#POV: you're me calling random people weird in five paragraphs. desparately hopign to convery that this is a distaste reaction and not a

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okay i’ve made posts about this before but something still is so weird to me about how people (excluding introjects, and IDK kinning so not getting into that, but would like to say I’ve seen anti-factkin people do this) use CC’s names as their own.

And when I say CCs I mean Wilbur. I’ve only seen it happen with Wilbur. And I think it’s really weird that people that are anti-factkin and pro-following boundaries would use his unique name made up for his internet persona as their own personal name.

Like, that’s weird, right? Because it literally cannot be the same as going “I really like the name Tommy, hey, Tommyinnit’s a cool guy I like, that’s a cute reference that makes me want to pick the name Tommy more.” Using the same example, going by Wilbur can ONLY be “OMG I LOVE Tommyinnit he’s my favorite CC I really want to be just like him I’m going to name myself Tommy just like Tommyinnit” because it’s not a generic name; it’s a name unique to him. Like, I’m not weird for finding that weird, right? I mean, that’s a very high level of investment paired with a very low level of self awareness (toxic parasociality??).

Like. I’m fcking parasocial about Wilbur Soot. I’ll openly admit that. I think he’s a cool guy in the way that I want to be like him. However, I’m VERY aware that I am but a number to him and that there are thousands of people that feel the exact same way as me. It’s not like my internet handles are original — my main is a direct reference to My Chemical Romance, though I suppose a band is slightly different than a person — but when it comes down it, imaging myself with a [xx]Soot username (much less going by “wilbur” but that gets into funky gender and name stuff for me) is just. Weird. It seems immature to me. In need to taking a step back and being my own person.

I guess that’s it, at the end of the day. I don’t know the ages of any of these people, but most of them are probably younger and just caught up in the idol complexes that youths have, misguided interpretations of admiration: I thought I wanted to marry an older kid I admired, you want to be the adult that you admire. It’s going “I can relate to him in some ways and want to be like him in others. Clearly the best expression of this is using his objectively nice name.”

I still find it fcking weird though. Especially people who are against even c!shipping. Like, you do realize that this could be uncomfortable to him too? Maybe you could make the argument that since it’s his internet name he probably doesn’t feel too connected to it? That just seems to be further proof of over-investment in something not real to me (and, y’know. assuming boundaries). Just because it hasn’t been brought up doesn’t mean it’s not a possibility. If I were a CC, I would absolutely be uncomfortable with people naming themselves after me (rather than as a reference to me, re: the Tommy example. a reference is about the user, not the referenced. invented names can’t be merely referenced because they’re unique creations with no other context). I know this isn’t universally true: Taesung Tao constantly tells people to name themselves Tae. But doing it without encouragement or even confirmation that it’s okay seem really weird to me.