#PLSSSS i just love tension sm

[snowstark]

This has been done to death i know BUT I'm a sucker for it - thoughts on Tony working on Bucky's arm

this one will always be a fav headcanon of mine dear god i'll never get enough of it also fuck civil war that never happened in my universe, this blog is a massive the-avengers-all-live-together-yay vibes zone.

They're both idiots.

No, really, they are. Bucky starts to have some arm problems in the middle of the week, at 9:33 AM on a sunny Wednesday. It's not like he's being stupid on purpose, though. At least, he wasn't, at first. He just really doesn't know what to do. It isn't anything special, just phantom pains. Or something. It'd scared him the first time, but now he's just used to it.

Tony notices Bucky wincing in pain during breakfast, lunch, and dinner. He makes it a point to ask Steve to ask Bucky to pass him the mashed potatoes, or to ask Clint to ask Nat to ask Bucky whether he could set the table for dinner (and he can't lie, it's kind of a funny, endearing sight to see none other than the Winter Soldier setting the dinner table for the Avengers). Anyway, that's not the point. The point is, Bucky grimaces every time he moves, and Tony notices. Obviously, he's gotta do something about it.

Tony's not sure whether no one else cares, or if they're all just too dense to notice (probably the latter). He almost wishes that other people would notice, because, well, he and Bucky, they're not exactly on the best of terms. The guy did murder his parents, after all.

But Tony can't just sit there and watch someone in pain. He knows how that feels—to be watched and have them do nothing about it. His hand creeps up to the arc reactor in his chest unconsciously, tapping absentmindedly until he catches Natasha staring. He quickly drops his hand and excuses himself to the lab after that.

It goes on for another week. Tony can't help but feel pent-up energy bubbling in his gut. Why can't the stupid arm fix itself? Oh, right, because it's a shitty arm that HYDRA gave the guy to make him a murder weapon, an asset to their operation. And Tony's just sitting here and letting him be in pain.

He can't take it anymore. He sends everyone who might interfere (Steve, Clint, Natasha, Thor, Bruce... yeah, everyone who might interfere meaning all of them) out to get shawarma for dinner and directs JARVIS to guide Bucky down to his lab.

And when Bucky enters the lab, he feels faint. A bit light-headed. He's not sure whether that's from fear or anger or just nerves.

Bucky's face is stony and expressionless. It's a bit too similar to the Winter Soldier for Tony's liking, and he has to tell himself that appearances aren't everything. He still has a heart, doesn't he?

So, taking a deep breath, he says, "C'mere," and gestures to the seat. Bucky doesn't move. Tony frowns. Bucky doesn't move. And then Tony realizes what's wrong. He doesn't really know what happened, doesn't really know what Bucky went through, but he was told enough to know that chairs that looked like this brought up bad, bad memories— "That's okay. Um, you wanna sit on my stool instead?" He pulls out his stool as he speaks.

Bucky moves.

When Bucky sits, his hands are twitching into little fists, even the metal one, despite the pain that he has to be feeling at the actions. Tony pretends not to see it. He doesn't like his scars, and no one points it out, so he gets it. He knows what not to say.

He doesn't end up talking at all, really. He helps fix Bucky's arm, and the man sits still and quiet, just like Tony expected him to.

Tony lets him go after figuring out the problem with the wiring. The moment Bucky leaves, he begins to pull up a scan of the arm and work on a new, better arm. It should feel weird, that he's making a new arm, quite possibly a weapon, for someone who murdered his mom, but he doesn't... it doesn't feel weird. This is what Tony does. Tony tinkers. Tony fixes. Tony creates. Tony helps.

The next time Bucky finds his arm hurting, he goes down to Tony's lab by himself. It nearly scares Tony shitless, because the guy didn't even turn the lights on while he waited on the stool, but he tries not to show it.

He tries for a light, easy chit-chat this time. A conversation. "So, how're you feeling?" "Do you have a favourite colour?" "Do you like cats? You seem like a cat person."

Bucky answers. "Good." "Green." "I like cats."

It's progress.

Tony continues to works on the new arm design. He wants it to be good. He takes his time.

Bucky comes down to see him again. He turns the lights on this time. He even plays some classical music, which isn't really Tony's thing, but he figures Bucky wouldn't really want loud AC/DC music playing. He knows that the smallest of things like certain sounds can be a trigger.

Chopin's Nocturne op.9 no.2 floats through the air gently as Tony tinkers away at Bucky's arm. And before Bucky can leave this time, he shows him the new design, nervously.

Bucky stares. And keeps staring. Tony wonders if he made a mistake, until Bucky says, slowly, voice low and raspy in a way that sends shivers down Tony's spine, but not from fear, "This is for me?"

Tony tries to keep it casual. He doesn't want Bucky to feel like he owes him anything. He knows the guy also feels terrible about the whole I murdered your parents while I was brainwashed thing. He can suck it up. For Bucky. "Yeah, big guy," he says, even nudging him lightly. Bucky stiffens, and then leans into the touch, which makes Tony's mouth go dry with shock and—and fondness. He's like... a big teddy bear. Wouldn't even hurt a fly. Yeah, Tony's pretty sure Bucky Barnes is scared of bugs. Hastily, he adds, "It's not—it's not completed, or anything, but I just wanted to show you because it wouldn't be such a hassle like the one you have right now. Um, nanotech, and it won't be such a heavy clunky thing—"

Bucky's arms fly towards him, cutting him off, and pull him into a hug. A big teddy bear hug.

Tony freezes, stiff from shock, before he melts into it. Cautiously, he wraps his arm around Bucky. He smells good, like wood and leather.

"Thank you." Bucky's voice comes out raspy again, and this time, there's emotion in it—a lot of it. "Thank you."

"I've gotcha," Tony assures, because he does. This is nothing, it's all easy stuff, to design an arm for Bucky, because Tony cares. It's not a big deal.

But to Bucky, it is.

Touch-starved, he clings onto Tony harder, tighter, until Tony eventually says, "You wanna watch me design it? You can tell me what you think as we go, even."

Bucky finally pulls back and nods. "Yeah," he says, softly. "Yeah, okay." And he sits on his stool.

Tony works, and Bucky watches.

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[fockinglevendcliche]

Hi🥰 I’m coming here too, to send you a very incoherent ask bc I just finished reading Eastwood Liberty ALSKSJSJ I loved it so much I mean hopefully you get that from my comment but OMG it made me feel so many things that I can’t describe ahhhh also I have a confession🙈 id started reading chapter 1 around when you first posted it I think but I did get caught up with courses and other stuff so like I’d been wanting to read it forever and I’d just heard so many good things about it and when you followed me I fangirled a little (a lot) and just ALSJDJDJSJJ 🙈🙈🙈 but no really I loved Eastwood a lot and I can’t wait for the next chapter bc their development is just brilliant and I just LOVE the slowburn bc that’s my ish😎 and just the ✨tension✨ when Sander went “we pay to be here” and Robbe went “fuck you” PLSSSS IM sksjdjbd and then Sander went all soft on him like “don’t put too much pressure on yourself” PLS I’m dead haha oki sorry I’ll stop rambling now but I loved it so much and I can’t wait for the next chapter! 🥺🥰🥰🥰💕💕

hi!! (again asghjkl) ☺️ i've read this one first ngl dghsghsgs and i had to go and read the comment first before answering it!! i know i said this in the other comment, but that's actually a good thing, those 5 months without updating... yep asghjkl "I'd just heard so many good things about it" I'MMM this makes me so happy that there's actually people enjoying it!! fangirled JDGDJDH PLS you're so sweettt, i may have done the same (as in: i definitely did the same!!) and you can't see it dgshdg but i'm smiling a lot reading this!! i was so torn about that "we pay to be here" tbh, i wanted sander to come off "hard" at first but without making him irremediable, but then again, i live for angst so why not?? dghsfghs robbe is a confused little being, but sander makes his mind even more messier (and he absolutely loves it), and i can't wait to finally have robbe breaking down all of sander's barriers and making him give in!! thank youuu sm (for both messages!!) 💛💛

[starrysamu]

I feel bad for him. But also, are chem classes that awkward? Is it the same for orher stem classes? How do they survive???? Omg Kenma!!! Is he famous? Does he do twitch/youtube along with teaching? Sfsjgdksv WTFF IS THiS TeNsION!!! The engine and the honey and the name and the ughhhh just Kuroo in all his glory!! Ok all the chem references in here is "!!!!" Plssss they're still agsjsvjsjdgxkd What was the emphasis on remember? what even went down??? I wanna know so badly!! Really excited abt it!

ackkkkk my stem classes were SOOOO bad like nobody would wanna answer the questions. esp the big lectures it was so bad my professor would beg someone to answer. thinking about it gives me whiplash 

AND AHSHJS IDK BUT UR GIVING ME IDEAS THAT’S FOR SURE ..... SIDE PLOT IS KENMA’S A FAMOUS STREAMER AND NO ONE KNOWS IT 

ugh i need to work on my chem references it’s been a damn min since i took a chem class i won’t lie. (also me, writes this with chemistry in mind CTFUUU) 

and AHHH THANK U SM FOR READING IT!!! I’M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT!!! I HOPE U LIKE THE NEW CHAPTER I LOVE WRITING THINGS LIKE I’M PEELING AN ONION 

[chanluster]

Same anon who was 👁👄👁 at the start of the library scene.... Just got to the end of it. FOR FUCKS SAKE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. i was so 😮 and 😃 about figuring it out so early. i mean relatively. But oh how could I have been so foolish. This is tasty dumbass angst that I love and crave but oh that doesn't stop from internally yelling for 8k words or however much is left.

"It was utter agony" SO STOP DOING IT YOU CLOWN. not even chan trying to be nice and saying you're not a clown can save you now 🔪

'For you he would do anything' fuck 😭😭😭😭 I'm trying not to include too many quotes or spoilers but HHHHHHHHHHH

This entire thing with Seungmin is amazing. I fucking adore him omg 😁😁😁😁

I didn't think there could be that much tension in some socks. Talent, truly.

"You thought this was it" 👁👄👁 honey. You got a big storm coming 😵

"He was ready" HEARTBREAKING PARAGRAPH YOU WITCH HOW DARE YOU. "HE WAS LUCKY" THEN YOU MAKE MY HEART GROW AND PUT IT ALL BACK TOGETHER AGAIN. TF.

I was not planning to finish this tonight but I needed a hardcore Distraction™ and when my brain wasn't fighting me it worked. Perhaps I'll be reading another fic of yours tonight. Who knows~~~~

SCR R E AM READINF THIS MADE ME LAUGH AND MELT SM STOP TIT T T T T T

pls chan saying we’re not clowns but im writing literally a novel’s worth of smut and ur reading it 💔💔💔 mama were degens 💔💔

SOCKS 💀💀💀 SHUT UPPPP NEVEE WRITING ABOUT STOCKINGS AGAIN BUT THANK U💨💨💨

plssss I’m glad I could be a distraction to you !! and don’t you worry at all reading this was more than enough ☹️☹️☹️☹️❤️❤️❤️