#RELATIVITY IS SO FUCKED UP MAAAAN

[bandsanitizer]

fucked up how people will be like “awww [insert relatively short male kpop idol] is so small” and he can still reach the top shelf

[twilightarcade]

oc-tober day 27 - monster!

[bisluthq]

Yeah I don’t know why people act like this streak of bad movies is a new thing for Saoirse 💀 her filmography has some REALLY good movies but it also has some of the worst movies

literally lmao. I think - not to pull out old fans/new fans clout but like I do think a lot of new fans got into her with the Gerwig movies and then watched like Brooklyn and Hotel Budapest and Hanna and Atonement and like those are very cool movies and they figured it’s mostly gonna be like that but… saoirse makes some really shit movies sometimes. I wouldn’t even call this a “streak” of bad movies relative to Saoirse’s past output because like since Little Women she’s made Ammonite (which was bad but far from the worst movie I’ve ever seen lol like it wasn’t a great film but it also wasn’t a bad film, it’s legit the definition of a film that exists and like it gave some pretty funny and iconic moments in promo in terms of me asking if straight women are okay so I am fine with it existing, and like a few of the sex scene gifs are hot like the whole scene isn’t but with no sound and out of context they looked sexy), she cameo’d in The French Dispatch (sad it was only a cameo but she looked super sexy and that was a very cool movie if you like Wes Anderson, which I do - not a way to get into him but solid Wes Anderson flick), See How They Run (which wasn’t like Oscar worthy but was a fun movie and had a fun storyline and she was good in it) and Foe (which was absolutely awful 😂😂💀💀😫). She’s apparently excellent in The Outrun, Blitz… we’ll have to see about but it’s a really good director so idk what went wrong if something DID go wrong, and Bad Apples (which sounds hella weird but w/e maybe it’s better than I’m giving it credit for from the premise).

That’s really only ONE super bad movie? In 5 years?

and if I’m honest like the dialogue is so bad it’s kinda funny and so I might rewatch it at some stage. Same for Lost River, which I’ve seen several times, and it never stops being a bit funny to me lmao. Also tbf I think a lot of people did that because they liked Ryan G like it’s a dope cast but maaaan that movie is ass lol. Whereas you’d have to pay me money to watch Violet & Daisy, the horrible Stockholm syndrome movie and The Host. Those aren’t fun, they’re just actively bad movies.

How I Live Now, Byzantium, MQOS, On Chesil Beach and The Seagull are all super mid movies. Not bad, have some things going for them - Saoirse bring one of those thing in like all four - but aren’t like showstoppers.

Her GOOD movies are: Atonement, Hanna, Brooklyn, The Way Back, Lady Bird, Little Women, I’d strongly argue The Lovely Bones but I know it weirds some people out so I won’t go super hard for it. I do think it’s a great movie though.

I also dunno why people are so harsh on Sersh because they’re usually also fans of ATJ who - in a much shorter career - has made some equally dreadful movies and Margot who, again, has made ass movies. People also love to go off about Zendaya and I agree she’s very talented but again plenty of mid to ass projects there.

allllll actors fuck up sometimes.

shit like MERYL STREEP has been in bad movies. Y’all ever watch Before and After (with her and Liam Neeson where their son kills his gf)? Don’t. It’s a really bad movie.

everyone makes bad movies sometimes 😂💀😫

[sunny-satellites]

im so sorry its music opinions time

I finally got around to listening to Omnium Gatherum, I guess the name sake makes sense just because it feels like a collection of tracks that would have fit a lot better on other or their own albums or scrapped concepts, with the huge amount of output they have I’d believe if a lot of these were the start to one-off projects that didn’t get the regular amount of focus.

I tried to give it a solid first listen while focusing on something else and felt relatively unimpressioned upon, on second listen there’s quite a few good tracks but I’m overall uncertain. Ultimately it feels like one of the weaker albums they’ve done in recent times. I’m going to give it an intentful relisten and write some thoughts down, I suppose.

Dripping Tap up through Kepler-22b has some weird shifts, Magenta Mountain’s main melodic hook is Fine, but god if it doesn’t get old, however its tone and pace match the rest of the album a bit better. I didn’t notice my first time around but Kepler-22b actually has a direct lead into Gaia and it was kind of my start down the rabbit hole of the album again.

The beat from that feels like it’s INTENDED to act as the bridge into Ambergris as I think the outro beat is supposed to be timed similarly? My ears for musical composition might not be what they used to be as it’s been years since I wrote and played. I don’t have much of an opinion on Ambergris, but its Fine. Probably way more than fine, if I’m being honest. It fits right in that tonal form occupied by Slow Jam and a lot of pieces from Sketches of Brunswick East, it’s a good song in a weird place. There seems to be a habit in this album of sandwiching slower songs between higher energy experiments, and while it isn’t ALL bad (Garden Goblin and Blame it on the Weather are a nice one-two punch) it fucks with the pace of the album now that I’m sitting down to give it a more earnest and direct listen.

But maaaan then the album starts to get strange in some good and bad ways. Gizzard just straight up getting weird with it in rap is not a thing I’d really expected, but then there’s a lot of experimentation with noise and lo-fi going on in this album so far so it kind of tracks!  Kepler-22b definitely matches this criteria, the backing in it sounds like it would fit right in at home with a hip-hop album. Sadie Sorceress lands, Evilest Man hits that same issue Magenta Mountain does for me, where the ongoing synth loop just takes away from many good parts of the song. And it’s more ever-present than it was in Magenta mountain.

As a side note, My opinion may be totally out of lockstep here, Apparently Magenta Mountain is quite popular and I like repetition in songs quite a lot, if I’m being honest. Comparatively their incomplexity compared to the surrounding songs might be worth digesting; Garden Goblin is simple, doesn’t overstay its welcome, and conveys some fun musical ideas, and it’s far better mixed than the synths in Evilest Man, and Sadie is.. well, pretty good, in my opinion.

Honestly Garden Goblin feels like it could be right at home in a King Crimson album, breaking an arpeggio with chromatic steps, echoey vocals, some similar brass instruments. Listening and relistening to it and Blame it on the Weather which I think is a good example of a song with a LOT of repetition has been one of the better parts of the album, weirdly enough. And I *really* like The Dripping Tap, but its also 18 minutes long and trying to dissolve my ideas across the entire song would take a month between all of the relistens.

The tone is finally settling down a little in the back half of the double LP, Persistence and Blame it on the Weather both have punchy drum-lines, Grim Reaper has a weaker lyrical writing than some parts of Sadie, when you put them together they’re really kind of a mixed bag in terms of lyrical writing but they work half-decently as raps, I guess.

I have.. I have so few thoughts on Presumptuous and PredatorX it’s kind of its own unique formulation. PredatorX is I think without a doubt the weakest work put into a metal song. Its’ hook totally failed me, and by the time the drum bridge kicks in and they’re doing the Perihelion riff it’s checkout time, then it’s back to the regular metallica-esque machine gun riffs, and that was A Lot of Infest for me but never quite this bad.

Comparatively as an outro trio Red Smoke, Candles, and The Funeral are so much closer in feeling as compared to Dripping Tap, Magenta Mountain and many other places in the album.

The backing vocals in Candles makes it feel like it’s the windup before The Funeral’s wind down, two halves of a whole, again. They’re both solid, it feels like a more sensible sendoff than the intro, but I guess if you’re asking people for a commitment up front maybe having your 18 minute song makes more sense right there at the start. I imagine it gets people curious. I would absolutely listen to an entire album with the same kind of use of (I think?) the acoustic and weird occasionally dueling lead guitar situation going on than.. say.. an entire album based on the feel of Magenta Mountain and Evilest Man.

I guess Bottom line is, Listening to the stuff on this album again.. It’s actually a lot higher than I thought it would be. I don’t have some tier-list artificially affiliated with transient opinions on shit that might drastically change tomorrow, but I know PredatorX is definitely the weakest song here, I get where they’re aiming with the attempts at metal in general, but aside from infest so many of them are just dire misses, Metal itself has moved so far on from the machine gun riff and head heavy vocals and it’s a more than disappointing track to hear, almost everything on Infest is worlds better.

I sort of doubt there is an intended listening order for any purpose than gizzard doing a traditional-ish track-listing here, the earlier stuff is definitely the strongest even if I strongly dislike Magenta Mountain personally.

That said, I think the intended listening order is.. pretty bad! Like garbage tier bad! I think the tone of the album is absolutely fucked up because of it, and re-ordering the album might be a bit of a better listening experience. I may try giving it a third relisten where I mess with the track order a little, but otherwise my opinion on the album has soared from where it used to be lmao.

[robotslenderman]

Soooo I was thinking about Meredith’s husband and whoops I have a new OC with his own full story and everything.

Whoops.

This is Jonathan Grey, an eventual pharmacy owner in Wales, and he’s gonna get ghoulified in the 2030′s.

So Jonathan is British, like Meredith, raised by his mother and stepfather. His bio father is American, so he has American citizenship. They’re on... not great terms, but not bad terms either. He and his biodad treat each other more like extended relatives than close family -- occasionally giving each other updates and maybe talking once or twice a year. His biodad has his own family and Jonathan was the result of an affair. Jonathan has never tried to reach out to his half siblings and isn’t really interested in it, and doesn’t know if they know about him or not.

He met Meredith at college. They both studied pharmacy and were study buddies. They made great study buddies and Jonathan is always mourning that they can’t bond over studying any more because it was how they best connected, and probably part of the reason why Meredith checked out.

He has a... bad night, the night of the Pioneer Square attack. A few nights after, the Camarilla get together a squad of vamps to clean up the massive Masquerade breach. He gets called into a room full of vamps where they basically Dominate him into telling him that Meredith has been confirmed deceased, and they’ll return her body to him. He arranges for it to be transported to the UK, where he goes with his daughters to be closer to his parents and in-laws. The vamps snatch a random homeless chick off the streets, mutilate her a bit, and ship her off. The Camarilla in the UK meet the body and basically make sure the funeral is closed-casket.

By the time Meredith is unstaked in the Camarilla court in Seattle, Jonathan’s already had her funeral and buried “her” body.

Jonathan leaves his daughters in the UK and packs up and sells the house in Seattle, then goes back to the UK and gets a job there as a pharmacist. He lives in a two story house in Wales -- his parents live downstairs, he lives upstairs, his parents take care of the girls while he’s at work. He almost cuts off contact with his parents entirely when his mother makes a tasteless comment about Meredith, but they try really hard to fix that so he chills.

When his girls are teenagers he’s, by then, owning his own pharmacy. A vampire -- don’t know what clan yet -- ghoulifies him so she can funnel off some controlled substances to be sold on the street as a source of income. He’s not sure WTF is going on, but as her friends start visiting his pharmacy at night he ends up in contact with a few of their ghouls as well and gradually learns about the Kindred. Not nearly as much as a fledgling would -- many of the ghouls are on need-to-know basis -- but he is welcomed into a distant, yet also tight-knit ghoul community.

And yes, it is distant, and also tight-knit. Every ghoul is aware that if they fuck up, another ghoul might dob them in to their domitor. He’s taught quickly not to give other ghouls any fuel if he can help it, but they also teach each other as much as they can about Kindred society.

And oh maaaan I’m enjoying the headcanons I’m coming up with about ghoul circles and so on, I have to make that into its own post. But basically they look out for each other as much as they can afford to while covering their own ass, lest their domitor find out something unsavoury and abandon, kill them, or turn them into the law for the crimes they committed to serve their domitor.

Jonathan is pretty scared at first about pissing his domitor off too much, but after a while he comes to accept that as long as his domitor is happy, his life is pretty sweet. She’s not warm and fuzzy with ghouls; he’s a tool, not a pet. But every now and then he can ask a favour of her to help him keep away from the attention of the law. He’s also able to help out other ghouls as a pharmacist, does what he can to help out independent ghouls, and he and the ghouls often exchange favours to help each other out.

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Episode 2: In Another Country

I hope everyone stays hydrated, whether or not they’re currently suffering through summer! I’ve got my set up all prepared (with the tissues and pillows being the most important, but that’s preference). Hope everyone else is comfy as we start episode two! 

We’re gonna need it. 

Looks like we’re jumping right in. OOF. Ibe’s face ruins me. He’s so worried about Eiji. Someone needs to hold my hand, my heart hurts and I’m already prepared to cry everywhere. 

None of this was ever supposed to happen, Charlie. Just save Skip and Eiji --just save them, Charlie. Save them.

Ibeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Your decision to cover American gangs will bring you so much heartache. So much. Q AQ

Not even half a minute into the episode and my boy Shorter makes an appearance. My heart. Look at that lighting... the glow... the colors. Oh my god, just slay me with the colors. Hnnnnnnng. Also: three motorcycles. I am secretly hoping that Shorter’s just casually commandeering Ash’s since Ash rudely yoinked his away. I can dream, can’t I? Disappointed how they cut out some of Shorter’s insightful dialogue, but time constraints, I understand.

Shorter, your gut is very spot-on. 

Seriously, Mappa could just murder me with these gorgeous backgrounds. Look at the attention to detail. I know this is a hostage situation but let’s take a moment to bathe in the beauty that is this (old, abandoned) scenery. Aaaaah.

And here is Arthur, trying to look intimidating and ominous by hiding in the shadows, but he’s sadly overshadowed by everything else. As usual. Is anyone else impressed with all the effort that goes into everything? I’ll try not to wax lyrical but look at all those gang tags and planks left around, the cracked tiles and the smudges --someone had to draw that.

Everyone knows it’s a trap, Arthur. You’re clever, but you lack a certain degree of self-awareness and ability...

but do keep talking. Your only positive point is your smooth, buttery baritone. Nice. I will enjoy your villainous monologue. It will match your laughably stereotypical evil ‘do.

Truly, subtlety isn’t your strong point, Arthur. 

Also, lying. But please, lie more. 

Eiji and Skipper together is my favorite thing. Skipper is this tiny, determined ball of controlled kick-ass. Eiji is utterly out of his depth and looking around curiously because boy, Japan wasn’t like this!

These two cuties. Please.

Fuck ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooff.

PUNCH HIS FACE IN!!!

*WILL SMITHS THIS SCENE* I have so many feelings, I have so many things I want to scream about, I want to dissect just how much this one line underlines the differences between Ash and Arthur despite the fact there are plenty of superficial similarities between the two and I just --HNNNNNNG. *clenches fist* I HAVE FEELINGS AND THEY ARE STRONG.

Skiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiip. Eiiiiiiiiiiiiiijiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. So many props to Eiji for staying relatively calm in a frankly terrifying situation. 

Skiiiiiiiippeeeeeer. *STRANGLED DYING MANATEE NOISES*

*INTENSE SOBBING* SKIP, YOU ARE TOO BEAUTIFUL, YOU PRECIOUS STARCHILD. HE IS SO PROTECTIVE OVER EIJI. MY HEEEEART.

Why are you such trash, Arthur????

EIJI’S FAAAAAAAAAAAACE. SAAAAVE HIIIIM.

I’M TOO EMOTIONAL, SOMEONE FUCKING HOLD MY HAND ALREADY!!!

You didn’t even lose your fingers. You just have some scars. Talk about disproportionate retribution???

Oh my god there’s an actual opening segment, I thought they were forgoing it altogether because 19 volumes in 24 episodes, but I guess not. I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t prepared. Aaaaah.

Seriously, the background???? I’ll try to keep the gratuitous snapshots to a minimum. I’ll try. Honestly.

I think from now on I’ll start all my Nanner Fish Liveblogs with this. 

Why does this break my heart. (No, don’t answer. Just leave me to wallow.)

Beautiful juxtaposition. Also, rude. I love that lighting through the trees, though. Q AQ

*HYSTERICAL SCREECHING* MAPPA, Y’ALL ARE THE RUDEST ASSHOLES TO EVER ANIMATE AND I AM SO OFFENDED, EVERYTHING HURTS, NOTHING IS MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN THIS, LAY ME TO REST.

Yut-luuuuuung.

WHY MUST MAPPA BE SO CRUEL AND HURTFUL.

GOSH, THIS IS GORGEOUS. MY HEART. WHY DO THIS TO MY DELICATE BABY HEART???

Guys, guys, guys. Look at all that gang tagging. SOMEONE HAD TO DRAW THAT. THE COLORS MAAAAN. Also: Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing.

FUCK OFF. I HAD TO STOP FOR A BIT. JUST. WHY. FUCKING WHYYY.

MAPPA YOU BASTARDS.

Every.single.fucking.time, Marvin. 

*high pitched distressed noises*

Ash, you beautiful, sassy smartass. PLEASE BE A LITTLE LESS SASSY.

My heart. 

Just call him Florence Nightingale. 

*more strangled high pitched noises of distress* I wish Ash wasn’t so right.

THEIR SLEEPING POSITIONS. SKIIIIIIIIIIP. EIJIIIIII. MY HEART.

SERIOUSLY PUNCH THAT FACE IN.

Oh my fucking god. I thought he was just a random new mob character, but he’s that dude who looked exactly like Charlie!! The first time I read Nanner Fish I was convinced Charlie was a mole because of him!!!

HE ALSO LOST THE PORN ‘STACHE. CONGRATULATIONS. YOU LOOK SO MUCH BETTER. A LOT MORE INTIMIDATING.

I totally went off-topic. The topic being: Marvin is gross, the scum of the earth, and should be punched a lot in sensitive places.

Thank you, Skip.

I am the worst person, I’m sorry, because I spent this entire slow pan up Ash laughing hysterically. This is secondhand embarrassment at its peak. Pffffft. 

Ash, please.

Poor Eiji. Pffffffffffffffft.

Marvin, you are honestly dumber than a bag of bricks. Beautiful wounded gazelle gambit, Ash. I love how Skipper is jumping with excitement, cheering Ash on, and Eiji’s holding himself like he needs protection from the latent gross that emanates from Marvin constantly.

*side whispers* This is it.

The turning point.

*blows kisses at Mappa* GORGEOUS.

I’m breaking things up a bit since I’m just. Full of feelings. Eiji making a decision, inspired by Ash. Skip automatically assuming Eiji’s making a Last Stand, because that’s what he is: a fighter to the last. 

But Eiji is a civilian, and he doesn’t fight the way Skip does. 

And this is beautifully animated, and it definitely shows Eiji’s resolve and determination... but it bugs me.

Because they gave one of Eiji’s lines to Skip.

They turned a line that showed Eiji’s determination, his acknowledgement that he could severely injure himself --could even cripple himself --but he was willing to bet it all on a chance, and made it into an argument Skipper has against Eiji’s Hail Mary decision. 

And I hate it.

I really love the soundtrack they use, though. Nice.

How the cat fell in love with the bird.

Seriously, look at those colors? Look at that rainbow effect while Eiji’s in the sky. The textures. *sends all the kisses Mappa’s way*

Eiji... what about your bleeding. I mean, yes, run for help, but also: what if you pass out before you get help? A quick tourniquet, please!

He did indeed. It was beautiful.

Shorteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer. 

HIS TINY SATISFIED SMIRK.

I AM TOTALLY UNBIASED. IT’S NOT LIKE I LOVE SHORTER A RIDICULOUS, LOPSIDED AMOUNT. WHAT LIES ARE YOU SPREADING. *cries* I just love Shorter so much.

More smartphones trying to save the day.

And again. No more phone booths!

Seriously, I suspect I will forever be smitten. Muwah. Gorgeous. Muwah Muwah.

Finally! Plotty things! And why automatically suspect Ash, Charlie?? You trusted him enough to let him near civvies but you automatically suspect him when Golzine’s up to something sketchy? 

Oh, Ibe. You’re gonna have white hair soon, Eiji is gonna make you worry lots.

I know you are, Eiji. Q AQ

Nice, thank you Mappa! Now I know Eiji’s A pos. (Or AB pos.)

*wounded hippo noises* THEY ARE SO LOYAL AND DEDICATED TO ONE ANOTHER. SKIIIIIIIIIIP. AAAAAAASH.

CMSDKLFMLDSF. SOMEONE SAVE SKIIIIP.

Beautiful. The best part about Shorter and his garish colors is that you can always pick him out of a crowd. <3

I didn’t mention it last time, but I’m so happy to see Ash’s crew! Hi Aleeex!

Just casually taking snapshots of Shorter being awesome. That’s not a crime. I swear.

BONES! I think. I forget. I get their names mixed up. 8( Where’s the other one? You can’t be Ash’s power trio with just the two of you! (I guess Shorter’s there too. Q vQ)

Totally just took this screencap because I’m basically an embarrassing parent who likes to show of their kid. Lookit Shorter. Isn’t he awesome?

Nooooooope.

Nooo, no no no.

Marvin you idiot, Golzine said alive. Your Papa Dino? Remember him?

Nooooope.

For fuck’s sake, noooooooooo.

SOMEONE FUCKING KILL MARVIN FIRST.

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. SKIIIIIIPPER. Q AQ

Skiiiiiiiiiiiippeeeeeeeeeeeer...!!!!!!!!!

KILL HIM.

Ash, what black voodoo magic did you do to get that car going??? You didn’t turn or put in any keys, you certainly don’t have the fancy electronic keys on you. What the hell? Did some lazy mafia asshole leave their fancy electronic key in the damn car?

ASH STOP LEAVING SHORTER BEHIND FOR FUCK’S SAKE!!!

I love how this implies the cops are on good terms with Shorter.

Shorter, did you even tell them where you were heading??? You’ve got a smartphone now!!! Use it!

Shorter...

Because you were stupid enough to shoot Skipper. All you had to do was not shoot.

CMLKSDFMLDSF. DINOOOOOOO.

Because people aren’t pets, Dino!!!!

Trust your instincts, Ash! Turn back!!

He honestly deserved worse.

Ash....

*sigh* I’m so smitten. That’s gorgeous. (Sorry, Ash.)

Jenkins and Charlie will believe you, Ash! But...

Obligatory corrupt cop Evanstine won’t let them help you. This is his jurisdiction. 8(

Oh, Jenkins. Charlie. You’re gonna regret it...

Another asshole who deserves his face punched in.

Is no one going to dress Ash’s wound? It’s still Eiji’s tourniquet there. It’s gonna get infected you shithead.

Fuck oooooff.

Oh look, someone who needs to slip on a pickle, fall, crack their head on the counter, and die face first in their own piss. That’s you, Evanstine! 

Please. Die horrifically.

Ash... Q nQ

Please don’t take it personally, Jenkins... Skip just died in his arms... he was framed for murder... and a scumbag just ambushed him with his past...

Cmkalsdmfklsadf. DINOOOOOO.

We’re so blessed, guys! So much plot this episode!

Charlie... don’t do this. Please... don’t.

Oh, Charlie. You’re so earnest. You’re still so pure. Q AQ

And Ash... takes after his middle name. He is jaded. He knows better. He knows Dino. How do you indict someone with so much money, power, and influence? He has judges in his pocket!

And Charlie...

And an intermission from my previous thought because boy howdy am I still swooning over these gorgeous visuals. *blows even more kisses Mappa’s way*

Back to my previous train of thought: ...Charlie can’t give up.

Ibe’s face, though. It’s the face of a dad going “son, could you please stop putting yourself in dangerous situations I’ve already gotten fifteen new grey hairs and I’m only 30 please don’t do this to me.” Poor Ibe. That’s exactly what Eiji’s gonna do.

Charles Dickinson: Poster boy for Not Givin’ Up, We’re Taking Dino Golzine Down the Right and Proper Way, Just Believe in Us Ash!

Noooooo, not with the emotional blackmail, Charlie! (Besides, as much as I love Ash, preeeetty sure Eiji was incidental. He was chasing after Skip, wasn’t gonna let Eiji, an innocent civilian get caught in the crossfire of a gang war, and at no point did he risk Skip’s life. He contemplated his own, but never Skip’s.)

What a cute bird. Q vQ <3 <3 <3

*clutches chest* Eiji. Why. 

Skipper... you will never be forgotten. 

DAMMIT WHY IS NO ONE HOLDING MY HAND??? I NEED EMOTIONAL SUPPORT.

THE FUCKING ART DIRECTION. CMKSLDMFOWEMFDSLF. MAPPA NEEDS TO BE ARRESTED FOR MURDER. MY MURDER. 

It’s okay, Eiji, I wouldn’t be able to, either... Q AQ

Seriously, how is that even remotely legal????

Fuck Golzine and his connections. Fuck him with a power saw.

*intense feelings about later volumes and how this relates to both Ash and Eiji* CMSKDLFLSDFJLSDJFOEWIMSFD. *strangled dying manatee noises about foreshadowing*

*lies on ground, emotional and useless*

Hnnnnnnnnng, that’s just gorgeous. Ominous, but gorgeous. u 3u <3

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand prison wardens are also in his pocket. Seriously, Charlie, do you not see why Ash is the way he is?

There’s also a brand new ED, but I’m seriously emotionally drained after the OP and Skipper... It doesn’t really have anything particularly foreshadow-y or relevant that my dead soul can see. It’s lovely and a nice end to an emotionally charged episode. I’m going to just quietly cry into my pillows now.

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[ramdomddadds]

Dream daddy ask: dino-nerd dadsona

He was a nerd wasn’t he?

So, um... holly motherfucking cow, I just remembered how much I love acurate, updated dinosaur stuff, and how it could fit the dream daddy fandom?

so, yeah.

I know I’m such a nerd and I’m so late to the fandom but I had fun writing this and here it is

-ROBERT

He notices how fast you get to withling, and how you always make some animal.

He also notices how interested you are in anything supernatural, But always fiting the science factor in there. Like how it could be that jakelopes exist, and they could crosbreed with hares but not bunnyes becouse they are too diferent or how the yeti could be a distant relative of the orangutan...

Or how you are pasionated about movie making too, but prefer realistic stuff, but he says nothing, because he likes silence.

Then, one day, he comes over for movie and pizza, and he finds it: notebooks.

Notebooks all over the house.

There are three different notebooks on the stack of the tea table. One, opened, on the big table at the dinner room. Another one somewere on the kitchen, and many, intersected with books, on the shelves across the house.

With the excuse that it was open and in the same room, he takes the one in the big table, and flips over it.

Its filled with drawings, sketches, notes and doodles of people, planst and animals.

There’s him, and betsy, so thats… there. Theres a lot of Amanda… and many, many animals.

It calls his atention that many of the drawings fit conversations they had.

MC hadn’t hear speak of the dover ghost before he met Robert, but here they were: pages and pages of sketches and different designs of how the dover ghost may look like.

Some of them were more animal-like, others where very human, and other were made of shadow, the mark of the pencil, smugled with the author’s fingers to make it look like smoke. A chill climbed up Robert’s spine when he came across a particular drawing that did look just the way he remembered it, dragging something behind.

There were steps behind him.

“…Robert?”

Ups. MC was back in the room, and he had his nose deep within the sketchbook. Robert concentrated in another drawing, one that was very common, and odd.

Robert lifted his gaze.

“…dinosausr, with feathers?”

“Oh fuck, Robert! Uh…”

Robert held his gaze, smirking

“Yes. Yes, ok? Dinosaurs with feathers. I can explain it”

Robert closed the notebook, but held it as he crosed his legs, leaning in the table

“Im listening”

And he kept listening as MC went on and on, telling him how come dinosaurs actually had feathers, and the remains of them that could still be found in birds, and so many little fascinating facts, with such passion, similar to when Robert himself told intrinsek made up stories.

He smiled. This could be so much fun

-DAMIEN

He was delighted, with MC’s appreciation of his abode. He even said he felt sorry for the dead butterflyes, but still appreciated the beauty of his colection, and the work that went into it.

As soon as they were sitting at the couch, he had asked for the skulls placed across the room.

They walked over to them and talked about fosils. MC tried to guess the species and origin of the bones, and if he did not get the exact thing, he could deduce a lot from looking at them.He took a bit longer to mention the feathers issue. It was nice to have interests in common with Damien and he didn’t want to ruin it with the stupid argument of the feathers.

Of course the day came. They went to the movies, and Damien turned out to be very scared! MC held his hand and rambled on and on of how unrealistic they were, and why some choices were made, and later on the conversation developed into a very popular, clasic movie:

Jurassic park.

“Most raptor species were smaller but there was one or two species the size of the ones in the movie, in wich they were inspired… but they had feathers, all of them, including the T-rex”

“Wait, what?”

“Ups. Uh… see…”

And it was down hill from there.

-CRAIG

When MC got to the BQ and saw Craig waving from across the yard, he recogniced an SOS call. His buddy needed him.

“Dude, I have no idea what is going on”

MC listened quietly for a moment and then leaned onto Craig and wispered to him

“Moustachasaurus is asking a simple question. Rastasaurodon misinterprets it and makes stuff way more complicated thatn it is. Both monsters engage in an eternal loop of bloodshed, a battle of giants. Is the dress blue or yellow? Are best cats or dogs? Pineapple or pineappleless?”

Craig gigles and covers his mouth, wile looking at the two men arguing in front of him.

Hugo tells Mat why he thinks you can not compare two pictures from different moments in history, but when Mat repeats the question, down they go again.

 “Moustachasaurus displays his extense knolege of taking pics throu the ages and Rastasaurodon tries to scape, but Moustachasaurus attacks from behind and they engage in tragic battle again. It must be mating season or something”

 Craig breaks into laughter, distracting the two men with glasses, and pretends he was having an innocent conversation with MC

“Do you remember how into dinosaurs we were?”

 Oh no

He’s got a funny, smug look. Its a trap! ABORT! ABORT!

 “eh… were?”

“Bro”

“Bro”

“Broooo what do you think the tyranosaurus rex did with those tiny arms?”

“Don’t do it bro. I found out. You won’t like it”

“I need to know bro”

“noo”

“Tell me, MC Tell me…”

 Craig held him by the shirt and roughly wispered in his ear

“What were those tiny claws for?”

“Mhhh huu aaaah FEATHERS”

 Craig stepped back, shock written all over his face

 “Bro… not you too”

“Im sorry Craig. It is true”

“No… its impossible. It can not be!”

“The t-rex had feathers. He probabbly had fluffy and colofull arms for display, when fighting for terrytory… and mating”

“Nooooo!”

“I would never lie to you, bro. It is true”

“…the velociraptor too?”

“…specially the velociraptor”

 -JOSEPH

MC tried not to talk about it in front of Joseph. He just didn’t know how he would take it, being religious and all. Until…

Joseph has a yatch. OMG. He has a yacht.

Before they got off the shore, MC was already creeping him out.

 “I just love the sea. It holds so many misteries… do you have interest in all of the marine life? Why would you own a boat if not?”

“hehe, I just enjoy the fantasy of sailing aways into the sunset… just the sea and I”

“But its not just the sea and you. There’s the giant squid. You knew that? its real. They are out there”

“Shh, don’t be afraid. I will protect you”

“No, Im not afraid, Im fascinated! There’s so much we don’t know about the sea, I mean, it is the origin of all life…!”

 And then, an akward silence

…he was nervous, ok?

 “uh… I mean, after God put it there, of course”

“…right”

“…sorry. There’s not a door we can close and open again this time”

 Joseph laughts, maybe to make it a bit less akward

“Actually, speaking of marine life, we may see whales”

“Whales!”

“And dolphins”

“Oh my god, really? Do you see them ofthen?”

“Yeah. You are interested on them? you know they can be cruel right? They drown theyr babys for fun…”

“Oh no, they don’t. Dolphins are some of the most inteligent and social creatures out there. If they ever do that is as a punishent to a misbehabing child, or to teach them to survive when they have trouble. Of course they can go mad or try murder too but it is…”

 Joseph was staring at him in disbelief

 “…rare. …uh. …yeah”

“Wow”

“hmh. Did you know dinosaurs had feathers? Why do you think they died?”

“…what?”

 -MAT

Mat is such a dork. And he babbles. Its adorable! I guess I feel less self-concious near someone who’s also self-concious.

…ok.

He starts talking about music. I don’t know much about music, but it is nice and sweet and Mat knows lots of stuff and it brings memories from a while back, so it is easy to listen and just roll with it.

Speaking of wich.

Retro music reminds me of retro stuff.

And that reminds me of Dinosaurs, and how awful and fake they looked back then.

 “What you talking about, man, dinosaurs are cool. …I think”

“Yeah, but, compare the ones in black and white movies with Jurassic park”

“Oh, yeah. Thats the stuff”

“Ok, now let me tell you: jurassic park is now outdated too. Dinosaurs did not look like that”

“what!?”

 Mat lays down and listens in awe to me babling abut the found proof that dinosaurs had feathers, and not only that, but also also spikes and colorfull crests and shiny scales, and the misterious noises they may had made. Even the spinoaurus from the third movie, turns out it didn’t walk on two feet. I start realising Im babling a bit too much, but he just looks at me with his sweet, big brown eyes and smiles

 “maaaan. I feel so old”

“well, look at the bright side. Not as old as those fossiles”

 -HUGO

Going to the acuarium with Hugo was an exciting adventure. And I got to awe a bunch of kids with my extense trivia about penguins, while he got some kid out of the penguin enclosure. How did she get in there? oh well.

 Trivia nights were also fun. Hugo and I make a good team and there’s lots of cheese!

It was the dawn of a new era. It really started the time the quizz master got some wrestling trivia wrong, and Hugo went head over hills for it.

I went for all the natural history and nature ones.

Thats what I told him when he showed he his colection.

 “Don’t be ashamed of this, man. Remember how I get when Master quizz talks about dinosaurs?”

“Oh. …OH. Oh, boy”

“Oh yeah. I too, have a dark seecret”

“I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. …but, what could it be? You are just very educated about nature. It is interesting, many people enjoy the nature channel”

 I was giving him a mischevous look

 “It goes deeper than that”

Hugo looks at me in the eyes and then carasses his chin before daring to ask

“…how deep is that?”

I walk closer to him, wrestling belt over my shoulder

“Remember you asked”

 He doesn’t moves, but gulps when I wisper on his ear

 “Dinosaurs had feathers”

“… what?”

“And shiny scales, and colorfull crests, and they made all shorts of music”

“Whait, what, for real?”

“And not all of them went extinct. Not only crocodiles and turtles survived. It has been proved: the birds that we have today descend from dinosaurs like raptors and relatives of the t-rex. Thats why they call it the extintion of the non-aviar dinosaurs now”

“…for real? I… didn’t know that”

“and there was a period, the triasic, when nature was on drugs, and it produced all kinds of crazy stuff!!”

 “Say waaaat?” Said his kid, Ernest, standing in the door. How much did he listen?

 -BRIAN

“oh, is that a dinosaur book?” said MC, and Amanda turned in horror.

“Oh no”

“yes, it is” Said Daisy, with a wide smile “I wish we were studing theese in class, but they don’t talk much about fosiles, just rocks…”

 Brian laughted proudly. “Daisy is not happy with all they teach in class. She is always looking for books with extra stuff…”

Only then he noticed Amanda frantically denying with her head, and making ‘cut it’ gestures. He then looked back at MC. It was too late.

 He was sitting next to Daisy, pointing at pictures in the dinosaur book.

 “Ok, you know this one?”

“Yeah, that’s a brachiosaurus”

“The long-neck one” added Brian “That one’s easy”

“yeah, but it did not look like that. Book is a bit outdated. New data travels faster online. See, look at the skull. Now, where are the holes of the nose?”

 Daisy thoug for a moment.

 “… they are… above its eyes? On the top of the forehead?”

“Exactly. Now, don’t you think that’s a bit weird? Having such a wide, weird nose, and a big mouth way apart? Something’s missing”

“Yeah…?”

“Ok, now look at the skull of an elephant”

 MC took out his phone and showed her pictures

 “… it doesn’t have a nose! And the cavities are huge and… oh my god!”

“Exactly. The trumpet is big and important, but it has no bones. If someone found the fosil of an elephant, but never saw one, they would draw him without a trumpet”

“Like it happened to the brachiosaurus. It had a trumpet! Dad!”

 Brian nearly flinched. He was barely catching up

 “The brachiosaurus had a trumpet, dad! Can you believe it?”

 Brian looked at Amanda. She was scrolling throu her phone like nothing was going on.

 “actually, not necesary a trumpet, see…”

 Daisy turned her attention fully back to MC

 “They are both big hervibores, but the brachiosaurus had a very long neck. It didn’t need a long trumpet. …kind of like a giraff. Have you seen what they do?”

 Daisy denied. MC was already playing a video of a giraff using its lips, and loong, sticky toung to catch things and eat them.

 “it probably didn’t have a trumpet. Nor a long tounge, but there was definetly something important on its nose, wich it probably used for eating and for singing, kinda like cows do, and maybe it was colorful, or diferent between males and females…”

“wooow! It is a big feature, why they don’t use it in movies?”

“see, it is kind of risky, to design such an extrange animal, so they play it easy and just cover the skull with skin. And that’s not all”

“there is more!?”

“this animals had spikes all over their tails, wich have been found incrusted in the skull of predators like the T-rex”

“Wooah!”

 “Don’t feel left out” Amanda said to Brian, seeing that the poor guy needed some company “he can’t help it, loves the stuff. Just make sure you can handle it before letting him anywere near the museum”

“uh… ok”

“And whatever you do, never ask about dinosaurs with feathers” she wispered this “You will never hear the end of it”

[littlebloodysenpaii]

3:40 am

Well, I guess the "go to bed at a decent time" deal wasn't going to last very long. Haha I knew it wasn't gonna happen. Especially if everything works out and I end up continuing to work nights. But whatever, it would actually be a paycheck and extra goodness.

I ate good today, mentally I stayed pretty on track with being positive. Although, I did sleep a lot of the day. SLEEP is my biggest competitor right now with getting right. So because of that, I feel this entry might be a tad short, it's almost 4 am anyway.

I didn't drink today, well not really. 2 hard root beers really don't count to me personally. So on a friday night I find that to be a win. Tomorrow is gonna be harder. It's EMO NITE and my ex "bff" will be there with my friend I am rolling with's best friend and it's just gonna be a tad awkward. But because of that part of me wants to stay relatively sober. I don't wanna black out anymore, really.

I'm doing brain games! And actually getting back into using my language teaching apps. I mean yes, it's an app but hey maybe it'll work if I just keep using it. Honestly I seem to have retained information when it comes to reading words and shit. But having to write it from memory. Maaaan do I have a ways to go.

But... I can feel it. I can feel the shift. The more I read my books, the more I use my brain and enjoy it, the faster I'll actually get out of this shit hole of a situation. I have more faith in myself and the world around me then even when I was on my game a few years ago. Because this is all about my power. What I am creating on my own. Not in a relationship, not focusing all my energy on a collective. Which isn't a bad thing, but I have never accomplished anything on my own, and maybe this experience has all been created by me. But if that's the case I am the only one who can really break it down, forever. These barriers in my mind are there from so much conditioning of being utterly fucked up, I need to chip away just a little at a time. Who knows if I would be even mentally prepared for all the shit I have kept hidden for so long. I do a damn good job of keeping it at bay, but hell I am still human. I still have a chest full of shit that I need to work through. In time it will all come to fruition, whether it be to disappear or to be brought to light and used for a positive. Growth is just growth. There is no good or bad. It's just all in the way you react and allow that to then control your actions following.

I'm more than these current surroundings. I already see myself out. I see myself living alone. All. Alone. Not counting a puppy most likely. I need a cuddle companion. Have my things. My couch. My home recording studio all setup. It's clean, it's homey. The incense burning and the natural light coming in through all the windows. Going to school and interning at a live venue while bar tending at another one. That's ideal. The ability to travel. Seeing my best friend who moved to NYC often. Going to Cali to be with family since I don't really know the meaning of the word.

Being me. Happy. That's what I see. And this is just the tip of the image iceberg. But sleep is winning over.

Proud of you.

xoxo

D.S.