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kanmom51 · 1 year ago

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JK Seven MV making sketch BTB

Yay, the subs are back on. And I got to watch it and even understand what he was saying, lol.

Loved it.

I was just sitting here for the 12 minutes with a huge smile on my face.

Because JK is just so adorable. So genuine. So real.

He had the time of his life, and seeing that just made me happy.

Now let's talk about a few thing I took from the BTB, why don't we?

I think I'll start from the fun and make my way to the more serious.

Not too much went on really. It's mostly him enjoying himself.

Being his own chaotic loveable self.

Trying to keep his eye open with the water pouring down on him, lol.

Can you imagine just how much fun this all was for him, our daredevil?

Funny, just thought about it, but they didn't even talk to Hun Sohee. Not a word. She might as well not have been there. Now I understand that JK is the focus, it's his song, BTBs are about the members, but at the same time, she's a well known and loved Korean actress acting in his MV and not only don't we get to hear from her even once, we also don't really get to see interactions between him and her in the BTB. In a way it feels like they are trying to keep this distance - this is JK, he's singing Seven, he's shooting a MV, but he's disconnected from it. I'm not sure I'm being clear enough here.

Ok, so for example JK explains what the scenes are and says the word girlfriend, god forbid. We know y/ns went into a frenzy over this stupidity. JK explaining the concept of the scene in which he's fighting with his gf, cause that's what the MV is about, and she's his gf in the bloody MV.

But maybe, knowing this fandom, they wanted to keep the delusion to a minimum, not to mention keep Sohee away from the crazy ass fans that are already harassing her by just keeping her off camera as much as possible. Idk, just found it interesting.

JK tells us a little about his acting, lol.

To all those that are still riding the scripted fanservice bandwagon, time to fucking get off it.

Omg, the way he disses Yoongi, he just LOVES to do that with Yoongi. Now I can kind of understand the "even at 60 years old jeon jungkook will be freaking annoying".🤣🤣

JK is wearing THE brand again. I'm telling you folks, JM made a huge online order for the two of them!!

He's just so precious, with this thing he has of checking out his hands, every single time it feels like it's the first time he's seen them, lol. The fascination he had from his water wrinkled fingers. So endearing.

Looks at them in amazement, shows everyone, then back to looking at them again all fascinated.

You'd think the man has never in his lifetime taken a long shower or had a bath or been in the damn swimming pool. Nah, lol. It's just one of those cute loveable oddities of his.

Did we notice the ASSets?

And I thought JM was in charge of that body part in the family.

Well, apparently the competition is on.

Has JK surpASSed JM?

Should we progrASS? Oopsy...progress?

And now I will take a moment to breathe.

I went looking for more pics from the BTB and came across this:

I don't know enough about the movie but do we know of any kind of connection to Jikook? Or this could be the directors tribute to the movie too. In any case it's a fun tribute.

Now for the heavy stuff, or not so heavy just a little more on the serious side.

I wrote a long ass brain fart of a post yesterday. And some of it is very relevant here too.

JK clearly sees the song as a love song. Period.

He did the explicit version for the fun of it (well and also probably because the America market loves a song with profanities in it). But for him it's the fun of not being restricted by the Kpop rules of engagement, the "don't swear because the song will be censored" and "don't swear because it's too adult" or whatever other reasons for it. He's having fun feeling more freedom, and that he's all grown up and can say fucking multiple times out loud.

But when it comes down to it, when asked about it directly, his answer was that he prefers the clean version. Because to him Seven is a love song, not one about the physical act alone. Yes, of course sex is part of it (the song lyrics are kind of loud), but sex is not even half of what loving someone is all about.

We saw JK talking about the love of his life while explaining about the song.

Him in the BTB about the death scene:

And at the end of the BTB explaining more:

And we also have what he said in the interview aired earlier today on Z100 radio.

The more we get of JK talking about the song the clearer and louder it becomes. I just wish people would only be listening to him.

Anyway, the man is beautiful.

Love him.

Not as much as the love of his life does though.

No competition there!!

#Jungkook #JK #JK Seven #JK Seven MV #JK Seven MV BTB

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mxbo · 4 months ago

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Me yapping about something that happened on TF2 today

I was playing casual TF2 with a friend now that there aren't as many bots (I SUCK like REAL BAD, so no way we're going to community servers, I would get OBLITERATED the second I stepped on one, also a lot of players on community servers dislike F2Ps for existing) and found a player who shares names with my light and it was really awesome

[ID: Meme recreating the interaction. There's me, my bestie, the random player we encountered and batman in the background because he was also there. My bestie says: “OMG! *redacted name*” and I reply: “Voice communication is not available for this account”]

(BTW, me and my bestie are not drawn with specific cosmetics, it's just our OC's/sonas dressed as the classes we were playing lol. Yes, he was pocketing me because I'm just THAT bad)

(BTWBTW, we didn't actually talk with them, just mentioned it in our private call because like it would be super weird to go “hey, you have my love's name”. Super creepy HASHSj. Worst case scenario, they wouldn't believe I actually have a partner and think I'm hitting on them or something. And women and people who pass as feminine because of username/voice already suffer enough on FPS games with people either insulting them or simping for them and not seeing them actual players but objects. Like I'm not risking (potentially) making their day worse ykwim)

Anyway, they had pink cosmetics and I think I shot a rocket at them at some point because I thought they were RED AHSA *insert video about the problem with team recognition*.

[ID: Screenshot of the random player with their name obviously censored not because of them, but because it would reveal my love's name and, like, I haven't consulted if I can just say it in a random Tumblr post AJSAHJ]

There was also a Soldier who had all the batman cosmetics and dominated me because of course JHS (they were super good at rocket jumping). I sadly didn't take a screenshot (THEY WERE SO FAST AND KILLED ME, I COULDN'T TAKE A SCREENSHOT) </3

Also, yeah, I'm a F2P until MY BESTIE DECIDES TO PAY FOR MY FRICKING PREMIUM UEYDEUEHR (hopefully this or next week).

Hate that I'm mute for the time being, tho. Because Valve thought not letting F2P accounts speak would solve the bot crisis for some reason some years ago. SPOILER: It didn't work, it just made the bots more difficult to identify and ruined the experience of a bunch of players (kids, people who can't pay for TF2 like me, and people who just play for fun and don't want to throw money at a corporation, which is completely valid). Thanks, Valve.

But also love the fact I own the title of worst TF2 F2P, like, that way nobody expects anything from me.

My steam profile backs this up btw

[ID: My user says “world's worst tf2 player” and my description “I suck at tf2 it's not even funny”. Also, my pfp is the spongebob crying meme edited to have my OC's hair and Soldier's helmet and says “I PROMISE I'LL DO BETTER” in the funny impact font]

I'm genuinely bad (reason why I play Soldier) BUT I HAVE SO MUCH FUN PLAYING TF2, I LOVE THIS GAME EVEN IF I GET KILLED EVERY X SECONDS (x being equal to the time I take to respawn).

I want to meet more noobs like me and play with them while on a Discord call and learn together (would also help me with my English, probably, if they're not hispanophone).

Or maybe even players who know what they're doing and teach me (but they need to have patience with me because I'm a SLOW learner and barely know how to WASD lmao, my spacial awareness in videogames is just like in real life: 0).

Someone interested? 🤨

No, Rom, nobody's interested, nobody cares LMAO, just go back to making userboxes and stamps and drawings and stuff

#rom's yapping #team fortress 2 #tf2

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metanarrates · 1 year ago

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What you wrote about letting the Poster in your mind die struck a cord in me. Lately when I'm writing I can't help but censor myself & add a tone of irony to it & lampshade cliches. Do you have any advice on how to write earnestly? Do you have any favorite media that is written with sincerity you would suggest?

my opinion is that if you're trying to cut out your own urges to be ironic and detached DURING the process of writing, you may end up overly scrutinizing your writing while it's happening, and that's usually what gets you too trapped in your own head to even get many words out. my advice is to simply let it happen in the first draft of whatever you come up with, and then have it be one of the things you look for while going over it in editing. ask yourself when you edit: am I saying what I actually want to say? am I being ironic for a reason, or is it because I don't know how to write anything else? can I try to do something less ironic? if I feel like I want to write something funny, can I come up with jokes that aren't "hey look at this cliche?"

above all else, when editing your own work, I find it valuable to think about whether this is the sort of story you really want to tell. if you feel passionate about it, why do you find it necessary to censor yourself? and if you find that you don't feel passionate about it, maybe you should restructure the work to make it more enjoyable to you. of course, not every scene in a story is fun to write, and not every moment of irony or lampshading is necessarily a bad thing. but if you find that irony is becoming a major habit in a work, it might be worth thinking about whether or not you're actually enjoying your own story.

as for the sincere media - most good media is very sincere! i actually think irony poisoning is the exception rather than the rule, though it is common enough in big blockbusters and the like that I do feel I have to complain about it. I would say most works I've read and enjoyed have been quite sincere. there's good stuff out there if you look.

that said, the works that come to my mind as being particularly upfront in their sincerity are:

mob psycho 100 - you've probably heard of this one. middle schooler with psychic powers and a severe case of emotional repression dispels a lot of ghosts with his con artist mentor and also figures out how to be a more well-adjusted person. mp100 has had a LOT of very eloquent reviews, so I won't say too much about it. it's just an extremely funny and shockingly emotionally resonant work.

witch hat atelier - absolutely gorgeous manga about a little girl who becomes an apprentice witch after discovering that magic is not exclusive to those who were born witches as she thought, but instead a teachable skill that has deliberately been kept in the hands of a few. the art in this is stellar, and its moments of horror are just as well-captured as its moments of gentleness. one of the themes of witch hat atelier is the beauty of art/magic and the joy an artist finds in its creation, and the artwork of the manga REALLY reinforces this theme. it's beautiful to look at and there's a quality of sincere love for both the work itself and its audience that suffuses the manga. though I will give a general tw for child harm - another major theme of the story is the responsibility adults, particularly teachers, have towards children, and this theme necessitates showing the ways that children can be harmed by teachers, as well as showing the ways that a good teacher can affect a child. it's very good!

omniscient reader's viewpoint: this one is LONG (over a million words) but is a great example of what I would call "post-cringe." a guy ends up seeing the events of his favorite fantasy-apocalypse action novel be recreated around him, and is determined to survive in this world where only he knows everything. one of the most charming things about orv, to me, is that the novel read by the main character is pretty obviously "cringe." it's a badly written escapist webnovel that is sometimes overly edgy, relies a lot on clichés, and can be very dense. the story points out sometimes how facts of the novel's world are kind of stupid or contrived. and yet, our protagonist loves that novel, and the story VERY much validates his love of it. despite him having at times a little bit of that ironic detachment towards the novel he loves, it's always clear that he thinks the cool monsters etc. are The Shit and that he is enthralled by the events playing out around him. the writing leans into how cool its setting and set pieces can be. hell, one of the big themes is how a story, no matter what kind of story it is, can mean everything to the reader who loves it. it's a good example of a work that can poke fun at its own clichés sometimes WHILE still loving those cliches and wanting the audience to enjoy those exact clichés.

again, there's a lot of good stuff out there! these are just my picks for having notable sincerity. if you read a lot, chances are that you will find a lot of great, earnest work. personally, I would recommend figuring out what genre you enjoy reading or watching, and then trying out some highly rated works in that genre. it's a great way to try out shit you haven't tried before! I would also recommend trying out stuff from 15 or more years ago, generally, if you're looking at more mainstream novels, movies, and TV series rather than specific genre fiction. the irony poisoning problem wasn't so prevalent then.

hope this helps!

edit: I FORGOT EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE. please watch eeaao, it's a deeply sincere and whimsical piece of art

#narrates #LONG post but here you go.#killing the Poster in your head can be a bit of an involved process #if you make the effort to be less detached & ironic in your self-expression the habit will eventually fade

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pikatrainer99 · 6 months ago

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This is probably my favorite of my drawings of my Trollsona and Branch's friendship

(Yes I draw the Trolls with paws now, I think it looks cuter, but my Trollsona is still the only one with a tail.)

My Trollsona is very childlike in nature (despite being a year older than Branch) which is why he looks terrified and is hiding behind Branch in this drawing (it's also because, y'know, being bullied relentlessly his whole life for being different from the other Pop Trolls, both in appearance and behaviors), and his tail is flicking around rapidly in distress, hence the blurred lines around it which are supposed to be indicating motion. His claws are out just in case, it's just pure instinct for him at this point in his life (I say "at this point in his life" because he didn't always have claws...his story is complicated 😅). This drawing also correctly (for once) shows his height compared to Branch's (and by extension Poppy's since she's barely taller than Branch) height. He's a bit taller in both body and hair height (it's not perspective, he is literally standing RIGHT behind Branch (he's way too freaked out to think about personal space at the moment, he doesn't wanna face his tormentors alone again and he doesn't realize how close he's standing to Branch because of how freaked out he is), with one of his feet positioned right beside Branch and his body slightly leaning out in that direction, so perspective BARELY comes into play here).

As for Branch himself, I went with his more grayish/desaturated color pallet since he desaturates often after regaining his colors in the first movie and this takes place a good amount after the events of the first movie. Again, his vest is NOT EASY to draw, but I tried my best (his ears actually gave me trouble this time too, it took forever to get the shape of his ears right). His arms and legs are spread out wide in a protective manner and he's telling the bullies that if they lay a paw on his best friend, they WILL be in trouble. These two are best friends who just GET each other because they went through similar things (being gray for years but for different reasons and different traumas), and I love drawing their friendship!

Hope you guys like the drawing! I've been nervous to post my Trollsona art these days for some reason...I don't know why but I just am...but now that I think about it, it's probably because it's all part of a long, complicated story that I don't feel like explaining much about because the story is NOT all cupcakes and rainbows whatsoever and it's also very VERY personal to me as it's based on my own life experiences. My Trollsona LITERALLY has my real name (which I'm never sharing btw, it's always gonna be censored or erased on all my art)...so yeah...it's personal stuff. With creative liberties taken, of course, because these are cute little magical Trolls, but still...personal stuff.

#dreamworks trolls #my trollsona #trolls branch #their friendship is so wholesome #this is my favorite drawing of their friendship so far out of all the ones i've done #pika's art #pika talks

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worstutfanonthingpoll · 1 year ago

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Hello haters!

Now if you know me you know I like two things:

HATING (and please don't call me an anti)

MAKING DISCORD SERVERS

So! I have decided to combine these two things

Now, some backstory:

(Spoiler warnings for Xtale)

Backstory~

I was coming back from holiday in Port U Gal (it was nice, other than the fact i burned to death a lot) and decided HEY! I DOWNLOADED THE LAST EPISODE OF XTALE TO WATCH ON THE PLANE! I SHOULD DO THAT!

Before this, I had slowly been dragging myself through xtale (adhd means i needed to spread it out). I liked it, other than the fact I had no idea what was going on 30% of the time. Anyway.

So I watched Xtale episode the last, and suddenly Sans was relevant despite only having about two speaking roles beforehand. And suddenly he and CharaFrisk were claiming to be besties. And suddenly FriskChara tried to make him kill them bc... it would force XGaster into reseting, weakening him (i think).

All of a sudden everyone's memories were back and they were about to kick XGaster's ass. WONDERFUL, thought me. THIS CUNT'S HAD IT COMING FOR TEN EPISODES. But then GUESS WHO SUDDENLY DEVELOPS MARY SUE SUPERPOWERS AND DESTROYS THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE, BECAUSE... I genuinely do not know.

Did he feel CharaFrisk betrayed him by overwriting him? Maybe, but I think their actions were justified. They didn't see any other way out and they genuinely thought sans would be willing to help bc theyre besties for some reason.

Did he feel for Gaster bc he raised him? Valid enough, but if that's the case why did Papyrus (who was also raised by XGaster), Mr Spare a Genocidal Maniac, join the Gaster torture?

And again, WHY WAS HE THAT OP? There is no explanation for where those powers came from and I think that it is ridiculous he destroyed everyone and everything with full control over his powers, and then had the gall to wail about it. Like dude. No one was forcing you to do that?? Jeez.

And then Ink, who somehow failed to notice the Ten Variations of Hell Gaster created despite multiversal watch being his LITERAL JOB, comes in like. Oh! Hi sans variant in a destroyed universe! You're invited to the main plotline now! ;D

Wow.

Nothing against Ink, but according to the poll runner server, Ink's inaction is kind of a thing that happens a lot in Underverse. Rip.

End of Backstory~

(Please don't hate on me if you like Cr#ss. If you are a fan of him, good on you! Enjoy the pleathora of fanon content, and feel free to block me. Just no hate pls)

To sum it up, I think Cr○ss Sans sucks but there is nothing on tumblr or ao3 or anywhere agreeing with me

So! I am starting a Cr♡ss Hate Club™ where we complain about him and make that hater content we've been craving, including shipping him with TECtale Sans (an oc of mine who is kind of the worst) and creating the "Cr□ss Sans is a Jerk" tag on ao3 (if swapfell sans gets one, SO DOES CR%SS)

The hate club will be a discord server, the link to which doesn't even exist yet. This is mostly a post to see if people are interested. If not, and I'm right about everyone's undying love for him then that's okay! I'll delete the post and move on with my life.

If you're interested but fear hate, feel free to dm me. But if anyone dms to yell at me for not liking Cr0ss, you're getting blocked.

And remember:

Me saying I don't like someone or something doesn't mean I'm saying you're not allowed to enjoy it, because guess what? People are allowed to have opinions! If he is your fave, good for you! Just please please don't send me hate.

Hell, send me Cr☆ss centered fics that portray him positively if you like, its good for me to broaden my horizons and shit. Also I like the Nightmare's gang found family stuff lol.

Yeah that's pretty much it. Will censor Cr◇ss's name so it doesn't come up when searched.

@inksans-unofficial @worstutcanonthingpoll

#worst ut fanon thing poll #undertale #undertale aus #bashing #cr*ss s*ns #sans hate #would that count?#eh who knows #anti sans #that also???#idk man

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stackthedeck · 2 years ago

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What are your thoughts on Ao3 as a whole? I am having a moral dilemma because it's great for tagging, a lot of my favorite creators use it, and it's better than Wattpad, but it also has some truly immoral shit that the site staff isn't doing anything about (like having to dodge past explicit underage mcu peter/adult tony)

I love this ask, thank you so much for sending it, but my answer is going to upset everyone. Like all my opinions on internet discourse, my answer can't be reduced to a pro and anti binary. The issue is complicated and nuanced. The ao3 is better than everything that came before it but it still has a lot of things I would like to see improved upon in the future.

TL; DR: The ao3 is born out of censorship in fandom and so is a free speech maximalist, it's an archive stop treating it like social media, I don't give a shit about the weird porn once you start censoring that you're going to censor art that is important, the real problem is the hate speech that thrives on that platform and it's weird that the conversation has been reduced to shipping discourse

So I have experience with every major fandom platform: Ao3 (obviously), Wattpad, Fanfiction.net, tumblr, and even live journal briefly although I never wrote or posted anything, just lurked. The thing about ao3 is that it is born out of a history of censorship. FF.net used to have these purges, your work would just be gone one day and it was usually explicit stuff and queer stuff which sucks and is obviously bigoted. But the purges happened to make the website more advisor friendly. I do not believe in censorship and I certainly don't believe in censorship for the sake of profit. Before there was ff.net there were fanfic websites that were fandom-specific, usually password protected and invite-only, and heavily moderated. It used to be very hard for fans to get their work out into the world. So the ao3 was born with a very explicit free-speech maximalist approach, post whatever you want we won't stop you. And I totally get that and I believe in this model. But unlike a lot of these older websites, ao3 has an intensive policy of positivity that seems to be completely accidental. No one comments meaningful constructive criticism much less calls out bigotry. Freedom of speech should protect you from the government and coporations (because I don't give a shit what the supreme court says they are not people) not from other citizens. You say some dumb shit, I'm going to tell you it's dumb shit.

okay so that's why ao3 is like that, but what are some pros of the website:

it's an archive. It doesn't have an algorithm, it has a filtering and tagging system and a really good one!! God do I wish my academic databases were half as good as ao3. This is another reason it doesn't censor content, it's more about preserving fandom than curating it. It's up to you to comb through the archive and decide what you want to read.

it's not a social media site! Like it is so rare for something online to not be controlled by an algorithm. I like that I have real and genuine control over what I read. I hate the way Wattpad has made fanfic into social media. The setup of it is so bad for critical engagement. Like you really really have to try to get any sort of meaningful feedback and what you post gets buried within an hour, god I hate Wattpad, and its stolen art and stories

it's a non-profit. FF.net ran ads. Wattpad runs ads and is selling your stories whether you like it or not. It's gross, it's terrible, and it's legally dangerous for fanworks. AND CREATORS DON'T SEE A PENNY OF THAT AD REVENUE! Yes, the ao3 takes donations but how that money is spent is public information.

it has a legal team. You don't have to worry about being sued anymore (I hope Anne Rice is spinning in her grave) and it's doing amazing work in expanding the power of copyright (seriously I had to study one of their cases for one of my poli-sci classes). the OTW is more than the ao3, it's also a field of scholarship, they have published a lot of great articles about fandom history and culture

okay now the cons

it is a monopoly. I use that term loosely because again it's a non-profit and I think the fact that it is only the half-decent fanfic website is a pure accident and the fact that they're the best at what they do. FF.net has been dying for years, Wattpad is terrible in every way, and every social media site has a word limit except for tumblr which whether we like it or not is dying and hostile to fan creators BECAUSE PEOPLE DON'T REBLOG THINGS. If you don't like the ao3 you basically have to stop writing fanfic

because it's an archive, and it's hard to interact with people. Yeah you have comments and kudos but there's no messaging system, you can't make friends on ao3

there's no blocking system or built-in permanent moderation system. I don't want to see content that's triggering or even mildly upsetting so I have to remind myself of it while I manually filter it out of my searches

there's genuine hate speech on that website and I don't think it deserves to be preserved as fandom history, especially with the same weight as other fanworks.

Like here's the meat of the question. "There's weird porn and bad ships on the ao3!" I don't give a shit. There's always going to be weird shit on the internet, sorry people are freaks and there's nothing you can do to stop them. don't like don't read. one of my favorite works on the ao3 has non-con, like a lot of non-con, and it is genuinely one of my favorite works of literature. But I'm using my critical thinking skills to understand that it is a horror story, brutal chest-bursting horror, not a romance. I read the story, I liked it, and I still believe that rape is bad, in fact, that has been cemented in my brain. I read Jane Eyre and I don't think women should be locked in the attic for being mentally unwell. The Great Gatsby is my favorite novel and I hate America and capitalism. I love Fahrenheit 451 and I don't believe in book burnings. Dark stories deserve to be told no matter what. It is up to you to decide if they have value and meaning. And guess what I despise Peter Parker/Tony Stark as a ship, but it still deserves to exist because it's not hurting anyone. Like it's ship discourse, it doesn't matter. This "think of the children, bad things can't exist" mindset isn't helpful. Like this is the mindset that conservatives bring to the don't say gay bills. From literary studies, education, and political science perspectives this mindset is dangerous. You can not say that art isn't allowed to exist because you personally find it distasteful because that is a flexible line. First, we're purging everything underage off ao3 (sure we've removed Starker, but also all the works that unpacked Peter's trauma around Skip Westcott) then it's everything incestuous, and then it's every kink you don't like, and shit we're back at the ff.net mentality.

but there's a big difference between ships you don't like and hate speech. Fandom has a racism problem and I have seen some genuinely terrible fics that treat characters of color terribly and not in a way that explores and unpacks racism, but in a racist way. There are works on the ao3 of Steve Rogers lynching Sam Wilson. Those works don't exist to add depth to Sam's character, they exist to make fans of color uncomfortable. THIS IS WHAT THE CONVERSATION SHOULD BE ABOUT! the ao3 has said that they don't want to draw a line because it's a slippery slope. And my stance is no, it's not. The line we draw is hate speech, feel like that should be obvious. People aren't writing underage ships to make children in fandom feel uncomfortable, they're doing it because the shipping options are limited, they think it's hot, they want to explore a trauma they lived through, they want to help someone else unpack their trauma, they are a child who feels mature for their age and has a crush on the older character etc. This is a non-issue. if underage stuff bothers you so much, go to your local library and demand they burn their copies of Lolita. The amount of impact a fanwork has is microscopic to culture as a whole. But fans of color routinely speak out about how fandom is not an inclusive space for them and it's bullshit that the ao3 won't stand up for them or even give them tools to make their fandom spaces safer.

#asks #fandom meta #ao3 discourse #like yes i have problems with the ao3 so many problems #but the solution isn't censorship #and also where else are we going to post fanfic?#i wish there were other options #but i don't want a social media site and I don't want that moderated web form bullshit

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absolutebl · 3 years ago

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So I'm kind of late to the live action section of this all and now there is quite the to-watch backlog (just recently hit over three digits), and I am already finding myself stuck in the Paradox of Choice an increasing amount of times. Unfortunately, I haven't even watched enough for a "stick to the known" pattern, so currently is just the "freeze" one each time. Should one go for the ones of the best of best lists? But then everything middling would look worse afterwards? Do the opposite, but maybe interest will wear out before the proper good stuff is reached? Go for what tropes you like? Have I even established any favorite tropes? Get the bad hair training done already? Just roll a dice or something?

Then it occurred to me: Maybe in case of doubt, just go historically! That probably would be a little bit like getting the same experience as people who were right there at the time things got out. But obviously, going by date also means treading the minefield of the early stuff. And even with going backwards newer releases also still have stink bombs.

So I was wondering, would your big spreadsheet maybe be willing to supply a list sorted by date with a simple note of your usual "not recommended" to "highly recommended" markers?

First off, here's the foundations 101 course thingy, if you like? If you want to simply understand BL these are the ones I rec watching first, and in this order.

BL Foundations Syllabus Master Post AKA BL 101 Film Course - An Introduction to the Genre

So I was wondering, would your big spreadsheet maybe be willing to supply a list sorted by date with a simple note of your usual "not recommended" to "highly recommended" markers?

The *WHOLE* spreadsheet? That's a lot.

Sure, why not.

RATING SYSTEM

Now, my rating system isn’t necessarily how much I personally liked it, although it is sometimes. It’s how much I feel like it satisfied the demands of BL, story structure, and filming. For example Love Sick is one of my favorite BLs, but it is a hot mess, so it only got an 7/10. I do demand an HEA though, so if characters are killed or separated at the end, it detrimentally impacts the rating.

10/10 - highly recommended: faithful to tropes, happy ending, good chemistry, few flaws, high rewatch potential

9/10 - absolutely recommended: probably a few pacing issues or one flaw

8/10 - recommended: some concerns around tropes (like dub con) or story structure but still satisfies as BL

7/10 - recommended with reservations: i.e. isn’t quite BL, convoluted, not strictly HEA, too short/long, or serious chemistry issues

6/10 - worth watching but seriously flawed: probably around the ending or in narrative structure/cohesion or censorship

5/10 - watch it if you have nothing better to do: but don’t expect much, it’s a total hot mess

4/10 - fatally flawed; censored beyond recognition: but still basically BL, however... do we want to support this kind of behavior?

3/10 - I don’t know what I’m watching: and neither does it

2/10 - it’s depressing: they killed the gay, save yourself

1/10 - It’s awful, don’t waste your time: I watched it so you don’t have to

DNF - sometimes because it’s that bad, sometimes I just lost interest or access, sometimes for deeply personal reasons it wigged me out

THE LIST

This won't look pretty in Tumblr's code but here it is, sorted by year, then rating (out of 10), then country of origin.

This list dated April 21, 2022. No plans to keep this post updated.

I put it behind a read more because occasionally I am a nice person. Don’t get used to it.

2006 Eternal Summer Eternal Summers Taiwan 2 2006 Boys Love compilation Japan 1 2006 No Regrets Korea 1 2007 Takumi-kun 1 And The Spring Breeze Whispers Japan 5 2007 Itsuka no Kimi e Japan 5 2007 Boys Love: The Movie Boys Love 2 AKA Schoolboy Crush Japan 2 2007 Love of Siam Thai 2 2008 Ai no Kotodama Japan 5 2008 Melody of Our Love Bokura no Ai no Kanade Japan 3 2008 Gymnasium Baby Taiikukan Baby Japan 3 2008 Asymmetry Japan 2 2008 Forbidden Love Japan 2 2008 A Frozen Flower Korea 1 2009 Just Friends? Chingu Sai? Korea 8 2009 Takumi-kun 2 Rainbow Colored Glass Japan 5 2010 Ai no Kotodama 2: Sekai no Hate Made Japan 6 2010 Junjou Pure Heart Japan 6 2010 Takumi-kun 3 The Beauty of Detail Japan 5 2010 Takumi-kun 4 Pure Japan 4 2010 Love, 100℃ Korea 1 2011 Takumi-kun 1 DaiMao Version Japan 6 2011 Takumi-kun 5 That, Sunny Blue Sky Japan 5 2011 Nabang Spark Korea 4 2012 Suddenly Last Summer Korea 5 2012 Two Weddings and a Funeral Korea 5 2012 Fujimi Orchestra Japan 3 2012 Pair of Love Taiwan 3 2012 From Here to There Hong Kong 2 2012 Going South Korea 2 2013 Something, Crunchy Crunchy Korea dnf 2013 Love Place: Shiawase no Katachi Shape of Happiness 2 Japan 4 2013 Love Place: Hakanaki Kata Omoi - Gaiya no Koi Shape of Happiness 1 Japan 3 2013 Timeline Thai 3 2013 Love Next Door 1 Thai 2 2014 Love Sick Thai 7 2014 Like Love 1 I Love You As A Man: Part 1 China 5 2014 Docchi Mo Docchi Same Difference Japan 5 2014 No Touching At All Doushitemo Furetakunai Japan 5 2014 100 Apples Taiwan 4 2014 Love Next Door 2 Thai 4 2014 Coming Out Kamingu Auto Japan 3 2014 Geography Lessons Lisyun qng Geografia Pinoy 3 2014 For Love, We Can Hong Kong 2 2014 So Refreshed! Korea 2 2014 My Bromance the movie Thai 2 2014 Night Flight Korea 1 2014 I'm Horny Now! Korea 1 2014 Some Korea 1 2014 Diary of Heong Yeong Dang Drama Festival 2014: The Diary of Heong Yeong Dang Korea 1 2015 Seven Days Monday-Thursday, Firday-Sunday Japan 10 2015 Candy and Kiss Japan 7 2015 Love Sick 2 Thai 7 2015 Wait For Me at Udagawachou Udagawachou de Matteteyo Japan 5 2015 The Lover BL Cut Korea 5 2015 Open Korea 4 2015 Weird Housemates Korea 4 2015 Falling in Love with a Rival Counterattack China 3 2015 Mr. X and I Us Against the World China 3 2015 Love Love You Thai 3 2015 Like Love 2 Nobody Knows But Me China 2 2015 I Go To School Not By Bus Hong Kong 2 2015 Forever Summer Japan 2 2015 Water Boyy the movie Thai 2 2015 Feel Good to Say Goodbye Thai 2 2015 Same Same Is Not The Same Thai 2 2015 A Naked Boy Korea 1 2015 Red Wine in the Dark Night Thai 1 2016 Addicted Heroin China 8 2016 SOTUS Thai 8 2016 Puppy Honey BL Cut Thai 8 2016 Make it Right Thai 7 2016 Irresistible Love 2 Uncontrolled Love China 6 2016 Friend or Lover Taiwan 6 2016 Fanatic Love China 5 2016 Irresistible Love Secret of the Valet China 5 2016 4 Days Pinoy 5 2016 The Right Man Because I Love You Thai 5 2016 My Eleventh Brother Korea 4 2016 Queer Beauty Oppressive Love China 3 2016 Ghost Boyfriend 1 China 2 2016 Jealousy is My Guest Korea 2 2016 Gray Thai 2 2016 Sweet Student Boy Sweet Boy Thai 2 2016 The Male Queen Han Zi Gao China 1 2016 Lost Love China 1 2016 A Round Trip to Love China 1 2016 He's Out There Somewhere Taiwan 1 2016 Grey Rainbow Views of Love Thai 1 2016 My Bromance the series Thai 1 2017 Customized Companion China dnf 2017 Glass Heart China dnf 2017 HIStory Obsessed Taiwan 8 2017 Puppy Honey2 BL Cut Thai 8 2017 SOTUS S Thai 8 2017 Silhouette of Your Voice Hidamari ga Kikoeru Japan 7 2017 Long Time No See Strongberry Korea 7 2017 Red Balloon Taiwan 7 2017 Make it Right 2 Thai 7 2017 Legend of Long Yang Rebirth China 6 2017 HIStory My Hero Taiwan 6 2017 HIStory Stay Away From Me Taiwan 6 2017 2 Moons the series Thai 6 2017 Together with Me Thai 6 2017 My Dear Loser Edge of 17 Thai 6 2017 Mr. CEO is Falling in Love with Him China 5 2017 Advance Bravely China 5 2017 His Cat His Cat Boyfriend China 5 2017 Till Death Tear Us Apart In This Case A Pleasant Lifetime Alone, Love is in a Blaze China 5 2017 We Are Gamily Taiwan 5 2017 Faded Taiwan 5 2017 Free Bird Korea 4 2017 Secret Spectacles Strongberry Korea 4 2017 The Fairy Fox China 3 2017 Beloved Enemy China 3 2017 Dark Blue and Moonlight Taiwan 3 2017 Waterboyy the series Thai 3 2017 I Am Your King 1 Thai 3 2017 Ghost Boyfriend 2 China 2 2017 Swinging Blossom China 2 2017 Love is Not Easy to Have Rare Love China 2 2017 Double Mints Japan 2 2017 Tilted Summer Korea 2 2017 Method Korea 2 2017 Tropical Night Korea 2 2017 Present Perfect Thai 2 2017 I Love You Thai 2 2017 My Sky BẦU TRỜI CỦA KHÁNH Vietnam 2 2017 Find You In The Crowd compilation China 1 2017 The Boy Next Door Korea 1 2018 HIStory 2 Crossing the Line Taiwan 9 2018 Some More Strongberry Korea 8 2018 HIStory 2 Right or Wrong Taiwan 8 2018 SOTUS Our Skyy Thai 8 2018 Love By Chance Thai 8 2018 Kiss Me Again PeteKao Thai 8 2018 Step For You Strongberry Korea 7 2018 Guardian China 6 2018 River Knows Fish Heart China 6 2018 Ossan's Love original Japan 6 2018 Being Me Korea 6 2018 My Pistachio Strongberry Korea 6 2018 My Tee Cause You're My Boy Thai 6 2018 Does the Flower Bloom? Japan 5 2018 Summerdaze Stay Away From Me Korea 5 2018 PickRome Our Skyy Puppy Honey Thai 5 2018 InnSun Our Skyy My Dear Loser Thai 5 2018 PeteKao Our Skyy Dark Blue Kiss Thai 5 2018 TeeMork Our Skyy My Tee Thai 5 2018 You Had Me At Hello Thai 5 2018 The Ring Goes Missing Vietnam 5 2018 S.C.I. Hong Kong 4 2018 Table Manner Strongberry Korea 4 2018 Pornographer The Novelist Japan 3 2018 Together with Me the next chapter Thai 3 2018 My Dream Thai 3 2018 Ghost Boyfriend 3 China 2 2018 Past Youth China 2 2018 What the Duck Thai 2 2018 In Between Seasons Korea 1 2019 The Teacher Taiwan dnf 2019 Until We Meet Again The Red Thread Thai 10 2019 He's Coming to Me Thai 9 2019 Theory of Love Thai 8 2019 TharnType Thai 8 2019 Dark Blue Kiss Thai 8 2019 HIStory 3 Trapped Taiwan 7 2019 3 Will Be Free Thai 7 2019 2 Moons 2 Thai 7 2019 What Did You Eat Yesterday? Kinou Nani Tabeta? Japan 6 2019 As if You Whisper Strongberry Korea 6 2019 Sonnet 18 Korea 6 2019 Great Men Academy Thai 6 2019 My Personal Trainer Strongberry Korea 5 2019 One Last Order Korea 5 2019 With Love the series Thai 5 2019 Good Loser 2 parts Thai 5 2019 Hey! First Love AKA My Sky Dam My hoc Doung Vietnam 5 2019 Mermaid's Jade China 4 2019 Broken Youth China 4 2019 Athlete Japan 4 2019 His I Didn't Think I Would Fall In Love Japan 3 2019 Mood Indigo Pornographer series Japan 3 2019 Bro and Me Bro & Me Taiwan 3 2019 Departure Taiwan 3 2019 2 Wish the series Thai 3 2019 Make it Live on the bEach Make It Live: On The Beach Thai 3 2019 I Am Your King 2 Thai 3 2019 Before I Love You 3 parts Thai 3 2019 Love Poison Thai 3 2019 Reminders Thai 3 2019 Goodbye Mother Thua Me Con D Vietnam 3 2019 The Shortest Distance is Round (Blanc) Saitankyori wa Mawari Kudokute Japan 2 2019 HIStory 3 Make Our Days Count Taiwan 2 2019 The Best Twins Thai 2 2019 The Effect Thai 2 2019 The Shortest Distance is Round (Noir) Saitankyori wa Mawari Kudokute Japan 1 2019 Dew the Movie Thai 1 2020 The Shore Pinoy dnf 2020 Amore Pinoy dnf 2020 In Between Sa Pagitan ng Kamusta at Paalam Pinoy dnf 2020 I Told The Sunset About You Thai dnf 2020 Ghost Runner Thai dnf 2020 Cherry Magic 30 Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard AKA 30-sai made Dotei Da to Mahotsukai ni Nareru rashii Japan 9 2020 Wish You Your Melody in My Heart Korea 9 2020 Gameboys the series Pinoy 9 2020 Oxygen the series Thai 9 2020 Restart After Come Back Home Risutato wa tadaima no ato de Japan 8 2020 Where Your Eyes Linger Korea 8 2020 Like In The movies Gaya Sa Pelikula Pinoy 8 2020 My Day the series Pinoy 8 2020 Still 2gether Thai 8 2020 Why R U? Thai 8 2020 2gether Thai 8 2020 Life: Love on the Line Life Senjou no Bokura Japan 7 2020 Mr. Heart mr heart Korea 7 2020 Private Lessons Strongberry Korea 7 2020 Because of You Taiwan 7 2020 Ingredients the series Thai 7 2020 My Engineer Thai 7 2020 Theory of Love special Thai 7 2020 En of Love Love Mechanics Thai 7 2020 The Untamed Special Edition China 6 2020 His the movie Japan 6 2020 The Boy Foretold by the Stars Pinoy 6 2020 Present Still Perfect Thai 6 2020 Love By Chance 2 A Chance at Love Thai 6 2020 My Gear and Your Gown Thai 6 2020 En of Love Tossera Thai 6 2020 En of Love This is Love Story Thai 6 2020 Stage of Love Vietnam 6 2020 Love Stage!! Rabu Suteiji Japan 5 2020 Secret Roommate Strongberry Korea 5 2020 Win Jaime's Heart Pinoy 5 2020 Meet Me Outside Pinoy 5 2020 Craving You Taiwan 5 2020 TharnType 2 Seven Years of Love Thai 5 2020 Location Thai 5 2020 YYY the series Thai 5 2020 So Much In Love Thai 5 2020 Friend Forever Thai 5 2020 Sea Him TienTai universe Vietnam 5 2020 Tien Bromance EXTRA Vietnam 5 2020 Capture Lover China 4 2020 Precise Shot China 4 2020 Sei no Gekiyaku Dangerous Drugs of Sex Japan 4 2020 Night of Love Thai 4 2020 Youth in the Breeze People of the Skyy China 3 2020 Our Memory Taiwan 3 2020 The Moment Thai 3 2020 YYY Special Thai 3 2020 The Cornered Mouse Dreams of Cheese Kyuso wa Chizu no Yume wo Miru Japan 2 2020 Your Name Engraved Herein Taiwan 2 2020 The Shortest Distance 3: Fallen Flowers Saitankyori Wa Mawari Kudokute: Rakka Ryūsui Japan 1 2020 The Shortest Distance is Round 2 : Rain and Soda Saitankyori wa Mawari Kudokute: Ame to Soda Mizu Japan 1 2020 Tien Bromance Vietnam 1 2021 On his Turf On My Turf Korea dnf 2021 Jack & Jill Pinoy dnf 2021 Stuck on You Pinoy dnf 2021 Love is the series Pinoy dnf 2021 Hidden Love Thai dnf 2021 My Boy Thai dnf 2021 I Promised You the Moon I Told Sunset About You Thai dnf 2021 Country Boy Thai dnf 2021 Call it What You Want Thai dnf 2021 Call it What You Want 2 Thai dnf 2021 Love Poison 2 Thai dnf 2021 Zettai BL ni Naru Sekai VS Zettai BL ni Naritakunai Otoko Absolute BL A Man Who Defies The World of BL. Japan 10 2021 To My Star Korea 10 2021 Color Rush Korea 10 2021 Light On Me Korea 10 2021 We Best Love Fighting Mr. 2nd Taiwan 10 2021 We Best Love No. 1 For You Taiwan 10 2021 Utsukushii Kare My Beautiful Man Japan 9 2021 A First Love Story Strongberry Korea 9 2021 Nobleman Ryu's Wedding Korea 9 2021 Be Loved In House I Do Taiwan 9 2021 Love is Science? BL Cut Taiwan 9 2021 Lovely Writer Thai 9 2021 1000 Stars A Tale of Thousand Stars Thai 9 2021 Word of Honor China 8 2021 Given Givun Japan 8 2021 Kieta Hatsukoi Vanishing My First Love My Love Mix Up Japan 8 2021 My Sweet Dear Korea 8 2021 You Make Me Dance Korea 8 2021 The Tasty Florida Korea 8 2021 See You After Quarantine? Taiwan 8 2021 HIStory 4 Close to You Taiwan 8 2021 Golden Blood Thai 8 2021 My Esports Genius Brother China 7 2021 Made in Rooftop Korea 7 2021 Papa & Daddy Taiwan 7 2021 My Type Taiwan 7 2021 Manner of Death Thai 7 2021 Nitiman Thai 7 2021 Second Chance Thai 7 2021 Nation's Brother Vietnam 7 2021 You Are Ma Boy EM LÀ CHÀNG TRAI CỦA ANH Vietnam 7 2021 My Lascivious Boss ÔNG CHỦ, ĐỪNG ĐẾN ĐÂY Vietnam 7 2021 Confidential Coffee Break Strongberry Korea 6 2021 Sweet Curse Strongberry Korea 6 2021 Hold Me Korea 6 2021 Peach of Time Korea 6 2021 Tonhon Chonlatee Thai 6 2021 Gen Y the series Thai 6 2021 Once in Memory Thai 6 2021 Bite Me Thai 6 2021 Love Advisor Thai 6 2021 Once in Memory: Wish Me Luck Thai 6 2021 The Yearbook Thai 6 2021 Y-Destiny Thai 6 2021 My Mate Match Thai 6 2021 Monster in Law Mẹ Chồn Dâu Cáo Vietnam 6 2021 Most Peaceful Place Is You Vietnam 6 2021 Follow My Sunshine SAU VẠT NẮNG Vietnam 6 2021 Stupid Boys Stupid Love YÊU ĐI SỢ GÌ Vietnam 6 2021 Hay Rival, I LOVE YOU! Vietnam 6 2021 Every Moment that I Think of You China 5 2021 Ossan's Love Love or Dead Hong Kong 5 2021 Pornographer Playback Pornographer series Japan 5 2021 Fingers After Strongberry Korea 5 2021 Light Taiwan 5 2021 Innocent Taiwan 5 2021 Friend or Lover Taiwan 5 2021 The Best Story YinWar Thai 5 2021 Love Area Part 1 Thai 5 2021 Don’t Say No LeoFiat Special Thai 5 2021 Evening Cafe Thai 5 2021 Siew Sum Noi Thai 5 2021 Top Secret Together Thai 5 2021 Love With Benefits Thai 5 2021 I'm a Fool for You 1 & 2 Hong Kong 4 2021 My "S" Partner Korea 4 2021 The Immeasurable Taiwan 4 2021 The Immeasurable Taiwan 4 2021 Close Friend Thai 4 2021 Loveless Society Thai 4 2021 7 Project BL Cut Thai 4 2021 Fish Upon the Sky Thai 4 2021 Brothers Thai 4 2021 You Are My Sunshine Vietnam 4 2021 Fools Vietnam 4 2021 The Cupid Coach Thai 3 2021 Hometown's Embrace Thai 3 2021 The Couple Thai 3 2021 My Bromance 2 5 Years Later Thai 3 2021 Love Machine Thai 1 2022 49 Days With a Merman Taiwan dnf 2022 7 Days 7 Boys Thai dnf 2022 Country Boy Thai dnf 2022 Restart(ed) Restarted Thai dnf 2022 Zettai BL ni Naru Sekai VS Zettai BL ni Naritakunai Otoko 2 Absolute BL 2 A Man Who Defies The World of BL 2 Japan 10 2022 Semantic Error Korea 10 2022 Blueming Korea 9 2022 Cherry Blossoms After Winter Korea 9 2022 Not Me OffGun Thai 9 2022 My Ride Thai 9 2022 Bad Buddy Thai 9 2022 Tinted With You Korea 8 2022 Oh! Boarding House Korea 8 2022 Behind Cut Korea 8 2022 Love Stage!! Love Stage Thai 8 2022 Mr Cinderella Xem trọn bộ Mr Cinderella Vietnam 8 2022 Color Rush 2 Korea 7 2022 First Love Again Korea 7 2022 Enchanté Enchante Thai 7 2022 Rainbow Prince Pinoy 6 2022 Paint With Love Thai 6 2022 You're My Sky Thai 6 2022 Gen Y 2 Season 2 Thai 5 2022 The Love of Winter Thai 5 2022 You Are My Stupid Boy Vietnam 5 2022 Blue of Winter Judo Boys Korea 3 2022 Something In My Room Thai 3 2022 Love Area Part 2 Thai 3 2022 Physical Therapy Thai 3 2022 In Your Heart China 2 2022 Kissable Lips Korea 2

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2020 Boyband Love Pinoy 2020 Happenstance Pinoy 2022 Plus & Minus Taiwan 2022 Meow Ears Up Thai 2022 Secret Crush On You Thai 2022 What Zabb Man! Star Hunter Thai 2022 Miracle of the Teddy Bear Thai 2022 Cutie Pie Thai 2022 Cupid's Last Wish Thai 2022 Dear Doctor, I'm Coming for Soul Thai 2022 KinnPorsche Thai 2022 La Cuisine Thai 2022 Saneha Stories 4 Thanon Sai Saneha Thai 2022 Star in My Mind Star and Sky Thai 2022 The Miracle of Teddy Bear Thai 2022 The Tuxedo Thai

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michaelmilkers · 2 years ago

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I'm sorry, I think you're mistaking "you are parroting the same rhetoric that conservatives wanting to ban queer content use and if you start censoring things they will push for censoring more and more, give them a hand and they'll take your arm" for "you are literally those conservatives, you personally want to ban queer content actually"

Wherever you stand on what fiction you think should be allowed (and please don't call fiction CSEM, that's a term reserved for material involving the exploitation - that's the E - of real children, applying it to fictional characters waters down the meaning and can lead to alarm fatigue like how accusing tumblr users of being pedophiles lost all meaning), all the best intentions will not stop people who do want to instate censorship like the Hays Code from taking a foot for every inch you cede. Once you concede that "censorship is good in some cases", they'll start pushing for more and more things to be counted under "in some cases".

To try and reduce this argument down to "Wow how dare you accuse me of wanting to ban queer content!" is to miss the point. At least address the actual argument - "I think people are exaggerating the risk of a slippery slope leading to conservative censorship" or "I think banning this type of content is more important than a 'what if' scenario that may or may not come up once we've banned it" or something

i was not calling fiction csem, i was directly referencing a post i saw, and the fact that tiffany g referenced CP explicitly. i know now that part wasnt clear but the post has already started spreading so i dont really know if theres a point in adding a disclaimer.

also, wrt fictional characters, the reason i stopped posting my stuff on ao3 is because i came across sexually explicit fanfics about irl minors, and when i emailed ao3 about it they said they draw no distinction between rpf and other fanfic and i should just blacklist and move on. there is also nothing in the ao3 TOS or guidelines limiting what images can be embedded in a fic, outside of what is illegal under new york law. so so someone could write a sexually explicit fic about an irl child, then embed a picture of that irl child next to graphic descriptions of them engaging in sex acts, and it would not be against TOS, as long as a copyright take down request wasnt submitted for the photograph. this is the primary reason why i take issue with ao3's mission of 'maximum inclusiveness', not because seeing fictional characters in certain situations squicks me out.

moving on, even if people were only accusing others of parroting rhetoric (they're not, i literally just now on my dash saw someone say tiffany g "tried to ban queer fic") that still holds no water if you actually break it down. the only similarities are in choice of language and the fact that the subject of children are involved. surprise, that happens sometimes! most people arguing for ao3 to change their policies are active in fandom, many of them have experience using ao3 and sites like it, many of them are queer, minors, abuse survivors, etc, they are in the same communities as you, and they disagree with you on how those communities should be conducted. that has nothing to do with conservatives wanting to retroactively erase lgbt people from public knowledge, or the hays code like you said. "children should be kept safe" or "content harming children shouldnt be allowed" are such broad statements that if you remove literally all other context, yeah, it sounds like people are saying the same thing.

see, i can do it too: when you (general you, not you specifically, anon asker) say minors shouldnt be allowed in certain fandom spaces, you are parroting conservative rhetoric that is used to argue against children being allowed at things like pride events and drag shows. fandom spaces are full of queer content, and you are denying minors access to that by making some spaces adult only. next thing you know minors wont be allowed to engage with queer fan content at all. (this is obviously completely made up and i dont agree with it, but this is the same kind of flimsy comparisons people are drawing)

and who is 'they' in this context? who is the 'they' that would push for more censorship if policies are changed? is ao3 run by conservatives who are only being kept at bay by everyone insisting the content policies shouldnt be changed? is there a huge population of conservatives in fandom spaces that somehow have more sway than everyone else and are just waiting to get their foot in the door? is there some kind of conservative governing body who have set their sites on ao3 (or even know what ao3 is) and are circling like vultures waiting to leap at the chance to turn the site into the next OAN? are the staff and volunteers at ao3 really so shit at their jobs that they would just let all of this happen?

you are making an incredibly flimsy comparison to a real world problem based on superficial similarities and then drawing the conclusion that, based on this incredibly flimsy comparison that you have convinced yourself is rock solid, the same consequences of that real world problem must also be a looming threat here, even though the context is entirely different, and the conditions for those consequences to actually happen simply are not there.

#long post #csa tw #ao3

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butt-watch · 3 years ago

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Deltarune Chapter 2 Theory

DELTARUNE SPOILERS AHEAD

I'll put under a read more, but just in case it doesn't work. Here's your warning to block "#delatrune spoilers" or scroll really fast.

Spoilers for end game and bonus boss, and a long ass dump of all the ideas I have in my head before I forget them. So, sorry if I got anything wrong or it's a mess.

I've seen a lot of theories flying around, but haven't seen this one yet. (Sorry if it is already out there and I just haven't seen it, I'm sure somebody will already have put it together better than me.) This is just some funky ideas I've been throwing around, because I'll be honest here, I love the main 3 so much, and would be sad to see any of them turn out to be evil like so many theories are suggesting.

Maybe I'm just trying to be optimistic, maybe it's the weird nb kid deep inside me latching onto a kindred spirit, maybe I'm on to something.

So here's the thing. I don't believe Kris is the knight.

I know, I know, but stay with me here.

There's no denying that at the end of the chapter, Kris created a new fountain, and with it, likely a new dark world. But I'd like to argue, this is the first one they've created. My evidence is shaky, but I think there's something there that could blossom.

I'll start off with the simple fact that multiple characters who have met the knight, Spades King especially, didn't recognise Kris at all, and you would have thought they'd recognise the person who's been feeding them so much information. You do also have a couple of dialogue options with the king this time, and definitely with the Queen, so it seems strange that neither of them recognise the voice of their Knight in shining armour.

This is where stuff starts to get a bit flaky, but also, a lot more intriguing.

At the end of the chapter Kris opened a fountain, and the night before, we saw Kris remove the soul inside them and brandish their knife. Assuming that Kris spent that time without the soul creating a fountain is a fair assumption to make, and I think it's possible that was Kris's intention, perhaps they have some connection to the knight, and knew how the fountains could be opened. But, they were missing one important ingredient.

In Chapter 2 we get an explanation from the Queen about how dark fountains are created, and with it a word that has largely been missing from Deltarune.

That's right, good old Determination.

Fountains are created when a determined Lightner plunges a sharp object into the ground. And here's where the theory comes in. I believe prior to the end of chapter 2, Kris didn't have Determination. Throughout the game, they've been filled with various sources of power, from Fluffy Boys and Mean Girls, to Cat signs. But at every save point we've been missing the signature Determination.

The closest we get is at the end of Chapter 2, just before the fight against the queen, when "a certain power" is alluded to.

And that lack of Determination, would have made opening the fountain impossible for them, after all, Queen spent the whole game building Noelle's determination high enough to open a new fountain. A smidge of determination doesn't seem to cut it.

So how did Kris get the determination?

Through the good old power of Friendship. Through the trials with their new friends, Kris has gained determination, even without the soul inhabiting them. And even though that started as half a joke (only half), whilst writing this post and trying to find screencaps, for the next section, I realised it's actually more likely than I suspected.

And that brings me to everyone's new favourite:

Spamton. During his dialogue and initial boss fight he offers a deal, rewarding Kris with [[Hyperlink Blocked]] if they accept. As far as I'm aware you're forced to accept the deal. (If anyone else tolerated more than a few minutes of smashing no deal like I did and managed to get a different outcome, kudos to your perseverance.)

What is [[Hyperlink Blocked]]? Well I'm sure you can guess where I'm going with this. I believe it may well be Determination or something similar.

During the initial confrontation, Spamton refers to the players Soul as [[HeartShapedObject]].

But prior to the boss fight against Spamton NEO, he has no qualms about saying SOUL.

I've seen a lot of people theorising Spamton is being censored, and I agree that definitely seems to be the case. From a meta standpoint though I think it's interesting that the [[Hyperlink Blocked]] he mentioned so much in his first encounter doesn't seem to be mentioned at all, now the he has slightly more freedom of speech. I personally believe it's because revealing whatever Spamton was offering would have given too much away.

So how does this come back to the power of friendship? Well, upon defeating Spamton, whether through ACTing or beating the crap out of him, he realises the real treasure was the friends we made along the way.

He suggests that together, the three of them could "break their own strings"

Following the fight, there's a moment, where Susie notices that Kris is acting out of sorts. Whichever option you choose, it's obvious that Kris is shaken by the event, even going as far as to yell the answer if you let them admit how they're feeling.

The similarity to Kris's own situation, being puppeted by the player is a valid reason for the response. Whatever shook them did so with enough effect that the fear showed despite the players control. Either that, or Kris has something they didn't have, more control. More... Determination to overcome the soul.

That last part is reaching a little, which is saying something, given the amount of shaky evidence presented in this post, so I want to wrap this up mostly with something slightly unrelated, but still a Kris theory.

Why do they open the fountain?

There are a lot of theories, about being a pawn for Gaster, being an asshole, etc.

I'd like to think Kris is just a weird kid who's gotten caught up in a mess they don't really understand. They created a scenario where Susie would be forced to stay the night, and opened up a new dark world, that Susie, their friend, expressed a want for before they left the dark world.

A place where they could get away from their lives for a little while and have more adventures together. And I can understand the reasoning, opening a new fountain isn't bad, I mean, as long as they close it at the end, nobody gets hurt and they have more memories. Where's the harm in that? Right?

As much as Kris obviously wishes to be free of the soul's control, that very soul has helped them make real friends. It's taken them on adventures and well.

Somebody had to let it out before the morning.

So to summarise, the strongest power known to man is a group of lonely teenagers, if you run through a peaceful game murdering everything and then blame a video game character for the decision you made, I'll kick your ass, and I guess I'm a Kris stan now, oh god.

#deltarune #deltarune spoilers #kris deltarune #kris dreemurr #The amount of people I've seen jumping on this weird kid and calling them a murder makes me feel... uneasy #Kris sweetie I got your back #and I pray to Toby that he shows mercy and doesn't do you dirty

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lan-barbie · 3 years ago

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Hello! I hope it's okay for me to ask you about this here - I didn't want to "comment dumb" on your not me high school au that you wrote for fun😂 I'm probably getting a bit in my own head about this, but I don't understand why you censored the self harm mention in the A/N, since ao3 has a really good filtering system w the tags/doesn't really do censorship the way tumblr for example does. To me it seems like you did a really nice job of warning for it, and treating it respectfully, but not saying the words makes it seem like a slur - like you shouldn't generally discuss it. however it does nothing for people who might be triggered by it. we will most likely recognise any "slang" version of the term that there's ever been. It kind of bugs me, since that "tabooness" was a big part of why it personally took me a long time to talk about my own experience with sh which was ultimately what really helped me recover because i destigmatised it for myself. maybe you have a reason and I'd love to hear your thought process about it - but it's such a sensitive topic so if you don't want to answer this I get it. Thank you for sharing the fic in any case, I really found it very sweet and have enjoyed it in the post-final wallowing 💜💜💜

Oh-- Most definitely I would have never gassed you for something like this. Talking about my experience with SH, i only censored the large word in my A/N, because it's like the first thing ppl see and in a story you can rather build up to say the word. I didn't wanna like immediately trigger someone in my A/N

For more my experience w/ sh you can keep reading :-)!

A little more personal - All of Black's character backstory involving sh and White's experience is straight from my own experience. I suffer terribly with sh, it's like my horrible habit I can't get rid of.

my senior year of hs I had bandcamp coming up. I was so freaking stressed about it and I went super maniac and just did my usually sh to calm down. Then i swear to God dread consumed because I realized I had to wear short sleeves because our camp is in the summer. Which my mania said 'yep, we're done. time to go!' and I tried to ya know -argh- myself that night.

I told my older sister the next morning, I took a very large amount of medication and it made me super sick and also insanely calm. I got medically instituted and I was PISSED. My boyfriend at the time had no clue, my phone got taken because I was texting my best friend terrible stuff. It was shitty, and I wanted to leave, because I never thought my sh was that bad... I had a terrible set of internet friends that egged me on and I just wanted to stop everything. It was while I was locked away that I realized that a lot of people cared about me. I just remember laying in my room just sobbing my eyes out with a photograph of my mom and sister in my arms, vowing I was going to get better for them.

First them, then myself.

It was in my journey that truly opened my eyes. I got really into death, caring for the dead and embalming. I was already really into gore because of my sh, and it was when I started realizing that it wasn't a fascination with blood and nasty stuff-- it was death. I kind of signed my ass up for mortuary school for a last resort, because I honestly didn't think I was going to live that long. It ended up being a super good decision, I love my job, caring for those mourning and dressing those to be viewed.

Just sometimes I'll get someone on my table, young people, my age, and I think to myself-- That could of been you bitch. Aren't you glad ur not dead in a ditch somewhere? It's harsh, but I'm normally super harsh on myself.

I still cut, I won't lie. I get in moods and it calms me, but it sucks, because I can't rid of the habit.

I think because I am revisiting a lot of my school experiences and projecting Black's character as a angry-version of myself, it's how it sounds so realistic, but still hold a joke because it's a funny joke to me. I think there are two types of sh ppl, the one's that can joke and the other that can't-- or is scared to. I am just one of those people that can read myself to filth and I put this trait on Black, because he just feels like the type of self depricating people.

It's a little different from both an outside pov and inside pov. In the Black/Gram fic, there is very speific part that talks about Black sh and -ARGH- himself from Gram while not truly talking about in Black's pov, because from an outsider pov Gram is hurt by this. Scared for Black while Black pov he could care less. He struggled with this for years and from me I never truly focus on my coping. It's just there and it's dumb but I do it. He's getting help and he still doesn't see it as a bad thing, which it is. I'm not saying do it lol.

My advice to you anon, from someone who has hit rock bottom and still sometimes will hit it, there's only up from there. Celebrate succession and don't dwell on failing if you do slip up. Su su na :-)!

-Barbie <3

#answered #HS AU QA

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recarha · 6 years ago

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For an outsider, what exactly did they do?? I'm not asking for specifics but I'd like to avoid/ know what I'm getting into just in case?

So, two of them, that I know are in there for sure have had callout blogs made for them. In this post, I will link BOTH blogs as well as the single callout post made against the two users. I will also include trigger warnings along with a summarization of what happened. Let’s get started, shall we?

Tobes. / Ali. ( blog / callout post ) ( TW: gaslighting, guilt-tripping, pedophilia, racism ) Tobes basically has used the n-word before, said that a 14-year-old was fap material, guilt-tripped friends when they unfollowed her, etc. This is a grown-ass woman doing this shit. Keep this in mind because I’m going to bring this up again later.

Pluto. ( blog / callout post ) ( TW: racism, anti-semitism ) Many people in the fandom know about Pluto’s stuff because of how big it blew up. To put it simply, Pluto was called out on one account of her ignorance to the history of World War II by making a Ouma blog from Dang.anRonpa around the time of Holocaust Remembrance Day, used her nationality as “somewhat” of an excuse for her ignorance, said the n-word in a video (and has been caught saying it within calls with various users), etc. Also made an anti-sjw blog that involved Tobes and a few other people (who were said to also be racist/pedophiles) that are listed within the blog I linked above.

Now, these are the two.. Main people I tend to avoid, but there is someone in there that I’m avoiding for my own reasons.

Jen. (Mind you, this person never had a callout other than being included in the sjw-experience callout. I have a few things here from her situation with me) To put it simply, Jen bothered me. I will be totally honest with you, I used to be friends with Pluto after the callout was made about her. I know, it was stupid, but I was naive as fuck and began to realize everything down the line. Do I regret being in it that long? Absolutely. Let’s keep going.

Now, Tobes had become friends with Pluto and a few others in our “P.5 Group Chat” on Dis.cord. I actually had her as a friend too, but.. Some people ended up telling me about her callout and the situation she put herself in, which ultimately made me uncomfortable. Someone brought up the idea of bringing Tobes into the chat after she made a Mish.ima, which made me speak up and say that I was uncomfortable with the idea. So then.. This happened. Mind you, I’m not censoring names because this is a group chat / I’m sure icons have changed now. ( x , x ) So, as you saw, I left the chat because I was uncomfortable and, yeah, I get that I was STILL DUMB AS SHIT TO STILL BE FRIENDS WITH PLUTO WHEN I WAS UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THIS, BUT IT’S OVER NOW. LET’S KEEP GOING..

After this happened, Jen decided to KEEP pestering me about it. Now, I seem distant in this post with just a ‘:/’ but, it’s really all I had to say to this because it felt like her messages contradicted one another. I would tell her it was fine and tell her to leave it so I could blow off steam. ( x , x , x )

However, Pluto then decides to message me about this. Honestly, I have nothing else to say to this shit. ( x )

So, yeah, that’s why I can’t deal with them. There is one other person, but it’s not enough to warrant a “callout” on them. Just silly stuff that I and a few others found dumb as shit. Hopefully, this helps. Feel free to reblog. I don’t mind.

#anonymous || 000.#tw: callout #tw: pluto #tw: tobes #☙ * post. ❯ ❛ calling cards !

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sovereign-of-the-castle · 7 years ago

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i'm not really familiar with much of the let's play family outside AH and i was wondering what the thing is with cow chop and the creatures? do they not like each other or? i tried googling it but just confused myself even more :/

Hi there! I’m so sorry that I didn’t see this in my inbox so idk when you sent it, but I’ll do my best to give a concise and unbiased explanation of what went down.

So, Cow Chop is consisted primarily of Aleks and James with a bunch of other consistent guests/employees including Joe, Trevor, Brett, Anna, and Asher. Aron was working with them but doesn’t anymore. (I’m a little spotty on the details, I can only assume it was because they ended up moving from Littleton, CO to LA and he didn’t want to move, but that’s just speculation and I’ll try and refrain from that anymore my b)

Cow Chop is a co-op gaming and other random stuff channel that has been an idea between James (also known on YT as UberHaxorNova) and Aleks (also known as ImmortalHD) for a long time. In March of 2016, in one of the Creature Hub weekly videos, James said that a special project would be announced soon, and held up a cow print pillow (x)

Two weeks-ish later, a video was uploaded on the channel Cow Chop, and it was announced that this was a new project that was happening (x)

It was pretty obvious to the fans that a change was occurring, and it seemed that James and Aleks were splitting from The Creatures to do Cow Chop. This was addressed and confirmed when they did a stream towards the end of April 2016 (x)

It was also confirmed in the stream that Joe and Aron would also be leaving The Creatures. They made note that everyone was given a choice and no one was forced to leave to go with them. James explained that Joe had come out to Colorado for him and was adamant that he’d be going where James went, in this case it was Cow Chop. Aron was originally going to work for both Cow Chop and The Creatures, on the later he’d be in charge of their website. After they partnered with Let’s Play/RT though, that job was kinda obsolete so he was full time with CC.

James and Aleks both cited their primary reasons for leaving the Creatures to be a lack of creative freedom, lack of proper management, a general lack of power within the company, and overall different opinions on how things needed to be run.

The stream was professional, light, and generally easy-going. Both James and Aleks were very honest and again, professional, in how they explained what occurred and why they chose to leave. I’d definitely suggest watching the stream to really understand why they left.

The Creatures put out a send off video in similar fashion to others they had done for other members who had left (x) an example of another time they did this was for Seamus (x)

Generally after splitting, they never talked about The Creatures. If I were to give my opinion, I think that in general most splits are going to leave some open wounds and hurt feelings, which probably happened in this case.

They also needed to really separate themselves from The Creatures, the two groups are not at all affiliated with each other outside of both being in the Lets Play family.

Then some other things happened.

There was a lot of fan backlash, mostly centered on The Creatures. Another employee, Dex, had quit them not long before Cow Chop split. He released a video explaining why he left. In a much more emotionally charged and frustrated way, he cited some of the same problems James and Aleks did primarily management and a lack of power. He also mentioned clarity on what he was meant to do there and being censored as problems. He also directly called out Jordan (Kootra) for his actions. (x)

The fans took this video and Cow Chop leaving and since then there are comments on every Creatures video that are rude and calling shit out and making assumptions and just are just generally really negative. You can look at literally any of their videos over the last year and see what I’m talking about.

They’ve also lost a lot of subs and so many views. They’re averaging around 20-30 thousand views per video when before Cow Chop left, they were in the hundreds of thousands at the minimum. It’s actually astounding how many views they’ve lost.

It was revealed that Jordan is dating Stefani, one of The Creatures employees, and someone asked what James thought, he said something akin to “it was a huge part of why I left” and Aleks said in a stream that James had been serious. I don’t want to link anything, it’s drama and people need to leave it alone. If you want to find it, look for yourself, I don’t even really want to talk about it but whatever.

That led to more backlash, fans defending The Creatures, hating on them, saying that Cow Chop is better off, or that they betrayed the Creatures, saying that Cow Chop shouldn’t have left, that it was a good change, so on and so forth.

The fans have been making assumptions and trying to get both parties to say things but they obviously have chosen not to.

This has led to incidents like James leaving his stream after “fans” being gross (x) and asking shit about Jordan and Stefani, people asking about it at their RTX panels (x) (there are more examples of that I’m only linking the one thought) (which they explicitly asked people not to do), and just generally gross, creepy, and rude and not respecting their boundaries.

We as fans are not owed any more information and explanation then we’ve already gotten. They gave us the stream, said that they’re separate, and that’s all we needed to hear.

These people were/are friends and deserve to have their privacy. If it was a bad split in any way, that is their business and we don’t have to filled in on every little detail.

We don’t know if they’re still friends or if they hate each other or if they’re neutral and it’s none. of. our. goddamn. business.

I get it that people love them, I love them, that the split was rough and it’s hard to not have answers but we aren’t owed them.

So, to reiterate another post I’ve made, respect their boundaries at their panels.

Brett announced during the most recent CCTV podcast that he’d be on a panel with Geoff (from AH), Bruce (from Funhaus) and Jordan (x), please, please, please no one be the asshole that asks Brett and Jordan about the split. Don’t do it. Don’t ask at that panel or at any of the other panels.

Respect these people. End of story.

I hope this explains everything? Please, anyone add on if I’m missing anything, thanks

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indecentpause · 7 years ago

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So here is an attempt to make an index page/pinned post that is available on mobile. Everything else I’ve tried hasn’t worked, so, here goes nothing. Tag links include things like excerpts, playlists, inspo, and moodboards; basically related media. For some reasons the tag links don’t work on mobile, and I’m sorry about that. They do all go to the right place on desktop though. ;-;

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A quick note: I am no longer posting new work on Wattpad, due to some issues with my work being taken down/censored. I'm not removing anything that's already there, so the links still work, but I will only be posting new work on Ao3 from now on. Thank you for your understanding. <3

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The Black & Blues:

Meara grew up in a small town with people with small minds. Now nineteen, he and his best friend move to Chicago, the closest big city, with the hopes of living somewhere they can openly and unabashedly be themselves--musicians, weirdos, and openly queer. Meara meets another man in the scene who has keen interest in him and their relationship starts off bright, if a little nerve-wracking for the newly out Meara. But while his relationship and his dream to start a band start coming together quickly, everything else starts to fall apart.

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The Most Beautiful Puzzle (AU)

Meara’s life has been one disappointment after another, and he’s not expecting his new roommate situation to be anything but, either. But he needs to get out of the city and needs a room, and Josselin seems nice enough and has a bed to spare.

But Josselin ends up being more than just a freelance translator, eccentric book hoarder, and taxidermy enthusiast, he’s also a consulting detective; the one the police come to when they just can’t crack a case. Meara accidentally gets swooped up in one such situation.

It’s the most excitement and fun he’s ever had in his entire life. He’s hooked.

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Sunflowers and Ink (AU)

In the year Meara and Josselin have been working next door to each other, Meara has never worked up the nerve to say hello.

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In the Lion’s Teeth (AU & EU)

Pascal’s schizoaffective disorder is out of control, and traditional treatments don’t work, so he turns to street drugs. But he’s smart, and he can handle it. Right?

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Cafe Latte (AU)

Meara and Danny’s business is about to fold due to some construction blocking their usual customer traffic. Josselin, a regular customer, business student, and jack of all trades, hears of this and offers his help. There’s definite chemistry between Meara and Josselin, but can they get past the social barriers that keep them apart?

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The Art of Losing Touch (EU):

When Cal wakes up in a psychiatric ward after a suicide attempt, his life appears to he over in every way but literally. His youngest brother hates him now, and everyone else in his family keeps him at emotional arms’ length, afraid he’ll explode.

After he’s finally released, he has to work on putting his life back together, but with the rumors at school and the cruelty of new and numbered bullies, his parents pull him out and sign him up for internet classes.

At first his medication makes it impossible to function, but as his doctor adjusts them, things start to seem like they’ll get better.

Then Cal meets Craig, and everything goes upside down. But this time, in the best possible way.

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In the Basement, In the Sky (Both EU/AU)

Jen is trying his best, okay? His best is just… never good enough. His boyfriend thinks he’s cheating, his ex-girlfriend wants him back more than anything, and they’re all terrible at laying down boundaries, so all that results in is a world of heartache and hurt for everyone. He suffers from depression and ADHD that he medicates with street drugs, which only makes everything worse, and with every step up the ladder he has to climb to get to the top, he slides back ten more rungs.

But at least once you hit rock bottom you don’t have anywhere to go but up.

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Until Our Hearts Go Numb (AU)

Max’s parents are dead and his guardian, Josselin, a close friend of the family, is suffering from brain cancer. Josselin’s lost his insurance and can’t afford treatment anymore. So what do Max and his siblings do? They rob a bank, of course.

A story of the rise and fall and eventual mental unwinding and collapse of three siblings, who have nothing in the world but each other.

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Standalones:

And All the Devils Are Here:

Sigrun’s father is dead. Murdered. Executed with two well aimed bullets from a hitman’s gun. She’s never been completely stable, full of alternating rage and ennui, but when her father is murdered, it pushes her over the edge, and she goes on a rampage through the city, through every other mob family, close by or not. But the more she learns, the more she and her team start to realize this job may be closer to the family than they thought. (A mobster Hamlet AU set during the US Prohibition.)

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Walking Out Of Stride

Caleb is a trans teen stuck in an abusive home. He’s seventeen and just waiting to get out. He has his friends, yes, but they can’t help him when he’s stuck at home. Meanwhile, from afar, he’s crushing on the most popular guy in school, a senior named Elijah. When Caleb finds the courage to ask him if he’d like to work on a project together, they become unlikely friends… and maybe even more.

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One More Time (With Feeling)

March Liu is a broke artist who wants love more than anything but can’t seem to hold onto a relationship because he’s trans and ace. Then a friend introduces him to Chayton, a free-spirited street artist, they get along like a house on fire, one thing leads to another, and suddenly March realizes he has a crush on someone absolutely unattainable. Again. But the closer March gets to Chayton, the less and less he seems to actually know. When Chayton’s biggest secret spills out in an argument, they have to take a break, and March isn’t sure they even have a friendship left anymore, much less potential for anything else.

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Stars in Our Hands

Meet Estrella Diaz. She’s tough, she’s fierce, she’s unbreakable.

She’s soft hearted, she’s gentle, and she’s terrified.

Estrella is a sex worker, specifically a prostitute, and is stabbed one night in a transphobic hate crime. Obviously, love and romance are the last thing on her mind right now.

But Dani, the kind paramedic who helped to save her life, who corrected everyone on Estrella’s pronouns without ever being asked, who did everything in her power to make sure Estrella was safe and comfortable before moving on to her next call?

The thought started seeping in anyway.

But it’s just the trauma, Estrella thinks. It’s just because someone was finally treating her with the gentleness she’s always wanted.

But it turns out, feelings aren’t that cut and dry, and after she goes home, Estrella aches to see Dani again.

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Since Feeling is First:

It was a summer day like any other when Skylar lost zir arm to the accident. It was a summer day like any other when Audrey developed PTSD. And every day after that of the autumn, winter, and spring was a day like any other, too: except to two teenagers, whose lives would never be the same.

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Footprints Through the Rosemary

After Alex’s suicide, Riley falls into a pattern of self-destruction that peppers his depression with brief moments of artificial sunshine. He doesn’t talk about his past, even to his friends, his brother, his on again off again boyfriend (maybe, maybe not; he can’t do that to Alex so fast). But the thing about trauma is that it refuses to be ignored.

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White Rabbit

Diana is falling apart. After a heroin overdose, she ends up in a psych ward on suicide watch. But maybe, here, she can finally get the help she needs.

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And Never the Twain Shall Meet

It's unfair to say Heath's life has gone to shit, because it's pretty much been shit since the day he was born. His abusive father left when he was young, and his mother and brother have never 'forgiven' him (because, of course, they say it's his fault). With no support at home or school, Heath turns to the other outcasts in his neighborhood: stoners, drug dealers, dropouts, burnouts, ravers, goths, and everyone else that doesn't quite fit in with their respective groups.

But then, one day, after being reported a runaway, Heath is arrested. He suffers a mental break at the thought of going home, but, luckily, he's a young white boy, so rather than locking him up, the cops bring in a trained psychiatrist to evaluate him, and she realizes: Heath isn't an asshole kid, he's acting out because he's suffering. He clearly has PTSD and potentially the sprouts of antisocial personality disorder, and there are lots of other maybes that need to be checked out.

So Heath is taken away from his family and put in a residential treatment center. And even though the kids here are weird and different from the ones he usually hangs out with, maybe he can finally make a connection with someone, for the first time in his life.

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The Fairy Portal

Twin siblings Blake and Emily love tromping through the woods, hiking and exploring. But only Blake believes in magic and the Fair Folk until he and Emily accidentally enter a fairy portal and Emily carves their initials on the pathway through: a giant, old white oak. A fairy curse falls down on their heads and they seek help from their grandmother, Florence, and her friends, two resident cottage witches, Clementine and Dix.

When Clementine and Dix give Blake and Emily the Fairy Sight, not only do they finally get to meet their source of ill fortune (a tiny, grumpy woodland fairy named Tassie), they have to make a deal with her to repay the woods for what Emily has damaged.

Meanwhile, there’s this beautiful Merrow boy who keeps following Blake from lake to river to stream…

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The Holding Our Hearts In Our Hands Trilogy:

Book One: Push Me, Pull Me

Justin and Brett are wandering through life alone when they meet, then they wander it together, as friends. But the unexpected happens for both of them, and they fall in love. But will they be able to get past their self-imposed barriers and admit it to each other, or will they miss each other and go back to wandering alone?

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Book Two: The Succession of Us

Iffy Jackson is starting over. She’s out of her racist as hell high school and in a diverse college, living the family’s dream. Nothing can stop her now. That is, as long as she doesn’t let that cute, nonverbal guy named Nate distract her from her studies. He doesn’t mean to, honest! But they keep bumping into each other, like it might be fate.

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Book Three: Two Heartbeats on One Page

An anarchist and an army vet meet at a party. This sounds like the beginning of an awful joke, but instead it’s the beginning of a convoluted relationship, a one night stand that never ends. Between Jordan’s inexplicable mood swings, his transition, and his family problems, and Darcey’s dishonorable discharge, PTSD, and poor emotional intelligence, they have their work cut out for them. But that’s the thing about love: if it’s real and if you both feel it, you’ll never give up on it.

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That Boy/That Girl (on indefinite hiatus):

Kandi’s just your average sixteen year old girl: she likes slumber parties with her friends, is involved in extracurriculars, and loves cooking. She doesn't stand out. She doesn't want to. And she’s mostly okay at it until her high school cooking club puts it on her to organize a citywide event almost singlehandedly, and Jack comes along and becomes her partner in crime. But when they both find out they’re competing in the same cooking competition for things like scholarships and internships, suddenly a lot more is on the line. Will their friendship be able to make it through the trials of competition and blossom into more? Or will it crash and burn like an underdone souflee?

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The Princess and the Pirate (first draft in progress):

A crew of land-locked pirates takes in two royals fleeing from the capitol, and the Captain agrees to help smuggle them into the next country over. But something always has to complicate such simple plants, doesn’t it?

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These Quiet, Terrible Things (on the backburner):

Dexter and Bunny got more than they’d bargained for when they moved into Markie’s and Carolyn’s House for Homeless Queer Youth. Honestly, they were just looking for a cool place to sleep and maybe one meal a day. They got all that and more, in the form of witchcraft, spirit summoning, and vulture culture. But there’s one particularly sticky spirit that just won’t leave Bunny no matter how many banishings they perform, and the deeper they delve into her mystery, the harder it is to tell her and Bunny apart.

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