#Sorry I'm trying to put tags in here that I think people will be browsing through

[edwardos]

There's an old cartoon comic from the early EARLY days of this game's existence which implies that Creepers will camp outside your small early-game house day and night until you invariably run some risk of walking outside and - even when the sun is up - getting hit by their explosion.

As an Alpha player, until I started gathering the Alpha 1.2 screenshots needed for the media haul I've been posting this month, I had no idea how true that comic was.

[aprillikesthings]

New pinned post time!

This last year I lost my mind over the 2018 She-Ra which is probably painfully obvious lol

If I flooded your notifications with likes on all your spop content, please know my queue is ridiculously long and at some point you will also get a slo-mo flood of reblog notifications as my queue catches up

My "about" page is here

My sideblog for religious stuff is @aprilsjesusblogging

The tag for my fic writing is #april writes

And my ao3 account is here

And you can read all the posts where I rewatched She-Ra starting with the first episode here (if you're on mobile that link won't really work but you can read them starting from the end here)

And if you want to see me re-re watch random episodes after doing weed, I keep reblogging this post in order to do that, so uhhh look in the notes? Personally I think those posts are funny as hell sometimes

And you can see progress on my Catra cosplay (and photos of the whole thing once it’s done) here

I know I have a few posts that have gone semi-viral and/or have tens of thousands of notes, and I talk about them in the readmore.

ON A RELATED NOTE:

If you screenshot one of my tumblr posts to put it anywhere else, please mark out my username

I really do not want to change my tumblr name because I've had it since 2012, but also I do not need people finding my tumblr, yes I know it's my own fault for having a name/icon/account that is painfully obviously me but like, c'mon

If you got to my blog via my post about rayon: it's just a minor hyperfixation of mine, I rarely blog about that kind of thing. I'm actually not real fussed about "sustainable fashion," I own plenty of polyester and WAY too many clothes--but I do try to take good care of those clothes and make them last. I just get pissed off when people try to pass off "bamboo" or "eucalyptus" as anything other than rayon. (I like rayon. I shouldn't have to use fifty search terms to find soft socks.)

"Why is your queer love post not rebloggable" hahhhhhh well. Browse the notes sometime. But also I explain a bit more here.

Landlord discourse: Hi, I'm not an expert on affordable housing or anything, I just know that The Rent is Too Damn High, and housing is a human right. I got pissed off, I ranted, it blew up.

"The first link on your boobs post leads to a super problematic website" yeah I didn't realize that until it was too late and there's jack shit I can do about it now, sorry.

If you found my blog via a screenshot of a post about no-fault divorce or that bonsai apple: where the fuck are people still finding those lolol

[yooniesim]

Honestly, fuck paywall cc creators, this is including early Access... They have done something not even EA has managed to do, they have destroyed my love for the Sims. Especially comparing it to other modding communities the Sims one is just an embarrassment and an affront against what modding should be about

I'm sorry nonny, losing your love for a game is very hard. I feel that same way often these days. Recently I got lost in a skyrim hyperfixation, and browsing all the mods and once again seeing the love put into them for free, it reminded me of years ago here with all the brilliant free collabs and how helpful everyone was to one another. The creative CC ranging every niche and style. Now most people only interact if it's profitable. CC is only made if it's profitable. This isn't a community, it's a marketplace.

I've found a lot of free creators over the past year or so, people making interesting content. They're difficult to find in the first place, you really have to scour tags now, and I don't think it's even exaggeration to say 99% of creators now have some sort of paywall. But even of the 1% that don't, about a quarter of them wind up going paid once they get traction. I started my finds blog to spread free creators, but I can't lie, it's been... discouraging. Sometimes I don't even want to try looking for people anymore.

The amount of love I still have for this game is fueled by my mutuals, friends in my server, and kind nonnies on here at this point. But it wanes a lot regardless. I have the natural want to change things, and it makes me feel a little helpless to know that I can't. That people are getting fucked over, scammed, doxxed, etc. And there's just nothing I can do about it. I really wish there was something I could do about it. Even if, overall, this community is a very small insignificant part of the world, it still feels sad. It's sad to see the things you love change for the worse, totally out of your control. So I understand you, nonny.

[bobfloydsbabe]

Hi, can I just give a word of warning. It's not about wanting feedback etc that's completely valid. It's just the HoTD is extremely toxic in parts and you don't want to fall into the trap of wanting to be top dog or breaking into the fandom. There is a huge appetite for fic and a massive turnover of stories every day so you're just one of thousands. You'll find an audience. But please don't use words like breaking into the fandom implying seeking top position. I'm sorry if I'm misinterpreted you but there is a hierarchy in some quarters where people have huge followings and act like complete cunts causing huge drama. It was all rooted in breaking into the fandom, being the elite and getting numbers for fic. One openly said it was about winning the fandom, exact words. It created rivalry etc. There is new writers coming up wanting to emulate them and it's not about writing an idea they love and sharing it and wanting feedback and appreciation, its about gaining numbers and followers and kudos. They will just churn out shit for clicks and use AI more often or not. It's not like this everywhere but it's still a dangerous trap to fall into. Don't worry about breaking into the fandom or getting exposure. There is so much content it's overwhelming and just swallows stories up. But it evens out. You are talented and passionate about your characters and this is what you need to keep in mind most of all. You can have a healthy desire for an audience and feedback just don't be sucked into the trap of competition on here

I'm sorry for ranting I'm tired from work and was just browsing the tag and my blood run cold at seeing you wanted to break in. Maybe I'm overthinking it due to being tired but I just hate to see someone else become consumed by this craze to be the top on here when it's just literally fandom. Its not TikTok or the hunger games

Hi there, Anon.

I think you misunderstood my post. I put the "break in" in quotes because I wasn't being serious, like it was a tongue-in-cheek post. Writing and posting fic for an already established fandom is hard, no matter what, and I've only been part of the fandom for about a week. It's a massive and incredibly active fandom, so I'm just trying to find my feet and my place within it, so I don't know of any drama and I'm certainly not trying to be popular. If I cared that much about numbers, I would have stopped posting stories years and years ago. This is not my first rodeo.

All that being said, I know your heart was in the right place and I appreciate you wanted to warn me, though it was unnecessary. I'm a big girl, and as you said, it's fandom. It's not that deep.

[dukeofdumbass]

hello! i was going through my ao3 bookmarks the other day and i noticed that all of the ones written by you had been archived into a collection, inaccessible. Can I ask why? Is it just a temporary precaution, or are they gone for good?

HI!!!!!! i'm so sorry for causing any inconvenience - as it happens, as of just a couple hours ago, before i logged back into Tumblr, all of the works have been unarchived. whenever my works do go into an archive collection, there is a sort of safety net in that i'm too obsessive/compulsive to actually delete them from Ao3, because that means that all their stats and comments disappear too. something something media/data preservation, something something the work is really only complete to me once i post it (my spreadsheet more or less ensures that...).

now. i'm gonna soapbox on your lovely ask. i am constantly editing my Ao3 bio trying to say something like this...

as to why: i've just put a lot of pressure on myself, starting back when there was rather a lull in TTGC fic (my longest fic was in the works for a couple months before i made my Ao3 account in mid-May of 2021), to sort of be The Author in the [Xeno] tag(s) who has all the best concepts and ships and interpretations and style, consistently, universally. i want to appeal to everyone! i want everyone to love me! i want everyone to respect me! i want everyone to smile when they see my username pop up YET AGAIN in the tags. i want to be recommended! i want to be remembered... i'm not on Twitter so much anymore, and the culture's obviously quite different here, so how do i even ensure that people who don't browse the tags know who i am? hough...the impossible task... so, i have only continued to experience that pressure in comparing myself to other creators (writers/artists) who are "less online" than i've been at points but have "better" work in terms of length, range, appeal, quality, imagination/esotericism/divergence, themes/mood/gravity, self-indulgence, representation...you name it. newsflash for me: that's just not a thing! it can't be!! fanwork is as varied and personal as each and every person who's ever experienced media properties and expressed their thoughts in any medium or forum. i seek out other creators/fans who like the same elements as i do (all minoade fans, you're on my list) specifically to converse with them and conquer my feelings of inadequacy head-on, and when i find myself scared to join a conversation with those who have become my best friends (or speculating from afar on ex-friends from whom i just grew apart, for these reasons or others) because i feel like i'll ruin the "quality" of the conversation...it's really not a good feeling. when i'm really feeling like a fraud and an intrusion, away go the fics...

all that to say: if you create something, if you think something, if you love something, i love you. even if it's really hard and scary, i'll make myself do it. that's what i want my fandom experience to be about <3

(but most importantly THANK YOU for asking - i am glad that i didn't see this before deciding to re-reveal the works, because it honestly might have spooked me, but seeing it now lets me know that it was the right decision :)

[curestardust]

hiii~ i'm trying to migrate from tiktok to tumblr because i heard that the precure community is way larger here [and i refuse to use twitter] your blog and another blog are always posted on tiktok but the other one doesn't have anonymous questions or whatever on so i wanted to ask you!! what is the etiquette here for interacting with content creators and also what blogs are the ones to check out and which ones should i avoid because i'd really hate to follow someone and then find out all the tumblr girlies think they're a creep?? OTL sorry if this is like a dumb obvious rude question it's just i've never used tumblr before so i don't want to interact with a content creator the wrong way and end up blocked lol thank you if you respond and also i love your cure butterfly icon it's so pretty <3 <3

i...get posted on tiktok? wha- how does that even work oml

i do think tumblr might be the 2nd biggest platform for precure after hell twitter indeed

for CCs... it's a bit difficult to know whose stuff you'd be interested in. i don't think there's anyone who posts exclusively precure (i don't either) so if you only want to see that you can browse the precure tag. if you like someone's stuff give them a follow though! i don't know anything about "creeps" but i've been on this website for over 10 years so my blocklist and blocked words is massive lol. i'm just chilling over here making gifs.

tumblr etiquette:

i see a lot of new people be confused about this but reblog NEVER repost someone's content. there are those 2 arrows at the bottom of every post, that's a reblog. downloading someone's gif/art then posting it to your blog is a repost and it's VERY frowned upon.

generally people like to add extra commentary in the tags instead of on the post itself, though there's a sort of comment section under posts now but not many people use it.

general rule of thumb (for any social media site really) is to stay away from takes you disagree with. just scroll by, don't say anything, don't insult them. if you REALLY disagree with what they are saying, block them.

CC interaction is kinda odd here, most people are pretty introverted. usually creators will appreciate if you send them a nice ask that you really like their stuff (though they might not post your ask) but the most common way of doing that is by putting praises in the tags cause they'll see it in their activity feed.

hmmm, i dunno if i answered everything properly but it's super late here so mb, you can shoot me another ask if you have more questions~

[ihavetoomuchhomeworkforthis]

Ok so I have TRIED to find the post so I can give credit, but I haven't been able to and idk how else to go about finding it. I'm sorry.

While I was browsing the "middle surgery" posts (to try to find it), I ended up typing basically everything I wanted to write into the comments of one of those, so I'll just copy and paste that here I guess? Maybe I'll edit it just a little. Maybe not.

First off, explanation and disclaimer: If you don't have a binder or access to HRT, or maybe only want to cosplay/crossdress - this won't work for everyone, and the people who this does apply to probably won't see it - but I thought of a way to sort of masculinize my body shape, and maybe this will help somebody else.

(this is meant for anyone with smallish boobs [or a binder] and whose waist goes inwards a bit at the sides because that second point is what's being changed, I apologize if you don't feel like it works for you) you will need a tight and stretchy tank top, some socks, and ideally a sports bra.

Basically what we're going for, alt text available, is this:

ok (sorry for the inevitable tone difference) copy/pasting starts here: vvv

ok no but I saw a post about - I wish I could credit it, I'm trying to find it, that's why I m browsing this tag - someone who had - I swear this is relevant - someone who had wanted a ken Barbie but didn't have one so they decided to make one of their Barbies into a guy so that they could make their Barbies have a heterosexual romance, which is really funny all on its own, but the point is that they decided to do this not by cutting off the Barbie's boobs

(because how, they were probably like 5 or 7 or something at the time, they wouldn't have gone for heating up a knife or anything) but by instead wrapping and taping around the middle of the Barbie until its belly was even with its boobs: middle surgery.

and also they cut off the hair too I think. - I really want to find a Barbie so I can make it trans lol - And anyway so I thought it was actually kind of reasonable, so you know what you can do if you happen to have small boobs but your waist cuts in femininely? You can put on a sports bra (or binder if you have one) and then you can fold a long sock in half and tuck it halfway under your bra to even out your belly with your boobs,

and then you can put on a stretchy and tight tank top, and you can lift up one side and put a smaller sock where your waist cuts in there, like an ankle sock, experiment with the best way to fold it or if you want two socks or whatever but that's to fill in the gap that makes your body not rectangular, and then you carefully put the undershirt back down over it so as not to dislodge the sock, and also to hold it in place, and then very carefully do the same on the other side

and Ta-Da! Middle Surgery. Now you will fill out more masculine clothing better, and generally have a more masculine shape! Maybe a bit lumpy though, so put on either layers or baggy things maybe. Also obviously this doesn't apply to all body types and you might not have the things. It worked for me yesterday and today though! It was pretty neat, 10/10 would recommend.

[pollenallergie]

Hey, I'm really sorry about the other anons being so rude, that's really fucked up and shouldn't happen. I sent the first one in good faith with the assumption that maybe you weren't aware of the distinction between & labels and using ship names for platonic relationships. Thank you for taking the time to explain your reasoning, even if the other anons don't deserve it. I don't think you're an anti and I believe you had good intentions. Take care of yourself; I hope you come back to fandom soon and continue to create.

okay, so, admittedly i caved and did some lurking tonight and i saw this anon in my inbox and… yeah i just had to put a temporary hiatus on my temporary hiatus so that i could answer it lol

i genuinely appreciate you reaching out to me, both in your last anon and now. i want to foster the kind of environment on my blog where people feel like they can kindly/civilly and genuinely voice their concerns to me without fear of me getting upset or retaliating or anything. so, suffice to say, i’m really disappointed in myself for dropping the ball and not responding to your genuine concerns in a more positive, meaningful way. i wasn’t trying to be snarky when i replied, but, having read through that post, i can see quite a few points where i likely came across as snarky and that’s just… that’s really not what i want to do here and i hate that i didn’t take the time to cool off more before i responded to you.

i appreciate you taking your time to voice your concerns and to educate me on a more considerate way to tag my platonic!eddie x chrissy posts. putting myself in the shoes of someone who was just simply trying to browse the tag of a romantic ship they like, i can see how it would be frustrating to have that space cluttered with platonic AUs and such, and i’m very sorry that i ever contributed to such frustration for hellcheer-enjoyers (hellcheerleaders?? if you guys don’t call yourselves hellcheerleaders, you really need to start bc oh my god that is so cute!).

thank you for also taking the time to send a follow up message and to further clarify your intentions/discuss things further. you’re truly, very kind and so polite and i really appreciate how helpful and genuine and nice you’ve been during all of this. i hope you’re doing well and i wish you very happy holidays (if you celebrate any this time of year, ofc. if not, then i hope you experience lots of non-holiday-related happiness anyways!). thank you again for being so lovely and informative. <3

[sophieinwonderland]

I love how seriously you took the Radqueer God thing and ran with it, when it was mostly me poking fun at an anti-endo saying something really stupid, and asserting that I was treated as a literal God by a community that I'm not even a part of.

Really shows how desperate you all are.

But yeah, that's something else I forgot to mention! After I criticized your hate subreddit's hit list, you guys started "deepdiving" my account through years of content to find reasons to attack me and put me on your hit list!

Surprised you didn't toss in the part where I bragged about teaching people to dissociate and hallucinate.

I mean, you guys browsed the Sophiecourse tag, right? It's the second one over if your browse by top. And I even went through all the trouble of sending that anon to Dia asking what "lie" I told just so Dia would post that screenshot to try to prove me wrong, and I could reblog it and help solidify that into the syscourse topic of the week.

they were not changed for you specifically.

Right. Of course. Let's do a comparison real quick of the people on your hatesub's hit list?

TheASystem has 1.1 Million followers on TikTok.

DissociaDID has 1.17 Million followers on Youtube.

Frgmntdpsyche has 179.5 thousand followers on TikTok.

Then there's me with my measly 1,800 followers on my small Tumblr blog.

But sure, totally wasn't changed for me specifically. 🙄

So wanted to add that you were approved for the list not due to your follower count but specifically due to the extremely dangerous things you have been proven to support and encourage

Sorry. No. That's not how that works.

The entire rationalization for okaying this in the first place was that it would be allowed as long as long you were targeting "public figures." Remember???

From u/Goat_Alter's original post:

The entire reasoning for the 10k follower rule was that the moderators decided only "public figures" would be accepted.

If you're saying that follower count and popularity aren't a reason I was added, then it sounds like you're admitting that I wouldn't actually qualify as a public figure. And your whole hit list is just completely arbitrary and can target anyone you don't like for any reason you decide.

I also wanted to mention that the specific person you have been mocking for their "reading comprehension" in previous posts suffers from multiple TBIs and is genuinely offended you mocked them for their reading comprehension

You seem to be referencing this post.

Funny how you ignore that I only mentioned reading comprehension because of the one user's "reading comprehension has never been higher" remark:

As far as I'm concerned, they made it fair game.

Actually, do you REALLY want to be arguing that criticizing reading comprehension is ableist? Have you ever done a search of "reading comprehension" in that server of yours?

You know what they say about throwing stones in glass houses, right?

(Context: This was about Jennifer Freyd who was a CSA survivor who has never reported ritual abuse. I swear everyone in that server who attacks people's reading comprehension is projecting.)

I believe that last one is from u/Goat_Alter too, the r/systemscringe mod who made posts announcing their hit list! Wild isn't it?

(And also again feels like projecting. It's true that I have repeatedly said it's an r/systemscringe server. As far as I recall I've never said it's an "official" server for the subreddit. But it was promoted in the sub, links directly to the sub, and shares multiple moderators with it.)

Anyway, moving on from pointing out your massive hypocrisy... because lets face it, none of you have enough morals or standards to care...

If you actually read my post, I make it clear that I don't actually think it's a reading comprehension issue. At least by the point they were misquoting the sources.

I can fully accept that they have a disability that makes it hard to comprehend some text. I even acknowledge that this would be an easy mistake to make.

I... have a much harder time believing that their disability causes them to quote something verbatim while conveniently cutting off parts of the same sentence that would contradict what they're saying.

At that point, they're not making a mistake anymore. They're obfuscating facts to appear as if they're in the right.

We're new to Tumblr but saw a lot of posts of yours under the plural and pro-endo/endo-safe tags; apparently there's a lot of shade being thrown at you from other platforms? We don't look on r/disordercringe or r/systemscringe so we don't know what the conflict is in detail, but anyway we just want to say to stay safe and thank you for standing against sysmedicalism. 🩵💙

Thank you all very much! 💖

If you want the short version for this feud: They're subreddits designed around mocking systems. I decided to start responding in turn a long time ago.

Recently, new mods took over r/systemscringe who announced that they would be undoing rules against censoring systems. These rules were put into place by past mod teams and were intended to prevent harassment of people posted there. The solution of the new mod team was to, essentially, create a hit list of acceptable targets to mention without being censored.

At the time they were considering this, they were going to make a rule that people on their hit list had to have a minimum of 10k followers. Something I, with only 1,800 followers, would NOT qualify for. But because I dared criticize them, the r/systemscringe mod team declared me to be a "public figure" and added me to their hit list.

That's the basics of it, anyway. 🤷‍♀️

Details honestly don't matter too much. Most important thing is that now there's a flair with my name on it on r/systemscringe, people there will likely be mentioning my blog by name from now on pretty regularly, and when any cringizens are curious and go to look me up, first thing they'll see on my pinned is a list of r/systemscringe lies with academic sources to debunk them. 😁

Thanks again for the support! And have a wonderful day!

[separatist-apologist]

Firstly, I’m sorry you keep having to clarify the very simple fact that it’s bad etiquette to ask creators that are writing incredible content FOR FREE to post stuff constantly. Secondly, which ACOTAR guy do you think would be the best vibes at IKEA, and which would be the worst? Asking the important questions, nothing but hard hitting journalism here.

Worst to best person to bring to Ikea- as always no one is allowed to get mad/put in the tags I'm wrong. I have never once been wrong because my opinion is objective fact unlike the REST OF YOU.

10. Beron Vanserra- Won't stop in ANY displays. Doesn't even want to BROWSE. Skips the meatballs for the downstairs shopping area. No basket. Won't let you get a fake plant or even TEALIGHTS. Came for one specific thing and thats the ONLY thing. Screams at you if assembly is required.

9. Azriel- Feels like Ikea would stress him out. Always crowded, he does not strike me as a crowd-loving person. Begs not to go, but has to because his strength is require to lift all six boxes for the new bookcase. Does this without complaint. Does not want to eat meatballs, wants to go home.

8. Tamlin- Also hates crowds. Has a truck, so is always being asked to come. Is really good at building things by himself, though, so its worth bringing him. Silently assembles furniture pieces and while does not indulge in the cafeteria, agrees to a frozen bag of meatballs.

7. Eris Vanserra- Just. Not a good attitude at 10am. Way too dressed up for an IKEA. Why is he in dress pants? WHY DID HE BRING A TWO DOOR? WHY IS HE IN DRESS SHOES ERIS OH MY GOD WHAT DID YOU THINK WE WERE DOING TODAY? Have to make a second trip to collect bookcase, but he does pay for lunch.

6. Jurian- Why do all these men hate being around other people? Jurian is like a nervous cat you have to pspspspsp into the parking lot. Does not understand why everything is so spread out. Buys one of the generic pieces of artwork because it's a portrait of his city (SAME JURIAN). Stunned to learn he actually spent $400 when he came in for one $30 chair. Oops.

5. Helion- L O U D L Y judging display books while being told it's not an endorsement. Can somehow speak swedish now???? Telling you what all these words mean with a roll of his eyes. Does NOT order meatballs but the chicken (WHY HELION), and does not like any of the home office displays. Knocks on the bookcases with a "I thought so-these are HARDLY sturdy" okay we get it. Your collection is massive.

4. Rhysand- can't take this man anywhere. Just thinks there are BETTER places for furniture where your home wont look like everyone elses. Does not understand the point is that its affordable. Does like laying on the beds, though, and playing pretend in the 500sq ft displays. Surprised the meatballs are good but SWEARS he knows a better place (UNLIKELY RHYS)

3. Tarquin- Likes crowds, TOO enthusiastic. Stopping in EVERY display to look at prices, to admire the lights, to sit on every couch. Exhausted before you ever reach the kitchen section.

2. Lucien Vanserra- Man with a plan. Energized by all the people, strikes up several flirty conversations in the bedroom section. Purposefully did not eat, walks slow through the upstairs so when its time for meatballs, he has ROOM for all 12. Agrees fake plants are a good idea to make home look cozy without all the effort, though also purchases a real tree based on "look at how fucking cool this is".

Cassian- Ultimate Ikea shopping partner. Man is STRONG. Has a big ass truck. and most importantly, Cassian likes to have FUN slash EAT. This is a DATE. "Would you live here?" "why/why not?" trying out the couches and judging the ugly sinks. Eats his weight in meatballs. Carries all four boxes for the bookshelf on his shoulder, everyone is staring. Builds it cheerfully, helps arrange said books.

[mrsandypants]

Tag Game: Reveal Your Blogging Style

I was tagged by the precious pumpkin pie @gunsatthaphan ! Thank you sweet pea! I needed a little distraction! 😊

different blogs for different interests OR all-in-one blog (I use to have a few separate blogs to avoid spamming my mutuals with things they might not be too fond of... but I just don't have the time for that anymore... So I'm sorry sweet peas!)

default theme OR custom theme (Although, I would like to change it up eventually but I like being able to use a search box function so who knows. Pfft.) 

one username till death OR change username according to mood/obsession (I have always used some version of Andy and Pants or Pantaloons so I suppose I'm just attached / use to it.) 

round avatar OR square avatar (Honestly just depends. I'm not particular about this one.)

personal avatar OR fandom related avatar 

thematic consistency between header image and avatar OR who gives a fuck (I'm honestly not too bothered but I commend people who put in that effort. It looks gorgeous) 

reblog without tags OR reblog with tags (I like giving props to the creators and bloggers on the app and tagging to keep track of things. I just want everyone to know how much I appreciate them, and avoid bugging people with my all-in-one blog as much as I can...)

category tags only OR personal commentary in tags (Absolutely both here. I categorize to keep track and fangirl panic as well. Pfft)

like+reblog OR only reblog (Give props and reblog! Shove all the love at tumblr users!) 

replies allowed on posts OR replies switched off (On the off chance anyone replies, I love a little conversation. 😊) 

askbox open OR askbox closed (Always open for a chat!) 

anons allowed OR anons blocked (I don't mind if someone wants to stay anon. I'm just happy to chat at all.) 

respond to every mention in replies OR be a hermit (Honestly love responding or talking to mutuals / friends... I just enjoy getting to know others and chatting.) 

a quiet observer and enjoyer OR initiate conversation with an unknown blogger (I try to initiate but also feel intrusive if I keep doing it... I don't want to be a bother...)

send ask OR send message on chat OR converse with people in replies  (I'm usually FAR too shy to message but love sending an ask or responding... 😊)

blog from computer/laptop OR blog from phone (I spend so little time on my phone. I can't imagine blogging from it honestly... Browsing sure. But not blogging...)

personal posts OR fandom posts only (Mostly fandom but if I need to rant a little bit I feel more comfortable doing that here than say twitter.... Feels like talking to myself but that's okay.) 

have a well organized filled queue OR post intermittently and make it everybody else's problem OR post daily like it's a 9 to 5 (Really I just post when I have downtime... Which isn't terribly often...) 

likes and following displayed on blog OR likes and following hidden (I think it's just a hot mess so really not being able to see my likes is probably for the best, pfft.)

Thank you for the little distraction lovely. Would be a treat to hear from these lovelies tagged below but don't feel like you need to! I just appreciate you all!

@feeling-woozi @jaywoninthespotlight @maklineluv @musicalgrl

If any of my mutuals find this and are not tagged, let me know! @ me so I can see it!!

[seelestia]

well, since you’re ok with it… here’s the reveal!

hello it is i, the harbinger of tears, 💠 anon <3 this is my main blog, while my writing blog is at @genshrineimpact. just block the tag: “minors dni” and you should be good!!

now, back to the topic at hand…

*war flashbacks* i-i need a moment *lays on ground and pulls blanket over head*

[ we’re having technical difficulties at the moment - please enjoy the brief intermission. ]

*wipes tears* ok am back what were we talking about again? oh yes, plot bunnies! i think that used to be an actual term, kind of like how we say 'brainrot' these days haha but yes, it certainly makes an adorable image!

i’m glad that you think so! thank you for being understanding and kind about this <3 ok we can compromise - you just tell me if i ever make you uncomfortable and i shall bonk myself lol

that’s so intriguing, i think most people wouldn’t know about it! ohhh an au, hm? very interesting indeed… maybe i should try and do some research myself hehe

i think you’re spot on for the superiority complex! a love triangle between these three sounds like it’ll get very messy… the two albedos playing 3d chess while the reader is just stuck in the middle like (· ω ·) ??

*clears throat* lia you are hallucinating wdym /j hahahah i know right??? literally none of them have similarities…. what is a ‘type’…. just like the concept of time, it is but an illusion to me… “you just fall for whoever you fall for” - yeah that sounds about right lmao

feel free to browse around my blog, but i don’t have much lol the 'god of war!reader au' series seems to be popular the past few days, and it’s been a super fun thing to write! but don’t feel pressured to do it, really! <3

IKR i was complaining to my brother about it like- seriously??? for the first day??? xiao is my main dps, and he’s practically useless (i’m so sorry bby) against that stupid thing ;_;

also yay, a taglist, sign me uppppp!

OML. HI, RIN !! it's nice to know the true identity of my 💠 anon without having to employ heizou. (/lh) and if you see a new follower with a melancholic albedo theme and a bio that says i follow cool people, that'd be me~

hehe, already done filtering the tag~ i am respectfully looking at the god of war!reader, (ab)normal day, and the universe abound series 👀 i also saw your edit of the game's voicelines to fit the god of war!reader AND IT FITS SO WELL. i don't have much experience with javascript or editing other than tumblr html, which may be why i am so in awe !! ;( i love the lore of the reader like the sibling adepti and the god of sun HNGGH this is what i meant when i say your brain >>> (/g)

who is this fine grandpa (/lh) man on the intermission screen??? 🔍 and the thought of saying, "psst, i have a plot bunny to give to you" is so cute <3 hehe, i'm always down for a new series made by you because fjejkdkks they're so good, HELLO?!?! but feel free to only focus on the ones you're working on, they deserve your attention the most rn ;D

BEING IN THE MIDDLE OF 2BEDO'S PLAYING CHESS, HELP. just know if susbedo lost, he'd bore hateful stares into the back of albedo's head and likely about to flip the whole table. (/lh)

the intermission is so suspicious that i can't help but suspect that you feel smth for that very same man... HMM. "just like the concept of time, it is but an illusion to me" rin, i think you've been spending too much time with zhongli. (/j)

YESYESYES !! the popularity of your god of war!reader au is SO VALID because the lore and their interactions with morax??? >>> your brain never ceases to amaze me !! fjekrksjds i can tell you put a lot of thought into it and the fact that you executed it so well??? aaaa, i love your works sm <3 (/g) i shall definitely find the time to binge your masterlist soon !! >:)

i don't think xiao's burst reaches that abomination when it's shooting missiles??? i don't have xiao because i lost the 50/50 to keqing on his first rerun and then pulled for yelan instead during 2.7 <//3 but i'd definitely pull for this boy the next time he comes around !! i got klee at guaranteed pity and tried pulling for heizou cons but ended up getting c1 kazuha at 15 pity instead (which i could've gotten for yoimiya but that is alright, i'm not one to dwell on regrets for longer than i needed) fwfjkekds

speaking of, is there anyone you're planning to pull for in the future, rin??? i'm at 13 pity + 50/50 rn on yoimiya's banner after getting c1 kazuha and if no one comes home, then i'll try my luck on the 3.0 banners !! saving particularly for al-haitham cough cough

[rurpleplayssims]

3, 5 and 11 for the ask game!

📝Thank you for the Simblr Asks @coriel-muroz! 😀

3) Where do you get inspiration?

There is the simple fact that anything I see, hear, learn will more often than not, end up in some shape or form in my writing.

There are sometimes when I browse through tumblr and I might be inspired by other people's stories/gameplays. I try hard to not copy someone's work word to word, that isn't fair and I'd be annoyed if someone did that to my work. But obviously (as I learnt the hard way with writing fanfiction as a teenager) that none of this is protected by copyright. I accept that as that is part of the deal I tell myself with using this platform.

It was also part of the reason why I was so scared that all my blog would be deleted when I thought I was shadow-banned earlier this month.

I downloaded several copies of my backups because I'm over 500 posts with Campbell Quay and I put a lot of time and effort into writing it.

My account was only like it for a week but my mood plummeted and things in my personal life were stressing me out as well and writing this BaCC is my escape (as well as my quiet walks on my days off).

5) What's your favorite kind of content to see?

Anything Sims 2 related. If your bio has Sims 2 mentioned in it, it's an instant follow from me. I also like Sims 3 content and occasionally Sims 4 stories.

I love reading/watching and then recommending content to others, so they can enjoy it as much as I did.

You can see my recommendations page here.

11) What post did people love that surprised you?

I LOVE it when I get replies/comments on a post.

It isn't because I want all the attention on me and me alone, far from it. I am a friendly and open person but too much attention on me, sometimes stresses me out. It's nobody's fault and I think it's because I naturally struggle with compliments.

But compliments on my writing is always welcome in any amount.

Many people on tumblr who come across my work do not know me in person. You are all reacting purely going by how I am writing, and how my writing has made you feel.

The greatest part of being an aspiring writer for years is getting people to react, to feel involved and caught up in a character's life. I know I've done my job well when you all respond with shock/laughter ect at certain posts.

So saying that, there are two posts that I enjoyed most and it was because I knew I was going to get reactions in the replies!

The first is this one, when Ellen's first appearance in town is to kiss Jasper in the park when he was still 'with' Roselyn.

I will admit that I was at work when I saw the comments coming in when I checked my phone. I burst out laughing, pleased that you all were so involved and kind enough to comment on what would be the best/not best way to proceed forwards for my sims.

The second post is this one, when Tyler proposes (autonomously, corsetry of ACR) to Zoey right after their first Woohoo.

I loved the GoT reference @pixeldolly as I thought the same thing at the time it happened!

This answers a little of my previous question with how I find inspiration. Because it's a TS2 gameplay story and autonomous things happen, I then have to figure out how it would've happened in real life. And making the sims all swingers isn't an answer I want to give! 🤣

The whole deal with Ellen kissing Jasper I soon linked to Jasper's magical bloodline identifying Ellen as his soulmate, which is why she reacted spontaneously to meeting him for the first time.

Thank you for asking me questions, I'm sorry for the essay I replied with! 🤣📝 Thank you also to @phoebe-twiddle and @potentialfate-sims for commenting, I thought I would tag you to thank you for your comments too. ALL comments and likes, reblogs ect are welcome and appreciated by me! By all means, if any of you want to ask me questions, there are two simblr asks here and here.

[monokyokyo]

Flower Boy

An old one but I'm working on a part 2 so I figured I'd share it anyway!

Jongsang (although it's not really focused on), pretty fluffy, Jongho is a florist

Flowers had a range of emotions. From the fiery passion of roses to the sombre colour of forget me nots'. Jongho found comfort in the likes of these pristine plants. After all, he had an entire shop dedicated to nearly every flower the region had to offer. It was such a simple job yet there was nothing he would rather do.

Every day, someone new entered his shop in search of a flower to suit their tastes or situation, and it was Jongho's job to assist them.

The day started out normal. Jongho was rearranging the objects on the front counter when a familiar face strutted in. "Hello Mr Park," He greeted the tall man cheerfully.

"How many times must I tell you? Just Seonghwa is fine." Chuckled the customer as he removed his sparkling sunglasses.

"I'm sorry. What can I do for you today, Mr Park?" Seonghwa shook his head, deciding to just leave it be. His eyes travelled around the small shop, a light hum coming from his lips.

"I'm looking for something that really pops! You know? This couple is really into gemstones, so they're having a crystal wedding." Seonghwa was a wedding planner. Every now and again, usually once or twice a week, he would come to Jongho's store in search of the perfect flowers to impress his clients. He was a rather picky individual and Jongho learned during their very first encounter that he wasn't someone whose time should be wasted.

As such, Jongho got right to looking for the perfect bunch of flowers for the occasion. He glanced around before finally landing on what he hoped was the right bouquet. "Why not freesia?" He suggested. "The red ones represent passion, something these two must have a lot of if they're theming their wedding around their love of crystals. Wouldn't you say?"

Seonghwa nodded at him, a slight grin forming on his face at the bright smile on the younger man's face. "I would say indeed. Alright, I'll need two dozen bouquets. I'll send you the details on the wrapping later." He put his sunglasses on and turned to the door. "Give me a call when you're ready to plan your wedding, hey Jongho? I promise I'll give you the best of the best."

"I'm only twenty," He giggled. "I've still got some time, Mr Park."

Seonghwa chuckled. "Indeed you do." He left, leaving Jongho with a smile on his face.

About an hour or so later, the bell above the store entrance dinged. Jongho looked up from his order and saw a man scanning, somewhat frantically, through several displays of flowers. "How many I help you today?" Jongho asked the customer cheerfully.

The man sighed and sluggishly walked over to the counter. "I need the perfect flower for my boyfriend. He's been going through a lot recently and I need something to show him that I'm here for him..." Jongho tilted his head at this and hummed. He told the man to wait a moment then hopped over to one of the shelves.

"Here," He said. The man looked down curiously at the pink hydrangea in Jongho's hand. "Pink hydrangea for a passionate and emotional romance. You clearly care about him a lot. I'm sure these flowers will show him that." Jongho tilted his head at the light hum of consideration he received, hoping he would take up his suggestion. "I could label the bouquet if you'd like? What's your boyfriend's name?"

"Wooyoung," Jongho didn't fail to notice the way the man smiled at the mere mention of his boyfriend's name. He found it sweet how love two people could share with one another. Words are hard to express, but one could show them through something as simple as a flower. So Jongho made sure to put on the nicest tag he had, and encased the hydrangea a shiny, clear plastic to keep them safe.

"I hope things go well for you two," Said Jongho just as they finished their transaction. He handed the man the bouquet, sending him a grin with it. "Have a good day Mr..."

"San. Choi San," Then they parted ways. It made Jongho feel a certain pride inside, knowing he had the potential to help someone with his flowers. Regardless of if he knew the turnout, at least he was able to provide some assistance to those who would appreciate it. Well, it wasn't always appreciated.

About thirty or so minutes later, another familiar face stormed into the flower shop. The front door slammed open, disturbing the usual calm atmosphere of the store when he stomped in. An empty vase on the counter, nearly cracking it and causing Jongho to flinch from his seat. He let out a yelp in surprise, a small squeak that only made the man in front of him scoff.

"M-Mr Jeong? I'm sorry I-"

"You should be," Growled the older man. He pushed back his blonde hair with an aggressive sigh while Jongho slowly pulled back the clay pot. His brow furrowed in confusion, wondering what could've gone so wrong that he would come back so vexed, especially after their calm encounter last week. Mr Jeong or, Yunho, had ordered a pot of roses for his girlfriend. Could she have hated them that much?

"I-If you don't mind me asking...What happened last week?"

The blonde huffed, though it sounded more like a growl to Jongho's sensitive ears. "She's allergic," The younger male squinted, carefully asking him to repeat himself. "Are you deaf? I said she's fucking allergic!" Jongho flinched back at his harsh and loud tone yet Yunho hardly made the effort to reel himself back in.

"You sold me these damn flowers, giving me this grand speech about how special they'll make her feel and how she'll love them and you know what happens? She ends sneezing through our entire date! Why the hell would you give those to me?!"

"W-Well how was I s-supposed to know? Y-You came in asking for flowers!" The look Yunho gave him had to be the scariest thing Jongho had ever seen...in his shop. He was tall, about six foot, and easily towered over the cowering boy.

"Are you saying this is my fault?" He seethed through his gritted teeth. Jongho gulped, unsure of what to do in this sort of situation. He had never had anyone this angry over roses of all things.

"W-Well, no...I'm not blaming you but...shouldn't you have known?" He flinched yet again when Yunho leered closer, his hands thrown up in what would likely be, useless defence.

"Those roses had to be bugged, sprayed with something, I don't know! You had to have done something to them! We have roses at home for crying out loud!"

"And do you water them?" When Jongho's only response was silence, he lowered his arms, creasing his brow.

"Well...I've never seen anyone water them...but..."

"So...You ordered real roses thinking that your girlfriend wouldn't be allergic...because she doesn't react to the fake roses in your home?" Yunho could only sputter out a string of incoherent words that basically proved Jongho's suspicions to be correct. In response, he sighed then wordlessly pulled out his logbook.

Yunho watched curiously as he flipped through before he landed on last week. Jongho then grabbed a piece of paper and asked for the man's card, which he reluctantly agreed to. When it was handed back to him, Jongho hit him with a frow. "Here is your receipt sir. I've refunded your flowers..." The face alone was enough to make anyone feel lousy but the way his words trailed off just added extra salt to the wound.

So just before he took his receipt and left, Yunho mumbled something under his breath to the boy. "Thank you...for what it's worth...she loved the flowers before she started sneezing..." A tiny grin formed on Jongho's face and it made Yunho sigh, successfully feeling like less of an ass.

Jongho never had aggressive customers. Irritated, sure, but no one had ever gotten that upset with him. It was a flower shop after all. All of that before twelve as well...

The brunette let out a sigh of relief when his phone went off at twelve-thirty, signalling that it was finally his lunch break. Though the day was mostly quiet, he hadn't eaten since that morning and was eager to fill his stomach with some sort of nutrients. However, just before you could put up his 'Back in 20 minutes sign', the sound of the doorbell caught his attention. In shuffled a man with jet black hair, featuring various strands of gold.

His eyes were light red and his face was a little puffy as well. Jongho didn't give himself a moment to mourn his lost lunch break and hastily rushed over to greet the once crying figure. "I'm sorry...Am I bothering you?" He sniffled, wiping whatever remaining tears he had.

"No, not at all! What can I help you with?"

The man fidgeted slightly, eyes wandering around the shop and towards the floor. Clearly, he was trying to look anywhere but at Jongho, something the younger wasn't at all bothered by. "I'm looking for a flower..." He shook his head, muttering how that was obvious. "A gift I mean. I-It's for..."

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to..." Shaking his head once, the customer told him that it was alright, followed by mumbling a few things that Jongho didn't quite get. "Pardon?"

"S-Sorry I um...I just got back from the hospital..." Judging by his mannerisms, Jongho couldn't quite tell if he was a patient or if he was merely visiting someone. "My father he um...isn't doing too well," Well now he felt awful for assuming his condition. "I just wanted to get him some flowers and my boyfriend recommended this place..."

The snap from Jongho's fingers made the older male flinch, put off by the rather bright grin on his face. "You must be Wooyoung! San's boyfriend, right?"

"Y-Yes...That's me..." Jongho had realised his awfully chipper tone wasn't very appropriate and did Wooyoung a favour by calming himself down.

"Sorry...Why don't you browse around and tell me what catches your eye." A slight nod was all Jongho got before Wooyoung began to walk around the store. He tried his best not to follow the young man whilst he strolled about but it was difficult not to be curious. The way he moved was so tired, sluggish even and Jongho knew he wouldn't find anything he would like in a reasonable amount of time.

So, with that, Jongho stood to his feet and made his way over to the mixed-haired male, following his gaze across the shelves. "Anything that's caught your interest?" His sudden question made Wooyoung jump. Jongho apologised as soon as he startled him yet the older only turned away.

"I'm sorry...I don't really know what I'm doing here," Jongho heard his airy chuckle but it definitely wasn't humorous. "I don't know the first thing about flowers or what he would like...I think I'll just go."

Jongho grabbed his arm before he could turn away, earning him a questionable look from Wooyoung. His arm was yanked back and Jongho replied with a nervous laugh. "Sorry. Um, stay right here?" With the soft tone of his voice, Wooyoung couldn't possibly leave yet. So he sighed to himself while watching the young florist run off to the corner of the room, where an array of purple flowers caught his eye.

He came back not too long later with a bouquet in his hands. "Iris'," Said Jongho just as he handed them off. "They represent hope. I hope you and your family have enough, but a little more won't hurt. Stay strong." Wooyoung looked down at the flowers in his hand. Incoming tears were the only thing he saw as they began to fill his vision, eventually clouding it entirely until he felt the water roll down his pale cheeks.

Whatever words he mumbled to Jongho were interrupted by his unstable breaths and cries but it hadn't deterred him in the slightest. Instead of charging him the moment Wooyoung was handed the flowers, Jongho asked him if he would like a cup of hot chocolate. The older male wiped his tears, offering him a slight grin and saying: "T-That would be wonderful..."

Jongho even gave him extra marshmallows to make him feel better.

It was rather late when Wooyoung left. Well, if you count quarter past three to be late - which Jongho did. Although, he didn't mind much. Wooyoung left his store with a smile, flowers and a cheeky bit of foam around his lips. It was good enough for him.

Thankfully, Jongho had gotten to eat a cookie or two while speaking with the mixed-haired male. It was just enough to distract his growling stomach while he helped his few customers. One of which was certainly one of the most intimidating Jongho had seen yet.

A tall stature, black leather jacket, red hair and a dark stare - Jongho had no clue what he was doing in a flower shop of all places. However, he had learned to never judge a book by its cover and greeted the man with a bright beam, just as he did with all his other customers. "Hello..." His voice certainly fit his appearance. It was deep, like it could reach the depths of the ocean if he wanted it to.

"How can I help you today?" Said Jongho, as he waved to the old lady who had just bought a pot of daisies right before the redhead entered.

"I'm looking for some flowers..." As obvious as that may have sounded, Jongho didn't hold it against him though. It was clear that he had never been in a store like this. The poor man looked too scared to touch anything as if he were afraid it was going to burst into flames if he so much as lifted a finger. Honestly, Jongho found it rather cute.

"Of course! What kind?" That didn't seem to be the right question to ask. As all the man did was rock back and forth on his heels, the gears turning in his head as attempted to come up with a suitable answer.

"Um...Pretty ones?" Jongho nearly giggled at how adorable his answer was. He was clueless about flowers and the young florist was ready to help him find the perfect one for his occasion. Walking from behind the counter, Jongho made his way to his titan of a customer and looked up at him. He was quite small in comparison but he didn't mind.

"I'll help you find the prettiest ones around! Who are they for?" Big men like him didn't usually visit Jongho's shop, so it was no surprise when a light blush crept across the customer's cheek and he began to avert eye contact in embarrassment.

"They're um...f-for my mother..." This time, Jongho didn't hesitate to giggle, eliciting a deeper blush from the taller male. "D-Don't laugh! What? Got a problem with me getting a gift from my mother?" The man's tone dropped to a frightfully low level, ending Jongho's laughter within seconds.

"I didn't mean it like that...It's just, I'm surprised. That's all. Not many tough looking guys like you come in here." This time, it was the other male's turn to laugh. A 180 that was nothing but appreciated by Jongho.

"Never judge a book by its cover, I suppose," He sent Jongho a grin and the younger smiled right back. "My mother's been telling me all about this shop, she comes here every Tuesday to look at the flowers and pick up supplies for her garden. She was busy today, so she asked me to pick a few things for her house."

"Oh! You must be Mrs Song's son? Mingi, was it?" The redhead nodded at him, continuing to grin even as he chuckled somewhat awkwardly. "She talks about you quite a bit. The one that sleeps with plushies, right?"

"Yep, that's me. I'll be honest, I'm not much of a flower guy but my mother adores them. Mind helping me pick out something she would like?" Jongho nodded at him, eagerly bouncing up and down in a way that made Mingi giggle.

Despite his rough exterior, Mingi was a rather sweet person. Listening attentively and nodding along as Jongho told him about his various selection of flowers and even giving his own input, saying what and what not his mother would like. Eventually, the two settled on yellow daffodils, quite a few dahlias and a tiny pot of lavender. Once Mingi was completely sure this was perfect, he bid Jongho farewell, promising to come visit again with his mother at some point. The prospect of seeing him again made Jongho grin. Another satisfied customer.

The day was officially coming to a close. Jongho sighed the moment the final customer went on their way. It was a rather old lady and he had just spent the last fifteen minutes explaining that the stamen and anther of her plants weren't insects. A rather draining conversation, as you can imagine. After that, the young man was just about ready to close his shop and head home.

He glanced at the clock, smiling at it finally struck six. Closing time. He trotted over to the front door and got ready to flip to the open sign to close. Yet just before he could do so, the door suddenly swung open and Jongho flinched back in surprise. A hand grabbed his waist just before he could fall backwards, lifting his body to meet another.

Light, sparkling brown eyes met with Jongho's dark ones. His hazel hair managed to look unkempt yet too perfect to fix and his expression was soft but his features were sharp, almost prince-like. He was the epitome of beauty. "Are you still open?" Were the first words to leave his soft lips.

Jongho couldn't find the words or the will to say no or so much as shake his head. All he did was slowly escape his grip, carefully gesturing him into the store. The stranger smiled at him then made his way in. Jongho gulped, watching his every movement. He had seen him before. A delivery boy from the restaurant down the road. The two had never spoken but Jongho knew he existed. Yet he yearned for more.

"Do you know what you're looking for?" He inquired in a voice more akin to a whisper rather than his usual upbeat speaking voice. The older brunette turned back to him. Jongho thought he had done something wrong judging by his stare yet the smile returned to his face.

Slowly, he made his way towards the florist, prompting Jongho to step back until he was pressed against one of the displays. "You," He stated simply.

Blush erupted onto Jongho's cheeks, sending him into an internal frenzy of panic. "M-Me? What do you..." He trailed off when the other male picked a lone rose from the table. Oh...he meant the rose. He told Jongho that he would take it and go, filling him with a heavy heart.

With that, Jongho filled out their transaction, trying his best not to let his gaze travel to the lean figure in front of him. How could he be so intimidating while doing practically nothing?

The man had sweater paws for crying out loud.

Jongho then handed him the rose and a receipt. "Have a good evening, sir..." Yet he hadn't left yet. He glanced up to see the man wrapping a tag around the flower, before he placed it back on the counter. Just before Jongho could question what he was doing, he was hit with another smile.

"Good night, flower boy." Was all he said before he leaned in and placed a kiss on the younger's forehead. Just like, he disappeared into the night. Like a strange yet delightful dream Jongho had experienced in the wake of dawn.

Cautiously, he glanced at the rose that was left on the counter.

Call me XXX-XXX-XXXXX Kang Yeosang I would love to get to know you, Flower Boy

[wattpadscapcons]

(1/2) hey, I wanted to say how deeply sorry I am for the ask I sent to that Fel person. I'm not even a regular on your blog, I was browsing through the FNF tag, found your blog, scrolled and saw the post about anon strikes. I thought Fel was genuinely threatening you with the "this is my game" thing, and wanted to say something. but I shouldn't have. I'm not trying to make excuses but I wanted to say it so non of your anons got blamed for it. I shouldn't have escalated like that and I apologised

(2/2) to Fel about what happened, and any distress I caused them, and I promise I won't interact with you or them again. in fact, I'll probably log off to reflect for a bit. so again, I am deeply sorry for what I've done, and I hope you and Fel have a good day.

- Copied from second ask to save space

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Please read all of it before making your own conclusions:

You have a lot of nerve getting involved in a problem with people you don't even know. You had ABSOLUTELY NO BUSINESS getting involved, as it was between me and @thetownofbirds

I never asked for anyone to go and talk to them now did I? I never 'cancelled' them or asked anyone to do so, because that isn't what we do here. Fel was very hurt by what you said, and so was I, and it wasn't even directed towards me.

I have no ill will towards Fel, and I never did. I just wanted them to know that I had rules for a specific reason. That's literally that it was about. I know they got emotional, I know they said some pretty hurtful things. Do I really care anymore? Not really. As you had sent in that ask of yours Fel was already working on an apology to me.

This is why I don't like 'white knights' on the internet, they only cause more harm then good when no one asked them to help. Fel was acting as a 'white knight' themselves, which is what started this altogether. They were thinking of the feelings of my anons, which in a way was sweet, but just came out wrong. I tried my best, in the most respectful way I could write it, to explain how my blog worked, and the amount of work I put in to make sure everyone here feels welcomed and included.

They didn't exactly know that I had warned people on this page many times of what would happen if they overloaded my box while it said "Full" in my bio. I don't blame them for that because they were doing the exact same thing as you were "just scrolling and found the post".

To say the least I can say I am very disappointed in the way you acted. The fact that you couldn't even sign your name or an alias or something to let Fel know that none of my anons were after them was a very poor choice. I know damn well that all of the people in my community are better than that. Or at least I hope so. From what I know everyone that comes to interact with me as been very kind so far, and you tarnished that for hiding yourself.

You didn't do what I asked of you, which disappoints me greatly as well. You are doing the exact same thing that you accuse Fel of doing, hiding from consequences. You apologizing to us as an anon is downright disrespectful in my opinion. I want an apology in person, and Fel deserves that much as well.

I speak for Fel here too, they aren't a bad person. Neither are you, it's just your 'need to help' was unneeded. Since you are showing remorse, I can be lenient and say that if you still want to interact with my page, you can. But don't you dare think that you're fully off the hook for this, me and my anons will remember this.

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To anyone who may be wondering why I am choosing to defend someone who hurt my feelings, it is because I promote kindness, understanding, and peace on this page. Traits that has spread to most of the people that come in often. This is supposed to be a safe space. It is safe for even Fel to come and express their emotions with me, in a somewhat less awkward way I hope next time.

I am not trying to make anyone else that may have reached out bad about doing so. I do not commend anyone that says anything disrespectful to others though. Thank you.

- Treat/Mak

[retphienix]

It's been 6 years :)

On March 30th, 2015 I decided I wanted a gaming side blog. (so we're early, but shush, it's the month for me)

I didn't know what I'd use it for exactly, but I had ideas- something I always have even if most of them only get as far as daydreamin' or writing out before closing them :P

For proof on the lack of direction the blog initially had- the March 30th date is the anniversary of my first post, an in-depth and lengthy review of Dragon Warrior Monsters for the GBC.

If you know the blog then you know "Extremely long and in-depth reviews" aren't the norm around here. As a matter of fact, that first post is the ONLY one I've done!

The closest I've come to ever repeating that would be the (word of the day) Directionless video I put out on Hades to get a grip on the concept of making videos, but that wasn't nearly as much of a 'review' as that first post is.

Tangent, definitely planning on trying my hand at videos some more for the foreseeable future. Probably not gonna use the tagline Full Impressions that I tossed as a whim for the Hades video but yeah- I'm excited to try my hand at a few videos :) tangent over.

It didn't take me long to come up with what I'd like to do for the blog though :)

A few months later I liveblogged a challenge run of FFT where I used only Ramza- a solo run. - Which maybe only happened because I tried a nuzlocke run a year prior on my main account-

(Nuzlocke | FFT challenge run)

Thanks to that haphazard liveblog experiment I started to realize a couple things which became the primary motivators behind this blog.

1) I LOVE sharing experiences. No brainer, I'm sure, but being able to share my experiences, and compare them with others' experiences, and just that mutual sharing is uplifting and feels good to do.

2) Liveblogging is an EXCEPTIONAL motivator to buckle down and play all those games I said I'd play (cue everyone laughing because I'm still way behind and have an immeasurable backlog).

But I mean that, on both respects. I have plenty of motivators toward the blog today, but if I were to be concise it's pretty much "It's easier to beat games if I liveblog them- otherwise I get distracted and play other games" and "I love sharing experiences and thoughts with people about my favorite thing- games."

Since 2015 I've tackled around 70 games as full playthroughs, and an untold ton as one offs or just to ramble about for a bit.

I've had a lot of highlights over the years, and I don't talk much about it as an overall experience so I thought for the anniversary I'd try to do just that. Not everything- I can't say I have photographic memory that would bring all of it up without prompting after all :P But whatever comes to mind as I browse some of my old stuff- as well as some thoughts on what I'd like to see in the future.

It's gonna be a bit self-centric I assume as I type this preamble to it, so let me say outright that this blog wouldn't be half of what it is without all the people who've given it the time of day over the years.

From recommending games they love or appreciate, to comparing thoughts, to offering kind words for analysis I've done over the years, to pointing out when I'm dumb and misread a situation :P- to, yes, even the people who decided "Fuck this guy's ramble" and deleted my captions before reblogging my gifs way back during Hamtaro (Of COURSE I remember that! It's amusing lol).

This is better because of others, because of the interactions and the people I've gotten the chance to chat with or befriend. It's just a liveblog more or less, my own little bit of fun I toss out for myself if for anyone- so seeing others enjoy this or that from the work I put into sharing my experiences or thoughts is always a joy in itself :)

Anyway, onto selfishly rambling about some tidbits of the past :)

Also sorry but no, opted to not shove a ton of photos in, it does have a handful of links to old posts though :P

This'll be disorganized as heck as I'll add to it over time before I feel it's worth posting (or the tumblr post editor becomes a hassle and more or less forces me to).

First~

FFT Solo Ramza Challenge: Considering it was roughly the first thing this blog has done, it's also something that's stuck in my head a lot more clearly than most of the other stuff I've done to be honest lol.

In truth, this is partially because FFT is my favorite game, bar none. But it's also because the whole experience was pretty new to me. Prior to it I had really only done one self-imposed-challenge that wasn't requested by the game in some manner and that was a nuzlocke run of Blue version.

So adding a challenge to my favorite game was a fantastic experience!

Notes I just wanted to say today about that run: If anyone enjoys FFT I honestly recommend giving it a shot for the unique story it lends itself to. I do recommend skipping the rules until after the second battle but that's up to YOU to decide.

My first post on the subject is me complaining about spending 4 hours grinding out the second fight and, despite hyperbole being my natural state, that was NOT hyperbole.

It DID take 60~ restarts to beat. It DID take 4 hours. The reason is that that 2nd battle is RNG as HECK, you HAVE to have Delita do some meaningful actions, you HAVE to have the enemies miss and make poor plays, you damn near HAVE to crit a few instances to save yourself from taking too much damage.

It's a numbers game to the extreme, so I wouldn't fault anyone for 'cheating' and skipping the 2nd fight for the ruleset lol.

The memory that stands out the most for that run is actually isolated in a post in which Ramza (Purrick in this run) talks like a total badass as just ONE DUDE running into a room full of enemies. I just think on that as a great encapsulated view of what it was like. The run started off face grindingly difficult, but because FFT is a game that offers so much freedom to the player it was extremely easy to 'break' the game into making Purrick overpowered as hell.

That's something I love about some tactical RPGs, I love having the ability to play smart so that I can play stupid later on, and breaking the game into making him one shot god is certainly a good payoff for playing smart early on :P

RetQuick: I miss RetQuick, it was primarily a short experiment I did in 2015 where I'd play a game for a short span of time (REALLY short, like 10-20 minutes) and record that for the purpose of making gifs and saying a short piece on what I thought.

It's one of those formats where the purpose was pretty shallow- but had a reason. I wanted to try making some gifs with some tools that existed online, so I made an excuse to do just that.

I also wanted to play a TON of games, usually through emulation on my sister's PSP, and this let me do that.

These two minor goals came together and so I spent a while making RetQuicks which were honestly more fun to make than they had any right to be. I mean the gifs were tedious but the playing? The thought sharing? The end product ocassionally having more appeal than just a photoset? It was fun.

I'm thinking whenever I have trouble picking a game for the blog I'll revisit the format... sorta.

I already reused it for a short stint to show clips I had no plan on expanding into a playthrough, but that died as well as it was too similar to Tidbits posts (another tag I no longer really use).

My thought is to rebrand retquick as something of a tryout for what game comes next. Play a handful of my backlog games for an hour or so each and say some thoughts before saying which one I'll continue as the main game for that period of time.

Old Tag Stuff: One of those things that only sticks to me since I made the decisions but it's always funny for me to look back on my old posts because I was apprehensive as hell toward making my posts visible. The reason my early playthroughs on the My-Tags page are variants of Ret instead of just "The name of the game so people can find this post" is because I felt like a liveblog would just spam the tag to hell-

Something I don't remotely feel bad for doing anymore.

So I avoided getting any sort of spotlight for quite a while on the blog for little reason.

Why Retphienix?: This is just a dumb thought I wanted to share and I'm sure I've said before.

It stands for retro!

Yeah!

Ain't that dumb and also not a real shorthand? lol

I think I have some sort of deer in headlights anxiety towards naming things, I mean do you think I think Full Impressions is a good summation for a video? I don't. But perhaps that's overshadowed by the other inexperiences and anxiety driven decisions that had- doesn't matter.

Retphienix is Retphienix because I sat there in 2015 and thought "Well... what do I name an alt account?"

My main is Redphienix, which yes, is ALSO a terrible name AND is misspelled. But it's that because of sentimental reasons. As a kid I misspelled Redphoenix when making my gamertag (I knew how to spell Phoenix back then as well, I was too excited about xbox live and misspelled it) and it's become something of a sentimental misspelling.

So I wanted to make a mix on that for my game blog, but I had no idea what. In the end I thought "RetroPhienix? I don't know. Retphienix is closer to Redphienix. I'll do that" and so it was done.

And just like how Redphienix is both bad and misspelled but exists because of sentimental reasons- Retphienix has acquired the same 'flavor' in my eye lol.

Aspirations for the blog: I have no immediate ramp up plans or road map or whatever, and in truth I'll be happy if the blog stays just as it is forever- up until tumblr ends- I cry over lost posts- and I reopen it on another platform.

But I do have blurry half-considered daydreams that I'd like to see happen for the blog through some hard work or shifts on my part.

One is something I'm already doing kinda, hence my embarrassing means of bringing it up a lot lately. Videos- I want those. I wanna make some looks back on series people don't talk about that I enjoy, I want to make videos sharing my thoughts on games I beat for the blog (like what full impressions kinda was, but I don't think they'll have a unified name from here on out). Maybe retrospectives, but mostly when I think of making a video tied to retphienix or me in general it's me looking at a game that said something to me, and saying it louder with my own interpretations on it.

You know the kind, videos where they talk about a video game but not the whole thing- just a singular message they really heard loud and clear from it intentionally or not. I dig those and I know I end a lot of games having plenty to say that could be directed into such a format.

We'll see.

And I'm along for the ride on that one as well- currently I'm keeping my eyes on whatever is directly next, which happens to be "I plan on playing Omori, if it clicks as something to talk about I would like to take a shot at that in a video too!"

The other is that I'd like to build a small community. Wouldn't know the first thing on doing that in a modern sense, but just a little online friend group to chat with and play games together. Something that could open up multiplayer and coop experiences being better shared on the blog and would just in general expand my gaming to what it used to be back on the 360 when I had a large group to play with.

Since the 360 era ended I've pretty much closed off- stopped playing competitive games due to lack of interest- and slowed down to playing all games either solo, with randoms (and no mic usually), or with my cousin. It's a rare instance when I play with some good people like @gamesception or another friend of mine, John.

When I diverted from playing competitive games nonstop toward other genres I didn't intend to also cut out all my online gaming buds, it just kinda happened, and I never really put any effort into rectifying that.

So more or less I'd like to one day sit down and work on a discord server, and then buck up and put the leg work in to make some gamin' buds again, but that's such a vague concept anymore.

Sounds all sad and what not but it's more ambivalent, I made decisions that

changed how gaming worked for me after the 360 and this is just where it landed for better and worse- I'd just like to see if I can make it a little better :P

General things I think when I think retphienix: Honestly? I think of how much fun I've had over the years and how thankful I am to have had an outlet that encouraged me to explore more of the medium.

I REALLY love games. I went to college for games, I've written LEAGUES about games, I've played countless games, my childhood was games, my adult life is games- games games games yada yada yada.

So when I think of retphienix I think of how without it I probably wouldn't have explored a lot of the corners of gaming that I have.

I genuinely, and I mean this, might not have sat down and beaten FF7 for myself and would have considered the amount I played as a kid to be enough.

I might not have played Chrono Trigger yet, and I KNOW I wouldn't have played Chrono Cross, and I'm happy as hell to have played both of those. CT was a mind blowing moment for me that showed me just how good an RPG can be, and CC gave me miles to think of in terms of innovating an RPG and how beholden to the narrative a sequel should be (I don't feel CC should have been chrono at all lol).

I DEFINITELY wouldn't have given New Vegas another chance. And I know I'm a sourpuss on NV, I've been that way since I maxed my achievements on the 360 for it, but replaying it really did reveal to me how exceedingly negative I was being.

My memories had become "It's brown and a boring location >:(" and "The factions all suck and it doesn't do anything with the idea of bad factions >:(" and became "It's... a little brown guys, not a big fan of the area" and "They didn't do enough with exploring the gray factions" while adding "Wait. This is pretty damn fun. And 90% of the additions are stellar. And I forgot about Dead Money, my favorite dlc in any game ever with a story that tears at my heart every time I think of it, NV good actually?"

Faxanadu would have remained a cool game I saw on SSFF and not a game I played to the end and fell in love with the aesthetic feel it has!

Also that's a game I cheated like crazy on lol, I would do it again! Save state scumming games meant to be rudely difficult is only fair :P

I probably would have never sat down to play through Windwaker which was such a positive and uplifting experience that I now get the most relaxed and warm feeling in my heart when I see those blue waves.

There's so many experiences I would have left on the table in favor of like... putting more hours into a live service title or something.

Maybe, and no offense to my cousin or anyone else playing it, but maybe I'd be no-lifing World of Warcraft nonstop just stagnating my interest toward the skinner box mechanics of an MMO?

Some offense, actually but lightheartedly lol.

But beyond the entire games I've played for the blog, when I think retphienix I picture all the time making gifs, all those games I played on the PSP for short stints, buying a retron 5 to add to what I could explore and being stoked when they shipped a freebie box of old controllers to go with it, getting angry at the retron for being a Piece Of Shit lol, crying at the end of damn near every game with an emotional story because I'm a big emotional mess of a person who finds investing and crying at a story way too easy thanks to empathy pulls, oh!-

Getting excited whenever I found that I had a "*controversial*" opinion that no one would care about lol. Like the one that comes to mind is that I thoroughly believe that Dragon Ball Z II: Gekishin Freeza!! for the NES is WAY better than the fandom recognized and appreciated sequel/remake Dragon Ball Z: Legend of the Super Saiyan!

How many people do you hear talking about either game, let alone saying the NES game that is roughly half of the SNES remake is the better one :P But I stand by that! The SNES one is a remake of DBZ1 and 2 for the NES but it loses all the charm and some of the fun of the NES ones by being a lackluster SNES game!

lol

I admitted wholeheartedly that this post would be a lit-

little directionless (gotta love the new tumblr poster making me break sentences like that), but to sum things up.

It's been 6 years. It's been an untold amount of work to be honest- liveblogging a game, at least for me, hasn't been the easiest thing. It's a lot of thinking out my thoughts (heh), it's a lot of learning tools to make the capturing process possible, it's a lot of experimenting, it's a lot of writing and editing, and, well, sometimes it's just tough.

I mean I went to school for coding, not video editing, not writing, not image processing, not this or that- but this hobby has introduced a lot of things even if only at a VERY base level (I admit fully to using online alternatives to make gifs for instance).

I learned a lot about, well, a lot of things in order to use this blog to learn more about games- and all that work has become part of why I've loved all 6 years of this blog.

6 years of gaming, work, and you all- and it's been worth the investment :) Here's to many more and all of you whether you stumble upon this post or not- literally anyone who's interacted in these 6 years, thank you, and anyone who hasn't I offer you well wishes as well.

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