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[literallygwenandjinx]

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[falling-star-cygnus]

Actually here's another Billy angst idea just with him being a cyborg/robot, what if he glitches out and is out of commission for days maybe even weeks and then he powers on to see everyone's shocked faces

oml, this has been sitting in my inbox for FAR too long. -> i am so sorry TT^TT

side bar, i was just introduced to the wonderful WiseBilly and BillyBelle agenda, so maybe there will be some of that in the future :D -> not in this fic tho, in case shipping isn't your style

someone legit sent in an ask a few days ago asking me to tag my works with 'fanfiction' so that they could block them all 😀 bc 'they didn't want to block a million different fandom tabs' -> BUT THAT'S LITERALLY WHY I USE A 'KEEP READING' CUT. SO THAT IT'S BITESIZED TO SCROLL PAST 😭 Master List

Something was very

very

wrong.

Currently, it was 8:24 in the morning. Nearly an hour past the time Billy normally woke up. And almost excatly the time he knocked on Nicole's door each day to tell her breakfast was ready.

Nothing had crashed yet.

Or shattered. Or banged. Or 'thudded.' Or 'thwacked.'

No one had started yelling.

It was quiet.

Too quiet.

Nicole stared at the ceiling and ignored the growing worry in her gut. It was probably nothing, she conceded. He had used a lot of power yesterday, so... the android was probably just taking an easy morning. God knows he deserved it after everything that had been going on.

Maybe he had found a movie to share with Anby.

...yeah, right. The boss of the Cunning Hares' bursts into quiet giggles thinking about it. Those two couldn't share that old thing to save their lives. It's why the schedule was made.

Her alarm clock buzzes. 8:30.

He'd come knock any second now.

Annny second.

…

8:31 blips on to the alarm’s face.

8:32.

8:35.

Nicole can feel her limbs growing cold- despite the relatively comforting warmth of her bed- and it cements in her stomach like gum.

8:44.

She was being ridiculous.

8:50.

Just because the android wasn’t knocking didn’t mean anything was wrong. Billy wasn’t required to do so by any means, it was just a habit he had picked up to make sure they all ate.

8:52.

…but he did like his routines.

8:55.

Was he mad at her?

9:00.

Nicole throws herself out of bed decisively and slams open her door.

“Where’s Billy?”

He's not with Nekomata or Anby, from what the boss can tell from her survey of the room. The two smallest members of the Hares' were cuddled together on the couch. Which was frankly- adorable. In any other situation.

But she had an android to find.

"Billy hasn't come out of his room yet," Nekomata answers, looking somewhat weary of Nicole's warpath. Anby pauses next to her.

"Really? He hasn't?"

"E-eh?"

The cat thiren suddenly looks very uncomfortable as the Demara's pin her with twin stares.

"There was a rerun of a Starlight Knights special playing this morning, it's why I came to bother you," Anby continues, ignoring her former cuddle buddy's squawk of indignance as she moves to stand up.

"Wh- what? I thought you said you wanted to bond!"

"I can want two things."

"Anby!"

Nicole leaves them to their squabbling, striding towards the android's room with deliberate steps. It was far too early for this sort of worry, he better be fine in there-

His door isn't fully closed when she pushes on it. He didn't exactly have a 'room' like the other Hares' did- he didn't exactly need one- but it was sort of mutually agreed that the garage was his domain.

Billy wouldn't leave it open like this if he could help it- not when it could mean unwanted visitors got inside.

Maybe she had a valid reason to be worried...

Or maybe not.

The android is still plugged in and leaning against the wheel of their car, not a scratch on him. His eyes are slanted in as closed as they can get, and his signature red jacket is hung neatly off the ground.

He looked fine.

So-

Why wasn't he awake? Why would he miss an airing of his favorite franchise? Why couldn't the boss hear the familiar whirring and clicking he always gave off?

Something wasn't adding up.

Nicole is pressing her ear to his chest before she can even process she's moved.

The metal is cold as it bites into her cheek, and it's silent.

Anby and Nekomata peek through the doorway, for once taking due care to make their presence loud enough that Nicole can hear them approach. Probably for the best, the boss of the Cunning Hares' felt like a fraying thread about to snap.

There was a burn under her chest, nestled into her ribs like a hot coal she'd been forced into swallowing. Billy didn't move.

Calm down, she scolds herself, There's a perfectly reasonable explanation for this. He's not dead.

She hoped he wasn't dead.

Wordlessly- because she didn't trust herself to speak yet- Nicole begins checking his dormant form over. The other two join in with a silent nods towards each other.

Anby carefully tilts his head from side to side to examine his neck.

“Wires are fine here.”

There's no damage to his auditory processors either, or his faceplate, or any of the joints visible to them. And they resolutely refused to take his pants off. It didn't matter if he didn't have anything down there- maybe he did, they wouldn't know- that felt... too invasive.

Unless absolutely necessary, that was a bridge that would remain uncrossed.

"Oh-! There! His charging thingamajig!" Nekomata suddenly exclaims, somehow having weaseled her way behind Billy, "It's all burnt around the edges!"

"Burnt!?" Nicole all but flattens the thiren against the wheel as she takes a look for herself.

Sure enough, the silver metal around the cable was a charred black that flaked off onto her fingers. Hm.

The boss of the Cunning Hares finagles the cord out of the port, and yelps when Anby grabs the back of her shirt to fling her away. Nekomata lands next to her.

"Anby! What the hell-" the boss is cut off when she sees the white... powder? Paste? Thing that bubbles up out of the opening. It smells foul, whatever it is, and clings to her tongue in a way that makes her sick.

"That's battery acid," Anby explains, jaw tight in a way that was usually reserved for boss battles, "Given the burn marks, it's likely his battery fried itself and exploded. We shouldn't touch it barehanded."

Billy's battery had what.

"Exploded."

Oh, Nicole said that out loud.

"What do you mean exploded," she demands, getting up to her feet.

The smaller Demara throws a pair of latex gloves Nicole's way in lieu of answering. Out of all the Cunning Hares, Anby really was the only one who knew shit about batteries. Well- Billy did too, of course, but..

"It happens when they get too overrun with electricity. Considering that Billy used a lot of power yesterday, only to get accidentally tased by Phaethon right after, there's a 98.96% chance that he overloaded his battery by charging it. If we take care of it before it can corrode any of his wiring, we should be able to minimize the overall damage."

That... sort of made sense. Right. They had an objective now.

Nicole can feel her title as the boss settle over her like a second skin, clarity cutting through the haze of morning and worry like a cut from a blade. She knew what they had to do, now to execute it.

"Ok then," Nicole nods once, overcome with a false sense of confidence, "You're the expert, Anby, what do we need to do?"

For a moment, things don't seem so bleak. Everything was going to be fine, and Billy would be back to his rambunctious big-brother ways in no time.

They end up not having the means to replace the battery- or the skillset to open the android up and remove said battery- so...

"We can't take him to Grace," Nekomata insists, something like a shudder rolling it's way through her spine and tails, "She's so- so weird about him."

"Agreed." Anby nods, crossing her arms sagely, "Grace is out of the question. But we need to get this fixed somehow, and Belobog is the only group close enough that has the skillset we need."

Nicole couldn't help but agree. The last time they had interacted with the eccentric mechanic of Belobog Heavy Industries she had practically glued herself to the android's hip! It didn't matter how many times he had edged away- or downright hid behind one of the girls, she just kept coming on to him!

It didn't help that she also referred to Billy as an it at first; even if she took it in stride when the Hares' had corrected her. Swiftly and firmly corrected her. Anby style.

Billy was not an it.

"What about Phaethon," Nekomata pipes up, her tails moving in swishing waves, "they might know someone!"

"That's right!" Nicole snaps her fingers, and ruffles between the thiren's ears for her good work, "Our dear proxy is sure to have some better information."

In the spirit of fairness, she pats Anby's head too. The smaller Demara had been the one to point out the problem with the android's battery, after all.

Nicole looks to the downed member of their team.

And pats his head.

It felt... wrong, somehow, to leave him out when he was like this.

"Don't worry, Billy," the boss whispers, in some vain hope that it'll reach him, "We'll get you fixed up in no time."

.../^\...

Nicole doesn't realize how badly she'd miss this part of her routine until it was gone.

It'd been three weeks since Billy had gotten repaired.

Three weeks of waiting, three weeks devoid of Starlight Knight references, three weeks of radio silence.

By all accounts, it should be peaceful. But.. in the end, she just missed him. For all her scolding, it had never really been an issue to listen to him ramble. And his optimism always stopped anything from feeling too hopeless on a mission.

Anby had stopped doing the little braid in her hair, the same as she did when that scrapper had taken the android for parts, and even Nicole had stopped putting her own hair in it's little half-up half-down pigtails.

She'd had them even before Billy came barreling into her life, of course, but there had been numerous occasions where she simply felt too tired to want to deal with the hassle of taming her bedhead.

Two black strips of cloth sit innocuously on her nightstand.

"We have to meet up with that contractor today, remember Boss?" Billy had said one morning, as he began to brush through pink frizz- starting at the bottom and slowly worked his way up until it was all neat and shiny.

Nicole hadn't even realized what happened until her hair was already tied up with cute bunny ear bandanas and the android was clipping in her usual barrettes.

That was the moment that had won her over, she thinks privately, as she fiddles with an errant strand.

Her clock buzzes for 8:30.

Time for another quiet day...

knock, knock.

....huh?

The boss of the Cunning Hares throws herself out of bed, praying to whatever higher power that would listen that this wasn't some sort of cruel joke.

knock-

She flings the door open, with maybe too much desperation, but she can't really bring herself to care when-

"Oh- morning, Boss!"

"BILLY!"

Metal bites into her cheek as Nicole wraps her arms around his lanky build and squeezes until her arms ache. It hurts for a second and it's real, he's real, and he's warm, and he's loud. There's no stench of acid, or charcoal, just the dim whir and click of machinery under his plating.

"Boss-!?" the android startles, hands hovering uselessly around her back before settling gently on her shoulders, "did you.. have a bad dream?"

Something like that, she thinks.

And really, Nicole is more than willing to write it off that way.

bonus: *a few weeks later, after a taxing raid on their resident android* *Billy is sitting in the Remodelling Shop* Enzo, patting Billy's shoulder and wiping his hands clean: Battery's all good. Billy: uh... Boss? Is this really nec- Anby, Nicole, and Nekomata: Yes. Billy: ...okay.

[mdmszee]

SIMS GET TO KNOW TAG 🙈💭

ahhh thank you so much for tagging me @weindenburg !! love answering questions like these :)

1. What’s your favorite sims death? death by being hysterical bc that’s the best way to die haha

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? i am very much a maxis-match girly! no shade to alpha cc, just not my style :P

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? nooo, not at all, i want the game to be as realistic as possible!

4. Do you use move objects? yes! building without it is a legit nightmare

5. Favorite mod? i can’t choose just one but my top three favorites are UI Cheats, More CAS Presets and anything from twistedmexi!

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? wasn’t too long but I got the cats and dogs expansion pack bc i was so hesitant to make all my sims have pets hehe

7. Do you pronounce "live mode" like aLIVE or Living? LIVing

8. Who's your favorite sim that you've made? so far, it’s the lovely Mona Kaiser! idk but it’s like she came out exactly how I pictured + literally every outfit goes on her perfectly she’s just so ahhhh 🤭

9. Have you made a simself? yes I did! and I’m really happy with how she came out and I’m starting an LP on her :)

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? clumsy, socially awkward, loyal

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? it’s gotta be either the third brown color swatch or the last blonde swatch that looks like a light blonde!

12. Favorite EA hair? i don’t have all the expansion packs yet + I mostly use cc hairs 😗

13. Favorite life stage? INFANTS AND YOUNG ADULT >> but tbh as long as I have the long lifespan setting on, I enjoy all of them bc I accomplish so much more stuff

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? 10000% in it for the gameplay! I suck at building so I’ll download anything from the gallery + edit it as quick as I can so I can jump back into the game!

15. Are you a CC creator? nope but I love supporting them ! <3

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? I’d like to think I have a few, yeah! I’m a newbie on here so I’m making my way as I go + I’d love to connect with more simblrs!

17. What's your favorite game? sims 4 hands down

18. Do you have any sims merch? nope!

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? not yet but I’m thinking of starting pretty soon sooo 👀

20. How has your "sim style" changed throughout your months/years of playing? it’s gone from completely vanilla to obsessed maxis-match connoisseur

21. What's your Origin ID? mdmszee 🪴🫶🏾

22. Who's your favorite CC creator? can’t choose one, but here’s a few: @dogsill @aharris00britney @christopher067 @imvikai @greenllamas @simstrouble @nucrests @softerhaze @clumsyalienn @oakiyo @okruee and a bunch more that I can’t remember rn but anyone who makes maxis-match cc has my heart >>

23. How long have you had a simblr? since February! I’m not new to sims, I’ve known + played the game since 2013 💀

24. How do you edit your pictures? sadly I don’t edit pics yet but I’ll probably end up using photoshop just to tweak some things bc reshade carries most of it

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? growing together, cottage living, seasons, snowy escape, island living, parenthood, spa day and outdoor living :)

26. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? all of the ones I listed up there ^^ but in terms of what I want from the sims team - an expansion pack centered around kids bc they’ve been neglected for sooo long

I had a great time answering these questions! I’ll definitely do an updated version for some of the questions on here if I’m up for it 👀..

I’ll tag @d4isy-nukes , @edenella , @towniediaries and anyone who wants to participate! <3

[cinlat]

15 Questions

Tagged by @commander-krios and @keldae Thank you guys!

1. Are you named after anyone?

Not really? My mom’s the oldest of six. She met a little girl at my youngest aunt’s (she was 12 at the time) ballet recital and fell in love with her name.

2. When was the last time you cried?

I don’t remember the when, just that it was sometime in the last few months. My husband was trying to help pop the disc next to my shoulder blade back in, and then I couldn’t breath, and I got so friggin angry at my scoliosis that I started crying. Really freaked him out, because I’m not really one to get emotional about anything. The whole situation was weird, tbh.

3. Do you have kids?

I’ve got two teenagers man. Send help!

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Your realize there’s no right answer to this, right?

(#5 is missing btw)

It certainly is

6. What's your eye colour?

Grey, unless I’m ill, then it’s bright blue. Eyes are weird.

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary movies all the way. I love me some zombies.

8. Any special talents?

My unending patience with grumpy people. It’s legit legendary, I’m not even bragging.

9. Where were you born?

Alabama, USA and I’ve lived kind of all over the south.

10. What are your hobbies?

Procrastination mostly. I occasionally dabble in some reading. I haven’t written anything properly in months, mainly due to the first hobby I mentioned. Oh, and I’ve recently discovered a love for baths.

11. Have you any pets?

A 5lb chihuahua. A 17lb maine coon. and a $.99 feeder fish that I didn’t think would last a year..... That was 7 or 8 years ago, he now has a 20 gallon tank all to himself and gets super excited when kids come up to see him. The fish has more personality than the dog and cat combined. I love that stupid, immortal goldfish.

12. What sports do you play/have played?

Softball, figure skating, cycling, a VERY brief stint of mountain biking, water skiing, basketball, cheerleading....

13. How tall are you?

Shorter than most of you....

14. Favourite subject in school?

Science and PE. Yes, I loved PE. I didn’t have to take tests or memorize stuff.

15. Dream job?

I genuinely don’t know. I’m pretty content where I’m at, and I think that’s all anyone can really ask for.

I don’t know who’s been tagged because I’m a terrible tumblrer (I’m old and tired and scroll mindlessly without looking at who posts what) So, I’ll throw out some no pressure tags @kunoichi-ume @dimigex @starknstarwars @salaciouscrumpet @rainofaugustsith @outcastcommander @eorzeashan @dingoat

[slashingdisneypasta]

*rubs hands together* let's do this...

1. I know giving Freddy TOO much attention will backfire, so I won't aggressively eat the popsicle. I'll just... Eat it like normal. If he tries to make it dirty, I'll call mama Pam for help and he can deal with hers and Jason's wraths XD

2. Find a replacement. She ain't getting my friend, but I got some people in mind I'd feed hef..her...

3. SWEET JESUS BUBBA NO- I'll take on this chore, you SIT DOWN. I can hopefully charm/distract Audrey by telling them how much I love their singing voice (it wouldn't be a lie so that makes it better-). Though I may need Bubba's chainsaw if things go south...

4. I... Oh crap neither option is good XD um... You know what? I'm too tired, I don't want Freddy or Chucky or whoever the Frick else to harass me in the living room. I'll just scream at Patrick to shut up through the wall of my bedroom and possibly bang on it to get the message across... Then lock the door and text Jennifer or Tiffany I may need backup XD (NOT Carrie. She has her powers, but I will not let that innocent soul be anywhere NEAR Patrick)

5. Honestly, I can actually be pretty damn sneaky and quiet, even when I don't mean to (I don't know how!!! It just happens! I legit sneak up on people by simply trying to walk past them for heavens sake!). So I'll take my chances with Jason and Micheal.

6. I can't remember, is this Learherfaces brother Drayton? Or a different Drayton? If the former, I'll go with him since he seems like we both have the same want: to be left alone. If it's the latter, I'll go with Beetlejuice since I'm more familiar with him.

7. Again, I can sneak around people without them noticing. I'll risk it, and if they try to drag me in it I'll just tell them its not my fight or I have some other obligation and convince someone to be my alibi if they try to ask.

8. I don't care if she's throwing a chainsaw around. I WILL offer the cinnamon roll comfort. Even if I have to yell from a distance (I'll grab Freddy or Chucky as a meat shield if all else fails)

9. Oh hell no, Chucky you are GETTING THE BOOT. I don't care if i face Tiffany's wrath, nobody is going to pick on Carrie on my watch.

10. Oooooh shit, I can already feel the parental judgment... Screw it. I'm telling Pam. If I come clean, hopefully that'll at least put me on her good side. And even if it doesn't, Maternal reprimands is SOOO much better than facing whatever Freddy anyday.

11. I'm pretty sure their truths would either be horror related or some juvenile crap like "Who was your first kiss?" Or something. So I'll take truth.

12. I'm not familiar with Jerry, but if this is Patrick Bateman and not another Patrick, I'll pick him. I wouldn't be able to handle Patrick insulting me while 'helping' me.

13. Freddy. Jason was probably going to put him through a wall eventually to meet his quota, now he's got motivation. Bonus points is that I get to watch Freddy's "Oh shit" face and try to deny he ever did XD

Hey!! Oh wowwww, I love your answers XDDD

Haha, excellent plan B! XD I love how everyones go-to for when Freddy's being a hindrance is go get the Voorhees'. Like he's their badly behaved pet. Like GUYS. YOUR CAT"S RIPPING UP THE FURNITURE AGAIN, and they come in with the spray bottle (holy water, of course).

More sacrifices, good!

I'm so happy Bubba can be safe and relaxed but STAY SAFE YOURSELF!!! Here, take the Voorhees' badly behaved pet with you for a shield. (Also I love Audrey's voice too, I listen to those songs quiteee a bit)

Solid plan- just lock the door FIRST thing instead, so Patrick doesn't do a zoom of fury and get there before you can!! XD

Goodluck!! ^^

This is Leatherface brother Drayton ^^ I agree, too!

I'll be your alibi! Yes Officer, we were playing scrabble all night long so she couldn't have- oops wrong alibi.

!! Yes ^^ We are on the same page, here. Chucky wouldn't be a very good shield though, he is very small. Freddy would be okay, but he's still kinda small for comfort for shield standards. Have MICHAEL. dont worry, he has a very long history of being fine in the end and lots of referalls.

9. Chucky and Carrie again!! Very good choices!! XD Hey, if we go by your au that Tiffany becomes basically Carries mother- she'll probably help you! XDDD

10. Good news!! Pam forgives you, and basically takes you into the family. You can have playdates with Jason, now! XD

11. Here is your truth, straight from the minds of Billy and Stu!!: You get to go back in time to see Who Framed Roger Rabbit in theatre on its opening night!- but you have to take and sit next to Glenda in a murder mood the entire movie. Do you go??

12. Oh yessss same. Jerry's compliments may come from a place of hunger, but that's still nicer to deal with then Patrick 😅

13. I love this whole paragraph XDD 'to meet his quota', 'now he's got motivation', 'Freddy's "oh shit" face'.

Thank you so much for participating and sending in your great answers!! I hope you had fun thinking of them! ^^ XD

[dzpenumbra]

1/17/23

Last night was one of the worst nights I've had in a long time. The second my head hit the pillow the dark thoughts just poured in. It was rough. First stretch, I got like 1 hour of sleep. I kept waking up and needing to readjust, then freaking out, then feeling sick. I honestly can't remember the last time I legit felt run down. It must've been like... the last time I got vaccinated, honestly. I just don't really get sick much, which is surprising because I lived in a really gross and unhealthy house for a long time. But now... now I'm legit run-down.

I woke up after like an hour and felt like I had to shit, like diarrhea shit, but it was the opposite, I was constipated. But it was just... ugh. My body was just like "I want this out" and just going through all the different methods, I guess. Idk. I started to feel super nauseous, so I grabbed a bowl, refilled my water and stumbled back to bed. I just felt rotten. A bit of a fever, but cold extremities. But honestly, it was the head-game that got me the most. I mean this wholeheartedly, if I had just gotten the shot and felt like shit - without my parents shitting doom into my brain - I really don't think my brain would've gone there. I would've just gone "man, this sucks, I feel pretty crappy and I wish I had someone to take care of me." But those stupid conspiracy theory seeds planted in my head took root and had me freaking out most of the night. I ended up getting up around 9, after tossing and turning for a few hours, I got a granola bar and some yogurt, fed the cat and brought my weighted blanket to the beanbag chair. I spent most of the rest of the day in the chair, I said fuck it and took the day off completely.

I tried to do yoga, and did succeed. I'm surprised I even tried, to be honest. I just felt like garbage. It wasn't too rough, but the headaches were the worst part. All the forward folds and going from plank to standing really quickly just kept giving me splitting headaches, so I'd have to pause the video. It was rough, I almost tapped out... but I saw it through, I just didn't really push myself as much as I usually do.

I started getting texts from my mom about mid-day. Not even mentioning yesterday, trying to buy me a fucking workbench again. Just pretending like all the shit they dumped on me yesterday didn't happen, and like she didn't dodge a call from me. I just... didn't respond. I didn't know how. She sent me another message around 5:30 again asking me if I wanted to talk or not. And I just... again... didn't respond. I don't know what to say.

I try very hard to communicate clearly what problems I have. It has gotten me into a lot of shit when dealing with prideful people. And just in general too, I guess, I don't know. People just don't really like hearing the blunt truth told to them. Like, what I would say is "you guys both dangled the threat of death in front of me as a way to try to pressure and manipulate me into altering my personal medical decisions, and you did it through the guise of being 'supportive'. Then you got pissed off and scared and disappeared, leaving me to go through feeling like utter shit completely alone. Pretty sure that's not 'support'. Pretty sure that's... control." Something tells me that will not go over well, it will just lead to an argument. And I'm just done with arguments, to be honest.

Like... please tell me I'm not the only one seeing this. This like... obsession with "freedom" is not even remotely about freedom, it's about control. Like one day... the virus pops over to this continent and we have to take preventative measures to mitigate the spread, and suddenly half the country thinks their being systematically oppressed, when 3 months prior you couldn't bother them to get off the fucking couch. It's juvenile. It's not about principles, it's not about evidence. Here, let me use an example to show what's going on.

In fall of 2018, I found out that one of my earliest friends who I had known since I was like... 12? had died, and I was told it was related to fentanyl. That was a very serious trauma for me, it hit me very hard. We had grown apart over the years as his drug use escalated, but still... he was a part of my life, you know. We had memories. He is part of my history. I knew his family. So like... 8 months later? My dad finds out I'm smoking weed again after 15 years of actively avoiding it. And, despite having zero contact with me, is convinced that it's making me "psychotic" and "dangerous". Really, just coming up with a conclusion and then googling for whatever dots he can connect to try and persuade me that he is correct, to convince me via email that I am unknowingly being drugged and going crazy. So this fucker sends me an email - while I'm high - that is an article from some fucking periodical in Long Island or something? Like just some random local rag he googled. And the article is about how people shouldn't be buying weed because it's "fentanyl-laced weed". And he acted like he was my goddamn savior. By literally traumatizing me while I was extremely vulnerable, but using one of my past traumas against me, to try to control my actions.

Okay, you know... I felt myself getting political earlier and it's making me uncomfortable. So whatever with the general shit above, of course there are injustices in the world, of course there are problems. But like... a lot of people - I would stretch to say most - respond to fear with control. Instead of addressing the fear. Instead of engaging the fear. They control their environment to be able to avoid the fear, or snuff out the cause of the fear, and come up with any narrative they can find to justify not directly engaging with the fear. So they never have to process the concept. Like an extension of repression, but focused outwards. Just an observation, something to be aware of, because it seems to be something we as a species are very prone to.

I'm exhausted, I feel like shit and honestly, I don't want to relive this crap. I just want to sleep and zone out, and watch mindless TV. I have no idea how to talk to my parents about this, I am just creating space. They hurt me very deeply, and it's still very raw, and I don't trust myself to be able to communicate how this affected me without pointing fingers.

I am not good at boundaries. This is a boundary I really need to have, it's devastating to me. Fear-mongering and trying to scare someone out of a serious decision they are making for their self is not support. I don't know how to communicate how unhealthy this is without telling them what they cannot do. Like, I can say "if you do this again, I'm going to have to leave," and that sounds like a threat, like I'm just turning the tables and trying to control them. If I say "you cannot treat me this way," it looks like an ultimatum, it's giving them orders, telling them what to do. If I say "when you treat me this way, this is how it affects me," they just twist it around, trying to get me to change how it affects me. As though I 'got it wrong' or something.

It is. SO. Unhealthy. And I swear to god, every time I'm on an upswing with my PTSD shit... they just dump some new bullshit on me, crushing my spirit, reopening my trauma. And I have to like, go back into a cocoon and recover again, by myself. And all my progress I was making on my life? Not just halted, but all the daily life tasks start piling up again, right when I got caught up. I blink and suddenly I haven't streamed in a month. Suddenly I'm going to bed at 5:30 AM again. Suddenly I'm scared to leave my house again. Suddenly I feel like everyone out there is out to get me again. I fucking wonder why...

So I'm just going to wait until Wednesday, talk to my therapist, see how he recommends handling this. In the meantime, I'm just going to focus on staying alive and managing morale. Resting and recovering. Finding peace and happiness where I can find it. I'm already starting to feel a bit better, we'll see how the rest of the night goes. Worse comes to worse I can just sleep in the beanbag chair again.

[corruptedsilence]

I just finished watching the Puss in Boots the last wish and wow

no spoilers but: I agree with the reviews, it is really good, I’d watch it if you can. The animation is gorgeous and it really shows at least to me the animators and artists had fun with it. There’s so many dynamic shots and visuals that I was in awe for majority of the fight scenes spoilers below

Okay but like. I really liked it??? The movie itself didn’t feel as long as it did maybe because I was having a lot of fun with it and it is really interesting

i do like the idea of Death as a personification and holding a grudge to cats who are given 9 lives, the idea that a cat just frivolously living their 9 lives as if rubbing it in death’s face is really fun to me.

Legit the scene where Puss is having a panic attack in the woods game *me* anxiety because it lowkey just felt, really real. Like, I think they did a really good job showing what it is that a panic attack does to people, and how anxiety especially can just destroy someone’s life or hurt the people around them. I’m always going to be “meh” about the idea of ‘oh yeah the anxiety was cured by the end of the movie’ stuff because that’s not how deep seeded anxiety goes but it’s a kid’s movie and i cant exactly expect them to like go too deep into it already when i think they did a pretty good job expressing the anxiety throughout the movie already

because it is really good to have that looming threat, to have the character experience that anxiety throughout the film, not just once but that it follows them. No matter where they go, or who they’re with, the anxiety doesn’t just go away necessarily (except ya know the ending)

One thing I do love, and I’m almost *sad* that we couldnt’ get a movie or something about them; but Goldi and the three bears. This is purely self indulgent but rarely, and i mean RARELY do we get a storyline that revolves around orphans and adoption. We always get the “found family” and stuff but it never really goes into the idea of adopted kids and their struggles dealing with their adopted family. I legit love the representation as someone who has been adopted and has questioned my place in my family before.

I think, while it does seem trivial from an outsider perspective how “easy” the choice is for people to like “just stay with the people who raised you!”, it really isnt’ as simple as that. This might like, fall short on people who weren’t adopted or weren’t like experiencing that desire to “fit in”. Because we see through the movie that Goldi, in some ways, is reminded she isn’t a bear. Especially during the scene where they kidnap perrito and baby and her are fighting. When it’s pointed out “you aren’t [insert here]” it drives home the idea that yo udon’t belong. Which does hurt a lot more than you think. It’s stated a few times through the movie actually going back and looking the “shes not my sister” and stuff, it really does show that Goldi isn’t thinking of this from nothing, that a constant reminder like that may push her to think she doesnt belong and she isn’t one of them. Even with the support from mama and papa, it’s still a struggle especially since goldi is well hfewjk a human, and they’re bears

And kids, and adults like me, who have been adopted do have that fear that everything would be fine without you, because you don’t belong, because you “broke into” someone’s house and “took” their things. I really like this idea of goldi and the 3 bears because it does show how a lot of kids can feel like they had just invaded someone’s house and don’t belong and then end up stealing the other sibling’s (who might or might not be biological to the parents) things.

And while the ending I know rushes Goldi’s arch a bit I really do wish i could see more of them. Not like a whole movie, but I want them to be characters in future films, or maybe have a “to DVD” short movie or something about their lives cuz it’s also fun that they’re a crime family fhewjkhk and im just trying to think of like what they did before Goldi came along

If it isn’t obvious I did like the side story almost more than the main story since the main story felt pretty--- eh predictable? But I enjoyed more the way they showed the “realism” in the fear of death, and the anxiety someone might have over it. It might be the same predictable story, you know no one will get the wish, and they’ll learn to cherish the one life they have, blah blah blah but you don’t expect them to go into the character’s actual struggle with that fear. The song Death whistles and how it plays as a “trigger” for Puss gets his fur standing on edge, panicked, wide eyed, it does such a good job showing these small things that a lot of movies or shows wouldnt bother with.

I’d definitely recommend it, I didn’t go into it but it’s just fun? I really didnt’ care for big jack horner or whatever his name was cuz he was just played as the “im evil and irredeemable” but he plays the part well enough. He’s fun when he’s around and stuff so there is that. I enjoy the fact he’s just evil for evil sake but yeah I just was more roped in with the other people and just saw jack less as a threatening villain and more there for comedic villainy.

over all I hope dreamworks continues this way? Because this actually makes me more excited to see movies from them if they’re going to be this fun and this “real” and relatable however odd that might sound for a puss in boots movie lmao

[dashielldeveron]

Oh it’s, so logical and empathetic and nonsensical to immediately check, run away, and then throw yourself into fixing the solution, so you simultaneously run away and solve the issue. This. I love where this is going. And he’s so. He’s so. I’m wrecked by the tenderness of the moment my heart is in my throat

I wish this was more cohesive but my thoughts are so scattered by how incredibly insane you are for writing this well. Oh my god.

-✨

(going to combine some of your asks into this one to help me keep track of the order that they were sent in)

(2) You don’t understand the switch between explaining that the soulmate bond was theirs in this life for a reason and that he cared to explore it to ‘I’ve been really into soft cheeses’ and going into himself is killing me. I’m dead. I’m. I’m not here.

(3) I will say, that I’m Pakistani, and since I’ve made chai since I was. I wanna say 8 or 9? We’ve always put brown sugar into the chai, sort of a requirement really. And you can add more or less depending on your preference. I usually add more. Though we do add milk to chai? That’s also sort of a requirement. But I do add sugar to regular tea if I’m not feeling the bitterness at the moment This wasn’t necessary but I wanted to share

(4) That lotus flower thing is terrifying me by the way, what a bit of, foreshadowing? Is the grief for the other lives? Have we already passed it? Or am I being hopeful.

(5) The tiny detail of Monoma knitting after the mention of learning it way earlier because of the socks issue? I think I love you

(6) I’m like genuinely dizzy. Here are some notes I took as I read It’s unfair that he feels the soulmate bond so immensely just for an argument, I like being mad when I’m mad. Maybe I’m just petty. Also, the cat. Can’t like him more. Absolutely not. Dear god His analysis of the frappe thing is also destructive to my heart he can’t keep doing this. It’s devastatingly inevitable he finds this lurker account. (I’m glad he didn’t couldn’t handle it) He’s so unfairly perfect, the sun analysis was gorgeous, because people really don’t like categorical good, it’s boring. I’ve always really appreciated the standard MC, with the regular morality of good, because there has to be so much strength to be able to be good, yknow? Because also that moment when she accepted the sun analogy is. I’m gonna sob. I am also extremely hung up on how all of them are in love with her. I can’t handle that. I feel like crying Ok the way they all knew is killing me but also I appreciate their reassurance and yeah familial and platonic love is enough I’m going to. Cause it won’t destroy their happiness but it is. Certainly. See, and. I can’t quite. It would be fine if in another life they were soulmates but it’s quite another thing entirely that they in this life adore her and potentially could have been fits. But I’m so over it. Truly. Devastating. I’m dizzy. The moment when he hung up the dress and then. I’m so unwell. You’re too incredible.

(7) I’m literally not gonna recover. Ever? Oh my god I wanna drown myself with your imagination and swim in a lake of just your works. I can’t do this

>:)

izuku is so. he's so. unfortunately he's the extreme of many things, and that makes him so tempting to throttle >:)

his brain is always going a million miles an hour in a hundred different directions!!!! he's thinking too much!!! it probably makes perfect logical sense for him to jump from "this soulmate bond is between us in this timeline for a reason" to "soft cheeses good," because he's got so much going on in his brain!!! weirdo <3

ooh!!! legit i haven't ever considered putting brown sugar in tea, so i know what i'm trying tomorrow morning!!! i had the classic superwholock british-culture phase at a formulative time for me, so i admit my tea knowledge/preparation is mostly british stuff, even though i'm an american. so it's really cool to hear about chai prep from you!!! i love learning about tiny, daily routine stuff!!! the little joys are also divine <3

ah, the flower symbolism. yeah. foreshadowing. i was thinking just for this particular route, but if you like it better if it applies to every route, then of course it can be!!! and terrible news for shinsou in this route :( i love the man; he's so sexy to me when he's in Agony

monoma knitting 👉👈 i love stupid little details like this, because it makes everyone feel realer. i can picture monoma being like "i want my socks done right, so i'll just do it myself" and then when he's angry at someone in the party, he gives them shittily made stuff. a petty boy. a perfect boy

lololol i don't even wanna THINK about izuku finding reader's lurker account. 1) he'd prob deduce it's her bc she's posting edits with personal picture in them and 2) the soft cheeses. and i bet he wouldn't be upset or weirded out but be like "oh, you like my nipples that much?? why don't you come show me how much instead of telling people online" asjk;ldfa;ldfj but real talk he'd prob also examine how reader and other people are talking about him and use it to improve how physically attractive he can seem to you. menace. menace!

yeah some people think good is boring??? evil is boring!!! evil is ultimately the same!!! good is ingenuitive and constantly problem-solving!!! good is clever and always changing!!! and izuku is always adapting to whatever fucken thing he's on next. love it.

they 😈 all 😈 love her 😈 how horrible 😎 it's great that you can't handle it!!! no one in fic could!!!! i wouldn't be able to!!! i hope you can swim in this fic for a while and that it brings you joy/dizziness in the days to come!!! you're very sweet, and i adore your enthusiasm; you've really made my week. you're so kind, especially to come back after my embarrassingly long gaps between posting chapters!!! i love this!!! i love you!!!! thank you soooooo much for being so wonderful, and i hope your day is peaceful!!!! xx.

[nathank77]

10/12/24

9:54 p.m

I had a busy day. I never get time for me anymore. One of Riley's hairs was in my shower basket under my loofah and I saw it after I had showered...

I guess imma get poison ivy everywhere. My anxiety is always absolutely through the roof...

Riley adores me, she cried all day until I came home. I brought her outside and she pooped OFF THE LEASH. And she peed... I think she pooped on skyes gloves 😂 she deserves it. I can't command Riley to shit and I def can't command where she shits... but I'm happy it was near her gloves on the ground outside lol

She deserves it cause she hasn't lifted a finger for mom. Riley broke this gumball machine running after a ball.

She barely ate cause I was gone all day. I made her eat but she didn't eat a lot. She's eating the busy bone.. it's something. Her fur is everywhere... and it's giving me allergies legit.

My sister is gone until 1 a.m and she took Riley out of the crate after I left. And she took a steaming pile of shit in front of my mother. And they made her wait so long she cleaned it and she felt something pop on her stomach. Yea she would have been crated for close to 8 hours... I had to drive to new Hampshire... but if you're going to take her out of the crate with my Nasaua mother... you should either take her outside or report downstairs to fucking clean it.

I'm actually in love with Riley but my ocd is crippling. I cant even tell you. I've never had a dog love me so much. Nala will always be my girl but she was my mother's dog truly. Although I would take her to Colleen's and take care of her for months when my mother was living out of hotels.

New Hampshire was a lot. Time consuming. And I felt bad for leaving my mother.

Her home health care worker came and Riley was crated and she flipped shit. Trying to bite her way out.

My sister is absolutely despicable. I sat with Riley, tried to make her eat... I mean she will eat with me. And a lot but only if I make her... and she barely ate. Maybe she has a gastrointestinal blockage considering she ate stuff around the house. If she's going to force us to keep her then bring her to the vet...

Cause when liv said I didn't want Riley from day one i said, it's bc she will die in pain... and liv was like skye will bring her to the vet.. WELL. SHES VOMITING. SHES BEEN HUFFING. AND SHES NOT EATING AND YOU'RE AT A CONCERT AND YOU WANT TO HOLD MOM ACCOUNTABLE FOR HER DRUNKEN DECISION BUT YOU ALSO WANT TO CALL ME A DOG ABUSER WHILE ALSO NOT BEING WILLING TO BRING HER TO THE VET FOR A CAT SCAN OR XRAY.

My hallucination has been awful... the only peace i get is with dialogue in the background...

Idk i feel like shit. I'm worried about everything and my arm is dry. Maybe it's poison ivy developing.

My mother needing all this help and me being the only one who is taking care of the dog and her is exhausting. I haven't played a video game in 3 weeks.

[returntosaturn271995]

Friday, August 11th: Senior (Account Executive) Skip Day

I'm sure it's just the calm before the influencer storm, but I well and truly was not assigned a damn thing to do today. This is likely due to Halle's tenure as a freelancer ending when August comes to a close, which is fucking fine by me. Has anyone in the history of time done less to make over $1500?

Actually sadly yes, probably. But I refuse to get too comfortable or too proud of myself until I actually start doing something. It reminds me of when I worked for Sony at 23, literally being paid to essentially print things and sit there all day when I was 22. Big companies just kind of have fuck-you money to throw at useless cogs. Like yes, technically: I drafted contracts and edited creative concepts for the brand, and drafted a list of Influencers for review. But that shit isn't difficult. There are templates and processes and like 4 extra hours after that to just keep your Microsoft Teams on while you do your laundry.

You can be completely ineffective for like years before it even becomes a matter of review. Imposter Syndrome is currently in full effect or maybe I'm just realizing that no one is inherently more "worthy" or special than I am. Pleasantly though, my anxiety is at bay (which bay is still to be determined, but I'm comfortable.)

Either way, I'm online shopping! Currently rocking a two-piece black workout set with my black and white Asics and white scrunchie. It's around 4 in the afternoon and Makenna and I are just chilling on the couch and trying to lure her cat Blue from her room to the living room. She is currently very unsure even with treats on the table.

Today my Nike Run App plan is to go on a "Long-Run", which since I'm on an 8-week 5 K plan is legit just a mile. So I'm going to focus on speed. It's nice and overcast out so thankfully I won't die of heat exhaustion. Global warming has not been fucking around lately, Maui is currently on fire with over 55 people killed. Not that I'm comparing my getting hot in the summer to looming natural disasters. Or well, okay I guess I just did, but at least I'm running? Yesterday I did a recovery run at 9 miles per hour and then a 10-minute yoga stretching session.

Also read in "4000 Weeks" about the power of having your vacation or off time at the same time as others, as well as shared goals being a source of happiness. He specifically cited singing in choirs, which I completely remember and relate to from high school. The fact that I went to Iceland and Costa Rica to sing still surprises me sometimes and singing in a 1500-year-old church in 8 parts remains a religious experience in my heart. I've never been involved in a church or frankly into any hardcore doctrine, but I do miss feeling as though I were contributing in a real way to something important, beautiful, and bigger than myself. Something to think about.

In Jenny Slate's, "Little Wierds", the writing and stories are both poetic and silly. Also so relatable that I could cry. There are elements of nature, hope, despair, a 19th-century ghost woman at the seaside, and what I can only describe as vagina panic. She doesn't write like me at all and yet our souls have watched similar movies and gotten lost in similar forests.

In brighter news: The U.S. Department of Energy announced on Friday that it will spend $1.2 billion on the nation’s first two major carbon-capture facilities. 

[thefangirlrant]

We’re one episode away from the end 😭 (of season one, anyway)! Before this season wraps up, I have some thoughts on these last two episodes I wanted to throw out there. First, Seiji and Zakuro were in the same scene together!

My ghost ship lives! Well, until this scene happened, and I could hear all the Mint/Zakuro shippers scream through the airwaves. 😆

Not going to lie, I thought they were going to kiss too.

The Ryou/Aoyama meeting lived up to my expectations.

I love how Ryou was just joking with Ichigo like he always does, and doesn’t even bother to acknowledge Aoyama until Aoyama forces him to; and then he purposely ticks him off. 😆

The cat shenanigans was about what I expected, although I was a kind of surprised they kept the bath bit 😅

I found it awkward, mostly because of how unrealistically buff Aoyama is 😆 Moving on.

Kitty Ryou was absolutely adorable! I’m not a cat person, but he makes me want a cat 😻 I have mixed feelings about the scene in which Ryou finds Ichigo. I’ll start with what I liked:

I love that they kept the rants from the manga, and that after they both get what they’ve been holding in off their chests, they’re completely fine, and not mad at each other anymore (nothing like healthy relationship behavior to keep my ship afloat!); sometimes you just have to let it all out, and then move on, and that’s what they did!

I also love that Ryou brought her a sandwich! Not only does this make us come full circle from the time Ichigo brought Ryou a snack, but it shows how much Ryou cares about her; he was legit out all night looking for her, with a sandwich in tow, because he knew she would be hungry and need a snack when he finally found her! Ryou is best boy! Aoyama didn’t even bother to look for her. And don’t give me this, “he didn’t know she was in trouble!” He found his jacket, that Ichigo had run off with, in a RIVER! She could have been dead in that river! (Which is pretty close to the truth!) He should have been searching that river for her! Instead, he finds a cat, and takes it home all happy and giddy, not even bothering to even call Ichigo to make sure she was fine after he found his jacket she discarded. 😒 I was starting to like the new Aoyama, but I’ve gotta say, he really dropped the ball here. Short rant over, back to the original topic!

What I didn’t like about the Ryou/Ichigo reunion: they left out the follow up from episode two’s scene. 🥺

Now, I hope it’s not being omitted completely, and they just decided not to put it there because there was already a lot happening in this scene, and that they’ll have it either in the next episode (unlikely, I think), or in the next season. I wouldn’t be upset if the next season starts with Ichigo realizing how much Ryou cares about her 😏 The only problem is, the second half of that scene in the manga was already thrown into this scene!

Ryou asking to kiss... I like the genuine look of curiosity on his face, like he is actually thinking about it in a logical way 😆 But the actual question, just doesn’t feel right, and he immediately says he’s joking. I feel like there should have been more of a pause in between him asking, and then saying he was joking. Whether he’s serious or actually joking, the response still felt too quick either way. Maybe he’ll ask again in season two? (I can dream 😝)

One last thing, after my annoyance with him in episode 9, Keiichiro has redeemed himself:

He is team Ryou! Although, Keiichiro, maybe if you actually said what you were thinking out loud to him, he would be more likely to say his own feelings out loud 🙄

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

Rules: answer 20 questions and tag 20 blogs you’d love to get to know better!

Tagged by: @gayvillainerainera (open tag hehe and it looked fun!)

Name: Katie

Pronouns: she/her

Zodiac: leo sun, sagittarius moon, virgo rising

Height: 5'3" (if anyone makes a short joke I will bite you)

Time: 00:59 bby

Nationality: Irish babe

Favorite band: Oh man idk, I do love Måneskin and The 1975, ADORE Florence + The Machine (I never know to list the group as a band or just focus on Florence but I adore the music either way, and if you weren't gonna read it in this category, you'd read it in the next) and La Femme, love me some Cocteau Twins, but I've been getting into Siouxsie and the Banshees, Sisters of Mercy, Type O Negative lately! Also vibe with The Radio Dept. And much more tbh but the list will legit keep going so I'll shut up now hahaha :P

Favorite artist: Outside of the aforementioned, Lana Del Rey. Also love The Weeknd.

When you created your blog: Originally in like 2014 or something?? But my blog got flagged for no damn reason back in like early 2020 so then I set up this one. Still occasionally use the other one, but mainly to reblog specific things/signal boost, given I had a sizeable follower count.

The last thing you googled: Madeira famous drink (the answer I was looking for was poncha)

Lucky number: Not telling!

Other blogs: @mademoiselle-katie (the OG blog that is like an old abandoned saloon which is frequented by ghosts rip; if I like one of your posts, that's the url you see). There are some others but I never really use them. @la-fxmme-damnee was a kinkier one I made but I had to keep logging in and I am lazy so. Not bothered to keep it up unless I get traction there lmao.

Why I chose my url: I felt like a change and was watching an old Edwige film where her character was accused of being a "coquette", and I sorta can behave like a coquette (in the original sense, not the Internet Type™ ) and wanted something a little dark, so added "malefique" bc it felt right. I can indeed be an evil coquette, or a nightmare dressed like a daydream (sorry to use the lyric but like...it is lowkey me lol).

How many people you're following: 1,024

How many followers: 1,122 (on this blog, but the OG has 1,192 and a history blog I seldom use now has 1.5k)

Average hours of sleep: Lord knows, nowadays between 7 and 9 I think.

Instruments: My voice 😌 I used to play violin and piano but gave those up. Did tin whistle in primary school lmao. Sorta harmonica (keep losing the harmonica bc I'm an idiot fml). Have been considering doing harp - for a variety of reasons.

Currently wearing: big, fluffy pyjama top and fluffy pyjama bottoms

Dream trip: GOD SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!! Various destinations across mainland Europe, but I'd really love to see the Nordic countries and the midnight sun/aurora borealis (depending on time of year). <3 Mexico, Cuba, Thailand and India would also be super cool!!! There are some others too but I've already talked too much :P

Fav food: omg sis I love food way too much, Sicilian olives, hummus, kabanossi, brie cheese, fettucine alfredo, pizza, ratatouille, this ratatouille lasagna recipe my mom makes, blinis, smoked salmon... <3

Fav song: okay i have several atm: Passaccaglia by Ennio Morricone, Dominion by Sisters of Mercy, Christian Woman by Type O Negative, Bela Lugosi's Dead by Bauhaus, Cat People by David Bowie. I have many others including all-time faves but these are current ones.

Three fictional universes I wanna live in: none thank you (that I can currently think of).

I shall tag: @little-miss-scare-all666 @bodhitreebluebird @neednottoneed @sonybuzz42 @bouncing-flowers @jazz-vampire @mirandasinclairs @blackwoodbanshee @cafeomancer @catherinebronte (if you guys wish to, ofc!! no presh if not), and anyone else who'd like to do it! <3 It's great fun!

[lunar-wandering]

hello hi yes welcome to my list of “things that happened to some of the KJ characters that they definitely need therapy for”

lets go, down the list;

Joker - parents died - spent about like. an estimated 4-6 months living by himself (he couldn’t have been older than 9 at the time) - Professor Clover Round 1 - alligator incident (Professor Clover Round 2) - Cyan and Rose (aka Professor Clover Round 3) - Shadow - the cat mansion - him not thinking he deserves family/that he has a family (legit he says “family huh? i dont have that anymore”) - getting injured pretty much on the daily - Professor Clover Round 4 - Dr. Neo. - literally everything else i could make a whole essay about all the shit thats happened to him

Spade - parents died - passed out in the snow - adoptive elder brother treated him like shit - alligator incident - Professor Clover - i dont remember the pumpkin dudes name but that shit would be traumatizing - ..various other in-show events

Queen - parents died. she doesnt remember them cause she was a baby but im still counting it - cruise ship incident - alligator incident - manipulated by Professor Clover - season 2 finale

Hachi - arguably the most well put together person here which is funny since he’s like. 10-12 years old while the others are all 16-18 - majority of the heists with Joker. you cant tell me seeing his mentor get repeatedly injured didn’t affect him - .....season 4 finale

Shadow - manipulated by Professor Clover - theres actually a lot more contained within “manipulated by Professor Clover” but i genuinely do not know how to articulate it all of it

Akai - TRAPPED IN A TOMB FOR 10,000 YEARS. HE WAS ASLEEP BUT STILL - betrayed by practically every human he met (other than Himi and Joker) - SERIOUS empathy issues/lack of understanding of mortality - he almost got vivisected and then dissolved what more reason do i need to send this bitch to therapy

[gallavichthings]

We’re back! After a short break, we’re back in full force with this series! Please enjoy our interview with the lovely @wehangout​, an unique writer in the fandom, author of stories such as Coming Undone, One by One, Help Me (Tear down My Reason) and the Our Souls series. Oh, there are two surprises this time...

GT: What can you tell us about yourself?

J: A bit about me ... I'm in my thirties, married with two kids and two cats, and I desperately want a dog. Life has yet to give me one, though I continue to wait ever impatiently. I live in New Zealand which legit might be the best place to be as of the last eighteen months or so, just sayin'. I love to read and write, I love all animals but have a weird phobia of sharks, and I'm currently bingeing Lucifer, so tag your spoilers, friends!

GT: Yes, from what I've heard from a friend in New Zealand, things are as controlled as possible there, which is great!

How old are your kids? Is it hard to find time to write with them around?

J: They're 9 and 5, so with them both at school that does give me my days to write, but I tend to have more motivation at night, haha. Once my youngest is in bed for the night I'm good to go. My oldest is a bit of a "gamer" so she does her thing and I do mine.

GT: Oh good, they're somewhat independent enough then.

I love cats, so I must ask you to please tell me more about yours. 

J: My babies 😻 They're getting to an age where I don't know how long they have left and I want to talk about them all the time, haha.

This is Chiko. She was found tiny and cold on the side of the road. The vet first thought she was about 6 weeks old, but after a check up realized she was about 6 months! She was so tiny she was only allowed half a cup of cat food a day. Now she's a queen.

And this is my Moe, Moses, Malloy-loy. He's a fighter and has cost us so much in vet bills, but he's a big baby, the best napping companion, and the most handsome.

GT: They're amazing, I love them. 

You said you like reading and writing. Is that books too or mainly fanfiction?

J: Oh, for sure books, too. My first fandom I wrote seriously for was The Outsiders, I'm a huge HP fan (Death of the Author very much applies to both here), and I have a giant pile of to-read books, haha. I've written original stuff, too ...

I think fanfic is just easier, though? For both reading and writing. With writing, fanfic gives that instant gratification, whether from readers or beta readers - there's always someone willing to give it a go, unlike with original writing. They don't need to be introduced to new characters, new situations, etc. I think the same goes for why I read for fanfic, too. It's easier and quicker for me to submerge myself into a good Ian and Mickey fic than it is to pick up an unread novel. I'm part of my own problem lmao.

Plus, to be fair, there are so many fics and writers in this fandom that wow me more than a lot of books do.

GT: Do you aspire to publish your own original stories one day?

J: I mean, that's the dream. I just find it so difficult, and not just the lack of instant gratification. Even finding someone invested enough to beta or bounce ideas around with is hard. I feel like, until you've made a name for yourself, not many people are interested in your original writing.

Technically (lol) I am published. I've placed in a couple of writing comps and one of them published my short story in a journal along with a bunch of others and some poetry. That was cool.

Plus my best writing is usually in second person, and that's hella frowned upon in original fiction lmao

GT: Why do you choose to write in second person?

J: It's not really a choice, to be honest. I struggled so hard with the constant he/him pronouns the first time I tried to write M/M romance that I followed in the footsteps of a friend and gave second person a go. Trying to do the whole "he went over to him, cupped his face in his hands, and a sigh fell from his lips" thing messes with my head. Like, who is who? I can't do it without constant proper nouns and that just gets messy, haha.

I have huge respect for literally every other writer in the fandom for being able to write Ian and Mickey's love story in third person pov, but even when I try I slip into second without realising it half the time. I mean, the first time I wrote in second person was a good eleven years ago and now it just feels ... right. You know?

GT: It's certainly unusual! Not a lot of people doing that.

How did you get into Shameless?

J: Through tumblr. I was fading from SPN and Destiel, and I guess a few of my mutuals were, too, because my dash was full of Don't and Together and epic club kisses. Ian and Mickey ruined me before I saw a single episode lmao.

GT: Same thing happened to me. When did you start watching it?

J: Right between season four and five.

GT: So you also suffered the 5x12 heartbreak.

J: I did! And then, like many, I stopped watching unless Mickey was there, haha.

GT: Yeah, I think many of us did that

What did you think of the last two seasons?

J: I mean, they got married and lived happily ever after, so I can't complain. I think, for me at least, after the shit-show of s5 it was all very whatever. The worst of the worst had already happened, so if we got great stuff (and we did, for sure) then yay ... if we got not great stuff (and again, we did), then it wasn't a surprise, you know?

I wasn't terribly invested in anyone else's storyline, to be honest, so as long as Ian and Mickey were good, I was good.

GT: What's your favorite season?

J: Four. I mean, they still had their issues, but every scene between them in that season is iconic. Many were problematic, but the change in their relationship from the second they saw each other again was just beautiful.

GT: Do you have a favorite episode?

J: Those s4 episodes kill me for the Ian and Mickey stuff, but for an episode as a whole, I'd go with 10x12 Gallavich! To be honest, I'm an Ian and Mickey fan, not a Shameless fan.

GT: I can relate.

What made you want to write for them?

J: Ooh, that feels like so long ago that I have no idea! I think it was probably just my love for writing and love for their relationship combining.

GT: What do you like best about writing Gallavich?

J: I love the endless possibilities of them. No matter what kind of AU we stick them in, their characterisation still works and they always end up madly in love! It could be the 1800s, or Mickey might be a witch, maybe one of them is a serial killer. It doesn't matter because they fit in everywhere and they always end up together.

GT: He could be a witch and a serial killer. ;)

And what's difficult about writing them?

J: Ooh, Ian's POV lmao

Witch and a serial killer - love that idea 😂

GT: Where do you find inspiration for your fics?

J: Usually other fics/books/writers. Sometimes a line in one fic or book will make me think of something else entirely and then a whole fic idea will come about.

Or even someone's AU will make me think of another completely different AU that doesn't relate at all, haha.

And then other writers. They just inspire me in general. I want to be able to write like them and tell stories like they do and that makes me want to try, you know?

And often a fic will give me such intense feelings that I want to evoke that kind of feeling through my own writing and for people who read my writing.

GT: Which Gallavich writers or fics are your favorite?

J: My favourite writer is pink_ink (@palepinkgoat​). I'd follow her anywhere. Literally. Her last fic was ABO, which I don't like and refuse to read, but someone talked me into giving hers a go, and ... phew, it was so good. I also love devovitsuasartes (their originality is mind-blowing), @loftec​, J_Q, @romanticalgirl​ (though they don't write for Shameless anymore), and Shamelessquestions [@goodkwuestion​].

My fave fics ... yikes. My all-time favourite is Our Freedom in My Sight by lilbatfacedgirl. Ugh, it's so good and I'm working myself up for a reread. Also, Lost in Translation is a go-to, the Four Eight series inspired me to start writing Ian and Mickey, and the little things give you away by kissteethstainred simply kills me.

GT: Lost in Translation is one of my all-time favourites

What about your own fics? Do you have a soft spot for any of them?

J: Ooh, maybe my most recent fic, Thicker than Forget, but maybe because it's my most recent? But also maybe because it's somewhat cheerful and has lots of banter and it's so different to things I've written in the past. It all came surprisingly easy and it just feels super chill and makes me happy to think about. It didn't feel like work at all. It was so fun and easy to write - the banter is chill, the attraction is obvious, and the love is real. The hardest part of writing that fic was getting the ice-cream flavour names because the American Baksin Robbins website wouldn't let me on lmao.

I also wrote a Band of Brothers/WW2 AU for GW a few years back that I've since taken down. It might be my fave thing that I've written, but I took it down, made it original, and used it for a writing competition. It's one of the ones that came third, so worth it, I guess, haha.

GT: What are some of your favorite tropes?

J: Oooh, yes, I love that. Enemies to friends to lovers, mutual pining, and fake dating would be my faves.

GT: Do you have any pet peeves when it comes to reading Gallavich fics?

J: Okay, I totally have pet peeves. I could make a list. First-person pov, not using paragraphs, not using an oxford comma (though I can look past that one), draggy beginnings where it takes forever for the story to really begin, lyrics littered throughout the fics ... there are more, but I'll hold back lmao

GT: Tell us a bit about your writing process. How do you start a fic?

J: My process is a mess. Sometimes I plot/bullet point the entire fic, other times I just write and see what happens lmao. The only constants I have are that I need to know how the fic ends before I can get fully invested (even if I'm not sure how I reach that ending!), and I need a solid first line. I can't write anything until I have a first line that I love.

GT: How do you choose your titles?

J: Usually from songs, occasionally from a phrase in the fic, once or twice from poems. The amount of time I spend going through song lyrics is ridiculous, tbh.

GT: What kind of comments do you just love to get?

J: I mean, I for sure love all comments obviously, but the ones that quote bits of my fic back to me absolutely make me warm inside. When they comment on what line or what scene they loved, and I can compare that to how I felt writing it - it's just such a good feeling. I also still love the i-don't-usually-read-second-person-but comment. I've had a bunch of those and I get a little thrill every time I convert someone 😂

GT: I can totally see why that would make you happy!

Alright, what's next then? What have you got planned?

J: I was planning something for all 7 days of GW, but real life got in the way lmao. I do have one WIP I want to get back to, but I don't want to give too much away about that. Other than that I need @shamelessbigbang to do another round this year, because that seems to be what inspires me most 😂

GT: Whatever you make for GW I'm sure will be great! And since I'm the one who runs it, let me assure you if you finish your things at a later date lots of people will be equally happy. Content is content. The idea of GW is to give everyone who needs a bit of a boost, so we all win at the end.

Ok, that was my last question. Thank you so much for doing this. Any final words?

J: Just thank you! I love, love, love reading these, so to be included in one is amazing! It was a lot of fun, and I'm sorry I took forever to get back to you after each question lmao. And for anyone who reads my writing - 💜💜💜 it's so very appreciated!

GT: It was my pleasure! Happy writing!

[kaydeefalls]

I love that your hamster's name is Hamlet. Mine was named Cinnamon Roll, but one of my nicknames for her was Hamlet Ham. (She didn't come to live with me until she was middle-aged, so we never bonded to the point that she would snuggle like that. But given how she reacted to my cats, I'm pretty sure she didn't know she was prey either. She might have thought that we were prey.)

Cinnamon Roll is an excellent name for a hamster! I can perfectly picture a hammy named Cinnamon Roll in my head right now and she is adorable.

I acquired Hamlet via a seven-year-old in my apartment building whose family was moving out and weren't taking him with them (why, I don't know), and best guess is that he was around 9 months old...which, for hamsters, is definitely fully adult. But he's legit the most easygoing hamster I've ever met. Never bites, totally happy to be held, prefers climbing all over us even when we give him an entire bedspread to explore. I think he's just genuinely missing some basic prey animal instincts. The 7yo used to play with him like a doll, grabbing and shoving him all over the place to act out her stories, so maybe he's just so shellshocked from that experience that he has no fear left.

[sagamemes]

disastrio text starters episode II:  teeth and tomfoolery.   below and under the cut, you can find 75 messages dug up from the pins of the cursed group chat of three international friends, and some select dms. slightly edited for roleplay purposes, with spelling errors opted to keep in tact to maintain the Energy™. edit as you please.  tw: nsfw and kink mentions.

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   when i have nothing to add i just screenshot it sorry

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   [name] i am going to choke you.

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   sorry i laughed too hard and now my mother is yelling

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   it's nearly [zodiac] season, bitches

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   thunder just shook my entire car.   [ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   why must we all pay for florida man's sins.

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i is business contact

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   only if they mentioned something about te*th

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i don't watch enough simpsons to know what that means but i love you

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   hey who wants to hear a fun fact about the progression of time

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   as if you could curb your scientific curiosity for long enough to leave the only place on earth where someone might use "hey who wants to hear a fun fact about the progression of time" as a conversation opener

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   "you want to punish yourself by seeking unhealthy relationships."    [ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   also the stars say you may want to have your feet fucked.

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   this is the worst thing i have come across all week

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   maybe it's the preparation for pangea   [ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   which i for one am all for

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   you're kdidng

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   the real magic was the tomfoolery we had along the way?

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   that sounds like a famous last words situation

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   the death of a platform cannot end our tomfoolery

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i'll die hot   [ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   in every sense of the word

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   there's a "everything is bigger in texas" joke in there somewhere

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   what can i say i love to validate my friends

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   when ur suffering too much from anxiety to fly so u just recreate 179,997,981 B.C.

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   at this point i'm taking no responsibilities you know what you're signing up for when u open this chat

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   valid and good information and all but I fucking refuse to teach my kids how to "hook up so they're not nervous anymore"

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   we need a gang sign

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i like having the reputation of terror among those who Don't Know Me

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   if the worst thing that people think about me is that i have a [thing] kink then i can live with that

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   teeth r hot what is anyone going to do about it

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   the fact that the conversation just ends there makes it look like you legit hopped on a plane and unhinged your jaw

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   the suns will come for us all

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   my conspiracy theory is strengthening

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   they're telling u to be suspicious of the house plant in case there's a mic in there

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   [name] didn't u hear me the tractor supply is a front for a secret government agency keep up

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   who needs eyes when u got swag

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   not to completely derail the conversation but [person] just said that she believes male nipples should fall off like the umbilical cord at some point and i can't fucking breathe

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   there are only so many contexts for [body part] in a sexual setting

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   WHERE ARE YOUR TEETH IF NOT ATTACHED TO YOUR HEAD

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   the Salmon Instinct(tm) always gets ya

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i immediately regret typing that

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   ur parents thought gators made a nice backdrop for babymaking

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i'm surrounded by rats i see

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   p sure the faculty let it go on bc it would work as abstinence fuel

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i choose ignorance

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i'm not linking anything google at your own risk

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   just let [name] do the talking, even if it's about teeth

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   john mulaney was right

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i will relish in your suffering nonetheless

[ ����𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i've got therapy at 10, and a tarot reading at 9.

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   me: yeah i consider myself a logical, even overthinking individual   [ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   also me: no wait fuck i'm gonna burn my couch *SLAPS THE FIRE*

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   tonightwith food, i will weep, do not fret

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   cry those shit chemicals out

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   vastly different kids of chaos, urs hurts u, i just had to eat the marshmallows faster to get rid of Bad Taste

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   finland is the florida of europe

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   but more importantly it made my heart hurt

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   all roads lead to [person/public figure]

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   it is Fucking Moist here my mans   [ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   ....humid. the word i was looking for is humid

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   if there ever comes a day when i stop liveblogging my misfortune here, presume me dead

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   that's a whole child

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i hate them both so [name] just go my wrath in that moment

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   our entire relationship is based on fictional emotional s/m

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i hope u realise we're gonna kidnap u when u come here right

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   update: 4 am and i'm crying about a fictional bird child

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   can someone please kill the hobgoblin, they keep coming back and i have nothing left to give

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   cursed threeway

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   the minions crucified jesus

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   THE FUCKER STOLE MY TERRIYAKI JERKY

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   "you're a shameless little jerky thief and i hate you" - [name] about the cat, but it's better without context

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   I consider this further proof that Romeo and Juliet ruin everything

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i have the sense of humour of a 12 year old

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   yeah rodeo girls will do that to u tho

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   [name] has the brain cell and they fell asleep with it

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i'm never gonna be able to look at rich people furniture without presuming it's a kink thing hiding in plain sight

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   but who am i if not the bitch to say the thing nobody wants to

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   i must've missed deep sea penis

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   IT’S IN MAJOR IT COUNTS AS LIGHT-HEARTED

[ 𝚃𝙴𝚇𝚃 ]   op of this article has a vore kink