#IM BACK WITH HAPPINESS BUT ALSO NO HAIR FROM SUCH AN AMAZING COMEBACK ALBUM

[osamuniichann]

Map of the Soul: Persona

yall already know after the bois drop an album i gotta jump on here commenting my love on it real fckn quick. They did it ONCE AGAIN, im so happy and alive and god i guess we gon jump back into what i think of the album!!

Intro: Persona. bro when this came out and I heard them old school vibes??? I WAS GONE. tbt to school luv affair and the old hip hop albums like can we just appreciate this nostalgia sldkgj the visuals in the mv were great, Nams looked BEAUTIFUL as per usual HHH. But I gotta say im scared of CGI Nams that mans too big i gasped--

Boy With Luv (feat. Halsey). Ok now L I S T E N. I KNEW when the teasers came out that this song was gonna bop so hard but DAMN DID IT HAVE TO GO SO HARD THO!! and like even tho I’m not a huge halsey fan, (i went to her badlands concert here and it was p good! im just not so into her new music so c: to each their own right?), she really matched this mv! the looks, the colors, the choreo, the vocals?? PERFECT. the visuals were so mf pretty aaaa. Its such a happy song like i kept replaying and i kept smiling so BIG! depression? never heard of her!! we going POSITIVITY AND HAPPINESS!

Mikrokosmos. Sister microcosms, mitochondria, microbiology. Yethhhh, i love the slow beats, the vocals being served eye--god, dont u wanna run?? or actually it sounds like the beginning soundtrack of a movie?? like when they’re walking and the producers, writers, directors’ names show on screen?? and the main character is listening to this on their headphones and then when they get to school, they take out their earphones and the audio gets quieter LMAO i appreciate this song a lot! c: 

Make It Right. Now this the one with Ed Sheeran collabing right?? u can totally tell its him, it has such a distinct sound unique to only him! i was gonna beat his ass if he gave me an annoying ass Shape of You but he came through sldkjgsg its a p chill song, i just wanna be on a bike riding through a park alongside a river at night IDK. like its calming and just makes me wanna take some time to myself to reflect and just stay relaxed. aaaa and when they sang “I can make you better, hold you tighter” im SAD :((( bts really comin out with soft ass songs, they forever have my love and support!

HOME. KLDSJSDLG YOOO. THIS. THIS FCKN ONE RIGHT HERE OFFICER. THIS IS MY FAVE (Boy With Luv is my second fave!!) like i heard that HOME was a song describing how we--the fans--are like home to the boys so i expected a ballad or a slow, soft song like 2! 3! or Spring Day but nOoO. they came out with this?! this mf shit goes so H A R D. I THREW MY BACK OUT [TRYNA] TWERK TO THIS. LIKE THE BEAT, THE VOCALS, THE FALSETTOS, THE HARMONIES, THE RAPS?!!! FUCK THIS STOMPED MY TEETH INTO A CEMENT CURB AND BROKE ME. MY ASS WILL FOREVER CLAP TO THIS!! jimin really went in like can i just say???? “you know u got that HOoOoOoMeee” GEEZUS I NEED THIS LIVE MA’AM, SIR ... *chef’s kiss!

Jamais Vus. JIN STARTS IT HELL YES. if im correct, this is the hopejinkook song right?? I love hearing hobi rap-sing/sing like its just so hyped or melodic. its such a addicting melody! And when Jungkook comes in wit the “please give me a remedyyyy~~” like um yes sir im bout to switch majors to Pharmacy so I can snatch some of them remedies to give u baby bois

Dionysus. alright my fellow percy jackson/heroes of olympus/trials of apollo stans, where yall at??? I deadass thought since Dionysus is the God of Wine and fertility, i thought we was gonna get some slow, sensual, luxurious sounds like House of Cards or Singularity?? But no ma’am we got Marvel, superhero, crime-fighting, shounen anime, ass-kicking rock emo vibes! IM LIVIN FOR IT LIKE HELL YE. someone bring out a fckn punching bag im bout to beat the crap out of it. And the change in beat during Yoon’s part?? “are you ready to get hyped up?” - Kim Namjoon 2019, IM BALD. Thanos bout to get his ass kicked wit this song playing, its a mf sign dont @ me! literally ant man better crawl up Thanos’ pruny fckn ass and expand while this plays in the back idc! also i heard hobi wrote the melodies and produced this track; man really went marvel/spiderverse on us and i LOVE IT

Final thoughts: amazing album AS USUAL!! the boys always aren’t afraid of exploring new genres and creating new sounds which i seriously lovelovelove. ive never been disappointed with an album from them, can yall spell TALENT?? the skill, the vocals, the raps, the visuals, the EVERYTHING is just perfect, outstanding, completely and utterly amazing. ill never get tired of these bois, they make me so happy and god im just so blessed to be born and living during the same time as them. i cant believe theyre back, im so excited and hope they will be able to come to my state for a concert bc im ready to spend top dollar to see them up close! i cant wait for what’s to come; no matter what they put out, ill forever support and love them wit all my goddamn heart! c: 

[kweebtrash]

Literally forget the fact that i havent been active for like 2 years or whatever i was in my feelings and wanted to write about this.

Im not into kpop anymore, i mean not as hardcore as i used to be; constantly keeping up with comebacks, spending hundreds of dollars on traveling and concerts and hi-touch, buying albums and furiously hoping for my bias’ PC,etc.

I was already on the tail end of getting out of kpop but when i got with my partner i just fell out of it completely (they listen to kpop occasionally even before they met me.) But kind of the terrible mistakes i made on here and me working so hard on stories and them falling flat made me dip out completely.

BUT lately i’ve been wanting to listen to kpop just casually. I’m actually listening to my faves playlist now and “Shine” came on and it’s like my whole body stopped and i really wanted to cry?? Pentagon means a lot to me. They’re one of my ult groups and i legitimately almost threw up at the concert because i was so excited. I cried when Dawnie got kicked out, i was there watching the youngest three grow up, listening to Jinho being talented Jinho, all that stuff. But Shine was what got me back into Kpop in 2017.

I’m a second gen stan so i started in 2011 or so, all the way back to when BigBang was nice and wholesome and amazing and the music videos were way weirder and cringey-er. I fell out of it and Shine just grabbed me by the hair and was like COME BACK BITCH. And that song makes me so incredibly happy? It flooded back all these memories of going to KCon 2018, back when i didn’t even KNOW the member’s names but i was like I LOVE YOU ALL. It led me to stray kids and of course i had my obsessive BTS phase (and the NCT one after that. Hello Johnny) I made so many friends and genuinely enjoyed it so much, not only as a hobby but as a way to meet people. I miss talking to the people i’ve made friends with on here, the people who enjoyed my work, and not necessarily the people i made mistakes with lol but it was still a learning experience. All of those memories came back at once and i was suddenly just so fckn sad that i dont have that same feeling of happiness or those friends anymore. That i CANT write anymore because i just havent been able to create ANYTHING that i like. No fanfiction, no DND stuff, no worldbuilding. Just a few OC’s here and there that i’ve just thrown out because nothing seems right.

Kpop used to be so special. Back in 2011 when i was in high school, kpop was weird. It was all like “Why are you listening to music when you don’t even understand it??”. It felt unique and so fresh and for the weird emo kid that i was i was like a kpop hipster. That sounds terrible but that’s what it felt like. It used to be impossible for me to get ANY kpop merch and ever since BTS took over America and all the other groups after and we have merch left and right and kpop stores in the states it doesnt feel as special anymore. Not to mention the fanbases are younger and it weirds be out when like some teenager is over here calling Felix daddy when that child doesn’t even know the first thing about being dominate. Also my birthday is at the end of the month and im old now, lol. The groups keep getting younger and it’s kinda like in anime. I can enjoy it as a whole but it feels strange to have the children sexualized and not very many older members. A lot of them are older now in the groups that i like but it still feels strange to be almost 30 and fawning over people younger than me. My partner is 3 years younger than me and i still feel like i’ve robbed a cradle.

Anyway, i’m just in my feelings and stressed because i have life things going on but i basically only talk to 2 people that i’ve met from kpop and while i love them dearly it was nice talking to a lot of people online. But now i wonder if i could find other friends who will talk to me about shit outside of kpop. I know everyone has other hobbies besides this but i’ve never gotten to know that side of the people i talked with. Like, i never really got any writer friends and i DESPERATELY need some, i’m not that up to date on anime but like i’m shoving down 1000 year war and chainsaw man and Tuca and Bertie (that’s not an anime but an in general animation). I know everyone and their mom like’s DND now but let me see how you play it, the worlds you created, your OC’s. it’s kinda sad that i’m almost 30 and cant actually make friends lmao. I guess i might feel a little sad bc my partner has like a billion online friends and i would just like other people to talk to again about our interest, even if it’s still kpop from time to time.

Shine just made me think of some happier times in my life and all the good feelings i had and it’s kinda gone now and i just spent like 30 minutes at work writing this because my playlist made me sad. Let me leave now lol

But wait quick embarrassing PS: yesterday while i was stoned i realized that my partner is messy Johnny (minus the fuckboi). Like bad at expressing emotion, looks cold but is an actual baby, actually really sensitive, a mama’s boy, a stoner, constantly trying to make straight A’s and working hard and stressing. I really wrote about my dream guy lmao

ok, now bye. im embarrassed i wrote this

[admiringlove]

IX: aparecium; an incantation to always remember.

— you finally read all the other pages of his diary.

+pairing: miya atsumu x reader.

+genre: crossover(hq x hp); fluff; angst; frenemies to lovers.

+word count: 2.9k.

+warnings: FLUFF!! pls, if i don’t put fluff, some of my moots would cry(*cough* ray).

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+author’s notes: this is the last chapter(im def not sad) BUT i will be writing bonus parts!!

+navigation: previous, masterlist,.

You stand in front of your apartment, sighing as you close your eyes, making your way inside your bedroom and begin to pick up the cardboard boxes with the help of your wand, moving them outside into the living room for someone(who is quite late, yet again) to take to your new home.

You tie your hair up, fixing your overcoat a little as you sigh, making your way to the smallest box, placed in the corner of the room. Just by looking at the stamp on top of it, you smile. 

The memories of your time at Hogwarts School Of Witchcraft and Wizardry. 

You carefully sit on your knees, your plaid skirt riding up just a smidge, as you open the carton in front of you. 

To say that it was filled up completely was an understatement because right now, a few books and photographs fell out onto your lap, making you chuckle. You picked up the photographs, settling with your back against the wall and your legs stretching out, as you looked through them one by one. 

The first one—one of your graduation ceremony, standing next to Shimizu Kiyoko(the current owner of the most popular Quidditch shop in London) who was beaming vividly at the camera with you, holding up your wands as a gesture that you had finally done it. Something that seemed almost insurmountable when you first started school, and now? You all were content, happy with your lives. 

The second photograph was one from the third year, your first time in Hogsmeade. You were in The Three Broomsticks, and a mustache of the froth from the butterbeer had formed atop your lips. Behind you, a certain fox pointed and laughed his guts out. 

The next picture was from the Shrieking Shack—where all of your friends had ditched the second last day of school and spent the whole day drinking and reminiscing the past seven years of nostalgic happiness. A boy held your hand with the fondest look in his carob orbs, and you returned it. 

You gingerly took the three photos, storing them in the photo album that had also fallen out of the box in the process of you opening it. Smiling, you took out some more mementos. 

Your broomstick, the Nimbus 2001, sat at the bottom, but you excitedly removed it and placed it on the ground, saying, "Up!"

It almost made it to your hand but fell down upon grazing your fingertips. You pouted, blaming the number of years it had passed since you had played Quidditch. Peering into the box as you placed the broomstick aside, you found something even funnier. 

Cheap, piss colored hair-dye that was almost ten-years-old. 

You chuckled, looking at it playfully as you opened the top of the bottle. The disgusting odor that came from it made you grunt as you immediately placed the cap back on top, never desiring to touch that thing ever again. And once more, you placed the item in your hand to the side, looking into the box to find more things that reminded you of your happiest years. 

You couldn't believe your eyes at what sat at the bottom of the carton. 

An empty notebook with a soft leather cover, with a grey quill by its side, sitting there and ridiculing you. 

You blinked twice, making sure what you were seeing was real. Hell, you even rubbed your eyes until you could see mindless patterns in the dark. You opened your eyes, the patterns making themselves sort of visible in plain sight, disappearing after a few milliseconds when you grabbed the brown book in front of you and whispered with your wand in hand, "Aparecium."

September 2, 20**.

I don’t know what I’m doing at this point. It’s been 3 years since I started loving her.  When I saw her walk into the train today, umm, yesterday cause it’s past 2 AM now… I felt so happy?? I mean, I know I tease her and all, she’s quite amazing. She’s got the brains for it all and insults me back even when I say something stupid.  I really dunno. 3 years and I’ve made 0 progress. I seriously need to re-think my decision about my love for this girl 'cause 'Samu says there’s no chance she loves me back. Dunno if I’ll be able to stop my feelings, though. I’ve liked her since my second year. Damn me, for being such a lovesick puppy.  And to think I colored my hair for her too. [Y/N] called it piss-colored. Out of all things, why the fuck would ya compare somebody’s hair to piss? That’s utterly disgusting. I wonder where [L/N] gets these dumb ideas. Damn her, that slug. Anyways, I have class in a couple hours. G'night. 

'Tsumu. 

You immediately let out a hearty laugh, flipping to the next page when you remembered a certain encounter with the boy who wrote the diary. The day he told you he loved you, by the infamous Black Lake, he spoke of this particular page. He said that he addressed the nightly trips around Hogwarts, about how much he longs to be yours, about his happiness when he sees you, and your snarky comments that are just as, if not more, witty than his. 

September 4, 20**

Today was the third day of school. Also my first trip around Hogwarts with [Y/N] under my invisibility cloak. We snuck into the kitchens and got ourselves steak pies and treacle tarts, and then went to the Astronomy Tower where we ate them while laughing about nothing in particular. I love these little trips. They make me all warm and fuzzy inside. Dunno how to put it into words, but I really like spending time with her alone. It makes me really really really happy. I wish that someday, maybe when I'm all grown up and play for a known Quidditch Team and she's a DADA professor, we are still like this. Going around to aimless places, eating food, and laughing about the old times(or anything really, I just want to be with her even when I'm older). And just like always, she doesn't fail to throw dumb comebacks at me. I can't help but chuckle at them, because sometimes they really are offensive. Well, looks like it's time to hit the hay now, so g'night. 

'Tsumu.

You gasp as the page comes to an end, a hand on your mouth. He wasn't wrong when he said he wrote about you. You smile as a tear runs down your cheek as you flip to a random page this time, and you realize that it's written in his sixth year of Hogwarts. 

December 23, 20**

I stayed back for Christmas break this year and my dorm is all empty. So is hers, because she says she didn't want to go back home at all until the summer. I feel bad for her gran, that woman must feel lonely. 

You giggled at the line, grinning because you remember your grandma sending you a Howler, which yelled at you in the empty dorm-room for not coming home for the holidays. She said she missed you, and that your grandfather's health was deteriorating. She had also said that she knew why you didn't come back, and that it was okay, because she understood that you couldn't see another loved one go. The Howler ended on a sorrowful note, but everything eased back into its place because you remember the writer of the diary in your hands being there to comfort you when a dreaded letter came in after the holidays. You continued reading where you left off, wiping away the new wave of tears that had emerged from the memories.

Yesterday, me and [Y/N] went around the castle under the invisibility cloak I gave her. It was fun because I always get to see this little smile on her face that only shows up during these trips. We also went to the forbidden section of the library just because we wanted to look at a few spells that are probably illegal. I did accidentally kill a rat practicing the second unforgivable curse, and [Y/N] helped me hide all the evidence by feeding the dead rat to the Hippogriff she had found in the Forbidden Forest. I swear, if someone saw the way I did the spell and couldn't stop until [Y/N] threw Expelliarmus at me, they would throw me in the deepest pin in Azkaban and I'd probably never be able to see [Y/N] again. Anyway, I have to go back out for dinner now. G'night.

'Tsumu.

You, again, laughed at the man's childishness. You recollect distinctly how scared he was, that he had almost pissed his pants in the Courtyard that night. You had assured him that nothing would go wrong and that your lips were completely sealed, because he was your friend of course, so you had quickly formulated a plan to help him. And yet again, you flip to a new page, one from the fifth year this time. 

July 15, 20**

 I hate this part every year. Ever since my third year, it sickens me to come back home for summer. I can't see her because she lives in Lambeth while I'm in Westminster with my posh family. It makes me a little angry sometimes that my family is well-known in the wizarding world because this means my summers are filled with whatever my parents want me to do. The train ride back home was definitely not quiet. It was so chaotic(mostly because of the constant bickering between me and [Y/N]) and Kita-san yelled at us at the end. That was the first time I've ever seen him get angry, so he was either really fed up or we were being too dumb. Anyway, I'm gonna miss Hogwarts a lot for the next month or so, because after that I get to see her again. Honestly? Can't wait for the sixth year. I hope she grows taller, because right now, she's quite the midget. I'll write her a letter or two, but I probably won't send all of them. G'night for now. 

'Tsumu.

You continue reading it all. Page by page, parchment by parchment, word by word, letter by letter until you finally get to the last page. The one he wrote on the graduation day, where he says that he wants to marry you someday. But you don't get to read it just yet, because he walks into the room with his booming voice and boyish grin.

"[Y/N]! Sorry I'm late, sweetheart! I apparated back home as fast as I could 'cause Coach saw me slack off a lil-"

"So ya actually read it all, huh?" he smirks, walking up to you and crouching down next to you, "Ah, the last page, have ya read it yet?"

"Not the last one," you smile, "—if only I'd read these sooner, we wouldn't have gone through all that mindless drama in seventh year, right?"

"Eh, 'twas kinda worth it in the end," he shrugs, sitting down next to you and placing his thumb on your chin, "Love, you've been crying?"

You shook your head lightly, letting out a small chuckle which to him sounded like the sweetest melody on the face on the planet, "Tears of joy, 'Tsumu. You were a cute teenager in love."

He smiles with his teeth on display, his fading blonde hair falling on his face with perfection as he whispers, "Only for you, darling."

"I'm glad," you mutter, closing in and placing a ghost of a kiss on his lips when you realize, "Wait, shit! We have to take all of this to the House! I'm supposed to leave for Hogwarts tonight!"

"Kiss me first, then we'll talk."

"'Tsumu, you really didn't have to come all the way to Hogwarts to drop me off," you giggle, as the yellow-haired man intertwines his fingers with yours quietly, giggling along with you as he says, "Hey, now yer students get to see yer hot boyfriend that you've been with for the past eight years."

"My stupid boyfriend that did a lot of illegal things in school. You're not exactly a good influence, you know," you mumble, earning a little offended open-mouth Atsumu walking alongside you to your quarters. He continues faking the vexed expression, a hand on his heart as he says, "How could ya wound me like this, baby?" 

"I love you though, so it's justified," you say, opening the door and placing your trunk by the bed. He closes the door, leaning on it with his arms crossed over his chest as you set up your things in the room. When you turned around, you saw Atsumu looking at you with the most enamored look in his clove-infused eyes. You sighed, your shoulders immediately relaxing when your orbs land on him by the door. You step towards him, your beige trench coat trailing behind as you wrap your arms around his very muscular figure(now that he's a part of Nottingham Jackals as a Beater). 

"You're going to leave, aren't you?" you mumble against his chest softly, as he chuckles out, "Yer lucky ya get to stay in Hogwarts when I'm gone. Everything's gonna remind ya of me."

Before you open your mouth to retort, your boyfriend says, "Don't worry, slug. I'll send ya letters everyday. And I'll come to meet ya twice a month. Maybe you can even let me meet yer students."

"'Tsumu, no-"

"Imagine! Children and teenagers, all of 'em love me to death. They'll love yer class, even more, when you make me meet 'em!" he exclaims, his eyes filled with curiosity, "Also, also! What about the third years? I wanna be there when the boggart lesson goes on-"

"'Tsumu, no. The school won't allow it. Although, my students do come and ask about you a lot because they like your Quidditch playing skills. They're not idiots like me, they won't fall in love with your stupid personality," you chuckle, pulling away from the hug, but still holding his arms with yours. He pouts, pulling you into a soft kiss, but immediately pulling away and winking at you, "I'm gonna see ya in a few weeks. Maybe I'll take ya on a date to Hogsmeade again, we can sneak into the Shrieking Shack again under that invisibility cloak."

"'Tsumu, I'm a teacher, not a student!" you laugh, but he simply says, "If anything, that gives us an excuse!"

Miya Atsumu never expected you to be agitatedly running around in your green-room, trying to find things for your hair and make-up. He chuckles lightly because all the other people in the room can do is shake their heads and sigh at your frantic state. Your maid-of-honor, Kiyoko, tried to calm you down about half an hour ago, but it was to no avail. 

Atsumu sent Kiyoko a knowing glance, to which she and all the other bridesmaids stepped outside for just a minute. 

"[Y/N]," he says, his voice low but still soothing. You stop in your tracks, turning around and gasping as you looked at him—clad in sweatpants and a white shirt—and widened your eyes. 

"Dummy, you aren't supposed to see me just yet! Go away and wait at the altar!" you yell, walking over to him and attempting to shove him outside the room. 

Emphasis on the word, 'attempting'. 

"You look exactly like what you are right now, a slug. So listen to me, love. I need to give ya something before you start stressin' out all over again," Atsumu murmurs, placing his hands on your shoulders tenderly as he pulls out a book with a leather cover and hands it to you. 

You sigh, picking it up as you sit down by the vanity. Atsumu looms behind you, crouching down to whisper next to your ears, "Love, open the last page, will ya?"

You furrow your eyebrows in confusion, turning your head to look at him with exasperation. He places a peck to your cheek, humming indulgently as an indicator for you to continue as he instructed. You sigh again, shoulders drooping low as you turn over the book and open it, and muttering, "Aparecium."

July 2, 20**.

I want to marry [L/N] [Y/N] someday. 

Miya Atsumu. 

From the last day of the seventh year, and Atsumu continues to explain to you that during the train ride back home when all of you were sleeping, was when he wrote the last entry of his diary, and never opened it again. Because he knew, that he meant every word scribbled on every page. 

You sat there, listening to the man with the messy faded blonde hair, losing yourself in his perfect brown eyes all over again. You felt as if you were diving deep into an ocean of pure chocolate, the sweetness and the slight bitterness getting the best of you as you drown—but voluntarily, because drowning was your intention. 

"I love you, Atsumu," you say out of nowhere, cutting him off. He stops abruptly, his eyes growing wide and his mouth forming into a pout. His lips form into the brightest smile ever, as if the rays of a thousand suns meeting at one point. His boyish grin melts your heart, as he presses his lips to your forehead and says, "I love you more, darling. Now, take a breather, will ya?"

"Oh, and before I go. Don't disappoint me today, slug. I've been waiting to do this for the past eleven years."

© all works belong to admiringlove on tumblr. plagiarism is strictly prohibited.

i’m not crying. yes. 

[haechanplsacceptmylove]

Regret pt.4 (final)

Part one 🍓 part two 🍓 part three 🍓 part four 🍓

Warning(s): smut  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

A/n: omfg finally im posting this, I couldn’t upload this from my phone so I gave up and used my laptot, guys the editing is bad cuz idk how this aMaZing app works on pc. Anyway this is the last part!!! I hope you like it omg. Now I’ll be waiting for you requests!!! I write about anyone, don’t be scared and just request  uwu.

You wake up at the feeling of the sun warming your face and check the time "oh shit it's already 11pm" you get up quickly and go take a shower. You do your morning routine and prepare breakfast. "morning" your best friend Mina says walking with her eyes half open "morning lazyass" you chuckle and tell her the breakfast is ready.

You decided to put on some music from the speakers while you eat and chat. After a couple songs NCT DREAM's Ridin starts playing and you stop eating, looking emotionless at your food, flashbacks filling your head. Your friend quickly changes the song feeling guilty for not checking the playlist before putting it on play. You look at her giving her a faint smile "their new album is pretty good.." she looks at you not knowing what to say. "should I agree or change the topic" she thinks to herself looking at you confused , "Mina!" you startle her and chuckle "your food is getting cold, eat! I didn't cook it to be thrown away" you say and she nods and continues eating.

It's been almost 2 months since what happened. You both never talked after that night. After crying your eyes out everyday and night for a whole 3 weeks, you decided to get out of the sorrow you're in and get a hold of your life especially when your comeback was very near, you thought that working hard and for yourself and your members and fans was more important and so you continued on living trying to not think about the whole incident, which was obviously pretty hard. You missed each other so much but you both were too hurt, you were afraid that staying together will hurt more than letting go of each other. Your band had a comeback last month and you're more than thankful that you both didn’t have a comeback at the same time, otherwise you would've had to promote together. You congratulated the nct members for their comeback , except of course Haechan. You're still in contact with the members, and they believe that there was a misunderstanding between you two so they also were trying their best to talk to Haechan about it whenever they get the time. After that incident Mino apologised to you and promised you to make things right. Well you also feel guilty about it so you forgave him, not wanting to lose such an important person again. -meanwhile- The dreamies are all sitting in the dressing room watching their comeback performance. "yo hyuck did you make your mind?" Jaemin whispers to Haechan but of course the other members heard him and switched their attention on Haechan who's now looking at his bubble tea thinking deeply. He sighs "I don't know..." "c'mon man they did wrong but you know damn well y/n was completely not in her right mind!" Chenle says "that's right, and you know how easily y/n gets drunk and how clumsy she could be" Renjun adds and the others nod. One month ago Mino finally had the chance to meet Haechan after getting rejected numerous times, and he finally explained everything to him, from the beginning till the very end and took the blame for starting it. "I know y/n didn't understand what she was saying nor doing and i knew she didn't mean anything of it but i was just.... I just really missed her. I know that was very selfish of me but it's not her fault! I was wrong, i made a mistake, please don't hurt y/n more, she's already broken i can't see her like that" Mino says in one go afraid he'd get interrupted again and ending up in another misunderstanding. After that, Haechan had been thinking about it and he decided to forgive you, after all he loved you more than himself, you were his everything. But he was afraid he hurt you too much, not forgetting how you once told him "when someone hurts me... I usually automatically start building hate towards them so my good feelings end towards them and I can live without being or getting hurt anymore, that how my escape or fight-mode works" you told him after getting out of your toxic relationship. Haechan just couldn't stop thinking about that and kept getting more scared everyday thinking that your hate towards him is growing more and more everyday. ----------- "you look gorgeous" you stylist looks at you mouth open. You had a yellow crop top that showed your shoulders and black mini pencil skirt, with yellow and black thigh high boots. You looked gorgeous, everyone looked at you in awe, especially when it was your first time wearing yellow in such an event. You're on an award show, where basically all the artists are attending and especially the band where's also your boyfriend, or ex-boyfriend. "wait let me put this necklace, it suits your outfit very well" your stylist says going behind you, you look in the mirror and see her putting on the sunflower necklace Haechan gave you on your first date after getting officially together, long time ago. You hold the necklace and hesitate "what's wrong? You don't like it??" your stylist says and you shake your head "oh no.. Bu- nothing it's pretty" you smile and she nods putting it on around your exposed neck. Your members look at you in awe "y/n you look- wow you're really gonna be the prettiest in this event" "i know rightt! Ugh I'm jealous" your members whine and you chuckle. You were the last band to enter the hall and everyone stood up bowing to you and you doing the same to them. Your table was near NCT's and you feel yourself getting nervous. You sit down and start chatting with redvelvet members who were sitting with your band in the same table. You feel someone's gaze on you and automatically turn your gaze to meet his, Haechan's. As soon as he realises you're looking at him he looks away and you do the same. He was looking extremely handsome that night, "a whole snack" you thought to yourself. It's been already 45 min in the event and you just can't hold it in anymore. You and Haechan keep gazing at each other, until you both finally hold eye contact that lasts 5 seconds. You look away and sigh getting up and walking past NCT's table towards the backstage. Haechan's eyes follow you and see where you're going. You go backstage and walk till you reach the cafeteria that's made for idols. You buy a water bottle and drink it. Suddenly you feel someone grabbing your wrist and pulling you to the nearest empty dark room. As soon as the door closes you're pinned on it. Thanking god for the open window where the moon's light is shining through, you could see who it was. The one and only, the boy who owns your heart and your soul, the one who completely owns you; Lee Donghyuck. His face is so close to yours as you can feel his breath on your lips, he looks at your mouth and back at your eyes, then he scans your face, the face he's been missing for the past 2 months; 60 days; 1440 hours. Without words he leans in slowly, making sure to give you the time to react and stop him before he does what he's about to do, but you don't do anything, instead you grab him by his collar and pull him in for a kiss. A kiss full of emotions, sadness, hatred, happiness. Soon the slow kiss turns into a heated hungry make out, you both pull away panting and holding an eye contact. "I fucking missed you" he says leaning his forehead onto yours. "i missed you too, hyuck, so much" you say closing your eyes, you soon feel his lips back onto yours and you start another make out session wrapping your arms around his neck, pulling his hair. He moans in the kiss, damn he missed you, everything about you. Your smell, your taste, your voice, your smile, your moves, everything. Haechan's hands move from your waist to your ass, giving is a small squeeze as his hands then slide down to your thighs to pull you up. You jump and wrap your legs around his waist not breaking the kiss. Haechan places you on the nearest table and lets you sit on it, he moves from your mouth to kiss your jawline down to your neck and collarbones till he reaches your necklace. His eyes glows as he chuckles and kisses your necklace and your chest area around the necklace. He leans back and looks at you "you're gorgeous" he pulls you into another kiss but now you can feel his apologies in it, his regrets and his sorrow. You feel as tears stream down your face he pulls back and holds your cheek wiping your tears "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry" he says now tears streaming down his cheeks too. You hold his cheeks "Sorry Donghyuck, forgive me I was so stupi-" he interrupts you "shhhh i can't stay mad at my baby for a long time you know" he chuckles and gives you one last kiss before kissing down your chest, pulling down your top, showing your breasts and he wastes no time to attack them, sucking on them as if his life depends on it. You let out a whimper and hold pull on his hair, letting your head fall back and arching your back. His hands go down to your boots and zips them off, massaging your bare legs, not letting go of your nipples. You feel your nipples getting numb and moan loud trying to pull your chest out of Haechan's mouth and he pulls away kissing down your clothed stomach reaching your sensitive clothed clit. He pulls your legs putting them on his shoulders pulling your skirt up and taking your pants off, attacking your sensitive nerves immediately and you let out a moan putting your hand on your mouth right after. Haechan groans knowing he won't be able to hear you moan since people could be anywhere out there. He eats you out, giving you full satisfaction as you arch your back and hold his head pushing him deeper "ah fuck hyuck! I'm-im close" your back is about to break arching trying to reach your long waited climax. Just about when you reach it, Haechan pulls away and you whine at the cold feeling. Haechan looks at you smirking zipping his pants off and freeing his thick dick, you bite your lips as soon as your eyes lay on his thick member, feeling the saliva in your mouth you just want to get on your knees right now and give him the best suck but his chuckle wakes you up from your dreamland, "already feeling hungry baby?" he says. "I want to suck you" you say straightforwardly and he nods "I'll remember that and make sure you keep your promise" he says and slams into you. "Ah!" you let out a loud moan "fuck you're big" you say panting and he chuckles "it's not like it's your first time having me inside you" he kisses you jaw waiting for you to adjust but you start immediately moving your hips "needy aren't we" he smirks "just move- fuck!" he interrupts you with a harsh thrust, another and another until he's thrusting at a fast rhythmical pace. You try to keep you moans in, he pulls you closer and you put your legs around his hips, making him go deeper and hit that perfect spot making you a moaning mess "fuck it" you think and let go of your mouth hugging Haechan biting his shoulder and moaning. Haechan on the other side keeps groaning in your ear as he bites and sucks on your sensitive neck, leaving red and purple marks that will definitely cause you troubles with your stylist. "fuck babygirl you're so tight" he whispers growling sending goosebumps down your spine "only for you daddy" you say feeling yourself getting closer to your lost climax and arch your back "ah fuck im close!" you moan and his thrusts get faster if that's even possible "fuck me too baby let's do it at the same time" he kisses you swallowing each other's moans as you reach your climax and soon you feel his hot cum filling you up. You ride your orgasms and lean your foreheads on eachother's. "I love you y/n" "I love you Hyuck" you smile at each other still panting feeling him getting softer in you. "Okay are you done now? Get out it's our time to perform" you hear a knock and Jaemin's voice, and dreamies' chuckles.

"they'll never stop teasing us" hyuck says and you laugh putting your clothes on and getting out of the room hand in hand, face red. You see the dreamies smirking at you both and shaking their heads. "you hornyass nasties!" Jisung yells in disgust and they chuckle.

"Y/N!!!!!!! WHAT'S ON YOUR NECK" you hear your stylist yell and you swear under your breath. Well you both got in trouble in that event but you didn't forget your promise later that night ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

[dinosaurtsukki]

haikyuu!! music idol au (seijoh and shiratorizawa vers.)

hello hello! now for the groups with seijoh and shiratorizawa! if you like this why not check out music idol au karasuno vers.

CROWN ENTERTAINMENT

okay so basically this is now the entertainment company for the groups FALCON and KING

HAHAHS THE NAMES I REALLY CAN'T GUYS I'M SORRY THE NEXT POST ABOUT NEKOMA AND FUKURODANI ARE GONNA BE MUCH WORSE

okay but yes

they're one of the biggest names in the country and their groups have been around for quite some time

washijo is CEO

they're known to be very hard to get into because all of their idols are trained to be polished at whatever they do

but all of their releases are top quality

so lets get into the groups !!

KING - seijoh

okay so KING has 8 members and most of their comeback concepts are pretty bubblegum pop and boy-next-door

our leader for this group is oikawa of course

he's also wanted to be an idol for so long and trained really hard for it

• he managed to pass the auditions but his trainee years were hard on him because of all the expectations and work

luckily he befriended iwa who was also a struggling trainee

they spent years helping each other out and leaning on each other for support until their debut came

oikawa's the all-around vocalist, visual, and dancer so he's almost always in the center

the kind who nails all the notes while busting out the hardest dance moves

he's also multilingual because he wants to talk to a variety of his fans

everything he does seems so natural but in reality he practices so hard that iwa has to drag him to bed

iwa's our main rapper and main dancer of the group

his audition tape of him dancing was a bit embarassing because he was wearing a godzilla sweater and his hair was gelled up

everyone likes to bring it out from time to time

his fans also like sending him anything godzilla

his rapping is pOWERFUL and he can also beatbox really well

he also leads the dance breaks in performances

everyone thought he was scary until oikawa accidentally called him iwa-chan in a radio show and now everyone calls him iwa-chan

while oikawa is the leader, iwa is the one who manages everyone and makes sure no one gets lost when they go to awards shows

matsukawa and hanamaki were trainees that came in later and they became friends because they were roommates

hanamaki saw matsukawa taping printed out pictures of memes on the wall beside his bed and immediately knew they would be friends for life

and they were

they're notorious for sneaking food into their dorms and also picking on oikawa

they're kind of like an inseparable duo especially since hanamaki is on vocals and matsukawa is on rap

they have a lot of onstage moments and fans love how playful they are

they kind of improvise a bit sometimes when it comes to dance moves which makes washijo want to pull his hair out but fans like it so :/

they're the oldest members but they still call iwa and oikawa 'mom and dad'

they like doing weird shit to hanamaki's hair and taking videos of it 

the ‘what’s a contract? never heard of it’ duo basically 

yahaba's like the resident beautiful guy apart from oikawa

his voice is really melodious and he's often the one harmonizing with the high part

also sUCH a fLIRT

camera: *is directed at him*

yahaba: *blows a kiss*

matsuhana try to get him into their pranks on oikawa but he's too much of a goody two shoes

likes to film his skincare routine for the fans

secretly oikawa’s favorite junior

kyoutani auditioned for CROWN because he thought they were forming a hip-hop group or something edgy but no he was put into KING and he has to be around softies

he was desperate to get kicked out at first until iwa convinced him that he could still keep his look

they gave up on making him smile or look bright on cameras and said that if he's going to glare at least make it sexy

only listens to iwa and always stands next to iwa during award shows 

kindaichi and kunimi are their most treasured juniors and they'll do anything to protect them

both of them are vocalists and even though they don't often sing the melodies or hit the high notes, they're great harmonizing

actually knew of kageyama back in their auditioning days and were lowkey jealous of him

kindaichi is the sweetest junior he's always the one giving the members water and making sure they're alright

kunimi just silently observes the entire time and barely says anything but he'll often approach iwa for pointers when it comes to dancing

they were super young when they debuted and attended high school together in between practice

their seniors surprised them by coming to their graduation and even performing at the ceremony

both of them aren't as good as their fellow members yet but kindaichi works hard to be able to earn a few more lines in their songs

kunimi doesn't show much effort but he secretly likes to learn songwriting and music production because his dream is for KING to perform one of his songs

FALCON - shiratorizawa

another group that debuted about a year or two before KING

it is a POWERHOUSE of talent

also pretty much the OG group for most fans that inspired other upcoming groups

a lot of their concepts are centered around a mature gentleman image

idk what im saying but i'd compare them to super junior pretty much

they also do a lot of edgy concepts

ushijima's the leader of the group plus main rapper

he was actually inspired to become a rapper after watching another idol's performance

tbh he never expected to debut with a group but he had grown attached to some of his fellow trainees

he's also really talented at writing and producing songs

super stoic, even in front of the camera, but fans love his attempts at humor

tendou's like their main dancer and rapper

when he was younger people said his dancing looked weird because tendou could do those really cool, almost jerky movements

when washijo saw his audition tape he was like 'hmm we could use that'

thats because FALCON is super big on choreography, especially the ones that look like all the members are creating this huge other thing just by using movement

tendou pretty much leads the dance breaks all the time and he looks super serious and intense

he likes saying the most random, funny things during interviews

sometimes you'll catch him dancing by himself when they’re just waiting for results in award shows

so many conspiracy videos as to whether or not tendou has joints

now we have our shirabu kenjiro

this boy is like a prodigy he was destined to be recruited by CROWN and to end up in FALCON

the more i spell out these names the more i see how absurd they all look i'm sorry

tendou likes to call him his 'beloved junior'

he's as serious as ushiwaka is but with sASS

is known for sassing out interviewers and show hosts when he can tell that they're making up bullshit and now everyone's scared of him

he's main vocals and visuals

his voice is like a really nice baritone and he's very powerful with his singing that people don't question whether or not he lipsyncs

actually gets the most lines in their group

he likes to challenge the limits of his contract and even cut his own bangs and that's why they're Like That

he ended up getting chewed out by washijo for it

ya boi semisemi is out here being a dAncE gOD

he can learn choreography really quickly and in variety shows the hosts always challenge him to learn another group's choreo by looking at it once

so far he has not lost

everyone in his team cheers him on

also basically the group's main choreographer. he'll lowkey get mad at someone who forgot the choreo but teach them anyway

interacting with fans makes him so happy and soft he treasures every letter he receives and likes giving out gifts during fanmeets

he keeps his room really neat and likes to display the presents he receives from fans

also main vocalist in the group but just gets a line or two

his real skill though are opening dance performances during music award shows

he, tendou, and goshiki slay every opening performance and its amazing

reon is the last main rapper of the group and basically The Mom of the group

he's the one calming everyone down and checking up with people before they perform

his rapping sounds really smooth and very close to how he speaks normally so he shines most in the b-side tracks of their album

he had a lot of struggles passing auditions because most companies would discriminate because of appearance but washijo saw a lot of potential in him

he likes to speak out about the discrimination in terms of appearance in the music industry

everyone in FALCON supports him

lastly we have goshiki the precious little maknae of the group

everyone dotes on him because he was a skinny child when he debuted with the group

goshiki's like the legendary maknae who could do pretty much anything

he's main vocalist, dancer, and visuals

when he started out he was always super active and full of initative as a trainee

he trained super hard just to debut with FALCON because he looks up to ushijima

like shirabu, he gets a ton of lines and sings a lot during the chorus

when he graduated everyone from FALCON attended and he treated them all too lunch

after every comeback tendou's jus like 'our little baby goshiki is growing up'

i basically wrote him as jungkook from bts didn't i?

additional hc’s for funsies

oikawa was actually supposed to debut much earlier with FALCON but he had grown attached to his fellow trainees (iwa and matsuhana) and wanted to be in a group with them

FALCON and KING have a small rivalry ongoing to see who can get the most views in one day during every comeback video that the members do all these crazy things to get their fans to stream their comebacks

one of them was matsuhana promising to release a rare picture of kyoutani smiling 

FALCON has Boardgame Fridays where they just play boardgames all night and it’s super fun and precious because goshiki gets super competitive

also all of his seniors tried to get him drunk after his graduation and goshiki did in fact get drunk and ended up spilling some secrets about how shirabu cuts his bangs on instagram live

FALCON and KING love having dance-off sessions with each other and the music they always choose is ‘Crazy in Love’ from the White Chicks movie

the reon and semi have a mukbang series on instagram live and sometimes yahaba and kindaichi join in

ushijima allegedly wrote and produced a song about the joy of farming but washijo rejected it from appearing on the album because it was weird but thanks to tendou spilling about it, fans demanded to hear the song and ushijima performed it in one of their concerts

kunimi also wrote a song about that was supposedly about a loving a bad boy despite being a nice girl and when people asked what his inspiration was he just said ‘kyouhaba’ 

haikyuu!! music idol au series: karasuno vers., seijoh and shiratorizawa vers., nekoma and fukurodani vers.

[todorodeo]

fireworks - k.b.

warnings: fluff, so much fluff, also cursing? it’s bakugo what do you expect word count: 3.4k oops my hand slipped a/n: i wrote this for a friend so here you go tam ily && idk how to format this im sorry also if there's mistakes its a common occurrence what else is new Bakugo knew from the way your knuckles rapped on his door that it was you. He grunted loud enough for you to hear and looked up from his desk to watch you stumble in closing the door and falling against it, the only sounds in the room being the fan in the corner and your sigh of relief. He assumed something annoying occurred with you by your demeanor, it was probably some stupid extra keeping you from getting to his room sooner than later. The sun had started its descent, the beginnings of a sunset were painted outside Bakugo’s window. When you finally looked up and met his eyes, you couldn’t help but smile at his silhouette against the fading sky. He was unamused, his lips were pursed, and his eyes were uncharacteristically gentle looking at you. You caught him in a relaxed mood. A rarity. 

“Hey..” His voice snapped you out of your thoughts, and you were once again caught in his gaze, still gentle, but waiting for a response.

“Hey.” You smiled back brightly, you didn’t get a smile in return, but you could tell he was happy you were here. He just showed it differently. He turned his head back to his papers and continued to write, you took that as your cue to make yourself comfortable. Sitting on his bed, you took out your phone and secretly snapped a picture of him, adding it to your album of candid bakugo photos. He had no idea. Or so you thought.

A smirk found its way onto your lips when you took the hair tie off your wrist and slingshot it at his back, making him jolt up and shoot you a glare.

“The fuck?”

“Sit up straight you gremlin.” This made him growl, only making your smile wider. You had gotten to the point with Bakugo where his outbursts and overall explosive attitude didn’t phase you. If anything you were more of a catalyst for him, while also keeping him at bay. At first he found it weird, you supported him and let him loose, but you also managed to calm him down and.. make him better. Calmer, more genuine. They were the tiniest of steps but they were steps nonetheless. That’s one of the things he loved about you, though he’d never admit it out loud, you let him be himself while also making him a better person. You didn’t hold him back, but you didn’t sugarcoat things. He appreciated that. Honestly he’d be pissed if he found out you were just playing with him. But that wasn’t the case.

“My posture’s fucking fine.” The tiny voice in the back of his head knew you were right, but bickering with you always made his pulse quicken just a bit, interacting with you gave him minuscule butterflies in his stomach, a fact he would take to his grave, but a fact.

“You know I’m right, do you want proof? I have evidence.” You challenged him, holding up your phone. He scoffed at your rebuttal, annoyed again that you were literally- taking pictures behind his back. He knew you snapped pictures all the time, at first it was annoying, and he almost forced you to delete them but he decided he’d let you keep this up when he saw you beaming over them. Happy (Y/N) = Happy Bakugo.

Bakugo mumbled something under his breath and turned back to his work, this time with a straighter spine. Your ears couldn’t quite pick up what he said, but you smiled as he accepted defeat and straightened his back. You loved teasing him and he did the same all the time, but you also loved that he was letting you. You both were constantly trying to have the upper hand on each other, some kind of power play, but even others in the class could attest to how compatible you were for each other.

You snapped another picture, this time with the better posture and smiled to yourself. At this point the sunset was almost at it’s apex and the orange and yellow hues on Bakugo’s skin made you wish you had your real camera. It was left in your room, and if you went to get it your golden window of opportunity would be gone in a second, so a phone photo would do.

You sat in silence and listened to the fan and watched the movement of his writing, noting his leg started to bounce. He was content with you just being here with him, but in truth he wanted to finish his work badly. He wanted to go over and sit with you, hold you, play with your hair. He knew you’d be patiently waiting until he was done, because you knew he needed to get his work done before anything, but that didn’t stop his leg from bouncing in slight anticipation. He was exhausted and all he wanted right now was your arms around him, the scent of your shampoo in his nose, your soft tendrils brushing against his skin. Almost done.

Bakugo stole a glance behind his back and saw you had gotten more comfortable, head hanging upside-down off the bed, the latest hero magazine cover blocking your face. You felt his gaze and lowered the magazine to show only your eyes. Bakugo didn’t know how you smiled with your eyes but you did, his leg bouncing faster as he turned to finish his work.

Only a couple of minutes had passed but Bakugo was getting restless, and when he finally put his pencil down and closed his book, he swiveled around and looked at you again, still reading the magazine. He stood and walked over, plucking the magazine from your hands much to your dismay.

“I was reading that!” You pouted, looking at him standing over you, an unamused expression gracing his features.

“Does it look like I care?” His expression said no, but you knew the right answer was yes. He wanted your attention on him, not a fucking magazine.

“I was waiting for you to finish.”

“I’m finished.”

“Then come here asshat.” He scoffed at your lame insult and pulled you up as he situated himself on the bed. He leaned against the headboard on his pillow and wrapped his arm around you as you snaked your arms around his middle, burying your face into his neck. Finally breathing out a sigh you followed suit, relishing in the silent ease. He closed his eyes and hummed to himself, finally content with you in his arms—

The moment was immediately broken with the slam of the door. The both of you startled and alert.

“There you are!- Oh.. Caught you guys in a moment huh?” Kaminari winked and settled his hands on his hips. His smile quickly faded at Bakugo’s glare. He had quickly sat up and half shielded you with his arm that was wrapped around you, you weren’t indecent in any way, still your privacy was just violated. Hm what a gentleman.

“WHAT THE FU-“

“Hey! Are you guys ready-“ Mina came in from behind Kaminari, witnessing the scene and quickly assessing the situation, “Ohmygooooooooosh you guys are so cute!”

“Get out. Now.”

“Okay dude hear us out-“

“GET THE FUCK OUT RIGHT NOW!” Your hand on his bicep stopped him from getting up and kicking their asses which you knew was inevitable. Your touch immediately calmed him enough for you to stare him down and make him calm down, you wanted an explanation first before you let him loose.

“Let’s hear ‘em out.”

“No it’s probably some stupid shi-“

“What do you guys need?” You blatantly ignored him, raising your voice over his and pointing your attention at the two intruders, slightly annoyed at the interruption of your perfect cuddling time. Kaminari was at a loss of words, he was scared he’d say something to piss Bakugo off again. Mina stepped forward, a newfound glee in her aura.

“Fireworks!” Hah? Fireworks. Both you and your boyfriend had confusion written over you faces, frozen in place trying to process what that meant.

“You want.. fireworks?” Gaze still holding Mina’s you held your arm in front of Bakugo who had obviously had enough, keeping him from making another mess you didn’t feel like cleaning up.

“No, no! The class is going to go to the river and watch the fireworks show together! We thought it would be a nice ‘hurrah!’ to the end of summer break!” Mina said enthusiastically, Kaminari smiled with her at the idea.

“No-“

“That’s a great idea!” Bakugo scoffed at your interruption and now it was your turn to be glared at. You didn’t pay him any mind, smiling back at Mina and Kaminari. They eagerly celebrated your affirmation while Bakugo was still steaming.

“(Y/n) what the fuck, no we’re not going.” His voice was rougher now, he was upset and he was unable to hide it. He wanted to be alone with you and cuddle. He wasn’t going to say that but you knew what he wanted. But what fun would you be if you gave him everything he wanted? Even if the idea of cuddling and dozing off in each other’s arms sounded amazing, seeing him amongst the night sky as fireworks lit up around you seemed amazing as well. Also you may or may not have this crazy romantic wish list, and kissing your boyfriend during fireworks may or may not be on that crazy romantic wish list.

“Yes we are.” You gave him a smirk and got up, the loss of your warmth only making his grimace worsen. “We’ll be right there guys, just give us a minute.” At that Mina and Kaminari left with smiles on their faces, and you with an angry Bakugo. A common occurrence.

You went to stand and get ready when a hand grabbed your wrist and pulled you back down and in mere seconds you were face to face with a very upset boyfriend obviously wanting an explanation to your behavior. He ground his teeth and huffed out his nose, not having to say a word to show his thoughts.

“You’re cute when you’re angry.”

“You’re ugly when you ruin our alone time.”

“Oof, try again, the comeback was terrible.” You were thriving off of Bakugo’s discontent, but eventually you had to give in before it turned into a screaming match. A small sigh left your lips, “I’m sorry for ruining the moment but we can have as many as you want later. We are going out with the class because this is our last year at U.A, this is our last summer together. And I know you’re going to miss your friends once this is all over, so making these memories now are worth it in the end I promise.” Your words seemed to soften his glare, and he realized you were making solid points, as much as he hated to admit it. He was headstrong but he had gotten comfortable with the class and he’d managed to tolerate just about everyone to an extent.

Admitting defeat he groaned and dropped his head into your neck, your hands instinctively carding through his hair. He didn’t say anything which meant he agreed. You patted his back asking him to get up and he did reluctantly. Sitting up and standing you offered your hand in silence and waited for him to grasp it before hauling him off the bed and out of his room. When you met everyone in the common area you were greeted with smiles and hello’s, everyone seemed ready to be off.

“Sorry for holding you guys up..” You apologized to the class but it was brushed off and you followed everyone out of the dorm. At this point the sun had said adieu and the moon started to shine through the littered clouds. It was a beautiful evening, you thought. You looked over to Bakugo also admiring the sky but still fashioning his trademark scowl. For a small instance, he was glad you dragged him out of his room. His hand around yours tightened just a smidge. It wasn’t a far walk to the river, by the time the class arrived there was a small crowd on the bridge and along the bank.

When you found a nice area for everyone to sit, you found a spot on the grass in the throes of the people waiting for the show. You let go of Bakugo’s hand to which you exchanged a look of “are you okay?” and you both nodded to eachother, Bakugo’s attention being drawn away by Sero and the rest of the gang and you by Ochako and Tsuyu. You smiled and joined their conversation while your boyfriend was in his own.

That was another thing. Your relationship was a perfect balance of being each others rock and also letting each other breathe. You had your own friends and he had his, and there was never a problem with trust. You trusted him with your life and vice versa. You’ve been together for a little over two years now, having cultivated so much appreciation for each other while also learning so much. The class got along really well and you were glad to have had such wonderful people to grow with. Including him. He knew that. You made sure of that. You hadn’t said it yet but you loved him. Maybe there just hasn’t been the right moment for you to say it but you were both aware of each other’s feelings. It wasn’t said through words, and honestly you didn’t really need to hear it, you knew. He made sure of that.

The sky was a dark midnight blue and the clouds in the sky were scarce, meaning the display of fireworks would be easily seen. Hagakure noted that it was almost time for the fireworks to start and everyone started to sit down on the grass, thankfully the weather recently had been decent and the dew wasn’t so obnoxiously wet. You picked a small daisy at your feet and twirled it in your fingers, noting the familiar warmth that sat next to you. Bakugo sat with one leg up, his arm draped over his knee, “When are these damn fireworks gonna star-“

The booming sound of the first firework cut him off which made you laugh, looking up and watching the array of colors explode and paint the sky in streaks. You squint your eyes at first, adjusting to the bright flashes while also getting used to the loud sounds that rang out over the town. Now that you think about it, it was kinda like Bakugo’s quirk. Big, boisterous, and loud. Hm, how fitting.

“I bet you could make some awesome fireworks with your explosions.” You challenged while simultaneously stroking his ego, something he loved.

He scoffed while trying to hide a smirk, “That’s not how it works dumbass.” You were just playing with him and you had no idea how it actually worked, but you basked in getting a reaction like that out of him. At first he was so reluctant and even upset at the prospect of fireworks with the class, now, not so much. He seemed.. happy even.

Bakugo looked back up at the sky, his expression wasn’t negative, or positive, but more mutual. Casual. The fireworks lit up in his irises, and as cheesy as it sounded, you couldn’t look away. Just like how the sunset stood against his profile, lighting up his skin, the light from the moon and the colorful explosions in the sky did the same, only this time you had a better picture. You were front row and center and you desperately wished you could capture the moment, instead settling to burn the image in your mind. Beautiful.

It didn’t take long for him to notice your staring, scrutinizing you and asking, “What are you looking at?” You, silly.

You didn’t even process the fact that your thoughts were said aloud but by the sudden color in his cheeks and on the tips of his ears, Bakugo was cracking under the icky romantic feeling you were displaying. This caused him to abruptly put his hand over your face and push you away, scoffing, to which you giggled and let your eyes find the fireworks again. Yes you were both hard-asses, but you also had romantic moments. Granted they were usually in the privacy of his room and included you two, but you didn’t forget when he first held your hand /outside/ his room, letting everyone see. He was confident with you and your relationship, but you were mostly happy in the confidence he had himself.

He managed to stay true to who he is but also let himself grow and become a more genuine person, even if the original thought made him laugh. He wouldn’t tell you, at least, not anytime soon, but he believes a major reason why he is the way he is today is thanks to you. He thought back to when he finally decided to ask All Might of all people for relationship advice, feeling like he had no one else to go to. When he mentioned you, All Might only encouraged him but reminded him, /your partner is supposed to lift you up, make you a better person while letting you still see the world through your own eyes./ Yup, you fit that description pretty perfectly. God he was such a sap. What did you do to him?

Now it was his turn to watch you under the fireworks. He watched as the flashes perfectly lit up every inch of your profile, inwardly scoffing at the memory of you saying how bad you looked in the mirror. He had said you had shit for brains which was his way of calling you beautiful.

A sudden breeze came and your hair was blown into your face, momentarily blinding you and causing you to spit your hair out of your mouth. You managed to control your hair and heard your boyfriend laugh at your moment of annoyance, earning him a glare and a hard punch to the shoulder.

“Ey!” He punched back playfully which made you fake a gasp and rub your shoulder. Your lips quivered as if on the verge of tears; you pretended to play the victim all the time but at this point Bakugo saw past it and rolled his eyes at your mediocre performance. The act was this; play the victim and make him feel bad, and then hit him back twice as hard. You never failed to challenge him when you felt like it, and you weren’t a dainty flower. Yet another attribute he appreciated.

“You’re an asshat, you know that?”

“But I’m your asshat.” You cuddled up against his side, leaning your head on his shoulder, putting on your best sappy smile.

“Ew shut up.”

“Make me.” Is that a fucking challenge? Your stare down lasted mere seconds before you raised your eyebrows as if saying well? and suddenly his lips were on yours. Your eyes closed and the light from the fireworks along with the butterflies raging in your stomach made your head dizzy. Somehow you managed to kiss your boyfriend while watching fireworks. It was beyond cheesy but you could not give a shit. Soon enough your lungs were starting to ache and you had to part to breathe but were pleasantly surprised when he went back for another. The fireworks long forgotten.

“Get a room lovebirds.” You could hear the smirk in his tone. Kaminari just loved ruining your moments didn’t he. The sound of your lips parting made you blush harder than you thought it would and Bakugo immediately turned to look behind him.

“Eat shit Pikachu.” This caused everyone around to chuckle at the exchange, making Bakugo jump back to reality and realize he was in public. You watched as his blush lit up his face and he turned and faced away and towards you, embarrassed and annoyed. You chuckled and grabbed his hand, squeezing it tight, letting him know it was okay. He looked up and found your assuring gaze, forgetting about the fireworks and forgetting about everything else. You were there and that’s all that mattered. He squeezed back, letting a huff out and looking back at the sky, the fireworks going crazy in the sky as a finale. He was glad you made him come out for the fireworks. Glad that he got to make this memory with you and his class. He was glad you were his. And he was unconditionally in love with you, and he didn’t need to say it out loud. You knew. He made sure of that.

[springomelas]

GOT7′s reaction to listening to a song they made about you, for the first time.

 .A/N: I tried to make this all on point, so these are all songs that the members actually made, mostly just lryics. Enjoy! requests are open. <3 

!Disclaimer!: None of the gifs belong to me credit to their rightful owners. 

Mark Tuan (Let Me)

  “I see you reflected in today’s sunlight                                                                  You are crazily radiant                                                                                    You plant the sun in my heart                                                                      Let’s you and I be together today” 

     Mark and the boys had been working hard trying to make the best music they could, he had been working so much you hadn’t had some time together in a while. You were excited seeing as the album was coming out soon and you would get to hear all the new music Mark the rest of GOT7 had made, even through Mark may be even more busier then usual because of all the promotions, fanmeets, and lots of other things that came with promotions.

You had been having a usual night till Mark showed up at your place and decided to suprise you, since, of course he had missed you too. You guys sat down happy and then he decided to let you listen to one song after you had begged for about thirty mintues. He pulled out his laptop and quickly typed in his password and the name of the file.

“You want headphones, babe?” He asked looking over at you with stary eyes.

“oh...No, it’s okay.” you said flashing a smile.

“okay” he said with a cute smile and then pressing the play button. You moved your gaze from him to his laptop while he watched you. He kept watching you as you listened, he loves to watch your innocent smile everytime you heard a new song by his group or him. After the song was finished you looked back into his loving and warm eyes that were already starring at you.

“I love it, who made it?” You asked excited from the bright upbeat lryics.

“I did, do you actually like it?” He asked rubbing the back of his neck with a shy smile.

“I love it, it’s so good, I can jam to it.” You said with a big smile.

“I couldn’t think of what to write, and then you texted me if I wanted to come over and watch a movie, and then it hit me.”

“What hit you?” You said while running your hand through his hair and looking at how soft and smooth it went through.

“How much I love you.” He said with a smile that broke lose. This isn’t the first time he’s told you he loves you, but he still said it with a shy boyish smile.

Im Jaebum (Teenager)

“Wonder why I’m like this when I’m with you I’m constantly excited           Things in front of my eyes looks new                                                             You brighten even to the deep part of my heart                                           Yeah baby you driving me crazy”

           With GOT7 having a comeback, that means Jaebum is very busy with practice and producing. You decided if Jaebum didn’t have time to see you, you would have to go to him. Knowing it would be even longer until you saw him again because promoting is worse then when he prepares for the comeback. You made sure you looked really good. You had made him a little lunch box, knowing he probably hasn’t eaten much cause he’s either busy or too tired. You made sure you had everything and then left your place. 

     Once you made it to the JYP buliding you made your way to the door and went in to the desk to get a pass, they only time you didn’t need one is when you’re a idol or trainee. The woman remembered you quickly and gave you a pass. Since this is a new buliding you had to ask what floor was what and she gladly gave you the information, which you thanked her for and then went on your way. After you had finally made it to the floor you kinda had to look around until you found a door labled ‘GOT7′. You knocked on the door and it was pulled open by Jackson.

“OH, Y/N YOU’RE HERE, IT FEELS LIKE FOREVER.” He said taking you into a big hug.

“I’ve missed you too Jackson, it has been so long, you need to come over soon.” 

“For sure.” He said letting go of you. “Y/N is here” he called out to the group. They all started to come  up to giving you hugs and greeting you with smiles. Last to come was Jaebum. All the boys seemed to exit the room to give you guys so time.

“Awwwww, my baby, I missed you.” He said hugging you very tight, taking the air from you. 

“I brought you food.” You let out and his grip on you loosened once he heard the wheeze of words you had tried to speak.

“Come sit, while I eat you can have a speical sneak peek at a song I made.” He said pullling you by your hand to a couch.

“Yes! I was hoping you would let me.” You said with a light laugh. You pulled out the lunch box you had made for him while he typed on his phone pulling up the song. He handed you his phone and you handed him his lunch box. He started to eat while watching you as you listened to his song. 

      You liked the beat and overall feel of the song, the lryics made it even better, if that was possible. Even after it was over you wanted to relisten to it.

¨What did you think of it?¨ He asked after he had swallowed the food he had in his mouth.

¨Absoultely love it,  I know you make amazing music, but like damn, this fire, expect it to be blasting at place everytime you come over.

¨Well babe, you are gonna have to wait till itś released.¨ He said his eyes filled with love while he ruffled yout nicely done hair.

Jackson Wang (Dawn Of Us)

 "Keep that addicting smile that you have                                                    You're my own, no doubt for sure."

     Jackson had invited you over in the mist of his busy schedule, he said you could probably only be over for about a hour before he had to leave, you could stay and wait for him to come home, but that would take hours and plus you also have things you need to do. You knocked on the door of his apartment and the door instantly open with him standing infront of you with a tried smile.

"How's it going bubs?" You asked going in for a big hug, with a even bigger grin. He accepted the hug quickly with his own toothy smile.

"Busy, but fun, how about you?" He said breathing in your scent while you spoke.

"It was kinda sad and boring without you, but I'm very happy right now." You said tighting your hold on him. 

"Come on in, my dear." He said with the smile you had been desperately missing.

"Wow what a gentleman." You said with a slight smirk while also stepping into his apartment andgoing straight to his couch. "You really have the most comfortable couch ever." You let out cuddling into the couch and waiting for him to join you, and he did after he laughed at you and got a bottle of water from his frigde.

"How many times have I said I'll give it to you, I'll even pay for it to be moved and everything." He said falling onto the couch with you. It is true he had said he'd give it to you if you wanted.

"Then there would be no reason to come over ever again." You said with a small chuckle as well as him.

"I guess Iĺl have to keep it forever."

"I guess so...." You said with a lop-sided grin.

"So you wanna listen to my new song? I'll let you listen, if you want, you can even tell me what you think about it." He said taking hold of your hand and smoothing over it with his thumb.

"Woah, I get to hang out with you and hear your new song, whata blessing, I must have saved the country in my last life." He laughed at you and began to pull out his phone so he could show you.

"Be honest, I won get hurt or anything." He said with a encougreing smile.

      As the song begun you paid attention to the best, lryics and his voice. The more it played the more you fell in love with it. When it came to a end you had a wide grin while you looked at him.

"You made this, and I date you, so I can say I date a actual legend." You said and caused him to laugh a loud and happy laugh.

"So you like it?" He asked once he had calmed down.

"Nope." You said and as soon as his dropped and he quickly put on a fake smile to mask his real emotions, you decided you wouldn't tease him. So with a light laugh you elbowed him and spoke again. "I loved it Jackson, one of my favortie songs ever, by far." You said and he instantly looked up with a real, and bright smile.

"You scared me for a second there Y/N."

"You really thought I wouldn't like it?" You asked shocked slightly.

"I mean yeah, I really care about your opinion" He confessed looking down with a shy smile.

"Well, Jackson, I love the song and you."

"And I love you Y/N, this song was made about you, if you couldn't tell." He said while resting his head on your shoulder basking in the time he has right now with you.

Park Jinyoung (paradise)

[Jinyoung and BamBam did these lryics but I couldn´t find many songs for Jinyoung that fit this theme, so I went with this one (: ]

“So dangerous, you can see my heart, it’s see-through                                   So beautiful, you’re stealing my line of vision                                                  So dangerous, you’re driving me crazy baby                                                Even your smallest gestures, I’m done”

       When Jinyoung randomly sent you a file and said to facetime him before watching it, you were kinda shocked. He never really is the type to do supirses, let alone one so out of the blus and not even telling you, you had a supirse coming your way. You instantly facetimed him wanted badly to see what he had sent you.

“That was fast, you must be excited to see what I sent.” He said with a laugh that made his eyes crinkle and your heart skip a beat.

“Yeah well you’re not much of a supirse person, so when you do one and don’t even tell you doing one it makes me more exicted.” You said with a pout.

“Okay, let’s do this quick I have to go soon, I’m in the middle of a photoshoot.” He explained with a wide smile. You quickly went to your email on your computer and opened it to the email with the attachment.

“Give me a good reaction.” He said with a thumbs up.

“Will do.” you responed and clicked the file as it began to play.

     You soon realized it’s a song, and it has to be from the new album because youe never heard it before. Everything about the song drew you in and you wanted to listen to it on repeat until you could recite it by memory.

“From your reaction I’m gonna assume you liked it.” He said with a light chuckle, and you looked over into your camera.

“I loved it, did you make it?” You asked waiting for a reply.

“Yep, and guess who inspried it?” He said with a small smirk.

“Me!!!!” You exclaimed while he just smiled and nodded at you. Seeing you this happy as well, it made all the hard work he put in worth it.

Choi Youngjae (Hesitate)

“When given the chance I wander around you  Like a habit, when I see you  It makes me smile.  What should I do?  My heart is going ahead of itself on the thought of you,  My head is flustered today too.”

     Youngjae always made sure that you two could at least talk once a day, but since they were having a comeback he was even more busy, so that means you would even be lucky to get a phone call. What shocked you most was when he called you over at three in the morning because he finally had some time. Even through you were basically dead and very, very tried you hopped up and basically ran to his place.

“Sorry for calling you over so late, or rather, early.” He said with a happy laugh and his arms open wide for you.

“It’s okay, at least I get some time with you.” You said going into his ams. He hugged you tight and made sure you could breath comterably.

“Come on” He said grabbing your hand and leading you to his room. You instantly ran and laid on his bed. You loved how comterable and soft it is, and most important it smiles s much like him.

“I missed you, honey.” He said with a sigh running after you onto his own bed.

“How’s the album going?” You asked while he cuddled into you making your heart speed up and make you feel all warm and giddy.

“You wanna listen to a track I made?” He asked already knowing you and the meanings behind your questions.

“You firgured me out.” You said with a  small chuckle. He got out of the bed and grabbed his laptop and carried it back to you. He logged in and then found the file. With the click of his finger the song was playing and filling your ears with delight. It gave you that Youngjae feel that you loved and made the over all song even better. Once it was finished you turned to him with a huge smile.

“Wow, prehaps one of the best songs I’ve ever heard.” After the sentance left your lips his smile grew three times more wide.

“Wah, that’s amazing, I’m so happy you like it.¨

“Anything you make I will love.¨ He laughed and closed his computer and tossed it to the bottom of the bed before he attacked you with a huge hug and a kiss attack on your face which had you giggling and at your happeist.

BamBam (The Reason)

“Only your smile can move me  The reason my day starts out great  Your appeals make me smile  No matter where I go it makes me feel that I’m with you”

      BamBam is normally goofy and funny guy so when he just shows up at your door with flowers and a goofy smile, you couldn’t be mad that he just showed up out of the blue.

“I brought you flowers.” He said holding them out to you after you had let him in.

“I can see....” You said with a smile and reaching out to take them. “They smell amazing, it seems like you bought these at a actual flower shop.” You said then turned to go the kitchen to find a nice vase. “So what brings you by, my love?” 

“I missed you and I haven’t really had time to see you.” He explained and you could feel him close behind you as you were unwrapping the flowers to put them in the nice vas you had found.

“Ah.” You let out “Is the comeback going good?” And finally he had wrapped his arms around you and rested his head on your shoulder.

“It’s going prefect, I even made a song for the album.” 

“Can I take a listen?¨ You asked and turned around wrapping your arms around him and cuddling into him.

“Sure, you wanna listen right now?” He asked with a bright smile. You pulled back with a wide smile still having your arms around him.

“Yes, please.” You said and he gave you a quick kiss on your lips before giving a response.

“Anything for you my dear.” He said and pulled your arms with him to your living room and sitting right on the couch. He held your hand the whole time while he typed on his phone. After a few more seconds he gve his phone over for you and you pressed the play button. The song instantly started and you were already in love with the beat when the lryics started. You bopped your head throughout the song which caused him to laugh.

“That is a amazing song, how did you make it?”

“Well I thought of a special someone and it just came to me.”

“This song is about me?” You asked shocked 

“Well yes of course, who else would make me write cheesy things?” He said with a light laugh.

Kim Yugyeom (No One Else)

“Girl I want to fill my eyes with you                                                               So that I won’t forget this moment                                                               Like always I only remember you.”

      You couldn’t believe when Yugeom blew you off to sleep. Of course you wanted him happy and healthly, but this was the fourth date in two weeks he told you last mintue he couldn’t come. You undertsood the comeback and him being tried from all the work, but you were now mad at him. You had told many people you couldn’t hang out because you had a date, or even your family had invited you over to spend some time, like watch a moive and eat, but still you had to tell them you had a date with Yugeom. You love him, you just wish that if he wasn’t gonna come he would tell you beforehand, or if he knew he didn’t have time, he shoulc have told you instead of agreeing.

“Kin Yugeom, are you serious? This is the fourth time, you have to be kidding me, right?” You said into your phone getting more upset and disappointed.

“I really wish I was Y/N, but I was told last mintue I had to go, and when I mentioned the date they told me I would be back on time, that’s why I didn’t tell you.”

“Where are you?” You asked but it was more like a command.

“I’m on my way back to Seoul, but I won’t be back till past one in the morning.” You sighed at the news and held your head in one of your hands.

“Alright, whatever. Don’t call me, I need some time to chill or else I’m gonna snap and say some stupid stuff.”

“Babe-” He was cut off after you had pressed the ‘end call’ button. You sucked up the angry sad tears that wanted to ecaspe. For the rest of the night you took a shower, cleaned and laid in bed watching movies till you fell asleep.

     It was about three days and Yugyeom hadn’t called at all or even sent a text which worried you slightly. He always made sure he at least sent a text to let you know how he was doing or what he was working on. Once the day was over and you sat on your couch looking at phone wondering if he was upset at you or sad, or maybe if you should just send him a text. You sat starring at your phone for about 15 mintues when it dinged and you instatly grabbed it and logged in. It was Yugyeom, finally. All he sent was a link to spotify. you clicked on it and the song started to play while you just listened. Every lyric was filled with his never ending love for you, and you could tell. Everytime you heard his voice you smiled wider, you already knew he was the one who wrote it just from the words that were being sang and rapped. After the song was finished you called Yugyeom tears in your eyes and going down your cheeks, you truly felt bad for how you had treated him, and that you were being petty and waiting for him to call or text you, instead of doing it yourself.

“I’m sorry, baby” You said as soon as the line picked up.

“Wait, Y/N, are you crying?” He asked, his seeming a little panicked.

“Yeah” You said with a snifle. “I just feel so bad for being all petty and not calling or texting you.” You let out while also letting out some tears from your eyes.

“Awwwwww, Honey, it’s fine, really, I was blowing you off after I had made promises, so really it was my falut, don’t feel bad.” His words were simple yet comforting and made you feel a little better. “If your still crying by the time I come over, I’ll be forced to tackle you.” You laughed and wupped away tears.

“You’re coming over?”

“Yup, right now.” Panic spred through you as you realized your apartment is a mess and you look like a mess as well.

“Oh, okay, I gotta go through.”

“Are you gonna attemp to clean up before I come over, and change and stuff?” He asked with a laugh.

“You know too much.”

[kpopfanfictrash]

GOT7 Introduction Post

ALRIGHT. You requested, I have written! In honor of the upcoming THOT7 comeback - may our souls be stolen and wallets be emptied.

Member by Member introduction, from oldest to youngest.

Mark Tuan, stage name: Mark. ‘93 line, rapper. Also in charge of acrobatics / fly boy stunts. From LA, USA. Quiet, very intelligent. ISTJ personality. The only one who can pull the hyung card on Jaebum and BOY, WHEN HE DOES. Sometimes pegged as the ‘bad boy’ but lol. Mark’s laugh cures evil and creates butterflies. Deep ass rap, will make you shake in your boots. I know you want me, so stop fronting.

Im Jaebum, stage name: JB. ‘94 line, vocal and leader. Korean. Also writes / releases music under Def (used to be Def Soul, soundcloud here). A tsundere hoe, to quote myself. INFJ personality. Very intelligent, typically takes a more subdued role in the group but DAMN, MEMEBUM. Don’t let the rude exterior fool you, Jaebum is a straight up meme. There are hours of footage on Youtube to prove it. Owns like, a billion cats and they all sleep in his room. OG cat is Nora. 

Jackson Wang, stage name: Jackson. (Chinese name, Wang Jia Er). From Hong Kong, China. ‘94 line, rapper. ENFJ personality. Was a nationally ranked / world class fencer until he was 17. Convinced his parents to let him audition for JYP, moved to Korea and followed his dreams of music. Speaks English, Korean, Mandarin, Cantonese and Shanghainese. Jackson is pure sunshine in addition to being the most extra variety star in existence. Will do a forward flip every chance he can. Is a gigantic mama’s boy. Would never hurt a fly.

Park Jinyoung, stage name: Jinyoung (IF YOU CALL HIM JR OR JUNIOR, HE WILL FITE U). ‘94 line, vocal and dancer. ISFJ personality. Korean. Before debuting as part of GOT7, debuted in a duo with Jaebum called JJ Project. Tied with Jaebum for first place at 2009 JYP auditions. Has melodious, beautiful falsetto. Is an actor, appeared in multiple web dramas and was the young main for Legend of the Blue Sea, in addition to the lead in the independent film, Nunbal. Writes fucking bops. Is basically good at everything, the boy to bring home to your parents. Also the man who may take over the world. Idk. I’m not biased.

Choi Youngjae, stage name: Youngjae. ‘96 line, main vocal. ISFJ personality. Korean. Only trained for 7 months before debut, POWERHOUSE vocal. Composes under the name of Ars. Often compared to an otter bc SMILEY and ADORABLE and just actual sunshine. Anyone who hurts Youngjae answers to Jaebum. Hates cucumbers. Co-owns a puppy named Coco with Mark. Constantly damaging Jackson’s hearing with his yelling.

Bambam, stage name: Bambam. ‘97 line, rapper. ESTJ personality. From Thailand, trained with JYP for three and a half years. Legal Thai name is Kunpimook Bhuwakul but is rarely used except in legal circumstances. Bambam is his name lol. ANYWAYS. Bambam has rapidly switched from adorable maknae line to fly-ass fashion mogul. Loves memes, all things pop culture and fashion. Speaks Thai, Korean and English. Loves to interact with fans, especially through Twitter. Constantly calling fans girlfriends at fanmeets, WILL DAB WHENEVER HE WANTS TO DAB.

Kim Yugyeom, stage name: Yugyeom. ‘97 line, singer and main dancer. INFP personality. Korean. Maknae. Main dancer in GOT7, performed twice on Hit the Stage and won first place the second time. Like Bambam, has transformed from adorable maknae to champion of sexy dance. Yugyeom is coming for us all. Is quiet and sweet but also loves to troll hyung line. Specifically Jinyoung and Jaebum. Is the biggest JJ Project fan in the world. One day, Jinyoung might actually kill him. 

MORE UNDER THE CUT.

So. Eras. 

Their debut single was 2014 with Girls, Girls, Girls. As you can tell, the styling is excellent. Jackson’s small piece of hair popping out of his hat is a personal fave. Thus introduced the boys to the scene though (BONUS POINTS if you spot all the future Twice members LOL)

Next GOT7 released A, which is one of my personal favorites. Yes, that is Sana. LOL ALSO THE DANCE PRACTICES FOR A ARE ADORABLE. This has been a PSA. 

GOT7′s first full album, Identify was released at the end of the year with a lead single Stop, Stop It. Otherwise known as those minions outfits. This song will get stuck in your head. THIS ALBUM IS A BOP, THO. Girl Magnetic and Moonlight are two personal favorites. 

The next summer GOT7 came back with Just Right. Actually, this is GOT7′s most watched MV on YouTube. It was also featured in the Try Guys (Buzzfeed) watch Kpop video. Famous quotes to know about JB: “While this guy doesn’t look like my wife, he makes me feel the way that my wife makes me feel.”  Truth, Ned. 

That fall, GOT7 came back with If You Do, a darker concept. Just... watch every single live stage of this. You won’t regret it. Here’s a favorite, though. In December of that year, the released yet ANOTHER EP, which included the holiday single - Confession Song. EVERYDAY from this album is amazing, thank you JB.

In March of 2016, GOT7 came back with the Flight Log Trilogy (Departure, Turbulence and Arrival). The first album, Departure was released in March. The lead single was Fly, and it was bomb af. That’s just fact. The dance practice for this was also freaking adorable. Fave tracks from this album of mine are Can’t by PARK JINYOUNG. Also Rewind.

That fall, GOT7 came back with Turbulence. The lead single for this was Hard Carry, a heavier beat than previous GOT7 songs. Crazy dance, prompted much concern by fans that Jinyoung died in the MV. Favorite songs of mine here are Prove it, Mayday, No Jam and Who’s That.

The next spring, 2017 GOT7 completed their Flight Log Trilogy with Flight Log: Arrival. The lead single for this was Never Ever. Favorite songs are Paradise, Q.

THEN JJ PROJECT CAME BACK. SUMMER 2017, FIVE YEARS AFTER THEIR FIRST EP. Jinyoung and Jaebum teamed up yet again to put out a beautiful album called Verse 2. If you haven’t listened yet, save yourself. Go listen now. The title track was Tomorrow Today, and it was amazing. Truly. 

Now GOT7 are coming back once more - GET READY FOR FOR 7FOR7

FAVORITE FANCAMS / PERFORMANCES 

My personal fave is this Jinyoung fancam of Can’t. Bless yourself.

Jaebum is also a favorite performer lol bc when JB dances, he dances for JB. This performance of Who’s Your Mama? is excellent, as is this mix. So is this performance of Honey. 

The cover of SHINHWA’s This Love is truly amazing. (JB was hurt at this time and couldn’t perform.)

Never forget baby GOT7 performing I Was Made for Dancing for an audience of middle aged women. LOOK HOW HAPPY THEY ARE. 

Also the time they collaborated with BTS at the MAMAs. 

All the performances of Q (side single to Never Ever) are adorable.

GAH, okay. That should start you off.

Variety. Holy shit. Okay, so GOT7 are kings of variety. Honestly, it’s why I adore them so much. Watch their YouTube shows, it’s GOT7 Canon. 

Real GOT7 season 1 / Real GOT7 season 2 / Real GOT7 season 3 / Real GOT7 season 4

GOT7 Hard Carry, from the fall of 2016 is also excellent. 

GOT7 has a truly awe-inspiring mini-drama series called Dream Knight, available on Netflix. I highly suggest you start with this. And then stare at your screen for several days in confusion. 

JB and Jinyoung have a reality series from their days as JJ Project called JJP Diaries, here.

ALL OF THE WEEKLY IDOL EPISODES ARE HILARIOUS AF. First appearance - 2014.  Second appearance - 2015. Third appearance (multi-group) - 2016. Fourth appearance - 2016.  Fifth appearance - 2017. Er, it’s entirely possible I left some off. Oh, well. You’ll find them. LOL 

Also watch all of their ASC episodes. It’s pure chaos. 

OKAY. THAT’S ENOUGH FOR NOW *falls down on the floor*

... here is a compilation of jinyoung being savage. here is jaebum being a meme for the duration of an entire interview in japan. here is bambam, king of girl group dances. 

OKAY, NOW I AM REALLY DONE.

[lesbianjamies]

i agree they all deserve their time as a centre because they all look SO GOOD honestly serving looks time and time again

jihyo and dahyun i mean 😖 i feel attacked tbh dahyun looking amazing as usual 🥰 but i feel like it’s such a good time for jihyo stans rn

(also wanna mention again mina with curly hair i am in love 😭)

chae is a rule breaker but jype just hits right back lol like yes she is sleeveless but no you will not see her tattoos 😪

honestly i’m getting more and more 👀 excited for this comeback as time goes on like it looks amazing (and jeongyeon is back!!!)

one thing i would love from twice is sub-units or solo projects like red velvet is doing rn but yeah i want them together for as long we can get (and obviously as long as they want)

lol sorry this was long i’m just excited!

- 🦖

p.s which is your favourite? i think in love is my favourite one so far!

there are two more as well just so you combust a little more 😭https://twitter.com/jypetwice/status/1395393936999403529?s=21 https://twitter.com/jypetwice/status/1395393956599373827?s=21

oh i sawwww 😫😫 it all looks so amazing??

dahyunie just out there looking drop dead gorgeous 25/8 tbh and ahhh for real im so happy for the jihyo stans, they're being fed so well 💕

im very srsly considering buying the album now as my advance bday present for myself lmao

and yeahh that would def be interesting to see! i have no doubt the girls can make anything work tbh and ooof that's a tough one! 'in love' is a great choice but i think im leaning towards 'taste'??

[embroideried]

MARJORIE!!!! please do all of the questions for the end of the year ask thing, thank u and i love u

............u got it only bc i love & miss u

First things first, did you have a good year?hmmm i guess so yeah! overall it was good. weird and hard but still good.How old did you turn this year?18!Did your appearance change in anyway?i....am a lot lazier with my appearance. ive gone out with no makeup and unwashed hair more times than i ever have in my entire life and i hardly dress up anymore. i hope to get back to....looking nice next year. i gained some weight but i have a feeling it wont stay on me very long. i have long hair now also? and ive had a few different colors of hair and got a tiny hashtag bodymodPost your favorite selfie.

honestly? its this stupid ass snap i sent to ellis one day

Which fashion trends did you love?fishnets under ripped jeans....i did that. but thats only cute in certain ways. i never wore socks over leggings much bc i dont have many cute long socks but honestly? it can be cute. also the embroidery trend overall of course but surprisingly enough i dont have anything thats like....Embroidered. yk. like with florals. i only have one embroidered cap but its just got the vans logo on it so who care. i’m also enjoying the comeback of fun dyeing methods like tie dyes and acid washes but again....only ok sometimesWhich fashion trends did you hate?vintage band tees cut down the front halfway in a v and laced up with big chunky things for the eyes of the laces and just. fat strings. uglyWhat song sums up this year for you?no offense but caught in the middle by paramoreWhat album came out and has been on heavy rotation since then?AFTER LAUGHTER BY PARAMORE! best album of the year. melodrama by lorde hasn’t got many plays apparently from me buuuut still a fave. im gonna see her in march!Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year?dont lump me with those weirdos but the kids from it are so good! i love finn and jack especially. i also got to see jaden smith truly for the first time in the get down and now i know i’ll look out for him again in the future.Favorite new TV show?pretty sure i watched black mirror for the first time this year so BLACK MIRROR BINCHWhat food did you try for the first time?i truly cant think of something Genuinely new that i tried....i found that i enjoy wine? and sangria. i don’t DRINK but i’ve had a bit of that. i started eating fried eggs with runny yolk often! i like that a lot now...especially when i also have like the shoestring-style hashbrowns to eat it with. goodDid you make any big permanent changes this year?i got a tattøø and also officially soiled my name with explicit gay rpf smutWhat was one nice thing you did for yourself?i treated the fuck out of myself this year until i had no moneyDid you develop a new obsession?i took up embroidery but i dont think thats like....an obsession. i’ve definitely gotten much much much more into film and writing this year oh shit yeah thats itDid you move?fucking yeah i went to college and moved there but also my mom and my dad both got a new place so i live nowhereDid you get a job?nope! just kept the same one from last yearDo you regret not doing anything?oh fuck yeah bitch im not talking about the meet and greet againDo you regret doing something?again yes all my big regrets revolve around the gotdam ARTOPIADid anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days?yes ma’am but thats my personalityDid you lose anyone close to you?i don’t believe so. anyone i truly lost i wasn’t close with in the first place.Did you fall out of love?yes ma’am also i change my answer on the question about falling in love because i forgot that happened in like january and not last yearDid you start a new relationship?nothing romantic but i made so many beautiful amazing friendships? all this year! this really was a great year for me on an overlookDid you have to cut ties to someone?nah ive stopped being friends with people just from falling out of touch but i havent excommunicated anyone. i deleted the like....3 melanie martinez songs i had but that wasnt a tragedy in the slightestWho was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year?all of my mcbeautiful friends whom i will call out right here that i am genuinely surprised that i only met this year? You.....Miss Avia, asya, christiana, hannah, ellis, edy and like everyone else. if you’re actually reading this, probably you too. and my perfect roommate and other friends i made this year that im a dick for not mentioning and the girls i am moving into a suite with next year. also im very into jake gyllenhaal this year i’ve always loved him but its gotten Bigger and Better in 2017If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it?Yes Bitch I Would Have Gone To Fucking Artopia On Time And Met Josh And TylerWhat was the best moment of the year for you?there were....so many good things. here’s some of my favorites: - meeting all of my treasured friends here i am still in hashtag shock that its only been that long- twenty one pilots winnin their grammy- meeting my roommate- hand embroidering hoops for two of my beloved teachers and making them cry- singing “we go together” with all of my friends on stage as we all finished our last show of high school together- giving one of my best friends a joke award at our drama banquet and calling him chicken little because hes like hardly over 100 pounds and like really tall and him running up to me and hugging me so hard he actually picked me up with his chicken ass arms and im small but im not. light- graduating high school- seeing twenty one pilots TWO TIMES!- sobbing louder than i ever have during march to the sea at tour de columbus simply because i was unsure of what it was but then i recognized it and started absolutely BAWLING because i was so excited that i knew all of the songs this time- having a CAMEO IN CHRISTIANAS COWBOY FIC- receiving my packages from you and christiana- this list is so long and you know what i’m gonna do? im gonna stop and im gonna write out lists of all of my fave moments with all of my friends with whomst i owe 55 fucking letters. i love y’allDid anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really did?this and the vice versa of this question are strange to me because i truly dont know this is the year of #personal #growthWhat have you learned about yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior?i love hummusDid your opinion of anyone change for the better?i love jake gyllenhaal more than ever beforeIf you make resolutions, did you complete them this year?i dont make them!What do you wish for others for the coming year?luv and happiness and moneyWhat do you wish for yourself?luv and happiness and money

[waitinginthedarke]

Maybe Someday

A Kwon Jiyong Story

Summary: She was a rose, and he was the darkness that should have killed it…but when a rose is made of enough light to penetrate even the deepest darkness, sometimes the two are able to become one…

Genre: Fluff, Smut.

Chapter 6

‘Is everything prepared for the final listen? You’ve only got till 6pm.’

You smile at Hyun-suk despite the voice screaming in your head that you still had to go over a couple of the tracks with Teddy, remaining calm as you nod politely at him, his expression telling you he knew you were lying, but he still only ends up nodding back at you before looking down at the finalized choices for the album covers, grazing his fingers over each as he contemplates them.

‘I’m thinking the cutesy concept is outdated, the market needs a much stronger feminine ideal to-‘

‘Hyun-suk are you bu-…oh, my bad, I’ll come back-‘

‘Jiyong, what is it?’ Hyun-suk murmurs before your boyfriend could exit the room again after he’d busted abruptly through the door, the question dragging him back in and over to the table with his usual swagger. The sight of him wearing the same denim jacket you’d paraded playfully around the kitchen in this morning whilst you were making breakfast has you smiling to yourself before quickly shaking your head and refocusing on the table plans, causing you to miss Jiyong’s own smile as he catches sight of his necklace that was flashing out from beneath your shirt collar.

‘I was just going to ask if you wanted to go to lunch.’ Jiyong states, eyes moving to pass over the papers on the table, before he reaches out to tap one that he particularly liked and looked up at Yang to see him watching him suspiciously.

‘What did you really want to ask me?’ Yang asks abruptly, narrowing his eyes at the other man as he slips his hands into his pockets in a no-nonsense pose.

‘What do you mean-‘

‘Jiyong, you only ever ask me to lunch if you have something serious to discuss with me.’ Yang cuts him off, completely forgetting you were there as he turns fully toward the other man, and so when Jiyong glances over at you, you cant help but scowl at him suspiciously.

‘Well, im quite offended by that. …you know what, if you’re not going to take me up on my offer, Hyun-suk, im simply going to ask Y/N to lunch.’

At that you look at him like he was crazy, shaking your head quickly to tell him no, but stopping as soon as Yang turns to look at you and you’re forced to resume a normal expression, glancing over at the older man and restraining a ‘what can you do’ smile.

‘Okay…I’ll call your bluff; take Y/N. I have too much to do today to deal with the dramatics of whatever it was you wanted.’ Yang states, thinking he really had beaten Jiyong at his own game, but you knew better than to think this wouldn’t have been the outcome all along.

‘Great! Come on, Y/N, I know an amazing Udon place.’ Jiyong says happily, smiling, and you see the way his hand twitches where he wants to grab yours, but instead he simply spins on his heel and walks for the door, pulling it open and holding it as he waits for you to follow him. 

You look up at Yang unsurely, seeing him scowling down at the table of research at the sudden turn in events, and even though everything in you was wanting to go to lunch with Jiyong, there was also a part of you that was angry at him for assuming you were going to go to lunch with him when you were a week away from your groups’ comeback.

‘I apologise, Jiyong. But I’m going to have to turn down your offer.’

Both men turn to shoot you matching looks of shock, Yang’s turning to a proud smirk, whilst Jiyong’s was conflictedly flickering between amusement and frustration at you foiling his plan.

‘Maybe another time when my group’s comeback isn’t so close…sorry.’ You add on the end, not wanting to upset him but wanting to remind him that you had important stuff to do and that you couldn’t just mess around all day.

‘Well, that’s okay, its not your fault your busy Y/N. …But I will hold you to that other time.’  He adds on the end, smirking over at you and winking openly, appearing to not care that Yang was in the room and causing you to become flustered before he waltz’s out the door, leaving you staring after him gobsmacked.

‘Don’t let Jiyong mess with you, Y/N. I know you and him have spent a lot of time together over the past few months-‘

‘What? No we-‘

‘On various recordings…’ Yang cuts you off, turning his head slowly and looking at you suspiciously with your sudden denial, eyes narrowing to slits as he regards you, before watching you nod as if that was obvious, and sighing contemplatively, nodding to himself at the plans on the table.

‘Well, as I was saying; don’t let him corrupt you. You’re a very lovely, bright girl, and you don’t need to be hanging around with the likes of Jiyong- as much as the man is an incredible worker and personality…he’s been through a lot more than you have…so, try to keep a wide berth from him.’ Yang says, his beady eyes fixing on you with the last part and conveying their seriousness, leaving you only able to nod at him in understanding, a serious expression fixed on your face.

‘Good. Well, time to get back to work.’

‘It was pretty hot when you rejected me earlier-‘

‘Hot?’ you ask incredulously, breath rushing in and out of your lungs as Jiyong’s mouth ravages your neck, his body trapping you against the foam walls of the recording studio a few hours after your discussion with Yang, his hands gripping yours above your head as his teeth nick at your skin, causing you to moan happily. You’d forgotten about where you were long ago, Jiyong locking both doors to the room helping you relax in the security that it was just you two, and so when he’d coerced you into following him into the recording room- where no one would be able to hear you- you’d simply followed like a happy puppy, secretly anticipating his attack.

‘So, fucking hot, babe. If it was anyone else, I would have been angry about getting turned down…but the way you did it? Mmmmh, I could have jumped you right there.’ He breathes against your skin, suddenly moving his mouth back up to yours and dropping your hands so that he could wrap his arms around your waist, making it easier to grind his hips into yours, showing you how turned on he got with the thought.

‘You know, he told me to stay away from you?’ you pant, smirking against his mouth as your fingers pull on his hair, twisting in the locks and enjoying the feel of him beneath you, your heart thundering in your chest when he momentarily pulls back slightly to look at you.

‘Why?’ he demands, frowning at you, but you cant help but grin as you lean forward to flick your tongue over his lips, feeling the breath wash out of his mouth as he waits for your answer- which you were only too happy to give to him, since you knew it would wind him up.

‘Because you’re dangerous…and you’d corrupt a ‘Lovely, bright girl’ like me.’ You mimic Yang, squealing when Jiyong suddenly pins you back against the wall once more and begins to attack your neck hungrily, his hands sliding over the curve of your ass and squeezing tightly as his smirk imprints itself into your skin.

‘Well its true, baby. I am bad for you.’ He murmurs, his mouth returning to yours and calming to a gentle kiss as the tension ramps up, his chest heaving excitedly against yours as his cat-like eyes flash down at you, making adrenaline bolt through your veins, and all you can do is smile up at him as you watch one another.

‘You are bad.’ You murmur, smoothing your fingers over the nape of his neck, before bringing them around to drift over his lips, feeling the way Jiyong shivers beneath you and smiling tantalizingly as you flicker your gaze up to his.

‘But you’re also, so so good…’

(T.B.C)

[sambashua]

11 questions~ (again)

I did this a while back but i think it’s really fun so thank you @yooncheoly​ !! Also I’m answering my sister’s questions @aegyovendingmachine​ too bc I like talking abt myself ok (bye this is so so long rip when will i shut up)

Kelby’s Questions!

1~When did you first get into Kpop?And what was the first MV / Song that got you hooked? Wellllllll I first started listening to BTS in October 2015 probs but I didn’t branch out to more groups until March 2016 ish. But the first MV that got me hooked was Dope on the Fine Bros react channel lol

2~Who are your Bias Wreckers for the groups that you love? AHAHAHHAHA (this is gonna be so long dear lord) okay soooo my bias groups are svt and nct and honestly?? I love them all a ridiculous amount! so in svt I am stupidly loyal to wonwoo bc I am a messssss and i go through phases of loving each of them more~ I never rlly feel threatened that wonu will be debunked as my ult but probably the one who rlly gets me goin the most is hosh:) for nct I used to bias mark then yuta lol but i think the dreamies are my true bias group who even is jung jaehyun tbh so yeah donghyuck is everything to me. for other groups ! ummm in bts I love them all a lottttt a lot too but I think lately jin and jungkook have mostly been wrecking me? I’m p loyal to monnie tho! okay for astro it’s 10/10 jinjin at the moment but sanha and mj snatch me often enough too for sure~ in twice mina has been ruining my life but what’s new tbh. jae for day6 destroys me way too often someone collect him. in shinee it’s probably key! just bc I really like his sense of humor and I relate to him haaa. honestlyyyy in all girl groups i am high key disloyal and swerving all over the place oops. anddd sehun is legit my ult bias wrecker like at this point he might as well be my bias baekhyunnie is dead to me 

3~If you had the chance to go to ONLY 1 concert and go backstage and hang out and meet everyone who would you choose and why? BOIIIIIIIII um probably seventeen let’s be real just bc they are my bias group and although I love a lot of groups I feel like they would make me feel very welcome!!

4~Have you ever met one of your idols?How was it if you have?And if you haven’t, who would you want to meet and why? omg no I wishhhhhhh but I am going to see monsta x in July!! I am very very excited!!!!

5~What’s the coolest thing that you have bought(Merchandise wise)From the groups that you love? Ummmmmm I don’t have a whole lot of merch but I have the Love & Letter album and the Boys Wish DVD and it’s my fave

6~Can you recommend some of your favorite MV’s to watch? UM IDEK HELP ME WOW okay so I’ve kinda gathered through emma (correct me if i’m wrong ah) that you haven’t branched out to a whole lot of groups yet? Is that incorrect ? idk BUT WOW DO I GOT A LIST I’ll just list some of my faves tho! (side note: i’m not a huge mv watcher i’m more of a dance practice gal)

Day6 - I’m Serious : I’m not sure if this is my favorite of their’s bc it’s hard to compare them all but it’s a really cute and summery video:)

ASTRO - Baby : OKAY IT’S REALLY NEW BUT I THINK IT’S MY FAVORITE ONE THEY’VE RELEASED it’s so high budget and pretty wahhh

NCT U - 7th Sense : This one really brings me back to when I didn’t know any of them and cass showed me it in senior year english wow what ride it’s been (a long ass ride)

Nu’est - Love Paint : THIS MV IS SO PRETTY OKAY STAN NU’EST PLZ

SF9 - Easy Love : This is my favorite SF9 mv bc I like the song and they all look so handsome!!

Victon - I’m Fine : my cute cute sons w their cute cute debut

SHINee - Can I Get Your Number & Tell Me What to Do : cigyn was a fave of mine from when I first listened to them and then tmwtd just makes me laugh bc of taemin at this part like why tae omg

Monsta X - Beautiful & Stuck : honestly love all their mvs tho

my sister’s gonna kill me Zico - I Am You, You Are Me : it’s rlly cute okay i like it AND SO DOES WONWOO BYE

Up10tion - White Night : THIS MV STILL BLOWS MY MIND OKAY

Twice - Cheer Up (ofc)

Red Velvet - Dumb Dumb : the aesthetics on all their mvs are so good

Wonder Girls - Why So Lonely : dude this mv is so good I miss them so much

Luna - Free Somebody : THIS SONG/MV/DANCE IS MY LIFE OKAY LIVE FOR THIS STAN LUNA

(okay i’m gonna stop hmu anytime for mv or music recs damn i need to chill)

7~Favorite Video games(If you play them)? no juego los videojuegos ahhhhhhhh sorry idk i never got into them… i used to play the sims… but Just Dance is my shit also Mario Cart

8~Favorite picture of your ultimate bias? DON’T DO THIS TO ME (okay i narrowed it down to 4 that was a trial in itself jesus this post is getting so long free me)

9~What’s your favorite choreo? KELBY YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND I LEGIT WROTE AN ARTICLE ABT THIS AND IT WAS JUST FOR 2017 (jan-march) AND I WAS ALREADY STRUGGLING okay jk i just realized NCT Dream’s My First and Last was a thing that is 100% my favorite choreo for so many reasons !!!! first the choreo is ridiculous like come on all the cool tricks and floor work is amazing. second it never repeats except for one part at the very end of the chorus repeats once, but other than that every single move is different literally how tf. third the formations are so diverse! especially since they’re an even number (jaemin i miss you) formations are always tricky so i was so impressed. lasttttt they are literal children? how? stan talent stan nct dream (oh also shout out to ten’s dream in a dream that was some lit stuff)

10~Favorite era? probablyyyyyy the renaissance hahaaa just kidding ahhhh wow i’m funny. but fr i am not sure???? i literally stan sooo many groups it’s really hard to narrow it down… but my bias group is svt and i think my favorite era is Love & Letter! (i would say nice but ah wonu) bc they all had cute hair and it was their first win and it was the first comeback i was part of the fandom!

11~How do the people in your life react when you tell them that you listen to kpop?Are they supportive or just against it? lol soooo idk I don’t necessarily bring it up these days ? just bc I’m in college now so idk I only bring it up casually I guess… BUTTTTTT when I first told my friends I was so nervous and they judged me so hard and a lot of them still judge me but they now know it’s part of who I am and they kinda accept that! I actually was the first person I knew to get into kpop so I dragged a lot of my friends irl into it too! (shoutout to @aegyovendingmachine @everyonesabiaswrecker @taeismyking @honestlay ) and i’ve made so many friends through it online and in real life! (shoutout to @atshinee i know it wasn’t why we became friends but it definitely helped make us close!)

Sister’s Questions!

1. Who is your favorite person on Produce 101? (if you’re not watching the show or don’t know anything about it then which is your favorite predebut project? i.e Fantagio I-Teen, SM Rookies, K.A.R.D, Pledis Girlz, etc.) YOOOOO DON’T DO THIS TO ME but my top 11 boys are probably Park Woojin (my most precious baby ilh), Samuel Kim, Kim Sanggyun, Kim Jonghyun, Im Youngmin, Noh Taehyun, Jung Sewoon, Kim Donghan, Kim Yongguk, Takada Kenta, Daniel Kang, and Lee Daewhi (ah there’s so many more too rip i’m crying) idk there’s so many in the top that... not saying they don’t deserve it... it’s just that they’re given more screen time by chance and not bc of talent.... also i’m crying for my eliminated babies Hong Eunki (it is such bs he got eliminated fight me he was my fave), Byun Hyunmin (HE WAS SO PURE AND ADORABLE I MISS HIM SM), Woo Jinyoung (he was such a good rapper he didn’t deserve this), Kim Dongbin (listen he wasn’t the best but he really did improve so so much), ALSO CONSIDER THEY HAVE ELIMINATED MOST OF THEIR VOCALISTS THERE’S GONNA BE NONE LEFT AND ALL THEIR SONGS ARE GONNA BE TRASH I HOPE YOU’LL ALL BE HAPPY

2. What’s your favorite idol group friendship? (Mine is probs SVT x Monsta X or Astro x KNK) YO KNKSTRO IS MY SHIT I LOVE MY BOYS well okay also monsta x svt is a fave also ncteen but I mean I’m a ho for svt interacting with any idols so~~

3. What concert would you most like to see? honestly I feel like SHINee puts on the best concerts and SHAWOLS are the cutest and nicest ever!!

4. Which disbanded group would you bring back if you could? (Or, alternatively: which members that have left a group would you bring back?) UM WOW GUESS WHO’S CRYING sistar’s disbandment was so recent this hurts me... but probably Wonder Girls bc they were one of my first favorite girl groups:(((

5. What was the last thing you texted someone? wtf these were all kpop i wasn’t readyyyyy “STOP HE IS LITERALLY THE SOFTEST BOY IN THE WHOLE WORLD I LOVE HIM” I’m so extra

6. When/how did you get into kpop? bye how many times do i have to answer this YOUTUBERS>BTS>HELL

7. Who is your youngest bias? ohh this is interesting... most of my female biases are younger... yehana, yeri, chaeyoung, suhyun are all 99 line! (suhyun being the youngest of them) but I mean the dreamies are ~basically~ my bias group so all of them are younger than them (also does samuel count as a bias? bc he’s 02 line) my youngest “official” boy group bias is moonbin tho!

8. What’s the most extra thing you remember saying in the tags on a post? bitch you know every tag i do is extra how tf am i supposed to find this???? well recently I tagged this post [#svt #boy wyd layin upside down like that ya gonna crack ya damn head open #he makes me so nervous #joshua #al1] is that good enough~ also my entire jaewindo thread bc i’ve reblogged the same post so many times bc it’s my fave! (i just realized i’m most extra when tagging my shua posts gdi)

9. What is your favorite reality show? (not like Real Housewives lmao but like NCT Life or One Fine Day or smth like that!) oh damn idk probablyyyyy NCT Life and then OFD... jsut bc I’ve only seen three seasons of OFD so idk if i’d like it if I wasn’t into the group but every season of NCT Life is golden soooo (plz put markhyuck on the next season i’m begging you sm)

10. What’s your favorite drama? (if you don’t watch dramas you can just use your favorite TV show it’s fine) Probablyyyyyyyyyy Doctors Crush or Legend of the Blue Sea!!

11. Post your favorite selfie of your bias’! you know my man is anti selfie what is this

this was so expected sorry if you thought I would choose any other selfie then unfollow me now this was the selfie that reassured that my man was on the mend!!

here i’ll post ones for namjoon and jaehyun just bc I want to give them more love

bye this was so difficult he has soooo many selfies what the heck~~~ I’m not confident but this one is for sure adorable!!

THIS WAS ALSO DIFFICULT AH bc he honestly looks good all the time so this was unfair

this was the longest post of my life jeezzzzzz well probably no one read this but i’m not gonna tag anyone bc i am so bad at coming up w questions sorry.....

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Macaulay Culkin: ‘No, I was not pounding six grand of heroin a month’

The Home Alone star talks about the drug rumours, dodging paparazzi and his cheese-flavoured Velvet Underground tribute act

Of all modern myths, it is the fall of the child star that most compels us. Whether theyre embarking on 55-hour marriages, throwing bongs out of windows or abandoning monkeys at customs, we cant seem to get enough. Theres something pathological in our need to tear down our icons of innocence, which might explain the overprotective nature of Macaulay Culkins US publicist, who wants to see all my questions upfront. I refuse. I thought we could just … have a chat? The interview, Culkins biggest in 10 years, is supposed to focus on his comeback. Im instructed to avoid anything negative. I ask if I can ask if he has any regrets. Regrets sounds too negative, is the response.

When we meet, in the lobby of a hotel in Spain, Im still trying to figure out what exactly this comeback consists of. Culkins filming an advert for Compare the Market, which is obviously not a passion project. It was fun, and we hammered that sucker out pretty quickly. The biggest scene was me sitting on a bench eating ice-cream.

Is he doing this to fund an exciting new venture? No, not necessarily. Hes dressed grungily, long hair man-bunned back, boots open-laced, blazer badge-studded. He doesnt project the focused careerism of most actors. People feel they have to be in perpetual motion, or drown. Ive never had a problem saying Ive got nothing lined up. Maybe Ill take the next year off. It sounds as if hes not particularly drawn to acting at all. Im not much active, he concedes. If I knew what I wanted to do, Id be writing it myself.

The trajectory of Culkins life feels like fallout from an atomic blast. By the age of 12, Uncle Buck, two Home Alone films, My Girl and (to a lesser extent) Richie Rich had made him the most successful child actor of all time. At 14, he became legally emancipated from his parents; both had been trying to gain control of his $17m fortune in their divorce. Culkin married at 17, and separated two years later. Sleepovers with Michael Jackson became public knowledge when he was called as a defence witness at the singers molestation trial. Im ghoulishly fascinated by this alien childhood. Id like to ask about Michael Jackson.

In Home Alone (1990). Photograph: Alamy Stock Photo

I think its best you dont, interjects his manager. She is one of three people sitting with us. Its not that its a painful topic … begins Culkin. His manager insists we move on, the PR next to her agrees. Culkin clearly wants to say something, but six eyes are telling him not to.

I suspect were both wondering why were here; 35-year-old Culkin doesnt do this sort of thing any more, having turned his back on the spotlight. I dont just turn my back, I actively dont want it. The paps go after me because I dont whore myself out. He has spent a decade turning down interviews, and mostly lives in France, where the aloof Parisians leave him alone. (Its also where Kevin McCallisters family were headed when they left him Home Alone, but we cant talk about that.) I get the impression hes as eager to talk about a price comparison website as I am to ask about one. Instead, I ask why people are still fascinated by him.

I have no idea. I was thinking about this the other day Id crossed the wrong street, picked up a tail, suddenly theres a crush of 20 paparazzi. Then people with cameraphones get involved. I dont think Im worthy of that.

With Michael Jackson in 2001. Photograph: Kevin Kane/WireImage

Has it got better with time?

Its been like that my whole adult life. You take on a prey-like attitude, always scanning the horizon. Its strange on dates, as it looks like youre not paying attention. But Ive stopped trying to think of myself in the third person, because thats just gonna drive me nuts.

You had to think about yourself in the third person?

Exactly. Macaulay Culkin is out there, and Im Mac. You guys can play with the first one.

Hes not averse to a bit of playing himself, for Culkin is the celebritys meta-celebrity. You may remember the meme-meltdown a few years back when Ryan Gosling was pictured wearing a T-shirt of Kevin McCallister. Culkin responded by creating a T-shirt that pictured Gosling wearing the shirt, before Gosling responded in kind, being photographed wearing a T-shirt of Culkin wearing a T-shirt of Gosling wearing a T-shirt of Culkin. They may still be at it for all we know.

Culkins previous ads, for the likes of Orange (and, in a Partridge move, the rebranding of Norwich Union), trade in close-to-the-bone self-analysis. For Compare the Market, he plays a hitchhiker picked up by the lovable meerkats, who see him as a child, buying him ice-cream and making him ride merry-go-rounds hes too big for.

In 2006, Culkin wrote an experimental novel, Junior, from the perspective of a certifiable child star with father issues. In web comedy :DRYVRS, hes a blood-spattered sadist, unhinged by the childhood trauma of parental abandonment, and defending himself against home invaders. Is all this self-quoting what hes drawn to, or just what he gets offered? A bit of both. It suits my personality and sense of humour. But I would be game for something non-self-referential.

Given this dilemma constantly returning to a past he wants distance from where does his sense of self come from? From me. I try to figure out what makes me happy and not in a superficial way. I keep my soul fit. Is he spiritual? I know enough to know I dont know. I was raised Catholic, so theres a lot of guilt. Were born with original sin. He veers off into a joke. Since I was told that, Ive been trying to come up with even more original sins, thatll really blow my priest away at confession. Like, heres one you havent heard it involves a pitching wedge, a donkey and a bucket of ice. And two meerkats? Yeah! You might wanna record this one!

With his brother, Kieran Culkin, c 1990. Photograph: Dave Benett/Getty Images

He reflects. Actually, Im very much at peace lately. I can debate with people, and my heart rate never changes. And Culkin is witty and affable. Funny, but distant. He offers confrontational figures of speech amiably. If you want to get into an argument with an artist, ask them what art is, he says. If you want to make an actor feel uncomfortable, ask them what theyre doing next. (I hastily scribble out one of the few questions Ive written down.)

Are his debates political? I have leanings, but Im the definition of a disenfranchised voter I think the system is ugly. This whole Trump thing is amazing. (Trump cameos in Home Alone 2, showing our hero the way to the Plaza Hotel lobby, although we cant talk about it.) Culkin doesnt want to be drawn further. Discussing politics is the quickest way to alienate people, so I dont wanna go into it. And Trump has enough column inches? Exactly! Hes like the Candyman, we have to stop saying his name.

Culkin was acting at four, an age at which no one knows what they want beyond watching cartoons and eating oversugared cereal. Having described himself as effectively retired, he works occasionally (voices for Seth Greens Robot Chicken, cameoing as himself in Zoolander 2), but: Im much more proactive with visual arts and writing, my notebook and little projects. Of the projects that reach the public, most could charitably be classed as divisive. There are paintings: one of the cast of Seinfeld on the set of Wheel of Fortune, being painted, nude, by He-Man. Theres The Wrong Ferrari, a Dadaist knockabout written on ketamine with Adam Green of the Moldy Peaches, shot entirely on iPhones. Most notorious is the Pizza Underground, his Velvet Underground tribute act that replaces the original lyrics with pizza puns (Im Waiting for Delivery Man, Take a Bite of the Wild Slice). At Nottingham Rock City, the band were pelted with beer and booed off stage as he played a kazoo solo. They cancelled their European dates, citing a cheesemergency. My question about all this is: what the hell?

Its one of those good ideas you have when youre drunk, and you wake up and forget about it. But were taking it to the end of the joke. We have an album coming out, a vinyl pressing with a childrens choir, a symphony orchestra. Were giving it away, our gift to the world. Does he still find it funny? Of course I find it funny! We rhyme mushrooms with mushrooms, come on. Its the same joke, relentlessly. Like, theyre really doing this?

Culkin enjoys the absurdity his fame bestows. But scrutiny has its downside. In New York, he takes walks at 4am to avoid harassment. On YouTube, one can find clips of him being harassed by wannabe-paps with smartphones. In 2012, photographs of him looking gaunt, almost transparent, set tabloids aflame with stories he was addicted to heroin and oxycodone, following the breakdown of his relationship with Mila Kunis. Given his friendship with Adam Green and Pete Doherty as well as a previous arrest for possession of marijuana, Xanax and clonazepam it seemed plausible.

Performing as Pizza Underground with Deenah Vollmer. Photograph: Sam Santos/WireImage

Were people right to be worried? Not necessarily. Of course, when silly stuff is going on but no, I was not pounding six grand of heroin every month or whatever. The thing that bugged me was tabloids wrapping it all in this weird guise of concern. No, youre trying to shift papers. Is there a story there he might want to tell one day, on his own terms? Perhaps.

Whatever his recreational habits, Im surprised by how unscrewed-up Macaulay Culkin is. Plans for the summer mainly involve roadying for Har Mar Superstar and Green (with whom he has another lo-fi film out, Aladdin). Home is where my boots are. Im a big fan of jumping on peoples tourbuses, making myself useful, doing load-ins and outs. I do everything except the merch table. I tried that, but … we didnt sell anything.

He has directionless days. He sleeps in, stays up late, indulges immature humour, bounces around with bad-influence friends. In short, hes enjoying the adolescence that celebrity stole from him. Ironically, his personal problems and turbulent relationship with the media have also given him a pretty grown-up perspective. Not a bad epilogue for a child star.

Its allowed me to become the person I am, and I like me, so I wouldnt change a thing. Not having to do anything for my dinner, financially, lets me treat every gig like its the last. He laughs, and this time addresses himself in the second person. If it is, Id think: Culkin, you had a good run.

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Macaulay Culkin: ‘No, I was not pounding six grand of heroin a month’

The Home Alone star talks about the drug rumours, dodging paparazzi and his cheese-flavoured Velvet Underground tribute act

Of all modern myths, it is the fall of the child star that most compels us. Whether theyre embarking on 55-hour marriages, throwing bongs out of windows or abandoning monkeys at customs, we cant seem to get enough. Theres something pathological in our need to tear down our icons of innocence, which might explain the overprotective nature of Macaulay Culkins US publicist, who wants to see all my questions upfront. I refuse. I thought we could just … have a chat? The interview, Culkins biggest in 10 years, is supposed to focus on his comeback. Im instructed to avoid anything negative. I ask if I can ask if he has any regrets. Regrets sounds too negative, is the response.

When we meet, in the lobby of a hotel in Spain, Im still trying to figure out what exactly this comeback consists of. Culkins filming an advert for Compare the Market, which is obviously not a passion project. It was fun, and we hammered that sucker out pretty quickly. The biggest scene was me sitting on a bench eating ice-cream.

Is he doing this to fund an exciting new venture? No, not necessarily. Hes dressed grungily, long hair man-bunned back, boots open-laced, blazer badge-studded. He doesnt project the focused careerism of most actors. People feel they have to be in perpetual motion, or drown. Ive never had a problem saying Ive got nothing lined up. Maybe Ill take the next year off. It sounds as if hes not particularly drawn to acting at all. Im not much active, he concedes. If I knew what I wanted to do, Id be writing it myself.

The trajectory of Culkins life feels like fallout from an atomic blast. By the age of 12, Uncle Buck, two Home Alone films, My Girl and (to a lesser extent) Richie Rich had made him the most successful child actor of all time. At 14, he became legally emancipated from his parents; both had been trying to gain control of his $17m fortune in their divorce. Culkin married at 17, and separated two years later. Sleepovers with Michael Jackson became public knowledge when he was called as a defence witness at the singers molestation trial. Im ghoulishly fascinated by this alien childhood. Id like to ask about Michael Jackson.

In Home Alone (1990). Photograph: Alamy Stock Photo

I think its best you dont, interjects his manager. She is one of three people sitting with us. Its not that its a painful topic … begins Culkin. His manager insists we move on, the PR next to her agrees. Culkin clearly wants to say something, but six eyes are telling him not to.

I suspect were both wondering why were here; 35-year-old Culkin doesnt do this sort of thing any more, having turned his back on the spotlight. I dont just turn my back, I actively dont want it. The paps go after me because I dont whore myself out. He has spent a decade turning down interviews, and mostly lives in France, where the aloof Parisians leave him alone. (Its also where Kevin McCallisters family were headed when they left him Home Alone, but we cant talk about that.) I get the impression hes as eager to talk about a price comparison website as I am to ask about one. Instead, I ask why people are still fascinated by him.

I have no idea. I was thinking about this the other day Id crossed the wrong street, picked up a tail, suddenly theres a crush of 20 paparazzi. Then people with cameraphones get involved. I dont think Im worthy of that.

With Michael Jackson in 2001. Photograph: Kevin Kane/WireImage

Has it got better with time?

Its been like that my whole adult life. You take on a prey-like attitude, always scanning the horizon. Its strange on dates, as it looks like youre not paying attention. But Ive stopped trying to think of myself in the third person, because thats just gonna drive me nuts.

You had to think about yourself in the third person?

Exactly. Macaulay Culkin is out there, and Im Mac. You guys can play with the first one.

Hes not averse to a bit of playing himself, for Culkin is the celebritys meta-celebrity. You may remember the meme-meltdown a few years back when Ryan Gosling was pictured wearing a T-shirt of Kevin McCallister. Culkin responded by creating a T-shirt that pictured Gosling wearing the shirt, before Gosling responded in kind, being photographed wearing a T-shirt of Culkin wearing a T-shirt of Gosling wearing a T-shirt of Culkin. They may still be at it for all we know.

Culkins previous ads, for the likes of Orange (and, in a Partridge move, the rebranding of Norwich Union), trade in close-to-the-bone self-analysis. For Compare the Market, he plays a hitchhiker picked up by the lovable meerkats, who see him as a child, buying him ice-cream and making him ride merry-go-rounds hes too big for.

In 2006, Culkin wrote an experimental novel, Junior, from the perspective of a certifiable child star with father issues. In web comedy :DRYVRS, hes a blood-spattered sadist, unhinged by the childhood trauma of parental abandonment, and defending himself against home invaders. Is all this self-quoting what hes drawn to, or just what he gets offered? A bit of both. It suits my personality and sense of humour. But I would be game for something non-self-referential.

Given this dilemma constantly returning to a past he wants distance from where does his sense of self come from? From me. I try to figure out what makes me happy and not in a superficial way. I keep my soul fit. Is he spiritual? I know enough to know I dont know. I was raised Catholic, so theres a lot of guilt. Were born with original sin. He veers off into a joke. Since I was told that, Ive been trying to come up with even more original sins, thatll really blow my priest away at confession. Like, heres one you havent heard it involves a pitching wedge, a donkey and a bucket of ice. And two meerkats? Yeah! You might wanna record this one!

With his brother, Kieran Culkin, c 1990. Photograph: Dave Benett/Getty Images

He reflects. Actually, Im very much at peace lately. I can debate with people, and my heart rate never changes. And Culkin is witty and affable. Funny, but distant. He offers confrontational figures of speech amiably. If you want to get into an argument with an artist, ask them what art is, he says. If you want to make an actor feel uncomfortable, ask them what theyre doing next. (I hastily scribble out one of the few questions Ive written down.)

Are his debates political? I have leanings, but Im the definition of a disenfranchised voter I think the system is ugly. This whole Trump thing is amazing. (Trump cameos in Home Alone 2, showing our hero the way to the Plaza Hotel lobby, although we cant talk about it.) Culkin doesnt want to be drawn further. Discussing politics is the quickest way to alienate people, so I dont wanna go into it. And Trump has enough column inches? Exactly! Hes like the Candyman, we have to stop saying his name.

Culkin was acting at four, an age at which no one knows what they want beyond watching cartoons and eating oversugared cereal. Having described himself as effectively retired, he works occasionally (voices for Seth Greens Robot Chicken, cameoing as himself in Zoolander 2), but: Im much more proactive with visual arts and writing, my notebook and little projects. Of the projects that reach the public, most could charitably be classed as divisive. There are paintings: one of the cast of Seinfeld on the set of Wheel of Fortune, being painted, nude, by He-Man. Theres The Wrong Ferrari, a Dadaist knockabout written on ketamine with Adam Green of the Moldy Peaches, shot entirely on iPhones. Most notorious is the Pizza Underground, his Velvet Underground tribute act that replaces the original lyrics with pizza puns (Im Waiting for Delivery Man, Take a Bite of the Wild Slice). At Nottingham Rock City, the band were pelted with beer and booed off stage as he played a kazoo solo. They cancelled their European dates, citing a cheesemergency. My question about all this is: what the hell?

Its one of those good ideas you have when youre drunk, and you wake up and forget about it. But were taking it to the end of the joke. We have an album coming out, a vinyl pressing with a childrens choir, a symphony orchestra. Were giving it away, our gift to the world. Does he still find it funny? Of course I find it funny! We rhyme mushrooms with mushrooms, come on. Its the same joke, relentlessly. Like, theyre really doing this?

Culkin enjoys the absurdity his fame bestows. But scrutiny has its downside. In New York, he takes walks at 4am to avoid harassment. On YouTube, one can find clips of him being harassed by wannabe-paps with smartphones. In 2012, photographs of him looking gaunt, almost transparent, set tabloids aflame with stories he was addicted to heroin and oxycodone, following the breakdown of his relationship with Mila Kunis. Given his friendship with Adam Green and Pete Doherty as well as a previous arrest for possession of marijuana, Xanax and clonazepam it seemed plausible.

Performing as Pizza Underground with Deenah Vollmer. Photograph: Sam Santos/WireImage

Were people right to be worried? Not necessarily. Of course, when silly stuff is going on but no, I was not pounding six grand of heroin every month or whatever. The thing that bugged me was tabloids wrapping it all in this weird guise of concern. No, youre trying to shift papers. Is there a story there he might want to tell one day, on his own terms? Perhaps.

Whatever his recreational habits, Im surprised by how unscrewed-up Macaulay Culkin is. Plans for the summer mainly involve roadying for Har Mar Superstar and Green (with whom he has another lo-fi film out, Aladdin). Home is where my boots are. Im a big fan of jumping on peoples tourbuses, making myself useful, doing load-ins and outs. I do everything except the merch table. I tried that, but … we didnt sell anything.

He has directionless days. He sleeps in, stays up late, indulges immature humour, bounces around with bad-influence friends. In short, hes enjoying the adolescence that celebrity stole from him. Ironically, his personal problems and turbulent relationship with the media have also given him a pretty grown-up perspective. Not a bad epilogue for a child star.

Its allowed me to become the person I am, and I like me, so I wouldnt change a thing. Not having to do anything for my dinner, financially, lets me treat every gig like its the last. He laughs, and this time addresses himself in the second person. If it is, Id think: Culkin, you had a good run.

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Macaulay Culkin: ‘No, I was not pounding six grand of heroin a month’

The Home Alone star talks about the drug rumours, dodging paparazzi and his cheese-flavoured Velvet Underground tribute act

Of all modern myths, it is the fall of the child star that most compels us. Whether theyre embarking on 55-hour marriages, throwing bongs out of windows or abandoning monkeys at customs, we cant seem to get enough. Theres something pathological in our need to tear down our icons of innocence, which might explain the overprotective nature of Macaulay Culkins US publicist, who wants to see all my questions upfront. I refuse. I thought we could just … have a chat? The interview, Culkins biggest in 10 years, is supposed to focus on his comeback. Im instructed to avoid anything negative. I ask if I can ask if he has any regrets. Regrets sounds too negative, is the response.

When we meet, in the lobby of a hotel in Spain, Im still trying to figure out what exactly this comeback consists of. Culkins filming an advert for Compare the Market, which is obviously not a passion project. It was fun, and we hammered that sucker out pretty quickly. The biggest scene was me sitting on a bench eating ice-cream.

Is he doing this to fund an exciting new venture? No, not necessarily. Hes dressed grungily, long hair man-bunned back, boots open-laced, blazer badge-studded. He doesnt project the focused careerism of most actors. People feel they have to be in perpetual motion, or drown. Ive never had a problem saying Ive got nothing lined up. Maybe Ill take the next year off. It sounds as if hes not particularly drawn to acting at all. Im not much active, he concedes. If I knew what I wanted to do, Id be writing it myself.

The trajectory of Culkins life feels like fallout from an atomic blast. By the age of 12, Uncle Buck, two Home Alone films, My Girl and (to a lesser extent) Richie Rich had made him the most successful child actor of all time. At 14, he became legally emancipated from his parents; both had been trying to gain control of his $17m fortune in their divorce. Culkin married at 17, and separated two years later. Sleepovers with Michael Jackson became public knowledge when he was called as a defence witness at the singers molestation trial. Im ghoulishly fascinated by this alien childhood. Id like to ask about Michael Jackson.

In Home Alone (1990). Photograph: Alamy Stock Photo

I think its best you dont, interjects his manager. She is one of three people sitting with us. Its not that its a painful topic … begins Culkin. His manager insists we move on, the PR next to her agrees. Culkin clearly wants to say something, but six eyes are telling him not to.

I suspect were both wondering why were here; 35-year-old Culkin doesnt do this sort of thing any more, having turned his back on the spotlight. I dont just turn my back, I actively dont want it. The paps go after me because I dont whore myself out. He has spent a decade turning down interviews, and mostly lives in France, where the aloof Parisians leave him alone. (Its also where Kevin McCallisters family were headed when they left him Home Alone, but we cant talk about that.) I get the impression hes as eager to talk about a price comparison website as I am to ask about one. Instead, I ask why people are still fascinated by him.

I have no idea. I was thinking about this the other day Id crossed the wrong street, picked up a tail, suddenly theres a crush of 20 paparazzi. Then people with cameraphones get involved. I dont think Im worthy of that.

With Michael Jackson in 2001. Photograph: Kevin Kane/WireImage

Has it got better with time?

Its been like that my whole adult life. You take on a prey-like attitude, always scanning the horizon. Its strange on dates, as it looks like youre not paying attention. But Ive stopped trying to think of myself in the third person, because thats just gonna drive me nuts.

You had to think about yourself in the third person?

Exactly. Macaulay Culkin is out there, and Im Mac. You guys can play with the first one.

Hes not averse to a bit of playing himself, for Culkin is the celebritys meta-celebrity. You may remember the meme-meltdown a few years back when Ryan Gosling was pictured wearing a T-shirt of Kevin McCallister. Culkin responded by creating a T-shirt that pictured Gosling wearing the shirt, before Gosling responded in kind, being photographed wearing a T-shirt of Culkin wearing a T-shirt of Gosling wearing a T-shirt of Culkin. They may still be at it for all we know.

Culkins previous ads, for the likes of Orange (and, in a Partridge move, the rebranding of Norwich Union), trade in close-to-the-bone self-analysis. For Compare the Market, he plays a hitchhiker picked up by the lovable meerkats, who see him as a child, buying him ice-cream and making him ride merry-go-rounds hes too big for.

In 2006, Culkin wrote an experimental novel, Junior, from the perspective of a certifiable child star with father issues. In web comedy :DRYVRS, hes a blood-spattered sadist, unhinged by the childhood trauma of parental abandonment, and defending himself against home invaders. Is all this self-quoting what hes drawn to, or just what he gets offered? A bit of both. It suits my personality and sense of humour. But I would be game for something non-self-referential.

Given this dilemma constantly returning to a past he wants distance from where does his sense of self come from? From me. I try to figure out what makes me happy and not in a superficial way. I keep my soul fit. Is he spiritual? I know enough to know I dont know. I was raised Catholic, so theres a lot of guilt. Were born with original sin. He veers off into a joke. Since I was told that, Ive been trying to come up with even more original sins, thatll really blow my priest away at confession. Like, heres one you havent heard it involves a pitching wedge, a donkey and a bucket of ice. And two meerkats? Yeah! You might wanna record this one!

With his brother, Kieran Culkin, c 1990. Photograph: Dave Benett/Getty Images

He reflects. Actually, Im very much at peace lately. I can debate with people, and my heart rate never changes. And Culkin is witty and affable. Funny, but distant. He offers confrontational figures of speech amiably. If you want to get into an argument with an artist, ask them what art is, he says. If you want to make an actor feel uncomfortable, ask them what theyre doing next. (I hastily scribble out one of the few questions Ive written down.)

Are his debates political? I have leanings, but Im the definition of a disenfranchised voter I think the system is ugly. This whole Trump thing is amazing. (Trump cameos in Home Alone 2, showing our hero the way to the Plaza Hotel lobby, although we cant talk about it.) Culkin doesnt want to be drawn further. Discussing politics is the quickest way to alienate people, so I dont wanna go into it. And Trump has enough column inches? Exactly! Hes like the Candyman, we have to stop saying his name.

Culkin was acting at four, an age at which no one knows what they want beyond watching cartoons and eating oversugared cereal. Having described himself as effectively retired, he works occasionally (voices for Seth Greens Robot Chicken, cameoing as himself in Zoolander 2), but: Im much more proactive with visual arts and writing, my notebook and little projects. Of the projects that reach the public, most could charitably be classed as divisive. There are paintings: one of the cast of Seinfeld on the set of Wheel of Fortune, being painted, nude, by He-Man. Theres The Wrong Ferrari, a Dadaist knockabout written on ketamine with Adam Green of the Moldy Peaches, shot entirely on iPhones. Most notorious is the Pizza Underground, his Velvet Underground tribute act that replaces the original lyrics with pizza puns (Im Waiting for Delivery Man, Take a Bite of the Wild Slice). At Nottingham Rock City, the band were pelted with beer and booed off stage as he played a kazoo solo. They cancelled their European dates, citing a cheesemergency. My question about all this is: what the hell?

Its one of those good ideas you have when youre drunk, and you wake up and forget about it. But were taking it to the end of the joke. We have an album coming out, a vinyl pressing with a childrens choir, a symphony orchestra. Were giving it away, our gift to the world. Does he still find it funny? Of course I find it funny! We rhyme mushrooms with mushrooms, come on. Its the same joke, relentlessly. Like, theyre really doing this?

Culkin enjoys the absurdity his fame bestows. But scrutiny has its downside. In New York, he takes walks at 4am to avoid harassment. On YouTube, one can find clips of him being harassed by wannabe-paps with smartphones. In 2012, photographs of him looking gaunt, almost transparent, set tabloids aflame with stories he was addicted to heroin and oxycodone, following the breakdown of his relationship with Mila Kunis. Given his friendship with Adam Green and Pete Doherty as well as a previous arrest for possession of marijuana, Xanax and clonazepam it seemed plausible.

Performing as Pizza Underground with Deenah Vollmer. Photograph: Sam Santos/WireImage

Were people right to be worried? Not necessarily. Of course, when silly stuff is going on but no, I was not pounding six grand of heroin every month or whatever. The thing that bugged me was tabloids wrapping it all in this weird guise of concern. No, youre trying to shift papers. Is there a story there he might want to tell one day, on his own terms? Perhaps.

Whatever his recreational habits, Im surprised by how unscrewed-up Macaulay Culkin is. Plans for the summer mainly involve roadying for Har Mar Superstar and Green (with whom he has another lo-fi film out, Aladdin). Home is where my boots are. Im a big fan of jumping on peoples tourbuses, making myself useful, doing load-ins and outs. I do everything except the merch table. I tried that, but … we didnt sell anything.

He has directionless days. He sleeps in, stays up late, indulges immature humour, bounces around with bad-influence friends. In short, hes enjoying the adolescence that celebrity stole from him. Ironically, his personal problems and turbulent relationship with the media have also given him a pretty grown-up perspective. Not a bad epilogue for a child star.

Its allowed me to become the person I am, and I like me, so I wouldnt change a thing. Not having to do anything for my dinner, financially, lets me treat every gig like its the last. He laughs, and this time addresses himself in the second person. If it is, Id think: Culkin, you had a good run.

from All Of Beer http://allofbeer.com/macaulay-culkin-no-i-was-not-pounding-six-grand-of-heroin-a-month/

[kagayakimasu]

getting to know shinee world ♡

@duevangogh tagged me to answer these shinee questions and before i get started ill tag @acelululala @kimjongloser @ninonisanoctopus @taerrorize @peridoxxx @5-25 @eyes0ny0u @lunar-otter @losteraable  (but its ok if you dont want to do it ♡) and can i tag you @duevangogh back since you posted the questions but didnt answet them? ;u; ♡

01: How did you get into SHINee?

i like telling this story lmao

 yk that msn messenger thing we used to use like forever ago? my friends and i had this emoticon of a guy we assumed was from a kpop group laughing and he was adorable so we decided to look for him in music videos cause we knew kpop existed but we werent rly interested in it so i tried looking for him in shinee videos and instead i found taemin and fun fact: i still dont know who the emoticon guy was lmao

02: Your favorite member in SHINee is?

my favorite member has always been taemin but ive been in such an ot5 mood recently ;;

03: Bias wrecker anyone?

all??? of them???? im like minho it depends on the day

04: Your favorite SHINee OTP (if you have one)

again all of them OTL i mostly ship people like in a friendship kind of way so all the dynamics in shinee are really adorable and i love seeing any of them but ill say ontae and minkey

05: Is there a SHINee ship you don’t like?

at first i wasnt so warm about 2min tbh but that didnt last like a couple of months

06: The SHINee member you think is most easily shipped

i dont know? ;;;;;

07: Your favorite Korean song by SHINee

i cant choose one ;;; hit me, last gift and selene 6.23 are ones that hit me pretty hard 

08: Your favorite Japanese song by SHINee

better is a really really special song to me because i remember when the album wasnt released yet and the only way to listen to it was in a super lq tudou video and right around that time my cousin came home from japan so he brought me the album and it was my first album and i treasure it so dearly TT but honestly im the biggest sucker for shinees japanese discography 

09: Favorite album

the first is really special for me, i love every song and theyre all in japanese and key is in a shopping cart i just love it so much ♡

10: Your favorite live performance

like a fire from swc iii clearly also their very first live comeback stage for everybody it was so good? the first time they performed sleepless night and tho i hate it when a member is missing i find it really nice to hear the other members covering their parts

11: First SHINee MV you saw

for some reason i chose replay out of the youtube search suggestions yk (how did i not pick lucifer i was in my emo phase idk how that happened)

12: Your first impression of SHINee

cute af, onew and keys voices destroyed me and i did not believe the mushroom guy from replay was the long haired lucifer himself in the lucifer mv

13: Is there a SHINee member that recently impressed you?

umm yes they impress me everyday let me live rip 

but jokes aside tbh every time taemin performs sayonara hitori he got me SO shook its never the same and like this isnt necessarily impressing me but sometimes taemins smile is so beautiful i cant believe and i cry 

14: The SHINee member you think has changed the most over the years

tbh i dont really like talking about change because im idk i guess im a little stuck up but one thing im really happy about is the fact that minkey got over their infamous fight and taemin has clearly become this amazing artist but it was kind of to be expected cause weve known him since he was a lil tiny child

15: The SHINee member you think has changed the least

i dont really know how to judge this adkjnvjnf i guess onew has had the least physical change since he was already almost becoming an adult when he debuted so we got to see less of his natural maturing and stuff but i also feel like jonghyun has accepted himself a lot over the years so hes allowed us to see a side of him that has always been there so even though it was sort of new to us at first, it wasnt really a change

16: Your favorite SHINee MV

lowkey replay japanese version highkey married to the music also lucky star is a masterpiece

17: Your favorite SHINee lyric

im actually really weak for even mildly cute lyrics like its two words and im on the floor screaming and there are some really specific ones that people really dont care for but i think are so beautiful like the “im not important” part in selene 6.23 and theres something along the lines of “i want you to depend/rely on me” in colors of the season but like the english translations dont do it justice i think the meaning in the original japanese words is so deep (and its probably really not lmao) also really simple ones like “you are the reason of my smile” in always love i just! want! to talk! about! lyrics!

18: The SHINee member you think has the best face

key 100% i remember when i first got into shinee id think key was taemin because he looked the best and i thought oh that must be the long haired guy

19: The SHINee member you think has the best body

onew hes soft and his face is squishy

20: The SHINee member you think has the best personality

mmmmmmmmm too hard they all have so many qualities i think are important in a person idk 

21: A SHINee picture that makes you smile

its just so funny to me omg

22: A SHINee picture that makes you nostalgic

23: Your favorite quote by someone in SHINee

i think taemin is really inspirational and i think about him saying you have to give up things to achieve others a lot also keys entire chicken speech

24: A picture of your bias with someone else you like in another group

25: Have you seen SHINee live?

not yet ;;

26: Do you have a favorite variety show moment?

tbh every time they eat and all these japanese hosts who treat taemin like a lil prince are 10/10 

27: How would you describe SHINee in three words?

bestthing thatseverhappened tome

28: Which SHINee video would you show to someone who has never heard of them before?

not a video but someone has this series of gifsets that they call “someone asked why im a shawol” or something like that i forgot who it was sry ;;; but i think those sum them up rly well

29. Is there a memory in connection to SHINee that you will always treasure?

when i was in japan there was a day i bought a fuck load of albums and random merch and the store clerks were all really nice to me and at the end of the day i remember when i was leaving shin ookubo, there was a store playing lucifer pretty loud so it felt like it was the soundtrack of my life as i walked down the street lmao and it was really the perfect way to finish such a great day

30: If you could tell SHINee anything you wanted…what would that be?

i think about this a lot but i still havent found an answer orz i think i would just end up telling them theyre the most important thing in my life but i wish i could let them know how much they mean like not to be dramatic but i couldnt live without them, i wish there was a way to make that sound good yk cause like it sounds way too extreme and generic and maybe hard to believe but i wish i knew a way to let them really understand how much they mean to me