#Ramblings of mine

[raygunny]

I think another thing I really connect with when it comes to romancing Astarion/reading fanfiction about him is that even though he's objectively unpleasant sometimes, Tav and the fandom show him understanding and love.

In the early acts he can be quick to lash out, make snarky comments that are a little too pointed, regularly complain or be visibly annoyed.

And yet - Tav still pursues him. Sees his damage and looks past the way he's trying to cover his pain and fear. Outside of the trauma, also accepting his natural snarkiness and eventually enjoying it as he softens and it becomes more playful. He's able to make that change because of the acceptance and safety Tav provides.

He's a character that has a lot of flaws when it comes to how he interacts with others, but as the team gets to know him better they too seem to recognize the good while accepting the bad. It's not always all flowers and rainbows between them, but he's a work in progress and that's ok.

I grew up often feeling that if I wasn't pleasant, useful, or overly kind at all times then I wouldn't be liked or even loved. I hid the messier parts of myself and felt such angst whenever I inevitably slipped up.

Now as an adult I'm figuring out that doesn't have to be the case. I can be messy, annoying, and have bad days - but still be liked, still be worthy of love. There can be a balance and I don't always have to downplay my emotions or who I am in order to please others. And in fact, being more open can allow those around me to help me grow and feel better.

Being uncomplicated doesn't equal being more worthy of love.

[dyingstarsinyoursky]

FUUUCK

Finally it was my turn in queue for Stray Kids tickets. Took a bit to pick a ticket. The moment I click to buy, it crashes... now it won't load again no matter how my many time I refresh of different browsers..

I only get:

We Couldn't Load Your Content

Please refresh your browser to try again, or return to the homepage.

[idridian]

...and honestly - since i'm on the topic and i'm in a bad enough mood to say something - it's not just the above sentiment, but also the flipside of it: why should i bother writing anything if readers are just as easily satisfied by a text generator’s regurgitated word salad?

[swearphil]

when something major goes down in a fandom you're not a part of

[some-pers0n]

You ever look at some art your mutual made and you just sit there in stunned silence and awe that one of your friends is out there making jaw-dropping beautiful art just for the hell of it

[queerofthedagger]

I'd truly be the worst person to stick into a timeloop because I'd really just spend the first 5 years catching up on my book tbr, the next 7 on all the movies and shows that've Been On My List for ages, and then another decade on ao3. like sure nothing may stick but my memories will and i can just go into a supermarket to get snacks and wine each day, and i have art to indulge in. like thanks for the hints on how to get out but respectfully, I am busy

[idridian]

earlier this year, i was on vacation and stayed in a small hotel, a very charming little place run by a young couple and a handful of support staff. on my first morning there, i went to the breakfast room and the lady of the house asked if i'd like anything to drink - coffee, tea, hot or cold cocoa. i chose cold cocoa.

i stayed for a week. the second morning, she asked if i'd like cold cocoa again. by the third day she went to make one when she saw me come in.

i like cold cocoa fine, but i'm not crazy about it or anything. but the cocoa itself wasn't the point - the point was that i was known in a very small way, and i made sure to always act visibly delighted and thank her for the cocoa. the point is that she made the effort to remember the thing i'd ordered and cater to me on subsequent days.

here at home, i go out for dinner with a coworker friend every week. we frequent a burger restaurant (they make excellent food. it's literally ruined all other burger places for me). the fact that the people there know our order - always the same - well enough to complete our sentences for us when we order is a compliment. i had to explain this to my coworker friend, who found it embarrassing. one time i got food delivered from them and the guy delivering it said "oh, it's you. you've been to the restaurant; i remember seeing you there!"

i am known. that is the point.

Starving to death this morning because ive been to the new local cafe twice this week already and if i go a third time ill look desperate.

[kalicocal]

it must've been like a punch to the gut when ekko saw powder from this:

to this:

[justghostthings]

Being disgustingly perverted is also actually extremely romantic

[meltinii]

hualian fits!

[idridian]

listen im not saying i want the real life pope to die or anything, but i DO firmly believe that if he dies while the conclave 2024 movie fandom is still going strong, a decent portion of that fandom would start following the proceedings of the ensuing irl conclave like sports. me included probably. and i think that’d be tremendously fun

[expelliarmus]

[dyingstarsinyoursky]

Excuse me, but Slash... SLASH!

Bruuuhhhh Stray Kids really come out with another bang, just a few days after a banger like Chk Chk Boom

Like the intro??!?

The instrumental in the intro is insane! Absolutely genius.

And then Felix comes in with that fucking awesome deep rap?!?!

I'm gagged

For real! The whole song is fucking amazing, but the intro has me by the throat.

I can imagine that intro playing in the Deadpool movie, just as a badass fighting scene is about to go down. Like the fight hasn't started yet, but that intro starts playing, and you're like "uuuhhh shit's about to go down"

3racha really did it again! 👌

[halemerry]

Hey everyone what's your favorite mug look like?

[quadrantadvisor]

Thinking about DP x DC Jason Todd being a revenant again. Here's my scenario. Jason gets called that by some ghost. He's like "what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" He's heard the term before but he doesn't know any actual lore. He googles it. He scrolls past the Leonardo DiCaprio bear movie. He opens the wiki. Sees the words "animated corpse" and gets a chill diwn his spine. He starts reading the first section.

He closes Wikipedia.

That night he has a nightmare that his family buried him, again, this time with precautions. He wakes up in his own grave, full of stones, too heavy to move, to scream.

[queerofthedagger]

it's already humiliating when you get into new media, take one look at a character, and know that one's gonna be living in your head indefinitely, but it's absolutely nothing compared to looking at a character and thinking eh i don't think i'd ever have strong feelings about that one he's kinda boring and then he sits quietly in the back of your brain poking idly at synapses and thoughts every once in a while until one day you wake up and realise oh. oh fuck. category 5 blorbo moment, how the ever loving fuck did this happen to me