#Spider deserves unconditional love

[meenawrites]

Tsireya and Spider + Writing Update

So I don't know WHY but it's very important to me that Tsireya and Spider get along. Like in planning my big Spider project a scene with him and Tsireya randomly popped into my head and it is now canon to me. I just think that Tsireya has a very calming aura and I think Spider would actually be able to relax around her which is rare for him since he always has to be on edge. In my mind, they spend a lot of just quiet time together and Spider likes that she doesn't ask him questions so he doesn't ask her questions. Just a very pure friendship/companionship in my mind. 

This is especially important to me because I want Spider to be adopted by the Tonowari family and I think as he's learning to accept the newfound unconditional love for his parents, Tsireya would be his rock, a presence he feels comfortable around as he learns that it's ok to accept this love and parenting that has always seemed so out of reach to him. 

Like I just imagine Spider sitting quietly on the beach having been either overstimulated or upset about something and it's Tsireya who seeks him out, sitting next to him quietly, not doing anything. And eventually, he just lays his head on her shoulder, a tiny sign of relying on her, and he loves that she doesn't make a big deal out of it. 

IT'S SPECIAL TO ME GUYS, MAKES ME WANT TO CRY!

ALSO writing update on big project! It is officially 15 pages long and nothing big has even really happened yet so I guess this is definitely going to be a really long fic. So look forward to it I guess? 

Got to write Tonowari's perspective recently and that was interesting to explore so yay. 

[cherrye]

sweet things

oikawa tooru x gn!reader

a/n: had to dump this b4 my brain explodes

there’s something about you that makes tooru just want to sit you on a beautiful throne and offer you all the love and possessions he can give you. maybe it’s the way you get flustered with every sweet thing he does, or the way you give your all in showing him the love he deserves — it’s apparently an innate desire to see you glowing with joy and love.

case in point, while he likes to act as if he were only doing it because it looked like your spine was about to deform from the weight of your bag (it really wasn’t heavy), he likes to insist on carrying your bag, especially when you’ve been adjusting its handle or strap on your shoulders. even if you do decline the offer, you’ll find yourself smiling when you feel the bag lighten a bit (it’s definitely not because of him lifting the bag from the bottom).

another thing is keeping you out of harm’s way. whether or not you’re a clumsy person, his spider senses activate as soon as you do something that may potentially harm you.

something fell under the table? he’s immediately covering your head with his hands when you crawl down to get it back.

filming the beautiful scenery? tooru already has his hands on your waist to keep you from bumping into people or tripping over your own feet.

but, what if you’ve already hurt yourself? he’s already on his way to fulfill his duty as your nurse… after he finishes laughing, of course.

lastly, while his job as a pro player takes up most of his time, he does his absolute best to make time for you. and, during those day offs he gets to spend with you, he’s paying full attention to you.

he loves hearing you talk about your day, especially when you go into full detail like how the music you were playing was coincidentally matching a random pigeon’s stride, or even how a little pebble in your shoe somehow threw off your luck for the day.

what he loves the most though is when you sit him down on the bed to watch you try on everything you bought that day. tooru’s fully engrossed in the try-on haul and acts as if he was invited to paris fashion week, watching models strut down the runway. he even goes as far as acting like a photographer and going into all sorts of weird poses to “get the best angles” when you model by the doorway.

and during those days you feel as if you’re truly unworthy of the treatment he has been giving you, he’s quick to wrap you up in his arms and remind you that you deserve everything in this world and so much more than what he can offer you.

“i love you, y/n. everything i do for you is because i love you and you love me. i don’t care if you think you don’t deserve it because it’s my choice, and i believe you deserve it and so much more. you are a person worthy of unconditional love and care, i hope you will understand this. it doesn’t have to be right now, but i hope it’ll be in the near future, my love”.

[letterstofreckle]

Last letter to Rocky Rickaby, 1939

With his health rapidly failing due to tail cancer, McMurray sent several letters out to people he knew well - one of them, of course, being his cousin Rocky, who at this point was well into his radio career. Despite living so close by, McMurray thought it suitable to send him a letter.

The letter was kept framed by Rickaby until his death in 1989. It's currently in the collection of the family.

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Rocky,

I should first start by saying that I do not yet feel like I'm dying. Apparently the disease is moving quickly, and soon I very much will feel so, but currently I don't. I decided to write you this little letter to express a great thank you to you, and your family.

Over the course of many years, you have set me on the path I now travel, even if unfortunate tragedy brings me to its end rather quickly. You have done many things - helped me become known, helped me write, taught me humor, but most importantly, helped me to find Ivy.

I can never thank you enough for introducing me to her back those years ago. It feels like almost a century since then, and yet, I still love her as I did when I first fell.

I want you to know that my manuscripts will go to you for safe keeping. I will also send you my typewriter and a few photos of us that I have kept. One thing that everyone who survives me will get is one such letter.

Roarke, you are a good, and honest man. You have been nothing but helpful and kind, even if you were not always nice about it. I find that an interesting trait of yours - your kindness without niceness. Your warmth without fire, your unconditional love for those you know, and nought else for others.

You are a good man.

How is your wife? How are your children? Just the other day, i saw trucks outside of your home - are they preparing to make the move to Hollywood? I should hope they come soon. I miss them. And if they do not come soon, they will miss me by possibly minutes.

I want you to wish them well from me, too. The wife, the children, they deserve nothing but the happiness you helped to create in my life...perhaps with less "science experiments", however.

On my behalf, tell them to dream. Tell them to take up the arts. Tell them to have passion and love for the world outside. Tell them to save spiders and speak back to songbirds. Tell them about me every once and a while. But most importantly, tell them to love one another. They are whole with you, and you with them. But as you saw in my home, and in yours, no family is whole without love.

I fear I'm rambling. I am growing more and more tired as I write these days - it will be a miracle if the current book comes out.

Yours, forever and always, through life and death,

Calvin

[winterironrox]

Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse Review

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This is not a simple review. It will contain specifics and loud opinions.

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I just need to start this off by saying that I fucking love Hobie. He is definitely one of the best parts of the movie. I am so happy that the rumor I heard about Hobie liking Gwen and creating a “love triangle” was not true. I very much dislike “love triangles.” I was screaming the entire time Hobie was on screen. He’s an anarchy genius.

Pavitr is the sweetest lil bean. It was such a relief seeing a happy Spider-Man. I really loved seeing Indian culture represented in a simple everyday way.

The Morales family is amazing and I only want the best for them. Mr. and Mrs. Morales are trying hard to be good parents and it shows.

Peter B. Parker what the hell are you thinking bringing a child into a violent fight?? I can sort of forgive the first one but then lying to MJ about it. You were literally carrying MayDay in a bjorn on a bullet train going skyward. I understand that you want Miles to see MayDay and see the good he brought you but a violent environment is not the time or place.

Speaking of bad parenting, Gwen’s father is an immature ass. When Gwen said, “You’re a good cop, Dad.” I wanted her to follow it up with, “but not a good father.” Why can’t superheroes condemn their parents?

Superhero movies don’t allow characters to hold their parents accountable because they’re objectively made for children to enjoy and children aren’t meant to question or judge their parents. When a parent missteps the child is required to meet the parent where they stand by accepting that everything was done out of love. How the child feels and how the slight effected them isn’t discussed. Marvel did this with Howard and Tony as well as Odin, Loki, and Thor. It’s insane that Sony and Marvel deny children seeing their heroes protect themselves and set boundaries with the people who are supposed to care for them above all others.

Miles is truly a King. He’s better than all those other spider-people and right now I don’t think they deserve the good he’s gonna bring them.

I’m not the biggest fan of Gwen’s actions or the romance between her and Miles. I would have preferred to see Tiana Toomes with Miles but Miles does go the furthest with Gwen out of all his girlfriends, opinions can be made as to why that is, so Gwen and Miles makes sense. I feel that their relationship is still in the crush stages and after her betrayal it could be the end of it. Maybe we could see Tiana, Kate, or someone else in the future.

I’m sure Miles is going to forgive Peter and Gwen but I at least want him to make them sweat more or for them to admit in full why they betrayed him. In order for Sony and Marvel to stop showing their audiences that unconditional forgiveness is required characters need to communicate and reach an understanding that isn’t one person deciding to be the bigger person, especially the child.

It’s fascinating to me that spider-people are so willing to rationalize their losses that they will all follow Miguel when he is clearly wrong.

Miguel that world fell apart because you were in it not because a canon event didn’t happen. Canon events, termed by Miguel, are just common themes that have/will lead to similar events because of course they will. Someone not dying in one instance is not the same as someone making roots in a universe that is not their own. The universe is resilient and it will correct itself. If a person’s death is more important than their survival then don’t worry the universe will make sure that they die.

Unlike the spider-heroes who are rationalizing their loss via acceptance, Spot is resorting to anger. He’s just focusing on the brightest string, like the Maximoffs did with Tony.

I found Miguel’s theory of Miles being an anomaly to be interesting. As I previously stated the universe will only go along with things it agrees with, Miguel learned this lesson pretty traumatically, so I believe that 1610 Peter was going to die that night. And if spider-42 hadn’t been brought to universe-1610 then there wouldn’t be a Spider-Man in 1610. So I think that the universe agreed that 1610 Miles is meant to be Spider-Man. I mean as we have seen multiple times in Across alone, Miles is a good force in every universe. I’m wondering if in 42 Prowler Miles is considered an anti-hero instead of a villain. I mean it’s more likely that they will go with the storyline of Miles meeting the evil him to strengthen his own morals, reminiscent of Billy. But I think I’d prefer the first storyline. It fits the narrative of “fuck canon/the box you want me in.” Also does Miguel just not care about universes without Spider-Man because he could have figured out a way to save 42 if he wanted? I’m so excited to see what happens with 42 Prowler and the final fight.

Absolutely loved all the cameos. All the spiders were perfectly done. Someone correct me if I’m wrong (pls pls send me screen grabs) but I didn’t see 199999 Peter in the holograms. Miguel mentions him in a derogatory way but that’s it. I might be reaching since 199999 Peter is my favorite but I think this is because Miguel groups Miles and Peter together. Miguel is okay with not saving everyone which is something Miles and 199999 Peter refuse to do. 199999 Peter’s main motto is “If you have the power to stop the bad things from happening and they happen anyway then they happened because of you.” Honestly, Peter holds himself to this way to tightly but Miguel does the exact opposite. He doesn’t even try to help people and then absolves himself from guilt. Peter literally almost destroyed the multiverse trying to help people and then lost everything fixing it, again Miguel did the opposite.

My final thoughts about Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse are fuck Miguel, I’m disappointed that so many spider-heroes would want to rationalize their trauma so bad that they would intentionally hurt one of their own, and of course the animation is breathtaking. Can’t wait for Beyond the Spider-Verse!

ps. I saw a tweet where someone said they want RiRi to get the Miles treatment and I totally agree. I would die to see RiRi Williams in 2D animation! She’s phenomenal with a great story, plus we’d get a young Tony Stark in 2D. RDJ would voice him no question. We’d be winning winning.

[wrenhyperfixates]

Oneshot Masterlist

Movie Night: Loki prefers to keep to himself but one particularly persistent Avenger may be able to change his mind.

Something Wonderful: As you and Loki date, he finds more and more things to like about you.

Fireworks: After hearing your vacation is cancelled, Loki enlists some members of the Tower to help cheer you up.

Party Favors: Loki comes to the rescue when your nephews’ birthday party is on the brink of disaster.

Cafés, Croissants, and Captured Hearts: When Loki stumbles into your café, he is completely enamored with you, but will he be able to conquer his fears and move towards hope and happiness?

Arachnophobia: Living in the Tower surrounded by superheroes can make you think your own fears don’t matter. Luckily, Loki is there to save you, both from yourself and the spiders invading your room.

Be Good When I’m Gone: When Loki starts to go on missions across the galaxy, you and the trickster god do your best to keep your relationship alive.

Doubt Comes In: When depression and anxiety get the better of you, Loki is there to help you through it.

The Secret Admirer: When he is too nervous to confess his love for you, Loki decides to take on the role of secret admirer. Can a perfect night out with you give him the confidence he needs?

Full Disclosure: Thor has always been supportive of his brother’s love life, but Loki won’t tell him that he’s dating you. When Thor won’t stop setting him up on dates, Loki has to move past his fears and confess.

Oh, Calamity: Your death breaks Loki, and all he wants is for you to come back to him.

The Gift: Tony says no pets in the Tower, but since when has Loki ever listened to him?

No Cause for Alarm: Loki blames himself when you get hurt on a mission. Thor is convinced that the only way to ease his guilt is for him to confess his feelings for you, so he and Peter hatch a plan to get Loki to do just that.

Birthday Wish: It’s your birthday and all you want to do is spend a quiet day with Loki. Unfortunately, he’s decided to plan you a crazy party. Can you get your wish by the end of the night?

Unconditional: You deal with conflicting emotions as you try to understand why you deserve Loki’s love. When he finds out about your turmoil, he helps you heal.

In Your Arms: You comfort Loki one night after a particularly bad nightmare, and remind him that you’re not going anywhere.

To Fall in Love: Loki embraces an autumnal Midgardian tradition to tell you how he really feels.

Halloween: It’s Halloween, and you and Loki are excited to spend it together.

Forever Yours: You reject Loki when he asks to court you. When he learns the reason why, however, he sets out to make amends.

Pretty Venom: Loki pulls away from you, leaving you hurt and feeling alone. Perhaps an emotional confrontation is just what you need to get him to tell you how he really feels.

Through It All: The happiness of the night of your engagement to Loki is suddenly marred by the fact that your brother has been hurt. Loki, however, remains by your side and helps you through your pain.

Kissing Your Worries Away: A bad dream interrupts your sleep, but Loki steps in to save you from your demons.

Love Poison: You plan to take extreme measures to catch Loki’s eye. Unfortunately, things backfire terribly. Can something good come of the mess?

It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas: It’s the Christmas season and Loki still has much to learn. Thankfully, he has his favorite little mortal to teach him all about it.

Yule Log: With Christmas quickly approaching, Loki finds himself missing his favorite time on Asgard. If he can’t go back home to celebrate, you’re determined to bring the party to him.

Secret Santa: When you pick Loki’s name for Secret Santa, you are at a loss for what to get him. Some quality time with the God of Mischief sheds some light on the situation.

How the God Stole Christmas: Loki despises Christmas, and after watching the Grinch, he decides there’s only one thing to do about it. But you just might melt his cold heart.

How to Cure a Cold: You catch a cold after playing in the snow. Loki worries that, as a frost giant, he is too cold to warm you up, but you quickly convince him otherwise.

A Kiss at Midnight: At Tony’s New Year’s Party, you notice Loki is upset. He’s hesitant to tell you what’s wrong, but when he finally confesses, the coming year suddenly seems so much brighter.

Perfect: After much research and seeking out advice from Tony, Loki asks you on a date.

Always: All Loki wants is to be with you forever and always. Your gentle kindness convinces him to tell you as much.

The Ring: Loki thinks he’s found the perfect way to propose to you, but things go awry. Luckily, all that matters in the end is that you love each other.

As Long as I Have You: Loki is worried about bringing your relationship out into the public eye. He finally realizes that as long as he has you, everything will be fine.

Loss & Love: As you struggle with the loss of your grandma, Loki is right by your side to take care of you and wipe your tears away.

Because I Love You: You’ve fallen for the trickster god, and have no idea that he’s done the same. When his attempts to keep you safe fail, you get into a huge fight. Will you be able to tell each other how you really feel, or is the rift too wide?

If It’s Meant to Be: After you breakup, Loki regrets how he pushed you away. He can only hope that you’ll come back to him.

Queen of the Night: Loki takes you to the rooftop greenhouse to show you his favorite flower, the queen of the night. Your evening ends with a confession of love.

A Short Story: You decide to get back at Loki for his incessant short jokes.

The Problem With Birthdays: You want to enjoy your birthday with Loki, but your fears that one day no one will love you are keeping you from having fun.

We Make a Pretty Good Team: It’s game night at the Avengers Tower, and you find the perfect partner in Loki.

The Double Date: On Valentine’s Day, you set up a double date with your boyfriend, Loki, and friends, Bucky and Steve. Unfortunately, tensions between the god of the Captain threaten your evening.

A Perfect Proposal: In which you propose to Loki.

Don’t Gotta Work it Out: A particularly nasty fight rattles your relationship with Loki. Even as both of you wonder if you’re not meant to work things out, you long to be in each other’s arms. But can you make amenjds before your hope is gone?

Stay the Night: Your fear of thunderstorms leads you to invite Loki to stay the night at your place.

Gold Writing: When a charming, handsome stranger gives you inspiration for the first time in weeks, you try to guess what it is he’s famous for in exchange for his name.

Need You Here: Loki lost you in the snap and now knows he must tell you how he feels. Unfortunately, the battle raging around you wants to stop him from doing just that.

Opening Night: When Loki scores the lead in a production of West Side Story, the two of you become fast friends. You help convince him to face his fears and invite the Avengers to see the show.

Anything: When the Avengers latest mission is to visit local schools, Loki’s insecurities start to get the better of him. But with you to there comfort him, he realizes that with you by his side, he can do anything.

Eyes Closed: Loki escapes to his Midgardian’s house to decompress when the stress and pressure becomes too much. Spending time with you is just the thing he needs.

Not as Bad as You Think: After a bad grade on a test, Peter is being very hard on himself. Loki helps you cheer him up.

Milkshakes: Overwhelmed when Loki saves you, you respond to his kindness with fear. Determined to apologize, you seek Loki out to thank him with a couple of milkshakes and some fries.

My Heart is Your Canvas: Loki hadn’t been planning on confessing his love for you, but he’s glad he did.

Just Dance: Loki joins you and Peter as you play some video games.

For Appearances: Posing with Loki as a young, rich couple shouldn’t have any bumps in the road, right? After all, it is just a mission. But as you spend time with the mischief god, you realize not everything is as fake as it seems.

I’m Here For You: Loki comforts you when he finds you crying over school.

Not So Alone: Meeting a young fan of his gives Loki some renewed hope.

Not a Trick: Loki wins Thor’s money back after you swindle him in a street con.

Home Is Such a Lonely Place: When Loki is handpicked to be part of the Avengers new space force, it causes some problems in your relationship. Will distance make the heart grow fonder or is it too much to bear?

All I Need is You: You do so much for everyone else and so little for yourself that when you almost collapse, Loki finally gets you to agree to let him take care of you.

Marshmallows After Midnight: When Peter shows up at your and Loki’s apartment, the young hero has more than enough plans for mischief.

Tell Me Everything: When you become overwhelmed at a feast, Loki whisks you away to safety.

Kickflips and Confidence: As your best friend, Loki helps you build confidence to enter a skate competition.

If This Were a Movie: Thor and Wanda try to help you and Loki see the feelings you have for each other.

Happy Now?: When Loki attends your team’s roller derby, you have more wins than just one.

Friends Like These: Peter brings you to the Tower for a tour to take your mind off your parents’ divorce. When you meet Loki, he helps you come to grips with your feelings over the situation.

All Night Long: Though you and Loki both pine for each other, the road has a few bumps in it before your happily ever after.

Always There: When Loki is grieving for his mother and blaming himself for her death, you use your powers to help.

Little Wonders: You’re by Loki’s side his whole life, and vise versa. There is not a doubt in either of your minds that you love each other. Together, you can weather any storm.

Moving On: When you find out your ex-boyfriend is a Hydra agent, it leads to a confession of Love from Loki.

Luck Led Me to You: Driving home on Christmas morning after a last minute mission, a snow storm forces Loki to stop at a roadside diner where he meets you.

Love Keeps Me Here: After inviting you to the Tower for Christmas, Loki can’t help but find himself drawn ever closer to you. He hatches a plan to not only be able to see you again, but to make your dreams come true.

The Best Gift of All: You don’t want to burden everyone with your birthday when the Tower Christmas party is right around the corner, but Loki has other plans.

A Kiss Under the Mistletoe: Loki frets that the two of you not having a Christmas tradition is a sign of something more; it’s particularly concerning since he’s planning on proposing to you.

[meenawrites]

Everything said above is absolutely correct in every way. 

While I too don't hate Neytiri for her dislike of Spider because of how much trauma she went through, I agree that Jake has a lot more responsibility on his shoulders for how Spider was neglected. I feel like once he became Na'vi Jake just kind of pushes his human past away as if it was part of someone else's experience or a dream. I think that's how he manages to put distance between him and Spider's situation of being at a disadvantage in this world. Jake should have been the one to have a bit more introspection and compassion and be like, yeah Quarritch is his father but Spider is a CHILD. And all children need the same thing: care, unconditional love, just proof that someone gives a shit about you. Instead, aside from his relationship with the kids, Jake himself said that Spider was treated as a stray who was just kind of there and tolerated. But according to Na'vi way children are a gift from Eywa and I feel like someone should have been there to remind Jake and especially Neytiri about that. 

On another note, I'm also rooting for the whole Quarritch connecting to Eywa and having a. bit of a redemption because I too am a sucker for that. I don't know if they'll do that but I feel like the way they've presented this Recom Quarritch who's having a bit of an identity struggle being Quarritch but not really being him might be able to change, if only for Spider's sake. 

For real though, I think Spider deserves actual parents other than the Sully's and Recom Quarritch so I'm rooting for Tonowari and Ronal to adopt him

I agree with your take on Spider. Like no one shits on kids with absent fathers who still desperately crave a relationship or connection with them, and that's what it is with Spider and Quaritch. (+ all the other stuff)

Like the Sully kids refer to Spider as their brother, but it really isn't till the end that we really see Jake refer to Spider as his son, and it's clear that Neytiri doesn't view Spider as her kid. Spider actively hides from Neytiri in that one scene, it's clear that he thinks that Neytiri would go after him in that moment, and Jake does refer to Spider as a 'stray cat' in the beginning. We also can't forget that no once did either Jake or Neytiri really ever mention going back for Spider or try to actively rescue him once they find out that Spider is traveling with Quaritch.

It's also clear that none of the scientists that remained on Pandora ever really became any sort of real parental figure for Spider. They took care of them, yes, but they seem to do it out of a sense of responsibility since they can't send him back to Earth.

I really don't blame Spider for saving Quaritch, he's a kid that confronted with leaving his father to die and this is after Quaritch showed that he actually cared about Spider and viewed him as a son. (Letting Kiri go to stop Neytiri.)

exactly.

I can say as a kid with more then one shitty father figure, I would have probably done the same, no matter the circumstance. spider reacted on a childish impulse to save his father, to save the man who showed him mercy, who was kind to him, who saved his life.

I don't blame neytiri for her feelings towards spider, he is a physical reminder of all the pain she went through and u til what happened with Kiri there's no sign she was every anything more then indifferent to his face (behind closed doors is another story, but she did him the decency of avoiding rather then actively hating) but she played a huge role in how he reacted to quaritch, how desperate he was for connection for love and parental attention. I have a little less sympathy for Jake, he knew what it was like to be human in a na'vi world, he knew what it was like to be different (even human Jake knew that, knew it very well, spider is a human in a world not built for him, by definition, spider was disabled and Jake did little actually aid him). spider was strung between worlds, families, morals, and decisions no child should have to pick between. I say he did his damn best to try and please everyone and himself.

I also think people have to take into consideration, he never grew cold. that boy was faced with social isolation, losing his parents, being abused (by human quaritch as a little kid and then later again in life he was more emotionally used and abused by most of the people around him), neglect, being tortured, seeing his father hurt the na'vi and the tulkans, losing a brother, almost being killed by neytiri, and more (I feel like I'm leaving something out, but I can't remember it) and never once does he grow cold. he feels so much every time, has so much empathy, feels so much guilt and compassion. yet he never turns to violence, he is one of few characters who avoids bloodshed (he fucked up helping quaritch, and you can feel his guilt when he realizes what he's allowed to happen.) unless it's to protect his family (he's the last to put down his bow during the kidnapping) and even then it always feels like more of a bluff and front, like his raising his hackles and bristling up in defense. I think him saving quaritch shows he is more then capable of mercy and empathy, but also that he is the most capable of forgiveness and accepting change which will be important as this story continues (listen, ai know it's unlikely, but I'm rooting for the whole, quaritch connecting with eywa and reaching some sort of enlightenment and getting redeemed plotline, cause I like sappy shit like that) cause having someone so willing to forgive, to be hopeful that people can change to be the bridge between the sully family and whoever's to come is vital, cause the Sully's are only going to get colder as they lose more and more. they need that hopeful innocence to keep them a float.

[i-like-eyes]

If you're still doing duos, Meta Knight and Dedede. I'm just a bit curious

Anon haven’t you heard that curiosity killed the cat.

These two characters have literally defined my childhood, you'd think I would want to see them be besties that go on grand adventures together. But no matter how hard I try to come up with smth to do with them I got nothin'. I try referencing official material but what they got leaves me underwhelmed. I think the fandom can give the games more credit in the story department than they deserve. Stuff like a lot of the RtDL gang fanon is just taken as canon when all RtDL has is a handful of cutscenes that amount to “let’s help magolor” and “let’s kill magolor”. And if you like the 4 that's great, just don’t give the games credit for your own writing. Instead flaunt just how much better you can depict some characters than the Wii game did lol. With Kirby Fighters 2 the thing about them working together to fight Kirby is a good start, they can both super relate to that great. But is there anything else they can relate to? The game tells me that they have a strong bond but all I saw was two grown ass men try to beat a marshmallow and feel sad about losing together. At that point you got to look for evidence yourself, and that's fun I love thinking about how Zan and Taranza can play off each other really well because they are similar despite 0 evidence towards the two even being friends lmao. At most you can say they are both leader dudes that care for their men and that’s something! But that plus they both like to fight real good isn’t enough for me personally.

I try to come up with scenarios of the two as buddies but honestly I'm more interested in their relationships with other characters. And I feel like they’d just encourage each other's worst aspects, like I’m sorry if MK tried to pull a Revenge of Meta Knight 2 DDD wouldn’t be the voice of reason he’d stop MK only to tell him how he’s doing it wrong and give him the keys to his mech. Which is fucking hilarious I’ll give it that. They have the potential to for some comedic shit, the fact that the silly inoffensive penguin guy somehow has the galaxy’s greatest warrior working for him is inherently funny. I can see DDD being aware of this but still treating MK just like anyone else because DDD does not care for the pleasantries. MK would at times feel like he’s not getting the respect he deserves, but also sort of appreciates just how honest DDD is. That’s all I got for them to at least get along, but what stops me is that I don’t think they have a lot to emphasize with. While DDD is completely unconditional when it comes to anything, I think a lot of MK’s weird tendencies would just fly over his head. He’d really underestimate just how much MK can get stuck in his own thoughts and wouldn’t “get it” because DDD is so to-the-point. Both can be impulsive, but in different ways. DDD seems like a very in-the-moment guy, one minute he's fighting Kirby the next they are best friends. He can do some selfish things and acts like he doesn't care but when shit goes down he'll immediately drop the act and help. Spider guy kidnapped him but he saved them in the end so he's good now easily forgiven. MK can do reckless shit like. The entirety of Revenge of MK. Or SqSq. Planet Robobot even. But hiding your face 24/7 isn't something you do on the fly it's something you constantly dwell on. When you aren't talking to someone else you're stuck with your own thoughts, and a quiet guy like MK seems to overthink shit like what people would think about his face. DDD can move on from something easily, whereas MK would hold a grunge and DDD couldn't comprehend doing that. Also MK doesn’t talk about his mindset so much as he’ll do something to make a statement. If he’s thankful he’ll do you a favor, and if he hates you he’ll stab you. And DDD figures out what action means what but he can’t really pin point *why* MK is the way he is, which is partly MK’s fault for never explaining himself.

Ultimately I think it comes down to how you interpret the characters, and saying there is one correct take or one ”””””””canon”””””””” explanation is complete bullshit when they are 30 year old characters that have been depicted drastically depending on the different titles, medium, who they have been written by. If I had read the games differently or gone about writing the two in another way maybe I’d like to see them play off each other more, but it’s just not my thing. Don't think other people are wrong for thinking differently from me though, again I think there are many different ways to go about these two in particular.

[fantastic-nonsense]

Do you have any good not fluffy/too fluffy Jason fic recs? He is my special interest and I like when he’s badass

luckily for you I read an exceptionally large number of Jason-focus fics for someone who probably talks about him the least of all the core Batfamily members. Here's a couple that I really like:

All the Roofs of Uncertainty, by Kieron_ODuibhir: For all the blood on his hands, Red Hood was never just a villain. And Nightwing never gives up on family, not for good. Or: The one where Dick bleeds a lot and Jason argues with everybody.

dead man's party, by TheResurrectionist: The “seeing ghosts” thing didn’t really bother him. Jason could do without the constant mother-henning from one in particular, though. [Or: Martha Wayne spends her afterlife making fun of and mothering Jason]

Deluge in the Wasteland, by Silver Spider: Maybe she'd been wrong. Maybe she was hiding from the wrong person. It couldn't hurt just to see him one more time before... Bruce/Talia. Post-'Son of the Demon' AU. [technically a Talia-centric fic, but Jason co-stars quite heavily]

It's a Hard-Knock Life (Except When There's Cookies), by Hinn_Raven: Jason Peter Todd would like it to be known that he did not adopt an orphanage. If anything, the little brats adopted him.

second impressions, by Valkirin: Red Hood doesn't know that Stephanie Brown is the new Robin. Tim Drake doesn't know anything about Red Hood or why he wants to fight Robin. All Tim knows is that a man in a red helmet just broke into his house. Jason needs to figure out what's going on, Tim needs a dad, and Stephanie needs to figure out just how long she's going to last as Robin.

Strays, by Cdelphiki: Three short months ago, Bruce brought Jason home after finding him starving, alone in an alley. Now he was doing quite well in his studies and training, but it broke Bruce's heart how much Jason seemed to expect the other shoe to drop any day. He'd never had a reason to trust the adults in his life before, so of course he was having difficulty coming to trust Bruce and Alfred.

So when Bruce came across a skittish little puppy while out on patrol, he started to wonder if adopting a puppy would help Jason out, help with his anxieties and give him the unconditional love he deserved, in a form he could tolerate. Maybe through teaching a puppy he was safe, he'd come to realize he was safe as well. It was worth a shot, and Bruce would be a gigantic liar if he said he didn't love their new puppy, too.

The 70 Days After Groundhog Day, by Ptelea: There's a time loop that only Jason remembers. It acts as a catalyst for changes within the family. Some arguments, some misunderstandings, some bonding, some healing, and quite a lot of conversations that mostly take place over food. Dick POV, focused on Dick and Jason but with the other Bats around and very present.

The Changeling, by Silver Spider: Jason is awake and aware but half-a-world away from Gotham in enemy hands. He thinks of nothing but escape, but what happens when he meets a certain little boy? Partial AU. Starts at Red Hood: Lost Days #1 then spins in its own direction.

the city carries ruins in its heart, by nex_et_nox: “Do you trust him?” Jim asked. “Yes,” said Batman, unhesitating. He didn’t know if he would ever like Red Hood. He didn’t know if he would ever be able to like working with him. He wanted to arrest the man. But if Batman trusted him, that would have to be enough for Jim.

Jim Gordon's evolving perspective on Red Hood.

Verdant, by Cerusee: Talia puts Jason in the Lazarus pit to restore his mind. Then she takes him home.

Bonus Young Justice-verse fics:

Come Alive, by CaptainOzone: Dick went to Infinity Island on a mission to rescue three. He never expected to return with an additional two. None of them did. AU of 3x06.

Resurgence, by Hinn-Raven: Healing is a slow process. Too bad the universe seems to have forgotten that. Even as the Team and the Justice League try to recover from the death of Wally West, the universe throws another obstacle for them to deal with. Post-Endgame Fix-It. Two-Shot.

Stages of Deterioration, by aradian nights: After Bruce finds Jason Todd, catatonic and traumatized, miraculously alive on the streets of Gotham, Tim, Dick, and Barbara attempt to fix their broken brother. AU.

[catboylupin]

I was curious what is it about Remus that draws yourself and others in? I ask this as someone who identifies so much with him and it’s endlessly fascinating to me what drew him to people and others interpretations of him. How do you see him?

you see, remus is my little meow meow. also:

i think the werewolf thing is endlessly generative and can be analogous to many things. he is basically a vessel for exploring what it means to be human, wrestling the beast within, i am the thing? is the thing me? am i seperate from the thing? etc. you can use lycanthropy as a conduit to interrogate gender and shame and disability and assimilation and liberation. basically this post and this post and this

feels like some ungodly evil thing. sometimes he is ok with that.

he wants nothing more than to be loved/ have friends but at the same time he could be incredibly antisocial. in one way or another everything to remus is a sort of performance (part of this is rooted in his need to come off as a Good Werewolf/ general self loathing)

basically, for people whose every social interaction feels like a performance, “maybe i should stop pretending to be a person” is a relatable sentiment. (that is cringe, i know!! but it’s how i feel) 

has bursts of anger/ brashness. emotionally unpredictable. people around him are never exactly sure how he’ll react to a given situation.

being offered unconditional love is scary for him because it feels temporary/ like he doesn’t deserve it. however when he allows himself to be loved he can form these very close and deep relationships in which he is more authentically himself. 

lies constantly. and can be closed off emotionally/ uncommunicative and then expect other people to read his mind and understand what he needs 

basically he has a No One Understands Me complex yet makes little effort to be understood  

condescending. will give you unsolicited advice that he himself will not follow. also has a superiority complex (modern day remus would’ve regularly browsed /mu/. ‘oh you’ve never heard mbv? normie....’)

aloof but makes an effort to be kind. as a student i think he was considered friendly/ would help you with your homework if you asked 

has a tendency to see relationships as transactional 

has the same vibe as the band talking heads. i know this is a cringe thing 2 say but he matches their ‘cerebral awkward art students meet the nyc punk scene’ energy. they were his favorite band too.

stoner. at hogwarts he was The guy to go to for illicit substances 

enjoys the presence of women… outside of the marauders most of his friends r gals. mama’s boy etc.  

very cognizant of the fact that he is friends with two best friends, i.e. if the sidewalk was too small for three people he would be the one to walk behind them. he is okay with this but if he thinks about it for too long it might start to sting a bit. 

enjoys being choked in bed lol 

has little interest in controlling people/ has a healthy distrust of authority. as a prefect he would let most things slide, as a teacher he would let you retake tests as many times as you wanted. said voldemort, not youknowwho. all of these things r canon btw 

chronic pain. pure projection here, but he also has hearing loss. 

turned homework in late and i cannot decide if he was a very attentive question asking note taking student or just did not pay attention at all and then went to the library at night and tried to teach himself everything he was supposed to learn in class. 

the early 80s were uhhh tough for him. drugs as a coping mechanism/ substance abuse etc. never stayed in one place too long/ travelled a lot. 

will never apologize and acts completely irrationally to avoid confronting his insecurities. 

smart but not as naturally gifted and talented at everything the same way s and j were. he actually had to try in school, and doing well was important/ high stakes for him because he couldn’t just live off his family’s money for his entire life

very much a pisces in that at times he liked to sort of marinate in his sadness…… because when you are the one being victimized you cannot be a monster, right?  

dirt under his fingernails. holes in his socks. 

likes to do things that makes him feel in control of his life and his body. 

doesn’t kill bugs. catch n release. will hold a spider in his bare hands. sirius it’s okay it won’t hurt you. sirius please don’t kill it. pls.

likes being alone but not as much as he likes being around his friends :)

and basically everything @wolfbuck has ever said about him being welsh.

[fadedlovemp3]

On my humble opinion... SpideyTorch is mostly when you are only on Spider-Man side of things cuz JohnnyWyatt... oh, man, to trust someone so dear, to have someone that sees you like a normal person, to have someone's unconditional support? Johnny and Wyatt have done everything for the other time and time again.

Johnny and Akihiro? That is just shut that makes people mentally ill. Knowing that Akihiro actively choose to act on a way to be liked by Johnny on Daken: Dark Wolverine, that he went out of his way to maintain contact with him, that he wanted to hurt Johnny or that fucking dream sequence when his personality clashes with his moral and the one constant in his mind Johnny... mental illness.

4 me spideytorch is a lot of nostalgia and like im definitely very fond of it and i love their friendship and my love of them mostly comes from just liking the both of them a whole lot and their friendship and team ups are so fun and they remind me of some of my friendships that are like flirty and im joking but also i love you so much id rip my own heart out if it made things better for you and also we have made out but it was a joke!

but johnny and wyatt is like. literally exactly what you said!! all of it!! like you know all of me and you think im normal when no one else does and special when no one else does and worth it when everyone else is too busy for me and im never too much for you because youve seen me at literally my worst and i don’t have to hide that or anything from you no masks no pretending also i think marvel hq deserves to burn in every circle of hell for not making them canon 🥰

and finally johnnydaken. MENTAL ILLNESS IS RIGHT ITS SO. literally so sick and twisted. how could they do this to us (gay people on tumblr) !!

[sunnysviolin]

Trans Hero

It’s TDOV so uhhh time for me to project again on my favorite boy <3333 To all my trans peeps out here...life is getting better and better each day!! 

Hero comes out just shy of twelve years old. He’s known how he’s felt for his whole life. He’s gone by Hero to almost the entire world for years. Mari hasn’t used she/her pronouns for him in years, and even though their friends are confused by it, they follow in her footsteps. 

He tells his parents, and it...well it doesn’t really go good or bad. They aren’t forcing him to stop, they aren’t helpful. It’s just...a thing. At least now Kel can always call him big bro without worrying that their parents might hear. 

This continues as Hero enters into teenhood, and life becomes so much more complicated for him. Complicated by the fact that he is finally starting to understand how his body isn’t really like other boys. 

Hero doesn’t bind. He definitely starts out binding, but it ends up hurting him pretty badly. It just feels tight and uncomfortable, and as much as his brain likes how he looks, he can’t stand it for longer than a few hours. 

It’s pretty upsetting, because Hero has a large chest so there isn’t really any hiding anything. He gets misgendered a lot, and he doesn’t feel comfortable correcting people on his pronouns. Mari tries to help, but mostly Hero just wears overly baggy clothes and does everything he can to try and hide himself away. 

His father is actually the one who comes up with the solution. He’s pretty into athletics and sports, and even though his first born isn’t interested in that, athletic wear is always being updated. He’s seen Hero struggling with different binders, seen the way that this whole debacle has changed his eldest. Aurora Hero is moody, irritable, and clearly hurting. He doesn’t want to see his...child in pain. Not ever. 

Hero’s father brings him home two compression shirts, and Hero layers one over his best sports bra. It’s not perfect, there’s still a swell there, but under a sweatshirt it’s almost not even there. Hero can manage to look in the bathroom mirror without wanting to scream for the first time in nearly a month. He takes a second just to stare at his reflection and finally breathe. 

Hero’s father has been...pretty neutral before this on his transition. He hadn’t come right out and said he didn’t approve, he had just said it was up to Aurora to decide what she wanted to do.

At the tender age of twelve it had felt like rejection. Then they had spent the last three years in a strange limbo where Hero would make progress, and his mother might tight lipped give her blessing and his father wouldn’t say a word. Hero has tried not to show how much it affected him, but when his father gives him this gift it all comes spilling out. 

Hero’s parents aren’t unaccepting, they’re just...scared. They’re scared of judgement, not for themselves but for their sweet lovely child who can’t even kill a spider. Their child who loves to cook, who cries easily, who is beloved by almost everyone that meets them. A child like that doesn’t deserve the cruelty that the world can hand out. 

((They don’t understand at first that they’re being just as cruel by withholding their unconditional love))

Standing together in the bathroom Hero beams, bright and brilliant, and he lets out a quiet gleeful laugh. He throws himself into his fathers arms and muffles his broken voice thank you against his father’s shoulder, shoulders still shaking with laughter. 

Hero’s father realizes this is probably the first time he’s hugged his oldest in...well far too long. He holds Au-Hero tight to him and vows to make a change. As much as he would’ve chosen a different path for his son, he would rather see his son this elated than the withdrawn sullen girl he had seen Hero slowly becoming. 

His father slowly starts to use Hero’s name more, introduces Kel and Hero as ‘my sons’ or ‘the boys’ and each time he sees Hero’s brilliant grin he knows he’s making the right choice. 

[lunarfly]

Ok so I decided to finally post the promised: defending Romione (🥺💗💕💖💞💘) against Dr*mione (ಠಿ_ಠ) shippers.

So I've read a few posts about Dr*mione shippers, talking about why their ship is amazing (which had nothing to do with canon btw) and bashing Ron (for no reason) and I'm literally shaking out of anger.

Here are my thoughts:

1. "Ron is too dumb for hermione"

Stop- Just-

Stop.

RON IS NOT DUMB.

Yes, he might not be very interested in school subjects, but 👏 that 👏 doesn't 👏 mean 👏 he 👏 is 👏 dumb 👏.

He is actually very smart! He beat McGonagall's chess game, he is logical and quick-thinking. There's MANY examples of this that I won't name right now, but it's a canonical fact. Ron. Is. Not. Dumb.

And consider he was dumb. So? Would that stop Romione from happening? NO! Hermione didn't mind Ron not being smart. She was just upset that Ron was lazy and wouldn't study anything until the last minute. She wanted to get both Harry and Ron to study according to a schedule.

Is it clear? Intelligence doesn't determine love.

**And this is something that confuses me. This doesn't have anything to do with the point, but why does nobody realize that Harry isn't much smarter than Ron? Yes, he was better at DADA but that requires TALENT, not intelligence. And I'm pretty sure we all know that Ron is talented as well (hopefully everyone realizes that). Nobody uses the fact that Harry wasn't intelligent against Harmione, but everyone uses the fact that Ron wasn't intelligent against Romione. The double standards tear apart the fandom.

2. "Ron bought hermione perfume and Draco could get her something better."

Soooo, you're saying that just because Ron didn't have the money that Draco had means that Hermione didn't deserve Ron?

Wow, this just says a lot about you dr*mione shippers. You only care about the money that Draco has, not his personality. You don't like Ron because he's poor (and I know how FanFics give the "kind Draco" Ron's canon personality so the only "problem" with Ron is his looks and lack of money). And you don't see Hermione nor Ron the way they are. This "point" of yours is literally stating that Hermione should be a gold-digger and get Draco because he can get her the expensive presents that she deserves. Yikes.

3. "Draco can understand the emotional side of Hermione while Ron can't."

Wait

What?

WHERE DO YOU GET THIS IDEA FROM-

Draco is only EVER concerned about his own self, he is a NARCISSIST. He would NEVER care for someone (let alone Hermione) as purely and truly as he cared about himself. He didn't even care about Crabbe, Goyle, Pansy Parkinson etc. He was selfish. The only reason he could express his emotions was because he had to go through a lot since he realized that killing Dumbledore wasn't as easy as bullying Hermione. This would never ever work.

And even if Ron didn't understand her as much, he STILL comforted her. Take the beginning chapters of The Deathly Hallows as an example. You'll see.

4. "Ron is too immature."

I need help.

Of course Ron was immature when he was 11!! Yes, he acted immaturely many times, yes, he made many mistakes, but guess what? He changed! He changed for Hermione!! Draco didn't change at all, not for Hermione, nor for anyone else. He remained the same bratty bully.

If you could reread the books and read prisoner of azkaban vs deathly hallows, you will definitely see how much Ron has matured. He doesn't argue with Hermione anymore, he comforts her, he's there for her. Yes, he made a mistake but he was manipulated by the horcrux! We don't blame Ginny for what tom riddle's diary made her do, do we? So stop blaming Ron!

Anyways, I think if dr*mione shippers have read the books, they'll know what I'm talking about when I say Ron changed for Hermione. I honestly don't know how you could miss Ron's character arc.

5. "Ron would be jealous of the brilliant Hermione."

What?

If I remember correctly, the reason Draco bullied the trio was because he was jealous of them. His jealousy turned into a 7 year torture for the trio and now you're saying that Ron is the jealous one? Please.

But anyways, Ron has been jealous of Harry and has made a few mistakes. But there are reasons behind them and I can defend him for each of these with arguments other than "everyone makes mistakes" (cough cough* Draco stans* cough cough).

First of all, Ron has admitted being jealous of Harry's fame because he lives with 5 older brothers who outshine him. But that's not really a mistake because he never let it get in his way. There were only 2 situations in 7 years when he left Harry out of jealousy but I think these have different explainations.

No1 Ron left in goblet of fire. I think the real reason that Ron let his jealousy get in his way this time, was not only because Harry got to participate in the tournament which could bring him eternal glory, but more likely because he was disappointed that his own best friend didn't even tell him that he was entering and didn't even help him participate (which wasn't true, but Ron thought so back then).

No2 Ron left in deathly hallows. This one was 100% because of the horcrux and I think we should all accept this by now and stop hating on Ron for being affected by dark magic.

And just like that, Ron never let his jealousy get in his way of friendships. I can't think of a situation where Ron is jealous of the brilliant Hermione so if you remember, please let me know so I can argue against it. <3

6. "Ron and Hermione would break up and remain friends, it's easy to imagine because they didn't have a strong relationship."

This was actually said, someone actually said this-

I'm just going to say that Ron and Hermione are happily married to this day (which definitely proves that their relationship is strong) and give the dr*mione community a moment of silence.

7. "Ron didn't do anything for Hermione and was just a jerk."

Coming from a person who has read and reread the books multiple times, I can assure you that Ron did many things for Hermione.

Of course, he was immature at first, he was mean to her, but slowly he started seeing more of the good in Hermione and started changing for her.

And even when he was immature, he still cared about Hermione and would protect her no matter what.

Let's remember how many times rubbish Ron stood up for Hermione against the brilliant bully Draco. 🥰

Let's remember how cowardly Ronald faced his fears of spiders to help Hermione (and the rest of the school, just how jerkier can he get?). 🥰

Let's remember how ridiculous Ronniekins stood up for Hermione against sensational Snape and got himself into detention (oh yes, this is the book version of the movie moment where Ron agrees with Snape about Hermione being an 'insufferable know-it-all'). 🥰

Let's remember how rotten Ronny comforted Hermione when she was worried about Hagrid and Buckbeak (and he even let her hug him and cry on his shoulder, how rude). 🥰

Let's remember how revolting Ronald sacrificed himself to save Harry and Hermione in the chess game. 🥰

Let's remember how horrendous Ron attempted to hex Draco when he used a slur that was meant to offend Hermione. 🥰

Keep in mind that all of these were done when Ron was still immature and still argued a lot with Hermione.

And these aren't even all.

8. "Ron and Hermione have a loveless marriage."

What the-

I'm sorry, I'm trying to be respectful here but this is crap. And the fact that the person said they also had "proof" from the c*rsed ch*ld but didn't want to spoil it-

As much as I hate the c*rsed ch*ld, I can tell you that it did its job portraying Ron and Hermione's unconditional love. Even in alternative realities, where they didn't get married, they were still in love.

And why would you even think that Ron and Hermione would marry and have kids if they didn't love each other? I need explainations.

Next.

9. "Ron never listens to Hermione."

I'm sorry, what? I'm genuinely confused??

What do you even mean by this? Yeah, they used to argue a lot, and? Ron thinks Hermione is brilliant and wonderful and he follows her advice. I can't recall a moment where Ron won't listen to Hermione, doesn't agree with her and ruins her plans. Anyone else?

Since this one is a big mess and a confusion, I'll move on to the next one until someone explains the points and arguments.

10. "Draco could make Hermione laugh while Ron couldn't."

....

Do I really need to say anything for this one?

Ron was the funniest one from the trio, that's why Harry enjoyed his company so much! Don't you remember the line in goblet of fire where Harry thinks about how much he misses having Ron as his best friend, because without him there's less fun and less laughs? I do.

But what I don't remember is finding Draco's sense of humor funny. I'm sorry but his intellectual level is almost as low as Crabbe and Goyle's. His insults are none other than Potty and Weaselbee, he only got 3 O.W.L.s and all of his jokes were stupid and dumb and their only purpose was insulting people he was jealous of.

These fanfics have rotten people's brains...😬

Anyways, I'm going to stop here. I've delayed this post for very long and I'm so excited to finally post it!

I read a book on wattpad by a dr*mione shipper and it was nothing but a giant headache. That's where I got all of these statements from. Most of the garbage in the book revolved around Draco and Hermione being inseparable and getting over all obstacles (wth) and other stupid stuff like that which really annoyed me. The book was called "why we love dr*mione" and it was by Bittenwizard. You can read and enjoy! Trust me, you'll have lots of content to post about after that 🤠👍

*I always try to be respectful to all ships, but sometimes some of them really anger me because the ships are either toxic or the arguments are plain trash. I'm sorry if I offend anyone.

Thank you for reading this. If you're a dr*mione shipper, I hope I've convinced you to give up the ship or come up with better arguments for it.

If you're an anti-dramione I hope you enjoyed the post. I'll delight you with more anti-toxic-ships content. :)

Thank you once again! <3

[selfilluminatingkyu]

Dancing with the Devil(s): Chapter III

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You don’t go searching for bones in a Lion’s Den. You just hope you don’t become a part of the pile. 

F!Reader x Adult Trio; this takes place during the same timeline as Season 3 of HxH but the events with Kuropika and the crew are just shifted a little. Things will align back up within the next couple of chapters. 

Warnings: Swearing; mentions of conditioning of a child (reader); 

Word Count: 4.8K

After…whatever it was that had taken place with the members of the Troupe, Chrollo had placed you back into his study as he gave further instructions to the rest of the team, who you had been introduced to formally. You would have liked to say that the introduction had cooled your nerves a bit but that would have been a lie. If anything, it made you more anxious. The more you knew, the more susceptible you were to be considered a “loose end” and the likelihood of your impending death became that much more stark to you. Should you prove to be of no use to Chrollo or the rest of the Spiders, as you learned they were frequently called, your time would be clicking down on a timer. 

You still weren’t entirely sure what had happened and what you had done that had proven to be so amazing that had the lot in such a tizzy. You’d spent at least an hour playing a continuous game of “hide and seek” as Nobunaga had dubbed it. Although, you weren’t entirely sure who was exactly supposed to be hiding, seeing you felt their presences the entire time. The only time you had been a little unsure was towards the end. Hisoka’s presence had wavered momentarily, as if he’d suddenly disappeared, but you’d taken in a deep breath and focused yourself only for him to pop back up again, like an object on a radar. Chrollo’s had also been faint at one moment towards the end but his aura had never truly gone away, not that you thought it was possible anyway. Not with how dark and menacing his was. 

“I’m sorry for the delay, but it seems that there’s a new bounty on our heads and we didn’t collect all of the items for auction. There’s also some other matters to attend to.” You looked over your shoulder to Chrollo as he stepped back into the room. The information made you pause…you were certain that everything had been accounted for, for the first round. 

His hair was messy in comparison to the slicked back style it had been earlier, and you mused that it made him look even younger and it suited him more. Looking at him you wondered how many people he’d disarmed and made comfortable with his looks and charm. In another life, he had to have been the eldest son to a very, very wealthy and powerful man. 

Making a noise of agreement, you turned to look back outside. It was getting dark now. The brightest stars starting to pop up in the purple and pink hazed sky. It reminded you of all of the times you and your family went to the country side, away from the city and the light pollution, where you could look at the stars till your heart was content. More than once, you’d fallen asleep outside, wondering what other worlds were out there, what sort of people there were…if any of them ever felt like you did or were raised like you. In your head, there were other girls like you, who’d been raised the same and by some chance, you all ended up together, united and made sure it could never happen to another soul. 

You were people, not property. 

But that was a fantasy and this was reality and in this reality, you didn’t know when your time was up and so you’d decided that you would do whatever was necessary to be reunited with those you’d lost. You’d see your siblings again. You’d save them for your parents. You’d give them a better life, and all the unconditional love they deserved. No fear of being sold to the highest bidder in an effort for your parents to obtain something that was unlikely to act quench their thirst for more power, more money, just more. 

“I don’t believe I ever actually asked you name…or how exactly it was you came to be among the items set for auction.” You jumped, so lost in thought that you hadn’t even register Chrollo. It wasn’t his voice that startled you, but the proximity of his mouth to your ear. He stood behind you, towering over you and making you feel smaller than you already did in his shadow. 

“No, you didn’t. Not that anyone else did, to be frank. But it’s y/n. And I believe I briefly told you earlier how I came to be there. I’m the eldest of four and since a young age, my parents have always been complimented on how beautiful I was. I’m pretty sure from the moment I was born, they were told that they’d been blessed with a precious gem. They took it a little too seriously and decided that what other purpose was there for a gem than to buy them a bigger one? So…my parents figured to obtain more wealth, more power, more notoriety, they’d marry me off to the man or family that checked all of those boxes the most. So, they groomed me to be the perfect wife for a man of that caliber. I got all of the etiquette classes a lady of that birth ranking would get, along with ones that would place me outside of the pack. I had tutors for all of my studies and learned several languages. I was put under pressure and polished to perfection.

“At one point they were in discussions with a family, I was going to be married to their eldest son. I never met him, but I snuck into my father’s office one night and saw a photo of him and his family. While he seemed handsome enough, there was something peculiar about him that had me anxious before I’d even met him. But, while they had the money and power and notoriety…it wasn’t in the form my parents wanted. They wanted to be among those in high society, in the light where people on the street would whisper about them…not among the shadows like that family apparently was. So, my parents started again, except…no one was meeting their standards and the original family seemed to be the best offer they had…till there was someone else. I don’t know how the Don who bought me had heard of me, or how one of the others had, but he did and he was certain that he could tick all of the boxes my parents were trying to fill. So, they made a deal and suddenly I was being brought here to the auction.

“I was in a different room originally, by myself, in a suite. But the Don’s right hand man who’d been watching me prior to the auction came in flustered, talking about something going on and they moved me…which is where I was when…whatever sucked me and the rest of the items into a void happened and then I was backstage where the rest of the Troupe found me. And that’s it.” You turn to look at him and find that the look on his face has you turning around completely. 

The man looks a mixture of furious rage and melancholy heartbreak…and it has you absolutely stumped as to why a man who has killed for sheer joy and amusement—as you’d realized after hearing their names and remembering the scarlet eyes—would look so pained over the story of a young woman being sold as a wife. It didn’t align with the character chart you had started creating in your head for him. No, it was just as peculiar as Hisoka looking concerned when Chrollo had ushered you away from the rest of the group, away from him. 

Regardless, you stood and waited, waited for him to do or say anything so that you could gage how you were meant to react to him when suddenly he was looking at you and cupping your cheeks in his hands. 

“You do not have to worry about being sold to anyone. I’m not in the business of human trafficking.” The sincerity in his words should have calmed you, but it didn’t. You’d heard promises from other men before. Promises to run away with you; promises to marry you and give your parents what they so desired and to save you and your siblings. 

But promises were made to be broken and you weren’t going to hold your breath that this man, lawless as he was, was any different than the rest. 

“I’ll believe it when I see it.” You said stepping out of his grasp and moving out of arms reach. The moment felt far too intimate for someone you had just met, for someone who was essentially holding you captive as he’d made no mention of letting you go. 

Chrollo dropped his arms and looked at you carefully, you could feel his eyes rove over you, and you wondered if he was appraising you as a woman or as a ward, either way it made your skin crawl and feel like a filly up for auction all over again. 

“I don’t blame you for not trusting me. I’m sure there were people in your past who promised you things and never saw them through. Left you feeling more vulnerable and alone than you had prior to. I understand that, I have been there and been in the same place. The only family, the only true family I had was one I created by bringing together a bunch of misfits who sought to burn the world to the ground for the atrocities that we shared. We are bound by a common goal of watching the world, and the people who prosper from the neglect and despair of others, burn. While I have not been in your exact position, I can still understand where you are coming from.” You turn to look at him, eying him carefully as he continues on with his little speech. “I’ll give you two options. You can leave, right here, right now. I’ll take you wherever it is you want to go and that’ll be the end of it. If we see each other, or if you see any of the other members, we’ll act as if we have no idea who you are. However, I think there are things you want to accomplish, people you want to keep with you and as you are now, you won’t be able to accomplish those things.” 

“So…what exactly are you suggesting?” 

“Stay with us. Let me and the other members train you, tap into the clear raw ability you have. Earlier, the members were using a technique called zestsu. When highly capable Nen users are using this technique, their presence is nearly untraceable. However, when myself or other members of the Troupe do it, along with other high skilled hunters, we should completely disappear.” He says and the way his eyes light up as he describes this has you both intrigued but also unnerved. “You, who has no nen abilities or true knowledge, should not have been able to detect Feitain, Machi, Phink, Shalnark, or Nobunaga when you walked into the room. However, there wasn’t a single presence hidden from you. That’s not something even elite nen users can do, let alone you. And yet…you did and with seemingly no effort at all.” 

You looked him over, knowing this offer was too good to be true, and what was it that he got in return out of this deal? The warning bells in your head were going off, telling you that while this deal seems to benefit you the most…you just knew that there was no way, shape, or form in which a man like him would allow any deal to benefit anyone other than himself. 

So, you did the only thing you could do, ask. 

“How do you benefit from this? It seems burdensome to take on a complete stranger who may have a disposition for high potential. But there’s no guarantee that my nen ability is anything other than this.” 

Clearly, the man wasn’t used to his authority being question—although it wasn’t in your intention to do as such, you could see how it could be construed that way—and seemed to regard you in a new way. He was obviously amused by your honesty and total lack of trust in him and his intention. You didn’t see how he could blame you though. No honor among thieves was a saying for a reason and you very much doubted that him and his ragtag group of thieves, professionals and highly regarded in the underworld be damned, were just going to pull a 180 and do something out of the kindness of their hearts. At the end of the day, a thief was a thief and their word usually meant little. That was something you father had taught you early on. You had been too trusting as a child, wanting to see the good in everything, regardless of the bad. 

“But papa, that doesn’t mean they’re all bad.” A much younger you had said innocently enough as you father had dragged you away from the group of older girls who had been trying to exploit your generosity. 

“No, it doesn’t but you also need to realize that the majority of people do not have good intentions.” Crouching down in front of you, he’d grabbed on your shoulders and made you look directly into his eyes. “And those who never do, never will. Do you understand? You need to understand that you are very valuable, and to the wrong people could be a great bartering chip to be used against others. Make sure you can’t be.” 

You honestly hadn’t understood exactly what he meant, but the message had stuck and several years later, you had known what he meant by it. People who proved themselves worthy of your trust could have it…but you always needed to keep it in your head that there were those who, despite proving themselves as friends, could be masked foes and you needed to have a plan in place should that occur. More often than not, you wondered if you were actually the wolf in sheep’s clothing simply masquerading as docile and inept, when really…you were probably the most calculating and tactile in the room. 

“And what’s to say that you won’t use what I teach you against me, against us?” He asks, and you know he means it rhetorically, but you can’t help your biting response. 

“You wouldn’t ever give me the opportunity.” Your response is lightening fast, coming out before he truly has even finished his question and you know you have truly piqued his interest now, again making you wonder how people truly viewed you. “I told you, I was raised for the sole purpose of being a formidable opponent to anyone who tried to harm by future husband…my mother was not lenient in her pursuits.” 

“Indeed…that certainly is becoming clearer now.” 

You’d come to an agreement with Chrollo. He, and the rest of the Troupe who wished to partake in your training, would do as such. He had already told you that his methods did not truly align with the “generally approved instruction” of other masters, but then again…when did anything he did? 

But as of now, he told you to relax. Take a shower, get some food, sleep, he or one of the other members would come and find you once they’d returned back from the mission he’d sent them on. As for him, he had other things to attend to. His offer still stood, he’d said before he’d walked out the door, that should you choose that you did not want his help or that of the Troupe, he would respect it, but advised you to be gone before anyone got back or the training began. Because after that point, leaving was going to require you going through the front door and would more than likely be a battle with whomever was blocking it. Whether that be him or a different member, he didn’t specify, and you didn’t ask. 

You were currently sitting in the tub; in the room he’d showed you as your own. It reminded you a lot of the room you had at the home your parents owned in the country. It overlooked a beautiful garden in the back and had windows that faced the east, so when the sun rose, you would too. There was an en-suite attached that was larger than you had ever seen before. Shower, tub, separate toil area, two sink vanity, and walk in closet to boot. You knew they had money, despite his comment that “money, power, and fame were not” what drove them to do what they did, it was clear that their endeavors were clearly not fruitless…no, not at all. 

The moment you realized you were alone, you’d crawled into the tub, clothing and all and cranked the water to as warm as it would go and just sat there as the water rose. While you had a thousand thoughts zipping through your head…you couldn’t seem to latch onto one in particular, just staring at the water blankly. 

You thought back to the comment he’d made when you’d walked back into the study after his little experiment. Apparently we didn’t get all of the auction items. While yes, that was true, they hadn’t gotten all of them as there were different rounds and the items showed up in waves so they wouldn’t be vulnerable to a heist—or so Yuuto had explained when you’d asked—the items for the first round had all be within the lot of goods the others had brought back. And you didn’t take Chrollo for wanting silly things like rare videos games…although it was a high ticket item. 

So, all you could deduce from that was that this was a trap. A poorly set one, and one you were certain he’d already figured out but still, the members he’d sent, unless aware were walking into a trap and the Ten Dons had an artillery of their own, with weapons you were led to believe could even take on the Phantom Troupe. 

Regardless of all of this information though…you couldn’t say you cared, nor did you care if you were questioned later as to whether or not there had been more items because while you didn’t think there were any, you couldn’t be certain, and it wouldn’t surprise you if there had been more. Someone didn’t become that powerful by being lax in their paranoia. 

Maybe you could learn and thing or two from that mentality.

You don’t know how long you sat in the tub for. At some point the water became cold and your clothes began to rub you the wrong way. Thus, you took them off, throwing them away from your body, drained the water and stared the process over again. 

Your skin was not only a pretty shade of pink and red, just about all over, but the pruning of it was beginning to feel uncomfortable not that it bothered you. It was a distraction, one you desperately needed. But it also made you think. 

Made you evaluate your circumstances and try to figure out what exactly your plan of attack was going to be; what you could anticipate being Chrollo’s and the rest of the troupes’ motives and actions from here on out…and how you could use all of those pieces to your advantage. You need to uncover their weaknesses and find a way to exploit them. Maybe there was someone who knew them and you could mutually benefit each other? 

“Think too hard and you might hurt yourself little dove.” Were you not as exhausted as you were, you might have jumped out of the tub when you heard Hisoka. No, instead you turned to look at him, leaning against the doorjamb leading into your room, idly shuffling through his deck of cards. 

He looked at you through his lashes, coy smirk growing on his lips as he sauntered forward and again, it struck you that had you not been so exhausted, mentally, emotionally…physically, you probably would’ve jumped up or screamed at him to leave. But you simply did not have any reserved energy left to consider your modesty a priority. 

You also doubted it would do you any good anyway. Hisoka didn’t strike you as the type to listen to a request like that anyway. He seemed to enjoy toying with people’s discomforts. 

“I wouldn’t call what I’m doing thinking.” You mutter, turning away from him and sinking further into the water, nearly causing it splash out of the sides. 

“Oh? Then what would you call it? Planning? Devising?” 

“I’d call it a jumbled ball of messy thoughts that benefit me in no way.” 

He hums at this, coming to sit on the floor beside the tub and you suddenly realize just how tall he is. The tub has to be at least two feet off the ground if not more, yet when he sits down, and slouches even, he’s still considerably taller than you. You would, under normal circumstances, have curled in on yourself in order to preserve your modesty. It was one thing for him to be standing in the doorway, your back to him and the hazy from the steam distorting your image in the mirror. 

However, with him right here, next to you, there is nothing distorting your nakedness from his peering eyes. A nakedness that no man, outside a physician for the Dons’, has seen. But for the fact that you are too exhausted to care, you do not move to cover yourself more than your arms already had. You hadn’t realized that at some point, you’d curled back in on yourself again…maybe your subconscious was more conscious than you realized. 

Despite all of this though, Hisoka turn himself so his back was towards you and in that moment you were struck by something. Most probably would’ve viewed this as trust, but you knew better. You hadn’t known this man for more than a moment. It wasn’t trust at all. 

It was a silent assertion of just how weak he viewed you. How weak they all probably viewed you. For some reason this pissed you off. Rage flared low in your stomach and raced through you veins and clawed at your throat, questing to lash out at the closest target. However, your mind was quick to act and quell those feelings almost as quickly as they appeared. He was right, you were weak and lashing out at someone that much more powerful than you was not only reckless, but just plain stupid. You’d accomplish nothing on your best day as it was, not even including the fact that you were currently exhausted. 

No, getting pissed off was misplaced in this situation…but it was a tangible force that could push you do work hard, to become a formidable opponent. 

One in which Hisoka would never turn his back on. 

As you both continued to sit there in silence, you couldn’t help but wonder if Chrollo had called him back to watch you. You thought it odd but not outlandish. You hadn’t taken Chrollo as a liar though and the offer to leave, while not something you were going to take him up on, seemed to vanish the moment Hisoka walked into the house or within a vicinity to spot you in your endeavors to vacate the premises before anyone got back. 

But then you thought about what Chrollo had said. Leaving before anyone got back and scoffed, shaking your head, wondering how you could be so thoughtless. 

“Something amusing little dove?” Hisoka poses, throwing another playing card towards the vanity. What he’s trying to hit, you’re not sure. 

“Just realizing how inept my critical thinking skills have been lately.” His hesitation in throwing the next card relays to you his peaked curiosity, although he says nothing. “Chrollo told me I could leave should I chose to, but I had to do as such before anyone got back or prove that I was worthy of walking through the front door. At the time I thought nothing of it, assuming when he suggested I shower and sleep, that I’d have time to do those things. When you walked in, I wondered if he’d been lying but thought that odd because…I didn’t sense him lying.” 

You pause and chuckle again. “No, he wasn’t lying…he just also wasn’t being entirely truthful either. He just left out the fact that you and whomever else returned with you wouldn’t be long after he left. Had I been paying attention, been thinking I would’ve caught that. I’m not entirely sure at what point I either reached such a level of exhaustion…or decided you lot were trustworthy enough to not care.” 

The revelation had you looking up from your hands and the man sitting beside you. It also had you wondering what his purpose was for coming into the bathroom. You knew, now, that Chrollo hadn’t ordered him back; hadn’t given him instruction to watch you. No, Hisoka had come here of his own volition and you the question as to why was picking at your brain…and paranoia. Why would he come here? There was a piece to this puzzle that you were missing, and you couldn’t decide if it was because you just didn’t have the information or if it was again to your own obtuseness. 

The thought niggled at the back of your head, running through scenario after scenario. Did he have a connection to someone you knew? Someone you had known? Was he a double agent working for the Dons and was keeping your close so that he could return you to them? No, that didn’t seem likely…but not the double agent part. You didn’t take him to follow orders from anyone; he didn’t seem like the type to play to play well with others for long. 

“I’m starting to wonder if the steam is coming from the hot water or from in between your eyes little dove.” 

“I don’t understand.” 

“What is it you don’t understand?” He questioned, throwing another card and this time putting some force behind it as it cut into the vanity and stuck. 

You were certain it was an intimidation tactic to indicate to you to tread lightly. 

“Why you’re in here. I know Chrollo didn’t order you to be here, there’s no reason to place a guard on me. I’m sure he texted everyone telling them I wasn’t going anywhere, regardless of whether I’d come to that conclusion myself prior to or after he’d sent it. And I don’t take it anyone would just…wander in unwelcome. I’m sure there’s something, some presence around meant to keep those who don’t know better away…and those who do, a warning of fleeting life. And I’m not interesting enough to truly pique your interest. Maybe after I’ve spent some time learning nen and training. But as it stands, right not I’m of no consequence to you and so I don’t understand why you’re here.” 

Taking in a deep breath, you realize that he’s completely stopped throwing the cards, and not because he’s out. No, he’s caused four more cards to stick to the vanity. The King of Spades, the King of Aces, the King of Diamonds, and then the Queen of Hearts are all standing up and a feeling goes through you that you can’t place. It warms you, and yet makes your blood run cold all at the same time and leaves you feeling a little lightheaded and dizzy. Maybe you’ve been in the bath for too long. 

“You’re very perceptive little dove, more perceptive than anyone has realized…certainly far more intelligent than you’ve been given credit.” He stands and plucks the random card from the vanity, along with all those he scattered haphazardly on the floor but leaves the Kings and Queen. “I look forward to seeing how you ripen little dove. I’m certain that you will become…especially sweet when this is all said and done.” He chuckles lowly and in the back of his throat, the effect making you shudder, and not in a pleasant way, as he begins to leave before pausing and turning to look at you over his shoulder. 

“I do have a question for you little dove.” He says and you hum, indicating that you’re listening. “What do you know of Illumi Zoldyck?” 

[koalitypop]

inevitable

summary: no matter how much pain your relationship with jimin can bring to you, you can’t stand the loneliness anymore.

pairing: jimin x reader

tags: loneliness, crying, mentioned sexual activities

word count: 2.9k

a/n: guys, i've been working on this one shot for such a long time, i’m so happy to finally post it. it has been inspired by a few songs and i’m thinking about making a themed playlist. i hope you like it! please share your thoughts about it with me, i am always grateful to see what you like and what you don't. thank you for the time spent! 

The morning when you woke up in the hands of your lover for the first time and the memories of the night before tore your mind apart, you felt like you were betraying everyone in your life. It was supposed to be simple and only for once – you needed to receive and give some love for the night and he felt the same way too. But then, you saw that fallen angel with his hands hugging you tightly as if he never wanted to let you go, as he needed you, and all the gods above knew it – you felt at peace for the first time in an eternity.  

You had to leave immediately. You took off his shirt, which you wore to sleep, and got dressed up in the clothes you had worn last night when you came to his place. You wrote him a quick note, kissed his sweaty forehead and left.  

“This is the last time that something like this happens,” you promised yourself.  

Lie.

That morning, after leaving that fallen angel of yours, you tried your best to continue with your life – working on your upcoming album, learning choreography and having meetings with your managers, pretty much everything an idol life could offer. Despite your efforts, while you were in the studio, at the agency or in the practice room, your soul remained in his bed, his hands were exploring your body, your whole being soaked in his gorgeous scent.  

After meeting Jimin, all your nights were spent dreaming of him. Sometimes loving you, sometimes making out with you, sometimes just standing close to you. You were waking up feeling exhausted, weakened by the absence of his tender touch. Your days weren’t any easier either – your thoughts were occupied by him, making you yearn for his touch.  

A month after that ardent night, you finally met your lover again. His face even more divine, walking around confidently, making your knees feel weak. Making you lose your breath, he just once glanced at you, smirking. You smiled slyly and only when you made sure that he wasn’t looking at your direction you let a huge grin to take over your face.  

During the ceremony, you were constantly looking at him. The way he cheered on his friends while they were performing, his sweet smile that made you melt. The way he sang and danced, the control he had over his body, every move he made – so magnificent and precise. Your eyes were undressing him, saving every moment, every breath he took, hoping and praying that he would call you later.  

Not long after the ceremony was over, you got a call from him, and this night he was in your bed. Kisses down your spine, heated skin brushing yours. That's how your maddening relationship began.  

Well, the thing you had with Jimin wasn't an actual relationship. Nobody knew about the time you spent together, not even his members.  It was all based on the need of your bodies – needs of physical love, care, affection. No feelings. No attachments. Just some make-out sessions, sex and maybe some cuddling.  

There wasn’t any promise about not falling in love with each other or of any feelings at all. You both just knew it. Jimin was a member of the biggest group in the world, you were also a solo singer with a big fanbase. There wasn’t any place for dating and actual love in your lives. So, having a sex-buddy was your best option.  

As time went by, you began to get to know each other more and more. Of course, you knew basic things about him and he also had heard of you and your career, but every time you met each other, you got closer and not only in a physical way. You see, he saw how fearful of spiders you were and you helped him out during an allergic reaction. You both loved mint-scented perfume. You shared the same unconditional love for Harry Potter and were both in Slytherin, despite having some Ravenclaw tendencies. You had many things in common and in general you kept each other good company. When you weren’t keeping each other busy with other things, of course.

You never shared these thoughts with Jimin, but you knew from the very beginning that you will end up in pain. You didn’t mind. Not anymore. Pain was inevitable. You spent your entire adolescence keeping in mind that you are training to become an idol and you don’t want to involve anybody else into this hectic life. You were ready to keep on meeting him, even if you start to grow feelings for him. Even if rumours start spreading around. Even if he turns out to not be the kind and warm-hearted guy you think he is. At this point, you didn’t want to feel sad because you’re alone. You preferred to cry because of a broken heart, because you couldn’t confess, anything else but not because of loneliness. You had spent too much time feeling all alone. You wanted to continue having such comfort sessions, you didn’t want more.

As pain, falling in love was also inevitable. The first few times your thoughts were occupied by the pleasure Jimin gave you. He was caring, passionate. He took care of you, made sure that both of you were satisfied. And as the time went by, you knew every inch of his body, but his mind, his soul and his heart – that’s what you weren’t familiar with. And you just wished to know these parts of him, the true him.  

At first, you didn’t want to believe that you were falling in love. And how could you, you had never fallen for anybody before. Friends knew each other. Friends shared what they worry about. And numerous friends had sex with each other. People had bestie crushes. That’s what it must be. That was the best explanation. Even though you had made a deal with yourself that you can continue doing this with him, you didn’t believe that you will actually happen to fall in love with him. You thought you’re in control of your emotions, after all.  

It was after the second concert of the Love Yourself Tour in Seoul when it finally happened. He made a small mistake while performing Fake Love, something so tiny you as a professional couldn’t even notice, what about the fans. But as always, he beat himself about this. And you knew that you have to make sure he doesn’t spend the night alone. After an hour of passionate loving, Jimin lay down, his hair in a beautiful mess. He turned around to face you and caressed your cheek.  

“Oh, how you deserve to be worshipped,” he murmured and fell asleep right after.  

“It is you who deserves to be worshipped”, you thought.

And then you knew, you’ve fallen, you’ve fallen hard.  

You never told anybody about the way you felt towards him. There wasn’t anybody to talk to about this and even if there was, you didn’t want to say it out loud, because it would have made it fully real. Nobody had to know about the sweet pain that shattered your soul every time he kissed you goodbye. It should stay a secret, you thought, because, in the world of idols, not only pain and falling in love were inevitable. Taking responsibility was also inescapable.

Somewhere in between the harsh thrusts and the sweet praises sometimes you imagined what a relationship with him would be like. How free you will feel if you were able to confess your love for him. Thank goodness, somewhere in between the goodbyes and the calls for arrangements of meetings you came back to your senses. You had promised yourself sex, cuddles, kisses. Physical affection, not love, not support, not friendship. You had to keep this promise.  

There were times when you thought that Jimin has found out your secret. However, you reminded yourself that he would have done or said something, he wouldn’t have continued to meet and have sex with you. You waited for his call and tried to ignore the thought of Jimin ever finding out about your little secret, despite it coming a thousand times a day.  

Jimin and you had spent a little less than a year as fuck-buddies when the rumours started spreading. Are BTS Jimin and Red Velvet Seulgi dating? It was all over the media - hashtags were trending on Twitter, videos on YouTube, which somehow were meant to prove that Jimin and Seulgi were dating, were constantly recommended to you.  

It wasn’t the possibility that this was true which broke your heart. You knew that there was nothing between Jimin and Seulgi. It was the fact that one day this rumour will be true and this girl wouldn’t be you. Those amorous moments would no longer be a reality. You’d no longer be able to moan his name, telling him how good he is to you. You would never again feel his lips all over your body and the worst – you would never fall asleep cuddled to Jimin ever again.  

Three days after rumours started spreading around Jimin called you.  

“Do you want to come?” He asked, his voice giving away how exhausted he is.  

“Yes, I want to.” you smiled, somehow relieved.

Some hours after his call, you found yourself in front of the door of Jimin’s apartment. You checked your make up and made sure your hair looks fine, as, who knows, maybe this was going to be the last time you have sex with him. Taking a deep breath, you were about to knock on the door, when suddenly Jimin opened it.  

“Felt your presence,” Jimin smirked, gesturing you to get in.  

Typical Jimin. He probably was watching you since you came to his door and tried not to laugh while you put another layer of lipstick on. Did he like what he saw? Was he thinking about what he was going to do to you, how he is going to erase that lipstick from your lips? Did he open the door because he was too impatient to wait for you to knock? Was he waiting at the door even before you came, hoping you will come sooner?  

“Wine?” he whispered in your ear as he helped you undress your raincoat.  

You turned around to look at him and nodded, completely speechless as you watched him disappear into the kitchen, quickly moving to the sofa as your knees grew weaker.  

Jimin looked so celestial. Those majestic eyes focused solely on you, lips so gorgeously plump and yours for the night, the way he walked and moved so gracefully and his voice, oh, his voice only could make your body shake with pleasure. There wasn’t a single part of him, you didn’t crave for.  

Carrying two glasses of red wine in his hands, Jimin came back to the living room. Slowly he reached you with a concerned expression taking over his face and sat on the sofa, making sure there was a significant distance between both of you.  

“I know what you may be thinking.” Jimin sighed, giving you one of the glasses.  

“Enlighten me.” you tried to hide your bitter smile behind the glass.

Jimin’s eyes started wandering around the room. The troubled expression on his face began to seem more sad than worried.  

“Y/n, I have nothing to do with Seulgi,” Jimin said and drank a huge sip.

Surprisingly, you felt at ease. Why though? You knew that there was nothing between them. You felt at peace and couldn’t even try to hide your smile from Jimin.  

“I am well aware of that,” you replied, getting closer to him.  

Suddenly, Jimin turned around, so quickly he nearly made you drop your glass. His eyes were fixated on your face and made it obvious to you that he was hesitating to say something. He licked his lips, closed his eyes, his hand went through his brown hair – right there and then you were ready to embrace him and never let go.  

“I’ve been thinking about the night we first met each other,” Jimin said, his eyes still shut tightly. He gulped loudly and continued, “I’ve been thinking about how good you are to me. About how half of the times we can barely reach the bedroom. About the way, you say my name. The way you moan it. The way you saved me from me.”  

Your lover was the gentlest and the most thoughtful human being you had ever met, but this was the first time he was so generous with his praises without having even kissed you. He hadn’t even touched you, but, oh, you were already giving in. And the fact that he was getting closer and closer to you with every word he said.

“And about making love to you. And about all of this stuff that happened this week. I’ve been thinking about how it affected you. About what you’ve been thinking, how you’ve felt” and then he kissed you.

Despite having kissed just three boys in your entire life, you simply knew that Jimin’s kisses were one of a kind. Always beginning softly and with each second getting more and more eager. The way his fleshy lips engulfed yours made the butterflies in your stomach go wild, as he was trying and honestly succeeding to breathe your entire consciousness in.  

“Tell me what’s on your mind. Tell me how you feel about everything,” he whispered before licking his lips and attacking yours once again.  

It took you all of your mental strength to break the kiss and lie to him, “I was fine. I knew the truth.” you gasped into Jimin’s lips so that you can get straight to the sex instead of talking about this mess. You couldn’t bear to think about another girl kissing him, another girl being in his arms, replacing you.  

Jimin, on the other hand, didn’t think so.  

“I wasn’t fine. I felt horrible.” Jimin replied, leaning his forehead on yours.  

“Do you want to talk about it?” you gulped, worry instantly being poured all over your body.  

“It’s not about the agency. Everyone at the agency handled this rumour so well,” he claimed.  

You both kept your eyes closed, but deep in your heart of hearts, you felt that he was about to start crying. As you were about to caress his cheek, he held your hand tightly.  

“It’s that... All I could think about w-was you.” he sobbed, “I felt ter-terrible... and a-abominable, because I-I wanted you to feel terrible too.”  

You couldn’t feel anything. You could barely process what he had just said. You couldn’t even start to overthink, you didn’t even have the time to pull away when he continued.   “I wanted you to call me and a-ask if it was true. To be mad, jealous even. Because I figured out that if this happened with you, I’d be mad. I’d be so mad, Y/n, you-you don’t even know,” and with those words, he completely broke down.

As Jimin nuzzled his head on your neck and cried, you embraced him gently. A part of you, rooted deep into your very core, understood what he meant and celebrated. However, you still couldn’t understand. Your mind forbade you to believe that this was real, that what had just happened wasn’t a dream. Lost in your thoughts, you couldn’t stop yourself from subconsciously saying, “I know, Jimin, I know.”

Right away your lover pulled away and asked you through his sobs, “You know?”  

You had barely nodded when he started kissing you. And right there and then it hit you. Hit you so hard you started crying happy tears of relief. It was real.  

Jimin pulled you into his lap, in desperate need to feel you as close as possible. He kissed you as if only your lips keep him alive, his arms grasping your shaking frame. Sweet tears fell freely on your face and your lover drank them as if they were some kind of an elixir. It wasn’t a sexual desire, it was the bond between you both speaking. The bond you both had tried so hard to hide behind quickies and make-out sessions.

You sucked his trembling lower lips as he sobbed into your mouth, his torso pressing forward, making you feel his need for you not with your body, not with your brain, but with your soul. He licked his lips and eagerly kissed you once again. Somewhere in between those kisses you felt your consciousness slip through your fingers and quietly fell asleep in the arms of your lover.  

In the morning you were woken up by the feeling of being watched. Struggling to open your eyes, your hands started to roam around, only to be stopped by the masculine body of your lover. He giggled and moved you closer to him. You couldn’t even think about getting up and leaving him.  

“I am sorry, Y/n,” Jimin said, kissing your temple.  

This moment made all the suffering from the past and of the future worth it, you thought. You snuggled yourself closer to him and breathed in his alluring scent.  

“I am sorry, too.” you exhaled loudly, making small circles on his chest.  

“I was afraid you didn’t share my feelings,” Jimin caressed your cheek.

Fear. Of being alone? You knew that feeling too well.

“I thought pain is inevitable.” you murmured.

Your lover kissed you softly and whispered, “It is. But so is loving you.”

* * *

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[january-glooms]

for @rutimaticasi

you asked and i delivered

So, I had this thought, what if? (lmao what if) Peter has tattoos for his parents, aunt and uncle. So like their death dates in Roman numerals paired with a flower that represents them to him (May obviously doesn’t get one of those). Mary and Richard’s death date is the same so they share the tattoo, but instead of one flower there are two surrounding the date. And later on he gets a matching one with Tony. After that Harry, Genie and him get a group one. He also gets a group one with Ned and MJ. The Web Warriors™ have one with their momma spider. Of course Shuri saw this and wanted on with him. And last but certainly not least he has one with Harley.

The Parkers:

The numerals:

Mary & Richard: XXIX. XI. MMIV

Ben: XXV. X. MMXV

The flowers:

Richard & Mary: a black and white heather and a freesia (these mean protection and unconditional love)

Ben: instead of a flower he gets the quote: “With great power comes great responsibility” (cuz Ben is special and different also it’s the reason he became Spider-Man)

May: a garden rose (free spirit, if that isn’t May Parker than I don’t know)

Placements and timing:

Mary and Richard’s is on the left side of his torso close to his heart, it was the first one he got and wasn’t comfortable with showing it. So, he got at an easy hideable spot. He got this one shortly after the spiderbite with permission of course.

May’s is on his upper left arm where you usually see tattoos of a rose. This one was a gift for his fifteenth birthday.

Ben’s is on his inner left bicep so he is near May. The quote is in italics with the numerals a little underneath and to the side of them. He got this one together with May’s.

Irondad & Spiderson:

– Tony has his spider emblem.

– Peter has his arc reactor.

The tattoo is on Tony’s left wrist and on Peter’s right. He got this one as a birthday gift with Tony on his 16th birthday.

The Golden Trio:

– Harry has a lightning bolt for Harry Potter, because just like Harry he is famous for something he doesn’t want to be. (Also they share a name and I just couldn’t pass the opportunity)

– Genie has a wand for Ron Weasley, because just like Ron he loses his way sometimes by standing in the shadows of Harry and Peter’s fame and intellect, respectively, but he always comes back.

– Peter has a book with a quill for Hermione Granger, because just like Hermione he is the smartest and has the most common sense (which isn’t that much) out of the three of them. (He’s like 88 percent of Harry’s impulse control)

The tattoo is on all of their right ankle, because no matter the distance between them they will always find their way back to each other. They got this after Harry returned to NYC from France after the whole Green Goblin ordeal.

The Rebellion:

– Ned has a lightsaber for Luke, because just like Luke he is a innocent puppy who deserves the world. (That’s basically it)

– MJ has a blaster for Leia, because just like Leia she is an activist but also like she is the only one with actual common sense (Cindy too ig, but she isn’t part of the Star Wars trio)

– Peter has a Millennium Falcon for Han, because just like Han he is impulsive and has no regards towards his own safety.

The tattoo is on their right shoulder blade. They got this one the day they graduated from high school.

The Web Warriors™:

This one is easier, all of the Web Warriors™ together with their favourite momma spider have a little web tattooed on their right collarbone. Next to the web is маленький паук written for the teen heroes aka Peter, Cindy, Gwen & Miles (eventually) and Natasha has мама паук written next to her web.

Science Bros 2.0™:

– Shuri has Science Bro written in Italian, Peter’s first language (you can fight me on this). Fratello della scienza

– Peter has Science Bro written in Xhosa, Shuri’s first language. Inzululwazi Mzalwana

The tattoo is on their bicep, left for Shuri and right for Peter, it’s written in cursive and wraps around their bicep so it looks like a band. Technically speaking this is the latest of the tattoos he gets, on Shuri’s 18th birthday.

Parkner:

– Harley has the word Princess written with a spiderweb in the shape of a heart.

– Peter has the word Darlin’ written with a spiderweb in the shape of a heart.

The tattoo is on Harley’s right hip and on Peter’s left. This tattoo is one they get on their one year anniversary of dating, at this point they have already been through so much together that Peter knows that Harley’s it for him. Harley knows it too, so much so that he is already working on a ring. But that is besides just like the fact that they are only 17 at this point. Also Harley is the only one who is allowed to have his tattoo on the left, the same side as all of his deceased relatives. When Harley asks Peter if he is sure, he says yes, because this way Harley is a little closer to those who matter to him that he can’t meet.

[wrenhyperfixates]

The Emo Asgardian Masterlist

Oneshots

Movie Night: Loki prefers to keep to himself but one particularly persistent Avenger may be able to change his mind. Something Wonderful: As you and Loki date, he finds more and more things to like about you.

Fireworks: After hearing your vacation is cancelled, Loki enlists some members of the Tower to help cheer you up.

Party Favors: Loki comes to the rescue when your nephews’ birthday party is on the brink of disaster.

Cafés, Croissants, and Captured Hearts: When Loki stumbles into your café, he is completely enamored with you, but will he be able to conquer his fears and move towards hope and happiness?

Arachnophobia: Living in the Tower surrounded by superheroes can make you think your own fears don’t matter. Luckily, Loki is there to save you, both from yourself and the spiders invading your room.

Be Good When I’m Gone: When Loki starts to go on missions across the galaxy, you and the trickster god do your best to keep your relationship alive.

Doubt Comes In: When depression and anxiety get the better of you, Loki is there to help you through it.

The Secret Admirer: When he is too nervous to confess his love for you, Loki decides to take on the role of secret admirer. Can a perfect night out with you give him the confidence he needs?

Full Disclosure: Thor has always been supportive of his brother’s love life, but Loki won’t tell him that he’s dating you. When Thor won’t stop setting him up on dates, Loki has to move past his fears and confess.

Oh, Calamity: Your death breaks Loki, and all he wants is for you to come back to him.

The Gift: Tony says no pets in the Tower, but since when has Loki ever listened to him?

No Cause for Alarm: Loki blames himself when you get hurt on a mission. Thor is convinced that the only way to ease his guilt is for him to confess his feelings for you, so he and Peter hatch a plan to get Loki to do just that.

Birthday Wish: It’s your birthday and all you want to do is spend a quiet day with Loki. Unfortunately, he’s decided to plan you a crazy party. Can you get your wish by the end of the night?

Unconditional: You deal with conflicting emotions as you try to understand why you deserve Loki’s love. When he finds out about your turmoil, he helps you heal.

In Your Arms: You comfort Loki one night after a particularly bad nightmare, and remind him that you’re not going anywhere.

To Fall in Love: Loki embraces an autumnal Midgardian tradition to tell you how he really feels.

Halloween: It’s Halloween, and you and Loki are excited to spend it together.

Forever Yours: You reject Loki when he asks to court you. When he learns the reason why, however, he sets out to make amends.

Pretty Venom: Loki pulls away from you, leaving you hurt and feeling alone. Perhaps an emotional confrontation is just what you need to get him to tell you how he really feels.

Through It All: The happiness of the night of your engagement to Loki is suddenly marred by the fact that your brother has been hurt. Loki, however, remains by your side and helps you through your pain.

Kissing Your Worries Away: A bad dream interrupts your sleep, but Loki steps in to save you from your demons.

Love Poison: You plan to take extreme measures to catch Loki’s eye. Unfortunately, things backfire terribly. Can something good come of the mess?

It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas: It’s the Christmas season and Loki still has much to learn. Thankfully, he has his favorite little mortal to teach him all about it.

Yule Log: With Christmas quickly approaching, Loki finds himself missing his favorite time on Asgard. If he can’t go back home to celebrate, you’re determined to bring the party to him.

Secret Santa: When you pick Loki’s name for Secret Santa, you are at a loss for what to get him. Some quality time with the God of Mischief sheds some light on the situation.

How the God Stole Christmas: Loki despises Christmas, and after watching the Grinch, he decides there’s only one thing to do about it. But you just might melt his cold heart.

How to Cure a Cold: You catch a cold after playing in the snow. Loki worries that, as a frost giant, he is too cold to warm you up, but you quickly convince him otherwise.

A Kiss at Midnight: At Tony’s New Year’s Party, you notice Loki is upset. He’s hesitant to tell you what’s wrong, but when he finally confesses, the coming year suddenly seems so much brighter.

Perfect: After much research and seeking out advice from Tony, Loki asks you on a date.

Always: All Loki wants is to be with you forever and always. Your gentle kindness convinces him to tell you as much.

The Ring: Loki thinks he’s found the perfect way to propose to you, but things go awry. Luckily, all that matters in the end is that you love each other.

As Long as I Have You: Loki is worried about bringing your relationship out into the public eye. He finally realizes that as long as he has you, everything will be fine.

Loss & Love: As you struggle with the loss of your grandma, Loki is right by your side to take care of you and wipe your tears away.

Because I Love You: You’ve fallen for the trickster god, and have no idea that he’s done the same. When his attempts to keep you safe fail, you get into a huge fight. Will you be able to tell each other how you really feel, or is the rift too wide?

If It’s Meant to Be: After you breakup, Loki regrets how he pushed you away. He can only hope that you’ll come back to him.

Queen of the Night: Loki takes you to the rooftop greenhouse to show you his favorite flower, the queen of the night. Your evening ends with a confession of love.

A Short Story: You decide to get back at Loki for his incessant short jokes.

The Problem With Birthdays: You want to enjoy your birthday with Loki, but your fears that one day no one will love you are keeping you from having fun.

We Make a Pretty Good Team: It’s game night at the Avengers Tower, and you find the perfect partner in Loki.

The Double Date: On Valentine’s Day, you set up a double date with your boyfriend, Loki, and friends, Bucky and Steve. Unfortunately, tensions between the god of the Captain threaten your evening.

A Perfect Proposal: In which you propose to Loki.

Don’t Gotta Work it Out: A particularly nasty fight rattles your relationship with Loki. Even as both of you wonder if you’re not meant to work things out, you long to be in each other’s arms. But can you make amenjds before your hope is gone?

Stay the Night: Your fear of thunderstorms leads you to invite Loki to stay the night at your place.

Gold Writing: When a charming, handsome stranger gives you inspiration for the first time in weeks, you try to guess what it is he’s famous for in exchange for his name.

Need You Here: Loki lost you in the snap and now knows he must tell you how he feels. Unfortunately, the battle raging around you wants to stop him from doing just that.

Opening Night: When Loki scores the lead in a production of West Side Story, the two of you become fast friends. You help convince him to face his fears and invite the Avengers to see the show.

Anything: When the Avengers latest mission is to visit local schools, Loki’s insecurities start to get the better of him. But with you to there comfort him, he realizes that with you by his side, he can do anything.

Eyes Closed: Loki escapes to his Midgardian’s house to decompress when the stress and pressure becomes too much. Spending time with you is just the thing he needs.

Not as Bad as You Think: After a bad grade on a test, Peter is being very hard on himself. Loki helps you cheer him up.

Milkshakes: Overwhelmed when Loki saves you, you respond to his kindness with fear. Determined to apologize, you seek Loki out to thank him with a couple of milkshakes and some fries.

My Heart is Your Canvas: Loki hadn’t been planning on confessing his love for you, but he’s glad he did.

Just Dance: Loki joins you and Peter as you play some video games.

For Appearances: Posing with Loki as a young, rich couple shouldn’t have any bumps in the road, right? After all, it is just a mission. But as you spend time with the mischief god, you realize not everything is as fake as it seems.

I’m Here For You: Loki comforts you when he finds you crying over school.

Not So Alone: Meeting a young fan of his gives Loki some renewed hope.

Not a Trick: Loki wins Thor’s money back after you swindle him in a street con.

Home Is Such a Lonely Place: When Loki is handpicked to be part of the Avengers new space force, it causes some problems in your relationship. Will distance make the heart grow fonder or is it too much to bear?

All I Need is You: You do so much for everyone else and so little for yourself that when you almost collapse, Loki finally gets you to agree to let him take care of you.

Marshmallows After Midnight: When Peter shows up at your and Loki’s apartment, the young hero has more than enough plans for mischief.

Tell Me Everything: When you become overwhelmed at a feast, Loki whisks you away to safety.

Kickflips and Confidence: As your best friend, Loki helps you build confidence to enter a skate competition.

If This Were a Movie: Thor and Wanda try to help you and Loki see the feelings you have for each other.

Happy Now?: When Loki attends your team’s roller derby, you have more wins than just one.

Friends Like These: Peter brings you to the Tower for a tour to take your mind off your parents’ divorce. When you meet Loki, he helps you come to grips with your feelings over the situation.

All Night Long: Though you and Loki both pine for each other, the road has a few bumps in it before your happily ever after.

Always There: When Loki is grieving for his mother and blaming himself for her death, you use your powers to help.

Little Wonders: You’re by Loki’s side his whole life, and vise versa. There is not a doubt in either of your minds that you love each other. Together, you can weather any storm.

Moving On: When you find out your ex-boyfriend is a Hydra agent, it leads to a confession of Love from Loki.

Luck Led Me to You: Driving home on Christmas morning after a last minute mission, a snow storm forces Loki to stop at a roadside diner where he meets you.

Love Keeps Me Here: After inviting you to the Tower for Christmas, Loki can’t help but find himself drawn ever closer to you. He hatches a plan to not only be able to see you again, but to make your dreams come true.

The Best Gift of All: You don’t want to burden everyone with your birthday when the Tower Christmas party is right around the corner, but Loki has other plans.

A Kiss Under the Mistletoe: Loki frets that the two of you not having a Christmas tradition is a sign of something more; it’s particularly concerning since he’s planning on proposing to you.

Incorrect Quotes

Cuddles (Loki, Y/N)

How to Solve a Problem Like a Brother (Loki, Y/N)

Pillow Fight (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Word Choice (Loki, Y/N)

Surprise (Loki, Thor, Y/N)

Lost and Found (Loki, Steve, Peter, Y/N)

Amusement (Loki, Peter, Thor, Y/N)

Emergency (Tony, Y/N)

Matchmaker (Loki, Thor, Tony, Steve, Nat, Bruce, Y/N)

Confession (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Study Session (Loki, Y/N)

Battle Song (Loki, Tony, Y/N)

Flirting (Loki, Y/N)

Supper Time (Loki, Tony, Peter, Y/N)

Misunderstanding (Loki, Tony, Y/N)

Snacks (Loki, Sam, Steve, Bucky, Y/N)

Trick or Treat (Loki, Thor, Peter, Y/N)

Library Card (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Hand Wash Only (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Snake (Loki, Thor, Y/N)

Thanksgiving (Loki, Steve, Peter, Tony, Nat, Y/N)

Hugs (Loki, Thor, Y/N)

Snow Globe (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Mistletoe (Loki, Y/N)

Every Day (Loki, Thor, Y/N)

Happy Birthday (Loki, Y/N)

Just What I Always Wanted (Loki, Tony, Y/N)

Compliments (Loki, Tony Y/N)

Better? (Loki, Y/N)

The Perfect Gift (Loki, Thor, Y/N)

Pranks (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Knives (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Monopoly (Loki, Tony, Y/N)

Affection (Loki, Tony, Y/N) 

Croutons (Loki, Steve, Thor, Y/N)

When Life Gives You Lemons... (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Bedtime (Loki, Y/N)

Never Mind (Loki, Y/N)

Advice (Loki, Y/N)

Attention (Loki, Thor, Y/N)

Problem (Loki, Y/N)

Pride (Loki, Tony, Thor)

Adoption (Loki, Peter, Y/N)

Best Birthday Ever (Loki, Y/N)

It Is Your Day of Birth (Loki, Thor, Y/N)

Untitled (Loki, Tony, Peter)

Series

Loki Odinson’s Guide on How to Woo a Noble: A fellow noble child in the Asgardian court has caught young Loki’s eye. After stumbling upon you in the garden one day, your friendship begins to grow. Will he be able to turn that friendship into something more?   Chapter 1  Chapter 2  Chapter 3  Epilogue 

Of All the Places: Washing up in a small town in Oklahoma was definitely not part of Loki’s plan when he came to conquer Midgard. There is one good thing about it, though: No one recognizes him as the one who just wreaked havoc in New York. So, Loki plans to recover from the battle and move on with his life. The only problem? He’s not sure he can leave you.   Prologue  Chapter 1  Chapter 2  Chapter 3      Chapter 4  Chapter 5 Chapter 6  Chapter 7     Chapter 8  Chapter 9  Chapter 10  Chapter 11    Chapter 12  Chapter 13  Chapter 14  Epilogue

Ever Since We Met: After making a bet with Odin, Loki finally has a chance to prove he is worthy of being heir to the throne. Under mysterious circumstances, you find yourself stranded on Asgard, left with no option but to team up with Loki and help him win the crown. Now posing as visiting royalty, you must be careful of rumors in court that say you’re not who you claim, all while battling your growing feelings for the raven haired king. But some things are easier said than done because secrets, you’ll soon learn, can be deadly.   Prologue  Chapter 1  Chapter 2  Chapter 3  Chapter 4  Chapter 5  Chapter 6  Chapter 7  Chapter 8  Chapter 9  Chapter 10  Chapter 11  Chapter 12  Chapter 13  Chapter 14  Chapter 15  Chapter 16  Chapter 17  Chapter 18  Chapter 19  Chapter 20  Chapter 21  Chapter 22  Chapter 23  Chapter 24  Chapter 25  Chapter 26  Epilogue

The Raven Haired Rebel: After invading New York, it was decided that, as a punishment, Loki would work for SHIELD. Yeah, right. After escaping from their custody and stranded on Midgard, the God of Mischief decides to prove he’s the one thing no one ever thought he was: the good guy. Now a vigilante, Loki attempts to make amends for his past wrongdoings while also evading the Avengers, including their newest member. You. Brought in specially for the case, you notice more and more details about the prince’s story don’t add up. When you get the chance to turn him in, will you listen to your employers or your heart that believes Loki’s done nothing wrong?   Prologue  Chapter 1  Chapter 2  Chapter 3     Chapter 4  Chapter 5  Epilogue

Don’t Mess With Cats: When you find the most beautiful cat on the streets of New York City, you decide to take him in and give him a home. Little did you know, that cat is Loki Laufeyson, the very person your boss Tony Stark is looking for. Deciding to lay low for a while, Loki lives with you for nearly three months. And then you go missing. Still in cat form, Loki teams up with Tony and the Avengers to find you. While simultaneously having to keep his true identity a secret and grapple with his blooming feelings for you, can Loki find you before it’s too late?   Prologue  Chapter 1  Chapter 2  Chapter 3     Chapter 4  Chapter 5  Chapter 6  Chapter 7   Chapter 8  Epilogue // Halloween Special 

Five Ways to Say I Love You: When you become the new owner of Loki’s favorite bookstore, your quiet nature draws him in. Soon, he learns you can’t speak at all. As you grow closer, the god learns ways to say “I love you” without even saying anything at all.  Chapter 1  Chapter 2  Chapter 3    Chapter 4  Chapter 5

A Month to Remember (A Flufftober Series): When your sure your adoptive fathers, Steve and Bucky, and the rest of the team wouldn’t approved of your new relationship with Loki, the two of you decide to keep it a secret. But how long can the charade last before everyone find out?

1  2  3  4  5  6  7  8  9  10  11  12  13  14  15  16  17  18  19  20  21  22  23  24  25  26  27  28  29  30  31

Fractured: When the monarch is cruel and ill-suited to ruling, the throne is fair game. But with so many players in a game of treachery and deceit, who will win? Your father, the Lieutenant General, who spent your entire life planning; Loki, the scorned and troubled prince, trying to do what’s best for the one he loves; Thor, heir to the crown, but not the golden hero the public thinks him to be; a hidden enemy that you should have seen from the start, tricking you into trusting them along the way; or you, the spy and pawn, working for the good of Asgard no matter who betrays you, who tries to control you. A lawless fight, there’s only one rule: If you want to be a ruler, don’t die first.  Arc 1 | Arc 2 | Arc 3 | Arc 4 | Arc 5

Drabbles 

Together

Beautiful Lies

It Happened on a Warm Summer Day

Promises

I’m Not Going Anywhere 

Killer Queen

Thunder

For Now

Acceptance

Nothing Would Make Me Happier

Jeg Elsker Deg

Away From the Edge

Without Hesitation 

Headcanons

Gentle Loki

Fluff Alphabet

Shy S/O

PTSD

Shy Loki

Casual Clothing

Short S/O

Apologizing

Coming Out

Crafting Loki a Knife

Proposal

Fish Dad Loki

Clothes Shopping

Sleepy Loki

Art With Loki

Jotun Loki with Human Teen Friend

With a Deaf S/O

Jotun Loki with Crush

Shrinking Reader

Writing Challenges

‘Tis the Season

Fanart

Ragnarok Loki

Avengers Loki

Jötunn Loki

Dancing Loki Animation