#SO HYPED IM GONNA BE IN SCHOOL BUT IDC

[bug-timez]

PLEASE READ!!!!

I only joined Tumblr probably less than a week ago and the support I've gotten has been amazing! I wanted to grab your attention really quick. Like, reblog, comment, anything.

I have a friend named Mahmoud. He is 10 years old. He is in Gaza. He has 3 other brothers, Saif, Muhammad, and Loai. Their mother and father are with them along with their dog and cat.

I was done feeling useless about what is happening in Gaza. I decided I was gonna put my 100 percent into one family. I can't stop the suffering, but I know I can help save a family.

Me and Mahmoud talk every day. I am going to school to be an art teacher, so we've been talking about how art is an important outlet. We share our work in progress drawings and hype each other up! He loves to draw, read, and write. He LOVED school and told me that when they evacuated, the only thing he took was his school awards because he was so proud of himself.

These kids have a life left to live. It should NOT be cut short. I am going to do everything in my power to make sure that Mahmoud and his family evacuate to safety.

But I need help. I'm a college kid with a broken ankle and unable to work at the moment. So what I'm gonna do is this:

IF YOU PROVE TO ME YOU DONATED TO MAHMOUDS GOFUNDME I WILL DRAW YOU ANYTHING! YES, ANYTHING! IDC HOW CRAZY! I want to save this family and I'll do anything.

THANK YOU if you made it to the end. There are photos and pictures below of the gofundme, Mahmoud's drawings, and a letter on gofundme, plus a video of Mahmoud's home destroyed because of bombs.

PLEASE LIKE, SHARE, WHATEVER! IM COUNTING ON YALL, $5 WOULD BE AMAZING, ANYTHING HELPS, I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH 🇵🇸❤️🍉

(He gave me permission to post these videos and share his story, his parents monitor his social media and we are in contact)

GOFUNDME:

https://gofund.me/17e09f4c

[lolastark]

i fr just manifested a snow day

im still at school, and i just manifested a huge snow day!

all yesterday i was like its gonna be a snow day

it will be a snow day

its gonnna snow like 3 feet all tmrw

and guess what

it worked!

fr i am so fing hyped rn

its almost christmas and it will be snowing for the rest of winter

the rest if today will snow 3 more feet!

the best part was i really believed it and i was if i dont get a snow day and just a delay idc, its still good lol

i believed even when my earth science teacher said there was a 1 out of ten chance of a snow day! I just rewrite that shi. If he said 3-4 inches(he did btw) i just revised and said 3-8 inches! 6-12 inches! And yeah i manifested it! Je also said soggy little snow and the snow here is not little or foggy, or anywhere around town my friends sent me pics! And when i didnt believe, just persisted and i got it and a WHITE CHRISTMAS

still snowing baby

bye loves

e.s.

[jrwi-updates]

Charlie will feature on Tales from the SMP tomorrow at 6 EST! poster art by @/reinfalllz

[Image ID: A tweet from Karl Jacobs, that reads "Tales From the SMP: The Maze. Tomorrow 6pm EST" and has an image attached.

The image is a poster for Tales from the SMP, in a style similar to a comic book. there is large text that reads "The Maze" and has a list of cast members. the list reads

Karl Jacobs, Quackity, Sapnap, Georgenotfound, Dream, Tubbo, Badboyhalo, Punz, Technoblade, Jack Manifold, Foolish Gamers, and Slimecicle.

There are three television sets at the bottom, with two stacked on top of each other ans another stacked on two books. The book kn the bottom says "Withering Roses" and the other says "The Maze of Crete", and the TV on top has a picture of Karl Jacobs on it, reaching out of the TV.

The other stack of TVs has a larger one at the bottom, with Charlie speaking into a microphone, with a speech bubble saying "Just make a choice, Karl!"

there is a smaller TV on that one, that is pink and says "Back for season two!" on it.

Hung on the wall in the background has a map of a circular maze, and XD written in the corner. /End ID]

[organic-guacamole]

showtime

episode 211 let's go

ok first of all, this is the second to last episode guys... I don't even wanna think about how much pain I'll be in after next week's episode

mr mazzara doing the recap-

this is so weird to me and I don't know why

WHY DIDN'T YALL JUST ASK BENJAMIN FOR HELP, THATS LITERALLY HIS THING

is Nini giving out the cards a callback to season 1 when Natalie Bagley said that Nini gave her a card or something on opening night of another musical?

STEPHY AS THE ENCHANTRESS OMG YES

Ricky in the crown gives me Harry styles in that photoshoot vibes

he's so pretty.

ok but why did we never see Ricky and Ashlyn interact before? it's been like 5 seconds and I already love how they bounce off each other and it's just so natural

OH THEY REALLY DON'T HAVE ANY UNDERSTUDIES-

well that explains a lot...

so Ricky fell on top of Ashlyn and all that broke for both of them was their wrist-

insert Jake Peralta *coolcoolcoolcoolcoolcool no doubt no doubt no doubt*

of course howie was amazing as the beast, were we expecting anything less??

Ricky is so beautiful and I will not shut up about it....

let me enjoy this before the makeup crew slaps mud on his face.

Nini and Ricky talking to eachother? in a civil manner? wasn't she avoiding him just in the last episode? hm ok

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH THEY CANT EXPRESS THEIR FEELINGS JUST LIKE ME HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS HILARIOUS, WHATS NEXT? THEY CUT EVERYONE OFF CUZ THEY CANT HANDLE EMOTIONS? ...ha

yes Kaden and Rico, my favourite east high boys 🥰

I mean....where's EJ?

THERE HE IS

EJ AND GINA IN THE BACKGROUND... doing something idek

KOURTNEY'S MOM IS BACK YAY

Howie is a shining star, ofc ofc

the smallest fOrk

can't wait to see the fork burst into song about how she deserves more than to be used to eat salad😌

the duster and the bluster.... ok😃

hi Gina!

hi- oh wow I didn't know Robbie Rotten was in this show!!!!!

the portwell look.

that my friends, is a married couple's look✋

GOSH EJ WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU

aww Gina's so excited for this

D word?

Die?

Delicious?

Dom Toretto?

"good, clean fun all alone with someone I dig...a lot"

sir that does not sound very clean to me

SEBLOS

Seb looks so cute standing there next to pope Carlos

DID THEYEY REALLY LIGHT ANTOINE ON FIRE-

I NEED TO SEE THAT

Seb's reading Carlos better than big red read the script in episode 102, this is great development after the "fight"

Kourtney really just made the best outfit for herself and let the rest of them suffer

the way Gina immediately goes to hold on to EJ after the announcement

"tonight we're going to put the U in UTAH"

...

"hey where are you from?"

"TAH"

SEB'S SINGULAR CLAP KILLED ME-

he's officially salt lake city's resident thanos

just wity clapping because for some reason I have a feeling he doesn't know how to snap his fingers...don't ask why

Ms Jenn do you mind encouraging your leads before the show? idk just an idea

pepto bismol product placement smhsmh

those flowers are bigger that big red himself-

*bops along to the opening theme*

that whistle at the end slaps everytime

WHY IS THE AUDIENCE SO MASSIVE

I guess they're all here to see Ms Jenn go on as a fork after Nini decides to *go her own way*

wow i am so funny

so they couldn't do many group scenes cuz of covid, but this 300 person crowd is cool? nice

OO THE VIOLIN GIRL FROM EPISODE 6 IS IN THE ORCHESTRA

HOWIEEEEEE

"Mr Caswell", he said, in the loudest voice possible while backstage at a show that's about to start.

Mazzara what are you trying to pull-

I usually like Benjamin but I don't like his tone

"iS yOuR wHoLe FaMiLy HeRe?" LIKE YOU DON'T ALREADY KNOW THATS A SOFT SPOT FOR EJ

"we've had some good conversations these past few weeks"

right so what's going to happen after you graduate?

what does he think of you not going to Duke?

what did he say about you giving the sweatshirt that's been in the family for 3 generations to a girl you're not even dating?

good old Mr. M

therapist Mr. Mazzara, they all need it.

start with Ricky though.

"Michael Bowen"

dude why did you shave, now you look less like "hot lumberjack" and more "creep at the gas station"

OH-

does she not like Mike anymore?

why does it sound like jennzzara started dating and now they just sit back and talk smack about everyone in their freetime

break the fourth wall-

uhhhh im scared

why am I scared

he's scary

hehe flowers for Ricky, obviously for Ricky, ObViOuSLY

oh boy poor Michael

this man is in love, rip

why does Ms Jenn always look at people with her eyes open so wide

LILYYYY

I'm only excited because I really like the idea of lily and Ricky being friends, nothing more.

ha this guy's got jokes

a MOAT AROUND THE SCHOOL

wheeze

also he's very pretty.

"the wolves and very talented humans"

how dare he forget to mention the very talented wolves and normal humans, smh erasure

"being nice, what a concept" ted talk by Lily who still doesn't have a last name

did she just say lol out loud

same with the hug emoji last episode-

go touch some grass babes

the way he didn't say no, but said he didn't know how the east high kids would react-

not saying he does want to date her but that's an interesting thing to think about, also another thing to write an essay analysis on just to leave it in my drafts for a few months

awww lily genuinely trying to help him

sorry guys, I've been taken by the Lily charm (didn't know it existed until now but oh well)

REMEMBER WHEN I SAID I'LL NEVER SHIP PORTWELL?

just look at me now

the Lily wink I can't she's so cute-

HELP ME I'M BEING HELD HOSTAGE BY LIL-

David Attenborough?

oh nvm it's Benjamin narrating the show in a really weird British accent for some reason.

STEPHY GOT MORE LINES YAY GOOD FOR HER

also is this to show that Nini doesn't care about being the star of the show anymore? the way she's supporting everyone else even though she's a fork?

I would pay for a special of the full musical ngl

OOO THE TRANSFORMATION WAS SMOOTH

shockingly

yo where did the makeup come from

man I wish I was a theatre kid

THIS IS STEPHY'S EPISODE NOW IDC✋

my girl is starring

"needs an X-factor"

Simon Cowbell creeps in

"it's a yes from me"

and them boom, he takes Nini and mistreats her horribly and then she comes back to theatre after deciding music isn't for her👍

"I thought she just hog-tied him?"

don't ask sebby, it's better if you don't know.

imagine they spotlight the wrong person and this dude is just some random person that likes writing down stuff during shows.

Ms Jenn just let them do what they rehearsed (at some point we never saw) or else this is gonna end horribly wrong

"help"

same Carlos, same

I love how seb is just his translator rn

I thought he said "great displeasure" instead of "greatest pleasure"....help?

big red coming out from throwing up to see his girlfriend star is the cutest thing in this show.

Ash and Gina dancing is so fun

I'm imagining them practicing at night at their home, watching the movie for the 100th time and making sure their one dance together is perfect

KOURTNEY YES

HOWIE IS IN LOVE AHHHH

I LOVE HOWIE SO MUCH

SEBBY

THIS SCENE HAS SO MUCH GOING ON I CAN'T KEEP UP

THIS IS SO GOOD

HOW???

no because I'm actually crying

I'm dead serious.

we need this musical released as a special

big red is so proud and I love to see it

Natalie: "if you do not by at least 20 dollars in concessions, you do not support art"

rando in the audience: "but I pay for ad free Spotify"

Mr Mazzara clapping in the distance

Gigi, the guy you like is talking to you, complimenting you and hyping you up

YOU LUCKY LITTLE FEATHER DUSTER

aw EJ teasing her about the chocolates in a way that doesn't make her feel bad? take notes Richard

JORDAN FISHER

there is no rest of the show idc Jordan is it for me

THE WIG CAP ON RICKY OMG

they look like they're high and having "deep" conversations on the floor

THE MEAN GIRL WITH THE EYES-

@sunshine-julie-molina YOU HEAR THAT

Natalie really just be coming for them all

Howie what is happening rn

I'm scared

"did you enjoy it"

"very much"

dude wants a kiss so bad

ASHLYN OMG

NO DON'T DO IT BECAUSE OF LILY, PUT YOUR OWN TWIST ON IT

I want a Jordan autograph please

just keep swim- oh pushing...

Gina is literally a giant next to him and I live for it

am I about to cry for the 3rd time in this episode?

yes.

Ricky's leg kicks under the table makes me so happy aw

the portwell glances will kill me.

ah yes, mashed potato snow

Mr. M.... I'm not a theatre kid but even I know you can't have your phone on backstage.

Howie please just do it

CHIP'S BIG LINE I CANT

I LITERALLY HAD TO PAUSE IT AMD SCREAM INTO MY MASK FOR A SOLID 2 MINUTES (I'm not at home rn) HES SO CUTE

oh ok bye Jordan

oo tea

NOT HIM BEING STARSTRUCK BECAUSE HE'S MEETING HIS FUTURE BROTHER IN LAW-

"we're all just glad Gigi has a big brother figure in her life"

excuse me for a few thousand hours while I laugh hysterically

THE CAMERA ZOOM ON EJS FACE AND EVERYTHING-

STOP EJ LOOKS LIKE HE'S GONNA CRY BUT I CAN'T TAKE HIM SERIOUSLY WITH THE STAGE MAKE-UP

someone else said this already but I think it's hilarious that they had to bring in 2 guest characters to create some portwell angst

omg this really is Cici's episode, found family is their thing

elevator music lol

I'm gonna bet that big red took the harness for his surprise for Ashlyn without realising what it was

did Ms. Jenn just....tell her most mentally unstable student....to commit suicide....on a disney show...was that....I'm very....well....what the actual-

oh and there she goes running off instead of trying to make it right

oh wow Nini's the hero, she's gonna save the show 🤩

😐

the judge is doing a sudoku

honestly if I went to the hsm show as well, I'd come prepared for this one too

Lily why are you looking like that-

I WAS JUST STARTING TO LIKE YOU DON'T MESS THIS UP

wow ok, there goes that.

omg

what if Howie was acting weird because he knew what Lily did and wanted to tell Kourtbut Lily threatened him so he was scared to-

anyways see y'all clowns next week when we all simultaneously lose all motivation for the week without Fridays to look forward to.

[iwaisa]

request. 👁👄👁 1. Hope you have/had a good day 2. Since I'm having writers block can I req a gn or male (idc) reader with Kuroo, Noya, and Terushima or Bokuto if you can't write for Teru (which is fine he deserved more screen time) with a more chubby reader being insecure so they're like "no ):<" again still don't know how to req but have a good day¡ again, you can feel my awkwardness in this im sorry- - @xmalereaderfics​

a/n. hehe this was actually so adorable thank you for requesting this ! i hope you have a good day/night too :) (also legit never apologize for being awkward because both of us know how awkward i am sjfehwjeh)

comforting their chubby s/o 

- genre. comfort + fluff!

- pairings. kuroo, nishinoya, terushima, and bokuto x gender neutral reader

- warnings. body image issues, swearing

► now shuffling...

hands. always. on. your. thighs.

literally he cannot get enough of you 

but ! he will tone down on the handsyness if you ask him to

he has such a keen eye i would bet money that he would notice straight away if you were feeling down

also ?? he’d personally be hurt too because how ?? do you not see how perfect you are ? 

you are his god/goddess and he worships you

kisses the ground you walk on 

anyways

if you began toning down on your intake of food, he would notice

i headcanon him to be such a health nut, you could be getting light headed and he would be like “f/n! you need more carbohydrates!”

“tetsurou, please just say sugar like a normal person”

but if he sees you trying to lose weight by not eating, he’d get really sad :(

he wouldn’t straight up ask you, instead, he’d watch you closely as you eat making sure that you would get just enough food, and not too much or too little

i feel like he’d be easily swayed, so if you tell him you’re not hungry the first few times he would believe you

but as time goes on and he sees you eating less and less that’s when he knows he needs to step in

he helps you monitor your food, while still eating the right amount each day

he also asks if you want to work out with him 

but it just turns into him trying to impress you by lifting the heaviest weights and failing

either way, this rooster is extremely supportive of every HEALTHY decision you want to make and won’t hesitate to put his serious captain face on whenever he sees you feeling down :)

#2 simp (number 1 is tanaka obviously)

he definitely brags about you all the time

“hey, look at my s/o in that super sexy outfit!”

“nishinoya-san,,, that's the school uniform,”

however, even if he is your #1 supporter, he might not notice straight away if you’re feeling down about yourself

one time he watched as you squished your thighs and stomach in the mirror, and he came up behind you and took your hands away, linking his fingers in between yours

he watched your face contort into sadness and borderline disgust, and he instantly jumped into action

the best way he tries to get you to feel better about yourself is to push away the negatives and look at the positives

if you tell him you like your eyes, awesome! he’s in love with them too!

if you like your hands, great! because he also loves them!

if you like your hair/smile/feet(?)/calves he will most definitely hype you up about those things

and of course, if you don’t like your stomach/thighs/hips/face you better believe he’s gonna brag about those things the most

his favourite thing to say to you whenever you feel down is, “you look so kick-ass sweetie! remember, your body can do some pretty epic shit.”

also, he definitely eats more unhealthy food than healthy food, but if you don’t want to eat anything unhealthy he’ll learn how to cook for you!

time skip nishinoya travels the world so i wholly believe that he knows about some super healthy foods from like denmark or something and he loves making them for you

loves cuddling with you on top of him

he just loves feeling bigger than he actually is :)

literally is bipolar

one second he’s super teasing and childish, and the next he switches into his captain mode and he’s super serious

but your relationship is all just easy-going and fun

while cuddling, his hand just naturally gravitates towards your stomach, thighs, and ass

he likes squeezing the plush skin just to hear you laugh

also he loves tickling you

i feel like he would also be quick to notice if something is wrong, but he’ll probably wait for you to talk to him about it instead of him drilling you

and when (or if) you finally do, he’ll be listening super closely and his mind will instantly start thinking about all the ways he can help

one day it seems like everything is going wrong and you just don’t feel energized to do anything

you’re laying in bed with yuuji and he notices that you’re quieter than usual

when he asks if you’re okay and you tell him you’re not confident with your body, he will instantly jump into action

if you say that you’re feeling fat, he’ll start to pout

but then his supportive boyfriend side would come in, and he would reassure you that fat isn’t a feeling and that its simply a smokescreen for other feelings

he’s lowkey smart so he’d go into a deep conversation about how stating that you ‘feel fat’ is because there are other feelings behind it

are you feeling lonely? vulnerable? guilty? ashamed? if you do happen to feel any of these things, he’ll make sure to do whatever he can to reassure you and comfort you

he’ll also buy you clothes :D

he’ll ask you to do a fashion show and he’ll hype you up so much

he’s so head over heels for you 

bokuto is definitely a pretty slow boyfriend

he thinks you’re perfect and he would actually do anything for you if you asked

he’s the kinda guy to take his jacket off and lay it over a puddle for you only to realize that there’s a simpler way to avoid the puddle but it’s the thought that counts 😌

he also definitely eats too much and brings you too many snacks 

(have you seen this man’s ass???? yeah.)

(AND THOSE BITTIES)

but, since he has his own emo mode, he can recognize the sadness in your voice and he just straight up asks if you’re okay

if you tell him that you don’t like your body, baby boy will try his hardest to get you to see yourself how he sees you

however, he starts to panic because he can’t seem to bring your self-esteem back up 

you have to reassure him that it isn’t his fault and that it’s just how you’ve always seen yourself

so, if he can’t do anything, he suggests talking to someone about it

he sits down with you and tells you that he’s worried he can’t be the one to make you feel better, but if it means going to see someone trained for that specific reason, he supports you wholeheartedly

he will go to your appointments with you if you ask :) 

as soon as you begin feeling more confident in yourself, and the negative thoughts begin to dissipate, you have your lovely boyfriend to thank

he’ll never treat you any differently if you go to a professional, and at the end of the day he just wants to love you :3

[kazuwhora]

Hey, could I have a Tokyo Rev matchup? If that's alright ☺ I FORGOT TO ADD MY APPEARANCE ALSO I'M SORRY IF THIS IS TOO MUCH 😭😫🙏🏾

Ok so I'm a bisexual girl who uses any pronouns, mostly she/they. I am also around 5'5, I kinda wish I was taller so I could intimidate men with my height 😈 I am a Virgo, although I don't think I act like one. It's probably because I'm an Aries Rising and Pisces Moon. But n e wayz I am an ISFP 4w5 and tbh I kinda tone down my personality depending where I'm at💀 At school, people would describe me as kind, quiet, chill, smart, weird, innocent looking(that completely changes once I start talking because I say weird things. I once told my teacher about how some astronauts had herpes in Space 🏃🏾‍♀️). At home, my family(and friends) would describe as loud(Once I laughed so hard to the point where my mom could hear me outside), crazy, weird, chaotic, dumb(I say a lot of stupid things that make no sense 🤷🏾‍♀️), annoying, a troublemaker, competative, argumentative, mean, chill at times, really talkative although I have a stutter. I have noticed that in both areas, people have said that I'm a people magnet and a good person to be around 😁 When I'm alone I like to read fanfics 😏, listen to music, read my Warrior Cats books and when I'm with my sister or with Family, I love to dance, listen to music, watch anime, play sports, go for walks. I've been dancing ever since I was young, never went to lessons but still performed a lot for School. Most of the time, it's actually what people know me for. With my family, I was known as the Snake Girl for a few years because I really wanted one, I never got one but I do have 5 rats now 🐀 I've always loved animals, when I was younger I made a list of all the animals I wanted and there were like 20+ pets on there 😭 And because I love animals so much, I've decided I want to help them in the future but I also want to help people. I've been wondering what I should be in the future and it's changed multiple times(mostly because the hours were too long and I HATE 9-5 jobs) but helping animals and helping people is something I always want to do. So, I've decided that I'll do everything I want to do in the future and no one will stop me 😾 That's probably why I'm listed as the Troublemaker in the Family, I do what I want to do and say what I want to say without caring how other people feel because I'm my own person(Mostly, because I love having fun but also because they really need to hear it). My family doesn't like it tho 😕 whenever my sister does the same, she's always told that she's acting like me and that it's a bad thing but idc. When I'm of age, I'm gonna live my life the way I want 😌 I'm gonna get tattoos, get piercings, be a stripper while I get my desired degree in College/University. I'M GONNA DO IT ALL 💃🏾

I would also like to add that I smile and laugh a lot. I literally have smile lines from how hard I smile all the time. I could be experiencing any emotion like Anger, Happiness, Sadness, etc. and I'll still smile and laugh. I think it's the eye contact 😃

Appearance: I'm around the age of the Tokyo Rev characters, I'm 5'5, I'm not skinny or fat so I'm kinda in the middle, I have Auburn hair and eyebrows and have braided hair with beads in it 😩 I'm very hot, I also have glasses I wear occasionally although I really need them for my left eye 😫 I do think that the glasses make me look hotter tho so I wear em 👀

I hope that's a good representation of how I am and also thank you in advance <3

u are the definition of an aries rising LOL

IM MATCHING YOU UP WITH NAHOYA SO YOU CAN BE THE MOST CHAOTIC DUO TO EVER EXIST

im not even gonna lie to you here. y'all scare me. nahoya scares me, u kinda scare me (in a good way dw I literally dropped out of highschool nothing can truly scare me) but the way y'all absolutely hype each other up an energize yourselves off of each other is freaky and mildly concerning. its like, the two of you are somehow a match made in both heaven and hell because your brains are wired the exact same way but at the same time should we really be putting those two brains together????

all jokes aside though you really are mirrored versions of yourself and its fun as fuck for the both of you. nahoya, who lives for chaos and humour is delightfully enabled by your ability to take his jokes and follow along with his chaotic nature at the same speed without a skip in your step. you, are enabled by his ability to also match your speed and encourage you to do whatever the fuck you want because its your life and you should live it how you want.

when I decided on nahoya I didn't even think of the smiley thing but it just makes so much sense as I go back and reread your description?? like its meant to be ok

you two are THE trouble makers. ppl can't handle you and if you ever show up at any toman event mikey is immediately separating the two of you because even HE can't handle it. double trouble for sure.

nahoya says fuck a job. you can just hang out with him every day right?? no but for real, he 100% does not understand responsibilities and he doesn't get why you can't actually just hang out with him every day. he has so much fun with you and when you're gone he's like ?? tf do I do now?? disturb shit on my own?? damn. he does not like it one bit and will huff at you for having responsibilities. he swears he'll become rich so you don't have to do anything and he can just spoil you so you'll stay with him forever and cause ruckus together for the rest of your lives. this is his goal.

he's one of the top 3 worst boyfriends so im not even gonna lie that hes a shit boyfriend but I bet you wont care because the fun you have together and the freedom that your relationship holds is enough to make it all worth it.

psst.. he doesn't have to say I love you for you to know. it'll be clear in the way his eyes twinkle every time he sees you <3

[makeusfreefromthisfandom]

Responding to the “has my writing improved” post. I really miss the hcs and Amakata Hours but I completely understand (I’m in the same boat) school and personal priorities should always come first. I’m just grateful you’re still doing the blog since school started. You’re a fun admin to go back and forth with - especially when I just send in a random opinion or something and you respond sounding hyped (cards against humanity post) or with something funny (or you say something that relieves some of your askers probably thinking “yes! I’m glad I’m not the only one tho saw/thought this!” You’re always a fun admin and you’re not shy hiding that which makes you incredibly relatable as well. Your art is 🤯 (whoever sent in the you can work at KyotoAni one day ask, I back them up! Seriously your art is unbelievable) and I’ve only been here since the ending of summer. Getting to answering your question though: yes I can tell your writing has improved in the posts you’ve been able to make since school started. Not to say it’s better necessarily it just has a somewhat different feel to it... both styles are fun so I hope this doesn’t make you favor one over the other. While your hcs and scenarios are always super fandom fun your recent writings have a different somewhat more descriptive narrative to them, in a good way - they’re both fun to read so it doesn’t feel right comparing the two if that makes any sense? Just don’t give up on either style of writing, I think... I mean you can only improve looking at your work from differing perspectives. My point is, this is a very fun account and I’m just happy you’re keeping up with it, along with school. Thanks for all you post and all of your interactions with us Rose-chan(+ happy early Halloween)

All I have to say is—

THANK YOU.

I really miss my miss Amakata hours sm toooo it always so fun to read others’ hcs or just talk about something SUPER random. But honestly I kinda stopped well one bc of school when the weekend comes it’s the one time out of my whole week where I can literally just lay in bed and do absolutely nothing but I really miss my sleepovers smmm. Two it was more of a participation thing. In the beginning, so many people took part in it and that’s what even made my sleepovers a thing, but later on ig everyone just became sort of busy so it was kinda like there was no point of me staying up late if no one was really going to talk??? I’m not saying anyone is obligated in any way! ofc not! but that’s really the reason, however, Idc anymore bc I still want to go back to my sleepovers so expect one very very soon after October is over! 

The other part: Omg I’m glad I’m not the only one that realized that I’ve done alot more posts in my other writing style! Well my spooktober event is only drabbles but I miss writing my hcs and reactions so much too! SEE THAT’S IT THAT’S WHAT I’VE BEEN MISSING! Something hasn’t been sitting right with me and you helped me realize so THANK YOU. Ugh idk my mindset? lol but lately the requests I’ve had are all oneshots/drabbles so my mind kinda switched into that mode. Once I open requests again I really do hope that I can figure out how to write in a way that’s satisfactory to both me and you that’s improved but also still loyal to what I used to write before. OH ALSO IM GONNA BLAME THE WAY I WRITE NOW ON AP LANG LMFAOOO it’s not bad but just different 😭😭

Anywayssss thank you! Truly! These past couple of months I really felt lackluster and that what I was writing was good but it still didn’t feel ummm Idk how to explain but basically I didn’t know why it felt like this until I read this ask so thank you!!! I’m so glad that u have fun on this blog on top of all else, all writing, all art, all content, that has always been the main goal of this blog <3 This is actually exactly what I was looking for and this entire post made my day so for the thousandth time THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS IN I LOVE YOU TAKE CARE ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[b-124a-p-224]

Since I keep seeing BABYz upset about the Golden Maknae title...

Zelo was known as the Golden Maknae before any other idol. There were plenty of senior groups with maknaes who were universally known and loved, but when Zelo debuted it was actually news. He was so multi-talented and young but could rap seniors who had been idols for years to shame, he shocked everyone with his skills because it was so amazing that someone so young could have so much talent. Even though other idols have taken on the Golden Maknae name, Zelo is an artist, he’s transcended the title of idol. How many maknaes around Zelo’s age (or older) do you know that compose, write lyrics, choreograph dances, and are known for more than just their cuteness but for their actual raw talent?? Not to mention he’s literally the sweetest and most humble person (he even bows at a 90 degree angle to juniors first when they should be the ones bowing to him) who never gets in trouble and has grown to be a real man who diligently follows his members like brothers to the point that they sued their company to get the rights they deserve??? 

I for one am so immensely proud of Zelo because we’ve literally seen him grow from a shy and cute LTE rapper to a grown man finding his own style and voice. He’s probably experienced more of life than many of us and he’s probably younger than a lot of us. He’s gone from rapping the lyrics that were given to him to making his own from his real-life heartaches and experiences. Sometimes I forget he’s the maknae unless BAP bring it up because of how much he’s grown in my eyes, and I know that he will grow even more into an artist that will continually be recognized for his musical talent.

So miss me with this “Golden Maknae” nonsense. I mean, if you’re going to give him a title, at least call him Rhodium Maknae (granted, it doesn’t have as nice a ring as “Golden Maknae” but still, let’s be positive about Zelo’s transition from an idol to a true artist). Rhodium is known as the most precious of metals, even more than gold and platinum, and isn’t Zelo the most precious maknae we know? 

But in the end, who cares about a title. Zelo’s first solo song is even called “No Title”: even he knows he can’t be defined.

[osamuniichann]

Map of the Soul: Persona

yall already know after the bois drop an album i gotta jump on here commenting my love on it real fckn quick. They did it ONCE AGAIN, im so happy and alive and god i guess we gon jump back into what i think of the album!!

Intro: Persona. bro when this came out and I heard them old school vibes??? I WAS GONE. tbt to school luv affair and the old hip hop albums like can we just appreciate this nostalgia sldkgj the visuals in the mv were great, Nams looked BEAUTIFUL as per usual HHH. But I gotta say im scared of CGI Nams that mans too big i gasped--

Boy With Luv (feat. Halsey). Ok now L I S T E N. I KNEW when the teasers came out that this song was gonna bop so hard but DAMN DID IT HAVE TO GO SO HARD THO!! and like even tho I’m not a huge halsey fan, (i went to her badlands concert here and it was p good! im just not so into her new music so c: to each their own right?), she really matched this mv! the looks, the colors, the choreo, the vocals?? PERFECT. the visuals were so mf pretty aaaa. Its such a happy song like i kept replaying and i kept smiling so BIG! depression? never heard of her!! we going POSITIVITY AND HAPPINESS!

Mikrokosmos. Sister microcosms, mitochondria, microbiology. Yethhhh, i love the slow beats, the vocals being served eye--god, dont u wanna run?? or actually it sounds like the beginning soundtrack of a movie?? like when they’re walking and the producers, writers, directors’ names show on screen?? and the main character is listening to this on their headphones and then when they get to school, they take out their earphones and the audio gets quieter LMAO i appreciate this song a lot! c: 

Make It Right. Now this the one with Ed Sheeran collabing right?? u can totally tell its him, it has such a distinct sound unique to only him! i was gonna beat his ass if he gave me an annoying ass Shape of You but he came through sldkjgsg its a p chill song, i just wanna be on a bike riding through a park alongside a river at night IDK. like its calming and just makes me wanna take some time to myself to reflect and just stay relaxed. aaaa and when they sang “I can make you better, hold you tighter” im SAD :((( bts really comin out with soft ass songs, they forever have my love and support!

HOME. KLDSJSDLG YOOO. THIS. THIS FCKN ONE RIGHT HERE OFFICER. THIS IS MY FAVE (Boy With Luv is my second fave!!) like i heard that HOME was a song describing how we--the fans--are like home to the boys so i expected a ballad or a slow, soft song like 2! 3! or Spring Day but nOoO. they came out with this?! this mf shit goes so H A R D. I THREW MY BACK OUT [TRYNA] TWERK TO THIS. LIKE THE BEAT, THE VOCALS, THE FALSETTOS, THE HARMONIES, THE RAPS?!!! FUCK THIS STOMPED MY TEETH INTO A CEMENT CURB AND BROKE ME. MY ASS WILL FOREVER CLAP TO THIS!! jimin really went in like can i just say???? “you know u got that HOoOoOoMeee” GEEZUS I NEED THIS LIVE MA’AM, SIR ... *chef’s kiss!

Jamais Vus. JIN STARTS IT HELL YES. if im correct, this is the hopejinkook song right?? I love hearing hobi rap-sing/sing like its just so hyped or melodic. its such a addicting melody! And when Jungkook comes in wit the “please give me a remedyyyy~~” like um yes sir im bout to switch majors to Pharmacy so I can snatch some of them remedies to give u baby bois

Dionysus. alright my fellow percy jackson/heroes of olympus/trials of apollo stans, where yall at??? I deadass thought since Dionysus is the God of Wine and fertility, i thought we was gonna get some slow, sensual, luxurious sounds like House of Cards or Singularity?? But no ma’am we got Marvel, superhero, crime-fighting, shounen anime, ass-kicking rock emo vibes! IM LIVIN FOR IT LIKE HELL YE. someone bring out a fckn punching bag im bout to beat the crap out of it. And the change in beat during Yoon’s part?? “are you ready to get hyped up?” - Kim Namjoon 2019, IM BALD. Thanos bout to get his ass kicked wit this song playing, its a mf sign dont @ me! literally ant man better crawl up Thanos’ pruny fckn ass and expand while this plays in the back idc! also i heard hobi wrote the melodies and produced this track; man really went marvel/spiderverse on us and i LOVE IT

Final thoughts: amazing album AS USUAL!! the boys always aren’t afraid of exploring new genres and creating new sounds which i seriously lovelovelove. ive never been disappointed with an album from them, can yall spell TALENT?? the skill, the vocals, the raps, the visuals, the EVERYTHING is just perfect, outstanding, completely and utterly amazing. ill never get tired of these bois, they make me so happy and god im just so blessed to be born and living during the same time as them. i cant believe theyre back, im so excited and hope they will be able to come to my state for a concert bc im ready to spend top dollar to see them up close! i cant wait for what’s to come; no matter what they put out, ill forever support and love them wit all my goddamn heart! c: 

[glitterglockz]

i want more rings 🥲. let’s buy some tm. omg im high rn and it’s nice. i feel ode depressed like i don’t think ive ever not felt this way. today is april 29th and i finally see my potential and the vision. i know what i have to do next. take good care of myself. change my habits. be better. body this summer. im going to target tm need pum pum wash, a new loofah, body scrub and bleach and lysol. tm is like a drinking day and idk what that’ll bring. it’s the last friday of classes. my back hurts so much. but let’s see yeah we are stressed about school but also lazy to get work done. our room is a mess again. and im feeling alone and desperate for companionship. my face feels oily. idk what i want. i see another girl i used to know popping her shit rn. fly asl, brand deals, got a nigga that i used to be interested in and i know that can be me. just gotta start. hype myself up. serve looks. omg this summer im gonna have to toughen up. living w my mother omg. idk so much of my trauma is rooted in my childhood. i stopped crying. i haven’t cried in a long time like i can’t remember the last time i did. but yeah i need to be consistent and always search for ways to get better. i think my problem is i lack balance and confidence. gotta be on my idc shit, building a routine and yeah. it’s annoying bc i feel like i make progress but don’t do much about it. omg another sign i got today was this girl from Trinidad was like a makeup artist and she looks like me. she’s popping her shit too so yeah it’s me next. beating my face tm. doing my to do list too. romanticizing my morning and night routines.

[leadrains]

let me just start editing this post so i dont flood everyone's dash

he's probably behind her

nvm he's not

she's gonna die right she wont make it

the way she got so close to escaping is kind of embarrassing for him

yeah this guy is hot

the girl is also pretty not enough hyper for her yall

ive seen the scream tv show and i can see where they deliberately copied some things

just noting that cause idk i noticed it

ayo chill with the creepy music scary stuff cant happen before sunset

this feels so long but also like it's going quickly

oh she dumb as hell i have to pause cause why tf she just step outside i hate white people

yes kick the shit out of him queen

love her i hope most final girls are this smart

did she actually figure it out 30 minutes in

watching this with hindsight is kind of irritating bc i know it's him but theyre trying to throw you on and off at the same time

yall fr dont hype up sidney enough bro

billy is a piece of shit yall will just see a man make contact with another man and go crazy

that SLIDEE yes maam dodge his ass

also bold as hell to try and kill her in school

i hope the reporter dies

principal abt 2 die

i miss video stores so bad im gonna sob

billy and his penis DONT deserve sidney she's right

blondie gonna die ig

i keep tapping out ngl

i think i know this scene? she's gonna get stuck in the garage door

YES fuck him up

rip queen

wow im already halfway through

the pacing is kind of weird

sidney no he's manipulating you babe

i genuinely dislike billy yall r deranged

idc about the cop and i hope the reporter dies and i think the camera man might die idk

nerd guy gonna die probably idk

sidney's dad is gonna be dead or sum idk

liveblogging my first time watching Scream bc i have an incessant need to comment on everything

[boo1a4]

92 questions tag!

HELLO ONCE AGAIN! 2 tags 1 day! I was tagged by @yooncheoly KOLBO to do this slightly cursed tag thanks binchhhhhhh

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag 10 people! if there are questions that are too personal or you don’t want to answer, skip them or make a new one :^)

THE LAST (1-5):

drink: DRINK WATER

phone call: My momma!

text: either court or kelb idk

song you listened to: I was listening to some red velvet earlier!

time you cried: EARLIER TODAY IT WAS ABOUT P101 @sambashua THANKS A LOT BISH, it wasn't really crying tho my eyes just got more moist

HAVE YOU (6-11):

dated someone twice: Nope!

kissed someone and regretted it: Nope!

lost someone special: yes 

been depressed: Absolutely 

gotten drunk and thrown up: no I don't drink

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS (12-14):

Green

Blue

Gray

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU (15-21):

made new friends: yep!

fallen out of love: nope

laughed until you cried: yeeeeeeeee

found out someone was talking about you: idk probs my mom tbh

met someone who changed you: yes!

found out who your friends are: I have the smallest group of friends tho so I mean no but yes

kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: I would say like 95% 

do you have any pets: yes a pupper! Loki!

do you want to change your name: I'm chill with Emma! it so common tho!

what did you do for your last birthday: ??? idk oh we went out to eat?

what time did you wake up: 4am

what were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping

name something you can’t wait for: ditto kelby diamond edge is gon be hype

when was the last time you saw your mom: this morning

what’s one thing you wish you could change in your life: ditto also kelby but also can change never happen ever??

what are you listening to right now: Vixx - Starlight

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes I had a friend in school named tom

most visited website: tumblr and youtube sometimes twitter!

LOST QUESTIONS (35-64):

moles: I have one on my cheek! and just about all over tbh

marks: I have a old burn scar on my wrist

childhood dream: to be fashion designer I was a dork

hair color: medium brown

long hair or short: its mid length getting too long need to be cut

do you have a crush on someone: no

what do you like about yourself: my eyebrows well one of them aha also I'm not a dick?

piercings: none

blood type: no idea

nickname: Em, Emmy, m&m, Emu, OMMO, ermantrude.

relationship status: Single

zodiac: Gemini!

pronouns: she/her

favorite tv show: Mr Robot, The Office or Game Of Thrones

tattoos: None

right or left hand: Right

surgery: Ive never had surgery!

hair dyed in a different color: Ive dyed it red several times, also purple and black/brown. I had horrible streaks in it as a preteen

sport: who?

vacation: arizona is my fav place so far

pair of trainers: I have 2 pairs

MORE GENERAL (57-73):

eating: my feelings

drinking: orange soda

i’m about to: sneeze 

waiting for: bedtime

get married: no

career: I have no idea

WHICH IS BETTER (65-73):

hugs or kisses: hugs!

lips or eyes: both cause what is one without the other!

shorter or taller: if we are talking about in a partner idc

older or younger: within reason either

nice arms or nice stomach: how about nice elbows tho???

sensitive or loud: a mix

hook up or relationship: neither???

troublemaker or hesitant: both

HAVE YOU EVER (74-83):

kissed a stranger: nope

drank hard liquor: nope

lost glasses/contact lenses: nope

turned someone down: yes

sex in the first date: nope

broken someone’s heart: no?

had your heart broken: not for relationship reasons

been arrested: Nope

cried when someone died: yes

fallen for a friend: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN (84-89):

yourself: lol only about half of the time tbh

miracles: not like the magical kind

love at first sight: no

santa claus: Sualc atnas

kiss on the first date: no I'm mean do what ever you want idc

angels: no

OTHER (90-92):

favorite thing to do when you’re bored: listening to audiobooks, drawing, I spend and EXCESSIVE amount of time on snapchat also

do you wear socks to sleep: I barely wear them ever tbh so no

favorite movies: Big Fish, About A Boy, Big Hero Six, Moonrise Kingdom, Walk The Line, Guardians of the Galaxy, Civil War, Fantastic Beasts, The Force Awakens, A New Hope

Im just gonna tag who ever wants to do this and @kae-popx @insecure-trash-bag @spasticstars @citruseungkwan

[punkscowardschampions]

Indie & Rio

Indie: are you done w him yet cos i have a question like Rio: Sorry Rio: Fire away Indie: serious how do i make it that good Indie: without meshing mckenna Rio: Honestly? You just find out with experience, what you do and don't like, then you have to ask for that Rio: then you ask them what they like and if they know you can do it Rio: most lads your age haven't got a clue but are easily pleased so Indie: 😒💔😒💔 Indie: not what I was hoping youd hit me w Indie: I dont have experience & he does Rio: Soz, if this was Cosmo I'd give you some weird ass tips involving household items but I ain't gonna do you like that Rio: You can get experience with yourself Indie: thats such a ma answer 😂 Rio: It's true tho babe 😂 Rio: Why, didn't you like it? Indie: i was shook i still am Rio: 'Course you were Rio: It's a big deal Indie: not too any other heads in these endz just this bitch here being cringe bout it Rio: Nah, people always lie about that shit Rio: whether it's under or over hyping Indie: we got both cos im amp and hes not bothered is that just how its destined or Rio: How you know that for sure? Indie: 👀 & 👂 Rio: There's so many answers that ain't that still though Rio: 'less I'm missing something Rio: he could be playing it cool 'cos he's as hyped, for example Rio: or just fucking hungover 'cos you know, ain't we all a bit Indie: nah cos last night isnt the only Rio: What you mean? Indie: since i gave him everything now he dont want it Indie: thats how it goes Indie: talking at new ones and bout his olds and how they be like im not there Rio: What a prick Rio: That's not on Indie: cos he dont wanna roll w no tourist which is how i am to this Rio: Nah, don't get it twisted, he don't wanna roll, period Rio: playing a numbers game like a typical teenage boy who's spent too much time alone in his room 🎮👌🍆 Rio: this isn't anything you did or didn't do, fuck that noise Indie: yeah cos i made the chase sick but then couldnt come through how he needed beyond that Indie: just school me and then Rio: Babe Rio: If he don't fuck with loyalty then he don't, that's on him not you Rio: doesn't mean you weren't good and even if you weren't, fuck getting better for a wasteman who ain't trying for you how you need it Indie: its what drew reckons too it aint just me chatting Indie: help me step my game up thats how you do Indie: he was with his previous for time i can make me stay for me too like Rio: What does he know, like Rio: I mean I can show you some things, yeah, but you gotta feel it and feel yourself, you know Indie: hes a lad & he knows the game, how they think & do idk he was on it with what he was saying i felt it Rio: You wanna get on a lad like your Dad Rio: they ain't all the same Indie: cos you landed mckenna & you outta that madness Indie: theyre the same for me Rio: I ain't saying a lot of 'em aren't shit, but like Rio: what about lads like your mates, they're all alright Rio: it ain't one extreme or the other Indie: to roll with if i was trying to link em theyd doing it exactly Indie: rudeboys my age want they want & get it how they do Rio: alright but idc 'bout them Rio: what do YOU want, Inds? Indie: I want him to feel for me how i do for him Indie: like he can do anything to me and wants to Rio: You reckon boys your age get it how they do Rio: so do like them Rio: how'd a fuckboy get your attention? Indie: it aint gonna go that way Indie: he scares me Indie: theres no power in it for me Rio: What scares you about it? Indie: im fallin all the time Indie: its deep and its heavy and its a total madness Rio: Oh baby Rio: If I had the answer to that shit, I'd be selling it for the 💸 and good of us all Indie: he makes me feel owned not like 💍 but 🤡 Indie: i cant do for him anything Indie: boys dont play me i play them 'cept now Rio: That is scary, no avoiding it Rio: Best you can do is front the bad bitch still, even when you ain't feeling it Indie: id let him put a baby in me when were olders and living that and he cant turn from edie for me Indie: what is that gonna be Indie: im just like my ma arent I Rio: Don't say it like a bad thing, your Ma was awesome Indie: nah Rio: She was though Indie: your ma can front it cos she got love for her Indie: if she was she'd be here Rio: nah, she don't get to be reduced to just how she died when her life was more than that Indie: she let him run her & i was never trying to be that but this is me younger and letting a boy play me Rio: You aren't that Rio: and I won't let that play out like that Indie: im over having my own back innit i wanted him to carry Rio: ain't a crime Rio: you got so many of us though, even if a boy does you dirty Rio: you ain't alone Indie: i feel it today Rio: I'm sorry Rio: Do you want to go somewhere with me Rio: I can get rid of Buster but I can't hang with Drew all day getting high, that's all Indie: idc bout mckenna but I want Drew to go Indie: theres a vibe Rio: We'll get rid of him Rio: or duck out home, he can sit here himself if he likes Indie: do you feel it or am i that faded on this 🚬 Rio: Nah, I do Rio: sure we didn't help, sorry again Indie: it's chill Indie: i would if i could Rio: gimme a sec to get decent and we'll bounce Indie: has he hated mckenna proper since the start or is it just since you two started riding each other? Rio: idk what else his reasoning would be tbh Rio: say what you like, he ain't that bad Indie: but he aint your hot half bro Indie: makes no sense Indie: you two can link up if you want Rio: you'd have to ask him, babe, but i wouldn't bother Rio: taking the moral highground on this one, i guess, idc Indie: is caleb home? he needs to cook for me cos mckenna is lax at providing Indie: that breakfast was dred Rio: i'll bell ahead and see if not we'll swing by the restaurant init Rio: did he try and make you eat something healthy? 😂 Indie: safe Indie: shouldve known not to trust a posh boy innit Indie: sneaky greens up in everything like Rio: gotta get those vitamins babe Rio: how cute Indie: youre so whipped for him i cant be listening to none of your words 😂 Rio: Shh 😜 Indie: tell yourself Indie: but nah cos its well too late Indie: 👀 & 👂 man Rio: Erm you keep them 👀 down, I know that door was closed Indie: you two are so amp for each other you aint always keepin it behind em Rio: I know, but it's hard 😩😂 Rio: Honestly, the fact only you and Drew know has me worried for this fam and their senses, like Indie: 😉😉 hes hard is how you mean Indie: standard Indie: might be a tourist still but i aint bait Rio: Don't be nasty 😏 Indie: tell him Indie: that boy so horny for you its a pure madness Rio: you been knew i'm peng gurl come on Indie: making me shook about myself Indie: its rude Rio: 💔 Rio: you ain't gotta be like me Indie: gurl please im not gonna seckle for less than Indie: youre goals Indie: 🔥🔥🔥 Rio: you're a babe Rio: need you about, only one Indie, like Rio: Mum enough for you? Indie: 😂 Indie: does that make mckenna my new daddy 😉 Rio: Watch it 😉 Indie: ✌ thats a yeah if i heard one ever Indie: ill get his take on my 🍒💔 Indie: but not over food like Rio: It's a gonna be a bit weird for us all if we both call him that but not trying to give you incentive biatch 😜 Rio: probably not in front of my actual da either, unless you want his input too Indie: 😂😂😂 Indie: I aint trying to call nobody that Rio: Fair Rio: Can whack it out when you wanna throw subtle shade Indie: innit Indie: marko can dash me fore that word comes outta my mouth Rio: Deffo, you don't need to be on that hype Indie: he called me baby the other day boy please im grown Indie: stop playing Rio: 😂 Rio: See, boy got no clue Indie: him on that shelta and me on my 🍀 aint no wonder we got crossed wires bitch Rio: Sometimes it's better when you ain't know what they 🗣 Rio: Done that, or pretended I ain't fluent like 👋 Indie: innit tho Indie: me on your fams hype like im from there too sometimes Rio: Multilingual and ready to mingle 💃 Indie: bit late to switch that with him but Rio: You know, babe Rio: how you think I got stuck with him 🙄 nightmare, like Indie: fix my face? i gotta be fresh for all the 📷 imma lure this boy back w Indie: a bitch knows how to take a nude least Rio: 'Course Rio: but you best not be putting your face in no nudes Rio: you need denialabilty for so many reasons, main one being its technically CP Indie: no shit my face is for all the snaps to show what a sick time im having Indie: not missing him at all Indie: the nudes are for when he remembers hes missing me Rio: That's allowed then Rio: 👍 Rio: Proceed Indie: i gotta say if tho cos hes still giving me the most air ever Indie: 💔💔💔 Rio: You're gonna fake it so hard you'll actually get there, trust Indie: last nite was so bangin til she fucked it up for me Rio: I know, babe Indie: do you reckon he wouldve Indie: with her Rio: Nah Rio: I mean, idk the lad and he sounds like a bit of a twat but Rio: sure he ain't gonna do you like that Indie: shes got ways tho Rio: She just ain't afraid of anything Rio: it works in her favour sometimes, other times it don't Indie: im not scared of no thing either Rio: 'Course Rio: but you know Rio: Edie not in a good way Indie: yeah Indie: on the subject drew wont go Indie: aint about leaving him here around all our shit but not trying to stay Indie: reckons he needs to chat at you Rio: Right Rio: I'm coming 🙄 ffs man Indie: is mckenna coming home w us? Rio: Up to you, babe Indie: it aint vexing or hyping me either way Indie: if he wants to be schooled for what proper food is Rio: 😂 he's swearing down it was Nance's fault but idk Rio: either way, we got a date so I gotta kick Drew to the curb Indie: standard she does eat how a 🐰 do Indie: he aint done me dirty fore so daddy can have another shot at winning me Rio: I'll let him know, in roughly those words 😏 Indie: tell the boy he gotta get in my snaps 👌 Indie: make me 👑💖 Rio: Gurl, it's literally still a sore subject but we will brawl s2g 😂 Indie: jam mama Indie: not trying to co-ord these bruises Rio: 😘 Rio: Stay 'way from him fr then you get me 👀 Indie: he's just a peng piece of staging Indie: not trying to ride it Rio: s'all 💕 up in here Rio: will be when we've 👋 anyway Indie: i wanna get done again now im 🍒 popped but he can chill on it Indie: not my speed Indie: and I'm too 😍😍😍 Rio: You a fool Rio: but I love ya Indie: you've been chatting at the old man for long Indie: come through w you Indie: ✌✌ Rio: 🙄 no need to tell me, he's in a chatting mood Rio: aight Rio: coming

[treveesamoe-blog]

august 20th 2018

i got back from hawaii this morning. alot has happeneed since my last entry  and a lot is soon to be happened. in two days exactly because thats when i move into my apartment and start my sophomore year at lmu. i honestly cant remember what it was like to be in college or go to school. i always say and think this but i feel so different now. i feel like im just in the passenger seat of life letting it take me wherever it feels. i feel like there isnt control and ive given up trying to harnass it the way i envision it. im tired. im bleh. i dont allow myself to be sad or mad or happy or anything. id say most of my present is dedicated to anxiety. for a month now on and off ive had this awful wobbly like im on a boat feeling. imm convinced it has something to do with my inner ear. but i also just think its a perfect storm too. i have too much sodium in my diet (my world famous top ramen really did that), i dont eat enough protein or enough in general, im detoxing my body from 2 years of weed abuse plus adderall plus nicotine plus coke. and i was surfing in rough waves and driving to high elevations and back down to sea level and then back up and then down and then through curvy roads on the road to hana. and i start school in a few days and im nervous about what its gonna be this year. at the same time im kinda just like well summer is gonna end and its all gonna be over soon no matter my feelings so why not just let this wave take me wherever. im not sure if this is a healthy mindset. i just wanna live in the present. like in SKAM when isak says “life is now”. life is in this moment that im writing this entry. life is in the now. and im determined to keep myself in the now not floating to the darkest or most nostalgic parts of my past or the fears or expecations of my future. im just gonna enjoy what is around me now. whenever now is. thats my goal.

i picked up my “HEAT” bomber jacket from grandma today and we ended up looking through her moms and grandma’s memory boxes. hard to put into words how meaningful that was. family really is everything. i love my grandma and ive realized she deserves to be protected from my demons, even if i dont always see them that way. see look im actually honest in these entries lol. i have such a rough choice ahead of me telling her and my dad. i just want to enjoy how it is now before i taint it with who i was born to love. i choose my grandma over unhealthy worldy desires. i want to make her proud. and that means not settling, but finding my guy. someone im proud of and that lifts me up. hes out there and i know hes fun and cute and happy and i know hes waiting for me too. i trust the universe will bring me to him when the time is right and the stars align haha. for now im just gonna focus on my health and school. love can come find me. and i know it will not when im waiting for my life to begin but when im running with it. 

in other universe news, i prayed that the universe would put a boy in my life and it HAPPENED lmaoo. honestly doesnt even seem real that it happened but it really did. so this guy chris that i met on tinder (lol i know tinder gross stupid dum whatever but hey, it put him on my radar and im not complaining). anyways he was at the same resort town as me in maui this past week with all his friends! how crazy is that! hes the one guy thats been on my mind for a while now and we both end up in hawaii right next to eachother at the same time?? thats freaky universe stuff right there idc. hes going to lmu next year which im excited about but not too excited lol we know what happened with instagram matt last year when i got too hyped. so im just keeping this one as a friend.he even called it a “perfect start to a magical friendship” lmaooo. ok but the tea is that ive been saying to katherine that i wanna be friends with him at lmu. so at least were on the same page about (even though he beat me to it the little bitch haha). it was fun though hanging out with him. i mean it took me getting caught sneaking out and getting yelled at and having my sister and my mom guard the door at night and curfews but hey i got to spend a few hours with him and it was so easy. hes cute too. not that great of a nose but i actually dont even care. great eyes. and hes funny. i just feel like its always awkward with guys like occidental matt where i can barely stand the awkward tension between us. occidental matt is perfect for me looks wise but when i take that away im annoyed by him haha. he isnt funny (or at least my kind of funny.. which by the way is hilarious like if u dont think im funny then ur stupid sorry) and hes boooorriiingggg. and possesive. and moody. blah blah blah i dont need that in my life. i want someone im excited to see. it sucks though cuz im really just not talking to anyone rn. i realized that i just go from one “online boyfriend” to the next because im nervous to not be talking to someone. but thats so weakkk like thats not how i need to live. im choosing to live my own life and love my own self and take care of my self before searching the fake internent for my soul mate. this years about me. about what i can do without drugs and in good health. im determined, and im ready. hahaha okdramatic im always ending these like this. OH WAIT. scatterbrain alert bitch i didnt even finish what happened with chris and his friends. ok so i met him in the lobby and we hugged. we immediatly started talking wiht no awkwardness. he did stumble on his words though at first. i thought it was cute. then we went upand i said hi to his friends and we made cookies with the oreos in the middle and listened to mama mia (gayyyy) and took fireball shots and i drank BEER LOL. then we took the beers on the beach and i bummed a cigarrete off of some rich drunk white ladies. chris said i was smooth. i felt powerful with him,like my full smooth self. likei was light on my feet or something. then we sat at a bench and the softest orange cat walked over to me from far away and let me pet her. ok dont laugh but i really think that was the universe that sent that cat to remind me thats what brought me to that moment. it was like a hello. i just got the chills thinking about that haha im so dramaticcc. then this blonde drunk girl came up to us and we immediatly connected on a spiritual level. she gave me her purple and white lei and she talked about how she couldnt handle her family anymore,but she loves them. then my mom had to pick me up and i said bye to everyone. i guess she smoked chris and his friends out later that night which is so chill haha if only i still smoked weed. i cant beleive that was my life for more than a year. so weird. stoner trevor what a phaseee.

well thats all i got tonight. this was such a scatterbrained shit post but now at least i dont have to worry about forgetting any of this. goodnight future trevor.