#Raphael has PTSD and Anxiety

[angelmichelangelo]

Any thoughts/opinions on TMNT 2007, either in comparison to other iterations or about the characters/relationships in general?

oh boy have i got some thoughts on TMNT 2007 !

straight off the bat i’d say it feels so set apart from all of the other ninja turtles movies we had/have at that point. they’re a little older (i can’t remember the canon ages but wasn’t it pretty much fanon for a long time that they were at least early 20s?) and starts their story off kinda at their end.

2007 was also supposedly a continuation of the 1990s movies. whether you want that to be solid canon or not (personally i don’t) but either way, they’re kind of in “retirement” stage of their lives with everything with shredder already happened and this is kind of just the aftermath of that.

the relationships in this movie !!!!! oh my GOD it’s just near to absolute perfection. i usually don’t always super love the classic raph/leo tension just because sometimes it feels a little overdone and can really take away the shine from other aspects of the movie, but i really do like how different it feels here.

raph is so obviously not coping with having so much of his family dynamics changed. and i think that’s why the whole aspect of the movie being set after all of their biggest most heroic adventures works well, because in a way, this movie just highlights how much their lifestyle has impacted them. imo raph struggles with having leo so far from home. he’s going through a little bit of separation anxiety, can’t regulate his emotions properly and lashes out bad.

leo obviously takes this all the wrong ways. he’s going through something too so he’s blind-sighted to the fact that raph isn’t intentionally trying to piss him off. they’re back butting heads maybe because it feels most familiar in a way that hasn’t been since leo left.

b-team in this movie is just. chefs kiss. so much to unpack here, too.

donnie who is finally being highlighted for how much he does for his family behind the scenes, normally quietly bumbling along, now here he is, trying to keep a sense of normality and feeling under appreciated!! which rightly so!! he kind of just gets this shit load of responsibility thrusted onto him when leo leaves and raph distances himself. he’s treading water in the deep end, barely afloat but rarely does he really lash out because he wants to do good, and keep peace (mostly for mikey’s sake, I would argue)

and mikey. oh mikey. easily one of my favourite interpretations of mikey in this movie. he’s kind of mellowing out and maturing in a way that i think hits leo with full force when he comes home from south america. all because he’s had to grow up and pick up the pieces left behind in the wake of their family kind of slowly crumbling apart.

they’re all hurting in this movie but mikey’s hurt is so painfully obvious and so masked when he’s putting up with a job he really hates, barely seeing much of either brother he has left because of their schedules and feels cooped up. he trips over himself with just pure glee when he sees that leo is finally home. he’s still that kid at heart, despite everything, that truly believes that his big brother can mend this. it’s a really bittersweet thing to think of him just hoping his life would fall back into place again after it being so out of sorts for so long.

TMNT 2007 isn’t a perfect movie by any means. whilst i adore the way the turtles have been written, is still falls into the trap of making don + mike background characters towards the last half, giving leo + raph the limelight once again, and sometimes leo does act a little out of sorts but i could just pin that down to him having some sort of PTSD, so it remains high in my ranks regardless.

it’s not perfect but it’s still really really good. the animation holds up pretty well. it paved the way for 2012 in regards to CGI turtles. the voice acting is something i don’t see hyped up enough. nolan north as raphael?!!! i feel like as a fandom we definitely sleep on that fact way too hard

the plot is original and fresh and it’s clear that this wasn’t just a cash grab, but a real love letter to the franchise and to the fans:) the people that made this cared for these characters and this world and it shows :)

the fight scenes are really fun and easy to follow. the leo raph rooftop scene is just incredibly done. whoever wrote that.. please always be involved in tmnt wherever you are.. honestly pure fire some of those lines

nobody feels like a caricature of themselves here, which often happens with tmnt when a new universe is introduced, just to establish their character roles. i really love the thought of them in the wake of the fight and after the dust settles and they’re trying to cope with their feelings and problems separately because they don’t know what else to do. they need a million hugs, please, i would love to see more of this that isn’t just the last ronin. show me the turtles in their 30s trying to adjust to their lives changing drastically as they’re getting older and recognising their trauma, finally. i would eat that up!

in anyone hasn’t seen TMNT 2007 (which, i’d assume most of my followers probably has) then i would absolutely recommend it !!

forever mourning the mikey centric sequel we were supposed to get before the studio shut down and forever sending wishes up that there’s someone out there with enough money and a dream to bring it to life in some way shape or form (i’ll take a comic. a mini series. anything lmao)

TMNT 2007 will always have a special place in my heart :)

[dodgeballstuckonthegymceiling]

Hello! I'm going through a rough time right now and I was just wondering: can I request the ROTTMNT turtles x a S/O who has anxiety, depression and PTSD? How would they take care of a S/O whose depression spells make it hard for them to get out of bed, take care of themselves etc? Bonus if S/O is plus-sized/chubby and insecure about it.

Hope you feel better soon 💜

Raph Leo Donnie and Mikey x Reader with anxiety, depression and PTSD

Raphael

★ Oh lawd please let him help. He wants, no, he needs to help you. You are his s/o and he cares about you more than you think. Need a mental health day? He's coming over with sented candles and snacks.

★ Anything you need, he's going to give. If you are having one of those days where you feel you can't leave bed he will stay by your side so you don't feel alone. If he needs to leave your side he grabs a few of his favorite teddy bears and puts them on the bed where he was.

★ He's familiar with the concept of having body image issues but never once thought about you having them. Your body is perfect to him. It's soft and warm, ideal to lay down and cuddle with. What could be missing?

★ You are gorgeous. You're probably tired of hearing those words from well meaning people but to him it's true. In his eyes every single thing you see as a flaw is beautiful.

★ "How was your day?" Is asked every night when the two of you meet up. He genuinely wants to know how your day went and how you are feeling. If something went wrong of if you are stressed out about something you should vent.

Leonardo

★ When you start to open up to him about being insecure he is going to feal really bad. Mostly because he knows what it feels like and the idea that you feel the same hurts.

★ He is going to mess up at first, but he wants to help. He regularly sends you random body positivity photos and memes he finds online.

★ One of his go-to ideas for when you're feeling stressed out is to bring you on a walk around the hidden city and do a little sightseeing. Usually it works and you get your mind off whatever was bothering you.

★ PTSD attacks scared him at first, purely because he didn't know what to do. He felt really bad after he first saw you have one because he had to call his sister, April, to help. Later he went down a rabbit hole of googling and websites to know what to do next time.

★ Nowadays he is much more prepared, he knows a few grounding techniques to try and help you through PTSD attacks. He even put together a "emergency Y/n kit" filled with stuff for you. Among other things it's got gum, a soft blanket and some watter.

★ it's just a tote bag that sits in the corner of his room. It also has a few Lou jitsu movies on DVD to watch together.

Donatello

★ You have unlimited access to his room and lab for the sole reason that it's the quietest place in New York. It's definitely not because he worries about you and wants to give you a safe space. Not at all...

★ When you don't have the motivation to get up out of bed you get to have some very rare and valuable Donnie cuddles. Usually he would cuddle you for so long but you need this, so he does it for you.

★ He tries to gently bring up the subject of antidepressants, hoping that you might decide to try them. But in true Donnie fashion does it by saying "Did you know antidepressants affect two neurotransmitters in particular, serotonin and norepinephrine?" Yea, he ain't slick.

★ He would never force or pressure you into going on meds. If you say you don't want to go on them for whatever reason he accepts it and leaves it at that.

★ However, if you choose to he would go over the different types of medication. Lists off the side effects and benefits along with what they actually do. For gods sake, he might go through the process of drug compounding for you. No doctor prescription needed.

Michelangelo

★ Can't find the motivation to get out of bed? He's joining you and ends up clinging to you while asleep. He's only leaving the bed if you leave the bed.

★ However, neglecting your own health is where he draws the line. You are not allowed to neglect yourself (not bathing, eating enough or letting yourself to give up). Imagine him saying "open wide!" While holding a chicken nugget up to your mouth.

★ Venting session might do you some good. If you can't afford therapy (thanks American lack of public healthcare) he will pick up a book on phycology and try his best. He's not the world's best therapist/boyfriend but he's trying.

★ Over time you end up telling him a lot about where your PTSD came from. Mikey is really good at noticing things that upset you now. Along with that he researches the effects of mental illness, to try and know more about what you're going through.

[rainnybear]

ROTTMNT HEADCANON TIME!!

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Leonardo

He/Him

Gay MLM

Heterochromia (Left eye blue, right eye red)

Fawn Stress Response

AUDHD

PTSD

Leo gets understimulated and overstimulated (Donnie carries noise cancelling headphones for him and Mikey shares his fidget toys)

Inferiority complex

Swiftie

Rants in Spanish when overwhelmed

Speaks spanish when overtired or sick

Insomnia

When Leo can’t sleep and wants company, he goes to Donnie’s lab and watches him work

Constantly feels like an annoyance

Takes sleeping meds

Fear of abandonment

Reads ao3 when can’t sleep

Medic of the team, hyperfixated on biology when he was little and it didn’t go away

An absolute baby when sick

MLP fan

Has nightmares and flashbacks about the Krang fright and tries to pretend he doesn’t

Donatello

He/Him

AroAce

Heterochromia (Right eye blue, left eye red [opposite from Leo’s])

Freeze Stress Response

Lots of scars from working on his tech

Gets overstimulated

Blasts music in his lab at 3am

Speech therapy when he was little

Weighted Blanket

Goes nonverbal

Sound sensitivity

Black nail polish

Michelangelo

He/They/It

Panromantic Asexual

Blue Eyes

Flight Stress Response (I don’t think that’s even a hc)

Makes stickers and patches

Can’t tie his mask correctly so it always looks messy, used to always fall off before he got used to tying it

He gets understimulated

He has a backpack filled with EVERYTHING (More things fit in it than they should and it confuses the hell out of the others)

Sound Sensitivity, whenever it’s too loud, he gets more quiet and sad and holds onto one of his brothers, he gets overwhelmed and touching people around him helps but it feels worse if too many people are touching anything other than his hands

Gender unlabelled

Raphael

He/She

Pansexual

Bigender

Dark Brown Eyes

Fight Stress Response

Anxiety

Autophobia (Fear of being alone)

Loves to play dress up

Claustrophobia

Splinter

He/Him

He can’t tell the turtles apart without their masks and that’s why he gave them masks in the first place

April

She/Her

Lesbian

Loves Minecraft and Animal Crossing

Cassandra

Nonbinary

She/They

Lesbian

Casey JR

Knows Spanish because of Leo

Knows medical stuff because of Leo

PTSD

He/They

Has nightmares about the future

Loves garlic bread

Disaster Twins

They help eachother when overstimulated

They clash together sometimes because understimulation + overstimulation does not mix

Donnie likes to act like he doesn’t care about Leo but he’d be an absolute mess without him

Donnie is Leo’s favourite sibling

When Leo can’t sleep and wants company, he goes to Donnie’s lab and watches him work

Sometimes Leo falls asleep on him and he’ll complain about it in the morning but he lets Leo sleep because he knows he isn’t getting enough and he’s just glad he’s finally sleeping

PB & J

They clash together sometimes because understimulation + overstimulation doesn’t mix very well

Donnie carries fidget toys for Mikey (Mikey doesn’t wear his bag during battle which is where all his fidget toys are)

Mikey is Donnie’s favourite sibling

Donnie and Mikey talk about their hyperfixations/special interest(s) together

Portal Duo

They were Pokémon kids and played Pokémon together, they shared a card collection and sometimes argued over the cards, they are now under Leo’s bed, they still play every once in awhile

[rotten-downer]

"Sometimes it really is easier to just forget..."

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My name is Matty/Matt, and I've been into WHF for a handful of years now, and it's such a comfort game for me! I am 22 and I am taken! My pronouns are they / he!

General Info:

This blog is gonna focus mostly on my We Happy Few OCs (I have quite a handful)

I am an artist, a writer, and a roleplayer

There will be darker themes and possible NSFW stuff here and there. I will try to tag accordingly!

Check out the links in my bio for character info and whatnot!

I am open for roleplay! I am a literate roleplayer, I would just rather roleplay on Discord. Send me a DM here if interested!

Please don't hesitate to send me any asks, especially about my OCs! I adore them and I get in a WHF headspace so it makes me so happy-)

My OCs:

❤️ Sgt. Horus Hunt ❤: A red rank Bobby who works to protect Uncle Jack and has been looking after him after he came off his Joy. Horus is a Downer but he keeps it hidden and he carries a lot of guilt and self hate.

🧡 Sgt. Vincent Morris 🧡: A white rank Bobby who works at Hayworth Labs. He is very sadistic and mean and abuses his power, but under the surface, he struggles with PTSD and religious trauma.

💛 Jonathan Wesley 💛: A blue rank Bobby who used to patrol around Nick Lightbearer's home before Nick went on holiday. Now he works under Horus at the Broadcasting Tower. He is recovering from coming off his Joy.

💚 Audrey Wesley 💚: A Wastrel woman who was never able to take Joy and is fighting to make everyone come to their senses before they starve. Jonathan Wesley's little sister, whom he forgot about.

💙 Billy Morris 💙: Was one of the few children to escape the trains. He now runs errands for the citizens of Wellington Wells in exchange for food, board, or war memorabilia. He is also a pickpocket and is Vincent Morris's little brother.

🩵 Ophelia Springs 🩵: Used to be a musical duo with her lover Anette before they were discovered. Ophelia is now on Joy and has been forced to work at the Reform Club.

💜 Anette Thompsin 💜: A Wastrel who used to be a musical duo with her lover. When they were discovered, Anette was given Joy but couldn't stomach it, so she is being kept at the Labs with the Plague victims and is being researched.

🤍 Raphael Alexandre 🤍: A red rank Bobby who attempts to hide his French descent. He is very anxious and prone to anxiety attacks.

🖤 Michael (Mischa) Avelin 🖤: A blue rank Jewish Bobby who fled with his family from Russia during the war. He was shot in the knee by German soldiers when he was younger and now wears a leg brace and occasionally limps.

[rosecoloredknight]

3, 5, 20, 35, 79 🐞

🪲

3. Do you like the person you feel like you’re becoming?

This is such a difficult question because i wouldn't change who i am or am becoming. The person ive become through my "journey". However, i struggle with that because I sometimes wonder "is who i am worth anything to anyone"? "Maybe im too soft, too kind, too.. optimistic.. what good am i as a person if i have nobody to share myself with" — stuffs like that. I've been longing a partner and/or just becoming a parent. As pathetic as it sounds, i sometimes don't care to live for myself. It's stupid, i know, but i catch myself debating my worth as the man I'm currently becoming. I do like it who i am now and who I'm becoming, but i get sad i don't really get to share that with anyone at the moment.

5. Do you suffer from anxiety/depression/PTSD/other?

I honestly don't know because i haven't gotten diagnosed since i was placed in behavioral center because of my suicidal ideations — but there, i was diagnosed with MDD (major depressive disorder) and ADHD, which is something I've had since elementary. Anyways, i feel as though i still have them. I do still get sad. Not to the point - well i don't know anymore. I probably also have anxiety but I'm not going to diagnose myself.

20. How many siblings do you have? Where are you in relation to them?

Three sisters and a twin. My oldest sister has become estranged since our oldest nephew passed away this year. My second oldest sister, Ces has been a rocky relationship but we're on good terms. My little sister is the princess and i love her. My twin, is my twin; we were inseparable growing up and then we grew apart, but now we sort of mended things once he had his daughter.

I love them all, but siblings, especially Hispanic siblings, is a messy and tough love relationship.

35. What’s the last good book you’ve read?

Currently reading The Unhoneymooners by Christina Lauren!! GOOD

79. What’s your most prized possession? Philosophically? My heart and my time.

But materialistically? My stuffed animals, Ghost, Jefferson, Phantom, and Raphael are my most "prized possessions". On was gifted by my ex and two were crotcheted by a super duper awesome former friend 😊😊😊

I also had Pegasus, Carrots, and Marshmallow but i gave them away to friends 😊😊

P.s. still remember you, Zip 😊😊😊 hope you're safe out there buddy

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[ask-the-elden-lords]

Evelyn's Character Sheet

Name: Evelyn Elise Wylde

Alias: Evie, Evy, Eve

Title(s): N/A

Race: Unknown

Sex: Female

Age: 18 years old

Height: 6 feet (72 inches)

Weight: 159 pounds (72 kilograms)

Notable physical features: Silver hair that reaches down to her back when not braided or done up in some way Pointed, elf-like ears Radiation green eyes with slitted pupils Button nose Freckles Soft lips A scar that runs through her left eye, the origin of which is unknown Three gunshot scars in her stomach, the origins of which are traumatic and a sore subject A vivisection scar spanning the entirety of her chest, the origin of which gave her PTSD and is a subject so sensitive that she will only tell the story to those she trusts, and even then she must be coaxed into it A series of various torture scars that pepper her body. These scars are new and she will refuse to talk about them under any circumstances 6-pack abs and a well muscled build Quote: "a bit thicc" Razor-sharp teeth and fang-like canines A pair of black and red draconic wings, with green accents A black and red prehensile draconic tail with green accents and a bladed tip A line of sharp bone spikes growing out of her back that run along her spinal column from the nape of her neck to the end of her tail Sharp nails that are actually retractable claws A set of horns that very recently started to grow out of her head Well tanned skin Calloused knuckles and strong hands with a grip like iron Australian accent Smells like the forest

Profession: N/A

Faction(s): Humanity, the ASF, Drone Colonies of Copper 9

Alignment: Neutral Good

Pronouns: She/Her

Sexuality: Bisexual

Relations: @worker-drone-alex, @doll-the-zombie-drone - lovers (polyamorous relationship) @n-sanity - lover (former), close friend @ask-wylde-and-co Emma, Oswald, @v-the-worker-drone, @solvar-the-drone, @emily-the-lost, @nate-doorman-elliot, @thad-the-jock - siblings @xen-or-xavier-wylde, @v-the-murder-drone @theblackcubeofdarkness, @scottish-drone-r-deactivated202, @love-lust-clown - parents @doctor-wylde - Grandfather with father/daughter dynamic and relationship, so they refer to each other as such @ask-wylde-and-co Natah - (Great)Grandmother @khan-loves-doors, @asknoridoorman, @director-raphael-turner - Grandparents(?) @ask-wylde-and-co Elizabeth, Asmodeus, @eva-the-inventor-deactivated202, @james-comes-back, @serial-designation-x - Aunts/Uncles @hazo-the-drone - cousin @ask-wylde-and-co Slyvan, Cyn, Alice, @user-darkxwolf17, @popular-violet, @buksu-a-deer-drone, @first-workers-lizzy - close friends @tdm-xi - worstie

Personality: Massive tomboy Aggressive, loves the thrill of battle Always ready for a fight Switch Gets really shy and easily flustered when around someone she's crushing on, but becomes more confident if/when the relationship solidifies and they start dating Often hides her face in her scarf when she's feeling shy Extremely touch starved and will melt if given even the slightest amount of physical affection from someone she likes Has trust issues and is slow to warm up to people Was recently rescued after having been kidnapped and whatever she experienced has given her extreme anxiety and haphephobia - the irrational fear of being touched She allows some people to touch her, but only if she knows and trusts them Secretly a goofball cinnamon roll who loves to snuggle, but only reveals this side of her when around her friends and loved ones Also secretly loves fashion Adores praise, with her favorite being called a "good girl" Autistic - high functioning Has a hard time telling whether or not someone's being sarcastic Fears the Absolute Solver and will urge those infected by it to be "cleansed" as soon as possible every chance she gets Hates loud noises Insecure Doesn't like it when people laugh at her because it makes her feel made fun of, which she despises and doing so will instantly put her in a bad mood Has abandonment issues and mild separation anxiety Extremely hard on herself Terrified of driving her loved ones away Deathly terrified of being isolated for long periods of time, to the point she'd rather break her own bones Has a few cat-like tendencies

Important lore tidbits: Immortal thanks to her great great grandfather, who's name has been stricken from history Over the centuries will slowly lose her humanity and transform into an eldritch monster, also thanks to her great great grandfather Possesses supernatural/magic powers, also also thanks to her great great grandfather Specializes in Pyromancy, aka fire magic Can return from death after a time, but will come back with temporary amnesia that slowly fades over the course of the next 30 irl days The self-resurrection process can be slowed, but not stopped Has a Phoenix familiar named Sol Wields a variant of the Absolute Solver that she's bonded to her very soul and made an extension of her will and being Possesses a large and varied collection of weapons she can pull from at will and regardless of location Also has a variety of toxin-based abilities, though she's yet to reveal them Drives a motorcycle

Drip:

Evelyn's theme song:

The vivisection scar's origin:

[rise-tmnt-fan]

Story Title- Please Save Me

Note- That’s not my Art! I found it on Pinterest and thought it fit the story I’m writing if you know the artist please tell me so I give them credit!!

Warning-

This story is very angsty, and follows all the characters. (We mainly go between our four turtles but we do have a couple of chapters where we follow April, Casey, Hueso, Draxum and Usagi!)

Story Description-

It was hard trying to move on it felt like a part of them was with their brother in the prison dimension. Six months living their lives without Leo's stupid one-liners without his smiles, without his bragging. It was six months of hell for everyone mourning him in their own ways.

Donnie stuck to his lab overworking himself to forget that his brother wouldn't come bursting into his lab with some terrible one-liner.

Raph bounced between the training room, his room and Leo's room wishing Leo would just appear in front of him with his signature smirk telling him he fell for some terrible prank Leo had been playing on him.

Mikey bounced between the sewers and Draxum's apartment training to better his mystic powers, holding onto the hope that he'll be able to save Leo soon.

Splinter spent his time staring at pictures of his sons asking Mikey and Raph to tell him more about the things he should have known as their father.

And Leo... Leo just hoped his family was doing okay as he danced dangerously on the line between unconsciousness, consciousness, and death.

Story Timeline- It is technically set after the movie

Story Tags-

#TCESTDNI

#Leonardo-Centric

#Leonardo remains in the prison Dimension

#Donatello and Leonardo are Twins

#Donatello-Centric

#Autistic Donatello

#Good-Sibling Donatello

#Hurt Donatello

#Donatello Needs a Hug

#Raphael-Centric

#Protective Sibling Raphael

#Raphael has Anxiety

#Raphael has anger issues

#Hurt Raphael

#Raphael needs a hug

#Michelangelo-Centric

#Hurt Michelangelo

#Michelangelo has ADHD

#Michelangelo needs a hug

#Michelangelo is a type 1 diabetic

#April-Centric

#April needs a hug

#Casey-Centric

#Casey Jones has PTSD

#Casey Needs a hug

#Guilt

#Angst with a happy ending

#Angst and Hurt/Comfort

#Heavy Angst

#It Gets Worse Before it Gets Better

#Splinter tries to be a Good Parent

#Baron Draxum tries to Be a Good Parent

#The turtles need therapy

#Injuries

#This family is kind of broken but is trying

#Graphic Violence - That’s the Kraang’s fault really.

#Everyone gets their turn to shine

#Not Beta Read

Chapters so far (Updates as I update)-

5 Chapters as of March 19th

Extras- I try my best to focus on all the characters in this story, and would love constructive criticism both in the comics and here! This is also apart of a series but I started on the last story first. (Pretty unorthodox and might be frustrating to some but that’s how my funky funny brain works!) I’m trying to do weekly updates but I’m researching as I write to be as accurate as possible (mainly the injuries aspect!)

[piratekingnika]

So, I made my own version of TMNT because sometimes I am insane- I cannot draw (yet. My friend offered to teach me though) so it's just an outline but because I put a lot of effort into it so I felt like sharing! Also, sorry for any typos!

My TMNT au (takes heavy inspo from 2003 and 2012 turtles, and a little from the IDW comics and Mutant Mayhem):

Splinter was a human (Hamato Yoshi- Japanese, cis, straight, 57, 5'3) that moved to New York, from Japan, after Oroku Saki killed his family* and burned down his home, after mutation he had refused to go by his name after mutation because he felt that he had become a monster, but the boys started to call him Splinter (because he would always carefully remove their splinters for them and took care of them when hurt) so he adopted the name, and never let his boys think that they are monsters, he loves his sons dearly

*Splinter had a daughter, Hamato Miwa, with his wife, Teng Shen, he believes her to be dead but the Shredder had taken her, and raised her along side his own daughter, Oroku Karai, she is later abducted by Kraang with another Foot Soldier, mutated with a leatherback sea turtle and changing her name to Venus De Milo (Karai told her about her real parents and the Shredder but she does not know Splinter is her father)

All four brothers were pet eastern box turtles, until they got mutated

Hamato Leonardo is the oldest (19, 4'11), Hamato Raphael (18, 5') and Hamato Donatello are twins (18, 5'2), and Hamato Michelangelo is the youngest (17, 4'9)

(Quick aside; I am diagnosed with autism, ADD, depresstion, and severe anxiety, myself) All four turtles are autistic, have PTSD, and Separation Anxiety, Mikey has ADHD, Leo and Donnie have OCD and anxiety, and Raph has IED

Leo is gay and a demiboy (he/they), Raph is demiromantic, bisexual, and nonbinary (he/him), Donnie is aroace-spec, poly, and nonbinary (he/him, they/them), and Mikey is pansexual and genderfluid (he/she/they)

Leo is best at strategy and staying calm under pressure, Raph is the strongest fighter, Donnie is the inventor, and Mikey is the class clown but with the most potential also the most emotionally intelligent

All four brothers watch anime together, Leo is a big Sailor Moon, Gundam, and Voltron fan (they secretly like Nana and Fruits Basket as well- Mikey is the only one that knows and watches with them), he also likes Star Trek and Star Wars (him and Donnie watch a lot of Sci-Fi together). Raph is a fan of Hajime No Ippo, Cowboy Bepop (he watches with Donnie), and Jojo's Bizarre Adventure (which Mikey got him and Donnie into), he also loves old Westerns (which he watches with Casey) and DC (Mikey again.) Donnie is a fan of Evangelion, Serial Experiments Lain, and Code Geass. Mikey is a fan of everything, but most especially One Piece, Dragon Ball, and Bleach (he's the one that got all of them into anime), he also loves anything Super Hero; Marvel and DC.

As for music, Leo likes most things as long as he likes what the artist is singing about (lyric listener). Raph listens to rock in all forms, old country, and some hip-hop/rap (and some girly pop but him and Casey keep that to themselves). Donnie listens to all sorts of instrumentals- from classical to techno, they like background noise while they work. Mikey will listen to anything, she makes playlists for different feelings and different characters and even moments that have happened or they want to happen some day. Leo, Raph, and Mikey are all good singers (though Raph does not sing often), and all four are skilled dancers (ninja skills)

The Utroms crash-landed on Earth 50 years ago and created TCRI to try to get back to their home planet- one of them, however (Kraang), is planning a rebellion and wants to take over Earth, he started creating the ooze more than 30 years ago to make super soldiers to help him with his plan

Splinter found the four turtles on the side of the road next to a bunch of broken glass and ooze, he picked them up to bring them home right as a rat scampered across, brushing his hands, he mutated with the rat and in fear he moved to the sewers with the now mutated baby turtles- he always assumed that their owner had been in a crash and thought the turtles dead

Splinter acts more like a father but takes his duty as their sensei very seriously and he eased Leo into his position as leader so he would not be so overwhelmed

Raph is working on his jealousy of Leo and his feelings of inferiority towards his brothers, because he thinks he is the least favorite- Splinter puts more of an effort to actually help him with his emotions

The brothers met April and Casey when they were around 15- though the two humans are about 10 years older

Apirl O'Neil is a mixed, (black mother, white father) cis, lesbian, woman who works as a news reporter, she is 28 and 5'9 and typically keeps her hair dyed ginger and short in either an afro or locs, she is dating Casey

Casey Jones is a white, transgender, bisexual, woman who plays professional hockey and does roller derby on the side, she is 28 and 6'2 and her plan is to medically transition after she retires- but she always fights for equal rights for transpeople in sports, she keeps her black hair in a mullet

Irma Langinstein is a mixed (mother is Indian and father is German), cis, straight, woman who is April's best friend, she works as a secretary in the same news station that April works- and being so close to April she eventually meets the turtles, at first while they're in disguise and later as their true selves, she is 26 and 5'3, she keeps her long brunette hair in a ponytail

April has been like an older sister to all the brothers, Casey loves all four dearly but has a stronger connection to Raph, Irma is not really close with the turtles but she bonds with Donnie over new technology

Venus/Miwa (Japanese, cis, demiromantic, ace, 22, 6') was in the Foot Clan all her life and it wasn't until Shredder's defeat that she found out the truth about her past, she was absolutely devastated and ran from the Foot to try and think, one of the ninja followed after her to keep her safe only for them both to be abducted by Kraang and mutated, she is quick to join the resistance that later become the Might Mutanimals which then leads her to the turtles, she wears a white mask like the boys but she braids the back of hers

Venus feels a deep connection with the four brothers and wants to protect them as much as possibly, she bonds particularly with Leo as two very strategic minds- they often train, meditate or play chess together, her best friend is Mona Lisa

Mona Lisa, previously Pat Williams (white, demigirl, pansexual, 18, 5'6) had gradated high school early and was on track to get her AS in Physics when she was kidnapped by Kraang, originally he wanted to use them to help perfect his mutagen but after she refused he mutated her with an axolotl to make them one of his super soldiers (much like IDW Mona, she wears her frills in a ponytail)- however because of that she starts a rebellion with the other mutants to escape and live their own lives- now, a part of the Mighty Mutanimals, she is attempting to make an anti-mutagen for those who wish to go back to their old lives

Mona Lisa meets the turtles and immediately connects with Raph and Donnie (she met Raph first, they match each others snark and sass but she is also quite patient with him and he is protective over her, and they flirt constantly. Her and Donnie both have very scientific minds and work together often), Venus is her best friend and the two of them are the unofficial leaders of the Mighty Mutanimals

This story would take place after Shedder's defeat- Splinter has officially let go of the reigns and Leo is now fully the leader with Kraang and his mutant army as the new antagonists, there would be flashbacks to show how much of an affect the Shedder has on them though

Karai (Japanese, cis, lesbian, 25, 5'2) daughter of Oroku Saki has now taken over the Foot Clan but instead of revenge she wants to undo the damage her father wrought, and works as a philanthropist by day and runs a vigilante organization by night- she doesn't team up with the turtles, however, she just doesn't fight them

Hun Kwon (Korean, cis, straight, 32, 6'4) is the leader of the Purple Dragons, but they're practically a non-issue

Inara Bashar (Saudi Arabian 2nd gen immigrant, cis, demiromantic/sexual, poly, 19, 5'1) and Elion Nash (white, pansexual, poly, 18, 5'8) were jumped and nearly robbed by the Purple Dragons, when the turtles stepped in and saved them, Elion (being a fan of the occult) thought they were aliens and wanted to get to know them and thank them for the rescue, Inara was a little more cautious but she trusted Elion which lead her to trusting the turtles, Inara wears niqab and round glasses and Elion keeps their dyed dark green hair in a messy wolf cut

Inara and Elion both bond with Donnie most, helping him with blueprints, building, medicine, and even some hacking, plus they love listening to his scientific rambles- occasionally adding (with varying degrees of helpfulness) input of their own, Inara also becomes close with Leo chatting about cultures and responsibilities and books over tea, and Elion and Mikey discuss anime and comics together or start prank wars

Baxter Stockman (black, cis, aroace, 66, 5'3) teamed up with Kraang to create the mutant army- having, somewhat accidentally, mutated with a fly himself

Stockman uses the alias Captain Filch when traveling, having a special lab made on a boat, which is where Mona Lisa was originally kept

The mighty mutanimals are all mutants (both animal and human-animal hybrids) that defected from the Kraang; Leatherhead (hybrid; alligator), Venus De Milo (hybrid; leatherback turtle), Mona Lisa (hybrid; axolotl), Mondo Gecko (hybrid; gecko), Man-Ray (animal; electric ray), Wingnut (animal; flying fox), Pigeon Pete (hybrid; pigeon), and the Punk Frogs (Attila, Genghis Frog, Napoleon Bonafrog, and Rasputin the Mad Frog)

Leatherhead, previously Dr. Freddy (deadname Rose) Lurie (black, transman, aroace, 36, 9'4) was a biologist before being abducted- he was one of the first to be mutated and his animal instincts can take over when he gets too emotional for any reason, he sees himself as a monster and more than anyone else wants to be human again and is always helping Mona with the anti-mutagen

Leatherhead doesn't go out much but he does inevitably meet the turtles, him and Raph have an understanding of each other but he is very close with Mikey (who helps calm him when he is feral, and has never been afraid of him) and Donnie

Mondo Gecko, previously Armondo Mariano (Mexican, demiboy, pansexual, 18, 4'7) was a pothead, skaterboy that had just graduated high school and started working (as a busboy at a ma-and-pop diner) when he was abducted, he is easily the least concerned about his mutation, thinking it's cool and makes him like a superhero

Mondo has barely interacted with the turtles other than Mikey who he had an instant connection with- the two can always be seen reading (sometimes writing) comics, smoking (weed, never nicotine), or skating together

Pigeon Pete, previously Peter Buckley (white, cis, straight, 24, 5'10) was starting his life as an accountant when he got abducted, and to be honest, he has no idea what's going on- he doesn't even know he was a part of a rebellion, much less that he's a part of the Might Mutanimals, he's generally just clueless and hoping for the best

Three of the four turt brothers hate Pete- since he usually gets in the way of missions and is generally self-unaware, but Mikey likes him and they bond especially over not understanding what's going on

Alopex, previously Tapeesa Kalluk (mutant hybrid; arctic fox, Inuit, 27, cis, bisexual, 5'3), was originally a part of the Foot Clan before being abducted by Kraang and Baxter, but she escapes with the Mighty Mutanimals, fighting with them for a while before returning to the Foot- she then becomes Karai's second-in-command

Slash (humanoid snapping turtle) is from Dimension X, also stuck on Earth, originally worked with Kraang and Baxter Stockman but ended up switching sides when he learned of their true plans and joined the Mighty Mutantimals

Murakami Gennosuke (humanoid Indian rhino) and Miyamoto Usagi (humanoid albino Japanese hare) are dimension a hopping mercenary and samurai/ronin (respectively) duo, that team up with the turtles/mutanimals when they are in that dimension- they had even offered to take Slash home when they learned where he was from, but he ended up deciding to stay on Earth, Usagi also ends up permanently settling on Earth

Gen (cis, straight, 34, 8'2) loves to make bets and gamble- he isn't nessiccarily the most reliable, but he is a friendly and trustworthy guy, he gets along with the turtles fine, though it's mostly because he is so close with Usagi

Usagi (transman, gay, 19, 5'1) is an honorable warrior who wishes for an era of peace in the multiverse- however he knows better than to delude himself into believing it is an easy task, so he dimension hops and helps out where ever he can, which is how he meets and befriends the turtles

Usagi met Leo first and they knew immediately they were two-of-a-kind, the three other brothers didn't like Usagi at first due to a misunderstanding but when they saw how much he cared for Leo they warmed up to him quickly

Big Mama (cis, straight, 58, 8'6) is a spider woman from another dimension who runs the Battle Nexus- a tournament put on once a year to find the strongest warrior in the multiverse. Splinter had been invited before his mutation, and won. He was invited again but he didn't go until his boys were old enough to take care of themselves, and when he did he won a second time. He keeps the Battle Nexus a secret so his boys don't get themselves into danger, but they end up learning about it through Usagi and Gen, who had seen Splinter's second win and hold high respect for him. Big Mama also holds high respect for Splinter and always flirts with him. She encourages him to bring his sons- she is a buissness woman first (selling tickets to see the fighters and even creating a multidimensional viewing channel) but she does value honor and fair fights as well.

The Kraang's mutant army so far consistents of; Baxter Stockman (hybrid, fly), Superfly (animal, fly), Scumbug (animal, roach), several mutant anemones, Bebop/Peter Wise (hybrid, warthog), Rocksteady/David Laird (hybrid, white rhino), Tigerclaw/Takeshi Bauza (hybrid, Bengal tiger), Tokka (animal, snapping turtle), Rahzar (animal, wolf), Dogpound/Chris Bradford (hybrid, husky), Old Hob (animal, orange tabby cat), and Fishface/Xever Montes (hybrid, barracuda)

Kraang and Stockman's first test subjects were anemones, 8 out of the 10 mutated into semi-sentient beings, the next subjects were bugs, they continued up the chain until they made it to where Dr. Lurie (Leatherhead) and Baxter Stockman himself were the first humans to be mutated

Another enemy is the Triceratons, who plan to invade the Earth to defeat their eneimies- the Utroms. They have also traced the Fugitoid there, an android with the mind of a scientist that has the blueprints to create a teleportal to anywhere on (or in) other planets

The Fugitoid, A.K.A Prof. Zayton Honeycutt (cis, aroace, 54 in human years, was initially 7'7 but is now 5'4), was originally a humanoid from Planet Neutrino and is a genius who loves to invent with the intentions of Universal peace, unfortunately he can be very oblivious that others don't always want the same thing, wanting to use his creations for war. Finding out the Triceratons are after him he transferred his brain into his android servant SAL, used his teleportal device to get to his fellow peace-lovers; the Utrom, and then blew up his lab. He ends up being the one to uncover Kraang's plan, which is how he meets the turtles, who he agrees to help. He is especially close to Donnie, but he finds out Leo is somewhat of a space nerd and they chat frequently too

Leo and Raph are the most protective brothers (especially Raph since Leo can be very self-sacrificial), they push each other to be the best possible warriors they can be, they now fight less but every once and awhile the tension between them will be very apparent, even so they are better at talking it out, Raph teases Leo every chance he gets and encourages Leo's sassier side

Donnie and Mikey have always been very close, bonding when Raph and Leo's fights were especially bad, they are both very creative and Mikey loves to give Donnie ideas for new inventions and D almost always follows through, however D can get caught up in his lab and will get annoyed with Mikey occasionally causing him to blow up- he's always quick to apologize though

Leo and Mikey are each others biggest supporters, Leo will defend Mikey from Raph and Mikey is always there to pick Leo up if he gets too overwhelmed with being leader, it does infuriate Leo that Mikey never seems to take anything seriously and he'll sometimes threaten to keep Mikey home from a mission if Mikey is being especially childish but all Mike has to do is flash her puppy eyes and promise to be on their best behavior and Leo will cave

Raph and Donnie are the epitome of brains and brawn, Donnie will make something and he trusts Raph to use and repair it, they are both very quick-witted when it comes to insulting an enemy and bounce off each other nicely- they can get annoyed quickly though, with Raph not wanting to listen to all of Donnie's scientific jargon and Raph yelling can disrupt D's concentration or he'll break things D spent a long time on, they always get over it and make-up pretty easily, it helps that Raph is extremely protective of Donnie since he is the weakest fighter

Leo and Donnie also push each other to be the best they can be, mentally, Leo is pushing Donnie to learn more and D pushes Leo for better strategies- they can both push the other too far though causing spirals of self-doubt but the are always the one to pick each other back up, both making sure they rest and eat when the concentrate too hard on other things (training and meditating for Leo, building and researching for Donnie)

Raph and Mikey have the most cliche older brother/younger brother dynamic- constantly throwing insults at each other but never allowing anyone else to, Raph hitting Mikey for being an idiot, being the others best ally and worst enemy, Mikey is the one who can calm Raph down when he's at his worst and Raph is the one who can cheer Mikey up when she's at her lowest

Ships- Leo x Usagi, Raph x Mona Lisa, Donnie x Inara x Elion, and Mikey x Mondo Gecko, minor Big Mama x Splinter

Voice Claims:

Leo- Zeno Robinson

Raph- Jelani Alladin

Donnie- AJ Beckles

Mikey- Charlie Curtis-Beard

Splinter- Jackie Chan

Shredder- Patrick Page

April- Anairis Quiñones

Casey- Rosemary Ace Rosas

Irma- Arasha Lalani

Venus- Karen Fukuhara

Mona Lisa- Mariah Rose Faith Castillas

Inara- Alia Shawkat

Elion- Bex Taylor-Klaus

Mondo- Jose Estrada

Leatherhead- Ray Hurd

Pete- Tyler Alexander Mann

Slash- Matthew Mercer

Karai- Hayley Kiyoko

Alopex- Shina Nova

Kraang- Dee Bradley Baker

Stockman- Norm Lewis

Gen- Kevin Michael Richardson

Usagi- Micah Solusod

Big Mama- Christine Baranski

Fugitoid- Scotty Wartooth

[amingethia]

Nobody replied but y’all are gonna hear about it anyway.

The great thing about Ming is that she is a tragic character in the sense that she doesn’t have a definitive role in the team.

(This is Ming BTW)

Anyway my AU starts with the team of 5 (Ming and the turtles) fighting the Foot or somebody trying to get a paradox prism (basically just like how Sonic Prime starts) and Ming is the one who shatters it with an uncontrolled magic blast (that was mostly unintended)

The shatterverse then breaks into 5 universes.

One where each of the turtles is dead, and one where Ming is dead (technically there’s 6 because there is the ghosts of the regular world where all 5 are alive and together and happy but they don’t know that yet)

The first universe is one I already started a while ago where Leo is gone (he got thrown through his last window. Smh) and Ming is then given his mask and swords, and appointed leader of the team. She dyes her hair with blue streaks and has it tied back in braids, wearing the blue mask the way the turtles do, over her eyes. Being leader gives her the same struggles as Leo had to deal with, the pressure, the PTSD, the need to be the last one out of a fight and make sure her team is safe. Couple that with her extreme anxiety about losing another of her brothers, and you have a girl who has lost all of her humour, who trains three times as hard as the others do, who pushes herself again and again to the brink of disaster to a point where the remaining turtles are just as worried about losing her as she is about losing them.

The second universe, Raphael went out one night after an argument with Leo. Ming wants to follow him and make him feel better (because Leo was being a bit of a jerk) but doesn’t. And she loves to regret that when Raph gets in a street fight to blow off some steam, only to realize too late he bit off way more than he could chew this time. Ming was given Raph’s sai and mask. She ties the mask around her arm instead of wearing it, because she doesn’t like how she feels when she wears it. Wearing the mask makes her feel nauseous, and when she sees herself in the mirror, she hates that looking back is a shadow of who Raph was. Instead, she dyes her hair red and dip dyes the tip green. She has her hair tied back in a ponytail, and immediately re-dyes it the moment any of it grows out. She also is angry all the time, mostly at herself for not being there when Raph needed her, but also because she pushes down how scared she is at the thought of losing another team member. She hides that fear behind her temper, and trains religiously, especially weight training. She may still be small compared to her brothers, but she is the strongest version of herself she can possibly be. She refuses to let her brothers get hurt again, and doesn’t mind threatening or stabbing to get her way if it means protecting her family. She argues with Leo sometimes, but doesn’t leave the lair in anger. She doesn’t let anybody leave the lair angry or alone.

The third universe is where Donnie dies, but they’re all a bit younger when he does. During a sneaking out to the surface, he was knocked off a tall building and landed on concrete. His shell shattered, it was gruesome. Ming was by his side first and heard his last breaths. Her first thought was knowing how much the team needed somebody as smart as him, so she studied turtle anatomy and mechanic books and kept studying. She locked herself in his old lab for hours, sometimes days on end just trying to learn as much as she could, learning how to take apart and put together small electrical devices and how to make upgrades to tech they already had. She dyed her hair purple but it stays around shoulder length. Every once in a while she takes scissors to it when she’s particularly stressed. When in a fight or on a mission, she puts her hair in pigtails and when working in the lab she wears a headband to hold it back. Instead of a mask like the turtles, she was given a purple bandana that she wears around her neck, and pulls up over her mouth and nose when she needs a mask. She was given a bo staff just like Donnie would have been, but she modified it immediately to have hidden blades in the ends, and keeps making updates to it, adding a taser to one end and other upgrades. Instead of training relentlessly like in the first two universes, she puts her energy into her studies and her work, eventually managing to make gizmos and other tech for her brothers just like Donnie would have, but she focuses on first aid as well.

In the fourth universe Mikey dies protecting Ming. He mostly wins the fight, but is badly injured. Ming holds him close as he fades away and is horribly traumatized. After all, she and Mikey were the closest of friends. For the first while afterwards, she is a mess, until one night in a mental breakdown she chops her hair short into a crude pixie cut and dyes it orange. Somehow looking at herself in the mirror with the short orange hair helped her calm down, helped her feel like Mikey was still there, still a part of her. When she is given Mikey’s mask, she ties it around her forehead instead of over her eyes. She takes up the nunchucks quickly, almost like she already had the muscle memory. Maybe in a way Mikey really WAS a part of her still… This unlocks a change in her personality. She sees how grim her brothers are now without the youngest turtle around, and starts to do what seems natural to her. Make jokes. Make things lighter. Smile. Laugh. And it works. They all still miss Mikey, they always will, but Ming fills in the void by taking nothing seriously. Because she can’t. She has forced down her pain and her denial and her true fear and feelings, and replaced it with a happy-go-lucky attitude and a laid-back demeanour. In reality, a reality she refuses to look at, she is breaking apart. Who she was no longer matters, it’s about being who Mikey was, who Mikey would want her to be. Happy.

Then there’s Shatter Ming and V. Shatter is what they call the OG Ming (when they all meet). Shatter meets them in order of Raph, Mikey, Leo, Donnie, and when she meets each one, a different section of her hair mysteriously changes colour. When she’s around Raph Ming, the front right quarter chunk of her hair is red, when she meets Donnie Ming, the back of that same side is purple. When she’s in a world with just one or two, her hair changes to match the same Mings that are with her in that world. When all five Mings are together, Shatter’s hair is only the four colours red blue orange and purple. No blond is left. During the final battle when they combine their power and give it to Shatter, I’m also considering her wings are somehow reflective of the power as well. (Maybe instead of black bat wings like usual they’re green? Or fairy wings?)

And V is the shadow reflection of Shatter. When Shatter broke the paradox prism, a part of her broke as well. The dark evil side of her calls itself V, and aims to break the paradox prism more, creating more broken worlds. She wants to do this because…. I’m not sure. But she does.

It all ends when they put the pieces back together, and Shatter grabs V and they both somehow use the prism to fuse together again, restoring the OG world and preserving the others as well.

And yes, there is a scene I’m plotting where all Ming’s go to the 5th universe where the turtles are all alive but Ming is dead, and each one gets their much needed hugs from their much missed big brothers.

“Leo?” Blue gasped.

“Raph!” Red cried in glee, a grin spreading across her face.

“D-Donnie?” Purple dropped her weapon in surprise.

“MIIKEEYYYYYYYY!!!!!” Orange sobbed for the first time since Shatter Ming had met her.

The four girls each ran to their prospective turtle. The turtles were so confused, but gladly accepted the tackle hugs.

“Ming? And… Ming? There are five of you?” Mikey gasped. “I missed you so much, but I think I wished a little too hard on that shooting star.”

Anyway that’s all I got for now.

Who wants to hear about my shatterverse AU for my TMNT OC???

[brightlotusmoon]

Okay, yes, I found the fic with Mikey having executive dysfunction! I remember writing it while being annoyed at allistics who still thought autism and ADHD were straight up terrible disorders and not complex networks of neurodevelopmental writing and also "my brother is autistic but we love him" and augh, and also I wrote an earlier fic after getting a review that essentially slammed autistics for being autistic but in a loving way because faaamily and and *distressed flapping*

anyway

it's cool it's all good I'm fine

@venusdeservedbetter You might as well start reading my stuff when you're able.

[non-bionical-mecha-dude]

ROTTMNT Turtle Headcannons

Keep in mind that I have put both before the Krang events and After Krang events, so be warned for spoilers!

Reminder that almost all of these are Headcannons and aren't true to the actual narrative of ROTTMNT

I hope you enjoy!! (Try to guess which turtle is my favorite)

🐢♥️Raphael♥️🐢

[Before Krang]

He's got an Anxiety disorder and ADHD

He paces back and forth alot to think

He's so scared he'll crush his brothers with how big he is, so he's super gentle with people smaller than him.

BIG HIMBO ENERGY

Due to his ADHD he constantly needs stuff repeated, he's trying his best ok?

His father tried to put pieces of foam on his spikes when he was smaller to keep him and his brothers safe when Raph plays with them, but Raph ended up biting the foam and his father had to get it out of his mouth (imagine a person trying to get a piece of garbage out of a dog's mouth, and that's basically what happened)

He constantly chews, which is bad cause he often bites the inside of his mouth, leaving sores in them, or biting his fingers which due to his sharp teeth, often cause blood.

Donnie once got him one of those necklaces your can chew, and Raph LOVED IT....for five minutes because his bite force is so strong, he broke it, which upset him, but he's glad his brother gave him it.

Literally sleeps on a pile of teddy bears and makes a big nest for himself on his bed

He has named each stuffed animal individually and won't tell anyone their names

He has, surprising the quietist feet, which often scares his brothers because they don't hear him sneaking up on them.

Plays animal crossing and absolutely adores it

Would literally die for his brothers

His brothers all try to do the trust fall with him, and he always catches them, especially Leo, because Leo will do a trust fall in the middle of battle or off of a building as a joke and Raph will catch him, but then scold him

He listens to AJR on repeat because he loves the beat of their songs and their message

Literally can't do the floss, he's tried, but he can't and his brothers laugh at him for it.

Had braces when he was younger in hope of fixing his snaggle tooth, it didn't fix the snaggle tooth but it made his teeth really straight, and he's embarrassed of all the pictures of him that have braces in it

He has a big tail that drags on the floor, ans people accidentally step on it all the time, or when he turns around really fast, he literally flings people to the other side of rooms when he hits them

Uses his tail as a secondary attack

Very not flexible, can't touch his toes 😔

Literally will hug anyone, even a villain if he sees they need it, as much as it doesn't look like it, he gives the world's BEST hugs

Once ate moss as a dare and honestly thought it was pretty good, but now he eats it infront of Donnie because he knows Donnie doesn't like the texture or anything about moss and Raph eating it grosses him out

He talks in the third person as a vocal stim, he just likes saying his name

When he stims, he either paces back and forth, does big hand motions, swing his tail from side to side, or tap his fingers on something

The reason Raph is terrified to be alone, is because one day at the lair when he was young, his family went out somewhere but forgot him because he was sleeping and they didn't want to bother him, and some mutants kept trying to get into the sewers, and it was like a Home Alone type of shit, he's now really good at setting traps :)

Very claustrophobic

[After the Krang]

He wears an eye patch from the Krang eye thingie

Major PTSD

When he looks in the mirror, he sees glimpses of when he was part Krang and it terrifies him.

Stays in his stuffed animal fort for days for comfort

Is now extra EXTRA careful when with his brothers, he's terrified he'll hurt them again...

Constantly has an eye on Leo after the incident and almost has breakdowns everytime Leo isn't around him 24/7 because he's afraid Leo is gonna do something dumb or sacrifice himself again

Gives Leo tips on how to be a good Leader

He forgets he isn't leader sometimes and accidentally bosses the team around when it's actually Leo job now (he apologizes after word)

He stays curled up on his floor for hours on end, thinking about all what happened and it often leads to him crying

He doesn't eat for a while and his brothers have to convince him to eat

Him being turned into Krang left some effects on him, he has bigger sensory issues (that and plus his ADHD, it's like hell on earth), his eyes sometimes glow yellow which freaks him out, and he has bigger issues with controlling his strength and it scares him

Has even worse abandonment issues after it all

He doesn't like it when he can't move because it reminds him when he was kidnapped by the Krang

🐢💙Leonardo 💙🐢

[Before Krang]

He has the BIGGEST EGO

People often think he's an idiot but he's actually pretty clever when the time calls for it

Major ADHD

Since he can't get a prescription (because he's a mutant) he drinks a bunch of coffee in the morning

Says a "that's what she said", or "ur mom" joke to almost everything

Very homosexual

Very competitive

Smug Bastard

Had a FNAF phase with Donnie

Play Minecraft

Does fortnight dancing unironically

Insomnia from ADHD

Either one of the chilliest or craziest people you'll ever meet

Tired to go vegetarian one time because it was popular and almost immediately lost because he didn't realize that pepperoni is a meat

Chaotic Dumbass

He makes jokes during panic attacks and you can't tell wether to laugh at the jokes or to comfort him, usually both happens with his brothers

Musical theater kid

Found an old trumpet in the trash once, and self taught himself how to play it, but now he only plays Never Gonna Give You Up and Megalovania.

Used his Odáchi sword to cut pizza

Very very flexible

Knows everyone's tickle spots

Definitely has a tik tok account

One time he tried to do a tik tok dance and he gave himself whiplash (this actually happened to me)

Weak ankles

Can't sit in a chair correctly

He has to talk with big hand gestures

He can't multitask for the life of him

Is surprisingly good at Math

Wips and nae naes at ironic times

Can't sit still

He wishes 24/7 to have long golden hair

Even though he's an mostly aquatic turtle, he can't swim, he needs floaties

Literally almost drowned in 5 inch deep water

Collects rocks

He has a medium sized tail that goes down to the middle of his thigh, and he swings it around a lot and brags about his tail

Swings his tail back and forth when he dances or as a stim.

Black sheep of the family vibes

When he gets a sensory overload, he often goes to his room cause it's dark, and listens to 2000's pop

Owns a little bunny rabbit stuffy but straight up deny's of owning it

Paints his finger nails black

Owns many fidget spinners, both as a sensory toy, and because it was cool

Does air guitar when he listens to music

He needs glasses but refused to wear them as a kid so he now uses contacts, but he would rather be caught dead then be caught wearing glasses

Only watches comedies

Due to his anatomy, he is a female Red-Eared Slider, but he always just thought of himself as a dude along with his brothers, and their father couldn't tell the difference between a female and male red eared slider, so he believed that Leo was a male

When Leo started going through puberty, he thought he was gonna die, so when he brought it up with April about it, she had to go all Big Sister mode and explain it all to him, thankfully due to him being around his brothers all the time, he knew how to lower his voice to the point where he didn't even need to think about lowering it

His family (except Donnie and April) all think Leo was born male at birth

[After Krang]

Major PTSD

It takes him a long time to get back into the gist of making jokes and puns

For a while he's just....quiet, he doesn't say much besides small conversations

He has a hard time processing all of what happened

He gets clingy to his brothers, scared that there's gonna disappear or be gone forever if he leaves them

VERY anxious about the whole "Now I'm Leader" stuff

Worried that he's gonna make the wrong call and get his family in trouble again like last time

Listens to his family alot more when it comes to making decisions to the point where he won't put his own input cause he's scared he's gonna get them all hurt again

Major Nightmares

Literally broke so many bones in the Prison Dimension, he tries to stand up, but his brothers push him down because he can't even walk or move because of how much damage was caused

He heals a lot faster than regular people, but his brothers keep him bedridden for a while just in case

Fusses over his brothers injury's and he blames himself for it

He gets some pretty bad insomnia out of all of this

Doesn't eat for a while

Him breaking some of his bones and tearing his muscles, he becomes double jointed in some areas, and when he gets back to making jokes, he likes to freak and gross the others out with how he can bend his hands or something

He cried so hard when Casey had to be sent back to his own time

Even though he only knew Casey for many hours, he saw Casey as like a son, or a friend

Alot more cautious

When they all get better enough to go on missions again, Mikey, Donnie and Raph all try to make sure Leo doesn't sacrifice himself again like an idiot

Instead of getting sad, he got angry, he got so angry at himself for everyone getting hurt, he got angry for disappointed his family, and he was just so angry about everything, eventually (with the help of his brothers) he was able to calm down a lot more about it all.

🐢💜Donatello💜🐢

[Before Krang]

He's got Autism 💅🏻✨

Even when he doesn't need them, he keeps his battle shell and goggles on as a pressure stimulant

Will often lay on his stomach and embrace his inner pancake

As a kid he liked to dig holes, but he would just kinda sit in them, and chill (based off of Softshell turtles)

Very big theatre kid (also the dance he does with Atomic Lass at the beginning? Yeah, there is a part in a musical that does this EXACT move, so I feel like he picked up some dancing from musical choreography)

Big fan of meat lovers pizza, softshell turtles are carnivores, and his brothers once saw him eat a whole stick of sausage at 3 am because they heard some noises, it was the most terrifying thing they've ever seen

Taps his fingers on things in patterns as a stim

Often sways back and forth

He has the smallest tail out of his brothers, and he likes it that way, he would prefer that he doesn't have a big clunky tail that would get in the way.

His brothers tease him about his small tail and it's often why he gets picked last in things, because sometimes they go in order of who has the longest tail

Sometimes his tail wags like a dog's when he needs to stim or when he's excited

Only listens to EDM/Electronic Music and 80's pop, constantly listens to them on repeat

You know that bracelet he has on his wrist? Yeah, well one day Leo got a hold of it and figured out how to download subway surfers on it, Donnie can't delete it for some odd reason, but now Donnie kinda plays it on his wrist device thing when he's bored

Was definitely a sticky iPad kid growing up

The internet raised him

Had a FNAF phase with Leo and can tell you all of the lore of FNAF

Once called Baron Draxum, father, as an accident, but now he won't let himself live it down and he internally reminds himself to call him Draxum, but he's still chill with him

Was definitely overtly cautious when he was around his brothers when he was younger, because he knew they played rough and how he had a softshell, so his brothers stuck and taped a bunch of big objects to his back to protect his softshell.

He has done the thing where he sits in a chair in the dark and turns around when Leo get home and asks him "So, where have you been all night?"

He knew Santa wasn't real as a kid, because, science, but he always enjoyed seeing his brothers so happy when he was younger, so he always played along

His room is the darkest room out of all the rooms

His father didn't know what autism was, so when he saw Donnie stimming as a kid, he thought his son was gonna explode

He wasn't surprised when he realized that Leo was born female, due to his anatomy it was obvious to him cause he did a lot of research, but he never brought it up because he never felt the need to and he still loves his goofy twin, even if he's a pain in the tail

Best sense of smell ever, it's almost scary

He plays a lot of puzzle/adventure games

The best swimmer out of all of them

He has a bunch of purple markings (like on his arms) that are all over his face, but he's super insecure about them so he covers them up with his bandana

He first drew on his eyebrows when he first took a nap on the floor as a kid, and his brothers tried to prank him by drawing eyebrows on his mask while he slept, but when he found it, he actually thought it looked kinda cool, sure, it needed some tweaking, but he loved it and started doing it ever since

Everytime Leo complains about how big Donnie's eyebrows are, he draws them on twice as big the next day to spite him

Terrible sleep schedule, his brothers have to drag him to bed, which he refuses often, but he can't go against his brothers

Literally addicted to Monster energy drinks, especially the Purple and White ones (I've tried so many monsters, and I feel like Donnie would like these two the best)

Hates sour stuff, and Spicy stuff, but he Loves savory stuff and salty stuff

[After Krang]

Major PTSD

Is alot more panicky about his Softshell

Being ripped out of the Krang ship controls messed with parts of his brakn

Now he gets these motor tics, and often verbal tics, he also has even more trouble with being relaxed and sleeping (since his brain was in a relaxed state when it was controlling the ship, his brain is afraid to let him be relaxed in case of being damaged again.), And more emotional outbursts, which is the most concerning to his brothers since often he doesn't show much emotions

Goes quiet for a long while, and Shelldon and his family have to bring him food

Often is accompanied by Shelldon more often

Shelldon has to talk for him for a while

Lots of nightmares of his body being torn apart when the Krang ripped him out of the machine, and nightmares of his family being hurt

Stops making machines for a long time

Sleeps with his battle shell on for a long while

He runs a lot of tests on his brothers, especially Raph because he's scared that it might have long lasting affects on them, thankfully nothing physically, besides broken bones, but he was very startled to realize all of his brothers got PTSD from the whole thing

Really tired alot more

🐢🧡Michelangelo🧡🐢

[Before Krang]

ADHD

Since he's a boxshell turtle, he doesn't have webbed feet, meaning it's a lot harder for him to swim so he doesn't really like swimming or water in general

Doesn't have an ADHD prescription, so he usually drinks tea, or super fruity energy drinks to work as a prescription

Great sense of smell

He had to learn how to cook at a young age since Splinter didn't really cook for them

Master of cooking and baking

He's got two left feet when it comes to dancing, but he still enjoys dancing as a whole, even if he trips up, he laughs about it

When his brothers make self insulting jokes, he pulls out Dr. Delicate Touch, it's the main reason why his brothers make jokes about how good they are

iPad kid when he was growing up

Terrible Pollen alergy

Sings while he cooks, cleans and showers

He mostly likes songs to vibe to, or songs with great energies

Amazing whistler

Very acrobatic

(as shown by him literally THROWING A BOAT in like the last episode) he's one of those people where if they snap, then the world will literally end

Dyslexic

Has a hard time with words and stuff, but give him time please 🥺

When he stims he often sways back and forth, does a little ✨dancy-dance✨, puts his hands into fists and shakes them or he spins around

Very clumsy

Was a very picky kid

A very spoiled child

When him and Donnie were kids, he would stick around Donnie because Raph and Leo were usually rough housing, and Donnie couldn't as much due to his softshell, so he would stick around Donnie, often grabbing the sleeve of his shirt and following him around, it's one of the main reasons why him and Donnie are so close

Often times (when Donnie lets him) he'll paint his gadgets and often have a chance at naming some of them

Has beaten Candy Crush

Alot smarter then he looks

The family's therapist

Had a gacha phase as a kid

Calls everyone baby or says baby alot platonically (example: "Boom baby!" "That's how we roll, baby" ect ect)

Often will hide in shell when stressed, overstimulated, or scared

Often times his brothers have to talk him out of his shell.

He has the second smallest tail, which he will wag happily when he's happy, or sway around when he's doing stuff, has definitely accidentally hit his tail with his nun-chucks and he cried (imagine hitting yourself in the genitals and that's how he felt when he hit his tail, poor baby 😭)

Draws on himself all the time

Every wall in his room is painted and it's absolutely stunning, he's been trying to paint on the celling

A very big hugger

Will cling to people

He's literally "looks like a cinnamon roll, could kill you"

Knows sign language

He can lick the tip of his nose/beak with his tounge

Very sensitive/bad knees, that's why he wears the knee pads

Doesn't know how to tie a tie/bowtie so he has to get his brothers to do it for him

Has his own cookbook with recipes he made himself

At night he walks by the pet store, and stares at the turtles and just rubs the window saying "one day....I will free you" and Raph has to pull him away from the glass everytime

Used to sleep in his shell as a kid and it took a lot of time for him to sleep outside of his shell, but he sleeps in his shell when he goes to bed sad

He was one of those kids where when you asked them their favorite color, he would say "The RAINBOW" because he couldn't decide his favorite color, but eventually, he settled on orange

Has lost many many pencils from drawing so much that sometimes his brothers will look under somewhere or lay somewhere and they'll find one of his pencils

He was the turtle that helped his father assign colors to them (because he knows color theory and that colors can be associated with personalities, so he rambled to his dad about it when he was very young, and their father decided to use that to decide their colors.)

Enjoys Indie games

Can do the splits

[After Krang]

Is scared of his hands

He's scared that if he uses his mystic hands, that he'll die

Is afraid to touch things for a while

He grew more attached to his brothers, especially Donnie, when he saw his brother fall into the Krang Ship controls, and when he was forcefully torn out, if scared him half to death, he thought he lost his brother

Makes soup for everyone after the battle, but then immediately collapsed into bed due to exhaustion

Is very surprised with himself after he THEW A LITERAL SKYSCRAPER

After he made the portal, he gained the ability to hover around without touching the ground (Future Mikey is shown to do this)

His brothers are at first scared that Mikey can literally just float around when he wants to

But Mikey doesn't like to do it often, he mostly only does it when his legs are to tired, when he isn't paying attention and it activates by itself, and when he is thrown into battle

Cried a lot of tears when it was all over

Stays in his shell alot more and thinks

Starts sleeping in his shell again and it takes a while for him to get out more

Has a lot more sensory overloads

Not as joyful for a while

It takes a long time for him to bring back his little persona's like Dr Feelings and Dr Delicate Touch

Doesn't paint for a while

Like his brothers, he got PTSD from all of this

Alot more protective of Donnie because of when he Donnie tried protecting Mikey and he broke his battle shell

Thank you for Reading! Don't be afraid to Request something!!

[random-lil-illing]

Okay so I just got an ide for a ROTTMNT/TMNT 2012 crossover fanfic but I'm shit at writing so uhm here's the idea if anyone wants to write it. If you do write it please credit me/tag me/message me lol. You don't have to ask for permission just like, make sure I know about it/can read it thamks

Anyway, the actual idea is as follows:

Okay okay so it's set post-movie (like a few months later ) and everyone's recovering and healing their trauma and all that right? So they're all doing pretty ok but Leo's doing like worse than the others ptsd/mentally-wise and is very wary about like the concept of time/dimension travel.

So, Raph, Mikey and Donnie, being the good brothers they are, don't being up the topic around him, but they talk about it when he's not around cuz Donnie's making a multi-dimensional gun because since he's proved time travel, he also wants to prove dimensional travel.

Anyway so he finishes the gun, right? And so he takes his brothers (minus Leo) to test it out somewhere secluded. And it works!! And alternate veraions of him, his brothers, April, Splinter and even Casey (all 2012 mind you) come through the portal!! And everyones confused and excited so they introduce themselves and clear everything up and all that. So then the 2012 gang turn around to go home but the portal closed and the gun's not working for whatever reason. Shit.

Raph offers they stay with them, and then Mikey reminds them of Leo and everyone (-2012) is like 'Oh shit what are we gonna do'

And so they decide on a plan. The 2012 gang are going to stay in their lair until they find a way to send them back and tell Rise! Splinter about it, but make sure Rise! Leo, under NO CIRCUMSTANCE, finds out.

And the whole fanfic is them trying to navigate life while keeping the 2012 gang a secret from Rise Leo

In the end (think like a month more or less later) Leo finds out and freaks out but like a week later Rise Donnie sends them back to their universe so yeah. The Rise gang did get the 2012 gang's phone numbers tho so possible chatfic about that too??? Idk

Alyo since we're here basic headcannons about the Rise and 2012 gang!!

Rise:

Raph: -Oldest at 16 (I like to think the movie happened a year after the show)

-Genderqueer, He/She pronouns, any terms (Fem, Masc, GN), AMAB

-Likes women (technically not straight)

-anywhere between 6'10 and 7'5

-ADHD and Anxiety

-Mom friend/sibling

Donn: -Second oldest at 15

-Nonbinary, They/It/Tech, GN/Masc terms, AMAB

-Aroace or nblw (Non-Binary love women) can't decide

-6'4

-Autism and Social Anxiety

-Very sarcastic

Leon: -Second youngest at 15 (He's the younger twin)

-Transmasc, He/They and possibly Star/Starself, GN/Masc terms, AFAB

-Gay, the closet is made of glass (dating Usagi)

-6'2

-ADHD and Insomnia

-Flamboyant af

Mike: -Youngest at 14

-Genderfluid, if you don't know then use They/Pizza/Sparkle/Brush, terms depend on what they feel like that day but if you don't know use GN terms, AMAB

-Panromantic Ace

-5'10

-ADHD and a bit of Autism

-Therapist friend but at the same time unhinged friend

April: -19 y.o

-Female, She/They, Fem and GN terms, can’t decide whether AFAB or AMAB

-Lesbian, there was never a closet in the first place (dating Sunita and Cass)

-5’6

-Probably ADHD lol

-Chaotic big sister energy

Cass: -19

-Demigirl, Any pronouns, any terms, AFAB

-Lesbian (dating April and Sunita)

-5’8

-OCD and ADHD

-Unhinged and throws hands any chance she gets

Casey Jr: -14

-Questioning but definitely Masc, He/Him pronouns as of now, Masc/GN terms, AMAB

-Questioning but definitely Ace

-5’9

-ADHD and Anxiety

-Has like 3 moms and 2 dads

2012

Raphael: -Second oldest at 19

-Transmasc, He/Him, Masc terms, AFAB

-Straight (dating Mona Lisa)

-5’0

-Anger Issues with a side of OCD

-Angry tiny

Donnie: -Second youngest at 19 (they’re quadruplets)

-Non-Binary, They/He, GN terms, AMAB

-Bisexual (dating his Casey)

-5’6

-ADHD and OCD

-Wants to be unhinged but his Leo wont let him

Leo: -Oldest at 19

-Bigender, He/She/They, Any terms, AFAB

-Bisexual (And does NOT have a crush on Karai, it was gender envy)

-5’1

-ADHD

-Acts all serious infront of his Splinter but when he’s gone he’s more silly

Mikey: -Youngest at 19

-Genderfluid, if you dont know then They/Pizza pronouns and GN terms, AMAB

-Aroace

-4’9

-ADHD and Autism

-Chaotic af

April: -19

-Girl, She/Her and sometimes They/Them, Fem terms, AFAB

-Bisexual

-5’2

-Bit of Autism

-She’s either done with the Turtles’ shenanagins or she’s doing the shenanagins no inbetween

Casey: -20

-Transmasc, He/Him, Masc/GN terms, AFAB

-Bisexual (dating his Donnie)

-5’8

-ADHD

-Super chaotic lmao

I don’t have enough headcannons for the Splinters for them to have their own category but basically:

Gender/Pronouns: -Rise! Splinter - Man, He/Him, AMAB

2012! Splinter - Man, He/Him, AMAB

Sexualities: -Rise! Splinter - Bisexual

2012! Splinter - Straight

Heights: -Rise! Splinter - 3’5

2012! Splinter - 6’1

Anyway thats it lol, make sure to tell me where I can find your fic of this if you decide to write it (or any animations/drawings of it either) <3

peace y’all

[ducknotinarow]

What's the point of this post? Raph and his mental heath uwu have fun! :D

Raphael across the franchise is often shown to have anextiy and I argue many also do have depression as well. Having a lot todo with why he carries himself the way he doss why he buckles under pressure. Why he is so quick to get angry and most importantly way many of the takes seem to have these low energy moments time to time. Ill get more in depth for each of my red boys. under read more cause it'll be a tad long

so 87 raph show and bits taken from the merag comics

03/07 raph the 03 show and 07 movie and any comics that tie into these I also take stuff from the dark horse comics as well for this raph. And a bit of the IDW ones 12 show/comics/some shorts I also take a bit of the idw comics for this raph more so cause they sort of share some common things rise is mostly the show and any stuff i’ve seen from crew and what not.

Over all though you do see Raphael display traits as just part of who he is. This is more for Raph over all under the cut well dive a bit deeper. No I get most this from shows and comics.

- Raph is one of the night owls out of the family (funny considering their life style) he has trouble sleeping mostly why he sneaks out so often to go to the surface once they have that freedom. - Raph displays anxiety symptom in many adaptions especially 2012 and rise

- Feeling numb or isolated, Raph himself even calls himself a lone wolf despite the family dynamic. And often sets himself off on his own.

- Chronic feeling of unhappiness usually cover by the whole always being mad one.

- Feelings of hopelessness or emptiness

-Mood swings raph can be fine one second then losing it the next

1987 Raphael

What this happy Jellybean? yes uwu

I would say he has just general Anxiety from watching a bit here and there lately. When things get a bit too stressful or something causes worry Raph kind of is often more vocal about it all. Even down to like Mikey getting hurt he was the most panicked. High stress situations tend to bring it out with him snapping as well. For 87 though I feel he has more recurrent depression. He just gets a few episodes of major depression. Its something that is a bit reoccurring for Raphael. And sure can be notable he’s far more aggressive and becomes a tad closed off. Seeing how 87 is a bit more open with even physical touching this should be noticeable. he is also a bit more prone to breaking down. Raph isn’t a stranger to crying but when hes dealing with a depression episode? he a tad more likely to lash out and get worked up. Hes not really aware he has depression. Often just says he’s in a mood sometimes they are short and sometimes long and he will be upfront about it. “hmm sorry just in a mood I haven’t slept maybe i’m tried guys.” kind of logic to his who deal. Considering the time mental health wasn’t talked as much so I can see others taking it at face vaule outside his brothers and close friends i wager cause they tend to be a bit more keyed into Raph’s emotional state. He deff seeks to fight more as well so spends a good more time with Casey cause he needs to vent it out. So Casey growing over protective of him? yeah hits him during those episodes.

2003 Raphael

Oh the one who started this headcannon of mine so long ago uwu

This boy has clear anxiety personal I feel all the turtles have forms of PTSD cause they go through shit. Which is what I say Raph has, it gets worse when he and his brothers are in some pretty bad spots. He tends to fine when Leo’s around however I know its slightly stated as a joke but the fact Raph didn’t snap back or hit Mikey says a lot. In Samurai tourist Mikey goes on about all Leo dose for the family and how him being Leo allows them all freedom. Like Raph not having to worry about thinking because Leo thinks for him. Despite himself he relies on Leo to make the hard choices even if he sometimes dissagress with them when he dosen’t though? Raph is a great at what hes asked todo steal them a ride, sneak into places. When Raph is left to think himself? he tends to make poor choices and his anxiety gets the better of him I say city at war shows they since he and Leo are on different sides nearly the whole time. Often this is why he is free to be reckless.

Depression oh this boy has Bipolar Disorder. Its the main reason for his reckless behvior. His mood swings, elevated mood, Anger*, guilt, hopelessness restlessness, self harm, dis organized behavior, excess desire for sex impulsivity and so on and so forth I could go on for Raph with this in truth.

A lot of why he is is because he is dealing with this it’s why when he gose to far into anger it’s like he is a different person in his blind rage. When Raph turly snaps he losses sense of himself. And needs to be grounded back again. Unlike 87 Raph though he dose learn he has depression but he don’t learn that for a good while. He just often is left to think something is wrong with him, and he dosen’t know what it is. He feels what ever it is will hurt those he loves and that how we get into

-2007 im obessed with this movie u-u

Since I write 2007 as a continuation of 03. So In the Raphael prequel comic we see how he got the Nightwatch name and such he took over the mantel from the previous Nightwatcher (I wont spoil this in case people wanna read that comic or whatever this video dose a good job covering it however) This takes place just before Leo leaves however. But they are told he will be so Raph already sulking during this. But this meeting with the previous Nightwatcher happens at the right time for Raphael in a way. Now as I mentioned before Leo is someone Raph look towards for guidance. Despite how they are and how he will fight Leo he respects his brother and will often listen to him and value what he says and thinks. So when leo was sent away? Raphael felt lost. But then he had this as something to latch on to. As the Nightwatcher he could still do good. However his depression got worse Once Leo left thier home slowly became undone, it was a slow change over time and Raph started to feel like it was him who did it. “Home been awful here is awful. Is it me?” He feels this thing that is wrong with him is doing it and wherever he gose it gets worse. He was fine at the start but as leo sort of distance during his trip Raph took it personal like Leo was happier away from them. When he is at home he feels he’s bring eveyone else down Don seems to find a girl who make him happy, Mikey seems to love his job and keeps busy. Splinter seems content. All Raph is doing is bring them all down with him. Slowly he become distinct himself the only thing that he seems to be doing right? is being the nigthwatcher cause all he is doing to everyone else is hurting them. Im sure he lashed out to all his loved one before he fully pushed all away. Small thing being a bit more testy and such and since he isn’t aware of his bi polar disorder just yet? He feels something is just wrong with him u-u One night wehn hes playing Nightwatcher he sees an accident at the docks. And it what kind of made him see his awful solution. He was just going to drag them all down with him Leo was safe and free good for him. But everyone else? Idk when or how he dose get confirmation on his depression likely when he starts trying to patch things up with everyone he dosen’t expect any of them to forgive him. But knowing in part why he got so bad? it helps.And I say after the event sof the movie since by then everyone is sort of recovering from everything is when Raph finally tells people about it not to excuse his behavior no he tells them because he wants them to know hes gonna get better. Its a miracle to him that Donnie forgives him and that hell him and casey even mange to get back together ;3;

2012 Raphael

THIS BOY’S ANEXITY IS BASICALLY CANON IN THIS SHOW! Once more Im saying PTSD hes got some clear truama and truama bait and fuel uwu Raph Dose have an extream fear of bugs which dose count as a type of anxiety primarily though I would say 2012 Raph deals with Panic Disorder, he’s been shown to have panic attack before and they can get so bad he even hallucinates. I feel Raphael in 2012 dose also have Bipolar Disorder much like his 2003 counter part dose. Because he dose match many similar story beats when it comes to his anger issues.And he dose share similar symptoms the recklessness, impulsive, mood swings. His own anger often been seen worse by the team though Leo even pointing out they can’t trust him till he gets his anger under control. And he truly uses his anger as a defense and shield often needs to be snapped out of it because he too can go into blind rage when hes upset enough. He is far more emotionally connected compared to the 03 Raphael being referred to as being sensitive often even it’s because of those mood swings of his. He often has a lot of days where he feels low, he just dosen’t have energy to do anything. He tends to lounge around a lot on those days, he dosen’t mind being around others when he is but it’s kind of easy to notice because he won’t even get mad when having those episodes. Often its why he can be found brooding in the pool of water in the lair. He dosen’t mean to go ‘dark’ as in not as commutative but it happens. He even dose it to his family hell go to trianing but soon as its over hes just back in the water. No he dose know he has these issues, he might not know the exact depression and anxiety but he knows he has these issues. Thing is Raph is very in the mind set of “it’s all in my head, so it’s nothing to worry about.” in other words if I ignore it it never happened uwu. In other words he mentions it but down plays it as being no big deal. Im sure he’s done so with Casey on the days hes down and just wants to like lie around instead of get into trouble. If casey asks hell just says he just not up for it. He not avoiding it persay more feels it not  abig deal and so it shouldn’t be a big deal. His family are likely more aware he has it so he just assume they will know what up so he dosen’t always voice it to them. Dose being a tad clingy to them. Hang around Leo suddenly, may talk to Donnie about whatever they are working on, chills out with mikey willing letting them paint his nails/shell he just wants company more and tend to be needy for attetion those days.

Rise

Now again his anxiety is very clearly shown he has separation anxiety for one. Raph didn’t have enough support or guidance growing up he had to grow up fast for his brothers so they kind of had it but he didn’t. THis has left him to feel insecure and even fearful usualy about if he is doing the right thing for his brothers and by them. HE has a more parental air around him when it comes to them. Hes hard on Leo cause he knows they are holding back and just cruising by. He coddles Donnie a bit because he knows they are bit more sensitive then he lets on and sort of babies Mikey cause he is the youngest and isn’t ready for them to grow up. Its why he freaks out when he is suddenly apart from them. It different when hes aware of it but when he suddenly finds himself lost? he panics. Depression can be hereditary and Splinter clearly has it himself. I feel Raph in rise however more has Atypical Depression, it can increase ones appetite and Raph eats like anything and everything at times. And adds to weight gain (been mentioned at times hes gained weight) He tends to sleep more but keeping to his schedule helps. He also is aware he has depression once more he might not know the type may down play it compared to his fathers own even. He likely told Yvoone he dose get depressed sometimes when she first is around to see that side of him.

[longlivethedark]

Michelangelo Headcanons:

Pan, she/he/they pronouns, ADHD, PTSD and Anxiety, has scars from his hands to his elbows after the Krang, great at dancing, art (specifically acrylic and spray pain) and cooking.

Leonardo Headcanons:

Gay and Trans, he/him pronouns, ADHD, Depression and PTSD, has cracks in his carapus and a few scars on him all over his body, the class clown but secretly depressed, actually a great leader when he tries.

Donatello Headcanons:

AceLesbian and Non-binary, he/they pronouns, Autistic and PTSD, softshell has deep scars, bad boy image but reallyyyy loves his family don't be fooled, can and will kill if he has to and might own a gun,

Raphael Headcanons:

AcePan, any pronouns, PTSD and Anxiety, blind in one eye, very nice guy but can and will hurt u if u mess w his family, best bed in the house

[hassedah]

Random headcanons on the boys of Moonnlight Lovers :

These are headcanons I have in mind for the boys at the mansion. There are mentions of depression, PTSD, and anxiety in Vladimir, Ethan and Raphael's parts. I flagged them with this symbol ♦ at the beginning and at the end. (English is not my first language, sorry for the mistakes).

Aaron :

Aaron is the only real adult in charge of the mansion.

Aaron owns about 20 identical T-shirts, which makes it seem like he never changes his clothes, but in reality he just loves their texture.

Aaron snores when he sleeps, sometimes it keeps Ethan and Beliath awake. When he is very tired his snoring wakes up Raphael too. 

Aaron sometimes wants to throw his roommates out the window. He loves them very, very much, but between the existential crises of Vladimir, Raphael and Ivan, and the nonsense of Beliat and Ethan. He doesn't have much time for himself, and sometimes he just wishes he could take a walk in the woods without worrying that one of them will come up with a stupid idea while he's away.

Aaron cuts all the wood for the fireplace, sometimes Ethan and Ivan come to help him. Beliath never participates because he doesn't want to get dirty. Raphael doesn't like the forest (actually, he just doesn't want to get tired), and Aaron doesn't want to see Vladimir with an axe in his hands, even a plastic one, it's a matter of caution, the aristocrat is too clumsy for that.

Aaron has trouble falling asleep and often wakes up because of concern for his roommates. He can't help it, he sees them as immature cubs, or careless kittens, especially Ivan.

Aaron likes to sing, but he rarely does it at the manor.  He prefers to sing in the forest, he has a very nice voice.

Once a week, Aaron loves to take a hot bath while reading a book.  It's one of the few times he really relaxes. To make sure he is not disturbed by his roommates, he wears earplugs (it doesn't cut out all the noise, but he hears it much less).

Vladimir :

Vladimir can't stand physical contact, but he would love to be hugged.

Vladimir fell off the roof while trying to fix the tiles with Aaron once. Since then, the wolf doesn't want to see him on the roof and is on the verge of an anxiety attack when he sees him climbing a ladder.

Vladimir mixes the colors in the washing machine on purpose to annoy Beliath. The others have already tried to stop him, but he knows how to be very discreet when he has something stupid to do.

♦♦ Vladimir has a triple set of keys to all the doors in the mansion, and has passed on duplicate keys to the rooms to his very dear roommates. Even though he never goes into the rooms, it makes him feel better to know that he has a key in case of a problem or disaster. Everyone knows about it, but they let him do it so that he doesn't have to deal with a series of anxiety attacks.♦♦

Vladimir is always the last to go to bed and always checks several times to make sure everyone is in the manor (that's why he always knows when Ethan and Beliat are sleeping elsewhere).

♦♦ Even though Aaron has no choice but to go into the forest on full moon nights, Vladimir is still extremely anxious about him being out there alone and would rather have him stay with them. His anxiety was much worse after Aaron arrived at the manor, forcing the wolf to stay more often than he would have liked.♦♦

♦♦ Even if Vladimir tries to hide his anxiety attacks, everyone knows about them and tries to limit the reasons for them as best they can.♦♦

Vladimir would be tending to his garden even when the moon is visible if his roommates weren't watching him.

Vladimir can't hold his liquor at all, which makes Ethan laugh.

Vladimir puts sugar in his tea because he finds it too bitter, although he refuses to admit it. He hates coffee and would like to be able to drink hot chocolate without feeling like a child.

Vladimir has a phobic fear of dolls. He can't stand them and will have a panic attack if he comes face to face with one. The day Ethan found out, he went out and bought some to hide in the mansion. Vladimir refused to sleep until he was sure there was not one left, and Aaron never felt more like putting the doctor through a window. Hours of combing the mansion with Vladimir to convince him that there were none left.

Vladimir cheats at Monopoly  to such an extent that he is not allowed near the bank.

Vladimir's blanket serves as a comforter. That's why he finds it hard to part with it, its smell reassures him (it's the same for his cane, he doesn't feel safe when he doesn't have it with him).

♦♦ Vladimir has never had a love partner, between his depression and his illness. He hasn't had many opportunities to find someone to date, and he doesn't like one-night stands. He doesn't feel safe in such situations.♦♦

Vladimir always follows the exact same routine when he gets up. If he is forced to change it, he becomes unpleasant and aggressive because of the stress it causes him.

Ivan :

Ivan is a K-pop fan.

Ivan was afraid of the dark when he arrived in the mansion.

Ivan loves Disney.

Ivan has a stuffed animal that he likes to sleep with, it stays hidden under his mattress most of the night so the others don't make fun of it. It's a patched up old dog that he got as a baby, he broke into his old house to get it back, except for Aaron nobody knows about it.

When he arrived, Ivan was terrified of the mansion and convinced that it was haunted. (Ethan is not totally innocent here) It took him a long time to stop being afraid of it.

Ivan would like to play hide and seek in the mansion, but no one ever wants to play with him. Well, Ethan would, but he'd rather break his legs than admit it.

Ivan likes to listen to metal and rap music to annoy Vladimir. It is a way to resist his despotism in a peaceful way, unfortunately Raphael is one of the collateral victims.

Ivan knows how to play the piano, but he would rather break all the fingers of both hands than to play it. On the other hand, he loves the guitar and would like to have one in the manor.

Béliath :

Béliath knows his roommates' romantic and blood preferences by heart. He's the one who organizes the guest list after all and he wants everyone to have fun.

Béliath can't stand water for his shower that's below 40 degrees. He wants hot water, he needs hot water.

Béliath is the only one who shops for the manor, it's a very thoughtful choice on his part. Vladimir and Raphael would look completely anachronistic in a store, Ivan is too fragile, Ethan would be able to fight with the cart, and Aaron would be wrong about all the products.

Béliath likes to take care of the garden, as long as it's not too messy. He does it mostly to please Vladimir.

Béliath knows that his clothes make him look like he's wearing pajamas, but he likes the texture of the clothing far too much to change it.

Béliath is arachnophobic. He can't help it, he can't help it, if he ever sees a spider he will scream until someone kills it.

Béliath is a sleepwalker, but he never moves around the mansion, he just sits in his bed and stares at the wall in front of him before falling back onto the mattress. The first time Ethan saw her do this, he nearly had a heart attack. In his defense, the incubus' black hair was falling in front of his face and he had just watched a horror movie.

Béliath loves to give manicures to the other members of the mansion. "It's important to have nice nails". Raphael is always the easiest to convince, he's pretty dainty. Aaron doesn't see the point but is willing to accept if it will make him happy, Ivan refused until he saw Aaron accept. Ethan and Vladimir refuse most of the time, because they don't like their hands being touched, but they finally give in when Béliath insists.

Raphaël :

Raphael hates horror movies. (Creepypasta too). Jumpscares are too noisy and the vast majority of the stories make him very uncomfortable. He doesn't like war movies or battle stories, and he has a lot of trouble with crime shows and detective movies.

Raphael has never cleaned the mansion, he doesn't even know where the brooms and vacuum cleaner are. (He uses his powers for that, yes he's a cheater, but he doesn't like cleaning).

Raphael loves cats, but he's too wary of his roommates' foolishness to bring one home. Ethan thinks it would also help with his depression to have.

♦♦ Raphael's crying spells worry everyone at the mansion, but no one knows how to help him. They are even more suspicious when he shares his dark thoughts and are often afraid to leave him alone because of it. ♦♦

Raphael often falls asleep while reading in the library or the parlor. Sometimes he talks in his sleep. Mostly he mumbles incomprehensible things, other times he calls things, or gets angry. Ethan recorded him once with Beliath to annoy him the next day.

Ethan :

Ethan often retrieves cell phones, very often, but he always ends up having them confiscated by Vladimir. So he hid one at the Moondance so he could continue to use it without anyone seeing him, it's just for listening to music or playing games.

Ethan is a very good doctor but his roommates never listen to his advice, which makes him despair, sometimes he would like to hit them but it's not very professional behavior so he just gets bitter and slams doors.

Ethan's writing is a nightmare to read, it's a string of shapeless waves that are quite strange. No one can proofread it at the mansion, so it's a nightmare when he leaves a post-it note on the living room table.

Ethan can't stand Ivan, it's not a scoop, but it's not only because Ivan is an irresponsible, immature and selfish kid, it's also because Ivan stole the younger's place, he takes all the attention of the others ! Who will pay attention to him now?!

♦♦ Ethan is still exhausted and doesn't know where he is or how he got there after having a flashback episode. Beliath is the one who takes care of him most often in this situation. He always makes sure he gets back to his room and especially that he doesn't go out in the daylight. Aaron would like to be helpful too, but Ethan doesn't want his help anymore, so Beliath also makes sure that the wolf doesn't get involved. Even though Aaron is full of good intentions his rough handling of Ethan's problems in the beginning only made things worse.♦♦

All the boys:

Vladimir and Beliath gave Ivan a DS so he can play video games. He mainly plays Mario.

Vladimir tried to teach Ivan to waltz, but he finally gave up. The youngest is not able to take a single step without falling.

Vladimir and Ivan have a catastrophic sense of direction. He would be able to get lost anywhere. This is also why Aaron prefers to know them in the manor rather than outside, he doesn't have the energy to go looking for them in the forest again.

Vladimir, Ivan, and Raphael can't tinker. (Actually, Raphael can tinker, but he prefers to pretend so he can be sure he never has to fix anything.)

Aaron and Béliath always come out of the bathroom naked because their room is next door, which always annoys Vladimir.

Sometimes, when Ethan is in a good mood, he plays a game of Battleship with Ivan, but it often ends in an argument.

[curioussubjects]

I feel bad discussing spn now that’s over but I’ve been wondering. Do you think dean actually meant it when he said “why does that something always seem to be you” (15.03)? Usually people blurt out what’s on their mind all of a sudden even if they didn’t mean to say it out loud. But it comes out because the person either thinks about it or actually believes it. Do you think at one point Dean truly blamed Cas for Mary? I mean, putting 15.09 aside of course.

Why do you feel bad discussing SPN now the show’s over, anon?? Don’t feel bad!

The short answer to your question, in my view, is that Dean was lashing out because of how his unaddressed trauma over Cas dying (cf. 7x01, purgatory, 12x23) gets entangled with him processing his grief over Mary and Jack. Everything is further exacerbated by Chuck’s villain reveal, and the events that lead to Rowena’s “death.”  The longer answer to this question starts with acknowledging that feelings and trauma are complicated things that aren't always rational. And that's the crux of the matter for Dean in that moment he lashes out at Cas: he's not behaving rationally. We know Dean is angry, and historically doesn't handle anger well at all, but we also know, even without 15x09, that what Dean is really feeling is fear. In that moment, Dean is angry, and he's scared. If you watch the scene closely, too, you'll notice that Dean is still present enough to regret saying "why does that something always seem to be you" to Cas. He tenses up, he looks down and only looks up again in stubbornness defiance when Cas says he can't even look at him. Then Cas leaves, which has always been an issue for Dean. However warranted Cas's decision to leave was, it still hits Dean as rejection, too. All this is to say that the break up scene is extremely fraught, and Dean is the type of person who needs time to process events and emotions, and time to process is something he hasn't had since Mary disappeared.

So you ask: ok, cool, but what does all of that have to do with Cas dying, Liv? And here's where I say they have everything to do with Cas dying. I've talked about this before in tags and in other posts that I can't think of right now, but there are common occurrences in the events that have led to the more traumatic Cas deaths. If we think of Cas dying in 07x01, the context for that is as follows: Cas needs to solve a problem, he wants to ask Dean for help, but the desire to not burden him with it is greater, so Cas ends up handling the problem solo, which leads to disaster and also him dying. Or, well, apparently dying. But as far as Dean was concerned, Cas was dead, and he did struggle with it a lot during season 7. Now, fast-forward to s12 and the context of how Cas ends up dead then: Cas needs to solve a problem, part of him does want to cooperate with Sam and Dean to solve it, but he ultimately decides his desire to bring Dean a win, and to shield him and Sam from actions they'd suffer from are greater. Predictably, Cas ends up handling the problem solo, which leads to complications, and him being killed by Lucifer. Cas's death in 12x23 is significantly more traumatic to Dean than the one in 07x01 as season 13 starts with a grief arc that is devoted to Dean's suffering over Cas -- to the point that suffering overshadows even his grief over Mary. Granted, these are somewhat reductive summaries of the events of seasons 7 and 12, but the fact remains that those two deaths were remarkably similar as well as traumatic. 

If you look at trauma theory in regards to literary analysis, you'll notice that a key element is repetition. The story of trauma is a story of echoes, which is partly why triggers are what they are for people who have PTSD. In particular, a situation doesn't need to be an exact replica in order to evoke a traumatic memory. A situation need only be similar enough to the traumatic event to cause a trauma response. Therefore, if we keep in mind that the events leading to 15x03 aren’t exact mirrors of 07x01 or 12x23, but too reminiscent for comfort, then Dean’s behavior toward Cas starts making a bit more sense -- not excused, but understandable. A quick summary of these similarities goes as follows: Cas notices there’s is something off with Jack because of his soul; he decides to investigate on his own to avoid worrying the Winchesters and also because of his own fear of losing his family. He only comes forward with what is happening after something potentially disastrous has happened (Mary’s death). Later, Cas deviates from the agreed plan to close the wound leading to hell, which leads to another disastrous consequence (Rowena’s death). What does this look like? Cas makes a decision to act on his own, and doesn’t tell Dean (or Sam) about it, something goes wrong, someone dies. Notably, here, moreover, is that Cas obviously doesn’t die, but he has paralleled Mary before (when he was dead in s13) and there’s an argument to be made that he would eventually parallel Rowena (with heaven), but that’s from a metanarrative perspective rather than Dean’s, and I digress.

Oh, It’s worth noting, too, that the way in which the arc starting with 14x18 and culminating in 15x03 presents a similar, but not quite, chain of events as those of previous seasons signals the intentionality of the trauma narrative. 

But anyway, as we were: the resonance between the traumatic and triggering events, with the latter being traumatic in their own way, make Dean response in a way that is unfair for the situation at hand, but betray a deeper truth about Dean’s state of mind. Backtracking a little from 15x03, the first instance of Dean lashing out at Cas happens in 14x18 with the (heartbreaking) line: “Then you're dead to me.” At face value, those words are a condemnation of Cas and indicate a complete breakdown of the relationship, hinging on Jack having hurt/killed Mary. There is, however, another angle there, pain simmering beneath the surface, which makes more sense in its direction to Cas: the last time Jack, Mary, and Cas were involved in a tableaux like this, Cas died and Mary was gone. In what is an inversion of events, Mary is dead and Cas is...there, but as an echo of Jack’s birth, to say Cas is dead is a statement of fact: he did die, then. And as he was a parallel to Mary in the aftermath of Jack’s birth (and the rehashing of the John, Dean, Sam drama through Dean, Sam, and Jack), so is he a parallel to Mary here, except in circumstance. Both Mary and Cas had been after Jack. Mary happened to find him first, but Cas could’ve easily been the one to find him. Easily been the one who died. See the issue? This is obviously not to say that Dean’s grief and rage weren’t about Mary herself, but that the situations are entangled and murky. 

Further entanglement and murkiness happen when Cas is forced to change the plan to seal the hell wound in 15x03. We all know, including Dean, that there was nothing Cas could’ve done instead of what he did. But besides the change of plans, there’s an undercurrent of anxiety of the wound closing before Cas makes it out. He does, of course, but that’s the what if, always. And to illustrate the possibility, Rowena sacrifices herself to close the wound. It’s not coincidence that the similarities here are tenuous considering the stress burden from everything that has happened since 14x18 has continued to grow with no respite.

The stage is set then for the confrontation that leads to Cas walking out of the bunker. Dean is clearly on edge, and Cas is in a particularly vulnerable and hopeless headspace:

CASTIEL: Sorry about Rowena. DEAN: You're sorry? Why didn't you just stick to the damn plan? CASTIEL: Belphegor was lying. DEAN: Belphegor's a demon. CASTIEL: He was using us. He wanted to eat every last soul to take over Hell, Earth, and every... DEAN: Yeah, and we would've figured it out... after. With Rowena. CASTIEL: The plan changed, Dean. Something went wrong. You know this. Something always goes wrong. DEAN: Yeah, why does that something always seem to be you?

The reason I went of this long journey to come back to this is so as to make clear that what Dean is talking about here isn’t about Rowena at all, and it’s not about Mary either. We know Dean didn’t really blame Cas for Mary, and that he didn’t blame him for Rowena, either. But do those bolded parts sound familiar?

CASTIEL: Listen. Raphael will kill us all. He'll turn the world into a graveyard. I had no choice.

DEAN: No, you had a choice. You just made the wrong one.

CASTIEL: You don't understand. It's complicated.

DEAN: No, actually, it's not, and you know that. Why else would you keep this whole thing a secret, huh, unless you knew that it was wrong? When crap like this comes around, we deal with it... Like we always have. What we don't do is we don't go out and make another deal with the Devil!

CASTIEL: It sounds so simple when you say it like that. Where were you when I needed to hear it?

DEAN: I was there. Where were you?

DEAN: You should've come to us for help, Cas.

How about:

DEAN: Cas, you can't – With everything that's going on, you can't just go dark like that. We didn't know what happened to you. We were worried. That's not okay. CASTIEL: Well, I didn't mean to add to your distress. I – Dean, I just keep failing. Again and again. When you were taken, I searched for months and I couldn't find you. And then Kelly escaped on my watch, and I couldn't find her. And I just wanted I needed to come back here with a win for you. For myself.

[...]

DEAN : We will find a better way. CASTIEL: You mean, we? DEAN : Yes, dumbass. We. You, me, and Sam, we're just better together. So now that you're back, let's go, Team Free Will. Let's get it done. CASTIEL: I'd like that. DEAN: Great.

“Then, you’re dead to me.” “...why does that something always seem to be you”

Because it’s Cas, and Cas being dead and gone. The tragedy of the divorce arc is that Cas ends up gone, too. However, this time, it’s Dean’s fault for not stopping him. Here, Dean’s fear of Cas dying leads to the anger that ultimately pushes him away. So, yeah, Dean meant what he said, but not in the way Cas took it. Not in the way it appeared as. 

The other tragedy of Supernatural ending as it did is that Dean never got to heal from that trauma, he never got to confront Cas for it, either. Make no mistake, the empty deal is another spiral of Dean’s unaddressed trauma over Cas dying. The beats are the same, and the result is Cas, gone, and Dean, shattered. Sadly, we never got our final resolution, the climatic reunion that would mirror Dean’s prayer in purgatory and Cas’s confession in the dungeon. It’s a story left unfinished.