowly fades away, being replaced with pure pleasure.
He continues his slow and steady thrusts in and out of you, leaning down to kiss you gently. You kiss him back, his hips meeting yours in a sensual grind, pushing himself deeper inside of you. The tip of his dick hits the spot inside of you that makes your head spin, and he picks up the pace slightly after watching your head loll to the side, a small moan escaping your parted lips. He grunts a little, his thrusts becoming slighter deeper as he holds your hands.
"Look so pretty like this, you know that? Being such a good girl for me," He mutters, not even caring if you're listening to him or not. But, to his luck, you were. His words make your cheeks flush red, a wave of arousal and desire coursing through your body as your eyes close.
You feel the knot in your stomach start to form, your orgasm already getting embarrassingly close as you moan softly, your body heating up and shuddering underneath him. He lets go of one of your hands, bringing his own hand down to rub circles against your clit.
Your back arches off the bed, hips twitching and muscles tensing as he rubs at your clit, a whimper leaving your mouth as your eyes shut tighter. "Oh fuck..." You breathe, your voice strained as you moan, your head falling back against the pillows.
James moans softly as your walls tighten around him, his cock throbbing inside of you, desperate for release. He picks up the pace, covering your neck in soft, gentle kisses, a contrast to his rough love-making.
"Fuck, I missed you so much, baby girl... never gonna leave you like that again.." He moans, his shaft twitching inside of you as he gets closer to orgasm. Your walls hug his dick tighter, a low groan escaping his throat.
His thrusts turn sloppy, his hand still rubbing at your clit. Your hips buck and twitch, your muscles tensing even more as you whimper.
"Cum for me, sweet girl," He murmurs, kissing your cheek as he thrusts harder into you, sending you over the edge. With a soft whine, your eyes roll back a little as you cum, your orgasm washing over you harder than ever. He grunts and moans, his breathing heavy and ragged as he cums as well, emptying himself deep inside of you.
It takes you two a few seconds to come down from your orgasms, but once you do, he pulls out of you slowly. He leans down, kissing you softly as he moves his hands down to rub your hips soothingly.
"Be right back," He whispers softly, and you just hum in response as he walks out of the room. About a minute later, he comes back with a warm, wet rag. He sits on the edge of the bed, spreading your legs gently before carefully starting to clean you off, being sure not to brush any sensitive areas.
Once he's done, he pulls his hand away, tossing the rag to the side before scooting in bed beside you, his arms wrapping around you protectively. His hand rubs your back gently as he plants a gentle kiss to your temple.
You rest your head on his chest, listening to the calming sound of his heartbeat as he rubs your back. You missed being in his arms like this, nothing else could calm you down as much as this did.
Your eyes flutter closed as he whispers, "Get some sleep, sweetie, I'll be right here when you wake up."
And with that, you slowly start falling asleep, your boyfriend drifting off as well once he's sure you're asleep.
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