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the-dragonlich · 20 hours ago

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The weird thing about having a general sense of apathy and/or melancholy as your default emotion is that it makes you really slow to process the actual emotion you feel so by the time you realize what you’re feeling you’ve already been stewing in it for days to maybe months

#Ramblings #anyways this isn’t exactly a recent revelation really the guy I’m talking about has made me uncomfortable in a way #Since our first DM and my knee jerk discomfort reaction is pacify so you don’t make it worse #That being said this guy really makes me wish I was more of a bitch and I think next time he does it #I’m just going to tell him why and all the other shit he��s done to make me uncomfortable and probably block him #Because ngl at this point that’s just the feeling I associate with him and between the that the gap in emotional maturity #lack of any mutual interest besides the initial and the fact he seems to get really pestering when we’re not doing what he wants #I’m just fucking over it #He told me I was his best friend and I said thanks but that bond he feels is so incredibly one sided and with everything else #Like I know that might partially be my own bonding issues and the fact I tend to hold people at distance for at least the first few months #So I don’t get screwed over and this is kind of the reason I don’t let myself get attached fast #And like we’ve barely known each other for 3 months and not a single one of my other friends has made me this uncomfortable if they’ve ever #made uncomfortable beyond vague awkwardness in the months and/or years I’ve known them he’s the single outlier here and I don’t want #to deal with it. I don’t want to be friends with people who make me wish I was more of a bitch #Rant I guess #ramblimgs

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