#SO PROUD OF THEM <33333 THEY DESERVE THE WORLD AND MORE

[lq-jikook]

jimin and jungkook kissing at the top of the charts 🤭🤭

[nonasemporium]

character meme 2 electric boogaloo: awake remembrance of these valiant dead!!!

send me a character [Commander Awake Remembrance of These Valiant Dead Kia Hua Ko Te Pai Snap Back to Reality Oops There Goes Gravity] and i’ll list:

favorite thing about them: I love her rage, I love her justice, I love her determination, I love that she forces John to say her full name, that she rejects everyone's attempts to twist her. I love her passion, her meanass laugh, her fucking commitment. If something's gonna get done, she's gonna do it.

least favorite thing about them: I get why she was doing what she was doing, but smashing a baby into the wall is very battle of Troy of her lmao. Same with teaching Pash to be a child soldier. I get it though, she's living in a horror where the alternative is worse.

favorite line: When she demands John say her name, when she says G1deon deserves that at least, the line about her nose, the line about her meanass laugh, the fact she called Gideon "Bomb", crying about all of it.

brOTP: Love her proud auntie vibes at Pash, but actual brOTP is probably with We Suffer, lmao. Idk it just seems like the kind of history that fits both of them.

OTP: G1deon/Wake/Pyrrha <33333 Literally OT3 of TLT for me, I love it so much. Pyrrha being bold enough to kiss her but apologizing, Wake not letting that go, not taking the bait to just kill her, nah, she's going to let her live with that, they're going to be something so explosive.... Then her realizing the ways G1deon and Pyrrha are separate, loving them both, perhaps even learning to love G1deon through conversations with Pyrrha over him as well, the way it must ache for Pyrrha so so deeply, punishment and relief. The way Wake talked about them till the end. The trust but also the knowledge that it only goes so far. The way she knew what G1deon was and she knew what Pyrrha was and ugh.

nOTP: Keep John the fuck away from her unless she's killing him, thanks. Love she got the last laugh, may she get more.

random headcanon: That she has a toothgap, that she has freckles, that she has two laughs--one where her teeth are bared like a threat and one where instead her cheeks fold up her eyes cutely. I also think that despite everything, she did have a fondness for Gideon in her own way, for "Bomb." There's something in naming a thing, there's something in the fact Gideon was initially a sacrifice for her but also meant to be a sacrifice for everyone. That she carried her under her heart for all those months ready to sacrifice her for the literal world, putting her body on the line but also like. She's actually a very loving person. Her rage is the rage of someone who despises injustice, her rage is the rage of someone who has plenty to lose, her rage is the rage of someone who has a people that need her. And this horrible little thing she grew in her despite not having the plans for it--she had to think about what made it worth it and you know what made it worth it? That this baby was meant to end the suffering of THEIR people, that this baby would be the key to kill the father, that this baby was where all their hope was placed, that this baby had to carry all the "sins" of both sides of this war, do you think she ever had a moment wondering if the baby, if this little Bomb, this little flesh of her flesh and blood of his blood, would forgive any of them for it? I think also of her trapped body and trapped soul, of her in that sword, how that sword in Harrow's hands was furious, was rejecting, but how in Gideon's was a weird comfort. How Gideon went to her bones, forced to labor under these people she fucking despised, do you think she heard Gideon? Do you think she heard Gideon speak to her bones, do you think she felt Gideon's prayers for a mother, do you think that fury she had was also the fury that this weird thing that she had never intended to have was being twisted to serve the empire she was going to be sacrificed to destroy? He deserved that at least, she said about G1deon. He deserved that at least, so what does Gideon deserve? The language was dehumanizing but not without fondness. Wake just seems so much the type of person, the kind of resolute and almost-humorous who might accidentally get a spot, soft and tender deep in--she said she carried Gideon under her heart. Under her heart. She didn't say in her gut, she said under her heart. And under her heart, I really think there's a tiny part of her still there for Gideon, for Bomb, for the thing that maybe in another life could've just been her and G1deon's weird little explosive tyke. In another life, that could've been the shitty love child of her goofy ass situationship and that little thing could've held Pash's machete and learned to build bombs to take down the Houses, or in another life outside of that, in a life without Jod at all, maybe that thing could've just been a gap-toothed kid with a meanass laugh and no need to carry the fate of humanity. I think of how Wake is Mary. How Gideon is the Jesus she has to give up for humanity, that she was fully prepared to give up, but I also think of how Wake gave herself up as well. Pregnancy is incredibly difficult, and in the end she was killed--not necessarily by her actual pregnancy, but. I just have a lot of emotions. When she was preparing herself to sacrifice Gideon, to sacrifice "Bomb," do you think a fondness grew specifically to how this baby was meant to save them? Do you think she thought "at least if this kid is going to have my dna, it's going to use that to take this fucker down finally," do you think coming so close made that little bit of potential pride slip in? And then she's her sword and her bones are on those fields and not only is her body made slave, her soul made bound, but all that fucking hope is chained down alongside her, stripped from any knowledge, any fucking purpose, molded instead for the very thing she carried it to destroy. Emotions.

unpopular opinion: Apparently that I see her as Black, lmao, it was from the description of her hair and nose, which doesn't have to mean Black, but it's how I see her.

song i associate with them: Okay well obviously fucking 'Lose Yourself' by Eminem, boo, tomato tomato, but another one that maybe isn't as often tied to her is 'Wygd' by Empara Mi. For funsies, I also do literally always associate her with 'Are You That Somebody' by Aaliyah. Darlin, I know you wanna light me up~

favorite picture of them: I'll post my sketch here because I do like showing part of how I see her, even if I may never clean up or do more with the sketch, but also I love this and this (sobbing about baby Bomb).

[wayfayrr]

I should be asleep but I have drank and unable to sleep cause of self aware link brainrot, and I can’t remember who posted this about the concept of fanfiction of two people.

“i imagine fanfictions as pocket dimensions. i fell in love with you in a thousand universes, and in a thousand more we are tragically kept apart. i've watched you die in my arms. i've watched you grow old with another. i've loved you more than i could have ever loved anyone else. you stopped loving me in one universe. you never loved me in another. i never stopped waiting. i'll find you in a world where you can love me too”

And holy shit, gives me self aware Link vibes but also, reminds me that whenever I play any of the games, I read fanfic cause </3 can’t give the Links kissies irl so will project through fanfics. And like, honestly, this is why I absolutely love self aware links; they know how much I love them?? How much I wanna give them kissies??? How much I wanna tuck them in bed and cuddle with them, while I tell them they deserve all the rest in the world and that I’m so proud of them???? LIKE I’LL CRY I NEED TO SHOW THEM THEY DESERVE SO MUCH LOVE, AND THE FACT THAT THEY COULD APPEAR IRL???? SCREAMING, CRYING, THROWING YP <33333

~🍀 anon

man if I don't understand getting drunk and only being able to think about the links well - it's either them or texting people fr

that quote though?? it's honestly tragic, it works really well for the self aware au though - you're right 😭 It works either way that it's said, seeing as you don't really see the links age in most of the games - they're the ones who have to watch you age, the ones with the most other universes. but you saying it to them while mourning the fact that they 'aren't real' to their face? if they could they'd be crying.

AGASFSDGVDSV THAT'S WHY I STARTED WRITING THEM, WHY NOT JUST GET THEM OUT AND HAVE THEM WITH YOU LIKE THIS INSTEAD???? - it's an idea that I've seen a lot in other fandoms but never really in zelda, and even though it can be inherently almost creepy to imagine these characters in your game coming to life at the same time? having them fall for you as you just simply playing the game? it's sweet I really do want to do something to embrace the inherent horror of it though, it peeks though sometimes but I've never done something based fully around it :)

[human-still-developing]

Hello! Happy Valentine's Day from your writeblr not-so-secret admirer! I hope you have a nice day today, with something pretty and something delicious to enjoy, surrounded by people who know you deeply.

I do not know you deeply, and that's made this secret admirer thing harder than I expected. Add to that the fact that I'm 28 and I joined Tumblr for the first time ever a month ago, which means I'm swimming around in this bright beautiful corner of the world where it seems like everyone knows each other and everyone has 1000 inside jokes I don't understand, and everyone is at once perfectly styled and completely casual. I'm a little afraid that there are some huge obvious cultural mores that I'm still missing, that a real Tumblrite would be able to peruse your feed and pluck from it the perfect seed from which to sprout the loveliest and most charming of compliment-flowers. But I don't know which of your posts you're most proud of (so I could lavish you with the validation you do deserve), which you feel are the most under-appreciated (so I could correct the algorithmic slights you don't), or if that's even how you feel about your blog at all! (Maybe many things are flower petals here; with more joy found in tossing things to the wind than seeing where they land.)

Anyway, I read some Seamus Heaney because of you. I liked the one about blackberries. I wish I could have read the novels you've been excited about recently, too, because you seemed to have so many passionate things to say and share about them. Instead, all I have is a feeling that I want to know you more, and a poem I wrote a long time ago about someone else that maybe begins to express that feeling. (Transcription of my handwriting below.)

Finding friends is exactly like dating

Don't let anyone tell you otherwise

I'm bursting

To put myself out in front of you

Bursting to love you

I can tell already (can't I?)

That I'm going to

You're just like the others I've loved

(In some ways, not all of them;

the important ones),

And just like the ones who have hurt me.

I loved them, didn't I?

I can love you, too.

So let me

Be too eager

Let me laugh at your jokes and deflect the others'

Let me be so anxious to please

That my cool collect crumbles

That I take deep breaths in the bathroom

That I write poems you'll never see

To cope with your existence.

Anyway, it still feels like an empty pot with only a few gimpy leaves poking from the soil when I wanted to give you the whole garden center, but I hope you have a lovely day and I hope one day I do know you deeply because you deserve to be known, to be seen, and to be loved.

Your secret admirer,

-Lynn

Omg....I am out of words....

Thank you so so so much for this!!! You have made my entire week <33 This is the sweetest message and I'm so touched that you wrote this all out <3333

Your handwriting is gorgeous and I love your poetry <333 You really evoke Seamus Heaney in your writing <3333

And you went through my blog??? Omg that is so sweet imma cry <333

Well I'm super excited to know you well and I'm sure that soon we'll be so tight like bffs <33333

Thank you thank you thank you <3

[andro-dino]

Slightly abandoned character focus… characters lol

Hyoma, Yu, Julien, Sophie

I am so sorry this is random

tumblr user rainnotliam I don’t think you realize how much I fucking adore these characters

ENTONCES

as you can see. i have many thoughts on Hyoma. This man lives in my brain like an infestation and he will not get out. He’s. He’s just. He’s the guy ever. He’s literally the silliest of guys I don’t know what you want from me he’s so good. I absolutely love him and it makes me SO UPSET that he barely appears at all after fusion because he is SUCH a good character. He’s so well written and there’s so much depth to him if you really look and I just love him so much and I so badly wish he got more screen time. He’s also like, SUPER FUCKING SAD IF YOU THINK ABOUT HIM FOR TOO LONG. the amount of angsty ideas I’ve come with about him good lordddddd. He’s also a very relatable character and one that I very heavily project onto bcoz it’s my brain and I’ll do what I want

GOOD GOD YU FUCKING TENDO. EL SOL DE MI VIDA I LOVE HIM MORE THAN WORDS CAN DESCRIBE. HE’S JUST SUCH A FUN AND GOOFY CHARACTER. HES SO COOL AND SILLY AND LIKABLE AND JUST REALLY WELL FLESHED OUT AND EXECUTED AND GHERES JUST SO MANY THOUGHTS THAT HE MAKES ME THINK I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. yk what’s really interesting to me. For a very long time I really hated angst. especially if it’s for very sweet characters who deserve the world. And yet yu is probably the character I’ve made the most angst for and honestly I am really proud of a lot of it. He’s just such a complex character and I really like analyzing him and picking apart all those aspects of his character that are really sad once you think abt them and expanding upon them. One of my favorite fics I’ve ever written was an angsty Yu fic. He’s just such an interesting character to write and I love him a whole lot.

continuing on the trend of characters who’ve occupied too much of my brain space, JULIAN KONZERN WOOOOOO. He’s a bastard and I hate him but I love him he is one of my favorite characters I will defend him until I die but I wholeheartedly believe he deserves all the bullying he gets but also I wish more people liked him but also it’s completely justified why they don’t but also-

Yeah he’s one of the characters I’m the most mentally ill over. I’ve said it before but The Fallen Emperor is my favorite episode of the entirety of MFB it makes me cry several times every time I watch it. I just love how well Julian is written and developed and I love how him and Daxiang are built up as foils to each other and I love that Daxiang is the one to bring him back to his senses and it’s just really well executed. His bond with Sophie and wales makes me sob I love them so much I just I just I just <33333

AND SOPHIE BELOVED. MY WIFE. I LOVE HER. she’s just such a cool character. I love all the little tidbits of character and personality that are thrown in and I just love her. I think they definitely could’ve done a ton more with her but for what there is, she’s lovely. I love all the little complexities of her personality, all the little details and stuff about her gahhhh I just adore her she’s great <3

[deripmaver]

4 5 6 for ALL OF THE CaPri FANFICS

LKSJMDHGVLKSJ ALL OF THEM???

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue? 5: What part was hardest to write? 6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

Ink On Paper (tongue fic) 4. lmfaoooooooo there isn't a whole lot of dialogue in this one oop-

Laurent nodded. The wax softened as he pressed his hand into it, erasing his previous message. Soft, warm, melting under his touch. He wrote again, I need someone who is not afraid to read out the insults I make towards the idiots at court. You have been fired, Damianos.

i guess it technically counts lmfao. i just wanted to show laurent post-trauma still able to make jokes and snipe at his husband so it wasnt all doom and gloom 5. i'm not sure exactly what "hardest to write" here means because like... a lot of these fic have serious gore or otherwise upsetting content, but both emotionally and actually writing wise i find that kind of thing actually pretty easy to write hahahaha. i think i got stuck with the chronology and the decision to make it non-linear made it flow a lot better. for the record writing laurent getting raped and then having his tongue cut out was actually very easy to write, i think i got it out in basically one go. #cancelme the more fucked up and intense the easier i find to nyoom through it 6. my first ever fic in the capri fandom!!!! hehehehhehehe <333333 Level Of Concern (plan B fic) 4.

Before Nicaise could say anything, Laurent spat, “Does he know you had your first heat?”

SURPRISE nic was the one who was pregnant the whole time!!!!!!! 5. this one i banged out REALLY quickly so i cant think of anything here 6. capri omegaverse!!!!!!! i wish there was more of this 🥺🥺🥺 Like Me (what if Auguste was also abused fic) 4. ******CW INCEST MENTION CW ABUSE MENTION******

“Your brother’s stuck his dick in every single member of your family,” Auguste spat out, laughing, crying, and so miserable he thought his heart would stop. His voice rose again, and he felt something burst from him as he screamed for the whole world to hear, “Did you know that? Did you, huh papa? Did he fuck you too?”

dude this line is so fucked up lmfao but i enjoyed writing it so much. actually this entire scene where auguste is having his breakdown was really intense to write and im really pleased with how it came out OR

Auguste grabbed him suddenly, looking up into his grief-stricken face desperately. “Please, Laurent,” he pleaded, voice breaking. “Please. Don’t let him end up like me.”

i felt entirely too clever with this line lmfao. i was like ~ooooohhhhh title drop~ im so dumb 5. i just remember this one like. dragged on for some time. i couldnt figure out what to do with it, how to get everything to coalesce around the final reveal about auguste 6. plot twist!!!!!!! plus auguste angst. i really enjoyed this one, i wrote it after watching the movie Spotlight which is one of my all time faves Softly, Gently 4.

“My King has been overexerting himself again, I presume?” Paschal sighed, shaking his head with a fond smile. “When have I ever done that?” Laurent cocked his head to the side, a wry smile on his face.

hehehehe sassy laurent my beloved <33333 5. honestly im just going to skip this one from now on lskjghmvlksjhglkvsjhdl i just get "stuck" sometimes without rhyme or reason and its usually on boring stuff, but then i cant remember later. the hardest part for me is when my dumb fucking adhd brain wont let me focus on writing but once i overcome that its usually pretty smooth sailing 6. horny omegaverse.................... my beloved............... giving men vaginas for horny reasons my beloved......................... Water of Life (birth fic)

“Do you want to hold him?” Erasmus breathed, eyes glassy. The baby cried, Erasmus bouncing him tenderly in those sunkissed arms. He looked apologetic. “Only for a moment, it’s not quite over yet.” A playful smile danced on Erasmus’ lips, and he brushed away a slick, damp curl from the wailing baby’s head. “A head this big, he certainly takes after Exalted.”

a cute, fun lil line in the sea of horrible angst lmfao ORRRRRR

Erasmus knelt before Damen, before Laurent. He said, “Exalted… Can you command his Highness to push?” Damen froze. “Do you mean…?” Erasmus nodded. “Alpha command.” Damen’s expression crumpled. He said, in a voice that shattered Erasmus’ heart, “I can’t. I can’t do that to him.” Erasmus licked his lips. “Exalted, in this state, he can’t push. His contractions are weaker. He’ll-” “I can’t,” Damen cried, clinging to Laurent’s limp body like a lifeline. “He’d… He’d never forgive me.”

damen is so sweet........ he loves laurent so much...... ORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

He stopped at the doorframe, turning to face Laurent with tears in his eyes, and whispered, “How long does it take, your Highness?” Laurent, shocked enough to respond, hissed, “What?” “I still wake up in the middle of the night thinking of it,” Erasmus said, voice thick in his throat, tears burning at his eyes. “How long until it’s over?”

real sad hours if u up click like. i love erasmus and laurent bonding over their shared trauma <33333333333333333333 laurent and erasmus friendship propaganda 24-fucking-7 bay bee!!!!! 6. unironically this is one of my fav fic ive ever written skdljmfhgvlksjdhflmgkvjshldkjfghvmls call the midwife is one of my favorite shows and writing this made me look at birth as something visceral and possibly horrible and traumatic. i wanna write more fucked up birth scenes, SO MANY MORE. ridley scott knew what he was doing Sandalwood (erasmus/kallias my sweet boys i love u so much) 4.

“I do,” Erasmus breathes, ducking his head, flushed as though embarrassed. “In the gardens, the perfume from the orange trees all around us on those summer nights.” Kallias smiles behind him – Erasmus knows his body so intimately he can feel it in how Kallias’ posture changes, though he can’t see the soft turn of his lips. “The scent was so cloying I thought it would drive me mad. It made me want to kiss you senseless.” Erasmus laughs, breathlessly, imagining the warm heat of Kallias’ mouth against his. “Don’t blame that on the orange trees, dear one.”

beloved..................... im weeping.......... 6. these two make me fuckign CRY ON THE REG I LOVE THEM SO MUCH MY SWEET BOYS YOU DESERVE THE WORLD- Wisps of Smoke******************* (lauguste fic) 4. ***CW EXPLICIT INCEST*** (i mean....... obviously lmfao)

“Call me what I like,” Auguste growled against his ear. “You know what I like.” He did. Laurent did. He knew everything Auguste liked – the slow flick of Laurent’s tongue on the underside of his cock, that tender spot behind his earlobe, the way Laurent’s thighs looked straddled atop him like his horse – and this. “Brother,” Laurent gasped, desperate, “Brother, please, harder. Harder.”

i wanted the incest to be explicitly part of the kink here lmfaoooooo 6. hehehehehehehhehehehhehe lauguste................... i need to write more of u But I Love It (laurent is allergic to latex fic) 4.

“Laurent,” Auguste said, voice high in warning. Laurent braced himself, stiffening visibly. With what seemed to be monumental effort, Auguste continued, “You know, Laurent. I’m proud of you.”

IM A SOFT BITCH OK???????????????? auguste is PROUD of his baby bro for overcoming his sexual trauma and getting that fat dick 6. SLJHVDLMKJDHGVLK PEOPLE FUCKING LOVED THIS FIC i tried to be funny and i think it worked. plus some softe bits thrown in. i also kind of see lots of humor fic where its a no abuse au, but i wanted to write something comedic where the regent still. existed u kno????? anyways hahahahha i dont think i can write anything like this again but im glad y'all liked it Is It Cold In The Water (slice of life fic) 4.

Laurent opens his mouth to say something cheeky, but instead, what comes out is: “Do you think Aimeric had the right idea?” Damen is quiet for so long, gaze serious and framed with his long, dark lashes, that Laurent wonders if he’d spoken aloud at all – and when he’s sure he had, he realizes Damen had remembered Aimeric after all. When he speaks again, the sleep is gone from his voice. “Laurent,” Damen says carefully, as though approaching a spooked horse, “Is something wrong?”

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 soft,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, 6. ruby likes this fic lskjdvhmflgksfjdhmvglkjsdhflkvgmjhlekjfhdvlgskjfhv im a SIMP- The Devil's Got Nothing On Me (AIMERIC FIC LEGGOOOO) 4. there are lots of lil nuggets in here!!!!

Aimeric blinks, and all he can think is, you knew? He says, "I – I just." "I am a patient man," Guion breathes, "I support everyone in my household. Everyone. But Aimeric, you are truly testing my patience. Your mother came to me in tears, begging me to find you. Look at what you did to her! There was nothing I could say until we found you!" "I'm sorry," Aimeric whispers, looking at Loyse, "I'm-" "Look at me," Guion roars.

this conversation was inspired by a very miserable encounter with my boss lmfao. fuck that guy and fuck guion

The regent, blue eyes sparkling - and Aimeric has never thought eyes could look just like a summer sky until now - says to Guion but really to Aimeric, "I was thinking I could take little Aimeric riding tomorrow. Just the two of us." Loyse says, before Guion can speak, voice trembling with relief, "I think that's a wonderful idea, your Highness."

~dramatic irony~ lmfaoooooooooo. WE know of course that this is a bad thing, but it's always fun to have characters make bad choices that they have no idea are bad. i also did this briefly in "Like Me" with auguste's ex wife taking nicaise to church because she was so overwhelmed at home and he offered to help. of course, the regent is always happy to help out. evil evil evil

"-was worried it might be difficult for him." A soft, lilting laugh. The guards had said the regent was in the library, and then there is Guion, right there with him. Aimeric is suddenly angry, not sure why his father is with the regent, who is his and no one else's. The regent responds, "I daresay it's been perfectly easy. It seems you've done most of the work already."

i wanted to highlight the fact that it was aimeric's neglect that lead him to the regent in the first place. hence "youve done most of the work already" - guion by ignoring and neglecting aimeric created the perfect environment for the regent to sweep in and take advantage. like leaving food out btwn 40-140 F is a perfect breeding ground for bacteria LOL. the books touch on that but i wanted to make it explicit

He is so, so ashamed. It's unbearable, the thought of her kind eyes, the way she cried for him, the way he pushed her away. Before he'd left to join the prince's guard, she had taken his hand, kissed it, and said in a voice fragile as glass, "It's been such a long time since I've seen you smile like that," but in that moment he could think only of the regent's letter warm in his pocket.

6. honestly i know ive sounded super conceited this whole time but i kind of tear up whenever i read through the end of the fic lmfao. aimeric is just so fucking depressing as a character and i love that i really got to explore that in this fic. he really didnt have anyone, did he????? he's like a tragic greek character where you just watch him stumbling towards his inevitable end and it hurts the whole time. its even worse on the reread ANYWAYYYYYYY thats it. thanks so much for the ask anon!!!!!!! feel free to send me more!!!

[fangirlandiknowit101]

30 BTS writer asks: 1, 12 + 18? ❤️🌻

Almost forgot to add - thanks for asking<33333

1. What was the first fandom and/or pairing that you wrote fic for?

Unsurprisingly, it was for Naruto and Sasuke/Naruto. You can still read it in all its glory, even on ao3 lmao. Might be hard to believe but that fic (Unsuspicious title, don't ask why it's called that I have no explanations) is really the absolute first thing I wrote that counts as a fanfic. I didn't write about other people's fictional characters before that. I didn't really write much outside of school at all, not sure how I lived my life tbh...

12. Is there a trope you haven’t written yet but really want to?

I answered earlier that I want to write a horse rider au at some point, but what I'd also like is to write a real enemies to lovers fic. Like, actual enemies. But it might be too angsty, so who knows if I'll ever make it lol.

18. What is a line/scene you’re really proud of? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene.

Aah you guys really want that commentary don't you... maybe one day I'll release a version of tswm with director's commentary for the whole thing hahahahaha (jk I'd never have time to do that)

But alright, I'm gonna take the opportunity to comment on another scene in tswm that I definitely this deserves it, it's the reunion scene between Naruto and Sasuke in chapter 49! I hesitated to pick this one bc it's so long and emotional, and also I don't want to add any accidental spoilers... but oh well. Here we go!

[My comments will be in bold text, this starts almost at the beginning of the chapter, right when Sasuke meets Naruto in Kaguya's place.]

He reached out with a hand, the bright light reflecting in the half-moon in his palm. It glowed, and just like that, his hand wrapped around another’s.

Naruto.

He sucked in a breath, lungs desperate for air. Naruto stood before him, chest heaving, hand clutching Sasuke’s so hard he feared it might break.

Their shared beat rang loud in his ears, eyes wide as they drank each other in. The darkness had given way to white, fuzzy light, their bodies floating, suspended in air.

“Sasuke,” Naruto whispered, as if afraid to drown out the sound of their connection.

Honestly, I tried my best to make it as painful as possible. That's all I wanted lol. At first I had no idea how to write this scene, but then I just got a feeling and tried to write it in words.

There was no hiding in this place. It was similar to that strange place that seemed to exist between them when they fought, blows connecting, hearts open. Between one breath and the next, it would be gone, their shared hearts lingering long after.

Nothing more poetic than that special place Kishimoto created for them when they exchange blows... extremely gay.

Here, there was only the two of them, the heat of their bodies as Naruto reached for his face.

“Am I dreaming?” Naruto wondered, fingers stroking along Sasuke’s cheekbone. “You look so real…”

They sank down, slowly, until their feet touched solid white. He shivered, the tips of Naruto’s fingers touching his chin, his mouth.

“It could be a dream,” Sasuke said quietly, exhaling as Naruto came closer.

“I can feel your heart,” Naruto murmured, his forehead coming to rest against Sasuke’s temple. “I missed you so much.”

Images flashed before Sasuke’s eyes, impressions of the world from Naruto’s perspective. Menma as the kyuubi. Kakashi, entering through a window. Iruka, hand gentle as he reached over the table.

Sakura, pain drawing her face tight. A mountain of paperwork. Snippets of conversation. The overwhelming pain of loneliness, like walls closing in on him.

He puzzled together enough pieces to make sense of the days since they separated.

Must be convenient to just read each other's minds... I should stop making fun of my own writing. But anyway, I felt very clever when I realized I could skip explanations between them and just let them see each other's memories of the past few days. I think it fits that they could see it through the other person's eyes, all the emotions too. Especially how painful it was for Naruto and how much he was trying to keep it together in front of his friends, and still failing. It gives Sasuke a better understanding of what would have happened if he'd decided to leave after one year passed (and I'm still bitter at Kishimoto for doing that in canon.)

“Naruto,” he sighed, lifting a hand to sift through soft strands of hair, closing his eyes as Naruto pressed into him.

Hearts bared, he felt Naruto’s desperate longing as his own. It mirrored his own pain, the aching emptiness filling his chest. Little by little, the cold was pushed away by warmth, Naruto’s mouth touching his cheek, his jaw, his throat. It burned against his skin, each point of contact erupting into tendrils of heat that seeped into his body.

“I didn’t know what to do,” Naruto confessed, lips shaping the words onto Sasuke’s throat. “I couldn’t go back to you, I-“

Sasuke turned his head, capturing his mouth. The words were lost between their lips, swallowed by the sudden surge of need. Naruto’s arm wrapped around his neck, keeping him in place. A fever caught him, leaving him dizzy and faint. He felt emotions between them like a physical caress, like they swirled in and out of their bodies, like a strong wind playing with fallen leaves.

Pain. Longing. Fear.

Happiness. Comfort. Love.

Naruto kissed him like he’d die if they stopped. He might, for all Sasuke knew.

Don't mind me, I was just crying buckets as I wrote this.

Their hands were still clasped tight, their palms pressed together, keeping their marks in contact. Teeth dug into his lower lip, but he could barely feel the pain over the onslaught of emotion. It was overwhelming, to share Naruto’s heart so fully. Was this how Naruto had felt, when Sasuke had touched him by accident? When Sasuke had shared too much of himself, and Naruto had been unable to give him the same in return.

I think it actually wasn't as overwhelming for Naruto when Sasuke accidentally touched him. This place that Kaguya controls just amplifies things a lot.

No such restraints now.

Their souls were on fire, like chakra flames billowing around their bodies. It was too much to make sense of, and yet it felt as if they’d always been this close, always been one and the same. Naruto fit inside him like a key, like Sasuke was now unlocked, his body no longer keeping him prisoner.

“Naruto,” he breathed out, over and over again, every nerve ending alight as they held each other.

I was listening to this song called Heat Up by Giant Rooks as I wrote this (that's where the chapter title comes from and honestly the lyrics are just *chef's kiss*) and I really tried to use as much metaphor as I could, idk if that makes it sound boring haha but for once I was definitely thinking very hard about every single sentence. And I tried to make it as "alive" as I could, so you'd feel it rather than have it described to you.

An eternity later they calmed down, mouths sliding lazily over each other, heartbeats finally finding their shared rhythm. Their foreheads pressed together, Sasuke’s eyes fluttering open to meet deep blue, their usual strength faded into self-doubt.

“What’s wrong?” he asked, running his fingers through Naruto’s hair, thumb tracing the shell of his ear. “Don’t hide from me, not here.”

Aww look at Sasuke, so in tune with his emotions. He really is an all or nothing kind of guy. If they already share everything in this place, there's no point in having secrets. Besides, his worst fear is Naruto losing confidence because of something he said or did.

Naruto let out a sharp breath, lifting their clasped hands between their chests.

“I missed you,” he said again, eyes closing in pain. “I’m so happy you’ve been okay.”

So much pain. Sasuke struggled to make sense of it, so much of it reflected inwards, towards Naruto himself. He could understand the longing, the absence of him like a gaping hole. It mirrored his own pain, pain he’d locked inside his heart within a steel cage. It flowed freely now, wrapping around Naruto’s in recognition.

But the rest… Naruto let out a sob, and yet he was smiling. Sasuke pressed another kiss to his lips, unsure of what to say.

I know Naruto did that whole waterfall thing where he embraced his evil side and totally let go of all his negative energy... But you can't tell me he's 100% okay and only happy and never feels pain. When will Konoha start offering therapy... Jokes aside, at this moment in time Naruto is so conflicted. The whole time he's been worried about Sasuke leaving him, and telling himself that Sasuke would be happier in the other dimension, and that logically he should let Sasuke stay, but he absolutely doesn't want Sasuke to leave him. It's the most selfish thing he's ever felt, I think, this need to have Sasuke by his side. And he's got so much on his shoulders, just piling up, everyone relying on him to somehow magically fix the world. And he's afraid of failing, of acknowledging to himself that there are parts of him that aren't ready to shoulder this burden, that he's still hurting, that there's still a part of him that could have become like Menma. He's supposed to be completely selfless but he isn't, and he thinks of that as a character flaw, a personal failure. And that's kind of where his resolution to not become hokage comes from. Because he doesn't think he can remove this selfish parts of him, and so maybe he should embrace them instead.

“Sasuke, it’s so strange…” Naruto started, his words slow, carefully chosen. “You understand Charasuke so well, but Menma… I can’t accept him. And now I realize, he shows the ugliest parts of me. The parts that I’m afraid of.”

They both leaned back a little, to see each other’s faces. Light played over Naruto’s features, blurring him at the edges. Sasuke cupped his cheek, tilting his chin up so that their eyes met. Now that he knew what to look for, he could feel Naruto’s fear.

“It’s always there,” Naruto confessed, raw honesty in his voice. “The fear of losing you. The fear of not being strong enough. The fear of becoming hokage, and failing.”

Sasuke opened his mouth to say something, to reassure him, but Naruto shook his head quickly.

Sasuke, on the other hand, he never held himself up to be a good person. He's well aware that he has weaknesses, that he's putting up walls so he won't have to deal with emotions and stuff. But he does believe (a bit blindly) in Naruto, I think. Even though he thinks Naruto won't succeed, it's not because of anything that Naruto does or fails to do. He thinks it's because the world won't follow him, that Konoha isn't capable of change. But he never thought that Naruto would actually give up or have these kinds of doubts.

“Let me say this. I didn’t understand it at first. Menma always rubbed me the wrong way. I know you don’t like him either, but for me… It’s like looking at myself and knowing I gave up.”

He drew in a deep breath, his fingers trembling around Sasuke’s.

“And now, here, I can’t avoid that fear. Because all of it… all of it is for you, Sasuke.” He swallowed, and through the fear, Sasuke saw his determination. “You asked me, if there’s any room in my head for anyone but you. And there isn’t.”

Naruto's brain is 99% Sasuke and 1% ramen, that's just fact. That aside, this might be one of my favorite quotes in the fic.

Frowning, Sasuke bit the inside of his cheek to stay silent. Naruto was working up to something, he could tell, and part of him couldn’t help but think it would end the two of them.

“Don’t look at me like that,” Naruto said, drawing the pad of his thumb over Sasuke’s eyebrow, the touch equal parts reassuring and painful. “I can hear your thoughts, you know. Do you really believe that I would choose anything else over you?”

A lie caught on Sasuke’s tongue. He didn’t want to believe it, but what place did he have by Naruto’s side? How could he be all that Naruto wanted him, needed him, to be? How could he be someone that others would accept walking by his side?

Oh, Sasuke. Always so ready for Naruto to cast him aside. He doesn't want to stand in the way of Naruto's dreams *wipes tear*

“I don’t believe that you would want to,” he replied, eventually. “But maybe you should.”

They stood for a long time, looking at each other. Sasuke felt torn in two directions. He wanted to tell Naruto to never leave him. He wanted to say that he’d accept anything. That he’d remove himself from Naruto’s presence to make the choice for him. That he couldn’t, wouldn’t, stand between Naruto and his dreams.

That he’d known, all along, that the other dimension was only a dream. An impossibility. That he accepted this, and wouldn’t resent Naruto for choosing the village over him.

I think the difference between Naruto and Sasuke here, is that even though they both think the other should maybe leave them for better things, Naruto is much less ready to actually give Sasuke up. Sasuke is more of the martyr type lol.

“You deserve me,” Naruto said, voice dark with conviction. “Don’t you dare think otherwise. Don’t you understand? If you saw what I’ve been doing the past days…”

Naruto lifted their joined hands higher, shifted his grip until he held Sasuke’s palm open in front of himself.

“I thought only of you. I cared only about you. What good is the village to me, if you’re not there?”

His heart felt too heavy in his chest. Naruto’s words rang through his ears, the implication behind them ensnaring his heart until Naruto held it in his hand, too.

“I don’t want any of it, if you’re not with me.”

Sasuke lowered his eyes. He couldn’t allow himself to give in. He’d already given so much, and although he knew that Naruto would have this, too, it was too much in this moment.

“Sasuke… When are you going to recognize that you’re a good person? That even if our relationship hadn’t changed like this, I’d still need you beside me?”

I wanted to write this part so badly... To make Naruto tell Sasuke that he's a good person. That Naruto thinks so, at least. It's one of the first things I thought of for this scene. Not that Sasuke agrees haha.

“Me, a good person?” Sasuke raised his eyebrows, meeting Naruto’s gaze again. He recognized the stubborn glint in Naruto’s eyes, and sighed. “Even if that was true, you’re smart enough to know it’s not enough.”

Slowly, Naruto pulled his hand closer, his grip turning gentle. Sasuke caught himself holding his breath, as Naruto’s lips connected with the mark on his palm.

“You still don’t understand,” Naruto murmured, the movement of his lips tickling Sasuke’s skin. “The past few days, what have you been doing? Caring for the children, when I wasn’t there to do it. Putting Charasuke before yourself, comforting him in the ways he needed you to. Holding yourself together. Trusting me to come back.”

This is where we acknowledge exactly how much Sasuke has changed. Naruto spent the days apart thinking only of Sasuke, even to the point where he was neglecting his friends and duties. Sasuke, on the other hand, stepped up to fill the role he thought Naruto left behind, hiding his pain behind helping others. Ultimately trusting Naruto to hold his promise to come back. Also, I just want them to be soft with each other T_T

Staring at him, Sasuke’s breath caught in his chest at the swell of pride Naruto felt for him. Was it true, that he had changed so much? In Naruto’s eyes, he had. It was startling, to realize how Naruto thought of him. But Naruto had changed too, he thought. They had grown closer, in a way he didn’t think they could have in their own Konoha.

“I think Charasuke is a bit like you,” Sasuke said, lips twitching upwards at Naruto’s affronted look. “He needs physical comfort. I don’t mind giving it to you, and I guess I don’t mind giving it to him either. You both tend to do whatever you feel like, anyway.”

“You used to mind.” Naruto looked serious, reaching out to touch Sasuke’s mouth as if to prove his point. “Suddenly, you didn’t.”

The smile slipped from Sasuke’s lips. Naruto was right. A few weeks ago, he did push Charasuke out of the window. To be fair, Charasuke hadn’t liked him much back then, either, and the circumstances had been very different. He did understand him better now. If Menma represented Naruto’s fears, Charasuke represented everything Sasuke wanted in life. But Charasuke didn’t have Naruto, didn’t have Menma with him either, and maybe that was why Sasuke wanted to be there for him. His connection with Naruto was precious to him, had kept him going, had kept him questioning himself even in his worst moments of darkness. Had given him a reason not to give up on a life that wasn’t filled with pain and hatred.

Naruto made it worth it to change. Was he hoping to help Charasuke change, too?

Spoiler alert... yes you were, Sas.

Perhaps Kaguya had something to do with it, but maybe, even without her influence, he would have reached this point anyway if given enough time. Time they didn’t have back home. It surprised him to realize that Naruto had thought of this already. That he felt selfish for wanting Sasuke to go back with him, when he knew it would be painful.

“You minded when I touched you, too,” Naruto added, as a reminder that they were talking about the two of them.

“I didn’t.” It was easy to confess. “I couldn’t allow myself to accept it, but I never minded. And now…”

Even if Naruto could read most of his thoughts in this space, it was difficult to say the words.

“I was afraid to have more of you. I still am.  Because I know they’ll never accept it.”

Sasuke vs homophobia :( Can't really kill that with a sword. Sasuke was definitely in love with him before they went to the RTN dimension, he'd just buried it so deep that he had no idea it was there or what it was. If you separate love from attraction it's not really gay, is it? (It is)

Naruto kissed him again, desperately. There were so many thoughts swirling between them, a mess of images and emotions overshadowed by the overwhelming fear of losing each other.

Naruto’s guilt, for not being able to reach Menma like Sasuke reached Charasuke. Their worry for each other. The frustration of being forced to wait. Sasuke’s slow realization of how much Naruto meant to him. How much his family meant to him, even a different version of them.

“I can’t be without you again,” Naruto said, swallowing thickly. “There’s so much I want to say and I don’t know how.”

“I’m here,” Sasuke promised. “Any way you want me to be.”

Even though it hurt, knowing the struggle that lay ahead of them, how Naruto had struggled only the past few days.

He wasn’t sure when he’d closed his eyes, but Naruto’s hands holding his face between them made him open them again. His expression was serious, almost solemn.

“I think you’d be happier if you stayed there,” Naruto whispered, searching his eyes. “You can’t deny it. I know they’d take care of you, and I can tell that your bond with your family is important to you. In a different way than ours, but still. I’d forgive you, if you chose them.”

Stop sacrificing yourself, Naruto. I don't like it.

“How could you say that?” Sasuke grabbed Naruto’s wrists, glaring at him. “Even after everything you said about how you can’t be without me, how you’d never choose anything over me, and you still think I would leave you? Even when you can feel my heart, you think I won’t choose you no matter what?”

Sasuke calling him out, as he should.

He knocked their foreheads together, tightening his grip.

“You think I’d choose happiness over you?”

How could he be happy, if Naruto wasn’t there with him? It wasn’t even an option. He cared about Charasuke, that was true. And the other version of Itachi, of Shisui, his family… Even the Sakura of that world. But how could they compare? Losing Charasuke would hurt, but it wouldn’t rip his soul apart. Staying with them would be a life, but it wouldn’t be living. How could Naruto think of himself as selfish, and still be so incredibly selfless when it came to Sasuke? What was he supposed to do, to make Naruto trust him once and for all?

“If I deserve you, why wouldn’t you deserve me in turn?”

Naruto didn’t have an answer to that. Sasuke hadn’t expected him to, and he felt him struggle with the concept. Naruto’s hero complex wasn’t doing either of them any good.

Like, I personally don't like the concept of anyone deserving love or not deserving it. Love is something you give, freely, regardless of how society values the other person. The love you give isn't less worth depending on the person receiving it. But I think the both of them are so traumatized that they need to make peace with this concept. They kind of need to be told - yes, you do deserve love, and I will give it to you. Naruto's hero complex is like... we don't have time to unpack all of that.

“You want to do this the hard way?” Sasuke continued, tone sharp. “I’ll do it with you. I don’t think you’ll succeed but I’ll do it.”

He gathered up all his resolve, all his conviction, pushed aside his own reservations.

“Saying you’ll forgive me… that’s a lie. You wouldn’t. You never would. And I wouldn’t want you to, anyway. If you wanted me by your side and I couldn’t do it, you’d be right to hate me.”

“I could never hate you.”

“Then I’d hate myself.”

Bearing each other's burdens and all that...

Naruto made a face, as if to disagree, but Sasuke felt him smile despite the topic of their conversation.

“What kind of role reversal is this,” he muttered, pressing his thumbs into Sasuke’s cheeks childishly. “I don’t even know why I’m arguing about it.”

“Because you love me.”

They stared at each other. Naruto’s eyes widened in shock, but Sasuke held his ground. What was the point in pretending anything else? It all made sense like this, and perhaps deep down Sasuke had always suspected it, even before he returned to Konoha.

“Y-you can’t just say it out loud!” Naruto spluttered, slapping his hands onto his own face instead, hiding behind them with a groan. “Stop being so smug about it!”

Me, while I wrote this: Yeah, you can't just say that out loud! The pain of being perceived. I am suffering with Naruto.

“I won the argument, didn’t I?”

“Ugh, shut up!”

Feeling lighter, Sasuke wrapped his arms around Naruto, leaning his cheek against the top of his head, Naruto burying his nose in his neck. He’d deny it when they were back in reality, but he could feel that Naruto wanted the body contact, and he was unable to resist it. It didn’t take long for Naruto to calm down, releasing a huff into Sasuke’s neck.

“Maybe we can just stay in this place forever,” he said, sneaking his arms around Sasuke’s back.

“You’d miss ramen too much.”

If an emotional scene doesn't end with a joke, what are you even doing with your life. But writing them hug was like, releasing so many endorphins. I'm weak to it.

It was strange, to talk and immediately feel every thought behind the words, every emotion on full display. Naruto’s amusement radiated off him, and it was his turn to feel a little smug as he concentrated on everything that Sasuke felt for him.

When Naruto started imagining long days spent in bed, Sasuke rolled his eyes and decided they’d been emotional enough for the time being.

Sasuke like, I can accept the lovey-dovey stuff, but I draw a thick line in front of the bedroom door. He's got some work left to do lol.

Idk if any of this made any sense but... there you have it!

[outropeace]

elotito tagged me on this so i’m gonna do it for her <33333

1. describe how you first started writing and when you first posted

i began to write in general since i was around 14 like any other emo kid kdjdjsks and o began to write fics when a friend asked me for one as a birthday present. it was written in a hurry and it’s not my favorite but i really enjoyed doing it. i posted that exact same fic on their birthday

2. which of your characters do you typically resonate most closely with? do you base any characters off of yourself?

it depends the fic i guess. and not really, i think the closest i’ve been to do that is in the rockstar au (coming to the @bottomlouisficfest very soon), i put one or two of my old insecurities in h so he could connect better and wouldn’t be persieved as just an asshole-y dude cause i don’t like that and louis don’t deserve that uwu🌸

3. where do you often find inspiration?

music, movies, tiktoks (DONT JUDGE KDKDKS)

4. has quarantine helped or hindered your writing process?

before the quarantine i had around 3 wips, now i have 8

5. do you listen to music/noise while you write or do you prefer silence?

i listen lofi youtube playlists shjdkld

6. what is your biggest writing pet peeve in your writing or in general?

me repeating “Oh...” over and over again through tall my fics, it shouldn’t be legal

7. describe your ideal writing setup

rainy day, good coffee, comfy sweater, my cat besides me, arely sending texts about teeth/imessage games, snacks

8. favorite time of day to write?

nights (it’s usually when i have time)

9. favorite genre to write + one you’d like to try writing in the future?

i’d LOVE to write a thriller

10. do you struggle with writer’s block? how do you typically overcome it?

i just leave the fic for a bit, i don’t really like to push myself about this cause i’m just doing it for fun

11. what is the easiest part of your writing process and the most difficult?

the easiest is the dialogues, i could write pages and pages of just dialogues in hours and the hardest is the smut dhjdd

12. how do you come up with original characters? (if applicable)

it depends, is the antagonist? i ask myself how’d i feel if i were them, like a third party just trying (and usually failing) to get in between

13. what is your favorite and least favorite word?

i like “wet” i just... yeah.... and least favorite i don’t really know tbh

14. what is one thing about your writing that you’re really proud of and one thing you hope to continue working at?

i like that people conect with the characters because i always put a lot of effort in making them realistic (as much as i can), i make them flawled and sometimes even messy but with good hearts and intentions, all of them are (even the antagonists). and my grammar OH MY GOD MY GRAMMAR

15. what work of yours has your favorite ‘verse/world building? how did you come up with it?

hands down the ice prince fic. and funny thing is, i already had my prompt for the fic fest but i just couldn’t stop thinking about one particular prompt about a bratty prince and an alpha who hated omegas and the amount of POSSIBILITIES that had. two days later or so, the mods of the fest gave us the opportunity to pick another prompt if we wanted and the rest is HISTORY

16. what font and size do you write in? single spaced or double?

11 and single

17. what is a typo(s) you find yourself making consistently?

baby do we have TIME FOR THIS ONE?

18. (if applicable) do you separate fic writing from fandom?

yes, always 100000000%

19. what emotion is your favorite to write? which is the most difficult?

angst, sadness, anguish, sorrow, jealousy, i love to hurt hearts. and it’s not an emotion but after they get together it’s really difficult to me to actually keep going (oh god dkdkdkkdd)

20. what is one thing you hope readers always take away from your works?

that that’s okay to fuck up, that no matter the circumstances you have to respect your partner and TALK WITH THEM and that a person can be successful, independent and a badass while being soft and a c*mslut

21. what is the best and worst writing advice you’ve ever received?

i think “write whatever you like, you’re not being paid for it anyways” is the best and only advise i’ve actually listened to

22. which one of your works would you most want to see turned into a film/television show?

it’s complicated cause my two favorites are abos and idk how that would work dkskkss but the ice prince and the alpha/alpha fic

23. do you write scenes chronologically or out of order?

chronologically but i have a document apart where i write everything that comes to my mind at the moment, that one is A MESS

24. how do you handle criticism?

i think good, if it’s respectful

25. what is the advice you would give to someone who is looking to start writing?

trust yourself, have fun

26. what kind of feedback on your work always makes your day?

ANY type of positive feedback makes my day tbh

27. which fic ‘verse of your own would you most like to exist in? which fic’s characters would you most like to befriend?

none tbh dkdkks and louis, obviously

28. what do you always enjoy getting asks about/wish people would ask about more?

about my stories, i love when people just come to rant to me about certain things the characters did and ask me why they did it

29. what has writing added to your life? how has it changed you?

it relaxes me a lot. i just can write for hours and hours and it just feels nice and in some way exciting

30. why do you write?

refer to question 29 kdkdkxk

boost yourself + tags!

1a. share the last sentence you wrote

from the exes to lovers au:

The second hiccup of the night came in the form of his ex smiling to a boy sitting next to him on a couch. The boy had gorgeous, dark and wild hair, clear hazel eyes and a pretty pouty mouth. Their body language screamed attraction and that they both were ready to devour each other. Louis was familiar to the smile Harry was giving to him, bright and seductive, ready to give anything you asked for.

2a. describe the wip you’re most excited about

right now i’m very excited for the happiest season au, my “cliche story” au and for my exes to lovers au dksks i’m excited about a lot of my wips i’m so sorryjdjd

3a. share the piece of dialogue from one of your works you’re most proud of

from the alpha/alpha au:

“I’m not giving up on love,” He softly touched the hand that was still grabbing his thigh. “To me, love is like flowers. Each one needs a special treatment, if you give an orchid the same treatment you give to an iris, the orchid will die. Same thing with love. I’m not giving up on love, I’m just changing the treatment. We might not be an orchid, but we could make such a pretty iris.”

4a. share the best first and last lines from your work(s)

favorite first line from the sugar baby au:

Powerful people only end up with powerful people. The rest are just playthings in their lives. Louis Tomlinson was many things, but he wasn’t anybody’s plaything.

favorite last line from the ice prince fic:

“Who would have guessed…” Harry whispered after a while, smiling against Louis’ lips. “the dragon finally got to keep the princess.”

5a. link the last fic you read

HAYLEY’S MASTERPIECE

6a. link the last work you published

that’d be the ice prince fic

7a. link to your ao3 (if applicable)

hereee

8a. someone that inspires you

louis teheeee

9a. a comfort fic/work that you’ve been grateful for this year

god, again, there’s so so many of them, like the amount of authors i’m so grateful for, the list is infinite but these are a few that comes to my mind

all elote’s (@defencelesst) fics makes me really really happy and never fails to give me a cozy/wintery feeling, her louis IS THE MOST PRECIOUS THING ON EARTH AND HER HARRY IS JUST PERFECTION, i’m in love with her descriptions and how she just takes you THERE. hanis @loulicate-recs always makes me smile so fucking hard. ris @falsegoodnight fics NOW.... well.... ris fics they make me smile but also make me want to throw my phone to the other side of the room BEST OF BOTH WORLD IG. MAR’S FICS (loubellies on twitter, idk their @ here i’m sORRY) ARE LITERALLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE AUTHORS AT THE MOMENT, such a pretty louis IM SO IN LOVE WITH MAR’S LOUIS ITS UNFAIR

10a. other writers that you’d like to tag!

omg i’m probably so late to this and idk how many of you have actually done this so here goes nothing @allwaswell16, @runaway-train-works, @greenfeelings, @kingsofeverything, @thepolourryexpress, @larents

[inkykeiji]

Clari!!! It's 🎨 anon. I meant to send this in forever ago but got busy but I am so happy to hear you found a psychologist that is working for you AND that those worksheets have been helping you 🥺❤️. I am so proud of you, angel, seriously. It makes me so happy to hear you're doing well cause you deserve to feel good and safe and happy.

NOW ONTO THE MAIN PART OF THIS ASK WHICH IS THE BRILLIANCE THAT WAS BMB PT 4. Your way with words and descriptions are always so captivating, I can literally feel myself transported into your universes. You make emotions and thoughts so crystal clear, and I love how complex every character is in your stories--whether they are minor or major players. There was so much to love in this chapter. Idk where to start. I loved the allusion to Dabi/Tomura's more intimate relationship together as well as THOSE complex feelings they (more so Dabi) have for each other. And I loved loved loved Keigo's POV, too--you actually had me feeling bad for him and rooting for him for a second when he stood up to the Chief! ALSO THAT MR. ORANGE REFERENCE FROM DABI TO KEIGO, SHGISHGS YOU CLEVER GIRL, I WAS SCREAMING IN EXCITEMENT!! Apart from the amazing character development we see in both characters and relationships in this chapter, the plot is getting so interesting in terms of the Chief's motivations/Keigo's motivations/Tomura's motivations and so much more I can't even type. AHHH!! Your stories are always worth the wait. You did such an amazing job bby, tumblr honestly doesn't provide enough space for all my praise and feedback. I hope you get some WELL-deserved rest and care, Clari--you knocked it out of the park, babes. ILY and take care until next time, queen!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ - 🎨 anon

HI PALETTE BABIE <333

tw: bmb spoilers

thank you so much!!!!! your words mean a lot to me and i really appreciate them <333 idk if this is weird or odd but i find myself thinking of you often on my way to my sessions!!! i feel like i have an even deeper sense of camaraderie with you after that ask hahaha <3 yes!! i've been given some worksheets from my own psychologist as well now and although recovery and building coping strategies etc is very hard work and extremely emotionally taxing, we're making progress and i feel really good about that! i hope you're doing fantastic <33

WAAAAAAAH my sweet palette please 🥺🥺🥺 i can't even tell you how many times i've reread your ask since you sent it!!! thank you SO much for such wonderful and thorough feedback, it genuinely means the world to me that you've taken the time to send your thoughts in and i appreciate it so very much!!!!! <33333 thank you from the bottom of my heart for such splendid and special compliments!!!

HEHEHE i'm SO glad to hear that keigo was making you feel bad for him!!! that was totally my goal!! in a way, keigo embodies one of the central themes/messages in bmb as a whole (the complexity of morality, and how it's muddled even more when entangled in personal relationships). HAHAHAHA thank you!!! reservoir dogs is one of my all-time favourite films ever, and it was one of the many pieces of art that inspired bmb, so i wanted to pay homage to it within the story <3 also fun fact: the reason why a similar line ends up in one of the messages tomura received is because the boys down at the station love the film and reference often

yes! part five is very BAMBAMBAM in terms of how things happen, like it moves so fast but i'm literally vibrating with excitement to share it with all of you so hopefully i can get that out soon!! <33 i am literally BEYOND overjoyed that you enjoyed part four,,, honestly words can't even begin to describe the emotion i feel every time i reread this ask <333 again, thank you so much, i love u with all my heart <33333

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happy birthday to the bestie @summerlost​​ 💗💭 !!!!!!!!!!!!!  jia. 🙈 what a crazy year it's been. all these memories we've made together. girl you crazy 😫but im not even about to put all that on tumblr 😂. congrats on another trip around the sun, im so proud of you ❤ love u girlie see u at the club LMFAOO😂❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉🎉 

( jk ur real bday message is under the read more ilu HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEY )

literally me preparing this message just hours before ur birthday but i was determined to have it ready by the time it hit midnight for u so HERE I AM HELLO 🤍 going to try and make this letter heartfelt and cute because we never say things like this to each other but u really have become such an important person in my life in such a short time u just mean very much to me and i really do want you to know just wonderful and special u are to me !! we have only known each other ?? like 5 months ? is that right ? girl idk but within those 5 months we have managed to talk to each other like every single day except maybe 2 days isn’t that so crazy ? so i want to thank u for always keeping me company and crying over txt with me and just being such a warm source of happiness in my life, it really has been so wonderful to get to know you and to be ur friend 🤍 

going to list some things that you’ve done for me that maybe you don’t know you’ve done for me but you deserve to know .. i know i said i was gonna get mushy here but good ness .. anyway it’s so nice to wake up to messages from u everyday and to go to sleep after talking to u all day and knowing that i will have a friend whenever i need it like fr i don’t know how we do it because i am usually so bad at communication rip ..... it has just always felt so easy to talk to you and we clicked right away and there was never a moment of awkwardness like there can be when first meeting someone which thank god .  i’m more comfy with u than i have been with some friends i’ve known for 5+ years and i think that says a lot about our friendship as well as you as a person. we talk literally all the time and it just makes me so happy, i look forward to talking to u every day 💗 whether its about our ships or personal lives or random shite or my godson pumpkin it never matters to me, i am just so happy you are here and that i get to know you

did you know i like never listened to taylor swift before meeting u ? apart from that one time i saw her live in concert when i was like 12 but i don’t even remember that NSNSNSN but i’ll have you know the songs you’ve showed me are special to me now and i enjoy listening to them and she will now forever remind me of u! i have a tendency to try to get into things and like what my friends like so just know whenever you show me stuff i will file it in the heart shaped jia folder in my brain and keep it there forever. literally no matter what it is. tht goes for pacrim too that was so random but i became obsessed with it right after u showed it to me and i’ve actually watched it twice more after we watched it together <3 speaking of, i hope we can have more movie nights together or just cute lil kosmi dates in general because they are so fun and we have a watchlist piling up already so we should crack that open when we can … whenever ur nawt busy being a doctor or whatever

reminds me; do u remember that time i panicked because i ate burnt chicken nuggets and u told me i was gonna get c*ncer ? girl fun times NMDCNBJSAKFJSFJSDV just so you know i WILL be directing any of my future health concerns to u because i might just break otherwise bc i don’t know how to survive and we don’t want that i don’t think so glad i have a smart sexy big brain friend like u in my life

i hope you have a wonderful wonderful wonderful day today which you just might because it’s also txt comeback today ( u fuckin lucky bitch i cant believe they are obsessed with u ) you deserve it so much !! you work so hard all of the time and i know school can be stressful as well as life but i really am so proud of u because u are doing great things and it will all pay off. u are never alone through any of it either so when it gets too hard u will always have me beside u !!! promise !!!! i love u lots !!!!! even tho ur a gemini !!!! but ur my gemini !!!!!!!

also want to mention how just WONDERFUL it has been writing with u omg ??? we have 11 official plots going on rn as well as a bunch of unofficial ones and it has just been the loveliest experience getting to write and ship with u with every single one of them and it’s just been so fun. u are such a talented writer and u put so much effort and thought into all of ur muses which i immensely applaud u for. you should know this already though considering i am vocally in love with all of them ( when jungjae finally d words i will be coming to sweep up sooyeon i really dont care what u have to say its out of ur hands ? let it go ) … jia best rp partner .. i’ve never had a writing partner that gets so involved with our plots the way you do with me and shows the interest that you do and it means so very much to me, i feel very lucky and im forever thankful u messaged me the day u did and introduced urself because i am a scared bitch and probably would have just admired u from afar on the dash instead <3 i hope we can have 327234 more plots and ships in the future because u have managed to make each of them so special. 

i feel like this letter is so all over the place but am i gonna go back in and make it prettier ? naur because im a mess writing it so ur getting the full heidy emotional love spill experience .. this is the first bday im spending with u so i had to write u this & let u know just how much u mean to me . literally thinking abt u all the time and am always hoping u are happy and having good days on the other side of the world <3 ur just that wonderful. thank u for being my friend beyond the rpc and i hope the future can bring us even closer together !!!! i love u so much stinky ( with affection ) stay sexy ......... <33333

us btw

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who are your top 5 faves and why hehe

oooo i’ve been waiting for this one! i’m just gonna do two top fives, one for haikyuu and one just overall! i feel like you’ll definitely see what kind of person i am because of these, so that’s pretty fun! it became pretty damn long and it’s a lot, to be honest. so i get it if you just skip this entire thing! and thank you for asking this!! when i say i love interacting with you guys </4

haikyuu

1. my lil baby bokuto kōtarō!!

i didn’t necessarily have a favourite in haikyuu until he showed up and i was like ‘yeah, he definitely has my heart’ i just kinda aspire to be like him? he has this endless positivity and works so hard to keep up with everyone and just go against the strongest! he enjoys what he does so much, and i hope i’ll be just as happy as him. his lil emotional outbursts always have me laughing and just 🥺 evertime and i just wanna tell him that he did amazing and i’m so proud of him!!! i could literally write an entire book about him right now and i’m really holding back, because there’s so much more to him than his lil mood swings!! but let’s just keep it at this, hm! 

2. miya atsumu

my lil misunderstood baby!! the second i saw him in the anime, before i had even read the manga, i was dead ass already head over heels with him. people dislike him and discard him being the best setter canon, just because he’s a lil threat? i don’t even know why people dislike him. this guy is a whole five year old with just lots of confidence. he genuinely does not care that people dislike him, because he knows his worth. another thing i hope to have. this lil baby starts making mistakes just because he started getting excited!!!! ain’t that just the cutest lil thing ever 🥺 i just find him so funny and amazing!! the sangwoo jokes are also kinda getting old guys, please

3. hinata shōyō

now this one right here- he’s overlooked even when he’s loved so much. he’s insanely versatile and just so much fun to watch. he’s the real definition of starting nowhere to ending up everywhere. i can only wish to have even a sliver of his determination and motivation, because i have none of that haha </3 but no, he’s pretty interesting! people kinda overlook the fact that he’s selfish, but selfish in a good way. d’you really think he helps all these other guys because he wants to be a lil nice? i mean yeah, that plays part in it, but he’s helping them so they can get better and he’s going against stronger people. he wants them to get better for his own reasons, and i think that that isn’t wrong at all. being selfish isn’t always bad, it can benefit you without hurting anyone y’know. and he’s just my lil baby sunshine who i can always come back to.

4. kita shinsuke

i genuinely don’t know how and why he’s in my top five- i’m just gonna improvise this one and just talk some bullshit. kita is someone who does what needs to be done and cares about the people around him. he shows respect and basically has no regrets. he’s a gentle soul and like i said before, he’s basically the word ‘serenity’ in my eyes. if you’re with him, then you’ll probably just feel at easy and so comfortable. being around kita shinsuke means feeling like you’re on a cloud with a gentle smile on your face. and that’s probably the reason why he’s one of my comfort characters.

cant choose, so- honourable mentions!

i know, i know this isn’t right. but i genuinely can’t choose another favourite, so for this one i’m just gonna do a few honourable mentions sjdndn. i think kageyama tobio is among my favourites. he’s just this little dork who only knows volleyball and believe it or not, he’s the one with the most back handed compliments and maybe even hate. my lil baby deserves none of that and i just wanna hug him all the time while he tells me about how important a first step is while setting <33333 udai tenma for no reason. kozume kenma has all the vibes i love. which is weird because he’s basically the opposite of bokuto in some way- he just seems like someone who would accept you, no matter how you look or act like sometimes, you know? if you pique this guys interest, then you know you’re in it for the long haul. goshiki tsutomu, semi eita, tendō satori, sakusa kiyoomi, komori motoya and iwaizumi hajime also join the list of ‘we don’t need a reason, we just make her feel 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋’

overall

1. bokuto kōtarō haikyuu

he’s just- i already explained why partially but i’ll just add a lil more here! bokuto kōtarō is very much aware of himself. he knows that if something on the court happened to him, he’d just start hitting out of bounds or against the net, he knows his being coddled by his team, he knows he can be a bit oblivious and you know what! he doesn’t care!! he isn’t insecure about it and doesn’t feel bad, because there’s no reason to be! kudos to fukurōdani for that too, i love them for not trying to change bokuto <3 but i’m a very, very emotional girl, it’s kinda sad how easily i cry so i just bond to the characters who are emotional too. they make me feel like i can cry as much as i want, and they’d either cry with me, or hug me warmly and that just makes me so happy!

2. nakajima atsushi bungou stray dogs

god, the amount of love i have for this one- he’s one of protagonists that people love to call whiny, a cry baby, boring or useless. atsushi’s trauma might not seem big for you, but it is for him. he has been called these things for his entire life and has been used as an experiment, of course it’s going to haunt him for an insane long part. he’s just a realistic representation of how some people with trauma can be. but he’s trying to move on and trying to save people just like he was saved. he’s constantly trying to prove that he deserves to live, when there’s no reason for him to do that. and i kinda relate to that? i just want to give him all the love i have.

3. rengoku kyōjurō kimetsu no yaiba

this one- just twenty and i know that he would be the older brother to everyone in the anime universe, even if they’re older than him. he also gives me insane bokuto vibes he has such strong beliefs and always tries to protect the weak, no matter what. his father abandoned him, but that didn’t stop him from following his dream of becoming a demon slayer. he trained and taught himself into becoming the level of a hashira which is basically like the top 3 aces in haikyuu, simply said. he took care of his little brother when his father didn’t and told him things like when no one would support or believe in him, that he would be there and support whatever path he decides to walk. “stand tall and be proud. no matter how weak or unworthy you feel, keep your heart burning, grit your teeth and move forward. if you just curl up in a ball and hide, time will pass you by. it won't stop for you while you wallow in your grief.” the way he called me out with this one- no but i just admire him.

4. levi ackerman shingeki no kyojin

so basic, i know i know.. i don’t really feel the need to explain this one, it’s just pretty self explanatory. he’s seen everyone go and always survives alone. he’s called humanity’s strongest and last hope. do you know how much of a bagage that is to carry in such world? he had to make decisions, knowing that it would cost so much lives. he just deserves to go home, drink a cup of tea and close his eyes without feeling the need to always look around himself.

5. midoriya izuku boku no hero academia (contains spoilers)

now imagine seeing your role model in their real form, telling you, a quirk less kid who has been bullied to almost death, that you can be a hero. i would cry for days, honestly. let’s also not forget training for an entire year, moulding your body beyond its limits and getting a quirk that’s much bigger than you originally thought. and it’s not even one quirk, but around seven or eight you’re getting!!! you’re carrying so much responsibility along with all these things and people expect you to be this badass guy who carries no emotion. please- i fucking love my baby izuku and all his emotions included. i do not accept any slander for any emotional character on this blog <3

honourable mentions!

after reading the manga, i can say with confidence that bakugou katsuki is one of my favourites. i relate on another level to tamaki amajiki, my shy lil baby. khun aguero agnes, ah yeah, i love him. i finished the anime, but i have yet to finish the webtoon. kamado tanjiro is my favourite protagonist and no one can change that <3 hange zoë hange zoë hange zoë the love of my life!!!

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From oldest to newest ~ Erika answers asks ~

hailmary-yramliah said: Wait I’m really tripping out. I realized you were following me on Tumblr and I didn’t even know?!?!?!? I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOUR FICS LIKE WTF IM SO SLOW BUT THANK YOU YOURE LIKE ACTUALLY AMAZING AND ME STANNING YOU RN MAKES ME EMBARRASSED BUT I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT YOU ARE SO TALENTED!!! Ahhhhh I love your Arthur/Joker fics XD 

Thank you so so much!!! <33333 This means so much to me! <3333 I hope you continue to enjoy the works that I work so hard on x

Anonymous said:Ngl I feel like it’s wrong to like Arthur & read fics about him only bc my sis thinks it’s weird af. Our interests are complete opposite & finds mine very weird and it kinda makes me sad. I wish she loved the movie as much as me & understood my “obsessions” as she calls them. Anyways, love your fics sm! You’ve gotten me into this fandom so quickly and I love it! 💕

Your sister sounds just like my, and others’, family. They don’t understand because the film wasn’t for them. It was for people like us who see Arthur and who understand him. If you find enjoyment in something, darling, most especially if it’s fictional (though very realistic), then there’s no shame in indulging in it. Thank you very much, that means a lot! <3

insfirebunny said: Ok As you might see rn I make myself comfortable in your blog. Hope you don't mind. I enjoy every single one story of yours. You write so beautifully that it's magical. Take care of yourself, sunshine ☀

I don’t mind at all, I’m flattered, thank you so, so much! <33333 take care of yourself too!!!!

Anonymous said: Would you rather date Arthur or Joker??

To me, Arthur never went insane and ‘became’ Joker. He’s not the insane one; the world is mad. So I would date Arthur and I would love him and protect him and help him (everything I write about is everything I would do for him; the things I write for others are very self-indulgent lmao I have no shame) and if, in his own time, he grew into himself (Joker), then I would still love and support him just the same. I don’t think he went mad - I think he just dropped everything holding him down, holding him back, and said “fuck the world”. And honestly? That’s a big fucking mood.

Anonymous said: Okay speaking of the multiverse theory, what is your view on it regarding fictional characters. I personally believe that not only do they exist, but with the right skills you could connect with them in some way.

Since I was a child, for as long as I could remember, I’ve had this super vivid made up, carefully crafted world inside my head with all my most loved characters. I have spent my life inside my head daydreaming. I’ve never needed real life friends because I have my imagination and though I tried to make friends. I tried so hard but I never got anywhere because I was a freak, I was this and that etc. etc. (I was bullied for like 15 years lmao fuck ‘em) and so I stayed inside my head and didn’t bother trying to cross that invisible glass wall between me and everyone else. I’m 22 and I still haven’t bothered to try; it’s cosy here so I’ll stay inside my head where I can make others happy with my daydreams. But I digress - I like to think that our loves know that we love them. Every thought, every tear, every daydream, every squeal, every pillow we’ve squeezed wanting to be them, every imagine, everything we have done or do because of them, for them, they know. They see it; they feel it. I like to believe that Arthur Fleck knows how deeply he is loved and cherished he is by all of us and more than that - he loves us all just as fiercely, and he’s so, so proud of all of us. (Also lowkey I know it’s your skin shifting due to temperature changes etc. but you know when you think you feel a hand on your shoulder or fingers in your hair when you’re like half asleep and just dozing??? Or when you have a dream of him? That’s Arthur reaching out to us in the only way he can to say he knows, he sees and he loves us too.)

Anonymous said: I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH! Like it’s crazy how good you write

Thank you so, so much!!! <3333333 I work .v. hard (one piece can take up to three hours, though the longest I’ve ever spent on a piece (Coming Home To You) was six hours. I still say that is the best thing I’ve ever written, so that means a lot! <3

Anonymous said: I love Joker from our dearly beloved 2019 Joker movie as well as Joker from The Dark Night. I can't choose which I love more so why not both! At the same time! ifyouknowwhatimsaying 👀👀👀

Sksksksksksk I believe @gothamslittlejester can help you out here lmao she’s written for poly!readerxJokerxJoker so go check out her works; they’re phenomenal! <3

Anonymous said: There's a tornado warning in my area. We NEVER get tornado warnings, like ever, so I'm kind of scared.

Ohmygoodness please stay safe, darling!!! I’ve never experienced any kind of natural phenomena like that so I can’t imagine how scary that must be! I hope everything turned out well x

Anonymous said: I read what happened to you at work and deeply sorry. I’m sure you are more than aware of this but their reaction is a reflection of themselves than of you. You have the full power to enjoy and like what you please. Also, it is okay to bite back when it is needed. It may be hard to, but sometimes it’s healthy to stand up for yourself at times. Of course it is easier said than done. Remember you’re a goddess! Take back your power ✨

Thank you so, so much!!!! I’m not really all that affected by what happened anymore; it was only a week ago but already I’ve reached that nice part of apathy where you still care but you’re like, aa fuck it, I don’t wanna be hurt by it anymore. Standing up for myself is very hard; I’m a lot like Arthur in that respect: I put my head down, bite my tongue and take it because I hate confrontation. I hate it so much so I’d rather stay quiet. My parents told me I need to be a bit less Arthur and a bit more Joker; maybe in time that bite will come to me xp thank you honey! Your words mean a lot; I’m always here if you ever wanna talk about anything!!!

Anonymous said: I just read what you said about your coworkers. Honestly that's so horrible and I hope you're feeling better soon. ♡ I feel you so much, things like that happened to me all the time while I was still in school. But please, don't hate yourself. You have such a beautiful mind, you have talent & creativity most of them couldn't even dream of. It's not your fault that they can't see how beautiful being an introvert & a daydreamer can be. You're wonderful the way you are. ♡ ( @buried-in-windy-meadows )

I’m so sorry that you had to experience that, too, it’s an awful feeling when you try to be yourself and people are mean. I hope you know that they are no reflection on you, as the previous anon says - it’s all on them! Thank you so much; your words mean a lot <3 I’ve always been this way, for as long as I can remember I’ve lived inside my head, so I see no reason to change; I’m happy in, not necessarily myself, but my imagination and my creativity is my favourite part of myself (even when I’m at war with the rest of me, I can find solace in my imagination and I’m very lucky to have that) and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Anonymous said: I’m pretty sure you’re on the opposite side of the world from me so I just wanted to let you know your words and your attitude are making someone on the other side of the planet smile. We are all so lucky to have you and to have this movie to connect us. It makes me feel really human 🧡

This film is without a doubt the best thing that’s ever happened to me - we’ve all found a home, a place to go to vent and to write and to support each other and it’s so beautiful how such a tragic, grisly and dark film has brought light to so many of us. Arthur would adore it, I know he would. Thank you, darling, this means a lot to me! Please know I’m always here for you should you ever need anything or just wanna drop a line! <3

rafaelina-casillas said:Aw, I'm so so sorry that happened to you! People can be so nasty - especially to those who never deserved it! I hope you're feeling a lot better now! I can only say that in my country (where Halloween is not a tradition but more and more people are celebrating it) I saw at least 5 or 6 people in less than an hour who were doing the same makeup as you - and no one tried to mock them. I guess you had the worst luck with your colleagues but try to not mind them. They don't deserve your nerves! 💖

Exactly! I didn’t go out with my makeup, I just stayed home and enjoyed my private and personal display of love for Joker - I’m sure he’d have been flattered! And I dared to open up to my colleagues; it’s a mistake I won’t make twice, that’s for sure. Thank you, you’re always so kind to me and it means a lot - will have to DM you soon!

insfirebunny said: You look so cute and your writing is a pure gold. Stay strong

Thank you so, so much, you’re too kind!!! Take care of yourself, love! <3

Anonymous said: binge watching Batman: The Animated Series this weekend. Mark Hamil’s joker is amazing tbh

I’ll have to check that out; see if it’s on Netflix or Youtube. I hope you had a wonderful weekend! <3

theclownsqueen said: Hi! Im a new page, i love your page so much and your work is amazing! Sorry just thought I'd drop by. :)

Yeeeees ohmygoodness I gotta reply to your DM; I’ve got so many lmao <3333 thank you so much, you’re far too kind, I hope you continue to enjoy my works; I’m always here if you need anything x

Anonymous said: I relate to Arthur so bad. I’ve always been a loner and really shy, plus I’ve been helping out my mother a lot with financial problems. Once I saw the movie in theaters I just fell in love with it and it really brings me joy to read your fics. I just wish I wouldn’t get labeled a weirdo or freak for openly expressing that I like Arthur. Just makes me feel ashamed for liking something which sucks.

Thank you, darling - I’m glad my works can bring you joy; that’s really all I want to do with my writing is to help people in the moments they most need it. Even if all I manage to do is make your lips quirk upwards, that means I’ve done what I set out to do! I’m sorry you’re having such a rough time of it and I hope things start to look up for you soon! <3 The people who should feel ashamed are the ones labelling you for expressing yourself; truly, they’re the punchline of the joke Arthur was laughing at during the end of the film. Don’t let them take your sun from you, love - that means they’re winning. Please know I’m always here for you; don’t be afraid to drop me a line! <3

Anonymous said: I love your writing!

Thanks, honey! That means a lot <3

Anonymous said: Any tips for fic writers out there? Love your work btw!

There’s so much I could tell you but honestly, rules and guidelines don’t matter. Just have fun with it. Write what you wanna write in the way you wanna write it, when you wanna write it, and if anyone doesn’t like it, then who cares? Do it for you, even if you’re fulfilling requests for other people. Step back when you gotta, don’t be afraid to turn down writing requests if you don’t gel with them or you just don’t wanna or you’re not comfy with it, and really just have fun. If you have fun with the work you put in, then it’ll shine through and people’ll love it!

writings-of-a-gen-z said: hey love hope everythings going okay for you and the world isnt being too mean x

You’re too good to me, you always are. Thanks, love, and the same for you <3 sending hugs and love!

jibanyyan submitted:

I love your writing so so so so much you don’t even know it! I get excited each time I get notified that you posted again and I even take my time to read them in uni!!!

Just know that I love your blog and you can always reach out to me if you need someone to talk to even though we don’t know each other!

Much love goes out to you love xx

Thank you so, so much omgggggg you’re always so kind and supportive and it’s???? amazing ???? Please know the same for you; I’m almost always online when I’m not at work (even when I’m studying I have tumblr open in case people need me lmao) so I’ll reply .p. quickly! <3333 thank you so much omgggg sending you loads of love and hugs, I hope you’re well!

harlyquln said: when do you plan on opening requests again? 🥵

I’m not sure yet, love, but because I love to put myself under pressure lmao because nothing will make you work like an impending deadline, shall we say the beginning of December? That gives me just under 3 weeks to write almost 40 requests and honestly, that seems reasonable (ish). <3

Anonymous said: your comfort fics are always so beautiful 💕 i’ve never felt like i was actually IN an imagine before i read one of yours. you’re honestly one of my fav authors

Omggggg thank youuuuuu~ comfort fics are my favourite thing to write so that means so much! <3

kat-o-combs said: Good morning sunshine ☺️ I hope your day is going well. You deserve happiness, comfort, and contentment 💕 love ya!

Omgggg you’re always so good to me wtfffff <3333 thank youuu I hope the same for you too; you deserve all the best things in life! Love you too x

Anonymous said: Hope you're gonna feel better! I've discovered your blog... a week ago, I think, and your stories have helped me more than you'll ever know. I find a lot of comfort and support to keep me going when I read your stories and I'm so thankful for your blog. :)

Anonymous said: Hope you're gonna feel better! I've discovered your blog... a week ago, I think, and your stories have helped me more than you'll ever know. I find a lot of comfort and support to keep me going when I read your stories and I'm so thankful for your blog. :)

Helping people with my writing is a literal dream so thank you for telling me this! When I write the softer comfort imagines, they’re very emotionally draining and I have to dig deep to write them so usually I come away feeling old wounds and pretty tired in myself; I take care of myself in the ways I know helps (funnily enough, writing is both the issue and the solution) and I come back out on top. Thank you very much for telling me this, I’m glad I’m able to help you! <3

Anonymous said: Awww I hope you feel better soon!!

I do, darling, thank you so much x

Anonymous said: Sneaking up to nuzzle Arthur, then blowing a raspberry on his neck and watching him grin and shy away with a giggle.

Yeeeees~ lmaooooo it’s what he deserves!!!!!! <33333

Anonymous said: I saw joker for the second time and I think I've finally accepted in myself what you had a while ago. Arthur feels like home, he feels like comfort. When he would be dancing or just even smile I felt like I was there and I felt like everything was okay. I've fallen in love with a fictional character, but I can accept that. Because escaping with him brings me so much joy and love, I cant imagine being without it

Neither can I, nonnie. I’ve felt love for characters before but never like this. Never. I never wanna be without him or without this community again. We found a home in Arthur Fleck and fuck he’d love that so much. I’m glad he’s able to to bring you joy and love, it’s all he’d want for you and he’d be so proud of you!!! <3

Anonymous said: I had a dream about arthur last night???? Like I got into a car crash and he came and got me and brought me home and cuddled me and gave me kisses and honestly the dream was super scattered but so nice wow

That sounds like such a lovely dream omg loving Arthur and being loved right back??? Where do we sign up?? <3

Anonymous said: wish i could make Arthur a flower crown right now god damn

A) he’d look so fucking cute and B) he’d wear it around the apartment all the time omgggggg ~ he’d never wear it outside bc he’s scared it’ll get lost or stolen or broken but at home he’d cherish it so much and he’d look adorable ohhhh~ ;33333

Anonymous said: Hey, Ily and all though I'm not the biggest fan of Joker fics I just want you to know I still support and care for you

Thank you honey, this means a lot!!!! If this isn’t your scene, you’re welcome to unfollow, I won’t be mad or anything at all. Thank you for your continued support if you decide to stay, though, it means so much x

rebs-doom said:reminder that u r my fave person bye

Come here and let me love you, you precious, beautiful soul. I love you so much.

Anonymous said: What do you get when you cross a sad, touch-starved man with a blog that cherishes him and treats him well? I'll tell you what you get, you get what you fucking deserve. *smooch*

Can you imagine:

“Hey, Arthur?”

Arthur made a soft noise of acknowledgement from where he was sleepily cuddled into your side.

“Wanna hear a joke?”

“Mm,” He chuckled, “What?” He blearily opened his eyes to gaze at you fondly.

*You tell him this joke but swap ‘blog’ for ‘person’ and kiss him before he can react*

And see how fast he gives you what you deserve ;) ;)

(high key it’d become a way for you to say ‘i love you’ without saying it. Like, “you’re always so good to me” // “it’s what you deserve”) <333 sweet boi deserves the world.

Anonymous said: Can I just say how much of a blessing you are to the Arthur Fleck/Joker fandom!

Istg I’m drowning in all this love omggggg you’re far too kind to me I’m just a simple girl pouring out her love for Arthur/Joker into her blog because it’s got nowhere else to go <333333333 thank you so much!!! <3333

Anonymous said: I feel so sad for Arthur; he pretty much had the world against him from day one. I could only imagine some of the stuff he'd gone through when he was small. I just see baby Arthur lying in a filthy crib, crying for his mother's comfort or from hunger, and Penny just not even noticing it or caring.

I know :( it’s so tragic and dark and there are thousands of Arthur Flecks in real life who are unseen and defeated and broken down but they can’t get help but they’re trying and they work so hard and they just. Keep. Going. I left the cinema each time crying really hard and got home and cried some more for Arthur and for all the people, including myself, who watched the film and saw pieces of themselves in Arthur. When I think of Penny, I find it oddly funny that she always called him ‘Happy’ when he was anything but and it was only until she died that he became what she always thought he was. It’s beautifully ironic, in a strange way.

Okay, so uh... I gotta not let asks build up like that again lmao this took me two hours wowowowow <3333 I’m aiming to get some writing done today, there’s three or four pieces I’ve started and not finished so I’ll work on those. Thanks, loves, you have no idea how much you all mean to me! <3

[taetortotss]

gone → min yoongi (1)

helloooo i’m back with another angst (why do i put myself through this i always cry) and i really hope you enjoy this as i put my entire heart in this :’)

also congratulations to bts!!! so proud of my boys <33333 they deserve everything and the world

request for a part two? 

also, i highly recommend listening to halsey’s room 93/hopeless fountain kingdom aka my inspiration/playlist in writing this (esp sorry UGH MY HEART)

anyways, that’s all from me! <3

gone → min yoongi ANGST w abit of fluff he was your best friend. at least you thought he was. (SLIGHT OOC WARNING)

From the moment you met him, you somehow knew that Min Yoongi was going to be your best friend “4 lyfe”. Well, that was your mentality as a child.

The two of you were six when you met each other. His family moved into your neighbourhood and lived right across you and your family. When your mother heard of their moving in, she cooked up her special tuna casserole as a welcome gift and brought you along to deliver the dish.

Yoongi’s mother answered the door, with Yoongi hiding behind her, his small arms hugging her leg. He seemed to be the shy type, his head peeking out in a cautiously curious manner.

Not to be judgemental, but your first impression and probably the first thought that crossed your mind was, “Oh, hey, this boy’s only 1cm taller than me. Sweet!”

The two mothers seemed to instantly clicked, and they introduced their children to each other before engaging in a conversation.

“This is my son, Yoongi. He’s quite shy to new people,” Mrs Min gave his son a tiny push forward.

“This is Y/N, she’s quite the bubbly one,” you gave a tiny wave to Yoongi, who responded by flashing a quarter of a smile and running away. You watched his tiny figure run up the stairs, probably to his room.

And something started to bubble in you. Determination.

Your six year old self was determined to make Yoongi your friend.

It wasn’t easy at all. Yoongi was willing to be your play date, lunch date, but he wasn’t willing to talk. He hasn’t muttered any word besides “hello”, “excuse me” or “goodbye”. It seemed like he doesn’t want you to know you better and he doesn’t want you to know him better.

You, on the other hand, were a chatterbox. You filled in the empty gaps and you just talked about anything and everything under the sun. It didn’t seem like it but Yoongi was actually listening, reveling in every word you said.

This continued on for a few weeks, Yoongi showing little interest in maintaining a friendship and your endless chatter. Until one day, you somehow managed Yoongi to accompany you to the nearby woods for an “adventure”.

Unknown to you, amidst Yoongi’s cold demeanor, he has grown pretty fond of you. He was a good listener; he knew your favourite colour, your birthday, the fact that you were afraid of cockroaches, your silly talents.

You were rambling on about your stuffed toys and how you play with them, when you missed your footing and fell down a tiny hole that your eye didn’t seem to capture. Besides being extremely talkative, you were also quite the klutz.

“Y..yoongi!” you started to cry, feeling the pain of your grazed leg. The impact of your fall has caused you to crash land onto a few rocks in the hole and a puddle of mud and dirty water.

You heard a sigh come from Yoongi’s part before he crouched down and helped you up. He slung your arm over his shoulder (completely disregarding the fact that your clothes were soiled and dirty), and helped you walk.

“Why am I always the one looking out for you?” he whispered, but your ears managed to catch it and your sad frown contorted to a smile.

“Because I’m your greatest friend?” you poked out your tongue.

Yoongi didn’t deny it.  

-

Before you knew it, the 1cm difference between you and Yoongi increased and he was now a lot taller than you. The two of you practically grew up with each other, and now you two have entered a new phase in your lives.

The Teenage Years™.

Six years have gone past really really quickly. And you and Yoongi have grown up alot. But some things just don’t change - for instance, your amazing ability to be a klutz and Yoongi’s inclination towards roasting and criticising things he doesn’t like. You remember how he wrote a haiku on how this boy pushed him once and how he utterly despised him.

Your relationship has also grew. Yoongi pretty much grew on you, and the two of you were the ‘bestest of the best’ friends. He would wait for you at school just so the two of you could walk home together, he would share his lunch with you, he would help you with your homework, et cetera.

Sleepovers were also a constant, with the two of you living really close to each other. You’d play video games [to which you were (surprisingly) better in], read comic books, play cards but you two would usually fall asleep on each other to which the mothers always found adorable.

Yoongi was your listening ear and you were his comforter and pretty much vice versa.

But everything changed, when the two of you turned 16.

-

Typical 16 year olds worry about their puppy loves, their relationships that last for a few weeks or months or days, if they fit in at school or about their grades and future.

But when Yoongi was 16, he worried about something completely different.

A month or so ago, his mother broke the news that they were going to move out of Daegu as their father had found a new job out of state. And they were leaving in around a month’s time.

Yoongi didn’t know how to break the news to you.

How could he leave you, the person who never fails to put a smile on his face, the person who has stood by him, for another state?

So, for the month, he tried his best to see you more often. He was at your house a lot, he brought you out more often. He couldn’t believe that he had to leave you, his best friend of oh, so many years. His mother also couldn’t foretell if they were ever coming back and couldn’t promise that they would be coming back.

Yoongi tried to leave the topic at the back of his mind, but as the days dwindled, he couldn’t avoid it any longer. He could run away from it, but he has to face it at some point.

Before he knew it, there was only a week left.

On the night of your birthday, he would break the heart-wrenching news to you. There was no running from this.

As Yoongi was preparing himself to come clean to you, he realised one thing.

Seems like 16 year old Min Yoongi did face a worry some typical 16 year olds face.

He has fallen in love with you.

-

“Y/N,” he started, his heart palpitating.

The two of you were laying next to each other in his backyard, staring at the stars, hands slightly touching, your head on his shoulder.

“Yeah?”

Yoongi took in a deep breath. He could do this.

“My dad got an offer to work at Seoul, and the thing is, we’re all moving away with him.”  

Pin drop silence. You removed your head from his shoulder and sat up and turned away from Yoongi. Thank the heavens the night shadowed your teary eyes.

“Oh. When?” Any more words and you’ll probably break. How could he keep this from you?

“In a few days, Y/N, please don’t cry,” he reached for your hand.

He knows you so well.

You turned back to him, tears freely falling from your eyes. The sight of you crying caused a tear in his heart. You cried a lot, due to your clumsy nature, but Yoongi couldn’t handle it if he was the cause of your cries.

“Hey,” he proceeded to engulf you in a soul crushing hug, “It’ll be alright. We can always video call, text, visit. Heck, if I could fly back to you, I would.”

“Do you promise to come back?” you cried on his shoulder, your heart couldn’t handle this pain. This was possibly the worst heartbreak you ever felt and you’ve never gotten your heart broken.

Yoongi couldn’t promise anything, but for your sake,

“I promise.”

And the two of you stayed in an embrace under the stars.

You didn’t want to let go.

-

The days seemed to pass by so quickly. It was like a snap of the fingers and your family was in the airport, about to send the Min family off. You weren’t the only one heartbroken by their departure. The mothers aka the two best friends were crying to each other, the fathers giving each other firm handshakes and bro hugs.

You, were just holding Yoongi’s hand, engulfed in a comfortable, heartbreaking silence. For once, you were at a loss for words. You didn’t know what to say, and you could feel the tears coming again.

The two of you were just sitting in silence, until Mrs Min called for Yoongi. It was time to go. You quickly tightened your grip on Yoongi’s hand, not wanting to let go as you knew the moment you let go, Yoongi would be gone. Your best friend, would be in another city, probably find and replace you in a zap.

The night before, you and Yoongi promised not to say a word to each other before he left for Seoul. You held onto him so tightly, that you could barely sleep a wink.

“Yoongi, it’s time to go.”

You closed your eyes as you loosened your grip on Yoongi’s hand, before he entrapped you in another bear hug that might very likely be your last hug.

And before you knew it, Yoongi was gone.

A few moments later, you were still unmoved from your position, your face maintaining a poker face expression, you heard your name being called.

This time, you couldn’t control the waterfall from falling from your eyes.

“Screw the stupid promise, I can’t leave without telling you this. Y/N Y/L/N, I am deeply in love with you. From the roots of your hair to your toes, I am in crazily in love with you. I love the way you always apologise to an object after tripping over it, I love the way you laugh, the way you always engage everyone in a deep conversation. I love you. And moving to Seoul will not change the way I feel about you.”

You could barely react before you realised that your lips were the one reacting. You stood on your tippy toes and pressed a kiss to Yoongi’s lips. Your lips were coated with your salty tears and you could feel that Yoongi was crying as well.

It was a messy kiss, with the both of you bawling, and the people all around you just walking and doing their own thing. It was also one of desperation, the two of you trying to cling to each other with the limited time the two of you had left with each other.

When you pulled away, Yoongi had to leave almost immediately and you opened your mouth to say three words that could have or not made all the difference.

But he was gone. Lost in the crowd of people.

You didn’t even get to say it back. You’ve always felt something different for Yoongi, besides the admiration and fondness but your innocence prevented you from completely figuring it out. Your mother has always warned you about best friends who felt infatuated to the other, but her words fell on deaf ears.

But Yoongi’s confession was like an eye opener.

You were in love with him too.

But you didn’t get to say it back. You don’t even know if you will ever get the chance to ever say it back in real life.

Because Yoongi is gone.

[witwerlove]

Wow.

Twin Suns was....Wow.

That's literally the only word I can think of to describe it. Because it was a lot. And I am still completely overwhelmed with emotion right now. It kinda destroyed me. But in all the right ways. If that makes any sense. And as much as I hate this pain, it also feels....good? It’s weird. I just love Star Wars so much. But I'm gonna ramble and rant about it because that's how I roll whenever something major happens that involves Sam. This will probably be long, so props to you if you take the time to read it. I’ll put it under a cut because spoilers.

Here come my feels.

First off....I'll state the obvious. Maul is dead. For real this time. That alone is hard to believe.18 years ago we were lead to believe he was dead and we’d probably never see him again. But 13 years later he was brought back into the narrative, on the admittance of George Lucas saying it was a mistake to kill him off. And since then, Maul has been a heavy presence in the Star Wars universe for the past 6 years. And that's all thanks to George, Dave Filoni, and a team of talent at Lucasfilm. And of course, our boy, Sam. But also credit is due to Ray Park, who established the physical presence of Maul and is absolutely amazing. As well as Peter Serafinowicz who gave Maul a voice in The Phantom Menace, although he only had a few lines. That was the ground work for Sam to build on and just go beyond that and make it his own.

My history with Maul as a character goes all the way back to 1999. I was 8 years old when The Phantom Menace came out. My memory of seeing that film in the theater is very vague. But I do remember that I wasn't a big fan of Maul. I probably thought his lightsaber and fighting skills were awesome, but it didn’t go deeper than that. And for the next 13 years my opinion of him didn’t really change. I was pretty indifferent to him. Little did I know that over a decade later after seeing The Phantom Menace for the first time, I would come to love and appreciate this character so much. And that is in huge part because of Sam. I don't think I would love Maul as much as I do now if it wasn't for him. He brought so much life and presence to this character and it was such a privilege to follow him along on his journey.

I remember back in 2011 when it was hinted in The Clone Wars that Maul had survived. That confused me so much. It also seemed like a joke. Because how could anyone possibly survive being severed completely in half and falling down a shaft to their death. It just didn’t make sense. But then a year later when Maul was shown in the episode as an insane and mentally unstable man with spider legs conjured by the Force itself who had been living in a cave, barely surviving on his own madness and revenge. It was fascinating. I was fairly skeptical at first at where this was going, but the development of this character was so incredible to watch over the years. And how he was transferred through all the different mediums within the Star Wars universe and fit beautifully into the narrative was amazing.

It's incredible to think that I have followed Maul's story from the beginning when I was just 8 to its end here now when I'm 25. And as far as the end goes, as a fan, I'm feeling satisfied. At first I was disappointed with the fight between Maul and Obi-Wan. Because I expected more. They've always had these elaborate and beautifully complex lightsaber fights. For Kenobi to take down Maul so quick felt anticlimactic. But after watching the Rebels Recon and listening to the commentary on it helped me understand and appreciate it a lot more than I initially did. It’s so different than any other lightsaber fight we’ve seen in Star Wars. And that makes it stand out to me. Whether that’s good or bad, it’s up for you to decide for yourself. But I don’t want to spend my time complaining about something I can’t change. What’s done is done. And we can only move forward from here.

As satisfied as I am with the end of Maul, it doesn't make his death any less painful. I've come to the conclusion that Sam's characters will probably always die no matter what. I just shouldn't get attached to anyone he plays because they're just gonna end up being killed. It's a curse. And I feel like I should be used to it by now, but I'm not and I never will. I went into the episode with the impression that Maul would not make it out alive. I told myself that all week. But that doesn’t lessen the pain. I was such a mess last night. And I'm still a mess now. I cried. Because of Maul. And because of Sam. I’m really going to miss Maul, as much as nuisance people think he’d become. Like I said before, I think this was a perfect ending. Maul’s time had finally come. Bringing him back to Tatooine to face Obi-Wan one last time was a full circle kind of ending for him. Whether or not you think it was executed in a good manner is your own opinion, but to me, it worked beautifully. 

I really love his final words. “He will avenge us.”. Somewhere with in that statement is the confirmation that Maul had indeed found what he’d been looking for. He, implying Luke, will “avenge” the evils of the Emperor. his former Master, and the Empire will be defeated. “Avenge” is such a darkside word, but in the end, that’s what Luke will do. He is the hope for the galaxy. I do love that Maul said “us”. He could have said “me” because he’s undoubtedly been selfishly out for himself until this point. But that was beautiful. And to die in the arms of his enemy. The man he’d been hunting and held a grudge against for at least 30 years. Maul’s death mirrors Qui-Gon Jinn’s death so beautifully The parallels of them both dying in Obi-Wan’s arms and speaking words of a chosen one. So beautiful Maybe I sing praises to Dave Filoni too much, but I think he and his people did Maul justice. I really hope Sam is satisfied with the ending too. If he’s not, I doubt he’s gonna speak out against it. Sam always has good things to say about the work of the people at Lucasfilm. I just hope he’s okay and does talk about it in his next twitch stream because I know people are gonna be all over him about it.

I am so incredibly proud of Sam. Maul is the longest and one of the most complex role he's ever played. It must have been so difficult and exhausting for him at times, but he absolutely owned it. Bless him for lying to Dave all those years ago and taking on the role, even though he felt he had no idea what he was getting himself into. HE DID IT! I'm so happy that he was the right man for the job and made so many people love Maul (myself included). He brought so much depth and understanding to this character and made him his own. The legacy of this character will live on forever, in no small part to Sam. And even though he’s probably done voicing Maul officially, I’m sure his voice won’t get a chance to rest from it. He’ll still do it for us in the stream and any other place he can. He loves that voice. And he knows we love that voice. So even though Maul is dead, as long as Sam is alive, part of Maul is too. And that makes me happy.

There is no doubt in my mind that this is the end of Sam's involvement in Star Wars. You’e got to be kidding yourself if you think it is. He still does Palpatine. And on a few of his recent twitch streams he has said that he's still working on Star Wars stuff. Whether this is for Rebels or something else is yet to be seen, but I am excited. As devastated as I am about Maul, I am excited for the future and what Sam has in store for us. We will all miss Maul very much (some more than others I'm sure), but I'm glad that Sam seems to be satisfied with the ending to this part of his life and hasn't slowed down.

Sam is amazingly talented actor, but more important than that he's a wonderful person. It's an absolute joy to watch and listen to him. He's an all around awesome, kind, intelligent, humble, and beautiful human being. I completely adore him and I can't wait to see where he goes and what he does next. It’s always sad when the narrative of a character he’s portraying comes to an end, but I'm so proud to have been apart of the journey and development of any character he plays. Sam deserves all the love and happiness the world has to give him. I want to thank my fellow fans for continuing to be so good to him. I really love reading all the praise he gets from you. And of course he does too. He really does love us and he's always so grateful and appreciative for all of our support for him. He loves you. Don't ever think otherwise.

And I love you as well. Thank you so much for all your support and everything that you do for me and for Sam. It really does mean a lot to me. Sam has the best fans in the world. Continue to be good to him. Thank you and much love always. <33333

[waywardfacegarden]

i’m sorry to hear that you’re in perpetual pain and hate your new schedule ;-; but! i am glad to know that you rested up recently and I hope you get to rest more soon. I’m so sorry you have writer’s block! Please do not feel pressured to finish any of your wonderful ideas or force yourself. As a writer myself, sometimes you just have to let the words come to you at their own time. I just don’t want you to put too much weight on your shoulders. Please take it easy and try not to stress too much about writing on top of college and everything. I always have faith in you and I know you can overcome anything! I have ample free time now so i’ll be here if anything :)

hellooooooo, my sweet anon!!!! first of all, i'm so so so sorry i'm answering this just now!! i'm guessing you replied just after i answered your previous ask but tumblr didn't notify me so i didn't see this before!!! :((

yeah, my schedule is terrible tbh askdjlakjd. but i'm holding on, haha. thank you for worrying <3 :')

also, thank you so much for your kind words and your support as always :''D it warms my heart so much :') i'm trying not to stress over writer's block bc it happens to me at least twice by year and it. always lasts for a pretty long time--but it's kind of hard when you have ideas and don't feel like your words are doing what they have to ahaha *sobs*. but seriously, thank you so much for your words, they're really reassuring for me and help me a lot :'')

i'm actually trying to write now, though!! it's an old work i'm trying to finish after so long, haha. we'll see if it works out aaah :') i put it on hold this week bc i'm in exam period right now and just. behind a pile of final projects and a lot of studying to do. but it was going well!! i've written about 4k and the fic is around 9k at the moment ahaaa. the problem is the time and that i don't know how to work out my ideas and organize them!!!! but i'm trying. i'll keep up with it after i finish my exams!! thank you for your encouragement and support!!!!!!!!!!! and thank you for your faith in me, it seriously means the whole world to me. you make me cry of how soft you make me ahaha :'') <33333 i love you lots!!!!!

AGAIN, I'M SO PROUD OF YOU AND I'M SO HAPPY YOU FINALLY HAVE FREE TIME FOR YOURSELF!!!!! please take care of yourself and rest as much as you can!!! you deserve it a whole lot, sweet soul <3 ALSO!!!!!!!!!!! you're a writer as well and it just makes me more amazed at the fact that you like my writing ajsdladj--but anyways, i'm curious, have you written and posted anything??? do you like writing certain genres??? like, feel free to share your writing with me anytime!!!! or stories about your own writing or if you have your own characters you like to write (original characters or established ones) or ideas in general or whatever!!! i'd love to know whatever you're willing to share if you want to tell me!!!!! <3333

[infnthoya]

Hello my favorite Howon stan!!

he really needs all the love he can get from inspirits Also I would like to thank you veeeeeery much for that sweet reply I got from you in June!!!! I never got the chance to properly express my gratefulness, so I am doing it now ^^. I was feeling pretty sad at that time and your words were exactly what I needed to hear, they made me smile and gave me courage to believe in my boys and their choices Also, please remember that you deserve all the pretty things in the world and if you ever feel like life is hard on you, just know that I am sending all my positive thoughts towards you and that you are never alone

GAHHHH MY FAVORITE ANON!!!! I HAVE BEEN IN A WONDERFUL MOOD THANKS TO YOUR EXTREMELY SWEET MESSAGES 💜💜💜 IM SO SO SO THANKFUL TO YOU AND ITS ME WHO DOESNT KNOW THE REASON WHY AN ANGEL LIKE YOU HAS FOUND ME!!! Your words ALWAYS lift me up! You give me strength, you make me smile, you warm my heart everytime you send me a message so i cant thank you enough seriously, no words could be enough to tell you how much i appreciate your presence 😍😍About Howon’s departure, i somehow had prepared myself for it. Maybe becuz i always expect the worst scenarios, i had always thought about him leaving. Even before those ‘everyone renewed contract except one member’ news came out. And… im actually happy because like you said, he is capable of so many things so im just very excited to see him show us more than he could ever done as a part of a group, under the control and restrictions of a company.I have been writing him almost everyday for a while. Becuz his silence was making me feel worried. i was also going thru a pretty bad time back then (as you already knew and supported me greatly💜) that i didnt even want to go on tumblr so i thought that him staying silent might have meant he was going thru a hard time as well. I was guessing he would read our messages but i guess yesterday he wanted to make some of us cheer up a little becuz he thought he hurt us 😭😭😭 you know he is the type who always carries huge burdens on his shoulders so it must have been too hard for him. Im glad he got rid of that burden now. And im also verg proud of the Inspirit fandom for receiving the news in such a nice way. I was scared they would bash him and had i seen sth like that, id teach them a lesson or two! (Tho a friend of mine told me there were some stupid comments but i havent seen any personally)I totally understand why you and everyone else feel in despair tho. It really isnt easy to see OT7 become OT6. We all thought they would at least reach a decade together. But i wouldnt blame the boys even if they disbanded. Because i want them to do what they wanna do the most.You know what honey, i really believe that he will go to Poland very soon! I mean after some time passes and all this hype slowly dies down, im sure he will go on a vacation to take his time to relax and Poland would definitely be in his list of places to go 👍 And YES please tell him a little about me when you get to have a long talk with him 😁😁😁 you are always so sweet to me also very funny i just wanna squish your cheeks and hug you till you hate me hahahhaa 💜💜💜💜You really dont ever have to thank me baby! I LOVE talking to you and im glad that i could make you feel better! You can talk to me/ask me about anything, please dont ever hesitate to write to me. And PLEASE PLEASE STOP TELLING ME ALL THOSE THINGS THAT I DONT EVEN DESERVE 😭😭😭 im not that nice PLEASE JUST… ahhh im speechless when you write such extremely sweet things to me. You express yourself very nicely but here i am saying the same things over and over again 😭😭 i really dont know what i did to deserve you and your wonderful wishes! You are the true angel here for being so nice and i hope that all your nice wishes and prays will find you even more 💜💜💜💜💜 i truly think of you often and hoping that you are okay. Whatever the things are that keeping you busy, i hope they are the things that you enjoy doing. Dont stress yourself over anything okay? Whatever you are going through, i know you can do it perfectly so dont ever rush things and be easy on yourself *hugs you tight* 😍😍