#Someday maybe I'll have a drawing tablet :')
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So... what if after the happy ending in season 2 (cause it's totally going to be fine, don't worry) Vi takes Cait to a punk show - and she gets to dress her!
Seems fair since Vi actually became an enforcer.
Caitlyn feels ridiculous. Vi feels other things <3
#caitlyn arcane#caitlyn kiramman#caitvi#vi x caitlyn#violyn#fanart#vi arcane#caitlyn x vi#punk#arcane league of lesbians#Someday maybe I'll have a drawing tablet :')#I know she kind of looks like jinx#just want them to have fun together#the blue turned out lighter on screen
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i am never ever ever going back to tablets without screens holy shit
#i've had art block since loke 2019 and getting an ipad and procreate has like#basically fixed it lol#being able to draw on the screen has changed everything#if i wasn't so busy with irl stuff i'd have already posted#soon i'll have more free time tho#idk if i'll stick with an ipad forever forever maybe someday i'll get an actual screen tablet#but this thing is going to get used until it literally keels over and dies i can tell you that lol
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stuff i never finished and why
hello and good night . i'm just gonna ramble about stuff so yeah
swings
oh man i really loved this drawing . but it was a PAIN IN THE ASS .
i had a bunch of problems with this one . i spent an embarrassing amount of time doing the line . then after i started painting it on Ibis paint i realized that i should've done the line with a textured brush .
then the background . i really couldn't make it look nice even if i tried . i spent so long just trying stuff and searching for references but i just couldn't get it right . the colors and the lightning kept looking weird .
and just when it was looking decent , oh no the file is corrupted !!! and if i wanted it back i would have to go through a speedpaint of a drawing that took me 28 hours ( i actually tried it 😭😭 but it was taking so long and after some time the app crashed )
so , i decided to just give up . i was already fed up with it . maybe some day i'll try to redraw it or something
edit : oh wait a second . this drawing makes no sense without the background . edgar looks like that because there's supposed to be a puddle under scriabin's swing and he's trying to get edgar wet with it
otgw x chapter 20 / 21
i just said i loved the other one but THIS ONE . this one is SO PRETTY and i was so excited to try some new brushes and overall just finish this . excited enough to start painting edgar without even finishing scriabin's line .
i was using a small tablet my friend let me borrow . it was actually so helpful because i could draw on my phone with it !! i used to work on this when i was at school .
then i started having problems with the background . again
then my friend told me that his mom didn't agree with him giving me the tablet and that he should give it to his sister instead so i had to give it back . great . at that point i didn't feel like finishing it so
random reference i found in pinterest
this is like a month old maybe ???? i just thought " oh this would be such a fire pfp " and after finishing the sketch i was like " alright i'll finish this tomorrow " ( i never finished it )
mostly didn't finish it because i didn't have any idea to make it look lifeless and tragic . oh well . maybe i'll try it someday i still think it's cool
papa's cheeseria
this one isn't really unfinished . i just wanted to make a doodle sheet but never drew anything else so now he's just there . alone in a blank space . poor guy .
so yeah . everytime i play papa louie's games i always make the workers look like edgar and scriabin . i thought this default outfit looked pretty cool so so i had to draw it
#there's probably more stuff to add here but i lost a bunch of files when i changed my pc :((#also i have another one i really wanted to add but it's oc related so so nope#i tried so hard with the swings one but after some time i just felt like the drawing expired ?????? somehow#like that just wasn't how i used to draw anymore . so i just gave up#the same thing happened with the otgw x 20 / 21 one and it makes me so SAD#i don't even know how that one popped in my head .#one day i just remembered over the garden wall existed thanks to a friend posting some art about it#and idk i just had to draw them like wirt and greg#anyways back to rambling about my life woohoo#i'm i'm doing so bad rn#but let's pretend i'm not . alright#this year will be tough .#vargas#vargas zarla#scriabin vargas#zarla s#edgar vargas#sunny's rambles#sunny's art
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Hello there!
I've been looking through your page for a while and I LOVE your art! Every piece is so stunning and detailed and beautiful and I don't have enough words to explain how I could stare at each piece for hours.
I'm a traditional artist (as far as skill goes I'd say I'm intermediate) looking to get into digital art and could use some help from a professional. I have no idea where to begin but I really wanna be like you someday!!! If you have any tips or anything I'd appreciate it a lot!
Anon T///T
You literally made me like this, and it's not even an exaggeration
I'm honestly so, so grateful for your words and I'm just speechless that you think SO highly of my arts T^T (even tho I couldn't call myself a professional...) And I want to thank you for telling me this and also for your time observing my drawings! I honestly try to put a lot into it, and I'm just so happy to know people take time to explore it, thank you!
As for your question, you know, it's quite ironic because I also started with traditional art.
And the best advice from me to you, first of all, don't be afraid. I honestly spent a lot of time being scared to start digital because I was always feeling "no, I should be better in traditional, so I can start digital". In fact, it's TWO absolutely different fields. No doubt, they have the same basic ground, however, the approaches that define your creativity flow differ, and that's why I want to advise you the next things, and, if I'm being honest, these words I wish I said to my past self, so I hope it'll help you, at least!
1.Your traditional skills are valuable and irreplaceable, that you gained by your hard work, patience and dedication, and it deserves a lot of appreciation - you went so far, anon, and congratulations on that! But... In digital art, these skills now have a new meaning: some of them, like basic understanding of anatomy, lightning, composition and work with colours, are incredibly useful, but everything else should be now renewed. It doesn't mean that your skills don't have any practical use, but it should be now reflected and fit into the new perspective. Starting from the way you hold your stylus to the way you work with volumes in your art, all of it should be now adjusted to digital, however, I'm telling you all of it not to scare, but only to support you, since when you try to adjust to these new rules, there's always some discomfort, you would compare with the way you drew in traditional and eventually, the result won't be the same as it was in traditional and it could discourage you. But it's absolutely not your problem! Any change requires some time to get used to the new circumstances, with moving from traditional art to digital - all the same! So, my first advice is give yourself time to get used to the new environment and the new challenges. With time it'll get better, no doubt about it!
2. Use ALL the possibilities of the digital software. Flip your canvas, use a lot of different layers, layer modes, use Liquify tool, transformation and move around the selected part of the drawing, and don't think it's "cheating". No! It's all of your new instruments and it's all here to help you.
3. Be prepared that your colour palette will be differently visible from different devices - laptop, phone, tablet - all of it will have slightly different colorization/saturation, so when you play with the colours, please remember to check it sometimes on different gadgets. I was a victim of it, too, and some of my arts have a very bad work with colour volumes, which resulted in a colorization mess...
I think that it's one of the most important things to start with, and especially - don't be afraid, anon! You're much more capable than you think you are, and digital drawing is just another step in your creative journey!
I apologise if this advice was not so helpful and maybe you expected something else, but if you want advice on something more precise, please ask me and I'll do my best to help as much as possible and if I'm competent enough.
Thank you once again for your kind words, I honestly appreciate it so, so much!
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Happy anniversary!
I'm hoping for some advice. I just feel so lost and bored with my life. I'm almost 32. I've had the same job (accountant/payroll specialist for an accounting firm) for almost 10 years. I spend so much of my time just sitting at my desk with no work to do, so I've been watching shows on my phone and coming on this hell-site to pass the time. I feel like life is just so negative and pointless. Everything has some kind of draw-back. I really wish someone could tell me what I'm supposed to be doing in my life. I get bored pretty easily. I need multiple things going at a time. Even watching a tv show, I almost always have my phone, computer or tablet going too, doing something. I've been asking myself the same question for over a decade: what do I want? I still have no freaking clue.
I feel like I'm caught in a circle. I don't have many friends because I don't go out much and when I do go anywhere I feel like I have nothing to contribute to conversations because 90% of my life is watching tv. I've never been on a date. I've been on a couple dating websites, but only ugly (sorry, but it's true) and creepy guys have sent me messages. I don't know. That probably doesn't really tell you anything to give advice on, but I typed it out, so I'll still send it.
Hey there! Fellow single 31 year old here that also works in the finance world! I definitely go through phases my self of why haven’t you accomplished this yet, you should be happier because xyz, etc. This is gonna sound really dumb but getting out of that mindset comes down to two things for me.
First thing is what are my goals? I’m not talking the stereotypical ones of get married, have kids, a house, yada yada. Is there anywhere you want to travel to someday? See a musician in concert? Try a new restaurant? Learn to play an instrument? Bake a cake from scratch? Run a 5K? The big goals are great. But so are the little ones. I have sooo many little goals in life and they give me things to strive for or look forward to a week from now and twenty years from now. Life gets a little bleak when you stop allowing yourself to have those things in mind. The little stuff is something you can work on today and see real results. For me goals give me excitement and sometimes my goal is to binge watch a show over the weekend and there’s nothing wrong with that! And if you feel like watching TV is all you do well you know what? Expand on that! Maybe make that a hobby by trying to do a reaction video on YouTube. Learn how to edit, how to share, etc. That’s just one super simple way of making a new goal from something you already do. Just try to get out of your comfort zone a smidge and good things can happen.
And maybe as you try those little things you’ll find you need more stimulation during the day because a toxic work environment can wreck havoc on your personal life too. Maybe it’s time for a career change even.
The second thing, and this one takes serious effort to change is…
Stop being mean to yourself. You are ONLY 31. You got a loooot of life ahead of you. Life does not happen on a timetable and there is no such thing as being “too late” to do things. Honestly you could be 80 years old and I’d say the same thing. You don’t need a man to make you happy. You can make you happy and if a guy comes along, great, that’s a bonus but you right now are just as valid as every other person out there. People with houses, kids, spouses, the people always bragging about their lives, they don’t have that shit figured out anymore than you or I do. We’re all just going with it. I’m not sure if any of this is helpful or not but I hope maybe something stood out for you! 🧡
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Raising A Tello - Year Five
It's far from unexpected to open Donnie's door and find a screen hidden under the covers after bedtime. Especially after Karai went behind their backs and gave him a tablet during their last Mutation Day. When cornered about it, she dismissed him with a casual, "He's a techie, Leo. Let him have his tech.".
While that is a legitimate observation, it’s not a real reason to offer unlimited tech to a child. Anything Don had was built from his own intelligence and resourcefulness. He'd made a laptop all on his own from books and broken parts. He'd earned the right to use it, and Splinter couldn't very well dictate a device that he'd spent hours crafting by hand.
This is a different story. Leo knew she had Yoshi pretty darn spoiled, but he's trying to teach Donnie the importance of good habits and proper eyesight- which involves not getting him attached to a device that he sneaks to bed every other night to play with under his blanket.
And maybe he would make a device of his own someday, but for now...
"Oh, Dee." He hums ominously as he draws the blanket from over his head, readying himself for a light scolding before he removes the tablet from his possession until they can have a real conversation at breakfast.
When he finds a look that's drenched in guilt as the pillow is roughly dragged down to cover the screen, Leo's big brother senses go on high alert.
"Leo!" He yanks off the earbuds that he must have borrowed from Mikey before Leo swipes the tablet, flicking open the password-free device. "Leo, wait, I-!"
It's a long list of files that seemed vaguely familiar, each one a jumble of letters and numbers.
Leo disconnects the wire, pressing one with a tense frown. He pales as a familiar face pops onto the screen; a voice that had faded from memory ringing brightly through the speakers.
"This is it. Today's the day." A long breath of relief is released as a bright smile reveals a gap. "Project Roboturtle's blueprints are finished and I'm going to start on the body. Thanks to Mikey's creative genius, I have a wide range of new ideas to add to this baby."
He glances at something on the tablet in front of him. "I... Think I'm going to take Leo's advice. Stick with the old AI code..." There's a pause as brown eyes sadden before he looks up. "Maybe I'll be able to do it again. It won't be him, but it can't hurt to try."
Leo stops the video with a shaky hand. An intelligent gaze brimming with life and loss stares back with the renewed inspiration that Leo had helped influence. He'd always felt bad for being part of the reason that they'd lost Metalhead, and when Don had nervously brought the suggestion up years later, Leo had jumped on it.
He helped whenever he could, eager to show all the support that he neglected previously.
Roboturtle lays unfinished in the lab.
"Donnie." He makes sure his voice is steady as he addresses the turtle with a bowed head. "What is this?"
"SD card. It has a bunch of videos." He fiddles with his hands. "I- Found them in the lab."
Them. His heart rate picks up. "How many are there?"
Donnie stares at his hands.
"Donnie." An edge enters his voice. These had been here all this time and none of them knew it. How did they forget that? "I want you to tell me where you found these."
"They're mine." His voice rises a bit as his fingers entwine. "I just wanted to watch them."
"They're not. You know that. That's why you hid them from us." Leo turns off the screen, ignoring the ache deep in his chest. "I can't believe you'd do that."
"I didn't want you to take them." His younger brother pleads as he looks up. "Please, they're mine. I made them! That's me!"
"No." Leo feels along the edge and then presses down. The SD card comes out easily. "I can't let you keep this."
"But it's mine!" Fury and desperation mix in his expression. "You can't do that!"
"Watch me." Leo shoves it in a belt pocket and then holds up the tablet. "And you're losing this too until you show me where the rest of them are."
"That's not fair!"
"It's plenty fair." Leo narrows his eyes. "They don't belong to you."
"They don't belong to you either!"
"Maybe not." His hand tightens around the stupid tablet that he should never have allowed Donnie to have in the first place. "But that doesn't give you the right. I should have known you were too young for this responsibility."
"You're not listening-!"
"We trusted you!" Leo snaps. "We trusted you, Donnie! Don't act like I'm the villain!"
"This is why!" Donnie practically screams, fingers digging into the bed. "I didn't tell you because I knew you'd be mean and now you're being mean and it's not fair because it's mine!"
"They are not!"
"They are!"
"Would you stop-"
"That's me!"
"YOU’RE NOT HIM!"
Donnie flinches and the room light flicks on. "Leo?"
Leo faces the floor, grinding down on his teeth and taking a moment to collect himself. He breathes out and looks up. "Sorry, Mike. Didn't mean to get loud."
"No big." He steps in with a smile that doesn't reach his eyes. "What's going on?"
"Donnie..." Leo glances at him pensively and realizes that he isn't even bothering to face him anymore, body turned away and curled in on itself, facing the wall away from them. Leo's patience snaps. "Nothing. Something to deal with in the morning. Hamato Donnie, I better come back and find you asleep or you'll be permanently kissing this goodbye."
Without another word, Leo storms from the bedroom, refusing to acknowledge the other turtle that they must have woken up as he heads to the kitchen. He shoves the problematic tablet into the highest shelf.
He flings the curtains as he exits, planning to head to the dojo to blow off some steam, only to practically slam into a brother.
Leo steps back in exasperation. "What?"
Raph narrows his gaze. "What'd you do?"
"I didn't do anything," Leo growls as he shoves past. "How about you go interrogate the little liar?"
"Stop it." Raph grabs his arm. Leo refuses to look at him. "What'd he do?"
"Raph-"
"Let's not act like I won't hear the whole story in some big lecture tomorrow." Raph tightens his grip to keep the eldest in place. "When Donnie is red face and yelling, what do you always say?"
"I'm not in the mood-"
"Didn't ask."
"Raphael, would you just-!"
"What do you say?!"
Leo sucks in a deep breath, holds it for a few beats, and then releases it. He continues steadying his breathing until his heart rate settles and the urge to maul something dissipates. The anger is still buzzing under his skin and pressing down on his chest, but it's a bit more manageable.
Raph seems to reach the same conclusion.
He releases his arm. "Great. Okay. Run down. Now."
Leo opens and closes his hands, letting out a final sigh. "Remember those records Don used to take?" Raph frowns in thought. "Talking about his inventions and blueprints and all kinds of other stuff he'd rather talk to a screen about than us?"
"Yeah, 'cause we couldn't understand half of it." Raph huffs with a tinge of amusement. Leo gives him a sharp look as it starts to dawn on him. "Wait, did- did Donnie find those?"
"He's been watching them behind our backs." Leo stops leaning his weight away when he realizes that Raph has every intention of having this conversation. "He won't tell me where the others are. Says they're his."
"They kinda are." Raph shrugs half-heartedly. "He just doesn't remember making them."
"They're not." Leo challenges fiercely. "Whatever happened to 'different turtle, different kid' and 'can't make him Don 'cause he's his own turtle'?"
"And I stand by that 'cause it's true." Raph scowls. "But treatin' him like this Donnie doesn't mean we ignore that he was also Don."
"I'm not ignoring that! It's just-" Leo cuts himself off, trying desperately to put the reality into words. "Don't you hear the way he talks sometimes? Like, when he talks about Don? It's constantly I made or I did or straight-up claiming Don's stuff as his! He didn't do those things! Any of them! He's not in those stories! This wasn't him."
"We know that, but he's five." Raph crosses his arms. "He's still figuring things out. It took us forever. Gonna take him some time too. Most kids don't grow up hearing stories about themselves."
"I know!" Leo throws up his hands. "Of course, I know that!"
"Then what is the big deal?"
"I don't know!"
"Not good enough!" Raph growls. "You can't wake up the entire lair screaming at our little brother for no reason!"
"I was not screaming and there was a good reason! He was going behind our backs!"
"You were! And he's a kid! He's gonna mess up!" Raph jabs a finger at his plastron. "But I've heard you lecture him enough time to know you know that. So what's. Your. Problem?"
"Why do I always have to be the bad guy?"
"You're not always the bad guy, but you are acting like a total jerk!" Raph shoves him. "Now man up and give me a good reason or I'm giving that tablet back!"
"We talked about undermining me-!"
"And we talked about not screaming at Donnie but here you are not taking your own advice!"
"He yelled first!"
"HE'S FIVE!"
"HE-!"
"-IS DON WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!"
Leo snaps his mouth shut, heart pounding against his ribs and adrenaline coursing through his veins. He doesn't know why he's madly struggling against a flight-or-flight instinct, but he plants his feet, forcing himself to stay put.
Raph stares him down. "One day he's gonna look like Don. He's gonna talk like Don. He's gonna invent and ramble and even yell like Don. And you can't be mad at him for that."
"I wasn't-"
"Would you just let me be right for once?!"
Leo looks away.
The hothead scowls. "Look, I get it. Sometimes I can't look at the picture in the dojo 'cause he'll be meditating with you and- and he's right there, but it feels- it feels like- I dunno, like Splinter." Raph gestures uselessly at nothing and then heaves a heavy sigh. "I get it. I hate it. But I can't be mad at him. That's not fair. He's just as confused as me and you."
Leo blinks away the collecting moisture. "He went behind my back."
Raph raises an eye ridge. "You ever think he might have a reason for that? He figured out Splinter all on his own. And you know how we handled it?"
Leo's heart sinks. "Yelled."
"Yeah." Raph lowers his hands.
A beat of silence passes between them.
"...He's a smart kid. He'll figure this out."
"I know."
"Do you?"
Leo swallows a mixture of emotions. "I'm a bad brother."
"You messed up." Raph rebukes. "So fix it."
Leo looks towards the bedrooms and Raph shakes his head. "Tomorrow. You gotta shake yourself off. Let Mikey do damage control." He hesitates and admits. "Don't think the squirt will want to talk to you anyway."
Leo's shoulders slump and Raph lightly hits one, trying to offer some comfort. "Get some sleep."
"Night Raph."
He watches his younger brother head back to the bedrooms and lets out a long sigh, turning back for the kitchen. He swishes the curtain and plops on an island chair. After a long moment of staring blankly at the island, he gets out his t-phone and the SD card.
He flips it between his fingers, stomach churning in an emotion that he can't quite describe.
He puts it in, takes a deep breath, and presses play.
***
It's hard to avoid anyone in a home as small as theirs, so self-seclusion is the only way to successfully never interact with whoever is upsetting them. When Donnie doesn't show up for breakfast or lunch, Leo knows he has to do something before his younger brother's reluctance to conflict drives him to starve himself.
So he orders his younger brother's favorite pizza, swallows his pride, and heads to his bedroom.
"Dee? You hungry?"
His younger brother is curled around the teddy propped in his lap, duck-taped chest mostly covered by a comfy purple t-shirt with a science beaker bubbling over. He doesn't say anything in response to Leo's call, mutely staring through the words in the textbook in front of him.
Leo lets another minute tick by. "...I just want to talk, little brother."
Another beat of silence and then a timid, "No yelling?"
"No yelling." He swears as he enters the premises, sitting down on the bed next to him. He closes the textbook that Donnie clearly isn't reading anyway, and sets the pizza down in its place. Donnie lets the bear sag in order to grab an offered slice.
Leo sighs when he refuses to look up. "Look, Donnie, I shouldn't have... Reacted the way I did last night. It wasn't fair and... Maybe a little mean."
Donnie swallows. "Yeah."
"But- you know I wasn't trying to be mean, right?"
"Yeah."
"You just- you can't take things that aren't yours, especially when you know you might get in trouble for it. It's dishonest and I expect better. You can't be going behind my back like that."
"Okay." Donnie takes another bite.
One-word answers. Leo can tell he's not really listening. Frustration spikes and he feels his fingers tighten on his lap, nails digging into skin, but he allows himself a moment to think before speaking. He breathes in slowly, manually loosening his fingers until they're flat against his thigh, and then lets it out.
He looks back to his younger brother, voice even, "Can you tell me what's on your mind?"
More silence stretches. Leo waits it out.
"I'm mad at you." There's a defeated finality to the bitterness. He bites into the cheesy crust and stares down at his plate. "You won't listen."
Leo hesitates on an answer. He knows that Donnie doesn't have much of a right to be mad. He's the entire reason this situation came to be.
Yeah, Leo scolded him, but only because he disobeyed. And maybe he raised his voice, but it wasn't like Donnie was being receptive! He heard all of his excuses, but that doesn't mean this is excusable. He should know better than this kind of dishonesty. It's unacceptable! What's so hard to understand?
And yet, if he comes down on him for admitting his perspective and feelings, Donnie will only duck further out of this and future hard discussions. How does one get through to a five-year-old that his judgment sucks?
Leo sighs. "I'm sorry."
The statement leaves an off taste on his tongue, but he knows that the best way to reach a disgruntled brother is a bit of humility. "I did more talking over you than I did listening to you last night, didn't I?"
Donnie nods, peeking sideways at him. Leo offers a small smile, "We can try the conversation again, if you want. Different this time. With us both listening."
His younger brother frowns, swallowing down the last of the slice. "I was listening."
"Were you?" Leo tries to hold back the bite. "Kinda seems like you were doing a good amount of talking over me too."
"You were angry 'cause I lied." Donnie states, voice stronger, the plate forgotten. "And it squished your corazon and that hurt."
These are obviously Mikey's words, but Leo lets it slide. Donnie wasn't the only brother who needed an outside perspective. "Donnie, I was upset because those weren't yours."
"They were!" Leo opens and shuts his mouth before he can give in to the knee-jerk reaction to correct him. "That's me. I'm not that big yet; I know- but I'll look like him and talk like him- he's me, just when I get bigger! That's the me I'm gonna be, Leo! I just wanna get him right!"
Leo's eyes widen. "No- no, Donnie, that's not-"
He knew it- he knew this would happen- he knew-
He struggles with the new panic until he can get it settled, trying not to look at the earnest eyes of his younger brother who can't possibly understand how impossible that is.
He tries again, "Donnie, you can't-"
His voice falters and he gives up, pushing the pizza to the side and holding out his arms. His younger brother's brows furrow, but he releases the bear to crawl forward, allowing Leo to scoop him into his lap.
Leo takes a calculated breath to calm his nerves. He feels the shifting of his brother as he gets himself comfortable- the present brother- his baby brother- the brother who might spend his entire life tearing himself apart trying to be someone who can't exist again- and blames the stinging of his eyes on the lack of sleep from the late night.
He waits till Donnie relaxes to mutter, "I don't want you to be him."
"What?" Donnie scans his expression with wide eyes. "But Don-"
"He's gone. And we're okay with that." Leo ignores the way his voice shakes. "He was someone else. He's Donatello, Don, and we loved him. And you're Donnie, our little Dee, and we love you too. We love you for different reasons, because of different things."
Donnie frowns skeptically. Leo hesitates, "Don never liked Space Heroes, you know that?"
"Really?" He gawks. "Not even Dr. Mindstrong?"
"Not even him." Leo vaguely recalls his irritation and disappointment, but it overlaps with clearer memories of laughter and fondness. "But we never miss an episode. And I've loved sharing it with you."
He gives that a moment to sink in, releasing his grip. "Do you think you're going to hate it tomorrow? Or in a year? Wake up and never want to watch it again?"
"No." He sounds almost offended. Leo tilts his head, "Then how can you be the same?"
Donnie stares at his plastron in deep thought. "But... But, he's- we're-"
"You look the same. Maybe you have the same interests. But that doesn't make you the same." Leo urges carefully, trying to make sure the message sticks. "And you don't have to be the same. Never. We love you how you are now. As Donnie."
Donnie leans against him. "Yeah?"
"Yeah." Leo squeezes gently.
"Even if Donnie is a liar?"
He huffs a laugh at the serious tone. "Yeah, well, then we might have a couple lectures lined up in our future, but I'd hope that this will be the last time you feel the need to lie." Leo studies the guilty face. "I don't like lies among family, Dee. You should be able to trust me."
"I didn't want to make you mad," Donnie admits. "I was only gonna watch one, but then- then Don was really interesting and-and smart an- and I just wanted to see more."
"I get that." Leo concedes, because he does, in a way. It had been hard for him to detach from the memories that came with every word of a past brother. "And I know this subject is delicate. And that you're used to it having... Bad results, when brought up... But when I say no, you have to trust that there's a good reason. Even if I seem mean."
His face scrunches. "I don't like when you're mean."
Leo scoffs and sets him back on the bed. "I gathered. Trust me, I'll work on it."
"And I'll work on it for not lying." Donnie decides as he gets to his feet. "And then no one ever has to be not listened to or mad."
"Sounds like a plan." Leo smiles and holds out his fist. Donnie bops it and they both vocalize explosions. His younger brother goes for the plate and Leo gets to his feet. "How about we head to the kitchen? There's more box to finish... If Mikey hasn't already gotten to it."
His youngest brother gasps. "Noooo- my pizza!"
He darts for the door and Leo watches him go, deciding to continue the conversations about the tablet and the rest of the missing cards later. He needs practice with this whole listening thing, but he'll work on it.
"MIKEY NO!"
"IT WASN'T ME!"
"IT'S IN YOUR MOU- RAPH THOSE ARE MINE-"
"I don't see your name!"
"LEOOO! LEO, THEY'RE EATING MY-!"
A loud squeal and laughter cut off the cry for help. Leo rolls his eyes and smiles fondly, switching off the light to head for the kitchen.
Looks like they're going to need another pizza order...
#tw yelling#tw fighting#tmnt 2012#teenage mutant ninja turtles 2012#tmnt 2k12#tmnt fandom#tmnt au#2012 donatello#2012 donnie#donatello 2012#2012 tmnt#donnie 2012#TMNTAU Experimentation#Raising A Tello AU#turtle tots#tot donnie#leo 2012#2012 leo#tmnt raph 2012#raph 2012#2012 raph#2012 teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt fanfiction#tmnt donnie 2012#tmnt 2012 mikey#tmnt 2012 leo#tmnt 2012 donnie#tmnt 2012 raph#2012 michelangelo#tmnt leo 2012
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I'm very happy to be in this fandom. There's the occasional argumentative person, and I often wish for more Shimadacest/YeeHan content in general or for more comments on AO3 or, most especially, more free time to write and create, but I'm very happy to have these characters in my brain inspiring me to create and I'm grateful that there are lots of other people out there who have them in their brains inspiring them to create, too.
If there was anything I could change, I might wish to be more of an artist than a writer just because sometimes I'd prefer my ideas to be in a visual rather than a literary format, but maybe someday I'll get some pencils or a drawing tablet and buckle down and actually learn how to draw...at least well enough for shenanigans to look at least a little sexy.
But other than that, I wouldn't change a thing. I'm glad I discovered Shimadacest and Yeehan. I'm glad they're in my life.
#personal#shimadacest#yeehan#I think I'll label this mature just to whittle down the number of people who might try to turn it into cannon fodder#but it's not mature it's just my thoughts on things lolololololol
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Day 46
I was putting this off all day cause I wanted to draw other thingsss and now I'm very sleepy, but I must keep going so here's a really bad drawing I did with my mouse so I didn't have to pull out the drawing tablet
Tbh, didn't turn out half bad, but the handwriting is atrocious-
Maybe I'll teach myself to get better at drawing with a mouse someday
that would be a fun challenge
#sketch#lazy art#one a day#wolf#canine#I was so lazy I didn't even use my normal program. I found a free website to draw on instead
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Hi! I love your art so much, you are incredibly talented. It’s crazy how much detail and emotion you put into your work.
Was just wondering what tablet do you use to draw? And software? I’m currently using an iPad and procreate but am considering maybe changing to something else.
Also over the years what helped you draw in such detail and come up with your style? I myself have bought a few art anatomy books to help improve my art and to pay closer attention to detail in movement and expressions.
Again, your art is AMAZING! Love it so much xx
Hi, thank you so much!
I'm still using the old wacom bamboo I bought 10 years ago for 80 bucks. It's indestructible and still does its job. If it stops working someday it'll be because it doesn't get drivers updates anymore. When I buy a new one I'll definitely get another pen tablet and most likely stick to wacom.
For software, I've always just been using photoshop but heard good things about clip studio paint too!
What helped me most is honestly just drawing a lot of the same motives and an attitude of aiming for done rather than perfect, if that makes sense? I also had a phase where I enjoyed using classical paintings as reference for bodies and poses, which helped a lot with anatomy, and I pick up on little details I like in other artists' works which then flow into my art too.
Art anatomy books can be great help! Understanding how muscles and limbs will work together is very helpful for learning to develop a pose from scratch.
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QUICK LIFE UPDATE:
So yesterday was a really terrible day for me. I had just gotten fired from my job and I've been moping around all day. I was already in a tight financial situation for the past few weeks (taking out multiple loans and losing more money due to commuting issues) and now I don't know how I'll be able to afford my rent, food, etc. Till I find a new job. I felt really hopeless since finding a new job is already a hurdle in and of itself and I've got bills to pay pretty damn soon.
But I've realized this could be a perfect opportunity to pursue something that only seemed like a pipe dream. Let me explain. . . At my previous jobs, my coworkers and even a few customers would always say how they liked my digital art (because I'd mention that I dabbled in drawing whenever they wanted to get to know me more and my hobbies. Y'know ✨socializing✨) and how I could probably get into making money from my art. . .of course I always doubt myself too harshly even when the compliments and praises come from my family and friends. . . But now, I think I might have a shot at honing in on my skills. Now that I have the time and I still have my art tablet and a brand new computer (that I still have to figure out how to pay off 👀. . . .)
But anyways. . . Earlier I was super depressed and stressed out the whole day. Until I randomly remembered to check my mail and got my package from a Patreon subscription that I'm subscribed to and I'm a huge fan of! The sticker above is a gift from one of my favorite extremely underrated creators. @hasaniwalker . His story of Doris Doodle and Dawn Doodle is super inspiring to me (even tho it's about silly haha cartoon characters 😅) the emotional journey and the protagonists story really resonates with me. . . and for a moment, I kinda correlated Doris' experience of losing her career with my own. The hopelessness, the despair, the fear of what's next. . .
Doris' struggles in some weird way were like my struggles. . . (Or maybe I'm just projecting and over analyzing too much pfffttttt 😅) But I digress. . . As I stared at this silly little sticker, I started contemplating the efforts and dedication he must have put into this passion project. The trials and errors of trying to bring this project up off the ground. The creator of this underrated comic is one of my many artist role models. A real life glimpse of what I could become someday. An artistic storyteller. A visionary hoping to make something meaningful to my audience. A Creator.
So this is my official notice to y'all if anybody is actually caring to read all of this lol I will try my hand at doing ART COMMISSIONS. I've still got a lot of research to do first though, like how to price stuff and all the other technical details. But I've got a lot of support from my loved ones and artist friends to help me on this journey of pursuing my dream job as a artist (even though I might not be good enough right now and it sounds naive and a bit too optimistic. . . I can at least try, right. . .?)
TLDR: LIFE SUCKS AND IM GONNA DO ART COMMISSIONS SOON TO MAKE IT POSSIBLY SUCK LESS???
@dawnanddorisqna @hasanistories @hasaniwalker
Honorable mention to my irl art mentor friend @en1gmat1c for being cool beans 😎
#deadass once i learn to draw furries ITS OVER FOR U BITCHES#my post#art commissions#drawing commisions#art#commissions#doris doodle#dawn doodle#stickers#maybe someday i could have a artist booth at a convention#or maybe even work in the animation studio#who knows#maybe dabble in tattooing???#idk as long as i can keep doing what I love
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1 and/or 15 for the artist ask game?
1. Art programs you have but don't use
i still have FireAlpaca even though i don't use it so much any more - it's nice and lightweight, contains all the basics i might need, and opens very quickly if i happen to want to scrawl something out as fast as possible to keep up with a conversation.
other than that: i have Medibang Paint Pro that i have never once touched, and i still have Drawpile just in case. i've tried hosting drawpiles before but interest has been minimal so now it just sits there lol
i used to have SAI but after i discovered firealpaca i just kind of let it go. served me well for many years but sometimes u put a horse out to pasture
csp pretty much does everything i need it to, so unfortunately everything else gets neglected oops
15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)
almost exclusively at my desk in my bedroom. my tablet screen is here and it's really not very mobile because it has to be plugged into my huge desktop computer tower AND the mains!
maybe someday if i have money to spare i'll fork out for some kinda lap-based tablet i can use on the move or sitting somewhere more comfy, that'd be nice.
i would just draw more on paper but i just don't like the way it feels much any more! "there's no ctrl+Z here and the eraser doesn't work properly" -me, trying to work in pencil/pen
[art meme]
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I have been using the same format for two years and I don't care. Anyway here's my art summary, more thoughts under the cut!!
For starters I have only been doing digital art for like, two years now?? I'm still really new at it and I don't know how to do it properly so it kind of sucks still. And oftentimes I just wanna draw my blorbos so I don't particularly care much abt my art but yeah
Anyways, January and February I just focused on drawing fun dnd things!! I like em. By March though I had a pretty fucking nasty Incident where I lost use of my right arm for about a month and all I had for that month was a doodle I drew WHILE my arm was in pain. Never do that, it sucks
I healed though and by April I finally got to do more stuff again, still focusing on my Blood Hunter Lucien the most. I like that piece. It's on my blog. I barely did much in May and June bc I think that's when I got Consumed by Elden Ring, but I drew my dnd ship arolu (May) and my Tarnished whom I made into a backup character (June). His name is Corpse. Maybe someday I'll upload that picture
July comes and I manage to draw something before my arm goes back to fucked up. So after that piece there, I took it easy. August I barely drew and only had a fun lil piece where Lucien swapped outfits w his party members, and September I BARELY drew bc I had to go on a business trip for the whole month. The one I drew there tho is my RO Hunter, Cynn
By October I wanted to do Halloween pieces but couldn't, but I redesigned Lucien for the in-game winter months!! Took a month to get that outfit down tho. November I was already in Jojo hell so I drew Kakyoin, but I barely drew more bc I once again left on a business trip. So December I have so far only drawn two things, and I got lucky I wanted to draw these past two days at all, with the piece for December being the most recent (I finished it today)
Overall I dunno if my art improved, but I did draw less. I draw when I feel like it though which means sometimes I just Do Not, so I don't mind not drawing more
Anyways that's about it. For reference, here are 2020 and 2021's summaries, just to have them here for myself
I do like how you can see when I got into dnd (March more or less) and who my obsession was (Zelos) here lmao. Anyways this was the year I got my first tablet!! Which I still use today. And therefore the art here just sucks
And this was a very fun year where I drew a LOT and a lot of varied things but do not be fooled I still only drew Lucien ever
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7, 15, 21, 30!
7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate
-ooh I'd have to say ceramics! I did have to take ceramics in college but I was (in my opinion) abysmal at it lol - I'm a strictly 2D medium kind of gal. But I think ceramics are really cool and beautiful and I admire those who work with them! I'll say glassblowing here too cause i've recently been watching a glassblowing competition show and it's just so cool +A+
15. Where do you draw
-on my couch lol - my computer is on a little desk in front of my couch and when I want to draw I pull my tablet onto my lap. I don't really have space in my apartment for a dedicated drawing desk/space - maybe someday tho ;3;
21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyway
-I really like heavily stylized stuff with bold lines and bright colors! I'm trying to think of a good example of what I mean and thatskidding's art is jumping to my mind, I love their stuff a lot.
30. A piece of yours you think is underrated
-aaah this was kind of tough but maybe this one?
I think the composition and posing are pretty good! I think that a lot of my vent art flies under the radar because I think people might be hesitant to "like" vent art (which is something that I feel sometimes too) but for whatever reason a lot of mine turns out really good lol. Also this piece wasn't a straight vent but As You Know my relationship with black blood/Black Room stuff is commmmmplicated so I think that was also part of it. It does fuel a lot of art for better or worse lol, I'm not gonna unpack it here that's not what this question was asking + I not sure I can fully unpack it in words tbh ANYWAY UH YEAH I THINK THE PIECE ITSELF IS COOL;;;;
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1, 7, 8, 9 for the artist asks!
Weirdly Specific Artists Asks
1) Art programs you have but don't use
Clip Studio, bc the license has expired. It came with my tablet and I guess the license has an expiration date because I didn't use it for a while. My regular-use laptop doesn’t have enough space to run it, and when I tried to run it on my other lappy which does have the space, found out some of the features were missing and I couldn't save anything, which is a weird thing to have locked, esp on an art program, so I said f it, and didn't use it again.
Other programs of note as I scroll through my external harddrive:
-Corel Painter (also a freebie when I got with another tablet from years ago, but stopped using it. It was from an era where download discs were still a thing, and of course I've lost the disc, so it's useless to me)
-Gimp
-Autodesk Pixlr (used to be a browser program until it became unusable bc of ads. Didn't work as well on desktop either as it was mainly for editing pictures rather than as an art program, as it were)
-Manga Studio (which still amuses me with it's file name. Just a little too complex for me to use)
-MyPaint (endless canvas for drawing, good for doodles)
7) A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate
Oil painting. Lots of chemicals to work with and it takes forever to dry, but I do appreciate the looks it can give, how soft the blending can be, how naturalistic it can look, but it's a lil intimidating for me
8) What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in
I have thought about doing let's draw videos before, and have footage of me drawing Hakuouki's Saito back in 2016, but since I'm not the talkative type and using music on youtube is kinda a crapshoot, it never saw the light of day. Plus, all I had at the time to record was my PSVita, so the footage isn't of a high quality, so there's that.
Maybe someday I'll edit it properly and throw it out to the winds, but not any time soon.
9) What are your file name conventions
First, files are sorted into monthly folders with the month number so they can be in numerical order, then month name and year. When the year is up, they go into one year folder and then thrown into old stuff.
Next, for actual naming conventions, I'll describe what's going on in the pic if I need to find it again at a later date. Sometimes this is pretty straight forward. like, [Character] [doing thing], with a date attached if I can remember to add it.
Then there are those that I do just to make myself laugh. Including but not limited to:
#meme thingys#ask me things#for those not in the know#the manga studio I have is the ex version#so seeing it's program file name msex never fails to make me giggle#still frickin weird to me that an art program#even at it most basic form#doesn't let you save your work#I'm still ???? about that#that's so dumb and mildly terrifying#not even a save state#the hells#as for file names#I rarely live on the edge like I've seen with other artists that use keymashing for file names#I *cannot* do that#babies argh is a reference to one of the 9eenage mutant ninja turtles movies#I think it was the second one#the secret of the ooze#the second one#where Shredder is messing with the ooze to make his own super soldiers#but he gets giant baby monsters instead#his scream of that has lived rent free in my head for *years*#thick italian sausages is a reference to me not being able to do fingers so they just look like thick sausages#maybe or may not also be a ref to Leonardo's other thick sausage#lol
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its My Blog i answer all the asks if i want
honestly im doing this bc im mildly bored DFLSKJDF and dont have much time before band
1. Art programs you have but don't use
I draw using Procreate 99.9% of the time. But I also have Sketchbook, Pixel Studio, Rough Animator, and FlipaClip on my iPad. On my computer I have Paint Tool SAI and Krita.
2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)
Forward 100%, but left is easier then right.
3. What ideas come from when you were little
Animations, of any kind. I was really into animation memes back when I really was drawing and drew a shit ton, and I got a lot of inspo from that!
4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw
My Avali character, she's so pretty and smol but she is a PAIN to draw...
5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself
On here I only really post stuff with Zee I think ? But I usually post all serious art (so excluding doodles unless I'm really proud of them)
6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)
I don't know, I guess my dreams? Well I don't dream a lot, it's mostly nightmares, but sometimes I'll still get inspo. Also a lot of my older characters were based on my issues, such as self esteem issues, imposters syndrome, depression, etc etc.
7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate
Painting. I sometimes paint, only really for crafts though. It's not really my thing, but god some people are FANTASTIC.
8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in
I've planned lots of little games I wanted to do with my OCs. I wouldn't really say I lost interest in the long term. I'd like to still do them someday, but right now I don't know. But I have a whole game with a mechanic thats based on karma and doing right and wrong..? I'm kinda excited, maybe in the future it will be good!
9. What are your file name conventions
I don't draw on my computer often, but usually its just '(character name)' and then a number, or a quick thing of the scene. But I have most OC art on my computer, properly sorted into files.
10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw
Scarves, which I only really learned drawing Zee (and one fanart I drew of Shin ljkdf). Also earrings if that counts
11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what
Youtube is usually what I listen to. My favorite is horror games.
12. Easiest part of body to draw
Head and hair (not the face lol just the head) and legs. I don't know why SDLKJ
13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing
I used to really admire Roxxie (@ RoxxieKitsune on twitter), and I've kinda fallen out but I still really admire her work and style
14. Any favorite motifs
I don't draw near enough to have one LJKDSF
15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)
Desk, home or at my dorm. Or in class if I'm that bored LDSKJDS but no I can't lay in bed and draw...
16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing
Uh I don't know...? I don't really think I'm good at anything LKJDSF
17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what
Not usually, but sometimes I'll have a snack like chips or some soda/water.
18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken
Ahahaha uh well. I mostly draw digital now, my drawing tablet for my computer has a bent charger but I fixed it enough to work LSDKJ. Also my iPad recently got a crack on the screen (it fell off the music stand at band D: ) and when I took art class last semester I broke a bit of smaller stuff like charcoal and pastels...
19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)
Flowers. I suck at them, but they're fun to draw! And galaxies, I've painted them before and they were fun.
20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy
I kinda enjoy backgrounds? I'm picky and lazy but when I have the motivation I do enjoy it, and trying to make the actual focus of the art fit in the background.
21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways
I love how San Giorgio Maggiore at Dusk by Monet looks. In fact, I recreated it for an art project (we had to use pastels and only 3 colors plus black and white to recreate a famous painting. It was a lot of fun) and I just love the texture on it.
22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any
I stretch all my fingers and wrists. I don't know, I do the same thing before playing clarinet lkdjf
23. Do you use different layer modes
Oh all the god damn time. I LIVE for them. Overlay and Add are some of my favorites, but I tend to use Multiply the most
24. Do your references include stock images
Sometimes. Most of the time its like official photos taken for reference, or drawn references.
25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by
I don't know, I don't think my art has been compared to a lot..?
26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended
I mean once I drew the antagonist of my story and everyone I showed it to simped for them. Which, valid I guess, but damnljkdksl
27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with
Haha no I don't warm up... I don't draw enough anyways for it DSKLJ
28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)
I participated in artfight a few years ago! But thats about it... I think once I develop my art more I'd like to participate in zines
29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically
Honestly I get inspired from everything but I would say edits? Even if they may be seen as 'cringe' sometimes, I love the effort put into them. I've done similar things before and damn is it DIFFICULT, you have to appreciate it.
30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated
A few years ago I drew two pieces for goretober and honestly? I'm still really proud of them. One was for dissection and the other was for burn or something and the second one is really simple but I love it so much.
Weirdly Specific Artist Ask Game
Didn't see a lot of artist ask games, wanted to make a silly one.
(I wrote this while sick out of my mind last year and it's been collecting dust in my drafts, I might as well let it run free) 1. Art programs you have but don't use
2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)
3. What ideas come from when you were little
4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw
5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself
6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)
7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate
8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in
9. What are your file name conventions
10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw
11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what
12. Easiest part of body to draw
13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing
14. Any favorite motifs
15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)
16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing
17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what
18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken
19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)
20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy
21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways
22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any
23. Do you use different layer modes
24. Do your references include stock images
25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by
26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended
27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with
28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)
29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically
30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated
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Cactus and chia?
The ask game!
cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)? Technically drawing?? I mean, it's been a while since I've drawn a decent looking human character (read: 3-4 years ago and it was for a Kingdom Hearts OC) so I gotta relearn how to do that lol. Hopefully I could get a tablet soon so I could dip my toes into digital art...
chia ⇢ what’s an inside joke you have with someone else? Can't think of any from the top of my head... Though my friends are fully aware of my inability to finish my WIPs and will not stop making fun of me for that (and also my angst-fest of a OC backstory; maybe someday I'll talk more about my abandoned OCs lol).
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