#QQQQUICK

[wigglebox]

🌊

[elecmon]

qqqquick-ish? vent post? sad vague?

(a feeling dump, hit that mmfffff J key to skip, mobile users mi bad)

there’s this girl I work with named Kassandra and she recognized the digivice keychain on my bag the other day and she was all, “Wow! Is that a digiball was it called?”

she’s super nice, buys me starbucks from time to time, genuinely kind and actively involves me in conversations when I don’t have anyone to talk to.

but I think thats kinda whats hurting like a motherfucker a lot more

This December is going to be the 10th year anniversary of when my friend Cassandra took her life and like. I know name association is dumb. But still.

everytime I go through the tag I always end up in the ending mood shift where no matter where I was, it goes down to the shithole.

I miss her a lot, that’s obvious. I miss being able to talk to her. I miss how in-sync we always were. I miss waiting for Mondays because I got to see her again after a long weekend at home alone. I miss talking to her about the new digimon episode. I miss drawing with her and joining choir and girl scouts and all these dumb little after school activities we kept signing up for JUST so we could stay together longer before our parents picked us up. I miss. a lot of things. All the smaller details my bad memory has already forgotten. All the ones it’s going to eventually forget in the future.

I can strongly remember when we first met I made her laugh really hard, she had such a funny and cool laugh I tried really hard to make her laugh as often as I could so I could hear it. and YET here I am, 10 years since her passing, 14 years since I last saw her, and I don’t think I can remember what it sounded like;;

She really was my jogress partner, when I sit back and think about it.

I made this one post forever ago about one of my more favorite things about the digimon fandom was how people could make friends with each other and become such good friends they call each other their jogress partners. I’m just a little jealous I guess. I wish I had someone I could make digimon aus with. AND I KNOW THAT I DO-

I have many friends that I can do this with, I know I know I know,

it doesn’t feel the same is what I mean.