#Someday I'mma learn

[visage-of-hell]

Okay SO ... apparently I didn't learn anything from the LAST time I was "oh-so-confident" I was gonna get, like ... hella writing done and then the universe imploded, cuz HERE WE ARE AGAIN! XD Sorry, y'all, offline world continues to be nuts in random intervals and I suck at determining how big or small my windows of writing/arting opportunities are and then I get WAY too confident WAY too soon/late. So THIS time ... we're gonna err on the side of HELLA fuckin' cautious and I'mma just say ... EVERY attempt possible will be made to start getting replies and starters out over the next few days. Cuz apparently when we're negative and/or vague, we get shit done, so ... let's put it to the test again! LOL

[marvelandponder]

15Qs and 15As!

Thanks for the tag, Marvel, this sounds fun! Tagging: @smallcrystals, @digikate813, @eddiescorner, and @bevinbrand if she feels like it :) Don't dox yourself on the 'where were you born' question tho, y'all. We're better than that. Are you named after anyone? Two people! My Uncle Stephen and my Nana (maternal grandmother). My brother was named after my dad's high school best friends

When was the last time you cried? I think the last time was a couple weeks ago watching anime. I love a good cry, I've embraced that that's how I express a lot of emotions

Do you have kids? Nope! I'd like to someday, but all in due time.

What sports do you play/have you played? I'm not a team sports kind of girl anymore, but I played soccer as a kid and really enjoyed that.

Do you use sarcasm? Usually only obvious sarcasm. Bevin and I will often use excessively obvious sarcasm with each other to express love. A little linguistic game we play with each other. We never enjoy spending hours and hours on the phone together. So unlike us! Where would you get that idea?

What is the first thing you notice about people? First thing? I feel like my anxiety is charge of that: looking out for how friendly they seem, what they laugh at (if they do), how approachable they might be. I had pretty bad social anxiety disorder from like 14 - 22ish and human beings tend to do the social thing once or twice.

What is your eye color? Hazel! Looks brown but up close you can see there's a lot of green around my pupils, too.

Scary movies or happy endings? My media diet is heavily skewed towards happy endings but every now and then, nothing satisfies like a good tragedy.

Any talents? People know I like the writing thing! I'm also learning to draw now and picking up guitar again for the first time since before uni!

Where were you born? A hospital about... 30 - 40 minutes away from me? I don't live in that city anymore, and haven't since I was 3, but we stayed in the same general province!

Don't dox yourself, folks!

What are your hobbies? Writing, drawing, guitar, going for bike rides or walks. Geeking out by myself or with friends! I'm also starting to learn some German and pick up a few more cooking skills.

Do you have any pets? Nah, wish I did. My living situation doesn't allow for it. But my dad has a dog who I love so much and get to visit! And my sister has two cats who used to live with us that are excellent cuddlers.

How tall are you? Uhhhhh I think 5'11? To use ancient Tumblr Lingo: Tol, not smol

Favorite subject in school? In Elementary - Middle School, it was English, because reading and writing. In high school, Psychology, Legal Studies, Guitars, History, or Writer's Craft

Dream job? Cool question, I'mma over-complicate it! For my career, it's either one of two things: Creative and/or helping people. Add another axis onto that: Stability vs. freedom. I like stability. It helps me feel happy and builds self-esteem to build stuff up. So since most of the creative jobs I'd be down to try have a lack of stability (and often crappy working conditions), I decided to start with stability and helping people! My current job is actually the goal I set for myself to get into in 5 - 10 years. So. Whoops! Got in early! I can't stay beyond this year (covering a mat leave) but wow has it been good experience. And it's cool shit that I like to think supports people in building something good for themselves.

Not a ton of creativity though, and so what's cool about life is that the time horizon isn't just right now, forever. The job I'm in now is a dream job of mine based on the criteria I set out (stable, treats me right, and helps people), but I have other dream jobs I'd like to also try out!

For example: I'd like to become a published author! And I'd also like to learn storyboarding to maybe try being a storyboards artist someday, or some job in animation.

What I like about the job I have now, too, is that I still have enough energy in and around my job to have a life outside of it. So I can build the creative skills that'll lead to cool stuff and opportunities down the line.

Having multiple dream jobs I think is realistic. And just kinda fun to not only achieve one thing, but look forward to what else I can do!

[mark-the-snark]

made a mushroom hat like a month ago and forgot to post it (I think 🧐)

This is what it looked like before it was finished

And here's concept art 😔

Honestly its not the best. Shouldn't have used cardboard BUT I learned and will do better next time probably. Anyway I'mma go sleeb probably 👌(also I wanted to make a purple Stardew inspired one next but motivation fizzled out so 😩 maybe someday)

[oveliagirlhaditright]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/33251170

Eri had felt somewhat left out, when Shiki had a new group of friends... who clearly all knew some inside thing that she didn't. And Beat ended up telling Eri this thing (though not out of selfish reasons. It was when the world was threatened once more, and they thought they might need her Imagination), and sometimes... all it takes is one voice to make you feel needed and alight your Soul. BeatEri. Oneshot. Post Neo. Way in the future fic. I don't think there are any Neo spoilers here... But still maybe don't read, unless you've finished Neo, just to be safe.

I See You

Eri had had a crush on Beat for a long time.

And she knew how cliché that was: that the pretty, popular girl would have feelings for such a handsome man (though he was a skater boy, and she had never said "see you later, boy").

But what could she say? There had just been something endearing about him that Eri could easily see, when Shiki would go from hanging out with her, to spending time with him. Especially after the guy Shiki had loved, Neku, had vanished, and it had seemed like Beat was one of the few people who could who make Shiki feel better in the slightest after that—and Eri was eternally grateful to him for that.

And the times she'd seen him with his little sister, Rhyme, also scored big points for Beat in Eri's book, since anyone who cared about their sibling was someone who should be cherished, in her eyes. Eri had lost a little brother when she was young, and she still wasn't over it, thank you very much. She probably never would be.

But more than anything, Eri appreciated that Beat actually explained the Reapers' Game stuff to her, so she wouldn't be left out...

Though he probably shouldn't have, because Joshua--who sometimes still gave her the chills—had looked like he was going to kill her or Beat for that when he had... but since nothing had happened since then, Eri now saw it as a blessing that she was no longer out of the loop.

And to Beat's credit... he hadn't told her about the Game willy-nilly or selfishly, but when Shibuya was threatened a third time, she guessed, and everyone had decided they could use all the help they could get. Apparently, they'd thought about bringing Eri into the UG, in thinking her Imagination must be pretty high, for being the lead designer for Gatto Nero.

That hadn't happened, in the end. But when Eri had heard her city—and possibly other regions beyond it—was in danger, she'd been willing to kill herself to end up in the Game, to help the Players and Game Masters out.

But for now, she just carried a badge on her in case she was finally needed, if destruction was threatened a fourth time for Shibuya... since it was sadly trendy at this point?

Anyway, it was for all of these reasons that Eri liked Beat... but she didn't think he'd ever feel the same way about her. He was a living legend as much as Shiki, Neku, Rindo, Joshua, and the Wicked Twisters of old and new were. And who was she in comparison to that?

But the reason Eri had started thinking about Beat right now, was because she was a normal maiden who wanted a mate and those sorts of things, she supposed.

...But also, because she saw Jupiter of the Monkey was having a contest right now, where you were paired up with someone, to see which team could come up with the best new pin design... and thinking of the Reapers' Game—the Reapers' Game of old, that she had never been a part of; now they used badges instead of the old pins, apparently—Eri found that she really wanted to do this. With Beat in particular. But she doubted that he would ever be game for it. Or that any of the Hachiko Group, Wicked Twisters, or Blindfold would be, really.

But it was just as she was having that self-deprecating thought, that Beat just happened to come from Tokyu Hands to Cat Street, and saw her there. And Eri couldn't help beaming the moment that he did approach her.

"Yo-yickity-yo-yo-yo, Eri. What's crackin'? You thinkin' about buyin' some pins here? Man, does the thought of ‘em bring back memories."

"Actually, Beat," Eri corrected, a smile even wider on her face somehow, as she crept closer to him, "I'm thinking of entering the contest here, to try and make a winning design for a pin. I make clothes... but I've never tried my hand at this sort of art before. I think it might be a fun hobby. Wanna join me?"

And it took all that Eri had within her, not to stand on her tiptoes and kiss Beat, as a sort of drunk on happiness feeling overtook her. Perhaps someday: if she was fortunate to win all the gods above’s favor, in order to make him love her, but not now…

"Yo! That right there sounds like all kindsa fun. I'm ona break from the Olympics, so I could dig doin' tha' right now. Just give me the detes on where's you want ta meet up and I'll be there!"

And Eri did just that, thinking that maybe fortune was perhaps smiling on her again, after all.

And she and Beat began the vigorous task of making a pink pin—something that Beat had not been on board with at all at first, but eventually Eri convinced him of it with a neat black background that looked like space—that was somewhat reminiscent of the ones you'd get in America's "Hot Topic", before they stopped selling them, but that was also completely original. Eri knew, because she’d lived in America for a few years, before moving back to Japan and meeting Shiki…

When Beat and Eri were done, they had what looked like a pink sun setting across the solar system—looking striking as it did so--and Eri couldn’t have been more pleased with it if she could try. And she could tell that Beat felt the same way, too.

"I don't care if we win or not, yo. This pin is sick, and I'mma wear it when I go back to work, and maybe see if I can make pins in again. But why'd ya wanna make it so badly, Eri?"

And, damnit. Beat was giving Eri the puppy dog pout—in her room no less—and so she felt all her walls crumbling down, and her mouth moving to tell him the truth, despite itself.

"...I don't know. I guess because it represents something I feel I can never reach with you guys: Your first Reapers' Games. But Beat... you tried to include me in all that… so I guess I can touch it a bit more through you, than I could have otherwise. And I- I like you for that. So- so thank you."

And Eri couldn't believe that she'd just admitted that she liked Beat, so out of the blue, when she was certain he wouldn't feel the same way. And so matter-of-factly, too.

But fortunately, he seemed to realize what she meant right away, Eri guessed (that she liked-liked him, to sound like a fourteen-year-old again, and not just as a friend), as he suddenly knelt in front of her and held her hands in his own. Was he preparing to just soften the blow, or-

"Eri, you're on our level. Ai'ight? Don't even think otherwise! You was ready to throw down wit us. And might have to in the future, sadly… Oy. And if it weren't for you, Shiki would have done no designin', and might not have had her Mr. Mew psych to save Phones in the first Game. And then we all woulda been wrecked. So, be like Shiki and 'ppreciate yourself now, yo. Or I'll have to do it all for you...

"And, to be frank, I wouldn' mind havin' ta learn ta do that. Jus' give me a lil’ time here, ta be able to recipr'cate your feelings."

And Eri laughed. And then pulled away from Beat some, and put her hand over her heart like a girl getting everything she ever could have asked for from a marriage proposal from a worthy man. To her, it was as good as that.

And Eri leaned down and kissed Beat's forehead.

It was the nice start of something new. And something sweet, since they didn't win the pin contest, but Eri wouldn't complain. It was her first rodeo with that kind of thing, after all.

And Beat wearing it as he snowboarded on TV was really all she'd ever need.

Author’s Note: I wrote this to try and figure out Eri’s character again—because I used to write her a little, back in the day—for another fic, maybe. And because I wanted to write Beat.

So, the two things combined, and we have Beat/Eri… which I used to ship, though I don’t know if I do anymore.

So, I wrote this for my younger self, so to speak… Especially since I deleted the one Beat/Eri fic I wrote, back in the day. And this one’s much better.

The Hot Topic line, was because I was trying to show that pins had really become unpopular in recent years! Like, they were once all the rage there, as well. But now they weren’t. But now it sort of seems like an unnecessary line, meh.

And Beat swapped his skateboard for a snowboard:)

[docbrownstudies]

I don't know what to say, really. You meet so many mean people you forget sweet people like yourself exist sometimes.. Thank you for accepting my apology and for still welcoming me in here.. Girl, you're so awesome. I aspire to be half what you are someday. I really wish something more could come out of the mess I call my life or else it'd just a waste of time, space and oxygen tbh..

Your space is b e a u t i f u l. I know we don't know each other but I mean it when I say I'm so happy for you and so proud of you for the fact that you created all these for yourself and by yourself. You're amazing💜💜💜💜💜. 

Thank you wow! One day I'mma flee this shit hole and make myself a tiny safe space of my own and if you'd allow me, I'd come scream about it all to you on here. I just need a way out of here and then boom, gonna work my heart off till the day I die to show the universe how much I appreciate the chance it offered me.

Yeah, I know.. That bitch is one fabulous country but its people make it a hellhole. I wish I could help but I'm a shit citizen idk.. I'm like in this place where I'm proud but I don't give a fuck to learn about former Egypt because it breaks my heart that I get this version when one so much greater used to exist, do you feel me? One advice tho would be to never trust a book/reference written by an Egyptian or an Arab without looking up what foreigners had to say about it. No racism their, just that they sometimes fabricate shit to fit their religious beliefs. (Ya know like calling an obviously gay couple 'brothers' and translating hieroglyphs to fit their pov because Islam is against homosexuality). So that's that.. But also good luck and from my spot here in another continent I just wanna say you're rocking it💜💜.

That was so long I'm sorry you're probably gonna block my ass but here's my love and support anyways💜💜. Hope your day is as cool as you! 

my friend, you are so kind and so sweet! there’s absolutely no way i’d block someone like you ♡ promise! you’re so nice, and i truly appreciate all the kind words and enthusiasm. YOU’RE amazing.

i know, as an american, i have a ton of ignorance and naïveté when it comes to the political and social issues happening in other countries, especially in current day egypt — i just want to say that i truly hope you remain safe there, and that things improve around you. i could never understand what you see and experience on a daily basis, but i sympathize greatly and hope things improve soon, and safely. i have a huge amount of respect for you, and i genuinely wish you nothing but the best.

your point about books — i’ll make sure to keep that in mind! that’s very helpful. i’ve been trying to find things written by people like salima ikram and zahi hawass, but i’m always looking for other points of view! again, i’m SUCH an amateur about the subject 😂 but i’m learning! it’s so much fun to learn about history like this.

feel free to keep in contact with me! message me whenever you want or whenever you need! please run into my inbox and scream happy things or sad things or anything! ♡ i’m here!

all the love and warmth in the world to you, my friend ♡ your messages have made my day so much brighter!

[lloftvlly]

— Mystic Messenger Characters as Lil Peep song lyrics

Is anyone gonna relate to this post.? uhm.. probably not, but here it is anyway. cos I kept thinking of this and you know i had to do it. And maybe other ppl who enjoy peeps music and (or just ) mysme will get something out of this... 

Yoosung: Crybaby  [ ♪ ]

She said I'm a crybaby

Girl, you drive me crazy

Geeking on a Friday

I can never sleep right

I don’t deserve you, I know I’m the worst, boo

But I can be cool too

I wanna die too, we all want to die too

I wanna hide you, How did I find you?  

Oh it's a lonely world, I know

I'm a lonely boy she made a lonely boy 

Jumin: Save that shit  [ ♪ ]

Nothin' like them other motherfuckers, I can make you rich

I can make you this, baby, I can make you that

I can take you there, but baby, you won't make it back

Growing sick of this and I don't wanna make you sad

Do I make you scared? Baby, won't you take me back?

Don't tell me you can save that shit

All she want is payback for the way I always play that shit

Down another lonely road, I go, Just another lonely road,

I just wanna know, I just gotta know, 

Do you wanna go? Baby, we could go 

Jaehee: The Brightside  [ ♪ ]

I know that you want me, I know that I want you

The memories haunt me, I know that they haunt you too

Baby, it's alright, you'll be fine

It gets cold at night when you're alone outside, But it's fine, I'll be fine

Pay me no mind, girl, pay me no mind

Just look at the Brightside

Help me find a way to pass the time

Everybody telling me not to, but I'm gonna try 

Watching the sunrise by my side, We gotta look at the Brightside

Zen / Hyun Ryu : Right Here  [ ♪ ]

Baby, how you doing? I know you're not doing the best, but I'm here, I'll always be here

Tell me if you need me and call me if you feel alone 'cause I'm here, I'm always right here 

I don't give a fuck, I love who I love and girl you're that one, so I'll wait right here 

Baby, I'm leaving, I'm not taking anything but you

Picture us escaping, in the background of the photo i see you     

I remember hearts sewn together with twine 

And if you doubt me that's just fine

And when it comes clear I will be waiting right here,

Just tell me if you need me and I will meet you right there 

707 / Luciel / Saeyoung: Star shopping  [ ♪ ]

Wait right here, I'll be back in the morning

I know that I'm not that important to you

But to me, girl, you're so much more than gorgeous ..so much more than perfect

Right now I know that I'm not really worth it If you give me time, I can work on it

Losin' your patience, and, girl, I don't blame you

The Earth's in rotation, you're waitin' for me

Fuck 'em though, I did this all by myself, matter fact, I ain't never ask no one for help

And that's why I don't pick up my phone when it rings

That's why she text me and tell me she love me 

She know that someday I'll be over the sea

I think it's funny, she opens up to me, gets comfortable with me

Once I got it comin', I love her, she love me , I know that I'm nothing like someone the family want me to be

If I find a way, would you walk it with me?

This music's the only thing keepin' the peace when I'm fallin' to pieces

Look at the sky tonight, all of the stars have a reason

A reason to shine, a reason like mine and I'm fallin' to pieces 

V / Jihyun Kim : Awful things  [ ♪ ]

Bother me, tell me awful things

You know I love it when you do that, helps me get through this without you

It’s just the two of us tonight.

Burn me down 'til I'm nothin' but memories

I get it, girl, I'm not the one

Don't you turn your back on me

Let your teardrops fall on me

Heart racing whenever I'm near you

Carry me away, carry me away

Burn me down 'til there's nothing left

I will scream your name with my last breath 

Dark Saeran: Kiss  [ ♪ ]

Spoken words are meant to last, but the picture faded fast

I'll cry for another eyesore and think about our first kiss  

Nobody knows the me that you do

Gonna take some getting used to

But I got shit I put you through, It ain't right

I'm a creep, I'm a freak, that's why nobody's friends with me

I used to wait in my room for a single sign from you

Said I hate you cause I knew that you would never love me too 

And that's real shit, we keep it real, bitch

I'm' a goth boy

You a bad one, we should have fun

I'm a bad boy, we ain't gonna last long

I can make you, I can break you, Baby, think of all the places I can take you

I'ma die young, baby, I'ma get killed

One more chance, baby, give me a kiss

You got one more chance at a night like this 

Ray: The way I see things [ ♪ ]

I got a feeling that I'm not gonna be here for next year

So let's laugh a little before I'm gone

I've been dreaming of this shit for a while now, got me high now

She doesn't love me but she's singing my song

I don't feel much pain

Got a knife in my back and a bullet in my brain

I'm clinically insane,  walking home alone I see faces in the rain

Where did all the time go?

Spend it gettin' high while I hide

I can show you everything I learned while you were away from me

Running away from me but I'm not giving up on you

Take her away from me but I'm not giving up on you no

It's just the way I be. It's just the way I see things 

Rika: Haunt U [ ♪ ]

I could do anything I want to

When I die, I'mma haunt you.

I could live forever if I want to, I could stop time

Nothing worse than losing a friend, and the feeling you get when everybody that you love ain't around

Satan letting me down.

I just wanna help you see, you should run away from me

Baby I'm a drug, and I don't wanna hurt you

No, I'm not gonna hurt you girl,not at all

I ain't gonna set you free, all you're gonna get from me: little bit a love and a little virtue.

If I hurt you, I'll end it all.

[bestnoncannonship]

Alright..I'mma get in on this VC fancasting debate.

As a director, I often have a LOT of opinions on people's casting decisions. A LOT. (Someday, I'll write a novella on Ken Brannaugh's casting.) So as I see a LOT of fancasts casts based on how people look and few based on whether or not the actor can likely handle the role, I'mma throw my hat in the ring. (Warning....the more I write the less technical and more shitposty this is gonna get!) So here you go! The Vampire Chronicles series if I got to cast and direct it!!

The Brat Prince:

Most importantly....we gotta get us a Lestat. And the choice is clear:

Evan Williams: this fabulous shitposting aesthetic trash is as close to the one and only Vampire Lestat as we are gonna get on this plane of existance. He is all charm and quite light in his loafers and a complete mess.......but most importantly, he has proven beyond a shadow of a doubt that he is able to play a character that does inexplicable and morally reprehensible things while still being read as highly sympathetic, likable, and even a hero. That's what I worry about most with Lestat. He really is a very terrible person who doesn't learn or face too many consequences. And he has to be very very very sympathetic. Not just "Oh I Stan that villain" likeable.....but a true hero. And it takes a very. Special. Actor. To pull that shit off. And this is it. This is the guy. He was hired to play an Iago-esque gay villain type in Versailles, STOLE THE SHOW OUT FROM UNDER GEORGE BLAGDEN (no mean feat as Blaggy was giving a hell of a performance) and made his character a beloved icon. Yeah....I trust him to lead a show. I trust him to be Lestat.

Nicholas L'enfant:

Okay not gonna lie I struggled with this one. There was someone else I wanted to see in this role....but I decided he was better employed elsewhere. And this is who I ended up with:

Yep. George Blagden. See...in the grand scheme of things Nikki is a very low-screentime role that has a LOT of impact on the story. And who better to trust with low screentime that the god of grantaires, who took a few small shots and lines and GAVE US A FULLY CHARACTERIZED GRANTAIRE in the Les Mis film. He is very sweet faced, and easy to like, can make being an on screen depressive fascinating instead of dull and has proven time and time again that he is the master of the complete mental breakdown, complete with horrifying but tragic crazy eyes. Also.....he bears a strong enough physical resembles to.....

Louis!!!!:

Our beautiful depressed dark angel with a vampire eating disorder who has no self esteem and is still in love with his abuser needs nuance. He needs soul. And he needs a sweet and delicate beauty. And so:

Alexaner Vlahos!!! The soulful eyes!! The delicate bone structure!!! The slight tones of simmering resentment!!! The ability to play a character that could have become VERY one note VERY quickly with goregeous amounts of nuance and sympathy!!! Vlavla has quite the varied resume. Mordred. Phillipe. Romeo. Captain Hook. To put it lightly he has a LOT of range and the one through line is he is NEVER boring. He plays a lot of roles that could very quickly become boring and one note (Romeo? Captian snooze right there!). But every second he's on screen or stage he is so completely alive in whatever he is feeling. I TRUST him to keep the entirety of Louis's brooding nuanced and fascinating for an audience and to physically and facially convey Louis's very important internal monologue that we will not be able to hear because this version is going to be from Lestat's point of veiw. I toggled with the idea of making him Nikki for a while....but ended up with Louis for 2 reasons. 1) he doesn't need the scripted plot drama Nikki has written in to make a compelling character and 2) he and Williams share such beautiful chemistry. Whenever they're together, even off screen, their focus shifts so that they orbit each other like bianary stars and any director can see that that's something that should be explored and exploited to add demension to the Louis/Lestat relationship and justify why they keep coming back to each other.

(And so ends the Men of Versailles segment of my fancast. So sue me. There's some incredible actors there.)

Let's return with

Gabrielle De Lioncourt:

The incomparable Alex Kingston, lately of River Song fame, though I met her as Elizabeth Corday, and Doctor Corday is driving this casting choice. I wanted an actor who was an appropriate age to play Williams's mother cause we don't fuck with that women are "old" at 30 shit in this house. And she can carry off the kind of "I will not hesitate to kill a man" BDE that Gabrielle requires without trying, but she's also proven herself comfortable and competent with the level of CAMP that VC requires. I can see her easily showing up on set for a few scattered episodes, slipping easily into the verse, and nailing the kind of woman who can put Lestat in his place then run back off to the jungle. Also....that De Lioncourt hair!!!!!

Marius "Daddy" Romanus:

Yep. This fuck. I can hear it now.... "Why isn't he lessssaaaat??? He's so blonde and prettttyyyyy????" Well....mainly because....I ain't sure this lil fuck can run a show as a very despicable but likeable hero yet. He's admirable. A good actor. A great villain. But not a hero and not heroically likeable. Personally, I'm of the opinion that in 10 or 15 years he will have grown into the ability to play something as complex as Lestat with likability....but for now.....DAMN is he a creepy imperial thing. He's got that "My house, my rules" vibe down. He's preditory. He's distinguished. He is Marius. And he's go the best Roman coin profile I've ever seen.

Armand:

N/A

Ok. Controversial decision....but I want to see a complete unknown as Armand. Send casting out to cast a wide net, scour the world for the Botticelli death machine. But definitely don't pull him from the pool of already famous younguns. Because your Armand needs to be deep. Skilled. And primarily UNSPOILED by the school of child acting that is forced upon child actors. (I was a commercial kid and child stage actor. It was terrible.) Go out and get some twinky fresh faced raw talent so you get depth.

Claudia:

N/A

Big old ditto on what I said above about child actors. A nice doe eyed unknown, preferably without a stage mom.

AKASHA:

Yikes. So many amazing choices!!! How do you follow Aliyah??

With literal human perfection Gina Torres of course!!! Again....I wanted to go with an older woman. Someone who would be seen as an authority to all vampires. Someone god damnned goregeous. And someone who I find intimidating. Also, since I'm skewing a little tall with this cast (at least as TV actors go) I wanted someone who comfortably stands among and above most of them! She's a seasond tested actor, and certified badass. And we know she can steal a scene. Besides if she can look regal as a queen in that weirdass dress they gave her in the serenity movie she can pull off whatever monstrosity costumes comes up with to follow the Aliyah getup.

Khayman:

Don't @ me but....I have a LOT of feelings about Khayman. I love his particularly breed of immortal insanity. I love the way immortality drove him mad into a childlike enjoyment and curiosity. And I knew exactly who has to be casted to play that combination of intimidating ancient and innocent curiosity:

This is Howard Charles. He is capable of playing both an intimidating giant and a sweet soulful cinnamon roll at the same time. I cannot sing this man's praises enough. Am I scared of him? Do I want to hug him? Both? He's also one of the best scene SHARERS I've seen on screen in a long time and that's very important in a supporting role.

Maharet:

Just because Anne Rice doesn't know shit about Mesopotamia doesn't mean we have to follow her in that. I wanted to pull from Middle Eastern or Indian populations for her to best reflect the look of the region in a time that's roughly in line with the pre-dynastic Egyptian mish-mosh associated with Akasha.

So I'm gunning for Indira Varma. When I say this woman has timeless beauty.....I mean timeless. She's as prehistorically hot as she is today. And she's such a strong actress, I want to give her a role that isn't 50% sex scenes. She's got both the warmth and the commanding strength to play Maharet. I would ideally like to get a dancer to play Mekare....someone who can handle the physical interp of the role. Probably an Indian dancer to match Indira Varma.

David Talbot:

In the newly declared tradition of Doctors playing Talbot:

This is the only current Gif I could find of Sylvester McCoy. Known to many as the Seventh Doctor. And to many as Ratagast the Brown. He embodies that sort of huffy aging britishness that David projects, but has the over the top personality that can give us those hints of the vitality of David's youth. Basically I can see this man telling stories about hunting tigers in India. Then when he gets the hot young Raglan James Body:

Luke Pasqualino. Swarthy young troublemaker. But for all the youthful good looks, he proved that he was able to play grace and gravitas as D'artagnion in the final season of the BBC Musketeers. I'd love to give him a chance to explore that deeper part. I also trust his ability to match the energy of a cast, which he did repeatedly on musketeers, and portray both the impulsive self aggrandizing Lestat in the Raglan James body and to play the DarkAU Musketeer type that is Raglan James himself.

That's literally all the Gifs I can put in a post. I know I skipped Daniel......but that's because I have surprisingly few opinions on Daniel.......he's very much a vanilla audience connecting character. I'd almost like to see an unknown in that role....just to see what we a new face could make.

And thus ends my casting of the Vampire Chronicles!!

[starspatter]

I'mma be that person and ask you ALL THE QUESTIONS

WELL OKAY THEN1. Show a wip/sketch of something you’ve been recently working on.

I played through Nier Automata for the first time recently, and really wanted to do a Kagepro crossover given the whole “blindfold aesthetic”.  Thought about making it Ayano and Shintaro, but figured the KanoKido dynamic fits 2B/9S better.  I just need to get around to actually adding Kano in lol.

2. (If possible) show some process pieces/video/gif of [finished art piece].

Finished version is here.

3. How long does a piece take you to finish on average?

I’m really slow, so just the lineart could take me at least a day, and then coloring could take me days/weeks/months/years.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

4. Do you prefer digital or traditional drawing?

I’m growing more accustomed to digital since it’s easier for me to actually finish pieces, though I do miss traditional art.  (I just wish I knew how to sketch without smudging so they don’t look fugly when scanned.)

5. What are your drawing tools?

Photoshop 8.0 mostly, or else a trusty pencil and paper.

6. What’s your favourite thing to draw?

Answered here.

7. What do you like in your art?

See above.

8. Besides drawing tools, what is always near you when you draw?

Uh… My desk is a mess so just general piles of paper and stuff. XP

9. Which art piece are you really proud of? Why?

In terms of recent stuff, the above meido KanColle/FGO pic I finally finished for a friend, since it was my first commission even though it took me two years to complete. >.>;

10. What do you feel when you look back to your art from 1 and 2 years ago

I think I’ve definitely improved stylistically, though I miss when I had more time and motivation to actually try and make detailed backgrounds like here and here.

11. What would you teach/what tips would you give your younger artist self?

Don’t fuss so much over details.  It’s more satisfying to get an idea down so you can at least share it rather than having it sit as an unfinished sketch forever.

12. Which artists inspired and/or influenced you? (Optional bonus: Make a map/collab of some of their art.)

Arina Tanemura (author of Full Moon wo Sagashite), Noizi Ito (The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya novel artist), Shidu/Sidu (main Kagepro PV artist)

13. Are there some colors you prefer using over others?

Not really?  I rarely even get to the coloring stage anyway lol.

14. What have you wanted to draw for a long time but didn’t come around to?

Oh so many things…  One of the biggest projects I had planned was a Kagepro crossover with the Carnival Phantasm ED.  I have all the characters mapped out in my head, it’s just a matter of finding time to do it all since I’m so slow. OTL I only ever got as far as a couple preview sketches (although I also cheated by making a vid using the daze MV).  I am starting to get to the point where I think I could maybe handle it on my own, though I also think it’d be cool if I could make it a collab.  If the series ever does end someday, I’d like to tribute it as a love letter/send-off to the entire franchise, although who knows if that will ever actually happen ha.  Kagepro will never die damnit.

15. Pastel, saturated or desaturated colors?

Pastels are always nice

16. What is one of the best tips you’ve learned?

Smudge tool is great for shading and I wish I’d known about it earlier.  (Still wish there were a better way to color in PS in general though.  Honestly I just try to stick to solid shading when I can now. *shot*)

17. Why do you draw? What made you start drawing?

I draw now to express love for my favorite characters.  I always liked art as a kid, but for a long time I stopped drawing, and Kagepro was what inspired me to pick it back up again.  I would tell myself I was doing it for the characters themselves and it didn’t matter what other people thought, which helped me to not get discouraged.

18. (How much) do you use references?

All the time.  I’m really bad at drawing without a reference. ^^;

19. Draw your favourite character from [fandom] in your clothes right now.Put it in a separate post here. =)

20. What do you do when you have an art block?

Usually reblog drawing memes for random inspiration (although I’m so behind on requests I really shouldn’t x.X).

[wordofchen-blog]

Pirate Disciples

I used to have a dream; I was sailing the sea, ain't nobody in seven could have fucked with me. But the ship soon crashed and the dream was a spell, broken early right before my life turned into hell. And I struggled through the madness, the blackness, the sadness; Depression is another cover word for the pathless! But then I saw through the fog and came to the right, learned to walk on my own two feet taking flight. Now my star soars high through the journey is long, the path might be treacherous but now I am strong. I may be a pauper not a prince but I'll say, if you walk with me I'mma be a King someday! So are you with me?

[painterofthe-sun]

✎ (i like this meme, i'mma do it too!)

Send “✎” and I will write 10 headcanons about our muses interacting

Hello, I would like you to consider Momotaro needing to get somewhere quickly and he learns both the joys and slight fears of using Amaterasu as a ride. On one hand, quick and easy. On the other, she can often run faster than you think and that’s terrifying.

Meeting Ammy again in her true form. Momo is gonna quickly learn about the mothering type of person, because Ammy is that to a T.

Don’t worry, she’s also the Cool Mom™; whether it comes to fighting or treating him to some yummy food!

Ammy introducing Momotaro to feed bags. As good as those dangos are, they can’t sway everyone...! By the end of that day, he’s gonna have a lot of new friends of interesting and varied species.

Introducing Momo to Sakuya. Look, it’s already occurred to us, so one day it’s gonna occur to Ammy....!! The resemblance in certain places is uncanny.

(Wasn’t there the idea of an AU or smthn about this Momo being related to Sakuya somehow maybe?? That would be amazing to do someday, omg. Issun’s gonna have a LOT to say on that, too!)

Ammy sometimes traveling with Momo and Inumi! Issun isn’t the best company, but Ammy sure is. Especially when said wolf can basically either summon food or have the talent to beg it off of someone. She’s also plenty good at entertainment!!

Slightly continuing on the “Momo uses Ammy as transportation” idea: Ammy with her water tablet showing Momotaro how cool it is to literally walk on water. (Even letting him borrow it so he can try for himself! I like the water tablet can u tell??)

Peaceful days of making flower crowns and goofing off. Naps in the shade and Ammy able to play with the sky to try and make cloud shapes using Galestorm; not that it always works!!

Momotaro getting sick and Amaterasu swooping in to help him. She’s a little awkward sometimes, as kami are never sick enough to worry about, but she does her best.

[janzzyy]

"Why did you took psychology?"

professor Khirksten asked, then she look at me intently after I stated my name, my previous school location and age. Today's my first day, and as usual, introduce yourself stage.

"Hmm, I want to explore the mind of people, I'm curious about it. And, this course is interesting. Thou, until now, I don't know what kind of career I wanna take. But well, studying people's mind is interesting" I answered shyly.

"Oh, that's nice, I hope you find what track of career you wanna take someday while you're in this journey" she said with an approachable expression while smiling.

She asked the last student who will introduce himself.

"Well you, Mr. Why did you took psychology?"

"I want to pursue psychiatry if it's our Lord's will why not, but I took this course because first and foremost, I wanna save, find myself, and I want to cure myself. And after that, that's the time I'll able to help other people with their mental illness. It's difficult for them to go on and live their life, if they're struggling inside." He said and sit down, he wore a facemask, that's why I didn't see his expression, but I could see a hidden glint of sadness in his eyes while telling us his answer.

In our class, students of course has their different reasons on why did they took psychology. The good thing is, they're into reality, they wanted to help, they're so open minded and I'm not the only one who said that I don't know yet my career in future. All of us has these deep reasonings, motivation so we can keep and strive hard for our dreams, as well as our goals in our life. ---

It's our third day of school and I notice that my classmates are not just open minded ones, they are so jolly and they enjoy to laugh. Well me, Im such an aloof and introverted btch one, so until now I don't have that 'friend' you call.

While sitting here on grass below the tree, I'm enjoying myself eating a snack while reading a book with an earphone in my ears. The book I'm reading write now is a poetry one, Sea of Strangers by Lang leav and listening to music which is, Leave it All Behind by Sleeping with Sirens.

I feel someone on my side by I didn't look up. I continue read and enjoying the music I'm listening too.

I feel one of my earphone fell, but in my surprise the man beside me took it and put it in his ear. He's in his converse shoes, faded jeans, a white shirt with messy hair. I'm shock but it's not visible on my face. I can smell his natural scent. His the one who talked about psychiatry and wanted to heal himself.

I didn't speak nor talk. I look at him with why-did-you-do-that stare.

"You have a great taste music interest. I like it, it's my favorite tbh" He said while smiling.

---

With that, we became best friends. I learned that we have common interests and similarities. I like his presence as well as his company.

---

Were sitting in our usual spot where in Grassland. Greenery sightseeing with trees in surrounding and of course grass underground. What were doing right now is thesis writing. It's nearly 9pm we can see little beam lights with different colors. Most students are in their night classes and some are going home.

A pair of earphone in our ears, and just talking and asking each other about thesis and writing also.

--- Were like a couple, but not really. I guess were just a close bestfriends, we enjoy each other's company and yes, these undescribable feelings I have is resulting where the butterflies are lingering inside my stomach. Whenever I look at him, I want to caress his hair in my hand, I want to hug him softly. I may act aloof, cold and distant, but I admit that I'mma kind of clingy person, especially to the person I like.

---

It's been a month when I noticed that he's avoiding me. He's the one who will go out first and he's not with me these days. Just like in our first week, I left alone again. I don't know what push him to avoid me. Did he noticed the feelings I've been burying now? Well, I admit I miss him. Does he know? Well ofc if he knew about it, he will truly avoid me. I'm just an aloof, distant, dull and boring person you to be with. Not so sexy, not so pretty and not that glass skin like other girls you can see.There's nothing new to that. But I really miss him. I used to hangout with him. He's the only bestfriend I have in this college journey. I didn't confess to him because I don't wanna ruin the relationship that we have. I'm contented with that. But, does he know about it?

"Okay class dismissed" Ms. Khirksten said. "Oh, before I forgot, Mr. Alexander, come to my office" she said and adjust her prescription glasses.

---

Okay. I have to wait for him outside the office. I can't take anymore that we're not talking. This is frustrating. Arghhh. I have to face him and asked him directly why did he do that. Be brave self.

"Arghhhh, what time will they get done?" I murmured while standing outside the office.

"Ughhhh, I'm hungry. Where's that dickhead?" I murmured again then I heard the sound of open door. I look at it, and there he is.

"What's with the office? Why did they call you?" I innocently asked.

"Later, for now let's eat first" He said then grip my hand and walk to the cafe as if were fine and the avoiding thing between us didn't happen.

We've finished eating and I asked him again.

"Hey, what's with the office? Did you do something wrong for you to go there?" I asked again.

"Tell me, I'm curious you know" I said.

"You really wanna know?" He said, looking at me nervously.

"Yepp"

Later I'll tell you.

---

Were here in the rooftop of abandoned house way in our home. We usually go here and just hangout again. This is why I like him, he always sticks around with me, and yeah the feelings i have is getting deeper and deeper as we bond.

Leaning my arms on railing, looking at the beautiful city lights and scattering cars down.

"Hey, look. So beautiful isn't it?" I asked. And as usual I feel that one67 pair of my earphones is in his ears again.

"Yep, it is" he said, then I look at him and now he's looking at me also.

"What?" I asked.

"I will tell you" he said looking at me intently.

"Oh, so you'll answer my question earlier? Why did you come to officeeeee?" I asked him.

"Nope, not that" he said.

"Then wha--"

He kissed me.

I can feel the heat on my cheeks. I can feel my heart beats racing. I can hear the music on my ears playing I can feel the sensation, the way he kissed me. I can feel that my feelings for him is bursting out because of the kiss.

And because of this feelings, I forgot that I was pretending. I forgot that his just a bestfriend. I forgot that he should not know.

I kiss him back. I move my lips into his and savouring the feeling. I pour my feelings into that kiss that we're sharing. And because of the sensation. Absentmindly, I put my arms around his neck and kiss him passionately. Then his lips turned to my cheeks, then to my neck. He's sucking it hard time, and I can't contain the moan because of the pain and pleasure mixing.

He stopped. His breathing ragged and panting. And when my inbition came back, I was surprised to what I did, I should push him but I didn't utter any word.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean i---"

"Hey, why did you do that?" I asked and touch his face to turn his face on me.

"It's nothing serious" he said, avoiding his gaze to me.

"Hey, look at me" I said, still my heart is insanely beating fast.

"You didn't do that without a reason, knowing you," I said looking at him intently.

"And what I'm talking about earlier is the office thing, I was curious about it, I asked you and instead of answering me, you kissed me" I added.

"I- I like you, ah- no. I love you" he said, gaze at me, I can see the intensity of his feelings behind the uttered phrase.

My heart is beating fast. The guy that I like, he loves me. I thought it was an unrequited one. I'm speechless. But I have to say something.

"Hmp, you said you love me? But you avoided me? Is that how you express your feelings towards me?" I said, lifting up the uncomfortable atmosphere.

"I don't know what to say, your reaction? You're not surprised?" He asked innocently.

This guy, asking it and seeing him in that state is making him cute.

"Ofc, I'm surprised. But let me ask you. Why me? Tbh, you're a handsome man bro, why me? I'm not sexy, I don't have a firm skin like other girls have, especially girls that are attracted to you. I'm nothing special" I said while looking at the city lights to simply dodge his gaze on me.

"Why you? Well, that's you. You are just being yourself. And dont tell me that you're not pretty, because in my eyes, you are. I love all the things about you. Your flaws, your moodswings, thou sometimes you act distant, but I do know you. You understand me. You stay even I'm annoying. You accept me as I am. It may sound cliche but I like you the way you are. You're unique. You filled the broken soul I have. I'm happy when I'm with you. I feel complete." He said with a tear escaped in his eyes.

"Then why did you avoid me? Why tell me your feelings just now? I'm here waiting, I didn't tell you my feelings because I'm afraid of rejection. Our friendship might be ruin. But... but... I like you too. You don't know how much I missed you when you avoid me. I feel incomplete. I- missed you. I miss all about you. You're always there. You're everywhere. I'm already used to your presence." I said crying, I hugged him tightly.

"I thought I was the only one who has the feelings between us. What a torture because of pretending I've been doin just not for you to notice this feelings I have for you. And now that you confessed, I can't explain the happiness I'm feeling right now" I added while sobbing, my face on his shirt.

"Shh. It's fine. I'm here" He said comfortably.

After that, he look at me. Give me a peck on lips and hugged me.

"So, let's go back to the thing and what really is the topic here. Why did Ms. Khirsten called you to office? Did you do something inappropriate?" I asked while hugging him still.

"You are really a curious one, aren't you?" He said and chuckled.

What a music in my ears plus the manly scent I'm smelling.

"Do you really wanna know? He asked.

"Yeah, please answer my question" I replied.

I'm nervous. Why he can't answer me this straight?

"Okay then" he said.

"They've been preparing the papers I have because I will go to the States, I will pursue the field of psychiatry there. And luckily, my parents will be the one who will support me there" he said, looking at me and drop his gaze down and a hint of regret on his face because he just told me the answer.

"Well, I assume that's the reason you have why were you avoiding me." I said and there, I felt again that hot liquid running down on my cheeks.

"Yeah, for you to not being use to my presence, and me not to be hurt so much if I'm gone" he said while carressing my hair.

"What should we do now?" I said.

"Can you wait for me?" He said, looking at me, his thumb on my undereye, wiping my tears.

"That's difficult. Long distance is kinda difficult. But for you I will" I said.

"So are we officially couple?" he asked and wondering.

"Not yet, you dumb dickhead. Ofc, you have to court me. I'm still a woman right?" I said while smiling.

"Oh, ofc I will. It's just that, please. Please don't replace me. Pursuing my dream there is not easy without you by my side. But please, let's get going, achieve our goals even we're far away from one another. Let's call often. Even when things are getting busier and busier, please, let's make time for each other okay?" He said to me, and hug me again. He then kissed my forehead, my eyes, my nose and my lips.

---

I'm here at the airport, with him. He will go to the States. Minutes later, he'll be far. This will be the last hug we can have, a last kiss for now. A last interaction within each other personally for the mean time.

"Please, don't replace me." I said while hugging him.

"You're the only one" He said while caressing my hair.

Its awkward that were here in the airport and there's a melodrama but who cares.

"Let's call each other always, okay?" I said while crying.

"I will not stay there that permanently honey, I will go back and forth if its a summer break. I will update you that, and we can be together that time" He said.

"I will miss you so much" He added.

"But we can do this, this is our dream. We'll hold on tightly, its gonna be a bumpy ride, but we will survive this. I love you honey" He said and kiss me.

"I love you too" I said and kiss him back.

---

Years later. He came back. He as a psychiatrist and me as an Obgyne Doctor. We're both professionals and were engage.

If you really love each other, you will overcome any challenges that will throw on your relationship. As they said. Love conquers all, and also with Lord by our side. It's not easy, before he came back, we face a lot of problems, we argued, we lost time for each other. But at the end, love wins. Keep your trust, love, honesty and faith towards one another and swallow your pride for your loved ones.