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[ayy-junipei]

Sorry guys I'm assigned Luigi now

[coridallasmultipass]

Had another appointment with the psychiatrist again and he still says he doesnt want to change my meds until i get my hysterectomy!! Im so fucking frustrated its been a few months since my last appointment when he said that like I hate that hes holding my mental health hostage against my uterus like i hate that i am so fucking anxious and hyperfixating on things to try and keep that anxiety from consuming me and cant mentally sit still and im just literally suffering right now because theyre taking so long to put me on the schedule!!!! I cant fucking live my life like this, always waiting for one health problem to be solved before i can tackle another - bECAUSE I HAVE TOO MANY HEALTH PROBLEMS TO WAIT FOR ANY OF THEM TO BE FIXED - THESE ARE LIFELONG CHRONIC CONDITIONS AND HE WONT FUCKING TREAT ME UNTIL I GET IT FIXED WHEN I LITERALLY TOLD HIM I FEEL THE SAME AS I DID BEFORE MY DIAGNOSIS OF ENDO Im so fucking upset now jfc i just want the meds to work im sick of having anxiety attacks and stress and mental hyperactivity and its literally just so fucking bad i hate this i hate that literally none of my doctors want to take credit for any of my health problems and the psych is the worst he thinks all my mental problems happen because im trans and boo hoo i cant tell my family so that must mean im SO depressed wah wah (i literally told him it feels like more of an annoyance than an anxiety so many times!!) Or that i cant do anything productive because im an artist and artist people are just sooo out there with hyperfocusing on tasks that arent productive and god i just hate him so much and fuckin coronavirus bullshit i dont want to meet a new psych over the phone to explain all this bc its a long fucking story and i dont wanna chance another bullshit psych trying to tell me how i feel ((are they all like this?!?!?! Old white guys who pass judgement on me for being queer???? For being an artist with social anxiety???? Fuck off why cant my tribe find a native psychologist for their clinic like they have a native therapist (who is really great! And actually makes an effort to get my name and pronouns right! And doesnt call me a woman to my face!) Im sick of old white psychs making a big deal about my gender/orientation!!!! They dont understand me as a human being!!!!)) Oh and also uh i told him in my first appointment i want to be screened for adhd and he completely pushed that aside in favour of treating me for gender dysphoria/depression i guess (because being trans must be sOoooOo depressing) and any time i bring up these symptoms i suspect are adhd along with everything else he goes "oh have you talked to your therapist for this?" Like Mf stop pushing my problems onto other people im askING YOU about this god i hate him