#SHITTT I WANNA BE WRONG

[matchasilver]

Non con fan theory (i am halfway through ch 8 now)

Oh... oh, no. Is that why we met him in the red light district...? I can say that Charles seems utterly broken inside and willing to do anything just to be shown an ounce of attention. If my hunch is right, can he even consent in his state or?

!!Charles route Ch. 7 SPOILERS!!

Okay, Shakes, that is NOT NICE! (I know Will's mean from playing his route but still. Don't call Charles a hoe :/ )

[dolcekissy]

so, so horny , ღ

: ̗̀➛ rafe helps sexually frustrated bunny!reader out.

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ main masterlist | bunny!reader x bsf!rafe

disclaimer // 18+ content. this story includes unprotected sex, p in v, brief masturbation, oral sex and fingering.

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your fingers work fast and harsh circles around your clit so fucking horny you cant even think straight. sitting up with a huff and aggressively pushing your light pink covers off your body ─ you grab your phone off the nightstand searching for rafe's contact.

'rafe come pick me up i'm bored as shit'

Read 9:32 PM

'bet omw'

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honestly at this point you're hoping rafe could at least take your mind off of how horny you are ─ doing something fun with him always helps you feel better.

but when you noticed that throbbing feeling that never went away and that wet patch that kept growing on your lacy pink underwear ─ you knew you were fucked. rafe was not helping you out at all. of fucking course he decided to wear all black today and his new buzz cut was not making this any better for you.

at this point rafe could tell something was wrong. you were being short and extremely feisty with him ─ being so sexually frustrated everything was starting to just piss you off. he repeatedly kept asking you what was wrong, pissing you off even more.

"the fuck is the matter with you doll?" he places a hand on your knee and you bite back a moan. "nothing rafe. oh my gosh stop asking me that." he stares at you, eyeing you and your figure for a minute.

"lay down." you look at him with a confused face. "for what?" you stay still, folding your arms and watching him.

he looks at you with a stern and irritated face. "listen i'm not dealing with this shitty ass attitude you got. lay down or i'm taking you right the fuck back home." you widen your eyes at his tone ─ laying down against his bed.

"since you wanna come over here with a stank ass attitude," he rips your tiny shorts and panties off ─ smirking at the way your pussy is glistening and clenching around nothing.

"i'm gonna fuck it out of you, toots." he leans down lifting your shirt up leaving a trail of kisses from your stomach to your thighs. you buck your hips up ─ silently begging him to just do something.

he leans down further and presses a soft kiss of your swollen clit. "if ya needed some help, why didn't you ask?" you moan loudly while he licks long stripes up your pussy ─ devouring you.

your hands fly to his hair ─ pushing your hips up into his face. he hold your hips down firmly while shaking his head back and forth ─ staring intensely into your eyes.

"holy fucking shit rafe! m'so close! so close ugh!" he adds his fingers into you pumping fast and still sucking on your clit. "c'mon doll. you got it, i got ya."

you cum hard ─ pussy convulsing and body shaking. "shittt!" his fingers fuck you through your orgasm ─ pulling them out of you to suck them clean.

you watch him as he groans out pulling his fingers out of his mouth. you grab his face pulling him up to you ─ kissing him hard. "fuck me, rafe. please." he leans back and studies your face for a second. "you sure?" you whine bringing his lips back to yours. "fuck rafe! please!"

he smirks with a shrug ─ sitting up to remove his clothes while you work on removing the rest of yours. he leans back down pressing a sweet kiss to your lips. "ready?" you respond by grabbing his cock and lining it up at your entrance. pushing your feet into his back ─ forcing the head of his cock in.

"fuck girl. you're horny huh?" he says sniffling a laugh ─ pushing the rest of his cock into you with a groan. "shit. you feel so good."

you whine out impatient. "c'mon rafe. please fuck me." he nods his head with a soft laugh thrusting into you at a relentless pace. you grab onto his shoulders whining and arching your back.

"ohhh my fuck. you got a mean pussy on you. shit." you cry out ─ stomach on fire and so close to cumming around his cock.

"i'm so close rafe! oh my- ohhh!" your eyes squeeze shut, face scrunching up in pleasure as you squirt all over rafe's lower half. you honestly felt like a teenage boy with how fast you came but you were so, so horny.

"h-holy shit." his eyes widen as he watches you soak his sheets. he fucks his cock into you faster chasing his own orgasm. you whine out feeling too overwhelmed as he pulls out and cums on your stomach.

your grip on him loosens ─ feeling completely worn out. "have you ever done that shit before? that was so fuckin' hot." he says quietly with a soft moan leaving his lips.

you tiredly shake your head no ─ grabbing his face and kissing his lips, giggling softly. "thank you rafey."

"shit. anytime princess."

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[moechies]

asking the jjk boys to hold your hand ꒱₊˚⊹ nsfw

trying something different , more head cannon-like because i find i’m more motivated to write smaller pieces . . am cooking in my drafts rn . please bare with me !

♡｡ﾟ｡

gojo satoru ꒱

sooo much teasing . makes you ask for his hand over and over , until you admit his cock is just too much, and too deep, and you need something to wrap your hand around. he’s so cocky, but will definitely give it to you. presses gentle kisses on your knuckles when his huge hand envelops yours, and holds it down below, into the fluff of your sheets.

“ha— hand, please, satoru—“

“what’s that sweet girl ? w’na hold my hand ?”

“yes ! p-please !”

“why, what’s wrong?” he simpers, gentle fingers pushing your stray hairs away.

you huff, inpatient now. “j-jus’ wanna feel you, satoru.! please!”

“aww , sweet girl. course i’ll hold my baby’s hand.”

getou suguru ꒱

so tender with his baby. will give in the second you ask for it, he actually wanted it first. but in the mist of your perfect cunny gripping him so well , he forgot to :( once he gets ahold of your hand he brings it down to your tummy, and glides your fingers where his cock bulges. grins and presses soft kisses all over you when you’re unable to answer his dirty questions , but his pretty baby will always answer if she knows what’s good for her. <3

“feel my cock here, honey?” a sly grin spreads across his face when you’re only capable of replying with a wanton moan, slowing his thrusts.

“w-wait , no..! i— feel it , please, want more s-sugu!”

it’s so dirty , and suguru loves it.

“yeah ? askin’ f’me to hold your hand so sweetly but you’re being so filthy little girl ..”

“m s-sorry.! ju— love it .. love it s’ much.!”

“know you do princess. be good now, lay still.”

toji fushiguro ꒱

thinks it’s funny at first, but really he wanted it just as much as you do. you cannot tell me otherwise , toji is such a lover. really , he’s sort of shocked that you asked for something so intimate, so small, only realizing that he hadn’t been holding your hand in the first place. teases you only sometimes, because he wants to feel you just as bad as you do. such a sweet man ♡

you reach down, intertwining your fingers into his bigger ones; a light squeeze to your hand when he understands your intention;

“hmm, what’s this princess?” he gloats ,

“wan’ hold your h-hand, toji . m-missed you s’much t-today.” you admit, followed with a sweet moan.

“s’cute.” he chuckles, pressing a kiss on the back of your hand before continuing with his heavy thrusts.

“missed you too princess. missed your perfect face ‘nd sweet cunt . s-shittt.. love you darling .”

sukuna ryomen ꒱

isn’t doing it unless you ask for it. will be like ??? because he’s like , you hold hands during sex too ? and you’re like ??? you’ve never done that before? so clueless but a bit flustered , really tries to act like he hates it but really, he think he likes it; he likes when you hold his hand. only never done it because he’s only been with concubines before you, and would never think of doing something so intimate himself.

“what’re you doin’ brat?”

“i just— w’na hold your hand ryo..”

“during sex ?”

“ do you think that’s w-weird ?”

he scoffs, not wanting to admit that he liked it. his hand slithers above yours, thumb pressing into the apple of your palm.

nanamin kento ꒱

already holding your hand . ♡

[jeansplaytoy]

Complaining. - Ony 4

<<part three part five>>

slight arguing, mentions of cheating and feelings (mild), no proofread, i’ll edit it whenever. sorry for the waittt!

you rubbed your eyes, slipping your white painted toes into your fluffy slides. you weren’t even drunk last night but for some reason, that headache just bothered the hell out of you.

“shittt.” you whispered to yourself. you checked your phone and the time. 10:47am. you stretched before standing up, stretching your legs and making your way to the bathroom. you grabbed a towel, running warm water under it before washing your face lazily. you brushed your teeth, went to your room and grabbed your phone.

you made your way to the living room, sitting on your couch, waiting for something to happen. it was a weird feeling, like empty. you can’t say you’d never felt it before, but this time you were just bored. and you were rarely bored.

but conveniently, as you were scrolling through apps on your tv, you got a phone call from an awfully familiar number. you pursed you’re lips together, frowning slightly before answering. “who is this?” was the first thing you asked.

“damn, you deleted my whole number too?” ony spoke on the other line.

you sighed, rolling your eyes. “boy what you want? ain’t yo girlfriend somewhere near you?” you asked. “just because we… quote on quote “date” don’t mean we live together.” ony mumbled. you hummed. “yeah okay.” you muttered.

“so wassup witchu?”

you paused for a minute before answering. “ion know. but i gotta talk to you about something, ony.” you said while playing with your nails. “ight, speak.” ony said in between a yawn.

you quirked a frown before leaning back on your couch. “we need to talk about some shit going on between us because-“before you could even finish, your phone started vibrating and it was a facetime call instead of an audio call. you smacked your lips and answered it with a frown, making ony laugh. he was still in bed, he looked tired.

“my bad, i just wanna see you when you talk. keep going.”

you squinted for a few seconds. “anyway, as i was sayin. we need to talk about some shit between us because i feel-“

all of a sudden, there was a loud ass sneeze and you frowned. “ony what the fuck is wrong witchu?”

“it’s allergy season bruh please.” he rubbed his nose before sniffing and chuckling. “ight keep going.”

you smacked your lips. “nevermind dude just… you wanna come over today?” you asked while rubbing your forehead. ony raised his eyebrows. “like… for what?” he frowned a little. “so we can talk. cus apparently you don’t know how to listen without making dumbass sounds.”

“can we get sum to eat if i come?”

~

so there you were, sitting in the passenger side of your ex boyfriends car, downing a burger and large fry with a drink. as he drove, he glanced at you from time to time, raising his eyebrows at the way it looked like you just feened for food.

“you ain’t eat today?”

“nah.” you mumbled, taking a bite of four fries and looking at ony with furrowed eyebrows. “you must got a problem or sum?”

“you in my car.” he nudged your arm and you continued to eat your food, staring at him. “ion care.” you said, grabbing your drink and sipping through the straw. ony hummed. “so what you wanna talk about. you know my girl ain’t gone like us together.” he sighed, leaning back a little. you frowned and looked at him.

“i’m just playing, damn.” he laughed. “but for real wassup.”

“we need to get our shit together, that’s what. cus i’m not finna be fuckin on you tomorrow and then we have a lame ass argument the next day.” you glanced at him, passing him a fry. “and ion want yo lil bitch to be mean mugging me, but i’m not gon say too much cus she ain’t did too much yet. but that shit you said about her being a replacement, it just made me feel like you wasn’t really talking to me for me, you was just talking to me cus you wanted to brag or sum.”

ony pursed his lips together, putting the car in park as you both sat in an empty parking lot. “so you tryna say i was only talking to you to let it be known that i could easily replace you?” he frowned softly.

you shrugged, finishing your burger. “i mean, i really hate yo ass. i do. but you having her as my replacement? you gotta do better than that. you making it seem like i’m ugly or sum shit.”

ony smacked his lips and rested his eyes at you. “you know you not ugly, i know you not ugly. don’t do that. and how was i posed to find somebody finer than you?”

“you cheated on me with her, ony. then you brought her around the around the group expecting her to just be invited like we all ain’t been friends since bout middle school and her ass just now coming.”

you turned in the seat to face him. “and then the hoe kept staring at me when she saw me and you talking like she had a problem or sum. wassup wit that? i mean i get why she mad, you talkin to the girl you cheated on to get with her, but she ain’t had to look at me like that-“

“why you always shit talkin?” ony stared at you. but it wasn’t a bad stare. it was more like a genuine question stare.

“huh?”

“you too cute to be worried bout what these hoes got going on or what these bitches think about you. i told you bout that.” he said as his eyes continued to rest on yours. he did tell you about that.

you opened your mouth to defend your actions, but nothing came out. it was like ever since you broke up with him, you’ve just been in that same grumpy mood for the whole time.

“you ain’t ever act like then when we was together, you was a lover girl.” ony smiled a little.

“but you cheated on me and i got mad. and ian gone lie, i been mad about that shit for a long time.” you looked at him. “and it’s annoying seeing you with somebody else that think they better than me or sum. i can’t tell nobody but you that.”

“why?”

“cus that’s embarrassing.”

ong smacked his lips. “i’m sorry for doin that to you. ion got no problem wit apologizing. but ion want you to bottle up yo feelings until i come around cus we not even together.”

“and ion want you to be around me as a secret and then start acting different in front of yo girl.” you raised your eyebrow at him. you might’ve been feeling some typa way, but ain’t no way you was finna sit here and feel bad about shit because she was in the way of you and ony getting back on good terms.

ony rubbed his face. “ion act different. that was only when i expected you to be more mad.”

“but you’ll flirt with me one minute and then be a whole other nigga when you get around her.”

“cus that’s my girlfriend.”

“you don’t even like that girl.”

“says who?”

“me, nigga.”

“who the hell is you to say ion like her?”

“why you always tryna argue wit me?”

“cus i love yo ass.”

you paused in your words and pursed your lips together, slowly staring to smile. “you still love me?” you asked. ony stared at you for a few seconds before rolling his eyes. “duh, why you think you in my car?” you slowly nodded. “so that mean you cheated on me wit that bitch for nothing. when you breakup with her, then we can start back talking, but for now? aw nigga you outta luck. now take me home.”

“bruh y/n-“

“take me home, ony.” you said before finally turning around in the seat and buckling up.

the ride home was silent, but not awkward. it wasn’t like you were mad at each other, it’s just that nobody had nothing else to say. you bit the inside of your cheek, looking around the car. you opened the glove compartment and a perfume bottle rolled out of there. it was yours.

you opened it and smelled it. “i was lookin for this.” you mumbled, looking at ony.

“keep it in there.” he glanced at you.

“it’s mine.”

“that’s the only thing in this car you still got, bruh. lemme keep it.” he mumbled, nudging your cheek. you smacked your lips and put it back.

“you better be glad i’m not as mad as i was.”

[funstyle]

comprehensive rock music genre guide by me (expert)

indie: meant "independent label" at some point but now it means "bisexual"

goth: bit scary. dracula or bats reference. makeup. sometimes theres a guy with no shirt on just tights

industrial: more scary. replace dracula with charles manson sample. replace bats with bdsm. tights guy no longer wearing tights

power electronics: most scary. this is what electrical engineers listen to

krautrock: freakin it germanstyle

punk: music go fast

hardcore: wat if.... music go faster

post-hardcore: AHH SHITTT it all sounds the same now so we had to make it weirder and gayer

emo / emocore: see above but more Emotional. swear to god. "isnt that kinda stupid given that hardcore is already emotional" well yes!

"midwest emo": see above but like 10 years later. this does NOT refer to a shitty band called something like softball mom from 2013 that stopped making music cus they couldnt stop dming highschoolers

2000's emo / emo pop: lets not get into it. got too mad thinking about softball mom and i dont wanna take it out on mcr

emo revival: thats softball mom

post-punk: punk but they dressed nicer

noise: i dont need to explain this like it's pretty straightforward. rreeeowowwwwwwwww

shoegaze: speaking of ☝️ theres to much fuckig guitar pedal on me. i dont even wanna be around anymore

grunge: throw out after first batch. yo everyone wants to talk about nirvana but may i remind you the melvins were on uncle grandpa

post-grunge: shit from a butt

riot grrrl: this was a specific movement but now it just means when theres a girl yelling in the song ☹️

no-wave: im talking about sonic youth or swans trying to sound cool

post-rock: im talking about slint or swans trying to sound cool

slowcore: omggggg who tf caresssss. sorry thats mean

lo-fi: wrapped in the warm embrace of cassette tapery or recorded off a nintendo ds. "isnt that kinda stupid given that home recording isnt a genre" well can you just give me a minute.

"lo-fi": Ok so somethinf went wrong. this is just muzak with a fake tape crackle on it. If u cant tell the difference daniel johnston is harder to study and chill out to

prog/math: yooo they made rocking out for nerds ahaha🫵😝

ebm: thats the company that makes your dads laptop [someone comes over n whispers in my ear] my bad. this is freakin it eurostyle

dark ambient: lmfao

[chrissturnsw1fe]

Game over

Chris Sturniolo

A/n: in love with this one (comment any suggestions🫣)

Summary: Chris gets game over and seeing him so worked up over a game has you wanting him badly

Warnings: smut , smutttttt , spanking

You had been round your boyfriends house for around 3 hours and he’s not payed any attention to you , he’s sat there on his game playing Fortnite with Nick and Matt. You just wanted his attention. You craved it.

You watched the way his fingers moved on the controller and felt you thighs clench together , the more you watch him rage at his screen the more sexually frustrated you got. Gosh couldn’t he rage at me like that while he pounds the shit out of me.

You was starting to get really bored of watching him and the aching between your legs got worse you wanted Chris you needed him. You came up with an idea , you slowly walk over to him and sit on his lap slowly and mute his mic.

“You haven’t payed any attention to me for the past 3 hours Chris i want you”. You gave him a desperate look.

You didn’t even realise that you was grinding on him as you let out a soft hum.

“Gosh y/n your needy huh you can sit on my lap while I finish this game and I’ll deal with you but you need to be quite can you do that f’me”

I let out a hum as I grind on him Chris umutes his mic , I feel Chris’ hard on start to form underneath me.

I slowly get off his lap and get onto my knees level with his crotch , I place my hand on the waistband of his sweats and slowly reveal his cock as it slaps his tank top , he hisses as I tease him by slowly going up and down on his shaft with my hands and kitty lick his tip , I hear him let out a soft groan as I take him whole in my mouth

“Shittt”

“What’s up dude your playing like a shit get it together man” I hear Matt voice through the mic I smirk and I pick up my pace.

“Nothin man I just don’t feel good” Chris lies through his teeth.

I feel his dick start to twitch in my mouth knowing he’s close so I pull away and stand up teasing him knowing it will get him off his game.

As the game comes to an end they came in 2nd place with Chris dying about 4 times he tells his brothers he’s not feeling well and he comes off. He turns around and faces me.

“You think your so slick huh get over here and drop to your knees slut” Chris glares into my eyes as I walk over and drop to my knees “open your mouth behave think you can do what you want huh well guess what bitch your thought wrong”

I open my mouth and feel him slam into my throat causing me to gag as he grabs my hair and face fucks me “oh shitt y/n you work your mouth so good on me I’m gonna c-“

Chris’ words was cut on by his dick twitching once again in my mouth as I feel his warm release on my tounge. He pulls out of my mouth “strip and get your ass on the bed now”

I strip and get on the bed and put my ass up as I feel Chris slam his cock into me “OH SHITT” I scream Chris shoves a hand over my mouth and pounds into me “you trying to make Matt and Nick hear how good I fill you up huh” i feel a sharp sting on my right ass cheek and soft hands rubbing it to soothe it , I mumble against Chris’ hand trying to tell him in close.

“Close already damn you are desperate you wanna cum so bad beg for it whore”

Chris removed his hand from my mouth I whimpered “please Chris need it bad so so bad I’m begging you”

“Let go for me mamas”

I shove my head into the pillow and scream as I release all over him , Chris pounds me faster chasing his high until he paints my wall white. As he slowly pulls out he says “I’m gonna get a towel let’s get you cleaned up yeah” I nod as he walks out the room until his phone goes off and I check it. I shout Chris in the room as I see a message from Matt

“You don’t feel good yeah okay shove a pillow down the side of your bed next time 😂”

[divinelolita]

i wanna laugh and i wanna laugh rn😪

its been so long(literally a few days) since i sent smthhh

ill boost u bae dw

AHEM

mk so the whole band(um seperate fic duh) with a bf who be freakishly nice n shit(i feel like ivd sent this bf dont expose me if i did) like if a band member accidentally hit him in the face he would say sorry and say some dumb shit like "im so sorry i shouldn't have been in the way of your elbow. " like what💀💀

or if someone was trying to confess or smth he'd be like "i really don't want to hurt you but no." maybe even as a band memeber is right next to them

and arguments with this mf is probably hell like if it was a band members fault he would accidentally make them think it wasn't and it was his(sometimes its on purpose but they figure it out later) OFC these r examples use what u want🧍🏾

BAHSBDKDBDO I CANFT STOP LAUGHING ON THE FIRST ONE

THE BAND X EXTREMELY NICE READER

teehee i have an essay to write but ummmmm that doesn't matter rn 😇 uhh also if it's bad sorry idk what's going on with me

BILL:

・He's so confused how you can be nice all the time

・He really does try to be nice but he just snaps sometimes omg 💀

・He wonders when your breaking point is

・Like if he turns around carrying something and wacks your fucking face he's so confused why you're not YELLING at him

"Yeah and then- *WHACK* -OH SHIT M/N I'M SO SORRY ARE YOU OKAY?! -"

"No, no Bill I'm fine! It didn't hurt that much."

"..what."

・He just stares at you with his jaw dropped low, slowly nodding to himself

・Or like if he knocks something over and you apologize for it

(I've done that so many times...)

・Reassures you it's not your problem 🤞

TOM:

・nahh you got him FUCKED UP bae.

・He doesn't understand how you can be so nice, I feel like he's a brutally honest mf 💀

・If your in public and somebody is being rude to you and you're just kinda standing there, still staying calm???

・He's just looking at your features trying to find ONE small piece of anger or frustration

・I feel like y'all are couple opposites.

・Like he'd obviously have a soft spot for you 🤗 but he doesn't see the reason to be nice to others when he knows it's not his fault

・Arguments with him oh my god...

・If you keep apologizing and saying it's your fault he eventually sits next to you to comfort you, assuring you everything's okay.

"It's not your fault, M/N. I promise.."

・You'd somehow warm him up a bit, he barley notices himself becoming more kind and carefree.

GEORG:

・was his color green or blue omg i can't remember

・He's...so confused.

・Like if he accidentally smacks you with his elbow and you aren't crying or cursing

"M/N? M/N ARE YOU-"

"I'm okay! It just stung for a second haha..!"

"..."

"..."

・He gets you but he doesn't.

・He just can't see himself being so giddy and happy and nice.

・Anger turns into confusion in arguments, why are you so mad at yourself?

・Loves you so fucking much though, always reminding you that you are amazing and didn't do anything wrong.

GUSTAV

・AHHHH HE GETS YOU!!!!!

・He understands you so much oh my god, he just loves you even more now.

・He'd also try to keep you from blaming yourself.

・Like if he knocks something over and you apologize.

"Oh shit I'm sorry I should have moved it-"

"No honey you're fine, I should've looked where I was going.."

・MWA MWA HE LOVES YOU

・Very slightly confused on how you never snap, how you always keep calm

・He wishes he could be like you bae 💔💔

・In arguments he just tries to calm himself and you down, actually sitting down and talking about how you both feel

OH SHITTT I NEED TO DO THAT ESSAY

[l0v3morales]

𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗕𝗲𝗹𝗼𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗠𝗲

❁𝗦𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘆: 𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗠𝗶𝗹𝗲𝘀 𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗹 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗻𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁, 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝘀.

❁𝗣𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: 𝗘𝟰𝟮 𝗠𝗶𝗹𝗲𝘀 𝗠. 𝘅 𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿.

❁𝗜𝗻𝘀𝗽𝗶𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT88bTehR/

You've had a terrible day today so, you decide to call your best friend Miles. You had a small crush on Miles, you'd never tell him that though. You didn't think he could ever even like you back, so you just decided you'd never tell him. Luckily, Miles picks up the phone after 2 rings.

"Miles?"

"Hey ma, what's up?"

"I really just need to get out the house, wanna go for a drive?"

"Be there in five."

He picks you up, and you guys talk and drive around for the longest time. Already, you feel so much better.

"Shittt, I gotta get more gas."

"Oh, no problem."

You guys stop at the gas station, he rolls down the window while he gets gas and leans on the window cell to talk to you.

"Ma, how bout after this we-"

He's cutoff by 𝘴��𝘮𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭 approaching him, "Hi! I love your car!"

"Oh, thanks."

"Your braids also look really nice. Oh! I loveee your shoes, I have a similar pair back at home."

"Yeah, that's cool." Feeling jealous, you lift your hand up and just start playing with his fingers to see what he would do. Miles notices this, and looks down and smirks at you 𝘣𝘶𝘵 he keeps talking to the girl.

"Sooo, how about we have a date sometime?" Now, you squeeze his hand and he squeezes it back.

"Na, I gotta go. My girl's in the car." What did he just say? 𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭? You feel your heart flutter at his words, but you just play it off.

Miles just get's back in the car and says, "So, we gonna talk about that?"

"Talk about what? The woman that clearly wanted in your pants? There's nothing to talk about."

"Oh na, there's clearly something to talk about." He reaches over and grabs your hand and holds it in his lap. You try to move your hand away, but he just squeezes it harder.

"I don't know. There's nothing to talk about. Just take me home."

"Aight, whatever you say." He just drives you home, but the whole car ride there's just complete silence. Once you finally arrive home, you quickly unbuckle your seatbelt and bolt to your house. Unfortunately for you, he's on your tail and he's running after you. Your about to shut the door, but he gets inside before you can shut it.

"We're gonna talk about it." He demands

"There is nothing to talk about! I knew she was annoying you, so I was just trying to play it off."

"Uh uh, that didn't happen. You're gonna tell me the truth."

"What truth is there to tell?!"

"You were jealous."

"What? No I wasn't!"

"Wrong answer. You didn't want me going out with her."

"I.. no, you can do whatever you want."

"Mmm hm, wrong answer." He starts to cage you in up against the wall, "I'm gonna ask you one more time, 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘫𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘴?"

"Oh please, if roles were reversed you would have been fine, it's whatever."

"Na, I wouldn't have been."

"𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵?"

"Every guy that touches you, talks to you, hell even looks at you ma, I try not to loose my shit. So na, I wouldn't have been fine, I woulda been jealous. I also would've been able to tell you that."

"𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵??"

"Please, don't act like you don't know. So, 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘫𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘴?"

"Yeah.." You say barley under a mumble, lowering your head in embarrassment. Miles takes a step back from you. 𝘚𝘩𝘪𝘵. 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵, 𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘫𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦.

"Finally, right answer."

Before you can even respond, he leans in and kisses you. Cupping your face with one hand, while the other slithers around your waist pulling you closer.

[kolour-me-kourt]

Chapter Eight: Loose End

"Hey I'm not even trying to be funny I am happy for you and you didn't owe me anything but I thought you wasn't ready for a relationship? Now you're out with Jayson Tatum? That's wild to me like I said you don't owe me anything but you didn't have to lie I'm a cool ass nigga"

Lorenzo's message sent shivers down her spine the only thing that she hadn't thought about in this world wind romance with Jayson.... Was Lorenzo. She decided to text him asking him to come over so they could talk and he'll be here in five minutes. She contemplated telling him everything because Lorenzo seemed like he could handle it.

But she didn't want to tell him and then he tell the world about Lamelo or she didn't wanna tell him and he really see how fucked up she was. Cause she's done some fucked up shit to him and those could be memories she messes up forever just by telling the truth. Meeting one of your favorite basketball players.... But the girl you're pursing is fucking him..... going out to dinner with him and his girlfriend and your potential boo is arguing with him in the bathroom several things could go wrong. She heard her doorbell go off so she invited him in.

"Heyy" "hey ma how you been?" He hugged her tight "we're gonna get into that... you wanna sit down?" she could tell Lorenzo had revenge on his mind he smelled of expensive cologne he had on a nice outfit and a fresh ass haircut with his beard trimmed but still looking .... Edible.

"Yeah In the living room?" "Mhm... you want a water or anything?" "Yeah a bottle will be nice" "okay go get comfortable I'll grab you one" "thank you" she grabbed him a water bottle and then hands it to him sitting down right beside him with her leg in the chair. "Um how have you been first" "I'm good you know working staying busy" "oh that's really good" "yeah but we here to talk about you" they share a laugh

"Sooo thank you for coming I hope you really hear me out" "look I was out of it when I sent that message I saw the pictures everywhere and was just confused and hurt all at the same time so you don't have to apologize" she placed her hand on his chest "I do though the whole thing was fucked up Lorenz and I mean that so from the bottom of my heart I am sorry but no I didn't lie to you everything I said was truthful I can't get into details but yeah I was seeing someone when Trin hooked us up and the second date was genuine I did wanna try and date you cause you seemed so good but I just didn't feel right completely and you didn't either cause you saw the truth I was dealing with someone else who had my mind so when you broke it off I was relieved but all this shit that just happened I didn't expect it at all so I was glad you texted so I can tell you I'm sorry"

She found herself teary eyed he stands up opening and closing his hand signaling for her to stand up "give me a hug" she smiled standing up hugging him "I accept your apology we can even be friends.... If you want to um it's no bad blood" "you promise?" "Yeahhh I was dating too when I met you but I did like you Fr but like I said I wasn't mad you was seeing somebody Im mad cause I thought you were lying" "oh okay then yeah ... we're friends" he laughed

"alright Um thanks for clearing everything up I hope you're relationship is your last one and it's happy" "same for you You're a good man and somebody will appreciate that" "shittt she better or I'll start hoeing" he joked but she could tell he was low key serious. "Nah don't do that she might be right around the corner" "hopefully ... but let me get out of here thanks for reaching out" "yeah thanks for coming" she walked him to the door hugging him again and then he left" she shut and locked her door exhaling.

She had only been home for three minutes before he texted her she needed to do laundry and unpack get herself together cause she had work in the morning. She finally got her laundry in the washing machine and took a shower she checks her phone and she missed a call from Jayson.

She calls him back and he answered pretty soon. "Hey were you sleep?" "No in the shower" "oh okay" she laughed "you asking for a reason?" "I just miss you my mom has deuce for a few hours .... I just wish we were closer to each other" "yeah I really had to work tomorrow from the office" "no I get you completely... I was just saying I miss you" "I miss you too" "what you been doing?" "just cleaning all my stuff from being out there and getting ready for work tomorrow so it can be a good day ... you know?"

"Yes I definitely know it'll be a great day I know a lot has changed and little blogs have been posting you ... I didn't even think they would do that or I would've taken you somewhere else for our first date" "I loved our first date I wouldn't change it for the world" he smiles again "I loved it too .... You in that pink dress .... Damn" she laughed "baby pleaseeee" "I

Just saying we had all that fun I even beat yo ass in bowling" "first of all you only one but that one strike" "One strike you didn't have but anyway you had me already but if you didn't that pink dress would've did it"

"ughhh I can't wait to see you again I've only been gone for a few hours" "I know crazy how that happened huh?" "You gotta come see me next time" "you gon show me around your city?" "Of courseee" "yeah show me where all your ex Niggas stay so I know where the opps at" they shared a laugh she rolled her yes "okay baby clearly your sleepy" "yeah I am but I wanna to talk to you so here I am until Deuce get back" "Deuce has a better social life than me out partying on a Thursday" "speaking of that you told your friends or anything yet?" She sighed

"no I definitely wanted too before the blogs picked up Fr but ... idk you know they're calling me the mystery woman" "yeah I saw that ... it's interesting" "that's one word to call it" "well you can tell them..... we not a secret remember?" "Yes and I will tell them I just don't know if that's a text message" "did they know about Melo?" "Only people who knew about Melo is me him and you well Asia knew too" "what made you trust me?" "You're my man and you've shown that you wouldn't do that so..." "you right bae you get the real me at all times" "mmm so when am I gonna see you?"

"I don't know I gotta work all this shit out I have a couple meetings and Deuces schedule you know ... but I'll figure it all out and then be straight to you... I promise" "that's so sweet Bae" "I know I'm the man" "what's your plans for tomorrow?" "Getting a hair cut and practice " "mmm you gonna cut your curls?" "Yeah maybe I haven't decided Fr.... what? you like me better with them?" What's your famous quote? You top five regardless so it doesn't matter" she smiled "I better be your top one no other Niggas before" "yes sir of course not" she laughed

"What's your plans for tomorrow?" "Find a bookcase and some books" "easy to build?" "Yes definitely something I can just slide this in this and boom I have a book case" he laughed "what books do you like?" "Well I kinda wanna fill it up with books I already read and then like series so all the Harry Potter books all of twilight shit maybe even goosebumps stuff like that it's my nostalgic book case" "oh okay I got you that'll be fun"

"yeah If I don't do it right after work tomorrow then I'll probably just wait until Saturday morning when I have more time" "I think you should wait Bae you don't wanna rush your purchases" "you know what you right" "I know I am"

she heard his front door open "well okay Bae  goodnight I'll talk to you tomorrow" "goodnight text me when you get up" "okay I will" she hears Deuce calling for him "byee" "bye YN" she hangs up

*the next day after work*

She calls her closest friends Asia Trin and Maya In a group face time.

"What y'all up to? Y'all wanna come over here?" "You inviting us to your house what you do? Is it a body we need to cover up? Hold up don't answer that on the phone" maya began rambling YN laughed "shutup girl" trin says laughing harder "no I just wanted to tell y'all something but like it can be over the phone too I guess "alright yeah just tell us" "I'm have a boyfriend ...." "Oh shit?" "Yeah Um Jayson Tatum NBA player plays for Celtics"

"the one with all the tattoos?" "Wait the one with the kid?" "Yesss that's him" "well we're happy for you but he is a nba player take it slow" "yeah he's really good though like he's not like the other ones I really feel like he's different and wouldn't treat me wrong.... But yeah that's all I wanted to tell y'all" "welllllll like she said we happy for you have fun you deserve this"

The conversation goes on taking many turns talking about a lot of different things when YN hears her doorbell. "Oh shit who at my door?" "Go see take the phone" YN walks to the door and sees a package "oh nobody it's just a package" "you were expecting one?" "Not at all" she opens her door and it's a long big box and a few more boxes "yall it's like five boxes out here" "oh shit call us later then get your stuff in" "okay byeee love y'all" YN hangs up pushing the largest box in first and then going to pick up the smaller boxes but they were heavy too. While she was outside she though she might as well check her mail too. She found a hand written note from Jayson making her smile

Since you're all about nostalgia I found every series you said and through some funny ones in there and I got you a book case bae... enjoy it

He listens to her it's really the little things likeeee a five second conversation turned into him getting her what she wanted. She calls him immediately smiling ear to ear. "You got my book case and some books... thank you baby" "uh huh it was nothing I started looking for the stuff while you were talking I hope you enjoy it baby" "I definitely will" "okay Bae I'm going into practice but I'll call you when I'm back home" "okay byeee Jay" "bye Bae"

She loved it here everything was coming together finally. Lamelo was out of her life sexually meaning she didn't have to deal with all of that nonsense. Lorenzo wasn't mad at her. She had a new boyfriend who was great and her friends knew about him everything was great. Are her loose ends were tied up

[nmakii]

note after venting all of this: i think this is vox after alastor left for 7 years

AND THEN SHES SO OBVIOUS WHEN SHES TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME WE HAD A GROUPCHAT FOR OUR ASSIGNMENT AND THEN SHE WAS YAPPIN CAN YOU FIX YOUR PART I ALREADY SENT YOU WHAT TO EDIT WHEN I ALRDY DID IT

AND THEN I ASKED HER TO MOVE ASIDE CAUSE SHE WAS BLOCKING THE WAY AND I WAS TRYING TO GET TO MY FRIEND AND SHE WAS LIKE YEAH SORRY THEN SHE SAW IT WAS ME AND WENT TO HER FRIEND AND SAID ‘OH SHITTT 🤣🤣🤣🤣’

AND IN PREVIOUSLY MENTIONED GROUPWORK WE HAD TO RATE OUR GROUPMATES THEN SHE TAPPED THE GIRL BEHIND ME AND SAID IM BEING NICE AND I KNOW SOOOO WELL THAT SHES REFERRING TO ME CAUSE I DIDNT WANNA TALK IN THE GC AFTER SHE GOT PISSED AT ME

I TRIED TO ASK IF SHE WAS OKAY THE SECOND SHE RETURNED FROM THE BATHROOM AND SHE PUSHED ME. SHE PUSHED ME. THEN I WROTE A HANDWRITTEN APOLOGY TO HER AND SHES STILL MAD. SHE CRIED FOR TWENTY MINUTES. I CRIED THE ENTIRE LUNCH PERIOD AND THEN THREE DAYS AFTER, IT HURT ME MORE THAN IT HURT YOU CAUSE YOURE PUSHING OUR FRIENDSHIP ASIDE FOR SUCH A FUCKING PETTY REASON

SHE HAD LIKE HALF THE CLASS CROWDING HER AND ASKING IF SHE WAS OKAY, DID ANYONE ASK ME??? LIKE 6 PEOPLE. AND THEN ALL MY FRIENDS IN THE FRIENDGROUP WERE INSISTING YOU SHOULD APOLOGIZE AGAIN!!! LIKE FUCK YOU I ALREADY DID WHY SHOULD I BEG FOR FORGIVENESS AND GROVEL AT HER FEET WHEN SHE GOT ALL PISSY AND DID THE EXACT SAME THING BACK AT ME.

AND THEN SHE GOT ALL OF OUR FRIENDS ON HER SIDE WHEN NOT 20 MINUTES BEFORE THEY WERE LITERALLY TELLING ME THAT I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG AND SHE’LL FORGIVE ME

I ASKED EVERYONE SO MANY TIMES IF IM JUST STUPID CAUSE I CANT SEE WHAT I DID SO WRONG LIKE AM I JUST EMOTIONLESS OR ARE YOU SHALLOW?

[alemonyoyo]

I literally can't fucking write EUHG WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!

I don't wanna give you guys a shit chapter cause it's been a hot minute but it seems like the only thing im writing is SHITTT

[missmiserysmysteries]

like yesss some jealousy is necessary and for me to feel like i’m wanted/ craved but DAMNNN every fucking interaction i have with someone is not a reason to think i’m abt to go hop on their dick like i am TIRED! of feeling like i’m doing something wrong when shittt i know it’s not me i know i’m just literally asking this service worker their opinion on if the noodles or rice is better… NOT IF THEY WANNA FUCK LIKE DAMN

[f4irycafe]

I just looked at your masterlist and saw acotar, so I was wondering which court would you wanna be lady/high lady of and why?

this was the wrong question to ask me anon cause i could write an entire dissertation on this and y’all are abt to read it hehe hehe. please request more stuff like this i love this ask omg. i could talk abt this series for ages.

MY TOP 3 COURTS ARE UNDERNEATH THE CUT!

1. spring court

lol bet u didn’t think that would be on there. but high lord aside, spring and autumn have always been my two favorite seasons. i loved them because they were “transitions” not too cold like the winter, and not deathly hot like summer. watching flowers bloom, seeing all the animals come back out of hiding, watching my city like come alive again, everything about spring has always just has such sweet memories for me.

now if we wanna talk about tamlin i like the guy, or atleast i love the fanon version of him i’ve created in my head. whenever i imagine settling down with tamlin it’s always a couple decades after what happened in acomaf. boy has healed, and his court is flourishing, he has friends, newfound family, he’s thriving okay. i also feel like our personalities would go great together, he can be a little shit sometimes and i appreciate that cause i’m a little shit, always. for some reason i also feel like the people of spring have a very rich and deep culture, and i would love to know more about it.

i want to live and spring and dance thru the flowers at night with the fairies and then get drunk with my husband on top of a hill that overlooks out court and i feel like tamlin could 100% give that to me <3

2. summer

my second favorite seasonnnn + tarquin in the best high lord. politically and economically, tarquin checks ALL of my boxes. working towards democracy? love it. wants to ABOLISH THE CLASS SYSTEM? HELLOOOOOO that's husband material right there. i feel like he's the most genuine and caring out of all the high lords, and that really shows in how he rules his court. plus he is absolutely gorgeous...and black. so yes, he is quite possibly everything you could ask for in a husband.

i was born in the beginning of summer so i also probably have a personal connection to wanting to rule over summer w tarquin. i've always loved the beauty of the sea, and admired people who go out there every day for fishing and exploration and manage to come back alive. but i flourish in the summer. always happy, always outside doing something, even if its just reading on the front porch all day or doing stupid little sidewalk drawings with my friends. i do feel like tarquin would be a little bit too kind hearted to handle my sass, and that's where my third and most controversial option is.

overall, summer will always hold such a sweet place in my heart.

3. autumn dun dun unnnnnn

hehe i love eris. have always loved eris, will always love eris and there is next to nothing you could say to me to make me believe he is a bad person. he just. wow. everything about him is wow. this is def more a person based preference rather than a court/seasonal one. an eternal autumb doesn't sound AMAZINg, but where i'm from irl we never really get the whole red leaves thing in the fall, so i feel like it would be amazing to experience that in autumn. i def love the big meanie on the outside but soft for me trope. like i said in tamlins, i can be a little shit. like SHITTT sometimes. and i feel like eris matches my personality even more than tamlins. we both put on masks while were around other people, and while mine is a lot more enthusiastic, kind, and extroverted than eris' it would be nice to have someone to take it off around.

i feel like afte eris settles into being high lord he chooses very carefully who he wants close to him. he makes sure they all have good values and care about the people they were tasked to rule over. he creates a family of brothers for himself because his real one is so shitty. i feel like all the people he appoints would be strangers at first, but grow to have a bond thicker than blood. eris would be a great high lord and would want to protect his people more than anything, ALL of his people, not just ones who live in a stupid little secret city (cough cough rhysand).

my love. i feel like he would be the best husband. humor me, love me, do stupid devious shit with me. it would be really fun.

elles ramblings: LOl if you managed to read through that whole thing thank u i really appreciate it. and please please pLEASE don't be afraid to ask me other questions like this :)

[undertheknightwing]

HOO BOY TONIGHTS EPISODE I GOT A LOT OF FEELINGS but I'll make it quick: -I fucking LOVE the backwards music that plays when Bizarro is on screen and his fights with Clark are always just SO GOOD.

-TAG MY BELOVED ❤️❤️ kind of surprised and disappointed Jon didn't go to see him. I liked their friendship in s1.

-did the d.o.d crate being in the x-k mines imply that the government is making the x-k drugs because if it did, I knew Anderson had something to do with it.. It's a little suspicious that the drug is getting to the teens in Smallville as Anderson started his team of metakids.

-speaking of the government can Sam just stop coming around, every time he does something goes wrong. Jon was doing fine until Sam showed up and made him feel like he was the useless 'water boy' because he's not special like Jordan.

-and on the topic of Jon, I completely understand his anger and frustration this episode especially after Sam's actions and he has a right to be upset, he's just taking it out on the wrong person. As a person who grew up with grandparents who favored my sibling while I was treated like the 'other' one I felt connected to Jon on a personal level tonight. I know what it's like to be upset and feel unimportant compared to your sibling. You get mad at your sibling because you feel like they're the reason you dislike yourself when it's not. I mean, sometimes they are but Jordan didn't act like he was better than Jon, Jon only took it out on him because the people around him are comparing him to Jordan, making him feel unimportant and useless because he's not like Jordan, so the anger being created by other people is making him upset with Jordan since Jordan is constantly being brought up when they're comparing and criticizing Jon.

and him saying "I'm better than you." hit like a baseball bat. You don't really think like you're better but you're confused and frustrated because you do everything. You're the family support, you do the chores, you take care of everything, you're the solider who does everything you're told yet it's never enough and you feel like you're not enough. Your sibling gets praised and all the attention for just being the 'special' kid while you sit in the background, feeling like you should be better than your sibling because of everything you do and everything they don't.

-so we're doing the 'my world is (being) destroyed and yours will be too unless we kill the enemy' plot again?? okay. Thankfully Ally feels like a real villain, Edge was just annoying. Though I kind of wish Anderson had a more villain role.. I know a lot of people hate him but I find him interesting and wanna see more done with him story wise.

-and the best for last, where I screamed.. Jon yelling "I'm not lying" with THE HEAT VISION?? SCREAMING YALL I WAS SCREAMING. It was fantastic! I've been waiting to see Jon with heat vision AAAAAHHHHHH I'VE ALREADY REWATCHED IT LIKE FIVE TIMES. SOMEONE GET THIS KID REAL POWERS ASAP BECAUSE I WANT MORE. I'M SO READY TO SEE SUPERBOY HOLY SHITTT

[heretherebedork]

Am I the only one getting really annoyed at Porsche's whole behaviour?? Like he started off as a goofy, bumbling, sweet, but sarcastic, and bratty person, but now I'm just getting irritated at his trust issues, his seeming antipathy to all matters except making love to Kinn but still never, ever talking to him about his problems and always being suspicious without ever giving Kinn a chance to explain. And similarly Kinn is like only ever thinking about sex without telling Porsche anything!

And Porsche is really such a shittt friend, no matter what justification anyone gives. Literally during the funeral I wanted to smack both Kinn and Porsche's head together over them eye rolling at a visibly distressed Tankhun. It's like Kinn doesn't even care he hasn't heard back from his most "trusted" bodyguard in days when he knows all the previous bodyguards he has send to the Minor family never returned and similarly even Porsche is like "I don't care, and he is fine" when Pete went on almost a suicide mission for Porsche!!! Like talk about being ungrateful.

And I don't even wanna get started on how he sold out Pete to Vegas. It still boils my blood. And I don't know what the script writers were thinking making their main couple characters essentially so selfish.

[ even towards Chay, Porsche feeling have palpable moved from deep love to just love, at least that's what I feel.]

Anyways I just wanted to rant about how disconnected I feel from Kinn and Porsche since ep8.

Hey, I've felt disconnected since the side story so... welcome to the party, yo.

I'm frustrated by both of them because the honest answer is that the show has made Kinn perfect and unable to make a real mistake, it's always someone else' fault and probably Porsche's fault, tbh and then we're supposed to laugh at Porsche and sympathize with Kinn but boy do I not care.

Neither of these character are the people we met at the start of the show and not in a natural growth or a well-fucked up kind of way but in a flanderization kind of way and it's frustrating. They made Porsche the butt of every joke and gave him all the issues while they made Kinn the perfect loving boyfriend who will Always Choose Porsche unless it's the wrong choice or if he needs to not choose him to protect him.

Weren't we told again and again and again and again that Kinn had trust issues? That Porsche dreamt of a quiet life? That Porsche put his brother above everyone and everything else? Now, how long has it been since we were shown any of that? A long time.

You know, I actually like that they made Porsche at least a little selfish because at least it's a character flaw that isn't being played for laughs. It's something at least, compared to what the rest of the show keeps doing with him. I want flawed and serious characters.

Kinn's only character at this point is horny on main for Porsche and that's.... it. All I can think about is how he surprised him with a visit to his parent's grave (what!?!!) and then went listing all of the things Porsche ever did wrong and then just vaguely mentioned that he 'made him sad' once or twice like, fucker, really? But, nope, it was cute and silly and Porsche is just funny to be maybe a bit bothered by that and can't be bothered for long! Because Kinn can never do anything wrong ever.

Porsche's emotions are treated as a joke and Kinn can't make a mistake or face consequences and that just doesn't make for a convincing or interesting couple to me.

Also yeah that funeral scene pissed me off so fucking much and I will never forgive either of them for not giving a shit about Pete who still feels such loyalty to them and deserves so much better.

[jackassbroadcast]

Hello im a Tommy enthusiast who watched that one stream where he monologued to foolish for like hafe an hour bc i heard it was a cool stream or wtv to realize how much amazing character moments it had that barly anyone in this damn fandom is talking about so ill fucking do it

(Only after finishing this i realized i wrote 1.7k words LOL OOPS)

If u dont know what in talking about its this stream (apologies for linking a clips channel the actual vod on foolish's channel is deleted by now)

Also heads up /rp /dsmp every time i refer to someone here by name is their character unless stated otherwise bc writing c! Before every name Is tiring LOL

Also // suicidal idealization , death mentions

The conversation starts off with foolish and tommy mining for Wilbur, and foolish questions how simply mining will solve the problem to which Tommy reponds with "they dont get solved, do they? It just ends uo with some madman screaming 'Hes solved it!' And now look at him." And how he wants to "prevent the problem before it goes outta hand" something that clearly references Wilbur and his destruction of lmanburg, which paired with him collecting stone for Wilbur as the way to stop said problems he believes if he does anything he can for Wilbur and support him by his side enough this time around, that he wont do anything like thay again, which as im writing this makes be realize by doing that we learn hes blaming himself for what happened to Wilbur in November 16th and pogtopia and a whole, by not being enough for Wilbur in his mind.

The conversation continues, foolish off hand asks why would tommy want to stop Wilbur? Weren't they friends at some point? To which tommy leads foolish to lmanburg and tells him the story of the nation (how it was him and Wilbur's nation, how they made it to espace dream's iron fist and how they held an election "which puts your life on the line, which is good- if you're confident but- perhaps we were too confident", how they lost)

Tommy: "You know the phrase: 'treat other how you wanna be treated', foolish? People dont ever listen to it. Wilbur- he decided he wanted to be treated poorly so he treated everyone around him poorly "

This Tommy quote, to me at least, so so amazingly strong in conveying how understanding he is? To the world around him. Like-

I have not seen one person bring this quote up, and yet its (at least to me) shows such growth and understanding in Tommy i saw little to nothing like it in other streams. It shows he understands, he knew Wilbur didnt change just because, he knows he was struggling, that he thought everyone around him were againt him, were going to abandon him the first chance theyll get- and he thought he deserved it. So he, as a last way to defend himself against that, hurt them first, abandoned them first, so theyll see how much of a 'bad' person he was and take him out- and tommy saw right through that, possibly understanding it more after exile.

This next qoute was talked about much more but i still wanna bring it up

Foolish: "Do you believe in second chances?"

Tommy: "Oh, no I don't really believe that its not really a thing for me foolish its just that-" *sigh* "- i believe everyone has a little bit of good in then and this is not about giving him a second chance or a third chance- its not about *chances* foolish. Its about not giving up on the poeple you care about. "

Which. I mean. I dont know how healthy that mindset is, but comign from Tommy it makes so much sense.

Techno, tubbo, eret, sapnap. These are all people Tommy used to be extremely close to, had either a war or had been betrayed by them, and yet still found it in his heart that he still cares for them, with all of these, they did horrendous things, that hurt tommy physically and mentally, while also not being once or twice, but a contentious thing, but while tommy is to this day still effected by their actions he still found it in himself to forgive, because he knows he fucked up too, a lot, and he knoes they learned from their mistakes just as he had (except c!techno FUCKKK c!techno mf doesnt learn SHITTT) and he knows, when the time comes he knows hed want the people he hurt to forgive him too. (And he wants Wilbur to do the same)

Next qoute i will cut to a couple parts because its really so good and full of character i had to bro

Foolish: "Do you consider yourself to be the good guy or the bad guy?"

Tommy: "It really depends who you ask, isn't it? Yknow? If you asked dream he'd say im *his little toy that he plays with* you know? It doesnt.."

This part really stunned me when i first heard it because, and correct me If im wrong, but i dont think tommy ever acknowledged how dream sees him, and  how right he has his viewpoint too. Just the fact tommy is so *painfully* aware of how dream doesnt even see him as a person anymore but just a toy to mess around with for a while than just throw it away when it get too boring really hurt me. Someone give this kid a hug

(Continued) Tommy: "...foolish, honestly? I used to consider myself 'the good guy', you know? The fuckin'- second in command! But these past- these past like six months or so, foolish, everything got so much harder than it was before. Because before it was just us vs bad guys, it was all so clear! But- its not been 'clear' for so long, right? It wasn't; 'these are the bad guys! These are the good guys!' Now it's : 'he's doing this and it makes him a bit worse-' i mean, it all got so complicated, so- i don't know. Depends who you ask."

He says this, in response to foolish asking if hes a good guy- but its awfully similar to if Wilbur asked him if they were the bad guys. Because foolish just asked about him, and yet in his answer tommy made sure to keep using the words "us, he's, guys" as if hes not really talking about himself, as if hes explaining how Wilbur was wrong. Which he was. Also something interesting ive noticed, he says "the last 6 months or so", which indicated that with Wilbur he knew better to follow his word and leadership- with Wilbur he was always on the right side but when he lost him he felt much more lost alone, and couldn't trust himself enough to be on the "right side" .

Foolish: "I dont know, it all seems strange because just from, you know- hearing from others and, you know, learing a little bit, its seems like you've been the hero, you've been the villain, the conqueror, the savior, and, even now, i have no idea what you exactly are."

Tommy: "that's up to you to decide, isn't it? Im just- *uh*  i dont know. These days, foolish, I'm a little weaker than i used to be"

Foolish couldn't be more right with what he said, another example of this we see where a character acknowledges tommy never sticks to one thing us Charlie when calling him "tommy fron nowhere" which shows more how he cant stick to one thing, during the course of him on the server he had been friends and enemy with nearly everyone, been on pretty much all sides, and while never really intentionally, being in the center of conflict. When foolish says he doesnt know who tommy is anymroe at this point and all Tommy says in return is that "hes a little weaker than he used to be" does to show he misses who he used to be, with lmanburg, with Wilbur, when he knew who he was, now he doesn't know who he is anymore, but still so desperately want to be more demonstrated by the lines coming rigth after that one:

(Continued) Tommy: "..I'm not- I'm now who i want to be, but-"

Foolish: "Being honest with you, Tommy, that's the same case for me as well."

Tommy: "...heres the thing, foolish, unlike you i dont really have a choice. I have to try and be who i want to be, because if i dont, very bad things are gonna happen in this server. And now that Wilbur's back i can't- quite frankly *no one* can risk that. So i dont really have a choice."

Tommy want's to change- he wants to be better than he is now, to be closer to who he used to be, no matter how impossible that might be, but he also sees it as an immediate thing, he wants to change now, or asap, which is why hes collecting stone for Wilbur in the first place- old him would've done that with ease just because Wilbur asked and he wants to have that back so badly, asap. The way he talked about this reminded me of when he tried getting over his trauma stream before he went in the prison to kill dream: he knew he wasnt the best but he tried getting over that asap to go kill dream asap. He didnt wanna take the long road of years of healing and instead thought he could get over it just like that, and that experience clearly didnt teach him anything because now hes trying to slide back to the relationship he and Wilbur used to have and ignoring the drastic changes they both had plus the bad moments that were the reason they feel out in the first place, or maybe he knows, but at this point, after everything that happened to him and the server, he doesnt care anymore? He knows hes not the same he was and he'll never be the same, because thats not how it works, but his mentor, president, big brother is back after so long tommy felt so lost and alone he thinks maybe, this time around, with Wilbur, he could try and be better again.