#Stahli is a good boi

[milomaesa]

Stahli; Exists

Xyon; This is mine now

Fay Court; No

Xyon; Ignores the government in favor of tall wolf boy You are mine now. You will help me write a book. We ignore the government in this house.

Stahli; Confused but follows the short nerdy doctor

[thoselethalarts]

Who's the Best (and worst) Roommate?

1. Matt. Simply by virtue that he's... never around? He spends extremely long amounts of time away from his room (spending the nights with Marcus usually instead), which means when he was a 2nd year you'd get the whole room to yourself most days. The times he actually is in his home dorm he mostly keeps to himself and reads or listens to audio books. He does like to talk and make friendly conversation though, so if you initiate he'll perk right up from whatever he's doing to chat. The most bother you'll have from him is when him, Marcus, and Kaz get together for a group study session, but they're able to move if you need privacy.

2. Kaz. He's just a sweet boy! If a bit if a pushover sometimes. He likes to talk and get to know you better, but is understanding if you'd prefer to be alone. Any mess he makes he makes sure to keep to his side of the room, though he also gets antsy when the room is a mess he doesn't like to voice his concerns when it happens. If you're feeling under the weather he'll offer to get you something from Sam's to help you feel better. He spends a lot of time away from his room throughout the day and mostly just comes back to sleep late at night (though he tries to be quiet as possible when he comes back too late). Every week him, Marcus, and Matt will have group study sessions and alternate between each other hosting, but they can usually move to the lobby if you ask.

3. Stahli. Yet another sweet boy! He likes to talk about his day and your day, and might offer to make you some tea and a treat when he's making some for himself. Actually he might offer you food often, since he's always looking for a taste tester for his cooking experiments. He's a little bit of a neat freak though and might pester you to clean things up if you leave the room too unkempt for his taste. Also, he can't stand strong fragrances so he might complain if you want to burn a candle/incense with too strong a fragrance or if you use body spray/perfume.

4. Phobos. He's antisocial and doesn't like being bothered. Being his roommate is only nice if you don't want someone to talk to, cuz chances are he won't want to talk to you even if you try and initate conversation. It's possible to befriend him, but it will just take a bit of time. He stays up really late on his computer, so hopefully you can sleep through the clicking of his keyboard. He gets pissed off if you try to have company over, but can ignore them by playing on his computer with his headphones on.

5. Marcus. He keeps to himself for the most part, so you won't have to worry about him bothering you, however insomnia + night terrors will make sleeping in the same room as him a bit of a challenge. You might hear him wake up or make startled noises periodically through the night. Also his boyfriend Matt is usually hanging around the room with him and will often spend the night. Somehow he's even more nocturnal than Marcus is. Hopefully you'll get used to it. Other than that him, Matt, and Kaz will have group study sessions sometimes and he'll host it in his dorm room. He's understanding though if you want him to move somewhere else.

6. Nyx. Unfortunately staying with him would kind of suck unless you share a lot of characteristics with him. He spends a lot of time alone in his room when classes are out, so I hope you weren't hoping for privacy. Because of his low heat tolerance he requires special accommodations and keeps the room fairly cool, so hopefully you like cooler temperatures too. He often stays up late on his computer and does voice calls with his friends, and while he'll try and lower his voice he still isn't that good at monitoring his volume. There's also a slim chance of Spontaneous Eels knocking on your door at any given moment with no warning. No they won't go away either if you turn them away. He sleeps with a sound machine and a lava lamp cuz he can't stand the dark and quiet. Also he will absolutely get upset if you have too loud of company over, even if he doesn't say something. Hypocrite.

7. Vantablack. As if being around them for long periods of time wasn't unnerving or invasive enough, their side of the room is a godamn quarantine zone. They like to decorate their side of the room with bones and teeth strung up like string lights along their bed and there's a locked chest at the foot of their bed which you can only assume is full of human skulls. Weird sigils are painted on the walls around the window and by the doorway and they will NOT let you scrub them off, no matter how much they bother you. There's a weird smell of moss and lake water that permeates their side of the room at all times. You get the feeling they might have been rummaging through your things when you're not home but you have no proof. They're talkative and really want to get to know you better, but you get this weird feeling that they don't just want to get closer to you because they want to be friends...

[stardusstt]

Störmbreaker killed it last Saturday...and I almost killed myself 😅

[atinyrabbit]

love/hate songs

Since 8tracks is messed up and playmoss is gonna disappear and Spotify doesn't have many songs, I’m posting some of my playlists here. This is a list of songs about love/hate relationships for pairings. Enemies to lovers, tsundere personalities, hero/villain couplings, opposites attract, loving someone you know you shouldn't. This list is several years old so the songs are older and kinda ‘scene.’

Major trigger warnings for the lyrics of these songs. Some songs have violent lyrics. This playlist romanticizes conflict.

Song list under read more:

Love to Hate You - Erasure Nicotine - Panic! at the Disco Don't Let It Go To Your Head - Fefe Dobson Your Love Will Kill Me - Daniel Lavoie Bruises and Bitemarks (Remix) - Good With Grenades October & April - The Rasmus feat. Anette Olzon Violator - Son of Rust Sick Amore - El Creepo Disgusting - Ke$ha Dangerous - Depeche Mode Oleander - Mother Mother Fear & Delight - The Correspondents Love is a Suicide - Natalia Kills Sex as a Weapon - Pat Benatar I'd Love To Kill You - Katie Melua Before I Ever Met You - Banks Rent - Pet Shop Boys Helpless When She Smiles - Backstreet Boys Holy - Zolita Strangelove - Depeche Mode I Won't Say (I'm In Love) - Susan Egan Can't Feel My Face - The Weeknd Only You - Ellie Goulding Devil Devil - Milck Livin' In A World Without You - The Rasmus  

Hate Love - Adelitas Way Suddenly - Peter Heppner Sick and Twisted Affair - My Darkest Days Radioactive Mirrors - Amazinglyjon Dangerous - Cascada Violence (Club Mix) - Grimes & i_o This Is Love - Air Traffic Controller Make Hate To Me - Citizen Soldier Gently Break It - Beck Pete Portrait of a Female - Cruel Youth This Could Be Love - Alkaline Trio Lie, Lie, Lie - Myra You Give Love a Bad Name - Bon Jovi I Only Wanna Be With You - Volbeat Maybe You're Not the Worst Thing Ever - Cast of Galavant I've Got You Under My Skin - Seether Human - Oh Land Le Bien Qui Fait Mal - Mozart, L'Opera Rock Can't Help Falling In Love [Light x Dark Remix] - feat. Brooke Tommee Profitt Fell For You - Green Day Stupid Grin - Dragonette Broken - Lauren Hoffman Take Me to Church - Hozier Super Psycho Love - Simon Curtis Whip - Mr.Kitty   Get You Off - Fefe Dobson Crazy Girl - Ke$ha Vice - POP ETC Cannibal - Silversun Pickups Rest in Peace - Original Cast of Buffy The Vampire Slayer Hem of Your Garment - Cake Tear You Apart - She Wants Revenge Truth Or Dare - Marianas Trench We Sink - CHVRCHES Gingerbread Man - Melanie Martinez You Stupid Girl - Framing Hanley   Die For You - Red F*cking Boyfriend - The Bird & The Bee Mean - Nicole Dollanganger Must Be Crazy for Me - Melissa Etheridge That Girl - Alexz Johnson FMLYHM - Seether Bad Romance - Halestorm Aquarius - Within Temptation Flirt (With Me) - Zeromancer I'm With Stupid - Pet Shop Boys Stop This Song (Love Sick Melody) - Paramore Trying Not To Love You - Nickelback Kill for You - Zolita A Love Like War - All Time Low You Need Me - SWANS Hatef--k - The Bravery Bottled Affection - Cold War Kids True Love - ThouShaltNot Terrible Thing - Ag I Can't Decide - Scissor Sisters Exit Wounds - The Romanovs Gun - Chvrches Every Breath You Take - Chase Holfelder Whole Lotta Love - Smash Mouth Bloodsport - Sneaker Pimps XXX - Imran-C Bitter Rivals - Sleigh Bells Destruction Of Us - Mr.Kitty Teeth - 5 Seconds of Summer Love Me Dead - Ludo Paralyzed - The Used River - Bishop Briggs Neon - VERSA Sucker For Pain - Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa & Imagine Dragons I'm Your Villain - Franz Ferdinand Beautiful Monster - Ne-Yo I Own You - Birgit Let Me Be Your Armor - ASSEMBLAGE 23 Perfect Enemy - t.A.T.u. Straight for the Knife - Sia One More Night - Maroon 5 I Hate You (Don't Leave Me) - Ke$ha The Moth - Aimee Mann Mad Love - The Veronicas Toxic (Acoustic Britney Spears Cover) - Johnny Goth Bad Intentions - Digital Daggers Shut Up - Nick Lachey Soldier - Bitter Ruin First Bad Habit - Vanessa Hudgens In The Darkness - Dead By Sunrise Tearin' Up My Heart - *NSYNC You'll Be Back - Original Broadway Cast of Hamilton & Jonathan Groff Crazy In A Good Way - VERIDIA Combat Baby - Metric In Bluebeard's Castle - Unwoman When Doves Cry - Prince State of Seduction - Digital Daggers Whataya Want From Me - Adam Lambert Broken Inside - Broken Iris Murder (feat. Minx, Chilled) - Boyinaband Why Do You Love Me - Charlotte Lawrence Follow You Home - Nickelback Love To See You Cry - Enrique Iglesias Impressed - Natalie Imbruglia Die For You - Megan McCauley Your Kind (Speak to Me) - Danger Radio Tyrant - The Bravery Violent Games - Polica Toxicated Love - NEO Nemeses (feat. John Roderick) - Jonathan Coulton Miserable - Lit Running From My Shadow - The Velvet Teaparty Barricade - Stars Trouble (Stripped) - Halsey Brutal Hearts - Bedouin Soundclash Desire - Meg Myers Sticks And Stones - The Pierces Just the Girl - The Click Five Himerus and Eros - The Spill Canvas Blood - In This Moment I'm Insane - Myah Marie Fiction (Dreams In Digital) - Orgy Whore - In This Moment Monster - Ryan Adames Foundations - Kate Nash Only When I Lose Myself - Depeche Mode Hatchet - Archive The Beginning of the Twist - The Futureheads Change - Deftones Trust Me - Marc Senter Love Me Hate Kiss Me Kill Me (Scndl Remix) - Fukkk Offf Big Bad Handsome Man - Imelda May The Mighty Fall - Fall Out Boy My Obsession - Cinema Bizarre Stitches - Orgy Miss Kiss Kiss Bang - Alex Swings Oscar Sings! Sweet Dreams - Beyonce Fuel To The Fire - The Maine Closer (Nine Inch Nails Cover) - Niki Barr Band Clueless - Orla Gartland Devil Woman - Cliff Richard Hatefuck - Motionless In White I Love You But I Don’t Like You - Molly Moore Overpower Thee - AUF dER MAUR Get Down On Your Knees And Tell Me You Love Me - All Time Low Post Blue - Placebo Genghis Khan - Miike Snow Poison - Alice Cooper I Know I'm A Wolf - Young Heretics Little Toy Gun - honeyhoney I Miss the Misery - Halestorm Dirty Sticky Floors (radio mix) - Dave Gahan Clarity - Zedd I Get A Kick Out Of You - Frank Sinatra I Hate Myself for Loving You - Joan Jett and the Blackhearts Die for You - Otherwise Labyrinth - Oomph! Black Black Heart - David Usher I Want to Destroy Something Beautiful - Josh Woodward I'm a Priest - Daniel Lavoie You Need Me - SWANS Afraid of the Dark - Phildel Virus - Ryan Adames I Wanna Be Your Dog (remix) - Emilie Simon Hello Goodbye - The Beatles Sarcasm (Album Version) - Get Scared Use Me - Hinder Poison & Wine - The Civil Wars Pretty When You Cry - VAST Tainted Love - Soft Cell Scream - Avenged Sevenfold Think About It - Danger Radio Gallery Piece - Of Montreal Bang Bang Bang Bang - Sohodolls Little Girls - Say Anything I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace Love Runs Out - OneRepublic Disarm - Smashing Pumpkins Hit Me Like a Man - The Pretty Reckless Bang Bang (feat. Adam Levine) - K'naan Hurts So Good - John Mellencamp Addicted - Kelly Clarkson Whiplash - FEMM Paralyzer - Finger Eleven Crime - Temposhark Misery Loves Company - Emilie Autumn It Was Good for You Too - Marian Call Price Of Company - The White Tie Affair Burn! - Kobra And The Lotus I Love My Lawyer - Ofelia K I Want Blood - empires (I Always Kill) The Things I Love (ft. The Real Tuesday Weld) - Claudia Brucken Misery (Cutmore Radio) - Maroon 5 Fire and Ice - Pat Benatar I Lust You - Neon Neon Pistol Whipped - Marilyn Manson Bitches Brew - Crosses A Formidable Marinade - Mikelangelo And The Black Sea Gentlemen Control - Puddle of Mudd Scary Love - Skye Sweetnam Loveyouhateyou - Sad Robot Untangle Me - Snow Ghosts A Little Taste - Skyler Stonestreet E.V.O.L - Marina and the Diamonds   (You're the) Devil in Disguise - Elvis Presley Shut Up & Kiss - Me Orianthi Cool for Chaos - Nostalghia Oyeme - Enrique Iglesias I Hate You - Sick Puppies GirlShapedLoveDrug - Gomez You Only Tell Me You Love Me When You're Drunk - Pet Shop Boys Need You Like A Drug - Zeromancer Werewolf - Cat Power Bathwater - No Doubt Bad Dog - Neon Hitch Guns And Horses - Ellie Goulding Rev 22-20 - Puscifer Won't You Please Be Nice - Nellie McKay The Perfect Drug - Nine Inch Nails Until The Day I Die - Story of the Year Womanizer - Britney Spears Build Me Up Buttercup - The Foundations I Think I Love You David Cassidy Stalkers - Mindless Self Indulgence   Kill Me Every Time - Blue Stahli Preface - FKA twigs Every You Every Me - Placebo Want - Disturbed Spit It Out - IAMX Destroy Me - Mr Kitty My Sweet Prince - Placebo Psycho - Imelda May Monster - Meg Myers Figured You Out - Nickelback Suffocated Love - Tricky Satisfy Me One More Time - Frank Sinatra This Love - Maroon 5 Miss Jackson (feat. Lolo) - Panic! At The Disco Fire and Ice - Pat Benatar Every Other Time Lyte - Funky Ones How Do You Love Someone - Ashley Tisdale Poison - Gin Wigmore Bitter and Sick - One Two The Outsider - Marina & the Diamonds True Love (feat Lily Rose Cooper) - Pink Bad Boy - Cascada Irresistible - Temposhark Painkiller - The Queenstons Born to Die / Russian Roulette - Amazinglyjon Like Sugar - Matchbox Twenty Mad About You - Hooverphonic Stupify - Disturbed Problems - Mother Mother What Is Love - Haddaway Animal - The Cab Marionette - Antonia I Hate You But I Love You - Russian Red Carve A Name - Mother Mother Criminal - Britney Spears Danger - Hilary Duff Fell in Love w/an Android - Simon Curtis Demon Lover - Róisín Murphy Always - Saliva Too Close - Alex Clare Little of Your Time - Maroon 5 Sex and Violence - Scissor Sisters Electric Storm - Delta Goodrem Black widow - Susanne Sundfør Dangerous Kind - Rasmus You've Really Got a Hold on Me - The Miracles Over and Over - Three Days Grace Devour - Marilyn Manson Nature of Inviting - IAMX The Odd Couple - Weezer Hurt Me Harder - Zolita Terrible Love - The National Mad Love - Jojo Boomerang - Reliant K Bad News - Sleeper Agent I Was An Island (EP Version) - Allison Weiss Rock Bottom - Hailee Steinfeld You’re the One That I Want - Lo Fang Poison - Rita Ora Kill For You - Skylar Grey ft Eminem Wouldn't Be Love - Ritual Hate Me - Nico Collins Irresistible - Fall Out Boy I Love You... I'll Kill You - Enigma

[felsdumpsterfire]

Rockstar! MC3 x Benten music headcannons pretty please??

 OK“Art/Headcannons(whatever you like most): Rockstar!P3x Benten please...” -Anon

OIDKJDKSLDF, I COULDN’T FUCKING FIND THE OTHER ASK FOR THIS AND I ALMOST CRIED, BROOOOOOO--

Anyway, spoiler alert I found it, and boy are you speaking to my heart with rockstar! MC3, I love rock soooooo much!! It’s helped me through a lot ;0;

ANYWAY, ANYWAY, ONTO THE HEADCANONS (also put under the cut for length! I- I went over board,,, soooryyyyyy)

Rockstar! Protag 3 x Benten

So just to preface, I have,,,, VOICE HEADCANONS! Specifically singing voice headcanons!

So I feel Protag 3′s singing style and voice would be very similar to Blu Stahli; the guy has a very beautiful voice with a lot of energy and he has an amazing amount of control of it. Two good examples are his two versions of ULTRAnumb!

I also feel like he looks up to a wide variety of rock bands ((and other bands/singers/musicians in general, I’m just focusing on rock ones for now! (or the Housamo universe equivalent of them lmaoooo)), like:

Rammstein- he lives for this dudes growl! He also loves how their music has so much meaning in the lyrics, and thanks to Protag 1 he doesn’t need a translation anymore! He can just mellow out and sink into the music, it’s amazing. Speaking of the meaning in the music, he’ll watch the music videos over and over and over again, just to make sure that he didn’t miss anything.

Within Temptation- He had a mega crush on Sharon Janny den Adel- she’s super pretty ok??? And her voice???? Fucking SUPERB

Miyavi- He really loves the hype that Miyavi puts into his music, he also is just,,,,, so in love with this guy’s voice!

Starset- Absolutely, 100000% also had a crush on Dustin Bates; he loves the passion in their music and the story in each of them. He also loves how romantic they can be despite the stereotypes that come with the music, it makes him ecstatic and their music lifts him up when he feels bummed out

Chevelle- This was one of the bands that originally got him into rock in the first place. The emotion in the songs, Pete Loeffler’s voice- just everything about this band took his breath away and he was hooked ever since

Benten, and yes, if you were here for the entire “what songs remind us of Benten thread” then I hardcore headcanon her songs having a very Paramore mixed with Avril Lavigne vibe; also I think out of the two she’d sound more like Avril-

Benten also looks up to a lot of singers, though they tend to revolve around more 2000′s and alt groups:

Linkin Park- A huuuge influence on her and a band that helped her get through a lot of slumps in her middle school and high school years and when she was first starting out in the rock world, they were also a really big motivator for her. She was devastated when Chester passed away and held a dedication for him, defiantly sang one of his songs (which she killed); it was most likely One More Light or Castle of Glass.

Bring Me the Horizon- SHE HAD A BIG OOOOOOL’ CRUSH ON OLIVER SKYES OK???? THE HAIR, THE TATTOOS, THAT VOICE? MMMMMM- SHE WAS HOOKED

U2- hooooly shit, my dude, she loves them sooooo much, she just loved how atmospheric their music could be

Muse- Very similar to why she likes U2; she also really loves the lead singer’s voice, it soothes her a lot. Her favorite song by them in Madness

Green Day- Ok, this one is kind of a given- have you seen her style???? She looks up to them, they were a major player in her falling in love with rock

Disturbed- TWO WORDS: DAVID DRAIMAN. HIS VOICE???? CHEF’S KISSES- Amazing. Superb. Good food. She lives for this band and absolutely loves the shit out of them 

Ok, onto the relationship!

I feel like Benten was the first to notice Protag 3 since I feel like he was a rising star in the Rock world and it pissed her off to no end because it felt like this dude was just doing it seamlessly

She felt extremely cheated, because it took blood, sweat, and tears for her to get to where she is now, and this dude- this newbie- who barely started a few months prior was already making number ones and shit

And thus he became her unknowing rival 

They don’t meet until their at a rock concert festival where they’re both performing and when Benten catches wind of this, she is so ready to rip this dude to shreds with her music prowess. She’s ready to take names and show Protag 3 up

But when she meets him, it all..... kinda goes down the drain.

Because

A) This dude is an absolute sweetheart, like, he’s so humble and sweet despite him towering a good foot and couple of inches over her (The guy can look Ifit in the eye, that’s scary enough)

And B) He is absolutely gushing over the band. He’s so excited, he honestly reminds her of a puppy- but he’s jumping from band member to band member, shaking their hands, being all around really sweet and showering them all in compliments

Then, he gets to Benten and he shoots into this long winded thank you for writing music and performing and he hopes that he can reach her level one day and preform by her side 

And dangit-

How do you hate a dude like that? You’re a monster, that’s what. An asshole, he’s sweet, how could you? 

Anyway, it’s crush at first sight for her because omg, he’s adorable and I have to smooch him at least once

And that’s how Protag 3 and Benten’s relationship begins

Once they do get together, Protag 3 is a very openly affectionate person with his partners in general, and it throws Benten for a bit of a loop sometimes. It takes her a bit to get used to all the sudden affection that is handed to her by this big ol’ god of a rockstar- but once she does she. is. H O O K E D.

Benten buys Protag 3 gifts, she’s a borderline sugar mama, I ain’t gonna lie. She likes to provide, that’s all. And she has the money for it- especially if it’s for her adorable himbo of a boyfriend, then anything is on the table. 

Protag 3 has gotten particularly internet famous due to Benten taking so many photos of him and posting them on all her social medias. This dude has an angel face and when he smiles it’s like God has come down himself- it also helps that he’s super nice? He’s the biggest teddy bear out there. And Benten was a little jealous of all the attention he was getting at first and then she stumbled upon his Insta and, there’s so many photos of them together and everyone is gushing over them and it’s just,,,, it melts her heart.

Benten get’s jealous easily, she is by far the more possessive of the two- and it’s not like she doesn’t trust Protag 3- she just doesn’t trust other people, it also doesn’t help that he’s the sweetest thing on the face of the Earth- what if someone stole him? What would she do then??????

So, she defiantly clings to his arm and sticks her tongue out at people who are getting a tad too touchy with him

I’ve headcanoned before, but Protag 3 doesn’t get jealous- it’s nearly impossible- but what he does do, it get protective. So it fans are pushing at Benten just a little too hard, he will defiantly take a step in front of her and give ‘em a look that says: ‘back the fuck up’

These two sing to each other if the other is stressed or they just can’t go to sleep and they’re exhausted

They really enjoy doing duets together and their voices mesh pretty well- it’s really sweet and it makes their souls hum

Benten really likes to play with Protag 3′s piercings. Specifically his lip and nipple piercings

It flusters the fuck out him, but as long as she’s having a good time, it’s fine  

They’re really each other’s biggest fans and it’s fucking cute as hell, dude, so cute

Bonus! Art:

[devilreno]

17 people, 17 questions

Tagged by: @skyfallenxsoldier  ♥

Nicknames: Eli

Zodiac: Sagittarius

Height: 170 cm (u do the converting to ft and in cuz this one confuses me)

Last thing I googled: LOL it’s.... ‘170 cm to feet and inches’. Darn itttt. Ok, wELL Google says this: 5 feet and 6.9291; roughen it up to 5′7″

Song stuck in my head: it’s between ''Real Good Feeling'' by Oh The Larceny and Down in Flames by Blue Stahli

Number of followers:

Amount of sleep: Sometimes 8... Sometimes 10, sometimes 5, sometimes 0.   ¯\_(ツ)_/¯¯

Lucky number: 10

Favourite song: Switchback by Celldweller. It has like 99 variations so I’m never fed up with looping it loool.

Favourite instrument: Guitar

Dream job: Writer (yeAH? I went to English Literature and Creative writing uni in the UK but bruh??? lmao it ain’t the same as what I dreamed it like to be. Now i just wanna be... an artist. Idk.)

Aesthetic: Red, red, rEd, cherry red, pink, turquoise, blueee

Favourite author(s): Jane Austen and  Suzanne Collins

Favourite animal noises: I love doggy happy whimpers, and guinea pig excited sounds (I miss my baby boi). But also Pika’s call too. And who doesn’t like kitten meows??

Random: I’m Slavic.

I would like to tag...

@sweettifalockhart // @blondeturk // @sparkstorms // @cavusvitae // @greatxgospel // @fraxcxccl // @sixba // @stingslikeabee // @xxvernalagniaxx // @kagomiko // @argxntcm // @sometimesrufus // @frostweaved  // @abrokenremnant and anyone else who wanna do this

[perspicacious-dragon-of-welkin]

You were always treated special. How were you to know it was only because they wanted to claw you out and put someone else in? That you were only ever meant to be a vessel for someone else?

They never wanted you. You were always meant to be replaced. Not cast aside, no, they want your body. From the moment you were created, you were meant to be erased one day. So they could use your body as a vessel for someone else.

You thought you were special because of how they used to treat you. You tried so hard to impress them. Nothing you did was ever enough. They just pushed you harder. You thought you meant something. You never meant anything to them. They knew that one day they would take everything from you, wipe you from existence. You were born to be used. No, not even you. So your body could be used. You were never valued. Only what you had been given. 

Now you know. What are you going to do about it? What’s your destiny now? Will you fade away? What other choice do you have? They were everything you knew. What do you have left to fight for? 

“That the darkest hour never comes in the night You can sleep with a gun But when you gonna wake up and fight? For yourself”

- Shinedown, Sound of Madness

“What I really meant to say Is I'm sorry for the way I am”

- Crossfade, Cold

“This is how you remind me Of what I really am”

“I was waiting on a different story This time I'm mistaken For handing you a heart worth breaking”

- Nickelback, How You Remind Me

“I tried so hard and got so far But in the end it doesn't even matter”

- Linkin Park, In The End

“I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

Every step that I take is another mistake to you”

- Linkin Park, Numb

“Well this is not for real Afraid to feel I just hit the floor Don't ask for more”

- Default, Wasting My Time

“And you bring me to my knees Again All this time that I could beg you please In vain All the times that I felt insecure For you”

“All this time that I felt like this won't end Was for you And I taste what I could never have It's from you All those times that I tried My intentions were full of pride And I waste more time than anyone”

“All the times that I've cried All this wasted, it's all inside And I feel all this pain Stuffed it down, it's back again And I lie here in bed All alone”

- Staind, Outside

“I don't even know myself at all I thought I would be happy by now The more I try to push it I realize Gotta let go of control”

“It's just a spark But it's enough to keep me going”

“And the blood in these veins Isn't pumping any less than it ever has And that's the hope I have The only thing I know that's keeping me alive, alive”

- Paramore, Last Hope

“Enemy, familiar friend My beginning and my end Knowing truth, whispering lies And it hurts again”

“And it finds me The fight inside is coursing through my veins”

- Red, Fight Inside

“There's time on the wall, but no one around His will is numb, he's half in the ground If all we are is all we were Then he'd soon pass on without a whisper And life goes on”

“And I will not be told I won't be controlled I don't want your cure I won't be reassured I will not be fixed You're the one that's sick And I will not decay I won't ever fade away”

- Zack Hemsey, Fade Away

“I feel it right at the heart of me And it grips me physically Dragging down so far below And it's a violent vertigo Digging it in like a parasite Feeding off what I keep inside”

“Something's changing Re-arranging me Amputating What I no longer need”

- Blue Stahli, Metamorphosis (Life Theory Remix) LINK

“Cut off my wings and come lock me up Just pull the plug, yeah, I've had enough Tear me to pieces, sell me for parts You're all vampires, so here You can have my heart”

- Bring Me The Horizon, Doomed

“What doesn't kill you Makes you wish you were dead Got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper And I can't take One more moment of this silence The loneliness is haunting me And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up

It comes in waves, I close my eyes Hold my breath and let it bury me I'm not OK and it's not alright”

- Bring Me The Horizon, Drown

“I've gotta fight today To live another day Speakin' my mind today (My voice will be heard today)

I've gotta make a stand But I am just a man (I'm not superhuman) My voice will be heard today”

- Skillet, Hero

“They say we are what we are But we don't have to be”

- Fall out Boy, Immortals

“I give it all to you Letting go of me Reaching as I fall I know it's already over now Nothing left to lose”

- Red, Already Over

“Everything is going to change Nothing’s going to be the same What we know is good and gone The life we lived has come undone”

“Get out of my head Get out of my mind Whatever you put me through I'll come out alive”

“I’m living in a terrible nightmare Just wake me from this terrible nightmare”

- Arshad, Nightmare

“No matter how many deaths that I die I will never forget No matter how many lives that I live, I will never regret There is a fire inside of this heart and a riot about to explode into flames”

“Do you really want... Do you really want me? Do you really want me dead, Or alive to live a lie?”

- Thirty Seconds To Mars, Hurricane

“My soul and my youth Seems it's all for you to use If I could take back the moment I'd let you get under my skin Relent or resist Seems the monster always wins

You're the pulse in my veins You're the war that I wage Can you change me?”

“My heart's an artifice, a decoy soul Who knew the emptiness could be so cold? I've lost the parts of me that make me whole”

- Starset, Monster

“I feel it all the time Felt it all around you You had me under spell right from the start I don't have a telepathic heart Telepathic

Blind, I fall into the line That's waiting just to get you But I don't ever know just what we are I don't have a telepathic heart Telepathic

Look inside my brain You'd know what I want before I tell you Give me the words to say to make it enough Don't want your star-crossed fate You are the sun, I am the full moon Don't leave me lost in vain I can be what you want”

- Starset, Telepathic

“How can I change the path that I'm on this is my Destiny this is my life my own right or wrong bring it on back to me”

- Syntax, Destiny

“I get up in the morning To the beat of the drum I get up to this feeling Keeps me on the run I get up in the morning Put my dreams away I get up, I get up, I get up again”

- Dead Man’s bones, Lose your Soul

Who, who are you really? And where are you going? I have nothing left to prove 'Cause I have nothing left to lose See me bare my teeth for you Who, who are you?

- Mikky Ekko, Who Are You, Really?

“Lead me in chains Strip me of shame Caress me with pain 'Cause I'm down on my knees And I'm begging you please as you say

Don't cry mercy There's too much pain to come”

- Hurts, Mercy

“I'm cold and broken

It's over I didn't want to see it come to this I wonder If I will ever see your face again And I know That I will find a way to shed the skin It's simple I know that I will suffer in the end

Fast I fade away It's almost over Hold on Slow, I suffocate I'm cold and broken All alone

It's hopeless The end will come and wash it all away Forsaken I live for those I lost along the way And I can't Remember how it all began to break We suffer I live to fight and die another day”

- Breaking Benjamin, Fade Away

“Into the nothing Faded and weary I won't leave and let you fall behind Live for the dying Heaven hear me I know we can make it out alive”

- Breaking Benjamin, Into The Nothing

“Where is my mind? Where is my mind? Where is my mind?”

- Yoav, Where is My Mind?

“To capture a predator You can't remain the prey You have to become An equal In every way

So look in the mirror And tell me, who do you see? Is it still you? Or is it me?”

- Karliene, Become The Beast

“When the words Weigh heavy on the heart I am lost And lead only by the stars”

“Breathe in, breathe out Let the human in Breathe in, breathe out And let it in”

- Of Monsters and Men, Human

“If I was in World War Two they'd call me spitfire

Fire 'Cause you know that I can”

- The Prodigy, Spitfire

“Sleep now under my skin Make sure you'll try to Conjure the wind And ease my mind”

“Somebody call out to your brother He's calling out your name”

- Matt Corby, Brother

“When we were young we were the ones The kings and queens oh yeah, we ruled the world”

“We've taken different paths And travelled different roads I know we'll always end up on the same one when we're old And when you're in the trenches And you're under fire I will cover you

If I was dying on my knees You would be the one to rescue me”

- Kodaline, Brother

“Wish we could turn back time To the good old days When our momma sang us to sleep But now we're stressed out Wish we could turn back time”

- Twenty One Pilots, Stressed Out

“Carved out, cold Hiding from you in this skin, so old”

“And if I recover”

“I'll give you one more chance To say we can change our old ways And you take what you need And you know you don't need me”

- Chvrches, Recover

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #301

“i was waiting for my chance to find the light”

Did you like the beach a lot more as a kid more than you do now? Why/Why not? I did. Everything was more fun as a kid. I never REALLY loved it, though, because I did and still do hate the heat and walking through sand and getting it stuck all over you. It's pretty much torture now because I have extreme difficulty walking through sand. Has there ever been a time where you just couldn't stop crying? Explain. I know I've had days many years ago when my PTSD was truly awful where I'd sob multiple times a day. What's your least favorite time of day? Why don't you like that time?Late afternoon, like around 3-4 or so. By that point I'm usually bored senseless and going downhill. Do you like your lips? Do you enjoy kissing? They're fine, ig. And I mean yeah, if I'm really into the person? Do you like any music from the American Idols? Which ones? Ngl, I don't even remember any besides Kelly Clarkson, and who the FUCK doesn't like "Breakaway." Do you like when people challenge you? If so, in what? No, I get nervous about embarrassing myself. Personally for you, is falling for someone way beyond your control? It is entirely out of my control. What's something other than a fruit that you love in milkshakes? (Ex.twix ) Mostly chocolate stuff, haha. What is your all time FAVORITE milkshake? Ever tried the Reese's Blast from Sonic? That's some A+ shit. What's the latest you've ever stayed up reading a book? No clue. When having a peanut butter & jam sandwich, what is the best kind of jam? Grape. Do you like to write poetry? Yeah, but it's been a long time since I wrote anything. I used to do it aaall the time, but now I have to be seriously motivated and dedicated to the idea. When you get mad do you cry? Absolutely. Would you ever consider modeling? No. I do think one or two model-esque photos of myself would be nice and possibly help my self-confidence, but it's not something I'm seeking out and paying for. Are you scared of crossing bridges? Not very, no. If they're kinda sketchy-looking, I might feel a tad tense, but I'm not really scared of them. Would you consider yourself clumsy? I am unfuckingbelievably clumsy. Ever bought ice cream from an ice cream truck? Yeah, sometimes Mom would let me and my sisters do that as kids when one came through our neighborhood. Have you ever had a poem or story published? No. If you had/have a kid would you ever let them get a tattoo? If they were of the appropriate age, of course. And if they were getting it done professionally and not at some party drunk with friends. They better be in a sterile environment with someone who knows what they're doing. Do you love guinea pigs? Absolutely. I had three or four as pets when I was a kid. What is the worst thing you ever did that got you grounded? Probably run away from home. Have you ever been chased by a snake? No... and this is a misconception. Snakes don't chase. They go for what they see as the safest escape route, and sometimes they identify your own chosen direction as where they wanted to head, too. Where do you wanna work? I want to be a freelance photographer. What awards have you won? A lot of "A honor roll" trophies through school, among other academic awards. I seriously don't know what happened to that intelligence. I also have dance awards and lots of childhood sports team stuff. Would you consider yourself good at taking care of kids? I don't think I am, no. I'm way too nervous and awkward around kids. I've had to babysit for my sister twice though, and Ashley told me the kids had lots of fun and had no complaints. I guess like... I can do it, I am just very, very uncomfortable taking kids under my wing. I worry about leading them in the wrong direction. How old would a guy have to be before you wouldn't date them? I don't know, it would really depend on how much I was into the person. I generally stick with the approximation of a ten year gap though being my limit, so I think maybe him being in his mid-30s would make me feel a bit too weird. Be honest, have you ever tried weed? No, but quite honestly, I'd probably try an edible. I refuse to smoke anything for my lungs' sake. I'm curious if medical marijuana would actually be beneficial for me. Has anyone ever broken up with you with a note? No, but uh... I have, lol. It's how I broke up with my "puppy-dog love" boyfriend in middle school. Literally after he asked me if I was thinking of breaking up with him, and I said no before handing him the note because I was just too scared to do it to his face. I know, that was absolutely awful. Never, ever do that to the most innocent boy ever, kids. He didn't deserve that. Do you have sensitive teeth? Kinda. What was the worst thing you ever did to get detention/suspended? I've only ever had detention once for having too many tardies to my first class of the day in high school. We'd frequently arrive to school just a few minutes late because I was fucking impossible to drag out of bed. Have you ever suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder? Yes. Do you suffer from nasal allergies? Yes. What's your favorite kind of pudding? I only really like chocolate pudding. Have you done anything really interesting lately? I guess you could consider starting a virtual partial hospitalization program "interesting." It's not the intensive version like my first was, but rather being shorter. I just really need something to get my mental health back on the tracks. What’s the latest really fun thing you’ve done? REALLY fun? Hell if I know. I don't experience "fun" a lot at all anymore... I only ever feel like, this watered down, unenthusiastic sorry excuse for it. Have you discovered any good music lately? Oh yeah, I've found lots of 3TEETH songs I'm mad into. "ULTRAnumb" by Blue Stahli is also a total bop. How about any good new television shows? No. Or perhaps some interesting books? Nothing new, no. Have you picked up a new hobby or learned a new skill? I mean, within what timespan? Nothing lately, really. Has anybody ever done your makeup for you? Yeah. Do you own any sparkly items of clothing? No. What’s the most colorful accessory you own and use? *shrug* Do you enjoy drag artists’ work? If so, name some of your favorites. Oh yes, I have wild respect for drag queens. I don't know enough of them to have a fair favorite, but I do watch Trixie Mattel on YouTube and he is a goddamn hoot. What, right now, is the best thing in your life? Um. I don't really know. Probably the fact my mother still lets my too-big-for-the-nest ass to live with her... I don't want to picture how my life would be if I didn't have her still essentially holding my hand. What’s a place you like to go to when you need to get away for a bit? I actually love car rides for this, so long as I can ride passenger and just blare my music and not talk. It's so odd, being afraid of driving but finding great freedom and comfort in just... going. Do you like apples? I love apples. Anything exciting coming up for you in the near future? I paid the deposit for my tattoo appointment, so it was officially scheduled in May!! I was expecting an open date to be kinda far with just how amazing this parlor is, so I wasn't too shocked to hear I have to wait a few months, but man I can hardly wait. When you get an account for something, what's the first username you try? Unless it's for a "professional" site, in which case I'd use my actual name, I just about without fail with use "Ozzkat," or replace the "o" with a zero if that's somehow taken. Would you be okay with a friend wanting to date one of your exes? Which ex? What kind of accent do people typically have where you're from? Southern. Does history interest you at all? Can't say it does. What's something you wish you could do-over? There are many things, man. Is your hair in layers or is it all the same length? Neither, really. The left side of my head is very short/shaved, and as the hair goes around to the right, it gets longer. There aren't "layers," though. Is there anyone who you're afraid to be in a car with, if they're driving? I wouldn't say afraid, but with my sister's road rage and serious tail-gating issue, riding with her can make me nervous. What's something you're very good at? Um, I guess creative writing. Do you like sour gummy worms? oh FUCK yeah Would you pick up a hitchhiker if they seemed harmless? No. I am way too paranoid for that shit. Would you be bothered if your boyfriend liked to bite you? Uhhh I'm going to assume you mean this in a sexual context, in which case I don't care so long as it's not in a visible spot. How often do you get the opportunity to be completely alone? The answer used to be a shitload, and seeing as I'm in my room most of the time, I still feel like that's kind of true, but since Mom's cancer diagnosis and she had to stop working, she's usually home with me. I like it that way, though. Total isolation is bad for me. Do you have a trampoline? Nah, haven't in many years. What's your favorite Pixar movie? Finding Nemo. What is the strangest thing you've been asked? Something sexual that made me extremely uncomfortable. What’s the weirdest thing about life that people just accept as normal? The fact we put so much worth into pieces of green paper. What's the most random thing you've done out of boredom? *shrug* What show did your parents not let you watch as a kid? There weren't any specific shows that we even wanted to watch that Mom forbade us to see... I mean she certainly wouldn't let my sisters and I watch something like South Park as little kids, but none of us really sought unsuitable shows out. We were all about Disney, Nick, and Animal Planet in my case. What is the most pleasurable feeling that doesn't involve anything sexual? What comes to mind first is a big hug from someone who makes you feel safe when you don't anywhere else. What was your last "oops, wrong person" moment? I'm going to assume I sent somebody a text meant for another person. I'm super careful about avoiding stuff like this because I get horribly embarrassed, so it's difficult to recall the last time I slipped up. What do you find attractive that isn't considered "normal" attraction? Having a broad imagination and drive to create. What’s the dumbest thing you’ve done drunk? N/A What's something you really enjoy, but can't have? A pet tarantula because Mom refuses to let me lmao. I'm so into them now and desperately want a Grammastola pulchra. What Wikipedia article have you recently read? I haven't read any recently. What subject should be taught at schools, but isn't? Basic adulting and financial skills. What is the worst game you've ever played? I dunno. I've played sooooo many video games throughout my life. What tragic event was coincidentally beneficial to you? My overdose because it led to an intensive partial hospitalization program that totally changed my life. What did you think was cool when you were younger that you now think isn’t? Good question... What are your favorite or most memorable lines from any movie/show? I vaguely remember the concepts of some quotes, but not well enough to recite them. None that are seriously memorable or heavy pop up in my head now. What's a good example of 'Don't knock it till you try it'? Putting peanut butter on top of waffles with syrup. It is fucking delicious. What's your go-to get pumped up song? 5FDP's cover of "Mama Said Knock You Out" is badass HYPE. What's the dumbest thing your parents have said or done? Well, through a family assessment before my current partial hospitalization could begin, I very recently learned my dad fucking did drugs before my sisters and I were born, including shit like cocaine. That was great to suddenly learn. As for my mom... probably have a kid too young? She doesn't talk very much about her eldest daughter's history with (and without) her, but I know enough to know that was a very rocky time in her life. What are some things you wish existed? Cures for countless illnesses, and I also have SUUUUUCH a yearning for some kind of technology that could copy an image in your head onto a drawing device. If only I could draw how/what I see up there... Which person shaped you the most? Jason. Or Mom. What’s the one movie you couldn’t finish? Why? Couldn't tell you; I just haven't watched enough. What's a small thing you have a big passion for? Meerkats, quite literally with "small" lmao. What change have you made recently to help the environment? I have metal straws I try to remember to bring with me if I go out to eat. What was the hardest thing you've ever had to forgive? The way Jason left. Is there anything or anyone you're angry at, that you haven't forgiven yet? I sometimes question if I truly have forgiven Jason. I lean kinda heavily towards yes, I have, I'm just bitter about it all regardless. Have you ever plotted revenge against someone? No. Have you ever done anything to get revenge against someone? I can't think of anything off the top of my head. What is the greatest longing of your heart? To feel purpose. Who was your first love? Some guy in high school who "had" to talk to me upon seeing me the first time, only to wind up wanting to hear nothing from me later on down the line. What denomination is your church (if you go)? N/A What was the first year you voted in a presidential election? This most recent election, actually. Have you ever been afraid of the world ending? I used to worry it would happen in my lifetime, but now I don't. If it ends, it ends. I ain't got much to lose nowadays. What is unfair about your life? My mental health. My financial position. I'd rather not focus on the billion shitty things going on in my life rn, so next question. Did you write love poems when you were younger? ugh Who are you jealous of and why? There's a lot of people I'm in some way envious of, honestly. Have you ever had an account of yours hacked? Yes. Thankfully nothing major happened. Have you ever been a victim of police misconduct? No.

[thebloodychampion]

Random Songs/Character Songs

Archer Hawke

Character Song: “I Am Human” by Escape The Fate Random Song: “Famous Last Words” by My Chemical Romance

Cyrion Hawke

Character Song: “Stay” by Rectifire Random Song: “Runaway” by Linkin Park

Dreag Hawke

Character Song: “Rise” by Glitch Mob, Mako & The World Alive Random Song: “Umbrella” by Rihanna Feat. Jay-Z

Lia Tabris

Character Song: “Bring Me Back To Life” by Extreme Music Random Song: “Fate” by Bleak Feat. Ana Johnson

Than Mahariel

Character Song: “Raise Your Banner” by Within Temptation Feat. Anders Friden Random Song: “We Are The Wild” by Powerwolf

Sethius Amladaris

Character Song: “The Islander” by Nightwish Random Song: “Soldier Side” by System Of A Down

Elgan Lavellan

Character Song: “Shameless” by Colorblind Random Song: “E.T.” by Katy Perry

Diran Lavellan

Character Song: “The Chosen Ones” by Dream Evil Random Song: “Somebody” by Brian Adams

Hjarrandr O Bearhold

Character Song: “I’m Alive” by Ends With A Bullet Random Song: “My Heaven Is Your Hell” by Lordi

Lucius Veridio

Character Song: “Stronger” by Through Fire Random Song: “Blessed & Possessed” by Powerwolf

Etienne De Lechager / Petyr Gallus

Character Song: “I’m Dangerous” by The Everlove Random Song: “Let This” by Paramore

Nicolas Belmond

Character Song: “Beating As One” by Rectifire Random Song: “Cosmos” by Final Fantasy Dissidia

Malcolm Hawke

Character Song: “Angels” by Within Temptation Random Song: “The Impossible Dream” by Sarah Connor

Tomey Surana

Character Song: “Halo” by Starset Random Song: “Goodbye” by SR-71

Lyon Amell

Character Song: “My Demons” by Starset Ramdom Song: “Never Surrender” by Skillet

Solona Amell

Character Song: “Lost” by Within Temptation Random Song: “Radioactive” by Pentatonix

Jerker

Character Song: “The Reckoning” by Within Temptation Feat. Jacoby Shaddix Random Song: “One Truth” by Globus

Kieran

Character Song: “Nemo” by Nightwish Random Song: “Blood Red Sandman” by Lordi

Eric Vanhallen

Character Song: “Coming Home” by Hollywood Undead Random Song: “She Is My Sin” by Nightwish

Talar Adaar

Character Song: “Finish Line” by Skillet Random Song: “Someday” by Nickelback

Herah Adaar

Character Song: “Fight” by All Good Things Random Song: “A Thousand Years” by Christina Perri

Irius Sparatus

Character Song: “Fly On The Wall” by Thousand Foot Krutch Random Song: “Over You” by Daughtry

Karnesh

Character Song: “Venom” by Eminem Random Song: “Playing God” by Paramore

Clavius Tarxis

Character Song: “Fine” by Mike Shinoda Random Song: “Tomorrow” by SR-71

Renius Sparatus

Characer Song: “Incense And Iron” by Powerwolf Random Song: “Place For My Head” by Linkin Park

Torana Sparatus

Character Song: “A Deathless Song” by Parkway Drive Random Song: “The Real Slim Shady” by Eminem

Jurdon Madadh

Character Song: “Land Of Confusion” by Disturbed Random Song: “I’m Fat” by Weird Al Yankovic

Ganar Drealav

Character Song: “Immortalized” by Distubed Random Song: “Lagoon” by Nightwish

Raik Cagar

Character Song: “The Vengeful One” by Disturbed Random Song: “By Myself” by Linkin Park

Haral Nyras

Character Song: “The Light” by Disturbed Random Song: “Bye Bye Beautiful” by Nightwish

Oswin Shepard

Character Song: “Time Bomb” by Hollywood Undead Random Song: “Deer Dance” by System Of A Down

Noah Shepard

Character Song: “Ultra Numb” by Blu Stahli Random Song: “Day Of The Dead” by Hollywood Undead

Maron Hinom

Character Song: “On My Own” by Ashes Remain Random Song: “What I Believe” by Skillet

Shaela’Riel Vas Tonbay

Character Song: “Unbreakable” by Fireflight Random Song: “If I Were A Boy” by Beyonce

Lorik Qui’in

Character Song: “It Has Begun” by Starset Random Song: “Deception” by The Cruxhadows

Marius Nyras

Character Song: “Stars” by Skillet Random Song: “Riot” by Three Days Grace

Andrew Ryder

Character Song: “One For The Money” by Escape The Fate Random Song: “No More Sorrow” by Linkin Park

Tayus Draxas

Character Song: “The Resistance” by Skillet Random Song: “Starstruck” by Lady Gaga

Tachyus Nyras

Character Song: “Warrior Inside” by Leader Random Song: “(I’ve Had) The Time Of My Life” by Dirty Dancing OST

SAM

Character Song: “Mortals” by Warriyo Random Song: “Crawling” by Linkin Park

Macen Barro

Character Song: “No Plan B” by Manafest Random Song: “Somebody’s Watching Me” by Rockwell

Yaora V’Loar

Character Song: “Elan” by Nightwish Random Song: “Don’t Fear The Reaper” by Blue Oyster Club

Yandra Nyras

Character Song: “Give Me Love” by Ed Sheeran Random Song: “Feel Good Lies” by No Angels

Quentius Zuris

Character Song: “Last One Standing” by Simple Plan Random Song: “I Think I’m A Clone Now” by Weird Al Yankovic

Urdnot Wreav

Character Song: “Phoenix Down” by The Unguided Random Song: “Carnival Of Rust” by Poets Of The Fall

Adrien Victus

Character Song: “Last Man Standing” by Hammerfell Random Song: “Sinner” by Drowning Pool

Sidoria Arterius

Character Song: “Our Solemn Hour” by Within Temptation Random Song: “Unbelievable” by Kaci Brown

Iroveth

Character Song: “Valkyrie” by The Cruxshadows Random Song: “Catch” by Kosheen

Danny Fernandez

Character Song: “No Giving Up Now” by Crossfade Random Song: “A Dangerous Mind” by Within Temptation

Belle Instance

Character Song: “When You’re Evil” by Voltaire Random Song: “What About Now” by Daughtry

Pamina Siemens

Character Song: “Buried Alive” by Citizen Soldier Random Song: “Whispers In The Dark” by Skillet

Fenrir Greyback

Character Song: “Been To Hell” by Hollywood Undead Random Song: “Surrender” by Billy Talent

Sharleen Siemens

Character Song: “Of Wolf And Man” by Metallica Random Song: “10,000 Fists” by Disturbed

Amelia Fernandez

Character Song: “Stand My Ground” by Within Temptation Random Song: “Soldier” by Eminem

Eleasar Cohen

Character Song: “Across The Line” by Linkin Park Random Song: “Dirty Little Secret” by The American Rejects

Ben Chaplin

Character Song: “Poison” by Alice Cooper Random Song: “Once Upon A December” by Anastacia OST

Connor Montgomery

Character Song: “Take It Out On Me” by Thousand Foot Krutch Random Song: “End Of Me” by Apocalyptica Feat. Gavin Rossdale

Vortula Portocalos

Character Song: “And We Run” by Within Temptation Feat. Xibit Random Song: “Listen To The Rain” by Evanescence

Moony / Gedmednagraphgal

Character Song: “Rebirthing” by Skillet Random Song: “Everybody’s Fool” by Evanescence

Carolus

Character Song: “Carolus Rex” by Sabaton Random Song: “Russian Roulette” by Rihanna

[isaacs-greed]

Violated! So degraded! The show has just begun! (three, two, one) Dominated by all you hated- This will make you ULTRAnumb! (Blue Stahli - ULTRAnumb) - "A tale as old as time. Boy kills monster. Boy becomes monster. Boy kills monster.

Does it really feel so good to hurt others? Or do you just shudder in anticipation, knowing retribution is inescapable? Do you feel justified? Do you like others falling to your level? Is that what you need to feel less lonely? What is this for, Azazel?”

[deanseths]

— 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒 𝑤𝘩𝑜 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝘩𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠 𝑤𝘩𝑜 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑝𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡𝘩𝑒𝑟. (x)

𝐀 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐍 / 𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐇 𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐌𝐈𝐗 |  listen here

𝐈. 𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐨 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐞. ⁽²⁰¹¹⁻¹²⁾

adtr // city of ocala ・ lana del rey // blue jeans ・ angels & airwaves // the gift ・ the cure // primary ・ lana del rey // ultraviolence ・ simple minds // don’t you (forget about me)

𝐈𝐈. 𝐯𝐮𝐥𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚. ⁽²⁰¹⁴⁻¹⁵⁾

ursine vulpine ft. annaca // wicked game ・ zack hemsey // vengeance ・ linkin park // in the end ・ rihanna // rehab ・ bring me the horizon // and the snakes start to sing ・ linkin park // what i’ve done ・ nine inch nails // hurt ・ simon says // slider ・ smashing pumpkins // bullet with butterfly wings ・ slowburn // coming for you ・ blue stahli // you kill me every time ・ fall out boy // light ‘em up

𝐈𝐈𝐈. 𝐩𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐚. ⁽²⁰¹⁶⁾

the national // start a war ・ coldplay // fun ・ imagine dragons // demons ・ bastille // power ・ afterhours // la vedova bianca ・ the phantoms // this is a war ・ the raveonettes // ignite ・ joy williams // ordinary world ・ pink floyd // wish you were here

𝐈𝐕. 𝐚𝐝 𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚. ⁽²⁰¹⁷⁾

tamer // beautiful crime ・ arkells // making due ・ staind // it’s been a while ・ arkells // show me don’t tell me ・ of monsters and men // little talks ・ heffron drive // parallel ・ jaymes young // i’ll be good ・ toploader // achilles heel ・ hoobastank // the reason ・ paramore // grudges ・ skillet // feel invincible ・ peter gabriel // heroes ・ of monsters and men // king and lionheart ・ yoke lore // bravado ・ alexi murdoch // all my days

𝐕. 𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐬 / 𝐧𝐨𝐱. ⁽²⁰¹⁸⁻¹⁹⁾

flora cash // you’re somebody else ・ onerepublic // let’s hurt tonight ・ sigrid // everybody knows ・ mattew and the atlas // counting paths ・ amber run // i found ・ adtr // end of me ・ the civil wars // devil’s backbone ・ alice in chains // down in a hole ・ madonna // the power of goodbye ・ 30 seconds to mars // the kill ・ trading yesterday // shattered ・ imagine dragons // radioactive ・ zayde wolf ft. ruelle // walk through the fire ・ lord huron // the night we met

𝐕𝐈. ��𝐭 𝐨𝐦𝐧𝐢𝐚. ⁽²⁰¹⁹⁻ ⁾

the national // about today ・ nickelback // how you remind me ・ mumford & sons // beloved ・ james bay // scars ・ the national // light years ・ lord huron // ends of the earth

[thoselethalarts]

Rank your OCs based on how good they are at lying.

Sounds fun! For simplicity's sake I'm going to limit the ranking to my currently active TWSTocs-

Who's the Best Liar?

7. Kazuo - This poor boy can't lie to save his life. He's an awful liar and hates to even try, and unfortunately it gets him in a hell of a lot of trouble with the wrong people all too often. He's gotten hurt from his inability to lie far too many times, and has learned instead to just keep his big mouth shut to try and avoid the hellfire.

6. Stahli - Brutally honest even when it hurts, and when he's not being brutally honest he's just honest in general. Lying isn't something that comes naturally to Stahli, he just doesn't think to do it most of the time. He says what's on his mind even when it hurts the person he's talking to. But he's not entirely heartless, and will stop and sweat momentarily to tell a lie if it makes someone feel just a little bit better.

5. Nyx - He's not the best, but he has his moments where he can squeak through a lie if it's small, fast, and innocuous enough. His physiological reaction sometimes is a tell to when he's trying to bluff his way out of a situation: the fur on the base of his tail stands on end, and his ears start to twitch just a bit more frequently than usual. Sometimes if it's quick he can get through a lie smoothly, but if you keep pushing him he'll just get more and more obvious.

4. Phobos - He just doesn't talk much to people in general, so it's not like he'd have many chances otherwise. But he does have his fair share of secrets to keep, and those are things he'll fight someone on to keep them secret. Gets angry the more your challenge his lies and arguments, which leads most to drop the subject because, really, who would get that upset if they weren't being honest?

3. Marcus - He isn't proud of his ability to weasel out of trouble by stretching the truth when needed, but it really has saved his hide more times than he'd like to admit. When you've lived a life like his you learn quickly that sometimes a white lie deals less harm than the truth ever could.

2. Matt - He tends to stray on the side of omitting information rather than outright lying, as tis in his nature as a deal-maker, but that doesn't mean he can't easily tell a lie in order to further his own goals. Twisting and bending information has been what's kept him alive for almost all of his life, though that doesn't mean he can't be brutally honest when he chooses to.

1. Vantablack - Lying comes second nature to them. Honestly, they even do it compulsively sometimes without even thinking. Their whole being, their everything, was built and matured on the back of pretending, acting out roles, putting on façades, and lying through their teeth until they get what they want. Which sometimes what they want could just be to fuck with somebody for shits and giggles or to gain information about something or someone they want to know more about, but sometimes their intentions are more than just a little darkly malicious. Gaslight gatekeep girlboss king.

[lyonofsaintmark]

HEAVEN SENT // HELL BENT

Hey, so, being extra I decided to do a two part playlist for SAMAEL. First one is metal flavor, second one is southern gothic. Liner notes and links below the cut. :V

(Art credit for the covers to Cam!)

HEAVEN SENT / (side a)

BISHOP PIERRE CAUCHON: The church opens her arms to you, but if you do not sign, the Church will turn her back to you, and you will stand alone. JOAN OF ARC: Alone? Yes, alone....with God! --The Passion of Joan of Arc

Leo Hawke, the human bound to the divine.

ULTRAnumb (Blue Stahli)

Violated, so degraded The show has just begun Dominated by all you hated This will make you ultranumb

Drag Me to Hell (Lord of the Lost)

The more I reach out for Heaven The more you drag me to Hell

Better the Devil (Tim Skold)

Tear my soul apart Drown me in your sea of darkness I’ll be your lucky star If you promise that you’ll never let me go Better the Devil you know

Losing My Religion (Lacuna Coil)

Oh, life It’s bigger than you And you are not me The lengths that I would go to The distance in your eyes

Devil in My Life (Grace Jones)

Devil in my life, treading on thin ice With your words so wise, always in disguise Devil in my life, I’ve seen it in your lies Slowly mesmerized, as I fall you rise

Operation: Mindcrime (Queensryche)

It just takes a minute And you’ll feel no pain Gotta make something of your life, boy Gimme one more vein You’ve come to see the doctor ‘cause he’ll show you the cure I’m gonna take away your questions, yeah I’m gonna make you sure

Wings of Feather and Wax (Killer be Killed)

I never stopped to notice The fire in your hand A burning so consuming But now I understand And now I’ve fallen like Icarus to land Too late to kill the flames I fanned

Ambassador (Evergrey)

I am light to cast away shadow Spirit, Holy Ghost, and even Jesus God walking Earth Ambassador

Just Like You (Celldweller)

It’s the dark of night and I’m at the end of my line Alone in my head and waiting for something divine To answer me Drowning in silence, the internal violence I pray to make it through

Flight on an Angel’s Wing (Deadsoul Tribe)

Come with me, my friend Come with me and clear your mind So tired of the lies they laid upon you Open your eyes and you’ll see I’m going to take a flight on an angel’s wing Far and away She’ll carry me home

Small Town Boy (Paradise Lost)

Mother will never understand why you had to leave But the answers you seek will never be found at home No, the love that you want will never be found at home Run away, turn away

A Demon’s Fate (Within Temptation)

Angels have faith I don’t want to be a part of his sin I don’t want to get lost in his world I won’t play this game

Gates of Hell (Timeless Miracle)

Far beyond the gates of Hell Tricked the Devil, broke his spell Traveling ‘round the River Styx to freedom

A Grave Mistake (Ice Nine Kills)

But I heard that you reap what you sow So here’s to believing in ghosts And when you see my face you’ll know You can’t save yourself or save your soul When you meet the man whose life you stole On weathered wings and broken bones A fight for the fallen, flies the Crow

Lost and Damned (Kamelot)

Don’t ask why Don’t be sad Sometimes we all must alter paths we’ve planned Only try to understand I want to save you from the lost and damned

House of Eternal Hunt (Avatar)

It’s my time My darkness, my might divine It has been foretold this land Will live and die by my hand Child to the moon and the storm Silent shadow growing I’m reborn

Darkling (Sirenia)

You’ve got to chase your demons on the run Put out their fires, their dark desires The exorcism has begun Slaying all, leaving none

/ HELL BENT (side b)

If there is a hell, it’s what Christians have made of this world, in Christ’s name. -- Ammon Hennacy, The Book of Ammon

Lyon Hawke, the angel who fell to earth.

Angels Look Like Hell (Reverend Peyton’s Big Damn Band)

The Devil don’t live down in Hell The Devil’s right here, doing very well And it’s hard to tell It’s hard to tell When devils look like angels And angels look like hell

Old Devils (William Elliot Whitmore)

From behind these bars the view don’t change Desperation, death and despair From what I hear of the outside world It ain’t so different out there And they tell me there’s a war without no end The old devils are at it again

In the Branches (The Builders and the Butchers)

They left angels singing in the branch of a burning tree Said it was all a game His daddy went and twisted in the bed that he made And you’ll end up the same He went down, down, down Down where the fire is born

Birds with Broken Wings (Ben Caplan)

I climbed up a mountain just to kill my son An angel tried to stop me with a ram Well, he said “Your mind’s infected” But I said “You lack perspective!” You gotta walk the bottom if you wanna see the top

Sins of My Father (Tom Waits)

Does the light of God blind you Or lead the way home for you I’m gonna take the sins of my father I’m gonna take the sins of my brother I’m gonna take the sins of my mother Down to the pond

Laplace’s Angel (Will Wood and the Tapeworms)

You could break an angel’s fall And ignore the devil’s call Still forsaken shoulders fall silent now It’s no more than cultural You and me, inseparable It’s a small Hell, after all

Boy, Decide! (Murder by Death)

There’s a son He is born with a silver spoon in his mouth Go on, boy, admit There’s gotta be something you love Enough to protect

Caves (Brown Bird)

The corners of the heart are caves That echo with the bloodcurling cries of babes We’ve sheltered in a shadow of a doubt Where faith is abated by design

Dream of Sleep (The Peculiar Pretzelmen)

When I dream I dream of sleep And when I sleep I never dream I’m bending and I’m breaking Under weight of the secrets that I keep

Funeral March (Strawfoot)

Good riddance to you You’re in the clear You watched me dying Never shed no tear I used to be a man ‘til lines were drawn Oh, I’m marching on

Old Pine Box (Those Crooked Bastards)

Brother, I have never not been lost The apples on the tree have turned to rot And all around I feel the Lord’s eyes watching If you think I’m gonna whimper Well, I’m not Throw me in an old pine box And nail that lid on top

Some of Adam’s Blues (Quaker City Nighthawks)

My name was written In the foundation Despite our faithlessness You bring salvation And now I know it’s true

God’s Gonna Cut You Down (Johnny Cash)

You may throw your rock Hide your hand Workin’ in the dark against your fellow man But as sure as God made black and white What is done in the dark will be brought to the light

Strawfoot (Sixteen Horsepower)

I am not alone And looks can be deceiving When you get down to it You’re talking when you should be leaving Why is it you don’t want what he’s giving? It ain’t no sin, son, to be forgiven

Dynamite (Devil Makes Three)

I know that it’s coming I ain’t worried now ‘Cause we got enough here to go around And every single person gonna get them some

Hell’s Coming With Me (Poor Man’s Poison)

I am the righteous hand of God And I am the Devil that you forgot And I told you one day you will see I’ll be back, I guarantee And that Hell’s coming with me

I’m Always Walking as Somebody Else (American Murder Song)

Traveler I am Knock-two-three-four God is in your country The Devil’s at your door

[axemetaphor]

Full tracklist of Toxic’s playlist is now available! Total of 63 songs (reads as 62 on YouTube as one is technically the introduction to another), lyric videos chosen where available. It’s a pretty eclectic mix, but overall has a very edgy vibe.

Spotify | YouTube

Posted 05/2019

Tracklist under the cut:

“The Fall” by half⚈alive

“Nightmares” by Easy Life

“don’t try” by Gerard Way

“End of an Empire” by Celldweller (Neurojak Remix)

“How to Screw Up Your Future and Disappoint Your Loved Ones” by Settle Your Scores

“The Violence” by Rise Against

“Don’t Kill The Messenger” by Night Riots

“Play For Real” by The Crystal Method

“i don’t know much but i know i loathe you” by Death Spells

“You’re Going Down” by Sick Puppies

“Death to Analog” by Julien-K (Mike Shinoda Remix)

“Told Ya So” by Get Scared

“So What” by Three Days Grace

“Anti-You” by Blue Stahli

“I Hate Everyone” by Mindless Self Indulgence

“Party Poison” by My Chemical Romance

“Boy Division” by My Chemical Romance

“Ghost” by Envoi

“Let’s Get Fucked Up” by Bad Waitress

“Feeling Good, Feeling Great” by DZ Deathrays

“At My Worst” by Get Scared

“Blood” by My Chemical Romance

“Sell Your Soul” by Hollywood Undead

“Amarillo” by Gorillaz

“I Am Shit” by Crywank

“A Mask of My Own Face” by Lemon Demon

“Lights Out” by Mindless Self Indulgence

“It’s OK, I Wouldn’t Remember Me Either” by Crywank

“Unstable” by Chaotica

“Move” by Pretty Vicious

“Failing Up” by Bass Drum of Death

“Boring” by Heart Attack Man

“Sarcasm” by Get Scared

“Voices” by Motionless in White

“Crazy=Genius” by Panic! at the Disco

“Juarez” by Gerard Way

“Explode” by Patrick Stump

“Problems” by Weathers

“Anything I Want” by Weathers

“Broken Crown” by Mumford & Sons

“idontwannabeyouanymore” by Billie Eilish

“Bad Blood” by Creature Feature

“The Mind Electric” by Miracle Musical (differing versions between Spotify and YouTube; the YT version is preferred but does not exist on Spotify)

“Destruction” by Joywave

“Red Light” by The Regrettes

“Let The Sparks Fly” by Thousand Foot Krutch

“Dark Storms” by Our Last Night

“arrow” by half⚈alive

“Destroyer” by Saint Motel

“Burn Brighter” by Lansdowne

“Headfirst for Halos” by My Chemical Romance

“Little Poor Me” by Layto

“Twisted” by MISSIO

“Untouchable” by Motionless in White

“My Terracotta Heart” by blur

“Brand New Numb” by Motionless in White

“VANS” by Arrested Youth (It’s Different Remix)

“Noise in my Head” by spookyghostboy

“Nervous” by Magic Bronson

“May These Noises Frighten You in Your Sleep” by Pierce the Veil

“Hell Above” by Pierce the Veil

“Lazy Boy” by L.I.F.T.

“OK” by 8graves

[fullysowerewolf]

The Dragon

The Knight arrived to save the Princess from the evil Queen. But the Queen could not be defeated, and in spite, turned the valorous Knight into her Dragon.

 Inspired by various AUs and fanfics, a dark playlist/fanmix based on if Kerrigan, The Queen of Blades had captured and infested Jim Raynor into her newest enforcer. 

Upside Down - Aviators // The Hunted - Snow Ghosts // Black Widow - Susanne Sundfor // Pet - A Perfect Circle // Can’t Feel My Face - The Weeknd // Black Widow (Drew Stevens remix) - Drew Stevens // Part of the Swarm (remix) - MiatriSs // Metamorphosis (Life Theory remix) - Blue Stahli // If I Had a Heart - Fever Ray // Bang - Armchair Cynics // Monster - Starset // Glittering Clouds (Locusts) - Imogen Heap // Control - Halsey // Monster - Skillet // Animal I Have Become - Three Days Grace // The Walk - Imogen Heap // Horns - Bryce Fox // Bad Romance - Lady Gaga // Become the Beast - Karliene // EVOL - Marina and The Diamonds // Carnivore - Starset // Intraspecies Predator - Star Eternal // Chains (cover) - Christian Collins // Devil’s Spoke - Laura Marling //  Venus in Furs - DeVotchKa // Wicked - Boy Epic // Evil Angel - Breaking Benjamin // Wolves - Aviators // Human Again - Kodaline // Criminal - Fiona Apple // Human - Daughter // I’ll Be Good - Jaymes Young // We Must Be Killers - Mikky Ekko // Wolf Like Me (cover) - Lera Lynn //

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Fic Inspirations specifically found here, here, and here. I suggest reading them as they’re good fics, even if 2/3 are incomplete. 

[lightningridgeblackopal]

I want you to do literally all of them because music is love/life. And because I am an askhole :P

3′s and 7′s already answered

1. three songs that come up when you put your phone on shuffleCowboys by PortisheadCloser (Super Mario Mix) by Nine Inch NailsSpirit Ditch by Sparklehorse

2. three last songs you listened toCalm Before The StormReinventing The Wheel To Run Myself OverThe Patron Saint Of Liars And Fakesall by Fall Out Boy. I was listening to Take This To Your Grave

4. three songs that you know thanks to your parentsWhat Is And What Should Never Be by Led ZeppelinWalk It Down by Talking HeadsIn The Summertime by Mungo Jerry

5. three songs you wish you could forget (because listening to them hurts)Running by No DoubtYesterday by AtmosphereShake It Off by Taylor Swift 

6. three songs you wish you could erase from history (because they’re terrible)None? Idk??? Racist bullshit nazi songs?

8. three songs that remind you most of summer and vacationSo Cruel by Miami HorrorHeat Of The Summer by Young the GiantBreaking Up by Rilo Kiley

9. three songs that get you in the Christmas MoodNo. Mariah Carey’s All I Want For Christmas Is You is the only Xmas song.

10. three favourite Halloween/spooky songsTHIS IS HALLOWEEN THIS IS HALLOWEEN from TNBCBela Lugosi’s Dead by BauhausDegenerates by Scary Kids Scaring Kids

11. three favourite songs from movie or TV series soundtrackI have legitimately no idea.

12. three favourite songs from video gamesThe entire soundtrack from Jet Set Radio Future.

14. three songs you want at your weddingHostage by SiaScarlet Fields by The HorrorsThe Greatest View by Silverchair

15. three songs you want to dance with your love toCold Fame by Band of SkullsDo You Remember by Ra Ra RiotKansai also by Ra Ra Riot

16. three favourite songs for sexTear You Apart by She Wants RevengeSunspots by Nine Inch NailsGet Some by Lykke Li18. three songs that remind you of your best friendI Am The Highway by AudioslaveIn The Garden by Red VoxLovecraft in Brooklyn by The Mountain Goats

19. three songs that are your guilty pleasureI don’t feel guilt.

20. three songs that remind you of the person who sends thisULTRAnumb by Blue Stahli1979 by Smashing PumpkinsTsugaru

21. three songs of your childhoodI Can See Clearly Now (The Rain Has Gone)Gangsta’s Paradise by CoolioWhat’s Up by 4 Non Blondes

22. three songs you listen to when you’re sad(Albums)Good Morning Spider by SparklehorseDummy by PortisheadCassadaga by Bright Eyes

24. three favourite old songsWhole Lotta Love by Led ZeppelinHead Over Heels by Tears For FearsJust Can’t Get Enough by Depeche Mode

25. three favourite songs of 2017I don’t fuckin know what came out in 2017 lmao. Hold on.Soak by Zola JesusPut Your Money On Me by Arcade FirePraying by Kesha

26. three favourite non-English songsCARNIVAL by The PillowsLe Ciel by Malice MizerMonophobia by Moi dix Mois

28. three best songs to get drunk or high toAction Cat by Gerard WayFuck Everything by EURINGERLazy Eye by Silversun Pickups

29. three songs that influenced you most (some songs change or save lives)Hall Of Mirrors by The DistillersMeet Me In The Woods by Lord HuronHaunted by Poe

30. three songs you really want your followers to know (for reasons other than all those above)(albums)The Campfire Headphase by Boards of CanadaNocturne by Wild NothingThe Suburbs by Arcade FIreIf you want to understand me, listen to those three albums.ETA: I just relized I didn’t mention Elliott Smith once. I’m ashamed.