#Sara Bareilles Amidst the Chaos

[auroras-and-sad-proze]

Miss Simone

Sara Bareilles

we were stars of some old classic film with Miss Simone singing, “pour some sugar in my bowl”

[musicalelo]

Surrender's just a word 'til you try it out And see how hard it is to hurt with someone else around I'm the worst I've ever been, afraid of almost everything The skies are clear, but storms are always comin'

Someone Who Loves Me - Sara Bareilles

[looselipssinkships-x]

i wanted to be your girl in a white t-shirt, over coffee, stirring in the cinnamon while you read me poetry by dead men. i wanted to be your girl, with your hands on my skin, stirring in the cinnamon, while you read me poetry by dead men

[l8rhader]

Though I know it's blinding, there's a way out.  Say out loud, “We will not give up on love now.”

[chaotic-theatrical-weaver]

The duality of Sara Bareilles lyrics:

How do they use such similar language to make the opposite points and...? There’s such wide emotional range and sincerity, and this is why I love her music.

[daynascullys]

LISTEN THROUGH SILENCE: An MSR Playlist ⤷ Part Two: Scully

It feels close to you, somehow, to say your name out loud.

playlist / songs ↘

SIX by Sleeping at Last / Similar to with Mulder, I haven't really thought about what enneagram I think Scully might be, but the lyrics of this song are so her. Plus: "I want to believe—no, I choose to believe—that I was made to become a sanctuary." I constantly think about "I want to believe" in the context of Scully because that's very much Mulder's thing, but it takes on so much significance when you think about it relating to Scully (just like Mulder choosing not to believe things takes on special significance as well). Mulder wants to believe in so many things, but Scully wants to believe in Mulder—and she chooses to believe.

RENEGADE by Big Red Machine & Taylor Swift / Very very Scully to Mulder. I mean— "there was nowhere for me to stay, but I stayed anyway" and "you fire off missiles 'cause you hate yourself, but do you know you're demolishing me? And then you squeeze my hand as I'm about to leave" and "it's time, you've come a long way / open the blinds, let me see your face / you wouldn't be the first renegade to need somebody" and "is it insensitive for me to say / get your shit together / so I can love you." But "open the blinds, let me see your face" really gets me because Scully truly does see Mulder, she sees him better than anyone ever has.

BETWEEN THE LINES by Sara Bareilles / Oof, this one huuuurts. I chose the title of this playlist from this song ("listen through silence") because I feel like it goes pretty well with Mulder's playlist ("amidst the chaos," also from a Sara Bareilles song) and because it's so much of what Scully does while Mulder learns—she listens through silence and reads between the lines. ALSO: "I'm queen of attention to details, defending intentions if he fails." Scully is forever the first to defend Mulder no matter what he does, always from a place of love.

BREATHE by Lauv / There are so many songs that could be applied to both of them, but for some reason or another I choose it for one of their individual playlists (this being one of them). I think one of my favorite parts fits Mulder better—"I should leave 'cause you deserve better"—but overall this song made me think of Scully, especially during I Want to Believe. "You're my all and more, but I need room to breathe."

WATER WORSHIP PRAY by Grace Power / This song also makes me think of I Want to Believe, and I especially love this song for Scully because of all the religious imagery. "How can two people fall apart when they both want the same thing? How can my happiness be you, but I'm not happy at all?" OW. And also: "First peace I ever knew / Can't love you well enough to keep you or enough to let you go / I'd rather stay in purgatory with you than in heaven alone."

IF PATIENCE DOESN'T KILL ME by Alison Sudol / I'm very aware that this is a pretty specific sound that not everyone will love, but I love Alison Sudol and I feel like this song is perfect for Scully so I kept it anyway. I just feel like the lyrics fit her perfectly—"if patience is a virtue, I abound / ... / if patience doesn't kill me, I'm yours." And it's where the description comes from—"it feels close to you, somehow, to say your name out loud." It feels like they constantly are calling for each other both because they want them there and trust they will be there, but also because the simple act of calling for each other makes them feel less alone.

GIVE UP THE GHOST by Rosi Golan & Johnny McDaid / Another song I love (I would've titled this "Quiet the Noise" if I hadn't already used that as a playlist title) that takes on new meaning when you think about it in an MSR context. Ghosts take on a different significance when thinking about Mulder (also, @leiascully just KILLED me with her fic and "I don't love anything more than I love you, Scully. Not even ghosts." Literally what the fuck). Even the very beginning of this song—"come here, it's all worth the fight when it's you, dear." And "slow down, we're losing the meaning of words now / quiet the noise 'cause we made a mountain of minuscule things." And Scully really does quiet his noise.

THE BEACON by A Fine Frenzy / The lyrics in the gifset are from this song and if I could write out the entire song without it being ridiculous, I would. I swear this could truly be a song written by Scully about Mulder. I mean, just starting with the first verse: "You say your time has come / you're tired of waking up / don't be obscene, I can't conceive of living without you / You say you drag me down, no one should want you now / I start to cry, you kiss my eyes and say I'm not allowed to." And then, AND THEN the second verse: "you were a child forgot / lessons of love untaught / now no embrace can quite replace the one that never found you / I was raised tenderly / all that was taught to me / I will apply / Your parents tried, but they didn't know how to." Like. Okay. Sure. That's fine.

SATURN by Sleeping at Last / I know I'm not alone with this one because I've seen multiple videos of them set to this song, but I chose to put it on Scully's playlist because it really makes me think of Mulder's abduction arc/when he wakes up in "Deadalive." Just imagine her listening to this song sitting by his side, holding his hand, willing him to wake up. GAH.

YOU MATTER TO ME by Jessie Mueller & Drew Gehling / This is another song I was debating for both of them, but the first verse especially makes me think of Scully: "I could find the whole meaning of life in those sad eyes / they've seen things you never quite say, but I hear / come out of hiding, I'm right here beside you / and I'll stay there as long as you'll let me."

SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME by Sara Bareilles / This song wrecks me and has some of the most beautiful lyrics I've ever heard. One reason I love it for Scully is because of the hug at the end of "Irresistable." This is another song I would have considered for a playlist title ("my home, my heart") if I hadn't already used it before. But the way it's sung always gets to me—"my home, my heart, thank god you are someone who loves me," like she's exhaling into the safety of his arms.

I F*CKING LOVE YOU by Zolita / The song pretty much says it all: "what if I let it slip, tell you that oh my god, I fucking love you."

WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT by Emily James / I absolutely love the first part of this song when she says "I just wanna say that I'm not going anywhere anytime soon unless it's with you." What really made me think of MSR was this, though: "'cause we've been busy lying to ourselves, swearing it would never work / promising that we were just friends / it's funny how it doesn't make sense / and then it does." And I love the idea of Scully thinking again about how different her life is, how this is so far from where she thought she'd be, but with a little bit of wonder: "who would've thought that it would've been you?"

[accidentalcultleader]

It is extremely in character for me to look at the shit show that is today and just quote sara bareilles

"Don't stop trying to find me here amidst the chaos

Though I know it's blinding there's a way out

Say out loud, we will not give up on love now

No fear, don't you turn like Orpheus, just stay here

Hold me in the dark and when the day appears

We'll say

We did not give up on love today"

There's so many things I could say right now to all of my friends and comrades currently in the US, to tell them that the world is going to be okay eventually but it all feels fruitless. And yet, the only words that come are the ones that are blocked by fear and tears. So please, if you feel helpless, like I do right now, please keep sara's words in mind and keep going. Keep going for the promise of the day we may never see, keep going and be the solid ground your friends need during this time.

We have a hell of a fight ahead, if we want to get the bastards that stole away our rights and our hopes, we have no choice but to keep going.

[snailbur]

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"don't stop trying to find me here amidst the chaos / though i know it's blinding, there's a way out / say out loud / we will not give up on love now." - sara bareilles, "orpheus"

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[lulabo]

Molly Gordon post in the queue informational addendum: Sara Bareilles's song "Eyes on You" lists names of people in a meditation group she was in but also if you are enough of a Sara Bareilles enthusiast you can also just figure out who some of the other people are in the song based on context, eg, "Amanda had a baby" is Amanda Kloots who did indeed have a baby, also she told me personally at her Amidst the Chaos tour stop in Boston (along with the rest of the people at the show but mostly me) that "Emily moved away" was about Emily King, who moved from one part of New York to another, which is all to say that when I learned Molly Gordon is the daughter of Jessie Nelson, who was part of the creative teams of both Waitress the musical (wrote the book) and Little Voice (many things), I therefore divined that the lyrics "Jessie's doing backflips, Molly's doing so well" refer to said Jessie Nelson being jazzed at her daughter Molly Gordon's life going well, so congrats to Molly Gordon on her achievements professional and personal but mostly also on being in a Sara Bareilles song.

[terrainofheartfelt]

I love your work! Hope you’re doing well ❤️❤️

I was wondering if you have any favorite songs/albums? In one of your works you said you had a playlist about women wailing and I was like oh I would LOVE to know their music taste

xx

Ahhh thank you that’s very sweet 💜💜💜

I have many favorites, I will be honest, but I will happily share my favorites of the moment!

I have been very into the MUNA album Live at the Greek, it’s just so fucking FUN. that and Stick Season: Forever by Noah Kahan.

Of course there’s the eternal Kesha who dropped a new single in July and it is a BANGER everyone should go listen to “Joyride” right now.

I do in fact have a playlist titled “Sometimes you just need to hear a woman WAIL” and it is public on Spotify I do love me some good delicate Folk sangin but sometimes I just do need some wailin.

Favorite albums favorite albums…I will just list the as they come: Unreal Unearth—Hozier, Amidst the Chaos—Sara Bareilles, Petals for Armor—Hayley Williams, Blue—Joni Mitchell, The Firewatcher’s Daughter—Brandi Carlile, Cowboy Carter—Beyonce, Tape Deck Heart—Frank Turner, Badlands—Halsey, Blonde on Blonde—Bob Dylan , Handwritten—Gaslight Anthem, the live anthology of Bruce Springsteen, The Record—boygenius.

Ummm I also trained to be an opera singer so I got a big big love for classical music: my boys Verdi & Sibelius & Vaughan Williams

I have given a lot of thought to the cocktail party question What is your one favorite song? and I have chosen mine: “Dancing in the Dark”

I’m a music librarian and I have no off switch about thus stuff so I will cut myself off now 🫶🫶🫶🫶

[setmeatopthepyre]

Don't stop trying to find me here amidst the chaos Though I know it's blinding, there's a way out Say out loud, we will not give up on love now No fear, don't you turn like Orpheus, just stay here Hold me in the dark and when the day appears, we'll say We did not give up on love today

I'll show you good, restore your faith I'll try and somehow make a meaning of the poison in this place Convince you, love, don't breathe it in You were written in the stars that we are swimming in And it has no name, no guarantee It's just the promise of a day I know that some may never see But that's enough If the bottom drops out I hope my love was someone else's solid ground

[musicalelo]

Baptized by truth, we will reap what we sow Build our own higher ground when the rain's coming down This is worth it to me, Saint Honesty

Saint Honesty - Sara Bareilles

[blurglesmurfklaine]

top 3 favorite albums??

oh gosh of all time??? That's so fucking hard 😭i've legit just been sat here staring atmy computer for 3 mins bc i genuinely cannot decide omggggg

Stick Season by Noah Kahan is definitely up there. The first time i heard Growing Sideways i quite literally sobbed in 5pm traffic and then made an appointment to get back on antidepressants so it's special to me in that way

I think i'm legally obligated to say Harry's House by Harry Styles because it dropped on my birthday and then I saw him live in london like a month after?? and it was quite honestly the best concert of my life

Finally, Amidst the Chaos by Sara Bareilles because that album is very special to me and my best friend and it's just so vulnerable and GOOD and i wish my words could do it justice!

It's Honesty Hour! Ask me Anything!

[anneofkeys]

🎶✨When you get this, list 5 songs you like to listen to, publish and then send this ask to 10 of your favourite followers. (Positivity is cool)🎶✨

Bit tricky as I tend to listen to the same few artist but my top songs of theirs change depending on mood. Anyway in no order.

Cowboy Like Me by Taylor Swift: I love a good narrative song and whenever I hear this song I can imagine Hogan and my OC dancing to it (cheesy I know).

Water under the Bridge by Adele: Sometimes I forget just how good Adele is and just everything in this song is perfect to me.

Good Luck Babe! by Chappel Roan: Again I am a sucker ffor narratives in songs (frankly I so far like all of Chappel's music but this one I hear more often cause it is on the radio).

Orpheus by Sara Bareilles: Honestly any song from her last album Amidst the Chaos is good and I like this one since it is from the Eurydice of the story's prospective (note the song is not actually about Orpheus and Eurydice).

Please Please Please by Sabrina Carpenter: Again, a sucker for narrative and the music video helped the Bonnie and Cylde theming of the slight county song.

[septembersghost]

Jess can you please recommend some music I might like as a swift*e expat? I'm trying to find new things! thank you!

not expats 😂😭 i welcome you, and yes, i love offering music recs! 💖

i've mentioned her often at this point, but lizzy mcalpine!!! give me a minute and five seconds flat are both fantastic and she has such a lovely voice (both in her singing and her writing). gabrielle aplin! particularly english rain and dear happy, but i adore her generally. sasha alex sloan is great and she gets those sad girl vibes. ingrid andress. ingrid michaelson. rae morris. rosi golan. mindy gledhill. cider sky. echosmith. emily hearn! maisie peters. griff! sara bareilles!!! (i love ALL of sara's albums, but kaleidoscope heart probably remains my favorite, though i'd recommend amidst the chaos for folklore-esque vibes). a few years ago, i was really into ruelle, and i listened to her throughout a time of heartbreak, so it's hard for me to go back to now, but i would still always recommend her for etherealness.

on the poppier side, carly rae jepsen, her most recent album the loneliest time is terrific. joanne and chromatica by lady gaga were underrated imo (also the a star is born soundtrack!). foxes. marina. you're probably familiar with florence + the machine, but i would be remiss not to mention ceremonials. halsey i'm sure goes without saying. lorde (melodrama you will always be a masterpiece). aly & aj.

these are slight throwbacks, but mandy moore's album wild hope is one of my favorites ever, it's beautiful (and very swiftian imo), amanda leigh is good too. idk if she's still making music, but angel taylor's album love travels. norah jones. marié digby. a fine frenzy! i loved her so much, one cell in the sea was everything, and bomb in a birdcage and pines...her music will calm your spirit!

these are rattled off the top of my head, i'm probably forgetting many artists i love and need to spend more time rediscovering, but i hope this gives you some places to start and some new joy and melodies to find!

[mareenavee]

For the odd OC asks for Nyenna!

🥃: If your OC was in this universe, what would be their favourite show/book/band/social media platform?

🍕: How does an OC spend a lazy day? 

HELLO :3 Sorry this one took a mortal age to answer <3 Hyperfocus, AU fic, the Arcaneum, general shenanigans. You know (:

Without further ado, then!

ODD OC asks for Nyenna from my fic The World on Our Shoulders!

ask game is here.

🥃: If your OC was in this universe, what would be their favourite show/book/band/social media platform?

Ha! This is fun to think about mostly because I have to sort of filter her experience through my own and find a sort of match.

Hm. For a show? (Argh television? UM...? Do I know her?) hm. I'm just gonna give her the only show I can think of that I definitely will catch the next season of -- The Last of Us.

For a book, I think she'd be interested in stories from other cultures that featured good chaos so ... I'd give her the drama of SA Chakraborty's City of Brass series.

For a band/Musician? I think mellow but also dramatic, because it's Nyenna. So Sara Bareilles. Specifically her album Amidst the Chaos :> Because of course.

Social Media? Ugh. Just ugh. Tumblr, of course, but at what cost?

🍕: How does an OC spend a lazy day? 

I did answer this one for Nyenna and Teldryn here :D

But I'll happily reiterate that if she figures out Teldryn stole one of her books, she'd happily, happily spoil the ending for him. She's read a lot more than he has, even though he'd have had more time. (: