#SCENES WITH EMILY AND SUE

[hauntedlovewasteland]

Taylor’s little obsession with Emily Dickinson, Evermore being released on Dec. 10, Dickinson’s birthday, Swift said in an interview that the cover art was partially inspired by a "girl sleepwalking through the forest in a nightgown in 1830," which is the year Dickinson was born, and her giving her song Ivy (one of her gayest songs) to the show Dickinson to play as the credits run after Emily and Sue have a steamy sex scene is my real Roman Empire.

[wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee28374728]

Ok, so i haven't seen a comparison for the new vs old poster design, and it is different, so I'm going to go over everything I notice that looks different and say which version I like better

I've broken it down into 3 parts, the skull on top, the bottom image with the lodge, and a specific part for the lineup of characters at the bottom

The skull doesn't look much different, but there are a few things that are definitely changed. Another thing that's different is that the old one has a transparent gradient that makes it so you can see the snow that's pouring down onto the lodge in the bottom half of the skull, almost making the skull look like its made of ice, while you can't see that in the new one. The new skull is slightly thinner and taller. And the new skull has more a pronounced red glow. I prefer the transparent bottom, but I like the shape of the new one, and the red glow being stronger

The bottom scene is a little more different, with the lodge being visually facing a whole other direction. The windows are lit in the new one, and there's now snow and ice around the base of the hourglass. The lodge itself looks more impressive and imposing. I overall prefer the new bottom half

The row of characters at the bottom is super interesting, because it implies a lot. Now right off the bat you can see them better in the new one. As best I can tell, the original goes, from left to right, Chris, Sam, Ashley, Mike, Matt, Emily, Josh, Jess. Sue me if I'm wrong. The new one, much easier to see, goes Matt, Ashley, Chris, Mike, Sam, Josh, Jess, Emily. I this the new order makes more sense, with Mike and Sam, the main character archetypes, in the middle, Josh and Chris, both huge players in the story, next to them, then the characters who have less decisions and large impact, Matt, Ashley, Jess and Emily, on the outside. Prefer the new lineup

Edit: huh, they made Jess's parka thing pink???

[ancientcosmicentity]

So, I'm rewatching Criminal Minds, soooooo, here's my character sexuality headcannons and ships and why.

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Character sexuality headcannons:

Gideon - straight, somewhere in the aromantic spectrum

Rossi - straight but experimented

Hotch - bicon w/preference for women

Elle - bisexual lesbian (i know, controversial)

JJ - bi girlie

Prentiss - lesbian queen

(Jemily, my beloved)

Reid - bi (cannon if they weren't cowards)

Morgan - bicon part 2 electric bugaloo

Luke - pansexual, demiromantic babes

Garcia - pan/lesbian/queer (leaning slightly more queer)

Reasons:

Gideon -

He doesn't radiate sad gay old man vibes like some others (cough cough hotch cough cough) but he definitely isn't entirely straight either, I feel like he takes a minute to grow a connection and it's that connection he needs to pursue a healthy relationship. So probs demiromantic (maybe i project, sue me !! I want more demi romantic characters) but could also fall on other areas of the aromantic spectrum.

Rossi -

Similar to Gideon, doesn't radiate the same gay old man vibes and I loved his relationship with hayden (joys mum). However, he is canonically a kinky bastard in his youth, and he most definitely had no qualms about fucking around with guys, he wasn't attracted to them and is instead just one hell of an ally who was also heavily involved in queer and kink scenes.

Hotch -

SAD OLD GAY MAN VIBES !! I do enjoy his relationship with haley, and i know he can have had a strong fulfilling relationship with a women without being attracted to her, but I do think he is attracted to women. But he also just radiates sad gay dad there fore 💫bicon hotch💫. Also, he was a troubled teen in an all boys boarding school...I will die on the fact he was a bit of a whore in his youth before haley, I wish we had more on his backstory and what the timeline was but in my head - all boys boarding school for most of his early and mid teenage years before meeting haley late/final year of highschool post transfer - I can't remember if that is even possible with what we know in show but I don't care !! Also, defo had a little thing for garcias friend in the Halloween episode when he gets Jack's costume.

Elle -

I didn't know what I thought she would be at first cuz like she defo loves women but she does have a thing with men then it struck me, both !! She defo would fuck a man but would not want a relationship with one/has no romantic attraction to them. Women on the other hand, she with eat their pussy and put a ring on it at the same time like a true queer icon. I know it's a controversial label but also, they're fiction characters and want to make fun head cannons with fun words !!

JJ -

She just is. Like, I could write a whole essay on the parallels of queerness with JJ, but I'm already yapping excessively and those video essays already exist sooooo I'll let them be lol. Also, i love jemily so much but NO ONE TALKS BAD ABOUT WILL LAMONTAGUE JNR. his and JJs relationship is so cute so I shall multi ship and throuple these mother fuckers as much as I please.

Prentiss -

Literally the OG man hating lesbian and I love her for it. She has never been attracted to a man in her life and i shall die on that hill. Emily prentiss, know I love you deeply.

Reid -

Literally the most stereotypical bisexual to bisexual. And I love him for it. Like, he likes women, but he had more chemistry with Ethan in a SINGLE EPISODE than with JJ (jeid, my UNbeloved) I love my bisexual nerd.

Morgan -

I won't even lie to you this is mostly for angst and hurt/comfort purposes. He lost his father young and took on the role as 'man of the house' incredibly young, then their was C*rl B*ford, and I just love a self realisation fic where he comes to terms with the fact that he is allowed to be attracted to men and that not discount his past trauma and be COMFORTED FOR IT !!! don't get me wrong, all the characters (especially reid) have gone through it, but please!! Give me some morgan-centric fics where he gets comforted and it not delve into other characters trauma. I love reid but please, I need morgan centric hurt/comfort fics where he doesn't act uncharacteristically violently.

Luke -

Ngl, this is entirely vibes. There's nothing I can point to for 'evidence' or 'proper' reasoning, it is just straight up vibes and I choose to stand by it.

Garcia -

This is where I struggle !! Cuz like, she is definitely not straight and I kinda want to say she's a lesbian but I love her relationships with kevin and I love galvez so much. So maybe pan cuase I think i have put too many as bi lol but I also think maybe she would just be unlabelled and 'queer' (let me project onto my  favourite characters okay !!), so probs leaning more towards queer but still up in the air.

Just a little extra here. Hotches stint as a whore, and JJ in a throuple aren't meant to be comments on bisexuality as an identity. For hotch, i just love the trope of very stoic/serious/otherwise unsuspecting character being a whore on the past mostly then for the accidental 'oh, during this very important situation and the person whose important we must talk to I have slept with fuck' moments I love ngl. And I just love both JJ and wills and JJ and Emily as ships and want them all together and happy and see next section for further reasoning. Just got worried on case this fell into any stereotypes of bi people being 'greedy' or unable to have committed relationships or being known for sleeping around. It was not intended !!

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Ships I like and why:

• Jemily

A classic. They're so fucking close and so cute with eachother. They lean on eachother and know nigh everything about eachother even stuff they have been told not to share. I love them together and they'd be fucking precious together!!

• JJ × Will

A cannon straight ship I like. This is highly unusual. I love will with JJ, and honestly just Will as a character. They're relationship and family together is so sweet and cute and I love them as a couple I won't lie. Also male wife × girlboss

• Emily × JJ × Will

I do ship them both speratley but do love a good throuple ship. JJ with her wife and husband, living her best life. I love both these ships and have never been a fan of infidelity trope in fic, and honestly, I want to see wine besties Will and Emily cuz they so would be. They would both put their lives on the line for JJ and that creates a base if respect and trust between them.

• Galvez

I LOVE PENELOPE AND LUKE !!!! I love how garcia is cold at first to him and stand offish and Luke just puppy wags tail 'she's so cool' 'I've heard she's so nice' I love it !! They're precious together and I'm so mad they didn't go through with it in the og 15 seasons (reboot don't let me down on this)

• Morgan and garcia QPR

I do love Morgan and garcia but I don't like them as a romantic couple. I love their violently flirty yet platonic friendship HOWEVER !!! I do love them as a queer platonic relationship. They're is something there that is more than platonic but not romantic and I also just want more QPR stuff in media (including fan media) also: shout out to my irl QPP cuz she will get her appreciation !!! Love you babes (even tho you'll probs not see this)

For next section, just know i stand heavily by SHIP AND LET SHIP. I don't like these for my own reason, if you do SLAY !! I love that for you. But for me, it's just not a fave.

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Ships I don't like and why:

• Jeid

...why? Just why? Reid had a small crush on her in SEASON 1 then she confesses to being in love with Reid in SEASON 14!! there was no build up, or even really mention on it between that time, including which JJ getting a husband and family and Reid going through his love life with Maeve and that whole situation. I like them more as brother and sister type vibe.

• Anyone on the team with Hotch, Rossi, or Gideon

I just don't like it. They all feel like the parents of the team so them shipped with anyone else feels icky to me.

[hunxi-after-hours]

"From books to film to theatre, writers have always been inspired by the stories that came before them. As artists, what are we if not the sum of all we’ve seen and absorbed and alchemised into our own voice? The history of oral storytelling is a history of retelling; the art of storytelling is almost always an act of retelling in some way."

—Wen-yi Lee, "The Comfort (and Discomfort) of Retellings"

"BIPOC retellings are often about demanding a place. Otherwise or at the same time they can critique the rosy nostalgia of fairytale worlds (or the usually-fascist leaning that comes with hyper-defence of Classics and Canon and Civilisation). Queer retellings of great love stories are often claims less to the characters and more to that great love in itself. Retellings are often saying: we, too, claim crowns and prophecies, great loves and romantic tragedies. If these stories have been impressed on everyone as the epitome of human storytelling and mythology, then everyone has equal rights to them."

[...]

"At the same time, there is also a power in simply letting ahistoricity exist, and deliberately not acknowledging oppressive structures at all. Regencies without racism; queer-norm historical settings. Sometimes people are just allowed to imagine themselves in nice things.  "Whether it’s interrogating or (re)claiming the original, I think these retellings are most powerful when they have something to say—when they step into the ring with a conversation in mind."

[...]

"The swell of Chinese fantasy has made more mainstream both mythological elements as well as direct retellings: Shelley Parker-Chan’s genderbent Ming Emperor in She Who Became the Sun and Xiran Jay Zhao’s mecha-pilot Wu Zetian in Iron Widow; Ann Liang’s A Song To Drown Rivers, a romantic retelling of one of China’s Four Beauties; Sister Snake, Amanda Lee Koe’s modernised take on the Legend of the White Snake’s monstrous snake women; S.L. Huang’s The Water Outlaws, a queer spin on other Chinese classic Water Margin; Sue Lynn Tan and Emily XR Pan’s reimaginings of the legend of Chang’e (Daughter of the Moon Goddess and An Arrow to the Moon, respectively) and Van Hoang and C.B. Lee’s versions of Sun Wukong (Girl Giant and the Monkey King and The Epic Crush of Genie Lo, respectively)... "We’re somewhere. The next step is obviously okay, good, now more.    "I think about non-Western retellings that bear the weight of also being tellings, of being the first time these characters and symbols and histories have ever been presented in the Western or English-language literary scene. What retellings are received as comfortable, and which are received as exotic? ...But I can’t nowadays think about books without also thinking of the social and financial factors affecting their writing, publishing, marketing, distribution, and translation. There are ranges everywhere. So it’s retold once. Will it be retold in different languages, in different countries, in all the bookstores? Even after 'Are we able to tell it?' it’s 'Are we able to sell it?'"

[letmesleep8]

even if I die screaming // elliexreader

CHAPTER 5: Fortnight

AO3 | chapter 4

content warnings/tags: sex scene (not smut), subtle homophobia

notes: I promised I'd be back in no time! so here I am. I hope you enjoy it, have a great day/night/life!! sorry for not being really smutty, I know a bunch of people like it but I didn't feel comfortable.

taglist: @h4-rt3s @lorelaihehe @intothespidersweb @pinkinternetfire

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“What can I say to your mom to let you come outside?

You know I'll be seeking if you run and hide

If the door were to open, would you walk through the frame?

If you're too afraid, it won't be you I blame”

— Triple Dog Dare, Lucy Dacus

February 09, 2039 Winter

“I chose this single star

From out the wide night’s numbers —

Sue — forevermore!”

 When Emily Dickinson wrote for Sue, she knew what to say, she had touched her for much more than fifteen minutes. Though I will always have the chance to love Ellie, I won’t ever know what it’s like to have her. As long as I’m too scared to come off my shell, I will never know what it is like to own a Susan of my own. Must “be of itself a bliss” to hold such soft skin, to feel such callused fingers and to feel your heart burning. Must be of itself a bliss for intimacy to feel intimate and not invasive. 

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I hid my journal and went back to the kitchen, as usual. It’s been a few weeks since my mom last let me leave the house. The windows were also kept closed, it was my punishment for, as Mama said, “going against who I was.” She said I’ve been acting unlike me, and that her beautiful daughter would have never done such things. 

So I’ve been trying my best to be as close to the old me as possible so she can forgive. I know I’ve already lost Ellie, there’s no way she would want anything to do with me after all that went down on our first date. So my goal now is to  just go back to where I was before it all went down: my mom’s good graces. 

I finished brooming the kitchen and went for the cookies I left in the oven. “Aren’t you gonna grab some? They’ll be cold when you’re back.” I asked my mom. “I’m sure they’ll be fine”, she replied. She’s been going on patrol while I’m home. At first I thought she trusted me not to go outside but then I realized the door was simply locked anyway. I got her her bag and she walked out, placing a kiss on my forehead. 

As the door was locked again, I went to the bathroom for a shower. My face looked horrible, I looked undead. Dark circles that denounced loads of sleepless nights and messy hair that indicated many depressing mornings, both that differed from my always-put-together self. I decided to wash my face and brush my hair for once, also to eat something. After, I went back  to my room and my endless pile of poetry where I could find a bit of peace, some were even self written.

I heard some steps outside my room and I thought my mom may have forgotten something. I walked to the living room, still holding my book. I almost fell on my back when I saw Ellie climbing a window in the living room. 

“What the fuck are you doing?!” I gasped, walking up to her. 

“I- I picked the lock on the window.” She couldn’t contain the excitement on her face. “You’re alive.”

I restrained a smile. “Of course I’m alive. But not for long if my mom sees you here.”

She shook her head, still smiling. “No, no, no. Joel’s on patrol with her, he promised to keep her busy for at least two hours so we could talk.” I sat down on the sofa.

“Talk about what?” I started feeling nervous. I couldn’t keep eye contact with her. 

“We kissed. A lot. On the blanket. I liked it.” She corrected herself. “ We liked it. And then Dina told me about your mom and how she freaked out and held you hostage-”

“She is not holding me hostage.” I interrupted Ellie. “She is my mom.”

“Oh, so you’re going to tell me that you’re here stuck with the curtains closed for two weeks because you enjoy it?” She got me there. 

“I’m grounded. She didn’t like that I went out at night.” I tried to keep my confidence.

“She didn’t like that you went out or she didn’t like that you went out with me?” Ellie raised her eyebrow, sitting by my side.

“She didn’t like that I went out with you. That 's true.” I sighed. “She knows you’ve dated Cat, she’s just scared that I’m gonna end up…”

“Dating me too?” She smirked. “Damn, she thinks I’m that irresistible?” 

“That’s not funny at all, Ellie!” I scolded her. “She won’t ever let me see you again, I don’t even know when she’s gonna let me see anyone. And she doesn’t even know about the kiss. I can’t stand this anymore.”

Ellie looked down. “It must suck to be here on your own all day.” 

“What? No-” I shook my head. “No, I’m not worried about being here. I’m worried ‘cause I won’t ever see you! And I’ll never get to talk to you again, or to kiss you, or to-” I paused.

“You’re talking to me right now.” She looked deep into my eyes. I held my breath.

“Look,” I took her tattooed hand in mine. “I really wish I could do something, but I can’t. She’s my mom, I can’t disobey her like that and she will never let me hold you for as long as she is alive.” 

She squeezed my hand, a heartbroken but conformed look in her eyes. “Then at least let’s say goodbye in the right way. Just goodbye, and then I will leave you alone and you can go back to Mike and your mom and the life she wants you to live. But for tonight, let me just…” Her voice sounded weak, could it be possible that she would cry because of me?. “Let me just love you. For tonight.” She swallowed any insistent tears.

I knew what she meant. I wanted to pretend like I didn’t but I wasn’t clueless and, to be fair, I wanted it just as much as her. “Yeah. For tonight.” It came out almost like a whisper. She didn’t lose any seconds, instantly kissing my lips and grabbing my waist. I touched her neck and kissed her like it was the last time. Well, it was. 

She laid me down on the couch without breaking contact. Her hands went under my sweater, warming me up and making me forget about the cold winter. A  blizzard seemed to be forming up outside but, for me, that didn’t exist. There was no “outside”. The only thing that existed was this house, this couch and the burning Summer of Ellie’s body.   

I had sex with Ellie that night. She taught me things I didn’t know. Like how it feels like to explode inside of yourself, and how it feels to dewater your body onto someone else until you feel completely dry and senseless. 

She dug her nails deep into my skin. It felt like she was hoping to get a piece of me under her nails, just so she could take it home with her. I, too, behaved like an animal, like I needed it. Because I needed her. 

My only goal was to make this be remarkable, I want her to remember me forever. Is that selfish? I am selfish. But that’s fine, I think she is, too. The marks of her gentle biting into my neck and shoulders feel like tattoos on my skin, there to show possession. Maybe to mom, maybe to Mike. A way of saying “it doesn’t matter your position or title you may have, she is mine, mine, mine”, like a child writing their name in their favorite book at the library, or a teenager tagging their initials on their favorite spot. It may not belong to you, but it belongs with you, and she wanted everyone to know that.

We laid there in silence, staring at the ceiling, for a few minutes after we finished.

“Have you ever felt this way?” Ellie asked, gently caressing my arm.

“No. I didn’t know it could feel like this. Like, not hurt.” I replied. 

“What?” She looked at me, confused. “Mike hurts you?” She looked ready to fight when I put my hands on her chest. 

“No!” I chuckled. “Mike does not hurt me. I was talking about… being with someone. I didn’t know it could not feel like a chore, or a burden.”

She breathed in slowly, still staring at me. I thought maybe I had said something wrong, maybe I was too cheeky. I felt a knot on my throat. Oh my, I’ve ruined it all. That’s when she sat up straight on the couch. 

“I can’t let you live like this.” She started putting on her clothes. She threw my shirt to me. 

“What?!” I started getting dressed too, confused.

“I can’t let you live this. I can’t! I can’t. I can’t let you stay with your mom, I can’t let you marry Mike-” I interrupted her nervous ranting, “I am not marrying Mike.” 

She looked on the verge of tears, I’ve never seen her like that. “That is only a matter of time!” She stepped in closer to me. “Look, let’s- let’s just go away. I can hunt for our food, we’ll find an abandoned farm somewhere. Look, I- we’ll find a way. We’ll be together, that’s all that matters to me.” 

She looked dead serious. I am not the type to believe in fairytales, I knew we had little to no chance of survival,  but I am also not the type to live unhappily. And I would rather die than live a life without her. 

I started walking to a closet, she followed. I opened it with a key and, hidden behind boxes, I found the car battery my mom kept. I looked back at Ellie, she looked at me, too. We knew that the moment we took that off of its place there was no turning back. That moment I heard someone open the front door. 

I froze, thinking it could only be my mom. Too late, it’s over. That was until I saw Joel, covered in fresh blood.

“I am sorry. I wasn’t able to do anything.”

[rockermazy]

All singing in the show is canonically diegetic - meaning that all singing 100% takes place in-universe, for all the characters to hear and potentially participate in.

In the first (non-pilot) episode, the " Story of Hell" book, as read by Charlie, states that Lillith "empower[ed] demon-kind with her voice and her songs - and as the numbers of Hell grew, so did its power." After the extermination began, Lilith's "dream was passed down to her precious daughter, the Princess of Hell", who is presumably Charlie herself. Two scenes later, Charlie is in musical-notation hammerspace with other denizens, being the cognito hazard that she is.

In episode 7, Rosie invites Charlie to rally Cannibal Town in defending the hotel during the upcoming extermination. When Charlie initially fails, Rosie asks how she normally explains her hotel. Charlie replies, "Through singing". Singing is canonically a gift of both Charlie and every demon - both Hellborn and Sinner.

Which leads me to a theory: One thing that's been nagging me since the pilot, is how Lucifer and Lilith have been fucking for nearly 6,000 years, but only NOW decided to have a daughter in the 21st century. It makes Charlie's existence look almost Mary Sue-ish*. After watching Helluva Boss, it made more sense that Charlie might be an "insurance baby", much like Octavia is to Stolas' lineage. Lucifer might not be unkillable. Carmine and the hotel battle of episode 8 have both demonstrated that angels can be killed with the right ammunition. But why was Charlie born now, in the 21st century? My theory is that Heaven asked Lilith to leave Hell, hoping she'd take her song with her. Heaven knew that Lilith was the one making Hell stronger through her songs. Charlie uses song to rally the people around her.

Husk used song to heal.

Song, even when used to butt heads, (ex: Lucifer vs Alastor), will make combatants drop valuable info, basically outing themselves to everyone within earshot in this universe.

My guess is that a conversation sometime in the past went something like this: Heaven: Lilith, bitch - we see what you're doing. Stop teaching Hell how to sing - the bonding and wholesomeness is threatening our status quo." Lilith: No. Heaven: Fine, we'll exterminate. Lilith: (years later, looking at Carmine's charts) hmmm... the number of sinners getting exterminated each year seems to be climbing. Heaven might want all of us dead. Hey, Luci-boo... get your depressed-ass over here. You wanna make a kid this time? (Waits til Charlie is somewhat grown, and asks Heaven for a "meeting".) Lilith: ok, I have got an offer you cannot refuse - I will never EVER sing again, and my power will leave with me - IF you give me a spot in Heaven (or Earth - I should technically be immortal since I never touched the Forbidden Fruit). Heaven: um... win for everyone? ok! Charlie herself (for lack of a better term) might be Lilith's "ace in the hole" herself. Also, this makes me wonder if the only way to avoid lying is to avoid singing on the topic XD

*I have nothing against mary sues. I'd been wanting for years now to do something visual describing the internal turmoil that religious trauma caused in my The-Cell-starring-J-lo --like inner worlds. Telling personal stories and Mary Sues are inextricably intertwined. This show has inspired me to either keep pursuing that or just quit. Because picking apart past trauma for analysis can be more trouble than its worth - especially if you are ready to forget. u.u I still get deep chills every time I hear Emily and Charlie's duet in "You Didn't Know", even though I've officially considered myself atheist for like, what, three months?" This shit was an essay. I'm just going to play Warframe instead. Peace.

[scarlettoceaneyes]

a jacob imagine inspired by the song “stay” by rihanna ft mikky ekko ( more specifically the lyric “the reason i hold on, cause i need this hole gone” )

- 🐺 anon (i’m giving myself a cool name 😛)

🐺 yesss i got you! Sorry been trying to survive but i wanted to answer this one for you- i hope i do it justice

Stay

Tears streamed down your face as you curled into a ball in your bed. You needed a shower and to eat, but you couldn’t handle either right now. You ordered essentials like Gatorade and tissues to hold by the bed. Leaving was not an option. Everytime your feet started to stand up, your heart would shove you back down. Tomorrow would have to do for trying again.

Tomorrow didn’t bring anything different. You did eat a little out of pure starvation. The shower was taken the next day. It seemed as if you were getting weaker. Your heart broke. The worst part? You had no idea why this was happening. All you wanted was Jacob. He broke it off months ago and you were getting by ok. Not great, but showering and eating, even attending school without too much issue. Then, you saw him at the beach with the “gang”. He noticed you when you were walking your dog. Both sets of eyes locked, then something happened. You weren’t able to sleep or eat after a couple of days. The pain started like something was shot clear through your chest. When you did sleep, you had nightmares. Wolves chasing you and tearing you apart. Fire flooding into you, drowning in the ocean, jumping from cliffs, Jacob always saved you in every situation. It didn’t make sense why you were obsessed through your dreams. It leaked into every thought you had.

Two weeks after that day at the beach, you decided something needed to be done. You couldn’t make it to the clinic on the Rez alone. Sue was your neighbor from down the street who you called. She looked after you when your parents were out of town, much like these past few weeks. She didn’t realize you weren’t fine, but had lied in texts to her. Luckily, she sat down next to you and let you pour everything to her. The dreams cemented it for Sue while she dialed Jacob.

Protesting every second, Sue held up a finger when Jake answered. “Jacob? I have Y/N here who is pretty sick. I think this might be something you can help me with since you know her well. Can you come over and bring Emily too? Yes have Sam drive her. Thanks again.” I mean were you hallucinating at this point? Who was and why did Emily need to come. Jake totally didn’t. You couldn’t protest before Jacob was bounding up the stairs. Thinking to yourself how scary fast that was, you sat up suddenly feeling some better. Before you could tell Sue you weren’t comfortable with seeing him, Jacob bust into the room rushing to your side as if Sue wasn’t even there.

��Are you ok? What’s wrong? Where does it hurt? Do you need to go to the hospital? What can I do? How can-“ “Jake shut up.” You were exacerbated by this whole scene, let alone the fact Emily and Sam arrived.

“How are things going?” Emily asked Sue who replied much better now. You were sitting up and your blood pressure and heart rate had leveled out to normal. Sue wouldn’t leave until she was sure Jacob was the issue or rather his absence. Upon noting that the data looked to be supporting her idea, Sam nodded to Jacob that he better tell you.

So he did. You laughed and told him to get out of your house, same with Sam. You held your grudges. It was your house and you didn’t need this. Thinking it was simply mono or something, the guys and Emily saw themselves out. Sue walked them out to ask plenty of questions. Suspicions confirmed when Jacob admitted to imprinting. You were stubborn, normally he loved it about you. This was on the edge of dangerous and stupid reckless, worst part was you had zero idea of any of the complications of staying away from Jake caused.

Coming back to your room, Sue looked at your vitals again. They were dropping. You needed to accept the imprint, or else your heart might not make it due to the spiritual connection. Inside your brain you figured it was grief finally catching up to you, and maybe if you held on fighting long enough, you could outrun the atomic bomb sized hole in your chest. You were wrong.

Jacob didn’t get a mile down the road before feeling the twisting in his chest like someone was taking his heart and ringing it out like a wet rag. Throwing his car into a U-turn, he sped back to your parents house. Climbing the stairs he met your eyes losing their focus and glossed over. Being in close proximity stopped you from passing out, but it made you angry. You didn’t understand, he would act the same.

“Y/N let me prove it to you. Come to the window please? Watch me in the back yard. I’ll show you that all I said was true and the reason you are not well is you need to accept the imprint. Even if all you want is a protector. I will do anything just to see you better and happy. Just please?” Nodding to Jacob he ran outside while Sue helped you stand. You couldn’t ignore how much stronger you felt when he was around. Like nothing happened a few weeks ago leading up to this. You hope they weren’t going to all laugh at how they tricked you after this. How else would all this be possible?

Jacob turned and took off his shorts, then his tee. You both dated a while so this was not anything new to see. Sure he changed height and was totally ripped now, but that’s all you could tell. Then you gasped because there was a giant wolf in the place Jacob once stood. Searching memories in your head, you absolutely was positive that a wolf did not in fact eat Jacob by mistake. You totally believed them all- you murmured to Sue how you totally get it now. Then, you fainted.

Waking up in your bed, you turned your head looking for water. As if he read your mind, Jacob helped you drink out of a straw. He did admit he didn’t want to overstep your boundaries. He explained why he did what he had to and broke things off, even if he hated it. At the beach he imprinted on you and it was a perfect beautiful dream come true. You don’t say anything. Processing it all, you took too long and were too quiet. Jacob took that as his excuse to say you would leave you alone, just wanted you to know you had him if you need him. Getting out of his chair by your bed, he stopped suddenly. Looking down Jacob realized that was your hand on his wrist, even though the words you said he dreamed a thousand times, it was better in reality.

“I want you to stay Jake. Please?” Heart thudding with joy, he kept his calm as best as possible. “Yeah yeah I can stay tonight and I’ll go tomorrow if that’s what you want.”

Shaking your head with tears in your eyes you corrected him, “no, I meant forever. I miss you and never stopped loving you.” Knowing the feeling he bent down to your eye level, after meeting your eyes finding consent, he kissed you slowly. Working his way up in speed making up for lost time, he kissed you on each cheek, your forehead and nose, finally meeting your sweet tasting lips. Memories never do justice to the real feeling in the moment. Turns out you needed him, you always needed him. He needed you too.

[totallylost4you]

"Ivy" - Cincinnati - June 30, 2023 🥹

Dickinson: "Ivy" playing over the credits after a steamy sex scene between Hailee Steinfeld’s Emily and Ella Hunt’s Sue.

In addition to Evermore being released on Dec. 10, Dickinson’s birthday, Swift said in an interview that the cover art was partially inspired by a "girl sleepwalking through the forest in a nightgown in 1830," which is the year Dickinson was born. (x) (x)

So yeah, it's a war It's the goddamn fight of my life And you started it

[scarabjewels]

Corpse Bride had the PERFECT ending.

SUE ME.

The number of people who wanted Emily to be Victor's endgame, with myself included, have a similar issue or lack of growth with Emily's arc throughout the movie.

Clinging onto the idea of love, to the point of forcing it onto someone. I'm calling us and her delusional.

She also went through a sort of roundabout response of the stages of grief: grieving her life.

Shock and Denial

She knows she's dead, and yet she delusionally believed she was still a young bride waiting for her groom

Emily was murdered and Barkis, her now ex- fiance, took her dreams with her life. My theory is that after she died, she had to grieve his betrayal first. She probably coped by clinging on to her dream, convinced that she had just found the wrong guy, and that the right one would come eventually. While we see she is popular in the underworld, she was not able to find a young enough suitor or one that sparked her interest.

She also exhibited extremely idealistic scenarios of her finding the right guy. Hey, the girl was murdered the last time she took a chance on an impulse. While her pattern of falling hard fast still exists, she probably convinced herself that Victor was better because she had no dowry to present for him to take and leave her, yet he still asked her to mary him (despite being an accident), so it must be "true love". This is the kind of behaviour a loottt of people with reoccuring similar toxic relationships tell themselves, I know because I was one of them.

Emily was our hot dead girl with the delulu issues. She was in denial of the reality of the situation, even when she was aware of this.

Pain and Guilt

Notice how when Emily has a fit about Victor seeing Victoria, she said the words "you should've thought of that before you asked me to marry you" and he responds "don't you see it was a mistake, I would never marry you". The silent blinking and realization of Victor's lack of tact, out of so much frustration, and Emily's small glimpse of what kind of person she had become, was perfection. She obviously knows she was holding him captive, but she was denying the truth until the wedding. It was painful for Emily, but her reality is so twisted that she can only see her pain before Victor.

The essence of guilt came when she was given the option to poison Victor to forever be tethered to his marriage to her. With guilt, there is kindness, and her kind heart shined before guilt. She couldn't bear to kill him for her dreams because she genuinely cared and loved him still. Another time was the wedding scene. She had second thoughts and finally realized that she was taking Victor and Victoria's chance.

Anger and Bargaining

When she caught Victor seeing Victoria, not only was she pained, she was blaming and angry at Victor, as in her eyes he was cheating on her, when all he did was to escape from her, because duh, he is held against his will.

Going back to their argument, while Emily felt jealous and envy, she subtly wished she was alive. In the lamenting musical scene "Tears to Shed," she accepted her death a long time ago but envied Victoria's main asset that she can never compete with: being alive.

Depression to upward turn

Emily's lamentation of being dead and that Victor will eventually leave her, being lonely again, was evident during the Tears to Shed song and just before the infamous chemistry induced piano scene.

While we see her depressed, she had calmed down and was able to be serenaded into a neutral mood again.

Emily was in this stage completely when Victor and her were gathering everyone and getting ready to get married upstairs.

Reconstruction and working through

Emily was in her full delusions of her dreams finally come true, but her reconstruction stage flashed when she was delivering her vow and saw Victoria watching.

My own little headcanon is that she saw herself in Victoria, and she saw herself as Barkis, taking her dreams away.

She stopped Victor drinking the poisoned wine and finally spoke her truth, the raw truth that Emily is seeing the reality she is in and what she has become.

Her dreams were taken, and now she is the one taking from someone else, and she hated it. She loved Victor so much, but he wasn't hers. She brought the Vs (keehee) together, deciding to call off the marriage.

Now, facing her past is probably her final stage of reconstruction. She meets her ex-fiance and is able to protect Victor from him in the midst of the two men's showdown. She was absolutely disgusted and hated his presence, pointing the sword and telling him to get out.

The karma probably hit best when Barkis drank the poisoned wine, his last words showing how full he is of himself. He was dealt with by Emily's underworld friends soon after he died.

Acceptance

While Victor and Victoria were finally in each other's arms, Emily smiled with bittersweetness and began to walk away. Victor stopped her, attempting to keep his promise. Emily reassured he already did. He set her free, and now it is her turn to set him free.

She literally walked the aisle alone. She accepted the truth, the past, and the present. Her only future was to move on.

As a sign of moving on, she tossed the bouquet that eventually landed on Victoria's hands. With her last breath, she bursted into butterflies. Finally free.

My Conclusion: Delulu got her the Solulu

I think a major theme in Emily's arc is letting her delusion get the best of her, almost portrayed humanely. Just an observation, aside from the art style of Tim Burton, Emily looked lowkey deranged? While Victor looked tired and scared, Victoria had wonder and curiosity, and Emily looked low key crazy and held on to what little sanity she had left. I think the reason why I couldn't see that aspect as much is because she also looked so beautiful, sounded sweet, and looked delicate, albeit being a red flag and literally a horrifying, decaying reanimated corpse.

Corpse Bride really was Emily's story, told through Victor's perspective. Let's be honest, if it was from Emily's perspective, it would be similar to 500 days of summer, an unreliable narration from a delusional protagonist. That is the difference between her, Victor, and Victoria. They saw what was actually going on.

Victor was already a developed character, in my opinion. He was just a young man living with anxiety. He liked Victoria at first sight and wanted to get married. He was kind and musically inclined. He was much more of an established person than say a character needing another character for their development like Joel from Eternal Sunshine (that's a read and I meant it). So was Victoria, she was a young woman who wanted to get married, looked forward to getting to know her betrothed more, and was quite outspoken and courageous. They were just bothe caught up in an arc. Emily, albeit the different girl, was probably the one who needed a manic pixie dream man, and she got Victor. She really needed character development.

One more theme the movie has is what a broken heart can do to you. Emily loved and was betrayed. She clung to an impossible dream even after death. Victor saw the opportunity for a rebound the minute he heard Victoria was going to get married to another man. Victoria was in total shock when she was going to be betrothed to someone else and accepted to help her parents, but also stood up for herself from Barrkus the minute he showed his intentions of marrying her.

I really loved Emily realising what was happening, it took her a good minute but she got there. I also loved that Emily and Victoria never got into some kind of argument or showdown, seriously I feel like that would have happened in early to mid 2010 fantasy romances, ehem Twilight (I hate the story and the characters but it was entertaining hot garbage). It was a graceful story of love and let go.

I'm sure we have a collective head canon of Victor's and Victoria's first daughter to be named Emily.

[dicapiito]

Seeing the trailer for the new Fantastic Four movie and honestly…

Either make a video game or an animated television series.

Once again, casting the Fantastic Four movies requires that ALL FOUR CHARACTERS have equal attention as to why they’re so fantastic and yet we have another Fan4tastic movie versus the Fantastic Four movies from 2005 and 2007.

Ben Grimm is very weak. Sorry but I’m not trying to hear Cousin Richie from The Bear. Michael Chiklis did a phenomenal job as Ben Grimm because he understood to change his voice once he became The Thing. Ebon Moss Bachrach as The Thing was a not a great choice.

Pedro Pascal as Reed Richards. I was hoping for better considering how hilarious he can be when given the right material. Which is why it’s annoying because how does one see The Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent and then have him do that performance for Reed? Ioan Gruffudd as Reed Richards was charming and fun. He never got it and he played the smart but clueless guy pretty well. Some dumbass reason; the movie forgets that Reed is hilarious

Johnny Storm. My favorite. Chris Evans understood the assignment ( I’m not watching D&W) and he made Johnny Storm pretty damn fun. The scenes with Johnny and Ben were gold and entertaining. Joseph Quinn as Johnny Storm? Yeah I’m asleep. Where’s the charisma? Where’s the charm? Very mediocre and boring

Sue Storm. Vanessa Kirby bored me to tears in that Fast and Furious: Hobbs and Shaw movie and she is very boring here. Jessica Alba did a pretty good job as Sue from nailing the sibling relationship with Chris Evans as Johnny to being the Invisible Woman. Vanessa Kirby will literally make you wish that Sue Storm just didn’t bother showing up.

Great job Marvel! All you did was make some great cinematography and costumes but with a very forgettable cast. The trailer was disappointing and another Fantastic Four movie where the four are just not really that into it, just like the 2015 movie.

Maybe in 2035; we might get a better adaption.

Should’ve just asked John Krasinski and Emily Blunt after all

[zalrb]

PLL 2x19 Review - As Per Anon Request

Hanna is seriously way too calm for being framed for sending naked pictures of her step sister to the entire school.

Which Kate probably did herself but whatever.

Spencer is me every time Emily opens her mouth

"I'M NOT SCARED." Why is Emily even here honestly.

"Rosewood High has a zero tolerance policy for bullying" would she not be expelled?

LMAO they're given group work? Hanna doesn't even get suspended? I would be furious as Kate's mom. Sue the school! Sue the school! Like her daughter is a monster but she doesn't have all the facts sooooo sue the school!

Hair is back.

Hair's hair is quasi-hairing with his little fuck boy swoop.

Still looking confused as ever.

Hanna's mom is absentee for real though because like Hanna starts the show shop lifting, she crashes her ex boyfriend's car, she hides a boy in the house, she tries to ruin her father's wedding, she's caught with an apparent murder weapon, she says she's been framed and she's been hit by a car, like would you not be like my child is in CRISIS? and her just being like oh, yeah, you can tell me who you think sent this picture from your phone is such a muted response and her just walking away when Hanna won't say anything?

Honestly, one thing I really do love about T70S is how much Red and Kitty are a part of the kids' lives. Even The OC, at least season 1, was fairly decent at this, and the kids still got up to their shenanigans but Sandy and Kirsten weren't complete idiots.

At least Jenna isn't in black today.

OK but what is Shay's deal actually though. Like if she's not doing the Emily face it's like she's trying to do a smirky-sassy face, which makes sense why she found her calling as Peach because that's all she does.

"But now you make one mistake and you're tarnished." I mean, you were caught with a murder weapon, Emily. Nobody else knows what's going on.

Jenna is so not a teenager, it's hilarious.

His hair reminds me of a helmet and curtains at the same time

Aria's cracking me the fuck up because she's acting like she's just a spectator between this Caleb/Jenna thing, like oooh damn, what's the tea?

You know that meme, "it's always 2 dumb bitches telling each other 'exactlyyy'"? That's what I think of every time I see Aria and Emily in a scene alone together. Like, them deciding to call the number back together has me like, by yourselves? Did Spencer sanction this? Hanna? Are you qualified to do this?

Because now look. You don't know what to say and you just let that person hang up on you.

Caleb casually saying he lived in a sewer. I mean, it could be a joke but I do think he actually literally lived in the school vents now, so you know, it might not be hyperbole.

See, like, if you two are on the roof, sitting next to each other, and Caleb is supposed to be comforting her or trying to comfort her

and her being like "just hold me OK? that will help me" doesn't make this better, he should JUST be doing it and if the point is that how he shows his protectiveness is by wanting to DO something so he wants her phone, he still needs the Stefan stare, like PLEASE let me help you

give me that Brucas comfort

Granted, the principal taking a bribe from a parent whose kid was caught tagging is hypocritical but also, he wasn't accused of murder, lmao.

"Honey, you can't be a shark if you're toothless." Lmao, I know that because it's the show, Mona getting involved in the A shit wouldn't matter but seriously, she would get results.

Melissa and Hair making out is lmao considering they're half-siblings. So we do have some actual incest on this show.

L M A O. "My parents are illiterate"??? WHY would the show put this as one of the confessions?? Like, "I'm afraid of my dad" "I've never been kissed" "I'm still a virgin" "I know who killed Alison" fine, that all seems to mesh together, but My parents are illiterate is just SO random in this context?

"Maybe someone threw him out with the rest of the garbage" not even trash?

I swear to god if Caleb is thrown off the roof and Aria remains unthreatened....

Nah, Caleb's just chillin in a classroom.

So is Aria going to be thrown from the roof?

Oh my god, Spencer, spit it out.

Or is Aria just going to be stuck on the roof.

Or is the shadow just Holden.

Christmas and Holden. Wow, this girl's life is really never in danger.

Mona blackmailed a whole ass principal for her and Emily doesn't even say thank you.

"Hey, do you know where my mom is?" Would he even know who your mom is, Spencer.

[peachy-lemon83]

Spoilers Criminal Minds S15 E4 Saturday ahead

I love the criminal minds episode Saturday. What a breath of fresh air for most of it (except the you know stalking case but even that feels almost like a breath of fresh air and a important topic change, bc stalking doesn’t always get taking seriously but this isn’t situation where multiple people are dead like normal cases, it’s Garcia relating and wanting to help one of the people taking her workshop, and it has a different vibe then Maeve’s case where it very much felt dark dramatic tones of plot and one of favorite characters love on being at risk, while this one has literal more light tones, the apartment was very bright to the usual scenes we see on top of the other stuff going on in this episode just brightens it as well)

I love Max, I love Max, I always forget how much I love Max, especially when she starts off feeling like Spencer’s being creepy when he’s like obviously leaning away from this kid (but of course it’s her nephew like protective instincts definitely reacted there). But seriously, I love her goofing off and bringing Spencer into this “I can have funny in silly goofy way” vibes. And as we all sometimes forget Spencer didn’t get a normal childhood where he really got to be a kid a ton so this definitely feels like it’s bringing a bit of his inner child out.

The crazy neighbor trying to sue Emily for a crazy reason. Like come on this is so funny and something you hear from a decent amount of people. Like neighbors are something sometimes…

And Tara “you owe me so many drinks for this” before handling him lmao

(I also love Tara, I also forget how much I love Tara. Bringing another person with a PhD and how there’s two “it’s Dr” people! And her “your mom” jokes. I love them. I love her being a smart and serious woman who can also play these like middle school kid jokes lmao)

And then we have Matt, with he new coming child, struggling with money and building furniture. And Rossi coming and helping him! Especially when Rossi never got to do that for his kids (at least as far as I remember I was jumping around and then got sucked into watching them mostly in order by Reids prison arc lmao)

“Good find me” Max

And in a fun way not a serial killer catch me like Cat

(And the look on JJs face realizing he’s finally looking at someone who makes him so happy, something they didn’t really get to see with Maeve bc it was so secretive)

[girl4music]

WayHaught’s intimacy/off-screen sex/make out/representation/whatever you want to call it scene.

Some WEARP fans that have watched and reviewed the special have said that the scene feels forced or a little too convenient. I know exactly what they mean by that. First of all - the direction of it is literally in your face. There’s no artistic nuance as far as the direction and framing of it goes. The soundstage is purposefully erotic. It’s meant to be what it’s meant to be. Sex. And the portrayal… well, it’s typical DomKat chemistry, for sure, but it doesn’t feel like it’s their choreography. It feels like this time - it was all the showrunner’s choice. Which isn’t necessarily a bad thing. It’s just not what we’re used to as veterans in engaging with WEARP when it comes to the way DomKat themselves portray WayHaught’s physical intimacy. It usually looks and feels a lot more natural and improvised. This wasn’t so it didn’t feel as organic as I’m used to seeing it being.

It was still a realistic and authentic portrayal of WLW intimacy. It just didn’t look or feel like WayHaught’s specifically because it didn’t look or feel like DomKat. I mean I could be entirely wrong about that. Maybe this is just how both actors being settled into and fully embracing and comfortable with their queerness are. I’m just saying that it didn’t look or feel that way to me. However, what I did pick up to counteract that about the intimacy scene which was absolutely a return to form for WayHaught - that I always really love - was what caused it to happen in the scene itself. It was emotional intimacy and a useful and effective way to convey and develop on their narrative. It was, to me, a beautifully written acknowledgement and communication of both Waverly and Nicole’s feelings, desires, intentions, ambitions in that Waverly has just received acceptance and validation from Nicole that they could part ways for awhile in order for her to do what she wants to do in Egypt with Jeremy and in how Nicole confesses to her her tendency to delay or stifle Waverly’s potential because she doesn’t want to be without her and because her own personal desires and ambitions include and require Waverly to be around - to be home, with her as partners. I actually really like that this was how their physical intimacy came about. That it wasn’t just made into a scene for the sake of it even though Emily likely did think about that part first because she always makes representation a priority.

Also - as I mentioned in a previous post - I also really like how Waverly’s top came off but Nicole’s didn’t because I genuinely felt that was in respect to Kat being pregnant. Just as I feel it was also in respect to Kat being pregnant that that intimacy scene didn’t go on any longer than was necessary to convey the intention of the scene and so they wouldn’t be left in the awkward position of representing a full-on WLW sex scene because I have no idea how they could without making Kat feel extremely uncomfortable as much as the fans probably wanted and wished for it to happen in and at that moment. Emily thought of Kat.

And forgive me for being blatantly gay and a pervert, but I could not fucking take my eyes off Dom there so obviously, that was also a factor why I love the scene. But I mean, I was pretty much staring at Dom every time they were on screen throughout the entire thing. I cannot believe how much more visually attractive I find the character Waverly with a butch presentation. So yeah, that contributed a whole lot too. I won’t lie. I’m a red blooded queer woman. Fucking sue me 💁‍♀️

All in all though, I was satisfied with what we got for that scene given the 90-minute timeframe restriction and the fact that they had to hide or cover Kat’s belly. I do feel the choreography could have looked and felt more natural to DomKat’s chemistry but it’s no big deal. I’m happy I got a well-written scene regardless.

There’s certainly been much worse WLW representation of physical intimacy in TV art/entertainment. I think what we got was pretty good.

It’s just not what we’re used to getting. That’s all.

[adamnablelittledevil]

@gayboymolloy thank you for tagging me! And let me say, your taste??? >>> I've been listening to Chappell Roan lately and her music is sooooo great. I've basically only listened to 3 people since 2021, but I have opened an exception for her because she's that awesome. ^^

Tagging: @jaypentaghast, @unhinged-nonsense, @hearfrost, @waterghoulcalamity, @andy4yippee, I tried to tag more people here, but it didn't work so... If anyone sees this and wants to answer, consider yourself tagged because I love finding more about y'all. :)

Anyway, this got too long because whenever I'm given an opening to talk about things I love I lose control... But here we go. :p

9 People You Want To Know Better!

Three ships: I'm terrible at picking a favorite anything, or even a top 3, I have like 12 or 13 ships that I'm equally obsessed with... But these are *SOME* of them. <3

Emisue (Dickinson)

Is it a gay thing to have beautiful kisses that look like a Renaissance painting? They're such a beautiful ship, but they impacted me on a personal as well. This was the first time I saw a queer ship that was beautifully written, had loads of chemistry and was executed with care (the fact they had so many queer people and women on the show, specially Ella - who played Sue - made everything even better). They weren't your subtle and digestible queer ship for conservatives and they weren't overly sexualized for straight people with a fetish. They were something else. The way their problems weren't really about being queer/internalized queerphobia and even individual things like Emily's 'coming out scenes' being full of acceptance, support and even celebration were SO FULFILLING. It was amazing to watch from a viewer point of view, but also really formative to me as I came to find and embrace more of myself.

Malina (Shadow and Bone)

Mind you that they aren't even together here, they're just imagining each other, it's just that the chemistry was THAT awesome. First love. Childhood love. Friends to lovers. Linked by destiny. Can just sense one another. They'll always find each other. But they also chose one another and made their own story in a way destiny never could do it for them. The world against them and them against the world. "It was always you". Malina mixed all my favorite tropes and some that I hated with a passion and created a masterpiece.

Royjamie (Ted Lasso)

A lot of their problems stemmed from the fact they were thirst for each other and they would've fixed things sooner if they'd just been grown ups about it and fucked yk. These two were meant to be a big part of each other's arc, but the fact they got even bigger than what it was initially planned because the actors were inseparable and crazy about each other? And the chemistry was that amazing? And how they grew so much as individuals and boyfriends through the seasons? And 3x06 that was basically the cutest and longest date ever with them exploring Amsterdam from morning to late at night, opening up, trying new things, riding a bike together etc? And how Phil and Brett are just one of the cutest, messiest, most insane and chaotic best bros in real life who kind of lost focus and had a consensual workplace relationship just makes everything SO MUCH BETTER.

First ship: I can't remember for sure, but if this wasn't the very first, it was the second, tops.

Villadero/Cordueva (Jane the Virgin)

Jane and Michael are really special to me because I think so often couples are about the flirting, sensuality and physical attraction, and it's not that they don't have that because they definitely do, but I think ships usually lack more. And when they do have more, it's usually a will-they-won't-they, on-and-off, love triangles, fights etc, because apparently writers believe dragging things out to the point it gets unbearable is better than just letting them have a stable and deep relationship? Specially back then, now things are getting better (I still think we're taking baby steps, but at least there's some progress), but Jane and Michael were the VERY FIRST couple I saw having that kind of relationship and it was a life-changing moment in television for me. That's not to say they didn't have some of those problems, they did, but they actually worked on them and evolved as people and a couple. I got to see them from their first meet cute (and it was the BEST meet cute ever), him getting a noise complaint about her 21st birthday party and a drunk Jane confusing him for a stripper, grabbing and shooting his gun, only to find out he was a real cop and then not only he didn't arrest her, but spent the whole night talking to her while she sobers up, getting to genuinely know her until it was morning?! Really, doesn't get more wholesome than that. And I saw them become full committed adults who grew together through the years, them working on their careers, Jane starting her first book, Michael getting his first medal, Michael being a close friend to her parents instead of just being a son-in-law to them, the two getting married, living together, being a family, going back home to each other at the end of a long day, going out to have some fun time... Being more than just two people who are attracted to each other, but two people who loved fully each other in every aspect of the word, who were best friends, confidants, who genuinely enjoyed each other's company, who would crack up out loud together, that had a life inside and inside and out of home. It was a gift. And so much of it was the natural chemistry of the actors that got along so well and loved that pairing, too. No wonder the entire cast rooted for them.

Last song: Fur Elise by Faouzia

There are ONLY THREE singers/groups in the world that I'm truly obsessed with and Faouzia is one of them. Her music is out-of-this world, specially her powerful voice and beautiful melodies (she has my favorite melodies ever). Tomorrow she'll be on the finals of a singing competition and she really deserves to win, specially after working herself like crazy making, recording AND releasing new songs, music videos, commercials, doing full concerts and even learning a bit of freaking Chinese ALL IN JUST *TWO* MONTHS! As I get ready to vote like crazy for her tomorrow, I'm listening to all of her songs for good luck. :p And Fur Elise is one of my favorite songs ever and a true masterpiece.

Last TV show: Interview with the Vampire.

Currently reading: Six of Crows by Lady Bardugo, but I'm gonna start The Vampire Chronicles soon. I have no idea if I will like them, let alone love it as much as the show (it's my favorite show in the universe), but I'm so curious to get to know the characters, be able to fully talk about the universe with other fans and know what can possibly happen in the future seasons that I will do it anyway... I just need to figure out where to begin, because I want to skip the first book (for now) since the show has already covered it. I hope it's possible to start with a book that has all the main characters that appear on the show, but I'm still gathering information to know what's necessary to read and what isn't, the best order to do it etc. :p Anyway, I have attention issues so that will surely be tricky, but I'm just so curious about IWTV that I have to do it, lol. And I also can't drop SoC or I'll forget it and will have to start it from scratch all over again... I've read like 3/4 of the book so I can't let that go to waste either lmao. I'll just give certain days of the week to each book and eventually finish them (hopefully in time for season 3), lol.

Currently watching: Still Up, Silo, House of the Dragon, The Purge, The Lazarus Project. I'm pretty early into these shows and don't really know what to think about them yet, though. I do have a soft spot for Antonia Thomas because she played one of my favorite and nicest characters ever (Claire Browne, The Good Doctor), so it's good to see her face. And Silo has Chinaza Uche, who had a supporting role in Dickinson, but he was so charismatic that I wanted to see him have a longer screen time somewhere else. I hear he's been promoted to a bigger role on season 2, so let's hope I make that far and get to see him shine lol. I also have some shows with sapphic and/or non-binary/androgynous/fluid characters people recommended that I'm gonna try. :)

Currently eating: Nothing, but the last thing was steak, rice and potatoes. :p

Currently craving: Also nothing, but the last time I craved anything was a cheeseburger with cheddar. Not even joking when I say it's been over a year since I had one lol. #fml

[captainstressed]

some of my thoughts from the first episode below the cut

-first and foremost, WE ARE BACK BITCHES!!!

-I absolutely loved the scene in the beginning with them all playing a game for pg’s birthday. remember in the first episode last season when they were finally allowed to use curse words and threw fuck around every 5 minutes? that’s kind of what this felt like. but in a very funny way.

-pg dumped tyler, does this mean the writers are finally thinking garvez endgame?????

-THE BOOK. PG TELLING LUKE ABOUT THE BOOK. LUKE TALKING ABOUT THE BOOK. it just gives me weird vibes that she’s talking to him about her sex life with tyler when this man is very obviously in love with her.

-GÁLVEZ SEXUAL TENSION??????

-here me out on this one please.. EMILY AND DAVE??? I don’t know if im just reeling from lack of garvez but these two seemed very close this episode.

-I know we were all hoping it would be Spencer walking through the door to speak to voit, am I surprised it wasn’t? no.

-dave seeing visions of voit? GIVE THIS MAN A FUCKING HUG.

-when tyler showed up and luke had a word, do not tell me that wasn’t partly him being like ‘you had your chance now it’s my turn’. again. this man loves her.

-rebecca can honestly do one. if they bring her and tara back together ill be so mad. tara deserves so much fucking better.

-tara and emily smoking was very hot. sue me.

[kaleb-is-definitely-sane]

You know in season 2 of Dickinson? All those scenes where Sue was explaining how Emily’s poems made her feel? And how she didn’t want to feel those things? Hahahahahahahahaha. I feel that right now. I feel… I feel like sanity’s returned to me but also like my heads been cut off. I heel like there’s an inferno in my soul, in my inner-most being, but also I feel like a cold has settled completely over me and cuts me in two like a sword. Except this is stronger.