#Painful feelings part 2
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||Painful feelings Part 2: Scars heal and blooming acceptance||
Hi dears, I'm back. I’m here with another drabble but it's part two of the first drabble Painful feelings. If you wanna read the first one, just click here. Kali and Rex now. Lets see what this one speaks about shall we? Now this is a part one but part two will come later on.
||Drabble summary||
After the heated deadly battle, Rex finally admits his feelings for Kali who accidentally slashed him in the chest. Right now, she was taking that time to progress what he said to her before confronting him about this alone. Now, the two were going to speak about this. How will this go? Read to find out.
||Warning||
~Just talking or conversation and maybe a kissing scene will be present
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Rex Oxford Mills belongs to me
Kali Vin-Shia and her fraction belongs to my rp partner/friend @demon-blood-youths
((Note: Grammar mistakes and errors are present on this drabble but this is written for fun. Thanks for understanding and enjoy reading.))
Kali couldn't believe Rex said that to her. He liked liked her! He really liked her!? HER of all people!! She was sitting down to take all this in, looking at the table to be sure she's not dreaming. Well, resulting in her cheek being a slight pink from slapping herself to be sure she's awake. This was no dream that means he was speaking the truth or she hopes he was.
However, she got word that Rex is okay from the accident attack. He was healing so it was fine but she felt bad to do that. Yeah, she was mad but she didn't want to do that to him. For now, she looks to wonder about him. Was he alright? Was he at home or somewhere else.
Thinking about it, she stood up to look down. She had to talk to him. She had to figure this out. Kali heads out of the living room of their base that Wes noticed to look over to her.
"Uhhh where are you going Kali? Is something wrong?" he asked as the others looks to her.
"No, I..I need to head out to talk to someone. I'll be back later." She said but turns to leave that left them confused. They wonder what that could be about? It had to be important if she tells them she'll be back later. Kali did leave but she was heading to Greenwitch village, Rex's territory in New York City.
~~Meanwhile in Greenwitch Village~~
"Hmm? Kali, what are you doing here?" Winter saw Kali showing up but she had her arms crossed over her chest to look at Winter.
"...I need to talk to Rex. Is he here?" she asked with Winter looking at her with a eyebrow raised.
"Yes. Sensei is in the small back house meditating right now. Why? Was their something wrong?" she asked even if she looks to Kali remember she accidentally cut him with her own Sabres. "Though, if your wishing to ask for a spar, he is recovering still. He can't fight you right now." Winter felt a bit upset when she did that to him but Kali remembers to look down.
"No, I'm not here to ask for a spar, just to talk to him. That's all I wanna do." she said but Winter was unsure. She didn't want them to fight even now due to him resting. "I just wish to talk to him that's all.."
"....And nothing is wrong that your this eager to speak with him?" Winter said.
"No, nothing is wrong I just need to talk to him. Is that alright?" she didn't look at Winter but the fallen winter maiden keeps looking to her then sighed with eyes closed.
"If you wish to speak to him you can....He's in the back as I said in the back house.." she said but Kali looks to her and relaxed.
"Thank you." she mutters and hurries along to where he was. Winter looks seeing her walk off but she goes to do her own thing so they can speak in private.
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Rex was sitting to drink some tea alone, already looking down at the cup as he was having his dreadlocks in a pony tail by a black strong keeping it together. He was lost in though, already wearing a new shirt while he was treated for the injury Kali gave him.
He was healed true but he was a bit sore while savoring the quiet moment. The girls were out since he told them to keep a eye out just in case since he's grounded for a while to recover. "......." he was about to move and get some food when hearing a knock. "???" Rex gets up slowly to head to the door.
"Hello? Who is-" he reaches to open it and see who it was. Standing there was Kali who was looking quiet and down at the ground. He said nothing to sense her aura before he sighed to look at her.
"Kali? What are you doing here?" He asked in a quiet tone but she looks down only to then look up at him being silent.
"Ummm, would it be possible to talk to you? It's...important." she mutters under her breath even if Rex looks to her with arms crossed. "I know you might not wanna talk but I...need to talk to you. I'll just say what is need to then I will leave. Is that fair?" she looks up to him as Rex looks to her that he sighed, turning to move so Kali can come in.
She follows him inside to carefully close the door behind her. So this was his small meditation back house. It looked pretty cozy and it was designed just like the main house. She saw it was almost like a small house for two people but he goes to sit back down at the table to where his tea was. He offers a seat for her who walks over and sits down as he pours some tea for her.
"......."
"Alright Kali, what did you wish to talk to me about?" he asked looking at her with a quiet expression on his face. She looks down at the table but was thinking on how to say this to him. Even accidentally attacking him like that, it didn't compare to what he said to her.
"....I..." She was acting shy now when what she said but it leaves her silent to sigh with eyes closed. "I wanted to say sorry for before. I didn't mean to slash you like that. I just..i was just angry from the whole thing but...I'm still shocked you told me you..."
"Liked you." He said to see her nod slowly as Kali picks up the cup to drink some of the tea. She did wonder if he was alright after but saw him drinking some of his own hot tea.
"Yeah. I am shocked you told me you like like me even after what happened even when I was shouting at you I just..I'm still sorry for that. I never meant to do that...I guess I felt angry from what happened to Ink that it was...a lot. But I still wonder do you really mean what you said when you said you like like me?" she asked with Rex looking up to her but he only lowers the cup to look at her.
"I never lie of what I say to anyone, Kali. So rest assure I meant the truth. I do like like you. I've always liked liked you but I never had the chance to put it into words. That and when you were upset about what was going on of course too." He mutters but Kali said nothing looking down at the table.
"........"
"I'm still hoping you believe me even if you were so angry about all this. I knew you were upset from everything like the cat fishes, the creeps, the dates going wrong. I know and I'm sorry you went through things like that." He drinks some of his tea but lowers the cup.
"I rather see you happy and enjoying your time with someone that really means so much to you. I've always had that wish myself. I know it was sudden but I had to tell you since I always adored you from your strength and just being yourself.." he said simply but she looks to him.
"Even after what I did, you still like like me?" she asked as Rex looks to her but he didn't say much to reach up, touching her cheek. It was gentle that made Kali quiet for a moment. He didn't say much but just held her cheek.
"I told you before, I mean what I said. I don't like lying to my friends..and I don't like lying to you. Your really important to me and seeing you happy tells me your alright. Even now, I feel like you believe me and it's still shocking to hear someone likes you like that." he explains seeing her look down.
"I know it's hard to believe me after so long and you find it hard to find anyone that would like you for who you are. I don't know what I can do to tell you that I mean every word I've said. Even when I said I like like you. Your special to me and even if you were angry your still alright.." He rubs her cheek with his thumb seeing her look at him. The two said nothing but Rex looks to her that he gently kisses her forehead to make her speechless.
He held the kiss for a moment when his lips pull back to look at her. "But, I understand if you don't feel the same way. I will still respect your choice if you..." he started to say but felt Kali touching his hand.
"......Even if everything I said that could have been hurtful and attacked you...you still..." she started to say but Rex looks to hold her cheeks again.
"I still mean what I said. I like like you, Kali and I would be happy if you felt the same."
She was speechless again but he saw her more speechless. He had to say what he said but that's when he sighed to look to the side. "Though, I hope you understand and believe me, Kali. You deserve to be happy like everyone else.."
"...I don't think I do knowing how others find it funny to mess with someone's emotions. I just wanted someone to like me and....maybe show me that they love me." she said that made Rex suddenly pull her against him as she winces to keep her eyes closed. She did open them but the two look at one another for a moment.
However, he said nothing that he only leans in to slowly pull her close and gently kiss her right on the lips. Her eyes were wide from the kiss but she closes them half way while kissing him back resting her hands on his chest carefully knowing he was still healing. The kiss was gentle but careful before they break the kiss. Rex and Kali said nothing but she looks down to keep near him.
"I still am sorry for hurting you.." she mutters.
"It's fine.....I've forgiven you a while back so your alright." he said to hugging her but she relaxed to blush again looking down to hear him ask one more thing;
"Also...I'm hoping this is alright but..would you like to be my girlfriend?" he asked but Kali said nothing to blush again but hug his arm while looking to the side.
"As long as you don't leave my side, then yes. I'll be your girlfriend. But this means your mine too as my boyfriend. Deal?" she asked as Rex sighed to hold her close by his side but a smile was seen.
"Deal." he said to kiss the top of her head but she looks down to relax by him. In the window to see, his team was shocked but finds it cute that Rex admits this but the good thing is he was able to confess and show he means it.
Kali is happy and Rex is happy. One good happy ending for both.
#IC#silver roses#Drabble/short or long stories#silver butterfly mun#peahen mom#the mansion owner#Painful feelings part 2#Scars heal and blooming acceptance#rex oxford mills#older rex#kali Vin-Shia#older Kali#demon-blood-youths#The fractions of NYC#peahen writer#young adults au#fraction adventures au
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all i have left
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fanart#jjk fanart#fushiguro megumi#itadori yuuji#yuuji#megumi#hhhhhhhhh why angsty mood im hurting my me :((((((#go from megumi angst 2 dumb outfits then HARD pivot back 2 angst#u dont understand th clench in my heart i get drawing th sukuna scars on megumi i genuinely hate it so much#theyre such a Part of yuuji's design tht drawing them on megumi feels so viscerally wrong n it just hammers home that nothing is alright#had to listen 2 the cutesiest music possible while drawing this 2 keep myself sane#miku miku beam th pain away :)#real talk tho like. im really not one to b terribly emotionally affected by my own art. or to draw from my Own emotional state at all rly#i tend 2 keep myself pretty distant#but theres smth abt this one man this one pulls at th kokoro :(#suffering from success ig :/#created an emotionally poignant piece n it hurt. 0/10 wld not recommend. am going back to drawing boys shirtless >:c#gna draw something else so i stop feeling genuine human emotion
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the living dead
#phantoms if you will#like this gayme way more than I thought I would honestly#I feel like Igot the wrong impression from everybody#anyways#venom snake#paz ortega andrade#sniper quiet#quiet#mgsv#mgs#the phantom pain#my art#this kinda feels like a part 2 to the pw ohe
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Siffrin plays Disco Elysium AU: Featuring backseat gamer Loop.
#in stars and time#ISAT#Siffrin#Loop#disco elysium#digital art#When I first thought of a crossover I went from 1) 'ISAT Disco AU but Loop is all of the skills'#To: 2) 'Loop is in the mindspace alongside the skills#To my magnum opus: 3)'Loop is sitting next to Siffrin backseat gaming him the whole time.'#Loop beat Disco Elysium ages ago and repeated it to the point they know all the vision quests and dialogue variables.#Siffrin just started playing and Loop keeps ruining the fun by using their meta-game knowledge to try and help.#Also let's be real. Siffrin's stats are 100% completely focused into motorics and nothing else.#If we can't Savoir Faire ourselves of this situation - we will explode. Endurance? Call my insurance instead.#Thinking skills? None. Emotional intelligence and morale? A failed social interaction canonically feels like death to them.#I might have bumped Phys up but...Siffrin's Electrochem stat is like -10. And Pain Threshold is emotional durability too.#Unused part of this joke is that I set their signature skill to Drama.#Both these games made my brain melt so now I get to combine them! I have that power!#This joke made me laugh the entire 3 hours I sat down and drew it and that is what creation should be about.
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actually I love Tentoo and he is the Doctor and it was the only ending for Rose that worked and it is a huge gift to be able to have the man she loves grow old with her, they were always heading for that, y'all be quiet. I 100% understand the angst but it's okay, they're okay, good ending-
#did you want her to...not end up with the doctor?#she ended up with the doctor. she ended up with the doctor and they get to AGE together#they get to have a real honest relationship the way they both always genuinely wanted#it's hard that the full time lord version has to carry on without her but that is the way that character's story ALWAYS goes#the doctor does not get to keep ANYONE. it would be a different show if he did#meanwhile there is a version of that same face of his - the one that was MADE for love? particularly born out of love for ROSE? the one 1/2#2/2 that always wanted a FAMILY? and stability? and a normal life? the tenth doctor longed for that specifically because of rose#now he gets to have it AND be part-human so he doesn't have to watch her get old. he gets old WITH HER#and they're canonically growing their own Tardis so you don't even have to be sad that they're not adventuring in time and space as usual#because they ARE. it's the kindest ending for either character. and if the full time lord hadn't left without either of them-#-he would have had to lose them eventually. lose Rose because she's human? hello? painful? but instead he was selfless and left her-#-with a proper happy ending. which she CHOSE to have so you can't be like “he tricked her!” she chose to kiss one of them and it was Tentoo#they are the same man. Rose won in this scenario.#and I GET IT I am with Billie Piper I think it will always feel a little off that she was left with Tentoo and not the full time lord#I understand. it still makes me a little sad. but I know it's a good ending writing-wise. really the ONLY ending.#yes I know about the popular idea of Immortal!Rose or Bad Wolf Rose or whatever and that's cute and all BUT - it's not a GOOD thing#it's not PREFERABLE to be immortal. Rose doesn't want to live forever. she wants to be with the man she LOVES forever.#she doesn't want to not die or adventure for all time. she wants to be there to hold his hand. and when Tentoo is born she gets THAT!#Immortal!Rose is tragic. the Doctor would not wish the burden of immortality on the woman he loves HELLO#anyway#I ship timepetals. that includes Tentoo/Rose. because he is the doctor#so there#I have more thoughts on Tentoo specifically but I digress#maybe if provoked in an Ask or something idk#doctorrose#timepetals#opinion piece#tenrose#tentoo#handy
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Its been a while since I updated this little project but heres the dealio. I got "mysteriously" sick for the last 2 months and it kinda halted my work on getting this thing physically printed. BUT IM BACK and ready to start this up again. I'm really hoping i get everything done by Jan. or very latest feb (mostly anticipating for holiday slow down)
In the meantime i got a few questions on my interest check asking if i would offer a digital version of the zine. and the answer 2 months late is YES I WILL YOU CAN GET IT NOW ACTUALLY ON MY GUMROAD OR KO-FI HURRRAYYYYYY!!!! 🥳🥳 GO CHECK IT OUT ITS $3
GUMROAD | KO-FI
#the art of a lemon wedge#homumiko#baroryuu#otasune#feel like a fucking#victorian woman in a novel the way i got sick for no reason those months#vertigo. brain fog. parts of my body would go tingley. and for 2-3 hours at a random time of the day my entire body would just feel BAD#idk else how to describe it cause it was not pain#i could not predict what would trigger those 2-3 hours of BAD and it seemed to change every day#and then some days i wouldnt get them but i would still get vertigo and brain fog whenever i would go to bed#anyways#IT WAS THE WATER#STUPID LA WATER BLEH BLEH#I WENT TO TEXAS TO VISIT FAM FOR A WEEK AND ALL MY SYMPTOMS WENT AWAY#-_-#and now im on a strict distilled/purified bottle water diet#i cant even eat food thats been boiled in whatever the hell gets put into the gallons at the store.....sigh#BUT IM BETTER#and ready to get back into it#:D
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Part 3 [end]
#satosugu#五夏#jjk fanart#soul#gojogeto#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk gojo#jjk geto#gojo satoru#geto suguru#ruusuustory#no one asked but while drawing part 3 i listened heavily to utube vid ロングコートダディ和尚のゲーム念仏 ゲム友は最&高(^^)素敵な夜にレッツアマンガス#i learned two things while drawing part 3#1 eventho i draw only 1 page max 4hours a day i get burn out when i do that 3 days in a row#2 but when i ban myself from drawing for 5 days i naturally feel the desire to draw again#which leads to conclusion as a society we should shift to 3 work days and 5 rest days a week#but still i cant find balance between drawing and injuring my hip im in pain again rn#maybeeee i shuld put another one week ban in btween page 5 and 6.... ill try that next part... because i want to avoid imjuring myself#thankfully i learned to avoid not injuring my drawing hand like the old times now that i realized
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Ah lads, the disability… it’s disabling me again.
#truly in autistic sensory hell today#tried to get dressed - violently rejected that - everything feels like pain#unshakeably cold and sad#resigned to the fact that I can do nothing much today#it seems that I can work part time BUT if there are also 2 doctors appointments in the same week then I become unhuman#(gentle groaning)#send some nice things my way if you feel inclined
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little story about little Eddie and his 2 new friends | word count approx 2.5k | general audience rating | steve and eddie are kids and Wayne is a pushover
Wayne sometimes thinks it was a mistake, not taking in the boy. God no, he would never think of Eddie as anything other than an important and intrinsic part of his life, couldn't be without him, wouldn't want to be.
No, what Wayne worries about is how his readiness to help Eddie feel loved might contribute to the boy's difficulty in making friends.
It was an innocent enough request, Eddie asked for a pet as all young children do. He was so small and so wide eyed, just a scrap of an 8 year old with more feelings than he knew what to do with. Wayne knew he'd never hold up against any request Eddie made but he liked to pretend to himself that he could. And while technically he never pandered to the boy, yes Eddie usually got what he wanted but in a way that suited their means. Or so Wayne tells himself.
8 year old Eddie asked for a pet and a pet is what he got.
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Eddie barrelled into the trailer door, backpack swinging off his arm and ready to be thrown into the corner. Planning to shoot off back out the door to do his usual; lift up rocks and inspect whatever bugs he could find, to grab sticks and imagine them as wizard staffs, to let his imagination finally run wild after hours of sitting still at a desk under too bright lights and too busy class rooms. In truth he wasn't really paying attention to the insides of the trailer, expecting it to be the same as always. It took a very pointed cough for Eddie to register that Wayne was unusually home from work, far earlier than normal, and a further loud clearing of the throat for Eddie to pay attention to what Wayne had placed on the kitchen table.
Right in the middle of the table, sitting in a beam of sunlight, was a cage and in that cage was what would soon become, Eddie's very reason for being. He crept up close, almost as if scared that any sudden movements would prove the whole thing to be a cruel illusion. He was brought out of his reverie by a pink nose wiggling at the bars, whiskers attached and twitching as the rest of the rat appeared.
'is he-? is he for real?' Eddie said with a gasp, hands inching towards the door of the cage.
Wayne had to suppress a laugh, trust this boy to be bowled over in wonder at a rat as if it were a puppy. He opened the contraption of the enclosure door and dipped his hand inside, allowing the rat to climb onto his palm. The guy from work assured him that this one was the most tame he had, inquisitive to a fault and oddly enough, desperate to be handled. Quite honestly, the perfect match for his well meaning but excitable nephew-near-enough-son.
'Yeah, yeah kid it's for real. And he's a she.' Wayne lets the rat sniff at Eddie's hands, little pink hands finding a platform on Eddie's palms, clearly holding himself a still as possible but if Wayne knew this boy, and he did, he knows that Eddie is so close to vibrating out of his skin, that containing that much excitement must be killing him.
'I don't care. Wayne, I don't! Can she sleep in my room? Does she know tricks? Can I teach her? What does she like? Can I take her to school? Please! Wayne!' He's started now, words pouring out of his mouth, tripping over himself to try and release every thought entering his brain at lightning speed.
'Woah, there' Wayne says pulling the rat up, cradling it in two hands, 'We got to be kind to her alright? She's only small. Doesn't know what loud noises are good and which are bad, okay?' He watches as Eddie nods vigorously, eyes never leaving the creature. 'Now you promised me you'd look after a pet so that's what's going to happen. She is your responsibility. That means cleaning, feeding and loving, got it?' Eddie nods again, tentatively reaching his hands up, the image of Oliver Twist springs to Wayne's mind.
Wayne comes around the kitchen table, crouches down to Eddie on creaky knees and hands the rat over, filling Eddie's small hands with a heartbeat and fur. Eddie giggles, watching as the rat surveils the new patch of skin its found itself on.
'Tickles, Wayne' and its said with such love and devotion Wayne almost feels his heart break
'Yeah son. She does, doesn't she?'
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Of course it takes less than a week and Eddie and Sam are inseparable. As soon as Eddie gets home he's itching for his furry friend, delighting in the way she scampers around the room, over his arms and anywhere she can get. No matter what though, she always comes back to him. She can be digging in to a particularly interesting crevice behind the couch but she'll always come running back when she hears Eddie make a noise.
The thing is, Eddie is a pretty lonely kid. Not for lack of trying, don't get it wrong. Eddie tries to socialise he tries to talk to the other kids in his class, get them involved in his imaginary games and play pretend but being the new kid doesn't really do him any favours. Being the new kid that lives in the trailer park and a penchant for biting to show affection does him even less.
To Eddie, its him and Sam against the world. He can come home and know that his best friend will listen to all his problems, will stay close and won't run away even when he's extra loud or being 'a lot' as his teacher like to tell him. He's so tired of being told to use his 'quiet hands', his 'inside voice' and every other subdued phrase they try to press on him.
This particular day was a hard one, Sally Winters had said that Eddie was 'bad luck' and the word quickly spread around by recess. Eddie had thought he was making some progress with a couple of kids from the class, was thinking today might be the day that he finally got asked to play but that hope quickly got squashed. He had hopped up to the potential friends with a stick in his hand and a notion of being a pirate when they both looked at him like he was a monster, they couldn't get away fast enough. And Eddie couldn't find a place to hide quick enough before the fat and heavy tears fell from his eyes.
It was a long day and home time was his only saving grace.
Wayne knows somethings up, can tell in the way that Eddie isn't even really talking to Sam, hardly looking at the Tv despite the fact that Wayne very purposefully had put the cartoon Lord of the Rings movie on. The sure fire fall back he liked to keep in his back pocket. The trump card to get his kid happy. This time though? No luck. Looking at the kid makes a chasm open up in his gut, deep and full of overwhelming sadness that he just wants to stop, wants to find the solution to make this boy smile like the sun again. They don't talk much for the rest of the night but Wayne makes sure to stay close, stay awake in case he's needed. Eddie spends the time between dinner and bed sitting on the floor, side pressed up against Wayne's leg and playing fetch with bits of Wayne's whittling with Sam, not a word said.
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Eddie wakes up the next morning with a plan and a devil may care attitude. Oh so carefully he maintains his usual routine; says good morning to Sam, carts her around the trailer as he washes his face and wanders into the kitchen, placing her in her secondary cage so she can eat breakfast with Eddie and Wayne - Eddie was adamant that they couldn't have meals without her, 'she's part of the family!' and soft hearted fool Wayne Munson agreed and an additional cage was sourced.
When breakfast is finished Eddie begins his usual rigmarole of dragging his feet to get out of his pjs and into his clothes, reluctant to grab his bag and go out the door. Same old protests as Wayne watches him walk out towards the school bus.
What is a new addition to the routine though, is Sam Munson hiding up the sleeve of a school boy and about to go on a secret and very dangerous mission. A mission to survive the school day.
Surprisingly, Eddie manages to keep Sam secret, keep her safe, the whole morning. He came prepared with snacks to make sure she was entertained and happy, he couldn't stand the thought of her being sad, her eyes get so big and her tail droops as well as her ears, it makes the whole of Eddie ache. But no, she's happy, or happy enough at least.
So the morning goes without a hitch, Eddie making noises to cover up any squeaks and keeping a hand in his pocket to reassure Sam, stowed in the pocket of his hoodie. He knows he's seen as 'weird' so what's a few extra noises? They are let out for recess and Eddie breathes a sigh of relief, thinking this is his time to let Sam out, knowing she's desperate for some fresh air. Sure, she's peed in his hoodie pocket, but he can't really tell with it's dark colour and the layer of t-shirt between the wet material and his tummy.
He runs off to his usual corner, stuck between a bush and a tree and gently tips Sam out of his pocket, she scampers around his feet and gratefully accepts a broken off bit of cracker between her hands.
'Thanks for coming with me Sam. Everyone is so mean, its so stupid. I don't care. You are a better friend than any of those losers' He crouches down, hoping to find a twig to play fetch with. A game that he delights in, is immeasurably proud of her for learning it so quickly. 'Gonna find you the best stick Sam. Promise. Best stick for the best friend'
He continues muttering to himself and doesn't notice that he's getting progressively louder after finding a twig and beginning the game. Doesn't register that he's drawn unwanted attention with his happy shouts and encouragement until a body is crashing through the shrub he's hidden himself behind.
Sam doesn't notice either until the unexpected form is right in front of her and she bolts, running as fast as her legs will carry her and Eddie is right behind her, muttering under his breath as he trips over his own feet in an attempt to catch her 'oh shit oh no oh no oh no' He's pushing himself as hard as he can but it doesn't count for much, he never was the fastest. He keeps trying though but then a faster body is accelrating past him, in a evident bee line for Sam.
Without thinking, Eddie lets out a painful 'NO!' terrified of what might happen.
He knows people think rats are dirty, thinks they don't deserve love and don't deserve life. He doesn't want to imagine what this person's intent might be. Sam reaches a dead end up against the wall of the school and the body, the boy, stops infront of her. Scoops her up? Cradles her into his chest? Eddie...Eddie doesn't know what to think, he's prepared to fight this kid but then the boy is looking up at him with curious hazel eyes. Stroking Sam's head gently and with intent.
He holds Sam out, careful with his motions, trying to blow his brown floppy hair out of his face without disturbing the animal in his hands 'is she okay? is she yours? did I hurt her? she looks okay, is she?' Eddie gingerly steps forward and plucks Sam out of the boys hands, gives hera thorough inspection as the other boy continues
'I didn't mean to scare her I swear! I didn't even know you had her! I won't tell, I swear I wont! You know...you shouldn't really have a rat in school. If I promise not to tell can I play with you? I'm Steve'
Holding her close, Eddie squints at the boy, at Steve, and thinks. Thinks about how he looks nice, about how soft his hair looks and how he asked Eddie, Eddie!, to play, that he didn't give him a wide bearth and that he held Sam with such care. It isn't even a hard decision.
They spend the rest of recess together. Eddie shows Steve just how smart Sam. That she can play fetch, that she can run across one arm to the next, over your shoulders without losing balance. That she can twitch her whiskers and it seems like she's laughing at the joke Eddie tells her. That she laughs at the joke Steve tells her! Steve learns that she's named after somebody called Samwise and it doesn't matter that he's a boy because Sam is brave just like Samwise and smart and cares just as much. That Sam is Sam and Eddie is Frodo and together they can take on the world.
Steve asks if he can have a name too and Eddie calls him Legolas, doesn't tell him why. Doesn't say that Steve reminds him of the pretty elves described in the books Wayne reads out loud to Eddie. It doesn't matter, not really.
Recess ends and they shuffle back to the school doors, both of them lagging behind the others.
Eddie steels himself, knows he has to bring his misfortune up so that he can own in, so that his new friend doesn't find out from someone else. 'I'm bad luck you know. Sally...she said it. now everyone wont talk to me. I wont be mad if you don't either. I've got Sam. We'll be oaky! So you can just go, I don't care!' He knows he's getting wound up, he can't stop himself. He just wants the bandaid ripped off so he can start feeling sad quicker, get it over with sooner.
Before he can register is, Steve is wrapped around Eddie in a flash of a hug, careful to keep his tummy away from squashing Sam.
'Not bad luck to me. See you tomorrow Frodo' Steve whispers next to Eddie's ear and shuffles through the school door.
Eddie is in a daze of joy and happiness, thoughts rumbling through his head but none of them sticking as he journey back into his class room. Pure happiness radiating out of his body, he takes Sam out of his pocket and holds her up to his face 'Sam you made my bad luck go away!' kissing her on the forehead as he hears his teacher scream
'EDWARD MUNSON IS THAT A RAT?!'
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So Wayne thought the already unpopular kid having a rat would make things worse. Turns out, he was wrong. Very, very wrong. He might have to start pocket inspections before school though.
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also on ao3 if that's the preferred reading format for you
#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie#wayne munson#stranger things#hello is this thing on? hi ummm so i didn't think i'd write again for a very long time if ever#but choco mentioned rat boy eddie and idk this sprang forth#and i KNOW okay i KNOW its rusty and not good but i finally just wrote!! i wrote because i wanted to!! and i had FUN!!! IT DIDN'T FEEL#FORCED OR PAINFUL!!!!!#anyway i am half thinking of a part 2 but who knows maybe possible maybe not#either way it is a relief to know that i can actually have fun writing and not feel like i owe something to someone!!!!#its like when i startd back in the summer of last year!!!!!#idk man its silly and these tags are silly but i had fun and creating is fun and i missed having fun WITH it#probably wont write again for a while but thats OKAY!!!!#thank you anyone who reads this and any one who has ever been nice about my silly words#choco shout out to the jestie#okay okay sorry GBYE
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*cries*
#I remember watching part 2 of Stone Ocean when it came out and seeing this for the first time all I felt was pain#UGHHH THE FAMILY FEELS STOOOPPP#jojo's bizarre adventure#jojo no kimyou na bouken#part 6#jjba part 6#stone ocean#jolyne kujo#jolyne cujoh#jotaro kujo
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oh the TGCF ad is so good it's actively upsetting skdjdkjdd
#(exhausted thumbs up covered in blood) survived volume 2#actively terrified for them to adapt volume 4#thank goodness the rest of the season is adapting volume 3#北极圈blogging#black water arc will be devastating but at least it'll be fun. I am SO excited for mr peng “has beleaguered side character on lock” yao#to give us his ming yi. mhm. yeah it's going to be SO cathartic metatextually#I've been thinking about why black water arc feels less painful than the flashback volumes beyond like the scope of the tragedy#and I think it's a lot in part due to distance#because it feels like we're watching black water arc from a distance/remove (eating popcorn) because hualian are just kinda there#observing. as one does. but the flashback volumes have no layer of remove. it's just the 杯水二人 question over and over again until you break#all things considered it was really impressive that they got volume 2 done in 6 episodes without abridging it too much#but also thank goodness they got it done in 6 episodes any longer and my nerve was going to begin to fail me
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Round 1: Fake Dating vs. Redemption Arc
Fake Dating:
quick! you need someone to pretend to be your significant other for [insert social event here]! good thing you can ask your good close friend who you definitely don't have feelings for (that was a lie)
Redemption Arc:
antagonists or villains who learn and grow and give themselves another chance at figuring out what is right <3
(yall submitted fics!)
#do i feel back for making you choose?#a bit#but to be fair i feel like there are just so many good tropes...#it would be hard to not give you painful choices#fake dating#redemption arc#fic tropes#fanfic#bracket related#round 1#round 1 part 2#poll
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#very very excited about surgery like i know in a year it wont even be an issue and ill be extra happy i did it#I've kinda gotten past the anesthesia fear and i lived thru the MRI needle in my awrm so#the IV wont be too horrendous.#so right now my biggest worry is the After....#ive seen ppl say they were mostly resting in bed for like 2 or 3 days#and after that they just had to take it easy to get around but idk. im so nervous about That Part.#+ i cant. fall asleep on my back. lol. im terrified#i rly hope im so exhausted on that first day that i jst knock out upon getting home ykwim#being too aware of pain in the body makes me feel cornered in it sometimes ykwim. like i want to jump out of it ! nervous#i rly hope it doesnt hurt too bad!!!!!!! i know ppl say it feels like sore abs after workout but idk. idk nervous#talkys#especially since i have work to do! i hate feeling lazy. i dont even take naps bc i feel like its laziness i cant be out of commission for#a couple of days. WAH.#my friend had an adjacent surgery and said she woke up in a lot of pain! they obvs administered pain management#immediately but oh god. ykwim. im scared of waking up in a lot of pain being in a lot of pain
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“I hate them.”
ARCANE S02E01 & STAR WARS: EPISODE II - ATTACK OF THE CLONES
#this one is actually insane and the worst#it made me sick#i was in shock when i heard her say those words#but cait won't reach the:#“i killed them. i killed them all. they're dead. every single one of them. and not just the men but the women and the children too” part#she can't!#anakin's one is very shocking too#but a little “easier” to understand bc we just saw how he's mother was kidnapped and tortured for nearly a month#(and all this after finally being freed from years of slavery AND being left behind when her son was freed and “taken” away)#but it's also so sad to see how in pain and full of hate he is knowing since the beginning of the trilogy where this feelings will lead him#and bc he ends the scene saying: i know i'm better than this#which can be ambiguous but#ugh#caitlyn kiramman#anakin skywalker#arcane#season 2#star wars#attack of the clones#atoc#arcane x star wars
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thank you so much for posting abt your experience with getting reduction, because it’s made it a lot less scary of a concept to me. i have a lot of paid and discomfort caused by my chest but surgery of any kind is terrifying to me- seeing your joy and honesty about your reduction gives me a lot of hope for my own future. thank you for sharing :)
I'm glad it's relieving some of your anxiety about it!!! tbh I was shot back in time knowing what I know now, I'd go into surgery again feeling a lot more confident. If I knew that the healing would be so manageable, I coulda saved myself a lot of stress LMAO
#it's impossible not to feel scared abt surgery. you're getting into a knife fight on purpose#but I'm wishing you luck and it's good to hear that reading abt my experience is easing *some* of the worry!!#I was so worried about pain and about healing right and the shape and the look and sleeping and meowmehwmewowow#I was a 2-3 on the pain scale by the end of week 1 and footloose and fancy free by the time I hit a month#I can only hope it's the same for you!!!#THE PART THAT SUCKED THE WORST OF ALL. were the two weeks pre-op that I couldn't have ibuprofen or caffeine.#hey! guess what I take for a migraine.#guess what substances.#that was probably worse than my post-op pain.#sergle answers
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reading yuwu rn and meatbun is so good with pushing the characters so their actions fully walk the line of unforgivable. they don’t get spared any mistake. they don’t get the easy way out at any juncture. you watch them make mistake after mistake that causes hurt to each other, that causes consequences, that causes the other to suffer more, and in turn you watch them suffer every consequence of their actions and you do not get to flinch from it. and all that it does require forgiveness. a lot of forgiveness. they don’t ever get the mercy of not needing the “sorry” and “thank you”.
but they love each other. and the love is in the end the only thing that makes it forgivable. makes them capable of forgiving even that. if they had loved each other less they would have made fewer mistakes and there would have been less suffering. but they did love each other and in the end that’s what made the difference. it made the difference for them.
#meatbun doesn't eat meat#rou bao bu chi rou#erha#yuwu#the husky and his white cat shizun#remnants of filth#roubao#meatbun#i have a part 2 on this coming that’s erha specific but i wanted this part to be on its own#sorry i just came off reading the fish book and it pulled its punches so severely that i was deeply frustrated#then jumping into yuwu is like getting to stretch out and FEEL#like yes. yes i can sit with this regret and shame and pain and feel those feeling#and at the end it’s not about whether you would forgive them#it’s that they forgave each other. and they love each other. and everything was about that.#can you tell i’m enjoying yuwu so far i only just started#watching mo xi not help gu mang#each day that goes by i go oh. oh. oh. each day is a regret. he does not get to spare himself any future pain.#and that is satisfying
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