#PLS I WANNA WRITE THEM ALL UGHHHHHHH

[osarina]

HI CAINA PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS OMG IK I SHUD BE STUDYING RN BUT I WASNT ABLE TO STOP THINKING ABT IT N SO I READ IT AND I HAVE NO REGRETSSSSS !!!

PLS FIRST OFF the second scene ARE U KIDDING ME??? IT WAS SO INTIMATE N LOVEY N I WAS BLUSHING SO HARD I HADTA GET UP A MILLION TIMES BC I WAS SO FLUSTERED HELPPPPPP BUT AUGH I WILL ALWAYS LOVE THE WAY U WRITE DAZAI HES SO AUGHGGJGRFFDRVVJRBV

second of all THE ENDING OH MY GOD PLS i have some ideas for what might happen N IF SOMETHING SIMILAR HAPPENS I WILL SCREAM AJFERNVJRFNJVNREJG i still cant believe theres only 2 parts left q^q IT FEELS LIKE U RELEASED THE FIRST PART OF BADLANDS LIKE A WEEK AGO PLS I SO EXCITED FOR THE ENDING BUT AT THE SAME TIME IK I WILL CRY CARINA !!

(also btw: i was listening to 'too sweet' by hozier N IT REMINDS ME OF UR FIC SMMMMM)

REDDDDDDD I'M SO TERRIBLE IM SORRY IT LITERALLY TOOK ME AGES TO RESPOND TO THIS FINALS KILLED ME but i have arisen from the dead and now im BACK did u have finals???? whatever u were studying for i hope it went well!!!

UGHHHHHHH THE SCENE WHERE HE WAS HELPING HER GET DRESSED I WAS LITERALLY YEARNING SO HARD AS I WROTE IT like no joke ur girl was pouting and kicking my feet and i had to keep taking breaks to curl up in bed cuz i was yearningggggg for that man LOLLLLL he makse me so embarassing

NO BECAUSE TRULLYYYYYY i can't believe im writing the last chapter of it right now it makes me so sad actually i don't wanna leave behind waterloo universe </333 its my baby for real

TOO SWEET IS SOOOOO PERFECT FOR THEM UGH I LOVE HOZIER

[fraemlingg]

im just gonna freestyle this text so this is not gonna be very thought through or whatever but literally i am so incredibly sick of social media i am sooo sick of that ugly AI slop everywhere and algorithms and ads and everything being designed to keep us glued to our screens no matter the consequences

i am sick of monetarisation i am sick of posting my art online literally begging for people to like my posts in hopes of being able to make at least a lil money with my art one day it feels like im selling myself out and its so fucking far from authentic like im a tattoo artist and so i follow a bunch of other tattoo artists and although they all have such amazing unique styles everything feels so performative and i KNOW that every single one of them feels the same and its so fucking sad that we cant really do anything about it

and im not trying to sound pretentious but i?? kinda hate meme culture?? it pisses me off?? can we not have normal inside jokes anymore why are 10 people sending me funny little posts even though they know i will not look at them (and like rlly truly no offense bc i know they do it bc they love me and think of me and i love them for it and i appreciate it in one way or another im not being judgy rn thats not my point). i want to write letters not dms but i feel like if i were to say that i might be called "cringe" which yknow is a concern i already expressed in another post and might be a me-problem but as ethel cain said it so fantastically nothing is taken seriously anymore and i hugely blame social media and meme culture

and like pls keep enjoying ur memes im again not judging just speaking from my subjective experience and that experience is that it caused me brainrot im not sure i'll ever be able to fix and that SUUUUCKS dude we all got dragged into phone addiction without a fucking choice and it will just get worse and worse and worse

i watched LuvstarKeis youtube video on why you should make a website and i think they (i looked everywhere for their pronouns sry if i got it wrong ;w;) have such good points i rlly enjoy their youtube videos in general. so yea in the long run i think im gonna create a website (or two to separate tattoos n music), post it to instagram with a statement, and then im gonna "leave instagram". putting that in "" bc im gonna keep my instagram but only so people can dm me for appointments or other things bc i dont wanna give out my telegram and people these days are too damn lazy to write a single email (even dj bookers lol it pisses me off a bit like what do i have this mail for then). like why are people using AI to write emails pls make it stop sometimes we have to do things that are inconvenient and that is actually a GOOD thing my fucking god, same thing goes for physical media like dvds nd such like fuck streaming services but thats another topic for another day

im probably gonna keep posting on my priv instagram just bc like. theres so many photos on there from so many years ago that would probably be lost if i deleted that account nd like i go on there like every 3 months or so to dump my photos there and then i log off so whatever. i am mostly pissed off about sharing art on social media and feeling so unauthentic about it and being glued to my phone when i could do so many other much better things liKE UGHHHHHHH

i think dead internet theory is scary and depressing but lowkey i hope the internet is actually dying bc i am so sick of this internet society. i am so goddamn sick of everyone being addicted to their phones. remember when we had a life like?????? how did we end up like this

i also wanna get a flipphone one day but yea i gotta plan that shit

i just needed to vent i could probably go on for ages about this but imma choose to shut the fuck up now