#Sub Illumi

[niilue]

pounding sub!illumi to oblivion as we readers watch his emotionless facade fall. he’s moaning out and sobbing for more and that’s exactly what we give him until he’s moaning/whining out of overstimulation. you can add whatever more you want to this!

have a good day!💗

ෆ    ִ      ׁ   sub illumi

cw: dom!reader, male top, breeding kink, voice kink, illumi needy and vocal

illumi's emotionless facade had always been his defining trait, a mask of stoicism that rarely, if ever, faltered. but now, that mask was crumbling. you had him pinned beneath you, his body trembling as you pounded into him relentlessly. his long black hair clung to his sweat-slicked skin, and his usually impassive face was contorted in pleasure.

each thrust elicited a moan from illumi, the sound growing louder and more desperate with every movement. his voice, usually so controlled, was now a symphony of whimpers and sobs, a melody that spurred you on. you knew exactly how to break him, and you reveled in the power you held over him.

"more," he gasped, his voice barely a whisper. "please... more."

you obliged, increasing your pace, driving into him with a force that made the bed creak. his legs wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer, deeper. every thrust pushed him closer to the edge, his body quivering with the intensity of it all.

"look at you," you murmured, leaning down to kiss the tears from his cheeks. "begging for it like a good boy."

illumi's eyes fluttered open, wide and glassy with need. the once cold, emotionless gaze was now filled with a raw, unfiltered desire. he moaned louder, his hands clawing at your back, leaving red marks in their wake. he was a moaning, whining mess, his voice a mixture of broken cries and breathless pleas.

"please," he sobbed. "please, i can't..."

but you didn't let up. you kept going, pushing him beyond his limits, watching as his composure shattered completely. his moans turned into screams, his body writhing beneath you as he came, his orgasm ripping through him with a force that left him trembling.

but you weren't done. not yet. you continued to thrust into him, even as he whined in overstimulation, his body convulsing with every movement. the overstimulation was exquisite, his mind a blur of pleasure and pain. he could barely form coherent thoughts, let alone words, and the only thing that escaped his lips were broken cries and sobs.

"you wanted this," you reminded him, your voice a low growl in his ear. "you begged for it."

he nodded weakly, unable to speak, his body completely at your mercy. you leaned down, pressing your lips to his ear. "i'm going to fill you up," you whispered. "breed you until you can't take anymore."

illumi's eyes rolled back in his head at your words, another sob escaping his lips. the thought of being filled, claimed, bred— it drove him wild. he was lost in the sensation, his body a puppet to your desires.

you felt him tighten around you, and with one final, powerful thrust, you came, filling him with your seed. the sensation pushed illumi over the edge once more, his body convulsing as he came again, his voice hoarse from screaming.

you stayed like that for a moment, both of you breathing heavily, your bodies entwined. then you pulled out, watching as your cum dripped from his spent body, a proof to your domination.

illumi lay there, his chest heaving, his face flushed and tear-streaked. he looked up at you, his eyes filled with a mix of exhaustion and satisfaction. he was a mess, a beautiful, broken mess, and you knew you had pushed him to his limits.

but he had wanted it. he had begged for it. and you had given him exactly what he craved.

[madammidnightsblog]

HXH Orgasm Denial

Sexual content.

Characters: Kurapika, Hisoka, Leorio, Illumi, Chrollo, and Feitan

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Kurapika

Hates being denied

Sobs hard and shakes uncontrollably

Kurapika was laying against you, his back was pressed against your bare chest as your hand moves up his slippery base slowly before slipping back down to cup his balls. Soft sobs left his lips as your fingers gently pinched the area under his balls before bringing your hand back up to his angry tip. Pearly white beads of precum bubbled around the purpling mushroom head which your thumb swiftly wiped it away before drawing your hand back down. Fresh tears ran down his reddening cheeks along with small beads of sweat as the overwhelming urge to cum only grew but everytime his dick throbbed, your hand stilled and cupped his balls again and after you would press a kiss to his damp cheek while whispering how he can't cum just yet. Whines and cries left his lips as he tries to buck up into your hand in hopes youll feel sorry for him and keep going but you only hushed him and gently squeeze his balls which made him let out a whimper. The poor boy was slowly losing it due to you doing this for an hour now and his poor dick was aching and throbbing painfully in your hand but you showed no mercy and dragged your hand back up his base just to slip off then wrapping your hand back around his tip, gently tugging on the head to make him sob. His hips were stammering and bucking as sobs left his lips and begs to cum which only fell on deaf ears as you continue to torment the weeping cock.

Hisoka

Loves it, he is addicted to how much control you have over him

Has to be denied at least once a day

Purrs and lewd moans filled the dim room along with the sound of wet squelching of lube. Your fingers are deep in his gaping hole and they curl into his prostate which had his back bowing in bliss as cries of pleasure continued to roll off his tongue. Your lips were pressed against the middle of his back and it was enough to have shivers up his back all while you slowly trailed up to the back of his neck with open mouth kisses. His leaking dick was throbbing and twitching ad it hangs heavy between his spread legs, begging to be touched and emptied as his balls grew bigger with every thrust of your fingers. Your fingers slowly sink deeper into him before they scissor his aching hole open then curling them once more. Hisoka was growing closer to cumming and he let you know it by they way he purred your name but you ripped his orgasm away by taking your sopping digits out and let out a teasing remark. He couldnt be mad at you, he knew you'll let him cum very soon by the way you made him lay on his back before you hovered your dripping cunt over his dick, letting the angry pink dick slip between your lower lips to rub against the aching length.

Leorio

Gets very frustrated and barks orders

Wilp whimper once realizing he just made it worse for hin

You had enough of his mouth at this point. He kept telling you to let him cum and how unfair you were as if he forgot this was a punishment. Rasing an eyebrow, your hips snapped forward which made him yelp and grip the sheets under him tighter as the false dick was buried deep into his tight hole. Your thrust were rough and slow in a teasing manner which only made his stomach knot even more and begging to be soothed with a release but you just kept moving all while yanking him closer to you by his waist. You were bound to have your strap balls deep into him. Leorio felt as if he could cum soon but with the way your thrusts were threatening to stop and the pink cockring wrapped tightly around his blush pink dick made sure he wouldn't release anytime soon. His thighs were quivering and trying to close despite them being held open by cuffs on either side of the bed post so he was forced to endure the agonizing pace. Smirking, you began to move faster just to watch him squirm around and plea for you to let him cum.

Illumi

Pouts and softly whimpers

He likes the feeling of the overwhelming need to cum but hates having to hold back foe such a long time

Illumi almost feels nothing due to years of numbing his emotions so he enjoys being denied as it forces any and all emotions to the surface and allows him to be vulnerable with you. His hips jerking forward violently as the rough jean material on your thigh made him breath out moan, his wide eyes glossing over as they threatened to close as the intense pleasure bloomed under his heated skin. Your hand ran through his long, beautiful hair as you purred out praises and every word went straight to his already twitching cock which made your free hand wrap around his porcelain neck and gave it a firm squeeze, making his eyes rolls back and mouth gap with a moan while you say, "Cum and you'll forget how to breath" and the beautiful man almost caved in right there. Stilling his hips, he slowly opened his eyes to stare into yours with a pout and letting out a small whimper as your hand goes slack so you tightened it back up, choking him ever so slightly which makes his purr and slowly rut against your leg again with permission of course.

Chrollo

Hates it and glares at you

Will try to keep going only to be put back in his place

Chrollo was a man on mission and the mission was to fill his Mistress' pussy with his cum so he wasn't slowing down anytime soon. His hands were on your hips, gripping them tightly as he pounded into your sopping cunt which had you holding onto the sheet under you and letting out such lewd nosies that made the large man shiver. Leaning down, he buried his face in the crook of your neck as he grunts and moans your name while your arms slowly wrap around his neck to pull him closer. Your legs then wrapped around his waist to keep him buried deep in you as you moaned about how good of a boy he was for you and that made his large hands have a buring grip on your small waist. Hearing you container to praise him had him twitching and about to cum as his thrusts grew sloppy and carelessly but you slipped a hand into his messy black hair and yanked his head back before threatening to give him blue balls for a month if he cums before you. His thrusts grew slower as he glares at you but you just smile and pull him into a kiss which he was more than happy to melt into.

Feitan

Straight up cries

Nonstop begging and whining like a bitch

Tears fall down his face as he cries about how he wants to cum and how mean you're being while be bounces down on your fake cock, thighs shaking and threatening to quit under him as he been fucking himself on this fake dick for a hour now. You smiled up at your petite boyfriend and interlock your hands with his to keep him balanced and just to give him comfort while watching him wail pathetically above you. You couldn't help but coo at how pretty he looked crying and reminded him that he asked for it and it only made his teary eyes stare down at you while crying for a kiss. Sitting up, you pulled him into a kiss which he eagerly parted his lips for your tongue to slip past and explore his mouth, your tongue dancing alongside of his. You couldn't believe the usually badass boyfriend of yours was crumbling into a sobbing and lewd mess over being denied an orgasm. Pulling away, you laid back down to watch how he impaled himself on such a big and thick dick that has his stomach bulging every so slightly and his small cock begging to release but the way you just squeeze his hands kept him grounded. Your hands let go of his hands and found their place onto his hips to lock him in place and he sobbed about how mean you were as your hips would slightly jerk up and force him to bounce faster despite telling him not to cum, playing a game to see how much longer he could last.

[fyod]

sigh. i have many illumi drafts but this will quench my thirst for now

cock slaps w illumi. he had a high pain tolerance and you were quite the curious cat.

you land one mean slap on his redden cock. he doesn’t flinch already accustomed to pain (as a whole) but he does stare down at you, blinking owlishly. and you quickly pondered if you were going to meet your end right here, in between his thighs until you see a bead of cum pearling at his slit. it grows in size the more you oogle.

he wasn’t being bad, rather you chose now to be experimental. “…did you like that ‘lumi?”

illumi blinks twice before slowly nodding. jet black hair fanning his face but you can make out his poker face. he didn’t seem unsure nor interested. “it’s fine, keep going.”

then again, you slapped his cock, harder than the first and you really weren’t prepared. the only warning illumi gave you was a breathy gasp right before milk white jets from his puffy slit.

and he doesn’t moan, he doesn’t sob, doesn’t make much of a sound — just grits his teeth and stiffens up. you didn’t have enough time to react, left with cum splattered on half of your face.

illumi body, painted the prettiest shade of pink, shudders one last time as he comes down from his high. “are you alright?”

[past-the-comfortzone]

"Think I'm getting butterflies but it's really

something telling me to run away"

Still frames below the cut ❁

thought I'd give bright neon colors a try. It was fun but I think I'll be sticking to pastels

[secretivemessenger]

★ [ A Present For The Birthday Boy ] ☆

Happy birthday beloved - { @gaybitchfx } - your gift

Illumi x top male reader

Warnings: OOC! Hair pulling! Breeding! Face fucking! Degrading! Use of sex toys! Fingering! Nipple play! Sounding! Overstimulation! Orgasm denial! dumbification! Eating out! Sir kink! Choking! Cuffs!

It’s the day you literally waited a whole year for. The long awaited day, your birthday.

Yes it’s your birthday. But thats not the reason you were so excited about. Not that or the gifts that you’ll be receiving from all the people. But the best surprise that your lover promised you of.

Once he told you that he prepared a gift for you personally, you’ve waited for this day to hurriedly come and find out what he had in store for ya.

You had some guesses on what it might be, but you could’ve never guessed that it’d be something like this. But are you complaining? Absolutely not.

Finding illumi laying so beautifully for you on top of your shared bed was a sight you never imagined seeing. His hands were cuffed on top of his head as his naked body presented itself so elegantly for your eyes to admire.

You didn’t even know where to begin, or what to say. You were left completely speechless. So illumi had to talk instead.

“Happy birthday,” he said in a hushed tone as a very light shade of pink dusted his cheeks. You were taken by another surprise as you weren’t used to him being like this. You almost doubted that he was the same man that threatened you yesterday by saying he can kill you off at any time he pleases. All because you called him cute.

Soon enough the soft tone turned to a cold agitated one “for how long are you planning to keep me waiting?”. He said it completely snapping you out of your thoughts. A small chuckle left you at his behaviour. But this was your special day, you cannot just let him act so greedily when you should be the greedy one.

“Is this all you got me?” A raised brow is what you received “I am allowing you to do however you please to me, is it not enough?” You chuckled again before responding “anything I want you to say?” “Yes anything, I never back down on my words” your chuckles died down “alright. Give me a second” “huh”

You reached down into the closet near the bed and pulled out a medium-sized box. From the way you were struggling illumi could tell it was quite heavy.

You placed it onto the bed next to him before positioning yourself between his legs. “What's that?” He asked with curiosity filling his eyes. “You’ll find out soon. Now, let's get you ready first” you said with a smile that the other deemed to be very suspicious.

Until suddenly taking a hold of his pale thighs and pulling him up till his twitching hole was inches away from your face. Upon your breaths against his rim, it sent an overwhelming shiver through his body.

Lolling your tongue out till the saliva dripped down onto his hole teasing him with the wet sensation. Legs already shaking no matter how hard he tried to cover it up. His pride couldn’t be scratched more than this. But he has to hold back, he did say you could do whatever you want, and he never goes back on his words. But nothing could prepare him for what to come.

You gave a few licks to his rim before shoving your tongue inside his ring of muscles with ease. “AH-” a surprised scream left illumi as you worked him open with your tongue. Soon enough his whimpers and moans that he tried to cover up so badly spread in the room.

You added two of your fingers alongside your tongue catching him by surprise. “Hey. Wai-” gasps of pleasure echoed in the room. As you spread up his hole with your fingers, allowing your tongue to venture deeper into his rim. Easily pressing against his prostate which resulted in even louder moans. All the while fixating your eyes on his face, watching it twist and turn with every thrust of your tongue.

You could tell he was about to come from the way his body shakes. But you weren’t just gonna let him cum that easily. This was your birthday after all, you’re the one who should be enjoying yourself. So you stopped which resulted in a whine and a cry. “C'mon now, we can’t just end it now. There’s still more things I wanna do to you.”

You felt yourself rock hard but didn’t wanna put it in yet, you had other plans up your sleeves. “First, how about a change in position. Hmm?”

You sat him down infront of you with his back pressed against your chest, while his hands still cuffed infront of his body. you spread his legs open using your legs.

Grabbing the box from near you. You opened it and flipped it making all the stuff inside spill infront of him. You watched as his expression changed from curiosity to that of surprise, and unsurprisingly arousal. As a bunch of toys, sex toys laid right there. All kinds and all sizes.

Oh, he was sure in for a long night. Well, he can’t start complaining now, he signed up for this after all <3.

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“Are you sure you’re that well-known dangerous assassin? Because all I'm seeing right now is a cock hungry needy slut” you whispered near his ear but he was barely able to hear whatever you said. Too busy being consumed by all the pleasure hitting him all at the same time.

He felt incredibly stuffed with only two bullet vibrators inside his hole, vibrating at the highest setting. It made the infamous assassin completely dumb. He barely knew the difference between right and left. All that and your cock wasn’t involved yet.

Not to mention the weighted nipple clips you placed on him. Making sure to pull hard at them, making them even more red and puffy than they already are. Drawing more moans out of him.

you almost wanted to laugh at the “funny” state he was in. The way he cried out made you almost feel bad for him. Wanting to just stop and start pounding into him already. Make him cum because of you over and over again. Yet there is still one more thing you want to try out.

You reached your hands into the box and pulled a Beaded Urethral Dilator. Catching illumi’s interest. But you reached your other hand and started to intensely pump his pre-cover cock. Distracting him from the object at hand.

He threw his head back from pleasure, resting it on your shoulders. Body shaking violently. He closed his eyes trying to calm himself down as he feel his long Awaited orgasm approaching.

“Huh-” voice cracking he moved his head back straight after feeling the strange object near his tip. Confusion turned to horror as you positioned the tool near his tip.

Waiting for no complaints you pushed the metal piece past his tip. Going all the way down. A loud scream shook the place as his body moved uncontrollably before he started to pant like an unhinged dog.

“Was that- a dry orgasm?” His mind feeling too lost to even understand your words. You couldn’t help but laugh, after all, you just witnessed the feared assassin have the most pathetic orgasm ever. “I just inserted it in and it left you in this state. What would happen to you if I do this?”

With no time to react. You started pulling up the metal just to push it back in place, then roughly started fucking him with the metal piece. This sudden feeling added alongside the vibrator turned his mind to mush. As he begged you to stop. But you weren’t satisfied yet. Your cock was still rock hard and neglected.

So you stopped moving your hands and instead turned him around by his hair and shoved him down your clothed crotch. He shook his head, silently asking for a break. “But didn’t you say I can do whatever? Don’t tell your backing down on your words now.” He shook his head again at your words “heh, good”

Undoing your pants to finally let your cock breathe. Taking off your boxer as your cock sprang up right away gently slapped against his cheeks.

He looked flabbergasted you could not help but giggle. “C'mon now, you better get to work.” Upon your words, he took a deep breath and swallowed up his spit before wrapping his soft lips around your tip. You sighed loudly in satisfaction, as your cock finally gets the attention it deserves.

Going down as much as he can illumi tried to take your cock fully in his mouth, but he was soon to gag on it as it reached the back of his throat. He would’ve stroked the rest while he suck what he can, but the handcuffs were an obstacle in his way.

Seeing him struggle to take your cock inside him you decided to give him a helping hand. He widened his eyes once you grabbed his hair roughly and shoved him all the way till your cock went past his throat. Tears gathered in his eyes, threatening to spill at any moment.

You gasped loudly from how good and tight his throat felt around you. It made you more anticipated to finally start fucking his hole that you groaned loudly. You were not ashamed to let out your noises and instead, you started moaning and talking about how good of a slut he is for you and how amazing he’s making you feel.

He would never admit it but it felt so amazing having you use his mouth like that. Roughly pulling at his hair as you face-fucked him. Using his mouth like it's a sex toy. It felt even more incredible for you that you could cum on the spot, but you didn’t wanna do it. Not yet at least.

Stopping as soon as you felt yourself close, you pulled him away from you by his hair making him groan. “That was a close call, don’t you think!” You said as all he did is look up at you with confused eyes “what-?” Clearly, the previous action got him so fucked up he failed to process what you said

“Err- nevermind. Anyhow, would you mind turning around for me” “huh?” Not understanding what you meant you sighed in disappointment “can you get any more dumber than that” he barely understood what you said yet he showed an offended look.

Once your patience ran out you grabbed a hand full of his hair and turned him around on his knees as he supported himself with his elbow. you positioned yourself behind him. “Sorry- I just can’t hold back anymore. I want- I need to be inside of you so bad” the sudden change caught him by surprise. Yet you can’t be blamed he just looked so gorgeous. It’s maddening.

You pressed the tip of your cock against his hole before pushing in so easily inside after all the foreplay you’ve done. Even as he was stretched open with your tongue fingers and a vibrator he was still tightening around you hard. Giving you the pleasure that you’ve been craving all this time.

Slowly pulling back before snapping your hips back harshly. Going all the way till you started feeling the vibrators that were still inside of him vibrating against your cock. Gosh, it felt so incredible. “This is amazing,” you said in a breathy tone as you started pounding his poor hole till it was all red and puffy. Determined to keep going till he’s all filled up, nice, and full.

He gasped in surprise when your hands reached to squeeze up his neck. “GAH-” tears stained his pale face, tongue lolling out, every part of his body shook at the incredible force of your thrusts.

The wights on the nipple clamps would rock with every thrust you make. Putting pressure on his nipples. Adding up to the pleasure that illumi felt.

It felt like you would explode at any second, and you’re sure illumi is too. No, he would’ve came at least three times if it wasn’t for the metal piece that settled inside his tips.

“Wanna cum- pleaAH” he begged you in a shaky tone barely making up a full sentence “really? Tell me how much you want it,” you said teasingly “SIR- ple. I want it I want it I want it I want it I wan-” the amount of desperation and desire as he repeated the same sentence was so pathetic that it made you feel like coming right away right then and there. But you held back. “Alright heh- let’s cum together then”.

Upon saying that you took a hold of the metal and pulled it out fast. A scream that would surely be heard by the rest of the family was let out as illumi had the most intense orgasm of his life. His whole body gave up on him but you did not stop. You still haven’t got to cum.

So you continued thrusting up against him. He couldn’t do anything to stop you so he just whimpered and whined as he let himself get overstimulated by your continuous moves. With just a few more thrusts you bursted. Filling him up to the brim. Just from the feeling of your cum overflowing inside of him he came all over himself a second time.

You finally collapsed beside him after you pulled out. Both of you panting loudly trying to catch your breath. Slowly but surely you came down from your high.

Before even getting the chance to relax a pair of eyes that screamed “kill” looked at you. You sweated up before turning around with a smile. You opened your mouth “shut your mouth” you closed your mouth. He turned around and gave you his back.

“Happy birthday”

He said it softly, which was a side you never thought you’d witness. Gently smiling at his words you hugged him from behind bringing him closer to your chest. “Hehehe, you’re so cute” he hummed at you “but my birthday is not over yet” “huh” he looked back at you with a look full of confusion and the very smallest hint of anticipation.

“There’s still lots of other toys I want to try out. So you better start using the assassin stamina that you have because we still have a long way to go before we’re done.”

🏷️: @gaybitchfx @vyloy

[gab-has-adhd]

[factorydefaultlu]

can we get your general headcanons for what adult trio (chrollo hisoka illumi) are like in bed (both giving and receiving if possible and if that’s too much just pick which you would prefer to see more)

Adult Trio in Bed

Illumi, Hisoka and Chrollo x GN!Reader

Illumi Zoldyck

Illumi is a switch, but prefers to be dominant and on top.

When he's on top, he's very methodical and exact with his touches. He knows exactly how to make you come undone and makes it his goal to have you crying and moaning his name. He loves watching you tremble underneath him.

When Illumi bottoms however, he's pretty vocal. He'll tell you if he likes something and whimpers a lot when you find a sweet spot on or in him. It will take a while for him to become vocal though, and that's why he'll tell you of he likes something so you don't think he's not enjoying himself.

Illumi is into some pretty freaky kinks, and would prefer a partner that's willing to take part in at least a few of them.

These kinks include: Biting/marking, knife play/needle play, blood play, breeding kink, breath play, impact play, bondage, and pet play.

Hisoka Morow

This man is nasty and depraved. A switch through and through. Whether he's submissive or dominant he's always a tease.

He knows what you like, but wants to hear you beg for it. He's very vocal himself as well. Moans and sighs a lot.

Hisoka also talks a lot, loves to ask you questions while he fucks you stupid. Laughing when you choke on your drool trying to answer him

He's also into some pretty fucked up shit too. He'll definitely try and convince you to try these things and may just force it on you if you're refusing him too much.

Kinks include: bondage, marking, blood play, knife play, breath play, impact play, pet play, age play, watersports, humiliation, degredation, rape play, scent kink.

The list could go on and on and on.

Chrollo Lucilfer

He rarely subs or bottoms, it's difficult for him to relenquish his power and genuinely relax

When he does though, he's a fucked out mess. He easily slips into subspace and becomes very vulnerable. This is why it's rare.

He's also a talker, will talk you through everything while he wrecks your body. He's vocal but it's more sighs and groans than moaning or whining.

Just like the other two, he's into some wild things. Though he won't pressure you into any of it. He's happy with pure vanilla if he really loves you.

Kinks include: bondage, sensory deprevation, impact play, marking, blood play, knife play, gun play, pet play, religious roleplay

[his0kaswh0r3]

Illumi's Dark Desires ☽

cw: dom sub relationship, bondage, biting, degradation, orgasm denial, breeding

The room was dimly lit, with only a few flickering candles casting shadows on the walls. The air was thick with anticipation, and the scent of Illumi's cologne filled your nostrils. You could feel your heart racing as you waited for him to arrive.

Illumi entered the room, his eyes scanning over your body hungrily. He was dressed in a white button up, his signature black hair contrasting sharply against the light fabric. He walked over to you slowly, his movements calculated and deliberate.

You couldn't help but feel a sense of awe in his presence. Illumi was a man of power and control, and you knew that you were completely at his mercy. You felt a shiver of excitement run down your spine as he approached you.

"You look beautiful," Illumi said, his voice low and husky. He reached out, his fingers tracing the curve of your jaw. "I've been waiting for this all day."

You could feel your cheeks flushing with desire as Illumi continued to touch you. He ran his hands down your body, his fingers tracing over your hips and thighs. You could feel yourself growing wet with anticipation, your body responding to his every touch.

Illumi led you over to the bed, his hands guiding you gently. He pushed you down onto the mattress, his body hovering over yours. You could feel his hardness pressing against your thigh, and you knew that he was just as turned on as you were.

"You're mine tonight," Illumi growled, his voice filled with possessive lust. "I'm going to take you in every way imaginable."

You shuddered with pleasure as Illumi began to undress you, his hands expertly unbuttoning your shirt and unzipping your pants. He threw your clothes aside, his eyes never leaving yours.

"You're so beautiful," Illumi whispered, his voice filled with awe. "I could stare at you all day."

You blushed, feeling a sense of vulnerability as Illumi gazed at your naked body. But you also felt a sense of power, knowing that you had the ability to bring him to his knees.

Illumi reached into the nightstand drawer, pulling out a length of rope. You felt a thrill of excitement run through you as he bound your wrists and ankles, securing you to the bedposts.

"I want you completely at my mercy," Illumi growled, his eyes blazing with desire.

You nodded, feeling a sense of submission wash over you. You trusted Illumi completely, and you knew that he would never hurt you. You felt a sense of freedom in giving up control, allowing him to take charge.

Illumi began to explore your body, his fingers tracing over your sensitive skin. He kissed and nipped at your neck, his teeth sinking into your flesh as he marked you as his own. You moaned, feeling a sense of pleasure and pain mixing together.

"I'm going to make you scream," he murmured, his voice low and dangerous.

Illumi's touch was rough and possessive, his hands leaving bruises on your skin. He knew exactly how to touch you, how to make you moan and beg for more. "You're my perfect little slut, aren't you?"

You loved it when Illumi talked to you like that, when he reduced you to nothing more than his plaything. You felt a sense of pride in being able to please him, in being able to submit to his every desire.

As Illumi continued to touch you, you could feel yourself growing closer and closer to the edge. You begged him to let you come, your voice filled with need.

"Please, Illumi," you pleaded, your voice trembling with desire. "I need to come."

Illumi chuckled, a wicked grin on his face. He loved the power he had over you, the way you submitted so willingly to his every command. He leaned down, his lips brushing against yours.

"Beg for it, slut," he growled, his voice filled with lust. "Beg me to let you come."

He continued to tease you, his fingers dancing over your clit as he brought you to the brink of orgasm again and again. You could feel yourself growing more and more desperate, your body aching for release.

Finally, Illumi relented, his fingers pushing you over the edge as you screamed his name. You could feel your body convulsing with pleasure, your muscles tensing and releasing as you came.

But Illumi wasn't done with you yet. He pulled out his cock, his thick length throbbing with desire. He entered you roughly, his hips slamming into yours as he claimed you.

You could feel every inch of him, his cock filling you completely as he thrust in and out. You moaned, feeling a sense of pleasure and pain mixing together. Illumi was rough and demanding, his movements relentless as he took what he wanted.

And when Illumi finally came, he filled you completely. You could feel his hot seed spilling inside of you, marking you as his own. He collapsed on top of you, his breath hot and heavy against your neck.

"You're mine," Illumi whispered, his voice filled with possessive lust. "Mine to use and abuse, mine to fuck and breed."

You nodded, feeling a sense of contentment wash over you. You knew that you belonged to Illumi, that you were his perfect submissive. And as you drifted off to sleep in his arms, you knew that you would always be his.

[morallygreyyn]

hi!! i hope you're having a good day/night <3

if it's not too out there, could i request softdomme!reader restraining illumi and edging him with a vibe to try to get more of a reaction than usual out of him? break this man <3

gn or female reader is fine, up to you!

in search of perfection (sub!illumi x domme!reader)

description: you had seldom heard illumi moan, but those times you had, it was like music to your ears. now, you wanted to know what it was like when he screamed...

authors note: break him i shall, dearest anon, break him i shall <3

warnings: smut, domme/sub dynamic, edging, forced orgasms, mirror sex, smidge ooc illumi towards the end (?) this is definitely a hear me out moment as he would probably never do this but i truly just want to hear this man scream 🤧 is that so wrong?

word count: 1.5k

minors dni

requests are open! please read my rules!

You brought your mouth to Illumi’s just as he reached another climax, his fingers tightening around the restraints that bound him, a quiet grunt escaping his otherwise perfectly quiet demeanour. 

“I love seeing you like this, Illumi.” You whispered to him, nibbling his earlobe. “The sight gives my heart a bit of a rush.”

“Why?” He got the words out through clenched teeth, still feeling the relentless whirr of the vibrator against his prostate.

“I have Illumi Zoldyck under my touch, orgasmming for me over and over, being oh so obedient.” You smiled sweetly, knowing your actions were anything but. “It really is quite beautiful.”

“I don’t see what is beautiful about it.”

“You are beautiful.” He seemed to freeze at your words, mouth forming the perfect ‘o’ shape. Lovingly brushing some hair out of his face, you kissed him again before stopping the vibrator, knowing that he was on the verge of reaching another climax.

“Y/n.” 

“Yes?”

“Why?”

“For fun.” You grinned, stroking his cheek. It wasn’t time for him to know of your greater plan just yet. “You’ll be a good boy and obey, won’t you?”

Flipping the vibrator back on, you watched with delight when Illumi’s muscles strained and pulled, keeping as still as possible like you wanted. You knew he was more than strong enough to demolish any form of bonds, but that would result in your displeasure, and Illumi oddly loved to please. Illumi was also tough, and would never express what he was feeling, if anything at all. So, being the helpful person that you are, you took it upon yourself to coax whatever reactions out of him that you could. If that meant breaking him then so be it.

Sensing he was close again, you cruelly turned off the vibrator and stood.

“Where are you going?” He asked as you left him on the bed, heading towards the box where you kept your toys.

“Just here.” You replied with a smile, taking your time choosing what you would use to make Illumi moan. It was a rare phenomenon, but it could be done. You had heard the elusive sound a precious few times, and you were determined to hear it again. 

Choosing your apparatus, you turned to him with a wicked glint in your eye, and Illumi knew that he would be here for a while.

It had been a couple of hours before Illumi showed promise. You had broken him down enough for his quiet grunts to turn into moans, and you couldn’t deny how beautiful he both sounded and looked. His long black hair spread around him like glossy tar, his toned and lithe body twitched and flexed with each sensation that rippled through him, a light flush dusted his cheeks as he gazed at you, fathomless eyes as heavy and pulling as a black hole. 

“What more do you want?” He breathed, words hitching as your hand traced lightly over his sensitive skin. Despite being highly trained, he was only human. 

“Scream for me, Illumi.” Your touch was as soft as a whisper, lovingly caressing his pale skin. “I want you to scream.”

“How are you going to do that?” Illumi’s question was little more than curious, albeit unintentionally condescending. He sounded as though that was an impossible task.

“With this.” You brought your hand to rest against the strap-on you would use to fill his hole, knowing he was the most unabashed when being pounded. “I think it’s high time you get filled, wouldn’t you agree?”

“What’s so special about that?” Illumi had never screamed before but, then again, he had never been made to feel this good before. He also couldn’t deny the want, which was a completely new feeling for him. 

“What’s special is that,” You pointed towards the vibrator that was rapidly buzzing against his new erection. “Is staying on.”

“Oh.” He sighed, eyelids fluttering shut at your words. He was at the brink of some precipice, although he didn’t know what. This was further than you both had ever gone before, and he didn’t quite know the extent of pleasure you were subjecting him to. He had only been exposed to bodily pleasure after meeting you. 

Settling between Illumi’s legs, something caught your eye from your peripheral vision. Turning to look at the mirror, a wicked idea formed in your mind. That was perfect.

Unfastening his restraints, you tilted his chin upwards to meet your gaze. “Get on the floor and face the mirror, I want you on your hands and knees.”

Illumi moved off of the bed to comply with your command, seemingly less fluid and graceful than he usually moved. You could tell he was tempted to tear the vibrator off of him, but you knew he was feeling too good to remove it. Only a man as strong as he was could withstand such sensitive and overbearing pleasure and find it enjoyable. 

You watched as Illumi exposed himself to you, meeting your eyes through the reflection of the mirror. Oh, the sight of him almost froze you in place. With hooded eyes, a light flush on his cheeks, lips parted, and hair tumbling to the floor, you almost lost your demeanour and pounced. How had you gotten so lucky? Who else knew this side of Illumi? He was simply exquisite.

You kept his gaze as you moved to stand behind him, kept it as you dropped to your knees, hands running up the inside of his soft thighs. His muscles tremored slightly beneath your touch. Yes, he was definitely ready. Finally, after hours, Illumi would be responsive enough.

His hole was already wet and open from the prostate vibrator that had abused him for the majority of the day, and so it took very little effort as you slowly pushed into him, taking your time and savouring the look on his face as you did so. Yes, the mirror was a fantastic idea.

One you had buried yourself to the hilt, you stilled. The only sound in the room was the whir of the vibrator, and Illumi’s heavy breathing.

“Move.” He demanded, fingers curling against the wooden floor. You smirked, he was desperate.

“Why should I?” You felt wicked as you grabbed a fistful of his hair and pulled, coaxing a low moan from the boy. “Is that what you want?”

“Yes.”

You pulled him up, his back flush against your chest while your hand wrapped around his throat, giving it a slight squeeze. “You want me to fuck you nice and good?”

“Yes.”

“If you insist.” You kissed his neck before pushing him back down and letting him touch the floor again. “I am looking forward to that scream, Illumi.”

Pulling out as slowly as you pushed in, your hips snapped forward and Illumi jolted. Without giving him a moment to catch his breath, you began pounding. Having been edged for hours, Illumi almost couldn’t handle the unbearable sensation of both a vibrator and a strap-on making him feel overwhelmingly sensational. He felt as though he was on fire, his entire being was burning.

You watched carefully through the mirror, watching his face contort as he lost control of both his emotions and his reactions. Moans freely fell from his lips, and grew ever louder the closer he got to his high that he had been chasing but denied. His face looked almost pained, but you knew it was from exquisite pleasure. Illumi would never look pained if he was actually in pain. 

His eyes rarely left yours, only briefly a few times when his eyes closed on a particularly good thrust that brushed against his prostate. His voice had become strangled, almost choking on the sounds he was making. You wrapped some of his hair around your fist as you rode his ass, sincerely loving every moment of this. His expression was one you had never seen before and you felt the need to commit it to memory. 

“You’re so beautiful.” You couldn’t help but say, and his eyes flickered to yours before returning to watching himself get fucked by you. You could tell he was extraordinarily close, his voice getting louder and louder with each snap of your hips. “I will let you finish, but you know the condition.”

“I know.” He managed, crying out as he held your gaze once more. His eyes did not stray from you as he reached the high he so desperately sought, and Illumi Zoldyck came with a scream. 

If you could have a single sound memorised, it would have been that one. It was simply perfection. 

Helping him through his earth shattering orgasm, Illumi’s body trembled against yours as he slowly came back to earth. 

You pulled out and took off the vibrator, tossing them to the side to be cleaned later. Your first priority was your boyfriend who was lying on the floor, forehead pressed against the wooden panels as he caught his breath.

“You got what you wanted.” He said as you brought him into your arms, his head dropping against your shoulder. 

“It was perfect.” You stroked his hair, planting kisses against his temples as you made him look at you.  “You are perfect.”

[getoswhore]

Heyy so since u miss writing for hxh one of my biggest thirsts Is that illumi is super duper inexperienced or never really cared and then reader just guiding him through and him being super flustered but eager to please reader and learn more :(( subby illumi 24/7 in my head

⟣ ──┈ · · · illumi zoldyck! ໒꒱ — hunter x hunter.

꒰১ warnings : mdni / (n)sfw – pwp + f! reader, sub! illu, he's whiney and needy, praise, this is soft :(. ₊˚﹕.

the warm hold you wrap softly around the base of your husband's pretty cock makes his blushing tip leak with a pearl of pre; guiding him with a cruel tease and rubbing the bulbous crown of his length up your slit to kiss at your sensitive clit. the slippery feel you stick at his smooth skin pours a soft moan from his lips, watching with wide, doe eyes as you shuffle yourself closer to his tense frame.

"it's ok, illu... just push in gently—!" he didn't mean it, and you can tell by the way he snaps up at you; pretty eyes watching yours when he instinctively pushed in a little too deep too fast—it was almost needy and filled with want, a want he didn't have control over or how to properly expose of it...

you're too much for him and it's a first for illumi to feel that foreign feeling of overwhelming need... he's never felt this and it's bothering because he doesn't fully understand at the grasping idea of love between bodies connecting in such ways—nonetheless love itself...

his head tilts softly; long feathering hair curtaining off to the side as he leans forward, chest pressing against yours, feeling your soft mounds of flesh cushion him before pressing a firm kiss to your lips.

and he takes this chance to listen and guide himself with you, rolling his hips in and baritone till his pulsing tip kissed deep into your gummy walls and stretched you breathtakingly full. it pulls a whine out of you both, but the settle he stiffens against you with longs a deep urge from you.

"just like that, illumi. you're doing so good, just pull back whoever you're ready..." catching your lower lip between your teeth, he does just that; the bones to his hips rocking into a slow rhythm, feeling his legs tremble into bottoming out at the warm feel of your cunt swallowing him up at each slow thrust.

"fuck–oh, illu, keep going." your hands skim down the curvature of his back, feeling cold skin rise with goosebumps as you handle his hips into a gentle grasp; heeding to his barreling thrust to push in deeper.

the connection between your eyes with his is never ending, no disconnection just pure fascination.

[niilue]

hello! could i request illumi + panties to the side + male dom reader? no pressure!

⎯ illumi zoyckl • hxh

cw: dom reader, male reader, sex, panties to the side, mention of daddy

niilue's 3k event

as (name) undressed illumi, he noticed that he was wearing a pair of red silk panties under his clothes. intrigued, he set them aside carefully, admiring their delicate fabric and feminine design. once illumi was completely naked, (name) paused for a moment, debating whether to continue without the panties or to ask illumi to put them back on. in the end, he decided to let illumi choose.

"illumi, my dear," he said, his voice deep and husky, "do you want to keep wearing these red panties while we make love?" the question hung in the air between them, the anticipation almost palpable.

illumi looked up at him with those piercing blue eyes, a mix of desire and curiosity. "yes," he breathed, "i want you to fuck me hard, daddy." his voice was low and seductive, and it sent a shiver down (name's) spine. with a nod, illumi climbed onto the bed, spreading his legs invitingly.

(name) couldn't resist any longer. he reached out and pulled the red panties back up over illumi's hips, letting them bunch at his waist. the feeling of the silk against his skin was intoxicating, and as he positioned himself between illumi's legs, he knew he was going to enjoy this even more than he'd imagined. he paused for a moment, looking down at illumi's exposed body, and then with a growl, he thrust forward, burying himself deep inside illumi's warm, welcoming body.

as he began to move inside illumi, (name) couldn't help but let out a groan. the feeling of illumi's body wrapped around his own, the softness of the silk panties against his skin, it was all too much. he thrust harder, biting down on his lower lip to stifle the animalistic sounds building in his throat. illumi's soft gasps and moans filled the air, and the wet, sucking sound of their bodies coming together was almost deafening. the red panties, bunched at illumi's waist, seemed to taunt him, urging him on as he pumped harder and faster, his hips meeting illumi's in a rhythmic dance of desire.

sweat beaded on their foreheads and dripped down between their bodies as (name) continued to take illumi in a relentless, punishing pace. his breath came in ragged gasps, and illumi's eyes rolled back in his head in ecstasy. the wet, slapping sound of their skin meeting was almost deafening as (name) lost control.

"fuck me, (name)," illumi whispered breathlessly, arching his back as (name) thrust deeper. "oh, god, i need you so much." his fingers dug into the sheets, his body tensing as he felt the familiar tightening in his lower abdomen. "please, make me come." he whimpered, the sound muffled by the red panties bunched at his waist.

(name) growled, feeling his control slipping as he drove harder and faster into illumi's welcoming body. "you're so wet, illumi," he groaned, his hips meeting illumi's in a brutal rhythm. "you feel so good." he reached down, roughly gripping illumi's hip, pulling him closer as he thrust deeper. "almost there, my beautiful slut." he whispered, his hot breath fanning across illumi's sweat-dampened skin. "just let go and let me take you."

illumi cried out, his body shuddering as he finally came, his inner walls squeezing tightly around (name's) cock. (name) followed close behind, his voice raw as he released deep into the red silk panties, filling them with his seed.

(name) collapsed on top of illumi, their sweaty bodies sticking together. he grinned down at him, feeling triumphant and satisfied. "you're mine, illumi," he growled, "and i'll never let you go." with a final thrust, he pulled out of the red panties, rolling them up in his hand. he leaned down, capturing illumi's lips in a rough, possessive kiss as he spilled his hot seed over illumi's stomach, marking him as his own. "now, my beautiful lover," he breathed against illumi's ear, "time for a reward." he reached down, grabbing the vibrator from the bedside table and switched it on with a click. "i think you know what to do with this." illumi arched his back as the vibrations began to stir him back to life, a blush creeping up his neck. "yes, daddy," he whispered, already reaching for the panties and beginning to slide them off.

word count: 722

[nakedtoasterr]

Male reader month | March edition

Welcome to my male reader month post! This is part of a monthly series of posts I will be making compiling MR posts from throughout the month! This post is for March and I found 15 fics for you all to enjoy. Please like and reblog this post as well as the fics linked. ☆(≧∀≦*)ﾉ

Sfw section

The perfect gift | part 1 - part 2

Reader x Jungkook

CW: none

Written by @gayslayzen

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Healing through touch

Reader x

CW: none

Written by @ihugpedro

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Change

Reader x Chad Meeks

CW: angst, fluff, mentions of bullying

Written by @roses-r-rosie3

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Sagau x Gn!Reader head cannons

Reader x Sagau

CW: none

Written by @t0mmy-bear

Sorry abt the fact that there’s only 4 fics here not everyone got back to me in time

Nsfw bottom reader section

Incubus

Reader x Kaoru Hakaze

CW: Dub-con, rough sex

Written by @mariondeux

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Jealous diluc headcanons

Reader x Diluc

CW: Spanking, rough sex, overstim, possessiveness

Written by @melonn-soda

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Fill me up pretty please

Reader x Ghost

CW: breeding kink, biting (just like one sentence), overstimulation

Written by @killmeprettypleasee

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Through the skin (ftm inclusive)

Reader x Rodrick

CW: piercing fetish, grinding, first time, protected sex

Written by @pansywriting

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I got what you need

Reader x Yuta Okkotsu

CW: jealousy, semi-public sex, praise, degradation, finger sucking, kissing, doggy-style, creampie, undepicted aftercare, possessiveness, exhibitionism

Written by: @dabisbratz

Nsfw top reader section

Present for the birthday boy

Reader x Illumi

CW: Hair pulling, Breeding, Face fucking, Degrading, Use of sex toys, Fingering, Nipple play, Sounding, Overstimulation, Orgasm denial, dumbification, Eating out, Sir kink, Choking, Cuffs

Written by @secretivemessenger.

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New boss (ftm character)

Reader x Steven Grant

CW: Public (Bathroom) Masturbation, Fingering, Squirting

Written by @l1tw1ck

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Sub Cyno and Tighnari x stressed out dom male reader

CW: none(?)

Reader x Cyno and Tighnari

Written by @nsfw-lone-wolf-nergiganos

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Krunt Kunckle

Reader x Kurt Kunckle

CW: Crossdressing, leash, caught

Written by @urm-0-m-ish0t

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Your body’s bangin’, out of control!

Reader x cole cassidy

CW: vanilla, some hair pulling(?), praise

Written by @c-nstellati-ns

Honorable mentions

@floweerbby

If you’re a bottom reader this blog is for you! They posted their first fic just yesterday!

If you’re interested in some good quality fics with immaculate writing follow this blog and keep an eye on it.

@blank-slate-jay

A good page for some nice sfw male reader, if you’re not in the mood for the nasties go take a look! (Fair warning they have 2 nsfw fics up but it’s majority sfw rn)

Special thanks to everyone who gave me permission to add their work (·ω<)

If you have any criticism for me or even just recommendations for next time feel free to dm me/send an ask. Please also remember to follow all these amazing creators and keep writing y’all!!! We love you

[whatevermakesyoubreak]

🔪❤️‍🔥 a few (lot) of my personal illumi sfw/nsfw headcanons:

> these are strictly regarding my illumi x oc [ft. hisoka and chrollo] fic, sic infit, (which is essentially succession ft. the zoldyck’s & a bit of a romcom starring illumi), so yes— some of these will be ooc & a few of them include lira so if u don’t like her keep scrolling 😤

- actually has the most unhinged sense of humor. sassy as FUCK but it’s hard to tell because he speaks as if he’s being completely serious. he finds a lot of things funny— especially things he shouldn’t— but just doesn’t express it unless he absolutely cannot keep a straight face anymore. (we all remember his goddamn sea lion laughing face, right?)

- is actually quite dense when it comes to anything besides assassination. not at all stupid, just… dense.

- however, illumi is a man with a plan if nothing else. he rarely if ever will go into a situation with no preparation, research, etc.

- he likes movies! all genres too— anything from thrillers, comedy, art house, classics, horror, romantic comedies, dramas, foreign films, etc— he likes them all, but only if they meet his standards. (i.e, he hates slasher films because he finds them unrealistic, some films are too artsy for him, and he has trouble understanding some romantic dramas). his favorite series is the Hellraiser series— he took lots of inspiration from Pinhead. (the movie him and Lira were watching in chapter 2 was Requiem For A Dream!)

- this motherfucker has a DIRTY mouth. i firmly believe that he cannot form a single thought without there being some form of profanity involved. however, he doesn’t express this unless he feels comfortable around someone, i.e, Lira, Hisoka, his family. he’s a master of code switching when around upper-class people, but goddamn— Kikyo should’ve been washing his mouth out with soap instead of stringing him up tbh.

- that dirty mouth of his carries over to… other areas as well. says the FOULEST, FILTHIEST and NASTIEST things during sex & you wouldn’t expect it at ALL. condescending as hell. prime degradation & prime praise. he does it all.

- hair pulling and boobs. that is all.

- switch. enough said. & when he subs, he is a big baby whiny brat boy who wants to be bullied and to also be told how pretty he is. when he doms, he doms. enjoys a bit of attitude as well from his partner. could be considered a brat tamer.

- speaking of sex, he’s hung like a fucking horse & knows it.

- he has an oral fixation & is an absolute MUNCH/THROAT GOAT. and he’s sloppppyyyyy with it too omg. (this is literally canon, cuz why tf was he licking those needles???)

- also, that stoic, inexpressive & unemotional exterior of his? yeah, that shatters like glass the second this man gets horny. like he fully gets stuuupid cock/pussydrunk. he can’t even think properly anymore. he’s feral— slurring his words, drooling, begging— you name it, all while saying the filthiest shit. once he’s there, he’s there. y’all don’t wanna hear me you just wanna dance, but he’s a mess. he’s so repressed otherwise there’s no alternative than but to be the epitome of actual depravity.

- simultaneously has a breeding kink and is TERRIFIED to knock someone up before marriage. oh, illumi.

- a true bisexual, and has no preference. it truly depends on the person for him.

- mommy issues & daddy issues. like… bad. like… the enmeshment and parentification are real with this one.

- genuinely hates his father but can’t admit it to himself. he won’t even allow himself to think that way.

- fairly indifferent towards his mother, but subconsciously latches on to any sort of nurturing/female care he can get due to never receiving it as a child. this shows heavily in the speed of development with his relationship with Lira.

- even though he does not like his father, he appreciates how his father and mother’s relationship functions. he ultimately respects women— perhaps to the point of putting them on a pedestal.

- i think he’s actually a bit of a romantic— it’s just very very verrrryyyyy repressed & tainted with darkness and possession. but, once he loves, he loves for life. in his own illumi way, of course.

- he’s a heavy drinker. he’s not an alcoholic, but he definitely drinks more than he should, especially after jobs. prefers scotch on the rocks to anything else, but absolutely will not turn down a fruity/sweet drink either. someone please give this man a pina colada.

- eats like an amusement park raccoon when he’s away from home. literally no idea how he’s so strong when his diet is 80% sugar, 10% booze, and 10% grease.

- doesn’t actually spend that much time on his hair. uses high-quality products, but otherwise, he’s just genetically blessed.

- he DOES care about his hair though— when Lira singed the ends, he was PISSED.

- he likes when she braids his hair. sometimes they wear matching twin french or dutch braids while training. Kalluto is lowkey jealous because his hair is too short to join in.

- has a skill for applying makeup & wigs. before he mastered his abilities, he used to disguise himself the old fashioned way.

- he secretly really wants to dress Lira up like his own personal doll, i.e, do her makeup, hair, pick her outfit, etc. not for any weird control reasons, but genuinely because he thinks she’d be cute.

- illumi is actually not the best at hand-to-hand combat. he’s an assassin, not a fighter. his job is to kill, not win. by no means is he unskilled, but when compared to others who ARE masterful close quarters combatants, i.e, Lira, he is only above average. (only ‘above average’ like that’s supposed to be bad lmao)

- has an eidetic memory & pretends to forget things in order to catch people in lies.

- is actually not as socially inept or awkward as he comes off. he’s had to do his fair share of seduction and deception in his line of work, so he knows how to charm people to an extent if he really wants to.

- however… his version of flirting with someone he actually likes is staring at them very hard from across a room. he thinks this is him being obvious btw.

- he likes to watch the clouds in his spare time. literally for no reason. he just finds it relaxing. he also likes the sun, contrary to his appearance.

- he does a lot of things for no reason, tbh. he feels rather lost without having someone to assassinate, so besides stalking Killua, and before he met Lira, he tended to do random things in his spare time on a whim.

- he doesn’t like the ocean, snow, or rain, particularly because he hates being cold and wet at the same time. kind of like a cat. has heated bathroom floors for this reason.

- he doesn’t kill for pleasure. he lacks the sadistic tendencies that people like Hisoka, Lira, & Kalluto have. he simply kills because it’s his job & he sees it as his duty as a Zoldyck.

- he is actually a lot more rational and compassionate than he lets on. compassionate may be the wrong word— he just tries to give his targets quick deaths and doesn’t prefer to see anyone suffer unless they’ve angered him. he also won’t kill anyone if he deems it pointless or isn’t getting paid.

- will do anything, and i mean ANYTHING to get what he wants. very machiavellian in nature when he’s focused.

- doesn’t consider Lira or Hisoka to be distractions even though they quite literally are. he’s a hypocrite, but we all love him for it.

- his love language is gift giving. he will buy someone he cares about anything they look at for more than two seconds.

- he also values quality time. he will follow Lira around like a cat just saying and doing nothing, only wanting to be around her.

- he wants to get married. like, actually married, not just killing-contract married.

- he also wants children. plural.

- scorpio sun, capricorn rising, cancer moon. (ooooh that moon/rising opposition SHOWS)

- can be somewhat traditional when it comes to gender roles, which is rather ironic given his choice in partner(s). he believes it’s the man’s job to protect and provide, and has no issue doing so, even if it’s done in the most deranged ways.

- he cannot remember the majority of his childhood, only bits here and there.

- ptsd? more like P! T! S! D!

- he likes people that can get under his skin. he enjoys banter.

- notices everything, and i mean EVERYTHING. he is extremely observant, but quietly and carefully holds on to the information/patterns he sees— just in case he needs to use that information against someone.

- he has EXPENSIVE taste— forget designer, i’m talking custom made couture and shit like that. designer to him is like loungewear.

- he actually prefers dogs to cats. he wouldn’t be opposed to having a smaller dog of his own one day, but can’t currently because Mike would eat it. he doesn’t hate cats, however, he just doesn’t like how they all seem to want to play with his hair.

- actually, i think he rather likes all animals. not in a Lira-esque “i love animals because it’s fun to imagine what they’d look like without skin,” type of way, but actually likes them.

- he values usefulness and patience in his partners and also finds their homicidal tendencies exasperating. he does not want a weak partner, nor a victim.

- while obsessive and possessive, he has absolutely no interest in abusing his partner in any way. the thought itself disgusts him. he wants to see them happy and safe, not miserable. he would rather be alone than with someone who didn’t meet his standards.

- he’s not a big cuddler— he’s the type to just lay his entire body weight on top of someone— but just because it feels nice to him. he doesn’t really care if he’s smothering the other person— if he chose them, they should be strong enough for him, right? he does make an exception occasionally and allows Lira to hold him, but that’s typically for access to her boobs… so. he prefers having her sit in his lap, or alternatively, sitting in Hisoka’s lap himself.

- when it comes to his relationships, he is very very possessive, to the point where it should be scary. however, Lira is also insane and just finds it sweet.

- hates wearing shirts at home. he’s in expensive lounge pants and nothing else— maybe a tank top and crewneck sweatshirt if he absolutely has to— but other than that? shirtless lumi always.

- while he likes most animals, he has an irrational hatred of birds. literally zero reason for this. maybe jealousy?

- his hair moves on its own a lot— not only when he’s angry, but also whenever he’s feeling anything intense, i.e. lust, euphoria, etc. it can range from the way it whips around when he’s bloodlusted to just stirring as if he’s standing in a gentle breeze.

[i-heart-hxh]

Do you have any theories about how Illumi's needle worked on Killua? I've seen some people saying that they didn't like the needle being the reason of Killua's insecurities, but imo the needle used Killua's fear and insecurities as a trigger to make him run, whether that fear was about fighting someone stronger than him or the fear of failing to help/protect Gon, those were his true feelings and the needle would just trigger Illumi's command of running away, that's why when fighting the bomber, even though he himself admits that Sub had a higher aura capacity than him the needle didn't affect him, since he was confident he would win after all the planning he did, I also think that the effects of the needle were stronger when facing manipulators, cuz the aura felt similar to Illumi's, like when he fought Zushi and Shoot.

Hello anon! These are great observations--I especially like what you pointed out at the end about the needle's effects being particularly strong against Manipulators, as that's a point I hadn't considered! You're right that those are both fights where he was particularly perturbed and it's interesting (and I'm sure intentional) that they're both Manipulators like Illumi. We're not given much detail about the needle and what it did exactly in canon, so these are all just my best guesses based on what we've seen.

I agree that the mechanics of the needle likely involved using Killua's fear and anxiety to trigger the order from Illumi to run. That's why as long as he's confident and not worried about being able to win, it's not an issue, but as soon as he starts getting concerned about his chances against a particular opponent, the command takes over.

I think likely the needle was something Silva and Illumi (possibly with Kikyo's input as well) discussed and agreed on, probably to try to temper Killua's rebelliousness and keep him safe, as the family's chosen future heir. Actually, I wonder if the needle may have been placed before Killua was sent to Heaven's Arena for training, as that could be an extra failsafe to stop him from fighting opponents there that were beyond his ability to handle. I also wonder about the timing of when Alluka was locked up. While Killua was at Heaven's Arena would have been convenient timing for that to happen, especially if part of the needle's purpose was to get him to forget her... I don't recall canon giving us exact timing for this, but it would make sense. It's possible there's something in canon that contradicts this, but I can't think of anything offhand. This could have even been partly why Killua was sent to Heaven's Arena for so long for training in the first place, to separate and disconnect him from Alluka so the family could figure out what to do with her without Killua interfering.

Anyway, to restate more clearly, I think the needle likely has these functions:

Keep Killua from fighting those who are beyond his ability to handle -- This serves two purposes I think, the first of which is to keep him from rebelling against family members, and the second is to keep him from fighting opponents who could kill or permanently maim him, while still allowing him to train and kill as needed.

Get him to forget about Alluka so the family can decide what to do with her without Killua's input and emotional attachment to her getting in the way.

But, I think the needle may have failed to prevent his rebellion because at the point he left, he was potentially already stronger than some of his family members and wasn't afraid to attack them (remember, he attacked and injured Kikyo and Milluki when he left--they both seem like they could be less powerful than a growing Killua). Also, the family severing his tie to Alluka gave him less motivation to stay in the first place.

Silva and Illumi see the needle as an assurance that he will return eventually once he does rebel and flee. The needle makes it incredibly likely that Killua will abandon his friends in a dangerous situation and betray them, hence the promise Silva makes with Killua when he allows him to leave. Silva trusts Killua will break the promise and learn from this experience that friendship will always end badly, so it's better to just give up, come home, and be the heir to the family business they've set him up to be.

(There's also a story in one of the novels about Killua raising a puppy named Wolf and Silva eventually convincing Killua to kill Wolf, which supports this kind of conclusion. Just a warning that the description of this story and the other stories in the post I linked are pretty awful and may be triggering.)

It's actually interesting to view the situation with Pitou and Kite through this lens--in that instance, Killua did get overwhelmed with the opponents' power and grabbed Gon and fled. While I don't see this as a betrayal and it was ultimately the right thing to do under that extreme circumstance, his promise with Silva likely intensified Killua's emotions around the situation, and the fact that he did flee and leave Kite behind made Killua even more prone to take Bisky's words about eventually leaving Gon behind to die seriously. I think this situation is especially hard for Killua with how Gon is ultimately affected by the aftereffects of leaving Kite behind (no matter how much Gon refuses to blame Killua for this)... I'm sure this is at least one factor in him leaving Gon, ultimately.

Another thing to consider is that people (including me) have long wondered why Killua wasn't taught about nen prior to leaving the Zoldyck manor. If the needle was partially intended to keep him from rebelling against the family, it's possible if he had access to nen he'd be even harder to control and the needle wouldn't be able to stop him from rebelling against weaker members of the family. They may have been waiting to teach him nen until they felt they had him under better control and broke his willpower down. They also may have wanted him to master all other basics before introducing nen to him. The needle could have even been an aspect of that--if he's not fighting much stronger opponents than him, he's less likely to be exposed to nen before they can teach it to him with whatever timing they had planned.

I know some people consider the needle bad writing. I do wish it had been more heavily foreshadowed in the series before he pulled it out, but I also think the needle makes sense on a few different levels when you think it over carefully. And, while pulling it out does free Killua to fight whoever he wants and remember that Alluka is waiting for him, as we see in the series it's not as though it erases his trauma or difficulties caused by his past.

Thank you so much for sending this! I feel like both your question and thinking about it enough to answer helped me put together some puzzle pieces that I hadn't prior to this, so I'm grateful! It's an interesting topic to think about.