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not âemo adrienâs design is fucking uglyâ and not âyouâre just upset he doesnât look like a teen model you can crush on anymoreâ but a secret third thing. the idea is cool but it looks awful in the 3D style of mlb
#ml paris special#posting this even tho list of my followers will have no idea what Iâm talking abt#*most#but I gotta say my peace#miraculous ladybug
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The thing about being a fan of classic literature is that it's becoming incredibly hard to find people to share your passion with and I just think that's super sad
#and when I say that I mean there are literally three people I can have a decent conversation with about classic literature (irl not online)#two of them are my partners and that's why we even started interacting in the first place so I'm happy about that but like#still irl that means I know a grand total of three people who have read les mis or the three muskeeters. two who have read war and peace.#and my girlfriend is the only person I know who read the count of monte cristo. and her and max are the only ones for a tale of two cities#and those are only like a few examples but like. I literally live in france and do you guys even know how hard it is#to even find a SINGLE person who has read les mis ??? notre dame de paris ?? 93 ??#and listen I am not saying that to offend people who don't read classic lit because you can do whatever you want but#when the argument is 'it's boring' and it's like. wrong.#edmond dantes spent years killing people under a fake identity to get revenge on the guy who married his childhood sweetheart. try again.#I don't know it just annoys me so much like urgh#this was brought to you by the guy reading dracula yet again and who can't talk to anyone about it right now#leo's shit
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i have no odea what mgs is about but im living for your art. oh my god i have fallen hard for otacon.
CAUGHT ANOTHER ONE BOYS
#but also i do love him so much#he built an indestructible war machine but made sure to add destructible parts so it could have 'character flaws'#he thinks paris from the trojan war is talking about paris the place#he thinks ancient chinese know about aliens and made a proverb about abducting cows#he [explodes]#anyways#mgs is about the military đ#and if ur not planning to actually get into mgs then thats the only thing u need to know for ur peace of mind
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i have died the tiniest death. northbound i got carried away as you boarded your train south (colin has gone off to travel). i look in people's windows, transfixed by rose golden glows. i attend christmas parties from outside. i look in people's windows in case you're at their tables what if your eyes looked up and met mine one more time. (i am a wallflower and you are dancing with someone else and all i can think is how to make you see me). peter my lost fearless leader in closets like ceder preserved from when we were just kids. was it something i did? (why did colin laugh at me? i thought we were friends). you said you were gonna grow up then you were gonna come find me. (pen thought this was how it was gonna go; he'd travel then come back for her). and i won't confess that i waited but i let the lamp burn while the men masqueraded i hoped you'd return with your feet on the ground tell me all that you'd learned because love's never lost when perspective is earned. (i really wanted to wait for you to gallavant and figure it out and then come back for me). the shelf life of those fantasies is expired, lost to the lost boys chapter of your life, forgive me peter, please know that i tried to hold on to the days when you were mine but the woman who sits by the window has turned out the light. (this waiting thing has made me so weary and he hurt me - i have to leave the window, stop looking for him). i'm a fire and i'll keep your brittle heart warm, all these people think love's for show but i would die for you in secret. (i love you and ive finally told you and i promise i'll be enough). our coming of age has come and gone, suddenly this summer it's clear, i've never had the courage in my convictions as long as danger is near. (pen should really tell him that she's whistledown. but she doesn't have the courage). would it be enough if i could never give you peace? (what would you do if this was our life together? could i still be whistledown?). my love was as cruel as the cities i lived in, everyone looked worse in the light. there are so many lines that i've crossed unforgiven, i'll tell you the truth but never goodbye. (i have told everyone about everyone, i have exposed everyone, i have caused pain). maybe you ran with the wolves and refused to settle down, maybe i've stormed out of every room in this town, threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it's morning now, it's brighter now. (maybe we'll make it through, maybe you didn't realise what i meant to you before this, but now we both get each other). i don't wanna look at anything else now that i saw you. (they love each other so much). i'm so in love that i might stop breathing no i didn't read the news cause we were in paris. i was taken by the view like we were in paris. (he's not travelling alone - they travel together and they're so in love). confess my truth in swooping sloping cursive letters. (writing each other love notes but also whistledown parallel).
#DO YOU SEE THE VISION#polin#bridgerton#my agenda is that the following 5 songs by tswift are the Story of Polin:#i look in people's windows -> peter -> peace -> daylight -> paris#IM TELLING U#aya talks#songs under the cut :)#Spotify
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i don't want to die on any hills but i sometimes feel like I'm the only person who read the last scene of romeo and juliet
paris stands between romeo and juliet's tomb. he is not part of the audience; he has no idea juliet and romeo had secretly fallen in love and gotten married; he is not privy to the plot of the story. all he knows is that tensions between capulets and montagues are at an all-time high, and now a banished criminal is breaking into the capulet mausoleum. he does what anyone with the information that he has would think is honorable. romeo approaches, rambles at him unhinged and doesn't explain anything, and calls him a boy; a youth, the same way everyone else talks about romeo throughout the play. in fact, he does it again after he's killed him and come closer to see who it is:
this isn't meant to be a defense of paris, really; i think paris's character very much varies based on how his lines are performed, and depending on the production he could be anywhere between outright sleazy to obliviously presumptuous. it's certainly true that many of his lines are possessive of juliet, and that he is incredibly pushy about pursuing marriage, but no, he is not way older and definitely an adult. and i think that detail matters, because i think the real thesis of the play is unveiled when we reach the end and check the tally and realize that all five people who diedâmercutio, tybalt, paris, romeo, and at last julietâwere all explicitly or implicitly referred to as young at some point.*
i see the point in the original post! the enforcing of patriarchy is absolutely a part of romeo and juliet, but it's woven into the greater premise; the social order and power that maintains the rivalry between the two houses is the same social order and power that disregards the opinions and agency of all the women in the play, starting from the very beginning when both ladies capulet and montague fail to deescalate the brawl. montague doesn't show up again until the end, but we see a lot of capulet, arguably responsible for setting most of the wheels in motion. in act 1 scene 2, he's in a good mood; he says outright that it's time to put the rivalry to rest, and tells paris that if he wants to marry juliet, "my will to her consent is but a part", that it matters whether or not juliet likes him. it's clear in his initial resistance to the marriage that he cares for her. but then tragedy strikes, he's reeling and upset, and though he was hesitant, he decides that the best course of action is for juliet to marry paris; and, having decided that, he flies off the handle when juliet disagrees. he had promised juliet to someone, so if juliet doesn't follow through, it will reflect poorly on him, and that's the last thing that he needs right now. his behavior is inconsistent; sometimes he's jovial and chill, but sometimes he's overtaken with fury and lashes out at people he has power over. his wife, just as before, is powerless and falls in line quickly; the nurse attempts to defend juliet, but once they are alone, she counsels juliet to accept her father's decision as the best outcome she can hope for. they live in a patriarchal society, and in this specific society, the patriarchy manifests in the form of a rivalry based on nothing but pride.
the patriarchs themselves are fully grown adults. they know that the rivalry is frivolous and perhaps even in bad faith. capulet is able to threaten violence (over some random servants crossing paths on a public street?) during the day and then dismiss romeo montague crashing a party in his house as not a big deal that very night (tybalt tells capulet about romeo's presence, and capulet tells tybalt to take no note of it). montague's first lines on first appearance are "let me at him!!!" but then once the crowd has dispersed, he has to ask benvolio what happened and who even started it; he was starting a fight for no reason, and he knows that. but the young men in the play have grown up in the shadow of this nebulous hatred; they take it seriously, because they don't know any better, because they don't have the life experience and context to understand that they shouldn't. they take their cues from the leaders of their societyâmen who, instead of controlling their anger, blow up at random things and then call it honor. in act 1 scene 1, the first time tybalt picks a fight, he's saying dramatic shit like "turn thee, benvolio, look upon thy death"; more grandstanding than combat. he brandishes his sword because it's what his uncle capulet does, so it's the honorable thing to do, so he tries to do it again at the party that night and is so confused when his uncle berates him and calls him a "saucy boy". he's belittled and dismissed, and he doesn't understand why, so in act 3 scene 1, desperate to prove himself, he's now talking completely differently. he ignores benvolio who he had claimed to hate, does not rise to mercutio's taunts and even says "peace be with you"; he states his challenge to romeo plainly, uses formal language and frames it as defending the honor of his house, and does not even draw his sword until mercutio did it first.
romeo is repeatedly described as sensitive and well-mannered by other characters; he tries to keep his cool, keep the peace, he resists tybalt's challenge. but then tragedy strikes; his love is no match for the expectations of hatred and violence that surround them. o sweet juliet, thy beauty hath made me effeminate, he says, and kills tybalt, because that is what masculine honor demands. he's devastated, grieving, angry for how unfairly tybalt had targeted him, horrified at what he's done, terrified of what this means for his future and the life he had wanted with juliet, and he doesn't know how to process any of this except as hatred, for others and for himself; he spends the rest of the story desperate to die, threatening to kill himself when his execution is converted to banishment, because violence, as always, is the only honorable path open to him. his love for juliet was the only thing that stopped him, and then again his love isn't enough, because juliet is dead. in the last scene of the play, in a graveyard, paris calls romeo a villain and challenges him, exactly the way tybalt did, and romeo sees him for what he is: just another boy playing at being a man, in a neverending cycle. do not urge me to fury, he says. i'm a man, i've killed before, and i cannot control what i will do.
that's what the play is about. if you raise your children in a hateful environment, they will destroy themselves. the future of the noble houses, even the prince's, is ruined, because this society is unsustainable, because the men (the boys) that it creates don't know how to function as adults; they don't know how to mediate and resolve conflicts and compromise, they don't know how to express emotion and assert their personhood except through violence, and even when there is no longer anyone around to inflict violence upon, they turn it upon themselves. when the carnage is discovered in the morning, both capulet and montague vow to personally make amends, because both of them know intimately that the tragic, wild, seemingly unpredictable actions of these children were their fault.
*mercutio is the only one for whom i can't recall any lines regarding age. his behavior and friendship with romeo seem to indicate that they are peers, but mercutio and benvolio also have the air of older guy friends (boyfriends?) who are dragging their depressed younger cousin with them on outings because romeo's mom asked them to cheer him up. relatedly, i think there is a viable interpretation (although i'm not married to it) that when mercutio is killed and curses both houses, it's because he's flabbergasted that his goading on of tybalt and romeo's fight led to real consequences. like "wtf, did you just kill me for real, i thought we were playing around"
Itâs always so funny to me when people push the âRomeo was grooming Julietâ theory, especially when Paris is right there.
Romeo is around Julietâs age and we can tell by his lines that Paris is way older and definitely an adult. Like. Look at R + Jâs banter, itâs two total equals having fun with each other. They kiss and then Juliet asks for another kiss!! They match each otherâs weird vibe!! Romeo says shit like âI wish I was your pet birdâ and Juliet responds that she would literally crush it to death because sheâd love it too much. Weirdos!!! They match each otherâs freak!!!
Compare that with how Juliet interacts with Paris. Heâs predatory and possessive over her, and itâs pretty obvious sheâs uncomfortable. He pushes her dad to let him marry her even though he knows sheâs too young!! Instead of playful banter we get Juliet being quiet and subdued, the complete opposite of her fiery, weird self she is with Romeo!!
âOh, Juliet shouldâve just married Romeoâ No! If she did she would have ended up just like her mother, forced to marry an adult man and have a baby way too young, rendering her unable to connect with her child, and then the cycle would continue!
The theme of men preying on young girls and the patriarchy leading to destruction is there!! But Romeo is not the problem!!! Heâs actually the opposite of the problem !!!!
#laughs awkwardly#shakespeare#romeo and juliet#idk if this even makes sense anymore man. tumblr deleted my first draft and i had to start over. this took me several hours#basically sorry about all this i just saw it and immediately crawled out of bed to grab screenshots and now i'm committed i guess#i know i have a pretty specific vision regarding romeo and juliet and even i don't think it's necessarily entirely 'correct' but i just#had to respond to the paris thing man. i've seen several posts talking about how paris is this gross old man juliet is being sold off to#and i'm baffled. like yeah she is being forced to marry but the forcing is entirely done by her father. and in all the times#paris and juliet have been in each others' presence she's never expressed the opposition to HIM. again depends on the performance#but just. idk. the whole play hinges on miscommunication because not being able to Talk About Feelings Honestly is one of the biggest thing#about toxic masculinity. the realization that all these deaths were the fault of the patriarchs is rooted in the realization that#they have made it impossible for their children to talk to them. because their behavior made their own children feel unsafe#romeo and juliet go to insane lengths to conceal their affair because they're CONVINCED that if found out their fathers will kill them#but is that true? can we really be sure? isn't there a world in which juliet just says 'hey dad i love romeo and want to marry him instead'#and capulet (who again we SAW praise romeo as a nice young man) just says 'wow that's so unexpected. but i guess it's about time#montague and i made peace' (which we ALSO see him say. he just only said it to paris and not in front of juliet)?#isn't there a world in which juliet reveals the truth to paris that she doesn't love him and in fact loves another and paris being a man#is able to break off the engagement without damaging anyone's honor? was that truly as impossible as it seemed?#but romeo AND juliet AND friar lawrence AND the nurse all sincerely believe that they cannot let the truth get out#why? because when you live your whole life in the power of an angry man who may fly into a rage at the smallest most unpredictable things#you must always fear the worst.
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Sometimes I feel like us as the bat family fandom forget how starry eyed people get about Nightwing canonically.
Because with the exception of early era Tim most of the Batkids are like. lol thatâs my loser older brother or some variation of yeahâŚheâs some guy I guess? He helps me with homework?
And Nightwing is the canonically a center of multiversal light.
When Heroes meet Nightwing they do the vigorous handshake and the âitâs an honor to meet you sir, I have heard so much about you oh my godâ
There are so many character where they are literally shown giggling and kicking their feet whenever Nightwing talks to them.
Even the people who donât have the celebrity level worship of him respect the hell out of him and call him as soon as they need help.
From raven to Starfire to Superman to Superboy to all or the flashes there is so much respect and awe given to this one dude.
And it is deserved
But imagine you are Damian Wayne and youâve been working with what 90% of the people youâve met (all bats) have been calling an embarrassment to your fatherâs legacy.
Your mother hates him and your Grandfather doesnât feel that strongly about him.
The red hood calls him an embarrassment and a coward and he couldnât even keep Red Robin from running away.
Your father tells him that he never should have been Batman
And youâve worked with him and you know what you think everyone is full of shit about him and you and him the new Batman and Robin are the best no matter what anyone says.
And fuck it the fact he keeps going in a suit that everyone tells him heâs not good enough for is scratching something in your brain that youâre refusing to acknowledge because why would you feel that way? You are the circus freak have nothing in common (shut up)
And then you meet the justice league and all the extended teams.
And people are falling over themselves to listen to a word out of your brothers, your Batmanâs mouth. They wait for a nod or headshake and dictate decades worth of planning on it.
Both Drake and Toddâs hero teams ask him for advice with or without their designated bats presence.
The man of steel asks for child rearing advice and wonder woman cracks a joke about a spar
Newer heroes whisper about him in the halls
Heâs literally your favorite heroâs favorite hero
And itâs breaking Damianâs Brain
Because well⌠he kinda gets slapped around in Gotham. Heâs the butt of half the jokes the other Batkids make and Dick just smiles and takes it.
The rogues have a bounty on nightwings ass and he gets leered at by goons, rogues, civilians and anti-heroâs alike and he doesnât say anything.
He lets oracle crack jokes about a pretty face and having to do everything herself
Letâs Jason run the alley despite the fact that apparently he knows how to take it back
Apparently heâs had 12 people tailing Drake since Paris and despite being the man Raâs Al Ghul calls detective has yet to notice. (Because you canât tell me Dick was just magically at the right place to catch Tim falling to his death on coincidence)
And necessary to peace talks because heâs the best they have at deescalation
Like imagine you are a child who was raised to believe power is this obvious, all consuming thing. That the ones who control the board are visibly larger than life figures who fought their way to the top and cling to power by even the thinnest hangnail if they had to.
People who ignore simpler morals or an overall greater goal or good
And then youâre taken in by the man who whispers the correct answers into the larger than life figures ear.
Like I feel like that would have such an impact because Dick didnât take power from anyone to reach his goals, itâs why his siblings donât really defer to him unless in crisis.
Dick didnât take power, no people just looked at him and decided he was the best option to give it to.
Everyone basically looked at this kid and went, yeah youâre the future of all heroism.
And if that dude canât even get Bruce Wayneâs respect what chance does Damian Wayne have
#dick grayson#nightwing#batman#batfam#damian wayne#Bruce inside his head: wow I love you Iâm so proud of your achievements#Bruce externally: hmmm you were sloppy#tim drake#jason todd#batfamily#comics#bruce wayne#manipulative dick grayson#nightwing is your favorite heroâs favorite hero#donât try me
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"it's 2024 antisemitism isn't a problem anymore you just want to be oppressed."
here's a non-exhaustive list of antisemitic incidents, attacks, and pogroms during my lifetime. if you're not jewish, i am guilting you into reading this entire list. i really do not care if it takes forever or makes you feel bad. read it.
1993
state farm settles a $30mil lawsuit after it was revealed that state farm kept a list of prominent jewish lawyers referred to within state farm as "the jewish lawyers list" where any claims made by those attorneys were automatically forwarded to state farm's fraud unit, purely on the basis of the attorney's jewish identity. state farm employees testified confirming the list had been used to discriminate against ethnic minorities.
1994
four days after the cave of patriarchs massacre, a man shot at a van full of jewish students, killing one and injuring three others. he is reported to have shouted "kill the jews" as revenge for the cave of patriarchs massacre.
a white supremacist fired ten rounds at a synagogue in eugene, oregon.
a jewish community center in buenos aires, argentina was bombed, killing 85 people and injuring 300.
1995
a japanese magazine ran an article that stated "the 'holocaust' is a fabrication. there were no execution gas chambers in auschwitz or in any other concentration camp. today, what are displaced as 'gas chambers' at the remaints of the auschwitz camp in poland are a post-war fabrication by the polish communist regime or by the soviet union, which controlled the country. not once, neither at auschwitz nor in any territory controlled by the germans during the second world war, was there 'mass murder of jews' in 'gas chambers'."
1996
in turkey, an islamic preacher distributed thousands of copies of a book called "the holocaust lie."
1997
jean-marie le pen was convicted and fined for remarks minimizing the holocaust, and then accused the president of france of being "on the payroll of jewish organizations, and particularly of b'nai b'rith."
1998
osama bin laden stated that israel's ultimate goal was to annex the arabian peninsula and the middle east and enslave its peoples. he claimed that the us state department and department of defense were controlled by jews for the sole purpose of serving israel's goals. he also claimed that israeli jews controlled the governments of the us and uk, directing them to kill as many muslims as they could.
1999
iran arrested 13 iranian jews, accusing them of being spies for israel, including a 16 year old boy. ten of them were sentenced to 4-13 years in prison, and eventually when they were freed they left iran for israel.
a man was arrested in paris for attacking a bartender because he "believed she was jewish."
several synagogues in sacramento were set on fire by a group of eight or nine men.
a man shot and killed one person and injured five at a jewish community center in los angeles.
2000
a man broke into a jewish woman's house, shot and killed her, then set her house on fire. he then drove to the synagogue where she was a member and fired into the windows of the synagogue, then exited his car and spray-painted two red swastikas on the building. he drove to another synagogue where he shot and shattered the synagogue's glass windows.
on yom kippur, two molotov cocktails were thrown at a synagogue.
a synagogue in syracuse, new york was set on fire by a man who reportedly yelled "i did this for you, god!"
a sukkah was destroyed at a synagogue in st. paul, minnesota.
a synagogue in harrisburg, pennsylvania was set on fire before yom kippur.
during the 2000 presidential election, lee alcorn, president of the dallas naacp branch, criticized al gore's selection of senator joe lieberman for his vice-presidential candidate because lieberman was jewish. alcorn said "if we get a jew person, then what i'm wondering is, i mean, what is this movement for, you know? does it have anything to do with the failed peace talks?" ... "so i think we need to be very suspicious of any kind of partnerships between the jews at that kind of level because we know that their interest primarily has to do with money and these kinds of things."
2001
in belgium, the vice president of one of the country's largest parties gave an interview on dutch tv where he cast doubt over the number of jews murdered by the nazis during the holocaust. in the same interview he questioned the scale of the nazis' use of gas chambers and the authenticity of anne frank's diary.
2002
osama bin laden stated in a letter that jews controlled the civilian media outlets, politics, and economic institutions of the united states.
a synagogue was set on fire in toronto, ontario, canada.
men rammed two cars through the courtyard gates of a synagogue in lyon, france, then rammed one of the cars into the prayer hall before setting the vehicles on fire. eyewitnesses reported seeing between 12 and 15 attackers. this was the first of a series of attacks on jewish targets in france in a single week - which coincided with passover - including at least five other synagogues.
a synagogue in marseille, france was burned to the ground.
a synagogue in strasbourg was set on fire.
a synagogue in paris was firebombed.
"richard nixon tapes" were declassified, which confirmed that billy graham, a famous evangelist and civil rights advocate, had agreed with nixon that jews controll the american media, calling it a "stranglehold."
a synagogue in tunisia was bombed, killing 20 and injuring 30.
a gunman opened fire at the airline ticket counter of el al, israel's national airline, at the la international airport. two people were killed and four were injured. federal investigators concluded that the gunman had hoped to influence us government policy in favor of palestinians and that the incident was a terror attack.
in an interview for a french magazine, a french actor, comedian, and activist dieudonne m'bala m'bala described "the jews" as "a sect, a fraud, which is the worst of all because it was the first."
white supremacists planned to bomb a series of institutions and people associated with the black and jewish communities. targets included the united states holocaust museum, the new england holocaust memorial, and steven spielberg.
2003
terrorists attempted to bomb a jewish cemetery, and succeeded in bombing a jewish community center and jewish-owned italian restaurant in morocco. 45 people in total were killed.
a molotov cocktail was thrown through the windows of a synagogue in los angeles, california.
the prime minister of malaysia drew a standing ovation for his speech. an excerpt: "[muslims] are actually very strong. 1.3 billion people cannot be simply wiped out. the nazis killed 6 million jews out of 12 million. but today the jews rule this world by proxy. they get others to fight and die for them. they invented socialism, communism, human rights and democracy so that persecuting them would appear to be wrong so they may enjoy equal rights with others. with these they have now gained control over the most powerful countries. and they, this tiny community, have become a world power."
two synagogues in turkey were bombed, killing 55 and injuring over 750.
2004
romania officially denied the holocaust occurred on its territory up until 2004.
the film 'the passion of the christ' was released, causing backlash against the jewish community for protesting the antisemitic tones of the movie.
a jewish school library was firebombed in montreal, quebec, canada.
jewish cemeteries were defaced with swastikas and a funeral home set on fire in wellington new zealand.
2005
m'bala claimed during a press conference that the central council of french jews was a "mafia" that had "total control over french policy exercise", called the commemoration of the holocaust "memorial pornography" and claimed that the "zionists of the centre national de la cinematographie" which "control french cinema" prevented him from making a film about the slave trade.
the muslim brotherhood leader denounced what he called "the myth of the holocaust" in defending iranian president's denial of the holocaust.
a polish radio station during the polish election promoted antisemitic views, including denial of the jedwabne pogrom. their support of right-wing conservative law and justice party is considered a major factor in their electoral victory.
a group of 15 members of the state duma of russia demanded that judaism and jewish orgqanizations be banned from the country. 500 prominent russians demanded that the state prosecutor investigate ancient jewish texts as "anti-russian" and ban judaism.
islamic extremists planned to bomb a number of synagogues and an israeli consulate in california.
iranian president denied the holocaust during a speech in zahedan. "they have invented a myth that jews were massacred and palce this above god, religions and the prophets." he suggested that if the holocaust had occurred, that it was the responsibility of europeans to offer up territory to the jews.
2006
a man stabbed nine people at a synagogue in russia.
the iranian state-sponsored "international conference to review the global vision of the holocaust" opened, with its focus being to question the facts of the holocaust. the iranian foreign ministry spokesperson stated "the holocaust is not a sacred issue that one can't touch. i have visited the nazi camps in eastern europe. i think it is exaggerated."
mel gibson was arrested for a dui, and reportedly yelled at the police officer, "fucking jews... the jews are responsible for all the wars in the world. are you a jew?"
m'bala was fined for defamation after calling a prominent jewish tv presenter a "secret donor of the child-murdering israeli army."
ilan halimi, a french moroccan jew, was kidnapped, tortured, and murdered. he was dumped on the side of the road, 80% of his body covered in burns, and died from his injuries on his way to the hospital. the kisnappers thought halimi was wealthy because he came from a jewish family, and the gang confessed that they believed all jews to be rich which motivated them to target several jews. the halimi family reports being told that if they could not raise the money for the ransom then they should get it from the jewish community.
a man targeted the jewish federation of seattle when the organization showed up in search results after he typed the phrase "something jewish" into a search engine. he forced his way through the building's security door with several guns, a knife, and ammunition, taking a 14 year old girl as a hostage. he is reported to have said "i'm only doing this for a statement" and "i'm a muslim american; i'm angry at israel" before the shooting spree began. he then took a pregnant woman hostage, saying "now since you don't know how to... listen, now you're the hostage, and i don't give a fuck if i kill you or your baby." the woman reported him stating "that he was a muslim, and this was his personal statement against jews and the bush administration for giving money to jews, and for us jews for giving money to israel, about hozbollah, the war in iraq, and he wanted to talk to cnn."
2007
holocaust survivor elie wiesel was attacked by a holocaust denier in san francisco.
jewish professor elizabeth midlarsky had a swastika spray painted on her office door.
2008 - gaza war
a leading member of hamas made a statement that israelis "have legitimized the murder of their own children by killing the children of palestine... they have legitimized the killing of their people all over the world by killing our people."
a belgian jewish magazine received a dozen death threats on its website, including a threat to carry out a suicide attack to "avenge the suffering of the palestinians."
protestors in indonesia shut down the country's only synagogue, threatening to drive out the country's jews. they stated that "if israel refuses to stop its attacks and oppression of the palestinian people, we don't need to defend [the synagogue's' presence here." the synagogue has been shuttered since.
a man sent a letter threatening to bo b the ida crown jewish academy in chicago. the letter said that explosives would be set off around the school unless violence in gaza stopped by january 15 2009.
south african deputy foreign minister was quoted saying "[jews] in fact control [america], no matter which government comes into power, whether republican or democratic, whether barack obama or george bush... the control of america, just like the control of most western countries, is in the hands of jewish money and if jewish money controls their country then you cannot expect anything else." she later claimed she "conflated zionist pressure with jewish influence."
antisemitic graffiti, including swastikas, appeared all over turkey. a sign was put up at the door of a civic group's office saying "jews cannot enter, dogs can." anti-jewish articles began appearing in turkish newspapers, and there were several hundred documented examples of antisemitic messages. as a result, turkish jewish immigration to israel increased.
in yemen, jews experienced verbal and physical harassment. jewish children were injured, one seriously, when muslim students threw stones at them. anti-israel protestors also attacked several jewish homes, smashing windows and pelting them with rocks, and injuring at least one jewish residence. a yemeni jewish family was extricated from yemen to israel after suffering continuous antisemitic attacks and death threats. a grenade was also thrown into the courtyard of the family's home in raydah.
a molotov cocktail was thrown. at a synagogue in brussels. rocks and other objects were thrown at a jewish school. a jewish home was the subject of arson. afterwards, hundreds of protestors tried to march toward the jewish neighborhood but were held off by police.
a man opened fire on three israeli cosmetics salesmen and two customers in a shopping mall. the shooting, which followed a period of harassment against the cosmetic stand, resulted in two israelis being hit by the shots. the perpatrator explained that he was motivated by the middle east situation.
sixty-six antisemitic incidents were reported in france, home to europe's largest muslim and jewish populations. numerous synagogues were attacked with petrol bombs and damaged in various towns. a car was rammed into the gates of a synagogue in toulouse and set on fire. a petrol bomb was thrown at a synagogue which set fire to an adjacent jewish restaurant. offensive graffiti was also sprayed on synagogues throughout the country. in paris, a rabbi's car was torched, a. jewish student was attacked and stabbed four times, and a 15-year old girl was assaulted by a gang.
a jewish community in germany was daubed and later stoned, and the central council of jews in german reported a significant increase in the number of hate mails and death threats during the conflict.
synagogues in multiple cities in greece were vandalized and suffered arson attacks. in athens, the walls of a jewish cemetery were sprayed with antisemitic graffiti "jews israelites murderers." neo-nazi slogans like "ax and fire to the jewish dogs" were used at anti-israel protests. a monument commemorating the murder of greek jews was vandalized with slogans like "greece - palestine no jew will remain." a seminar at the jewish museum of thessaloniki was cancelled after receiving threats, and the leftist parliamentary party of coalition of the radical left declined to attend the greek national day of remembrance of holocaust heroes and martyrs because of the attendance of the israeli ambassador. in ioannina the local jewish cemetery was vandalized with several tombs broken. the corfu synagogue was vandalized with graffiti such as "shit on israel" "jews nazis" and "murderers." the shoah memorial was also vandalized with graffiti regarding gaza. in larisa both grouns from the extreme right and extreme left targeted the local community. leftist and palestinian demonstrators attempted to vandalize the synagogue during a march, while later the same day groups linked to neo-nazi groups vandalized the shoah monyment and organized protests in front of the synagogue asking for the expulsion of jews from larisa. jews were attacked as "christ killers" and "smelling of blood" "they are the worst thing of the 20th century" and an eminent member of the greek orthodox church spoke of "zionist monsters with sharp claws" and "jews puhished for killing christ" and being "god killers."
italian trade union flaica-cub issued a call to boycott jewish-owned shops in rome in protest at the israeli offensive. it was condemned as antisemitic and reminiscent of the italian race laws under fascism in the 1930s.
a molotov cocktail was thrown at a jewish owned building in amsterdam following an attempted arson of a jewish institution in arnhem. a synagogue and jewish owned building were targeted by stoning. at an anti-israel demonstration in utrecht, some demonstrators shouted "hamass, hamas, jews to the gas."
during the 2009 oslo riots, the largest anti-jewish riots in norwegian history, muslim youth attacked the israeli embassy and yelled anti-jewish slogans in arabic, including "death to the jews" "kill the jews" and "slaughter the jews." in one incident, young men beat a 73 year old man who was carrying an israeli flag while shouting "bloody jew - get him!" they only stopped attacking him when they realized he was not jewish.
a jewish burial chapel in sweden was the target of an arson attack and a jewish centor was set on fire twice in three days.
there were approximately 225 recorded antisemitic incidents in the uk during the war. synagogues were firebombed, jews received verbal and digital abuse, and a gang tried to force their way into jewish restaurants and shops, specifically focusing on the london jewish family centre. a jewish motorist was also dragged from his car and assaulted. antisemitic graffiti with slogans including "kill jews" "jews are scumbags" and "jihad 4 israel" were sprayed in jewish areas across london and manchester.
a molotov cocktail was thrown at a tample in chicago, and in lincolnwood a synagogue's glass doors were shattered by a brick and "free palestine" and "death to israel" were spraypainted on the building. a jewish preschool in california was graffitied with swastikas and antisemitic messages.
argentinian jews wearing kippot were physically attacked on public buses and jewish cemetaries were defaced. a gang attacked argentinian jews near the israeli embassy in buenos aires.
in bolivia, vandals removed a star of david from a monument from the plaza israel and started spraypainting "plaza palestina" on jewish murals.
during shabbat, the caracas synagogue, venezuela's oldest synagogue, was defaced with "property of islam", and an armed gang of 15 unidentified people broke in and the security guards were bound and gagged while the gang destroyed the offices and the repository where the holy books were stored. they daubed the walls with antisemitic and anti-israel graffiti that called for jews to be expelled from the country, and also stole a database that listed jews who lived in venezuela.
2008 - cont
the harvard crimson school paper ran a paid holocaust denial ad.
a chabad house in mumbai was taken over by two attackers and several residents were held hostage. a rabbi and his wife, who was six months pregnant, were murdered with four other hostages in the house by the attackers. according to radio transmissions, the attackers "would be told by their handlers in pakistan that the lives of jews were worth 50 times those of non jews." injuries on some of the bodies indicated that they may have been tortured.
2009
hamas refused to allow palestinian children to learn about the holocaust, which it called "a lie invented by the zionists" and referred to holocaust education as a "war crime."
an irish journalist claimed "there was no holocaust... and six million jews were not murdered by the third reich. these two statements of mine are irrefutable truths."
tapes were released in which billy graham is heard in conversation with richard nixon referring to jews as "the synagogue of satan."
four men were arrested in new york in connection with a plot to blow up two synagogues in the bronx.
a neo nazi entered the united states holocaust memorial museum in washington dc and shot and fatally wounded a security officer.
2010
the last surviving romaniote synagogue in greece was targeted for an arson attack.
a synagogue in cairo, egypt was bombed.
a synagogue in sweden was attacked with explosives.
2011
six jewish institutions were attacked by vandals in montreal, including four synagogues and a school.
j.z. knight stated "fuck god's chosen people! i think they have earned enough cash to have paid their way out of the goddamned gas chambers by now."
the manhattan terrorism plot to bomb various targets in manhattan, including a synagogue.
2012
a man killed four jews, including three children, outside a school in toulouse, france.
a synagogue in sweden was attacked with an explosive decide, shattering a window.
2013
alice walker expressed appreciation for the works of antisemitic conspiracy theorist david icke. she said that icke's book "human race get off your knees" would be her choice if she could have only one book. the book promotes the theory that the earth is ruled by shapeshifting reptilian humanoids and "rothschild zionists."
louis farrakhan delivered an antisemitic speech, referring to jews as "satanic jews" and "the synagogue of satan", controlling america's government and other sectors, reportedly saying that president obama "surrounded himself with satan... members of the jewish community." farrakhan also said that the jewish people "have mastered the civilization now, but they've mastered it in evil... who's the owner of hollywood that creates images and makes the people think that what is created on screen is the way we should live? that's satan... satan has devoured so much of humanity. ... the people that own hollywood are the same people that control your press, the same people that control your media, the same people who are the publishers, the same people who are the distributors, the same synagogue of satan, and they put you before the world in this disgraceful manner. ... jesus was the last hope for the jewish people but they rejected him. they are now in control of the media and the airwaves, gaining access to the 'sacred territory' which is in the minds of the people."
the supreme leader of iran grand ayatollah ali khamenei questioned the validity of the holocaust, saying "the holocaust is an event whose reality is uncertain and if it has happened, it's uncertain how it has happened."
2014
kkk leader killed three non jewish people at a jewish community center and jewish retirement home in kansas, the day before passover.
residents of a village in spain called "castrillo matajudios" ("jew-killer camp") since 1627 voted to change the name of the village.
2015
four jews were killed when a gunman attacked a kosher supermarket in paris where the gunman held 15 other hostages and demanded that the kouachi brothers not be harmed.
iran organized the international holocaust cartoon competition, a competition in which artists were encouraged to submit cartoons on the theme of holocaust denial.
louis farrakhan accused jews of involvement in sept 11 attacks.
swastikas were spraypainted on a jewish fraternity at uc davis on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of auschwitz.
a french settlement named "la mort aux juifs" or "death to jews" finally changed its name after a denied attempt in 1992.
a synagogue in copenhagen was taken by a gunman during a bat mitzvah celebration where one jewish man on security duty was killed.
stanford university student senate candidate molly horwitz was asked by a student group how being jewish would affect her decision-making.
two synagogues and a jewish neighborhood in san antonio, texas were vandalized with antisemitic graffiti.
2016
natasha waldorf of alameda was subjected to two boys sending her text messages that included antisemitic slurs, two other students joked about the holocaust and when she confronted them they told her that "hitler should have finished the job."
the campus chapter of students for justice in palestine at the university of california irvine was sanctioned because they disrupted a program hosted by a jewish campus group and intimidated jewish students.
2017
alice walker published a poem on her blog titled "it is our (frightful) duty to study the talmud", recommending that the reader should start with youtube to learn about the evils of the talmud.
a huge wave of threats, including bomb threats, were made against jewish community centers and other institutions in the united states around the high holy days.
sarah halimi was murdered in paris.
the chicago dyke march organizers singled out and approached a group of women carrying jewish pride flags and began to question them on their political stance in regards to zionism and israel, and then expelled them from the event. the organizers attributed the reasoning to the star of david on the flag as a "zionist expression." the organization's twitter account also used the phrase "zio tears" in a now deleted tweet. "zio" is a slur originated by david duke.
the new england holocaust memorial was smashed with a rock.
in ukraine, the space of synagogues holocaust memorial display was vandalized by neo nazis.
the chairpersons of the chicago slutwalk wrote, "we still stand behind dyke march chicago's decision to remove the zionist contingent from their event, and we won't allow zionist displays at ours." the organizers made the following declaration about the star of david: "its connections to the oppression enacted by israel is too strong for it to be neutral."
a jewish cemetery in missouri was vandalized.
the unite the right rally took place in charlottesville, virginia, where white nationalists chanted slogans like "blood and soil" "jews will not replace us" "the goyim know" "the jewish media is going down."
a synagogue in sweden was firebombed.
2018
trayon white, an american politician, posted a video to his official facebook page showing snow flurries following, and alluding to the rothschild family conspiring to manipulate the weather.
an israeli man wearing a yarmulke was attacked in berlin; the attacker reportedly beat him with a belt and shouted "yehudi" ("jew")
tamika mallory, an american activist and one of the organizers of the womens march, attended an antisemitic speech by louis farrakhan, a figure she had previously refused to denounce. during the three hour speech, farrakhan claimed that "the powerful jews are my enemy" "the jews have control over agencies of those angencies of government" like the fbi, thta jews are "the mother and father of apartheid" and that jews are responsible for "degenerate behavior in hollywood turning men into women and women into men."
a republican candidate for senate in california openly called for a united states "free from jews."
11 people were murdered at the tree of life synagogue. on social media, several people made the claim that they "should not be mourned if they were zionists."
2019
belgium outlawed kosher slaughter.
rep ilhan omar tweeted an allegation that american support for israel was rooted in money spent by pro israel lobbying organizations.
several mps quit the labor party under jeremy corbyn citing "culture of extreme antisemitism and intolerance."
a subway poster in brooklyn with a picture of ruth bader ginsburg was valdalized with the writing "die jew bitch" and a swastika.
multiple violent attacks occured in brooklyn.
a synagogue in turkey is attacked with a molotov cocktail.
one person was killed and three were injured during a shooting at a passover seder in california.
a synagogue was attacked by a lone shooter in germany.
a kosher grocery store in jersey city, new jersey was attacked and five people were killed.
jersey city mayor steve fullop said a trustee of the jersey city board of education should resign in the wake of her comment after the above shooting about "jew brutes" that according to her have "threatened, intimidated, and harassed" black residents. the trustee asked whether the public is "brave enough" to listen to the shooters' message, and said the local rabbis were selling body parts. she remained on the board until 2022.
a jewish elder was killed and four others were injured at the home of a hasidic rabbi during hanukkah in new york.
2020
the tomb of esther and mordechai in iran was subjected to an arson attack.
the jewish center at the unitersity of delaware was subjected to an arson attack.
six igbo synagogues in nigeria were razed by soldiers, and at least 50 people were killed.
a synagogue in portland was subjected to an arson attack.
2021
george washington university's chapter of tau kappa epsilon fraternity reported that their house was broken into and vandalized, and their sefer torah destroyed.
2022
four hostages were taken at a synagogue in colleyville, texas. the attacker believed that the rabbi could call another rabbi in new york and secure the release of aafia siddiqui, a pakistani operative imprisoned for attempted murder and other crimes. siddiqui tried to dismiss her lawyers on the grounds that they were jewish. she said the case against her was a jewish conspiracy theory, demanded that no jews be allowed on the jury, and that all prospective jurors be dna tested and excluded from the jury at her trial if they had "zionist or israeli" dna. she wrote a letter to president obama, asserting, "study the history of the jews. they have always back-stabbed everyone who has taken pity on them and make the fatal error of giving them shelter... and it is this cruel, ungrateful back-stabbing of the jews that has caused them to be mercilessly expelled from wherever they gain strength. this is why 'holocausts' keep happening to them repeatedly! if they would only learn to be grateful and change their behavior!"
kanye west states that he "likes hitler" and is a "nazi." he still occasionally goes on an antisemitic twitter bender.
2023-2024 - current war
in october, an egyptian police officer shot and killed two israeli tourists and an egyptial tour guide in alexandria.
a jewish man walking to synagogue in johannesburg was accosted by a male jogger screaming antisemitic insults at him. the jogger then assaulted the man, knocked him over, and kicked and punched him while he lay on the ground.
a jewish cricket player was stripped of the captaincy by cricket south africa, claimed to have been a measure to reduce protests at the world cup.
a synagogue in tunisia was severely damaged during anti-israel riots with hundreds of people filmed setting fire to the building.
in armenia, unknown assailants set fire to a synagogue in yerevan and disseminated the arson attack on social media.
the associated press noted a rise in antisemitism on chinese social media. an israeli employee of the israeli embasee in beijing was stabbed and injured on october 13.
a 16 year old in australia was arrested after planning to attack a synagogue in vienna.
gravestones in belgium were damaged and many stars of david were stolen from a cemetery. only the jewish section was vandalized.
danish police arrested at least four operatives who were planning attacks on jewish or israeli targets in denmark.
in paris, stars of david were painted on multipe spots on several building fronts in a southern district. similar tags appeared over the weekend in other suburbs. antisemitic chants were filmed on the paris metro, "fuck the jews and fuck your mother, long live palestine. we are nazis and proud of it." a woman in lyon was stabbed and a swastika was graffitied on her home.
overall, french jews have noted a huge increase in antisemitism, with a surge of 1200% since october 7.
in berlin, the houses of several jews were marked with a star of david. two molotov cocktails were thrown at a synagogue.
israeli students in riga, latvia reported receiving hate texts and threats from other students.
lectures on the holocaust at utrecht university of applied sciences in the netherlands were postponed indefinitely.
a norwegian medical student at a rally in warsaw was pictured holding a poster of the flag of israel in a trash can alongside the text "keep the world clean." far right polish lawmaker grzegorz braun used a fire extinguisher on a lit menorah and removed it from the wall during a hanukkah celebration, saying "there can be no pace for the acts of this racist, tribal, wild talmudic cult."
residents of dagestan gathered near the flamingo hotel after reports that refugees from israel were being accomodated there. the protesters demanded that all hotel residents come to the windows to look at them. when the guests did not do this, stones were thrown into the building. the residents demanded to check the basements and let them into the hotel. police arrived and allowed protestors to check the hotel to make sure it was "jew free", and after this a message was posted outside the hotel that jews were prohibited from entering.
an antisemitic ralley was held in cherkessk, demanding the "eviction of ethnic jews."
a local jewish religious national-cultural community center under construction was set on fire in nalchik with the attackers writing "death to the yahuds" on the wall.
a mob stormed the uytash airport in dagestan after the arrival of a red wings flight from tel aviv. messages spread on telegram that a direct flight from israel was arriving, with calls to come to the airport and prevent the plane from landing. dozens of protestors stormed the airport and reached the runway, some of whom managed to climb up onto the plane's wings. 20 people were injured, two of whom were seriously injured. there are reports from passengers of rioters checking cars going to and from the airport for jews.
a synagogue in melillah, a spanish enclave in north africa, was attacked by a mob chanting "murderous israel" while waving palestinian flags.
pro palestinian demonstrators burned an israeli flag and chanted "bomb israel" outside a synagogue in. sweden.
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multiple cases of antisemitism were reported by students at concordia university with jewish students facing verbal and physical threats from both other students and faculty members. footage of a professor yanise arab shouting at jewish concordia students to "go back to poland, sharmuta (whore)" went viral alongside another video of a student using the slur "kike."
two jewish schools in montreal were targeted with gunfire overnight, and one was struck with gunfire a second time a few days later.
a jewish community center in montreal was attacked with a molotov cocktail.
jewish students and teachers of the peel district school board reported antisemitism and violent threats, including a teacher posting "jews are the problem" in a private facebook group.
a sukkah at caltech was vandalized with anti-israel graffiti. a man threw rocks through the glass doors of a synagogue and cafe in fresno, the second with a note reading "all jewish businesses will be targeted."
at columbia university, a woman assaulted an israeli man with a stick after he confronted her for ripping down posters with pictures and information abuot kidnapped israelis.
a man was arrested for sending threatening emails to a. synagogue in charlotte, north carolina.
a man in new york's grand central terminal punched a woman in the face and told her it was because she was jewish.
seven members of "white lives matter" california held a demonstration, holding up signs reading "no more wars for i$rael."
professor russell rickford spoke at a rally, saying he had found hamas's attack "exhilarating."
the illinois comptroller's office fired one of its lawyers, sarah chowdhurt, over antisemitic remarks she made on the instagram of another lawyer who is jewish.
a building next to a jewish fraternity at upenn was vandalized with antisemitic graffiti reading "the jews r nazis."
a man broke into a jewish family's home in los angeles, yelling "free palestine" and "kill jews."
threats against the jewish community at cornell university were posted online, threatening to shoot rape, and murder jewish students and encouraging violence against them.
paul kessler, an elderly jewish man, was killed at a rally after being struck in the head by a megaphone by a pro palestine protester, causing him to fall.
a woman was arrested after ramming her car into a black hebrew israelite school in indiana, mistakenly believing it to be an "israel school."
a man fired two rounds from a shotgun into the air outside a synagogue in albany and made threatening statements. he is alleged to have said "free palestine" at some point during the attack.
a game between the girls' varsity teams from the leffell school and roosevelt high school early college studies in yonkers was stopped when roosevelt students began to hurl antisemitic slurs at leffell students, with one yelling "i support hamas, you fucking jew", and during the third quarter became aggressive and violent during the play resulting in injuries of leffell's players.
participants in a pro-palestine rally in sydney changed "gas the jews", and several individuals in melbourne made death threats against jews, one group harassing a rabbi and his son, and another asking where to find jews, saying they were "hunting for jews."
a man in new south wales threatened to kill four jewish teenagers in a car with an israeli flag draped on it.
neo nazis marched in melbourne, displaying a banner reading "expose jewish power" and distributing neo nazi literature.
a sydney jewish man was verbally abused for wearing a kippah.
pro palestine graffiti was spray painted on the fence of a synagogue in auckland, and an unsuccessful attempt was made to set the property on fire. google maps had mistakenly listed the property as the local israeli consulate.
new zealand jews report a surge in antisemitic threats.
in new zealand, one child was physically assaulted and another had a swastika and a star of david drawn side by side on their school shirt. children were greeted by their peers with nazi salutes, being called "dirty jews", being told "jews control the world", and jokes about jews being gassed, and the blood libel claim that jews "chop off babies heads."
the us and israeli embassies in buenos aires received bomb threats via email, including one which said "jews we are going. tokill you all."
three people were arrested under suspicion of planning an attack on the maccabiah games.
brazilian authorities arrested two suspects in a. hezbollah backed terror plot to attack synagogues and other jewish targets in the country.
a column on the israeli embassy on colombia was vandalized with a swastika, start of david, and the word "terror" in hebrew.
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Plot | After a tumultuous year, Sebastianâs life was finally okay â passable, up-to-scratch, satisfactory. And he had just almost reached peace â when his brilliant, painfully observant, carelessly crude genius of a friend, Garreth Weasley, started pointing out unnecessary facts that could rip all that harmony to shreds.
or, Garreth asks why Sebastian isnât dating you. Sebastian spirals.
Tags | fluff, sebastian is a thought daughter, low self esteem, seb is a playboy BUT NOT REALLY, horny thots but we keep it pg, insecurity so deep you try to fight cupid, cupid fights back
An Ashwinderâs wand to his neck and Sebastian could honestly and truly say that he was ⌠alright.
Life wasnât perfect, by any means. His uncle was murdered dead, an estranged twin sister in Paris who refuses to answer his letters, a mistrustful Ominis that breathes on his neck, and a tattered companionship that was barely hanging on by a thread.
But he was okay.
Thankfully, Solomon was still dead, Anne was still alive, and still cranky Ominis is now open to reconciliation. Plus, if all else had fallen, he at least managed to save your cherished friendship thanks to your forgiving nature.
Thus, as thanks to the people who had not yet given up on him, he had sworn to live the rest of his academic life as a meek, unassuming, law-abiding student of Hogwarts.
And he did such a good job at it.
The professors are now impressed at his steadily increasing grades (so much so that the Ravenclaws are now finally seeing him as a threat again) and he even managed to make Imeldaâs team as her beater to keep him occupied.
The latter, however, had a grating consequence â he had become popular.
It was thrilling, at first, he went on dates to make up for the years he had lost, kissed the pretty girls because it felt like he should (as one of the few bastards lucky enough to live every raging teenagerâs dream), and accepted the slaps on the face politely when they inevitably broke up.
But now heâs just gotten tired and bored of it all.
Ominis says itâs a geniusâ folly, to always find a fault in something and then drop it when it doesnât quite meet his standard of perfect. Leander says heâs just a bastard.
He cups his face with his hand, wincing. Her fucking ring caught on his skin and he canât be arsed to suffer through the bitterness of a Wiggenweld Potion for a mere scratch.
Garreth doesnât bother to swallow his bread before saying, âReally, mate? I thought you liked this one?â
âLiked her rack, more likely,â Andrew quipped from his seat on the stone steps of the boathouse.
Sebastian threw his scarf on his face, satisfied at his squawk.
âNo talking about my ex-girlfriends,â he warned. It was one of his few rules when it came to his male friends. He may be a bastard but as someone with a sister and a couple of good female friendships, he makes it a point to never become one of those losers who talk badly about women they have a history with. Just so he can have a moral high ground when he beats up anyone who might do it to his friends.
âAll right, all right,â Andrew raised his hands in playful surrender, throwing Sebastianâs scarf back to him. âBut as your friend, I think itâs about time you stop swapping out girls every time you get bored of them.â
âI donât swap them out,â he rolls his eyes. âBreakups are normal.â
âBreakups are normal,â Garreth points out. âSix breakups in 2 years is an issue.â
âMaybe Iâm just meant for the bachelor life,â he mumbles, ignoring the pointed accusation from Garreth. Fucking perceptive prick. âNot everyone gets to meet their soulmate in Hogwarts, asshole.â
Garreth grins, âNattyâs great, isnât she?â
Sebastian and Andrew both throw their scarves at him, the three of them bursting out in laughter and boos.
âTo the Three Broomsticks, then?â Andrew stood up, patting his pants.
As 7th years it was nearly impossible to take a breather with the looming threat of exams that will dictate the rest of your life and the inescapable trap of adulthood that awaits them in a couple of months. So, his friends had made it a point to at least go out once every week whenever they could, really take advantage of their last year as students where they had no other responsibility but to survive the week.
In a yearâs time, seeing each other as often as they do will be nothing short of a miracle.
âLeander and Everett are already there, saved up a table since itâs a Friday, itâs gonna be packed full,â Andrew explains.
Sebastian looks around, eyes scanning the castle in the setting sun. âYou go on ahead Iâm waiting for ââ
âSebastian!â
A flash of movement appeared rushing down the stairs towards the boathouse, your face beaming as you waved to the three of them. When you were a foot away from him you jumped into his arms, shrieking energetically when he grabbed your waist and lifted you above his head.
âSorry, Iâm late,â you pant, smiling at your friends once youâre back on the ground. âProfessor Hecate asked me to stay back for a minute, something about revisions on my research.â
âI canât believe you got permission to research in The Restricted Section after the crazy nonsense you pulled in 5th year,â Garreth shook his head. Sebastian wrapped an arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer to his side, beaming in pride. Nobody knows but the two of you that the very thing you were researching were the technicalities of how you broke Anneâs curse so it could be taught to the nurses in St. Mungos and hopefully spread to the rest of wizardkind.
âItâs exactly because I had the nerve to break the rules that I was given the honorable opportunity,â you dramatically curtsied. âAnd they said Gryffindors were the brave ones.â
That made Sebastian laugh. Garreth blinks, eyes squinting at him for a second but he doesnât look offended, more ⌠focused on Sebastian.
âAlright, no more of that House Rivalry. Quidditch Season is over,â Andrew quips.
âWiped your asses there too, Larson,â he quipped, Andrewâs jaw drops, looking at Garreth for help and receiving none. He was still staring at Sebastian, eyes shifting between him and you.
Andrew groans. âSlytherins are assholes.â
Slytherins are, apparently, also light-weights.
Well, at least one of them is.
He adjusts his hold on your body as the other hand wraps his coat around your body properly. After your last âimprovedâ butterbeer you had slumped into his lap, rudely snoozing off on the crook of his neck and refusing to wake up even when it was time for your group to leave â not that he wouldâve allowed that to happen, with your demanding research it was a miracle to get you to sleep let alone let loose.
The rest of the group had gone in first to scope the scenery and bribe the patrolling Head students with leftover chips while he and Garreth were stuck carrying you and an unconscious Amit that they had managed to catch last-minute in Hogsmeade. Poor bastard.
âI was thinking ââ
âPlease donât,â he groans.
âWhy have you two never dated?â
Sebastian stops his fussing, barely able to use his head to ensure he keeps walking, and continue to Act Normal, now using both of his hands to hold you tighter.
âYouâre drunk,â he deflects. The puffs of your breath warm his entire body.
âBecause! When I think about it âŚâ
Please, for the love of the great Merlin stop thinking.
âYouâve been inseparable from the start! I canât believe itâs escaped my notice youâve never dated. You say your past relationships got boring and got annoying but youâve never been bored and annoyed with her and youâve been friends for years!â
Bored with you? Heâs had more near-fatal heart attacks because of you than breakups. Sebastian barely had the time to be bored. And sometimes you do get at each otherâs throats but it was always fixed after a proper conversation. If his killing his uncle couldnât turn you away then he doubts anything you do could ever turn him away.
âPlus, with all the respect and love to my beautiful darling Natty, sheâs a fucking catch, mate!â
If Garreth wasnât carrying a sinless half-dead Amit, Sebastian wouldâve punched him in his mouth just to stop him from talking.
âIâm just saying,â Garreth walks ahead of him, clearly aware of the fuse he had just lit. Sebastian was tempted to kick the back of his knees just for the satisfaction of seeing him fall. âMaybe you can join the club and find your soulmate in Hogwarts.â
Garreth winks.
âWeâre still accepting members.â
Heâs decided.
He needs to kill Garreth.
He has not been able to sleep properly for the past week and itâs all because of that ginger prick and his needless remarks.
âWhy have you two never dated?â
Sebastianâs pencil cracks in his hand.
âIs he alright?â he hears an underclassman whisper on the other table. He glances at them and they flinch. Quickly, he softens his expression ("You really need to stop scowling at people, Sebastian."), unaware he had glared at them and sent a wary smile in apology. It would just be unfair to aim his ire at innocent people when he could just use it to rip out every strand of Weasleyâs hair.
âHeâs been staring at that page for an hour. Maybe we should call ââ
He stands up, escaping.
Sebastian never realized just how much he spent his time with you until people were looking at him funny when he was walking or sitting alone in public places. At first, he thought there had been crumbs on his face or one of his asshole friends stuck a note on his back like a kid. Plus, he hadnât been feeling his best since that night but he thought it had been the lack of sleep.
It wasnât until he had met Imelda on the grounds that he found his answer:
âWhereâs the rest of you?â
He blinked at his captain, âIâm sorry?â
She shook her head. âMan, it feels weird seeing you alone. Did you guys have a fight? Youâre usually shadowing her like a puppy after class.â
Then everything clicks, the strange looks, the feeling of missing something (like a forgotten important homework after he had reached the top of the Astronomy Tower) â itâs been a side effect of avoiding you.
Okay, itâs not that heâs avoiding you per se. He just needs space. He needs to think and he finds that canât do that once he feels your eyes on him. With his luck, youâre going to see right through him and that would just be unideal if not a fucking catastrophe.
Thatâs why heâs taken it upon himself to stay off your way until he puts his thoughts in a row and finally screws his head on straight again. Or he could just kill Garreth, get sent straight to Azakaban, and avoid confronting these complicated thoughts altogether.
âI canât believe itâs escaped my notice youâve never dated!â
He sits on a bench, hands on his head as he let out a prolonged groan, âThe fucking bastard.â
Why did he have to point it out? Why did Garreth have to bring what he, upon reflection, had buried on the back of his head, just waiting for that one little flick of acknowledgment before it blew his brains out.
Because Sebastian is a lot of things but heâs not a fucking moron.
Itâs not that the thought of being together is unpleasant. If he lets himself consider it his chest feels like it would escape his ribcage both in excitement and utter terror.
But Garreth was right: heâd never thought about it before â hadnât thought the idea was conceivable in this reality.
He has a feeling it was his way of preserving whatever pure relationship he had left. Heâs not exactly rich with true companionship and heâs not idiotic enough to risk it all over a bloody crush.Â
And not just any crush â his best friend, the person who saved his life and then helped him rebuild it when he was finished smashing it to pieces. The one who never turned her back even when his blood had given up. The girl who has a line of eligible bachelors following her on their knees for a single chance, ones who could offer her more than he ever could â ones who could offer her the world.
So, yeah â forgive him, but heâs never really allowed himself to entertain the idea of them dating. Sebastian has tested his luck enough.
Unless the roles switch and he gets to save the wizarding world this time then maybe ⌠yeah, maybe -- maybe in another fucking life.
The thought makes him stand up, walking straight out of the campus to hopefully drown the sorrows of the depressing state of his love life with the best fire whiskey Hogshead could offer. How does he even move on from this? How does he make peace with the fact that he has sealed his fate of living the rest of his life alone?Â
Itâs impossible, heâs decided. Even if he graduates at the top of the classes he is taking and gets accepted into the Auror Programme that Sharp had recommended him for, their social standing is still heavens apart. Heâs an orphan, with a husk of an extended family and no money to his name.
It wouldnât matter to you, never really cared for pure bloodlines or lineages and he knows anyone who brings that up when theyâre courting you will receive the most disgusted look on your face.Â
But he cares â you are the most special person in his life. He wants the best for you. And the best is not something he can provide.
His depressing thoughts halt as his steps falter, a familiar scent tickling his nose. A familiar scent that leads straight into the Forbidden Forest. When he looks up to the sky, he realizes the sun has almost finished setting.
She canât be that reckless, right?
He was barely surprised when he chanted the incantation that triggered the charm they had both put in their necklaces, the sparkling thread leads straight into the forest. And if he knows you half as well as he thinks he does then he knows exactly where itâs gonna lead to.
There goes his late-night plan.
It isnât exactly his first jaunt in the forbidden space but it still gives him the creeps especially so close to the night. Why youâre so fond of the place is something heâll never understand.
But thatâs just the way you were, just another part of your quirks that makes you so endearing.
How you throw your head back when you laugh, that you get so cranky when youâre studying that no one dares to approach you but him, even the way you messily eat your favorite chocolate pastry of the week yet never fail to share a piece with him.
With this new revelation, he bitterly accepts the reason for his philandering ways. That he simply is another prick who is coping with not being able to attain the love of his life at the expense of those poor girls.
His self-condemnation however was cut short when he heard the waterfall, not being able to help the smirk on his face when he turned the corner and found you just as he had expected: in the middle of the clear, dark, water, floating carelessly on your back.
Gods, you are a beauty. Heâs always thought so, the entire male population in Hogwarts thought so too. If they somehow get to break through your walls and manage to get to know you, he might just have to beat them away with an actual stick.
âSebastian,â you smile, his heart stops. âI knew youâd find me.â
You swim to him gracefully, barely disturbing the water with only your eyes above the water but there was no hiding the grin in your face. Like a pitiful sailor seduced by a siren, his feet dragged him to the edge, a short ledge above from where you were looking up at him.
âYou left your scent on purpose,â he states, kneeling to get a closer look at you. What a beauty â mischievous, cunning, irresistible. Heâs never loved anyone more. âNaughty, naughty, darling.â
She pulls herself up the ledge, their faces inches away from each other. He nails his eyes to yours so they wouldnât be tempted to look down at your soaking figure cloaked only by a thin chemise âI had to get you somehow, knew you couldnât resist a damsel in distress.â
âFunny,â he softly glares, chuckling when she preens, clearly satisfied that her plan worked perfectly. âWith all the water in the Black Lake, you had to pick the Forbidden Forest to swim in.â
You dip yourself back down in the water, swimming away but still facing him. âCome, Sebastian. Iâve been bored all week since youâve been avoiding me.â
Guilt runs through his spine at the sudden coldness in your offhanded comment. Clearly, his absence hasnât escaped your notice as he had hoped.
Like a scolded pup, he follows your command to a T. Eyes never leaving your floating figure as he removed his coat, folding it neatly along with the rest of his clothes until he was left in his underclothes.
He winces at the touch of the freezing water. A heating charm would do wonders but the way your unsympathetic eyes never left his figure gave him a feeling that this was a punishment he was meant to endure.
He steels himself, diving into the water and only resurfacing when he is right in front of you. âYou called?â
âYouâre so fucking full of yourself,â you splash the cold water at him, shrieking when he reaches out for your arms and barely managing to slip away.
He dives again, grinning at your confused flounder, until you realize your mistake, looking down just as he catches your waist, your surprised shriek, and his unrestrained laughter breaks through the quiet of the forest.
âYou done running now, pet?â he locks his hands on your back, pushing you close until he is carrying both your weight in the water, chin resting on your chest as your hands run through his soaking hair.
Your darkened hair frames your face, like a sheer curtain it drops, teasing his cheeks, and hiding your conversation from the rest of the forest â in the dimness, your eyes have never been more radiant, even if it was clearly pissed at him.
Skinship wasnât foreign between the two of you. When youâve saved each otherâs lives from certain death more times than you care to count, cuddling is the least of your worries.
But there is something about the forest's silence, the sparse moonlight that peaks through the dense trees, the sound of the droplets falling from your hair to the water, and the distant echoes of the animals that make everything intimate. -- more intimate than usual.
âAre you?â you throw his question back at him mercilessly, your hands on the back of his neck, locking his face to look up at you â finally at you. The weeklong separation had been torture and now that the distance had cut his regular contact with his favorite witch, he finally realized how fast his heart was beating when he was around her.
He smiles.
He was satisfied, he swore he was.
Sebastianâs life was finally okay â passable, up-to-scratch, satisfactory. He shouldnât strive for more, couldnât allow himself that luxury â the luxury of love, the luxury of you.
But as he stares at your eyes, as he feels the ice in your skin, as he imagines a future where it wasn't him that gets to bite the plump of your lips â that dirty, greedy part of him crawls out of the hole he had shoved it in.
He feels it win.
âAre you done running now?â you whisper, a droplet falls from the tip of your nose to the space just below his eyes, his breath hitches, like your magnetic presence had sucked out all the air of the forest.
âI wasnât running,â she raises a brow, and Sebastian presses his lips to your ears. âI was thinking.â
âAnd?â
Leander was right: he really is a bastard.
But heâs a bastard who will no longer wait for another life to love you. He's a bastard who will get what he wants.
âI think,â he whispers, at peace. âI think Iâm gonna marry you someday.â
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synopsis : while in paris for the 2024 summer olympics, ushijima is advised that ejaculation releases stress and hence boosts athleticism. so, the night before his match, he asks for your help.
tws/tags : ts! ushiwaka, cursing, vaginal, riding, size kink, creampie, oral (giving), rough sex, slight hair pulling, petnames, praise â minors dni!
note : this is for the summer olympics collab by @tetzoro. tysm for allowing me to join <3 fyi studies differ but it is mostly shown that sex has no significant impact on athleticism. also smut is labelled if you want to cut to it lol â wc: 6k
it was never a question as to whether or not ushijima would qualify for the olympics; you knew for certain he was going to be on that team, so the only query that ever crossed your mind was when should you start packing?
usually that kind of mindset leads to disaster and disappoint, but in this case you were right to make that assumption because next thing you knew, you and ushijima were on a chartered flight straight to france, along with the rest of the japanese volleyball team.
you were excited to explore paris â the city of love â with your husband. although you were well aware that this was far from your honeymoon, and in fact more like a business trip for ushijima. hence, training will occupy most of his schedule, and any downtime he may have, he'll likely spend with his long-distance best friend tendou, who you both haven't seen since your wedding two years ago.
having made peace with this fact, you hung around on the main street, poking around in some luxury stores while ushijima visited the chocolaterie tendou works at. his friend was aware that he qualified for the olypmics and would be coming to paris, but it was still astounding to see ushijima walk through the front door of his shop, in the flesh.
with a massive grin, they hug and catch up with each other, discussing all the new things that have happened in their lives since they last saw other. well, tendou did most of the talking, but ushijima did make a couple of brief contributions about his thriving marriage and volleyball career.
"so," tendou hums with his elbow propped up on the table and his chin resting on his knuckles, "how are you feeling about your match against argentina?" he quirks a brow.
"good."
despite his curt response and dry demeanour, tendou can tell simply by ushijima's subtle mannerisms that there is something weighing on his mind. "oh, c'mon, mr perfect. let's get deep!" he urges, and ushijima knits his brows in thought.
what he's experiencing is so complex and foreign, he can't quite put a finger on it. he needs a couple of moments to find a way to describe it. "stressed. representing japan in an international tournament is a lot of pressure." he's been under pressure before though and prospered, so he doesn't understand why this is any different.
"huh, who would've thought? the almighty super ace of the century is finally feelin' the heat?" tendou exaggerates his syllables and narrows his eyes to look at ushiwaka with an amused expression, but all he gets is blank stare in return, so he continues, "well, you've got no chance of winning if you're nervous, that's for sure."
he says it so nonchalantly, it causes ushijima to falter, "what?" of course, that's not his desired outcome, and tendou seems to know what he is talking about, so wakatoshi asks, "what can i do to win?"
"not lose." tendou titters to himself, but ushijima's piercing stare persists. "you need to release the stress! free yourself of all your worldly doubts. luckily for you, my good friend, i know how you can do that."
"how?" ushijima is quick to respond.
tendou smirks and leans across the table until his face is inches away from ushijima's. "you need to beat it."
"beat what?"
"masturbate!" tendou yells, accompanied with an exasperated sigh, as he falls back into his chair. despite how they were having this conversation in the back of the store, tendou exclaimed that word loud enough to cause some customers browsing in the front to tilt their heads. "when you finish, not only does it it release sperm, but it also lets out all your pent-up fears and worries."
ushijima raises an eyebrow in doubt, which prompts tendou to elaborate, "also, when you orgasm, hormones pump through your body that kill all the stress chemicals. that's why it feels so good!"
seeing that ushijima is still suspicious, tendou throws his arms up in defeat, "fine! don't believe me if you want, but just know this information was told to me by a reliable and knowledgeable source: shirabu."
"shirabu kenjirĹ?"
when tendou hums in agreement, ushijima takes a moment to reflect. last he heard, shirabu is a medical student, studying to become a doctor, and they don't let just anyone into med school. additionally, biology and health is in shirabu's realm of expertise, so it would make sense for ushijima to take his advice.
with a nod of resounding certainty, ushijima declares proudly, "okay. i will masturbate."
"great. glad i could help." tendou grins, leaning his cheek onto his hand, "but you don't have to do it yourself. that was just an example. you should do whatever will make you finishâ..."
tendou's voice trails off as he searches for the right word, "hardest. so in your case, that might not be masturbating. i mean, you've got a real pretty wife."
though he wasn't keen on tendou calling you 'real pretty' in that suggestive tone, ushijima kept that comment inside, and instead said, "i think i know what you meant."
tendou wishes he could just leave the conversation at that and move on, but knowing his thick-skulled friend, he had to confirm, "what do i mean?"
"my wife should masturbate on my behalf."
"no!"
â Ë・ âŕ¨âĄŕ§â Ë・ â
eventually, ushijima may have understood what tendou was talking about. he was still sceptical about the whole thing but as the game grew closer and closer, he found himself becoming desperate for any solution to cure his volleyball nerves.
so, once the night before his match arrived, he figured there was no harm in trying.
you had just come out of the bathroom with your hair down and dripping, and your salacious body clad only in a short towel that didn't leave very much to the imagination; as your tits were threatening to escape with every movement you made, and the bottom of your perky ass was just peeking out. he watches intently from the bed. it's as though you knew what he had planned.
and perhaps you did, considering how he urged you to get in the shower as soon as the two of you got home from your excursions. due to the fact that he has a very strict sleeping schedule and needs to be in bed by 22 at the latest, which means you guys need to start having sex by 21. he lasts a while.
"(y/n)." the simple act of uttering your name in his husky voice already has you scrambling over to him, kneeling beside him on the covers.
"yes?" you respond with a cute twinkle in your eyes. ever doting and caring: one of the many things he loves about you.
"i am stressed for the game against argentina tomorrow."
you frown, already had the inkling that something was bothering him. "i'm sorry, toshi." you rest your head on his shoulder, nuzzling into him as you stroke his muscular chest, "it's completely normal to feel that way, especially since you'll be competing against your archenemy: tĹru oikawa."
he isn't sure what you mean by that â him and oikawa are on decent terms â but he enjoys your comforting words so he allows you to witter on without interruption.
"i'm also sorry that you felt as though you couldn't tell me this sooner; we could've done something about it. still, if there's anything i can do to help now, just say the word."
"sex." he responds plainly, taking your request literally.
"huh?" you stutter, unsure if you heard him correctly.
naturally, ushijima misinterprets your confusion and takes the opportunity to explain what he was told, "tendou and shirabu said that ejaculation let outs tension, so i would like your help with that. tendou mentioned that i could do it on my own, but i would prefer to do it with you."
your jaw hung open and your eyes darted across your husband's face, unsure of what to address first: his sweet desire to make love to you on such a special night, or his impressive use of the word 'ejaculation'.
clutching the fabric of his shirt, you pressed a long kiss to his lips, tasting his minty breath, before squealing, "yes, of course we can!" you throw one leg around him so you are now straddling his lap. he smiles at your sweet reaction and places a strong hand your waist to hold you in place.
while running your hands reassuringly over his arms and admiring his toned biceps, you pout, "oh but toshi, we can't have you waking up all sore in the morning." you point out, however it's as though a solution to your problem occurs to you instantly as you blurt out, with wide eyes and a cheery smile, "but that's okay! i can just ride you, yeah?" you eagerly tease him by grinding your hips against his already throbbing erection.
using his grip on you, he puts a swift end to your antics, and your whole body is no match for the strength in his right arm alone. "that sounds like a lot of effort." ushijima was aware of how long he can go for, and it left him exhausted most of the time, so he can't imagine how you would feel after doing all the work for such an extended period of time. you were just his precious wife after all, deserving of being spoiled and catered for â in bed or otherwise â so riding wasn't an act he ever expected from you.
"it will be, but it's only for one night and i'd do anything for you." he reassure him while laying against his chest, as his hand stroked your back. with your ear pressed against him, you could hear the faint drumming of his heartbeat.
so selfless too, another thing he loved about you. he smiled when you leaned into his embrace, carefully running his hand up and down your spine, as though you were the most fragile thing he's ever touched and may shatter at any moment.
"thank you, my angel."
oh, this man is horny. typically he only calls you nicknames when he is fucked out. even then, they were mostly limited to 'dear' or 'honey'. not that you minded, hearing him call you by your real name was hot, also the scarcity made the times when he did call you petnames all the more sweet.
so to hear him call you 'angel' before you've even started is very telling as to how badly he needs you. more than he lets on, that's for sure. such a stoic man; even after years of being together, you still find it difficult to read him sometimes, but the way he hardens underneath you is unmistakable.
[NSFW]
wearing nothing underneath the robe, you grind down against his clothed cock and he almost winces at the warmth of your bare pussy. so sensitive that he can feel every curve and dip of your needy cunt, and he revels at how your folds kiss his firm length.
in order to supress his bubbling moans, he hurriedly locks lips with you, fixing his hand onto your back so he can pull you closer. the passion from your lips against his is addicting and the heat of your body against his just feels so right. he wants nothing more than for you to melt into him so you can become one.
though he doesn't like how he can't feel your pretty tits pressed against him, only the fluffy fabric of your robe. his hands find their way to your shoulders, where he roughly tugs off your robe in one swift motion, casting it to the side.
the fiery kiss only ends when you gasp at the sudden chilliness that washes over you. the cold is combatted by ushijima's strong embrace as he holds your delicate figure against his own. it's nice to be his strong arms, it makes you feel so secure and you fit into him perfectly.
meanwhile, ushijima is focused on the lewd sensation of your tits squished against him. being able to feel your hard nipples poke him through the thin fabric of his shirt made it difficult to resist flipping you over and fucking you from behind, with one hand messily tangled in your hair while it hits it raw. like he usually does.
his kisses trail from your cheeks, across your jaw and down your neck. naturally, at that point you pull away from his embrace so he can continue lower, until he had your bud locked between his teeth. sucking and flicking it with his tongue while his hand worked at fondling your other tit, slowly falling so he was caressing your waist.
now that you've retracted, you take this opportunity to tug at the elastic of his shorts, pulling at it just enough for his aching erection to spring free. you've experienced ushijima's size before, but it's still baffling every time you see it. how a nice girl like you could take a monster like him.
drool pricked at the corner of your lips at the sight of girth, admiring the beast in your hands. ushijima stopped sucking on your tits when he realised you had let out his cock, and he couldn't help but smirk as he watched you idly toy with it while staring intently.
his poor angel. he knew how nervous you could get sometimes before taking him and he wasn't one to rush you, so he sat in comfortable silence, admiring your gorgeous figure and stroking your hip with his thumb. though the more he looked at you, the more he longed to dive right back into your tits and have another taste. or push you onto your back and explore between your thighs with his mouth.
though his raging fantasies were interrupted as you finally take his cock. not into your pussy, but rather, your mouth. that wasn't what ushijima was expecting, but he'd never complain. not when it comes to your head. how the warmth of your mouth consumed him, and your tongue licked seductively down his shaft. of course, you were never able to take his whole length but that's not your fault; most amateurs couldn't. and he preferred it like this, actually. he liked seeing you with your cheeks puffed out â his coarse fingers brushing your stray hair away from your face so he could witness every lewd detail â and watching you struggle to deepthroat him, coughing and spluttering whenever you'd try. just a reminder of how diligent you are when it comes to pleasuring him.
a layer of your spit shines on his cock, coating him so nicely, as you continue to suck him off. your movements are slow but thorough, gripping him with his lips as tightly as you can when you drag upwards, and ensuring your tongue rubs properly against the underside of his shaft. you were doing so well, as a reward you received the occasional hushed grunt from your husband.
usually this gentle approach would be the correct one, as ushijima prefers a moderate pace to begin with, that gradually builds up into a frantic, hasty one. however, today there was just something so tempting about you that he couldn't resist. maybe it was the obscene way your plump lips wrapped around his girth. or maybe it was how your glossy eyes looked to him for approval after every frivolous attempt to deepthroat. at which, he'd always flash you a brief yet kind smile, sometimes even mutter something along the lines of 'you're so cute' or 'good job, baby.'
regardless, there was an allure about you that he couldn't quite explain, but it is what triggered him to abruptly grab you by the hair and yank you off his cock and into a rough kiss. he just couldn't get enough of those gorgeous lips, and he utilised his grip on the back of your head to pull you in as close as physically possible. he wanted to feel every inch of your nude body against him.
after your initial shock to his actions, you soon melt into the kiss and move your lips rhythmically against his, allowing his tongue to slip past your defences and into your mouth. and while all your senses were saturated by the intoxicating kiss, you almost didn't notice when ushijima's other hand â that was previously groping your ass â sneaked down between your wet folds and teased the entrance of your pussy.
you moaned into the kiss at the stimulation of your needy hole, but despite your longing, you knew it wasn't right. you exit the kiss only partly, and say, virtually still upon his lips, "toshi.. don't. you need to save the energy in your arms."
"i always have energy for you." he counters, as his finger threatens to penetrate you.
"let's not risk it." you smile, pushing yourself back so you are sat upright on his lap with each leg on either side of him. aligning his cock with your hole, you notice he's still slightly damp with your spit, but not enough to make for sufficient lubricant, so you run his dick between your lips, allowing him to soak up your wetness.
he grunted at how your wet folds stroked his length, as his hand wandered up from your shoulder to your face so he could cup your cheek. "can you handle it, (y/n)? it's okay if you can't." of course he's been in you before but in the past, extensive prep is required before you can even fathom the idea of taking him. and on this occasion, you've not undergone any preparation at all. "i don't want to hurt you."
he doesn't mean to sound patronising; that's just how he expresses concern. well, maybe he does mean it a little, but that is only because the bedroom is the place where he gets to be the smart one, considering how quickly you get fucked dumb by his massive dick, unable to speak right or think straight.
"i can and i will, toshi! i was made to fit you." you whine, and you were quick to try and prove it by letting yourself relax onto his cock. however, you reacted by jolting, as the tip alone had your walls stretching and sore. you bit your bottom lip to try cope with discomfort, as your legs trembled at the strain.
"made to fit me?" he smirked, amused by your proclamation and how it was immediately followed by proof of his doubts. the way your body writhed said more than enough. "it's too much for you, sweetheart."
using the back of your hand to cover your tense expression, you shook your head, "no.. it's not." you squeak and mewl as you lower yourself on his cock, the wetness caused by the congestive sensation being just enough to make the descent bearable.
"mmphâ too big, toshi." you moaned, and hearing his name fall from your lips in such a dirty manner send all his blood rushing straight to his cock. a part of him wanted to grasp your shoulders and push you all the way down to his base. but the other part knew that he'd destroy your insides if he did that. he'll have to learn to be patient; the burden of having a wife with such a tight little cunt.
your sopping pussy clamping down on him caused a lustful haze to cloud his mind, so he was barely able to choke out, "hurts?"
you nod meekly.
a shaky sigh huffs out of his nose, as he tries to deal with your gummy walls swallow the head of his cock. his eyes were fixated on where you two connect, your hips were quivering yet you had barely covered half of him. slick from your moist cunt seeped down the rest of his shaft that you had yet to take. "you don't have to." he reassured you, a big hand grazing over the silky skin of your stomach, then resting to the side of your tit while he idly thumbed your sensitive nipples.
"but i wanna." you whine, sinking down on his cock ever so slightly, but even taking a couple additional inches caused an intense abdominal pain, resulting in quiet sobs hiccupping from you. it burned and stained your body in such a delicious way. your hungry pussy gnawing at his cock was addicting, and even when it poked you in the most personal and irregular places you still couldn't get enough. in fact, it made you want to fit his whole length even more, because seeing stars is always the goal with wakatoshi.
ushijima swallowed the lump that had formed in his throat while he was admiring your pretty pussy graciously accepting more of his cock. "my beautiful girl.." he cooed at you, paying close attention to the way your face twisted in pain as you sunk further down, fighting to reach the base, although you were getting closer.
more lubricant would've been useful, perhaps it would've got you started quicker like it usually does but a small part of him enjoyed you watching you struggle a bit; it's a display of how devoted you are. "do it." he grunted.
motivated by his firm command, you keep pushing down on his cock, no matter how tough it may be. your eyes are squeezed shut and your husband's strong hand cradles your ass just as you finally made it down to his base. your breathing is already heavy so you pause for catch your breath and marinate in the sensation of his cock brushing your cervix and visibly protruding from your lower stomach.
during this time, ushijima's clutch slipping from your ass, over your folds until he was rigorously palming your throbbing clit. you recoil a bit from his arousing touch, and grumble, "arms.." referring to preserving strength for tomorrow's match.
begrudgingly, he took his hand away. a whole night of sex without putting effort into pleasuring you didn't feel right to ushijima. the way he showed affection and that he cares about you is by rubbing that puffy clit, or letting you lie down while he stood at the end of the bed and ramming into you from behind, not stopping until he had you creaming all over his fat cock. so refraining from pleasing you didn't come naturally to him.
but he must not realise the effect his dick alone has you, especially without much lube â the friction of him dragging against your clammy insides was enough to have you teetering on your first orgasm already.
once you were ready, you braced yourself by placing your hands on his chest and used your knees and arms to supports you while you slid up his length. your insides freeing from his congestion was a relief yet simultaneously so empty, it's as though you craved it as soon as each inch withdrew from you.
"gah!â toshi, feels.." your words get lost in a chorus of your own staggered moans, "s' good."
wakatoshi normally wasn't very vocal in bed at all, so it was very telling that the combination of your tight pussy and unintentional dirty-talk already had him grunting and moaning shallowly under his breath.
as he watched you lift yourself up, he pet your leg soothingly, "that's right, princessâ hnnâ" he caught himself and clenched his jaw before an unwelcome noise left him, "keep going."
soon you were able to build momentum and start riding him properly. it took a moment to develop a suitable rhythm and to stop your yourself from wincing every time you sunk down on him, but once your hole built more slicker and wetter, it became easier.
it's not long before you're able to glide up and down his shaft with relative ease, whimpers bubbling in your throat from the luxurious satisfaction. at first you went steady, purposefully to savour each and every delicious inch of your well endowed husband.
going at your own rate and slowly bobbing on his cock was practical for you â enough stimulation to have your knees weak already. but your unrushed method wasn't doing it for him. not to say he wasn't entirely entranced by the way your pussy devours him and rubs against his raw flesh, but he need more of you in order to cum. he wants you to be bouncing on his dick until he's completely fucked your brains out and you've milked him dry.
"(y/n)." he states, while you were leaned forward, with your arms holding yourself upright on his chest while your hips got to work in rocking against him. your head hung low because you were concentrated on riding him, and your hair partially fell into your face.
but upon hearing his stern voice, you garner enough strength to lift your head to meet his molten brown eyes. he smiles at the lewd expression painted on your face; it served as a nice reminder that even a dribble of his cock was enough to drive you mad with bliss. he could tell by your watery eyes and your flickering grin that you fucking loved it.
"(y/n)." he repeats your name, though it's more breathy this time and he glances at the place where the two of you connect when he says it then, before he looks back at you expectantly. and of course, you know exactly what to you do.
you let out a deep sigh, drop your head and hope for the best â using your knees and hips to push yourself upwards so you can drop back down onto him at a heightened pace. every time his dick pierced into you, there was a meaty stretch of your walls â a salacious ache that you never could comprehend because as soon as you experienced it, you'd immediately shoot off his cock, then sink back down onto it, over and over again.
you didn't understand what you were feeling down there but you knew for certain was good. your back arched into the filthy euphoria and moans were spilling from you like a flood. "nghâ fuck! stop.." you whine, despite how you were responsible for the sharp jolts of electricity shooting through you; and you were the one hungrily bouncing on his cock like a desperate slut. impaling yourself with his length until your legs were shuddering beneath you.
when it got so fast, the riding became sloppy, you'd hardly touch the base before you'd pull yourself up. likewise, you'd rarely reach the tip before sinking down again. but you were just too eager to pay attention to these small details. alas your movements are no longer deliberate and every buck of your hips is senseless and fuelled by pure lust and hedonism.
it got harder when you could feel your orgasm impending. the pulsing in your abdomen wracking through your entire body, tingling and making it difficult for you to keep bobbing on his cock when your stomach was on the verge of exploding and your legs were ready to give out under you.
but ushijima's intense glare on your exposed, shaking figure brought you motivation to persevere. as well as his protective hands that stroked your trembling thighs, while gazing at you with adoration and desire. he wasn't a man of many words but the way he looked at you spoke a thousand.
and these sappy eyes only faltered when your walls clenching around his dick eventually led to him being knocked over the edge and spilling his first orgasm all into your homey cunt. a raspy groan was torn out of him and his eyes flutter close while his seed pump through your insides; the thick warmth spreading through your core caused your eyes to twist shut, and force of his load pushed you off his cock.
he had made a vulgar mess of his precious girl, your little hole was dripping with cum. to be stuffed with your husband's fluid love was so filling yet comforting â and you were truly stuffed, the volume of his load replacing the mass of his cock. "thank you, babe.." you pant, head still spinning from your frantic bouncing.
"thank you." he corrected, eyes trained on you still sitting atop his flaccid cock, but it hardened with every passing second, at the sight of your pert nipples teasing him as your chest rose and fell, or your pretty lips he longed to kiss passionately. "two rounds is hard-work, dear. i'm impressed."
perhaps you were just to fucked out to count. still, you gulp to clear your dry throat and splutter, "two?"
"yes." ushijima confirmed. though strand of his hair still clung to his shining cheeks and forehead, he seemed to have overcome the post-orgasmic exhaustion already. "so there's one more left."
you groan. you should've expected this considering usually ushijima can go for upwards of four rounds, but it's different when you are doing all the work. "but 'm tired!"
"two ejaculations are recommended to get rid of all the stress." he explains, but from how you wearily hang your head and you're quick breaths, he could tell you weren't listening.
"one more, (y/n)."
"but toshi!.." you whine in retaliation.
"yes, my angel?"
you narrow your eyes at him and although he wears that big, dumb look on his face you tell he knows what he is doing. he is aware of the effect those cute nicknames have on you, especially in his deep, husky voice. how can you refuse? plus a small part of you wants to keep going anyway, and not stop until you forget your own name,
you huff out your nose and lift your hips over his tip once more â which has already fully stiffened â then abruptly drop them, taking his big length in one swift gulp. one that caused you to recoil and squeal, and even wakatoshi to gasp slightly at being enveloped by your tight insides again so fast.
it's easier to fit him this time because your hole is already drenched with his cum and your own, but his dick was still as big as it was a minute ago, and it still strained your wallsâ having to contort beyond their means to accommodate his girth. " toshi, shhuh.. shitâ too big!" you whimper.
"not for my girl." he grunts, a firm grip on the fat of your thigh while you frantically ride him, "make it fit."
"mph, mkay.." your knuckles white as you hold onto his shirt for dear life, mustering every ounce of energy you have to keep thrusting yourself up and down on your husband's mighty cock, but every part of you gave away your exhaustion: beads of sweat budding on your forehead, shaking muscles and rapid breaths.
ushijima could tell you were struggling and that only egged him even closer orgasm. though he was kind enough to offer you some grunts of reassurance between moans. "my perfect girl, go on.."
there were moments when then the bursts of pleasure were drowned out by the futility of repeatedly bouncing on his stubborn erection but you persisted, even when your legs had virtually gone numb and your sore pussy was still being rammed into.
"can't.." you whimper, your knees now beginning to wobble with each bounce, making your position unstable until wakatoshi steadied you by the ass.
"so tight, princess. i need you to." he grits, grabbing your ass to aid you in your staggered movements, guiding you up and down on his soiled length but even then, your aching legs prevented you from riding with any real vigour, "i'm close."
despite his encouragement, you couldn't find the strength to continue and your hips gradually decreased in ferocity until you lay dejected against his chest, feebly bucking your hips while his cock stirred inside your sticky walls.
you mutters all sorts of slurred gibberish that resembled 'sorry', with your face pressed against his chest as he rubbed comforting circles on your back.
"don't be sorry." he says, hands fixing themselves to your hips, "you're still going to help me, angel."
with his tight grip on your hips, he lifts you as though you're weightless and pushes you back down his length, all the way to base which makes you shiver as his tip intrudes your cervix. initially shocked, you gape at the determines look on your husband's face as he uses your weak body as his own little fucktoy, slamming you down on his cock over and over. but it doesn't take long for you to melt into the atmosphere and get turned on by the way he manhandles you, treating you like his personal property.
the power his strong hands hold over you is indescribable. his dick ploughs into your sopping hole at an ungodly pace â so fast and rough your tits shook and it left your limb neck nodding along with each bounce. yet all you could focus on his cock stretching out your insides, hitting all the right spots on your sensitive walls.
your hair thrashed about too, with every violent snap of ushijima's arms, and it wasn't long before the heat pooling at your core came gushing out. "toshâ hhnâ 'm comiâ" the words couldn't even form on your tongue completely before they were crushed and swept away in a flood of melodious moans and sobs.
as you climaxed, your back arched into him and your coated walls began to convulse around his brimming cock, which served as the catalyst to him shooting his second load into your already filthy pussy.
your tight cunt wrung him dry for every last drop, and even through his high, he held you through yours, as you twitched and screamed with pleasure in his arms from the most overwhelming and satisfying orgasm of your life. he kept you close, wrestling against his own muffled moans â they were hard to suppress when your hole clamped down on him like it never wanted to let go.
soon, the intensity had faded, and you were left lying on his chest, enjoying each other's embrace and listening to each other's heartbeat while he was buried inside you. once you both found your bearings, he looked to you for approval before easing you off his cock.
you hissed at first; the feeling of emptiness had become so oddly foreign to you. and it stung a little but it was so unbelievably worth it.
"thank you, (y/n)." wakatoshi mutters against your forehead, tickling you a bit, "i'm proud of you, and grateful to have you as my wife."
"i'm grateful for you too, wakatoshi." you muse, mind still a bit hazy, "proud of me for what?"
"for lasting so long. that must have been a lot of effort."
you scoff, idly tracing hearts on his chest with your finger, "yeah, right. i didn't even make it through the whole thing, you literally had to carry me at the end."
"that's because you're not used to it." he explains kindly, as he shifts his hand to take yours, stroking the back of it with his thumb, "but it's okay. you will receive plenty of training when we go home."
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BONUS
tw// oral (receiving)
the whole arena erupted into cheers when japan scored the final point against argentina and won the match! the audience were screaming and the players were all doing celebrations of their own â the atmosphere was simply electric and joyus.
from the stands, you looked at your boyfriend who was standing on the court, staring back at you with a cute little smile on his face. or at least, that's what it looked like from where you were sitting, so you blew him a kiss.
you later realised that it was probably a devious smirk, as that was the moment when the ejacultion hypothesis was confirmed, and he was probably thinking about the new pre-game ritual that had been established.
it's useful though. think of it like this: whenever he has a match, you also get some training!
but of course, you would only agree to take part in this 'pre-game ritual' if certain criteria were met. meaning that after every game, ushijima has to dick you down good and bury his head between your legs, eating you out for minimum ten minutes (twenty if he wins).
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pairing ęŠ husband!mingyu x afab!reader
sequel to hurts so good, please read it first to understand their background/dynamics.
content/genre ęŠ haters to lovers, ceo/mean husband mingyu, smut (18+ mdni). they sort of have a fwb thing going on.
author's note ęŠ
not proofread. comments are appreciated!
warnings under the cut!
warnings ęŠ smut, masturbation (m. and f. receiving), oral sex (m. receiving), unprotected sex, breeding kink, corruption kink (it's not deeply explored), orgasm denial, creampie, dom-ish mingyu, dirty talk, cock warming, pet names (baby, dear husband/wife, my queen, pretty girl), mentions of threesome.
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You loved birthday parties, especially if they were childrenâs parties. Itâs Saturday afternoon and youâre in the backyard of Wonwoo and Claireâs house to celebrate Yejiâs 4th birthday.
Youâre sitting by the pool, your legs submerged to your knees. You see your husband playing around with his friendsâ kids. Heâs holding MinjoonâSeungcheolâs sonâin his arms while he pretends to drink tea with Yeji and three of her school friends. Your heart skips a beat when he looks your way and smiles. Itâs almost unfair how handsome he is, even dressed with pink fairy wings, a princess tiara and a pair of plastic earrings.
You sigh and turn your attention to the big form approaching. Joshua greets you with a smile. "Y/N, why are you here all alone?" he asks while sitting by your side.
"Just chilling." You offer a shy smile, a bit intimidated by his presence.
Joshua Hong is gorgeous. When you first met him, you were completely enamored with his face. And when you found out he was nice and friendly, you kinda developed a crush on him. Now, a few years later, you still feel intimidated whenever heâs around.
You take in his visuals, from his dark hair pushed back, featuring his perfect face, to the white button up shirt that allowed you to see a bit of his chest, to his light brown cargo shorts that showcased his legs perfectly. He carried an amused smile on his lips, as usual.
"Iâm glad you joined me, though."
"Well, all of my friends are talking about parenting and I canât listen to another minute of tips on how to change a diaper." Joshua states and you laugh lightly.
"I know the feeling very well." You throw him an empathetic look. "So⌠how was your trip to Paris? Mingyu mentioned you went there for a convention or something?"
Shua stares into the water, heâs watching your feet move around. "Yeah, for this Luxury Hotels thing. My dadâs trying to expand the franchise and I went to meet some European investors."
"Seems a bit boring." You blurt out and Joshua chuckles, agreeing promptly.
"It is. But itâs work so itâs not meant to be fun."
"True. But Paris is a great city with amazing food and museums."
"Maybe we should go together next time." Joshua comments and your movements freeze instantly. Realizing what he said, he adds "With everyone else, I mean! Like a group trip."
The mischievous gleam in his eyes makes you feel warm inside. Joshuaâs flirting, youâre not dumb. And heâs not either, he knows the truth about your situationship with Mingyu.
"That would be nice." Your voice is soft and shaky. He barely said anything and youâre freaking out inside, which leads you to think that maybe you have a big crush on him.
"Hey! You two!" You hear Mingyuâs voice calling. "Letâs sing happy birthday and cut the cake."
Joshua gets up and extends his hands to help you. His palms feel soft under your fingertips, and you feel your insides twist. "Câmon, Y/N. Your husbandâs waiting." He flashes a knowing smile and walks away, leaving you too stunned to follow.
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Itâs been a year since you and Mingyu made peace and started being friends. You agreed to be friends with benefits and to be exclusive, since you couldnât risk someone assuming one of you was cheating. So you two reaped the benefits like dates, physical touching and, of course, sex, but didnât really work on getting romantically involved. Of course that doesnât mean that both of you didnât develop some feelings, because you did. But, for now, you played husband and wife and everything was good.
But now, thinking about the way Joshua flirted with you, you wished you could have him. And your brain, always being one to come up with naughty ideas, had the best solution to your problem.
"Gyu?" You call your husband softly. Youâre both lying on your shared bed watching TV, his head on your chest and his big hand caressing your belly.
"Hm?" He responds without looking away from the big screen.
"Remember that one time we talked about having a threesome, and I said I didnât have a guy option?" Your words sparked his interest, so the man got up on his elbows to look at you. "I have a name nowâŚ"
Mingyu looks curiously at you. He has an idea of who, but he wants you to say the name. "Who?"
You bite your lower lip, feeling a bit nervous. "Joshua."
Your husband smirks. He knew it. "You have the hots for Shua hyung, dear wife?"
"So what if I do?" You pout. "Heâs single and he seems to know about us."
Mingyu scrunches his nose. "I accidentally told him last time we went out for a drink." He reveals with a sheepish smile. "Heâs reliable, donât worry."
"Well, one more reason to do it with him." You say excitedly, your mind already picturing the things you would to do Joshua.
"I donât want to have a threesome anymore." Your husband states in a quiet voice.
When you look at him, heâs staring down at his hand thatâs resting on your hips. He looks a bit annoyed. "What? Are you jealous?" You chuckle, fishing for an answer.
"Not at all." He lies, rolling his eyes to add to the dramatics. "Itâs just not on my kink list."
His words make you realize that heâs never once told you about his kinks. In the past year, youâve talked a few times about it. And Mingyuâs been really open to exploring them, always being so generous and giving you new mind blowing sex experiences each time.
"So whatâs on your kink list?" You ask with a sly smile, liking the direction of the conversation.
Mingyu lets his body fall on the bed, hiding his face. He shakes his head, indicating heâs not talking.
"Tell me!" You insist, shaking his arms. "I told you all of mine, but you never told me yours. Besides angry sex, of course."
"Never mind. Itâs stupid."
You grab his chin to make him look at you. His cheeks have a pink hue, and heâs scrunching his nose. "Please baby, tell me."
Mingyu sighs, giving in to your soft plead. "Itâs not actually a kink, but maaaaybe Iâve been thinking about fucking you in a wedding dress. Since our wedding night never happened."
The air gets caught up in your lungs. The idea of Mingyu having his way with you in a sort of reenactment of your wedding day makes your core burn and your stomach twist and turn.
"I like that idea." You give him a quick kiss before letting go of his face. "What else?"
"I wanted to try corruption kink." He looks away, his face burning even more. Itâs funny how cute he looks while revealing his sexual fantasies.
"We can totally try it too." You agree, even if he didnât actually ask. "But only if you look at me and give me another kiss."
Mingyu chuckles and goes in for the kiss. You touch lips for a few seconds before pulling away.
"Letâs sleep, Iâm beaten."
"Not easy being uncle of the year, huh?" You taunt him. "You looked cute dressed up as a fairy."
"The things I do for my goddaughter." He sighs. You both knew fully well he enjoyed playing with the kids, but you let his little lie slide. "Good night, dear wife."
"Good night, dear husband." You allow him to engulf you in a warm hug before slipping into unconsciousness.
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A couple weeks later, you and Mingyu go out to celebrate your 5th anniversary. Itâs the first one youâre going to celebrate, now that youâre on good terms. For this reason, you prepared a little surprise for Mingyu, wanting to spice things up a bit.
After your conversation about his kinks, you decided you needed a special occasion to try them, and whatâs more special than the first anniversary you celebrate?
So you went out with Gwen and she helped you pick out a nice wedding dress. You settled for a sparkly white satin rhinestone strap mini dress that really compliments your boobs and legs. Youâre sure heâs going to lose it when he sees you.
Mingyu also planned a surprise: he made a reservation for an overnight stay in a luxurious hotel room, which had the biggest bed youâve ever seen.
You arrive after having dinner at your favorite Italian restaurant. Mingyu has a goofy smile, maybe because you both had a couple drinks, maybe because he is excited for the night.
Thereâs a small table in your room with two flutes and a bottle of champagne waiting. Mingyu pops it open and you toast. You take a sip and decide itâs time to put on your dress.
"Wait here, I have a surprise."
While you rush to the big bathroom to get changed, Mingyu takes off his blazer. Heâs wearing a deep purple shirt that compliments his skin, and perfectly tailored dress pants. His hands are shaking in anticipation, because he has another surprise for you before the night ends.
Meanwhile, you put on your dress pretty quicklyâyou chose one that youâre able to zip up yourself. You pull the white lace garter up your leg, adding a touch of sensuality. To finish off, you place the short veil on your head. Taking a quick glance in the mirror, you decide you look perfect. You slip back into your white heels and open the bathroom door.
Mingyuâs looking out the window, his champagne glass nearly empty. You approach him slowly and cover his eyes with your hands. "Guess who?"
"Hm⌠I have a feeling itâs my wife. Not sure though." He joined in with a laugh.
You place your hands on his shoulder and turn him around, revealing your new outfit. His jaw drops when he sees you.
"Y/N, what is this?" His breathing is quick and you can see heâs starting to malfunction.
"Well, I kept thinking about how we never had a wedding night." You bite your lower lip, inching closer to him. "And I figured tonight would be a good one to make up for lost time. Donât you agree?"
Mingyu just stares, still in shock. He takes in your form, how your boobs look delicious in your dress, the way the fabric hugs your waist, and how you look fucking angelic while asking him to fuck you. "Shit, you canât do this to me." He groans in a low, deep tone.
You can see he already has a tent in his pants. Mingyu looks flushed, and you havenât even touched him yet.
"How about you lie down, dear husband?" You say in a provocative tone. "You look a little pale, let me take care of you."
The man nearly runs to the bed. He gets comfortable and you get on top of him. Your core is starting to grow hot, seeing how much he wants you.
Without giving it a second thought, pull out his pants along with his boxers. His cock stands hard and leaking pre cum, which makes your mouth water at the sight.
Before leaving the house, you decided you want to have a night to remember. And you hold on to that determination when you keep pushing Mingyuâs buttons.
"I want to help, but I donât know howâŚ" you take his cock in your hand and pump it slowly. He shudders at the stimulation. "Can you teach me how to do it, dear husband?" Your saccharine voice makes something twist inside of Mingyu. He takes in your doe eyes and semi innocent smile, quickly catching on what youâre doing. The man chuckles in pleasant disbelief, he knows heâs in for a treat.
"My pretty girl needs guidance?" His big hand starts to guide yours as you masturbate him. Youâre sitting on his beefy thighs and you can feel him trembling as you increase the speed of your movements. Mingyuâs eyes are closed and his mouth slightly parted, allowing some sighs to fall off easily.
You feel him twitching under your palm and his hand holds your wrist to stop you. "Thatâs enough, baby." His voice is breathy and it makes you happy to see how much you affect him.
"Can you do something else for me?" Mingyu asks. You nod and bat your eyelashes at him. "I need you to put your mouth around it."
You feign shock, widening your eyes and slightly gaping your mouth. Mingyu sits up a bit, and kisses you softly while kneading your thighs. "I'll help through it, pretty girl".
You slide down the bed and inch closer to his throbbing cock. "Open your mouth." Mingyu instructs and you play along.
His heavy hand grabs the back of your head and guides you to start sucking him off. He loves the wet and warm feeling of your tongue on his cock, it makes the fire in his abdomen burn hotter and hotter with each passing second.
Mingyu starts to feel hot and unbuttons his shirt, his hand leaving your to bob your head on your own for a few seconds. "You're so good at this, baby." He groans deeply and you feel arousal pool on your lace panties, his reactions turning you on even more.
When he feels he's about to cum, Mingyu pulls you away. You take a good look at your husband, taking in they way his toned chest glistened because of the thin layer of sweat. He takes off his shirt, laying bare beneath you. He looks beautiful and your heart races.
You sigh and move closer, needing to feel his lips on yours. You share a passionate kiss, your tongues dancing in sync. Mingyu guides your hips and you grind against him, his big hands giving occasional slaps on your ass.
By now, you're already soaking wet and desperate for his cock. You need Mingyu and you need him now. "Gyu, I need you".
"Need me to do what, baby?"
Of course he wasn't going to make it easy for you. You take his hand and guide it to your dripping cunt, acting shy. Mingyu runs his fingers on your lace panties and grunts when he feels just how wet you are.
Mingyu decides to play nice and slips his fingers in your panties. He glides his fingers easily, collecting your wetness while rubbing your lower lips. His middle finger settles in your clit and he circles it slowly, sending electric waves through your body.
Your head feels heavy with lust, so you let it fall on his shoulder. He keeps masturbating you until you feel on edge. When he senses you're about to cum, he stops his ministrations, earning a frustrated cry from you.
"I-I was so close" you complain with a pout. Mingyu laughs and pecks your puckered up lips.
"I promise I'm going to make you feel even better."
Mingyu reaches for the zipper on your back and undoes it in a way to expose your boobs. He grabs them and runs his thumbs on your nipples. "So perfect for me, they fit perfectly in my hands."
He attaches his lips to your right nipple and keep massaging the other. You go back to rutting each other like animals on heat. You pull his hair and let you head fall back, the familiar burning sensation running through your veins.
Mingyu decides he's had enough, so he manhandles you so you're on all fours. He stands tall behind you, admiring your exposed ass and covered cunt. Slowly, he slides your panties down your legs. You shake in anticipation.
"My beautiful wife..." he sighs. "You're going to be good to me, aren't you?" You agree quickly. "I can't wait to ruin you. To fill you up with my seed and get you pregnant." You both moan in unison.
Your heart is racing with his words. God, you'd let him do anything to you. Anything. "Please, do it."
Mingyu's cock throbs with your request. He aligns himself with your whole and sinks in slowly. You lose strength and bend your arms, exposing your ass even more. Mingyu grabs your waist to support you in place, even if his own legs were trembling with pent up desire.
He slides in and out of you, catching up speed until his unrelenting tempo makes the bed shake and hit the wall. His cock massages your inner walls in the most perfect way, hitting all the right places to put you in a lustful frenzy.
You're sure you're moaning and whining, but your heart pumps so loudly in your ears that you don't quite hear it. But Mingyu does, and it only spurs him on. He's lost in your heat, in the way you clench around him. Plus, you in that fucking wedding dress... every time his eyes glimpse at the sheer white fabric, he swears his cock gets even harder.
Mingyu slows down and pulls out of you. You let out a whimper at the loss, feeling really worked up and frustrated.
The man sits down again and pulls you on his lap, and you're so wet you sink down on him with ease. You start to ride him, your boobs bouncing deliciously for Mingyu to see.
His eyes focus on the place where you two connect. Your cunt swallows his big cock beautifully. "You're taking me so well, pretty girl".
You place your hands on his chest for support, your short nails sinking on his skin and leaving small crescent marks. "I'm close."
Mingyu snaps his hips up to meet yours, reaching even deeper within you. It only takes a few slides for you to cum.
You feel your spirit being lifted from your body and you tremble, falling into Mingyu. He places two fingers on your clit and circles it to intensify your pleasure. You're so out of it you don't even notice when Mingyu flips you both over and starts to rail you missionary, chasing after his own high.
"Fill me up, dear husband" You sigh in his ear and Mingyu shivers. "Make my pussy full of your warm cum. Give me your babies".
That's enough for Mingyu to lose it and cum with a deep moan. He shivers and start to unload inside of you, his white milk covering your abused walls. His hips slow down and he stills inside of you.
Once again, he flips you both over, and you stay on top of him again, his cock still inside of you. You kiss his neck and rub your hands on his arms while you wait for him to come down. Mingyu grabs your ass, and you know he's partially recovered. So you sit up again, still cock warming him.
When he looks up at you, you can see the admiration in his eyes. Mingyu smiles beautifully, his canines showing up and his orbs shining with something else you can't quite identify.
"I have to ask you something" He says and you smile, indicating he can keep talking. "But I have to get something first... It pains me, but I need you to slip off".
Even full of his cum, you feel empty when Mingyu slides off. The dress you're wearing is all bunched up and wet, so you take it off and throw it on the floor.
"Can you grab my panties?" You ask your husband and he gets one from your bag. He also brings a wet towel from the bathroom and cleans you up before you slide in your fresh panties. When you're both semi-clean and with underwear on, you slide into the fresh Egyptian cotton sheets.
"What did you want to ask me?" You question, feeling a bit anxious.
Mingyu bites his lower lips. He's feeling shy and self-conscious, but he musters the courage to say what he wants. "Well, this night is about celebrating our wedding, right?" You agree. "This past year's been amazing, and I really liked getting to know you better".
"Me too, Gyu" You smile, your heart beating faster.
"I know we agreed to being friends with benefits, but I realized I can't keep going like that." You have a big question mark in your eyes and Mingyu can see it, so he hurries to complete his line of thought. "I can't be friends because I'm down bad. I love you, Y/N. I never expected this to happen, but I do."
You smile and jump him. Your heart's beating like crazy and you're completely at a loss for words. "I love you too, Gyu."
You both kiss in such a soft way, it makes your heart flutter.
Mingyu's smiling widely, once again showing his canines you adore so much. "Well, I think I can ask you what I wanted then".
He pulls a black box from under the pillow, one you didn't even see him placing there. He opens the box and there lies the most beautiful engagement ring. You never really got engaged, since you hated each other back then.
Mingyu takes the ring. "I kept thinking about how I never asked you to marry me. So, will you be my queen? Will you marry me, for real this time?"
"Yes! Yes, yes... God yes!" He places the ring on your finger and you kiss again, this time with more passion.
"My queen" He places a kiss on your cheek, sighing with a dreamy smile. "We're gonna be so happy, I promise".
"I know we will, baby. I'm gonna give my best for it to happen, too".
Then, Mingyu gets up and fills another glass of champagne for you to toast your engagement. You keep talking and exchanging kisses until late hours. You're down bad, but you're sure you don't want to get up.
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the shadow of alexia
At 4 years old my entire life changed. One day my dad was at home and the next he wasnât. Things changed after that. Everyone was sad, lots of people visited too. Sometimes I got new toys when they came over.Â
Alba was a scary teenager but Alexia. Alexia was my best friend and I was hers. She would take me to kindergarten and pick me up, she never missed a soccer game or ballet recital, she was always there. So was her special friend Jenni. Jenni was great, when I was little she used to let me colour in her tattoos, Everytime she got a new one, sheâs get me new pens to colour on her.Â
As time went on, Alba and Alexia started moving out. Alexia moved in with Jenni and started getting busy with football, Alba still lived with Mami but was busy with her friends and modelling. Mami did the best she could. She was getting older and more tired, she didnât miss a game or my last ballet recital, she didnât miss the disappointment in my eyes when Alexia or Alba didnât turn up. They were busy, I understand.Â
It went from seeing them a couple times a week, to once a week, to once a month. I learnt pretty quickly the only way to get Alexiaâs attention was to either play football or to fuck up. Lucky for me I was good at both. School was boring, it was too easy, I understood it all faster than anyone else. The first time I skipped school, I was 14. No one noticed and no one cared. From there on out it became a routine. At least once a week Iâd skip school and hang out with the others.Â
I personally never did anything too rowdy, just tagged along to enjoy the vibes. The first time I got caught skipping school was by Virginia. She promised me she wouldnât tell Alexia or Mami and she kept that promise. The next time was by Alba, she lost her shit. Yelling at me about how irresponsible I was being and how much trouble I would get in. The second last time I got caught was by Jenni, I hadnât seen her in a while, I was mad at her because of that so when she tried to give me a lecture I yelled at her.
âY/n, you canât be doing this shit. If Alexia found out she would lose it at you! What would happen if the police got you? What would you do then?â
âWhy do you care Jenni? Huh? You left, you havenât been around. You fucked off to Paris and didnât even say goodbye. Tell Alexia, I donât care, at least then she would talk to me.â
âY/n, did Ale not talk to you about this?â Her voice was incredibly soft. That was something I missed about her, the way she spoke, the softness that was hidden from most people.Â
âShe doesnât talk to me at all. She doesnât give a fuck about me.â
âBebeita, we broke up. Thats why I left. we ended things and to be able to heal I had to leave. I am so sorry, she promised she would talk to you about it. I wanted to say goodbye to you myself but Alexia said it would be a bad idea.â
From there things spiralled. I didnât want to talk to Alexia, I didnât want to see her. I stopped going to her games with Mami, I would sneak out when I knew she was coming over. No longer did I look up to her, I hated her. I wanted nothing to do with her.Â
The day I quit football, I felt free. No longer having to play to get my oldest sisters attention, I didnât care for that anymore. I had more time to hang out with my friends, to be a normal fucking teenager.Â
It took a week, it was quicker then I thought to be honest, but once Alexia found out, all hell broke loose.Â
âWhere the hell is she!â Alexia stormed through the house. Surprising Eli.Â
âWho Alexia?âÂ
âThe Idiota. Your mija?â Alexia huffed. Eli was surprised by the way Alexia was acting.Â
âIn her room with her friend.â Before Eli could say anything else, Alexia was off. Swinging open the door and disturbing the peace between you and your girlfriend.
âYou, get out.âÂ
âNo Alexia. You donât get to tell her to get out.â I got defensive fast. Thereâs no way she gets to come here and tell her she needs to leave.Â
âGET OUT NOW!â Alexiaâs âcaptainâ voice was something that always got people moving.Â
âYou donât get to come here and act like you run the place. News flash alexia, you donât fucking live here!âÂ
âÂĄDios mĂo! What is happening! Why did Isabella leave crying?â Mami looked pissed. More so at alexia than me.Â
âAlexia kicked her out. For no reason other than the fact that no one else is allowed to be happy but her.âÂ
âTell her what you did!â When I was younger, the look she was giving me wouldâve scared me, but now it did nothing.Â
âI didnât do anything alexia. Whatever your minions are telling you isnât true. But hey, you wouldnât listen to me anyway.â I tried to push past her, but she grabbed my wrist stopping me from moving.Â
âMami she quit football. She fucking quit. After everything Iâve done for her she throws it back in my face!â Rolling her eyes and scoffing at me.Â
âLet her go now. I am aware she quit Alexia. She was only doing it for you.â Mami was mad, very mad. Alexia had come and disturbed the peace, making Isabella cry and screaming the house down.Â
âGrab me like that again Iâll drop you on your ass. I donât give a fuck that you are la Reina.â The words came out like venom.Â
Everything is always about Alexia. I joined football to get close to her, I didnât mean to get as far as I did, I honestly didnât think Iâd get past the academy. Being called up into the Barca B squad was cool. I enjoy the fitness side of it but genuinely couldnât care less about actually playing.Â
The same day I quit, was the same day I got called up for the senior team. It sent me into a bit of a spiral. Mapi found me in the corner of the physios room with my sketchbook, crying.Â
âOh nena! Whatâs wrong? Do you want me to get Ale?âÂ
âNo! Not ale! Donât tell her please!â
âOkay no Ale but can you tell me whatâs got you so worked up?âÂ
âI got asked to join the senior team and I donât want to. I only started playing so Alexia would be nice to me and talk to me. I donât even like this stupid game! I just want to draw but thatâll never be good enough for her.â Â
After that, Mapi and I would get coffee in the mornings, I would show her my new drawings and tell her my ideas. She paid me to draw a photo of her and Ingrid. I knew she could draw herself but it was nice to have her in my corner. Mapi was talking more about to me Alexia, saying how good my drawings were and how much happier I seemed not having to play, she seemed to miss the confusion written all over Alexiaâs face.Â
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Mami had a trip coming up, I knew about this, but what I didnât know what she was going to make me stay with alexia. Isabella and I came home after the movies to find Mami, Alexia, Alba and some other chick sitting at the table. I mumbled a quick hello before trying to drag Isabella upstairs.Â
âDonât be so rude. Actually say hello.â Alexia spoke angrily.Â
Scoffing I turned around âbite me Alexia.âÂ
âÂĄDios mĂo! Isabella Mi vida, itâs time for you to go home. You can wait upstairs for your Mami.âÂ
âMami no. Thatâs not fair. She doesnât get to come in here and start bossing everyone around!âÂ
âItâs okay amor, I should go home anyway. We have that biology exam anyway.âÂ
âNow that your little friend is gone, sit down.âÂ
âNo.âÂ
âSIT DOWN.âÂ
âAle, CĂĄlmate.â The mysterious brunette says as she places her arm on alexiaâs.Â
Fuck all this shit honestly. Turning as fast as I could I ran upstairs, knowing Alexia would follow quickly. I was right. I was barely able to push my dresser against the door before she tried to open it. I was not going to sit at that table and play happy families.Â
After an hour of listening to Alexia curse, she finally gave up. It was peaceful until Alba climbed through my bedroom window.Â
âStill got it.âÂ
âAlba what the hell!âÂ
âHermana, I donât know what happened between you and Ale, but if itâs the same thing that happened between me and you then you need to talk to her. Sheâs worried about you and scared. She doesnât want to lose you.âÂ
âShe only cares now that she thinks her precious imagine is going to get hurt.âÂ
âIf you talk to her now, while Olga is here, itâll be easier. She calms Alexia down and makes her think more rationally.âÂ
âWho the fuck is Olga?â Was that the mysterious brunette in the dining room?
âWhat do you mean? Sheâs alexiaâs girlfriend? Youâve met her before?âÂ
âNo I havenât. I didnât know she had a girlfriend.âÂ
âYes you met her a dinner a few months ago? She comes to Ales games and on Fridays when we have dinner!â
âI wasnât invited to that dinner, I donât go to Alexiaâs games and I certainly donât go to Friday dinners!â The angry tears started. Alexia was my hero, my bestfriend, the person I wanted to be and now Iâve been pushed aside. I know nothing about her and she equally knows nothing about me.Â
Alba pulled me in tight, letting me cry on her. It was weird doing it with her, she used to be the reason I cried and not the one to comfort me. But here we are, things change I guess.Â
âMami really needs to talk with you so we need to go downstairs.â Begrudgingly I let alba pull me down the stairs. It was obvious to everyone that I had been crying, mamiâs face softening when she saw me, Alexiaâs face frowning in confusion.Â
âYou wanted to talk so please do it quickly. I want to go to bed.â I tried to speak as respectfully as I could to Mami, it wasnât her fault.Â
âMija, Iâll be away for a month, you know this si?â I nodded my head before she continued, âyouâre too young to stay here for a month alone so youâre going to stay with Alexia and Olga. You can still see your friends and will go to school, but they will look after you.âÂ
âMami no! I can look after myself!âÂ
âYouâre 16 chica. Youâre not an adult like you think you are.â Alexia scoffed from the other side of the table.Â
âSo what? Youâre shipping me off to stay with Alexia, who wonât even been there half the time and a stranger? Thatâs safer? Some person that Iâve never met and sure as shit donât trust!âÂ
âStop being such a Perra! You have met Olga, plenty of times! She comes to all the games she can, and to dinners all the time.âÂ
âAle stopâ Alba knew what was coming and tried to stop it but it was too late.Â
âDios mĂo, your head is so far up your own arse isnât it? I havenât been to a single game in over 8 months, I donât get invited to you stupid little Friday night dinners and I have never met your girlfriend! Up until an hour ago I didnât even know you had a fucking girlfriend Alexia. Everything is always about you. You and your stupid football or your stupid knee. I bet you right now you couldnât tell me anything about what Iâve done in the last year, can you?âÂ
âI know you quit football because youâre being a brat.âÂ
Her answer honestly made me chuckle âOkay Alexia, anything else?âÂ
Silence. She couldnât tell you a single thing.Â
âYeah thatâs what I thought. You know nothing about me and thatâs how itâs going to stay. I dont trust you, I donât like you and I sure as shit donât love you. Youâre not my Hermana.â With hot tears falling down my face, I stormed back upstairs. I text Isabella asking if I could stay over and once she replied with a yes, I was gone. Out the window like Alba had come in an hour earlier. I texted Mami to let her know, I wasnât that horrible to make her worry.Â
âMami, you canât let her talk to people like that! Sheâs incredibly disrespectful!âÂ
Alba rolled her eyes and scoffed. âAre you serious? That girl used to hang off you. She looked up to you. It was always you alexia and now she wants nothing to do with you. You donât invite her places, you donât care about her. I noticed ages ago she was pulling away and I fixed it. Did you know she has a girlfriend? Or that sheâs taking senior classes because sheâs the smartest there? Or the fact that people are paying her to make them art or buying the pieces she already has. She quit football because she hates it. She hates it because of you. You ruined it for her. Mami, I will stay here with her while youâre gone. Itâll be better that way. Now if youâll excuse me, Iâm going to drop her off at Isabellaâs.âÂ
âNo! Itâs a school night! She cannot be going out!â It seems everything that was just said to Alexia, went in one ear and out the other.Â
âAlexia stop it now. She is allowed to stay at her girlfriendâs house, she has an exam at 1pm. Maybe you need to listen to what people are saying to you. I am going to bed, I suggest you all do the same, at your own houses.âÂ
âWhy does no one listen to me!â Alexia was annoyed, overwhelmed and tired. It had drained a lot of her energy being here tonight.Â
âAle, Iâm going to say this one time, you need to listen to what everyone has told you tonight, really listen, because you arenât. You need to fix things with her but you need to sort your shit out first.â Olga had stayed silent most of the night, listening to everything that was said knowing her girlfriend wouldnât. You were right, you had never met each other. What Olga didnât realise was that it was Alexiaâs fault, not yours. She put it down to being a moody teenager who was too cool to hang out with her sisters, oh how wrong she was.Â
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Two days before Mami was meant to go away, Alba rang saying she couldnât stay over. She had gotten a modelling gig in Madrid and needed to go, that left Alexia and Olga. It would be the longest month of my life. Mami promised nothing would change just because I was staying here, she was wrong. Alexia was a bitch.Â
The first few days were fine, alexia would drop me off at school and Iâd make my way home after, I generally spend it was Isabella because Alexia wouldnât let her come over. We go into the city centre, get coffee and do our homework then catch the bus home. We did this even when Mami was here so it wasnât anything new but when Alexia found out she hit the roof.Â
âYou cannot be going into the city by yourself! Are you thick in the head?âÂ
âJesus Christ alexia! Iâm not alone. Isabella is with me. Mami lets me do it so Iâm going to keep doing it.âÂ
âIs Isabella the reason youâre skipping school too?â
âYou have no idea what youâre talking about.â I scoffed, storming off the guest bedroom and slamming the door so hard it made Olga jump.Â
By the third day of me being there, Alexia had turned up to pick me up herself. I tried to completely ignore her but Isabella had other ideas.Â
âYour sister is death staring me right now.âÂ
âNo amor, not you but me. Oh fuck here we go, sheâs coming over here.âÂ
âGet in the car y/n.â
âNo. I told you yesterday that Iâm allowed to do this. Youâre not the boss of me.âÂ
âBebeita, itâs fine. Iâve got chores to do for papa anyway. Iâll see you tomorrow.â She kissed my cheek and then walked away, leaving me no choice but to get in Alexiaâs car.Â
The car ride was hell. Alexia was pissed, her hands constantly gripping the steering wheel so hard her knuckle turned white. Neither of us spoke. To be honest, I didnât know where we were going until we turned up at the training ground.Â
âWhy are we here?âÂ
âWe have training. Get out.âÂ
âNo alexia. I quit. What part of that donât you understand.âÂ
âGet out now, or I will drag you out.âÂ
Knowing she would literally drag me out, I had to wait it out. Sheâd turn her back eventually and I could leg it. Iâm faster than her and more willing to jump fences.Â
The time came sooner than I thought, after entering the change rooms, she threw a set of clothes into my chest and walked off to the bathrooms. This was my chance and I wasnât going to waste it.Â
Throwing the clothes into her cubby, I legged it out the door. Running past Mapi, Ingrid and Ona who all had confused looked on their faces. As soon as I got out, I kept running, knowing i had to get a head start. I wasnât really sure where I was going, I knew I couldnât go back to Alexiaâs, Olga would be there. I couldnât go home because thatâs the first place sheâd go, I couldnât go to Albas because she drag me back by my ear. There was only one place to go.Â
Can CuyĂĄs Golf Culb was the best place to hide. Sure someone might see me, but itâs easy enough to pretend to be lost.Â
The first thing Alexia noticed when she came out was the lack of you. Then the clothes she had given you, thrown back into her cubby.Â
âHave you seen y/n?â She asked as she turned to the girls in the locker room.Â
âShe ran past us like 5 minutes ago?â Ona spoke up.Â
âDid she say anything?âÂ
âNo she was in a bit of a hurry Ale.â Mapi rolled her eyes at her best friend.Â
âFuck sake.â Alexia exited the locker room, walking through the facility to try and find you. Slight panic kicked in when she wasnât able too. Deciding to call Alba first, knowing youâd been closer to her the past few months.Â
âHola Ale, to what do I owe this pleasure?â The sarcasm dripping from her voice.Â
âHave you seen y/n?âÂ
âNo why? What happened?â Panic arising in Alba.Â
âI picked her up from school and bought her to training. Gave her clothes to change into and I went to the toilet and came back and she was gone. She fucking ran off.âÂ
âWhy the hell would you try and make her train Alexia! She quit. She doesnât want to play anymore!â Alba quickly became anger with the oldest Putellas.Â
âShe is too good to throw it all away! Sheâs being a stupid child about all of this!â Quickly becoming defensive, not enjoying the way Alba is talking to her.Â
âYouâre unbelievable. I havenât seen her, I will try and find her. Donât you worry, put your football above her like you always do.âÂ
âAlba-â she hung up before alexia could get another word in. There was one person left that Alexia had to call.Â
âHola amor, why arenât you training?â Olgaâs sweet voice sounded through the phone.Â
âIâve lost y/n. Can you please let me know if she comes home and if she does then donât let her out of your sight.âÂ
âWhat do you mean youâve lost her Ale?âÂ
âI bought her to training and she ran away while I was in the bathroom.â Pinching the bridge of her nose, Alexia already knew by the silence on the other end that Olga was trying to not yell at her.Â
âAlexia-â
âNo I know okay. I already got an ear full from Alba. I have to go but Iâll call you later okay. I love you.â Slowly it started to creep in the fact that she had fucked up and caused you to run away. Training dragged on for Alexia, hoping that you had been found or made contact with Alba or even Olga.Â
Meanwhile, after hiding at the golf course for an hour, i decided to head to Isabellaâs house. Knocking on the door, Isabella answered, still buttoning up her shirt. Eyes wide when she realised I was at her door.Â
âWh-what are you doing here?â She closed the door slightly, so I could no longer see into the loungeroom.Â
âI ran away from Alexia. I was hoping we could hang out like normal?âÂ
âNowâs not really a good time. I have someone here.â Isabella spoke quietly, not wanting to allude to the fact that the person inside wasnât just a friend.Â
âBaby come back, we werenât finished.â A guys voice yelled out.Â
âItâs not what you think y/n!âÂ
âI think that guy wants your attention. Iâm guessing thatâs the reason youâre half dressed. Enjoy your time with him, we are done.â Tears welling in my eyes.Â
âIâm sorry y/n!âÂ
âGo fuck your self Isabella.â sadness turned into anger real quick.Â
Isabella was my first girlfriend, my first kiss, the first person I had sex with and she goes and fucks a guy? While we are together? This is literally the last thing I wanted to deal with.Â
Unsure on what to do, or who to call I found my way to the beach. My throat and eyes hurt from crying so much. The pain in my chest was getting worse. Pulling out my phone, ignoring all the messages and calls, I rang the one person who would calm me.Â
âHey Calabaza? Whatâs up?â Jenniâs voice rang through my ears. Unable to form a coherent sentence, only sobs coming out of my mouth.Â
âHold on BebĂŠâ I could hear her moving around, the voices of her teammates getting quieter, âtalk to me. What happened?â
âI ran away. I ran away from Alexia and I went to Isabellaâs house and she-she was cheating on me. With a guy. A fucking dude. She broke my heart Jenni. It hurts so much.âÂ
âOh babĂŠ. Where is Ale now? Where are you?âÂ
âI donât know. Sheâs probably at training. Iâm at the beach where Papa used to take us. Sheâs going to be so mad at me.â
âCan you tell me why you ran away from her?â The way Jenni spoke so sweetly was something I missed dearly.Â
âShe got me from school and took me to the training grounds. She was trying to make me train but when she went to the bathroom I ran away. I donât want to train, I donât want to play. I hate the game and I hate her. She doesnât listen or care about me!â I could feel myself getting upset again.Â
âOkay okay, just breathe. Youâre okay. Iâm not going to tell her where you are but I need to tell someone. Albs has messaged me and so has Olga. You can pick who I tell.âÂ
Pondering the options, Alba would tell Alexia but sheâd also be just as angry and upset. Olga would tell Alexia but sheâd be calmer and softer, that was what I needed at this moment.Â
âOlga. But tell her not to bring Alexia.âÂ
âOkay bebĂŠ.â After a few moments she spoke up again, âsheâs on the way. She promised no Alexia. Do you want to stay on the line with me until she comes?âÂ
âYes please. Can you tell me about Mexico?â Sniffling and wiping my face, I got up, walking towards the road to wait for Olga. After 25 minutes, Olga pulled up. A sad smile and worry on her face, she put an arm around me.Â
âIs Olga there now?â Jenni asked.Â
âYeah she is. Uh thanks Jenni. Sorry for disturbing you.â Embarrassed about haven taken her time.Â
âNo bebĂŠ, you donât need to thank me or apologise. We are hermanas no matter what okay. You call me tomorrow when youâre feeling better. I love you.â with that she hung up. Reality slowing sinking it.Â
âLetâs get you home yeah? Are you hungry?â Olga smiled sadly at me.Â
âNo thanks. Just tired.â I mumbled out.Â
The drive back to Alexiaâs was quiet. When we pulled up, Alexiaâs car wasnât there, meaning she wasnât home. That was good. Very good.Â
âSheâs at Albas house. I told her you had messaged me but that I didnât know where you were yet. Itâs a small lie, but Iâm sure itâs worth it.âÂ
âAlexia hates lying.â I said lowly. Thinking back to all those times as a small girl that she yelled at me for lying.Â
âI know PequeĂąo. Do you want to tell me what happened today?âÂ
âEveryday Isabella and I go into the city and have coffee and do our homework, but today Alexia came to school and got me. She drove us to the training grounds and said I had to train. But I-i quit. I donât want to play anymore, I donât enjoy it and only did it for Alexia but it was never enough. Nothing I do is ever enough for her.â Olga grabbed my hand, giving it a squeeze for me to continue.Â
âI went to Isabellaâs house and she had someone there. A guy, a guy that she was fucking. She was cheating on me for god knows how long. I thought everything was good with us. She was my first girlfriend and my first kiss. I lost my fucking virginity to her and she goes and fucks someone else? It just hurts. So much. Everything is hurting so much.âÂ
âOh pequeĂąo. Come here.â Olga held me tight, my tears slowly soaking her shirt.Â
âWhy doesnât she love me like she loves Alba? I donât understand.âÂ
âAlexia?â
âMhm. Nothing I do is good enough. I just want her to care about me more. Why canât she?â It broke Olgaâs heart hearing me say that. She didnât know what was happening but she knew Alexia needed to fix it and fast.Â
After slowly showering, I thanked Olga and excused myself to bed. I didnât think I had any tears left to cry but after crying for a while, I managed to pass out.Â
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After you went to your room, Olga texted Alexia, telling her she was here and safe. Alba and Alexia both rushed back to her home. Angry and worried at you, ready to both give you an ear full.Â
âWhere is she Olga?â Alexia came in loudly.Â
âKeep your voice down. Both of you.â Olga was very firm.Â
âNo sheâs in trouble. She doesnât get off lightly, we have been so worried about her.â Alexia sooke back angrily, usually sheâd listen to her girlfriend but this had sent her into a rage.Â
âReally Ale? Youâve been worried? So worried you couldnât train right? That you spent all night calling her friends or going to her favourite spots to try and find her?â Olga had had enough.Â
âAmor thatâs not fair.âÂ
âNo you know whatâs not fair? The fact that neither of you have been listening to her. She doesnât want to play, she did it for you Ale. She wanted to make you proud of her. She hated playing but you wouldnât know that. She loves to draw, and sheâs really really good at it. She showed me all her work.âÂ
Olga walked to the couch, extremely disappointed with the two women standing in front of her.Â
âHer girlfriend cheated on her. She found out this afternoon. She rang Jenni and Jenni messaged me. Thatâs how I found her. She was at the beach, heartbroken. Then when we got home, she asked why you didnât love her Ale. She thinks you donât care about her. That girl may have broke her heart tonight, but you broke her heart first Alexia. Youâll need to live with the fact that you were her first heartbreak.â Olga was exhausted. Neither Alexia Or Alba said anything. Both sitting in opposite ends of the lounge room, tears silently falling.Â
Olga excused herself to bed, leaving the older two in the lounge room to mull on their thoughts. She promised herself after your heartbreaking confession that she would have your back through this. Whatever tomorrow held, you would face it together.Â
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Ëâşď˝ĄËâËmake you mine | CL16 LN4 Ëâşď˝ĄËâË
pairing: charles leclerc x singer!reader y/n (she/her) x lando norris
genre: social media au, polyamorous relationship
warnings: just polyamory & fluff
summary: in which you never censor yourself online but your boys wouldn't change you for the world
a/n: i luv the polyamory reqs lollll
request!!!: I've been obsessed with Charlando recently so I was wondering if you could maybe write a smau for them with singer!reader, I don't have a plot other than the fact that they are dating someone like RenĂŠe Rap with zero PR training, can you imagine the chaos
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Mild update of this now that I'm on season four:
Janeway: I would like to solve this peacefully
Tuvok: Captain I would like to have a safety precaution just in case this turns ugly. But I support you.
Chakotay: Captain I support you about being peaceful. Violence should never be the only option
Tom Paris: Captain I've found a way to go around the thing REALLY FAST
Harry Kim: Captain we should be careful whatever we decide
Torres: Captain have we considered murder
Seven of Nine: I agree with her assessment. Murder is in fact a viable solution.
I've deduced that the Voyager's higher staff can be boiled down to:
Janeway: I would like to solve this peacefully
Tuvok: Captain I would prefer we have a way to paralyze the creature if needed / Captain please don't touch that
Chakotay: Captain I've found a way to go around the thing REALLY FAST
Torrres: Captain have we considered murder
#Star Trek: Voyager#Voyager#Captain Janeway#Lieutenant Tuvok#B'Elanna Torres#Commander Chakotay#Tom Paris#Harry Kim#Seven of Nine#Falc talks#We've got a lot of peaceful men and a lot of violent women. As it should be.
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i love you, in every time ŕżâ§â 2023 - nothing matters but you
chapter summary: The remaining X-Men come up with a plan to change their present; send Logan back in time to change the past.
word count: 17.1k+
pairing: Logan Howlett x fem!reader
notes: oooohhhh boy!! i've been waiting for this chapter for so long and it's finally here! i'll have more to say at the end, but for now, and i truly mean it, enjoy!!! <3
warnings/tags: takes place during 'days of future past', dofp!logan, light miscommunication, angst, light violence, blood, character death, fluff, memory loss, happy ending!
series masterlist - chapter 10
The Blackbird landed on the top of the large mountain in front of a monastery. Ororo walked out first, followed by Logan, who paused at the bottom of the stairs to light his cigar, Charles, whose chair hovered down the stairs, and Erik.
They walked to the front of the monastery as Bobby spoke, âProfessor.â
Ororo smiled, âBobby.â
âHey, Storm,â he replied, giving the woman a hug.
âHey, kid.â Logan said.
âProfessor,â Kitty called out. âYou made it.â
The group made their way inside as Kitty explained how the group had been surviving, âWarpath spots them, and I send Bishop back to warn us of the attack before it happens. Blink scouts the next site, and⌠well, we leave before they ever know we were there.â
âBecause we never were.â Bishop said.
âBut what do you mean, you were never there?â Logan asked.
Charles looked over at Logan, âshe projects Bishop back in time a few days to warn the others of the coming attack.â
âSo she sends Bishop back in time?â
âNo, just his consciousness into his younger self, his younger body.â Charles clarified.
âWow.â Logan muttered.
âThis might just work, Charles.â Erik commented.
âWhat might work?â Kitty questioned.
âThe Sentinel program was originally conceived by Dr. Bolivar Trask. In the early â70s, he was one of the worldâs leading weapons designers, but covertly, he had begun experimenting on mutants, using their gifts to fuel his own research. There was one mutant who had discovered what he was doing.â Charles explained.
âA mutant with the ability to transform herself into anyone.â Erik added.
âMystique,â Peter said.
âI knew her as Raven. We met when we were children. Grew up together. She was like a sister to me. I tried to help her, but only succeeded in driving her away. She hunted Trask across the world, and at the Paris Peace Accords in 1973, after the Vietnam War, she found Trask. And killed him. It was the first time she killed.â
âIt wasnât her last.â Logan added on.
âBut killing Trask did not have the outcome she expected. It only persuaded the government of the need for his program. They captured her that day. Tortured her. Experimented on her. In her DNA, they discovered the secrets to her powers of transformation. It gave them the key they needed to create weapons that could adapt to any mutant power, and in less than 50 years, the machines that have destroyed so many of our kind were created. But it all started that day in 1973, the day she first killed, the day she truly became⌠Mystique.â Charles finished.
âYou want to go back there,â Kitty said.
âIf I can get to her, stop the assassination, keep her out of their hands, then we can stop the Sentinels from ever being born.â
âAnd end this war before it ever begins.â Erik spoke.
âI-I can send someone back a couple weeks. I mean, maybe a month, but youâre talking about going back decades. You have the most powerful brain in the world, Professor, but the mind can only stretch so far before it snaps. It would rip you apart. Iâm sorry. No one could survive that trip.â Kitty remarked.
âWhat if someoneâs mind has a way of snapping back?â Logan asked. âWhat if someone can heal as fast as theyâre ripped apart?â
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Logan stood by the table as Charles, Erik, Kitty, and Bobby stood nearby, the rest outside of the monastery keeping watch.
âSo I wake up in my younger body, God knows where. Then what?â
âYouâll need to go to my house and find me. Convince me of all of this.â Charles moved closer to Logan.
âWonât you be able to just read my mind?â
âI didnât have my powers in 1973. Logan, youâre going to have to do for me what I once did for you. Lead me, guide me. I was a very different man then. Youâll have to be patient with me.â
Logan scoffed, âpatience isnât my strongest suit.â
âYouâll need me as well,â Erik spoke up.
âWhat?â Logan turned to face Erik behind him.
âAfter Mystique left Charles, she came with me, and I set her on a dangerous path. Darker path. Itâs going to take the two of us, side by side at a time when we couldnât be further apart.â
Logan looked at Charles who nodded in affirmation, âgreat,â he muttered to himself. âSo, where do I find you?â
âWell, itâs complicated.â Erik said, as Logan shook his head and stopped himself from rolling his eyes.
Logan got onto the table and lied down, Kitty sitting at the head of the table, âbasically, your body will go to sleep while your mind travels back in time. Now, as long as youâre back there, past and present will continue to coexist, but once you wake up⌠whatever youâve done will take hold and become history. And for the rest of us itâll be the only history that we know. Itâll be like the last 50 years never happened. And this world, and this war⌠the only person who will remember it is you.â Kitty took a breath, âall right, Logan, I need you to clear your head and to stay as calm possible.â
âWhat? What do you mean?â
âIf your mind gets rocky, itâll be harder for me to hold you, and you could start to slip between past and future.â
âWhat if I need to get a little rocky?â
Kitty lightly shook her head, âthink peaceful thoughts?â
âPeaceful thoughts.â Logan repeated. âYou have any good news?â
âWell, I mean, you donât really age, so youâll pretty much look the same.â
Bobby spoke up, âyou wonât have much time in the past. The Sentinels will find us. They always do.â
âAnd this time, we wonât be able to run. Weâll have no escape. This is our last chance.â Kittyâs hands hovered near the sides of Loganâs head.
âSee you all soon.â Logan said.
âThis might sting a little.â
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Logan blinked, his vision adjusting to the dim, warm glow of the lava lamp. Its lazy, hypnotic bubbles drifted in the liquid, but his mind was racing to catch up. The sharp, immediate transition from the future to⌠thisâthe past, his pastâhad his senses momentarily disoriented.
The pressure against his neck snapped him into focus. An arm was draped over his shoulder from behind, soft, warm, and familiar. He shifted his head just enough to glance at the hand resting on his chest. It was delicate, but the grip was firm, like whoever it belonged to had no intention of letting him go.
âMorninâ,â your voice came from behind him, groggy and soft. Your tone was laced with the remnants of sleep but carried the easy, teasing warmth that always seemed to put him off guard.
His heart clenched. You.
You leaned into him slightly, pressing your cheek against his shoulder as you stretched, entirely unaware of the whirlwind in his head. The past, your face, the other you. The fact that he hadnât seen this version of you in nearly 50 years.
âDidnât think Iâd need to pry you out of bed first,â you teased lightly, your hand giving his chest a playful pat before you settled again. âUsually, youâre already up before the sun, big guy.â
Loganâs jaw clenched at the nickname. His eyes narrowed at the roomâa modest hotel room with vintage floral wallpaper and creaky wooden furnitureâand the small pile of clothes at the foot of the bed. His leather jacket. Your dress. The pieces clicked into place far too quickly, but they didnât make it easier to stomach.
He turned his head enough to catch sight of you, hair slightly messy, lips curled in a lazy grin. You were radiant in a way that didnât match the world heâd just left behind. The world heâd come back to fix. And you had no idea how much heâd missed that expression.
âWhatâs with the look?â you asked, tilting your head. âDo I have something on my face, or are you just debating whether or not youâre gonna finish that cigar from yesterday?â
Logan shook his head slightly, clearing the fog. âNah. Just⌠thinkinâ.â
âYou?â you quipped. âThatâs dangerous.â
âCute,â he replied dryly, though a small smirk tugged at the corner of his lips.
You laughed and pulled back, sitting up against the headboard. Your expression softened when you caught a hint of the tension still lingering in his body. âYou okay? You seem⌠off.â
âYeah. Iâm fine.â He swung his legs over the side of the bed, sitting on the edge to gather himself. âJust didnât sleep great.â
âYou tossed and turned a lot,â you agreed, though your concern didnât waver. âAnother bad dream?â
Logan didnât answer immediately. The memories of the future, the Sentinels, the war, and your other death pressed heavily on him. Instead, he grunted noncommittally and stood, grabbing his jeans from a chair nearby.
âYâknow,â you said behind him, watching as he pulled on his shirt, âmost bodyguards donât get that much real estate in their bossâs daughterâs bed.â
Logan froze for a beat before throwing you a glance over his shoulder. âMost bodyguards donât sneak them outta her own wedding either, darlinâ.â
You grinned mischievously, leaning your head back against the headboard. âGuess that makes us even.â
He shook his head but couldnât stop the chuckle that escaped. You havenât changed a bit.
Before either of you could say anything more, there was a sharp knock on the door. Loganâs entire body tensed, his senses sharpening instantly. He sniffed the air, picking up the distinct scents of sweat, leather, and gunpowder.
âStay here,â he said lowly, grabbing his jacket and stepping toward the door.
âLogan, whatââ
âI mean it,â he said, cutting you off with a firm glance. The tone in his voice told you not to argue.
He moved toward the door, his hand hovering over the knob as his other reached behind him for the small knife he kept tucked into his waistband. He opened the door slightly, just enough to peer through the crack.
Two men stood in the hall, dressed in dark suits. Their faces were sharp, unfamiliar, but their eyes carried an unmistakable menace.
âCan I help you?â Logan asked gruffly.
âYeah,â one of them said. âWeâre here for the lady. Her fatherâs lookinâ for her.â
Logan didnât hesitate. He slammed the door shut and locked it, spinning back toward you. âGet down,â he barked.
âWhatâs going on?â you asked, but the urgency in his voice made you scramble off the bed.
The door shuddered as one of the men kicked it. Logan growled low in his throat, adrenaline surging as his hands instinctively balled into fists. Bone claws erupted from his knuckles with a sickening snikt, and he turned toward the door just as it splintered inward.
Your sharp gasp filled the room, but there was no time for questions. Logan launched himself at the first man, driving his claws deep into the guyâs shoulder. Blood sprayed across the room as the second man raised a gun, but Logan was faster. He yanked his claws free and swung, knocking the weapon from the manâs hand before driving his claws into his stomach.
It was over in seconds, but the aftermath left the room in chaos. Logan stood over the bodies, his breathing heavy, his shirt streaked with blood. His claws glistened in the dim light, and as he turned toward you, his expression softened.
âLoganâŚâ you whispered, your voice shaking. Your eyes were wide, fixed on the bone claws still protruding from his hands.
He hesitated, then retracted them with a shudder, the wounds on his knuckles sealing themselves almost instantly. âI can explain,â he said gruffly.
âYouâyou justâŚâ You couldnât find the words.
âY/N,â he said, stepping toward you carefully. âI need you to trust me.â
You stared at him, your mind racing. The man you thought you knew had just turned into something else entirelyâbut it wasnât fear that kept you rooted in place. It was the way he was looking at you, desperate, protective, like heâd go through hell just to keep you safe.
âIâŚâ You took a shaky breath. âI trust you.â
Loganâs shoulders sagged in relief, though the tension in the room didnât dissipate. He grabbed a bag from the corner of the room and tossed it toward you. âWe need to move. Now.â
Before you could question him further, he bent down, rummaging through the manâs jacket pocket to snag the keys before heading for the door. You hesitated, your mind still racing to process what you had just seen. The claws, the blood, the sheer force he used to take out armed menâit was like something out of a nightmare. But Logan wasnât the nightmare. He was the only constant in this whirlwind you called your life.
âY/N,â Loganâs voice broke through your haze. He was standing by the door, his tone sharp but not unkind. âLetâs go. Now.â
You shoved a few belongings into the bag, still half-dressed from sleep, and moved quickly to his side. âLogan, what the hell is goinâ on?â
âIâll explain later,â he said, keeping his voice low and his gaze locked on the hallway as he peeked out. âFor now, weâve gotta put some distance between us and whoever else your fatherâs sent after you.â
Your stomach twisted at the mention of your father, but you followed him out of the room, clutching the strap of the bag tightly. âHow did they even find us?â
âDonât know. Donât care,â Logan muttered, leading you down the narrow hallway. His shoulders were rigid, his entire body coiled like a spring. âWhat matters is keeping you outta their hands.â
The two of you reached the stairwell, and Logan paused at the top, scanning the area below. He tilted his head, his nostrils flaring as he sniffed the air. Whatever he smelled didnât seem to calm him, but he motioned for you to follow anyway.
You descended the stairs as quietly as you could, your bare feet barely making a sound against the worn carpet. âLogan, seriously, you need to tell me whatâs going on. Those⌠claws, or whateverââ
âNot now, sweetheart,â he interrupted, his voice tense but firm. âWeâve gotta focus on getting outta here.â
You bit your lip, frustration bubbling under your skin. This wasnât the first time Logan had dodged your questions, but after what youâd just seen, you werenât about to let it slide for long.
The two of you slipped out a side door into the cool morning air. The parking lot was mostly empty, save for a few scattered vehicles. Logan made a beeline for a black sedan parked near the edge of the lot. He unlocked the door and ushered you inside without a word.
âLoganââ you started as he slid into the driverâs seat, but he cut you off again.
âBuckle up,â he said, starting the engine.
You shot him a glare but did as he said, snapping the seatbelt into place. Logan peeled out of the lot, his hands gripping the steering wheel tightly as his eyes flicked between the road and the rearview mirror.
For a few minutes, the only sound was the hum of the engine and the faint thud of your heartbeat in your ears. You watched him closely, noting the way his jaw clenched and his knuckles turned white around the wheel.
âAre you gonna tell me whatâs going on now?â you finally demanded, crossing your arms. âBecause I think I deserve an explanation after that little⌠display back there.â
Logan let out a slow breath through his nose, his eyes still on the road. âItâs complicated.â
âNo kidding,â you shot back. âStart with the claws. What the hell are they, Logan? And donât tell me theyâre some kind of freak weapon because I saw them come out of your hands.â
He glanced at you briefly, his expression unreadable. âTheyâre a part of me,â he said simply.
You blinked, taken aback by the matter-of-fact tone in his voice. âWhat do you mean, âa part of youâ? Like, you were born with them?â
âSomethinâ like that,â he muttered.
You stared at him, waiting for more, but he didnât elaborate. Frustration bubbled over, and you leaned forward, grabbing his arm. âLogan, Iâm serious. I need answers.â
He sighed, his shoulders sagging slightly as he finally looked over at you. âIâll tell you everything, sweetheart. Just not right now. Right now, weâve gotta focus on getting somewhere safe.â
âAnd whereâs that?â you asked, your voice softening slightly.
âA place I know,â he said, turning his attention back to the road. âWeâll head north, get outta the city, and figure it out from there.â
You frowned, unsure whether to trust his vague assurances. But the look in his eyes, the raw determination mixed with something you couldnât quite placeâit was enough to quiet your doubts for now.
âFine,â you said, leaning back in your seat. âBut you owe me the truth. All of it.â
Logan smirked faintly, though it didnât quite reach his eyes. âYouâve always been a tough one, huh?â
âDamn right,â you muttered, crossing your arms again. But despite your defiant tone, a small part of you couldnât help but feel a flicker of something elseâsomething warm and familiarâwhen he called you tough.
You didnât notice the way his grip on the wheel tightened at your response or the way his jaw clenched ever so slightly. To you, this was just another chaotic morning in the whirlwind of your life. But to Logan, it was a painful reminder of how many mornings like this heâd lost with you.
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You tapped your fingers on your thigh, still waiting for Logan to come out of this mansion, which looked like it had seen better days.
You groaned as you tilted your head back, adjusting yourself in the car seat. It had been a while since Logan left the car and went inside, almost 2 hours. You would know, youâve been watching the clock.
Finally, Logan stepped outside and briskly walked to the car door, opening it for you. âJesus, what took so long?â You asked, as he grabbed your bag from the backside and guided you into the house where two other men were, one with glasses, the other with long curly hair. âLogan-?â
âYouâre staying here.â He stated.
You stopped dead in your tracks, your eyes narrowing at Logan. âWhat?â you demanded. âYou said weâd figure this out together. You didnât say anything about leaving me here.â
Logan ran a hand through his hair, already looking stressed. âPlans changed, darlinâ,â he said, his tone calm but firm. âCharles and Hank are cominâ with me. Weâve got somethinâ to take care of, and itâs safer if you stay here.â
âSafer? Logan, this place is the size of a damn castle!â You gestured around the massive entry hall, frustration spilling over. âYouâre just gonna leave me here by myself? What if they come for me again? What am I supposed to do then?â
âYou wonât be alone,â Charles interjected, his tone measured but polite. He glanced briefly at Logan, as if trying to gauge how much to say. âThis house has a number of protections. Youâll be secure here.â
âSecure from who?â you fired back, your eyes darting between the two men. âYou all keep throwing words around like âsafeâ and âprotected,â but you wonât tell me from what!â
Logan stepped closer, his voice softening. âY/N, I know youâve got questions, and I know this ainât easy, but trust me. If I thought for a second there was a better way to keep you outta harmâs way, Iâd do it.â
You stared at him, trying to ignore the way his voiceâthe way he called you by nameâseemed to ease some of the tension in your chest. But it wasnât enough. âYou always do this,â you muttered, crossing your arms. âYou make decisions for me like Iâm some fragile little doll. Iâm not helpless, Logan.â
âI know that,â he said quickly, his gaze locking onto yours. âBut that doesnât mean Iâm gonna take chances with you.â
âYouâre unbelievable,â you muttered, shaking your head. âAnd where exactly are you going thatâs so important you canât tell me?â
Logan hesitated, his jaw tightening. He glanced at Charles, who gave him a slight nod. âWeâve gotta stop someone,â Logan finally said, his voice low. âSomeone whoâs about to make a big mistake.â
âThatâs it?â you asked, your frustration rising again. âThatâs all youâre gonna give me?â
âThatâs all you need to know right now,â Logan replied. He reached out, his hand brushing against your arm. âLook, I promise Iâll explain everything when I get back. But for now, I need you to trust me.â
You stared at him, your chest tight with a mix of anger and something softer, something you didnât want to name. âFine,â you said at last, pulling away from his touch. âBut donât expect me to be happy about it.â
Logan smirked faintly, though his eyes were serious. âWouldnât expect anything less.â
Charles cleared his throat, stepping forward. âY/N, I understand this is a lot to take in, but I assure you, this is the safest course of action for now. Hank and I will only be gone for a short while.â
âYeah,â you muttered, glancing at him briefly. âYou better be.â
Logan nodded at Charles, then turned back to you. âThereâs food in the kitchen, and plenty of space to stretch out. Donât open the doors for anyone but me or them. Got it?â
You rolled your eyes but nodded. âGot it.â
Logan hesitated for a moment, as if he wanted to say more, but then he turned and followed Charles and Hank toward the door. You watched them leave, the sound of the heavy door closing echoing in the empty mansion.
For a long moment, you stood in the middle of the entry hall, clutching your bag and trying to process everything that had just happened. Finally, you let out a heavy sigh and slung the bag over your shoulder.
âGuess Iâm on my own,â you muttered, heading deeper into the mansion to figure out how the hell you were supposed to pass the time in this massive, empty house.
---
It didnât take long for you to get bored, even in a place as massive as this. From what you gathered during your first walkthrough, this mansion had likely been a boarding school at some point. The classrooms, rows of bedrooms, and an enormous kitchen all hinted at its past. But now, it was eerily quietâlike a castle frozen in time.
You wandered aimlessly, peeking into rooms and finding nothing but empty desks, dust-covered books, and a growing sense of restlessness. The longer you roamed, the more your mind churned over Loganâs sudden departure. You didnât want to admit it, but his absence had left a voidâa nagging worry that you couldnât shake.
You sighed, stopping in front of a wide window overlooking the overgrown courtyard. What am I even doing here? you thought. Your fingers tapped against the windowpane as you chewed the inside of your cheek. Maybe you shouldâve pushed harder for answers instead of letting Logan sidestep your questionsâagain.
The faint hum of a clock ticking in the hallway was the only sound accompanying your thoughts. It wasnât enough to drown out the memories of Loganâs claws unsheathing back at the hotel or the unspoken tension in his voice when he said, âyou wonât be alone.â
âGreat,â you muttered under your breath, turning away from the window. âStuck in the middle of nowhere with nothing but cryptic warnings and empty rooms.â
You wandered back to the kitchen, hoping to find something to pass the time. The fridge was surprisingly well-stocked, and you made yourself a quick sandwich. As you ate, your gaze drifted toward the doorway, half expecting Logan to stride through it with that familiar scowl on his face.
But the doorway remained empty.
With a groan, you pushed the plate away and leaned back in the chair. âThis sucks,â you muttered.
The silence pressed against your ears as you sat there, tapping your fingers on the table. You couldnât help but think back to Loganâs expression when heâd left. There was something in his eyesâsomething heavy, like he was carrying more than just the weight of keeping you safe. He always did that, didnât he? Took on the burden for everyone else, even if it meant shutting you out.
You stood abruptly, the chair scraping against the floor. No more sitting around like a damsel in distress, you decided. If Logan was off dealing with whatever âbig mistakeâ heâd mentioned, youâd figure out how to occupy yourself in the meantime.
---
A while later, you found yourself back in one of the old classrooms. The chalkboards were dusty, and the desks were in varying states of disrepair, but it was oddly comforting in a way. You sat down at one of the desks and fiddled with a piece of chalk, drawing random lines on the board in front of you.
The quiet of the mansion felt oppressive. Every creak of the old wood or groan of the structure made your heart skip a beat. You werenât sure if it was just your imagination playing tricks on you or if there was something more sinister lurking in the silence.
You sighed, leaning back in the chair. âWhyâd you leave me here, Logan?â you muttered to yourself. The question hung in the air, unanswered, like so many others heâd dodged over the months.
As you stared at the lines youâd absentmindedly drawn, you thought back to your father. His control over your life had been suffocating, but thisârunning, hiding, fearing what might come nextâwas a different kind of prison. Logan had promised to protect you, but how could he if he wasnât here?
A sudden noise in the hallway snapped you out of your thoughts. You froze, the piece of chalk slipping from your fingers and clattering onto the desk.
âLogan?â you called out, your voice trembling slightly. There was no response.
You rose slowly from the desk, your heart pounding in your chest. The sound came againâcloser this time. It wasnât the creak of the old mansion settling. It was deliberate, like footsteps.
You moved toward the door, peeking into the hallway. It was empty, but the faint sound of movement reached your ears from somewhere deeper in the house.
âLogan?â you tried again, your voice firmer.
Still nothing.
Clutching your jacket sleeve tightly, you stepped into the hallway, your bare feet silent against the worn wooden floors. The air felt colder somehow, and the shadows seemed to stretch longer.
You made your way toward the source of the noise, your pulse quickening with every step. Part of you wanted to turn back, to lock yourself in one of the rooms and wait for Logan to return, but you couldnât shake the nagging feeling that something wasnât right.
As you rounded the corner, you saw them. Men in dark suits, their faces obscured by the dim lighting. There were at least four of them, moving methodically through the mansion as if they knew exactly where to look.
Your breath caught in your throat. They werenât here by accident.
You turned quickly, intending to retreat and find a place to hide, but it was too late. One of the men spotted you, his sharp eyes locking onto yours.
âSheâs here!â he barked, and the others turned toward you immediately.
Panic surged through your veins as you broke into a sprint, your bare feet barely making a sound against the floor. You didnât know where you were running, only that you had to get away.
âStop her!â one of them shouted, and the sound of heavy footsteps followed you.
You darted into another hallway, your mind racing. You needed a plan, a way out, but the labyrinthine mansion offered no clear escape routes.
A hand suddenly grabbed your arm, yanking you backward. You let out a startled cry, struggling against the grip.
âLet go of me!â you screamed, kicking and clawing at the man holding you.
He grimaced but held firm, dragging you toward the others. âStop fighting, or this gets messy,â he growled.
âLike hell it does,â you spat, managing to stomp on his foot hard enough to make him loosen his grip.
You broke free, stumbling forward, but another man was already there. He grabbed you by the waist, lifting you off the ground despite your thrashing.
âLet me go!â you shouted, your voice echoing through the empty halls.
âEnough!â a voice barked, and the men froze.
A figure stepped out of the shadowsâan older man with a cold, calculating expression. You recognized him immediately. One of your fatherâs men.
âMiss Y/N,â he said smoothly, his tone dripping with false politeness. âYour fatherâs been worried sick about you.â
âBullshit,â you snapped, glaring at him. âHe doesnât care about me.â
The man chuckled, a low, menacing sound. âWhether he cares or not isnât really the issue, is it? You belong to him. And heâs decided itâs time you came home.â
âOver my dead body,â you shot back, your voice defiant even as fear coiled in your chest.
The manâs smile widened, and there was something cruel in his eyes. âIf thatâs what it takes.â
You struggled harder, but the men holding you were too strong. They began dragging you toward the exit, your cries for help swallowed by the vast emptiness of the mansion.
In that moment, a horrible realization settled over you. Logan wasnât here to save you.
And this time, there was no escape.
---
The room was dim, lit by a single, flickering bulb swaying overhead. The scent of mildew clung to the air, mixing with the metallic tang of rust from the pipes along the walls. You blinked groggily, your head pounding as the events leading up to this moment replayed in your mind.
Interrogation, then murder. Thatâs how these things went. You knew it, had known it since you were a child sitting quietly at the top of the stairs, listening in on conversations you werenât supposed to hear. The Romano family didnât forgive betrayal, and neither did your father.
Your wrists ached where the rough ropes dug into them, tying you to the chair. The metal groaned beneath your weight as you tried to shift, testing the bindings. No give. You swallowed hard, the lump in your throat making it hard to breathe.
From the shadows, the men emerged one by one, their faces a mix of familiarity and dread. You recognized some from your fatherâs estateâmen who had once tipped their hats to you out of respect, now staring at you like a wolf pack eyeing its prey. Among them was Clyde Romano, his sharp suit immaculate despite the grim surroundings.
âWell, well,â Clyde drawled, adjusting his cuffs as he stepped closer. His cold eyes gleamed with a mixture of triumph and disdain. âYouâve been a busy little runaway, havenât you?â
âFuck you, Clyde,â you spat, your voice steadier than you expected.
He smirked, leaning in until you could feel his breath against your cheek. âBold words for someone in your position. But thatâs always been your problem, hasnât it? Too much mouth, not enough sense.â
One of the men chuckled darkly, and you shot him a glare sharp enough to cut.
Clyde straightened, motioning for the others to spread out. âSee, Y/N, this couldâve all been so simple. You play the good little bride, marry into the family, and keep your mouth shut. But no. You had to run. Had to embarrass your father. And me.â
âEmbarrass you?â You barked out a bitter laugh. âOh, Iâm sorry. Were your fragile little feelings hurt because I didnât want to be your trophy wife?â
Clydeâs smile faltered, his jaw tightening. He nodded toward one of his men, who stepped forward and struck you across the face. Pain exploded along your cheek, sharp and hot.
âWatch your mouth,â Clyde hissed.
You turned your head back slowly, your vision swimming. Blood trickled from the corner of your lip, but you smiled through it, defiant. âThat all youâve got?â
Clydeâs expression darkened, and he stepped closer, gripping your chin roughly. âYouâre real brave for someone who doesnât have a way out.â
Your stomach twisted at the truth of his words, but you refused to give him the satisfaction of seeing fear in your eyes. âBetter to die standing than live on my knees,â you shot back.
âYour boyfriend isnât here to save you, sweetheart,â he said casually, his tone laced with mockery. âWhat was his name? Logan?â
Your heart clenched at the sound of his name, but you kept your face blank.
âHe left you,â Clyde continued. âJust like everyone else will. Because youâre not worth the trouble.â
âThat so?â you bit out. âThen why are you here?â
He stopped, looking over his shoulder with a smirk. âTo clean up the mess you made.â
Clyde stepped back, giving a subtle nod to one of the men. The air seemed to thicken as the man pulled a knife from his belt, the blade glinting in the weak light.
Your breath hitched, but you didnât look away. If this was the end, youâd meet it head-on, with your head held high.
âAny last words?â Clyde asked, his tone almost bored.
You swallowed hard, the weight of everything pressing down on you. The memories of Loganâs rough hands holding yours, his gruff voice calling you darlinâ in that way that made your chest ache, his eyes softening in those rare moments when he let his guard down.
You thought of him nowâmiles away, caught up in something you couldnât begin to understand. If he were here, heâd fight. He always did. But this time, you were on your own.
âYeah,â you said, your voice steady despite the tears threatening to spill. âGo to hell.â
Clyde tilted his head, unimpressed. The man with the knife stepped forward, and you clenched your fists, bracing yourself for the inevitable.
The blade gleamed, catching the light one last time before it plunged toward you.
And then, there was only darkness.
---
Logan paced the bedroom; he had known something was off the second they got back. For one, you were nowhere in the mansion and your bag was sitting on the couch in the rec room.
Hank hesitantly stood by the doorframe for a few moments before speaking, âthereâs a theory in quantum physics that time is immutable.â Logan paused his pacing as Hank continued, âitâs like a riverâyou can throw a pebble into it, create a ripple, but the current always corrects itself. No matter what you do, the river just⌠keeps flowing in the same direction.â
Logan let out a small scoff, the corner of his mouth twitching upward in a fleeting smile. âThe B-theory of time.â
Hank blinked, his brows furrowing. âYouâre familiar with it?â
Logan shrugged, leaning back against the wall, his arms crossed. âYeah, Iâve heard it before. Someone once tried explaining it to meâsomething about all moments in time existing simultaneously. Past, present, future, all laid out like pages in a book.â He tilted his head, his gaze hardening. âDidnât make it sound any less screwed up.â
Hank tilted his head slightly, caught off guard. âThatâs a fairly accurate summation, Logan. Iâm⌠surprised you retained that much.â
Loganâs lips twitched again, but his eyes darkened with a tinge of something that looked like regret. âGood teacher,â he muttered, his voice low. His mind flicked back to the quiet hours spent with you in the rec room at the mansion, your voice steady as you explained the theories of time and space with the kind of patience that used to drive him insane. âGood teacher,â he repeated, softer this time.
Hank didnât press the matter, though curiosity lingered in his expression. Instead, he adjusted his glasses and continued. âRight. Well, the theory suggests that no matter how many changes we attempt to make, the timeline has a way of self-correcting. That ripple you caused? Itâll still flow back into the current, Logan. Thatâs why itâs imperative you stay focused on the larger missionâon stopping Mystique beforeââ
Logan cut him off with a sharp wave of his hand. âI know, McCoy. Believe me, I get it.â His voice was rougher now, frustration creeping into his tone. âBut I canât just stand here and do nothing. Sheâs out thereâaloneâbecause of me.â His jaw clenched, the muscles tightening like a vice. âI shouldâve stayed with her.â
âAnd then what?â Hank countered, his voice measured but firm. âThrown yourself headfirst into whatever danger awaits her without a plan? Gotten yourself killed before you even had the chance to stop Mystique? Would that have helped her, Logan? Or anyone else?â
Logan exhaled harshly, raking a hand through his hair. He hated when Hank was rightâhated it even more because staying put went against every instinct he had. Heâd lost you too many times before, and the idea of it happening again, here in this warped timeline, made his chest feel like it was caught in a vice.
âLook,â Hank said after a pause, his tone softening. âYouâre not doing herâor yourselfâany favors by acting recklessly. We need you tomorrow at the hearing. Mystiqueâs actions will set off a chain reaction if we donât intervene, and that means we need all hands on deck.â He gave Logan a pointed look, then hesitated before adding, âBesides, the Y/N I met didnât strike me as someone whoâd go down without a fight.â
Loganâs gaze snapped to Hank, sharp and unyielding. âWhatâd you say?â
Hank shifted uncomfortably. âI mean⌠she was a little out of her element, sure, but she seemed resourceful. Strong-willed. Determined. Sheâs not just going to sit around waiting to be rescued, Logan.â
Loganâs shoulders relaxed slightly at Hankâs words, though his face remained guarded. He knew youâknew that fire inside you, even in this lifetime. Youâd been through hell and still managed to crack that crooked smile, to tease him when he was too gruff for his own good. If anyone could find a way out of a bad situation, it was you.
But that didnât mean he wasnât worried sick.
âSheâs got guts,â Logan muttered, almost to himself. âToo much, sometimes.â
Hank adjusted his glasses again, watching Logan closely. âThen trust her to hold her own until we can deal with this together. Running off now would be counterproductive and, frankly, reckless.â
Logan let out a low growl of frustration, but he didnât argue further. Deep down, he knew Hank was right. If he ran out of here now, heâd jeopardize everythingânot just the mission, but the fragile thread of hope that had brought him to this point.
Still, the ache in his chest wouldnât subside. It never did, not when it came to you.
âSheâd better be okay,â he muttered, more to himself than to Hank. âOr Iâllââ His voice caught, and he shook his head. âNever mind.â
Hank didnât respond immediately. He just watched as Logan sank into the chair by the window, his gaze distant.
For now, all Logan could do was wait.
---
Logan woke up to the sun shining through green curtains as he lay on his side, clutching his pillow. He turned over to look at the holographic clock on the other side of the bed, a stack of books on the table along with a single pen.
âThe first time, ever I saw your face.â
He sat up, groggy as he looked at the familiar gold doorknob.
âI thought the sun,â Logan stood up and opened the door as a school bell rang and a kid walked out of their room. âRose in your eyes.â He saw Bobby standing against a door frame as Rogue walked out and grabbed his hand, the two of them glancing over at Logan before walking away.
Logan walked by a classroom where Kitty was at the head of the room, a hologram in her hands, âBuckminster Fuller is a great example of an architect whose ideas were very similar to those of a utopian future. He would build structures that would work with nature, versus against it.â
He looked down the hall as Beast walked past him, clad in a brown suit, âmorning, Logan. Late start,â he chuckled, as Logan watched him walk by.
Logan then walked down the stairs, seeing students converse with Storm. He continued his way down the stairs and into the open area, seeing familiar red hair leaning against the Professorâs open door.
Jean turned to look at him, âhey, Logan,â she softly called out as he glanced her way and back down the other hallways.
He saw a group of students walking huddled together before splitting apart briefly as you walked past them.
Loganâs breath hitched as you walked past the group of students, your hair catching the light streaming through the mansionâs tall windows. You didnât notice him immediately, too focused on the stack of papers in your arms and the pen tucked behind your ear. He froze in place, his heart pounding like it hadnât in yearsâdecades, even.
You glanced up just as you passed him, pausing mid-step when your eyes met his. There was warmth in your gaze, that familiar spark heâd seen so many lifetimes ago, but this time it wasnât tinged with hesitation or confusion. It was easy. Natural.
âThere you are,â you said, a small smile gracing your lips as you adjusted the papers in your arms. âI was about to come looking for you. Late morning?â
Logan stared at you for a beat too long, the sound of your voice wrapping around him like a long-lost melody. He blinked, clearing his throat and trying to push past the lump that had formed there. âYeah... guess so.â
Your smile widened, though your brow furrowed just slightly. âYou okay, Lo?â you asked softly, stepping closer.
He managed a nod, though his throat felt tight. âYeah, just... uh, still waking up, I guess.â
You tilted your head slightly, studying him in that way you always used to when something seemed off. âWell, if youâre awake enough, maybe you could help me wrangle some of the kids for class?â You gestured toward the papers in your arms. âI need to grab a few more things, and Lauraâs been trying to skip out on physics again. You didnât even budge when the alarm went off this morning, but youâre lucky Scott owed you a favor, so he covered your history classââ
You didnât get to finish your sentence when Loganâs arms wrapped around you, his hold firm but not crushing. His head burrowed into the crook of your neck, and for a moment, everything around you seemed to pause. You blinked, startled, the stack of papers in your arms wobbling precariously before you instinctively steadied them against your chest.
âLogan?â you asked softly, your voice tinged with concern and confusion. âWhatâs going on?â
He didnât answer right away. His breathing was heavy, his body tense against yours as though he was clinging to somethingâor someoneâhe thought heâd lost. The warmth of his presence, his scent of leather and pine, was familiar, but this intensity was new.
You let the silence hang for a moment, your free hand instinctively lifting to rest on his shoulder. âLo,â you tried again, your tone softer now, laced with the kind of patience that only years together had nurtured. âTalk to me.â
Logan pulled back slightly, just enough to look at you, but his hands remained firm on your waist. His eyes were wild, scanning your face like he was searching for proof that you were real. For a fleeting second, you caught something raw in his expressionâsomething vulnerable.
âYouâre here,â he muttered, almost to himself. His voice was hoarse, as though he hadnât spoken in days. âYouâre⌠really here.â
Your brows knitted together as you tilted your head, trying to piece together what could have possibly spurred this reaction. âOf course Iâm here,â you said with a small, hesitant laugh, your hand sliding from his shoulder to his cheek. âWhere else would I be?â
Before Logan could respond, the unmistakable sound of small, hurried footsteps echoed down the hall. A high-pitched voice followed, cutting through the moment like a pebble skipping across still water.
âDaddy!â
Logan froze. His hands fell away from your waist as a little girl with dark hair barreled toward the two of you, her pigtails bouncing with each step. She clung to Loganâs leg without hesitation, looking up at him with the wide, innocent eyes of someone who knew no fear or doubt.
Gabby.
The name surfaced in Loganâs mind like a fragment from a dream, though it came with no contextâno memories to anchor it. He stared down at the child, his breath catching as she grinned up at him.
âDaddy, I found you!â she declared triumphantly, like it was a great accomplishment. âLaura said you were being slow again.â
You chuckled softly, crouching down to ruffle Gabbyâs hair. âWhat did we say about calling your dad slow?â you teased gently, though there was no real reprimand in your tone.
Gabby giggled, leaning into your touch. âOnly when itâs funny?â
âExactly,â you replied with a smirk before standing again and glancing at Logan, who still hadnât moved or spoken. âLo, you okay?â you asked again, your concern deepening.
Loganâs gaze flicked between you and Gabby, his chest tightening. The ring on your finger caught the light as you moved, and for the first time, he noticed itâthe familiar band of gold heâd carried for over a century.
His heart stuttered. Youâre wearing it.
âLogan?â you pressed, stepping closer again. Gabby, still holding onto his leg, tilted her head in confusion.
Logan swallowed hard, forcing himself to push past the whirlwind in his mind. âYeah,â he rasped, his voice strained but steady enough. âIâm fine.â
You didnât look convinced, but you didnât push him. Instead, you nodded toward the stack of papers in your arms. âYou sure? Because if youâre about to have an existential crisis, I need you to hold off until after you help me track down Laura. Deal?â
Logan blinked, your teasing tone pulling him out of his daze. He managed a weak chuckle, rubbing the back of his neck. âYeah. Deal.â
Gabby tugged at his pant leg, her face scrunched in determination. âDaddy, can we get pancakes after? Laura said sheâd eat ten, but I bet I could eat twelve.â
You snorted softly, looking between Gabby and Logan with an amused smile. âYouâre not actually gonna let her eat twelve pancakes, are you?â
Loganâs lips twitched, but the smile didnât quite reach his eyes. âWeâll see,â he said gruffly, his mind still miles away as he tried to make sense of everything.
You gave him another look, your brows furrowing slightly, but you let it go for now. âCome on,â you said, shifting the papers in your arms. âLetâs get this day started.â
As you turned to lead Gabby toward the stairs, Logan lingered for a moment, his eyes fixed on the gold band on your finger. His thoughts churned, the weight of the moment pressing down on him like a heavy fog.
He needed answers. And he knew exactly who to talk to.
---
Logan pushed open the door to Charlesâs office without knocking, his usual roughness softened just enough by the turmoil bubbling beneath his skin. Charles, sitting calmly at his desk with his hands folded, looked up with a raised brow.
âLogan,â Charles greeted, his tone patient but curious. âI wasnât expecting you so early. Is everything alright?â
Logan stepped inside, closing the door behind him before glancing over his shoulder. He needed to make sure you hadnât followed. When he was satisfied, he turned back to Charles, his jaw tightening.
âNo,â Logan said simply. âWe need to talk. Now.â
Charlesâs brow furrowed, and he gestured to the chair in front of him. âPlease, sit. Tell me whatâs troubling you.â
Logan ignored the chair, pacing instead. âI woke up this morning, and Iââ He dragged a hand down his face, struggling to find the words. âChuck, I ainât supposed to be here. This⌠this timeline, it ainât mine.â
Charlesâs expression shifted, his calm demeanor replaced with something more serious. âI see,â he said carefully. âGo on.â
âYou remember what Kitty did,â Logan said, stopping to lean on the edge of the desk. âSending my mind back to â73, to fix everything. To stop the Sentinels.â
âYes,â Charles replied, his voice steady. âAnd you succeeded, Logan. The world youâre in now is a result of that success.â
Loganâs laugh was bitter, shaking his head. âThen why the hell donât I remember it, huh? Why do I remember⌠all of it? The Sentinels. The Phoenix. Y/Nââ His voice cracked, and he looked away, his fists clenching. âShe died, Chuck. In my timeline, she died. Jean, too. All of you.â
Charles regarded him quietly, his hands still folded. âLogan, the mind is a complicated thing. Itâs possible that in the process of returning you to this point in time, fragments of your original timeline have remained intact.â
âFragments?â Logan scoffed, pushing off the desk to pace again. âChuck, this ainât fragments. I remember it all. I remember her dying six times, dammit. I remember the look on her face when sheââ He stopped himself, his breathing ragged.
Charlesâs expression softened. âLogan, this is your life now. Whatever timeline you came from, whatever you remember, itâs in the past. This is your reality now. Y/N is alive. Jean is alive. You have a family, a home.â
Loganâs hands curled into fists at his sides. âYeah, but it ainât mine. This ringââ He held up his own hand with his own ring, the band of gold catching the light. âI didnât put it on her finger, Chuck. Some other version of me did. And I donât know how to be him.â
Charles leaned forward slightly, his voice gentle but firm. âThen perhaps itâs time you learned. For her. For your family.â
Logan stared at him, his chest tight. He wanted to argue, to push back, but the truth of Charlesâs words settled heavy in his gut. Heâd fought so hard to change the future, to make sure you and everyone else had a chance at a better life. Now that it was here, he didnât know how to live in it.
He rubbed a hand over his face, exhaling shakily. âWhat do I do, Chuck?â
Charles smiled faintly. âYou take it one day at a time, Logan. And you start by going back to her.â
---
You stood in the Professorâs office, your arms crossed, the faint cherry gloss on your lips catching the sunlight through the large windows. You tilted your head slightly, studying Logan as he leaned against the desk, his expression unreadable but tense.
âSoâŚâ you began, your voice soft but steady, âyouâre from a different timeline? One where none of this happened?â
Logan exhaled heavily, running a hand through his unruly hair. âYeah, sweetheart. Thatâs about the size of it.â
Your gaze flicked between him and Charles, who sat calmly behind his desk, his hands folded in front of him. âAnd in that timelineâŚâ you hesitated, your voice faltering slightly. âWhat happened to me?â
Loganâs jaw tightened, his eyes briefly darting away from yours before he forced himself to meet your gaze. The weight of his memories hung between you, unspoken but palpable.
âYou didnât make it,â he admitted, his voice low and gravelly.
The room felt colder, the air heavier as his words settled over you. You shifted slightly, gripping your own arms as if to steady yourself.
âBut not this time,â Charles interjected gently, his calm voice breaking the silence. âThis timeline is different, Y/N. You survived, as did many others who didnât in Loganâs original timeline.â
You turned to Charles, your brow furrowing. âHow? How is that even possible? Timelines arenât just malleableââ
âThey are when someone like Kitty Pryde is involved,â Charles replied, his tone steady but kind. âLogan changed the future, which altered the past. But it seems his mind retained the memories of his original timeline when he was brought back.â
You looked at Logan, your head spinning as you tried to wrap your mind around what they were telling you. âSo⌠youâre saying that everything I rememberâall the years weâve been together, raising Gabby and Lauraâtheyâre real, but to you, theyâreâŚâ
âNew,â Logan finished for you. He pushed off the desk, his hands going to his hips as he paced the room. âTo me, darlinâ, thisââ he gestured vaguely at the mansion around him, ââthis is all brand new. The last thing I remember before waking up this morning was beinâ in 1973, tryinâ to stop Mystique from killinâ Trask.â
Your lips parted, but no words came out. The Logan standing before you was so familiar, yet so⌠not. He was the same man youâd spent decades with, and yet he wasnât.
âYouâre still you,â you said finally, your voice barely above a whisper.
Logan stopped pacing, turning to look at you. His gaze softened slightly, the hard edges of his frustration melting away. âYeah,â he said gruffly. âStill me.â
âBut you donât remember Gabby or Laura,â you said, a pang of sadness creeping into your voice. âYou donât remember us.â
Loganâs expression twisted with guilt. âNo, sweetheart,â he admitted. âNot the way I should. But Iâm tryinâ. I swear to you, Iâm gonna figure this out.â
You stepped closer to him, your glasses sliding slightly down your nose as you looked up into his eyes. âYouâre not alone in this, Logan,â you said softly. âWeâll figure it out together.â
He stared at you, his throat tightening at the unwavering trust in your eyes. Slowly, he reached out, his large hand brushing against yours before taking it fully. âThanks, darlinâ,â he murmured, his voice rough but sincere.
Charles cleared his throat gently, drawing your attention. âThe bond you two share has persisted across lifetimes,â he said. âIt is not surprising that it remains strong, even now.â
You glanced back at Logan, your fingers still entwined with his. âI guess itâs just one more thing weâve survived together,â you said with a faint smile.
Loganâs lips quirked upward, just barely. âYeah,â he said. âGuess so.â
But as the three of you stood there, Logan couldnât shake the feeling that this was only the beginning of a much bigger challenge. For now, though, he let himself hold onto your hand, grounding himself in the one constant heâd always known: you.
---
Laura stared across the table at Logan, her sharp eyes taking in every detail of his face as if she were trying to find something different, something off. Meanwhile, Gabbyâs bright voice filled the dining room.
âAnd then, they just grow back their limbs! Like, if an axolotl loses a leg or even its tail, itâs all, poof! Fixed!â Gabby made an exaggerated explosion motion with her hands, her fork clattering against her plate. âIsnât that cool, Daddy?â
Logan blinked, dragging himself out of his thoughts. âUh, yeah, kid. Real cool.â His voice was gruff but softer than usual as he glanced at her. Gabby beamed, apparently satisfied with his half-hearted response, and took another bite of her pancake.
âDad doesnât even know what an axolotl is,â Laura said flatly, her gaze never leaving him.
Gabby gasped, scandalized. âLaura! Of course he does! Heâs Daddy! He knows everything!â
Logan scratched the back of his neck, an awkward chuckle slipping out. âWell, I wouldnât say everythingâŚâ
Laura narrowed her eyes slightly, leaning back in her chair. âYouâre acting weird.â
âLaura,â you said gently, walking into the room with a cup of coffee in hand. You leaned against the doorway, your glasses slipping down your nose just a touch as you looked at your daughter. âBe nice.â
âSheâs not wrong,â Logan muttered under his breath, but you caught it and shot him a warning look.
Laura crossed her arms, clearly unimpressed. âHe didnât even laugh at Gabbyâs joke about Momâs coffee yesterday. Thatâs how you know somethingâs wrong.â
You hid your smile behind your mug. âTo be fair, it wasnât a great joke, Gabby.â
âIt was hilarious!â Gabby protested, slapping her hands on the table for emphasis.
âSure, sweetie,â you said with a chuckle, walking over to Logan. Your hand found his shoulder as you leaned down slightly. âWhy donât you two finish breakfast? Weâll be right back.â
Logan shot you a look but didnât argue as you guided him out of the room, your hand lingering on his arm for a moment before you let go. You didnât stop until you were in the hallway, far enough from the dining room that the girls couldnât hear you.
âYouâre gonna have to stop looking like a deer in headlights every time Gabby says something,â you said quietly, your tone soft but firm. âSheâs going to figure it out if you keep that up.â
Logan let out a long sigh, leaning against the wall. âIâm tryinâ, sweetheart. Itâs justâŚâ He trailed off, running a hand through his hair.
âOverwhelming?â you finished for him.
âYeah. That.â He rubbed the back of his neck, his eyes meeting yours. âI donât know how to do this. Any of this. I donât remember gettinâ married or havinâ kids. And now, Iâve got a eleven-year-old givinâ me the third degree and a five-year-old who thinks I hung the moon.â
âTheyâre your daughters, Logan,â you said softly. âAnd they adore you. Just⌠be yourself. Youâve always been a good dad to them. That hasnât changed.â
Logan looked at you, his expression a mixture of uncertainty and determination. âAnd you?â
âWhat about me?â you asked, tilting your head slightly.
âHow do I do right by you?â His voice was low, the vulnerability in it catching you off guard.
You stepped closer, your hand brushing his. âYouâre already doinâ it,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper. âWeâll figure this out together. Just like we always do.â
He let out a low huff, leaning his side against the wall, âwell, if I have to hear one more word about an axolotl and their gills, I might lose it.â
You leaned into the wall, mimicking Loganâs stance, your lips twitching upward as you adjusted your glasses. âActually, axolotls have both gills and lungs, so they can breathe underwater and directly from the air. But they rely on their gills more than their lungs because theyâre primarily aquatic. Oh, and their gills are those frilly things you see sticking out of their necksâexternal gills, which are super rare in vertebratesâŚâ
Loganâs eyebrows rose slowly, and a wry grin began to tug at the corner of his mouth as your words spilled out faster than you seemed to realize.
âAnd did you know,â you continued, your voice picking up slightly as you adjusted your glasses again, âthey stay in a juvenile state their whole lives? Itâs called neoteny, andââ
Logan finally let out a soft laugh, shaking his head. âAlright, darlinâ, I get it. Youâre where Gabby gets it from.â
You paused mid-ramble, your brow furrowing as you looked up at him. âGets what?â
âThe whole talk a mile a minute about stuff that makes the rest of us feel like idiots thing,â he teased, his tone gruff but warm. âShe starts goinâ on about somethinâ, anâ itâs like watchinâ a little tornado of facts. Now I know where she gets it.â
Your cheeks flushed slightly, a mix of amusement and bashfulness flashing across your face. âI donât talk that much.â
Logan arched a brow, his grin widening just a touch. âSure, sweetheart. Keep tellinâ yourself that.â
You huffed, pushing lightly against his chest with the back of your hand, though your lips tugged into a reluctant smile. âYouâre impossible.â
âYeah, but youâre still stuck with me,â he teased, his tone laced with an unexpected softness.
For a moment, you both stood there in the hallway, the din of breakfast chatter echoing faintly behind the door. Loganâs eyes lingered on you, the faint cherry gloss on your lips catching his attention again as sunlight streamed in through the nearby window.
âI really mean it, darlinâ,â Logan said after a beat, his voice dipping into something deeper. âYouâve got no idea how much I appreciate you holdinâ this together. All thisâŚâ He gestured vaguely, his expression faltering for a second. âItâs a lot to take in.â
Your smile softened, and you reached for his hand instinctively. âWeâve been through worse, Logan. Together. We always find a way.â
Loganâs gaze dropped to your intertwined hands, the touch grounding him. âYeah,â he murmured. âAlways.â
Before the moment could settle further, Scott and Jean walked past the two of you, entering the kitchen. You grabbed Loganâs hand, âcâmon, I want you to see somethinâ.â
You pulled Logan to the doorway of the kitchen, motioning for him to stay quiet. His brow furrowed, but he didnât resist as he leaned slightly into the frame beside you, peeking into the room. Scott was at the counter, pouring himself a fresh cup of coffee, while Jean stood nearby, polishing an apple against her sleeve.
âWhy are we standinâ here likeââ Logan began, but you held up a finger to shush him.
âWait for it,â you murmured, a mischievous glint in your eyes.
From behind the island, Gabby and Laura crouched in near-perfect silence. Gabbyâs face was alight with glee as Laura whispered instructions, holding a small device that looked suspiciously like something Jones might have helped them cobble together.
Logan squinted. âWhat the hell are theyââ
âShh!â you hissed, suppressing a grin as Laura pressed a button on the device.
The coffee maker on the counter suddenly sputtered and hissed, steam pouring out in dramatic bursts as it began to shake. Scott froze mid-sip, frowning at the machine.
âWhat theââ Scott leaned in cautiously, placing his mug down.
With a loud pop, a stream of glitter shot out from the coffee maker, spraying directly onto Scottâs chest and face. His entire upper body sparkled in gold and silver flecks as he stumbled back, coughing in surprise.
Gabby popped up from behind the counter, arms thrown in the air triumphantly. âSuccess!â
Laura stood beside her, a small, satisfied smirk tugging at her lips. âGlitter bomb: 100% effective.â
Logan stared, wide-eyed, as Scott wiped at his face in a futile attempt to rid himself of the glitter. âGirls,â Scott said, his voice low and measured in a tone that suggested he was summoning all of his patience, âwhat did I say about tamperinâ with the coffee maker?â
Gabby, undeterred, pointed at him dramatically. âYou said donât do it. But you never said we couldnât improve it.â
Jean bit into her apple, turning slightly away to hide her laughter behind a hand.
âYou let them do this?â Scott asked, glaring at her.
âI let them? Scott, theyâre your nieces,â Jean said smoothly, not bothering to hide the amusement in her tone.
âTheyâre your nieces too!â Scott protested, but Jean just shrugged, taking another bite of her apple.
Logan let out a low chuckle beside you, shaking his head. âTheyâre somethinâ else.â
You grinned, nudging him lightly with your elbow. âTheyâre just like you.â
Logan raised an eyebrow, leaning closer. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âOh, you know exactly what it means,â you teased. âYouâre as much of a troublemaker as they are. Donât think I havenât seen the pranks youâve pulled.â
âPranks? Me?â Loganâs expression feigned innocence, though the corner of his mouth twitched in amusement. âSweetheart, I donât know what youâre talkinâ about.â
âRight,â you drawled, clearly unconvinced. âYouâve just coincidentally passed on all your mischief genes to Laura and Gabby?â
Logan let out a soft laugh, his gaze flicking back to the kitchen where Gabby was now dancing around Scott, singing, âUncle Scott is the glitter king!â at the top of her lungs.
Laura crossed her arms, clearly pleased with her handiwork. âDonât worry. Itâs biodegradable glitter,â she said in a tone that suggested she didnât actually care about Scottâs glitter predicament but wanted to seem magnanimous.
Scott groaned, his voice rising in frustration. âYou two better clean this up. And my shirt. And myââ He gestured vaguely at his glitter-covered face.
Gabby giggled. âSure, Uncle Scott. Right after breakfast.â
Scott turned to Jean for backup, but she just shrugged again. âYouâll be fine, Scott. Youâve been through worse.â
âNot worse than this,â Scott muttered darkly, picking at a gold fleck on his visor.
You stifled another laugh as Logan crossed his arms, watching the scene unfold with an almost paternal fondness. âThey really only prank Summers?â
You nodded, grinning. âEvery time. Jeanâs always off-limits, but Scott? Fair game. Laura says it builds his character.â
Logan shook his head, still smiling. âKidâs got my sense of humor, all right.â
âSee?â you said, leaning closer to him. âTheyâre just like you.â
Logan glanced down at you, his expression softening as his gaze lingered. âGuess Iâve got a lot to live up to, huh?â
âYou already do,â you said quietly, your hand brushing against his. âMore than you know.â
Before Logan could respond, Gabbyâs excited voice interrupted. âMommy! Daddy! Did you see? Uncle Scottâs a walking disco ball!â
You turned just as Gabby bolted toward you both, her small arms outstretched. Logan instinctively crouched to catch her as she launched herself at him, wrapping her arms around his neck.
âDid you like it, Daddy?â Gabby asked, her face bright with anticipation.
Logan hesitated, his arms tightening slightly around her as he glanced at you for guidance. You smiled, nodding almost imperceptibly.
âYeah, kid,â Logan said finally, his voice gruff but warm. âYou got him good.â
Gabby beamed, hugging him tighter before pulling back to look at him. âLaura says we should do water balloons next time. But I think paint bombs would be cooler.â
Logan chuckled, standing with her still in his arms. âLetâs not get ahead of ourselves, Gabby.â
Gabby laughed, leaning her head against his shoulder. You watched the two of them, your chest tightening at the sight of Logan holding her so naturally, even if his memories of her werenât there yet.
Logan caught your eye, his expression unreadable but intense, as if he were trying to piece together the life he couldnât remember but was already a part of.
For now, you just smiled, stepping closer to place a hand on his arm. âCome on,â you said softly. âLetâs get back in there before Scott recruits you to clean up his glitter.â
Logan let out a low chuckle, his grip on Gabby firm as he followed you back into the kitchen, the warmth of the moment settling around the three of you like a quiet promise.
---
Jean sighed and stepped away, her hands falling from Loganâs temples as she crossed her arms. âIâm sorry, Logan. Thereâs not much else I can do.â
Logan remained seated, his elbows resting on his knees as his hands clenched together. âSo, thatâs it? Nothinâ? Not even a flicker?â
Jeanâs expression softened, but there was a hint of frustration in her voice, more directed at herself than him. âYouâve got a wall in your mind, Logan. One I canât break through without risking your memories now. If I push too hard, I could do more harm than good.â
He let out a low growl, the sound rumbling in his chest. âFeels like Iâm livinâ someone elseâs life. Like it ainât mine.â
âYou are living your life,â Jean insisted gently. âThis is you. Youâre just missing⌠the journey that got you here.â
Logan ran a hand down his face, leaning back in the chair. His gaze drifted to the floor, but his thoughts were miles away. He could feel the weight of everythingâthe ring on your hand, the way Gabby called him âdaddy,â Lauraâs quiet smirk when she saw him, the way you looked at him with such love and familiarity. It wasnât foreign; it was right. But it was also wrong because he didnât remember any of it.
Jean knelt beside him, her voice quieter now. âYouâve built something beautiful here, Logan. Something you fought for, even if you canât remember how. Maybe instead of chasing whatâs missing, you should try to live in whatâs here.â
Loganâs jaw tightened, his mind battling with itself. Before he could respond, a voice broke the heavy silence.
âLogan?â Your voice was soft but steady from the doorway.
His head snapped up, and for a moment, the tension in his shoulders eased. âHey, darlinâ.â
Jean rose, excusing herself with a subtle nod toward you. As she passed, she gave your arm a gentle squeeze, her own way of offering support, before disappearing down the hall.
You stepped inside, watching Logan closely as you approached. âHow are you feeling?â
âLike my headâs been through the ringer,â he muttered, trying to muster a smirk but failing. âJean couldnât find much.â
You perched on the arm of the chair, your hand instinctively reaching for his shoulder. âItâs okay,â you said softly, your thumb tracing small circles over his flannel. âYou donât have to remember everything all at once.â
He let out a dry laugh, shaking his head. âThatâs just it. I donât remember any of itâmarryinâ you, findinâ Laura, havinâ Gabby. None of itâs mine.â
Your heart ached at the rawness in his voice, but you squeezed his shoulder gently. âIt is yours. Maybe not in the way you think, but itâs yours, Logan. Weâre yours.â
He looked up at you then, his eyes darker, clouded with something you couldnât quite name. âYouâre takinâ this awful well.â
You smiled faintly, brushing a stray curl away from his forehead. âI told you when we got married, remember? That no matter what happens, Iâm not going anywhere.â
âDonât remember that, either,â he admitted gruffly, though there was a flicker of warmth in his voice.
âWell,â you teased lightly, trying to ease the tension, âlucky for you, I do.â
Loganâs hand came up, his fingers brushing against yours where they rested on his shoulder. He didnât say anything, but the weight of his grip spoke volumes.
You brought him into your side, his head resting below your collarbone on your chest, and a small, bittersweet smile crept onto your lips. âItâs kinda ironic if you think about it.â
Loganâs voice was muffled against you, but there was a familiar gruffness to it. âWhat is?â
âThis,â you said softly, one hand brushing through his hair while the other traced idle circles on his shoulder. âYou remember all those lives I donât, and now weâre here, and Iâm the one who remembers⌠but you donât.â
Logan let out a humorless chuckle, his arms tightening around your waist. âYeah, darlinâ, real funny.â
âIronic,â you corrected, the corner of your mouth twitching upward, though the ache in your chest lingered. âNot funny.â
Logan exhaled deeply, his breath warm against your collarbone. âGuess I deserve that, huh? All those times, I remembered you, and now youâre stuck rememberinâ for me.â
You stilled your hand for a moment, then leaned back just enough to make him look at you. His eyes were darker than usual, shadowed with frustration and something deeper you couldnât name. âYou donât deserve this, Logan,â you said firmly. âDonât ever think that.â
He searched your face, his jaw tightening as he swallowed hard. âFeels like I do,â he murmured. âEvery time Iâve lost you⌠itâs been my fault somehow. Every damn time. And nowââ He cut himself off, shaking his head as though trying to dislodge the thought.
âAnd now,â you said, finishing for him, âyou havenât lost me.â
Loganâs gaze softened, his thumb brushing unconsciously over the fabric of your shirt where his hand rested on your waist. âNot yet.â
âNot at all,â you said, your voice steady. âYouâve got me, Logan. Iâm right here.â
His lips twitched, but the smile didnât quite reach his eyes. âFor now.â
You sighed, cupping his cheek and guiding his gaze back to yours when it started to drift. âLogan. Stop. Weâve been married for nearly twenty years. I know this is⌠a lot. Itâs a lot for me, too. But you donât have to figure it all out today, or tomorrow, or even next week.â
He huffed a small laugh, his hand moving to rest over yours. âYou always this patient?â
âOnly with you,â you teased gently, though the warmth in your voice was genuine. âSo donât make me regret it.â
âWouldnât dream of it,â he said, and for a moment, his smirk was almost real.
You smiled back, letting the silence settle for a few beats before Loganâs arms tightened around you again, pulling you closer. His head rested against your chest, his body warm and solid against yours, and for a moment, you just held him.
---
Footsteps thundered across the broken ground, and then he was there. Logan dropped to his knees beside you, his hands immediately reaching for you, shaking you gently but urgently. âSweetheart, no, noâopen your eyes,â he pleaded, his voice cracking as his hands moved from your face to your shoulders, searching for signs of life.
Your body was limp in his arms, your chest still, your face losing color.
Loganâs breaths came in short, harsh gasps as he pulled you against him, cradling you like you might slip away entirely if he let go. âY/N,â he whispered, the single word a broken prayer, an unbearable weight of grief choking him. His hands shook as they smoothed over your hair, as though trying to coax you back to him with touch alone.
He didnât notice Ororo land nearby, didnât register her sharp intake of breath as she took in the scene. Her hand came up to her mouth, her eyes wide with horror, but she didnât approach. Behind her, Bobby and Kitty stood frozen, their expressions stricken, but they too stayed back. Even Peter, with his usual strength and calm, had no words.
Logan didnât care that they were there. Didnât care about anything except the motionless weight in his arms. He rocked you slightly, his forehead pressing against yours as his ragged breaths turned into choked sobs. âYou werenât supposed toâdamn it, you werenât supposed to do this,â he growled, his voice breaking as he fought against the tears burning in his eyes. âNot this time. Not again.â
Logan pressed his lips to your forehead, his hands shaking as they cupped your face. âCome on, darlinâ,â he whispered, his voice soft and cracked. âYouâre stronger than this. Youâre too stubborn to leave me. Justâjust come back.â
The others stood frozen, unable to move, unable to interrupt the devastating scene unfolding before them. Ororoâs hand clutched her chest, tears streaking down her face as she turned away, giving Logan what little privacy she could in this moment of unbearable pain.
But Logan didnât notice. He couldnât notice. His world had narrowed to youâthe unbearable stillness of your body, the haunting silence that surrounded you now.
He didnât let go, even as the destruction around them finally began to settle, the last vestiges of Jeanâs power fading into nothingness. His arms tightened around you, his forehead pressing to yours again as he whispered brokenly, âIâm sorry. I couldnât save you. Iâm so damn sorry.â
Time seemed to stand still in the worst possible way. For the first time in his long, painful life, Logan felt completely and utterly powerless. The ring heâd carried for over a century burned like a brand against his chest, a cruel reminder of all the promises heâd never been able to keep.
Logan buried his face against your neck, his voice raw as he whispered, âI was gonna tell you. About the ring. About everything. Youâyou deserved to know.â His thumb brushed over your cheek, as if he could will the life back into you.
He pulled back, his tear-streaked face contorted in anguish as he gazed down at you. âI love you,â he said, his voice breaking on every syllable. âIâve loved you through every lifetime, and Iâll love you in the next one, too. But please, sweetheart, donât make me wait again. Not this time. Please.â
His hands trembled as he touched your cheek again, his thumb brushing over your skin like it might bring you back. âI love you,â he repeated, his voice hoarse. âIâll always love you.â
But you didnât move. Your chest didnât rise. You were gone.
Loganâs breath hitched as he leaned forward, pressing a kiss to your foreheadâone last desperate, lingering moment of tenderness. When he pulled back, his gaze swept over your still features, his expression caught somewhere between disbelief and devastation.
Behind him, Ororo, Bobby, Kitty, and Peter stood at a distance, their faces drawn with grief. None of them moved to intervene. They knew better than to intrude on this moment, on Loganâs anguish.
The air felt impossibly heavy as Logan shifted, gathering your lifeless form into his arms. His movements were slow, deliberate, as though handling something too precious to break further. He cradled you close, his head bowing as he let out a shuddering breath. The others watched as he rose to his feet, every muscle in his body screaming in protest, though he showed no sign of it.
âLoganâŚâ Ororo began softly, stepping forward.
He didnât acknowledge her. His eyes were locked on you, his focus unwavering. Without a word, he turned away, carrying you toward the bridge. There was no Blackbird to take them homeâJeanâs power had obliterated it along with so much elseâbut Logan didnât seem to care about the logistics. His only concern was you.
---
Logan jerked awake, gasping, his body tense and drenched in cold sweat. The dim light of the bedroom barely illuminated his surroundings, but he didnât need it to know where he was. The warmth beside him, the faint scent of your cherry lip gloss lingering in the airâthose were enough to remind him. This was 2023. You were alive.
He turned his head to look at you, his breathing still uneven. You were curled on your side, your glasses resting on the nightstand, your hand loosely clutching the blanket. Peaceful. Alive.
âLogan?â your voice, soft and drowsy, broke the silence. You stirred, sensing his distress even in your half-asleep state. âWhatâs wrong?â
He swallowed hard, running a hand down his face. âNothinâ, sweetheart,â he murmured, his voice rough and unconvincing. âGo back to sleep.â
But you sat up anyway, your hair slightly mussed, your gaze focusing on him even without your glasses. âYou had another nightmare, didnât you?â You reached out, placing a gentle hand on his arm. âWas it⌠bad?â
Logan closed his eyes, exhaling shakily. He wanted to lie, to brush it off and tell you he was fine, but the weight of the memory still clung to him like a shadow he couldnât shake. âYeah,â he admitted finally, his voice barely above a whisper.
Without hesitation, you slid closer to him, wrapping your arms around his torso. âItâs okay,â you murmured, resting your head against his shoulder. âIâm here.â
His body stiffened at first, the vulnerability of the moment making his instincts scream to pull away, but then he let out a shaky breath and folded you into his arms. The solid warmth of you against himâthe weight of your presenceâwas like a lifeline, anchoring him back to the present.
âI dreamed about⌠losinâ you,â he said after a long moment, his voice low and raw. âItâit was like I could feel it happeninâ all over again.â
Your heart ached at the pain in his tone, but you didnât pull back. Instead, you tightened your hold on him, pressing a soft kiss to his shoulder. âYou didnât lose me,â you whispered. âIâm right here, Logan.â
His arms tightened around you as though he needed to remind himself you were real. After a few moments, he pulled back just enough to look at you, his eyes searching your face like he was memorizing every detail. His hands came up to frame your face, his thumbs brushing over your cheeks.
âI gotta hold you,â he said, his voice gruff but almost pleading. âJust let meââ His words faltered, and he leaned in, his lips capturing yours in a kiss that was desperate yet tender, like he was pouring all the fear and love in his heart into the connection.
You kissed him back without hesitation, your hands resting on his chest. But when he pulled back only to kiss you againâthis time slower, deeperâyou pulled away slightly, just enough to catch your breath. âLogan,â you murmured, your voice gentle, âare you sure youâre okay?â
His forehead rested against yours, his breath warm against your lips. âJust lemme kiss you, please,â he said softly, his voice almost breaking. âNeed to feel you. Need to know youâre here.â
Tears pricked the corners of your eyes, but you nodded, your hands sliding up to cup his face. âIâm here,â you whispered, pressing your lips to his again, reassuring him with every touch that you werenât going anywhere.
Time seemed to stop as you stayed like that, locked in the quiet intimacy of the moment. His hands moved to your waist, holding you securely, while yours stayed on his face, grounding him. Eventually, you pulled back, your noses brushing, your breaths mingling.
âYou wanna talk about it?â you asked softly, your fingers tracing soothing patterns along his jawline.
Logan hesitated, his eyes flickering with something raw and unspoken. âNot yet,â he admitted, his voice thick. âJust⌠donât leave me tonight, darlinâ.â
You shook your head, offering him a soft smile despite the emotion welling in your chest. âIâm not going anywhere,â you promised, wrapping your arms around him again.
---
The Blackbird hummed steadily, the low vibration underscoring the tense silence among the team. You glanced toward Logan, his expression hard and unreadable as he stared out the small window. He hadnât said much since takeoff, and you didnât push him. Instead, youâd focused on Jean, who was reviewing the mission details, and Scott, whoâd been unusually quiet.
âI can handle this,â Logan had said when you vouched for him earlier. You hadnât doubted him then, and you didnât now. But Scottâs skepticism hung heavy in the cabin, evident in every glance he shot Loganâs way.
You let out a soft breath and shifted in your seat, nudging Loganâs arm with your elbow. âHey,â you said quietly, leaning in. âYou good?â
Logan turned his head, his eyes meeting yours for a moment. He nodded, though his jaw stayed tight. âYeah, sweetheart. Iâm fine.â
You didnât buy it, but you let it go. For now.
Scottâs voice cut through the tension. âWeâre approaching the drop zone. Everyone stay sharp. This should be quick, but letâs not get sloppy.â
âSloppy?â Logan muttered under his breath. âWe donât do sloppy.â
Scott shot him a look from the cockpit but didnât respond, and you bit back a small smile despite the nerves fluttering in your chest.
---
The mission was supposed to be simple. Extract intel, neutralize threats, and get out. But as usual, things didnât go as planned.
The team moved as a unit through the labyrinthine corridors of the facility, the dim lighting casting long shadows that danced with every flicker of movement. Logan was at the front, claws out, his senses leading the way. You stayed close, your focus split between him and the others.
âJean, you got eyes on the server room?â Scottâs voice crackled through the comms.
âAbout twenty meters ahead,â Jean replied, her voice calm despite the rising tension.
Loganâs claws retracted with a snikt as he held up a hand, signaling everyone to stop. His nose twitched, and his head tilted slightly. âSomethingâs off,â he murmured, his voice low.
Before anyone could ask what, the ground beneath your feet rumbled, and the corridor ahead exploded in a burst of heat and light. You stumbled back, shielding your face, as alarms blared throughout the facility.
âDamn it!â Scott barked. âItâs a trap!â
Logan was already moving, his claws gleaming as he launched himself toward the first wave of attackers. âGet to the server room!â he shouted over his shoulder. âIâll clear the way!â
âLogan, waitââ But he was gone, a blur of fury and precision as he tore through the enemy.
You exchanged a quick glance with Jean and Ororo before taking off in the opposite direction with them. The mission had gone sideways, but there was no time to panic. Focus was key.
---
You werenât sure how long it had beenâminutes? Hours? The battle had stretched into chaos, and every step felt like a fight to stay alive. You found yourself separated from the others, the air thick with smoke and the metallic tang of blood.
Your powers buzzed beneath your skin, a familiar warning. Youâd been careful not to overuse them, knowing the toll it took, but the situation left you little choice. Cornered by a group of heavily armed soldiers, you raised your hands, time itself seeming to shudder as you concentrated.
The soldiers froze mid-step, their weapons hanging suspended in the air. Sweat beaded on your forehead as you pushed harder, distorting the flow of time around you. The strain was immediate, your body protesting as you manipulated the anomaly.
âY/N!â Loganâs voice cut through the haze, rough and urgent. He appeared out of the smoke, his claws dripping red. His eyes widened when he saw you, the flickering distortion around you making it clear you were at your limit.
âIâm fine,â you said, though your voice was strained. âGo help the others.â
âLike hell,â Logan growled, rushing to your side. His hand gripped your arm firmly but gently. âStop this. Youâre gonna tear yourself apart.â
âI can handle it,â you insisted, though your knees buckled slightly under the weight of your own power.
Logan didnât argue. Instead, he scooped you up with a gentleness that belied his strength, cradling you against his chest. The anomaly wavered, then shattered, the soldiers collapsing as time resumed. But the damage was done.
As the world around you stabilized, you felt a strange, disorienting pull in your mindâlike something had snapped and splintered all at once.
Logan froze mid-step, a strangled noise escaping his throat. His grip on you tightened as his body went rigid, his breathing shallow and erratic.
âLogan?â you murmured, your voice weak. âWhatâs wrong?â
He didnât answer. Couldnât. His eyes darted wildly as memories surged through his mindâmemories that didnât belong to the man heâd been moments ago.
A wedding. Your smile, brighter than the sun, as you held his hands. The weight of the gold ring heâd finally placed on your finger after lifetimes of waiting.
Laughter. Lauraâs tiny hands clutching his shirt as he carried her on his shoulders, her giggles echoing through the halls of the mansion. Gabbyâs wide grin as she showed him a picture sheâd drawn of the four of youâher family.
Peace. The quiet nights on the porch, your head resting on his shoulder as the stars twinkled overhead.
Love.
A life.
A family.
Logan stumbled, dropping to his knees as the memories overwhelmed him. They were vivid and unrelenting, a rush of emotion and experience that left him gasping for air.
Your hands trembled as you knelt beside Logan, panic bubbling in your chest. His body shook, his breaths coming in sharp, shallow gasps. You reached out, gripping his shoulders. âLogan! Pleaseâwhatâs wrong? Talk to me!â
He didnât respond. His eyes were wide and unfocused, darting as though he was watching something invisible and overwhelming. His claws had retracted, his hands pressed flat to the ground like he was trying to anchor himself.
âLoganâŚâ Your voice cracked, tears blurring your vision. âIâm sorryâI donât know what I didâplease, just say something.â
His breath hitched sharply, and he finally looked at you, though his gaze was distant, almost haunted. âI⌠I canâtââ His voice was rough, fractured, as though he was choking on the words. âItâs⌠I remember.â
You froze. The blood roaring in your ears was nearly deafening. âWhat do you mean? Remember what?â
Logan shook his head as if trying to clear it, but his face was pale, his features twisted with a mix of disbelief and something rawâgrief? Love? Fear? You couldnât tell.
âItâs us.â His hands reached for you instinctively, his calloused palms cupping your face. âI see you. I seeâŚâ His words faltered, and his gaze flickered like he was staring into a memory you couldnât reach. âThe wedding. Laura. Gabby. God, darlinâ, I see all of it. I feel it.â
Your heart clenched, your breath catching in your throat. âYou remember this life?â you whispered, your hands resting on his wrists.
Loganâs eyes, normally so sharp and guarded, now brimmed with something far more vulnerableâtears threatening to spill as his gaze bore into yours. âYeah,â he rasped, his voice rough, choked. âNot just bits and pieces⌠all of it.â
Tears continued to blur your vision as you searched his face, struggling to process his words. His hands stayed on your face, steady even though they were trembling slightly, and his eyes darted over yours like he was trying to memorize every detail, afraid you might vanish if he looked away for even a second.
âLoganâŚâ Your voice wavered, the weight of the moment pressing down on your chest. âYou⌠remember everything?â
He nodded, the movement jerky, uncoordinated. âYeah. Every damn thing,â he rasped, his voice thick with emotion. âI remember⌠us. Our life. Laura. Gabby. The day I put this ring on your finger.â His thumb brushed against the gold band on your left hand, his expression flickering between awe and devastation. âI remember it all, darlinâ. And itâs like Iâve been livinâ two lives at once.â
Your heart twisted, torn between relief and worry. Relief that he was remembering the life youâd built togetherâyour family, your homeâbut worry because you knew what this meant for him. Logan wasnât just remembering. He was reconciling two lifetimes, one full of loss and pain, and one where heâd finally found peace.
You cupped his face now, your hands trembling against his rough, stubbled cheeks. âLogan,â you whispered, your voice barely audible over the distant sounds of the fight still raging in the facility. âYouâre here. Youâre with me. With us. And thatâs all that matters.â
His eyes stayed locked on yours, and you could see the storm of emotions swirling behind themâgrief, guilt, love, hope. âItâs real,â he said, almost like he needed to hear it to believe it. âThis⌠all of it⌠itâs real. I didnât lose you this time.â
âNo,â you murmured, tears spilling freely now. âYou didnât lose me. Youâve got me, Logan. Iâm here. Iâm not going anywhere.â
His hands tightened ever so slightly on your face, his forehead lowering until it rested gently against yours. His breath hitched, and you felt the faintest tremor run through him. âI lost you six times, sweetheart. Six times. I held you in my arms while youââ His voice broke, and he sucked in a sharp breath like he was trying to keep himself together. âI canât⌠I canât lose you again. I wonât.â
âYou wonât,â you said firmly, brushing your thumbs over his cheeks. âYou wonât, Logan. This is our life. Our family. And youâre not gonna lose me. Not now, not ever.â
For a long moment, the two of you just stayed like that, kneeling on the cold floor in the middle of a war zone, holding on to each other like the rest of the world had ceased to exist.
Finally, Logan spoke again, his voice quieter now, though no less weighted. âI donât know how to do this,â he admitted, his tone raw. âI remember us, but I donât⌠I donât feel like the man you married. I donât feel like Laura and Gabbyâs dad.â
Your heart ached at his words, but you held his gaze, your own resolve strengthening. âYou are the man I married,â you said softly but firmly. âYouâre the same Logan whoâs been by my side for twenty years, whoâs been an amazing father to Laura and Gabby, whoâs built this life with me. I know it doesnât feel that way right now, but it will. Youâll remember not just with your head, but with your heart, too. I promise.â
He closed his eyes briefly, exhaling shakily before nodding. âI hope youâre right, darlinâ,â he murmured. âBecause I donât wanna screw this up.â
âYou wonât,â you assured him. âWeâll figure it out together.â
Another explosion sounded in the distance, and Loganâs head whipped around, his instincts kicking in. âWe gotta move,â he said gruffly, helping you to your feet. âYou okay to walk?â
âIâm fine,â you said, though your legs wobbled slightly as the adrenaline began to wear off. Logan steadied you with a hand on your waist, his touch firm but careful.
âLetâs find the others,â he said, his voice steadying as he slipped back into mission mode. But before you could take a step, he stopped, turning back to you. His hand cupped your cheek again, his eyes soft but serious. âI love you,â he said, the words rough but filled with conviction. âI just⌠I needed to say it.â
Your breath caught, but you smiled, leaning into his touch. âI love you, too,â you said, your voice trembling with emotion. âAlways.â
He nodded once, then released you, his claws sliding out with a familiar snikt. âStay close,â he said, his tone low and protective as he led the way down the corridor. And though the chaos of the mission loomed ahead, you felt a flicker of hopeâbecause no matter what, you were facing it together.
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Once back at the mansion, the first things you saw were Laura and Gabby standing by Rogue, waiting for the others to clear the jet before you and Logan stepped off.
Gabby was the first to make a move, walking at a brisk pace until Logan finished climbing down the stairs and kneeled down, âcâmere princess.â
She let out a happy squeal and ran the rest of the way, launching herself into Loganâs arms. âYou havenât called me that in ages!â
Laura walked over to the three of you, giving you a short hug from the side, âweeks, Gabby, weeks.â
Gabby removed herself from Loganâs chest, turning to face her sister, âthatâs ages Laura!â
Laura crossed her arms, her eyebrow arched in exaggerated disbelief. âItâs weeks, Gabby. Donât be so dramatic.â
Logan chuckled, low and gravelly, still kneeling on the hangar floor. His hands rested lightly on Gabbyâs shoulders as she spun back around to look at him, her big, expressive eyes narrowing in mock irritation.
âWell, sheâs right about one thing,â Logan said, ruffling Gabbyâs hair. âI havenât been callinâ you âprincessâ like I should.â
Gabby beamed, throwing her arms around his neck again. âItâs okay, Daddy. I forgive you!â
Behind them, you stood near the ramp, watching the scene with a mix of relief and warmth. Logan caught your eye over Gabbyâs shoulder, his gaze softening as it locked on yours. For a moment, it was like the rest of the world disappeared.
Lauraâs voice broke the spell. âYouâre forgiven this time,â she said with a teasing smirk as she stepped closer. âBut Gabbyâs gonna milk it for at least a week. Donât say I didnât warn you.â
Logan straightened, a hand resting on Gabbyâs back as he looked at Laura with that gruff, fatherly affection heâd perfected. âYeah, well, I reckon I can handle that.â
Gabby grinned triumphantly, glancing between her sister and her dad. âSee? Told you Iâm his favorite.â
Logan groaned, shaking his head as he rose to his feet, lifting Gabby effortlessly in his arms. âDonât start that, kiddo. I got room for both of you troublemakers.â
Gabby giggled, but Laura rolled her eyes. âNice save, Dad.â
You chuckled softly, stepping forward now that the moment felt a little less overwhelming. âAlright, you two,â you said, your voice warm but firm. âLetâs get inside. Everyoneâs probably waiting, and your dad looks like he could use a break.â
Logan gave you a small, appreciative smile, one that lingered longer than usual, like he was drinking in every detail of you standing there. He shifted Gabby to his hip and reached out with his free hand, his calloused fingers brushing yours briefly as you both turned toward the mansion.
The walk back was filled with Gabbyâs chatter, Lauraâs sarcastic commentary, and Loganâs occasional grunt of amusement. But as the four of you crossed the threshold into the warmth of the mansion, you could feel the shift in Loganâa quiet resolve mixed with the raw emotion still simmering beneath the surface.
Once the girls were out of earshot, you tugged gently on Loganâs sleeve, pulling him aside into the quieter hallway. His brows furrowed slightly, but he let you guide him, his hand instinctively finding its way to your waist.
âLogan,â you started softly, looking up at him as the distant echoes of the mansionâs activity faded. âAre you okay?â
Loganâs jaw tensed, his eyes searching yours as though weighing his answer. The soft glow of the mansionâs lights illuminated his face, highlighting the exhaustion and turmoil etched into his features. He let out a low sigh, the sound heavy with emotion, before his hand slid from your waist to cradle the side of your face.
âI donât know,â he admitted, his voice rough but honest. âItâs like... Iâve been livinâ someone elseâs life for weeks. Like it was mine but not mine, ya know? And nowâŚâ He paused, his thumb brushing gently over your cheek, his brow furrowing. âNow itâs all there. Every moment. Every damn thing. I remember our girls, our wedding, us. And itâs... itâs real. But it feels like it shouldnât be. Like itâs a dream Iâm gonna wake up from any second.â
Your heart clenched at the raw vulnerability in his voice. You reached up, covering his hand with yours, grounding him. âItâs not a dream, Logan. This is real. Weâre real. Laura and Gabby are real. Youâre their dad, my husband, and the man whoâs been by my side through everythinâ. Youâve got us, and weâve got you.â
His eyes softened, but there was still a shadow of doubt lingering in them. âFeels like Iâve been walkinâ around with a piece missinâ, and now itâs slammed back into place all at once. Itâs almost too much.â
You stepped closer, wrapping your arms around his waist and resting your head against his chest. His heart thundered beneath your ear, fast and unsteady, but his arms came around you like they always had, holding you tightly. âYou donât have to figure it all out tonight,â you murmured. âWeâll take it one step at a time. Together.â
Logan buried his face in your hair, his breath hitching as he clung to you. âI missed this,â he said, so quietly you almost didnât catch it. âEven when I didnât know what I was missinâ, I missed this.â
You smiled against his chest, your tears dampening the fabric of his shirt. âYouâre home now,â you whispered. âThatâs what matters.â
He nodded against you, pulling back just enough to look into your eyes. âYouâre somethinâ else, ya know that?â he said, his lips twitching into a faint, almost self-conscious smile. âDonât deserve you.â
âYouâre wrong,â you said firmly, your hand coming up to rest against his cheek. âWe deserve each other. And we deserve this life weâve built. It hasnât been perfect, Logan, but itâs ours. And itâs worth every fight.â
Loganâs hand slid to the small of your back, his thumb tracing lazy circles there. His gaze held yours for a long moment before he dipped his head, pressing a lingering kiss to your forehead. âThanks, darlinâ,â he murmured. âFor not givinâ up on me.â
âNever,â you said softly, a smile tugging at your lips. âNow, letâs get back to the girls. Theyâll probably think weâre plotting something if weâre gone too long.â
Logan huffed a quiet laugh, the sound easing some of the tension in his expression. âYeah, donât need Gabby cominâ up with some wild theory about why weâre takinâ our time.â
You chuckled, threading your fingers through his as you began walking back toward the living area. âSheâd have us starring in some kind of superhero soap opera.â
âKidâs got a hell of an imagination,â Logan muttered, though there was unmistakable fondness in his tone.
As the two of you reached the living room, Laura and Gabby looked up from the couch where they were sprawled out with popcorn and a movie on the screen. Gabbyâs face lit up when she saw you, and she patted the spot next to her enthusiastically. âCâmon, Daddy! We saved you a seat!â
Logan glanced at you, his lips quirking in a small, grateful smile. âThink I better take her up on that,â he murmured.
âYou better,â you teased, giving him a nudge. âIâll grab some drinks and join you.â
He squeezed your hand once before letting go, striding over to settle between his daughters. Gabby immediately curled up against him, and Laura leaned over to steal a piece of his popcorn, earning a mock growl from him.
As you watched the three of them together, laughter bubbling up from the couch, you felt a deep sense of peace settle over you. Logan might still be navigating the storm in his mind, but he was here. And with time, you knew heâd come to fully embrace the life heâd found again.
and it's a happy ever after!!
this was meant to be much shorter. actually, i originally wasn't going to include logan getting his memories back and just make that into a bonus chapter but i couldn't stand it. if it's gonna be a happy ever after i had to go all the way.
and i have i have an idea of how they found laura that does not involve the logan movie. cause, no, no, no, they are getting their happy ending.
with that in mind, again, if anyone is interested in reading about how reader and logan got married, found laura, had gabby, let me know! or, if you have any ideas of stories you want me to tell with reader and logan don't be afraid to ask! (i might have already started writing for the alternate timeline...)
#logan howlett x reader#logan howlett x you#wolverine x reader#wolverine x you#james howlett x reader#james howlett x you#logan howlett#logan howlett fanfiction#logan howlett x fem!reader#logan howlett fic#i love you in every time
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Here is a little thing that came from the post of @deadbaguette which you can see here
Have you noticed how little dialog Achilles and Patroclus share in the Iliad? Achilles is a talkative man. He exchanges long and even philosophical dialogs with most people he encounters, with his peers and even his rivals and enemies. But his scenes that involve Patroclus hardly mention any dialog between them and yet their scenes are the most tender and most talkative.
They prepare food, they entertain their guests, they just sit by each other. They hardly speak. Homer was telling us all along; words were not needed between them. Their actions spoke for them; their closeness and their intimacy. Their scenes are peaceful amidst the war: silent amidst the loud noise and speeches. That is why the loss of Patroclus speaks so loud; the piece of peace in the flame of war was lost.
Which is why also Achilles found closeness to Antilochus next. Antilochus who also hardly exchanged a word with him and yet he was there in his lowest, just holding his hands to keep him alive out of fear that Achilles would try and kill himself. Achilles wanted someone to hold his hand. Antilochus did that both literally and metaphorically
They do not need to talk. Their closeness is enough. The absence of both of these silent yet close and intimate relationships so violently by war destroyed Achilles beyond repair. He lost Patroclus by violence and war while he was absent. He went on a lament and on absolute rampage by killing his enemies, performing human sacrifice and hubris against the dead. He lost Antilochus and he lost the last bits of his sanity, slaying Memnon and pushing carelessly the Trojans back uncovered and was killed by Paris. The strongest of Greeks fell from the hand of the arguably weakest Trojan because all that was left of his strength was gone; his strength, his will to live and his sanity. He was already tripping. At that moment he was beyond saving.
I am surprised I don't see more people talk about it
#katerinaaqu analyzes#greek mythology#tagamemnon#homeric poems#the iliad#patrochilles#patroclus#achilles#antilochus#achilles and patroclus#achilles and antilochus#rage of achilles#homer iliad#homer's iliad#the epic cycle#epic cycle#intimacy#loss#grief#food for thought#random toughts#thoughts from my brain#thoughts from the void#aristos achaion#achilles sorrow#lament of achilles#homeric epics#silence#silence is golden#sometimes silence speaks so much more than words!
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